The second recovery story of my new recovery series is out! Today I sat with Malka, who recovered from Depersonalization, Derealization, Panic Attacks and Anxiety after having had it for 6 years. Share your love and questions for this beautiful soul in the comments! She will reply to everyone 😊
These interviews are so important. When I was going through the same thing a felt so isolated and lonely. It’s important to see other people going through the same thing and sharing their experiences. “No one has ever felt this” was exactly what I was thinking! I felt so detached from the people around me because of that.
Love getting to hear these conversations. I've been battling it alone and it has definitely felt like such a long time of working towards healing. But I'm grateful that after almost 2 years (maybe 3) I'm finally having much more days not stuck in DPDR than stuck in it.
i have bipolar 2 , sever ADHD , Panic attacks , sever Anxiety , i managed to get over it with a meds , but once i left meds everything got back to 0 i started having panic attacks again and everything went to hell... , this started happening to me after using lsd and weed together please to everyone reading this dont try drugs it destroyed my life , i cant even go to work .... cant meet people cant do anything , dont really know what to do at this point . i just wonna live a normal life again
"We have to choose which hard we are going to do" Ooof, this is great. So well said. Really love these success stories Robin and your whole channel is such a comfort. Thank you for what you are doing and sharing 💗
Seen this video twice! so relatable especially when I relate to you so much as I'm a person who researches and reads etcc. ! thanks robin for these videos
I relate to her so so much. Had a bad shroom trip in 2021 which made me have a panic attack and experience DPDR for the first time. Cause I was in high school, it went away pretty quickly because I was always distracted with classes, going out with friends, work, etc. Then, leading up to graduation in 2022, I was sooo stressed due to becoming an adult, having my hamster pass away, and leaving high school (basically having an existential crisis) where I had another massive panic attack which brought it back. July-August 2022 were the worst months of my life with constantly worrying and checking on the sensation which made it stay but now, it comes in waves with good week/days and bad week/days. This story really inspired me that things will continue to get better :)
Thank you so much for sharing. God I relate to that SO MUCH. We are stronger than the sensations and anxiety even if it may not feel like that every day 😂
@@malkinmalka We really are!! I've always had anxiety symptoms basically my whole life but this new symptom has been rough lol. All the tips she shared definitely work! Its a matter of being consistent with it and not falling back into the fear :)
@@malkinmalka today I lost all hope and almost fell into that hole. I’m only 17 and have had it since I was 15. I get so depressed about basically missing my entire 16th year of life. I don’t want to waste anymore. I need to get out of this cycle of being lazy and crying over it. This too shall pass. Thank you, you just gave me so much hope
@@malkinmalkahow do you stop focusing on the sensations themselves? I have kinda blurred tunnel vision so anytime I look at anything, tv etc. the blurred vision immediately sets off the dpdr thoughts, how do I stop focusing on them? This was set off from a panic attack I had last like 8 days ago along with the thoughts of being real but not ‘real’.
@@marlysaf I am sorry to hear about the panic attack. I know how scary and uncomfortable they are and can last a while after. I think when I stopped being scared of the sensations they went away. Just try and remind yourself that the dpdr is a safety mechanism. It’s not anything unusual. Almost everyone gets the feelings, some people (like us) get stuck in a loop because we get scared of it so it becomes strong. Try reading about “2nd fear” and I recommend learning about mindfulness. Also “vacate fear” on RUclips and FB changed my life when it comes to understanding mechanics of anxiety and panic. You got this. You’re not alone ever.
love this so much and I relate to a lot she said! I’ve had dpdr for 2 years and have been mostly home bound because I have crippling anxiety 😭 so my question is what was the first step you took to get out of your house and start living? also did you struggle with your memory during dpdr? mine has been so so bad lately 😭
Hi there. Thanks for the warm comment. I’m so happy you can relate because what you’re feeling is more common than you would think. Being home bound was the scariest part of this all and I think the point where my anger was more than my fear of the anxiety was when I was ready. I began reading the right books and watching the right stuff …. It was not easy and is still a daily progress but I just did it and knew it was gonna suck and be uncomfortable but once u go and do it it gets less and less scary. Remind yourself that whether you are at home or outside or in the grocery store, anxiety will be there all the same. Once you teach your body that it’s OK and the safe space doesn’t exist it all starts melting away. You got this!!!
Dear Malka, I love how full of life and bubbly you are! :) If you don't mind, can you please share with us, what kind of existential thoughts you had (if you can remember)? Mine can get extremely (I mean extremely) abstract and weird, to the point that Im not even able to describe them to my therapist in words...
Thanks for your comment. I wasn’t always this bubbly lol but the excitement of healing helps. 😅 Existential thoughts were part of my life since I was a kid but during my intense anxiety they would be about existing and reality that would spiral into full blown panic attacks that would last hours. Don’t compare your thoughts to anyone else. They are simply thoughts and nothing more. You’re strong and can overcome this. Have you tried learning about mindfulness or meditation???
I love this and I’m soooo proud of you!!!!!!! I’m going thru this and been a year now. I’m not scared of it anymore just annoyed by it now lol. Did u go thru the phase of it’s still there but ur not scared anymore of it and barely think about it but it’s still there?
Ty x share your experience I really appreciate it 💓 Question: Did u have existencial thoughts ?? And if the answer is yes, how do you overcome this? Thank you again, love this video
So happy you enjoyed it! Existential thoughts 100% have been part of my journey. So bad I couldn’t sleep a lot. But once I stop fighting and almost welcome them in… they quiet down. Think of it like a crying baby… when we yell at the crying baby they cry louder! But if we hug and cuddle the crying baby they will shut up and sleep 😅 Stay patient. Read about how to be mindful. Everything will pass in time.
How did you navigate going through all of this for so long whilst also being in a committed relationship? I've had to come out of a long term relationship because of my DPDR it was almost impossible to keep going as I wasn't able to give to the relationship and I felt so disconnected from him so couldn't feel safe or normal with him. He was also the one supporting me for so long with my mental health issues and sacrificing a lot for me so it was hard for him. Not sure how long you have been with your fiance but did it affect your relationship and if so how? Thank you xx
Hi there. Thank you for sharing. It was NOT easy. I actually was with someone in the beginning and had to end it because of the dpdr and agoraphobia it just wasn’t working out and I knew I had to work on myself. I was lucky with my current fiancé he’s very patient and understanding and because I wanted it to work out I did a lot of things that made me uncomfortable to face my dpdr which actually pushed me to truly get help and heal. It’s because I wanted “it to end” and finally live my life that I started doing research and invested in getting over the dpdr. I know it’s scary and I hated times when I’d look at him and feel like he’s a stranger or like he wasn’t real but once I let myself be happy and let go of resisting is when the feeling melt slowly and slowly. I wish for you the same. Strength and peace. You have the courage to overcome it you just need to locate it!!!❤
@@malkinmalkaI did too A few years now actually was started by ends and withdrawal for meds given for stress Homebound and 💯 isolated for years now Researched like mad (dare, anxious truth etc) also got to the angry point and got out Daily for 18 months but it never helped despite trying to float and “fuck it” mentality Now homebound for months again and even more depressed I can’t even have anyone in the house, no “safe person” left Want to depart the planet tbh
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The second recovery story of my new recovery series is out! Today I sat with Malka, who recovered from Depersonalization, Derealization, Panic Attacks and Anxiety after having had it for 6 years.
Share your love and questions for this beautiful soul in the comments! She will reply to everyone 😊
I had DPDR since I was 6 years old and didn’t know what this was until well into adulthood. It was extremely scary.
you are a pillar of light in this world!! you have helped me so much.. please never stop sharing your message, the world needs you ❤
Thank you Kayla! I won't stop 😘 Sending you love and light. I hope you are well!
These interviews are so important. When I was going through the same thing a felt so isolated and lonely. It’s important to see other people going through the same thing and sharing their experiences.
“No one has ever felt this” was exactly what I was thinking! I felt so detached from the people around me because of that.
How did u recover?
Love getting to hear these conversations. I've been battling it alone and it has definitely felt like such a long time of working towards healing. But I'm grateful that after almost 2 years (maybe 3) I'm finally having much more days not stuck in DPDR than stuck in it.
You got this! Alone or not. It’s all within. I know you’re gonna be through it soon. ❤
@@malkinmalka thank you so much!!
@@muchlovebymel no problem ☺️
How r u these days ?
@@malkinmalka
I enjoyed your interview 🤩
Can i asl you a few questions 🙏🏻
being here for 5 years struggling is good to know someone that struggles for long too❤
You’re not alone!❤
5 years for me to... Know all about it still cant recover
@malkinmalka how did you find girls going through this for support
Part of 5 year gang as well ✋
i have bipolar 2 , sever ADHD , Panic attacks , sever Anxiety , i managed to get over it with a meds , but once i left meds everything got back to 0 i started having panic attacks again and everything went to hell... , this started happening to me after using lsd and weed together please to everyone reading this dont try drugs it destroyed my life , i cant even go to work .... cant meet people cant do anything , dont really know what to do at this point . i just wonna live a normal life again
"We have to choose which hard we are going to do" Ooof, this is great. So well said. Really love these success stories Robin and your whole channel is such a comfort. Thank you for what you are doing and sharing 💗
Thank you Louise! I wish you all the best in your journey ❤
Seen this video twice! so relatable especially when I relate to you so much as I'm a person who researches and reads etcc. ! thanks robin for these videos
Yes researching can be so beneficial and great for healing but it can also be super overwhelming at time 😂
Good luck to you!!!❤
I relate to her so so much. Had a bad shroom trip in 2021 which made me have a panic attack and experience DPDR for the first time. Cause I was in high school, it went away pretty quickly because I was always distracted with classes, going out with friends, work, etc. Then, leading up to graduation in 2022, I was sooo stressed due to becoming an adult, having my hamster pass away, and leaving high school (basically having an existential crisis) where I had another massive panic attack which brought it back. July-August 2022 were the worst months of my life with constantly worrying and checking on the sensation which made it stay but now, it comes in waves with good week/days and bad week/days. This story really inspired me that things will continue to get better :)
Thank you so much for sharing. God I relate to that SO MUCH. We are stronger than the sensations and anxiety even if it may not feel like that every day 😂
@@malkinmalka We really are!! I've always had anxiety symptoms basically my whole life but this new symptom has been rough lol. All the tips she shared definitely work! Its a matter of being consistent with it and not falling back into the fear :)
@@malkinmalka today I lost all hope and almost fell into that hole. I’m only 17 and have had it since I was 15. I get so depressed about basically missing my entire 16th year of life. I don’t want to waste anymore. I need to get out of this cycle of being lazy and crying over it. This too shall pass. Thank you, you just gave me so much hope
@@malkinmalkahow do you stop focusing on the sensations themselves? I have kinda blurred tunnel vision so anytime I look at anything, tv etc. the blurred vision immediately sets off the dpdr thoughts, how do I stop focusing on them? This was set off from a panic attack I had last like 8 days ago along with the thoughts of being real but not ‘real’.
@@marlysaf I am sorry to hear about the panic attack. I know how scary and uncomfortable they are and can last a while after. I think when I stopped being scared of the sensations they went away. Just try and remind yourself that the dpdr is a safety mechanism. It’s not anything unusual. Almost everyone gets the feelings, some people (like us) get stuck in a loop because we get scared of it so it becomes strong. Try reading about “2nd fear” and I recommend learning about mindfulness. Also “vacate fear” on RUclips and FB changed my life when it comes to understanding mechanics of anxiety and panic. You got this. You’re not alone ever.
Dpdr was easier to deal
With with agoraphobia but one the panic attacks came there’s no frontal lobe to talk or feel through it
Such a great idea Robin. Thanks for the hard work! Great series so far.
I'm scared I can't sit still I feel like im too awake light of sunshine scares me and I feel floaty.
9months😢 cant focus i feel my life os going to waste
How are you now?
love this so much and I relate to a lot she said! I’ve had dpdr for 2 years and have been mostly home bound because I have crippling anxiety 😭 so my question is what was the first step you took to get out of your house and start living? also did you struggle with your memory during dpdr? mine has been so so bad lately 😭
Hi there. Thanks for the warm comment. I’m so happy you can relate because what you’re feeling is more common than you would think. Being home bound was the scariest part of this all and I think the point where my anger was more than my fear of the anxiety was when I was ready. I began reading the right books and watching the right stuff …. It was not easy and is still a daily progress but I just did it and knew it was gonna suck and be uncomfortable but once u go and do it it gets less and less scary.
Remind yourself that whether you are at home or outside or in the grocery store, anxiety will be there all the same. Once you teach your body that it’s OK and the safe space doesn’t exist it all starts melting away.
You got this!!!
I got a panic attack 9 weeks post partum now I’m in dpdr and it sucks :( I can’t escape my thoughts
Dear Malka, I love how full of life and bubbly you are! :) If you don't mind, can you please share with us, what kind of existential thoughts you had (if you can remember)? Mine can get extremely (I mean extremely) abstract and weird, to the point that Im not even able to describe them to my therapist in words...
Thanks for your comment. I wasn’t always this bubbly lol but the excitement of healing helps. 😅
Existential thoughts were part of my life since I was a kid but during my intense anxiety they would be about existing and reality that would spiral into full blown panic attacks that would last hours.
Don’t compare your thoughts to anyone else. They are simply thoughts and nothing more. You’re strong and can overcome this. Have you tried learning about mindfulness or meditation???
mine are so abstract and weird too!
I love this and I’m soooo proud of you!!!!!!! I’m going thru this and been a year now. I’m not scared of it anymore just annoyed by it now lol. Did u go thru the phase of it’s still there but ur not scared anymore of it and barely think about it but it’s still there?
YES anger and annoyance I think are really good emotions to have to replace to fear. I was so angry and annoyed which is when I felt I was ready!!
Ty x share your experience
I really appreciate it 💓
Question: Did u have existencial thoughts ?? And if the answer is yes, how do you overcome this? Thank you again, love this video
So happy you enjoyed it! Existential thoughts 100% have been part of my journey. So bad I couldn’t sleep a lot. But once I stop fighting and almost welcome them in… they quiet down. Think of it like a crying baby… when we yell at the crying baby they cry louder! But if we hug and cuddle the crying baby they will shut up and sleep 😅
Stay patient. Read about how to be mindful. Everything will pass in time.
Hey, what books did you read? I would love a list and I know this is an old video but I would love to read them
Think she said ‘dare anxiety and panic’
Is it counterproductive if you don't read books?
How did you navigate going through all of this for so long whilst also being in a committed relationship? I've had to come out of a long term relationship because of my DPDR it was almost impossible to keep going as I wasn't able to give to the relationship and I felt so disconnected from him so couldn't feel safe or normal with him. He was also the one supporting me for so long with my mental health issues and sacrificing a lot for me so it was hard for him. Not sure how long you have been with your fiance but did it affect your relationship and if so how? Thank you xx
Hi there. Thank you for sharing. It was NOT easy. I actually was with someone in the beginning and had to end it because of the dpdr and agoraphobia it just wasn’t working out and I knew I had to work on myself.
I was lucky with my current fiancé he’s very patient and understanding and because I wanted it to work out I did a lot of things that made me uncomfortable to face my dpdr which actually pushed me to truly get help and heal. It’s because I wanted “it to end” and finally live my life that I started doing research and invested in getting over the dpdr. I know it’s scary and I hated times when I’d look at him and feel like he’s a stranger or like he wasn’t real but once I let myself be happy and let go of resisting is when the feeling melt slowly and slowly.
I wish for you the same. Strength and peace. You have the courage to overcome it you just need to locate it!!!❤
@@malkinmalka Thank you so much ❤
@@jemimahxoxo of course. Support us a huge part of healing. I’m always here to provide support if needed 🙏🙏
Did you feel like you couldn't stand the light from the sunlight in your room?that scares me alot.
How can we contact Malka?
Who's up for a support group chat?! 😁
This was so uplifting 🥹
Thanks so much! It makes me happy beyond words if even 1 person feels some kind of comfort knowing we're all in this together!
How did you get dpdr is it possible you can share how you got it.
I got it from having intense panic attacks and heightened anxiety
@@malkinmalkaI did too
A few years now actually was started by ends and withdrawal for meds given for stress
Homebound and 💯 isolated for years now
Researched like mad (dare, anxious truth etc) also got to the angry point and got out
Daily for 18 months but it never helped despite trying to float and “fuck it” mentality
Now homebound for months again and even more depressed
I can’t even have anyone in the house, no “safe person” left
Want to depart the planet tbh
Thank you for this! 🤍 I am struggling with this now plus OCD