Yoongi told Jimin that it was difficult writing this song because it made him relive those traumatic moments all over again. So yes, it was probably a cathartic experience but also a difficult and painful process too. He was indeed very brave to put these feelings out there and he no doubt has helped many ARMY who have similar traumas locked in their Amygdalas. I know it’s helped me. Thank you for your insightful reaction.💜
I couldn’t imagine having to reopen the bad memories of the past that really affected me. He’s brave and amazing. Such a strong and influential man. I’m so proud of him 💜💜
@@Armymom1984 I feel honored that he trusts us with his honest feelings. It makes me feel very protective of him. He’s wounded but like he said “what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger”. He seems to be more relaxed and happy these days. Warms my heart.💜
NOONE can reach you through music like BTS…but to see his pain and him holding it in for so long…a lot of their songs make me cry but this one made me sob 😭I’m glad he seems to have overcome it …I hope he never feels alone cuz a million Army have his back no matter what💜💜
For me this song is about PTSD, he survived getting hit by a car, his mother and father having very serious health issues, and I think that those things are intense trauma alone on top of the traumas that society inflicts on people daily financially, emotionally, physically. All of that culminating into things outside of his control and having to sit with it and go on despite anxiety and depression telling him to not persevere. It's incredibly heavy. I think that the connection between the trilogy of videos is explained perfectly in the fact that Yoongi has said that he made Agust D as an outlet for his anger, pain, etc, i.e. him scarring himself and then as he continues to push through life he begins killing his old self as a transformation over and over until he is perhaps a little bit closer to a more healed self. I've watched this video twice and then multiple times through reaction videos.its incredible. Yoongi is absolutely a musical genius.
Yes you are right it's about post trauma stress disorder.....i personally had this problem and I can relate to it sometimes people even don't able to sleep and PTSD get trigger often and to recover from this is really hard.......i really like how he put emotions and raw lyrics in this song 😅 this is my favourite song of album I really love it his song first love is my all time favourite 😊💜💜
Suga once said that he hated it when people knew things about his private life. This song really shows that. I can't even imagine the pain he must have felt growing up knowing that his mother's health issues started the year he was born. I get why Augst D is a trilogy and why he was so angry in the past when relatives said he would ruin his family doing music. He has such a burden already but music was all he loved to do so he was under so much torment. He was made to feel like he would not be able to take care of his parents as time went along. " in my ears I could hear the sound of my mother's life ticking away" Damn a tear slipped down. Part of his loneliness was that he could tell anyone about his mother and father's health issues in a prison he built for himself. I am so glad he has music and songwriting to take it all in and let it all go. Snooze is my favourite song that made me cry first but this song.... I finally get who agust D is, he is someone that allows Suga and Yoongi to be is truest and rawest self. Agust D has fulfilled the mission, it is done.
A trivia: AMYGDALA is an almond-shaped little part of your brain where it's main purpose is to trigger your traumatic experiences. As Yoongi explained, example, you are afraid of water, and every time you see a water it reminds you of the day you nearly died because of drowning (reason why you have a phobia in water) In AMYGDALA, the whole summary explanation is that Yoongi wanted to remove these traumatic memories inside him. He wanted to get out of that dark room, and remove himself from all the pain. As the chorus says "AMYGDALA, please save me." he is begging the amygdala to save him because these memories pains him to much. A short memory about Yoongi, ARMYS are aware of his shoulder injury caused by the accident he had before debut. On the MV, he is riding a delivery motorcycle, and that was his job before debut because he lack money to support himself and he landed in different jobs, including being a delivery man. And that's where he met into an accident that caused his shoulder injury. But, because of the fear that they will not let him debut if the company will know about the injury, he hid it from them and continued to have medications only rather that having a surgery. In 2020, he did it already because it came from a point that he can't even lift a water bottle anymore. The self-inflicting that he did with the cutter, some ARMYS believed the scar that Agust D had was self-inflicted. A metaphor of him doing "that" before as an escape. He also did the other way of s**c*de (pills). He mentioned that already once in his song "The Last" that when his doctor asked him, he admitted that he did that. The thing about his parents, it's the first time we heard about that and it was really shocking for us. An ARMY on twitter explained some of the points that can be seen through the MV. First is about the scar. Out of all the MVs that he had scars, some of us thought that it was just a scar, on the interview he did for Daecwhita, he admitted that it was just an idea and there's no meaning behind it. But now that he used the same scar in this MV, doing it by himself, maybe the scar all this time is self-inflicted. He switched his facial expression as Agust D when he had the scar which means that this persona is angry because it was in pain. As quoted, "Agust D was never a villain, he is just broken." It's also a way to understand why he usually k**ls the personas in the Daecwhita and Haegeum, because it's a metaphor of removing his past self (who's in pain and lives in anger) in the present him. You can clearly tell as well why he said that it we have to wait for the time that him as Agust D will be back because he wanted to live as Min Yoongi and as SUGA of BTS now. He is no longer in pain, and in the midst of anger, Agust D is fading inside him. Because he is already at peace. AMYGDALA is not Agust D, its Min Yoongi himself. For him to be this brave to tell a whole story line of his past traumatic experiences was something to be proud and admire of. It takes a lot of courage to do that. We can now clearly understand why this is his favorite among the things that he produced and wrote. He mentioned how hard it is for him to write this as he always gets emotional every time because it is very personal for him. It's his own story. At the end of the MV, he never got out. It means that he already accepted that he will forever live with these memories.
Suga being able to depict the struggle of running away from your destructive self and at the same time, saving yourself from it hits hard. Most of us are living in that same vicious cycle for most of our lives and we just want a way out. I am just so happy that he made it. He’s thriving now and I couldn’t be happier for him
I’m just recovering from multiple surgeries and chronic pain haunts me daily. The depression has been deep and dark. I was in a bad place 3 years ago when I found BTS. I’ve been listening and watching this on repeat to remind me that I can get through this. “The future’s gonna be ok.” 💜AgustD for this.
More power to you... When i first saw this song, I felt numb. It's like he'd taken all of my own pain, and put it in front of me. I think especially for trauma survivors, this song is a deep, deep trigger, but also a balm.
His mother's surgery had to have a tremendous impact on the family's financial status... it makes sense now on his comments about being 'poor' while growing up.... and the fact that his mother had surgery during his first year of life means there had to be incredible stress in his family environment which babies are very sensitive to, his mother's surgery would have also limited a lot of physical contact with his mom, limiting his sense of security and emothional nurturing (?)
I just thought of this but the line from People pt. 2 where is says, “wasn’t loved enough as a kid”. I was thinking maybe he didn’t feel that love because his family was probably really focus on his mother and financial situations that it could have been hard to raise him. Not that they didn’t love him because I am sure they did just not as much as he needed…maybe…just a thought….(just speculation not saying this is true)
Younger Suga on the bike at the end has an epiphany moment BEFORE the next residual "loop" memory replays again for the millionth time (as all that Augst D has been able to do up to this point is just re-live the tragedies over and over and over again in a downward spiral). Suga races to the door in a effort to stop the chaos and let Augst D out of his brain/Amygdala...and realizes that he can't change the past nor save himself from what he will have to go though as the door is locked. The 2 identities that make up Suga/Augst D will always be a part of him as we can't change our pasts no matter how much we wish we could. BUT, in that final scene, young Suga finally BROKE the haunting loop cycle memory by finally breaking out of that destructive pattern (him racing to open the locked door) instead of continuing on his bike in his memory and ultimately crashing as he has in his mind every time since the accident, over and over and over again. IN THIS ACTION of trying to take a stand against the mental torment and try and actually save himself breaks the downward spiral pattern because something different, for the first time, resulted in him actually WANTING to save his own life now. While the two entities will always be separate, breaking the mental loop of re-living tragedy every day brings the 2 entities into one and ignites the healing transformation that brings him to today as a prolific songwriter, story teller, survivor and massive mental health advocate and ally. This is literally one of the best songs ever made. Suga/Augst D is a fkn genius.
What this song and video brought into sharp focus for me, that I hadn’t fully appreciated before (despite being 3yr old ARMY), is quite how monumental the burden, guilt and anxiety he must have felt in choosing to pursue music. I knew his family was poor and therefore this choice was a risk that could backfire badly on them, but when you add to that the serious medical issues of, not just one, but both parents and the financial strain this in itself would have put on them, it is amazing he was able to withstand that pressure especially when he was so young. No wonder he was so hungry, so determined to succeed, worked so hard, could not sleep, had anxiety etc. I feel anxious just thinking about it.
He had the motorcycle accident before debut and only had surgery around 2 years ago so he endured the pain especially while doing their hard choreography for almost 9 years
Just wanna clarify that those pills weren't drugs, I doubt it was addiction hearing how he talks about people taking drugs in his songs, and ho w drugs made him part ways with his old best friend. And it says pharmacy on the container. Those are probably antidepressants or something similar? We know he also went to counseling when he was younger...
I think for Yoongi, bc of the special relationship w ARMY, performing this song for ARMY is sort of like group therapy. It's cathartic for everyone there, and it's like him sharing his story to thousands of friends who maybe went through some of the same stuff. It humanizes him, for sure, and it connects him to others who understand.
"And the phone that rang during my schedule and told me of my father's liver cancer" It reminds me during Bon Voyage episode, whe he received a call and the caption was "family emergency" and he hurriedly back to korea.
This was really hard for me to watch. Im a Yoongi bias simply because i relate to him in so many ways. When I saw the music video honestly i forgot that I was watching Agust D cause it felt like i was watching myself. The ending part where he wasn't able to save himself, that's bcoz people like us cannot save ourselves alone. that's the sad reality. But we heal with people who understand us and accept us. Yoongi have such a strong support system, im happy he's okay now and living his life.
I think it's not just that we need a support system to heal, it's that we tend to get trapped tormenting ourselves with "what if's" -- what if I hadn't turned down that street? what if it wasn't raining: -- but that pre-trauma self who lives in our heads can't avoid what's going to (what did) happen and rescue us. We can never be saved from having experienced it in the first place.
My heart aches every time I hear Amygdala. I have tears in my eyes now when I am writing this comment. Kudos to Yoongi for being so strong and vulnerable 💜
My heart always beats a little faster when that first scene of him on the bike comes up. And the mv definitely made me cry the first time, I was surprised by the imagery but the way he did it was so beautifully done too. He sang this song on the docu and you can feel the emotion in his voice...
TW - Self-harm I can't forget that verse in 'The Last' where he opened up about going to a psychiatrist, and the long censoring monotone beep to the question that was asked "Have you ever ---------". At that point most people were speculating it was the doctor asking about self-harming, and in the song he replied 'unhesistantly, I said I did it'. That was his first mixtape. I don't know, this song and mv just reminded me so much of that. The pen knife in his hands and the self inflicted injury . The knife appeared right when he was stuck in pain, reliving his night mares too. As someone who've been through and done that... gosh, it just hit me so much more than I thought it would. There was also a split second of a knife falling onto the ground in the mv. There is nothing 'scripted' in this video, he was reliving and portraying all his personal traumatic experiences, so imagine why he chose to include that scene. I find it very symbolic. Also, him finding his mom on the ground, his accident, the pills (whether it was antidepressants or pain killers for his shoulder), him agonizing in a basketball court as the sun sets (He talked about this part of his past before in 2015), the surgery lights that he saw while lying down, having to learn his dad's situation through the phone. I cannot imagine what he went through
I don't have a break down of this song, because I still break down every time I hear/watch it. I just want to go back in time and hug younger Yoongi, even though he would hate that... 😢
This song and video is so well-crafted. Everything about it is top-tier. The singing, the beat, the visuals, the meaning, the highs, the lows. Everything
AMYGDALA. This song. This video.. This just cracked wide open My darkest thoughts ive been suppressing cuz i needed to be fine..i had to.. I needed to move forward.. But lingering thoughts creeps and leaks in every now and then.. feeling of regrets and feeling of despair and guilt still lies deep in my mind and this song summarizes that very complex feeling…My heart feels heavy. I still remember vivdly those sleepless nights at the hospital w my grandma to one day waking up losing her to cancer .. Catching a full grown man my granddad having a major stroke Taking the Difficult decision to work abroad leaving my sick granddad and family. And having to come home to Resuscitate him and ultimately decide to stop and to let him go… Trauma.. painful memories.. . We will never know fully what anyone went thru personally but for yoongi to share these deepest thoughts thru this masterpiece. Hope he knows how this will comfort others who are suffering too.
Dimash's parents are famous musicians in Kazakhstan. They recognized his talent when he was a toddler. From 1st grade, he slent half the day learning every element of musuc, singing, composition, performing and he continued through college. He has God given talent BUT he trains every day for 2 to 3 hours. Kazakhstan is a modern Muslim nation. Dimash iften refers to his faith. Also, he is wildly proud of his heritage. Kazakhstan was under Russian rule if the Tzar and then of the Soviets. Through centuries of Russian domination, the Kazakhstan peopke maintained their language and culture. Dimash includes traditional instruments and songs in his concerts. While he was trained in opera, he has chosen to pursue a different course. He is a mega Michael Jackson fan. One more thing, he is a man that is passionate about world peace. He has several songs that speak to the need fir peace. He has spoken at several international forums on this subject.
I really suggest you to see suga's mixtape his bside lyrics videos because this his whole album was always open with us his first, second, and third but yes this is the first time he mentioned his mom and dad going through....and actually showing the accident....
This MV was just so raw and powerful, the lyrics are so full of raw emotion which I can partly relate to. And I just love Yoongis acting also there were bits that made me cry and get emotional. I can relate to it on such a personal level too as I no exactly what he is saying in this MV and song as I've been thru all that. He also said F**k to trigger warnings aswell (which this mv triggered me so much but yet Yoongis voice comforted me in a way only I can understand) Also I could relate so much to the lyrics and message in the song as I suffer from bad depression and I know exactly how he feels as yoongi is the one I can relate to the most
this song is emotionally deep, this is his past, his struggles depression the trauma cause in his life, and the things that he cannot talk to a lot of people but he shout it out in this song this song is one of his masterpiece the message in the song is so amazing it make me cry, there's a lot going on in this MV suga is so brave because despite of his struggles he manage to make a right choices in life thanks to him for not letting go in his life he is so precious and now he became a verry popular and one of the most boy group in human history thank you for your existence and make people touch through your music you are a inspiration for us and I thankfully thankful to know you min yoongi my lil meow meow. .💜
One thing about this that most people don’t mention is how hard the decision to go ahead and post this video had to be in light of what was happening in the kpop industry with Moonbin’s (of the group Astro) funeral only 2? Days before this dropped? They had to have had a hard time deciding whether or not to release it at the time they did. Would some people take it the wrong way, releasing something so sensitive during this time of mourning? Or how important it was To drop it right now BECAUSE of the situation that happened. How dropping it might help people understand that lots of people go through things like this and it’s important to have conversations about it. I’m so glad they did.
I'm very glad you guys took this video as seriously as you should and made it clear from the beginning. very respectful, which sadly a lot of reactors do not do since they are not aware of the depth of the mv and that everything included is yoongi's personal story and not fiction.
It's painful but beautiful at the same time .. I think the one who stuck in the dark room is August D who had bad influence on SUGA because all what he wents through.. and in the end when yoongi couldn't help him it means the clos chapter of August d.
this is how agustd was made. the one who can't escape in his past truma and suffered from pain got locked and his painful experiences made him angry. and that's how agustd was made. like the razor that he used behind his eyes. that's agustd. + he said in his live that we should try to watch amygdala then daechwita and haegum in one sitting :>
i cried listening to this song it is so deep and emotional suga has been through so much pain and trauma in life today he is such a strong person every day i am more proud of this man
Ive watched this video so many times. Im in the double digits now. And every time it makes me cry. I am not a crier and some have even called me cold but this song and MV cause such an emotional response. Its such a beautiful song. Im so proud of Yoongi.💜
Also... Maybe that why this song, as he mentioned his problems before and he seems really well at this time, is exactly those reactions... "it's so hard to watch" why? Don't we all have traumas, or things that really hurt us? Isn't this just about that, talk about it, look at it...? See yourself and see others...
Depression among other things is often viewed as a weakness. I hope Yoongi has proven it otherwise for many sufferers. It's not a disability, it's a strength you can leverage.
Suga said with this album he was bringing Agust D and Suga together with Yoongi. He's all one person even though he uses different expressions of himself to tell different stories, and he wanted to link them up for people. I agree, though: with this song, even though it's on an Agust D album, to me this is Min Yoongi. (I don't think he'd object.)
His Amygdala MV was so emotional for me, for him, for everyone who has struggled mentally ❤ The end of his concert, Suga finally opened and left through that door!💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
This was my first time watching your channel. I would like to say how much I appreciate your arrangement of having a large video screen placed up high so we can see the images and read the subs. When channels place a small screen in the right or left bottom we can see their rooms but not so much the video and read the subs, which are either below the visible part or hidden behind the progress bar and icons (play, volume, CC, settings, etc.,) when we pause to read. BTS has such a huge discography, along with all the related videos that are reacted to, that sometimes I will watch a reaction before watching the original, so it is good to be able to actually _see_ it.
I've watched it like 20 times. I'm probably a little less emotional of a person, so I was enjoying the acting and the experience of the song and the MV. The beginning of the "scar" that he carries into next two songs from the trilogy, Daechwita and Haegeum. He's a really talented actor and the staff that worked with him on this did an excellent job making you feel the desperation. The younger Yoongi running back to save the older Yoongi, but they couldn't open the door. Him always trying to get out of that dark room. The uphill battle depicted with the crawling on the floor that was tilting. I mean, so well done. He's really good at making us all feel. He's grown a lot and he's so well adjusted now. BTS saved him. Like they save so many people.
He hasn't said directly that he had an addiction to pain meds, but he was dancing that bts choreography with a busted shoulder for literal YEARS and I think this video makes it pretty clear that he was AT LEAST on the verge of opiate addiction bc of that. He has talked down about "pill poppers" in other songs and now after this I feel like it's him saying very clearly "addiction sucks". Now that I think about it, the fact that he worked on the Juice Wrld album feels more significant too.
If you guys didn’t go to the concert could you possibly react to a fancam live performance of amygdala? (Specifically one from the live yesterday from Day 1) It’s honestly so powerful and heart aching because you can see plain and simple how deep this song hits for him. And how much it and the lyrics affect him (which makes sense of course as this is his trauma laid out on a silver platter for the first time in detail😕)
I can only watch it once and understand it right away because I feel like as a long time army I know what he means by all of that song and video. He performed it earlier on his concert and he stop for a moment cause he got emotional
This song is so heavy. Watching him lying helplessly in the rain, and being let in to all the pain he went through is heartbreaking. Watching someone you love suffering like this is just 💔 I'm just happy how strong he is and hope that he's way better now.
I watched a livestream last night and it looked incredible. Yoongi did such a good job for his first solo concert. I'm seeing him May 3rd and I'm so excited.
I guess I'm a masochist because I listen to this over and over and over again even though it brings up all the trauma I've gone through and makes me weep I still want to see how other people feel watching the videos a
Wonderful reaction and breakdown, suga is a beast when it comes to writing and producing music. He is his music; I think the fact he brought his life to us in a song is amazing. It has helped so many of us army! I love the song and understand the struggle he has been thorough. In the last concert on his tour, he walked through the door, very traumatic and satisfying all in one! Yoongi is a great artist and writer and producer as well as singer and dancer.
I had a hard time watching this more than once because of the car accidents I’ve been in and the ptsd I have. But it actually helps knowing I’m not alone but it’s just so sad someone else hurts so much.
Again thank you guys, I appreciate your insights and I agree with Jonathan that Yoongi was able to synchronize both his Agust-D & Suga personas into the Yoongi today.
Several mentione addiction, but I don't think he was or that he ever said he was addicted to pills... So since this is about his problems let's not transfer (pain medicine is not addictive at least not in Europe)
Yes, I was wondering about that too. Also, the box cutter threw me. Was that self harm? I know he suffered with mental health. ODC also. Either way, he suffered. My heart is so happy he is doing so well now. He made a comment that about every three years he fights with things. Lots of love for SUGA!
He was taking painkillers, and the pain killers are more often drugs, plus Yoongi was depressed at that time, so this can be interpreted as painkiller use, plus depression and drug use (Yoongi already said in his song "The last" that he had suicidal thoughts, don't forget) Im glad too that he is happy and fine rn. 😊
La primera vez que yo me enteré de los problemas de Yoongi fue cuando leí la letra de "the Last" de su primer mixtape y aún así me dió mucho sentimiento "Amygdala". Amo lo valiente que ha Sido Yoongi al expresar sus sentimientos a través de la música. Como le dijo a Jimin fue difícil escribir está canción, pero igual le ha servido a su proceso de recuperación. Poco a poco, un día a la vez... Un gran abrazo a todos.
The most poignant part of this mv is - as he is crawling toward that door, the room tilts showing that the harder you try to get yourself out of that state of mind, the harder it gets to come out of. Also too came back today to tell you that during his live tour of this album the last performance night, at the end of the show....on stage, he finally walked through that door.
I really suggest you to see suga's mixtape his bside lyrics videos because this his whole album was always open with us his first, second, and third but yes this is the first time he mentioned his mom and dad going through....and actually showing the accident....
I really suggest you to see suga's mixtape his bside lyrics videos because this his whole album was always open with us his first, second, and third but yes this is the first time he mentioned his mom and dad going through....and actually showing the accident....
Yoongi told Jimin that it was difficult writing this song because it made him relive those traumatic moments all over again. So yes, it was probably a cathartic experience but also a difficult and painful process too. He was indeed very brave to put these feelings out there and he no doubt has helped many ARMY who have similar traumas locked in their Amygdalas. I know it’s helped me. Thank you for your insightful reaction.💜
I couldn’t imagine having to reopen the bad memories of the past that really affected me. He’s brave and amazing. Such a strong and influential man. I’m so proud of him 💜💜
@@Armymom1984 I feel honored that he trusts us with his honest feelings. It makes me feel very protective of him. He’s wounded but like he said “what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger”. He seems to be more relaxed and happy these days. Warms my heart.💜
He said it to Namjoon, not to Jimin
NOONE can reach you through music like BTS…but to see his pain and him holding it in for so long…a lot of their songs make me cry but this one made me sob 😭I’m glad he seems to have overcome it …I hope he never feels alone cuz a million Army have his back no matter what💜💜
@@JackInTheBox0294 This is Yoongi talking to Jimin about writing Amygdala.
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For me this song is about PTSD, he survived getting hit by a car, his mother and father having very serious health issues, and I think that those things are intense trauma alone on top of the traumas that society inflicts on people daily financially, emotionally, physically. All of that culminating into things outside of his control and having to sit with it and go on despite anxiety and depression telling him to not persevere. It's incredibly heavy.
I think that the connection between the trilogy of videos is explained perfectly in the fact that Yoongi has said that he made Agust D as an outlet for his anger, pain, etc, i.e. him scarring himself and then as he continues to push through life he begins killing his old self as a transformation over and over until he is perhaps a little bit closer to a more healed self.
I've watched this video twice and then multiple times through reaction videos.its incredible. Yoongi is absolutely a musical genius.
Yes you are right it's about post trauma stress disorder.....i personally had this problem and I can relate to it sometimes people even don't able to sleep and PTSD get trigger often and to recover from this is really hard.......i really like how he put emotions and raw lyrics in this song 😅 this is my favourite song of album I really love it his song first love is my all time favourite 😊💜💜
Suga once said that he hated it when people knew things about his private life. This song really shows that. I can't even imagine the pain he must have felt growing up knowing that his mother's health issues started the year he was born. I get why Augst D is a trilogy and why he was so angry in the past when relatives said he would ruin his family doing music. He has such a burden already but music was all he loved to do so he was under so much torment. He was made to feel like he would not be able to take care of his parents as time went along. " in my ears I could hear the sound of my mother's life ticking away" Damn a tear slipped down. Part of his loneliness was that he could tell anyone about his mother and father's health issues in a prison he built for himself. I am so glad he has music and songwriting to take it all in and let it all go. Snooze is my favourite song that made me cry first but this song....
I finally get who agust D is, he is someone that allows Suga and Yoongi to be is truest and rawest self. Agust D has fulfilled the mission, it is done.
A trivia: AMYGDALA is an almond-shaped little part of your brain where it's main purpose is to trigger your traumatic experiences. As Yoongi explained, example, you are afraid of water, and every time you see a water it reminds you of the day you nearly died because of drowning (reason why you have a phobia in water)
In AMYGDALA, the whole summary explanation is that Yoongi wanted to remove these traumatic memories inside him. He wanted to get out of that dark room, and remove himself from all the pain. As the chorus says "AMYGDALA, please save me." he is begging the amygdala to save him because these memories pains him to much.
A short memory about Yoongi, ARMYS are aware of his shoulder injury caused by the accident he had before debut. On the MV, he is riding a delivery motorcycle, and that was his job before debut because he lack money to support himself and he landed in different jobs, including being a delivery man. And that's where he met into an accident that caused his shoulder injury. But, because of the fear that they will not let him debut if the company will know about the injury, he hid it from them and continued to have medications only rather that having a surgery. In 2020, he did it already because it came from a point that he can't even lift a water bottle anymore.
The self-inflicting that he did with the cutter, some ARMYS believed the scar that Agust D had was self-inflicted. A metaphor of him doing "that" before as an escape. He also did the other way of s**c*de (pills). He mentioned that already once in his song "The Last" that when his doctor asked him, he admitted that he did that.
The thing about his parents, it's the first time we heard about that and it was really shocking for us.
An ARMY on twitter explained some of the points that can be seen through the MV. First is about the scar. Out of all the MVs that he had scars, some of us thought that it was just a scar, on the interview he did for Daecwhita, he admitted that it was just an idea and there's no meaning behind it. But now that he used the same scar in this MV, doing it by himself, maybe the scar all this time is self-inflicted. He switched his facial expression as Agust D when he had the scar which means that this persona is angry because it was in pain. As quoted, "Agust D was never a villain, he is just broken." It's also a way to understand why he usually k**ls the personas in the Daecwhita and Haegeum, because it's a metaphor of removing his past self (who's in pain and lives in anger) in the present him.
You can clearly tell as well why he said that it we have to wait for the time that him as Agust D will be back because he wanted to live as Min Yoongi and as SUGA of BTS now. He is no longer in pain, and in the midst of anger, Agust D is fading inside him. Because he is already at peace.
AMYGDALA is not Agust D, its Min Yoongi himself. For him to be this brave to tell a whole story line of his past traumatic experiences was something to be proud and admire of. It takes a lot of courage to do that. We can now clearly understand why this is his favorite among the things that he produced and wrote. He mentioned how hard it is for him to write this as he always gets emotional every time because it is very personal for him. It's his own story.
At the end of the MV, he never got out. It means that he already accepted that he will forever live with these memories.
Suga being able to depict the struggle of running away from your destructive self and at the same time, saving yourself from it hits hard. Most of us are living in that same vicious cycle for most of our lives and we just want a way out. I am just so happy that he made it. He’s thriving now and I couldn’t be happier for him
I want to cry 💔💔 The song is so deep about his past and what Yoongi went through..the accident and everything is real 😭😭🫂🫂💔
Suga sang it at his concert , he made ARMY cry,
I’m just recovering from multiple surgeries and chronic pain haunts me daily. The depression has been deep and dark. I was in a bad place 3 years ago when I found BTS. I’ve been listening and watching this on repeat to remind me that I can get through this. “The future’s gonna be ok.” 💜AgustD for this.
More power to you... When i first saw this song, I felt numb. It's like he'd taken all of my own pain, and put it in front of me.
I think especially for trauma survivors, this song is a deep, deep trigger, but also a balm.
@@billietae5693 "catharsis" is the word I've used the most often for certain BTS+ songs.
Praying for your healing 🙏💜
@@flyushkifly yeah that's the exact word.
I hope that things get better for you. May this bring you solace. 💜💜💜
His mother's surgery had to have a tremendous impact on the family's financial status... it makes sense now on his comments about being 'poor' while growing up.... and the fact that his mother had surgery during his first year of life means there had to be incredible stress in his family environment which babies are very sensitive to, his mother's surgery would have also limited a lot of physical contact with his mom, limiting his sense of security and emothional nurturing (?)
I just thought of this but the line from People pt. 2 where is says, “wasn’t loved enough as a kid”. I was thinking maybe he didn’t feel that love because his family was probably really focus on his mother and financial situations that it could have been hard to raise him. Not that they didn’t love him because I am sure they did just not as much as he needed…maybe…just a thought….(just speculation not saying this is true)
That’s why he said that he wasn’t loved as a kid 😩😩😩
I believe his grandmother looked after him for awhile because of his mom’s health status.
Younger Suga on the bike at the end has an epiphany moment BEFORE the next residual "loop" memory replays again for the millionth time (as all that Augst D has been able to do up to this point is just re-live the tragedies over and over and over again in a downward spiral).
Suga races to the door in a effort to stop the chaos and let Augst D out of his brain/Amygdala...and realizes that he can't change the past nor save himself from what he will have to go though as the door is locked.
The 2 identities that make up Suga/Augst D will always be a part of him as we can't change our pasts no matter how much we wish we could.
BUT, in that final scene, young Suga finally BROKE the haunting loop cycle memory by finally breaking out of that destructive pattern (him racing to open the locked door) instead of continuing on his bike in his memory and ultimately crashing as he has in his mind every time since the accident, over and over and over again.
IN THIS ACTION of trying to take a stand against the mental torment and try and actually save himself breaks the downward spiral pattern because something different, for the first time, resulted in him actually WANTING to save his own life now.
While the two entities will always be separate, breaking the mental loop of re-living tragedy every day brings the 2 entities into one and ignites the healing transformation that brings him to today as a prolific songwriter, story teller, survivor and massive mental health advocate and ally.
This is literally one of the best songs ever made. Suga/Augst D is a fkn genius.
What this song and video brought into sharp focus for me, that I hadn’t fully appreciated before (despite being 3yr old ARMY), is quite how monumental the burden, guilt and anxiety he must have felt in choosing to pursue music. I knew his family was poor and therefore this choice was a risk that could backfire badly on them, but when you add to that the serious medical issues of, not just one, but both parents and the financial strain this in itself would have put on them, it is amazing he was able to withstand that pressure especially when he was so young. No wonder he was so hungry, so determined to succeed, worked so hard, could not sleep, had anxiety etc. I feel anxious just thinking about it.
Thank goodness they were 7. Thank goodness they were together.
He had the motorcycle accident before debut and only had surgery around 2 years ago so he endured the pain especially while doing their hard choreography for almost 9 years
I remember their pandemic performances...winter 2020, with the empty space in their choreography...while i recovered from surgery...
Just wanna clarify that those pills weren't drugs, I doubt it was addiction hearing how he talks about people taking drugs in his songs, and ho w drugs made him part ways with his old best friend.
And it says pharmacy on the container.
Those are probably antidepressants or something similar? We know he also went to counseling when he was younger...
I think for Yoongi, bc of the special relationship w ARMY, performing this song for ARMY is sort of like group therapy. It's cathartic for everyone there, and it's like him sharing his story to thousands of friends who maybe went through some of the same stuff. It humanizes him, for sure, and it connects him to others who understand.
I loved the thoughtful insight you guys provided in this video FAM
Appreciate it bro! much love!
His vulnerability helps a lot of people! I love Yoongi. 💜
"And the phone that rang during my schedule and told me of my father's liver cancer"
It reminds me during Bon Voyage episode, whe he received a call and the caption was "family emergency" and he hurriedly back to korea.
This was really hard for me to watch. Im a Yoongi bias simply because i relate to him in so many ways. When I saw the music video honestly i forgot that I was watching Agust D cause it felt like i was watching myself. The ending part where he wasn't able to save himself, that's bcoz people like us cannot save ourselves alone. that's the sad reality. But we heal with people who understand us and accept us. Yoongi have such a strong support system, im happy he's okay now and living his life.
I think it's not just that we need a support system to heal, it's that we tend to get trapped tormenting ourselves with "what if's" -- what if I hadn't turned down that street? what if it wasn't raining: -- but that pre-trauma self who lives in our heads can't avoid what's going to (what did) happen and rescue us. We can never be saved from having experienced it in the first place.
My heart aches every time I hear Amygdala. I have tears in my eyes now when I am writing this comment. Kudos to Yoongi for being so strong and vulnerable 💜
My heart always beats a little faster when that first scene of him on the bike comes up. And the mv definitely made me cry the first time, I was surprised by the imagery but the way he did it was so beautifully done too. He sang this song on the docu and you can feel the emotion in his voice...
TW - Self-harm
I can't forget that verse in 'The Last' where he opened up about going to a psychiatrist, and the long censoring monotone beep to the question that was asked "Have you ever ---------". At that point most people were speculating it was the doctor asking about self-harming, and in the song he replied 'unhesistantly, I said I did it'. That was his first mixtape. I don't know, this song and mv just reminded me so much of that. The pen knife in his hands and the self inflicted injury . The knife appeared right when he was stuck in pain, reliving his night mares too. As someone who've been through and done that... gosh, it just hit me so much more than I thought it would. There was also a split second of a knife falling onto the ground in the mv. There is nothing 'scripted' in this video, he was reliving and portraying all his personal traumatic experiences, so imagine why he chose to include that scene. I find it very symbolic. Also, him finding his mom on the ground, his accident, the pills (whether it was antidepressants or pain killers for his shoulder), him agonizing in a basketball court as the sun sets (He talked about this part of his past before in 2015), the surgery lights that he saw while lying down, having to learn his dad's situation through the phone. I cannot imagine what he went through
Same this MV reminded me a lot of The Last
As a new army i didn't knew everything but when I saw that accident it just broke my heart😭
I don't have a break down of this song, because I still break down every time I hear/watch it. I just want to go back in time and hug younger Yoongi, even though he would hate that... 😢
This song and video is so well-crafted. Everything about it is top-tier. The singing, the beat, the visuals, the meaning, the highs, the lows. Everything
AMYGDALA. This song. This video..
This just cracked wide open My darkest thoughts ive been suppressing cuz i needed to be fine..i had to..
I needed to move forward..
But lingering thoughts creeps and leaks in every now and then.. feeling of regrets and feeling of despair and guilt still lies deep in my mind and this song summarizes that very complex feeling…My heart feels heavy.
I still remember vivdly those sleepless nights at the hospital w my grandma to one day waking up losing her to cancer ..
Catching a full grown man my granddad having a major stroke
Taking the Difficult decision to work abroad leaving my sick granddad and family.
And having to come home to Resuscitate him and ultimately decide to stop and to let him go…
Trauma.. painful memories..
. We will never know fully what anyone went thru personally but for yoongi to share these deepest thoughts thru this masterpiece. Hope he knows how this will comfort others who are suffering too.
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Dimash's parents are famous musicians in Kazakhstan. They recognized his talent when he was a toddler. From 1st grade, he slent half the day learning every element of musuc, singing, composition, performing and he continued through college. He has God given talent BUT he trains every day for 2 to 3 hours.
Kazakhstan is a modern Muslim nation. Dimash iften refers to his faith. Also, he is wildly proud of his heritage. Kazakhstan was under Russian rule if the Tzar and then of the Soviets. Through centuries of Russian domination, the Kazakhstan peopke maintained their language and culture. Dimash includes traditional instruments and songs in his concerts.
While he was trained in opera, he has chosen to pursue a different course. He is a mega Michael Jackson fan.
One more thing, he is a man that is passionate about world peace. He has several songs that speak to the need fir peace. He has spoken at several international forums on this subject.
I am so sorry. I am clueless how my comment about Dimash was posted here.
I really suggest you to see suga's mixtape his bside lyrics videos because this his whole album was always open with us his first, second, and third but yes this is the first time he mentioned his mom and dad going through....and actually showing the accident....
i also cried when id heard this song, and then cried even more when id watched the mv
I agree that he finally was able to get all that off his chest. It's hard holding all that in bruh.
This MV was just so raw and powerful, the lyrics are so full of raw emotion which I can partly relate to.
And I just love Yoongis acting also there were bits that made me cry and get emotional.
I can relate to it on such a personal level too as I no exactly what he is saying in this MV and song as I've been thru all that.
He also said F**k to trigger warnings aswell (which this mv triggered me so much but yet Yoongis voice comforted me in a way only I can understand)
Also I could relate so much to the lyrics and message in the song as I suffer from bad depression and I know exactly how he feels as yoongi is the one I can relate to the most
I love how focus you guys…
You really listened and reading the captions….
this song is emotionally deep, this is his past, his struggles depression the trauma cause in his life, and the things that he cannot talk to a lot of people but he shout it out in this song this song is one of his masterpiece the message in the song is so amazing it make me cry, there's a lot going on in this MV suga is so brave because despite of his struggles he manage to make a right choices in life thanks to him for not letting go in his life he is so precious and now he became a verry popular and one of the most boy group in human history thank you for your existence and make people touch through your music you are a inspiration for us and I thankfully thankful to know you min yoongi my lil meow meow. .💜
One thing about this that most people don’t mention is how hard the decision to go ahead and post this video had to be in light of what was happening in the kpop industry with Moonbin’s (of the group Astro) funeral only 2? Days before this dropped? They had to have had a hard time deciding whether or not to release it at the time they did. Would some people take it the wrong way, releasing something so sensitive during this time of mourning? Or how important it was To drop it right now BECAUSE of the situation that happened. How dropping it might help people understand that lots of people go through things like this and it’s important to have conversations about it. I’m so glad they did.
I have to say it was perfect timing, but the message gets lost amongst the fans who don't really get that idols are indeed human
It's such an honest depiction that I'm glad they released it. 💜
I appreciate your silence all throughout the video 🥺💜🥺💜
I'm very glad you guys took this video as seriously as you should and made it clear from the beginning. very respectful, which sadly a lot of reactors do not do since they are not aware of the depth of the mv and that everything included is yoongi's personal story and not fiction.
It's painful but beautiful at the same time .. I think the one who stuck in the dark room is August D who had bad influence on SUGA because all what he wents through.. and in the end when yoongi couldn't help him it means the clos chapter of August d.
this is how agustd was made. the one who can't escape in his past truma and suffered from pain got locked and his painful experiences made him angry. and that's how agustd was made. like the razor that he used behind his eyes. that's agustd.
+ he said in his live that we should try to watch amygdala then daechwita and haegum in one sitting :>
i cried listening to this song it is so deep and emotional suga has been through so much pain and trauma in life today he is such a strong person every day i am more proud of this man
Ive watched this video so many times. Im in the double digits now. And every time it makes me cry. I am not a crier and some have even called me cold but this song and MV cause such an emotional response. Its such a beautiful song. Im so proud of Yoongi.💜
I have watched this 20+ times now and it breaks me every single time.
You are going to love the album
Also... Maybe that why this song, as he mentioned his problems before and he seems really well at this time, is exactly those reactions... "it's so hard to watch" why? Don't we all have traumas, or things that really hurt us? Isn't this just about that, talk about it, look at it...? See yourself and see others...
Depression among other things is often viewed as a weakness. I hope Yoongi has proven it otherwise for many sufferers. It's not a disability, it's a strength you can leverage.
This song make me speechless 😯
Suga said with this album he was bringing Agust D and Suga together with Yoongi. He's all one person even though he uses different expressions of himself to tell different stories, and he wanted to link them up for people.
I agree, though: with this song, even though it's on an Agust D album, to me this is Min Yoongi. (I don't think he'd object.)
His Amygdala MV was so emotional for me, for him, for everyone who has struggled mentally ❤
The end of his concert, Suga finally opened and left through that door!💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
This was my first time watching your channel. I would like to say how much I appreciate your arrangement of having a large video screen placed up high so we can see the images and read the subs. When channels place a small screen in the right or left bottom we can see their rooms but not so much the video and read the subs, which are either below the visible part or hidden behind the progress bar and icons (play, volume, CC, settings, etc.,) when we pause to read.
BTS has such a huge discography, along with all the related videos that are reacted to, that sometimes I will watch a reaction before watching the original, so it is good to be able to actually _see_ it.
I've watched it like 20 times. I'm probably a little less emotional of a person, so I was enjoying the acting and the experience of the song and the MV. The beginning of the "scar" that he carries into next two songs from the trilogy, Daechwita and Haegeum. He's a really talented actor and the staff that worked with him on this did an excellent job making you feel the desperation. The younger Yoongi running back to save the older Yoongi, but they couldn't open the door. Him always trying to get out of that dark room. The uphill battle depicted with the crawling on the floor that was tilting. I mean, so well done. He's really good at making us all feel. He's grown a lot and he's so well adjusted now. BTS saved him. Like they save so many people.
He hasn't said directly that he had an addiction to pain meds, but he was dancing that bts choreography with a busted shoulder for literal YEARS and I think this video makes it pretty clear that he was AT LEAST on the verge of opiate addiction bc of that. He has talked down about "pill poppers" in other songs and now after this I feel like it's him saying very clearly "addiction sucks". Now that I think about it, the fact that he worked on the Juice Wrld album feels more significant too.
I love listening to all of you guys talking abt your thought
If you guys didn’t go to the concert could you possibly react to a fancam live performance of amygdala? (Specifically one from the live yesterday from Day 1) It’s honestly so powerful and heart aching because you can see plain and simple how deep this song hits for him. And how much it and the lyrics affect him (which makes sense of course as this is his trauma laid out on a silver platter for the first time in detail😕)
This amygdala song tells about Suga's past 🥺💜💜💜💜🫂🫂
I can’t even begin to comment on this. It’s so exposed and beautiful at the same time.
I can only watch it once and understand it right away because I feel like as a long time army I know what he means by all of that song and video.
He performed it earlier on his concert and he stop for a moment cause he got emotional
This song is so heavy. Watching him lying helplessly in the rain, and being let in to all the pain he went through is heartbreaking. Watching someone you love suffering like this is just 💔 I'm just happy how strong he is and hope that he's way better now.
I am watching this every single day since it was released^^ i believe you guys speak from your heart. Appreciate you guys. Got your new subscriber^^
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His whole concert last night is on RUclips. It was great. I'm not sure if it's still "up".
I watched a livestream last night and it looked incredible. Yoongi did such a good job for his first solo concert. I'm seeing him May 3rd and I'm so excited.
I guess I'm a masochist because I listen to this over and over and over again even though it brings up all the trauma I've gone through and makes me weep I still want to see how other people feel watching the videos a
Guuuaaaooo!!que fuerte, para refleccionar,!!por que el uviera!!no sirve!❤
ARMY knows everything our brave kitty😿🤧🤧💜 has suffered,
SORRY SORRY 🤧🤧💜MIN-YOONGY We love you so MUCH💜🙏🤧😿🙏
💔💔😢😢 Yoongi
Well said guys...thank you for this reaction.💙🌺
Wonderful reaction and breakdown, suga is a beast when it comes to writing and producing music. He is his music; I think the fact he brought his life to us in a song is amazing. It has helped so many of us army! I love the song and understand the struggle he has been thorough. In the last concert on his tour, he walked through the door, very traumatic and satisfying all in one! Yoongi is a great artist and writer and producer as well as singer and dancer.
That’s how his shoulder injure, the accident
i love your react thank you❤
I had a hard time watching this more than once because of the car accidents I’ve been in and the ptsd I have. But it actually helps knowing I’m not alone but it’s just so sad someone else hurts so much.
Well said Peter! Yes if he does perform it.
Again thank you guys, I appreciate your insights and I agree with Jonathan that Yoongi was able to synchronize both his Agust-D & Suga personas into the Yoongi today.
Спасибо за реакцию.Мне нравится, что вы всегда комментируете, читая лирику и так интересно рассуждаете.💜
The song and mv was so heavy and deep..
Suga snooze Live performance
I watch it everyday the song has a special song place in my heart ❤
thank you guys for this reaction 💜
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Several mentione addiction, but I don't think he was or that he ever said he was addicted to pills... So since this is about his problems let's not transfer (pain medicine is not addictive at least not in Europe)
Yes, I was wondering about that too. Also, the box cutter threw me. Was that self harm? I know he suffered with mental health. ODC also. Either way, he suffered. My heart is so happy he is doing so well now. He made a comment that about every three years he fights with things. Lots of love for SUGA!
He was taking painkillers, and the pain killers are more often drugs, plus Yoongi was depressed at that time, so this can be interpreted as painkiller use, plus depression and drug use (Yoongi already said in his song "The last" that he had suicidal thoughts, don't forget)
Im glad too that he is happy and fine rn. 😊
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The car ran into him, but of course he couldn’t recreate that
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True story about suga😢
La primera vez que yo me enteré de los problemas de Yoongi fue cuando leí la letra de "the Last" de su primer mixtape y aún así me dió mucho sentimiento "Amygdala". Amo lo valiente que ha Sido Yoongi al expresar sus sentimientos a través de la música. Como le dijo a Jimin fue difícil escribir está canción, pero igual le ha servido a su proceso de recuperación. Poco a poco, un día a la vez... Un gran abrazo a todos.
He actually grew up with his grandma in his early years
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The most poignant part of this mv is - as he is crawling toward that door, the room tilts showing that the harder you try to get yourself out of that state of mind, the harder it gets to come out of. Also too came back today to tell you that during his live tour of this album the last performance night, at the end of the show....on stage, he finally walked through that door.
Thank you sad army bts 😢🙏💜💜💜
Just want to agree this had a very 90s rock but in the best ways it also combined a very bit of the more modern ways to use it. I forgettable song.
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Oh bts handsome 🙏💜🥺
So sad
I really suggest you to see suga's mixtape his bside lyrics videos because this his whole album was always open with us his first, second, and third but yes this is the first time he mentioned his mom and dad going through....and actually showing the accident....
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I really suggest you to see suga's mixtape his bside lyrics videos because this his whole album was always open with us his first, second, and third but yes this is the first time he mentioned his mom and dad going through....and actually showing the accident....
Yes, "The Last" in my heart🥺