why i am alive 🪽
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- Опубликовано: 17 май 2024
- I hope you enjoyed my original single "why i am alive"
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I wrote this song back in 2018 and I was feeling extremely depressed. I never thought Id make it past 25. But here I am now 25 years old and finally happy. Thank you for those who stood by my side during my worst and I hope this can give hope to those who struggled with the same thing as me.
I love you
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Lyrics:
Sometimes i don’t want to try
I can’t seem to smile i can’t seem to cry
What is the point when I don't want to open my eyes
Sorry for feeling this way
A burden i know but what else can i say
I’d rather you leave me you know that you don’t have to stay
I want to give up
Let go of these chains
Please leave me in peace
And end this pain
But i cannot be
So selfish and flee
Because
I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you
I’ve had enough
I want to be done
The hurt in my heart
Cannot be healed
But i have to try
I can't say goodbye
Because
I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you
Maybe one day i'll love me too
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Credits:
Song by @OR3Omusic
Art by @SugarCub
Piano by @hyosanggg
Mixing/Mastering by @PlexsyMusic @OR3Omusic
Tuning by @tarastmichel @OR3Omusic
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”even if my pains gone, it only passes to you“ hits so hard. This thought is the reason I have been around through my darkest days
Well I hope your doing better now❤️
Same... But, she's my ex now. I'm still clinging to that hope we get back together.
Sometimes I think that it's toxic to cling to it, obsessed about her. but, better toxic than six feet under. Besides, I don't talk or bother anyone about it... I wish I had people to talk to
" I may hate myself but I still love you"
it is very worrying how this hits me so hard and that it's so relatable to me
Same
The ending part “maybe one day, I’ll love me too” also got me. The constant battle with self-loathing is tiresome.
Fr
I found mah people, omg...
u ok???
The mentality to suffer through every hurt and pain because you don't want to hurt the people you care about. The times you wish the world would just forget your existence so you could just die in peace. In the end, you may just find your own reason to stay.
This is such a relatable song.
How is this comment this relatable...
mhm... right now all I want is for people to forget about me
Yeah i find it relatable too, but i was always told SH and Su*c*de was the cowards way put so that stopped me from doing that
Why is comment so relatable
My best friend just recently committed suicide and this is literally has me crying on the floor of my bedroom, I really appreciate people talk about this subjects, and also as a person who attempted it hurts to feel this way, but this song just makes me feel seen and sad 😢
Im really sorry about that dude. I have a suicidal friend and I know well how that feels. hope everything will be okay for you
I'm so sorry; I sincerely hope you find the strength to live on a long time, both in their honor and so that you can find happiness.
I’m so sorry
may they rest in peace.
I'm sorry for what happend. I wish you well and everything good
"I may hate myself but I still love you." Is such a hard line omfg..
I hope things are now better for you
At 1:10
I just wanted.
To thank you for all of your videos and songs that helped me get through some tough times like when my grandfather treated me terribly just because of my my preference for men instead of women he used to beat me, he made me not want to live a lot and I was thinking of ending myself but then I watch. Some of your animations and your songs and they help me a lot. Thank you so much.
o damn
I hope you get better ml ❤
Do not be sad when he hits you or treats you in a way that you do not like or do not accept. I do not support at all that you prefer the same gender as this. This goes against human nature. He just wants to protect you from mistakes. Yes, it is a wrong way, but you do not know the punishment for that. You still do not realize things. Do not be sad about the way he was treated. Learn the significance of it. I hope you are well, but if you are not convinced, look for Lot’s people and what happened to them. I think you do not know about them. I hope you stay away from mistakes and that your grandfather treats you in a better way. Try to give him a gift or talk to him about why he hates that and listen to him. I hope that you I had some time with my grandfather, but he died. I'm sorry for all this talk. I wish you happiness
Every time I see or3o’s stuff, i realize how much talent it takes to pull this off, with not only amazing songs and vocals, but also stunning visuals and gorgeous art that must’ve taken forever to make. This is amazing
frr
I know there is one such girl channel in Russia Miatriss radio bani
Both MiatriSs and OR3O are very talented and do similar music styles
"I had enough, I want to be dead." I cant even explain how much I relate to that *one* line.
I hope you get better with whatever situation you are passing true. I wish good days and everything good to you. Just on the music, there will be peaple who care about you!
Sam-
i used to relate to that line
i feel your pain
(i related to it when this song was not on youtube)
" i may hate myself but i still love you "
that hits hard so badly, especially since thats super relatable.
"I may hate myself but I still love you."
In all honesty, I do have a lot of things I did and actions I took that I regret, thinking there may be nothing for me later on.
However, at some point Ive broken out of my trance of over dependence on friends for happiness, because my vents did "pass on back to them."
Now Im working on myself, to become a better person not just for my friends, but for myself.
"Maybe one day, I'll love me too."
It's around 3 AM by the time I'm typing this comment, and my tears are just flowing at how beautiful this song is. I thought of leaving this world years before, but hearing your singing brought me back to the reason why I stopped each time. Thank you and your wonderful team for making this, it'll be my favorite song for a while
First of all, congratulations on making it to 25, definitely a milestone! Happy birthday!! May all your wishes come true!!
What a powerful, emotional, and very beautiful song/single you’ve shared with us. Thank you. 💙
WAIT IT’S (I’m assuming OR3O is a female here, idk.) HER BD?
@@The-US-of-A Yes, it is!!
What a coincidence. I was feeling really depressed tonight.
I still am but with music now
Depressed with a soundtrack. (Hope ur feeling better rn)
same...
I always am these days
To true
Fr
"Why am I alive"
thats a question I ask myself everyday!
Honestly i though that was what the title was originaly, then after reading it again a couple of times i realised it was not what it said
I’m so sorry you felt that way. It sucks because I feel that way now but this helps.
Stay in there, man 👍🏾
@@DanTheMan66312 I will.
Hope things get better for you, stay safe
@@Iitzyitzythanks! I will!
The title scared me
lol
Nah same tho
Same honestly same
L bozo
@@jurajcar6098bruh
If u can’t live for yourself, live for those who love you until you learn how
It’ll keep u going😁❤️
This was exact thing right here is the only reason I live
Thanks for the suggestion, it could be very helpful for me. Especially if I actually had someone who loved me, or cared about me, or at least tolerated me. But I don't. So nevermind, I take it back. Crappy suggestion.
@@No1special. That just means you’re on a more difficult path where you’ve gotta learn to love yourself first. I never said it was easy. But hey, at the very least, I’ll be supporting you😁
Even if I’m just a stranger in the internet🙃
@@justadog551 thx... and I mean it.
Your voice is so powerful
Too good
This song with the music video reminds me of those animatics many people did in 2017-2020, so glad I can live those times right now, and also the context of the animatic is thought provoking!! 😮🤯😮🤯
*reads description* congratulations you made it to 25 years old and I hope you’re doing better :)
Way too relatable.
I've gone over this thought in my head at night, and it's currently the reason I'm typing this very comment.
I was pretty close to giving up recently.
Thank you, Or3o, for reminding me that when I'm gone, the one I love would hurt worse than I do now.
Even if it hurts, there are people in my life counting on me. I don't wanna let them down.
The dreadful chains holding you down and keeping you alive, may also be the hopeful string that they hold onto so that maybe when things get windy, you won't float away from them.
I hope this comment helps someone going through the same thing.
What a beautiful song 😢🥺. I know this isn't the first time you've heard this, and it sure as heck won't be the last, but you are an extremely talented and wonderful person. ❤
I'm happy that you managed to get over that period in your life and end up somewhere safer and happier. Right now I'm going through a very difficult time in my life too, and this song really resonated with me. I find myself making jokes about my own demise and thinking about self mutilation and injury. My inability to do things has made me feel like a burden that only weighs those around me down, and I apologize over and over despite the reassurance of those around me. I'm very lucky to have loving parents and some good and understanding friends. While I'm still on the slow road to recovery and feeling like trash right now, I hope that I too will be able to feel normal and happy soon
“I may hate myself but I still love you” hits so hard I’m happy you’re in a better place
i feel so bad for you, I also feel the same,but remember always
we love u
"i don't understand what you all see in me"
this was a weird line for my mind to point out but...
this is a message for anyone dealing with this, or anyone that's ever been in this place
"everyone is their own worst critic", right? i mean, i hardly ever know what i'm doing with my life, but i still try to do something with it
you are a beautiful human being in every sense of the word
just because you don't see how beautiful you are doesn't mean it's not true
and another thing: if you feel like a burden, you're probably not
the people around you are helping you because they care about you
as someone who genuinely enjoys helping other people, especially when they're in hard places like this, it's not a burden
I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS!! I LOVE HOW EVERYONE IN THE PREMIERE WAS SPAMMING OMORI LMAO SERIOUSLY AMAZING I HOPE WHATEVER YOUR GOING THROUGH IF YOU ARE YOU'LL BE OKAY, WERE ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU. :[ 💞💞💞
I've been a huge fan of you for 4 years, and I just feel like I need to thank you.
For making these songs that helped me get past through school and literally almost everything I have ever faced. Whenever I had to study I'd always listen to your music to relax, and even when I wanted to quit and end it all. Thank you so much for making me find a part of myself.
I am shedding tears, because this is so relatable to me. Especially that description of you saying you never saw yourself living past 25. I’m 16 and I can’t see myself live past 20. This song has such a sad emotion to it but with a hopeful ending.
Congratulations on being 25 and going forward!!
"But i cannot be
So selfish and flee
Because
I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you"
...damn.
In my darkest period a few years ago, the thing that kept me here was the determination that I don't want to turn my wife into a widow, or my son fatherless. Take it from this old man (literally old enough to be your grandfather) : well said, well done. Keep up the good work.
I don't know If I'm going crazy and If It's just me, but I felt the emotion. I loved this song so much 🤧
I'm the type of person that doesn't cry for anything sad like movies or really sad videos but this song almost made me cry this is a really good song and your voice is beautiful ❤
I was feeling so depressed today and I just can do anything or even get out of bed, this song defines very well what I feel sometimes
It's so hard deal with myself but I don't want to make my loved ones sad... So I gonna keep going
Morning begins not with a cup of coffee, but with hearing the song Or3o :D
The 1:28 is so cute It reminded me of my bestie but School is about to end I will miss you bestie 😢
I started bawling my eyes out and I can't stop. Thank you or3o for this masterpiece
Being the sister of someone with depression, this hit hard. I love my sister so much, and I hate to see her hurting.
This is such a beautiful song, and it’s very powerful when even your favorite creators to share similar experiences we might have been through as fans. Thank for for being so strong and vulnerable.
tw: su*cide
i’ve been going through a really rough time recently, and having come very very close to committing su*cide last Monday. I’ve been holding back on listening to this song, though it’s always on my mind. Today, about a week after I almost committed su*cide, I decided to finally listen to it.
and, I resonate with it so much I started crying.
Thank you, OR30.
I don't think I've ever been able to fully relate to a song ever.
Usually people I know talk about how they can relate to Lyrica, I can never do that. I just listen to songs if they're catchy.
But this one I was able to relate to. Every single line of it.
This is a cute testimony of self improvement, how even the most darkest void could be away with the right guide... I hope that those two never meet the most cruel of the angels.
I love these piece of your heart, OR3O, really breathtaking
This genuinely made me tear up. The raw emotions that can be felt in this are so real, and it takes a lot of courage and strength to present them. I’m so glad that you’ve found something that has made you happy and has let you push past this and become a stronger person because of it. Thinking of the musical community without you would be an entirely different place, and you’ve only changed it for the better. Thank you for everything you’ve done for your audience and the people around you.
This is what I needed; I’ve hit a rough part again and I was unsure what I would do. This song is a great reminder that you are loved and and not alone.
this is absolutely breathtaking, i've rewatched this three times and it's literally 3am 😭❤️🩹
congrats on making it to 25 🎉 we are so so proud of you, we're so glad you finally feel better
i was also in a depressive state in 2018 (well i mean it was longer than just 2018) but funnily enough that year you made your Bongo Cat song and i would use it to cheer me up before school 🫶
Thank you, for this gift. Its been longer than I can remember since I cried properly (usually only cry in my sleep), so it feels good to get some relief from the constant tension that comes with having C-PTSD bad enough that I've sometimes had to comfort other people after talking about it. I also joked with a caregiver some weeks ago about my support network, where the punchline was "and maybe one day i'll love me too," so some of the lyrics here threw me for a loop. The voice and art work well together, the composition is good in general, its a strong piece, probably will be listening to this one for decades to come.
This actually hits me so hard.
I sometimes feel these things and im guessing everyone does, this song speaks volumes.
"Fate, Luck, and Sh*t happens." May as well be the story of everyone's life, and possibly attempted un-life. May all who listen be reminded that it's okay to not know what may come or to be prepared for it, but please keep moving forward and enjoy even those small moments with others.
i love this song. right now I am going through a depressing time in my life and many times I think about ending everything. but I remember my loved ones and the damage it will do to them if I do that. i love the phrase ''I may hate myself but I still love you'' so much, it represents so many things for me.. I hope you are better now!! wish you all the best
bro when you sung “ even when my pains gone it’ll only pass on back to you” made me hav to sit down from washing the dishs
"I may hate myself but I still love you" had no reason to come into my house, attack me and rip my heart out like that my gods
the art here is so so beautiful as well. i need to consume this entire video
why does this give me chills man
Oh. Ohhhh. Look, it me. Much though it hurts to have a mirror thrust in my face like this, i want you to know you're doing the right thing here. This work was as important and necessary as it was difficult.
Thank you.
I never thought I’d hear a song that perfectly encapsulated the reason I’m alive. I know that if I didn’t have the people I have, my life would’ve ended several years ago.
“I may hate myself but I still love you. Even if my pain’s gone, it’d only pass on back to you.”
That line is beautifully painful. Thank you for this song, OR3O. It feels like someone finally understands it 😭💕
This song made me cry so much, it’s so beautifully written, and the words hit me in such a way. I hope your okay now, and never feel like a burden, your such a beautiful person oreo.
“If you can’t live for yourself, live for me”. A quote made by the most important person in my life.
2:11 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
THOSE VOCAL CORDS ARE AMAZING WOW
amazing as always💖
"I may hate myself but I still love you" hits so hard that I started tearing up a little bit
This is one of the most beautiful songs I have ever listened to. As someone who deals with suicidal urges and self harm, this amazingly illustrates what it's like to have someone keeping you alive. OR3O, thank you so much for perfectly describing what millions of people go through every year. Never stop doing what you love, and have a happy birthday.
I understand the pain it causes you to hurt yourself but you must stay strong
I’m still alive trying to find my purpose and not having a mental breakdown and if you read this…
Thank you
I love this a lot. I love all the little pieces of symbolism in the video, the song is incredible with some of the most compelling vocal performance I've heard, and the video captures the struggle of trying to support someone with depression very well.
Aggh. I'm crying rn help .-. Those vocals are insane :0 and the Lyrics are so relateable and AGGH i dont know i just really love this song 🥰😭 And the Animatiionnn 😭🥰
😭😭Holy fucҟ, I'm shallow af when it comes to finding deep emotional content, but this is the harshest and most brutal shlt Ive come across in a long while. I can handle good ol g୦re and depraved material, but this just gives so much goosebumps. Great, incredble video.
I always look towards the pregame about getting it right the first time, but my connections are just loose ends I can't leave. Procrastination and "perfectionism" strike again!
I don't know if you ever read your comments, but I hope you know that this song, as well as several songs from Clover, really hit home with me, and I appreciate you and your music so very much. It has helped me in ways that I'm sure you understand better than anyone. Thank you!
I’ve been following your work for a long time now OR30. Your work speaks to the soul of a lot of individuals..and we really need more of that more than ever. Thank you.
The fact i woke up to this master piece, thank you so much for sharing this song with us. Your songs are truly impactful and have helped me through some of my darkest times and still do and idk how but you managed to do it once again so for that thank you.
As someone who knows someone with clinical depression but has never really experienced it myself. this made me ugly cry. Thank you for putting this beautiful work of art out there, and I’m glad you’re doing better now.
or3o, i've been listening to your music ever since you published your first song. i loved you as a kid, and i love you now. even if we have never met before, you've made a huge impact in my life. or3o, if you read this, thank you for being here and posting your catchy songs. your voice is amazing and i hope you know how much people love you!
A very touching production. 🥹 I hope this song can remind even one hurting soul what we live for.
This song was awesome to help with! I loved the sound of it ever since you first showed it and it came out so wonderfully! I'm glad I got to help with this one 💪😎💪💙
This is your best song ever I don’t know why but this song alone has moved my heart. Thank you
Christ the vocals on you, beautiful song and we are really proud of you and great job making it to 25🎉🎉🎉
MAN THIS EXPLAINED A LITTLE PIECE OF MY LIFE
The backstory behind this is extremely sad and I’m so glad you’re still here today and that you were brave enough to believe things would get better. ❤️🩹
❤❤❤🥺 Honestly I needed this song so bad, I lost a lot of loved ones, and life in general has felt so painful. and I haven't had a good cry in a long while. And this hit far closer to home than I could imagine.
just listening to this, helps me to make it through the day. so happy you feel so much happier, just seeing you rn doing well, and hearing this song makes me believe it will get better.
This song truly made me tear up, yet this song also gives me a sense of hope as well. Thank you for writing this song, I feel so warm.😊
The animation and song are absolutely beautiful, thank you for being you, or3o❤
The voice cracks at the end hit hard- hell this whole song has. You put so much effort into your music and your voice is beautiful. I'm glad your doing better, and I feel like this song will help people 🫀🫂
First songs I listened to today, and the impact is so strong for me! Happy Birthday OR3O; thank you for making our worlds brighter with your talent!
There's a soul behind every act, after all. The world would not be the same without people like you, people who, even with a thousand knifes in their hearts, they still push onward into a brighter them, inspiring other to keep going on the life train. It's a pleasure to have you around, a pleasure to still be there while you hit lower than rock bottom, and a pleasure to get that silver lining you gave us while sharing your inner pain. We all love you.
Take care. It's a desert out there.
I just got flashed on the face, the lyrics alone are just, sang with so much feeling it made me feel as bad as its intended, i take my hat off O. I take my hat
C'est juste magnifique, les paroles, la musique 🥲
waking up to new song you've made might be one of the best thing i didn't know i needed, i have both dealt with depression myself and have had to stand by friends who did, so i'm glad you managed to get through it, otherwise who'd make all these amazing songs for us to listen to, you're one of my favorite singers, ever since i found you through the batim stuff, i've been loving the things you put out, keep it all up
this song hits hard, "I may hate myself but i still love you" thats the line that did it for me, the meaning of it is literally one of the reasons I'm still alive right now.
I did not expect to cry immediately after waking up. Bravo, Or3o. This is a masterpiece.
It is heartbreaking to know you went through something like this. I always loved your songs and they gave me joy. To know you could have been struggling at the same time as writing some of things that i so loved listening to, it makes me just want to hug you. I am so happy to read that you are feeling better. You are an inspiration, OR30
The only time I cry to art , it's yours. Thank you for all your talent and passion you spend here.
This song is very comforting, thank you for making such a beautiful song!
Happy birthday!
Oh, my Gosh! I love this song!!!!!
im crying sm that was beautiful
This is indescribable. Everyone has had lows and highs but sometime the lows hit way to hard and you just want it to stop. You start thinking about yourself and if you are as good as they say or as good as you have to be, you start hating yourself thinking they deserve better and that you should just end it all but you can’t because you don’t want to hurt your loved ones in the process. You don’t want them to be sad for such a pathetic being. You start thinking it doesn’t matter if you disappear and never be seen again since they would just move on. But that isn’t true even in your lowest lows you got to remember that there’s always ways to improve and that your loved ones love you because of who you are there’s no reason to believe your not enough, remember there’s always light in the darkest night and there’s always a way it doesn’t matter what you go through
this is so powerful. 2:48 was *really* powerful. ❤
I hope u are doing alr now OR3O ❤️
Thank you so much for making this. You have no idea what this means to me, this is beautiful
I didn't know anything about this releasing lol. I guess staying up late works sometimes!
Amazing song, I've been watching for years now and I still get emotional with your songs XD
Take care, Chio!
This was amazing. It was pretty relatable(and to be honest the title scared me a bit) and made me cry. Amazing work 0r30!
If anyone's having a hard time just know there are people who care for you and are rooting for you! Have a great night/day/afternoon yall deserve it!
Oh, this song hits me so hard. It makes me think of me and my brother,, such a beautiful song. Thank you for sharing this and I'm glad you're in a better place. Maybe one day I will be too.
As someone who has wanted to escape since I was young but never being able to do it due to the fear of passing it all to the people around me, this makes me shake with so much emotion it makes me feel sick; the visuals as well, remind me, there's still so many other people who go through the same emptiness followed by pain and love as me, I just need to keep hanging on..
This is so relatable, because i feel the same sometimes. i hope your situation is better
Congrats for the release! It was pleasure to work on the piano