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I love how real and vulnerable you’re allowing yourself to be in front of so many people, Julia. You’re such a strong person!
I really really feel for you Julia. During my child bearing years I was pregnant 7 times and had only 2 babies (now 27 and 28 years old). Although I STILL sometimes think about the children I didn't have, the lives of my 2 healthy daughters have far far eclipsed any shadow of the losses. I know that probably doesn't help now...
Also... the bloodwork with my first healthy live birth (very high AFP levels) indicated she would have spina bifida or anencephaly or some other similar condition. I continued to carry her and although she was born at 30 weeks she was healthy, and even breathing on her own, with no medical issues at all. That tiny preemie is now a doctor.
Keep taking care of yourself. Beautiful tablecloth btw ;)
"Nothing wrong with the unhoused" LOLL NICK
(Wishing you so much strength, Julia. I love your whole perspective on this. It's really inspiring.)
Look at those lashes with a touch of mascara! So cute with and without makeup!
I love your openness and honesty. Best wishes for you and your journey here.
Hearing you speak on your experiences is so insightful as I have never been pregnant before. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this, but also thank you so much for sharing 🤍
You are actually amazingly stoic and your intuition is truly serving you very well. I hope that you may soon be past the intervention that is needed to help you and that will be a fast recovery - both physically and emotionally. ❤
Julia, I find it so amazing how in tune you are with your body. I miscarried about 2.5 years ago when you shared a video on your previous miscarriage and haven’t been able to conceive since. I admire your courage to share your story with us and your vulnerability. The thing you said about being fearful of death resonates with me as well, so I appreciate your vulnerability in that too. Sending peace and love your way ❤
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I mentioned this in the last video … pregnancy related or not Julia is amazing at listening to and actively advocating for her health … it’s so wonderful and reassuring x
Julia, I want to thank you very much for sharing such vulnerable moments surrounding pregnancy and loss. We don’t always have people in our lives who can share their experiences that we can learn from. We rarely get to see the parts of pregnancy and trying to get pregnant that are more difficult or not always so clear cut. When I ask women in my life who’ve had children, they rarely share about the experience of pregnancy but more often about their experience of being a parent.
On behalf of everyone who wants children but is scared or confused about pregnancy and what it all looks like when trying, thank you thank you thank you! You have shared such valuable information and insight and you make me feel like it will all be okay even if I find myself in this situation someday.
At this point you’re my internet big sister and I am so glad you’re here and willing to let us into your life this way.
Sending you lots of love Julia, you are a wonderful person ❤
This is so true. I *really* appreciate the honesty. X
i love how real you are, you’re a breath of fresh air when you post! ❤
I have a thing going on with my health right now that is going to be ok but is also stressful and scary. Seeing this reminded me that I am so not alone. Thank you for the perspective. I hope you get through this soon and in good health ❤️
Julia~ I'm giving you the biggest hug in the world. I've been watching you for years now, from ASMR, to your pregnancy vlogs, and it's been a joy to see Honor grow up. I've loved your candid thoughts on the many things you discuss on youtube and IG and your honesty as well. Thank you for trusting your audience and sharing something so deeply personal (that you had every right to keep private). I'm thinking of you, Nick, and Honor
Sending you hugs, really hope you find relief soon 💕
Women go through so much!!!! Ugh!! 💔 Thanks for sharing Julia!
Wishing you the best health of your life and bliss ❤ I have been learning about gratitude practices lately and I loved how you found gratitude, even if only for the resources that can help. Gratitude practices can help improve future trauma responses and past trauma effects, while strengthening brain health, among other benefits. But only when it is genuine. It really struck a chord for me, explaining a lot about how I have managed to be as resilient as I feel, after what I have been through. I am actually very grateful for all of your videos and your candid sharing about your experiences. Btw wow that vase for your flowers!!! Love the design!
Im sorry you’re having to go through this. Having recently had two failed pregnancies in as many years I really really feel for you. And ugh the waiting game is awful but you will be ok. I also have one child who I adore and I really feel lucky in that respect. Sending love ❤
Your intuition about your body is amazing. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this crazy stressful situation and trying to still be a mom while trying to deal with everything. You’re strong, powerful, and wonderful and I wish all the best for you and your family. Also love your advocating for proper medical care no matter the situation.
Also - as a fellow tall girl, please spill the details on the best finds. I love sezane but sometimes find their clothing proportions to be hit or miss and the misses are crushing because it’s always something really cute and high quality that I love the idea of
I’m so sorry Julia 💖 sending you strength x
One of my favorite relationships on youtube is Julia & Fruit~ the way the fruits are selected handled cut presented w/love & care on plates in bowls on platters on boards~ it is a divine dream 💗
Praying for you, Julia! (:
You‘re really brave for sharing all of this with the world! Even though I can‘t really relate, I still love listening to you and getting little glimpses into your life. Wishing you all the best! ❤
Also I would love to see your pile of new books 😊
I'm sorry you're going through this, you're incredibly resilient. ❤ I would be interested in hearing about your thoughts on fear of death, as I'm currently experiencing the same thing. It's been horrible on my mental health. Thank you for sharing.
My thoughts are with you. ❤
I really wish people would just watch the whole video before commenting.
You are so strong, Julia! Sending you lots of love and positive energy during this time. 🩷🙏🏽
I'm so so glad you're such a good advocate for yourself and you know your body so well. That's extremely important. And I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope you can get it resolved soon and don't have to get into an emergency-type situation. Ectopic pregnancies are so scary and I really wish you didn't have to deal with one. 💜
Thank you for sharing and being so personal with us, Julia. I appreciate your raw openess❤
So sorry you are going through this. Wishing you peace and comfort through this.
Hugs and much love to you Julia . I am not sure how to say this, but you are; my best internet friend. I really enjoy listening to you and catching up on your news. One day you will eventually have another healthy baby and you will be as you are right now, the best mother ever.
i’m so sorry this is happening to you, it’s got to be so scary 🥺 but i know how proactive you are and im glad you caught it early and im sure you’re going to come out the other end. thank you for sharing ❤️
Hey Julia, I've dealt with an ectopic pregnancy before. It's super scary, but if you caught it early, you can go in the ER for methotrexate -- so it's a less invasive procedure (only 2 shots). The most anxiety inducing thing is just waiting on your bloodwork results, and making sure the medicine is working. Your tubes aren't in the red zone until 3 months in (approx.), but hopefully your OBGYN fast tracking whatever care you need next. If it's caught early, it also doesn't necessarily affect your fertility if you're planning to have more kids in the future. Praying that this pregnancy was caught early, and I wish you the best of luck so that you have the easiest recovery possible!
I admire you so much! I've followed you for a while and your transparency still seems unreal. You are an amazing woman! 💖 Thank you for sharing!
thank you for sharing Julia, I really wish things go as well as possible
Praying for you Girl. And I’m giving you the hugs 🫂
Bless you 💛 I'm sorry you're having to go through this most difficult time ~ you're helping so many people by sharing your life and hopefully it helps you to share with us X
Julia you are the realest creator on the internet. I aspire to be as authentic and comfortable with yourself as you are. Thank you ❤
Hi Julia! I’m excited to watch right now. I was watching some of your old videos from years ago. I think I started following you in 2016? 🤔 you’re still my fave RUclipsr! My mom had an a topic between my brother and I. That’s why we’re 8 years apart. Hugs to you and Honor. ♥️♥️♥️
Sending you positive energy. I know first hand the emotions you are going through. Mine ruptured and I lost an entire tube. Thank you for sharing your experience so other women can gain knowledge.
Hi Julia, I have gone through an ectopic pregnancy too but mine wasn't caught early. My tube actual ruptured and I was rushed to the hospital and underwent surgery right away. I remember what that all felt like and its something I will never ever forget. I was extremely lucky per what my doctors told me on follow up visits. They just kept saying I was lucky to be alive because it was a very bad situation when I got the ER. I am so so sorry to hear this is the outcome for you. Absolutely listen to your body and get yourself to a ER asap if something starts to feel off. I didn't wait. I actually woke up to severe pains and have an ambulance come get me from him bc my bf at the time was at work. Scary shit but my heart and positive vibes go out to you! I will be thinkin about in the coming days and just hope your experience to be on the less life threatening side and that you recover well. Def take time for yourself and be patience with your body, which tbh, I feel like you are far more in tune with yourself than I have ever been. I love your channel ♥
Julia, I love how open and genuine you are in your videos. I’ve had 2 ectopic pregnancies. The first one I had was a year after the birth of my first child, and I was 8 weeks along. I didn’t even realize I was pregnant. The second ectopic was 9 months after the first one and I was 6 weeks along. I am so glad you trusted your instincts and are so self-aware. I wish you all the best. Thank you for sharing such a personal experience with us. ❤🙏🏼
Hi Julia! Glad you have Nick and Honor to help you through this time. I'm not sure if you've ever had an MA but it isn't the most pleasant. However numerous women including myself who have had are glad that they did. I'm sorry you're going through this! It will get better and you will soon feel at ease.. just have to get over this hump. Sending love & I wish that we could be friends because you're super cool and super chill!!
Why can't you just say what it is - a medical abortion? There is absolutely nothing wrong or shameful about any kind of abortion.
Thinking of you Julia, sending my love 💖 you are so in tune with your body I also had a very similar feeling when i was going through a missed miscarriage it was 12 weeks before we had a difinitive answer. The unknown and being worried about what could happen is so mentally draining. I am so glad you are speaking about this. My mum also suffered an ectopic pregnancy and was not believed she almost died due to medical negligence. I'm so glad you are seeking and getting the correct care 💖
Thank you for being honest with us and sharing your story. It’s refreshing to hear honesty and it’s so helpful to those who are going through the same thing to know they aren’t alone. Stay strong ❤
Julia, you’re such an amazing soul. Thank you for sharing your life with us
Praying for your safe recovery ❤
I love your videos ❤ The flowers that Nick got you are super cute! Also sending you ton of love and positive vibes 🙏🏻💕
I hope your treatment goes okay, Julia ❤ I used to think my pregnancies were ectopic. I had a mild pain in my side with my first pregnancy and my mind went straight to that.
I also have a very conscious fear of death. I suffer from health anxiety or at least had a huge episode a year ago. I’d find a video on that topic relatable.
you are so strong and capable julia! you got this. sending you and your sweet family lots of love ❤
Sending prayers your way. My aunt had this many many years ago. She got through it. God has you , and god is using you as a voice for this topic to help other women.
Thank you for sharing this and being so candid. The fear of dealth (especially after kids) resonates with me so hard and I would love it if you could talk about that a little (if you are open to sharing). I feel like that fear is hardly talked about and it feels so isolating and terrifying. Lol and I also went to therapy for it :)
Sending you ai much love and we are here with you through this journey. I had 2 losses before my first baby as well and at that time no one spoke about it.
Thanks for sharing. I hope that things will go okay with your body and this situation. And it's such a good reminder to listen to one's body and advocate for oneself.
Sending so much love your way, Julia ❤
I'm so sorry you're going though this. Stay strong!
Sending you a heap of love and hugs Julia. This isn’t easy, no matter how you look at it. Be kind to you. 💜
Your strength and vulnerability is so admirable. I’m thinking of you and hoping for the best possible outcome in this scary and sad situation. 💙
I'm so sorry ur going thru this! I had a pregnancy and the embryo stopped growing at 5 weeks 4 days. My levels continued to rise, which gave everyone around me false hope, but I knew in my heart what was to come. My doctor handled everything so poorly I finally canceled all appointments and stop going to that practice. At 10 weeks I finally passed the embryo naturally. I still mourn that baby but I know I'll meet him (my gut tells me it was a boy) someday in heaven. ❤ I pray u come thru this with peace. Honor is such a beautiful baby girl!! BTW mine was not ectopic but because the embryo was still in there my hormone levels continued to rise like a healthy viable fetus.
So sorry you’re going through this, Julia. Sending love to you and your family ❤
So many prayers and good thoughts. I have gone for this exact thing with our ectopic and the waiting and the “false” hope was so exhausting and painful. I just kept hoping we were the exception and that I wasn’t reading the signs right. But like you, so glad we caught it early.
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us! ❤ your strength is inspiring! Also, I just read First Lie Wins, it’s a really good mystery! I really enjoyed it! And the address book, a couple years ago I also put my contacts into one and I absolutely love it! So nice around holidays and stuff! Write them in pencil! So much better for when/if people move:)
Please watch the full video before leaving comments, people.
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While I agree with you on watching the whole video before commenting, I think the creator makes misleading/unspecified titles intentionally (to get views?). All it takes if to re-phrase the title and such comments will stop.
@@ewelina3479Respectfully, I think the title of this video is extremely accurate regarding how I feel and what is actually going on right now. I’m not worried about comments and don’t feel upset by them - positive or negative. I appreciate everyone thinking about me though and wanting to safeguard my feelings. ❤
@@itsblitzzz I think just adding "ectopic" to the title would make it extremely accurate... Nonetheless, this is still your channel and your video and you can do whatever you wish with it (just as we can state our opinions on it). hope my comment did not upset you in this already difficult time. I wish you get well soon and hope you recover from this traumatic experience.
@@ewelina3479 The pregnancy was not 100% confirmed as an ectopic when I filmed this and has still not been. I have noted this in the video (clarified in on-screen text towards the end of the video). There are many factors that are still uncertain currently. Unfortunately there are not always concise or clear answers in medicine especially with pregnancy. I am sharing what I believe is factual and if nothing else, I am simply sharing my experience.
It’s a bit of an obscure recommendation but one of my absolute favorite books is The Melancholy of Anatomy ! it’s so interesting and poetic and fantastic.
Thank you for sharing so much and being so open about your pregnancy and health, I can only imagine how much your honesty and openness is helping others. Sending lots of good energy you and your family’s way 🤍
I love how open you are being with us. I had a silent miscarriage a year ago and had no idea for 3 weeks that my body was acting like i was pregnant but reality was my twins had passed weeks prior. Was devastating for awhile. You are in my thoughts ❤❤❤
So so proud of you. I can see you've grown so much in your pregnancy journeys. You and I were both pregnant at the same time, due in the same month when you had Honor. I loved following along with you. I am currently unexpected pregnant about 13 weeks. I thank you for educating the world on these so so important topics that are rarely talked about. ❤
I’m so taken by how well you know your body. I realize this has come has a result of your losses and difficulties with your health, and I’m sorry for that.
Give yourself grace. You’re doing amazing raising Honor and these are just hormones affecting your thoughts. Much love
Thank you for sharing this tough stuff ❤ as a woman who has had 2 miscarriages, I think it’s really important to have these conversations because it really is so common and comforting to those who have had these experiences to have a community of others who have also experienced this
Julia, Sending prayers, love ❤️ and light sweetheart.
I can feel your fear through this video and wish I could hug you. So sorry you're going through this but, also glad that you caught this early.
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You are so brave for sharing this❤ much love and support from the Netherlands ❤
Sending love to you Julia, I had 6 miscarriages between my two children. After my first loss I was devastated and asked the universe to send me a sign I would have another baby and that night I had a dream I was singing happy birthday to a baby girl( my first living child is a boy)and singing her name. I held faith that I would meet that baby girl and my 8th pregnancy from the minute I was pregnant it just felt different to my 6 miscarriages that had been before it and now my sweet baby girl is about to turn 1. Hold faith ❤️❤️ my first miscarriage was also a pregnancy of unknown location so I was monitored really closely, but was not an ectopic pregnancy in the end, just took 3 months for my hcg to return to 0 though.
wow you rock! the resilience you showed is jaw dropping. you are an amazing mom and a very strong woman. sending you lots of love ❤
When I was pregnant with my oldest daughter, I was told the pregnancy might not happen & that she wasn't growing properly. Fast forward 26 years & she just graduated from Georgetown Law & is the oldest of 3 kids. Hoping all goes well, but trust your body!
omg julia i’m so glad you’ll be okay, this is awful. it also makes me unbearably angry and sad that women where i’m from and live (vast majority of the south) will be denied care for something as dangerous as this
THIS. Abortion is healthcare!!!
So sorry to hear this. Thanks for sharing a topic that’s got to be difficult to go through.The flowers omg how gorgeous! And the “homeless man” comment lmao. Good comedic relief.
sending you all my love, take care of yourself, I can only imagine how hard this must be ❤
I love you so much! Last July I had a blightend ovum. I didn’t know at first..I felt the pregnancy symptoms but wasn’t as severe as my first. on the US the gestational sac was empty…and my hcg levels were not rising. My heart broke and I broke but with my families support and lots of praying I did mentally recover. Miscarriage is so common but something that def should be talked about. Thank you for sharing your story! I am now 9 weeks pregnant and the anxiety is real but I just got a scan today and the baby is there and happy 💜 my prayers and positive thoughts go out to all the women who are going through this.. you are not alone and so loved! ❤
Thank you for sharing Julia 💗
Sending you good thoughts!! I had an ectopic pregnancy that resulted in a miscarriage and while that was a good thing because I didn't die or need any surgery, it was devastating because it was a very wanted pregnancy. A few months later I was able to conceive my daughter who is an energetic, curious, healthy, happy 2 year old. What you are going through is hard, so please reach out if you need support. Much love to you and your family.
Thank you for the wonderful video and I hope you enjoy your day and pregnancy
Prayers and hugs ❤
I’m so thankful that you are sharing your experience. I had an IUD and had an ectopic pregnancy that resulted in a ruptured tube. I had kidney stones before so I thought the pain I was experiencing was just another kidney stone and because of the IUD, I didn’t think I was pregnant. It was also Christmas Eve and I was so focused on powering through so I wouldn’t ruin my kids Christmas. Due to the rupture, I lost half of my blood into my abdomen and almost died. It was a complete nightmare and I’m just more mindful of what my body is trying to tell me.
i hope everything turns out okay ❤️❤️ your a great person and i wish the best for you ❤️
Thank you for sharing this Julia
The fear of ectopic pregnancy is another reason I’m scared to ever try to get pregnant - my mum had one and I’m afraid the same will happen to me. I’m already bad with medical stuff and it would take a lot to even go through a pregnancy so I cannot imagine this. I hope you can get treatment soon! Thanks for sharing
This was so real. Would love to hear you talk more about death. I am also in therapy for this and have intrusive thoughts around death.
So sorry that both you and Nick are going through this again. Sending love. ❤️
Please take care, Julia we love you so much! On another note, I love Honor too 😊💗
You’re the Vital Farms of RUclips, no BS. You deserve a big hug ♥️
Just want to reinforce for you what you said, Honor is ok. You are still a kick ass mama and being understandably slightly distracted is ok. I promise she hasn’t noticed. I greatly admire and appreciate you sharing what you’re going through for the benefit of other women. Sending you all the good vibes!
I had my miracle IVF baby a little before your daughter was born, and just had a 6 week miscarriage on New Years Day (started the new year off in an ER). I've never bled so much in my life, it was absolutely terrifying. I'm also super thankful for modern medicine, for some of us, it's our only hope in this department. I'm so sorry to hear you're dealing with such a difficult and stressful situation. Thank you for sending this message out, as hard as it might be to share at times. I wish you lots of love and healing.
I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2019 and was administered two chemo shots. I didn’t know how much I wanted to be a mom until that moment and conceived again in 2020. Now, my daughter will turn 3 in March. Thank you for sharing and I wish you the best!
Julia you’re so strong. everything is gunna be okay❤
thank you for your vulnerability.
Julia, sending you good wishes during this difficult experience ❤.
P.s. That flower arrangement is gorgeous 😍
Thank you so much for being so transparent with these type of topics! I recently suffered a miscarriage at 22 years old my baby was 8 weeks 5 days on January 1st…not how I thought I would start the new year off but things happen for a reason…maybe I wasn’t ready but it’s difficult I keep blaming myself for losing my first baby.
Hello, internet friend. I am thinking of you. Thank you for sharing your story. I waited until the end to comment (because I saw the other comments saying to wait), and now that I have watched the whole video, I am curious what symptoms you were experiencing that gave you such strong feelings that something was off? I am really proud of you for being so in tune with your body and advocating for yourself! I am just curious what made you so certain? I feel like that could be useful information ONLY if you feel like sharing it, of course. Sending you lots of love and healing vibes as you process this loss. ❤
I am very curious to understand this too.
Sending you so much love through this 💖 - Also death obsessed 🥴
Very curious how you knew its not a viable pregnancy from the beginning?
Separately - trying the vinegar rinse on berries!
Hun I had an ectopic pregnancy I didn’t have a rupture because it was caught in time. I knew something was wrong I had weird cramps and dizziness. It was scary. I got two methotrexate shots to terminate my pregnancy. It’s a process. Try to rest as much as possible my body was exhausted after the situation mostly because I had to keep getting blood drawn to make sure my HCG levels were dropping. You’ll be fine take your time with your emotions. Love you channel💕💕💕
Sending you all the love and support and prayers for you
Lots of love Julia ❤❤❤
Sending you healing vibes 🩵
This is so so difficult. About 9 months ago I suffered through a non viable blighted ovum pregnancy, which is when the embryo implants, a gestational sac forms, and your beta levels rise giving you pregnancy symptoms, but the embryo never develops. My OB made me wait out several agonizing weeks hoping to see some development which I knew would never happen because my hormone levels were already so high. Once they reach a certain level and you have no fetal pole or yolk sac you know you're out. So I had to wait and wait with this emptiness inside of me before having a d&c. I know some women go through multiple miscarriages before having success and I am endlessly impressed by that strength because my one non-viable pregnancy really traumatized me. Now I'm 23 weeks along with a (so far) successful pregnancy, but that fear never really leaves you. I'm sorry you're going through this and I wish you all the best things moving forward.
Love & hugs to you Julia and nick ❤