“Here’s how to get better at being an identity.” So true. Most meditation apps have tons of self-improvement /be more productive/manifest x, y, and z “meditations.”
"once you feel the calling to address the fundamental illusion about you... then nothing else is really going to satisfy you until you do that..." gosh that's so funny how you keep verbalizing how I feel exactly it's quite reassuring to know it's not just some weird obsession of mine 😊 thank you so much 💗
I had an awakening in 2001 triggered by the cry of a dog. The body disappeared and 'I' became that sound, followed that vibration into that dog, literally became all the generations, dog per dog, that were the cause of that sound, in unmeasureable beauty and vision and colours and energy, faster and faster until 'I' found myself as the cause less cause ,as pure unlimited love, and literally looking forward in time and seeing all these dogs lined up side by side and crying out the same sound at the same time. This whole thing lasted about 30 minutes but it changed my life forever. I became a hard-core seeker, stopped working and talking altogether and meditated about 35.000 hours, 14 years straight until I finally realised 'it' cannot be done. At the moment I'm really done with seeking , but the stuff you do on this channel I still like.
Thanks Angelo, great talk. Ive just read your chapter on emotions. Pinpoint accurate for me, extremely helpful. I come from extreme anxiety and emotional suppression. I remember suppressing so hard in so many situations where I really needed to breakdown in tears, but never felt safe enough to do so. Ive delved into shadow work that has been fruitful, but that was like moving or recognising or acknowledging clearly, the boulders of trauma and emotion. Your book helped me get down to the subtle and finer grains. I go numb when I repress, and Ive always been repressing. It has drained me deeply to the point of exhaustion. I love the feeling of exhaustion now, and can allow it, deep rest. I feel that my whole system has been so wired in fight flight freeze for so long that I cant go on in any fakery. Ive been able to let sadness arise, and enjoy it thoroughly. So cleansing to have real emotions and embody them. Ive realised im constantly seeking approval and how inauthentic that is, and fruitless. Its been like, who even am I, how to even behave. My true feelings have been overridden by anxiety in an attempt to fit in with crowds that dont fit, and there was a lot of trauma along the way that shook the shit out of my system for decades. I've had one seeing where it was clear that nobody is in me, just wordless no one. But since then it has become clear that i need to get down to the root of all the emotional disharmony and non-genuineness within. Im deeply enjoying being with my emotions and delving into them all. And no emotion is not highly pleasurable when experienced purely. Just the fear side of things is uncomfortable, but the perfect indicator of where youre not being genuine. Or something like that. Thanks for your contributuon to the health of no one in particular, it is absolutely groundbreaking work.
Wow. I identify with decades of fight, flight, fawn, anxiety, suppression and trauma. Those are all my bedfellows. Thanks for the share. At least I’m not alone.
Minute 36 - Its the one place where you can truly change. Its pure Knowledge that reveals itself beyond description. Its the place where you free yourself from all Limitations and concepts that you accepted.
29:00 during the crash of identity, a mind image of my graduate degree diplomas in the trash after my death stunned me into recognition of this truth. Like the old black/white images found in antique shop frames of people long forgotten, this constructed persona is very ephemeral and wholly thought-based. My hard-won certificates will be pretty worthless- if not at retirement, then certainly at physical death! Was sad at first at the massive energy invested to prop “her” up, but then, a huge RELIEF to stop and live in what is real 😊
Thank you angelo, love the sleeping dog on your lap :D its so iconic so to speak. So beautiful and descriptive like a poetry. thank you thank you thank you
8:31 I was raised catholic, catholic school and all. I’m 52 and have deprogrammed a lot of the burning in hell for eternity and eternal torture, but the felt sense of all of it is still constantly there, along with an ocean of guilt, shame, and fear. The things they told me, told us, as children, was child abuse. it has done incredible damage, for decades now. I cant seem to get away from it, of course because it’s inside me. No new thought, thinking or belief system, no new practices or ideas have been able to dissolve the fear, guilt and shame. Every thought, every feeling and action are judged and condemned, even loving, kind acts are condemned by the narration of the mind and hell awaits me. I’m constantly an unstable, emotional train wreck terrified by hell, devils and suffering in a lake of fire. Sigh. I just recently found you and I’m appreciating your compassionate delivery.
Josh once mentioned you channeling your ancestors... I now know what he means. For a second my mind was cracked open and revealed my naked being. That was real.
Thank you for posting these. Helpful description of the “Oh, I’m not going to get this” constellation of thoughts. I fell into that for a time in relation to your channel. Which was helpful, because it revealed layers of striving, inadequacy, competitiveness. Now listening more attentively to the immediate happenings of life. Spent most of the day yesterday listening closely to one of the severely autistic clients at work. Just as I was feeling deeply how he and I are the very same thing, he blurted out, “You’re not alone anymore.” 💜🙏🫥⭕️🔥
all of your videos seem to find me at the right time, and this one just hit so right. i found myself laughing throughout most of the last half, at your pointers beyond the insane game we've played on ourselves. it just seems so hilarious :)
"All of the sudden, the entire universe turned inside out." Perfect description of when figure and ground reverse (and then stay in superposition, available to flip any which way).
I felt everything was one once and i felt like i was on extacy for 3 days ive never been able to get back there even though i know it's the only truth it happened for me and my wife the same exact way by listening to the song weary traveler i told her close her eyes and know it's God singing it she emeditly started crying with joy we didn't have a care in the world for 3 days and seen everyone and everything as God or one
Hi Angelo Im very thankful for you as a Being that shares a lot of insight regarding these super imortant questions. I was going back and forth if i should do that but i belive now that its in your best interest. You should read/ listen to every available content from RSE. It will blow your mind.
@@paul-ie RSE = Ramthas School of Enlightment. I want to be clear, i dont want to promote or advertise other authors but people have to realize that awakening how Angelo preceives it is just the first step on a very long path. I completly disagree with various assumptions regarding Thoughts and Emotions that Angelo gives but this doesnt change my opinion on him. Great content, great guy, very authentic, Great Being
Hi, Jonas, First, it seems that Angelo’s mind was blown a long time ago! Second, suffice it to say that my experience of RSE was very different from yours. I found both the teachings and the practices of “The Ram” to be dangerously fraudulent. I wish you the best. And, if you’re interested, Angelo did an interview with me that references my experience at RSE. He titled the interview “When Spirituality Goes VERY Wrong.” Pretty much sums it up. To be clear, I don’t blame RSE for my foolish mistakes, but the School certainly did play a very unflattering role…
I’d love to have a conversation with you. How would you answer the question of inner work? I desire to undergo the first shift. So in one camp, there is nothing I need to “do” because there is no doer and it happens naturally. In the other camp, I need to love myself, learn gratitude and forgiveness, meditate 3 years with a guru, heal my inner child, and then maybe. I know that’s all a story, but there does seem to be a correlation between that sort of seeking and the happening of awakening.
I wouldn’t do wait her honestly, bc those are someone else’s ideas, those are motifs of the social matrix. Perhaps the spiritual matrix but the social matrix nonetheless. ‘Rather youth toward that part of yourself that knows exactly where to go. Follow that call. You have to go on instinct here not on thought, memory, belief, social conditioning etc . Does that track with your instinct?
The whole idea has always frustrated me that I’m still too blocked to “connect with my guides”. My chakras aren’t open enough for kundalini to awaken. Insert eye roll. But obviously the self-hating ego still has a say in this bizarro world of mind and never now or I’d be awake. It’s either easy or impossible. Guess it depends where you look. My instinct thinks it should be like remembering where I left my keys.
Interesting to hear you mention "karmic"... I've only just found you this week, and watched a dozen vids, and that's the 1st mention. Does Karma exist? Is it different from the Hindu concept? Are there past (and future) lives?
Im always coming to the point of "if a thought isnt real, then why can i describe it? Im thinking about a brown dog, playing with a red ball" isnt there some reality to this?
My realization (i feel stupid): the fact that thinking is happening is a reality. That doesnt make the content an actual reality. (My unicorn is kinda angry that i called it "not real", but i'll do anything for the sake of enlightenment)
Question! 35:19 -you say by feminine aspect you mean not buying into relationality. What would you say the masculine aspect is? Is it the buying into relationality through action/form? The doing of things? I’ve read on vajrayana and that seems to be wat they r eluding to.
“Here’s how to get better at being an identity.” So true. Most meditation apps have tons of self-improvement /be more productive/manifest x, y, and z “meditations.”
"once you feel the calling to address the fundamental illusion about you...
then nothing else is really going to satisfy you until you do that..."
gosh that's so funny how you keep verbalizing how I feel exactly
it's quite reassuring to know it's not just some weird obsession of mine 😊
thank you so much 💗
You’re Definitely not the only one with the obsession 😆
I can't help but notice how relaxed the dog was on your lap the entire time! I felt the same way as him/her. Thanks!
Words can’t express the gratitude these clear pointers elicit. Thank you!
I had an awakening in 2001 triggered by the cry of a dog. The body disappeared and 'I' became that sound, followed that vibration into that dog, literally became all the generations, dog per dog, that were the cause of that sound, in unmeasureable beauty and vision and colours and energy, faster and faster until 'I' found myself as the cause less cause ,as pure unlimited love, and literally looking forward in time and seeing all these dogs lined up side by side and crying out the same sound at the same time. This whole thing lasted about 30 minutes but it changed my life forever. I became a hard-core seeker, stopped working and talking altogether and meditated about 35.000 hours, 14 years straight until I finally realised 'it' cannot be done. At the moment I'm really done with seeking , but the stuff you do on this channel I still like.
Wow! Thx for sharing
Sounds like you answered Joshua’s question ;)
Thanks Angelo, great talk. Ive just read your chapter on emotions. Pinpoint accurate for me, extremely helpful. I come from extreme anxiety and emotional suppression. I remember suppressing so hard in so many situations where I really needed to breakdown in tears, but never felt safe enough to do so. Ive delved into shadow work that has been fruitful, but that was like moving or recognising or acknowledging clearly, the boulders of trauma and emotion. Your book helped me get down to the subtle and finer grains. I go numb when I repress, and Ive always been repressing. It has drained me deeply to the point of exhaustion. I love the feeling of exhaustion now, and can allow it, deep rest. I feel that my whole system has been so wired in fight flight freeze for so long that I cant go on in any fakery. Ive been able to let sadness arise, and enjoy it thoroughly. So cleansing to have real emotions and embody them. Ive realised im constantly seeking approval and how inauthentic that is, and fruitless. Its been like, who even am I, how to even behave. My true feelings have been overridden by anxiety in an attempt to fit in with crowds that dont fit, and there was a lot of trauma along the way that shook the shit out of my system for decades. I've had one seeing where it was clear that nobody is in me, just wordless no one. But since then it has become clear that i need to get down to the root of all the emotional disharmony and non-genuineness within. Im deeply enjoying being with my emotions and delving into them all. And no emotion is not highly pleasurable when experienced purely. Just the fear side of things is uncomfortable, but the perfect indicator of where youre not being genuine. Or something like that. Thanks for your contributuon to the health of no one in particular, it is absolutely groundbreaking work.
You’re welcome!
thank you for this reflection of the numbing mesh of illusion some of us are enmeshed in until prince charming wakes us
Wow. I identify with decades of fight, flight, fawn, anxiety, suppression and trauma. Those are all my bedfellows.
Thanks for the share. At least I’m not alone.
loving these longer discourses. Keep em coming!
Cannot thank you enough Angelo, so incredibly grateful I found you. Your teachings are so exquisitely clear, thank you so very much.
Angelo, that was brilliant! Deeply grateful.
I love you, Angelo. Thank you so much for pointing. I see it. Just this❤ What a relief. Thank you.
Much gratitude and love here for the words you speak out that lead us Here. May grace vigilance, love and wisdom keep us all Here Eternally, Now🙏
Thanks for listening
Life is an awakening
37:12 it’s the heroes journey of the magician, neo going into the matrix to rescue Morpheus, pinnochio going into the whale to save his father
Great guidance! Thanks for sharing this.
So need these clear pointings. Thank you Angelo - love this format, so fluid, calming, and clear and so much encouragement coming through.
Glad it's helpful
Like the format there's no one there to interrupt you
The letting go IS already here! A loving not caring 🙏
Thank you Angelo ❤ you have completely changed my life 💗✨🙏
Thank you🙏✨
thank you, Angelo
Welcome!
Minute 36 - Its the one place where you can truly change. Its pure Knowledge that reveals itself beyond description. Its the place where you free yourself from all Limitations and concepts that you accepted.
29:00 during the crash of identity, a mind image of my graduate degree diplomas in the trash after my death stunned me into recognition of this truth. Like the old black/white images found in antique shop frames of people long forgotten, this constructed persona is very ephemeral and wholly thought-based. My hard-won certificates will be pretty worthless- if not at retirement, then certainly at physical death! Was sad at first at the massive energy invested to prop “her” up, but then, a huge RELIEF to stop and live in what is real 😊
Thank you angelo, love the sleeping dog on your lap :D its so iconic so to speak. So beautiful and descriptive like a poetry. thank you thank you thank you
So clear. Thank you
This video hit home for sure you described my life. I am an artist..
Ive been listening to you for a long time Angelo but today was so good thank you
These longer form talk videos are great!
8:31 I was raised catholic, catholic school and all. I’m 52 and have deprogrammed a lot of the burning in hell for eternity and eternal torture, but the felt sense of all of it is still constantly there, along with an ocean of guilt, shame, and fear.
The things they told me, told us, as children, was child abuse. it has done incredible damage, for decades now.
I cant seem to get away from it, of course because it’s inside me.
No new thought, thinking or belief system, no new practices or ideas have been able to dissolve the fear, guilt and shame. Every thought, every feeling and action are judged and condemned, even loving, kind acts are condemned by the narration of the mind and hell awaits me.
I’m constantly an unstable, emotional train wreck terrified by hell, devils and suffering in a lake of fire.
Sigh. I just recently found you and I’m appreciating your compassionate delivery.
Josh once mentioned you channeling your ancestors... I now know what he means. For a second my mind was cracked open and revealed my naked being. That was real.
wonderful wonderful wonderful
thank you 🙏❤️
Thank you for posting these.
Helpful description of the “Oh, I’m not going to get this” constellation of thoughts.
I fell into that for a time in relation to your channel. Which was helpful, because it revealed layers of striving, inadequacy, competitiveness.
Now listening more attentively to the immediate happenings of life.
Spent most of the day yesterday listening closely to one of the severely autistic clients at work.
Just as I was feeling deeply how he and I are the very same thing, he blurted out,
“You’re not alone anymore.”
💜🙏🫥⭕️🔥
sweet thank you
For those with eyes to see and ears to hear, synchronicities are an ever present experience.
Love your story.
all of your videos seem to find me at the right time, and this one just hit so right. i found myself laughing throughout most of the last half, at your pointers beyond the insane game we've played on ourselves. it just seems so hilarious :)
"All of the sudden, the entire universe turned inside out."
Perfect description of when figure and ground reverse (and then stay in superposition, available to flip any which way).
Thank you !!💙💙💙💙💙
So extremely helpful 🌟🧡
This is great Angelo if u ever do this in nyc gotta let me know!
I felt everything was one once and i felt like i was on extacy for 3 days ive never been able to get back there even though i know it's the only truth it happened for me and my wife the same exact way by listening to the song weary traveler i told her close her eyes and know it's God singing it she emeditly started crying with joy we didn't have a care in the world for 3 days and seen everyone and everything as God or one
Hi Angelo
Im very thankful for you as a Being that shares a lot of insight regarding these super imortant questions. I was going back and forth if i should do that but i belive now that its in your best interest. You should read/ listen to every available content from RSE. It will blow your mind.
RSE?
@@paul-ie RSE = Ramthas School of Enlightment. I want to be clear, i dont want to promote or advertise other authors but people have to realize that awakening how Angelo preceives it is just the first step on a very long path. I completly disagree with various assumptions regarding Thoughts and Emotions that Angelo gives but this doesnt change my opinion on him. Great content, great guy, very authentic, Great Being
Hi, Jonas,
First, it seems that Angelo’s mind was blown a long time ago!
Second, suffice it to say that my experience of RSE was very different from yours. I found both the teachings and the practices of “The Ram” to be dangerously fraudulent.
I wish you the best.
And, if you’re interested, Angelo did an interview with me that references my experience at RSE.
He titled the interview “When Spirituality Goes VERY Wrong.”
Pretty much sums it up.
To be clear, I don’t blame RSE for my foolish mistakes, but the School certainly did play a very unflattering role…
Thank you
Nice job there, boss: dotting the t's and crossing the i's . ;-)
Tnę doggo 😭😭😭
I’d love to have a conversation with you. How would you answer the question of inner work? I desire to undergo the first shift. So in one camp, there is nothing I need to “do” because there is no doer and it happens naturally. In the other camp, I need to love myself, learn gratitude and forgiveness, meditate 3 years with a guru, heal my inner child, and then maybe. I know that’s all a story, but there does seem to be a correlation between that sort of seeking and the happening of awakening.
I wouldn’t do wait her honestly, bc those are someone else’s ideas, those are motifs of the social matrix. Perhaps the spiritual matrix but the social matrix nonetheless.
‘Rather youth toward that part of yourself that knows exactly where to go. Follow that call. You have to go on instinct here not on thought, memory, belief, social conditioning etc . Does that track with your instinct?
The whole idea has always frustrated me that I’m still too blocked to “connect with my guides”. My chakras aren’t open enough for kundalini to awaken. Insert eye roll. But obviously the self-hating ego still has a say in this bizarro world of mind and never now or I’d be awake. It’s either easy or impossible. Guess it depends where you look. My instinct thinks it should be like remembering where I left my keys.
Interesting to hear you mention "karmic"... I've only just found you this week, and watched a dozen vids, and that's the 1st mention. Does Karma exist? Is it different from the Hindu concept? Are there past (and future) lives?
In the relative world yes, think cause-effect
Luke 17:21
YES!
Im always coming to the point of "if a thought isnt real, then why can i describe it? Im thinking about a brown dog, playing with a red ball" isnt there some reality to this?
No more reality than if you think right now about a unicorn snorting magic dust off the butt of a Pegasus
My realization (i feel stupid): the fact that thinking is happening is a reality. That doesnt make the content an actual reality. (My unicorn is kinda angry that i called it "not real", but i'll do anything for the sake of enlightenment)
A to Z, soup to nuts. Grateful🙏
Good doggie.
Does the dog have Buddha nature? 😊
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Question!
35:19 -you say by feminine aspect you mean not buying into relationality.
What would you say the masculine aspect is? Is it the buying into relationality through action/form? The doing of things?
I’ve read on vajrayana and that seems to be wat they r eluding to.
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