Masha you have such a vibrant personality, the only reason you get lonely is because you have too much love to give and that is an absolutely beautiful thing.
She's pouring her heart out to us in this video and crying and I see all these comments saying "please do an asmr video with..." I'm not telling you what to comment but I think it's a little insensitive to ignore such a big confession and a heart to heart from the person you want to see more of. Stay strong Maria :) 💞
I work with the public, and my mother always told me to be kind to everyone because I might be the only human interaction they have in their day. It's something I keep with me and pretty much all of my clients love me,
I rarely ever comment, but I had to. This video made me cry, because every night I watch your asmr videos so that I can sleep. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. FAITHFULLY. And it saddens me that you feel so alone when I feel like there's another beautiful presence with me just from a video . I wish I could give back the feelings you give me! You're such a beautiful person inside and out, Maria. And if I lived close to you, I'd definitely tag along with you to go talk to strangers lol
That's not pathetic to crave human interaction. It just means you're an extrovert. People often confuse an extrovert as someone that is the center of attention, but being an extrovert simply means you recharge by being around others. So, if you're an extrovert but find yourself alone, you're bound to feel drained and in need of that interaction. Essentially, you're not pathetic, you're not broken, you're who you are. And I'm sure I speak for many when I say we wouldn't have you any other way, Maria.
+GentleWhispering Hi Maria, I'm new to this channel but am definitely a fan of your ASMR one. I totally get being lonely as I'm going through the same thing. I'm in my late 20s and have noticed that sometimes when you change the direction in your life (like start a new job, in my case), people might drop out of your life. And it's not easy making friends as an adult. In fact, it kind of sucks, right? ;) I'm glad you're putting yourself out there especially in volunteering. I volunteer as well and it's a great way to connect with like-minded people. Thanks for sharing your story. You're amazing at what you do. Just remember that what you're feeling is only temporary. It's not forever. :)
When Maria cries I was almost crying.. I understand her.. I sometimes feel like no one understands me, I can't trust them. Some people around me is really rude, I try to socialize but I fail. I can't get along with them. When I go outside I wish I have a friend, I feel so lonely. And the worst thing is I'm actually a shy person and when I'm lonely in crowd, I feel bad. Anyway, Maria I think you are a super nice person, thank you for making videos :3 💞
+GentleWhispering my name is Melvin and just a young man tryin to go somewhere in life. Your Asmr videos and vlogs are great! You helped me resolve my issues with my insomnia and my depression and i am thankful fir that. ❤️ Much love from Montgomery County Fam
I can totally relate Maria, I have been job hunting and going on interviews too and I sit at home way too much because I'm unemployed right now. I'm going through the exact same thing. You are not alone! Thank you for reminding me I'm not alone as well! Much love
I don't even want to get back to the job market. I'm taking care of my daughter now and I don't want to send her to day care (Don't trust them), but when I look for a job again, I'm sure it'll be difficult
Same here! I've applied to so many jobs I've lost count and haven't had any luck yet. It's so hard to not get depressed when everyone around you is so busy with their lives and you feel lonely :(
You're not pathetic at all. Loneliness is real and 100% valid. It doesn't make you spoilt. I'm a rather introverted person but even so, sometimes I just have this overwhelming urge to go out on my own and meet some new people. It's normal :) I'm living in another country at the moment and even though I have some friends here and my boyfriend etc., it's hard when you don't know many people. But you are so kind and sweet, you must make friends really fast! :) I hope you get more opportunities for that soon.
You know Maria, saying what you said about your life and how you feel at the moment is one of the bravest most honest moments I've seen on RUclips. You acknowledged the love and supports but still there is something missing and that's such a real conflict that a lot of people go through. Hearing you say that just sparked something in me, like I'm not the only one who feels that way. You are unapologetic in the best way possible and it inspires so many people. Sometimes I feel lonely too, though I'm surrounded by amazing beautiful people. I feel like I'm not trying hard enough and you getting up and doing something as beautiful as supporting troops to not only do so but to also kind of help cure this lonely feeling. But, hey, you've got a shit ton of subscribers, viewers, and fans that have been following you from the beginning like me and we are here to listen any day; all ears. Thank you and I truly hope you overcome this, because YOU WILL.
I don’t know why I’m watching this now, it just came in my feed. I’ve always loved your ASMR but what sold me on you is this channel. You are an incredible person Maria. Authentically. You have inspired me for years at this point. Like a big sister or just a mentor. I hope you don’t feel as lonely anymore. If I was your neighbor I’d be knocking on your door with coffee anytime!
I loved volunteering the few times I did it. I felt so confident because I was actually needed and useful. I always feel anxious at work but I felt happy volunteering.
Aw sweet Maria, I understand very much how you're feeling. I've been in Ireland for over a year and some days it's really hard to not have a car and drive wherever and whenever I want, and visit my family who are all 5000 miles away. I love my husband and puppy and my new friend I made through the ASMR community, but like you I yearn for more real life interaction (which I feel is saying something because I consider myself fairly introverted). I work at home as well so especially during the winter it's quite a challenge to get out of the house and put on a billion layers of clothes and fight the chilly air all the way to the bus stop. I love that you went to greet the troops at the airport! When my sleep schedule permits and I wake up at a decent hour, sometimes I'll plan to do something different, like take a new bus route and see some sights or go into the city and explore. If you create opportunities to interact with people, even be they strangers, it makes your whole day feel more fulfilling. Much love to you, beautiful, gorgeous girl! (P.S. I desperately want you to make breakfast for me someday because that was magical and I adore your OCD-ness! :P)
Hello Grace and Maria! I too felt the same way like you but then I discovered that spending time in productive work would help you pass your time and eventually make new friends. I got associated with wildlife conservation organisations and I got many good people. I guess you should try that too :) And it's so adorable everytime I see someone copying Maria's elegance in towel folding :P
Oh Maria.. ❤️ I love you.. Thank you for opening up to us. I wish I could take all of your sadness and loneliness away. A bit of stress is a good motivator, but no one deserves to live with a heavy heart. I've been dealing with my own loneliness. I moved out when I was 17 and two years later I am still dealing with the loss of my childhood/family dependence. I don't see relatives very often, nor do I have many close friends besides my partner. I am stuck in this difficult situation where I am lonely and want to meet people, but I also have a lot of anxiety being outside, or socializing. It's a constant battle. I sometimes think that as an adult we are meant to be a bit lonely. I'm constantly craving that love a child gets, where you can completely trust and depend on someone and receive the same feelings back. It's hard finding out that you're truly on your own. Maria, you are so sweet, caring and unique. I hope someone tells you that everyday xox
You should join a group workout class! Even a dance class! It's a great way to meet new people and develop new relationships, working out also releases good endorphins so you will feel good about yourself after + will look forward to going every week :) everyone goes through stages like this where they need a change and some excitement in their lives + some people want less than that and crave staying at home being alone because they are around people and chaos all day. Just know that you are not alone, we all go through it and we all need tips and tricks to get out of our funks! xx
Had to pause the video to let you know you are NOT alone in the home-bound loneliness. I am a designer who freelanced from home for many years and remember the isolation being suffocating. I too craved simple human interaction. Ironically I quit Facebook a couple months ago because of the synthetic connection, and now I hear from people all the time! They text and call me from out of the blue because they can't simply peek into my life from a distance. So weird. Chin up, Maria. You are amazing and I truly wish I knew you in person. Love from Richmond, VA!
All electronic music is life. So much respect for you Maria! We have something in common! I only listen to dance music. Raves used to be my life and like you said you're struggle is needing to be around people, girl me too! I miss the rave life I used to have and I was sober all those times. The music was just so moving! Bass drops have my heart! I love you Maria! Let's take a drive and listen to trance music and dance like no one's watching!!
I work from home as well, so I can relate 100% with how you're feeling. It is hard being away from people on a daily basis and you end up feeling very isolated and disconnected. At least you are trying to get out there. I'm all about my home, my dogs, and my job...I need to get out more,....but watching you cry really hit home and I felt bad for you and could relate to how you were feeling. Just because you crave communication with people yet don't get it, doesn't mean you are pathetic. You are more alike with others than you can ever imagine. I would meet up with you if we lived in the same area, but I'm in the midwest.....I think we could both use the friendship! :) Stay strong!! xxx
I wish we could meet! I'd give you a big hug. dont ever apologize for crying. it makes you human. I'm going through things too, had a big cry yesterday. I'd love to sit down and have a coffee with you. You are not pathetic. you are so hard on yourself sometimes. you've no idea how much you help with my anxiety. hugs from Sydney Australia xxxx
I had no idea this channel existed until now. I've been a subscriber of your GentleWhispering channel for a few months now and I watch your videos to help me sleep every single night. It's so weird to hear your voice all normal and everything. You are so awesome! Thank you so much helping me sleep. Have a nice day!
This was one of the best videos I've seen. It's so nice to see real, raw emotions. I'm so sorry you felt lonely, but please know that all of your viewers are more than happy to entertain you in conversation to keep your mind busy :) What a great thing you did volunteering for the troops!! As a military spouse for several years, I can imagine how much it meant to them to see your smiling face greeting them. Thank you Maria!!
You should do a coffee shop role play for your asmr channel. I know this video wasn't asmr, but the coffee making part was very soothing! And not many asmrtists have done a coffee shop role play...
Oh Masha! This breaks my heart, I am going through a very similar thing in my life, mustering the courage to go out and meet people. A thousand hugs with all my heart to you sister!
I'm a stay at home mom... I'm going through the same thing. I feel like I'm going nuts. I cry when I talk about it to my husband. He doesn't understand the struggle. I want to work!! haha
This video is even MORE relevant right now. I'm thinking about all the older folks I used to chat with at the library. They went there JUST to be around people and have a hi.
Your tears gave me tears, Maria. I can completely relate. My husband is in the Air Force and we're stationed far from our families. I get social anxiety so I haven't made any friends at all here in Texas. I cry sometimes too and miss my loved ones and my old, fun personality. I need someone like you in my life to lift me back up and bring out my inner light. Thank you for supporting our troops. God Bless.
Maria, you are an absolute joy. I've been having some anxiety issues for the past year or so, and watching your videos has been a calming escape for me. I have never interacted with you on social media, but because of the sweet way you love on and calm your subscribers, I feel as if you are a very close friend to me. thank you for making videos on your Gentle Whispering channel as well as this one! You are wonderful!
It shocks me that you can be lonely, simply for the fact that if I knew you I'd never want to leave you alone! You're such a sunny, happy person and you shouldn't have to be lonely, it's not fair.
OH MY GOSH I do the avocado thing, too!! I'm so glad I'm not the only one lol.That sandwich was beautiful, that coffee was beautiful, the egg flips were magnificent...I can't even believe how pristine your breakfast looked, Maria.You just get cooler and cooler. WOW. Trap music is amazing- I especially love music like Porter Robinson's work, chillstep, and dream pop. Aww...don't worry, Maria, you're not spoiled. It's perfectly normal to want to socialize with a large group of people besides your close friends and family. It just means you're people-oriented! You're such a sweet person. I really look up to you, Maria, and I really wish you the best.
Maria, I have been working from home for a few years now. I am a very outgoing person and being alone had certainly caught up with me recently. I knew it was bad when "I'll have an iced coffee with soy milk" was the only thing I would say out loud for days in a row. It's easy to get wrapped up in all of the sadness of feeling alone, but remind yourself that that is not YOU, it's just your current situation. Keep volunteering and talking to strangers and soaking up each day you have to enjoy. The more you can remind yourself who you are, the happier and more fulfilled you will be -- at home alone, or not. Best of luck!! Loving your vids every day
I know this is an old video, but I am only recently getting into the Sassy Mascha channel after just over 4 years of watching the GentleWhispering channel. It is so lovely to see what Maria is like, I appreciate the honesty and fearlessness she shows in revealing her vulnerabilities with loneliness. It takes a lot of confidence and strength to do that, very admirable! She makes me want to reach through this screen and give her a big hug. Thank you so much Maria, you have made my day
Love these vlogs Maria, you are amazing ❤️ also, thank you for the new breakfast idea! Definitely making that sandwich this week :) never forget how much your RUclips family loves you! ❤️
Maria, it breaks my heart to see you feeling so lonely! I know the love and support you receive from your subscribers doesn't suppliment what human interaction does for our souls, but in your case I wish it did. I often think, if I didn't live across the country from you, I'd love to be friends with you and I'm sure I'm not the only one! You are truly a diamond in the ruff and you shower so much love to all of us that find comfort in watching your videos. Thank you for that ♡ I hope this time passes quickly for you and that you're able to find others who are as kind hearted as you. Hang in there!
I've been watching your asmr channel for years and have only discovered this today! I'm so glad I did! I love seeing your vulnerability and you should never be ashamed to be yourself. I feel like I have a friend in you and we all love you Maria ! ❤️❤️
+jabjabgrab123 this is so true. society is fucked up, socializing has become impossible. speaking out is frowned upon. on the other hand you're passing millions of guys and girls (the "cold" "antisocial" types) every day who are probably thinking, "wow this person is really attractive and has a lot going for him/her, why would this person ever accept or want to talk to me". approaching a stranger is literally fucking impossible. Yet we'll flock to Facebook by the millions to stare and daydream..
+Get2TheDeLorean chatting on facebook or social media is easy for many reasons to commuicate...i think people are scared of other people thinking they are weird for approaching them..rejection is also another issue within people
You are a cancer moon baby like me! That is why we tend to stay in our homes too much. it is our shell...our comfort place...security. I get emotional like you as well, and cry on a whim. I go out to see strangers..then get so worn down I'm so glad to be back home again. lol Thanks for your vlog and asmr videos. I watch a few of them everyday! Here's your message from me...a "stranger friend" haha from Mississippi. Have a lovely day!
I have the same struggle. I just "moved" to the US and I'm gonna stay here until january, and I have no friends.. I only have family members whom I live with, and they're fun and all, but I miss meeting people, going to cafes and having a coffee with a new friend, going to concerts, working.. I miss all of it. I do nothing during the day time except stay at home, sing, draw, and talk to my friends back home in Sweden on Facebook if they're awake. You'll find people, though. You've got a blessed personality and your empathy for other people is felt even through the computer screen. People will be drawn to you and you'll find many new friends and experiences along that journey.
You're so inspirational! I seriously didn't think anyone felt the same way as me and to see you go out and do what you do, makes me feel like there's hope for everyone! You're amazing!
Precious light! There is nothing wrong with crying, allow yourself permission to feel your feelings. Being lonely and craving interactions is not pathetic in the least. I can only imagine the number of ppl watching who would love to meet you for coffee and some good conversation. Maybe try Skype tho I know everyone won't have as pure of intentions as I would. At any rate you are loved and if we are ever in each others area I'll buy you a cup of coffee :D also the shape of your sandwich was really satisfying *giggles *
Maria you have helped me so much with gentle whispering through a very difficult few years i am eternally great full thankyou for being you and love these vlogs xxx
Dear Maria, you almost made me cry in this video. There is nothing pathetic about being at home. You are the most lovely person, and I can understand 100% how you're feeling right now, I'm sure you are surrounded of hundreds of people who love you, including the thousands of people subscibed to your channel. We will be always be there for you Maria, I hope that you feel better. Greetings and hugs from México!!! (Sorry for the bad english)
You have such a sweet and kind spirit, Maria. Anyone who has the privilege of talking to you- be it friends or the cashier at your grocery store- is so blessed. Never allow life's struggles, particularly loneliness, to harden your heart. I think it's so awesome that you volunteered just to quench your thirst for human interaction. I am thankful for you today and your bright, engaging light in this dark, disengaged world.
+Rachel Brown Yes, I get chills too :D I hope to one day check out a Rave event but I heard you need to be on drugs to fully enjoy it, haha. So I dunno. :P
+Creative Touch I've heard that from a lot of people all the years I have been attending events (9 years), but it's not true. I'm not going to lie, ecstasy is a great experience to have at least once in your life and music of all kinds is fantastic with it, but a lot of my crowd including myself do not need substances to have a full night of fun at a party. As a person who has done most of the stuff floating around at parties years ago, I feel it's all about the music and the experience, not the drugs. A cocktail or two can make it more fun though, just like at an average night club. But the music, sound system, and stage entertainment are so much better than at a night club. ;)
+Rachel Brown I agree! I'm straight edge when it comes to drugs (I have a sip of a cocktail every now and then) and I have never felt the need for outside substances to enjoy the music. I attended my first music festival alone last year and had the time of my life. I definitely recommend trying it at least once, if anything go to a bigger venue where it's not so crowded and you have more room to dance freely! The EDM community is just as loving and accepting as the ASMR community. I am so glad to be a part of it.
+Creative Touch Hm, so basically you are implying that trance is crap music because one needs to consume illegal substances to fully appreciate it.. But yeah I have to agree, all edm sounds a bit bland when sober. A good supersaw is always awesome tho.
You have changed my life, I watch both of your channels and you make me let go of all my bad energy and bring me to a place of laugher (with your vlog) and complete relaxation (with gentle whisper) thank you so much for all the time and effort you put in for us! you are a beautiful soul
That avocado is a brilliant tip! I always end up throwing avocado halves away because they brown too quickly. I'll have to try that out :) You are amazing!
+sweetdreamsemma You can also try putting some lemon juice on top of that half and keep it in the fridge so it doesn't get brown too quickly...I just love avocado and I do it all the time ;)
So long as you keep the seed in it will keep fresh for quite a while. It you use half, use the half without the seed and then wrap the other half in cling wrap. The very outer layer exposed to the air will go brown, but if you scrape that off it will be green underneath.
oh my god Maria you are so 100% not pathetic for feeling that way. I relate to you /so/ much. I've been job searching like crazy just so I could have a routine where I regularly talk to people(even if they are rude!). I stay in the house way too much, sometimes I just want to meet a stranger who will take an interest in me and drag me out of the house and introduce me to new people. I want to experience so many new things but I have no one who I could really experience them with. I always envied people who were on a sports team because they have such strong friendships and get to have a fun time everyday. I feel like at a certain point it's hard to make new friends that aren't from work or school. Sometimes I like my own solitude but there is a different between being alone and being lonely.
As a Military Spouse with a deployed husband, I just wanted to say thank you for doing that for our Troops! So many don't have anyone to welcome them back home. I love when people volunteer like you! :)
omg I'm so excited you have this channel. I always watched your ASMR videos but you're honestly the most real person I've seen on youtube. This video made me so happy.
Oh Maria! I want to give you a big hug and remind you how loved you are... even by all the thousands of us who have never met you in person! Thank you for being you. Take care of your beautiful soul. xo
I know. It can depend on your line of work. Having nice colleagues to chat with. Or just having people around not necesarily friends. Even when you don't need other people for your work and others can be distracting. We are still social creatures. Im an introvert but I rather work on my stuff in a library or a cafe then on my own in my apartment. Feeling lonely distracts me more then the huzz and buzz of being in public. And the off chance of seeing a friend or aquaintece once in a while.
When you were talking about feeling like you are in a cage I completely understand. It's like you want to talk to people and have experiences but you feel like it's almost impossible because people are busy, you're busy, etc. It's nice to know someone out there feels the same as me. One thing that has helped me is joining an art class. I love art and I met a lot of nice people there.
Машенька, не могу поверить на сколько у людей, живущих в разных частях планеты, совершенно в разных жизненных обстоятельствах, могут совпадать эмоции и их эмоциональное состояние. Я тебя очень понимаю в этом, ты не одна. И то что я по какой-то случайности наткнулась на это видео, дает мне силы, понимать что я тоже не одна в своих переживаниях. Смотрю твои асмр видео очень давно, не знала что у тебя есть отдельный канал влогов, это просто супер новость для меня. Держись ты не одна
+Eddie Miller no need to apologize! you should always put your priorities first. just wanted you to know that we're ready to welcome you back whenever and with open arms (and ears)!
That sort of casual interaction isn't pathetic, it's wonderful! Those people may only know you in a very passive, casual sense, but they do. This is how communities form. It is a good thing.
I love how vulnerable you are at times, how real and gentle. I love you so much Maria. You have no idea how much I jump when I get an email saying you made a new video. They make me feel so happy and so warm to see your face. You have always calmed me, reassured me, and sent me love from afar. I am truly grateful to you. Hugs from Connecticut!
I feel your pain. I'm going through the exact same thing you're going through. I get so bored and lonely at times. I like being alone but sometimes I feel dead when I'm by myself for so long. I have friends but all they want to do is get drunk and high all the time. They never want to pursue any adventure. I want to go somewhere different and do different things. I guess they're too cool for that. Not to sound creepy but if you're ever in the Albany, GA area, you have a friend in me.
same...u get me... ive asked my friends to go night hiking and they just went over to a friends house and drank... i still went hiking with my bf though :) it was so muuch fun...i swear we felt and saw a ghost
Hey. I just wanted to thank you for being an amazing person. I know you get this all the time. I found your Gentle Whispering page because I was struggling with getting to sleep at night recently and after learning a bit more about you, I find you to be very mesmerizing. I too love trance music and I actually produce it as a hobby. Keep being the wonderful person you are and thank you for all your videos.
+Kelly Simas same...those tears are my own..only I don't have a man....I don't have a strong circle of friends....you and your life and where you are at is not pathetic...<3 in my last video I talked about the loneliness....many are feeling it very hard lately....good for you for getting out there! You are beautiful Maria inside and out
You, my dear, require something once known as a coffee klatch...or at the very least, a certain sort of pub. Your frankness and honestly are wonderful as always but you are indeed suffering a need of the energy people share when together. My hope is that your search for a simple oasis be met with success. Good, sustaining energy sent your way...
That made me cry. I would love to talk to you. I kinda know what you mean like you just want to interact with someone that you don't know what they are gonna say. Just someone new and different.
Hi Maria, I’ve been watching your vlogs recently because they’re relaxing and help me feel better when I feel alone. And being in college for the first time while having recently-developed social problems makes me feel alone a lot. I stay in my dorm all day and have been the most depressed and anxious I’ve been in my life. I have no friends in college, and whenever I come home for breaks it feels like waking up from a bad dream. I want to thank you for sharing your experience and being open, something I need to gain the courage to do.
Well Dash Berlin and Tiesto (two trance artists) will be playing in DC very soon, and if you're craving some human interaction and people to talk to, there'll be a very big Baltimore rave on New Year's Eve - and another on January 23 if the idea of a big one is a little intimidating, or if you already have NYE plans =)
+PsychicOracle thanks for this info. I'm relatively new to the DC Metro area, so haven't really had a chance to meet many people in general, let alone any that would know where some decent local parties are..... thanks!
+yummiwatch and there's many versions of this track, but it's called "happiness happening by simon paul (allen & envy & sunset trance remix)...maria's most definately got style liking these tunes :)
I love you woman. I've never seen anyone else who is able to be so sincere and get to people just by making some videos. You are such a beautiful person. I've known you before "oh such a good 3d-sound asmr video" got 100k views. Now it has over 13 million and that's because you're one hell of an asmrtist. And with this video I say you are the most sincere vlogger ever. I know there are so many people who feel the same. You got all the people. Don't you cry and break my heart.
You really hit home for me with this video. Loneliness can be so hard and it doesn't matter if you have a little or a lot of people in your life. You can still feel isolated. I go through the same feelings as well. You are so wonderful. I would be lucky to have even one friend like you.
I don't think you are lonely as much as you might have serotonin and dopamine imbalance. I have that and can feel completely alone in a group of people, and then get sad. I actually don't like being around that many people, maybe 1 or 2 at a time, yet I was and will be forced to work in public in retail, which is all I ever get hired to do. I don't like it. I want an office away from the masses somewhere to work in quiet and alone. I love it yet can't find that.
I found this by accident after enjoying gentlewhispering. This was SO MUCH FUN to watch. Maria, somehow there could be a reality show in your future. This feels like a seedling of something.....
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Masha you have such a vibrant personality, the only reason you get lonely is because you have too much love to give and that is an absolutely beautiful thing.
I think that's how you say her name in Russian.
+MsKawaiiGirl Maria is the Russian version too!
(Masha is a version for family, friends...)
+Laura Ryerson what does Masha do for a living?
+VendPrekmurec ASMR....
She is making a fortune with ASMR?! If yes then I will start with ASMR right a way
She's pouring her heart out to us in this video and crying and I see all these comments saying "please do an asmr video with..." I'm not telling you what to comment but I think it's a little insensitive to ignore such a big confession and a heart to heart from the person you want to see more of.
Stay strong Maria :) 💞
I work with the public, and my mother always told me to be kind to everyone because I might be the only human interaction they have in their day. It's something I keep with me and pretty much all of my clients love me,
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I rarely ever comment, but I had to. This video made me cry, because every night I watch your asmr videos so that I can sleep. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. FAITHFULLY. And it saddens me that you feel so alone when I feel like there's another beautiful presence with me just from a video . I wish I could give back the feelings you give me! You're such a beautiful person inside and out, Maria. And if I lived close to you, I'd definitely
tag along with you to go talk to strangers lol
Your outpour of love warms my heart. love you forever! :") thank you!!!
+Mohamad #7 i second that 👍
That's not pathetic to crave human interaction. It just means you're an extrovert. People often confuse an extrovert as someone that is the center of attention, but being an extrovert simply means you recharge by being around others.
So, if you're an extrovert but find yourself alone, you're bound to feel drained and in need of that interaction.
Essentially, you're not pathetic, you're not broken, you're who you are. And I'm sure I speak for many when I say we wouldn't have you any other way, Maria.
+GentleWhispering Hi Maria, I'm new to this channel but am definitely a fan of your ASMR one. I totally get being lonely as I'm going through the same thing. I'm in my late 20s and have noticed that sometimes when you change the direction in your life (like start a new job, in my case), people might drop out of your life. And it's not easy making friends as an adult. In fact, it kind of sucks, right? ;) I'm glad you're putting yourself out there especially in volunteering. I volunteer as well and it's a great way to connect with like-minded people. Thanks for sharing your story. You're amazing at what you do. Just remember that what you're feeling is only temporary. It's not forever. :)
+GentleWhispering I left a comment that is super long if you read it just know I mean every word! MUCH LOVE
+GentleWhispering We're your bff's Maria you can talk to us!!
This woman is so gorgeous almost made me cry
This isn't even an ASMR video and I'm STILL getting ASMR from the breakfast bit. XD
Me too! :D
exactly !!
hahaha she can't get away from it. it's natural for her
Same here x)
+Natasha Paulson Me too!
When Maria cries I was almost crying.. I understand her.. I sometimes feel like no one understands me, I can't trust them. Some people around me is really rude, I try to socialize but I fail. I can't get along with them. When I go outside I wish I have a friend, I feel so lonely. And the worst thing is I'm actually a shy person and when I'm lonely in crowd, I feel bad. Anyway, Maria I think you are a super nice person, thank you for making videos :3 💞
That egg flip was straight savage! Well done :D
+SuperMelvinos I agree!! haha
haha, years of daily practice, bruh! :P
thanks so much for commenting and watching, my friend. I see you and I appreciate your time so much! thank you!!! What is your name? :) ♡
+GentleWhispering my name is Melvin and just a young man tryin to go somewhere in life. Your Asmr videos and vlogs are great! You helped me resolve my issues with my insomnia and my depression and i am thankful fir that. ❤️ Much love from Montgomery County Fam
+SuperMelvinos smack it, flip it, rub it down
I can totally relate Maria, I have been job hunting and going on interviews too and I sit at home way too much because I'm unemployed right now. I'm going through the exact same thing. You are not alone! Thank you for reminding me I'm not alone as well! Much love
Totally can relate. It stinks. Best of luck on your job hunt 😊
I'm in a similar situation, too
+AugustAdvice I think her interview is an actual job interview...its for when a radio host "interviews" someone famous or whatever etc etc.
I don't even want to get back to the job market. I'm taking care of my daughter now and I don't want to send her to day care (Don't trust them), but when I look for a job again, I'm sure it'll be difficult
Same here! I've applied to so many jobs I've lost count and haven't had any luck yet. It's so hard to not get depressed when everyone around you is so busy with their lives and you feel lonely :(
You're not pathetic at all. Loneliness is real and 100% valid. It doesn't make you spoilt. I'm a rather introverted person but even so, sometimes I just have this overwhelming urge to go out on my own and meet some new people. It's normal :) I'm living in another country at the moment and even though I have some friends here and my boyfriend etc., it's hard when you don't know many people. But you are so kind and sweet, you must make friends really fast! :) I hope you get more opportunities for that soon.
You know Maria, saying what you said about your life and how you feel at the moment is one of the bravest most honest moments I've seen on RUclips. You acknowledged the love and supports but still there is something missing and that's such a real conflict that a lot of people go through. Hearing you say that just sparked something in me, like I'm not the only one who feels that way. You are unapologetic in the best way possible and it inspires so many people. Sometimes I feel lonely too, though I'm surrounded by amazing beautiful people. I feel like I'm not trying hard enough and you getting up and doing something as beautiful as supporting troops to not only do so but to also kind of help cure this lonely feeling. But, hey, you've got a shit ton of subscribers, viewers, and fans that have been following you from the beginning like me and we are here to listen any day; all ears. Thank you and I truly hope you overcome this, because YOU WILL.
it really hurts my heart to see someone who gives so much joy to people be so lonely. I wish I could give you a big hug xoxo
I don’t know why I’m watching this now, it just came in my feed. I’ve always loved your ASMR but what sold me on you is this channel. You are an incredible person Maria. Authentically. You have inspired me for years at this point. Like a big sister or just a mentor.
I hope you don’t feel as lonely anymore. If I was your neighbor I’d be knocking on your door with coffee anytime!
Volunteering will help you so much! You will love helping your community and meeting new people too :) much love to you!
ha I watch your channel! Glad to see people enjoy asmr!
That's an awesome idea. Especially because Maria gets so much pleasure from helping others.
I loved volunteering the few times I did it. I felt so confident because I was actually needed and useful. I always feel anxious at work but I felt happy volunteering.
Aw sweet Maria, I understand very much how you're feeling. I've been in Ireland for over a year and some days it's really hard to not have a car and drive wherever and whenever I want, and visit my family who are all 5000 miles away. I love my husband and puppy and my new friend I made through the ASMR community, but like you I yearn for more real life interaction (which I feel is saying something because I consider myself fairly introverted). I work at home as well so especially during the winter it's quite a challenge to get out of the house and put on a billion layers of clothes and fight the chilly air all the way to the bus stop.
I love that you went to greet the troops at the airport! When my sleep schedule permits and I wake up at a decent hour, sometimes I'll plan to do something different, like take a new bus route and see some sights or go into the city and explore. If you create opportunities to interact with people, even be they strangers, it makes your whole day feel more fulfilling. Much love to you, beautiful, gorgeous girl! (P.S. I desperately want you to make breakfast for me someday because that was magical and I adore your OCD-ness! :P)
Hello Grace and Maria! I too felt the same way like you but then I discovered that spending time in productive work would help you pass your time and eventually make new friends. I got associated with wildlife conservation organisations and I got many good people. I guess you should try that too :) And it's so adorable everytime I see someone copying Maria's elegance in towel folding :P
I have been living in Ireland for the last 13 yrs. And still feeling lonely at times.
Oh Maria.. ❤️ I love you.. Thank you for opening up to us. I wish I could take all of your sadness and loneliness away. A bit of stress is a good motivator, but no one deserves to live with a heavy heart.
I've been dealing with my own loneliness. I moved out when I was 17 and two years later I am still dealing with the loss of my childhood/family dependence. I don't see relatives very often, nor do I have many close friends besides my partner. I am stuck in this difficult situation where I am lonely and want to meet people, but I also have a lot of anxiety being outside, or socializing. It's a constant battle.
I sometimes think that as an adult we are meant to be a bit lonely. I'm constantly craving that love a child gets, where you can completely trust and depend on someone and receive the same feelings back. It's hard finding out that you're truly on your own.
Maria, you are so sweet, caring and unique. I hope someone tells you that everyday xox
You should join a group workout class! Even a dance class! It's a great way to meet new people and develop new relationships, working out also releases good endorphins so you will feel good about yourself after + will look forward to going every week :) everyone goes through stages like this where they need a change and some excitement in their lives + some people want less than that and crave staying at home being alone because they are around people and chaos all day. Just know that you are not alone, we all go through it and we all need tips and tricks to get out of our funks! xx
That little wink was legendary.
Your sensitivity and kindness was so refreshing.
I feel the same way about being lonely.
You said it perfectly! I don't meet other people with different personalities either
Had to pause the video to let you know you are NOT alone in the home-bound loneliness. I am a designer who freelanced from home for many years and remember the isolation being suffocating. I too craved simple human interaction. Ironically I quit Facebook a couple months ago because of the synthetic connection, and now I hear from people all the time! They text and call me from out of the blue because they can't simply peek into my life from a distance. So weird.
Chin up, Maria. You are amazing and I truly wish I knew you in person. Love from Richmond, VA!
I did homeschool for a while and I can REALLY relate to how you felt. staying home a lot is not really a blessing at all. 😞
All electronic music is life. So much respect for you Maria! We have something in common! I only listen to dance music. Raves used to be my life and like you said you're struggle is needing to be around people, girl me too! I miss the rave life I used to have and I was sober all those times. The music was just so moving! Bass drops have my heart! I love you Maria! Let's take a drive and listen to trance music and dance like no one's watching!!
I work from home as well, so I can relate 100% with how you're feeling. It is hard being away from people on a daily basis and you end up feeling very isolated and disconnected. At least you are trying to get out there. I'm all about my home, my dogs, and my job...I need to get out more,....but watching you cry really hit home and I felt bad for you and could relate to how you were feeling. Just because you crave communication with people yet don't get it, doesn't mean you are pathetic. You are more alike with others than you can ever imagine. I would meet up with you if we lived in the same area, but I'm in the midwest.....I think we could both use the friendship! :) Stay strong!! xxx
I wish we could meet! I'd give you a big hug. dont ever apologize for crying. it makes you human. I'm going through things too, had a big cry yesterday. I'd love to sit down and have a coffee with you. You are not pathetic. you are so hard on yourself sometimes. you've no idea how much you help with my anxiety.
hugs from Sydney Australia xxxx
I had no idea this channel existed until now. I've been a subscriber of your GentleWhispering channel for a few months now and I watch your videos to help me sleep every single night. It's so weird to hear your voice all normal and everything. You are so awesome! Thank you so much helping me sleep. Have a nice day!
This was one of the best videos I've seen. It's so nice to see real, raw emotions. I'm so sorry you felt lonely, but please know that all of your viewers are more than happy to entertain you in conversation to keep your mind busy :)
What a great thing you did volunteering for the troops!! As a military spouse for several years, I can imagine how much it meant to them to see your smiling face greeting them. Thank you Maria!!
You should do a coffee shop role play for your asmr channel. I know this video wasn't asmr, but the coffee making part was very soothing! And not many asmrtists have done a coffee shop role play...
Or a restaurant role play :)
Yaaas
Let's thumb it up Maria don't worry !
I really appreciate your honesty, it shows that we are not alone and we all go through struggles. You are a wonderful person Maria!
Oh Masha! This breaks my heart, I am going through a very similar thing in my life, mustering the courage to go out and meet people. A thousand hugs with all my heart to you sister!
I'm a stay at home mom... I'm going through the same thing. I feel like I'm going nuts. I cry when I talk about it to my husband. He doesn't understand the struggle. I want to work!! haha
This video is even MORE relevant right now. I'm thinking about all the older folks I used to chat with at the library. They went there JUST to be around people and have a hi.
I just love your honesty Maria! You are such a wonderful soul ... watching this made me cry because I have felt this way so many times before too!
Your tears gave me tears, Maria. I can completely relate. My husband is in the Air Force and we're stationed far from our families. I get social anxiety so I haven't made any friends at all here in Texas. I cry sometimes too and miss my loved ones and my old, fun personality. I need someone like you in my life to lift me back up and bring out my inner light. Thank you for supporting our troops. God Bless.
Trance music is my freaking #1 kind of music of ALL TIME!!!!!!!! ahmgaaad
I love watching your vlogs in the morning. It's the perfect chill start to my day 💙
This is so sweet and sincere. I definitely feel that too, the need for more quality people, more heartfelt connections etc.
Maria, you are an absolute joy. I've been having some anxiety issues for the past year or so, and watching your videos has been a calming escape for me. I have never interacted with you on social media, but because of the sweet way you love on and calm your subscribers, I feel as if you are a very close friend to me. thank you for making videos on your Gentle Whispering channel as well as this one! You are wonderful!
It shocks me that you can be lonely, simply for the fact that if I knew you I'd never want to leave you alone! You're such a sunny, happy person and you shouldn't have to be lonely, it's not fair.
No one deserves to be lonely.
OH MY GOSH I do the avocado thing, too!! I'm so glad I'm not the only one lol.That sandwich was beautiful, that coffee was beautiful, the egg flips were magnificent...I can't even believe how pristine your breakfast looked, Maria.You just get cooler and cooler. WOW. Trap music is amazing- I especially love music like Porter Robinson's work, chillstep, and dream pop. Aww...don't worry, Maria, you're not spoiled. It's perfectly normal to want to socialize with a large group of people besides your close friends and family. It just means you're people-oriented! You're such a sweet person. I really look up to you, Maria, and I really wish you the best.
Maria, I have been working from home for a few years now. I am a very outgoing person and being alone had certainly caught up with me recently. I knew it was bad when "I'll have an iced coffee with soy milk" was the only thing I would say out loud for days in a row. It's easy to get wrapped up in all of the sadness of feeling alone, but remind yourself that that is not YOU, it's just your current situation. Keep volunteering and talking to strangers and soaking up each day you have to enjoy. The more you can remind yourself who you are, the happier and more fulfilled you will be -- at home alone, or not. Best of luck!! Loving your vids every day
I know this is an old video, but I am only recently getting into the Sassy Mascha channel after just over 4 years of watching the GentleWhispering channel. It is so lovely to see what Maria is like, I appreciate the honesty and fearlessness she shows in revealing her vulnerabilities with loneliness. It takes a lot of confidence and strength to do that, very admirable! She makes me want to reach through this screen and give her a big hug. Thank you so much Maria, you have made my day
you should join a yoga group! try a few. yoga people are VERY welcoming!
Love these vlogs Maria, you are amazing ❤️ also, thank you for the new breakfast idea! Definitely making that sandwich this week :) never forget how much your RUclips family loves you! ❤️
Maria, it breaks my heart to see you feeling so lonely! I know the love and support you receive from your subscribers doesn't suppliment what human interaction does for our souls, but in your case I wish it did. I often think, if I didn't live across the country from you, I'd love to be friends with you and I'm sure I'm not the only one! You are truly a diamond in the ruff and you shower so much love to all of us that find comfort in watching your videos. Thank you for that ♡
I hope this time passes quickly for you and that you're able to find others who are as kind hearted as you. Hang in there!
I've been watching your asmr channel for years and have only discovered this today! I'm so glad I did! I love seeing your vulnerability and you should never be ashamed to be yourself. I feel like I have a friend in you and we all love you Maria ! ❤️❤️
everyone thinks the pretty girls have no problems getting attention and socialising with many people that's the total opposite imo
+jabjabgrab123 this is so true. society is fucked up, socializing has become impossible. speaking out is frowned upon. on the other hand you're passing millions of guys and girls (the "cold" "antisocial" types) every day who are probably thinking, "wow this person is really attractive and has a lot going for him/her, why would this person ever accept or want to talk to me". approaching a stranger is literally fucking impossible. Yet we'll flock to Facebook by the millions to stare and daydream..
+Get2TheDeLorean chatting on facebook or social media is easy for many reasons to commuicate...i think people are scared of other people thinking they are weird for approaching them..rejection is also another issue within people
You are a cancer moon baby like me! That is why we tend to stay in our homes too much. it is our shell...our comfort place...security. I get emotional like you as well, and cry on a whim. I go out to see strangers..then get so worn down I'm so glad to be back home again. lol Thanks for your vlog and asmr videos. I watch a few of them everyday! Here's your message from me...a "stranger friend" haha from Mississippi. Have a lovely day!
I have the same struggle. I just "moved" to the US and I'm gonna stay here until january, and I have no friends.. I only have family members whom I live with, and they're fun and all, but I miss meeting people, going to cafes and having a coffee with a new friend, going to concerts, working.. I miss all of it. I do nothing during the day time except stay at home, sing, draw, and talk to my friends back home in Sweden on Facebook if they're awake. You'll find people, though. You've got a blessed personality and your empathy for other people is felt even through the computer screen. People will be drawn to you and you'll find many new friends and experiences along that journey.
You're so inspirational! I seriously didn't think anyone felt the same way as me and to see you go out and do what you do, makes me feel like there's hope for everyone! You're amazing!
You could organize fan meetings, you have over 500 000 fans, that would be a great way to socialize more
Precious light! There is nothing wrong with crying, allow yourself permission to feel your feelings. Being lonely and craving interactions is not pathetic in the least. I can only imagine the number of ppl watching who would love to meet you for coffee and some good conversation. Maybe try Skype tho I know everyone won't have as pure of intentions as I would. At any rate you are loved and if we are ever in each others area I'll buy you a cup of coffee :D also the shape of your sandwich was really satisfying *giggles *
Maria you have helped me so much with gentle whispering through a very difficult few years i am eternally great full thankyou for being you and love these vlogs xxx
Dear Maria, you almost made me cry in this video. There is nothing pathetic about being at home. You are the most lovely person, and I can understand 100% how you're feeling right now, I'm sure you are surrounded of hundreds of people who love you, including the thousands of people subscibed to your channel. We will be always be there for you Maria, I hope that you feel better. Greetings and hugs from México!!! (Sorry for the bad english)
HOW DID I NOT KNOW THIS CHANNEL EXISTED UNTIL NOWWWWWW?! Subscribed to gentlewhispering forever and AGHHH
I feel the exact same way about being lonely. It's a struggle
You have such a sweet and kind spirit, Maria. Anyone who has the privilege of talking to you- be it friends or the cashier at your grocery store- is so blessed. Never allow life's struggles, particularly loneliness, to harden your heart. I think it's so awesome that you volunteered just to quench your thirst for human interaction. I am thankful for you today and your bright, engaging light in this dark, disengaged world.
Even after hardships and problems in life, you kept your smile as bright as ever...
Thank you, to be a great teacher for me. You are strong, Maria
Trance gives me tingles. I looove trance. Have you ever been to a rave? Live is so much better.
+Rachel Brown Yes, I get chills too :D I hope to one day check out a Rave event but I heard you need to be on drugs to fully enjoy it, haha. So I dunno. :P
+Creative Touch Live it up! 😜
+Creative Touch I've heard that from a lot of people all the years I have been attending events (9 years), but it's not true. I'm not going to lie, ecstasy is a great experience to have at least once in your life and music of all kinds is fantastic with it, but a lot of my crowd including myself do not need substances to have a full night of fun at a party. As a person who has done most of the stuff floating around at parties years ago, I feel it's all about the music and the experience, not the drugs. A cocktail or two can make it more fun though, just like at an average night club. But the music, sound system, and stage entertainment are so much better than at a night club. ;)
+Rachel Brown I agree! I'm straight edge when it comes to drugs (I have a sip of a cocktail every now and then) and I have never felt the need for outside substances to enjoy the music. I attended my first music festival alone last year and had the time of my life. I definitely recommend trying it at least once, if anything go to a bigger venue where it's not so crowded and you have more room to dance freely! The EDM community is just as loving and accepting as the ASMR community. I am so glad to be a part of it.
+Creative Touch
Hm, so basically you are implying that trance is crap music because one needs to consume illegal substances to fully appreciate it.. But yeah I have to agree, all edm sounds a bit bland when sober. A good supersaw is always awesome tho.
You started the avocado toast trend lol
I love how honest and open you are
You have changed my life, I watch both of your channels and you make me let go of all my bad energy and bring me to a place of laugher (with your vlog) and complete relaxation (with gentle whisper) thank you so much for all the time and effort you put in for us! you are a beautiful soul
That avocado is a brilliant tip! I always end up throwing avocado halves away because they brown too quickly. I'll have to try that out :) You are amazing!
+sweetdreamsemma You can also try putting some lemon juice on top of that half and keep it in the fridge so it doesn't get brown too quickly...I just love avocado and I do it all the time ;)
+Susana Palomino Thank you! I will make sure to pick up some avocados and do some experimenting ;)
So long as you keep the seed in it will keep fresh for quite a while. It you use half, use the half without the seed and then wrap the other half in cling wrap. The very outer layer exposed to the air will go brown, but if you scrape that off it will be green underneath.
+Karly Keogh Thank you all! I swear Maria has the sweetest and most helpful viewers :)
oh my god Maria you are so 100% not pathetic for feeling that way. I relate to you /so/ much. I've been job searching like crazy just so I could have a routine where I regularly talk to people(even if they are rude!). I stay in the house way too much, sometimes I just want to meet a stranger who will take an interest in me and drag me out of the house and introduce me to new people. I want to experience so many new things but I have no one who I could really experience them with. I always envied people who were on a sports team because they have such strong friendships and get to have a fun time everyday. I feel like at a certain point it's hard to make new friends that aren't from work or school. Sometimes I like my own solitude but there is a different between being alone and being lonely.
As a Military Spouse with a deployed husband, I just wanted to say thank you for doing that for our Troops! So many don't have anyone to welcome them back home. I love when people volunteer like you! :)
omg I'm so excited you have this channel. I always watched your ASMR videos but you're honestly the most real person I've seen on youtube. This video made me so happy.
Most symmetrical egg cheese and avocado sandwich EVER!! lol Looks delish though! 😋
Don't worry ,you are normal .This happens to everyone and those who say it doesn't are lying .
Also, how is it possible for your voice to still be so soothing even when you're just going about your daily life?!
Oh Maria! I want to give you a big hug and remind you how loved you are... even by all the thousands of us who have never met you in person! Thank you for being you. Take care of your beautiful soul. xo
I know. It can depend on your line of work. Having nice colleagues to chat with. Or just having people around not necesarily friends. Even when you don't need other people for your work and others can be distracting. We are still social creatures. Im an introvert but I rather work on my stuff in a library or a cafe then on my own in my apartment. Feeling lonely distracts me more then the huzz and buzz of being in public. And the off chance of seeing a friend or aquaintece once in a while.
Are you kidding me??? Trance is the best genre of edm. I love psytrance, female vocal trance and energetic trance sub genres.
+Ori Thumbs up to psytrance, techno, and house.
When you were talking about feeling like you are in a cage I completely understand. It's like you want to talk to people and have experiences but you feel like it's almost impossible because people are busy, you're busy, etc. It's nice to know someone out there feels the same as me. One thing that has helped me is joining an art class. I love art and I met a lot of nice people there.
Машенька, не могу поверить на сколько у людей, живущих в разных частях планеты, совершенно в разных жизненных обстоятельствах, могут совпадать эмоции и их эмоциональное состояние. Я тебя очень понимаю в этом, ты не одна. И то что я по какой-то случайности наткнулась на это видео, дает мне силы, понимать что я тоже не одна в своих переживаниях. Смотрю твои асмр видео очень давно, не знала что у тебя есть отдельный канал влогов, это просто супер новость для меня. Держись ты не одна
8:18 okay I DID NOT expect that hahahaha
How did you film cooking breakfast?! I saw both your hands in the video!
GoPro would be my guess.
omg Eddie come back!!! we miss you so much! ❤️
+Evan Pyle I might come back, one day. I've just been dealing with a lot of things. I apologize for leaving so abruptly.
+Eddie Miller no need to apologize! you should always put your priorities first. just wanted you to know that we're ready to welcome you back whenever and with open arms (and ears)!
+Mr. Gaunt LOL!!!!!!!!!!!
That sort of casual interaction isn't pathetic, it's wonderful! Those people may only know you in a very passive, casual sense, but they do. This is how communities form. It is a good thing.
I love how vulnerable you are at times, how real and gentle. I love you so much Maria. You have no idea how much I jump when I get an email saying you made a new video. They make me feel so happy and so warm to see your face. You have always calmed me, reassured me, and sent me love from afar. I am truly grateful to you. Hugs from Connecticut!
You're a human with human emotions. Nothing wrong with that. Loved that song...what's the name of it?
I feel your pain. I'm going through the exact same thing you're going through. I get so bored and lonely at times. I like being alone but sometimes I feel dead when I'm by myself for so long. I have friends but all they want to do is get drunk and high all the time. They never want to pursue any adventure. I want to go somewhere different and do different things. I guess they're too cool for that. Not to sound creepy but if you're ever in the Albany, GA area, you have a friend in me.
same...u get me... ive asked my friends to go night hiking and they just went over to a friends house and drank... i still went hiking with my bf though :) it was so muuch fun...i swear we felt and saw a ghost
+Jennifer Saucedo LOL! I should have went with you.
Hey. I just wanted to thank you for being an amazing person. I know you get this all the time. I found your Gentle Whispering page because I was struggling with getting to sleep at night recently and after learning a bit more about you, I find you to be very mesmerizing. I too love trance music and I actually produce it as a hobby. Keep being the wonderful person you are and thank you for all your videos.
You are such an amazing human being! I can relate to so many things you talk about.
ahhh trance music...brings me back...
+Kelly Simas same...those tears are my own..only I don't have a man....I don't have a strong circle of friends....you and your life and where you are at is not pathetic...<3 in my last video I talked about the loneliness....many are feeling it very hard lately....good for you for getting out there! You are beautiful Maria inside and out
love trance and love you! ♡
Anuone know what trance song was playing in the car?
It's Lost Witness - Happiness Happening 2014 (Allen&Envy and Sunset Remix)
+AzdPL Thanks.
Glad the Darude - Sandstorm period is over. ;)
Looks like we came here for the trance haha
Love this honest vulnerable side of you
Just hearing your normal voice relaxes me so much! You're the best Maria! :))
You, my dear, require something once known as a coffee klatch...or at the very least, a certain sort of pub. Your frankness and honestly are wonderful as always but you are indeed suffering a need of the energy people share when together. My hope is that your search for a simple oasis be met with success. Good, sustaining energy sent your way...
That made me cry. I would love to talk to you. I kinda know what you mean like you just want to interact with someone that you don't know what they are gonna say. Just someone new and different.
Hi Maria, I’ve been watching your vlogs recently because they’re relaxing and help me feel better when I feel alone. And being in college for the first time while having recently-developed social problems makes me feel alone a lot. I stay in my dorm all day and have been the most depressed and anxious I’ve been in my life. I have no friends in college, and whenever I come home for breaks it feels like waking up from a bad dream. I want to thank you for sharing your experience and being open, something I need to gain the courage to do.
I felt the exact same way you describe at 5:21 for almost a year. So grateful for you and your videos.
Aww, you should come to shows/raves in DC & Baltimore - no drugs or altered consciousness necessary!
+PsychicOracle do you recommend any particular ones? :) I'd love to check them out!!
Well Dash Berlin and Tiesto (two trance artists) will be playing in DC very soon, and if you're craving some human interaction and people to talk to, there'll be a very big Baltimore rave on New Year's Eve - and another on January 23 if the idea of a big one is a little intimidating, or if you already have NYE plans =)
+PsychicOracle thanks for this info. I'm relatively new to the DC Metro area, so haven't really had a chance to meet many people in general, let alone any that would know where some decent local parties are..... thanks!
lovely to hear a song on your car cd player. especially that I've played this track live in ibiza! you'll have to come v.i.p to one of our events!
+Thomas OMG, I'd die from excitement if I could come 😃😭😍😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀
sorry for the very (ridiculous) late reply, next time we get a date at cafè mambo, you'll recieve an invite for definate!
respect & love
+yummiwatch and there's many versions of this track, but it's called "happiness happening by simon paul (allen & envy & sunset trance remix)...maria's most definately got style liking these tunes :)
im saving the song... so. ward.
I love you woman. I've never seen anyone else who is able to be so sincere and get to people just by making some videos. You are such a beautiful person. I've known you before "oh such a good 3d-sound asmr video" got 100k views. Now it has over 13 million and that's because you're one hell of an asmrtist. And with this video I say you are the most sincere vlogger ever. I know there are so many people who feel the same. You got all the people. Don't you cry and break my heart.
You really hit home for me with this video. Loneliness can be so hard and it doesn't matter if you have a little or a lot of people in your life. You can still feel isolated. I go through the same feelings as well. You are so wonderful. I would be lucky to have even one friend like you.
If you want to make new IRL friends try doing a night class, something small just 1 evening a week.
I don't think you are lonely as much as you might have serotonin and dopamine imbalance. I have that and can feel completely alone in a group of people, and then get sad. I actually don't like being around that many people, maybe 1 or 2 at a time, yet I was and will be forced to work in public in retail, which is all I ever get hired to do. I don't like it. I want an office away from the masses somewhere to work in quiet and alone. I love it yet can't find that.
I found this by accident after enjoying gentlewhispering. This was SO MUCH FUN to watch. Maria, somehow there could be a reality show in your future. This feels like a seedling of something.....
So happy you've started doing these videos too!!! So nice to get a look into your every day life 😊😍