It is kind of insane to me that this channel, your art, and I guess by extension you have been a constant in my life for almost a decade at this point. Thanks for being you for all these years.
@@savbrown I used one of your videos for my channel. The video is called ,,NF Types be like". Here, I saw you said ,,Infp bs" ☺️ Thank you for the inspiration ✨💞
Likewise. Even though you've deleted many of your older videos, they live in my mind. I know I started following you (on my old account) around 2012, the same year I started following Hannah Witton, Lucy Moon, Dodie, and many others. (I love re-watching those colabs). I'm 39 now, and think it's wonderful to see how everyone has grown.
That's exactly how I've been feeling. While I can't offer any amazing words of wisdom, I would say nature seems to help me. The most important thing is though, you aren't alone in the way you feel.
The way I said many of those exact sentences the other day.. about being devoid of stories, feeling like an observant alien, Occam’s razor & autism, but also how much began to change at 25. Now at 28, life is so colorful and full of stories. It happened so subtly that the shift only registers in hindsight. Still probably autistic & part alien, but more seems to fall into place. Always look forward to your content, especially all the ‘feel’ words 🖤
I'm not lying when I say that I audibly gasped when I saw she uploaded. Sav, it's hard to explain how much you make me feel understood. You make me feel unafraid to express myself through poetry. Thank you for existing.
I resonate, I was just watching this and telling a friend, I feel so understood and like I understand someone (even in a loose kind of way, just in way of speaking and thinking) when Sav posts :’)
I love the absolute level of shyness involved in that sentence, it was like a blink and you’ll miss it kind of admission. I relate so hard, it’s like I’ll try everything in my power to say it without actually saying it.
"I was so devoid of inner personal experiences in the past, that I didn't have any stories... now i feel like a lot of things are happening to me when I go outside." "It's difficult to be an effective observer in a situation where you feel self-conscious." I feel like these two are so intrinsically linked as statements. It wasn't too long ago that I would be walking around everywhere desperately trying to be unseen, hooded, long bangs and just generally unable to make conversation even with shopkeepers and the like. And I'm sure interesting things did happen to me then although at the time all I could think about was "That was stupid, why the hell would I do that?" or be worried about other minutiae like the strange dance you enter with a stranger when you are heading in opposite directions and both keep trying to move out of one another's way only to block one another again. It's just part of the human experience to me, we are doomed to forever have near-misses in the 'real human connection' department but in the end that's what makes the relationships that get close to that so special. Only recently have I found someone that I genuinely think somehow goes through, what I have been told over and over, are trains of thought that are alien to everyone other than me and it has been really eye-opening. Relationships are the moon constantly hanging over you mysteriously and people are shooting stars who keep passing you by unless you both consciously try to reach out to one another and truly try to understand each other and even then I can't truly believe I've connected with someone unless they voice that first... Human brains are silly little things and we just keep chasing our own tails on repeat. Anyway, what all that rambling is meant to mean is I'm pleasantly surprised that I'm not a goofy alien in this specific faucet of my life. Thank you :3
Not to mention, finding a person like that, being told by all of your friends that the feelings you're voicing sound clearly romantic and then spending many long night walks after having seen her trying to puzzle out whether they're right or whether that little voice in the back of your head saying "Well you're not jealous of other guys she spends time with", among other things, is actually the truth. And so I've thought myself in circles until I came to the conclusion that this is probably what platonic love feels like? Even though when posed with the question "Would you date her?" I would answer "Sure, why not?". I've thought myself to a point where more thinking leads me to a conclusion of 'platonic love' with a side of do I really need to put it into words or is it just okay for me to feel the nuances of this situation and just let it go. Learning to let go of that dogmatic need to put things into clear terms that my past scientific background instilled in me has been perhaps the most freeing and peaceful experience in my life. TL;DR Science is boring, trying to figure out how people and relationships and all that juicy stuff works definitely is the world's greatest mystery. The holistic approach of art and soul > the diminutive and soulless cold of the scientific method.
I don't often cry because of media (i am impenetrable emotionally), but I'm weeping now. I've followed you closely since Skinny Girls Bleed Flowers, and I began writing poetry as a direct result of your work. I'm turning 19 in a few days, studying creative writing at uni and have spent the entirety of this year exploring the possibility of being autistic. I'm on a waitlist to be diagnosed (have been for ~7 months, thank you being AFAB and needing a specialist). I'm sending stuff to a publisher who expressed interest in me. I don't know exactly what to say, other than thank you. ever since I was 12 you've been a beacon for me, the sort of Virgin Mary of potential success I needed as an autistic, bullied, angry kid. my new life goal is to be published by Doomsday and, in a gross parasocial way, to make you as proud of me as I am of you. yuck!!
As a 28 year old who at 26 also finally realized what "chapters of a life" are like and also always felt kind of removed from life till I started having experiences of my own that became stories of my own that made it easier to look at the different seasons I've had so far, I can honestly say it's a really great moment and that's cool she's had that. RUclips threw this channel at me like a month after the last video came out and I watched some of the backlog, I genuinely look forward to what videos come next.
This video made me cry. Not sure why, although I guess I am - you talking about the acknowledgement of autism as an adult, which I went through recently, really struck me - but these videos have felt so cozy to me and been such a source of growth and comfort. It feels like sitting down with an old friend. Also so excited about Doomsday Press; just finished putting together my first poetry collection and I was gonna default to Amazon self publishing lol, but I look forward to first perhaps tossing it Doomsday’s way. Sending you lots of love re: no interpersonal relationships. Been there. Growing towards more, as humans do. Good luck in the void!
I'm actually so in love with the vibes of this channel, I'm glad Savannah's back, I've missed watching her videos at midnight while manically writing poetry with a cup of coffee next to me :)
So many of these are things that I've said before: "We create stories", "I feel like an alien sent to observe people to figure out how they act" (Although for me that was said with the kind of existential angst only a terrified 7 year old can experience) Anyway, I resonate deeply with this video and your larger body of work (When I was 18 or 19 I would listen to your videos on repeat almost every night), very excited to see it back and looking forward to more things. Good stuff
SAV! over a year ago i discovered i’m autistic and it was the best, worst, most clarifying, most complex thing. i started to realize everyone i follow online (and everyone i get along with irl) is also likely autistic AND YOU were one of the first ones i suspected!!! i feel such joy for u, for both of us.
Literally yesterday was like "I wonder what Sav's been up to", I'd like to imagine I manifested this upload :P this last year I've also come to understand I have something like adhd or autism (which overlap heavily), realizing it and accepting it has been so amazing for me. Autism in women-like folk is so underdiagnosed and misunderstood. Doesn't surprise me to hear you're on the same path, always felt a nice parasocial kinship there 😁
Your videos have been, as terrifying (and parasocial perhaps) this is to admit, a lifeline for me for a while in a pretty rough time in my life. I know that we don't know each other and likely never will, but your words and delivery of the words give me...something close to hope. Ressurance, maybe. So, thank you for creating your art.
It's so strange but comforting hearing someone speak what are essentially my thoughts to me. It's usually just my mind's whirlwind, so knowing another person has a similar chaos of feelings and thoughts going on is calming. It's also curiously eerie how similar your experiences are to mine, though i'm sure the inner machinations are drastically different. But then again, that's exactly why I subscribed. Also, I've been sinking my claws into writing recently, and self-publishing is the way I want to go too, but I'll keep an eye on Doomsday, if I ever fight off my procrastination and finish up what I'm working on.
it’s so incredibly reassuring to you mention asd-the forming connections video was the first time i heard someone speak a lot of those feelings. that was seriously the first step in me self-diagnosing-your ability to articulate stories & feelings helped me find words of my own and im so much better for it. thank you💛
There's something oh so tragic about knowing someone like you exists and yet we'll probably never be able to talk over some beers, oh well. Glad to see you back. Keep being you, please
We’re the same age and I don’t go on RUclips often anymore but it’s really nice to check in this way, kind of how adult friends do now that they’re so far away and busy all the time. Sending you love and just, thank you for sharing your existence with us, it resonates for so many and so many relate 💕
this was such a delicious teaser trailer sav! felt like getting a small update from a friend living abroad who you haven't seen in ages, very insightful and intimate in a comforting way to be reminded how their mind works again and like an honour be chosen out of all their friends to hear a few thoughts they deem to be most important to put into a quick update. so excited for the new era and ofc for more sav poetry (feb 14th as a release date has me whipped i love ur brain)
i’m 26 as well (very nearly 27) and this past year has, like… truly felt like the end of something (YOUTH⁉️) and like i’m beginning this next part of my life as someone Else - but someone i know so much better!! so unsettling and peaceful at the same time anyway v glad to have you back ! just in time for introspective girl autumn wow
I’m 26 too and It’s so relieving to know there’s more people at the same age going through similar situations. Life has been hell the past few years but I’m trying to hold on.
Hey - I was listening to it while working and somewhere around minute 8 you said that you didn't have enough stories. I'm turning 25 and the past year that has been a repeating thought. I talked about with some people but had never heard someone else vocalize it. That and some other things you said, feeling like an observer, coming out of a relationship confused as hell, really clicked with me and, in some roundabout way, motivated me. Thank you for uploading this and best of luck with your tour :)
I love the feeling of superposition I get from Sav's videos, like we're engaging with multiple tangentially related thoughts and emotions simultaneously. It feels exactly how my brain seems to work, and in this context it makes for a really cool vibe. Also, it makes Sav (or at least the version of Sav in these videos) shockingly, almost disturbingly relatable. It kinda feels like Sav speaks with the most eloquent version of the voice in my head (metaphorically speaking)... which is equal parts comforting, relatable, and uncanny.
Your willingness to volunteer how you have managed through your path in life - through the Forest - really helps others see the actual Forest and not just the trees. This is what artists are best at doing - exploring the Unknown and expressing the connection and experience with it. Although that “Unknown” may have become known by many generations before us, some of it cannot be known without being experienced - without being felt. Artists connect humanity together and that is not an overstatement. Continue to be you. You are a beautiful soul.
No matter how long you’re gone from this platform, I experience much the same joy and interpersonal/intellectual connection (parasocial relationship much?) that I always have in the past. It’s comforting. Thanks. ✌🏻
I'm on the autism spectrum. The concepts you talk about in your videos and poetry, and the way to talk about them, have always really spoken to me in a way very few have. Your perspective and thoughts are so valuable.
I'm new here , and I'm not on the autism spectrum cuz it would have been discovered by now I think? haha, and even if ? that's not true? there's no need to try and make up a diagnosis unless it's impeding yer life in some way, and it's not haha, everything was fine .... until others bent the laws of the universe and I became a unpaid known person haha, but I wouldn't rule out a unwarranted made up diagnosis though lol! ... but yes Im new here , and I LIKE........
@@chaosdweller Made up diagnosis? Autism is a neurological disorder of the brain, the same area as strokes. And it's absolutely hell to live with because unlike mental illnesses, it can't be cured through medication and therapy, although they can help alleviate the symptoms.
it's insane how u always post at the perfect time. just when i am yearning more than ever before to feel understood, to have the way i look at the world at least validated, and when i'm already trying to seek that solace within myself through my art and writing. just when it all gets a little too much to sort through and like it could never be expressed, u sum up much of my experiences in under 10 mins! checking off all the "buzzwords" in my brain for weeks! thank u for sharing ur perspective, and ur art, from a fellow autistic person trying to navigate life and relating to others. ur books and ur channel have been an indispensable little sanctuary to return to for some gentle healing and pleasant self awareness over my teens and now into my twenties.
I can't explain why I enjoy watching these videos so much....maybe it's just knowing that you'd be able to explain it perfectly and impressively....yup that's it, I'm just jealous of your communication skills.
I feel like I'm not saying anything new here, but Sav, you have made such an impact on my life ever since I found your videos and poetry when I was 14 years old. I'm 22 now and I recently was assaulted, and prior, I always listened to your videos over and over again whenever I was overwhelmed with anxiety and life, and, so, yes, this video is such a gift. I am so, so glad you are here in this life.
the part about having stories to tell really struck a special chord with me so thank u for putting into words the feeling of wanting things to happen to you when you go outside, it felt reassuring in a strange comforting way :o)
Videos just as frequent as the major version updates should be. This girl just lays down, rambles about all at once for around 10 minutes and you cannot not want more. I wonder what the I'm 27 release is going to sound and look like. I hope you'll stay inspired to continue to inspire us. As you always do (and you never fail because you can't).
Dark Souls boss music in a Savannah Brown video is a very nice collision of worlds I was not expecting! Glad you're back - I'm not sure why but it feels very cool to watch these as you're learning and finding and doing while everyone else is too! Hope all is well to you and everyone in the comments as well
i rlly relate to what ur saying about the 'tism,, like when i got diagnosed it felt like i had been wearing the wrong prescription glassess my whole life and i could finally start to understand why things always looked so different to me. glad ur back sav, excited to see u on tour !
For a very long time, since I was a wee little kid I drew these little robots, and eventually, I started to notice that those robots were me - and how for all those years I felt like a robot in a sea of humans or a human in a sea of robots. It feels the same to me, my life feels like it is just becoming more and more filled with little stories, to share, treasure, and hold. Thank you for always making me so excited to see you. ✨✨
The ending the vid omg, my JAW DROPPED. The way the audio shifted and the image got further away; it felt lik we were watching a video from the past. An increasingly older memory. It just suddenly hit me again that the way I'm sitting in bed now will one day be a far memory. All my thoughts and struggles now will simply be an old story to tell. And it's all happening over and over again, in every generation
Please take this first line gently: I used to avoid you at all costs. I saw something there that I didn't understand. You were the embodiment of everything I had been trying my whole life to be. Speaking my same words, somehow better. Either out of envy, or curiosity, the thought of your videos came to me a few months ago. I watched every single one. I feel like we are somehow, strangely connected in experience and vision. I rejected it at first because I didn't want to believe I wasn't the only me. This video has affirmed it all. I was going to self-publish..... but I suppose now I will take the leap to submit my first poetry collection to Doomsday Press. Thanks for everything.
How the ability to observe (appreciate) improves together with the decrease of insecurities about oneself is something I have noticed as well recently. Also how much more I've landed in my body, and how much of a tool the body can be, in order to land and observe, and be. Pretty amazing. Daily meditation is the best possible therapy for me now (after completing actual therapy)
Anytime I've shared your work and videos with others it is always followed by "She puts to words the things that my brain wishes it could." - thank you for being you, but more importantly for taking care of you and focusing on yourself. Happy you're back, more happy that you're moving forward, and if this ended up being the last thing you ever posted then I'm happy to have experienced what I have from your work!
The generational communication gap has an explanation (at least in the West). Post WWII young people were encouraged to leave home at 18 (as their parents did when they went off to war). Post WWII, the economy allowed for this. Prior to that, people lived at home and took over duties as the older generation took a back seat. They all lived and grew together. The older generation evolved as the young generation learned more about the world and how it’s changing. Now we move out and forget how to communicate with our elders. The elders dig their heels in because they’re not having their views challenged by a live-in young person. We barely speak the same language anymore.
To know that others feel (or have felt) like aliens in this world is strangely comforting, but also bittersweet, because maybe if we could all meet, we'd feel less alone, misunderstood, and misplaced.
I don't know if this is equivalent to a parasocial relationship, but seeing your video on my YT homepage completely and suddenlty changed the momentum of my day. My brain just stopped... doing the usual... to me... stuff, and I... started feeling, thinking differently. I don't feel pressure from the outside wolrd, I don't need an excuse to stop and think about random stuff, I can just sit here, and it's amazing. I'm glad to see that other people have this weird positive feeling from your vids. It is hard to explain and my words won't come close, but whatever it is you created, I've yet to find another person who can... make me feel the same way this does. I watch a bunch of stuff, sometimes out of boredom, sometimes there's an interesting theme, but this fulfills a different emotional need I honestly didn't know I had. It's like I'm okay being myself, and I feel like doing what I enjoy. It's cozy in here. Thank you, for providing this space for not just me but many others. Feels weird writing that out into a public comment section, especially since my young brain doesn't know what the consequences will be, and I'm slightly afraid. I hope my thoughts hastily clumped together into words made sense.
I'm currently sitting on a lovely bench on a Greek Island, so I will save the video for later, but boy am I excited for all of your uploads. Your thoughts and words are the most touching thing I have ever experienced on this platform. Thank you.
You're one of my favorite creators/authors/people ever. You make me feel both understood and hopeful. I've been following since 2015 and I'll keep following till the earth crumbles
the joy of a new release turning into an overwhelming sadness caused by the thought that we most likely will never meet>> please, keep being true to yourself and while you're at it, buy some nice flowers or something to celebrate life!!
Welcome back!! I relate to the stories thing at the end so much and I think of it as a sign that I'm finally in the right place with the right people for this chapter of my life and I hope you feel that it's a good thing too :)
You put these very specific feelings into words and it makes me feel so satisfied everytime, it's like hanging out with a friend and smiling on the way home because you just feel so understood and connected!!
As a writer who is kind of also just coming out of a strange, almost dissociative chapter of my life, it's (weirdly) comforting to know I'm not alone in feeling these sorts of things. Reinvention - or restarting, in some ways - is often a wonderful moment to exist within, so I'm pleased to see you back and ready to roll again. Albeit a slightly altered roll. Hoping to get down to one of your shows, also! Congrats on those, Doomsday and the new collection
thank you for your art. You're some years older than me and your content makes me feel like thrashing my way through life isn't the worst thing in the world. the passage of time is a glorious thing and your solemn words in ambient lighting makes me feel like shit will be okay even if it is gonna sting the whole way
This is a kind of artistic expression that is so important in the human cultural narrative. The internet is still so young, this is the first time in history that this kind of thing is possible. It's so cool to see these time capsules of human experience. This is how it felt to be human in this moment of time. They should send this up on the next Voyager golden record.
In the times we live in, it’s more than possible to live a numerous amount of different lives. If you’re good enough of keeping things to yourself, you won’t have to be boxed into playing that version of yourself as it’s what others have come to know you for. Living anonymous in all the things you want to pursue is probably one of the best things (just in my opinion) because then it’s easier to open and close one door without pre-conceived notions from others who were in a previous circle to you. So you’re more or less free in a sense to just not worry or overthink too much about your next move if you can find a way like that.
It's so weird that I stumbled upon your channel again after not seeing you for years. I remember when you first resurfaced after you cut your hair, and seeing your personality change and flourish was really liberating to me in my formative years. I was just thinking about you a couple weeks ago, and now you're all of a sudden in my recommended. Glad to see you still make videos sometimes!
You always make me reflect on my life. I was thinking a couple of days ago after waking up. Why can't I get up and start my day happy. Why do I always feel miserable and unfulfilled. I shouldn't be unhappy. I'm at a good place in my life. I have more things that a lot of people in my position don't have. A house that's paid for, a car and a lot of other junk. Why can't I be happy. I was going out to dinner a few months ago on my first day off that week. I was so greatful that my week was over and I was off. I just wanted to relax and have a nice meal. But as I was eating, I caught myself thinking. Well this socks what am I going to do next. Even though I was thoroughly enjoying my meal. I couldn't just be in that moment and just be happy for what I had. I'm always doing that. Even when I'm having fun I think what's next. I wish I could have someone I could share my life. Well mostly to be apart of her life. I don't have a life. Not that another person could make me happy. Could be my end all and be all. Would they be enough for me. I don't know?
Man I felt that last message on so many levels. I feel like I am experiencing a story like moment everytime I go outside now too which is nice. It makes me feel more present even if I am doing the same things everyday. Cherish small interactions with the world.
You've made me think about how the most fulfilling moments in my life were when I was an observer, and not obsessed with my own, existence. I just was.
I swear sometimes your videos are like a mirror that reflects existential angst. Occasionally I procrastinate watching due to the discomfort that can come from looking in that mirror, but I'm always glad when I do watch, because it's validating and you articulate said angst in more interesting ways than I.
Dude! I literally just finished writing about your work and how inspiring you are in my blog like minutes before you posted this! What are the odds of that?! So glad you're back!!!
How is it possible that u post the one night,after so so many nights of me not feeling this numb,empty and with no hope for anything,to comfort me again in a way few people and things do.we'll probably never meet or even see each other,but ur content has been there for me when ive needed smth/smn to lift me up from a place i cant lift myself up from So thank u
i'm turning 23 and so much is changing and i've kind of lost myself. i remembered that savannah is quite stimulating, as "sleep" put it in comment around here somewhere. just so happened you had a new, day-old video, which done did stimulated me alright. also your videos are just comfortable in the mind, thanks
I am so glad you posted! Every word you speak just hits home? I love hearing you talk and listening to your ideas.. they feel very familiar. Also I wrote a little poem this morning that I feel now seems to fit the overall vibe of the video.. I am not participating, not engaging! I am just watching, looking, yearning from the other side, I cannot cross the barrier I cannot reach the other side. Things and people die and I may never see the other side. Sound gets lost and I cannot ever reach the other side. I am only me and nothing else and everybody else is on the other side. Yet I cannot ever reach the other side. Never have and never will. Sometimes I dream of being there with them.
I didn’t even find out about you until a few years ago, by the time when new videos were really sparse and I had to just dive in the backlog to get to know you honestly I haven’t even watched all that much of your stuff, but when I saw this pop up on my feed I literally gasped and stopped what I was doing so I could listen in, haha I love how you express yourself. Really a joy to listen to, you 😊
The "forming real human connections" video was the video i found you by, and also the video that I showed people to be like "this, that's me, thats what I'm dealing with and how I feel" and then when you made that tik tok, it was shortly after my own diagnosis and I was like "IT ALL MAKES SENSE" So thank you for giving me a tool to explain to people what it felt like before I knew why I always felt that way
"a hint of the tism" that's a pretty good way to describe it. I never got the resolution that comes with an actual diagnosis, but people have suspected it in the past and it lead up to me being tism tested. Turns out I'm not actually tistic, at least not according to tism testers. Also, Jake Chudnow
I don't know why it is, but every time you make a video, your way with words and existentialism just hit the right note for me. I've always written poetry but never enough to make a book or to really make something from it, but you just inspire me to continue to write just a few more lines in hopes that one day people will read it and say "This is what I needed to read" Much love and excited to see what future videos you have in store!
Honestly, I don't comment very often on any videos, I'm not even sure when the last one was that I did... but I have to say, I discovered your videos in about February of.. I think 2020, maybe 2021 but either way, they resonated with me deeply, and I uh... couldn't stop watching them, and occasionally watched them over again on especially bad days. I recently just picked up reading and have begun to question why I hadn't sooner, and I just finished The Truth About Keeping Secrets, and I thought it was really good... not really sure where I was going with that... but I guess maybe just.. thank you for helping me find a new hobby, and I guess maybe helping me think better, I don't know.
So I went camping a couple of months ago, and while I was packing, I decided to put a book or two in my bag. “Why not?” I thought. “Signal will be a bit spotty, and I’d rather not end up bored out of my mind.” So I threw *The Things We Don’t See* into my bag, and set off. Without a doubt, the best decision I have ever made. I inhaled that book like I was back at high school, sat in a corner of a library so open-plan it made me anxious, listening to the rain beat the windows and the shouts of kids in their teens playing outside, and being surprised when the librarian said I should be getting to class because I was so wrapped up in a fictional world, I didn’t hear the bell. I’ve been struggling with actually *sitting down and reading* lately (not to mention *sitting down and writing* which is sort of a problem for a writer), and reading *The Things We Don’t See* broke those walls down. Or, at least, chipped them a bit. So thank you. You were one of the people who first ignited my passion for writing, and you’ve reignited it now.
This is the weirdest thing. Over a year ago, I saw your last video before this one, and enjoyed it but didn't think anymore of it at the time and since you didn't post anything, I forgot about you. Until 10 minutes ago when I thought of your channel and started trying to find it based on my vague memory of that video, only to find out that you did in fact post a new video today. INCREDIBLE
As a fellow 26 year old. You’re right there at the local maximum of happiness and curiosity. I hear it gets better, buuuuuut you have keep your mind open and not be mentally lazy by shutting things down too quickly. This is the first video I’ve seen of you and you do a really good job of eluding empathy and connection to your audience. But you probably practiced how you gaze at people. It’s a learnable skill. I wish your channel and consciousness much success and happiness
I discovered your channel by a random recommendation of your last video when it first dropped. I immediately got drawn-in by your vibe, articulation and voice and digging further I found out you were an author. I looked up your works and bought your two novels without hesitation. I finally finished the second one yesterday, and today I was looking if you had released a new book since then. That was also the moment realised I hadn't seen you in a long time. It made me smile to see you posted again yesterday and that it's the first one after the video I found you and your books with. Made me think it wasn't a coincidence
there's a massive bubble of joy welling up in my chest because thank god, you just absolutely. fucking. get it. on another note, this video pairs quite nicely with some edible zaza~
"I think I have a hint of the tism" I just found you and watched your video about autism and boy did you guess correct lol. That one resonated a lot with me. I love your work. I don't usually like poetry but your stuff makes me cry on a constant basis.
I can't believe it's been more than 6 years since I found one of your videos. You have come so far, I'm proud of you and everything you have achieved, and most importantly, you have always been true to yourself. It's good to see you doing well, Savannah
i've always admired your work and related to your worldview so deeply, so it was very comforting to discover (in the midst of my own autism centric self discovery) that my favourite poet was going through that same journey. love your work, glad to have you back in the youtube sphere
You truly are an enigmatic and ethereal presence. I randomly stumbled upon your channel about 10 years ago. And everytime you release something I'm impressed and inspired. Keep making cool shit. I hope someday you stumble upon my work and be impressed and inspired
I've been feeling devoid of myself lately, lisetening to you is always grounding and helps me reconnect and think more clearly, which is crazy, so thanks
It’s wonderful to have another video from you! I remember years ago watching “forming human connections” along with some of your older videos as long as six years ago. I remember realizing that I didn’t usually hear people thinking about the questions I was so focused on and whenever you posted a new video it always made me feel a bit less alone in how my brain worked. I’ve been on a similar journey the past few years, and finally got diagnosed with autism and adhd a few months back and it’s had such an impact on how I see my entire life. Thank you for your videos, your books, and escapril, they all made me feel less lonely while I was trying to figure out who I am and why.
I keep having to go back on your videos cause you always say something that sends my brain into a tangential hurricane, and I lose the next half hour in thought. Both infuriating and inspiring. Thankyou.
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It is kind of insane to me that this channel, your art, and I guess by extension you have been a constant in my life for almost a decade at this point. Thanks for being you for all these years.
truly bizarre. thanks for being here for all of it. i hope i'm still getting these comments when i'm an old old man
I'm in the same boat lol I've been watching/reading/etc. Savannah since I was in middle school (I think?) and I'm almost 25 now
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I used one of your videos for my channel.
The video is called ,,NF Types be like". Here, I saw you said ,,Infp bs" ☺️
Thank you for the inspiration ✨💞
Likewise. Even though you've deleted many of your older videos, they live in my mind. I know I started following you (on my old account) around 2012, the same year I started following Hannah Witton, Lucy Moon, Dodie, and many others. (I love re-watching those colabs). I'm 39 now, and think it's wonderful to see how everyone has grown.
same here, even tho i dont remember her super clearly. i just know this
"I can feel life happening" is something I strive to feel. Life seems so stagnant recently, I want out.
I feel you there. The haze can get strong. I’m here for you buddy, it’s worth it to keep pushing through the fog.
That's exactly how I've been feeling. While I can't offer any amazing words of wisdom, I would say nature seems to help me. The most important thing is though, you aren't alone in the way you feel.
The way I said many of those exact sentences the other day.. about being devoid of stories, feeling like an observant alien, Occam’s razor & autism, but also how much began to change at 25. Now at 28, life is so colorful and full of stories. It happened so subtly that the shift only registers in hindsight. Still probably autistic & part alien, but more seems to fall into place. Always look forward to your content, especially all the ‘feel’ words 🖤
I’m 21 and hopeful then
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ack! I'm 25 about to turn 26 and I feel the shift too. I'm not really sure they're falling in place or apart yet though
then 30 hits and ur all depressed again 🤣
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I'm not lying when I say that I audibly gasped when I saw she uploaded. Sav, it's hard to explain how much you make me feel understood. You make me feel unafraid to express myself through poetry. Thank you for existing.
I resonate, I was just watching this and telling a friend, I feel so understood and like I understand someone (even in a loose kind of way, just in way of speaking and thinking) when Sav posts :’)
5:23 It doesn't get much better than a good old hint of the 'tism
I love the absolute level of shyness involved in that sentence, it was like a blink and you’ll miss it kind of admission.
I relate so hard, it’s like I’ll try everything in my power to say it without actually saying it.
WHEN THE WORLD NEEDED HER MOST, SHE RETURNED.
Hi swiftie
She's alive and as stimulating as ever !! I'm glad you're back!
putting 'stimulating' in my dating app bio
@@savbrown you should I'm sure enlightened people will find that like super sexy
@Savannah Brown right swipe hacks
@@savbrown LMao
What was stimulating? She’s just being self important whole time
"I was so devoid of inner personal experiences in the past, that I didn't have any stories... now i feel like a lot of things are happening to me when I go outside."
"It's difficult to be an effective observer in a situation where you feel self-conscious."
I feel like these two are so intrinsically linked as statements. It wasn't too long ago that I would be walking around everywhere desperately trying to be unseen, hooded, long bangs and just generally unable to make conversation even with shopkeepers and the like. And I'm sure interesting things did happen to me then although at the time all I could think about was "That was stupid, why the hell would I do that?" or be worried about other minutiae like the strange dance you enter with a stranger when you are heading in opposite directions and both keep trying to move out of one another's way only to block one another again.
It's just part of the human experience to me, we are doomed to forever have near-misses in the 'real human connection' department but in the end that's what makes the relationships that get close to that so special. Only recently have I found someone that I genuinely think somehow goes through, what I have been told over and over, are trains of thought that are alien to everyone other than me and it has been really eye-opening.
Relationships are the moon constantly hanging over you mysteriously and people are shooting stars who keep passing you by unless you both consciously try to reach out to one another and truly try to understand each other and even then I can't truly believe I've connected with someone unless they voice that first...
Human brains are silly little things and we just keep chasing our own tails on repeat.
Anyway, what all that rambling is meant to mean is I'm pleasantly surprised that I'm not a goofy alien in this specific faucet of my life. Thank you :3
Not to mention, finding a person like that, being told by all of your friends that the feelings you're voicing sound clearly romantic and then spending many long night walks after having seen her trying to puzzle out whether they're right or whether that little voice in the back of your head saying "Well you're not jealous of other guys she spends time with", among other things, is actually the truth.
And so I've thought myself in circles until I came to the conclusion that this is probably what platonic love feels like? Even though when posed with the question "Would you date her?" I would answer "Sure, why not?".
I've thought myself to a point where more thinking leads me to a conclusion of 'platonic love' with a side of do I really need to put it into words or is it just okay for me to feel the nuances of this situation and just let it go.
Learning to let go of that dogmatic need to put things into clear terms that my past scientific background instilled in me has been perhaps the most freeing and peaceful experience in my life.
TL;DR
Science is boring, trying to figure out how people and relationships and all that juicy stuff works definitely is the world's greatest mystery.
The holistic approach of art and soul > the diminutive and soulless cold of the scientific method.
I wish i could like this more than once
I don't often cry because of media (i am impenetrable emotionally), but I'm weeping now. I've followed you closely since Skinny Girls Bleed Flowers, and I began writing poetry as a direct result of your work. I'm turning 19 in a few days, studying creative writing at uni and have spent the entirety of this year exploring the possibility of being autistic. I'm on a waitlist to be diagnosed (have been for ~7 months, thank you being AFAB and needing a specialist). I'm sending stuff to a publisher who expressed interest in me. I don't know exactly what to say, other than thank you. ever since I was 12 you've been a beacon for me, the sort of Virgin Mary of potential success I needed as an autistic, bullied, angry kid. my new life goal is to be published by Doomsday and, in a gross parasocial way, to make you as proud of me as I am of you. yuck!!
Thank you for sharing
Literally, my favorite corner of the Internet. So excited for your next life-chapter and work, Savannah!
This woman has more quotable moments in a single video than others have their entire career.
As a 28 year old who at 26 also finally realized what "chapters of a life" are like and also always felt kind of removed from life till I started having experiences of my own that became stories of my own that made it easier to look at the different seasons I've had so far, I can honestly say it's a really great moment and that's cool she's had that. RUclips threw this channel at me like a month after the last video came out and I watched some of the backlog, I genuinely look forward to what videos come next.
This video made me cry. Not sure why, although I guess I am - you talking about the acknowledgement of autism as an adult, which I went through recently, really struck me - but these videos have felt so cozy to me and been such a source of growth and comfort. It feels like sitting down with an old friend.
Also so excited about Doomsday Press; just finished putting together my first poetry collection and I was gonna default to Amazon self publishing lol, but I look forward to first perhaps tossing it Doomsday’s way.
Sending you lots of love re: no interpersonal relationships. Been there. Growing towards more, as humans do. Good luck in the void!
I’ve been thin..😪mann me too
"When will you write something we can show your grandma" dad asking the hard-hitting questions 😂
I'm actually so in love with the vibes of this channel, I'm glad Savannah's back, I've missed watching her videos at midnight while manically writing poetry with a cup of coffee next to me :)
So many of these are things that I've said before: "We create stories", "I feel like an alien sent to observe people to figure out how they act" (Although for me that was said with the kind of existential angst only a terrified 7 year old can experience) Anyway, I resonate deeply with this video and your larger body of work (When I was 18 or 19 I would listen to your videos on repeat almost every night), very excited to see it back and looking forward to more things. Good stuff
SAV!
over a year ago i discovered i’m autistic and it was the best, worst, most clarifying, most complex thing. i started to realize everyone i follow online (and everyone i get along with irl) is also likely autistic AND YOU were one of the first ones i suspected!!!
i feel such joy for u, for both of us.
This is one corner of the internet i’ll always enjoy and feel safe in, so thank u. looking forward to what comes next and glad ur doing well
Literally yesterday was like "I wonder what Sav's been up to", I'd like to imagine I manifested this upload :P this last year I've also come to understand I have something like adhd or autism (which overlap heavily), realizing it and accepting it has been so amazing for me. Autism in women-like folk is so underdiagnosed and misunderstood. Doesn't surprise me to hear you're on the same path, always felt a nice parasocial kinship there 😁
Your videos have been, as terrifying (and parasocial perhaps) this is to admit, a lifeline for me for a while in a pretty rough time in my life. I know that we don't know each other and likely never will, but your words and delivery of the words give me...something close to hope. Ressurance, maybe. So, thank you for creating your art.
It's so strange but comforting hearing someone speak what are essentially my thoughts to me. It's usually just my mind's whirlwind, so knowing another person has a similar chaos of feelings and thoughts going on is calming. It's also curiously eerie how similar your experiences are to mine, though i'm sure the inner machinations are drastically different. But then again, that's exactly why I subscribed.
Also, I've been sinking my claws into writing recently, and self-publishing is the way I want to go too, but I'll keep an eye on Doomsday, if I ever fight off my procrastination and finish up what I'm working on.
it’s so incredibly reassuring to you mention asd-the forming connections video was the first time i heard someone speak a lot of those feelings. that was seriously the first step in me self-diagnosing-your ability to articulate stories & feelings helped me find words of my own and im so much better for it. thank you💛
There's something oh so tragic about knowing someone like you exists and yet we'll probably never be able to talk over some beers, oh well. Glad to see you back. Keep being you, please
We’re the same age and I don’t go on RUclips often anymore but it’s really nice to check in this way, kind of how adult friends do now that they’re so far away and busy all the time. Sending you love and just, thank you for sharing your existence with us, it resonates for so many and so many relate 💕
Sav, you look gorgeous, this new hairstyle suits you so well! I’m honored to have sweetdark on my shelf
thank you!!! living my alice cullen dreams
this was such a delicious teaser trailer sav! felt like getting a small update from a friend living abroad who you haven't seen in ages, very insightful and intimate in a comforting way to be reminded how their mind works again and like an honour be chosen out of all their friends to hear a few thoughts they deem to be most important to put into a quick update. so excited for the new era and ofc for more sav poetry (feb 14th as a release date has me whipped i love ur brain)
i’m 26 as well (very nearly 27) and this past year has, like… truly felt like the end of something (YOUTH⁉️) and like i’m beginning this next part of my life as someone Else - but someone i know so much better!! so unsettling and peaceful at the same time
anyway v glad to have you back ! just in time for introspective girl autumn wow
I’m 26 too and It’s so relieving to know there’s more people at the same age going through similar situations. Life has been hell the past few years but I’m trying to hold on.
Hey - I was listening to it while working and somewhere around minute 8 you said that you didn't have enough stories. I'm turning 25 and the past year that has been a repeating thought. I talked about with some people but had never heard someone else vocalize it. That and some other things you said, feeling like an observer, coming out of a relationship confused as hell, really clicked with me and, in some roundabout way, motivated me. Thank you for uploading this and best of luck with your tour :)
I always appreciate how effectively untangled your thoughts are and yet they all connect like a web of correlated ideas. Nice
I love the feeling of superposition I get from Sav's videos, like we're engaging with multiple tangentially related thoughts and emotions simultaneously. It feels exactly how my brain seems to work, and in this context it makes for a really cool vibe. Also, it makes Sav (or at least the version of Sav in these videos) shockingly, almost disturbingly relatable. It kinda feels like Sav speaks with the most eloquent version of the voice in my head (metaphorically speaking)... which is equal parts comforting, relatable, and uncanny.
Your willingness to volunteer how you have managed through your path in life - through the Forest - really helps others see the actual Forest and not just the trees. This is what artists are best at doing - exploring the Unknown and expressing the connection and experience with it. Although that “Unknown” may have become known by many generations before us, some of it cannot be known without being experienced - without being felt. Artists connect humanity together and that is not an overstatement.
Continue to be you. You are a beautiful soul.
No matter how long you’re gone from this platform, I experience much the same joy and interpersonal/intellectual connection (parasocial relationship much?) that I always have in the past. It’s comforting. Thanks. ✌🏻
I'm on the autism spectrum. The concepts you talk about in your videos and poetry, and the way to talk about them, have always really spoken to me in a way very few have. Your perspective and thoughts are so valuable.
I'm new here , and I'm not on the autism spectrum cuz it would have been discovered by now I think? haha, and even if ? that's not true? there's no need to try and make up a diagnosis unless it's impeding yer life in some way, and it's not haha, everything was fine .... until others bent the laws of the universe and I became a unpaid known person haha, but I wouldn't rule out a unwarranted made up diagnosis though lol! ... but yes Im new here , and I LIKE........
@@chaosdweller Made up diagnosis? Autism is a neurological disorder of the brain, the same area as strokes. And it's absolutely hell to live with because unlike mental illnesses, it can't be cured through medication and therapy, although they can help alleviate the symptoms.
it's insane how u always post at the perfect time. just when i am yearning more than ever before to feel understood, to have the way i look at the world at least validated, and when i'm already trying to seek that solace within myself through my art and writing. just when it all gets a little too much to sort through and like it could never be expressed, u sum up much of my experiences in under 10 mins! checking off all the "buzzwords" in my brain for weeks! thank u for sharing ur perspective, and ur art, from a fellow autistic person trying to navigate life and relating to others. ur books and ur channel have been an indispensable little sanctuary to return to for some gentle healing and pleasant self awareness over my teens and now into my twenties.
I can't explain why I enjoy watching these videos so much....maybe it's just knowing that you'd be able to explain it perfectly and impressively....yup that's it, I'm just jealous of your communication skills.
I feel like I'm not saying anything new here, but Sav, you have made such an impact on my life ever since I found your videos and poetry when I was 14 years old. I'm 22 now and I recently was assaulted, and prior, I always listened to your videos over and over again whenever I was overwhelmed with anxiety and life, and, so, yes, this video is such a gift. I am so, so glad you are here in this life.
Thanks for the conversation. You’ve been a mirror for my own thoughts. Now I can see myself clearer.
I never thought a well spoken, funny Internet lass would inspire me to write again. Thank ye.
the part about having stories to tell really struck a special chord with me so thank u for putting into words the feeling of wanting things to happen to you when you go outside, it felt reassuring in a strange comforting way :o)
Videos just as frequent as the major version updates should be. This girl just lays down, rambles about all at once for around 10 minutes and you cannot not want more. I wonder what the I'm 27 release is going to sound and look like.
I hope you'll stay inspired to continue to inspire us. As you always do (and you never fail because you can't).
Dark Souls boss music in a Savannah Brown video is a very nice collision of worlds I was not expecting! Glad you're back - I'm not sure why but it feels very cool to watch these as you're learning and finding and doing while everyone else is too! Hope all is well to you and everyone in the comments as well
Every new video is like a new era, and I am deeply obsessed with each one
Yeah I'm new here , kinda wish that wasn't so haha, this is different , and it's neat.
i rlly relate to what ur saying about the 'tism,, like when i got diagnosed it felt like i had been wearing the wrong prescription glassess my whole life and i could finally start to understand why things always looked so different to me. glad ur back sav, excited to see u on tour !
For a very long time, since I was a wee little kid I drew these little robots, and eventually, I started to notice that those robots were me - and how for all those years I felt like a robot in a sea of humans or a human in a sea of robots. It feels the same to me, my life feels like it is just becoming more and more filled with little stories, to share, treasure, and hold. Thank you for always making me so excited to see you. ✨✨
You look more satisfied and you're smiling a lot more in your videos...I'm glad you're back but I'm even more glad that you've been doing good
The ending the vid omg, my JAW DROPPED. The way the audio shifted and the image got further away; it felt lik we were watching a video from the past. An increasingly older memory. It just suddenly hit me again that the way I'm sitting in bed now will one day be a far memory. All my thoughts and struggles now will simply be an old story to tell. And it's all happening over and over again, in every generation
Please take this first line gently:
I used to avoid you at all costs. I saw something there that I didn't understand. You were the embodiment of everything I had been trying my whole life to be. Speaking my same words, somehow better. Either out of envy, or curiosity, the thought of your videos came to me a few months ago. I watched every single one. I feel like we are somehow, strangely connected in experience and vision. I rejected it at first because I didn't want to believe I wasn't the only me. This video has affirmed it all. I was going to self-publish..... but I suppose now I will take the leap to submit my first poetry collection to Doomsday Press. Thanks for everything.
Oh my gosh, you're an INFP too! That's comforting af. Always comforting to find more of us out there thriving.
How the ability to observe (appreciate) improves together with the decrease of insecurities about oneself is something I have noticed as well recently. Also how much more I've landed in my body, and how much of a tool the body can be, in order to land and observe, and be. Pretty amazing.
Daily meditation is the best possible therapy for me now (after completing actual therapy)
It's been way too long. Finally she's back
She's only back to promote her book, press, and other business. Not that that's bad, just acknowledging it.
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@@rajanarora94 🤔
I just found her haha , glad ! I did !
Anytime I've shared your work and videos with others it is always followed by "She puts to words the things that my brain wishes it could." - thank you for being you, but more importantly for taking care of you and focusing on yourself.
Happy you're back, more happy that you're moving forward, and if this ended up being the last thing you ever posted then I'm happy to have experienced what I have from your work!
The generational communication gap has an explanation (at least in the West). Post WWII young people were encouraged to leave home at 18 (as their parents did when they went off to war). Post WWII, the economy allowed for this. Prior to that, people lived at home and took over duties as the older generation took a back seat. They all lived and grew together. The older generation evolved as the young generation learned more about the world and how it’s changing. Now we move out and forget how to communicate with our elders. The elders dig their heels in because they’re not having their views challenged by a live-in young person. We barely speak the same language anymore.
To know that others feel (or have felt) like aliens in this world is strangely comforting, but also bittersweet, because maybe if we could all meet, we'd feel less alone, misunderstood, and misplaced.
I don't know if this is equivalent to a parasocial relationship, but seeing your video on my YT homepage completely and suddenlty changed the momentum of my day. My brain just stopped... doing the usual... to me... stuff, and I... started feeling, thinking differently. I don't feel pressure from the outside wolrd, I don't need an excuse to stop and think about random stuff, I can just sit here, and it's amazing. I'm glad to see that other people have this weird positive feeling from your vids. It is hard to explain and my words won't come close, but whatever it is you created, I've yet to find another person who can... make me feel the same way this does. I watch a bunch of stuff, sometimes out of boredom, sometimes there's an interesting theme, but this fulfills a different emotional need I honestly didn't know I had. It's like I'm okay being myself, and I feel like doing what I enjoy. It's cozy in here. Thank you, for providing this space for not just me but many others.
Feels weird writing that out into a public comment section, especially since my young brain doesn't know what the consequences will be, and I'm slightly afraid.
I hope my thoughts hastily clumped together into words made sense.
Drops vid, announces poetry, announces publishing label, does elaborate.
Great return announcements, see y'all in 2 years guys!
say that to the video i have on deck DEAD-OWL!!! see you then DEAD-OWL!!!
@@savbrown well looking forward to the video and the book then!
I'm currently sitting on a lovely bench on a Greek Island, so I will save the video for later, but boy am I excited for all of your uploads. Your thoughts and words are the most touching thing I have ever experienced on this platform. Thank you.
You're one of my favorite creators/authors/people ever. You make me feel both understood and hopeful. I've been following since 2015 and I'll keep following till the earth crumbles
!!!! so amazing. all my love
the joy of a new release turning into an overwhelming sadness caused by the thought that we most likely will never meet>>
please, keep being true to yourself and while you're at it, buy some nice flowers or something to celebrate life!!
Welcome back!! I relate to the stories thing at the end so much and I think of it as a sign that I'm finally in the right place with the right people for this chapter of my life and I hope you feel that it's a good thing too :)
You put these very specific feelings into words and it makes me feel so satisfied everytime, it's like hanging out with a friend and smiling on the way home because you just feel so understood and connected!!
As a writer who is kind of also just coming out of a strange, almost dissociative chapter of my life, it's (weirdly) comforting to know I'm not alone in feeling these sorts of things. Reinvention - or restarting, in some ways - is often a wonderful moment to exist within, so I'm pleased to see you back and ready to roll again. Albeit a slightly altered roll.
Hoping to get down to one of your shows, also! Congrats on those, Doomsday and the new collection
thank you for your art. You're some years older than me and your content makes me feel like thrashing my way through life isn't the worst thing in the world. the passage of time is a glorious thing and your solemn words in ambient lighting makes me feel like shit will be okay even if it is gonna sting the whole way
This is a kind of artistic expression that is so important in the human cultural narrative. The internet is still so young, this is the first time in history that this kind of thing is possible. It's so cool to see these time capsules of human experience. This is how it felt to be human in this moment of time. They should send this up on the next Voyager golden record.
In the times we live in, it’s more than possible to live a numerous amount of different lives. If you’re good enough of keeping things to yourself, you won’t have to be boxed into playing that version of yourself as it’s what others have come to know you for.
Living anonymous in all the things you want to pursue is probably one of the best things (just in my opinion) because then it’s easier to open and close one door without pre-conceived notions from others who were in a previous circle to you. So you’re more or less free in a sense to just not worry or overthink too much about your next move if you can find a way like that.
For those who felt a deep pang of sadness when the audio clip played at 2:33 but weren't sure why, that's the score for Great Grey Wolf Sif
It's so weird that I stumbled upon your channel again after not seeing you for years. I remember when you first resurfaced after you cut your hair, and seeing your personality change and flourish was really liberating to me in my formative years. I was just thinking about you a couple weeks ago, and now you're all of a sudden in my recommended. Glad to see you still make videos sometimes!
You always make me reflect on my life. I was thinking a couple of days ago after waking up. Why can't I get up and start my day happy. Why do I always feel miserable and unfulfilled. I shouldn't be unhappy. I'm at a good place in my life. I have more things that a lot of people in my position don't have. A house that's paid for, a car and a lot of other junk. Why can't I be happy. I was going out to dinner a few months ago on my first day off that week. I was so greatful that my week was over and I was off. I just wanted to relax and have a nice meal. But as I was eating, I caught myself thinking. Well this socks what am I going to do next. Even though I was thoroughly enjoying my meal. I couldn't just be in that moment and just be happy for what I had. I'm always doing that. Even when I'm having fun I think what's next. I wish I could have someone I could share my life. Well mostly to be apart of her life. I don't have a life. Not that another person could make me happy. Could be my end all and be all. Would they be enough for me. I don't know?
Man I felt that last message on so many levels. I feel like I am experiencing a story like moment everytime I go outside now too which is nice. It makes me feel more present even if I am doing the same things everyday. Cherish small interactions with the world.
I can't explain the relief I felt wash over me when I saw the notification that you uploaded. Thank you so much for existing.
You have been inspiring me since I was 13. Thank you love for being such a joy to look up to. You make me excited about my 20s.
You've made me think about how the most fulfilling moments in my life were when I was an observer, and not obsessed with my own, existence. I just was.
"Love haunts me the same way, as the moon haunts me" savpocalypse
watching again
I swear sometimes your videos are like a mirror that reflects existential angst. Occasionally I procrastinate watching due to the discomfort that can come from looking in that mirror, but I'm always glad when I do watch, because it's validating and you articulate said angst in more interesting ways than I.
Dude! I literally just finished writing about your work and how inspiring you are in my blog like minutes before you posted this!
What are the odds of that?!
So glad you're back!!!
Sav you should know every video you make has me going "shes just like me fr fr" for the entire duration
So glad the pre-orders are signed. It'll go with the rest of my signed collection by you.
How is it possible that u post the one night,after so so many nights of me not feeling this numb,empty and with no hope for anything,to comfort me again in a way few people and things do.we'll probably never meet or even see each other,but ur content has been there for me when ive needed smth/smn to lift me up from a place i cant lift myself up from
So thank u
i'm turning 23 and so much is changing and i've kind of lost myself. i remembered that savannah is quite stimulating, as "sleep" put it in comment around here somewhere. just so happened you had a new, day-old video, which done did stimulated me alright.
also your videos are
just comfortable in the mind, thanks
I am so glad you posted! Every word you speak just hits home? I love hearing you talk and listening to your ideas.. they feel very familiar.
Also I wrote a little poem this morning that I feel now seems to fit the overall vibe of the video..
I am not participating, not engaging!
I am just watching, looking, yearning from the other side,
I cannot cross the barrier
I cannot reach the other side. Things and people die and I may never see the other side.
Sound gets lost and I cannot ever reach the other side.
I am only me and nothing else and everybody else is on the other side.
Yet I cannot ever reach the other side.
Never have and never will.
Sometimes I dream of being there with them.
I didn’t even find out about you until a few years ago, by the time when new videos were really sparse and I had to just dive in the backlog to get to know you
honestly I haven’t even watched all that much of your stuff, but when I saw this pop up on my feed I literally gasped and stopped what I was doing so I could listen in, haha
I love how you express yourself. Really a joy to listen to, you 😊
The "forming real human connections" video was the video i found you by, and also the video that I showed people to be like "this, that's me, thats what I'm dealing with and how I feel" and then when you made that tik tok, it was shortly after my own diagnosis and I was like "IT ALL MAKES SENSE"
So thank you for giving me a tool to explain to people what it felt like before I knew why I always felt that way
"a hint of the tism" that's a pretty good way to describe it. I never got the resolution that comes with an actual diagnosis, but people have suspected it in the past and it lead up to me being tism tested. Turns out I'm not actually tistic, at least not according to tism testers. Also, Jake Chudnow
I don't know why it is, but every time you make a video, your way with words and existentialism just hit the right note for me. I've always written poetry but never enough to make a book or to really make something from it, but you just inspire me to continue to write just a few more lines in hopes that one day people will read it and say "This is what I needed to read" Much love and excited to see what future videos you have in store!
I like how your videos will just pop up randomly, like a haunting memory of a shared online experience
Honestly, I don't comment very often on any videos, I'm not even sure when the last one was that I did... but I have to say, I discovered your videos in about February of.. I think 2020, maybe 2021 but either way, they resonated with me deeply, and I uh... couldn't stop watching them, and occasionally watched them over again on especially bad days. I recently just picked up reading and have begun to question why I hadn't sooner, and I just finished The Truth About Keeping Secrets, and I thought it was really good... not really sure where I was going with that... but I guess maybe just.. thank you for helping me find a new hobby, and I guess maybe helping me think better, I don't know.
So I went camping a couple of months ago, and while I was packing, I decided to put a book or two in my bag. “Why not?” I thought. “Signal will be a bit spotty, and I’d rather not end up bored out of my mind.” So I threw *The Things We Don’t See* into my bag, and set off. Without a doubt, the best decision I have ever made.
I inhaled that book like I was back at high school, sat in a corner of a library so open-plan it made me anxious, listening to the rain beat the windows and the shouts of kids in their teens playing outside, and being surprised when the librarian said I should be getting to class because I was so wrapped up in a fictional world, I didn’t hear the bell.
I’ve been struggling with actually *sitting down and reading* lately (not to mention *sitting down and writing* which is sort of a problem for a writer), and reading *The Things We Don’t See* broke those walls down. Or, at least, chipped them a bit.
So thank you. You were one of the people who first ignited my passion for writing, and you’ve reignited it now.
oh this is wonderful. thank you
This is the weirdest thing. Over a year ago, I saw your last video before this one, and enjoyed it but didn't think anymore of it at the time and since you didn't post anything, I forgot about you. Until 10 minutes ago when I thought of your channel and started trying to find it based on my vague memory of that video, only to find out that you did in fact post a new video today. INCREDIBLE
As a fellow 26 year old. You’re right there at the local maximum of happiness and curiosity. I hear it gets better, buuuuuut you have keep your mind open and not be mentally lazy by shutting things down too quickly. This is the first video I’ve seen of you and you do a really good job of eluding empathy and connection to your audience. But you probably practiced how you gaze at people. It’s a learnable skill. I wish your channel and consciousness much success and happiness
I discovered your channel by a random recommendation of your last video when it first dropped. I immediately got drawn-in by your vibe, articulation and voice and digging further I found out you were an author. I looked up your works and bought your two novels without hesitation.
I finally finished the second one yesterday, and today I was looking if you had released a new book since then. That was also the moment realised I hadn't seen you in a long time. It made me smile to see you posted again yesterday and that it's the first one after the video I found you and your books with.
Made me think it wasn't a coincidence
whenever sav brown drops a video I just go damn....people like you are what makes the absurdity of it all worthwhile.
there's a massive bubble of joy welling up in my chest because thank god, you just absolutely. fucking. get it.
on another note, this video pairs quite nicely with some edible zaza~
"I think I have a hint of the tism" I just found you and watched your video about autism and boy did you guess correct lol. That one resonated a lot with me. I love your work. I don't usually like poetry but your stuff makes me cry on a constant basis.
I can't believe it's been more than 6 years since I found one of your videos. You have come so far, I'm proud of you and everything you have achieved, and most importantly, you have always been true to yourself. It's good to see you doing well, Savannah
i love this channel i just like the idea of having a break and talking about all the things
our girl is back!! shiit, i'm so happy you're here once again. thank you for existing.
i've always admired your work and related to your worldview so deeply, so it was very comforting to discover (in the midst of my own autism centric self discovery) that my favourite poet was going through that same journey. love your work, glad to have you back in the youtube sphere
You truly are an enigmatic and ethereal presence. I randomly stumbled upon your channel about 10 years ago. And everytime you release something I'm impressed and inspired. Keep making cool shit. I hope someday you stumble upon my work and be impressed and inspired
I've been feeling devoid of myself lately, lisetening to you is always grounding and helps me reconnect and think more clearly, which is crazy, so thanks
It’s wonderful to have another video from you! I remember years ago watching “forming human connections” along with some of your older videos as long as six years ago. I remember realizing that I didn’t usually hear people thinking about the questions I was so focused on and whenever you posted a new video it always made me feel a bit less alone in how my brain worked. I’ve been on a similar journey the past few years, and finally got diagnosed with autism and adhd a few months back and it’s had such an impact on how I see my entire life. Thank you for your videos, your books, and escapril, they all made me feel less lonely while I was trying to figure out who I am and why.
this really made me realise all of the things I've been missing by being so self conscious. so beautifully put, thank you.
I keep having to go back on your videos cause you always say something that sends my brain into a tangential hurricane, and I lose the next half hour in thought. Both infuriating and inspiring. Thankyou.