I actually REALLY like how you called them “sick clothes” it takes away a lot of the positivity I attached to them and makes me feel better about turning a new leaf. It makes me want to throw them away even more rather than hold onto them ❤️
You know, one thing I realized in recovery is all the way I kept thinking oh alright I'm scared I'll always want the higher calorie chocolate bar (to take your example), but then once you're really recovering it's not that you'll stop 'always wanting the higher calorie chocolate bar' necessarily, it's that you'll actually stop caring which one is the higher calorie chocolate bar.
Love, love, love, love this video. THANK YOU! You are so generous, so real. Clothes have no life, they can't hug us, kiss us, support us. Only people can do that. Clothes are a distraction, that's all.
I am SO proud of you. That was not an easy task to do. However, you did it. Look at how far you have come. Clothes hold this special place in our hearts. Like our illness holds onto us. You threw those clothes away like you are throwing your illness away. Yiu are done with both of them. Takes alot of courage. I will do the same. Instead, of giving mine away, I want to burn them in a fire. For me that represents burning my illness. It's dead to me. This sort of illness is never easy, however with good family, a strong support system, and knowing we are never alone can make the journey easier. Keep on! Keep going! You've got this❤❤
This couldn’t have come at a more perfect time! As the season changes over by me, Im pulling out new clothes to find that they no longer fit from last year. Something I’ve been really struggling with for the past few weeks! So happy that you are letting go of the past! Very touching video that I am going to be watching again as the new week begins!😊 💙
Heather 657 ahhhhh bless you. It’s a necessary step in getting your life back. Some one else wrote out with the old (clothes) & in with the new (life). Hope you can throw them out 👊
I gave away 3 bags of my anorexic clothes yesterday, and I’m feeling huge regret about it today. It’s like I’ve lost my security blanket. I sure this feeling fades...
This summer I had to throw away so much clothes without even trying it on bc I didn’t want to see how much bigger I got.... I know that I have gained a lot but seeing old clothes on me is so traumatizing... it’s almost like “wow look what have you done to your body”... “just a few months ago you were much smaller”.... gaining weight is the hardest part for me .... gaining a lot of weight quickly and on a pretty low calories still can’t be justified in my head and it’s so hard to get used to new body especially that I don’t really feel any better physically and have body aches and pains, nausea, headaches, low energy ... nothing has changed but much bigger body.... I don’t know if I ever gonna feel happy and healthy... maybe 30 years of abuse can’t be completely fixed and it makes me kind of depressed... oh well I just have to hang in there and hopefully this day will come 😊
lena jazuk My friend fully reovered after 40 years of ED! it took a long time and it was not easy- she overshot her weight but now is losing even though she's eating unrestricted. She's 55 and said she's honestly never been happier or felt better. - You can do it too. xx
Ella Thank you so much for your response I really hate the way I look right now and can’t imagine getting any bigger as being already borderline overweight... also I feel so tired most of the time, depressed and everything is hurting and that’s what keeping me stuck... I don’t even get excited about food anymore so I hope something will change for the better over time
+lena jazuk It's so hard isn't it? I feel like everyone on the Internet goes from being way to skinny to looking perfect! I don't know how big you are so is it possible it's your ED hating the weight gain? for me I have edema and bloating - which I understand are normal (but horrible) parts of recovery and would make anyone feel huge. Lots of love to you. x
This was SUPER hard for me too. Once i had them in bags..someone else went to the donation center for me. I'm very proud of you Megsy!! Hard day. I completely understand . Have a blast in NY. YOU deserve it!! Xoxo
Great vid - I hated getting rid of my 'sick-clothes' as I felt I was letting myself down - had failed to keep at a certain weight and was therefore wasting the money I had spent on the clothes. As I have got better I now know how stupid this thinking is and instead, like to keep in-mind, the people/charities I will have helped in donating them. You are not the only one who has a cupboard full of Calcious due to osteo at 30 because of years of abusing my poor body!! Take care and keep going x
I’m just about to throw out clothes that I know will no longer feel comfortable for me, and it’s so hard but it has to be done. Thanks for sharing your life, you’re such a support. All love ❤️🙏🏻
Elise De Savornin Lohman I cried a lot. But it doesn’t matter, you can cry. That’s ok. Nothing will happen from crying long term.... but keeping hold of bits of your ED will be bad long term 😘😘
Thanks so much for sharing this with such raw emotion & honesty. It has helped me face up to things and I am sure it will help a lot of people. Well done xxx
I properly welled up at this mate - so proud of you! I’m gonna head upstairs now and do the same. It’s time. I’ve put it off long enough now. Thank you for sharing this with us and inspiring me to take the plunge and do the same. This has been something I’ve been putting off and off because I’m not ready but like you say.... you’ll never be ready. If not now when?! X
Megsy Recovery I got part way through then came across a particular dress that I bought when I was in the height of my illness. It cost over 100 quid and I remember that rush when I was able to put it on and it fit with a bit of breathing room. It was last Christmas, and I just absolutely broke down in tears and had to stop for now - I think this is going to have to be a phased approach for me. Il Chuck the stuff I’ve already separated out on the way to work this morning, then get cracking again after work with some other bits. I think that dress is gonna have to be the last to go. It’s so weird how you can get this deeply upset over some clothes that no longer fit and don’t allow you to live a healthy life. You know it logically but there’s nothing logical about crying over pieces of fabric!!! I feel like such an idiot. BUT step one is to get rid of what I have been able to do so that’s part way there! Going to take photos to document the moment! X
Sophie Ward well good for you. That’s why I asked because the same thing happened to me. You’re so clear on what you need to do until it comes to doing it, & then all the thoughts, guilt, fears flood in. So annoying isn’t it. It really helped me to think about what those clothes represent, who I have to be to fit them, what life I have to live. & not be tricked by the “but you were so happy in it”. Anyway well done. Good luck. Keep trying. Don’t leave a little foot in the door 😘😘😘
Megsy Recovery I think you’re right. Give it an inch it’ll take ten miles so I need to make sure I’m clear that the dress goes in the next few days. I’m all about knowing my limits with things but I guess you just can’t trust your own judgement with things like this?
Sophie Ward yeh & also it can only hold you back. I really see stuff like that as prison walls our boundaries. As long as we hold on to them we can only recover to a certain point. So proud of you chick, honestly 💛
Meg, thank you for sharing this raw vulnerable yet brave video. I am so proud of you for letting go of old clothes that had made you hold on to...!! Old clothes just make anxiety level escalate. of course our bodies are getting to closer to the healthy state and thus grow. It is healthy thing but we are triggered getting "bigger" and growing in clothes... the solution is..., to get rid of the old clothes making us uncomfortable and hindering out recovery journey and to buy new ones!! You are doing very good< Meg!! I support you always.
So inspiring I could cry. YOU AMAZE ME! Your honesty about the shit feelings in recovery is refreshing, and seeing you challenge the discomfort and doing what's right for the future you want anyways is beyond inspiring.
THANK YOU Megsy.... I have this ONE person...she is SO triggering for me...but until now, I have not been able to stay away from her.... Take care, you are gorgeous!!
You are so freaking strong! Its obvious how much you struggle with all these obstacles that you manage to beat over and over. Sending love from Sweden, cheering for you!
Loved this & so relatable! Don't ever apologise for being so open & raw & vulnerable, it feels like such a gift to me watching you expressing emotions that I can relate to. Most of my clothes no longer fit. It was very hard to toss them, but also I was practically living in my pajamas lol as I've had to gain a fair amount of weight (and still working towards weight restoration) and looking at those clothes just made me sad, I was and never will be meant to be a size XXXS and had suppressed my natural body weight for so long, I don't ever want to be that size again! 😍
High five girlfriend! I'm so proud of you!! Your honesty and vulnerability are so real and refreshing! Yes, it IS sometimes shit in recovery, but you are DOING it! Woo-hooooooo!
So first off.... GOOD FUCKING JOB!!! Like for real girl, you are doing incredible!!! You are always so wonderfully and refreshingly open and honest about your recovery, and its beautiful to see how far you've come!!! I would LOVE to see you do a video on things you've discovered/rediscovered you love, and or are passionate about now, that you weren't before because of your disorder. I personally have found this to be the most EXCITING thing about recovery, having real and true curiosity and fascination in life 😊 Wonderful video as always, sending lots of good vibes your way!
Shelby Piwetz maybe a bit down the line I could do this, I struggle with it a bit. What sort of things have you found? I’ve found a lot more things interesting, but haven’t properly built up new interests yet
@@megsyrecovery191I've always been a lover of art, so for me, getting my imagination back and being able to actually draw from my mind for the first time in years, is incredible! I've started playing with cosmetics and face paints more, and just being as super creative as my mind will let me be. I'm discovering how much I care about my community, and finding ways to get more involved. I'm going out to flee markets to people watch and find strange items with even stranger stories! I am just opening myself up to every oppurtunity I can/whatever sounds interesting, even if it seems boring. Like fishing, I'm terrible at it, but I'm enjoying it:) If you've ever had any old hobbies, or enjoyed collecting something, or anything, revisit it! Rediscover those passions, it may lead to new ones:)
I can totally relate to this! You are so right - without throwing those clothes away you can’t fully let go of your eating disorder - you deserve to go and live your life the way you want to! I remember when I threw out all of my old clothes that didn’t fit me - it was horrendous! I felt crap at the time but now that I have done it - it’s a huge weight lifted! Hope you are having a lovely evening with your friends lovely! You deserve it! Lots of love!
Meg, you are so strong and brave for doing that! I am in the process of doing that now as well. Yes getting rid of the sick clothes is hard, but you gain so much more back! It's just another step out of the darkness. Keep rocking your recovery! Love your videos!
I remember going through this exact scenario and to see such a raw portrayal of what it's truly like Is absolutely phenomenal. You are so strong and honestly my inspiration for recovery, I love following your journey:)
Ughh this is something I definitely should do as well😢 you're right, my first thought is that they might fit me again one day.... but I don't want them to at the same time !!!
You are so strong and brave. Such an inspiration to me!!! We can so appreciate how strong you are to have done this and all of these other huge steps in your recovery!!
So proud of you!! Thanks for sharing!! I could just feel the anguish you were in!! I’ve been there and it is SOOO hard!! Hope you had a fantastic time with your friends!! Much love to you!!
you should be so proud of yourself. I've never struggled with an eating disorder but i do struggle with an anxiety disorder and a lot of what you say and feel is transferrable to my life. so thank you!
This is my favourite video of yours so far, it actually brought tears to my eyes. You are a true inspiration and I hope you are proud of how far you have come in your journey. Thank you for sharing your experiences, each video helps me push myself a little further in the battle to health and happiness ♡
Thanks for the video Meg! I can totally relate to the pain of throwing out old clothes. You're right. It's not just the ones that don't fit anymore. It's the ones that fit differently and remind you of a time that you were smaller that are so triggering! I'm really proud of you for taking this step as I can see from the video how hard it was for you. You're amazing. Keep it up!
Big hugs!💛 I nodded my head yes through out the entire video. So much work but so worth it. I’ve been slowly doing this one bag at a time for a while now. It’s a slow process in the right direction!!!! Thank you for this vlog💛
Love your channel ❤️ this one hit so close to home. I have clothes that don’t fit me and letting go and not holding because I might need them again is not a good reason to hold on to them but like you said it’s so hard to let go.
Diana Carranco so so hard, but if they’re not your natural size then no good can come from holding on to them! You’ll have to ruin your life to fit them! Throw them 👊👊👊
Meg what helpful advice! I wish I had been on it sooner-staying one step ahead. The whole clothes issue has triggered many relapses for me. Giving clothes away to charity has helped me-to know some woman will find some pleasure and hopefully have a better relationship with them.Our minds can really trick us into romanticizing the past that never existed. I still have a few items I need to part with. Thank you for giving me courage.
God, I had so many of those teeny tiny clothes that eventually I had to get rid of. I even wore my daughter’s age 11-12 yr clothes at the height ( or depths) of my illness. I had similar feelings to you... but as I was packing them up, the overwhelming memory was one of starving hunger. I could remember where and when I’d worn them, and always came the memory of “ crikey, I remember being so hungry that day”. That is no life.
💫One of the hardest lessons in life is Letting go.... Change is never easy.... We fight to hold on BUT WE KNOW WE MUST FIGHT TO LET GO 🎈🎈🎈🎈Meg I adore you, I see so much strength here! I felt your tears 😔😢 You breathe life upon us, so proud 🙏🏻 Beautiful so proud xxxx💫
You're incredible Meg!! This video is so raw and relatable and this is such a big but necessary step for recovery! Can remember the struggle of having to do the same thing and the mental battle it entailed, but youre completely right- fitting those clothes means sacrificing your life which is defintiely not worth it! Hope you enjoyed your night round your friends- lots of love! x
Well done darling, moving on! I've donated a bunch of clothes as well, just unsustainable, our mental health is much more important than anything else! Keep it up! Lots of love to you and the community😘
I sort of did this months ago, I got rid of stuff I knew I could but in a box under my bed are a bunch of clothes that I know no longer fit me but I just love them and couldn't bring myself to get rid of them. I am unsure if this is okay to do, it felt like a nice medium for me. The clothes are out of sight but they aren't fully gone. It's weird because I know I won't wear them again and I don't intend to do so yet I can't seem to get rid. Just watching you get rid of your's made me want to cry because you talking about moderately recovery got me thinking that maybe I need to take this brave step too. And just get them out the house completely. I seem to be gaining weight fast! And it is so scary. I've gone up 2 dress sizes in less than 6 months and I feel so heart broken because I was told this wouldn't happen and it has! I have found myself in a total identity crisis as a result. I no longer know what I like wearing or anything and find I still wear baggy, gross stuff to hide myself. I would love to hear about any similar experience you may have had over this. You're so encouraging to watch! Thank you for doing your videos.
I know how hard it is to get rid of old clothes. I'm proud you did this! It maybe sounds stupid to people who never had an eating disorder. It took me weeks until I finally was able to give my old pants away. I still have some dresses and T-shirts which doesn't really fit me anymore, but I know there's no point in keeping them. I don't plan on fitting them again. Lots of love to you as well ❤
Thank you so much for bringing up this topic, Meg, even though it looks like it's difficult for you!❤ It's really hard to let go of the memory of our old body size, it is to me at least... I still fit in my clothes, my size hasn't change yet and it makes me very anxious to think "when will this change happen?!" 😩
Hi Meg. For me my clothes which are more fit are not so bad like my face. Gaining weight in other parts of the body is not so difficult to stand like my chubby face. I have always had round shape of face, cheeks but now it's really chubby and everyone see that. For me it's very embarrassing and I hate it so much. Especially last weeks are difficult because I put on weight. I want to give up and decrease my food. I admire you, your fight, you are so strong. It is so exhausting. Thank you so much for being such a wonderful person 🤗
Good job, dear Meg. I'm proud of you. I have certain clothes I can't wear.. But throwing them out, it's so so hard.. I also have a really hard time buying new clothes..
So brave! All of the cons to restricting that you named are the many reasons why young people should not begin to diet. It’s such a confusing decision to make. I am struggling with the exact thing. I have a bag of clothing ready to donate and some others that I’m still on the fence about. I always keep a few extra smaller clothes “just in case.” You bring up a lot of good points in that it was not my normal set point weight. So why am I keeping the clothes? Time to let go of material things and sizes our “future” body “might fit into.” Thanks for this video and much luck to you!
Oh my goodness - I was literally just supposed to be doing the same this weekend! But I’m ashamed to say I put it off again- but going to try again today now! It’s just the worst instrument of self torture and yet we hold onto it as some kind of horrible safety net. Like you, I have kept clothes from a previous relapse and I really think that was (in your words 😉) letting anorexia keep a foot in the door... even if clothes fit but look and feel different it is so triggering. I threw out my scales ages ago but I think old clothes are not that different somehow. Today then! Thank you for the motivation as always xxxxxxxxxxx
OMG you're the most amazing inspiration ever. THANK YOU. just discovered your RUclips-channel. Like really, 15 minutes ago 🙈 so much love to you from Germany ❤💫
I’ve got some charity bags ready for my clothes when I no longer fit them. I’ve held on to all the clothes I had when I was healthy (I relapsed after full recovery).
I didnt realize I probably had anorexia until recently. I've been gaining weight since I got a divorce, about 20lbs. At my sickest I was 111lbs at 5'8...and I didnt even know I was starving myself, I was just so unhappy in an abusive marriage. I was tired all the time and didnt know why. I have always loved and collected vintage clothing but now I cant fit into my favorite dresses. It makes me so upset but its stupid because I know its "good" for me.
Letting go is soooo damn hard - even when its 100 % the right thing. It's like breaking up with someone even though the relationship is completely toxic - When something has been part of your life for so long it's always going to be emotional. You did brilliantly! loads of love xoxo
You did great!!!! shit to the illness and the old clothes!!! And... besides...your new clothes is also very tiny and small, is illness which says the oppossite!! you're strong!!
Holding on to ones former Anorexic clothes, leaves the door open for the ED to come back into your life. I know this too; one needs a clean slate to promote your freedom from the ED. it is, as you say, distressing to hold on to the smaller clothes and know that you are developing a healthier body. I love that cat of your. Having a pet or two in your life when you are battling a vicious ED is a massive help in the road to recovery. I guess you have to anethatise your mind when you are about to get rid of smaller sized clothes. You have the right thing. You will be freer; perhaps guilty and fearful at first, but it'll be a weight of your shoulders. I hope you enjoyed your takeaway meal. I'd love to have dinner with you as a friend but that would be difficult as we're both in different countries!!
I usually don’t respond to videos, but what the heck; I really wanted to let you know that I think you are so brave and strong! Thanks for this helpful vlog (being one step ahead and never wanting to fit in those tiny clothes again really clicked with me). You don’t know me so it feels a bit weird to say this but I’m so proud of you. Keep up the good fight 💪🏼 Btw: your cat is adorable!
My relapses were probably caused by trying on the old clothes. Even those clothes that weren't necessarily small, just fit different and it 's noticeable. Congrats on throwing them out!
So relate to!! I recently had a really bad relapse, and I just bought tinnnnnyyy skinny jeans two weeks ago... I felt so hard to let go and gain weight... one of the reason is because I will waste the money on those two jeans... I only wore them out once... how can I let go of?
Good for you, I Need some help, but just a day at a Time, I am so happy and proud of YOU! Can I tell you something I got ride of 6 black bin bags and 3 under-drawers boxes most of all my clothes But they were to sizes ti big, as I thought I was to fat for clothes that I bought and in my head I was to small for everything I was never those sizes but my brain was saying that you no you are so fat and if you buy the size that fits you you will look awful! I never realised this! PS. love your Vlogs Take Care, Only been watching for a month or two but love your style of Vlogs!!! Please Take CareXx.
Haha I am there for work, but if i get a chance I will try to record something. maybe a big bagel or american pancakes for breakfast. That's what I am excited about :)
Remember meg, they are just clothes! They mean nothing in proportion to the size and depth of your life. Your life is what’s precious, not the clothing!
Dear Meg, you help me so much in my recovery but there is a question: how do you break habits without going crazy? Like eating times and stuff.. I still struggle with that.. Maybe you done already a vid to that - if yes I surely watched it but can you give me more advice?
Nothing about recovery is easy we have to fight the monster everyday but you are doing fantastic and should be really proud of yourself I wish I could be more like you and by the way I think you look amazing and you can put a lot more weight on and still look slim ( not that my comment will help you because ed will tell you something different as he always does the Wanker) but I am honestly telling you the truth keep up the good work
You did it girl, so proud of you! Totally know what it feels like, this thought battle with the ED. Remember it wasn't you that was happy with these old clothes, it made the ED happy. Now it is time to make the real you happy and live your life! I am still avoiding to buy new clothes, I feel quickly guilty about spending money, especially since I don't know where my body will end up eventually. I don't know my 'style' anymore and I don't like looking at myself. What helps you when you buy new clothes and do you do exercises to watch yourself (not checking yourself of course, but just being able to look at yourself in the mirror)? I was wondering if you work on this with your psychologist. For now, well done and thanks for being so inspirational. I hope you enjoyed your evening with friends, so much more important than clothes sizes!
I totally get it.. its like in your head a backup. But the only thing i find hard is i cant see your weight gain? But if you said you have then well done x
Gery H. Mars bars are more chewy caramel nougat without the nuts..... But like all packaging says may have traces of nuts...I love snickers cause they have peanuts in them. Similar... OMG Had snickers bar yesterday 😋
I feel like throwing away 'sick' clothes has so much emotional connection, you did a really great thing! Congratulations!
Chia Fairy 😘
I actually REALLY like how you called them “sick clothes” it takes away a lot of the positivity I attached to them and makes me feel better about turning a new leaf. It makes me want to throw them away even more rather than hold onto them ❤️
I think this is one of those times when the cliché "Your future self will thank you," really fits. Thank you for sharing your bravery.
You know, one thing I realized in recovery is all the way I kept thinking oh alright I'm scared I'll always want the higher calorie chocolate bar (to take your example), but then once you're really recovering it's not that you'll stop 'always wanting the higher calorie chocolate bar' necessarily, it's that you'll actually stop caring which one is the higher calorie chocolate bar.
Chia Fairy mmmmm good point!!!! That will be nice, when food is just food. Not a number 😋
Love, love, love, love this video. THANK YOU! You are so generous, so real. Clothes have no life, they can't hug us, kiss us, support us. Only people can do that. Clothes are a distraction, that's all.
Love and appreciate the realness of this!! xoxoxo
I am SO proud of you. That was not an easy task to do. However, you did it. Look at how far you have come. Clothes hold this special place in our hearts. Like our illness holds onto us. You threw those clothes away like you are throwing your illness away. Yiu are done with both of them. Takes alot of courage. I will do the same. Instead, of giving mine away, I want to burn them in a fire. For me that represents burning my illness. It's dead to me. This sort of illness is never easy, however with good family, a strong support system, and knowing we are never alone can make the journey easier. Keep on! Keep going! You've got this❤❤
This couldn’t have come at a more perfect time! As the season changes over by me, Im pulling out new clothes to find that they no longer fit from last year. Something I’ve been really struggling with for the past few weeks! So happy that you are letting go of the past! Very touching video that I am going to be watching again as the new week begins!😊 💙
Heather 657 ahhhhh bless you. It’s a necessary step in getting your life back. Some one else wrote out with the old (clothes) & in with the new (life). Hope you can throw them out 👊
I gave away 3 bags of my anorexic clothes yesterday, and I’m feeling huge regret about it today. It’s like I’ve lost my security blanket. I sure this feeling fades...
This summer I had to throw away so much clothes without even trying it on bc I didn’t want to see how much bigger I got.... I know that I have gained a lot but seeing old clothes on me is so traumatizing... it’s almost like “wow look what have you done to your body”... “just a few months ago you were much smaller”.... gaining weight is the hardest part for me .... gaining a lot of weight quickly and on a pretty low calories still can’t be justified in my head and it’s so hard to get used to new body especially that I don’t really feel any better physically and have body aches and pains, nausea, headaches, low energy ... nothing has changed but much bigger body.... I don’t know if I ever gonna feel happy and healthy... maybe 30 years of abuse can’t be completely fixed and it makes me kind of depressed... oh well I just have to hang in there and hopefully this day will come 😊
lena jazuk My friend fully reovered after 40 years of ED! it took a long time and it was not easy- she overshot her weight but now is losing even though she's eating unrestricted. She's 55 and said she's honestly never been happier or felt better. - You can do it too. xx
Ella
Thank you so much for your response
I really hate the way I look right now and can’t imagine getting any bigger as being already borderline overweight... also I feel so tired most of the time, depressed and everything is hurting and that’s what keeping me stuck... I don’t even get excited about food anymore so I hope something will change for the better over time
I feel exactly like this too! It completely sucks to feel this dreadful all the time but hopefully things improve for us. :)
+lena jazuk It's so hard isn't it? I feel like everyone on the Internet goes from being way to skinny to looking perfect! I don't know how big you are so is it possible it's your ED hating the weight gain? for me I have edema and bloating - which I understand are normal (but horrible) parts of recovery and would make anyone feel huge. Lots of love to you. x
This was SUPER hard for me too. Once i had them in bags..someone else went to the donation center for me. I'm very proud of you Megsy!! Hard day. I completely understand . Have a blast in NY. YOU deserve it!! Xoxo
Amanda Fallon yeh I contemplated giving them to bren. If I wasn’t doing the video I would have
Great vid - I hated getting rid of my 'sick-clothes' as I felt I was letting myself down - had failed to keep at a certain weight and was therefore wasting the money I had spent on the clothes. As I have got better I now know how stupid this thinking is and instead, like to keep in-mind, the people/charities I will have helped in donating them. You are not the only one who has a cupboard full of Calcious due to osteo at 30 because of years of abusing my poor body!! Take care and keep going x
I’m just about to throw out clothes that I know will no longer feel comfortable for me, and it’s so hard but it has to be done. Thanks for sharing your life, you’re such a support. All love ❤️🙏🏻
I 100% relate to the tiny buzz. Thanks again for the video. You are amazing
This made me so emotional. You're so awesome Meg
Holy crap this makes me want to cry... i know i have to do this but it’s just so hard.. you’ve inspired me so much!
Okay i tried not to cry and failed horribly... you’re incredible!
Elise De Savornin Lohman I cried a lot. But it doesn’t matter, you can cry. That’s ok. Nothing will happen from crying long term.... but keeping hold of bits of your ED will be bad long term 😘😘
Thanks so much for sharing this with such raw emotion & honesty. It has helped me face up to things and I am sure it will help a lot of people. Well done xxx
I properly welled up at this mate - so proud of you! I’m gonna head upstairs now and do the same. It’s time. I’ve put it off long enough now. Thank you for sharing this with us and inspiring me to take the plunge and do the same. This has been something I’ve been putting off and off because I’m not ready but like you say.... you’ll never be ready. If not now when?! X
Megsy Recovery I got part way through then came across a particular dress that I bought when I was in the height of my illness. It cost over 100 quid and I remember that rush when I was able to put it on and it fit with a bit of breathing room. It was last Christmas, and I just absolutely broke down in tears and had to stop for now - I think this is going to have to be a phased approach for me. Il Chuck the stuff I’ve already separated out on the way to work this morning, then get cracking again after work with some other bits. I think that dress is gonna have to be the last to go. It’s so weird how you can get this deeply upset over some clothes that no longer fit and don’t allow you to live a healthy life. You know it logically but there’s nothing logical about crying over pieces of fabric!!! I feel like such an idiot. BUT step one is to get rid of what I have been able to do so that’s part way there! Going to take photos to document the moment! X
Sophie Ward well good for you. That’s why I asked because the same thing happened to me. You’re so clear on what you need to do until it comes to doing it, & then all the thoughts, guilt, fears flood in. So annoying isn’t it. It really helped me to think about what those clothes represent, who I have to be to fit them, what life I have to live. & not be tricked by the “but you were so happy in it”. Anyway well done. Good luck. Keep trying. Don’t leave a little foot in the door 😘😘😘
Megsy Recovery I think you’re right. Give it an inch it’ll take ten miles so I need to make sure I’m clear that the dress goes in the next few days. I’m all about knowing my limits with things but I guess you just can’t trust your own judgement with things like this?
Sophie Ward yeh & also it can only hold you back. I really see stuff like that as prison walls our boundaries. As long as we hold on to them we can only recover to a certain point. So proud of you chick, honestly 💛
Meg, thank you for sharing this raw vulnerable yet brave video. I am so proud of you for letting go of old clothes that had made you hold on to...!! Old clothes just make anxiety level escalate. of course our bodies are getting to closer to the healthy state and thus grow. It is healthy thing but we are triggered getting "bigger" and growing in clothes... the solution is..., to get rid of the old clothes making us uncomfortable and hindering out recovery journey and to buy new ones!! You are doing very good< Meg!! I support you always.
So inspiring I could cry. YOU AMAZE ME! Your honesty about the shit feelings in recovery is refreshing, and seeing you challenge the discomfort and doing what's right for the future you want anyways is beyond inspiring.
THANK YOU Megsy....
I have this ONE person...she is SO triggering for me...but until now, I have not been able to stay away from her....
Take care, you are gorgeous!!
You are so freaking strong! Its obvious how much you struggle with all these obstacles that you manage to beat over and over. Sending love from Sweden, cheering for you!
Loved this & so relatable! Don't ever apologise for being so open & raw & vulnerable, it feels like such a gift to me watching you expressing emotions that I can relate to. Most of my clothes no longer fit. It was very hard to toss them, but also I was practically living in my pajamas lol as I've had to gain a fair amount of weight (and still working towards weight restoration) and looking at those clothes just made me sad, I was and never will be meant to be a size XXXS and had suppressed my natural body weight for so long, I don't ever want to be that size again! 😍
High five girlfriend! I'm so proud of you!! Your honesty and vulnerability are so real and refreshing! Yes, it IS sometimes shit in recovery, but you are DOING it! Woo-hooooooo!
So first off....
GOOD FUCKING JOB!!! Like for real girl, you are doing incredible!!! You are always so wonderfully and refreshingly open and honest about your recovery, and its beautiful to see how far you've come!!!
I would LOVE to see you do a video on things you've discovered/rediscovered you love, and or are passionate about now, that you weren't before because of your disorder.
I personally have found this to be the most EXCITING thing about recovery, having real and true curiosity and fascination in life 😊
Wonderful video as always, sending lots of good vibes your way!
Shelby Piwetz maybe a bit down the line I could do this, I struggle with it a bit. What sort of things have you found? I’ve found a lot more things interesting, but haven’t properly built up new interests yet
@@megsyrecovery191I've always been a lover of art, so for me, getting my imagination back and being able to actually draw from my mind for the first time in years, is incredible! I've started playing with cosmetics and face paints more, and just being as super creative as my mind will let me be. I'm discovering how much I care about my community, and finding ways to get more involved. I'm going out to flee markets to people watch and find strange items with even stranger stories! I am just opening myself up to every oppurtunity I can/whatever sounds interesting, even if it seems boring.
Like fishing, I'm terrible at it, but I'm enjoying it:)
If you've ever had any old hobbies, or enjoyed collecting something, or anything, revisit it! Rediscover those passions, it may lead to new ones:)
Going through this at the moment. Your videos are incredibly inspiring, thank you!
I can totally relate to this! You are so right - without throwing those clothes away you can’t fully let go of your eating disorder - you deserve to go and live your life the way you want to! I remember when I threw out all of my old clothes that didn’t fit me - it was horrendous! I felt crap at the time but now that I have done it - it’s a huge weight lifted! Hope you are having a lovely evening with your friends lovely! You deserve it! Lots of love!
Meg, you are so strong and brave for doing that! I am in the process of doing that now as well. Yes getting rid of the sick clothes is hard, but you gain so much more back! It's just another step out of the darkness. Keep rocking your recovery! Love your videos!
I remember going through this exact scenario and to see such a raw portrayal of what it's truly like Is absolutely phenomenal. You are so strong and honestly my inspiration for recovery, I love following your journey:)
Ughh this is something I definitely should do as well😢 you're right, my first thought is that they might fit me again one day.... but I don't want them to at the same time !!!
Louella.y ambivalence!! Don’t wait until you’re 100% though, you may never be!!
You are so strong and brave. Such an inspiration to me!!! We can so appreciate how strong you are to have done this and all of these other huge steps in your recovery!!
So proud of you!! Thanks for sharing!! I could just feel the anguish you were in!! I’ve been there and it is SOOO hard!! Hope you had a fantastic time with your friends!! Much love to you!!
It was lovely thanks, we played board games and ate chinese :)
you should be so proud of yourself. I've never struggled with an eating disorder but i do struggle with an anxiety disorder and a lot of what you say and feel is transferrable to my life. so thank you!
This is my favourite video of yours so far, it actually brought tears to my eyes. You are a true inspiration and I hope you are proud of how far you have come in your journey. Thank you for sharing your experiences, each video helps me push myself a little further in the battle to health and happiness ♡
I can relate so much! I have recentlt thrown out my old trousers. Needing a bigger size is such a big deal as well. But yeah it is all worth it!!
Nadine de Wit bigger sized life to go with it 💛
Thank you . Congratulations this is so hard to do.
Thanks for the video Meg! I can totally relate to the pain of throwing out old clothes. You're right. It's not just the ones that don't fit anymore. It's the ones that fit differently and remind you of a time that you were smaller that are so triggering! I'm really proud of you for taking this step as I can see from the video how hard it was for you. You're amazing. Keep it up!
Big hugs!💛 I nodded my head yes through out the entire video. So much work but so worth it. I’ve been slowly doing this one bag at a time for a while now. It’s a slow process in the right direction!!!! Thank you for this vlog💛
Love your channel ❤️ this one hit so close to home. I have clothes that don’t fit me and letting go and not holding because I might need them again is not a good reason to hold on to them but like you said it’s so hard to let go.
Diana Carranco so so hard, but if they’re not your natural size then no good can come from holding on to them! You’ll have to ruin your life to fit them! Throw them 👊👊👊
Meg what helpful advice! I wish I had been on it sooner-staying one step ahead. The whole clothes issue has triggered many relapses for me. Giving clothes away to charity has helped me-to know some woman will find some pleasure and hopefully have a better relationship with them.Our minds can really trick us into romanticizing the past that never existed. I still have a few items I need to part with. Thank you for giving me courage.
Your videos are so encouraging
You are my Monday morning inspiration getting ready for work. Thank you my girl. Love you. X
Madison Killer 💛💛💛
God, I had so many of those teeny tiny clothes that eventually I had to get rid of. I even wore my daughter’s age 11-12 yr clothes at the height ( or depths) of my illness. I had similar feelings to you... but as I was packing them up, the overwhelming memory was one of starving hunger. I could remember where and when I’d worn them, and always came the memory of “ crikey, I remember being so hungry that day”. That is no life.
💫One of the hardest lessons in life is Letting go.... Change is never easy.... We fight to hold on BUT WE KNOW WE MUST FIGHT TO LET GO 🎈🎈🎈🎈Meg I adore you, I see so much strength here! I felt your tears 😔😢 You breathe life upon us, so proud 🙏🏻 Beautiful so proud xxxx💫
Ahhh I am trying not to cry this is so inspirational ❤️thank you for this
lotusflowerbombb 💛💛💛
Thank you for sharing your life. So brave; an inspiration to all of us
You're incredible Meg!! This video is so raw and relatable and this is such a big but necessary step for recovery! Can remember the struggle of having to do the same thing and the mental battle it entailed, but youre completely right- fitting those clothes means sacrificing your life which is defintiely not worth it! Hope you enjoyed your night round your friends- lots of love! x
Caitlin Murray weird how hard it is isn’t it. Probably because it’s such a big stand against the illness. Lots of love xxx
Well done darling, moving on! I've donated a bunch of clothes as well, just unsustainable, our mental health is much more important than anything else! Keep it up! Lots of love to you and the community😘
I sort of did this months ago, I got rid of stuff I knew I could but in a box under my bed are a bunch of clothes that I know no longer fit me but I just love them and couldn't bring myself to get rid of them. I am unsure if this is okay to do, it felt like a nice medium for me. The clothes are out of sight but they aren't fully gone. It's weird because I know I won't wear them again and I don't intend to do so yet I can't seem to get rid. Just watching you get rid of your's made me want to cry because you talking about moderately recovery got me thinking that maybe I need to take this brave step too. And just get them out the house completely.
I seem to be gaining weight fast! And it is so scary. I've gone up 2 dress sizes in less than 6 months and I feel so heart broken because I was told this wouldn't happen and it has! I have found myself in a total identity crisis as a result. I no longer know what I like wearing or anything and find I still wear baggy, gross stuff to hide myself. I would love to hear about any similar experience you may have had over this.
You're so encouraging to watch! Thank you for doing your videos.
"a real sign of progress is when we no longer punish ourselves for our imperfections" yung pueblo. You are courageous Meg, very courageous.
I know how hard it is to get rid of old clothes. I'm proud you did this! It maybe sounds stupid to people who never had an eating disorder. It took me weeks until I finally was able to give my old pants away. I still have some dresses and T-shirts which doesn't really fit me anymore, but I know there's no point in keeping them. I don't plan on fitting them again. Lots of love to you as well ❤
Dalanis Daring I hope you never do fit them again hun. Also hope you can get rid of them to let go of the boundary it creates in your life xxx
I just really love u so much Megs. Your so honest. Luv u and ur chanel soooo much 😘💕
Lo-nette Kotze 💛💛💛💛 and you x
Congrats beautiful! So motivating, thank you!
Thank you so much for bringing up this topic, Meg, even though it looks like it's difficult for you!❤
It's really hard to let go of the memory of our old body size, it is to me at least... I still fit in my clothes, my size hasn't change yet and it makes me very anxious to think "when will this change happen?!" 😩
Hi Meg. For me my clothes which are more fit are not so bad like my face. Gaining weight in other parts of the body is not so difficult to stand like my chubby face. I have always had round shape of face, cheeks but now it's really chubby and everyone see that. For me it's very embarrassing and I hate it so much. Especially last weeks are difficult because I put on weight. I want to give up and decrease my food.
I admire you, your fight, you are so strong. It is so exhausting. Thank you so much for being such a wonderful person 🤗
Good job, dear Meg. I'm proud of you. I have certain clothes I can't wear.. But throwing them out, it's so so hard.. I also have a really hard time buying new clothes..
So brave! All of the cons to restricting that you named are the many reasons why young people should not begin to diet. It’s such a confusing decision to make. I am struggling with the exact thing. I have a bag of clothing ready to donate and some others that I’m still on the fence about. I always keep a few extra smaller clothes “just in case.” You bring up a lot of good points in that it was not my normal set point weight. So why am I keeping the clothes? Time to let go of material things and sizes our “future” body “might fit into.” Thanks for this video and much luck to you!
Oh my goodness - I was literally just supposed to be doing the same this weekend! But I’m ashamed to say I put it off again- but going to try again today now! It’s just the worst instrument of self torture and yet we hold onto it as some kind of horrible safety net. Like you, I have kept clothes from a previous relapse and I really think that was (in your words 😉) letting anorexia keep a foot in the door... even if clothes fit but look and feel different it is so triggering. I threw out my scales ages ago but I think old clothes are not that different somehow.
Today then! Thank you for the motivation as always xxxxxxxxxxx
OMG you're the most amazing inspiration ever. THANK YOU. just discovered your RUclips-channel. Like really, 15 minutes ago 🙈 so much love to you from Germany ❤💫
I love this video!!! So brave and so confronting. Definitely something I need to do! Seeing you do it makes it seem easier for me xx much love
You can do it you can do it. I'm with you xxxx
So proud of you ! My fav' video by far
I’ve got some charity bags ready for my clothes when I no longer fit them. I’ve held on to all the clothes I had when I was healthy (I relapsed after full recovery).
I didnt realize I probably had anorexia until recently. I've been gaining weight since I got a divorce, about 20lbs. At my sickest I was 111lbs at 5'8...and I didnt even know I was starving myself, I was just so unhappy in an abusive marriage. I was tired all the time and didnt know why. I have always loved and collected vintage clothing but now I cant fit into my favorite dresses. It makes me so upset but its stupid because I know its "good" for me.
Letting go is soooo damn hard - even when its 100 % the right thing. It's like breaking up with someone even though the relationship is completely toxic - When something has been part of your life for so long it's always going to be emotional. You did brilliantly! loads of love xoxo
So hard isn’t it. & even when you know you want to it’s still hard. Got to be done though😚
You did great!!!! shit to the illness and the old clothes!!! And... besides...your new clothes is also very tiny and small, is illness which says the oppossite!! you're strong!!
Holding on to ones former Anorexic clothes, leaves the door open for the ED to come back into your life. I know this too; one needs a clean slate to promote your freedom from the ED. it is, as you say, distressing to hold on to the smaller clothes and know that you are developing a healthier body. I love that cat of your. Having a pet or two in your life when you are battling a vicious ED is a massive help in the road to recovery. I guess you have to anethatise your mind when you are about to get rid of smaller sized clothes. You have the right thing. You will be freer; perhaps guilty and fearful at first, but it'll be a weight of your shoulders. I hope you enjoyed your takeaway meal. I'd love to have dinner with you as a friend but that would be difficult as we're both in different countries!!
I was just trowing away my old clothes today, perfect timing now i feel like i can relate to someone haha stay strong
Anja Pavlovic in it wth you hun 🤗 well done!
And oh the food at the end looks so good! Hope you enjoyed! Nice balance to end the day/weekend I hope! :)
I usually don’t respond to videos, but what the heck; I really wanted to let you know that I think you are so brave and strong! Thanks for this helpful vlog (being one step ahead and never wanting to fit in those tiny clothes again really clicked with me). You don’t know me so it feels a bit weird to say this but I’m so proud of you. Keep up the good fight 💪🏼
Btw: your cat is adorable!
My relapses were probably caused by trying on the old clothes. Even those clothes that weren't necessarily small, just fit different and it 's noticeable. Congrats on throwing them out!
So relate to!! I recently had a really bad relapse, and I just bought tinnnnnyyy skinny jeans two weeks ago... I felt so hard to let go and gain weight... one of the reason is because I will waste the money on those two jeans... I only wore them out once... how can I let go of?
youre brave. i still have my high school jeans. i graduated 7 years ago and still cant get rid of them.
ClandestineGirl16X omg nooooo throw them out. It’s honestly torture to keep these things
I love you Meg! ❤❤❤
flower pudding love you too 😘
Megsy Recovery Your videos are very helpful even though they aren't always the most postitive. I appreciate that you can document these hard times.
This would be very tough. Proud of you ❤
Proud of u❤️
Martina Baldassi Thanks matey 💛
Amazing! you did great!! xx
Good for you, I Need some help, but just a day at a Time, I am so happy and proud of YOU! Can I tell you something I got ride of 6 black bin bags and 3 under-drawers boxes most of all my clothes But they were to sizes ti big, as I thought I was to fat for clothes that I bought and in my head I was to small for everything I was never those sizes but my brain was saying that you no you are so fat and if you buy the size that fits you you will look awful! I never realised this! PS. love your Vlogs Take Care, Only been watching for a month or two but love your style of Vlogs!!! Please Take CareXx.
Ugh I have to do this
...only 10% of my wardrobe I fit in now.
Post new york vlogs! or what you eat and how you feel when you are in new york! would love to watch them.
Haha I am there for work, but if i get a chance I will try to record something. maybe a big bagel or american pancakes for breakfast. That's what I am excited about :)
Proud of you x
Out with the old & in with the NEW 🎁 💪💃X
Yessss 👏
Remember meg, they are just clothes! They mean nothing in proportion to the size and depth of your life. Your life is what’s precious, not the clothing!
Dear Meg, you help me so much in my recovery but there is a question: how do you break habits without going crazy? Like eating times and stuff.. I still struggle with that.. Maybe you done already a vid to that - if yes I surely watched it but can you give me more advice?
I just did this too!!!!🙌🙌🙌🙌
Nothing about recovery is easy we have to fight the monster everyday but you are doing fantastic and should be really proud of yourself I wish I could be more like you and by the way I think you look amazing and you can put a lot more weight on and still look slim ( not that my comment will help you because ed will tell you something different as he always does the Wanker) but I am honestly telling you the truth keep up the good work
Eleanor Lord you can be like me hun, it’s really not easy. I just have to do it 👊
You did it girl, so proud of you! Totally know what it feels like, this thought battle with the ED. Remember it wasn't you that was happy with these old clothes, it made the ED happy. Now it is time to make the real you happy and live your life! I am still avoiding to buy new clothes, I feel quickly guilty about spending money, especially since I don't know where my body will end up eventually. I don't know my 'style' anymore and I don't like looking at myself. What helps you when you buy new clothes and do you do exercises to watch yourself (not checking yourself of course, but just being able to look at yourself in the mirror)? I was wondering if you work on this with your psychologist. For now, well done and thanks for being so inspirational. I hope you enjoyed your evening with friends, so much more important than clothes sizes!
I totally get it.. its like in your head a backup. But the only thing i find hard is i cant see your weight gain? But if you said you have then well done x
Are mars bars like snickers?
Because I love those and really want to try a mars bar one day!
Gery H. Mars bars are more chewy caramel nougat without the nuts..... But like all packaging says may have traces of nuts...I love snickers cause they have peanuts in them. Similar... OMG Had snickers bar yesterday 😋
The new clothes are gonna be better
My psychiatrist made me give her my "sick jeans" so she could keep them away from me lmao. It was annoying, but I guess it was for the best.
Lillies are poisonous to kitties! I know because my precious angels chew on all my flowers !
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