I took off my fitbit yesterday and threw it in the swamp after 5 years using it to fuel my exercise addiction. We can’t half commit to recovery. I needed to take my fitbit off and you need to have real mayo always. If we want recovery, we need to WANT it. Proud of you. X
I threw out my charger, but kept the actual watch. I did it to get myself used to having triggers around me, however I went to the extent that even if I was triggered by the Fitbit, I couldn’t use it (just to be safe)
For me it was just about getting rid of the trigger completely. I will never ever get one again or encourage anyone to get one. So dangerous and literally nearly killed me. Love and strength to you all. X
Love those funny cats 😺. Honestly one of my favourite parts of the week is seeing your vlogs. Things just click and motivate me to not give up. Thank you!
You should be so proud of yourself Meg! I’ve followed you from the beginning and you just become more and more beautiful (I didn’t even think that could be possible since you’ve been such a beacon of light since the beginning). You have no idea how many times a day I repeat your mantras in my head-Challenge Repeat. Feel Shit and Do it Anyway. I have to admit, I thought that I was doing the hard work before but just recently I’ve started seeing an Intuitive Eating dietician and let me tell you, I was no where near it. Right now, I’m really facing my fears big time and your videos are really carrying me through. I don’t feel alone. Anyway-just wanted to tell you how special you are to me and I don’t always comment on everything anymore because you have so many subscribers and I know it has to be overwhelming! But you have helped so many of us and Thank You!
Awww thanks Joy. I know you have, I remember your name :-) I always think how nice it is. And I am SO glad you're seeing some one who has shone that kind of light. Especially in such a "disordered" society around food, it's easy to just fall into "I'm fine". So good for you xxx
Never heard anyone addressing this issue so this vid is sooo helpful thanks! I dont know if youve found this too but I feel like I can't talk about the everyday/small things of recover in real life to family or friends. You're amazing and keep going cos you're smashing the fear and really facing it!
Legend. I keep saying I'm doing a megsy! Feel shit do it anyway I say when I am a mess and the phrase challenge repeat, challenge repeat. Thank you for inspiring me ❤️❤️❤️
Honestly, I can’t even begin to explain how amazing you are. I’m so proud of you! I’ve come leaps and bounds since I found your channel and I’ve done things I never thought I would have. Im a healthy weight so sometimes it feels like I don’t necessarily need to challenge certain things, but now... I wana challenge EVERYTHING that keeps me locked in my ed.... because of you megsy!!! Thank you so so so so much. Happy anniversary too. I’m from Northern Ireland but my dads from Glasgow! I would LOVE to meet you in the future. Much love ❤️❤️
Awww that's brilliant to hear, good for you!!!! Yeh I'm all in this time, trying to literally smash every boundary, rule and fear I've held onto in the past. Maybe meet you in Scotland one day :-)
You're so brave for not only going through recovery but also sharing all your ups and downs. It is helping me no end, I often sit and watch your videos whilst I eat dinner and my fiancé is out, and any niggling worries I have had about my dinner, the day, what I'm going to have for pudding etc are just dissolved. I'm in a similar position to you - I'm 32 and have been living for almost twenty years with various forms of ED and I'm in recovery for good this time. I'm at the stage where people aren't worried because I'm 'looking well', however I know I need to gain more regardless of what I look like and this last little bit is so hard. Watching you continue to push without any BS that it is suddenly fixed is literally the most motivating thing ever. We've all got our niche fears and I have realised lately that although I've made A LOT of changes, I'm also keeping in my bubble as much as I can. My excuse being "i'll try that tomorrow, if I do it today it will make me feel rubbish". But you still do it and you don't seem to use excuses that I do (big day at work tomorrow, my family is visiting early, going for a bigger dinner, going for cocktails etc etc) - and it's SO encouraging to do it myself. I wondered if you could answer two questions: 1. What is the first thing you think when you're faced with a spontaneous situation? e.g. a friend needs a drink straight after work but you've just had your snack and it was a bigger one, and you were planning on going straight home? I still find it so difficult to embrace situations when they're not planned in. Do you ever make excuses up still? 2. I have my hen do this weekend and I'm very excited but have a lot of obvious ED thoughts. I'm saying to myself I'm just going to embrace every moment, but I know I'll still have so many worries and there'll be a LOT of challenges. How did you cope best on yours last year? Sorry this is so ridiculously long!!! Thanks again for such helpful, personal and amazing updates xxx
OMG yes! I challenge Full fat milk, then at some point I swing back to the reduced fat version 😩 - this video couldn't have come at a more perfect time.........thanks Meg 😍
Yeh I did that one a couple of times as well, and it made it SO DIFFICULT! Now that I've gone all in and just always order full fat milk it is so much easier and I'm getting so much less anxious!
I was literally just looking to see if you had posted a new video. What a timing!! Thank you for uploading! I definitely know what you mean - I challenged chocolate biscuits for a whole week a couple of weeks ago and now I haven't had them for so long, that that anxiety has built up again.... Thank you for talking about consistency!
You’re such an inspiration for my recovery. Thank you so much for making these videos. You really don’t know much you help me 💕💕 Sending lots of love xx P.S yesterday was the first time in ages I ate carrot cake🥳
You are so inspirational!!! Thank you for sharing your honest struggles and showing how much you eat as I still find myself falling short on the quantities I should be aiming for
thank you so much for your channel. it helps encourage me in my recovery and help me see it really is okay to fully commit to recovery. i also love coffee and lattes and drink them all the time, but still feel that anxiety every day. you inspire me, thanks
Once again I'm so inspired by your bravery and dedication to recovery. Seeing you consistently challenging your fears and watching your progress is amazing and it really makes me want to keep up with my own recovery. It's great that you show and talk about the anxious moments and don't sugar coat the recovery process. I just know that you will conquer the mayo once you stop toe dipping with the low fat option. You have conquered sooo many fears already, so this one will come, especially now that you have figured out what is making it so difficult! Recovery is exhausting when it is constant challenges but EVENTUALLY it will be worth it when you're free if all fears and can concentrate on the more enjoyable things in life. Beautiful to see you receive the flower from Bren. Just think if you had followed the path of anorexia, you definitely wouldn't be married now, working, running a home and having friends around. Your amazing Meg. Thank you a million times for making these videos!!
I think exactly the same! Megsy is amazing. I hope I'll met her one day😉 She was in Kraków in Poland (I live in 🇵🇱) so I hope she'll visit this city (or another in Poland) in the immediate future🤗
Awwww love this comment, and I would love to meet you guys!!! And honestly mayo is already so much easier. I still get thoughts to go back, and they feel SO BELIEVABLE, but I'm just like NO. Don't fall for it. Feel shit and do it anyway. Thanks lovelies xxx
Thanks Megsy for your activity. It helps me a lot! Your meals looks so yummy😄Tuna salad with sweet corn and mayonnaise is soo delicious😄 but I add rice instead of sandwich and onion😁but "tuna spread" for bread etc. is cool too😁
Watching your videos always leaves me questioning if what i'm doing about recovery is enough. Thank you so much Megsy, your video is so inspiring, and you're such a beautiful person inside out ❤️
I love all your videos. So inspirational. I have been trying some of your techniques. 24 years anorexia. Also watching some people you follow. Lots of love to you and family! Food doesn't have to be prefecr..challenge repeat..food is just food. Say this before all meals. You are amazing and you will beat this.
You're doing so well even though it's f**king hard! I do the toe dipping too, so I understand that. I'm really struggling with liquid calories & eating between meals & snacks, it just seems wrong! I love seeing how much you're changing every week and it's fab to know that I'm not the only one who is still really struggling. I'm hoping with your vids, I will be able to tackle my fear foods & drinks X
I appreciate my reply is 3 years too late but hope life is now treating you well. I wanted to reply because your comment really resonated with me. I'm 4.5 months in recovery and I find the liquid calories and having snacks hard due to feeling them unnecessary. Plus when I try snack I end up picking apples or low cal cereal bars. I think not really having any physical hunger cues is an issue too.
Hi Megsy, I so relate to a lot of your content, I think it’s the consequences of long term anorexia! I fully agree with not challenging consistently. I think it’s why I haven’t ever really progressed with my fears. However this week I’ve challenged something almost everyday & now it feels totally ok! (Strangely it was an iced latte! Salted caramel 😉) and then also having thick sliced bread over medium now it feels normal! And I was literally craving the lattes for aaaages, really wanted them again & now I’m kind of bored of them! Anyway sorry for rambling. I just have a question, how often would you recommend to challenge something? Because (I’m not sure if you get this?) I find that I have it once then I ‘don’t fancy it’ but I think it’s because anorexia convinces me I don’t fancy it due to anxiety/complacency? So was just wondering if you had a recommendation of how many times to force the repeats? Amazing video, you’re brilliant, keep going lovely 💛 also edit: YES BE PROUD OF YOURSELF! You really should be. You have to challenge something but I think to challenge multiple things at the same time because that way you’re not creating rules around them (so say doing what you did by having jacket potato with tuna mayo, and also having sandwich with mayo, so that way you’re not just saying I can only have mayo with the potato for example? And having cheese and mayo etc...I did this the other day I had one of the lattes with an ice cream...just need to repeat the ice cream more now aha). Ok sorry for rambling 😂
I know this a fairly old video - but I just wanted to address the fact that its so funny how were all different with food rules etc , where you were so anxious about the mayo on the bread, the mayo wouldnt have bothered me id have happily had as much as my heart was content - but the bread would have initially sent my anxiety levels to beyond repair that day! My point is that were all so very different in our disorders and recovery and that is something nobody needs to compare to. I truly hope your doing well after such a recent tough time in your life and sending all my love and warmest wishes to you and the family xx p.s - Boost bars are epic :)
You’re so right!!! I could happily have filled all my calories with bread, but yeh Mayo for me has always been terrifying. Certainly shows how made up & irrational it all isn’t doesn’t it!
Firstly I want to say thankyou so much for being you. I think you're bloody fantastic and you help so much. Ive just been discharged from hospital and am struggling a lot to adjust, particularly with an increased meal plan. Logically I understand activity levels increase when discharged and I'm doing it but flippin heck it's a struggle. I was wondering if you had any words of wisdom about something like this?! X
I just tried and couldn't get past the first couple of minutes. I still find those photos a bit raw and traumatic. I watched hers though and I'm so glad to see she's accepting some help now. Good for her!! Must be so hard when she's got so much exposure, I was weirdly very proud of her given I don't know her at all xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 i've just seen this video and it isn't triggering (besides her photos). After first few minutes Shane talks with Kati Morton about eating disorders and she educate him about ed.. next he travels to Eugenia's house and they talk about her house and about her struggle but they don't talk about ed so directly. This video is rather going to raise so much awareness about ed.
Ok maybe I’ll give it another go. Normally I don’t have quite such a reaction but I just couldn’t watch it 🙈 it really brought things back too much. That’s good though, I’m so glad she is getting some help!
Thank you so much Meg for another wonderful video! Your bravery is inspiring. Your sayings are very helpful and I try to keep them in mind when the going gets tough, which is quite often! It’s wonderful to see how much progress you’re making - well done! Thank you for sharing your journey - you really are lighting the way for so many of us. Lots of love, D xx 🌻
Hi... I am a 48 year old …. struggle every day with this struggle... I like peanut butter... but it is so hard to "just have it" as it has sooo many calories and fat... I just feel guilty while I have it... also hard to do the "challenge repeat" etc... I also struggle with the chew and spit problem... " I try to tell myself that "food is just food" but the voices in my heads are so loud... it tells me Jill... no.. don't have it... u are over 40 so ur metabolism is slow and u cant have these foods.. Also my workouts are so hard on my body.. but I still do it,,, even though my body hurts... So I am thinking that I will never be a "normal" eater... so many thoughts on calories, fat, body is sooo fat.. need to workout,,, cant have this, or cant have that.. etc.. guilt, anxiety the need to "feel hungry or I will get fat".. Always comparing myself to others.. Like if they weigh ….less than me and they are they same height... then I am so fat!!! I am not able to enjoy food as it is... food is the enemy... My family im sure thinks that I look "fine" to them and I have all this control … but honestly I feel "shit"... My husband is always saying how he loves my curves"... (fat) !!!! and loves my rib cage;;;(WTF).. so confused etc...….
I’m 53 , I could have written this, you definitely have an ed , I’ve anorexia and have been in treatment for 3 years and even with help every day is a battle , please get help x
Meg thank you you always help me soo much!! You're an absolute angel, I'm so motivated to do all these challenges now and beat AN for real! Thanks from the bottom of my heart
Hi! You say here that you are 18months into recovery (presumably from the relapse that you have mentioned previously). Prior to the relapse, were you "fully recovered"? I know you have had the ED on and off since being a teenager.
Love love love your videos! So incredibly brave & strong willed! Btw, you & Bren are the cutest couple! Your accents make me want one so badly lol (even tho I probably have an accent to you guys)
I have a 70 year old partner who loves me to bits quite literally - I'm 52 in September & I struggle with recovery even though I eat quite well. It's the exercise I can't let go of! I'm a big lover of peanut butter as well by the way. My partner see's nothing wrong with my body even though I'm about 1 and a half to 2 stone underweight. I'm terrified of gaining weight in case he get's disappointed & doesn't perhaps love me as much? I don't think that will happen but it's my paranoia working yet again. He basically doesn't really understand eating disorders, I don't think. I'm quite stressed by this & I'm worked up because I have put on 2 pounds. Pathetic really but as you know that's the ED brain within me. I've subscribed to you for about 15 months & never miss a video. Love from Alison xx
Hi Alison, I recognize your name from the last 15 months :-) I bet if you asked your partner why he's with you and what he cares about in a human he wouldn't say their weight! We blow it so out of proportion in our minds and it seems like such a big deal and yeh like people won't like us if we're X size, but really most people don't care about it a fraction of the amount we do!! In fact, most people care a lot more about having some one who can join in and eat with them, think and care about things other than food, have fun, be spontaneous, chill out with etc.... So actually gaining weight could make the relationship better! It did for me xxx
i love your videos, they have helped me so much. challenge repeat! next time you should make a salad dressing with mayonnaise as an ingredient as a real challenge.....
Hey Meg! How does it feel to be getting near or being at your set point? The idea of reaching my set point sounds awful :( I wish it didn’t because I would love to be able to enjoy all the foods you do. I know that you follow the statement “Body neutral. Life positive.” But I just feel like I put so much value on appearance, and I can’t help it. Like if I were to reach my set point, I know I would be miserable and depressed looking in the mirror, and I can’t imagine myself being happy. I’d love for you to make a video about how you stay happy at your set point/how to not get consumed by body image. Maybe through distractions? But I know you’ve mentioned that sometimes distracting yourself doesn’t feel truly helpful and I agree.
Meg thank you so much for this video! I was wondering how regularly you challenge, repeat? Eg. Do you keep having a burger every day until it’s easier or once a week or every second day?
i switched into veganism for recovery and I'm afraid to not have the minimum kcalories than everyone have that could happen if i transit into veganism??
Thanks for the salad dressing recipe being challenge it for 2 weeks now and now I dont think I would be able to eat salad without it now lol next challenge proper mayo thanks meg I know I'm going to fell shit but I'm going to do it anyway 💕💕💕😘
Marie Beach sane same same!!! One time I slipped up & didn’t have it & was literally like OMG how did I eat this sad dry salad before. Literally said to bren that’s it, never going back to that! Once it’s in it’s in ☺️
I have a huge fear of mayonnaise and I have never been a fan of it but the other night was a on the spot sandwich. I almost swear I had a heart attack and was about into tears. I try to keep them silent so I dont bother anyone. I got intouble for my anxiety attack and there was yelling.... Could you ever do a topic on how you feel others should act on your ED. Like what way should others support you? I have family members limit and make comments on that I shouldnt eat certain things even if it is something I am willing to eat. I just get so confused and asking them not to yell at me makes things worse.
Yes I've had quite a few requests for this type of thing, it will take a fair bit of thought to do so when I have enough time I'll do one. What about getting your family to watch some vlogs to help them?
@@megsyrecovery191 Thank you for responding, this means more then you realize as well as your videos. It's tough with this. I've told my parents about how your vlogs help me motivate myself with more reassurance. One parent thought it was awesome and the other two didnt care. They want to be the ones to make everything happen. It sometimes makes it harder, when I bring stuff up that doesn't have to do with them
Omg Megan u are so pretty !❤️😭 lot’s of love from Finland! Also I know I have asked u this earlier but could you think of doing a video about intimacy in ED/ED recovery cause I’m now starting to date again after anorexia and idk... body insicurity etcis still a big issue and I can imagine that’s the case for a lot of people.. again totally undestand if u think it’s not the right time to talk about it but... u know sex is a big part of almost everyone’s adult life and yeah😳 I’m pretty bad at writing comments so I hope I got my point across! 😂 also, I’m coming to Dubai next month any recommendations for doing stuff? Xoxo 🙆♂️
Jami Gustafsson hey, I will def do something on relationships, it’ll just take some time to think about it. I think I’d feel too awkward & it’s kinda too personal to go into too much, but do you want to DM me? I’m happy to talk about it one on one 😚
I’ve been obsessed with thick shakes. Before that I was obsessed with açai bowls. Yes, it’s quite the unhealthy switch, especially since I’m lactose intolerant
It's not unhealthy :) it's just food. And you're just showing what a warrior you are conquering that food with an extra intolerance to boot. I've been lactose intolerant since infancy but as an adult have been able to tolerate yoghurt, milk in my tea, and some ice cream, which feels so amazing because in my early teens I literally would spontaneously get sick on the spot if I tried to drink milk.
Did you ever think you were a terrible person (personality & morals) when you were underweight and still not in full recovery? I would say I’m in quasi but I’m still very underweight and I’m so snappy, bitchy and I feel like I’ve made everyone hate me. I hate myself. I think I’m actually just a horrible person.
I feel you! I'm realising lately how worst of a person I am when restricting because I cant see past myself, but I really believe that getting better I'm becoming more "human", I hope I explained myself
You don’t have the capacity to be empathetic, loving and kind while in a state of starvation. You aren’t your ED. You will find yourself again if you keep going, but it’s hard to work on recovery if you hate yourself. Give yourself compassion first because you won’t have it to give to anyone else if you don’t care for yourself 💜
@@BeccaG1100 Love this response!!! Couldn't have said it better. I'm so much more caring and interested in people now I'm not as starved.... but it almost had to get worse before it got better. I mean it was hard to think of others in a state of starvation, but even harder when I was trying to feed myself out of that state! But, it passes xxx
Megsy Recovery thank you both so much for these responses. It gives me some hope. It’s just I’ve found even when I got to healthy weight once before, I was so unhappy with being that weight, that I was still snappy, selfish and horrible all the time :( Why?
I took off my fitbit yesterday and threw it in the swamp after 5 years using it to fuel my exercise addiction. We can’t half commit to recovery. I needed to take my fitbit off and you need to have real mayo always. If we want recovery, we need to WANT it. Proud of you. X
Madison Killer so proud of you!
I need to do this 😰😰😰
I threw out my charger, but kept the actual watch. I did it to get myself used to having triggers around me, however I went to the extent that even if I was triggered by the Fitbit, I couldn’t use it (just to be safe)
Great job! I took off my Fitbit in May and haven't put it back on again since, best move I ever made towards recovery.
For me it was just about getting rid of the trigger completely. I will never ever get one again or encourage anyone to get one. So dangerous and literally nearly killed me. Love and strength to you all. X
I hear myself saying your saying in my head so much "food is just food" " feel shit and do it anyway" " feeling shit doesn't last forever"
Jessica Henderson that’s amazing!!! Good for you 💛
I just wanted to say, I genuinely think you will be the most amazing mother xx
PurpleSmurfDay so true! I’ve been thinking this as well
Awwwww you GUYS! So sweet of you!!!! Cat mummy for now ha xxxx
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Love those funny cats 😺. Honestly one of my favourite parts of the week is seeing your vlogs. Things just click and motivate me to not give up. Thank you!
Yayyyy good for you, hope the motivation translates into action as well xxx
You should be so proud of yourself Meg! I’ve followed you from the beginning and you just become more and more beautiful (I didn’t even think that could be possible since you’ve been such a beacon of light since the beginning). You have no idea how many times a day I repeat your mantras in my head-Challenge Repeat. Feel Shit and Do it Anyway. I have to admit, I thought that I was doing the hard work before but just recently I’ve started seeing an Intuitive Eating dietician and let me tell you, I was no where near it. Right now, I’m really facing my fears big time and your videos are really carrying me through. I don’t feel alone. Anyway-just wanted to tell you how special you are to me and I don’t always comment on everything anymore because you have so many subscribers and I know it has to be overwhelming! But you have helped so many of us and Thank You!
Awww thanks Joy. I know you have, I remember your name :-) I always think how nice it is. And I am SO glad you're seeing some one who has shone that kind of light. Especially in such a "disordered" society around food, it's easy to just fall into "I'm fine". So good for you xxx
Never heard anyone addressing this issue so this vid is sooo helpful thanks!
I dont know if youve found this too but I feel like I can't talk about the everyday/small things of recover in real life to family or friends. You're amazing and keep going cos you're smashing the fear and really facing it!
Aww the end was so sweet. Glad to hear it's getting easier for you, and good to know that it does (eventually!) for everyone still struggling.
Did you laugh at the music? I did
Legend. I keep saying I'm doing a megsy! Feel shit do it anyway I say when I am a mess and the phrase challenge repeat, challenge repeat. Thank you for inspiring me ❤️❤️❤️
Sara Gill so glad these sayings help 💛
Honestly, I can’t even begin to explain how amazing you are. I’m so proud of you! I’ve come leaps and bounds since I found your channel and I’ve done things I never thought I would have. Im a healthy weight so sometimes it feels like I don’t necessarily need to challenge certain things, but now... I wana challenge EVERYTHING that keeps me locked in my ed.... because of you megsy!!! Thank you so so so so much. Happy anniversary too. I’m from Northern Ireland but my dads from Glasgow! I would LOVE to meet you in the future. Much love ❤️❤️
Awww that's brilliant to hear, good for you!!!! Yeh I'm all in this time, trying to literally smash every boundary, rule and fear I've held onto in the past. Maybe meet you in Scotland one day :-)
You're so brave for not only going through recovery but also sharing all your ups and downs. It is helping me no end, I often sit and watch your videos whilst I eat dinner and my fiancé is out, and any niggling worries I have had about my dinner, the day, what I'm going to have for pudding etc are just dissolved.
I'm in a similar position to you - I'm 32 and have been living for almost twenty years with various forms of ED and I'm in recovery for good this time. I'm at the stage where people aren't worried because I'm 'looking well', however I know I need to gain more regardless of what I look like and this last little bit is so hard. Watching you continue to push without any BS that it is suddenly fixed is literally the most motivating thing ever. We've all got our niche fears and I have realised lately that although I've made A LOT of changes, I'm also keeping in my bubble as much as I can. My excuse being "i'll try that tomorrow, if I do it today it will make me feel rubbish". But you still do it and you don't seem to use excuses that I do (big day at work tomorrow, my family is visiting early, going for a bigger dinner, going for cocktails etc etc) - and it's SO encouraging to do it myself.
I wondered if you could answer two questions:
1. What is the first thing you think when you're faced with a spontaneous situation? e.g. a friend needs a drink straight after work but you've just had your snack and it was a bigger one, and you were planning on going straight home? I still find it so difficult to embrace situations when they're not planned in. Do you ever make excuses up still?
2. I have my hen do this weekend and I'm very excited but have a lot of obvious ED thoughts. I'm saying to myself I'm just going to embrace every moment, but I know I'll still have so many worries and there'll be a LOT of challenges. How did you cope best on yours last year?
Sorry this is so ridiculously long!!! Thanks again for such helpful, personal and amazing updates xxx
OMG yes! I challenge Full fat milk, then at some point I swing back to the reduced fat version 😩 - this video couldn't have come at a more perfect time.........thanks Meg 😍
Yeh I did that one a couple of times as well, and it made it SO DIFFICULT! Now that I've gone all in and just always order full fat milk it is so much easier and I'm getting so much less anxious!
I was literally just looking to see if you had posted a new video. What a timing!!
Thank you for uploading! I definitely know what you mean - I challenged chocolate biscuits for a whole week a couple of weeks ago and now I haven't had them for so long, that that anxiety has built up again.... Thank you for talking about consistency!
Daphne Troost I think of you subscribe to the channel & then hit the bell it notifies you when I post a video
Daphne Troost & yeh totally. Challenging can’t be a one off thing. These foods have got to be in for life!
@@megsyrecovery191 Yes, I am already subscribed! :-)
@@megsyrecovery191 I agree!
You’re such an inspiration for my recovery. Thank you so much for making these videos. You really don’t know much you help me 💕💕 Sending lots of love xx
P.S yesterday was the first time in ages I ate carrot cake🥳
Puck van Pappelendam yayyyyyy for carrot cake 👏 & keep consistently repeating now 💛
You are so inspirational!!! Thank you for sharing your honest struggles and showing how much you eat as I still find myself falling short on the quantities I should be aiming for
thank you so much for your channel. it helps encourage me in my recovery and help me see it really is okay to fully commit to recovery. i also love coffee and lattes and drink them all the time, but still feel that anxiety every day. you inspire me, thanks
Just subscribed. You are SO lovely. Tough as nails. Seriously. What you are doing is so brave. You should feel so proud of yourself ❤️
Once again I'm so inspired by your bravery and dedication to recovery. Seeing you consistently challenging your fears and watching your progress is amazing and it really makes me want to keep up with my own recovery. It's great that you show and talk about the anxious moments and don't sugar coat the recovery process. I just know that you will conquer the mayo once you stop toe dipping with the low fat option. You have conquered sooo many fears already, so this one will come, especially now that you have figured out what is making it so difficult! Recovery is exhausting when it is constant challenges but EVENTUALLY it will be worth it when you're free if all fears and can concentrate on the more enjoyable things in life. Beautiful to see you receive the flower from Bren. Just think if you had followed the path of anorexia, you definitely wouldn't be married now, working, running a home and having friends around. Your amazing Meg. Thank you a million times for making these videos!!
I think exactly the same! Megsy is amazing. I hope I'll met her one day😉 She was in Kraków in Poland (I live in 🇵🇱) so I hope she'll visit this city (or another in Poland) in the immediate future🤗
@@an-arouseblogspotcom6804 aww that would be amazing to meet up one day!
Awwww love this comment, and I would love to meet you guys!!! And honestly mayo is already so much easier. I still get thoughts to go back, and they feel SO BELIEVABLE, but I'm just like NO. Don't fall for it. Feel shit and do it anyway. Thanks lovelies xxx
Thanks Megsy for your activity. It helps me a lot! Your meals looks so yummy😄Tuna salad with sweet corn and mayonnaise is soo delicious😄 but I add rice instead of sandwich and onion😁but "tuna spread" for bread etc. is cool too😁
You are amazing! I only can say that because you really are, thank you so much for not stop sharing your recovery....lots of love Meg! :)
Yeneli Agu 💛
Just chill you are so brave people like you not only change lives you save lives lots of love and you are such a pretty girl xx
You are so strong, Megsy!
Watching your videos always leaves me questioning if what i'm doing about recovery is enough. Thank you so much Megsy, your video is so inspiring, and you're such a beautiful person inside out ❤️
Just keep pushing boundaries (repetitively and consistently) xxxx
I love all your videos. So inspirational. I have been trying some of your techniques. 24 years anorexia. Also watching some people you follow. Lots of love to you and family! Food doesn't have to be prefecr..challenge repeat..food is just food. Say this before all meals. You are amazing and you will beat this.
You're doing so well even though it's f**king hard! I do the toe dipping too, so I understand that. I'm really struggling with liquid calories & eating between meals & snacks, it just seems wrong! I love seeing how much you're changing every week and it's fab to know that I'm not the only one who is still really struggling. I'm hoping with your vids, I will be able to tackle my fear foods & drinks X
I appreciate my reply is 3 years too late but hope life is now treating you well.
I wanted to reply because your comment really resonated with me.
I'm 4.5 months in recovery and I find the liquid calories and having snacks hard due to feeling them unnecessary. Plus when I try snack I end up picking apples or low cal cereal bars.
I think not really having any physical hunger cues is an issue too.
Hi Megsy, I so relate to a lot of your content, I think it’s the consequences of long term anorexia! I fully agree with not challenging consistently. I think it’s why I haven’t ever really progressed with my fears. However this week I’ve challenged something almost everyday & now it feels totally ok! (Strangely it was an iced latte! Salted caramel 😉) and then also having thick sliced bread over medium now it feels normal! And I was literally craving the lattes for aaaages, really wanted them again & now I’m kind of bored of them! Anyway sorry for rambling. I just have a question, how often would you recommend to challenge something? Because (I’m not sure if you get this?) I find that I have it once then I ‘don’t fancy it’ but I think it’s because anorexia convinces me I don’t fancy it due to anxiety/complacency? So was just wondering if you had a recommendation of how many times to force the repeats? Amazing video, you’re brilliant, keep going lovely 💛 also edit: YES BE PROUD OF YOURSELF! You really should be. You have to challenge something but I think to challenge multiple things at the same time because that way you’re not creating rules around them (so say doing what you did by having jacket potato with tuna mayo, and also having sandwich with mayo, so that way you’re not just saying I can only have mayo with the potato for example? And having cheese and mayo etc...I did this the other day I had one of the lattes with an ice cream...just need to repeat the ice cream more now aha). Ok sorry for rambling 😂
I know this a fairly old video - but I just wanted to address the fact that its so funny how were all different with food rules etc , where you were so anxious about the mayo on the bread, the mayo wouldnt have bothered me id have happily had as much as my heart was content - but the bread would have initially sent my anxiety levels to beyond repair that day! My point is that were all so very different in our disorders and recovery and that is something nobody needs to compare to. I truly hope your doing well after such a recent tough time in your life and sending all my love and warmest wishes to you and the family xx p.s - Boost bars are epic :)
You’re so right!!! I could happily have filled all my calories with bread, but yeh Mayo for me has always been terrifying. Certainly shows how made up & irrational it all isn’t doesn’t it!
Firstly I want to say thankyou so much for being you. I think you're bloody fantastic and you help so much. Ive just been discharged from hospital and am struggling a lot to adjust, particularly with an increased meal plan. Logically I understand activity levels increase when discharged and I'm doing it but flippin heck it's a struggle. I was wondering if you had any words of wisdom about something like this?! X
You’re such a warrior - I am so proud of you 💛
yay meg! you should be proud of yourself! it's such hard work but you're so tough!!
Megsy what do you think about shane's new video "The Return of Eugenia Cooney"?
I just tried and couldn't get past the first couple of minutes. I still find those photos a bit raw and traumatic. I watched hers though and I'm so glad to see she's accepting some help now. Good for her!! Must be so hard when she's got so much exposure, I was weirdly very proud of her given I don't know her at all xxx
@@megsyrecovery191 i've just seen this video and it isn't triggering (besides her photos). After first few minutes Shane talks with Kati Morton about eating disorders and she educate him about ed.. next he travels to Eugenia's house and they talk about her house and about her struggle but they don't talk about ed so directly. This video is rather going to raise so much awareness about ed.
Ok maybe I’ll give it another go. Normally I don’t have quite such a reaction but I just couldn’t watch it 🙈 it really brought things back too much. That’s good though, I’m so glad she is getting some help!
You are such an inspiration all these compliments you are getting you deserve every single one xx
Thank you so much Meg for another wonderful video! Your bravery is inspiring. Your sayings are very helpful and I try to keep them in mind when the going gets tough, which is quite often! It’s wonderful to see how much progress you’re making - well done! Thank you for sharing your journey - you really are lighting the way for so many of us. Lots of love, D xx 🌻
you have come such a long way and you ARE so inspiring
I watch religiously, you help me so much and I’m sure so many others x
Awwww thanks pal xxx
Hi... I am a 48 year old …. struggle every day with this struggle... I like peanut butter... but it is so hard to "just have it" as it has sooo many calories and fat... I just feel guilty while I have it... also hard to do the "challenge repeat" etc... I also struggle with the chew and spit problem... " I try to tell myself that "food is just food" but the voices in my heads are so loud... it tells me Jill... no.. don't have it... u are over 40 so ur metabolism is slow and u cant have these foods.. Also my workouts are so hard on my body.. but I still do it,,, even though my body hurts... So I am thinking that I will never be a "normal" eater... so many thoughts on calories, fat, body is sooo fat.. need to workout,,, cant have this, or cant have that.. etc.. guilt, anxiety the need to "feel hungry or I will get fat".. Always comparing myself to others.. Like if they weigh ….less than me and they are they same height... then I am so fat!!! I am not able to enjoy food as it is... food is the enemy... My family im sure thinks that I look "fine" to them and I have all this control … but honestly I feel "shit"... My husband is always saying how he loves my curves"... (fat) !!!! and loves my rib cage;;;(WTF).. so confused etc...….
I’m 53 , I could have written this, you definitely have an ed , I’ve anorexia and have been in treatment for 3 years and even with help every day is a battle , please get help x
Meg thank you you always help me soo much!! You're an absolute angel, I'm so motivated to do all these challenges now and beat AN for real! Thanks from the bottom of my heart
So glad to hear, hope the motivation can translate into action as well (as sadly we can't want or think ourselves better) xxxx
looking forward to your videos each time. you are amazing and be so proud of yourself, helping em and so many more people
Other than the usual "so proud: ". Damn good looking burgers Meg!
AREN'T THEY!!?!? So proud of the burgers haha
@@megsyrecovery191 A-mazeballs!
I so love you to bits. You are a great inspiration to me who struggles with recovery. Axx
I'm struggling so bad . Love your videos
i'm struggling too but when I see Megsy's fight I tryin to not give up. Thanks God she upload videos, share with us her recovery..
Starting recovery tomorrow and I’m
So scared but your videos are helping me so much
omg i just started today too! good luck!
@@boavidaaa I hope that it is going well! im thinking of you and hoping that you are doing fantastic! xx
Crazy Stevie is soooo cute
Hi! You say here that you are 18months into recovery (presumably from the relapse that you have mentioned previously). Prior to the relapse, were you "fully recovered"? I know you have had the ED on and off since being a teenager.
Love love love your videos! So incredibly brave & strong willed! Btw, you & Bren are the cutest couple! Your accents make me want one so badly lol (even tho I probably have an accent to you guys)
I have a 70 year old partner who loves me to bits quite literally - I'm 52 in September & I struggle with recovery even though I eat quite well. It's the exercise I can't let go of! I'm a big lover of peanut butter as well by the way. My partner see's nothing wrong with my body even though I'm about 1 and a half to 2 stone underweight. I'm terrified of gaining weight in case he get's disappointed & doesn't perhaps love me as much? I don't think that will happen but it's my paranoia working yet again. He basically doesn't really understand eating disorders, I don't think. I'm quite stressed by this & I'm worked up because I have put on 2 pounds. Pathetic really but as you know that's the ED brain within me. I've subscribed to you for about 15 months & never miss a video. Love from Alison xx
Hi Alison, I recognize your name from the last 15 months :-) I bet if you asked your partner why he's with you and what he cares about in a human he wouldn't say their weight! We blow it so out of proportion in our minds and it seems like such a big deal and yeh like people won't like us if we're X size, but really most people don't care about it a fraction of the amount we do!! In fact, most people care a lot more about having some one who can join in and eat with them, think and care about things other than food, have fun, be spontaneous, chill out with etc.... So actually gaining weight could make the relationship better! It did for me xxx
Eating a mug cake whilst watching this!!! Been putting this off for months 😝
Do you think now you can eat or drink with no fear everything you have challenged earlier even if you haven’t had it for a while?
lena jazuk most things, yeh
yess repeating challenges is SO HARD!
i love your videos, they have helped me so much. challenge repeat! next time you should make a salad dressing with mayonnaise as an ingredient as a real challenge.....
Erica DeWitt yeh I really should! Creamy salad dressings are actually in my list of things to challenge
Hey Meg! How does it feel to be getting near or being at your set point? The idea of reaching my set point sounds awful :( I wish it didn’t because I would love to be able to enjoy all the foods you do. I know that you follow the statement “Body neutral. Life positive.” But I just feel like I put so much value on appearance, and I can’t help it. Like if I were to reach my set point, I know I would be miserable and depressed looking in the mirror, and I can’t imagine myself being happy.
I’d love for you to make a video about how you stay happy at your set point/how to not get consumed by body image. Maybe through distractions? But I know you’ve mentioned that sometimes distracting yourself doesn’t feel truly helpful and I agree.
Your salads look amazing
Meg thank you so much for this video! I was wondering how regularly you challenge, repeat? Eg. Do you keep having a burger every day until it’s easier or once a week or every second day?
Megsy is this something you can reply to?
toe dipping is the perfect way to describe what i´m doing in my recovery, but i cannot imagine doing anything more honestly. it´s already so hard.
I might add, you are very inspiring. Xx
i switched into veganism for recovery and I'm afraid to not have the minimum kcalories than everyone have that could happen if i transit into veganism??
Glad to see you doing well 😙
that sandwich bread looks so fluffy and delicious!! i just want to toast it up and slap nutella on it ;-;
Aww cute cat😍😍😉great video xx keep strong 💪 always here beautiful
Thanks for the salad dressing recipe being challenge it for 2 weeks now and now I dont think I would be able to eat salad without it now lol next challenge proper mayo thanks meg I know I'm going to fell shit but I'm going to do it anyway 💕💕💕😘
Marie Beach sane same same!!! One time I slipped up & didn’t have it & was literally like OMG how did I eat this sad dry salad before. Literally said to bren that’s it, never going back to that! Once it’s in it’s in ☺️
@@megsyrecovery191 I hope it's the same with mayo and when I try the low fat one again I will think oh my God it's got no taste lol xxx
I have a huge fear of mayonnaise and I have never been a fan of it but the other night was a on the spot sandwich. I almost swear I had a heart attack and was about into tears. I try to keep them silent so I dont bother anyone.
I got intouble for my anxiety attack and there was yelling....
Could you ever do a topic on how you feel others should act on your ED. Like what way should others support you?
I have family members limit and make comments on that I shouldnt eat certain things even if it is something I am willing to eat. I just get so confused and asking them not to yell at me makes things worse.
Yes I've had quite a few requests for this type of thing, it will take a fair bit of thought to do so when I have enough time I'll do one. What about getting your family to watch some vlogs to help them?
@@megsyrecovery191
Thank you for responding, this means more then you realize as well as your videos. It's tough with this. I've told my parents about how your vlogs help me motivate myself with more reassurance. One parent thought it was awesome and the other two didnt care. They want to be the ones to make everything happen. It sometimes makes it harder, when I bring stuff up that doesn't have to do with them
What is the pink beverage? It looks good :)
Squash and soda water. it's lush!
Megsy Recovery I just had to google squash lol! I’m from the US. :) I am going to try to find some to make!!
Omg Megan u are so pretty !❤️😭 lot’s of love from Finland! Also I know I have asked u this earlier but could you think of doing a video about intimacy in ED/ED recovery cause I’m now starting to date again after anorexia and idk... body insicurity etcis still a big issue and I can imagine that’s the case for a lot of people.. again totally undestand if u think it’s not the right time to talk about it but... u know sex is a big part of almost everyone’s adult life and yeah😳 I’m pretty bad at writing comments so I hope I got my point across! 😂 also, I’m coming to Dubai next month any recommendations for doing stuff? Xoxo 🙆♂️
Jami Gustafsson hey, I will def do something on relationships, it’ll just take some time to think about it. I think I’d feel too awkward & it’s kinda too personal to go into too much, but do you want to DM me? I’m happy to talk about it one on one 😚
Omg that would be awesome! And I’m also 110% gay so I hope u dont feel awkward talking about this! 🤦♂️
@@Moiiiii321 OK hahahaha that cracked me up! Message me on Instagram x
I think this is a great topic, maybe not just intimacy in relationships when having a Ed but also how Brendan coped during different stages of your ed
Mayo is life!
I’ve been obsessed with thick shakes. Before that I was obsessed with açai bowls. Yes, it’s quite the unhealthy switch, especially since I’m lactose intolerant
It's not unhealthy :) it's just food. And you're just showing what a warrior you are conquering that food with an extra intolerance to boot. I've been lactose intolerant since infancy but as an adult have been able to tolerate yoghurt, milk in my tea, and some ice cream, which feels so amazing because in my early teens I literally would spontaneously get sick on the spot if I tried to drink milk.
May I ask why are you still so thin?!
Did you ever think you were a terrible person (personality & morals) when you were underweight and still not in full recovery? I would say I’m in quasi but I’m still very underweight and I’m so snappy, bitchy and I feel like I’ve made everyone hate me. I hate myself. I think I’m actually just a horrible person.
I’m worried it’s just ME now. Not the ED. I’ve forgotten how I was before.
I feel you! I'm realising lately how worst of a person I am when restricting because I cant see past myself, but I really believe that getting better I'm becoming more "human", I hope I explained myself
You don’t have the capacity to be empathetic, loving and kind while in a state of starvation. You aren’t your ED. You will find yourself again if you keep going, but it’s hard to work on recovery if you hate yourself. Give yourself compassion first because you won’t have it to give to anyone else if you don’t care for yourself 💜
@@BeccaG1100 Love this response!!! Couldn't have said it better. I'm so much more caring and interested in people now I'm not as starved.... but it almost had to get worse before it got better. I mean it was hard to think of others in a state of starvation, but even harder when I was trying to feed myself out of that state! But, it passes xxx
Megsy Recovery thank you both so much for these responses. It gives me some hope. It’s just I’ve found even when I got to healthy weight once before, I was so unhappy with being that weight, that I was still snappy, selfish and horrible all the time :( Why?
MEG❤️SY TRAVELS WITH ME 🙌🙌🙏🏻
rita conte 💛💛💛
Never mind the flippin' mayo girl, why aren't you scared of the white bread?!
will day - ??????
Nope, luckily because it's bloody delicious and shock horror nothing happened to me from eating it!
Megsy Recovery - awesome!!💕
Megsy Recovery YES!! no reason to be scared of white bread. Food is just food, bread is just bread 🧡