why i am alive 🪽
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- Опубликовано: 20 сен 2024
- I hope you enjoyed my original single "why i am alive"
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I wrote this song back in 2018 and I was feeling extremely depressed. I never thought Id make it past 25. But here I am now 25 years old and finally happy. Thank you for those who stood by my side during my worst and I hope this can give hope to those who struggled with the same thing as me.
I love you
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Lyrics:
Sometimes i don’t want to try
I can’t seem to smile i can’t seem to cry
What is the point when I don't want to open my eyes
Sorry for feeling this way
A burden i know but what else can i say
I’d rather you leave me you know that you don’t have to stay
I want to give up
Let go of these chains
Please leave me in peace
And end this pain
But i cannot be
So selfish and flee
Because
I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you
I’ve had enough
I want to be done
The hurt in my heart
Cannot be healed
But i have to try
I can't say goodbye
Because
I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you
Maybe one day i'll love me too
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Credits:
Song by @OR3Omusic
Art by @SugarCub
Piano by @hyosanggg
Mixing/Mastering by @PlexsyMusic @OR3Omusic
Tuning by @tarastmichel @OR3Omusic
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”even if my pains gone, it only passes to you“ hits so hard. This thought is the reason I have been around through my darkest days
Well I hope your doing better now❤️
Same... But, she's my ex now. I'm still clinging to that hope we get back together.
Sometimes I think that it's toxic to cling to it, obsessed about her. but, better toxic than six feet under. Besides, I don't talk or bother anyone about it... I wish I had people to talk to
" I may hate myself but I still love you"
it is very worrying how this hits me so hard and that it's so relatable to me
Same
The ending part “maybe one day, I’ll love me too” also got me. The constant battle with self-loathing is tiresome.
Fr
I found mah people, omg...
u ok???
The mentality to suffer through every hurt and pain because you don't want to hurt the people you care about. The times you wish the world would just forget your existence so you could just die in peace. In the end, you may just find your own reason to stay.
This is such a relatable song.
How is this comment this relatable...
mhm... right now all I want is for people to forget about me
Yeah i find it relatable too, but i was always told SH and Su*c*de was the cowards way put so that stopped me from doing that
Why is comment so relatable
"I had enough, I want to be dead." I cant even explain how much I relate to that *one* line.
Sam-
i used to relate to that line
i feel your pain
(i related to it when this song was not on youtube)
hope you feel better
Same with me, but also 'Maybe one day I'll love me too'
Facts
"I may hate myself but I still love you." Is such a hard line omfg..
I hope things are now better for you
At 1:10
Agreed😭💔
My best friend just recently committed suicide and this is literally has me crying on the floor of my bedroom, I really appreciate people talk about this subjects, and also as a person who attempted it hurts to feel this way, but this song just makes me feel seen and sad 😢
Im really sorry about that dude. I have a suicidal friend and I know well how that feels. hope everything will be okay for you
I'm so sorry; I sincerely hope you find the strength to live on a long time, both in their honor and so that you can find happiness.
I’m so sorry
may they rest in peace.
i'm really sorry to hear about that..
may they rest in peace, and i wish the best for you and others affected by the passing.
Every time I see or3o’s stuff, i realize how much talent it takes to pull this off, with not only amazing songs and vocals, but also stunning visuals and gorgeous art that must’ve taken forever to make. This is amazing
frr
I know there is one such girl channel in Russia Miatriss radio bani
Both MiatriSs and OR3O are very talented and do similar music styles
" i may hate myself but i still love you "
that hits hard so badly, especially since thats super relatable.
extremely offtopic but i love amy pfp spotted!!1
I just wanted.
To thank you for all of your videos and songs that helped me get through some tough times like when my grandfather treated me terribly just because of my my preference for men instead of women he used to beat me, he made me not want to live a lot and I was thinking of ending myself but then I watch. Some of your animations and your songs and they help me a lot. Thank you so much.
o damn
I hope you get better ml ❤
Do not be sad when he hits you or treats you in a way that you do not like or do not accept. I do not support at all that you prefer the same gender as this. This goes against human nature. He just wants to protect you from mistakes. Yes, it is a wrong way, but you do not know the punishment for that. You still do not realize things. Do not be sad about the way he was treated. Learn the significance of it. I hope you are well, but if you are not convinced, look for Lot’s people and what happened to them. I think you do not know about them. I hope you stay away from mistakes and that your grandfather treats you in a better way. Try to give him a gift or talk to him about why he hates that and listen to him. I hope that you I had some time with my grandfather, but he died. I'm sorry for all this talk. I wish you happiness
@@ملاك.9 that is an absolutely insane mindset, to treat the person who literally beats you, just cuz they dont like who you like u being attracted to some ppl more than others, n then you want to treat them with even greater respect, understanding and tolerance more so than theyd ever even give the slightest thought to show u.
Anyone who doesnt respect you, doesnt try to understand, doesnt want to understand and fucking physically and/or psychologically abuse u, do NOT deserve even the slightest sliver of sympathy, compassion, understanding or tolerance. Because those people never cared to afford u those, and should never be given anything else other than what they show u, in turn.
In this world, there comes a point, when u have to realise infinite kindness, understanding n tolerance towards those who are the direct opposite of that, does not work. They wont hesitate to use and abuse that, to walk all over u n shit on ur face, to bury u alive for the sake of conformity just cuz they dont like how u live ur own life.
First of all, congratulations on making it to 25, definitely a milestone! Happy birthday!! May all your wishes come true!!
What a powerful, emotional, and very beautiful song/single you’ve shared with us. Thank you. 💙
WAIT IT’S (I’m assuming OR3O is a female here, idk.) HER BD?
@@I.Am-the_silliest Yes, it is!!
It's around 3 AM by the time I'm typing this comment, and my tears are just flowing at how beautiful this song is. I thought of leaving this world years before, but hearing your singing brought me back to the reason why I stopped each time. Thank you and your wonderful team for making this, it'll be my favorite song for a while
"i don't understand what you all see in me"
this was a weird line for my mind to point out but...
this is a message for anyone dealing with this, or anyone that's ever been in this place
"everyone is their own worst critic", right? i mean, i hardly ever know what i'm doing with my life, but i still try to do something with it
you are a beautiful human being in every sense of the word
just because you don't see how beautiful you are doesn't mean it's not true
and another thing: if you feel like a burden, you're probably not
the people around you are helping you because they care about you
as someone who genuinely enjoys helping other people, especially when they're in hard places like this, it's not a burden
If u can’t live for yourself, live for those who love you until you learn how
It’ll keep u going😁❤️
This was exact thing right here is the only reason I live
Thanks for the suggestion, it could be very helpful for me. Especially if I actually had someone who loved me, or cared about me, or at least tolerated me. But I don't. So nevermind, I take it back. Crappy suggestion.
@@No1special. That just means you’re on a more difficult path where you’ve gotta learn to love yourself first. I never said it was easy. But hey, at the very least, I’ll be supporting you😁
Even if I’m just a stranger in the internet🙃
@@justadog551 thx... and I mean it.
Your voice is so powerful
Too good
very surprising to find you here and also very surprising that theres no reactions at all
"Why am I alive"
thats a question I ask myself everyday!
Honestly i though that was what the title was originaly, then after reading it again a couple of times i realised it was not what it said
"But i cannot be
So selfish and flee
Because
I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you"
...damn.
In my darkest period a few years ago, the thing that kept me here was the determination that I don't want to turn my wife into a widow, or my son fatherless. Take it from this old man (literally old enough to be your grandfather) : well said, well done. Keep up the good work.
tw: su*cide
i’ve been going through a really rough time recently, and having come very very close to committing su*cide last Monday. I’ve been holding back on listening to this song, though it’s always on my mind. Today, about a week after I almost committed su*cide, I decided to finally listen to it.
and, I resonate with it so much I started crying.
Thank you, OR30.
Tough times come and go just like the happy ones. I REALLY hope things get better for you. Because I know that feeling, I know how much it sucks and hurts you but just try to hold on. You're not alone 💛
@@TIME-fe6ne thank you
i’m not good at comforting people, but just know, ily. please don’t give up, although it may not seem like it, you have so much things in store for the future, and it’s worth living, even through the pain and rainy days.
@@メプチューン thank you
Damn it.
"I may hate myself but I still love you" Hits harder when your bestfriend was the reason you didn't end it all. Max, if you read this, I love you.
i love you a lot too
*reads description* congratulations you made it to 25 years old and I hope you’re doing better :)
What a coincidence. I was feeling really depressed tonight.
I still am but with music now
Depressed with a soundtrack. (Hope ur feeling better rn)
same...
I always am these days
To true
Fr
I’m so sorry you felt that way. It sucks because I feel that way now but this helps.
Stay in there, man 👍🏾
@@DanTheMan66312 I will.
Hope things get better for you, stay safe
@@Iitzyitzythanks! I will!
The title scared me
lol
Nah same tho
Same honestly same
L bozo
@@jurajcar6098bruh
I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS!! I LOVE HOW EVERYONE IN THE PREMIERE WAS SPAMMING OMORI LMAO SERIOUSLY AMAZING I HOPE WHATEVER YOUR GOING THROUGH IF YOU ARE YOU'LL BE OKAY, WERE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. :[ 💞💞💞
Way too relatable.
I've gone over this thought in my head at night, and it's currently the reason I'm typing this very comment.
I was pretty close to giving up recently.
Thank you, Or3o, for reminding me that when I'm gone, the one I love would hurt worse than I do now.
Even if it hurts, there are people in my life counting on me. I don't wanna let them down.
The dreadful chains holding you down and keeping you alive, may also be the hopeful string that they hold onto so that maybe when things get windy, you won't float away from them.
I hope this comment helps someone going through the same thing.
it helped me, i'm going through something similar, and holding onto everything i can find because right now i don't know what else to do. I've received so much hate recently and have been told "i'm just a copy of other people" and "i don't have a personality of my own". When that happened, i felt like giving up, but then i remembered all the people that love me and all my unfinished projects
Sorry for the whole reply tho, i got emotional❤🩹
I understand the pain it causes you to hurt yourself but you must stay strong
I’m still alive trying to find my purpose and not having a mental breakdown and if you read this…
Thank you
What a beautiful song 😢🥺. I know this isn't the first time you've heard this, and it sure as heck won't be the last, but you are an extremely talented and wonderful person. ❤
I am shedding tears, because this is so relatable to me. Especially that description of you saying you never saw yourself living past 25. I’m 16 and I can’t see myself live past 20. This song has such a sad emotion to it but with a hopeful ending.
Congratulations on being 25 and going forward!!
days before my birthday i thought i wouldn't make it past 14, and that hit hard...
“If you can’t live for yourself, live for me”. A quote made by the most important person in my life.
This song with the music video reminds me of those animatics many people did in 2017-2020, so glad I can live those times right now, and also the context of the animatic is thought provoking!! 😮🤯😮🤯
I'm happy that you managed to get over that period in your life and end up somewhere safer and happier. Right now I'm going through a very difficult time in my life too, and this song really resonated with me. I find myself making jokes about my own demise and thinking about self mutilation and injury. My inability to do things has made me feel like a burden that only weighs those around me down, and I apologize over and over despite the reassurance of those around me. I'm very lucky to have loving parents and some good and understanding friends. While I'm still on the slow road to recovery and feeling like trash right now, I hope that I too will be able to feel normal and happy soon
1:11 “I mayyy~ hatee myselfff~~”
That bit hits hard😭💔
I felt a load of tears about to flow out of my eyes, but I held it in so no one would see. I relate to so much of this, I love this song so much. Chills for every lyrics crawled up and down my spine.
“I may hate myself but I still love you” hits so hard I’m happy you’re in a better place
This genuinely made me tear up. The raw emotions that can be felt in this are so real, and it takes a lot of courage and strength to present them. I’m so glad that you’ve found something that has made you happy and has let you push past this and become a stronger person because of it. Thinking of the musical community without you would be an entirely different place, and you’ve only changed it for the better. Thank you for everything you’ve done for your audience and the people around you.
Being the sister of someone with depression, this hit hard. I love my sister so much, and I hate to see her hurting.
Thank you for this song. You have no idea how much this is saving me right now.
"Even if my pains gone, It'll only pass on back to you" hits so hard. Thank you thank you thank you thank you so much.
I've been a huge fan of you for 4 years, and I just feel like I need to thank you.
For making these songs that helped me get past through school and literally almost everything I have ever faced. Whenever I had to study I'd always listen to your music to relax, and even when I wanted to quit and end it all. Thank you so much for making me find a part of myself.
i feel so bad for you, I also feel the same,but remember always
we love u
I was feeling so depressed today and I just can do anything or even get out of bed, this song defines very well what I feel sometimes
It's so hard deal with myself but I don't want to make my loved ones sad... So I gonna keep going
I'm the type of person that doesn't cry for anything sad like movies or really sad videos but this song almost made me cry this is a really good song and your voice is beautiful ❤
I don't know If I'm going crazy and If It's just me, but I felt the emotion. I loved this song so much 🤧
Wtf OR3O 😭 just finished crying after hearing this for the first time, been going through one of my worst depression spikes and hearing this just really opens your eyes that people do care about you. If you take your own life when life gets hard, it’ll only get harder for the people around you. An incredibly powerful song that can and will make me cry every-time. Amazing work once again , Thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤
I don't think I've ever been able to fully relate to a song ever.
Usually people I know talk about how they can relate to lyrics, I can never do that. I just listen to songs if they're catchy.
But this one I was able to relate to. Every single line of it.
"i may hate myself but i still love you"
has to be the most relatable line i have heard from any songs i listen to now
The 1:28 is so cute It reminded me of my bestie but School is about to end I will miss you bestie 😢
this.. this hit so hard . the hardest part is pretending that your okay arund people you love. feeling that your just wearing a mask. feeling that if you share what's hurting you it will hurt them too. and it dosn't seem like there's a way ut of it.. and.and its not fair we should hav't to feel this pain we shouldn't have to feel so so fucking alone thank you for making this
Definitely.. but you know if you take the plunge.. they may follow, meaning as the song says.. you pass your pain to them. .. I’m uh actually quite close myself recently, as my friends get more and more distant and busy.. I feel lost and.. confused. I’m glad I found a way to show people thru this song.. how I truly feel
this is so powerful. 2:48 was *really* powerful. ❤
I hope u are doing alr now OR3O ❤️
" I may hate myself but I still love you"
what a beautiful night to suffer ego death
this is absolutely breathtaking, i've rewatched this three times and it's literally 3am 😭❤️🩹
congrats on making it to 25 🎉 we are so so proud of you, we're so glad you finally feel better
I first heard this at MomoCon, can't deny I started crying while listening. It matched heavily into what I was going through. I may still not love myself, but this song helps me think that one day I will. Thank you Or3o, thanks for a lovely song and being an anchor ❤❤
1:46 me when im realizing my family loves me "so much".
2:11 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
THOSE VOCAL CORDS ARE AMAZING WOW
This is such a beautiful song, and it’s very powerful when even your favorite creators to share similar experiences we might have been through as fans. Thank for for being so strong and vulnerable.
ya'll know... OR3O made that date specific... that's her birthday.
.. 0:18.. I love how... clips... Of or30... It attracts attention and how...it has a great meaning
I was dealing with depression in 2018, around the same time that OR3O wrote this song. Since then, I have made new friendships which have made me much happier. Several of my friends convinced me to go to Anime Expo 2024, and after standing and walking for a bit, I needed to sit. So I decided to sit at the community stage, where OR3O was performing. Though I had never heard of her before Anime Expo, I enjoyed watching OR3O perform and this was my favorite of the songs I saw her perform as it resonated with me.
This is a cute testimony of self improvement, how even the most darkest void could be away with the right guide... I hope that those two never meet the most cruel of the angels.
I love these piece of your heart, OR3O, really breathtaking
“maybe i’ll learn tolove myself…too” GAWD DAMN THAT HITS HARD-
W pfp🤩🤩🤩
"Fate, Luck, and Sh*t happens." May as well be the story of everyone's life, and possibly attempted un-life. May all who listen be reminded that it's okay to not know what may come or to be prepared for it, but please keep moving forward and enjoy even those small moments with others.
this song is a masterpiece, the high notes, the story, the animation is all magnificent beautiful story and song!
Thank you, for this gift. Its been longer than I can remember since I cried properly (usually only cry in my sleep), so it feels good to get some relief from the constant tension that comes with having C-PTSD bad enough that I've sometimes had to comfort other people after talking about it. I also joked with a caregiver some weeks ago about my support network, where the punchline was "and maybe one day i'll love me too," so some of the lyrics here threw me for a loop. The voice and art work well together, the composition is good in general, its a strong piece, probably will be listening to this one for decades to come.
i dont know why but...this...feels like me...yet...this helps...it helps me feel...good? sad? understood? idk but...its somthing beautiful
I never thought I’d hear a song that perfectly encapsulated the reason I’m alive. I know that if I didn’t have the people I have, my life would’ve ended several years ago.
“I may hate myself but I still love you. Even if my pain’s gone, it’d only pass on back to you.”
That line is beautifully painful. Thank you for this song, OR3O. It feels like someone finally understands it 😭💕
This song made me cry so much, it’s so beautifully written, and the words hit me in such a way. I hope your okay now, and never feel like a burden, your such a beautiful person oreo.
The omori vibes at this line >>>>>> 0:23
actual chills. the entire song. this type of music isnt even my style of music and i dont even enjoy this type of music but this gave me so many chills
Morning begins not with a cup of coffee, but with hearing the song Or3o :D
Hey or3o, im glad you’re better now because i don’t know what i’d do if i didn’t listen to your music. When this first came out i didn’t bother listening to it but now it’s my favourite song because i (partially?) relate to it. All of these lyrics hit hard and you’re voice is really amazing.
This actually hits me so hard.
I sometimes feel these things and im guessing everyone does, this song speaks volumes.
Instrumental was enough to distract me from realising it was just the instrumental. This is just more sadness and perfection
i love this song. right now I am going through a depressing time in my life and many times I think about ending everything. but I remember my loved ones and the damage it will do to them if I do that. i love the phrase ''I may hate myself but I still love you'' so much, it represents so many things for me.. I hope you are better now!! wish you all the best
😭😭Holy fucҟ, I'm shallow af when it comes to finding deep emotional content, but this is the harshest and most brutal shlt Ive come across in a long while. I can handle good ol g୦re and depraved material, but this just gives so much goosebumps. Great, incredble video.
I always look towards the pregame about getting it right the first time, but my connections are just loose ends I can't leave. Procrastination and "perfectionism" strike again!
This is one of the most beautiful songs I have ever listened to. As someone who deals with suicidal urges and self harm, this amazingly illustrates what it's like to have someone keeping you alive. OR3O, thank you so much for perfectly describing what millions of people go through every year. Never stop doing what you love, and have a happy birthday.
I know how it feels to feel like no one loves you to feel like you're meaningless but if you look around you will always find someone who loves you
The voice cracks at the end hit hard- hell this whole song has. You put so much effort into your music and your voice is beautiful. I'm glad your doing better, and I feel like this song will help people 🫀🫂
This song is very painful to listen to, in a very, very beautiful way. It hits very close to home as someone whose only motivation to keep going is the love of my friends and family. I’m tearing up as I type this, and I know this comment will probably never be seen, but thank you so so very much for sharing this, and for as little as the word of some random person on the internet is worth, I’m glad you’re still here.
This song was awesome to help with! I loved the sound of it ever since you first showed it and it came out so wonderfully! I'm glad I got to help with this one 💪😎💪💙
Before listening to this song, I read the title as: Why am I alive? But after the first listen, I realized the title was actually Why I am alive. I thought the song was going to be about doubting one's self and not being able to find a reason to live but, the song was actually about realizing the reason to be alive. It's a beautiful song full of great message. And to everyone who's struggling with their mental health, you matter and you're not alone!
This was amazing. It was pretty relatable(and to be honest the title scared me a bit) and made me cry. Amazing work 0r30!
If anyone's having a hard time just know there are people who care for you and are rooting for you! Have a great night/day/afternoon yall deserve it!
This made me cry I related to this in some ways, and it hit me hard, I’ve only cried twice over a video and I’ve seen plenty, but what I’m trying to say is this is a beautiful song and art
The backstory behind this is extremely sad and I’m so glad you’re still here today and that you were brave enough to believe things would get better. ❤️🩹
This really touched my soul. The lyrics embody a lot of my thoughts recently. I’m glad you’re still here, and I hope I can find the same strength and push through. ❤
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Ur first? Then I'm 4th
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Aggh. I'm crying rn help .-. Those vocals are insane :0 and the Lyrics are so relateable and AGGH i dont know i just really love this song 🥰😭 And the Animatiionnn 😭🥰
I always support you.OR3O🫂
Sameees❤
amazing as always💖
"I may hate myself but I still love you" hits so hard that I started tearing up a little bit
im sobbing. so much. I need an oreo cookie bro.
i was also in a depressive state in 2018 (well i mean it was longer than just 2018) but funnily enough that year you made your Bongo Cat song and i would use it to cheer me up before school 🫶
The video: "Please don't watch if you are mentally of physically weak."
Me in my mind: or do, it's an inscription, not a person
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Oh, my Gosh! I love this song!!!!!
AAAAA THIS MADE ME CRYY-
AMAZING SONG OR3OOO ❤❤
I started bawling my eyes out and I can't stop. Thank you or3o for this masterpiece
stayed up until 2AM for this, no regrets.
serves me right for watching it while I'm mentally weak, but goddamn that hit so hard. I try not to cry, but I am now crying buckets. Hope everythings okay for all of you guys
I tried to cut off my friends because im an asshole, but it pained me so much because of how sad they seemed when i didnt respond and this song literally is how i feel
Why is this song so relatable? Like, it hurts so much that I wanna end it, but I can’t because I care about my friends and family so much. I don’t want them to be sad. That’s the thought that keeps me going.
1:00 oh gosh man uhg, im feeling things i dont wanna feel
Wow. Just wow. Or3o you're amazing. I love the music you make. And I love how much it makes me feel.
Does someone know where I can find the piano sheet :0? I would really love to learn this song
My same exact thought!
I will sing along with you, i need a male cover of this anyways ❤
@@MR.0R30 yeahh we need a male cover 😭 Please let me know if you find the piano sheet !!
Thank you for making this song! It has reminded me of the reason so many decisions have led to me still being here today.