Rai: The stupid cat proposed to visit the graves all of a sudden. To be honest I thought it was stupid at first. I wondered if there was any meaning in doing such a thing. But, when I looked at Konoe, I thought trying to share wasn’t that bad after all. In his own way, Konoe was trying to somehow understand my feelings. And to believe in him, it wasn’t that bad either. Returning to Setsura after such a long time, I didn’t feel anything special. Even standing in front of the graves, I didn’t feel a thing. I thought I hadn’t changed since the time my parents were killed. But I was wrong. Now I have Konoe beside me. A straightforward and helplessly stupid cat. That’s why, from now on, there’s the possibility of something changing. Konoe: Listen. Are you sure you don’t want to stop in town? Rai: Yeah. Konoe: If it’s fine by you then it’s fine by me, but… Rai: For the time being, just follow me. Konoe: Okay. Konoe: I wonder if the visit at the graves was a failure. In front of the graves, Rai didn’t say a word, and after that I didn’t really ask him. However I think of Rai, staying by his side, sharing his pain, I wonder if after all I’m still not able to relieve him. I’d rather ask the back in front of my eyes. But the current me didn’t have the courage to ask. Rai: It’s here. Konoe: Eeh, it looks like a nice place. Rai: Yeah. Sit down. Konoe: O-okay. Rai: We’ll set out tomorrow. Konoe: Alright. Rai: Come here. Konoe: Eh? Rai: I’ll groom you. Konoe: Ehh?! Rai: You’re a strange cat. Konoe: Instead of words, what flowed into me were Rai’s warm feelings. He understood them well, my feelings. Rai’s fingers, arms, lips, everything connected to my skin with warmth. Rai: What? Konoe: …Something is… Rai: Mhph. Konoe: Rai’s big hands moved from my back to my waist. I could feel Rai’s faint breaths close to my ear. From the nape of my head to the cheek, something similar to a tickle made my hair stand on end. Konoe: …Rai… Konoe: There was obviously shyness as well, but Rai’s warm feelings stole even that. Rai: Don’t hold back. Nobody will come here. Konoe: …B-but… Rai: There aren’t many people who know of this place. Konoe: … Rai: So don’t worry. Konoe: …Rai… I can’t anymore… Rai: Just stay still. Now relax. Rai: …Konoe… Konoe: …Rai… Ahh… Rai… Konoe: I fell asleep like that. I abruptly opened my eyes, and Rai’s feelings, his memories came pouring into me. Konoe: Rai… Konoe: As if I was seeing a dream, Rai’s memories poured into me. This is… Rai when he was a kid. Wearing a triumphant smile again. The person he was intensely staring at was probably his mother. Small Rai felt nervous. His smile stiffened. His strict father was looking at him. Affection was not allowed. A small Rai. Although I knew I couldn’t intervene, I reached my hands to small Rai. I wanted to hug him. I softly touched the back of the Rai I could touch in reality. I heard a pained groan. Konoe: It’s alright. Konoe: Rai’s pain is not something I can relieve him from so easily. And neither is Leaks’ darkness still dwelling inside of me… But, even so, there’s no need to face it alone. We won’t probably be able to understand everything of each other. Or to share everything. But at times like this, we have the possibility to free ourselves from the darkness. That’s why, I’m sure we aren’t wrong. If I stay with Rai, it’ll be okay. In this world, there are many things other than darkness. Rai thought me this with his heart. Isn’t that right, Rai? Rai: … Konoe: Cuddling together like this gives me relief more than anything else. Filling my heart with that feeling, I synchronized my breath with Rai’s and closed my eyes. Tomorrow too, somewhere, be it town or forest, we’ll sleep. Translation by Camicarlot
Rai: The stupid cat proposed to visit the graves all of a sudden.
To be honest I thought it was stupid at first. I wondered if there was
any meaning in doing such a thing. But, when I looked at Konoe, I
thought trying to share wasn’t that bad after all. In his own way, Konoe
was trying to somehow understand my feelings. And to believe in him, it
wasn’t that bad either.
Returning to Setsura after such a
long time, I didn’t feel anything special. Even standing in front of
the graves, I didn’t feel a thing. I thought I hadn’t changed since the
time my parents were killed. But I was wrong. Now I have Konoe beside
me. A straightforward and helplessly stupid cat. That’s why, from now
on, there’s the possibility of something changing.
Konoe: Listen. Are you sure you don’t want to stop in town?
Rai: Yeah.
Konoe: If it’s fine by you then it’s fine by me, but…
Rai: For the time being, just follow me.
Konoe: Okay.
Konoe:
I wonder if the visit at the graves was a failure. In front of the
graves, Rai didn’t say a word, and after that I didn’t really ask him.
However I think of Rai, staying by his side, sharing his pain, I wonder
if after all I’m still not able to relieve him. I’d rather ask the back
in front of my eyes. But the current me didn’t have the courage to ask.
Rai: It’s here.
Konoe: Eeh, it looks like a nice place.
Rai: Yeah. Sit down.
Konoe: O-okay.
Rai: We’ll set out tomorrow.
Konoe: Alright.
Rai: Come here.
Konoe: Eh?
Rai: I’ll groom you.
Konoe: Ehh?!
Rai: You’re a strange cat.
Konoe: Instead
of words, what flowed into me were Rai’s warm feelings. He understood
them well, my feelings. Rai’s fingers, arms, lips, everything connected
to my skin with warmth.
Rai: What?
Konoe: …Something is…
Rai: Mhph.
Konoe: Rai’s
big hands moved from my back to my waist. I could feel Rai’s faint
breaths close to my ear. From the nape of my head to the cheek,
something similar to a tickle made my hair stand on end.
Konoe: …Rai…
Konoe: There was obviously shyness as well, but Rai’s warm feelings stole even that.
Rai: Don’t hold back. Nobody will come here.
Konoe: …B-but…
Rai: There aren’t many people who know of this place.
Konoe: …
Rai: So don’t worry.
Konoe: …Rai… I can’t anymore…
Rai: Just stay still. Now relax.
Rai: …Konoe…
Konoe: …Rai… Ahh… Rai…
Konoe: I fell asleep like that. I abruptly opened my eyes, and Rai’s feelings, his memories came pouring into me.
Konoe: Rai…
Konoe: As
if I was seeing a dream, Rai’s memories poured into me. This is… Rai
when he was a kid. Wearing a triumphant smile again. The person he was
intensely staring at was probably his mother. Small Rai felt nervous.
His smile stiffened. His strict father was looking at him. Affection was
not allowed. A small Rai. Although I knew I couldn’t intervene, I
reached my hands to small Rai. I wanted to hug him. I softly touched the
back of the Rai I could touch in reality. I heard a pained groan.
Konoe: It’s alright.
Konoe: Rai’s
pain is not something I can relieve him from so easily. And neither is
Leaks’ darkness still dwelling inside of me… But, even so, there’s no
need to face it alone. We won’t probably be able to understand
everything of each other. Or to share everything. But at times like
this, we have the possibility to free ourselves from the darkness.
That’s why, I’m sure we aren’t wrong. If I stay with Rai, it’ll be okay.
In this world, there are many things other than darkness. Rai thought
me this with his heart. Isn’t that right, Rai?
Rai: …
Konoe: Cuddling
together like this gives me relief more than anything else. Filling my
heart with that feeling, I synchronized my breath with Rai’s and closed
my eyes. Tomorrow too, somewhere, be it town or forest, we’ll sleep.
Translation by Camicarlot