pov: trying to leave a toxic relationship/friendship (a vent playlist)
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- Опубликовано: 27 май 2024
- 'feel free to vent in the comments!'
timestamps:
0:00 - me and my husband - mitski
2:14 - francis forever - mitski
4:44 - fourth of july - sufjan stevens
9:24 - I deserve to bleed - sushi soucy
11:10 - sweet hibiscus tea - penelope
13:34 - lotta true crime - penelope
16:57 - jubilee line - wilbur soot
`feel free to vent in the comments`
timestamps:
0:00 - me and my husband - mitski
2:14 - francis forever - mitski
4:44 - fourth of july - sufjan stevens
9:24 - I deserve to bleed - sushi soucy
11:10 - sweet hibiscus tea - penelope
13:34 - lotta true crime - penelope
16:57 - jubilee line - wilbur soot
these are literally the songs i have in my favourite playlist 🙃
@@kanewien aw!! yes I love all these songs, tysm!!
hi karl. my name is Olli. i am an ordinary person. and which an ordinary person goes through a lot of stuff. which includes you. you made this playlist to convince yourself its to help others, but are you sure it isnt for yourself? youre helping so many people with this including me, so this is your sign to stop, drop, breathe. and take care of yourself, ok? i wish you the best
@@itmightbesaturn awh your very kind Olli, i appreciate it greatly, really^^. your really sweet so thank you for asking if I was okay! and you're way more than just a ordinary person, and if thats the case than everyone is ordinary
@@sleepykarl you too ! thanks for responding:)
I knew that it was toxic.
I didn’t know they were playing with me
I knew they weren’t telling the truth
I didn’t know I was hurting
I knew they weren’t on my side
But why?
Why does it hurt?
Why do I miss them?
Why did I put up with it?
Why did they manipulate me?
Why did I believe them all this time?
I knew.
Why?
I think because I’m a people pleaser as my mom says it going to turn my friendships to dust but I have this one friend and it feels like we don’t get along we don’t like the same things we don’t talk much at all but I’m afraid of losing them so I do every thing they want for Halloween I did what costume they wanted even they told me I didn’t have to I am afraid of what if I say no does everything I did not matter school is not the best place for me so i don’t know what to do anymore this is kinda a vent because it like maybe I’m in that toxic situation if I don’t give up on the friendship I lose everything I work for in life
I finally got out of a friendship I hated being in, my best friend told me not to talk to him because he has made me cry so many times but I didn't listen. He hates all my friends and is friends with people who are racist, homophobic, transphobic, etc and every time I try to learn something (languages mostly) he gets mad and yells at me but he is friends with most of my friends so I can't just avoid him (he is also dating someone I vent to a lot and helps me with my problems), so I can't avoid him. Today me and my friend were doing some funny jokes and he got mad at me and finally blocked me but I'm kinda afraid he is gonna do something to affect my friendships. (we were only friends because I stop people bulling my friend and him and he was my friend kind of since but he has said a lot of transphobic things about me behind my back which I have been told about over and over again yet have ignored it for awhile) so anything that might help me not worry he is gonna do something bad because I can only ever see the negatives of thing.
update 1: I messaged my friend about what happened and she agreed to talk to him. I have blocked all contacts to him. I am yet to talk to some of my other friends to explain this as both a warning and to let them know how I feel. I might update this again if something happens but thank you for helping.
update 2: so I vented to some of my friends the one I made a funny joke with was rlly good to talk to and helped me but the one who was my best friend I'll call Mint was just rude to me
so Mint has been my friend for 7 years we hadn't seen each other for at least 3-4 years but after seeing and talk to each other again she has been controlling me a lot she uses me a lot and we fight almost ever week but she does make me happy sometimes, she does play games with me but she is more obsessed with people she meets online (on Minecraft) but with me worrying about the friendship I had with I'll say Arch, I've been more aware that some of my friends treat me badly and she made me rlly upset but I don't know if I'm just to emotional I asked my friend that I did the joke with (Liam) what I should do he said ask someone online so I am should I end this friendship with Mint or not?
this is really very sad :( I'm sorry that you have to go through this, but I believe this fear will end! I just ask that you be patient and keep trying to distance yourself from this person, I hope it all right!
Sorry if something is wrong :'/ my english is not very good
is this on vr chat
@@Abi_Dawn no
VENT….
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TW // abuse, emotional abuse, suicidal thoughts , etc.
I’m currently stuck in a trauma bond / abusive narcissistic relationship with somebody. We’ve been together for 5+ years and everything was fine and dandy until last year (I think). They had gotten rid of everybody and everything. including my best friend for over 3 years who had already replaced me with new friends and a new best friend. I have nobody, absolutely nobody but the person who I’m in a “ relationship “ with. we constantly argue and they leave me almost everyday. I do nothing put my heart out for them, cry out for them and they never listen to me. Recently they had told me the reason why they’ve been leaving me is because it satisfies them on a personal level. seeing me in pain and crying for them makes them feel good and wanted. it’s so sick. It hurts so much. I tried telling myself I need to go by my heart doesn’t want to leave. Where could I go? It hurts not knowing where to go or what to do. I’ve tried so hard to put myself back out there but I constantly get knocked back down. The only thing I know how to do is sit and look pretty, fantasizing about a better life, having friends and a better partner who truly loves me and wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. My heart yearns for so much but I’m stuck in a ditch and I can’t get out. I need help but I have nobody to turn to. My abusive partner stalks me on everything and I’m not allowed to talk to anybody on anything unless they give me permission to. Im wrapped around their finger; rotting in chains. I feel like the only way out is by taking the easy way out. I cant deal with anymore heartbreak, I’m only 18 and I feel like I’ve felt too much for my age.
I'm really sorry it happens to you if the stalking got a little bit dangerous please inform your parents/police. They live on your fear, so try to cut all contact with them (also be careful! They might be violent if they knew you in real) it might be hard at first day, week or month but you can go through it, you're only 18 the whole life is in front of you, do what you wish live. If you can't vent to anyone try making new friends or join new communities or even watch therapist online. These little steps might appear very simple but very effective on long run
I’m sorry. I don’t know you…. But I hope you’re okay. You don’t have to be happy. Just- I hope you’re okay.
i always had in mind that love is a waste of time, i never experienced any of this since i love so much the peace of being alone and dedicate my time alone with my creativity and learning. however… i have a friend that is in a relationship with an extremely toxic girl. she stalks him and gets extremely jealous even if he just passes by besides a girl, she’s so manipulative and seems that’s she’s always filled with anger and what’s worst is that he doesn’t want to leave her because he loves her so much even if she’s really abusive with him. i’m so concerned about him. i tried giving him advice which is.. leaving her or try to talk to her to consider her behavior but nothing helps.
I'M BACK I GOT A HEADSET SO NOW I CAN SLEEP WHILE LISTENING TO UR PLAYLISTS AGAIN
AWE YES IM SO HAPPY YOUR BACK LETS GO
Karl, I hope you're alright. I'm here for you if you ever want to vent, I'll be happy to listen
awe awe your too sweet tysm!!
@@sleepykarl quite alright!!! I'm happy to have a friend like you
@@sleepykarl I’m kinda depressed. Your playlists help though. Thank you.
16:57
tw manipulation
man, i’m so tired of seeing him in the hall and wanting to love him one more time. i know the shit he did was bad, the shit *i* did was bad. but i want him to kiss me again, i want to say bye to him again, want to see him at my orchestra concert. i don’t care if i was worried about him every second of my life, that i was letting my health going down the drain. i’d do anything.
Vent
My childhood was never great. I was made fun at, bullied and all that sort of things. Then I switched schools and I thought everything was going to be fine. Guess what! It's going downhill again. I don't have any friends and there are so many toxic people in my class. I want this to end so damn bad.
Loved this playlist!
man, i was thinking about my 11 break ups i've had and i'm not realizing half of them were toxic and now i feel like shit bc i didn't deserve them or they didn't deserve me
Thanks for this playlist
recently found out that maybe my ex-bestfriend is doing amazingly without me and well I'm missing her so much even though she was toxic as fuck and I've shed so many tears because of her, for her. I just it hurt ro have her cut me out after everything and when i accepted it i realized how toxic she was and well, i feel like shit for missing her so much. We were together for a long time. I thought the world of her and i guess she didn't think the same.
I dont know what to do anymore
Ive been friends with this girl for only about 6 months but i already feel our friendship is very toxic.
She never leaves me alone. When im at school even though we are now in different classes she comes to visit me every chance she gets which is sweet, but sometimes i just want to talk with other friends. She also gets jealous way to easily. Whenever i go out with other friends, she keeps calling me asking where i am. I cant even remember why i was friends with her in the first place. I mean i guess when i moved here i met her we basically had all the same interests. So it was like a perfect match. I was happy then too. I wish i just had maybe better distanced herself. I wish i listened to all the other girls who said that she was very clingy and emotional. I just want to forget about her for a damn second. But i cant. Ive emotionally connected to her so much. I feel like she is a good person. Shes kind, and just willing to do anything for her friends. But honestly i just want nothing to do with her now. And i dont know how to tell her. If i tell her, i feel like she will be very and i dont really want that. I just want us to go our separate ways. And our personalitys have changed so much since when i met her. We are just not a 'perfect match' anymore. I want her out of my life
I really do love her, but she’s just destroying my mental health with hers. I feel like she doesn’t care about me anymore, but shouldn’t I always be there for her? Idk, I can’t let her go bc she won’t make it, but I’m losing everything for her
Looks like he just ended our toxic friendship, and I can't handle it. We had dated for over 3 years, I thought I could count on him forever. But I guess he's burnt out from dealing with my mental issues, and now he's gone.
I don't know if I'm mad at him or sad that he left, I just hope I could've seen him one last time before he ended our years long relationship
i clicked faster than the speed of light.
if anyone is having issues please know we’re all here for you. so don’t give up!
have a good day/night
VENT!!
TW: TOXICITY, VERBAL ABUSE, SWEARING
So basically I'm THAT girl in the friend group who is ALWAYS there for EVERYONE and it's typically just because people "think they can trust me" as they say, but I work so hard on making others happy that I forget about myself most days. My mom's always telling me "you can't always be on that phone of yours, it'll just make things worse" or "you're always on that phone of yours, why don't you ever wanna hangout with your dear old parents?" And I try my hardest to keep from taking my anger out on anyone but when all my friends are complete assholes to me, and say "we were just joking around! Loosen up a little!!" Or something, it hurts. It really does. When the friend group gets in an argument, they always think to blame me because I'm just "a stupid weak girl" and I think I can only trust one person in our friend group because she's been there for me unlike the others. Nobody ever cares when I'm upset or about to cry, but when anybody else and I mean ANYONE else in the group is even a little bit down, they always help them through it. What do I get? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Maybe a glance at most. When someone who they'd recently became friends with decided to bully me and say that I bullied THEM instead of the one who's been there for a bunch of things. After they realize I was right all along, I had already started overthinking about who I'm going to lose because of this. I had a TikTok account right? Well one girl who I THOUGHT was my friend, decided "she's a cringy cosplayer ew." And somehow got me banned and I cried for days. When she admitted it, I was still really upset at her but someone responded to her for me with "it's fine now! You're ok! :D". I was mad but I could never admit that to anyone. Whenever we get into arguments, people yell at me for "never being there for them" or "not knowing ANYTHING about their lives" when really I was always there for their shittiest days and I listened. Always. I really feel like I relate to "crybaby" by Melanie Martinez, "sweet hibiscus tea" by Penelope Scott, and "it's all futile! It's all pointless!" By Wilbur Soot because I have gotten called a crybaby several times as I do cry a lot, sometimes people think I'm the perfect person to be a protagonist in my own story of life when really I'm not, and everyone else seems to have their 'perfect little lives' and want me to be their personal maid or something when I'm working hard to get where I want to be in life. I'm so sorry for how long this vent was but if you read this all thank you very much for taking time out of your day to read this
You didn’t deserve any of that hope your doing better now
i should’ve listened to my friends
i love it ! thx so much
That playlist help me to feel better!
Thx :)
awe tysm!!!!
I can relate to that playlist! I had sum toxic friendships alr
awe tysm mate!!!
@@sleepykarl how are you? Haven’t talked in a while now!
@@sleepykarl i Heard- u chatted with our little alter?
@@The_b0y_with_n0_name hihi!!! and I'm doing alright^^ how are youu?
@@The_b0y_with_n0_name and I'm a system too^ if I left a comment on my other channel "karls little corner" then kumos or stars most likely responded to it!! :00 also do you have simply plural? it's a app for systems and if so I'd love to friend you on there!!
I'm trapped in toxic friendship, we are both 15, he have depression and I'm his only friend, he will undo himself if I leave. He can't do many things like going to normal school because of his poor health, I'm only thing that keep him on this world. He's over controlling, manipulative, I'm emotionally drained because of him and I can't do anything about it. He won't let help himself, and I don't know if I could even help. He one said that he see me as a friend for life, forever. I just don't want him In my life anymore, but I also don't want him to attempt undoing. I'm just tired of this all. He gets jealous about all my friends, saying that "he isn't good enough" and that "I should leave him if I like them better". So I started lying about other friends. I started lying about my life, I started lying about everything. Recently I'm reducing contact with him, I dont respond to his messeges all day and just do it in the evening, but I feel guilty for it. He thinks I cant because I'm grounded and i have my phone for 1h daily, but for real I just dont want to. I feel bad for lying, but on the other hand I feel better, because I can finally live my own life. But I can't "be grounded" forever, right?
this is kind of a vent but its not: when i was around 10 i was and still in a toxic friendship, her name was margaret and i thought she was really cool until she called me a wierd, transgender lesbian freak. in that moment i was crying and yelling at her, we had gotten into arguments before, but never that badly. she has always been rude but i realised that she was only my friend because i was friends with three of her friends. she is and still is an asshole, im 18 now.
a very similar thing happened to me
VENT
I became friends with a kid in 8th grade because he showed interest in a fanbase that I like but during the past 2 years he's been spreading rumors that we were together, and even made me feel bad when I told him that he was like a brother to me. An one point he even started getting super touchy and I even told him that it made me uncomfortable but he kept on doing it and he even brought in a list of people he wants to harm into my school and he only got 10 days for it, and I have a feeling that if I break our friendship apart that I will end up on his list and this kid knows where I live and I'm scared. I'm even scared to post this because I'm afraid someone will find it and tell him.
VENT:
Just got backstabbed over spring break by my
"best friend" she wasn't answering my texts so l just gave her space and just yesterday I asked why she's been ghosting me and she just glared at me and continued to talk to her friend....so I just told her we aren't friends anymore and I walked away...now
I realize how manipulative and toxic she was... she left me out at dances just hang with her friends and pretends I don't even exist at school..now I'm not saying she can't hang with other people thats not right but she knows I'm alone sitting there plus she said she CARES WAY MORE ABT HER CRUSH THAN ME (E RIGHT TO MY FACE and I've known her for 10 years and she betrayed me...and I learned she was talking abt me behind my back and saying that my social anxiety was fake...we used to call every day after school and talk for HOURS n and it hurts that we aren't friends anymore but I also feel better that we aren't....
vent:
TW:body-shaming, suicide thoughts, abuse (not physically).
J is my best friend by the way, this was all from different time periods.
i want to kms so f-cking much right now the sh-t ive gone through my whole life! my parents f-cking body-shaming me, J particularly abusing me!! my dad verbally, emotionally and mentally abusing me!! i just cant take it anymore. my school making life harder because its making me unable to sleep like i get 3-5 hours of sleep and people my age is supposed to get 8-10 hours of sleep. i feel so alone but i have a couple of friends. i cant take it anymore i really want to end it.. but i dont want to because of my two nephews i absolutely love to my heart!! i dont want them to be alone for the rest of their lives.. one is 10 and the other is 6, i want to stay alive for them but i want to d!e cause of everything else going on! i cant take anything else my parents dont even care about me my mum says she does but i dont believe her cause of everything else..
no but fr J is always on her phone and im not mad at that cause i am as well but we are having a sleepover and she keeps calling people which annoys the f-ck out of me and i cant do anything because of that cause if i listen to music on my tv she tells me to turn it off or down cause shes on call with someone but i swear to f-cking god its so annoying and i dont want to complain about her cause shes been my best friend for 5+ years..
like im going through so much sh-t and they dont realise anything!! ive given them so much signs but they havent noticed anything!!!!!!
J literally was screaming five seconds again and my mother blamed it on me!! and J forces me to do literally everything for her its so annoying to the point i want to k!ll her but as i said weve been friends for 5+ years!
all shes doing right now is moving about, making alot of noise, listening to voice messages of a friend VERY loudly (for me at least) and i cant watch anything or do anything cause J would get mad at me for it..
i want to cry.. like i really do but i just cant cause shes beside me! i wish J could just leave and go home but its 10:30 at night and her mum wont come for her and my dad has work in the morning so be wont take her either so i have to deal with her until tomorrow afternoon and i cant be ars3d dealing with her any longer.
like i just cant!!!!
i want to d!e.. i want to cry.. i dont want to be alive anymore.. i just want my pain to end!!
just k!ll me already please!!!!!!!!!!
im ready to cry my eyes out because of everything and J wanted me to get her pringles and water for her cause she WaS sOrE (yeah i f-cking doubt it) and now shes watching netflix so FUCKING LOUD! and my parents can probably hear her and my dad has work tomorrow which means hes going to be moody tomorrow and im going to have to deal with it!!!!!!!! im so ready to k!ll that f-cking b-tch.
i want to f-cking sleep but shes being too loud and i dont like telling people what to do incase they get mad at me but i want to tell her to turn the volume f-cking down.
J just joined someones live and i swear to god im ready to k!ll her cause its so f-cking loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and there J is trying to get me to tell her whats up when shes one of the reasons im like this. like no b-tch.
J has her volume so f-cking loud and its so f-cking annoying!. its 11 at night and i swear to god i wish either me or her was d3ad. i dont mind who i just want one of us d3ad. both if possible to be honest.
J was just laying on me and it caused me pain im going to scream
J also talking to one of her friends who i hate and she knows that because its their birthday tomorrow
just k!ll me please.. Js talking to "that" friend right now and i want to k!ll her so much cause of them.. JUST F-CKING K!LL ME ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i swear to god its f-cking midnight and shes watching f-cking tiktok or some dumb sh-t like that or talking to "that" friend cause its her birthday today and Js volume is so loud im ready to scream "turn that the f-ck down" but if i do my parents will hear and they dont like me swearing theh dont even allow it
i keep going on the same three apps
wattpad, pinterest and youtube waiting for her to go to sleep but i dont think thats happening anythime soon
im so ready to just punch the b-tch in the face like i swear to god my parents like her more then me!!!! i just want to d!e..
im going to be so f-cking happy once she leaves tomorrow ngl
J keeps talking to my mum just ignoring me and she keeps talking about "that" friend or like talking to them and its really annoying
J also has her volume up loud again and i just woke up!!!! i want to d!e.. i want her to d!e.. I WANT BOTH OF US D3AD!!!!
i woke up like 10 minutes ago cause i was reading till like 6:30am and J is annoying the f-ck out of me!
J was just leaning her arm on my leg and it was so painful but i knew if i asked her to get up she would say no
J just went to the bathroom and i want her to either leave or d!e soon. like i seriously cant deal with it anymore but i dont want to stop being friends cause she has like most of my secrets as well..
i just want something good to happen in my life!!!!!!!!! is that too much to ask?????
J just said shes the kind of person to be there for everyone. i. f-cking. doubt. it. b-tch. cause youre never there for me! unless youre being forced to..
i wish i never agreed to have a sleepover with her.. i seriously do.. i just want her gone but i dont know what time shes leaving!
Please don't think that way!! Ik you might not want to hear the same "Life has it's struggles" or "Your not alone". Those negative people in your life are /have hurting/ hurted you. Your strong for making it this far! Don't drag yourself down. ♡♡♡
@@shows46 thanks.. i really really needed to hear that kind of stuff ive never in my life heard it! but i really want to know if i should stop being friends with J or not..
@@eggsbenidict1 my opinion, yes. If they hurt you this much then of course. If you don't feel comfortable doing it, just take one step at a time.
@@shows46 okay.. i might start ignoring them at school first.. ill tell my other friend what im doing and to get them to help me stop being friends with J cause my other friend always keeps my secrets even if were not friends anymore
@@eggsbenidict1 get fucking rid of J. That mf shouldn’t be ur friend at all. You’re surely better off without him : D we are here for you!
Warning!!! :mentions of not so good talk and hitting
Im basically the punching bag of my freind group, like physically when one of my freinds loses at his game he punches me in the arm >:( like REALLY hard and he has long nails and digs them in my hand cussing scars. And the other one just be mean to me. I know we’re just playing around but you dont have to be mean ALL the time >:( and the worst thing is that the first kid turns of my chromebook everyday! It makes me so mad but i cant do anything tho. I tried talking to the teachers but thwy do nothing about it! Also i dont do the same thing to my freinds! They punch me but i dont punch back! Cus then i’ll be in the wrong! Atleast theres only a few more weeks of school and then i’ll be fine :)
Um, if im allowed to vent. I havr a crush on this girl. She's my friend and I've known her since school started. Idk if she likes me. She probably doesn't, but i can't help but smile when i take too her but when she's with this other girl she's always so happy and doesn't want to leave her side. I keep accidently looking at her and i believe she thinks im creepy. Me and her chat but she would make fun of my height or weight. Im tall and she's short so i make nothing of the height thing but some things she says hurts. She also hangs out with me only whens she's bored then runs off too the girl that 'makes her day'. I know that they are not dating cause if they were,i would have known. Middle school traumatized me by boys trying to cut my hair and being Harrassed by my "ugly looks" or people making out in the hallways. But this is different. Isn't highschool supposed to be different? I just wish i can tell her i like her but ik she'll tell everyone and my friends and then they will aboid me and think im pathetic. If you are going through the same thing, i am so sorry. Basil on the thumbnail makes me sad. Also don't forget to drink water and get 8 hours of sleep.❤❤
i got out of a toxic friendship but they just came back to become friends with me when they threat to leave me now i know i wont be sad if they leave me.
little rant, so no need to read, I just need to send this out to the void
I never got a choice in any of my other friendships. whenever it was a group, it followed the pattern of us being all happy, then a fight broke out, then people stopped talking to each other, then they forced everyone to pick sides, then I got kicked out. my current friend group has been fighting for over a week, people crying left and right, and for the first time I had the choice to leave the group before they left me. I'm still friends with a few of them, but I need a break. I left the group chat (which was the only way we kept in contact during winter break) yesterday and from then on I'm just wondering if what I did was the right thing
(just a ramble/info dump)
Best friend of a year an a half. She always put me down, then love bombed me. Saying we would always be together, making plans for our 15th birthdays to travel to Japan together. We never got that far. Shed accused me of not caring about her and threats of un@(!vÍng herself so that i would go to comfort her. My mom tore me from that relationship for what would be the greater good in the long run, but in that time period i wanted to die. She was my only friend at the time (due to her isolating me from our original friend group) and it hurt to let it go more than it did to hang on. Later, i made more friends. Ones who werent manipulative like her. But she came back and i tried to give her a second chance. She only proved to me she wasnt to be trusted and that my mother was correct, but i still held hope. Afraid of change. I recently ghosted her because i know it will be good for me. I have loving people around me and am healing from what happend during that time period. (Not only her but other things.) Learning to not let my social anxiety control me. A part of me still thinks she can change and that i should go back because what if she hurts herself without me there. But i know better than that now.
my dad finally left my mom :)
We love to see basil
basil's my everything
It's so confusing am I even in a toxic relationship? I don't know anymore he is so nice [Platonic relationship] and is hated by alot of people but idc .he stabbed me in the hand with a freshly sharpened pencil and then we laughed about it a few weeks later I was at a pretty low state during a project and he did the most reasonable thing and stabbed me in the back as hard as possible (he apologized that time) and he often tells me to shut up when ever I talk but we still talk and that's fun he's a fun freind he's just confusing me...
Edit: I'm such a fucking narrsastistic ass person but after getting stabbed twice and keeping a smile anyways i never thought he would say infront of me "Oh well (Other freind) is my Best freind " Me:"I thought I was ur bbf?" Him: "Shut up twin" Me: "oh"
SORRY IF YOU SEE THIS MAN IT JUST HURT A BIT DONT WORRY ABOUT IT♡♡♡♡
Ignore this
Vent
I seriously wish someone could just love me but not to use me for stuff and only text me whenever they want stuff I don’t know what I did but every relationship I’ve had they all want something but not love I don’t get along with my family and parents and all I really want is someone to love me but whenever I think I find it they want other stuff and act all nice to get it I didn’t think it was that hard to simply text morning back whenever I text them it and not just reply with “k” then ask me if I’m gonna send something or do something that I don’t wanna do when I try to explain they just talk me out of it but im not ready to talk about stuff like this I’m only just 15 I don’t understand it all I don’t get why some boys act like this all I want is someone to love me for me and my personality not my body and stuff like that
[vent] [TW, mentions of SH]
I have/had a really close friend and they just dumped me the other day, (Unfriended me on discord) and she was pretty toxic I think.
Basically they joined a game I was playing with my friend and then she started DM-ing me on discord about how she’s “ugly” and “fat” and “isn’t even high leveled” in the game, and because of the last one, she was way better. Even though me and my friend almost never played that game.
I got super upset with with her because I’ve been friends with the friend I was playing with since I was an infant, and didn’t respond to her messages. I basically said that I didn’t want her to call my other friend that (and, she was super possessive of me and tried to make me dump my other friends) and she blocked and unfriended me.
The worst part is, I feel like it’s all my fault, and almost wanna go back to her because I only have 3 friends, 2 of which I barely talk to, and one is my cousin. But now I’ve gone back into a depressive slump that I tried so hard to get out of just for that toxic friend, and the months of being clean from SH a have all caved in. I’m trying so hard not to cry over her because I know she was toxic and rude and horrible to everyone around me but I can’t help but miss her.
Vent
So me and my bestie were playing then she started bieng mean to me for no reason at all so i said why are you mad and then she started going off on me and i was about to cry then i was like dont talk to me and that day on she gives me side eyes and just being mean i dont know why she just has an aluttude with me but now i got a new bestie shes so nice she even gave me a bracelet
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I feel so weird and alone lately. One of my best friends always goes anywhere with new friends and sometimes drinks alcohol with them until they're all drunk. My other friend is a pschopath?? I dont know if they are joking or not. They say they want to k!ll this person and that they almost pushed a child of a balcony, but stopped because I texted and distracted them. And I feel like we are not as close as we used to be, and I have trouble making friends, so yeah. I have been feeling a little lonely...
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I started off the year good I was around 3 good people person 1 was my bff person 2 was my friend and my crush person 3 was an outcast just like me in the middle of the year a group of girls invited me over I accepted. How stupid I was. They got me to vape. They made me do there dirty work. And if I didn’t I was treated like crap and ignored . I stopped hanging around everyone but them person 2 left me when she found out everything . I started bullying person 3. Now I’m barley hanging on to person 1 but yet I can’t seem to leave those toxic girls. And I still wonder what would have happened if I never sat at that table in 4th period.
i relat the this some much
Lmao me right now....
She talks bad and starts it abt me and than says it was all a loyalty test when i say one thing bad abt her what do i do im no one without her who do i go to..
She hurts me my best friend hurts me she takes screenshots of my vents I got used again 2 times ha I don't know if to leave her every scar I get every cute every scream your to loud focus !? But never a I love you ....
If he cared about me, why did he hurt me?
my boyfriend likes me AND my best friend and he doesnt think i know. she told me he told her he loves us both. ive been datin him for 2 years .. what do i do?
If you likes your best friend too- maybe a trio? Lol idk
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Vent, trigger warning: homophobic/transphobia, racism, bad friend relationship, and SH
Also this is pretty long, sorry about that
So I think I'm a people pleaser, I am "the quiet kid" as well. I have this friend, that I really have a crush on; I'll call her R. I used to have these other friends that grew to be my bullies, I'll call them N and J. So, R and I are both furries, and since people don't like furries for some fucking reason, they bully them. R, J, N, and I have all been friends for 2 years until this year when we told them we were furries, they started to give us death threats and telling us to kys. Considering that I never talk about my problems at home or with my family they assume I wouldn't be thinking of actually doing it, but I've tried before (about 5 times I think). Each time I regret. That was before that all happened, but now, I want to do it again even more than before. R doesn't know any of this, I don't want her to be sad that I'm no longer alive, but I don't want to live anymore. I have serious mental problems/disorders; such as hypersexuality, ADHD, depression, anxiety, and possibly autism and others. R if I'm sure, she has ADHD. We shouldn't have these disorders or problems at such a young age (we're in middle school btw, I'm one of the more mature kids though). The bullying stopped when they got in trouble, but then they just separated themselves from us. They sometimes still insult us, specifically me, when walking by on the bus. The most recent ones are "gross, ew, fuck you, you're annoying, or fat". I'm considering actually kms by now, but I'm scared of death and i don't want to leave R alone, I love her so much. I just don't want to live, I don't want to deal with this anymore. I'm not even 16 yet and I've been dealing with these thoughts ever since 9 years old. I'm not sure how much longer I can go on for. Lately I've been getting mechanical pencils and leaving marks on my arm with it, Staying up past 3AM even on school days, banging my head against the doors and walls, or telling myself I'm better off dead. A few days ago I held a knife against my neck, debating whether or not to just do it. I didn't, unfortunately. I just want to go home, but home doesn't even feel like home either. The constant yelling about how gay people should die (I'm lgbtq), how black people should be slaves again, and mentions of N and J. Lately I've been getting used to being more quiet around my family, specifically grandparents, since I live with them. Most ppl say grandparents can't be evil or abusive but mine most certainly are. Even if it was a simply "I can't do it because ___" I would get slapped, spanked, or choked. This made me scared to speak up my opinions and feelings. And then they apologize as if I'm just some fucking toy. You should never fucking hit, especially choke or spank, a child just because they have an opinion on something, or any reason. I feel isolated with myself. I don't feel like I'm me anymore. I feel like 2 ppl. A happy, generous, motivated, and beautiful person. And then a worthless pathetic waste of space. I've tried running away but I reconsidered and came back. I should've just ran. I want to be anyone, ANYONE else. It doesn't matter who, just anyone with a good healthy life. I'm jealous of others just because they have a nice family. I can't do anything right. I was 8, FUCKING 8. when I realized that the world wasn't all rainbows and happiness, that shouldn't happen to an 8 year old. I was still young and knew what the words "fuck, shit, asshole, f@ggot, and etc" meant. I grew up faster than the rest of the people in my school. Even than my 17 year old sister (I love her so much). I'm not sure how much longer I can go on. I'm sorry if I wasted your time.
//VENT\\ rn i have a friend im not going to say her name but let's call her...Aleesha so Aleesha has been my friend for like 2-3 years now and we have had a lot of fights... this recent one that's going on is making me think "should i stop being her friend?" every time we fight she always blames it on me even though i did nothing wrong and it always makes we feel sad..but these past few times im just angry im done with her blaming everything on me and always coming back like a sad puppy dog... what do you think? should i dump her or keep her for a lil longer?
does Aleesha make you happy when you are not fights? She does seem narcissistic
@@Advertised_Corpse no not really she always acts like im a ghost or like i just am not there
Dump her @$$!
@@MaM-Luverr_ dump her then
@@Advertised_Corpse ty for helping me ill get my friend to help and hopefully she wont be mean anymore
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