welcome back sister. there's nothing wrong with being a masculine woman- I feel like that is a truth that has been lost in the shuffle. Have fun with your youtube channel and do whatever you want. Don't feel like you have to stick to any one topic if you don't want. People like you for you and they'll watch you watch paint dry if that's what you're doing. You're a stunning woman and the world is truly your oyster.
Wow J you never cease to amaze me with your growth. I’ve always looked up to you. I wanna cry tears of joy for you. You’re such a bright person you light up any room you walk in! I’m so proud of you! Now you get to see and walk the world through your true self. You’re an amazing inspiration to all and I wish you nothing but happiness moving forward. I know we’re not as close as we used to be but I’m still here. I too have some work to do on myself and have been throughout the years. Reach out anytime. Keep smiling !
i was on testosterone for 5.5 years and underwent a double mastectomy. trying to be okay with the mistakes that were made is the hardest thing i’ve ever done. you’re doing amazing. sending so much love to you ❤
Oh my shes back i was literally thinking the other day where is she. Im glad to see you healthy and doing well, as an audience we don't care what you do as long as it makes you happy we ae here to support 🙏🙏
I’m a trans man and I’ve been keeping up with your channel probably since about 2015-2016. You were my first exposure to transitioning even being a possibility and throughout the years I’ve always loved your energy and your vulnerability and how you’ve been able to document your personal experiences with your identity. I relate heavily to what you spoke at towards the end of finding yourself and healing, doing things for you but still having so much work to do. I always wish nothing but the best for you Jalisa, it’s always nice seeing you upload. Your radiance is so beautiful and unique to you, screw societies boxes.
Always nice to hear from you! Sending you strength and understanding. I'm an older Gen X lesbian and just wanted to gently remind you that "figuring it out" is a lifelong process and you don't owe anyone any explanation. The only truly important things to figure out are how to love yourself, be healthy in your body and mind, how to live a life in balance with your own unique sensitivities and needs in a way that brings you genuine happiness and satisfaction. Blessings on your path, may it be full of laughter and sweetness and regular moments of insight. 💚
Hi, long-time follower here! I just wanted to say that I so appreciate you posting this video. I started following you pretty early on and soon after following, I started my own transition. A few years ago, I detransitioned and am currently figuring out life after top surgery and gender marker/name change. It's a difficult journey, but seeing others learning to love themselves makes it a little bit easier for me to do the same. It's also very validating. Thank you for sharing! Always supporting you, friend! :) ❤
sending you lots of love, we're on this journey together! i'm happy this video was helpful, your comment is just as validating for me. it's nice to not feel alone in all of this.
This video came up randomly on my homepage, glad I watched, I feel like a got a mini lesson on self-love & self-compassion for myself and others. Wishing you all the best in your journey. ♥
Yay so glad you made an update! It's wild how similar our journeys are, you were one of the first people I watched transition on yt, and then I came out soon after. I was on t for 7 years and passed as a bearded cis man, was stealth in a lot of my male-dominated jobs. Something for me also switched after a cross-country road trip at year 8 of transition, and I realized I really missed being perceived as a butch woman in lesbian spaces. I was only hit on by queer men, and sometimes bi women were interested but i could never escape the feeling of fetishization. Mainly the negative health effects of t made me re-evaluate my journey and realize I wanted to stop. It was hard at first but I'm so much happier now, just feel more aligned. I'm glad you are doing well! The journey never stops, we are always learning and growing.
I have watched you for years and I miss you. I think about you often (you occasionally come up on my insta feed). I pray that you find healing and peace Jalisa.
You GO Girl!!! You're all that you need. That's where you start. You'll find the pieces and people you want to build your life with as you move forward. Take Care!
Thank you so much for your upload, been folliowing your story for the last 10 years, sometimes you popped in my head and i would see if you have any updates. Just had to say im so relieved to see you are here and doing well, You deserve to celebrate YOU as the beautiful woman you are, we come in so many forms!!!wishing you so so much more clarity, love, joy, healing and happiness for the road ahead!!
Nice to see where you're at. As a fellow detransitioner (after 8 years as a "trans man"), I feel less alone seeing you still on the journey. Medical transition still affects me every day and it's hard but life as a masculine woman is also beautiful and thank fuck we exist. Much love.
Supporting you always! Been here for idk how many years and have watched you change in so many ways. By change, I mean grow. I cannot wait to see how much more you grow and flourish ❤️ thank you for being open and vulnerable with us
I'm glad you're seeking validation from within and getting on with doing the internal work. Validation for EVERYONE has to come from inside. So many trans people demand validation from everyone else. No one owes anyone else validation. Not me, not you, not a trans person. A person needs to stand on their own, confident in who and what they are without demanding everyone else change and bend their own ideas of who and what that person is. I wish you continued healing and peace.
Thank you for sharing your soul with us and hangin' in there. I think Lucy Kartikasari's model of publicly examining the nuances of transition/detransition journeys from a good faith, supportive framework is similarly so helpful and powerful. But more importantly, your music is fire. 🔥🤘🏻
Wow! I thought of you the other day after not seeing your videos for years and not remembering your name on RUclips. I used to comment on your page under the name “the raw truth” when you were considering detransitioning. Can’t believe RUclips recommended me your page when I was wondering how you were doing. Glad to see you’re doing ok. Just be you that’s all that is important, you don’t need to create an identity , at least if you don’t want to, you are already you without fixating on identity!
💙Love you for being you !💙 Do what makes you happy, just take your time figuring out what that is ! I'm happy to see the light returning to your eyes 🎉
The bit around 5 minute mark where you talk about wanting to feel comfortable with yourself and not be always trying to make others comfortable, I FELT THAT WITH MY ENTIRE SOUL. And I think a lot of women feel the same way. I’m a bisexual cis female and I’ve never questioned my gender identity but I’ve always felt like something in society is very very wrong and it’s hurting everyone. I think it has to do with toxic masculinity. It hurts men and women, but a lot of men benefit from it too.
i am an OG gender non-conforming brother. in the 1970's, we had a vibe we called, "genderfuck." we knew that we were men. we knew we women. we also knew that nobody could tell us how to look dress or act as a man and a woman. all they could say is that we need one of each for human reproduction. wealcome to PEAK TRANS. it is awesome to be sex-role nonconforming. humans don't change sex. we are not clownfish. you are awesome. you are the bomb. you don't have to change anything for anybody. you. are. good. do you. thank you for your voice.
Your beautiful and I'm glad to see your still here walking this earth with us. I would look for your videos and not see them but hope your still here doing ok.
If I can give you any advice or suggestion (you're grown I'm not telling you what to do) is do you! Share who you are and how it goes. That is something I've learned on my journey through this plane of existence us humans refer to as life lol you never know how or when you will inspire others by sharing your truth. I'm in recovery from addiction and when I relapsed and then wanted to come back to recovery, I called a sober friend, but they didn't answer. I still got sober (272 days clean today yay!) but when I shared that tale with the person i called later on, it really impacted them. I didn't know it, but LITERALLY YEARS and a pandemic later, that person always makes an effort to answer their phone no matter what's going on or how their feeling. They want to be there for others who have gone through what they have also gone through as a person in recovery. Moral of the story is you never know how, when, where, or why, but you can touch the hearts of others for the better by just being you. Much Love & Support to you!
Gladdddd your back! ❤ i Respect your journey and i love you Jalisa. Thank you for sharing your story all those years. Didn’t know when i was watching you years ago as a “deconstructing christian girl” Id end up one day identifying as someone on the trans spectrum. Right now that feels good to me so that’s what i am. All this shit is made up. We made it up, just roll with and “fk it we ball.”Theres no heaven or hell to go to. Glad you’re coming home to yourself, whatever that means/looks like to you.
Infinite love for all - trans and detrans. This life is about love and learning and viewing the stars from as many position on the globe as possible. 💜Will you upload more music?
I'm glad you're doing better. Thanks for the disclaimer about your support for trans people. I was kind of wondering if you were gonna become transphobic because I remembered you coming back to twitter & you were following transphobic detrans people & you were using transphobic dogwhistles like "gender ideology". But it looks like you do in fact support trans people after all. It was really a good idea for you to leave twitter because honestly, that place is a toxic cesspool. I remembered those transphobes using a screenshot of your really raw video & then using your content to spread hate. I hated how they were doing that & "pitying" you by being backhanded with their "supportive" comments. We're all just trying to figure it all out. Anyways, I'm glad that you're still here & hope to see more stuff from you.
so are you thinking about any other surgeries to possibly reverse some of the previous surgeries? Is that even possible? I though about transitioning for years and I am still unsure, more leaning towards not doing it, but I still have dysphoria and I am not sure how to deal with it other than at least some medical intervention. but it is so difficult to make this decision that it must mean something, so I decided to wait and stop forcing myself to make a decision. videos like yours are very valuable because it gives me information on the other side of the coin. I can't know for sure if I transition I wouldn't experience something similar to you. I am much older though almost 40, and I started exploring transition when I was close to 30, so at least I know my brain was fully developed. But I am still very unsure of the future. Anyway, thank you for sharing and being vulnerable.
I'm glad you're doing well. I'm glad you're learning to be happy with yourself. I'm also glad to know that you're still supportive of the trans community.
Detransition needs to be just as covered as transition and nobody should transplain away masculine women, they have existed since the dawn of time. Social media is an evil place and I had to unlearn a lot of BS fellow teenagers that I thought were older had taught me in my teens. As a trans guy I’m glad to see more content, don’t be ashamed, in 10 years there will be a detransition boom let’s be honest.
Exactly, there is gonna be a rise in detrans people & we gotta stop stigmatizing detransitioning. There's nothing wrong with being a detransitioner. We're not broken damaged goods with bad decision making skills, we're human beings.
I think that rise in detransition is already starting to happen, and I bet you that in about 3 years or so (8 years since Covid lock down started) there is going to be a big wave because tons of teenagers came out as trans during quarantine when isolated. And people tend to detransition, on average, roughly 8 years into transition, give or take a few years.
as a nonbinary person who is now toying with the idea of also being a woman, the idea that is forced on us of what gender is is so soul-crushing and one-sided. i love playing between the lines of the typical gender roles, being both masculine and feminine and everything in between. a woman does not look one way or act one way, so no matter what choices you have made in the past or how you act now, you are beautiful and right where you're meant to be :)
it's so refreshing to see a detrans person who hasn't fallen down that transphobia pipeline. your old videos helped me sort my own gender identity out, so thank you for sharing your experience, even if you ended up realizing you weren't trans anymore. we as people are ever-changing 🤍
not sure why but this comment hit me in my heart lol, happy my videos have been impactful for you in anyway and im happy you're still here hanging out with me
welcome back sister. there's nothing wrong with being a masculine woman- I feel like that is a truth that has been lost in the shuffle. Have fun with your youtube channel and do whatever you want. Don't feel like you have to stick to any one topic if you don't want. People like you for you and they'll watch you watch paint dry if that's what you're doing. You're a stunning woman and the world is truly your oyster.
this is genuinely such a nice comment, thank you so much
@@Jalisa God has a plan for your life…Jesus loves you ruclips.net/video/x8pcY1a5mvM/видео.htmlsi=AbEsspYUECe0CR_W
Wow J you never cease to amaze me with your growth. I’ve always looked up to you. I wanna cry tears of joy for you. You’re such a bright person you light up any room you walk in! I’m so proud of you! Now you get to see and walk the world through your true self. You’re an amazing inspiration to all and I wish you nothing but happiness moving forward. I know we’re not as close as we used to be but I’m still here. I too have some work to do on myself and have been throughout the years. Reach out anytime. Keep smiling !
i was on testosterone for 5.5 years and underwent a double mastectomy. trying to be okay with the mistakes that were made is the hardest thing i’ve ever done. you’re doing amazing. sending so much love to you ❤
you're doing amazing too, we'll get through it together
Oh my shes back i was literally thinking the other day where is she. Im glad to see you healthy and doing well, as an audience we don't care what you do as long as it makes you happy we ae here to support 🙏🙏
I’m a trans man and I’ve been keeping up with your channel probably since about 2015-2016. You were my first exposure to transitioning even being a possibility and throughout the years I’ve always loved your energy and your vulnerability and how you’ve been able to document your personal experiences with your identity. I relate heavily to what you spoke at towards the end of finding yourself and healing, doing things for you but still having so much work to do. I always wish nothing but the best for you Jalisa, it’s always nice seeing you upload. Your radiance is so beautiful and unique to you, screw societies boxes.
Always nice to hear from you! Sending you strength and understanding. I'm an older Gen X lesbian and just wanted to gently remind you that "figuring it out" is a lifelong process and you don't owe anyone any explanation. The only truly important things to figure out are how to love yourself, be healthy in your body and mind, how to live a life in balance with your own unique sensitivities and needs in a way that brings you genuine happiness and satisfaction. Blessings on your path, may it be full of laughter and sweetness and regular moments of insight. 💚
love this and thank you for the reminder, it's one i'm actively trying to drill into my head at the moment lol
i remember watching you when you first started yt yearsssss ago, glad you’re doing good
hey thank you and thanks for sticking around! I hope you're doing good as well!
We're glad to have you back ❤
Hi, long-time follower here! I just wanted to say that I so appreciate you posting this video. I started following you pretty early on and soon after following, I started my own transition. A few years ago, I detransitioned and am currently figuring out life after top surgery and gender marker/name change. It's a difficult journey, but seeing others learning to love themselves makes it a little bit easier for me to do the same. It's also very validating. Thank you for sharing! Always supporting you, friend! :) ❤
sending you lots of love, we're on this journey together! i'm happy this video was helpful, your comment is just as validating for me. it's nice to not feel alone in all of this.
welcome back!!
This video came up randomly on my homepage, glad I watched, I feel like a got a mini lesson on self-love & self-compassion for myself and others. Wishing you all the best in your journey. ♥
thanks for watching and giving it a chance! sending love!
Yay so glad you made an update! It's wild how similar our journeys are, you were one of the first people I watched transition on yt, and then I came out soon after. I was on t for 7 years and passed as a bearded cis man, was stealth in a lot of my male-dominated jobs. Something for me also switched after a cross-country road trip at year 8 of transition, and I realized I really missed being perceived as a butch woman in lesbian spaces. I was only hit on by queer men, and sometimes bi women were interested but i could never escape the feeling of fetishization. Mainly the negative health effects of t made me re-evaluate my journey and realize I wanted to stop. It was hard at first but I'm so much happier now, just feel more aligned. I'm glad you are doing well! The journey never stops, we are always learning and growing.
wow, similar journeys indeed! it's honestly so nice to hear your story and perspective, thank you for sharing it! definitely makes me feel less alone
I have watched you for years and I miss you. I think about you often (you occasionally come up on my insta feed). I pray that you find healing and peace Jalisa.
You GO Girl!!! You're all that you need. That's where you start. You'll find the pieces and people you want to build your life with as you move forward. Take Care!
Welcome back chica it’s okay as long as you’re happy with who are and who you want to be we completely support you
Thank you so much for your upload, been folliowing your story for the last 10 years, sometimes you popped in my head and i would see if you have any updates. Just had to say im so relieved to see you are here and doing well, You deserve to celebrate YOU as the beautiful woman you are, we come in so many forms!!!wishing you so so much more clarity, love, joy, healing and happiness for the road ahead!!
Nice to see where you're at. As a fellow detransitioner (after 8 years as a "trans man"), I feel less alone seeing you still on the journey. Medical transition still affects me every day and it's hard but life as a masculine woman is also beautiful and thank fuck we exist. Much love.
you're definitely not alone, our existence IS beautiful!
Supporting you always! Been here for idk how many years and have watched you change in so many ways. By change, I mean grow. I cannot wait to see how much more you grow and flourish ❤️ thank you for being open and vulnerable with us
It's nice to hear from you again ❤❤
I'm glad you're seeking validation from within and getting on with doing the internal work. Validation for EVERYONE has to come from inside. So many trans people demand validation from everyone else. No one owes anyone else validation. Not me, not you, not a trans person. A person needs to stand on their own, confident in who and what they are without demanding everyone else change and bend their own ideas of who and what that person is. I wish you continued healing and peace.
Thank you for sharing your soul with us and hangin' in there. I think Lucy Kartikasari's model of publicly examining the nuances of transition/detransition journeys from a good faith, supportive framework is similarly so helpful and powerful.
But more importantly, your music is fire. 🔥🤘🏻
Missed you, please take all the time you need ❤
Please keep making videos! Your journey may be relatable to so many more! Much love and support, it's good to see your smile!
just be you: Don't worry about what a woman does or look like or what man does or look like...those are stereotypes...🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
They are stereotypes. It's the norm
Much love as always! So so happy to see you doing well :)
I think of you from time to time wondering how you're doing ive been apart of you journey for a while so it's good to see you upload ❤
Glad to see you being You, just for You and no one else!❤
Glad to see you’re doing well. Take care of yourself ✌🏻
I’ve been following you for so long, I forgot you were here lol but glad to see you back!
I was thinking of you just a few weeks ago. I’m happy you’re doing well, Jalisa ❤ Life will continue to get better
Wow! I thought of you the other day after not seeing your videos for years and not remembering your name on RUclips. I used to comment on your page under the name “the raw truth” when you were considering detransitioning. Can’t believe RUclips recommended me your page when I was wondering how you were doing. Glad to see you’re doing ok. Just be you that’s all that is important, you don’t need to create an identity , at least if you don’t want to, you are already you without fixating on identity!
People going through this experience deserve our compassion. This person is certainly articulate and bright. Best of luck to her.
Hi Jalisa,
Whenever you get a chance, make sure you have fun on RUclips:)
💙Love you for being you !💙 Do what makes you happy, just take your time figuring out what that is ! I'm happy to see the light returning to your eyes 🎉
The bit around 5 minute mark where you talk about wanting to feel comfortable with yourself and not be always trying to make others comfortable, I FELT THAT WITH MY ENTIRE SOUL. And I think a lot of women feel the same way. I’m a bisexual cis female and I’ve never questioned my gender identity but I’ve always felt like something in society is very very wrong and it’s hurting everyone. I think it has to do with toxic masculinity. It hurts men and women, but a lot of men benefit from it too.
i am an OG gender non-conforming brother. in the 1970's, we had a vibe we called, "genderfuck." we knew that we were men. we knew we women. we also knew that nobody could tell us how to look dress or act as a man and a woman. all they could say is that we need one of each for human reproduction. wealcome to PEAK TRANS. it is awesome to be sex-role nonconforming. humans don't change sex. we are not clownfish. you are awesome. you are the bomb. you don't have to change anything for anybody. you. are. good. do you. thank you for your voice.
Welcome back :)
Omgggg ive been missingggg youuuu Jalisa!!!
Good to see you again 💞
Hey I hope you’re keeping well! I miss ur videos. Take care ☺️
Thank you for the video. I have been thinking about you, how are you doing. You are so brave and wonderful, God bless to you ❤
Your beautiful and I'm glad to see your still here walking this earth with us. I would look for your videos and not see them but hope your still here doing ok.
Ive been a silent watcher of all of this. Its fascinating how the psychology of a person can change so much while simultaneously staying in the same.
sending much love your way always 💛🙂
Welcome bk. Jus wana say, hair games strong 💪🏽👌🏾
Hope your doing ok, hope to see more uploads from you
If I can give you any advice or suggestion (you're grown I'm not telling you what to do) is do you! Share who you are and how it goes. That is something I've learned on my journey through this plane of existence us humans refer to as life lol you never know how or when you will inspire others by sharing your truth. I'm in recovery from addiction and when I relapsed and then wanted to come back to recovery, I called a sober friend, but they didn't answer. I still got sober (272 days clean today yay!) but when I shared that tale with the person i called later on, it really impacted them. I didn't know it, but LITERALLY YEARS and a pandemic later, that person always makes an effort to answer their phone no matter what's going on or how their feeling. They want to be there for others who have gone through what they have also gone through as a person in recovery. Moral of the story is you never know how, when, where, or why, but you can touch the hearts of others for the better by just being you. Much Love & Support to you!
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Gladdddd your back! ❤ i Respect your journey and i love you Jalisa. Thank you for sharing your story all those years. Didn’t know when i was watching you years ago as a “deconstructing christian girl” Id end up one day identifying as someone on the trans spectrum. Right now that feels good to me so that’s what i am. All this shit is made up. We made it up, just roll with and “fk it we ball.”Theres no heaven or hell to go to. Glad you’re coming home to yourself, whatever that means/looks like to you.
I respect you for being honest and sharing your story. It's not easy. It takes a lot of courage. I wish more people had the courage that you do 🫶🏾
Good to see you're still around. Maybe reach out to other detransitioners who share similar experiences. You're not alone in this.
Infinite love for all - trans and detrans. This life is about love and learning and viewing the stars from as many position on the globe as possible. 💜Will you upload more music?
yes! i'll definitely be posting more music!
Jalisa! You’re rad!
wishing you all the best Jalisa, it's not easy figuring all this gender stuff out
I'm glad you're doing better. Thanks for the disclaimer about your support for trans people. I was kind of wondering if you were gonna become transphobic because I remembered you coming back to twitter & you were following transphobic detrans people & you were using transphobic dogwhistles like "gender ideology". But it looks like you do in fact support trans people after all. It was really a good idea for you to leave twitter because honestly, that place is a toxic cesspool. I remembered those transphobes using a screenshot of your really raw video & then using your content to spread hate. I hated how they were doing that & "pitying" you by being backhanded with their "supportive" comments. We're all just trying to figure it all out. Anyways, I'm glad that you're still here & hope to see more stuff from you.
Love from Germany 🇩🇪 ❤
I swear as soon as I start wondering how you've been doing, you pop right up. So happy to see your face :)
so are you thinking about any other surgeries to possibly reverse some of the previous surgeries? Is that even possible? I though about transitioning for years and I am still unsure, more leaning towards not doing it, but I still have dysphoria and I am not sure how to deal with it other than at least some medical intervention. but it is so difficult to make this decision that it must mean something, so I decided to wait and stop forcing myself to make a decision. videos like yours are very valuable because it gives me information on the other side of the coin. I can't know for sure if I transition I wouldn't experience something similar to you. I am much older though almost 40, and I started exploring transition when I was close to 30, so at least I know my brain was fully developed. But I am still very unsure of the future. Anyway, thank you for sharing and being vulnerable.
I'm glad you're doing well. I'm glad you're learning to be happy with yourself. I'm also glad to know that you're still supportive of the trans community.
Detransition needs to be just as covered as transition and nobody should transplain away masculine women, they have existed since the dawn of time. Social media is an evil place and I had to unlearn a lot of BS fellow teenagers that I thought were older had taught me in my teens. As a trans guy I’m glad to see more content, don’t be ashamed, in 10 years there will be a detransition boom let’s be honest.
Exactly, there is gonna be a rise in detrans people & we gotta stop stigmatizing detransitioning. There's nothing wrong with being a detransitioner. We're not broken damaged goods with bad decision making skills, we're human beings.
I think that rise in detransition is already starting to happen, and I bet you that in about 3 years or so (8 years since Covid lock down started) there is going to be a big wave because tons of teenagers came out as trans during quarantine when isolated. And people tend to detransition, on average, roughly 8 years into transition, give or take a few years.
OR you can become an official feminine lookalike of Kilian(a) Mbappe and make big bucks out of it ! 😂
Ya know, this may sound weird, but I think you might benefit from finding solidarity among trans women. They kinda-sorta share your struggle.
as a nonbinary person who is now toying with the idea of also being a woman, the idea that is forced on us of what gender is is so soul-crushing and one-sided. i love playing between the lines of the typical gender roles, being both masculine and feminine and everything in between. a woman does not look one way or act one way, so no matter what choices you have made in the past or how you act now, you are beautiful and right where you're meant to be :)
I'm a British trans man and I think it's really interesting to hear your story 😁
it's so refreshing to see a detrans person who hasn't fallen down that transphobia pipeline. your old videos helped me sort my own gender identity out, so thank you for sharing your experience, even if you ended up realizing you weren't trans anymore. we as people are ever-changing 🤍
not sure why but this comment hit me in my heart lol, happy my videos have been impactful for you in anyway and im happy you're still here hanging out with me