Ever since my hospitalization caused my mom to lose her job and landed us homeless for most of my teen years, I've realized I've really struggled with guilt and hating myself. I think that's translated to my art. I have a very hard time just enjoying it anymore. My mom and some friends encourage me but I've tried posting it online here and there and gotten no response. I think that fuels a "nobody cares anyway" cycle and feeds into the self hatred and apathy. Why do art if nobody, including me, cares? It's proven almost impossible to overcome and I don't know what to do.
I understand you completely about this. I think I’m realizing that my art is in the end not for anyone but me. This is freeing. Tho it took a looonnnggg time to feel that in my bones. ❤
@@jmh8510 Yeah, I really long for connection and to be understood. Sharing my art is a part of that. So it's super disheartening when it's ignored or overlooked. It makes me feel more isolated. I'm working on it but haven't made much progress, emotionally.
@@littlekitsune1 am not the expert in this but you can go at it with the mindset of "what do I have to lose" even though it makes us insecure but at the same time we already knee deep so might as well put it out there
@ I’ve felt the exact same. It’s a trap I am tempted to fall in almost daily. It’s like a huge, impassable raging river of anxiety approaching some piece, starting another one AND thinking I’ve accomplished just about zero with my lackluster talent (my perception of how others see my art-after spending blood, sweat and tears on something and getting only a 👍🏻online.). But Do NOT give up-but know that this IS hard. But Let’s not give up. We can produce art not for the outcome but because it’s freedom just in the doing-the process. Give yourself some love and appreciation-we will too❤️
Well Kitsune - David Bowie once said “I don’t wait to feel happiness and creativity before creating, I create to find happiness” Let your creative mind pull you out of the darkness - that’s what it’s there for
That point about how you've never felt a student was hopeless, how you've never thought "they should give up"... is refreshing to hear. I have a family member who sometimes taught college art courses, and I grew up hearing them talk about how hopeless all these students were and how they should just give up, and of course, in hearing that at an early age, it affected me as well. In many ways you're the version of this family member that I've always wished to see. Thank you, you give me hope.
Well I’m very happy to know that I represent that force in your life that reminds you not to give up on yourself. The very fact that’s you’re watching videos (including mine) from fellow artists means you’re nestled comfortably in the art community - where you belong :)
I've been following you for a couple of years and listening to you while i draw always refreshes my energy no matter how rough things are for me at the moment, thank you, Adam. Really,i mean it
I’ve been wanting to make videos again and I’ve had this “oh but I don’t think it’s worth the time, nobody wants to hear what I have to say” attitude toward that lately. This video has me rethinking things.
You have a way of putting to words things that I find very hard to express or sometimes even pinpoint myself. I've always considered myself, and been seen by others, as a confident person, and to some degree I think I am. Then circumstances changed when I graduated, and I started beating myself up over not being where I wanted to be... Or where I thought others would want me to be at this stage in life. Started by half jokingly referring to myself as a worthless piece of sh*t and ended up in a really dark place. Have spent the better part of 2024 just clawing myself out of this ditch and back to life, and I've just started painting more regularly again. Circumstances haven't changed that much, but my outlook on things certainly has. Thank you for what you do, Adam. Your insights and your wisdom has meant a lot to me over the years I've followed this channel.
I've just gone through a phase where I was my own worst critic, and I just wasn't happy with anything I was making, so I took a little break from art and started replaying the witcher 3 and watching art videos. Needless to say that all gave me the inspiration to get back to art, and I'm very happy with how what I'm creating is turning out. Sometimes, a wee break is all you need.
My parents told me I shouldn't pursue art, but it was my boyfriend who told me I should pursue something financially stable BEFORE trying an art career, which helped me shift my mind a bit. I've been doing these jobs I'm unhappy with to keep a roof over my head while still trying to do art on the side, but I'd feel completely drained in a year or two. At least I'm able to keep a roof over my head, but it's not the best situation per se and could be better. Just want to say thank you for your video because it really reinforced what my boyfriend has told me. You made good insights on many things as well!
thank you for the video Adam this helps me more realizing to be kind not to others but to myself not to judging ourself with little things or mistakes we always do
I stopped drawing about a decade ago. Every time I start again I give up because I feel so far away from my goals. . .the fear of failure is holding me back from doing what I love. I wish I could just move past failure but for me failure is crippling. Things used to come easy to me growing up, and I never learned to deal with failure properly. When I fail I feel like something is wrong with me. I guess it's silly.
your words could be heeded by more than just artist. wise and understanding. I love your artwork. where do you get your inspiration? toward the end of video this piece, especially when you added what looks like a veil made me think of Miss Havisham (Great Expectations), whose burning hate kept her alive for 800 years and this is what she morphed into.
@@AdamDuffArt Miss Havisham got jilted at alter, she left her wedding dress on and did not allow her staff to clear table even wedding cake. probably lived a normal life span but I added that 800 years old, because of her burning hatred of men kept her alive an unnaturally long time as depicted in your painting
Everyday I feel myself shutting down more and more. Which is weird because I've been healing as well, for the last couple years. But I've been feeling so lost at the same time. My dream of being a full time artist feels so gone right now. It hurts everytime I try to start sketching something. Because I've realised I wanted it for the wrong reasons. And I don't know what to do anymore. Edit: Screw giving up, I'm back. 😎
Fantastic as always Adam. The painting and the message. I especially latched on to what you said about money not necessarily equaling happiness - man that is true. While we all need stability, it seems like there aren't many super rich people in the world who are also super happy.
Rich people are miserable because money and objects will never equate to meaning. It's when a person chooses to suffer for a greater purpose that life becomes meaningful, and they find joy in that deliberate suffering.
Hey Adam! I have a mentorship coming up with you in the next few weeks, I was wondering what the best way to contact you is to get some additional info on how to prepare for then, thank you!
I'm not an artist (at least not a visual artist), but I've been watching these talks for five years now. I come back to them when I'm feeling the way you described in this video - self hating. They're interesting pieces of wisdom from a fellow creative that help me get into a well needed state of reflection. The videos you've done around fitness have also helped me understand just how much fitness and physical wellbeing matters to living well. I appreciate what you've done on this channel and I'm glad artists have a space like this on the internet to rest at considering it can be such a hostile place. Thank you Adam!
You know, I was alone for Christmas this year. Partly because I didn't want to drag my remaining family down with how lonely I am, but also because... I just didn't know if I could deal with listening to them discourage my art on top of it, the way they did last year. Telling me that I could "wait until I retire", or that it was a "childish" thing to pursue.
thank you for the constant encouragement, and it's so cool how it times with my low moods and depressive stages. i keep reminding myself (or at least i try to) that i'm not alone and i have a lot of people behind me-who love and support my passions. for that, i'm blessed. so the rest is up to me to grind it out. thank you adam 🤍
Ever since my hospitalization caused my mom to lose her job and landed us homeless for most of my teen years, I've realized I've really struggled with guilt and hating myself. I think that's translated to my art. I have a very hard time just enjoying it anymore. My mom and some friends encourage me but I've tried posting it online here and there and gotten no response. I think that fuels a "nobody cares anyway" cycle and feeds into the self hatred and apathy. Why do art if nobody, including me, cares? It's proven almost impossible to overcome and I don't know what to do.
I understand you completely about this. I think I’m realizing that my art is in the end not for anyone but me. This is freeing. Tho it took a looonnnggg time to feel that in my bones. ❤
@@jmh8510 Yeah, I really long for connection and to be understood. Sharing my art is a part of that. So it's super disheartening when it's ignored or overlooked. It makes me feel more isolated. I'm working on it but haven't made much progress, emotionally.
@@littlekitsune1 am not the expert in this but you can go at it with the mindset of "what do I have to lose" even though it makes us insecure but at the same time we already knee deep so might as well put it out there
@ I’ve felt the exact same. It’s a trap I am tempted to fall in almost daily. It’s like a huge, impassable raging river of anxiety approaching some piece, starting another one AND
thinking I’ve accomplished just about zero with my lackluster talent (my perception of how others see my art-after spending blood, sweat and tears on something and getting only a 👍🏻online.). But Do NOT give up-but know that this IS hard. But Let’s not give up. We can produce art not for the outcome but because it’s freedom just in the doing-the process. Give yourself some love and appreciation-we will too❤️
Well Kitsune - David Bowie once said “I don’t wait to feel happiness and creativity before creating, I create to find happiness”
Let your creative mind pull you out of the darkness - that’s what it’s there for
That point about how you've never felt a student was hopeless, how you've never thought "they should give up"... is refreshing to hear. I have a family member who sometimes taught college art courses, and I grew up hearing them talk about how hopeless all these students were and how they should just give up, and of course, in hearing that at an early age, it affected me as well. In many ways you're the version of this family member that I've always wished to see. Thank you, you give me hope.
Well I’m very happy to know that I represent that force in your life that reminds you not to give up on yourself. The very fact that’s you’re watching videos (including mine) from fellow artists means you’re nestled comfortably in the art community - where you belong :)
I've been following you for a couple of years and listening to you while i draw always refreshes my energy no matter how rough things are for me at the moment, thank you, Adam. Really,i mean it
I’ve been wanting to make videos again and I’ve had this “oh but I don’t think it’s worth the time, nobody wants to hear what I have to say” attitude toward that lately. This video has me rethinking things.
Oh don’t fool yourself Hannah, we do want to see them. The only way to ensure nobody cares is to offer nothing to care about
Happy early anniversary Adam! 🎉 This video (and the art) is beautiful. Especially the section about self doubt and confidence hit very close to home ❤
You have a way of putting to words things that I find very hard to express or sometimes even pinpoint myself. I've always considered myself, and been seen by others, as a confident person, and to some degree I think I am. Then circumstances changed when I graduated, and I started beating myself up over not being where I wanted to be... Or where I thought others would want me to be at this stage in life. Started by half jokingly referring to myself as a worthless piece of sh*t and ended up in a really dark place. Have spent the better part of 2024 just clawing myself out of this ditch and back to life, and I've just started painting more regularly again. Circumstances haven't changed that much, but my outlook on things certainly has. Thank you for what you do, Adam. Your insights and your wisdom has meant a lot to me over the years I've followed this channel.
Wow, always when I feel so down you upload just what I need to hear!🎉❤ sending lots of love, Adam!
And back at you Kelly :)
Beautiful video and message, Adam. And thanks so much for the art and the plug! 😊
You’re very welcome, and thank you!
I've just gone through a phase where I was my own worst critic, and I just wasn't happy with anything I was making, so I took a little break from art and started replaying the witcher 3 and watching art videos. Needless to say that all gave me the inspiration to get back to art, and I'm very happy with how what I'm creating is turning out. Sometimes, a wee break is all you need.
My parents told me I shouldn't pursue art, but it was my boyfriend who told me I should pursue something financially stable BEFORE trying an art career, which helped me shift my mind a bit. I've been doing these jobs I'm unhappy with to keep a roof over my head while still trying to do art on the side, but I'd feel completely drained in a year or two. At least I'm able to keep a roof over my head, but it's not the best situation per se and could be better. Just want to say thank you for your video because it really reinforced what my boyfriend has told me. You made good insights on many things as well!
Needed this one today, thankyou for your wise words and constant inspiration to artists ❤
thank you, I needed this and I am currently overcoming the issues mentioned in the video🌟
thank you for the video Adam this helps me more realizing to be kind not to others but to myself not to judging ourself with little things or mistakes we always do
Thank you and Happy Holidays, art dad!
Thank you Adam your videos always on time, I love you a lot !
I've discovered you recently and I'm absolutely in love with what you share to the world, thank you for being as authentic and honest as you are.❤
Well Pharisy, you are most welcome :)
I stopped drawing about a decade ago. Every time I start again I give up because I feel so far away from my goals. . .the fear of failure is holding me back from doing what I love. I wish I could just move past failure but for me failure is crippling. Things used to come easy to me growing up, and I never learned to deal with failure properly. When I fail I feel like something is wrong with me. I guess it's silly.
your words could be heeded by more than just artist. wise and understanding.
I love your artwork. where do you get your inspiration? toward the end of video this piece, especially when you added what looks like a veil made me think of Miss Havisham (Great Expectations), whose burning hate kept her alive for 800 years and this is what she morphed into.
Oooh, I’m going to go check that out - I’m not sure who you’re referring to but I think I need to
@@AdamDuffArt Miss Havisham got jilted at alter, she left her wedding dress on and did not allow her staff to clear table even wedding cake. probably lived a normal life span but I added that 800 years old, because of her burning hatred of men kept her alive an unnaturally long time as depicted in your painting
8:59 no but you need money to remove as much stress as possible making easier to be happy
You just don’t want to be constantly worried about money - although we all have to live through that at least once in your life
Everyday I feel myself shutting down more and more. Which is weird because I've been healing as well, for the last couple years. But I've been feeling so lost at the same time. My dream of being a full time artist feels so gone right now. It hurts everytime I try to start sketching something. Because I've realised I wanted it for the wrong reasons. And I don't know what to do anymore.
Edit: Screw giving up, I'm back. 😎
Fantastic as always Adam. The painting and the message. I especially latched on to what you said about money not necessarily equaling happiness - man that is true. While we all need stability, it seems like there aren't many super rich people in the world who are also super happy.
Rich people are miserable because money and objects will never equate to meaning. It's when a person chooses to suffer for a greater purpose that life becomes meaningful, and they find joy in that deliberate suffering.
🔥🔥🔥♥
Hey Adam! I have a mentorship coming up with you in the next few weeks, I was wondering what the best way to contact you is to get some additional info on how to prepare for then, thank you!
Hey Brandon - if you have any questions just email me :)
@@AdamDuffArt Sounds good, Ill try again! I sent one a week or so ago, I didn't want to spam you in case you've been busy!
Hey Adam, what's the name of the song playing?
I'm not an artist (at least not a visual artist), but I've been watching these talks for five years now. I come back to them when I'm feeling the way you described in this video - self hating. They're interesting pieces of wisdom from a fellow creative that help me get into a well needed state of reflection. The videos you've done around fitness have also helped me understand just how much fitness and physical wellbeing matters to living well. I appreciate what you've done on this channel and I'm glad artists have a space like this on the internet to rest at considering it can be such a hostile place. Thank you Adam!
You know, I was alone for Christmas this year. Partly because I didn't want to drag my remaining family down with how lonely I am, but also because... I just didn't know if I could deal with listening to them discourage my art on top of it, the way they did last year. Telling me that I could "wait until I retire", or that it was a "childish" thing to pursue.
dad
Someone people are a bit too confident in telling jokes no one likes.
like offensive ones augh
"I've never met a single person I felt was hopeless"
Maybe you need a larger sample size or to adjust your expectations.
You saying I should consider more people hopeless? If you can see the value in that mindset then I’ll happily consider your suggestion
@AdamDuffArt Very cool
His job is not to convince people to quit. It's to teach them how to succeed.
thank you for the constant encouragement, and it's so cool how it times with my low moods and depressive stages. i keep reminding myself (or at least i try to) that i'm not alone and i have a lot of people behind me-who love and support my passions. for that, i'm blessed. so the rest is up to me to grind it out. thank you adam 🤍