I will play the same music over and over for years on end. I try to listen to other things to increase my neuroplasticity as i try to establish new habits to get outof depression, but I always have to recharge by listening to the same songs to recalibrate my mind.
I almost skipped this video because the title led me to make a wrong assumption. So very glad I didn't ... You've provided some valuable insight here. Thank you for this and all you do 🙏🏻
This is the most profound explanation of the autist's existential condition that I have ever come across, particularly @4:40 "autism is a fear of energy flow". This resonates more than I can express in words. For example, I had an extreme fear of vomiting for years. Why? Because it is one particularly unpleasant and violent manifestation of the uncontrollable free flow of energy. I could provide multiple examples of this fear of energy flow that has itself caused immense suffering in my life and has also stifled life. Beyond that, I have often felt that my battle is a battle against time, against entropy. Everything I do is an attempt to control reality with my mind against the onslaught of time - an exhausting and losing proposition. I have often felt like I am in a time warp, a time loop, a war against time. So a question: assuming there is no cure currently available for autism, what is the best "management" strategy or technique to mitigate or adapt to this tendency to fight the free flow of energy (because we can't control it)? How should an autist respond to his autism in order to ease the friction that is otherwise caused by the confrontation of his autism with the world, reality-as-we-know-it?
I play the same games over and over and play the same RUclips videos over and over my same songs I love and used to watch the same show (full house) until they got rid of it on Hulu
It makes sense why even though I love so many Videogames, I rarely finish any, yet got over 7 Thousands hours on Minecraft over almost 9 years, and like 1.8k hours on Dead By Daylight over 2.5 years, because they are Familiar, and to me is Understandable chaos.
Thank you. I’ve struggled w shame around listening and reading and watching stuff on repeat. Now I’ll go listen to that Avril Lavigne song 50 times today!
Part of the 'fun' for me in writing my own music is that I can listen to it over and over until im tired of it then Im ready to create more. Its my pattern..create/analyze/burn out...this video makes sense to me. I also tend to gravitate towards certain subjects whether it be music(a particular genre or artist) or a historical topic or sporting topic mainly football(my football manager game inparticular) or boxing. I go from one to the other seldom all of these at once...when I have what I consider to be a good balance I feel so much more at ease in my life. Everything else disrupts this and has to be 'endured'...most of life is a test of my endurance. I realise that my relationships with women have been attempts to get out of that cycle, drugs and alcohol too...like ive been ashamed that i have very limited interests, but ones that I hold very dear. Im 52, diagnosed 3 years and am only just understanding this at a deeper level. Its slowly making sense to me. Im thinking about going away somewhere for a few days on my own for the first time ever this summer...but the question im asking myself is why put myself through so much stress planning and getting used to where I am when I get there?..getting hot under the collar about getting lost or letting my guard down....its some fucked up shit between my ears lol
Your cycle of creating analysing and burning out has much more potential in your life than just a way to cope, I know cause I've experienced exactly what you described. Try changing your habit to from music to self improvement. You will begin to develop a huge amount of information that can help you in many areas in life. I've been doing it for years and most if not all of my biggest issues in life were significantly easier to manage once I turned 20. Five years of 24/7 metacognition (thinking about your own thinking) seems like a lot but your perspective of time will change. I don't even get bored anymore.
I have not been diagnosed Autistic but my oldest has. I watch or read things on a loop all the time but I am ADHD. I find it a way to distract my mind and sometimes to avoid things.
I have watched 1 particular film repetitiously in the past. As an adult however it’s repetitive thoughts that my brain seems to default into. However repetitive thought I can find to be quite distressing rather than a comfort.
I have wanted to watch this for months, but I was watching the same stuff on loop so I put it off🫡
I will play the same music over and over for years on end. I try to listen to other things to increase my neuroplasticity as i try to establish new habits to get outof depression, but I always have to recharge by listening to the same songs to recalibrate my mind.
Deeply insightful. And yes, I'm terrified of entropy.
Overwhelming Order to fight the Overwhelming Chaos😁😁😁beautiful
Turns out I've been doing something like this and found out a way to predict the future.
I almost skipped this video because the title led me to make a wrong assumption. So very glad I didn't ... You've provided some valuable insight here. Thank you for this and all you do 🙏🏻
This is the most profound explanation of the autist's existential condition that I have ever come across, particularly @4:40 "autism is a fear of energy flow". This resonates more than I can express in words. For example, I had an extreme fear of vomiting for years. Why? Because it is one particularly unpleasant and violent manifestation of the uncontrollable free flow of energy. I could provide multiple examples of this fear of energy flow that has itself caused immense suffering in my life and has also stifled life.
Beyond that, I have often felt that my battle is a battle against time, against entropy. Everything I do is an attempt to control reality with my mind against the onslaught of time - an exhausting and losing proposition. I have often felt like I am in a time warp, a time loop, a war against time.
So a question: assuming there is no cure currently available for autism, what is the best "management" strategy or technique to mitigate or adapt to this tendency to fight the free flow of energy (because we can't control it)? How should an autist respond to his autism in order to ease the friction that is otherwise caused by the confrontation of his autism with the world, reality-as-we-know-it?
I play the same games over and over and play the same RUclips videos over and over my same songs I love and used to watch the same show (full house) until they got rid of it on Hulu
It makes sense why even though I love so many Videogames, I rarely finish any, yet got over 7 Thousands hours on Minecraft over almost 9 years, and like 1.8k hours on Dead By Daylight over 2.5 years, because they are Familiar, and to me is Understandable chaos.
I have played Minecraft every day almost and with my sister unless she is busy with work
The way u explain and talk really resonates with me
Thank you. I’ve struggled w shame around listening and reading and watching stuff on repeat. Now I’ll go listen to that Avril Lavigne song 50 times today!
Part of the 'fun' for me in writing my own music is that I can listen to it over and over until im tired of it then Im ready to create more. Its my pattern..create/analyze/burn out...this video makes sense to me. I also tend to gravitate towards certain subjects whether it be music(a particular genre or artist) or a historical topic or sporting topic mainly football(my football manager game inparticular) or boxing. I go from one to the other seldom all of these at once...when I have what I consider to be a good balance I feel so much more at ease in my life. Everything else disrupts this and has to be 'endured'...most of life is a test of my endurance. I realise that my relationships with women have been attempts to get out of that cycle, drugs and alcohol too...like ive been ashamed that i have very limited interests, but ones that I hold very dear. Im 52, diagnosed 3 years and am only just understanding this at a deeper level. Its slowly making sense to me. Im thinking about going away somewhere for a few days on my own for the first time ever this summer...but the question im asking myself is why put myself through so much stress planning and getting used to where I am when I get there?..getting hot under the collar about getting lost or letting my guard down....its some fucked up shit between my ears lol
Your cycle of creating analysing and burning out has much more potential in your life than just a way to cope, I know cause I've experienced exactly what you described. Try changing your habit to from music to self improvement. You will begin to develop a huge amount of information that can help you in many areas in life. I've been doing it for years and most if not all of my biggest issues in life were significantly easier to manage once I turned 20. Five years of 24/7 metacognition (thinking about your own thinking) seems like a lot but your perspective of time will change. I don't even get bored anymore.
I do 24/7 but in reality about an hour every night is sufficient.
I have not been diagnosed Autistic but my oldest has. I watch or read things on a loop all the time but I am ADHD. I find it a way to distract my mind and sometimes to avoid things.
I have watched 1 particular film repetitiously in the past. As an adult however it’s repetitive thoughts that my brain seems to default into. However repetitive thought I can find to be quite distressing rather than a comfort.
Why do I watch the same few videos everyday on RUclips ohh this video explains that
Thank you
Excellent
I love this simple explanation. Thanks
Brilliant!
Thank you, I thought this was great.
Damn! I feel woke! 🙏🏾
So empathetic.
🤍💙🤍
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