Victor Banda Herron and meth are the most addicting drugs. Drugs are addicting cause they raise your dopamine to unreal levels and heroine and meth do this the worst Wong is why addict would kill steal and go with out food for a fix cause they are rewiring their brain to put the drug above everything
That's cool that you're a believer but Kayla you are the one that got yourself clean right? I have to ask because when I ask recovering H addicts how they got clean, a handful have told me that they prayed to get clean and it helped. Some said that they simply asked God for help. I relapsed recently and I am not sure God wants to help me. I feel like I turned my back on him a while back but my soul is still here and I haven't lost my faith completely. I'm just struggling. I guess my question is can u tell me how u got clean and stayed clean for the last few years, aside from God? I need some advice.
@@Mischabelle87 I've been clean past two years with help from suboxone. You have to really want to get clean yourself. Can't do it for someone else. For me, when I was off heroin and on suboxone for decent amount of time, I think I got my clarity back and was able to realize why I had to stay clean. While on heroin, I definitely didn't want to ever stop. So, my advice is try your hardest to stay clean as long as possible to get your clarity back, then maybe this time you will finally see the reasons why it isn't worth it. Every day you are clean gives you a better chance of seeing things clearly. The longer you're away from it the less you think about it. Also, don't wait for God to help you, you gotta help yourself. It's insanely hard, but you can definitely do it. Avoid quitting cold turkey because that just makes things harder imo. Wish you the best Michelle!
hey bruh , its me srpung, i got great news man i got pardoned for my felonies from 20years ago, i did it mate, im clean and bright future for me just wanted to let ya know homie, be easy friend
I am around 15 years on my felonies no more arrests since the case ended what are the steps you take to get them exspunged if you don't mind me asking?
Here in Indianapolis, cops are more commonly committing people into inpatient hospitals rather than arresting them. They aren't after the user's, they are after the dealers. Its becoming less common for users to get arrested.
I had a CO bringing me water bottles full of vodka.. I'll tell you this, walking from my job back to the block with 4 bottles taped to my lower leg and passing through check points was scary ! Luckily I was cool with the guards from passing them every day for a decade ....
Heroin was hell bro and i wouldn't wish that on my worst enemies. Im sorry for your loss. In the 2 years I've been sober i have had 9 close friends die from that shit. Thanks for sharing your story
Andrew Thompson same here man ibtake kratom everyday now i just lost another freind last week shit hurt me so bad when iblost my best freind in 2012 now i just wish i coukd help its savage out here
My sister passed away 2 years ago from heroin and I've done time just like you man. You're story sounds just like mine. I'm glad I found your channel. It makes me remember all the stories from my time in prison. People don't understand what its like
This is so freaking real bro. I been a fan for years but this one really hit home man. Definitely can relate to a lot of what you spoke on. I almost died from drugs in May 2022 and spent 4 months in the hospital bc of it. I will never take my life or those that care for me for granted ever again. I'm really hoping I can start a channel to help others. I'm 9 months sober and feels amazing.
My brother died from a herion overdose 1 month ago. I feel your pain. Now a days herion isn't even herion its fentanyl and its street dealers that are dosing it out and have no idea how much a batch has. keep your head up man glad to see you have found youtube.
@@Frank-mc7fj all fent dope in FLA usta be brown fire now all went funny weird Dilaudid type feeling but not good like that.... Way more addictive though as hard as that is to believe, I'm 3 yes clean now but spent 18days in bed the 1st time I got pinched....
True there selling it in tablets that are meant to be Valium xanax in Ireland I laughed when someone told me how they felt I said ur taken bad shit get away
I’m sorry to hear about your brother and your friends in prison. It’s a heartbreak losing someone we are close to. My best friend since I was a toddler OD’d when he was 23. And by the way you are SO RIGHT about wanting to quit. If you do it for your family or your friends it won’t work... you gotta want it... bless up man love these videos coming from a regular white dude like myself. I never been to prison, but I been to jail and I ain’t going back. Thanks for your videos I love em
Lockdown 23and1 I'm so sorry about your brother. Just want you to know, i'm 3 months, 3 weeks off the needle. 31yrs old, shooting since 19, hooked on painkillers since 14. And i mean HOOKED at 14. I've been trying to pass every day, a minute at a time. Just so happens, i started watching your vids recently. So you've been kinda like a wise, new friend whom i've never met. Was thinking of writing Grizzy just to say what up. I've only done a few days in county lockup in my life, but every minute was HELL. Dopesick and freezing. Thank you SO much for your videos bro. Much love my friend.
How did you do it? Get off the needle i mean? Only asking you cause I began poppin pills at 14, been on the needle for 3 years now... I wanna stop, I juat... won't let myself I guess..
I highly recommend trying kratom to get off opiates. That and exercise helped me a lot. And eating healthy and drinking a lot of water and using magnesium and tyrosine supplements
Much respect to you and I like your videos. I just wanted to send my condolences to you and your family on your brothers passing. Keep up the good work. Peace!
My mom is a co at a prison in NC and she finds bags of tobacco hanging in the fence all the time. She hates having to be the bad guy because there are some really good people in there for some petty shit. She has never been offered a bribe nor would she use an inmate for any gain. I hate her working there but I do love when she brings home the whole shabang chips though. Love your videos bro. Keep it up.
I think it's awesome how you took your past and everything you've learned from your mistakes and turned it into something positive and your doing something REAL with your life. Your proof that a shady past doesn't define us as people. Keep up the good work man and God bless.
I’m 6 years clean off of H and I’m so grateful and blessed to be clean! It’s not easy to kick that beast but damn is it worth it! I got an amazing family now, a nice home, the best husband in the world and I’m pretty damn spoiled these days! I was homeless and had nothing when I got clean. I feel like a weak person all the time and if I can kick the habit I had man, it’s possible! It isn’t easy but it’s possible. Good luck to anyone out there trying to recover! Please know that you can do it! People do get better!
Right there with ya, addiction is such a selfish disease.. You'll lie to yourself and especially lie to your loved ones, just to get your fix. I've been clean for 4 years now. Best decision I've ever made! R.I.P. to everyone who lost their lives to this horrible disease. It really is an epidemic!
B Mark i dont think u can really speak on it unless you went through it. Opiod addiction is the worst its not as easy as u think to quit. Just try it for yourself
ik i'm very late, and hopefully someone can reply, but i'm just curious, after that long of being sober is it still hard to not go back, or is it like regular life before addiction where you don't even think about it?
@@ajlozano1754 it will never be like life before you were addicted. You will always have it in the back of your mind, any moment of weakness can make you relapse that fast. I'm on methadone so I'm not sober but yeah Ive been through it
@@Alanaboo912 I was a brutal heroin addict. No real explanation for why I tried it. Everyone knows it’s bad. For me it just kinda happened. People in my friend group did a lot of drugs. Eventually they started doing pain killers and I did em too. It just comes down to being young and dumb. You think it won’t happen to you. Like my 18 year old brain honestly thought I’d be able to dabble with it and not let it ruin my life.
Damn. You are incredibly informative, and you are BLUNT. I love it. Don't know you personally, but I'm proud of you! Keep going with this channel, you're destined for great things. Plus...you're handsome,
This video is very personal to me. I watched my aunt pass away from a fentanyl 8 hours after my grandfather passing. I’m sorry to hear about your brother. If you are addicted and having issues with drugs please find help. Your life is worth more then a short feeling of a high.
your videos are so dope bro, keep it up, best vibes, hard to find anything on youtube with real essence like this, should have 100x more views and you will, keep em coming and I'm sure you'll reach everything you want to achieve. Real recognise real
Sorry to hear about your brother. I lost my younger brother as well to heroin back in 2004. He was only 25. I was locked up at the time and paroled 14 days after he passed. I was first to find out. He passed away in Puerto Rico and his ex girlfriend in P.R. knew that his brother was locked up( myself). So I was given the news first and had to tell our father over the phone behind bars. I Will NEVER FORGOT that day. I refused to go to his funeral in a cuffs and shackles and I'm forever thankful for my father waiting till I was released almost 3 weeks later on parole to sadly bury my brother. I came to battle that addiction 11 years after his death but I can say that I am clean today and I know that destruction and pain that drug can cause. Thanks for the video and reminder that I need to stay on the right path
If I ever do end up in the pen, ain't no way I'm buying weed or dope or anything else. Time to get yourself right and keep the situation neutral. Read your bible and stay outta the shit.
If you'd read the Bible, you'd know that it says that noone is sinless; noone is good. You can read the Bible a million times and still mess up ("sin"). Way to go, falling into the common trap of an atheist trying to tell other people what the bible says! :-)
I mean.. He could have just as easily killed an innocent family.. I want to have sympathy for you and the grief you are feeling but I have no sympathy for drunk drivers.
What’s going on bro I just got off a level 4 yard in California pelican bay to be exact shits on point my boy keep out them gates glad to be out and not be a statistic
i love how genuine you are man. this is what is the best thing about youtube. I love how real you are and how you are trying to give back. Its helping alot of people... thank you from Kentucky.
Sorry bout your friends Derek, and your bro Josh. My bud Rob died on my apt floor from drugs that i gave him. He tried to match my dose, but didn't have the tolerance he needed. I tried CPR etc, in vain. I knew his mom, and had to tell her in person that morning. I beat myself up for a long time over his death. I couldn't sleep, cried constantly, was a complete basketcase. Happened many years ago, but it still hits me at times. Our mutual friends helped me cope. I went clean, post Rob, for two years, but relapsed eventually. I'm trying. ..about to start crying now. I'm out.
Big salute bro. Glad to see you turning things around from you're past. Condolences 4 you're brother. I lost one of my brothers the same way 3 months after my mom passed away. I found him dead in my bathroom. So I kno the feeling. That was in 2019. So hold ya head up salute from South Philly!!! We see ya
Oh i know its not easy i been wanting to quite smokin cigs for years tried so many times but deep down ... the problems is im not really wamting to just yet
+Lockdown 23and1 bro, you should try vaping. It helped me quit smoking. I was on 20 a day for 21 years. I started vaping around April 2017 and it was easy to quit the smokes. Just found ya channel. It's a good watch. :-)
Lockdown 23and1breast cancer at 41. Chantix at 42. It wasn’t easy. I had nausea and nightmares while I took it. I had to quit and I was heavily addicted to nicotine and the habit. 9 years clean from cancer and cigarettes.
my condolences for your lost , i know how it feel's to be addicted to drug's because i've been addicted to pills for seven plus years already & been taking up to 50 pill's a day , i just hope that someday i can stop the addiction before it's too late .
What Kyle said, make sure you get suboxone and stay the hell away from methadone at all costs. It's worse than the pills as far as detox. Don't take my word for it, talk to people that are either on it or have been.
I think its too late for you to learn to read and write no goods. You is permanent stupified. 50 pills a day, depending on what it is, isnt that much. We all know percocet is different from oxycontin simply because of acetiminophen. Other than that theyre both oxycodone, one is oxycodone hydrochloride, percocet is oxycodone acetiminophen. Vicodin is norco is hydrocodone. Theyre literally the same thing so again we know norco is vicodin is lortab yadda yadda. Now, if youre taking 2.5 or 5mg, 50 pills is nothing, i can burn through 140 mgs of oxycodone in one sitting, but if youre taking 50 pills of say oxycontin and theyre 30s, then thats quite a bit, i can boot that many in a day no problem but for some people, that amount is nuts. Anyways you spell like ass. Fuckbag.
It's always a tough call when you're in the moment and someone is the verge overdosing. Because you don't wanna risk them dying, and you also don't wanna get them in trouble for nothing
Death, this episode really got me man. I've been addicted to opiots since I was 18, I'm currently 32 and I been through it. I've lost family, friends, and served almost 3 years all county time because of heroin. I would love to tell you my story and what I've been through because of my drug use. I never been to prison but I'm a felon because of a heroin charge, luckily I recently finished my felony probation and was let off early for good behavior. I been locked up in Wisconsin, Texas, and my last 6 months was in Honolulu Hawaii. I would like to tell you about OCCC Oahu Community Correction Center (Oahu county jail).
Drugs have ripped my life and my friends lives completely apart I’m in recovery goin on 5 yrs clean now and life is still difficult as hell but hey man you know what they say “one day at a time” and “easy does it”
Oh my!! Broke my heart to hear about your brother!! You are super strong for being so open and remaining so positive!! I’m so grateful I found your channel!! Thank you
Advice nobody should ever have to use: when someone is turning blue from OD, start CPR. Their diaphram is literally paralyzed from being SO high. Force the blood to pump, force some fresh air in. Save a life.
Had to do this a few times within a few months to the same person. It’s an eerie feeling to see the look of death staring back at you. I took a CPR class as part of a community event; never did I think I would ever have to actually use it, but I am so thankful for that class.
I'm sorry for your lose brother, love you brother. Keep up the amazing content. Dope ruined my life, guy. 10 years gone, but I survived by the grace of God! And I pray for every active user daily, sometimes twice a day
I've been sober about 3 years now, but I recently have been carrying Narcan with me in my bag, just in case. The opiate epidemic in this country is just that...an epidemic!
M. Riggs yup. I’ve narcaned my brother back to life countless times. The last time I saved him, one of his friends called the ambulance and the cops came and took one of my bottles of narcan. Motherfuckers. I’ve been on the clinic for years and just got down to 15mgs so I’m almost off
@@browndenzel6308 yes! U can get a script from your Dr or pharmacist. Totally legal to carry. I carry at a times, people in my town are dropping left and right.
cj my fuck bruh...cold turkey? Your a gawt damn legend if thats true. Idk what’s more powerful...the pussy or Heroin...sounds like in your case it was the pussy (no disrespect.) good job dawg
Heroin is gnarly! Lucky to be alive! Haven’t touched a rig or dope since 2013. Lost plenty of friends. I have OD 3 times as well, it definitely sucks! I don’t know why but I have been watching a lot of these videos lately. I’ve never gotten locked up or really in much trouble(another reason I got clean, you can say I basically got scared straight) Anyway, these videos you make, are definitely lively! Always enjoy to watch!
Your video's are very informative I'm here to get a better understanding of what my husband is dealing with in Indiana doc. I heard the suboxone strips are going for 50-100. Crazy!!! Don't do drug's.
Your tapes will help so many people very young people going a stray,your tapes just might help them thinking about what their are doing,good work,I am 62,what you say rock and shocks me,you have lived it,but this is real life,and same people need to hear it,you tell it just the way it is,I could listen to you,all day,I have never seen this side of live,thank god because it can happen to any body,or any age,just one wrong turn,you tell it as facts.....
I really enjoy your vids bro, good stuff. Very informative. You remind me of my big homie who did 20 yrs on a life sentence and got released on an appeal. He likes talking about his experiences and I enjoy listening. Been binging on your channel since I found it.Subbed! Anyway, you gave some very good advice on paying off a loved ones debts once, but never again in prison. You never know what kind of jam they can be in with whoever, especially if it's the dope man. Unlike the streets it's very easy to find dealers who will cuff you dope just to turn around and extort you. And with prices being outrageous inside the debt owed will rack up quickly(1 gram of heroin is $500!! Compared to $50 on the streets in Colorado). You made a very valid point, you could be saving someone's life, as long as it's made clear to them that it'll be a one time only thing and they'll have at least a chance now to get clean on their own . Also, my condolences on the loss of your brother to such a terrible addiction that has robbed so many of us of so much.
Which is crazy seeing as how you get no feeling from it. It only makes it so muscle relaxers don't effect you, and give you withdrawal effects if you try. Is it because of ease of access? **speaking from experience unlike most speculators in this video's thread**
@@falseshepherd-490 Yeah I can't imagine how Suboxone could be a drug of abuse. But it is. Enough people were shooting it up that now they only provide outpatient preparations of buprinorphen mixed with naltrexone to give you the dopesicks from hell if you try to snort it/shoot it. I also hear about people looking to score methadone on the street. Not like addicts who are just trying to keep from getting dopesick 'cause they're broke or couldn't find what they actually wanted. But, like, to get high. Non-junkies want to sip a little with their drink at the party. I wonder if it's a placebo thing. Or maybe it does do a little something if you do not have a tolerance - I wouldn't know on that point.
False Shepherd- when I was like 15 we use to snort either subutex or suboxone which ever is for pregnant girls etc lol but you would nod tf out off a lor bump frm doin subs perk 30s expensive especially at 15 so that’s what we did but yea definitely got us high puking and nodded tf out
If you are naive on opiates....ie your not physically dependent on opiates...SUBOXONE will fuck you up more than any other opiate! Buprenorphine is a very strong opiate.
Sorry that you lost your brother. I’m a big fan of your channel I’ve never been locked up but think it’s important to understand the game in case one day I do. God bless you
That story just broke me down I am an x heroin attic since 2007 your a good man death keep preaching to these kids and men are listening too we are never to old to learn
Lockdown 23and 1 - Hey man I'm really sorry about your brother, that's really fucked up. He was waaaaay too young to pass on. I was on it a long time ago. I've got almost 20 years clean now, by the grace of God. I just found you- LOVE your content and how real you are about this stuff. _I think people should be allowed to use heroin in prison._ If the state paid for it, supervised it AND administered it- for anyone who wants to commit suicide slowly or quickly- it would save the state an insane amount of money each year compared to the cost to house that person for the next 10, 20 + years. Obviously most people don't want to die, but so many junkies inside and out are passively suicidal- Like if I don't wake up oh well. Methadone is ok but there's no rush and a "shitty-slow-onset,-long-lasting-kinda-feel-a-little-bit-high-but-it's-no-comparison-to-H-high". No easy answer for a chronic multi dimensional problem, but some government has to try something new, cos the old rules just don't work. Peace and Love, Miss T.
@its just chris dont listen to that !! If ur not on the streets and ur lifes getting better and u aint doing dope then u ARE recovering girl keep it up ma!!! Godbless
Yo.. you are a very smart person. You've got so much life experience and wisdom. You're a great speaker, too. And you been through a lot from what I've heard. I support you and your a good influence and even better educator. Stay on the straight and narrow man. Much respect to you. 💪
@Jason Eder Haha ok Mr. Wikipedia that doesn't matter. You obviously have never done suboxone but its strong and you will feel it big time especially after not doing anything for a while.
You really do though I was in jail for two weeks Nd it took them over a week to get my subs Nd they ended up giving me subutex oh man I was flyinggg compared to me before they gave it to me feelin like my back was broken, but I don’t feel anything taking my daily dose regularly
Clean 40 days off heroin .. not been easy but life is much better
That's awesome keep it up you can beat the battle!!
Hell yeah hopefully 46 now @Tyler Koenecke
Hopefully 48 now one step at a time
Real Lyrics yeah vivitrol helps me a lot
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Clean off heroin 3 years now.. its the worst drug ever. Takes everything and anything you have . Awesome channel !
I’m guessing you haven’t heard of fentanyl
Victor Banda Herron and meth are the most addicting drugs. Drugs are addicting cause they raise your dopamine to unreal levels and heroine and meth do this the worst Wong is why addict would kill steal and go with out food for a fix cause they are rewiring their brain to put the drug above everything
Nah bro meth is by far ive done both and meth is way worse
Same problem different country keep it up you can do it
Good for you brother
Almost 3 years clean from heroin! 🙌🏼 by gods grace
I'm happy for you. Stay strong!!
Amazing 💪💪👍
That's cool that you're a believer but Kayla you are the one that got yourself clean right? I have to ask because when I ask recovering H addicts how they got clean, a handful have told me that they prayed to get clean and it helped. Some said that they simply asked God for help. I relapsed recently and I am not sure God wants to help me. I feel like I turned my back on him a while back but my soul is still here and I haven't lost my faith completely. I'm just struggling. I guess my question is can u tell me how u got clean and stayed clean for the last few years, aside from God? I need some advice.
@@Mischabelle87 I've been clean past two years with help from suboxone. You have to really want to get clean yourself. Can't do it for someone else. For me, when I was off heroin and on suboxone for decent amount of time, I think I got my clarity back and was able to realize why I had to stay clean. While on heroin, I definitely didn't want to ever stop. So, my advice is try your hardest to stay clean as long as possible to get your clarity back, then maybe this time you will finally see the reasons why it isn't worth it. Every day you are clean gives you a better chance of seeing things clearly.
The longer you're away from it the less you think about it. Also, don't wait for God to help you, you gotta help yourself. It's insanely hard, but you can definitely do it. Avoid quitting cold turkey because that just makes things harder imo.
Wish you the best Michelle!
congrats keep it up
hey bruh , its me srpung, i got great news man i got pardoned for my felonies from 20years ago, i did it mate, im clean and bright future for me just wanted to let ya know homie, be easy friend
Happy for you bro
I am around 15 years on my felonies no more arrests since the case ended what are the steps you take to get them exspunged if you don't mind me asking?
S P R U N G t how can you get pardoned?
Awesome man. I'm so happy for u
@@stockinvestingtrading1014 *Snitchin*
3 years sober from heroin. Thank all the gods. So sorry for your loss. Love your channel. Have it on autoplay.
Drug addiction should not be a criminal issue, it should be a medical/mental health issue.
Totally agree
It is
Here in Indianapolis, cops are more commonly committing people into inpatient hospitals rather than arresting them. They aren't after the user's, they are after the dealers. Its becoming less common for users to get arrested.
Not were I live they hate it I am Irish it's looked down on we're I live with is right but we have little help it's a disgrace
Uhh no. Because addictive people dont give a Fuck and it takes harsh shit to open eyes
I had a CO bringing me water bottles full of vodka.. I'll tell you this, walking from my job back to the block with 4 bottles taped to my lower leg and passing through check points was scary ! Luckily I was cool with the guards from passing them every day for a decade ....
Heroin was hell bro and i wouldn't wish that on my worst enemies. Im sorry for your loss. In the 2 years I've been sober i have had 9 close friends die from that shit. Thanks for sharing your story
Andrew Thompson stay clean brother
Been one for 12years. Soo awful
Andrew Thompson same here man ibtake kratom everyday now i just lost another freind last week shit hurt me so bad when iblost my best freind in 2012 now i just wish i coukd help its savage out here
Been there because of a car wreck and getting hooked on pills. It was hell and ill never forget withdraws. My daughter is my strength. Godbless
I've been clean 6days now. Such a battle. I hate that shit and hope anyone who is addicted find it within themselves to get clean.
My sister passed away 2 years ago from heroin and I've done time just like you man. You're story sounds just like mine. I'm glad I found your channel. It makes me remember all the stories from my time in prison. People don't understand what its like
Hope you’re doing okay🙏🏼💜
This is so freaking real bro. I been a fan for years but this one really hit home man. Definitely can relate to a lot of what you spoke on. I almost died from drugs in May 2022 and spent 4 months in the hospital bc of it. I will never take my life or those that care for me for granted ever again. I'm really hoping I can start a channel to help others. I'm 9 months sober and feels amazing.
relapsed by now lol
I gave 7yrs of my life to the system frist time I ever seen these videos. Would have never known so many ppl where interested in prison stories.
Check out AfterPrisonShow
@@jacobhopkins8702 don't.
My brother died from a herion overdose 1 month ago. I feel your pain. Now a days herion isn't even herion its fentanyl and its street dealers that are dosing it out and have no idea how much a batch has. keep your head up man glad to see you have found youtube.
Joshua Moore This is true...
Joshua Moore im so sorry for your pain...
Jesus is the answer..
God bless you
@@Frank-mc7fj all fent dope in FLA usta be brown fire now all went funny weird Dilaudid type feeling but not good like that.... Way more addictive though as hard as that is to believe, I'm 3 yes clean now but spent 18days in bed the 1st time I got pinched....
Sorry for your loss
True there selling it in tablets that are meant to be Valium xanax in Ireland I laughed when someone told me how they felt I said ur taken bad shit get away
I’m sorry to hear about your brother and your friends in prison. It’s a heartbreak losing someone we are close to. My best friend since I was a toddler OD’d when he was 23. And by the way you are SO RIGHT about wanting to quit. If you do it for your family or your friends it won’t work... you gotta want it... bless up man love these videos coming from a regular white dude like myself. I never been to prison, but I been to jail and I ain’t going back. Thanks for your videos I love em
Lockdown 23and1
I'm so sorry about your brother. Just want you to know, i'm 3 months, 3 weeks off the needle. 31yrs old, shooting since 19, hooked on painkillers since 14. And i mean HOOKED at 14. I've been trying to pass every day, a minute at a time. Just so happens, i started watching your vids recently. So you've been kinda like a wise, new friend whom i've never met. Was thinking of writing Grizzy just to say what up. I've only done a few days in county lockup in my life, but every minute was HELL. Dopesick and freezing. Thank you SO much for your videos bro. Much love my friend.
How did you do it? Get off the needle i mean?
Only asking you cause I began poppin pills at 14, been on the needle for 3 years now... I wanna stop, I juat... won't let myself I guess..
I highly recommend trying kratom to get off opiates. That and exercise helped me a lot. And eating healthy and drinking a lot of water and using magnesium and tyrosine supplements
Much respect to you and I like your videos. I just wanted to send my condolences to you and your family on your brothers passing. Keep up the good work.
Peace!
This ones deep my bro died same way Aug 2017 much respect to you and the channel is great dude.
My mom is a co at a prison in NC and she finds bags of tobacco hanging in the fence all the time. She hates having to be the bad guy because there are some really good people in there for some petty shit. She has never been offered a bribe nor would she use an inmate for any gain. I hate her working there but I do love when she brings home the whole shabang chips though. Love your videos bro. Keep it up.
She coming home with the chips, tell her thanks for the tobacco lol.
She probably makes there lives Hell every chance she gets then comes home with the whole shabang and chips to tell you about it
Them shabangs tho
I think it's awesome how you took your past and everything you've learned from your mistakes and turned it into something positive and your doing something REAL with your life. Your proof that a shady past doesn't define us as people. Keep up the good work man and God bless.
I’m 6 years clean off of H and I’m so grateful and blessed to be clean! It’s not easy to kick that beast but damn is it worth it! I got an amazing family now, a nice home, the best husband in the world and I’m pretty damn spoiled these days! I was homeless and had nothing when I got clean. I feel like a weak person all the time and if I can kick the habit I had man, it’s possible! It isn’t easy but it’s possible. Good luck to anyone out there trying to recover! Please know that you can do it! People do get better!
Congratulations
Congrats
dont forget about how good that heroin made you feel
@@kingab814 sad man wishing people’s down fall . Prayin for ya
Congratulations on your recovery girl!! H is a bitch and a half to get off of.
Recovering Oxycontin and Heroin addict of 6 years! sober since december 12th 2011. One day at a time man
Right there with ya, addiction is such a selfish disease.. You'll lie to yourself and especially lie to your loved ones, just to get your fix. I've been clean for 4 years now. Best decision I've ever made! R.I.P. to everyone who lost their lives to this horrible disease. It really is an epidemic!
B.A.M.F. It’s not a disease it’s a choice
B Mark i dont think u can really speak on it unless you went through it. Opiod addiction is the worst its not as easy as u think to quit. Just try it for yourself
ik i'm very late, and hopefully someone can reply, but i'm just curious, after that long of being sober is it still hard to not go back, or is it like regular life before addiction where you don't even think about it?
@@ajlozano1754 it will never be like life before you were addicted. You will always have it in the back of your mind, any moment of weakness can make you relapse that fast. I'm on methadone so I'm not sober but yeah Ive been through it
I quit about 4 years ago my life has been so much better
I always wondered why anyone would try it in the first place, i'm curious what made you try it, and i'm happy for you being sober
@@Alanaboo912 I was a brutal heroin addict. No real explanation for why I tried it. Everyone knows it’s bad. For me it just kinda happened. People in my friend group did a lot of drugs. Eventually they started doing pain killers and I did em too. It just comes down to being young and dumb. You think it won’t happen to you. Like my 18 year old brain honestly thought I’d be able to dabble with it and not let it ruin my life.
Damn. You are incredibly informative, and you are BLUNT. I love it. Don't know you personally, but I'm proud of you! Keep going with this channel, you're destined for great things. Plus...you're handsome,
YOUR VERY REAL HERE DEATH MUCH RESPECT YOUNG MAN
This video is very personal to me. I watched my aunt pass away from a fentanyl 8 hours after my grandfather passing. I’m sorry to hear about your brother. If you are addicted and having issues with drugs please find help. Your life is worth more then a short feeling of a high.
Sorry for your loss and pain
February 5th was my 10 year anniversary being clean.
Congrats on 11 years today!
Relapse time!
Congrats on 12
CONGRATS
I never want to get locked up your stories are crazy best prison show on youtube
your videos are so dope bro, keep it up, best vibes, hard to find anything on youtube with real essence like this, should have 100x more views and you will, keep em coming and I'm sure you'll reach everything you want to achieve. Real recognise real
Sorry to hear about your brother. I lost my younger brother as well to heroin back in 2004. He was only 25. I was locked up at the time and paroled 14 days after he passed. I was first to find out. He passed away in Puerto Rico and his ex girlfriend in P.R. knew that his brother was locked up( myself). So I was given the news first and had to tell our father over the phone behind bars. I Will NEVER FORGOT that day. I refused to go to his funeral in a cuffs and shackles and I'm forever thankful for my father waiting till I was released almost 3 weeks later on parole to sadly bury my brother. I came to battle that addiction 11 years after his death but I can say that I am clean today and I know that destruction and pain that drug can cause. Thanks for the video and reminder that I need to stay on the right path
Straight up... you NEED to write a book. These stories are incredible.
If I ever do end up in the pen, ain't no way I'm buying weed or dope or anything else. Time to get yourself right and keep the situation neutral. Read your bible and stay outta the shit.
If you'd read the Bible, you'd know that it says that noone is sinless; noone is good. You can read the Bible a million times and still mess up ("sin"). Way to go, falling into the common trap of an atheist trying to tell other people what the bible says! :-)
Amen.
Real talk Amen
Fairytale
Lost my brother too. Drinking and driving. He was 28. Awful. Most painful person I have ever lost in my life.
My cundolances
That's what he gets for drunk driving
@@petermcgeary1684W⚓️
I mean.. He could have just as easily killed an innocent family.. I want to have sympathy for you and the grief you are feeling but I have no sympathy for drunk drivers.
@@Jartran72aww psychopath detected
What’s going on bro I just got off a level 4 yard in California pelican bay to be exact shits on point my boy keep out them gates glad to be out and not be a statistic
707 Cali 🙏🏻get that money mane
hope u still free wodie n that parole ain bring u back
i love how genuine you are man. this is what is the best thing about youtube. I love how real you are and how you are trying to give back. Its helping alot of people... thank you from Kentucky.
I been with you on your videos for over a year thank you for your content bro
20 sum friends od died my friend last week died I been clean 5yrs now
Derek Dick heartbreaking
I'm so proud of you guys for staying clean, 😉 it really lifts my spirits to know people are doing good for themselves!!
Darious Coleman but bro knw it's not easy
Seth Young preciate tht means alot bro
Sorry bout your friends Derek, and your bro Josh.
My bud Rob died on my apt floor from drugs that i gave him. He tried to match my dose, but didn't have the tolerance he needed. I tried CPR etc, in vain. I knew his mom, and had to tell her in person that morning. I beat myself up for a long time over his death. I couldn't sleep, cried constantly, was a complete basketcase. Happened many years ago, but it still hits me at times. Our mutual friends helped me cope. I went clean, post Rob, for two years, but relapsed eventually. I'm trying. ..about to start crying now. I'm out.
I just stumbled on your channel. I love how you turned your life around, you're definitely an inspiriration. Keep it up bro.
Dookie is the shit. I never been to prison but my pops taught me alot. Good vids bro
What a throwback Death lol that intro was an example of how much you have learned and dedicate to your videos
Big salute bro. Glad to see you turning things around from you're past. Condolences 4 you're brother. I lost one of my brothers the same way 3 months after my mom passed away. I found him dead in my bathroom. So I kno the feeling. That was in 2019. So hold ya head up salute from South Philly!!! We see ya
You a chill dude bro I already subscribed
I'm a recovering addict n I can tell u that it's not as easy as telling ppl to stop n unless uv been thru it up never know
Oh i know its not easy i been wanting to quite smokin cigs for years tried so many times but deep down ... the problems is im not really wamting to just yet
+Lockdown 23and1 bro, you should try vaping. It helped me quit smoking. I was on 20 a day for 21 years. I started vaping around April 2017 and it was easy to quit the smokes. Just found ya channel. It's a good watch. :-)
Lockdown 23and1breast cancer at 41. Chantix at 42. It wasn’t easy. I had nausea and nightmares while I took it. I had to quit and I was heavily addicted to nicotine and the habit. 9 years clean from cancer and cigarettes.
just say No! hahaha
So sorry about your brother! I lost my sister 9 yrs ago. I still cry my heart out for her.
This channel is pretty awesome. Good shit brudduh.
my condolences for your lost , i know how it feel's to be addicted to drug's because i've been addicted to pills for seven plus years already & been taking up to 50 pill's a day , i just hope that someday i can stop the addiction before it's too late .
Jonathan Cabrera hope you make it man
What Kyle said, make sure you get suboxone and stay the hell away from methadone at all costs. It's worse than the pills as far as detox. Don't take my word for it, talk to people that are either on it or have been.
I think its too late for you to learn to read and write no goods. You is permanent stupified. 50 pills a day, depending on what it is, isnt that much. We all know percocet is different from oxycontin simply because of acetiminophen. Other than that theyre both oxycodone, one is oxycodone hydrochloride, percocet is oxycodone acetiminophen. Vicodin is norco is hydrocodone. Theyre literally the same thing so again we know norco is vicodin is lortab yadda yadda. Now, if youre taking 2.5 or 5mg, 50 pills is nothing, i can burn through 140 mgs of oxycodone in one sitting, but if youre taking 50 pills of say oxycontin and theyre 30s, then thats quite a bit, i can boot that many in a day no problem but for some people, that amount is nuts. Anyways you spell like ass. Fuckbag.
Suboxone helped me, along with counseling & my local program. Don't wait. Tomorrow might be too late.
Jonathan Cabrera I've been on methadone for about 10 years now. It will save your life...
You talkin some good stuff bro. Good advice to those of us with someone in
It's always a tough call when you're in the moment and someone is the verge overdosing. Because you don't wanna risk them dying, and you also don't wanna get them in trouble for nothing
I always call 911 not gonna let anyone die
Your a real dude. Glad you got your game right and your staying free man! Thanks for advices.
❤❤❤❤❤ 3 years clean here!!! Thanks for sharing your story and putting it out there.
Rip your brother, may he rest in paradise, I lost my brother August 2016 to overdose too
Death, this episode really got me man. I've been addicted to opiots since I was 18, I'm currently 32 and I been through it. I've lost family, friends, and served almost 3 years all county time because of heroin. I would love to tell you my story and what I've been through because of my drug use. I never been to prison but I'm a felon because of a heroin charge, luckily I recently finished my felony probation and was let off early for good behavior. I been locked up in Wisconsin, Texas, and my last 6 months was in Honolulu Hawaii. I would like to tell you about OCCC Oahu Community Correction Center (Oahu county jail).
Drugs have ripped my life and my friends lives completely apart I’m in recovery goin on 5 yrs clean now and life is still difficult as hell but hey man you know what they say “one day at a time” and “easy does it”
Salute to everyone that's fighting the battles of addiction your strength is admirable.
catching up bro top content love from the U.K Jimmy Mathers Bredford U.K xx Bless
You seem so genuine brother
G*59
GREY!
Oh my!! Broke my heart to hear about your brother!! You are super strong for being so open and remaining so positive!! I’m so grateful I found your channel!! Thank you
Another great video!!! Scary as hell to be honest but very informative,,, Keep em coming :)
Advice nobody should ever have to use: when someone is turning blue from OD, start CPR. Their diaphram is literally paralyzed from being SO high. Force the blood to pump, force some fresh air in. Save a life.
Had to do this a few times within a few months to the same person. It’s an eerie feeling to see the look of death staring back at you. I took a CPR class as part of a community event; never did I think I would ever have to actually use it, but I am so thankful for that class.
Yeah, it's a wild feeling watching that spo2 drops like a rock. I've had to breathe for people many times
I'm sorry for your lose brother, love you brother. Keep up the amazing content. Dope ruined my life, guy. 10 years gone, but I survived by the grace of God! And I pray for every active user daily, sometimes twice a day
Sorry about your brother homie!! I just lost my best friend to the game.. Much love to you. Rest up to everyone ever lost to that life...😢
I've been sober about 3 years now, but I recently have been carrying Narcan with me in my bag, just in case. The opiate epidemic in this country is just that...an epidemic!
M. Riggs prayers for a long happy life
M. Riggs yup. I’ve narcaned my brother back to life countless times. The last time I saved him, one of his friends called the ambulance and the cops came and took one of my bottles of narcan. Motherfuckers. I’ve been on the clinic for years and just got down to 15mgs so I’m almost off
Is it legal to carry
@@browndenzel6308 yes! U can get a script from your Dr or pharmacist. Totally legal to carry. I carry at a times, people in my town are dropping left and right.
RIP mike
Sorry for your loss bro
I’m sure he’s watching over you proud of you man
“I could see in his eyes that he was gonna kill me over that tv.”
You a good story teller no wonder you got this channel keep doing what you doing bro
Damn 4 yrs ago and you was still spitting that truth trying to help people SALUTE brother
Was skeptical at first. But ur videos are real in the field man and I respect that. Keep it up G.
Glad to see you growing been a subscriber just little after you started.
Keep it up
Great dragon... every subscriber means somthing try checking 1k comments every morning
8 mg of suboxone is $10 on the streets but $100 inside. Another prison drug I didn't hear you mention is wellbutrin, I've heard it called prison coke.
Aron Roberts shit I must’ve been getting finessed cause I was paying $20 for 8mg suboxone wtf
Chain gang coke is what they called it in county when I was there. Motherfuckers loved that shit, I never understood
@@dwoodard5717 yeah I was one of those mfers, for sure
@@zaytime4156 on Streets?
There’s no words for this, I am so sorry that you had to go through all of this
RIP MIKE 💜
I’m so sorry for all your losses 🙏🏽
Keep doing ur thing I love ur video u tell it how it be not how it mite be just came home off 7years just chilling tryin to get my life back n order
7 yrs ago I met my wife and quit herion cold turkey after a 7 yr addiction starting at 17. RIP all my fallen souljas
cj my fuck bruh...cold turkey? Your a gawt damn legend if thats true. Idk what’s more powerful...the pussy or Heroin...sounds like in your case it was the pussy (no disrespect.) good job dawg
@@myron6305 Love makes a mfrs heart stronger... Puts life back in u again.
@@lucyjane2481 amen to that
You should do a video on how to play prison pinnacle.
I’m clean 18 months from herion. RIP your brother ♥️
Heroin is gnarly! Lucky to be alive! Haven’t touched a rig or dope since 2013. Lost plenty of friends. I have OD 3 times as well, it definitely sucks!
I don’t know why but I have been watching a lot of these videos lately.
I’ve never gotten locked up or really in much trouble(another reason I got clean, you can say I basically got scared straight)
Anyway, these videos you make, are definitely lively! Always enjoy to watch!
Sorry for your loss bro. Your heart's in the right place. Sending love from Hong Kong
Why do i like watching this guy
He did a total of 30 days acts like he did 20 years. Watch out bull shit
@@teddymeyers2345 lmao some people on 30 days in do longer stretches then that XD
Genuine ass guy, gotta show respect to him
Your video's are very informative I'm here to get a better understanding of what my husband is dealing with in Indiana doc.
I heard the suboxone strips are going for 50-100. Crazy!!! Don't do drug's.
Angela Bernier 400 a strip in Maine DOC
Holy fuck I gotta charge more
+813lynch the feds real bro
Ill rex for the unconnected maybe
Angela Bernier my sis was spending 80 for a strip making someone rich. she was also in indiana prison
Your tapes will help so many people very young people going a stray,your tapes just might help them thinking about what their are doing,good work,I am 62,what you say rock and shocks me,you have lived it,but this is real life,and same people need to hear it,you tell it just the way it is,I could listen to you,all day,I have never seen this side of live,thank god because it can happen to any body,or any age,just one wrong turn,you tell it as facts.....
I really enjoy your vids bro, good stuff. Very informative. You remind me of my big homie who did 20 yrs on a life sentence and got released on an appeal. He likes talking about his experiences and I enjoy listening. Been binging on your channel since I found it.Subbed! Anyway, you gave some very good advice on paying off a loved ones debts once, but never again in prison. You never know what kind of jam they can be in with whoever, especially if it's the dope man. Unlike the streets it's very easy to find dealers who will cuff you dope just to turn around and extort you. And with prices being outrageous inside the debt owed will rack up quickly(1 gram of heroin is $500!! Compared to $50 on the streets in Colorado). You made a very valid point, you could be saving someone's life, as long as it's made clear to them that it'll be a one time only thing and they'll have at least a chance now to get clean on their own . Also, my condolences on the loss of your brother to such a terrible addiction that has robbed so many of us of so much.
I'm with you ,younger days I can't live those days any more finely got smart i always say moving forward
Bro how did you forget suboxone. That’s the most popular drug in jail
Which is crazy seeing as how you get no feeling from it. It only makes it so muscle relaxers don't effect you, and give you withdrawal effects if you try.
Is it because of ease of access?
**speaking from experience unlike most speculators in this video's thread**
@@falseshepherd-490 Yeah I can't imagine how Suboxone could be a drug of abuse. But it is. Enough people were shooting it up that now they only provide outpatient preparations of buprinorphen mixed with naltrexone to give you the dopesicks from hell if you try to snort it/shoot it. I also hear about people looking to score methadone on the street. Not like addicts who are just trying to keep from getting dopesick 'cause they're broke or couldn't find what they actually wanted. But, like, to get high. Non-junkies want to sip a little with their drink at the party. I wonder if it's a placebo thing. Or maybe it does do a little something if you do not have a tolerance - I wouldn't know on that point.
False Shepherd- when I was like 15 we use to snort either subutex or suboxone which ever is for pregnant girls etc lol but you would nod tf out off a lor bump frm doin subs perk 30s expensive especially at 15 so that’s what we did but yea definitely got us high puking and nodded tf out
If you are naive on opiates....ie your not physically dependent on opiates...SUBOXONE will fuck you up more than any other opiate! Buprenorphine is a very strong opiate.
@@falseshepherd-490 you def get a feeling from it lol
You need to write a book dogs
Dixon Gonzalez hell yes I’ll buy it
Dixon G aye bruh you from the Bronx ?
Good vids bro! Im from Finland and I have been in few prisons here, its funny to compare these cultures. Keep it up!
I have learned a shitload from this channel,I have mad respect for this man.
Yo I lived right behind st brides I could see the yard from my back yard in Chesapeake off Indian creek Rd
Anyone reading this SEEK help before someone turns blue please as soon as the nod gets intense 911
FRANKCA1N3ENTERTAINMEMT real shit I leaned this the hard way when I was 19
Pussy. Let a MF nod that's what they paid for
Recovering heroin addict from the Pittsburgh area, sorry about your bro homie!
ChRiS BrAdDoCk33 what part of the burgh ? I'm Greenfield .
Where tf is that? I'm from wilkinsburg
Sup 412 im from the port
Satans red balloon
Sorry that you lost your brother. I’m a big fan of your channel I’ve never been locked up but think it’s important to understand the game in case one day I do. God bless you
Hey death, one of your best videos man, I love that you keep it real and admit your doings to the world, great video.
Your a good soul man,I can tell people, your a good cat
Jason Pettit 🐈
U make me wana get clean
U can do it
What yu addicted too mayne you botta break from it theres a better life
I hope you are clean now brother
Jessis John you can do it
Don't want... Do it!!! Positive mental picture of your self not using. Your smart, you can do it.
I’m a recovering heroin addict An been clean for five years I take methadone but it works for me
Douglas Winans same bro....good work. Just came down from 180 to 15mgs
Awesome just remember to taper down whenever you're ready to get off the Methadone...
u got a big heart death.. that's a great quality don't ever lose it!!
That story just broke me down I am an x heroin attic since 2007 your a good man death keep preaching to these kids and men are listening too we are never to old to learn
Lockdown 23and 1 - Hey man I'm really sorry about your brother, that's really fucked up. He was waaaaay too young to pass on. I was on it a long time ago. I've got almost 20 years clean now, by the grace of God. I just found you- LOVE your content and how real you are about this stuff. _I think people should be allowed to use heroin in prison._ If the state paid for it, supervised it AND administered it- for anyone who wants to commit suicide slowly or quickly- it would save the state an insane amount of money each year compared to the cost to house that person for the next 10, 20 + years. Obviously most people don't want to die, but so many junkies inside and out are passively suicidal- Like if I don't wake up oh well. Methadone is ok but there's no rush and a "shitty-slow-onset,-long-lasting-kinda-feel-a-little-bit-high-but-it's-no-comparison-to-H-high". No easy answer for a chronic multi dimensional problem, but some government has to try something new, cos the old rules just don't work. Peace and Love, Miss T.
Drugs are bad m'kay
Henry Marckisotto South Park
Jaime G well done
I’m a dope addict.. recovering though.. I’m on methadone ... whatever, it works ...
Its_just_chris 1990 your lucky to be alive
Not really recovering if you are on methadone though are u. You are just putting a band aid on instead of fixing the problem
@@jamiej7177 no, not at all.
@its just chris dont listen to that !! If ur not on the streets and ur lifes getting better and u aint doing dope then u ARE recovering girl keep it up ma!!! Godbless
As long as your soul/spirit is healing, your doing well .Your Beautiful smile, be beautiful inside.10yrs clean from 120 oxys.
Yo.. you are a very smart person. You've got so much life experience and wisdom. You're a great speaker, too. And you been through a lot from what I've heard. I support you and your a good influence and even better educator. Stay on the straight and narrow man. Much respect to you. 💪
This goes hard, Josh. That knowledge you dropped about h was the most passionate and real shit I ever heard you say.
50$ for an 1/2 a Suboxone and it will rock ya socks off after not having anything in ur system
@Jason Eder Haha ok Mr. Wikipedia that doesn't matter. You obviously have never done suboxone but its strong and you will feel it big time especially after not doing anything for a while.
You really do though I was in jail for two weeks Nd it took them over a week to get my subs Nd they ended up giving me subutex oh man I was flyinggg compared to me before they gave it to me feelin like my back was broken, but I don’t feel anything taking my daily dose regularly
But fuuuuck dude I pay 5$ for a prescription of 30 on the out! 😂
Stay away from opiates everyone. It’s not worth it.
Get into LSD or Magic Mushrooms or Weed
Party with safe stuff Opiates beats u
I'm on suboxone for years. When I was locked up and had nothing in my system for months.. a dime of suboxone ( one miligram) will rock your world.