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  • Опубликовано: 19 ноя 2022
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of William, a survivor of sexual abuse as a child now living on Skid Row.
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  • @PsychopathSurvivor
    @PsychopathSurvivor Год назад +411

    If a child has the courage to confide in you about any abuse, it’s your highest priority for immediate action & intervention. A false alarm is better then the ramifications of lifelong trauma.

    • @talitamo7465
      @talitamo7465 Год назад +9

      I needed to read this comment . Thank you .

    • @TK-ij2xi
      @TK-ij2xi Год назад +3

      I actually wondered if she didn't push it because she feared deportation. I don't know if she was a citizen when the abuse came to light.

    • @princesstakaloo
      @princesstakaloo Год назад +4

      you would think so, no matter the family circumstances- from the poorest to the richest - has no real effect on how the adult reacts. I know this from experience, my mother never believed my sister or myself at the ages of 11 and 12 or again at 42 and 43yrs... its just as painful as the original abuse x x I just think some people are too weak to cope with dealing with something so horrific. it lasts a complete lifetime

    • @TK-ij2xi
      @TK-ij2xi Год назад +2

      @@princesstakaloo Typically, but not always, our parent doesn't listen when we tell them of abuse because then they'd have to look at their own. My mother didn't, after I walked away from our relationship she died and THAT'S when I found out about how much buried sexual abuse there was for her. If she listened to me, she'd have to dig up her own pain that had been buried under a reactionary life of 6 decades. She preferred death to that.

    • @2julsofmine
      @2julsofmine 10 месяцев назад +1

      @@princesstakalooI agree with you. To mentally weak to acknowledge it. It’s actually very selfish to be honest with you. Protecting themselves instead of protecting you.

  • @Beautiful-Sickening-Rolex
    @Beautiful-Sickening-Rolex Год назад +663

    I categorise abusers as worse than murderers...there are murder cases where someone snapped in a fit of recklessness, but child abusers are extremely calculated and repeat the offence for years

    • @jen-ms4xo
      @jen-ms4xo Год назад +34

      Yes I agree with you 💯 I've experienced it myself for from the earliest that I can remember I was 3 up until I was 15 my mother unfortunately chose a man over me and didn't protect me at all she's not here anymore R.I.P 😢 and the best thing I got from her death was that I never have to see or speak to her husband again

    • @babyemilyf
      @babyemilyf Год назад +16

      Couldn't agree more! This story is heartbreaking.

    • @babyemilyf
      @babyemilyf Год назад +15

      @@jen-ms4xo So sorry to hear. Stay strong.

    • @pjams2745
      @pjams2745 Год назад

      @@jen-ms4xo Agree. They are worse than scum.

    • @michelemelucci4667
      @michelemelucci4667 Год назад +2

      Right on

  • @booradley6673
    @booradley6673 Год назад +831

    I find it so odd that barely anyone in the comments is addressing Blanca - the 25 year old woman that slept with (abused) him when he was 12. The double standard is shocking

    • @nattytheyoungreader7572
      @nattytheyoungreader7572 Год назад +1

      I know, I thought the same. Nasty pedo woman

    • @berniekatzroy
      @berniekatzroy Год назад +63

      Its extremely screwed up. Idc man or woman does it.

    • @leelee5593
      @leelee5593 Год назад +23

      She was wrong it’s crazy

    • @moreiscomingeasy6710
      @moreiscomingeasy6710 Год назад +4

      I think she was Miserable Soul.. trying to "fix" him

    • @deondraa
      @deondraa Год назад

      Came here for this comment it’s so sad he feels like it was his first sexual encounter when someone was assaulting him

  • @sacralbutterfly
    @sacralbutterfly Год назад +533

    People who do harm to children are the most EVIL people on the planet. This is absolutely horrifying and disgusting. I wish child molesters would get the death penalty.

    • @hwb-zalpach
      @hwb-zalpach Год назад +3

      everything is relatively. it's about your values system. this statment. so much evil in the world, there is no most.

    • @Jax1317
      @Jax1317 Год назад

      It never will have the death penalty. The most powerful and wealthy do it so judgment of that extreme are hard to push. Only general population and execution by the mob truly punish these people.

    • @hyperabbit
      @hyperabbit Год назад

      @@hwb-zalpach if your value system even has the slightest excuse for this type of stuff, you need the rope.

    • @hwb-zalpach
      @hwb-zalpach Год назад +4

      @@hyperabbit i am an animal lover. treasure them more.

    • @hyperabbit
      @hyperabbit Год назад +14

      @@hwb-zalpach So am I. Doesn't mean I think abusing children is ok in any sense no matter what your "values". Your comment gave me the chills, purely that someone would even try to defend anything like this.

  • @chansetwo
    @chansetwo Год назад +152

    I can't express how important these interviews are to a functioning society. Most people will never hear these stories or interact with these people. Last week someone told me they were tired of hearing people blame their childhood sexual abuse for their problems. I lost quite a lot of respect for that individual. But, it illustrates how important it is to get these stories out to the public. I don't think one can really understand the effects of child abuse until one sees the statistics and hears the stories.

    • @warmblood8016
      @warmblood8016 Год назад

      People with that attitude are beyond stupid. Stupid, ignorant fools. A child's entire life is shaped in the first few years.

    • @ap8441
      @ap8441 Год назад +7

      It’s certainly isn’t fair for someone to judge someone when they’ve never been in their shoes so I totally understand why you lost respect. Instead of judging someone this person you speak of should be lucky they were never in the shoes of someone that suffered abuse.

    • @lisatsuda
      @lisatsuda Год назад +3

      I've had several people, boyfriends included, tell me to keep it quiet. Never understood that.
      Abduction, blindfolded, sexually tortured for names (mine and parents), four point bound to a table, and you know the rest. At five yrs old, I knew he was coming back. No one would listen to me, he came back. Started sending remorse gifts after about 9 yrs. A brand new convertible sports car, exactly the one I dreamed of, and money, lots of it. Mom stole everything, using my sister posing as me, whom bragged about it day of stealing trust fund. Creating Stockholm syndrome, bc now the perp, in my eyes, is a better person than lying, stealing family. No help to date on this crappy life.

    • @jenniferl6553
      @jenniferl6553 Год назад +3

      @@lisatsuda I'm so, so sorry. Prayers and hugs. I wish I knew what else to say. May you find peace and healing.

    • @tambourine36
      @tambourine36 4 месяца назад +1

      I agree. It's not blaming. It's just simply stating the harm and trauma it creates. You can only push it down for so long then it resurfaces later in life if you suppress the feelings. It's a common thread in mental illness and addiction. I've listened to people's stories for many years with my work and I feel that it's at the root of the issues of at least 80% of the clients that I spoke with...so it's definitely not an excuse at all. It ruins people's lives, people die younger because of developing addictions. I wish people would do the research before commenting on things they have no idea about. It's very ignorant and inconsiderate.

  • @baublesanddolls
    @baublesanddolls Год назад +240

    So many mothers refuse to believe their children. I think it's denial and they're afraid of being alone and not having the security of the pay cheque from their husband. Sickening!

    • @crazycatladyjo2688
      @crazycatladyjo2688 Год назад +12

      They are selfish.

    • @caitlinweedon7498
      @caitlinweedon7498 Год назад +20

      Your job as a Mother is to protect. And if your kiddo tells you they're being abused you believe them, no questions asked. I'm disgusted and dissapointed by everyone involved in this poor dude's life. His childhood, or lack thereof, directly contributed to the state he's in.

    • @aliciagrajeda9953
      @aliciagrajeda9953 Год назад +10

      This is true, you said it just as it is. It happened to me with my mother when my stepdad abused me. Then I became a parentified child around 12 years old. So much has happened the last 30 years, now we are estranged, and I live with guilt everyday because I don't talk to her. I have children now, and I can't imagine not protecting them from anyone and everyone.

    • @katel1849
      @katel1849 Год назад +9

      Scorpions dedicated a song to child abuse wrapped with mother's denial, the problem is horrible.
      Sweet little child
      You know nothing
      About a cold world outside
      You're too young to realize
      What he wants from you tonight
      Poor little girl
      There is no one
      You can trust in the world
      In the darkness of the night
      What he's doing is a crime
      Your mother denies
      There's a problem
      She's looking away
      She don't wanna hear you cry
      She will pray
      That it's over for a while
      Sweet little child
      You know nothing
      About a cold world outside
      You're too young to realize
      What he wants from you tonight
      Your mother denies
      There's a problem
      She's looking away
      She don't wanna hear you cry
      She will pray
      That it's over for a while
      An ocean of silence
      Is drowning your heart
      What never should be
      Will remain in the dark
      Poor little girl
      There is no one
      You can trust in the world
      In the darkness of the night
      What he's doing is a crime
      Sweet little child
      You know nothing
      About a cold world outside
      You're too young to realize
      What he wants from you tonight
      Your mother denies
      There's a problem
      She's looking away
      She don't wanna hear you cry
      She will pray
      That it's over for a while
      An ocean of silence
      Is drowning your heart
      What never should be
      Will remain in the dark

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Год назад +1

      @@crazycatladyjo2688 Absolutely 💯

  • @roxy1522
    @roxy1522 Год назад +128

    He is so fucking sweet dude. Are you kidding me!?!? I can’t believe this shit happens. I hope you gets to live in another life as the best Cub Scout in history. He deserves a greater second life

  • @NiniThomass
    @NiniThomass Год назад +121

    This is so sad. Mark, you have done countless interviews where sexual abuse victims told their mothers and they did nothing. I couldn’t imagine. My heart goes out to everyone❤

    • @magdabak5797
      @magdabak5797 Год назад +4

      Well Yes, they dont. Mine was pretening she is bli d when I was Little, told me that I'm lying at 16 and even now, when I'm 40 she is still not sure, even that my "father" is dead.

    • @LeonaDesomd
      @LeonaDesomd Год назад +1

      @@magdabak5797 so sorry to hear that 😢

  • @paradisestruggle404
    @paradisestruggle404 Год назад +108

    Awww the “phew” at the end got me. A sense of relief to tell his story after all this time. Thank you for the gift you gave to William, Mark. Spirituality = open and honest interaction

  • @hunterlange5973
    @hunterlange5973 Год назад +216

    Some of us survived child abuse,
    Some of us never used drugs or become alchohalic but for sure something is missing forever.
    We feel being lost and pain never go away, just we keep going.
    I feel this man.
    Very good interview.
    Thank You

    • @guzelfetkulina9599
      @guzelfetkulina9599 Год назад +4

      💔😞

    • @nicoletheresa6654
      @nicoletheresa6654 Год назад +2

      Ugh 😢❤

    • @PatyM00N
      @PatyM00N Год назад +4

      There are different kinds if addictions. Food, sex, promiscuity, shopping, TV binging and even excessive phone use are all addictions. Anything we use to get that hit of temporary dopamine is a drug. Obesity, for example, is hard to overcome, because the drug is food.

    • @nicoletheresa6654
      @nicoletheresa6654 Год назад +3

      @@PatyM00N food and sex are the hardest addictions to quit. Sad

  • @2wobad
    @2wobad Год назад +100

    the judge seems like someone who actually cared, may his soul rest in peace

  • @mjgerleman
    @mjgerleman Год назад +196

    The silver lining to the awful dark cloud of this man's life is that there were people in places of authority who tried to help him.

    • @pointpleasant6708
      @pointpleasant6708 Год назад +12

      Very difficult to follow….chaotic which reflects the chaos HE experienced as a young boy. It’s hard to talk about.

    • @tnt2324
      @tnt2324 Год назад +2

      @@pointpleasant6708I wonder if he s.a.ed anyone or if he stayed true to the code.

    • @pambeforethestorm9784
      @pambeforethestorm9784 Год назад +1

      @@tnt2324 good point, I wonder as well

  • @GenRN
    @GenRN Год назад +262

    I am also a childhood sexual abuse survivor. Sending hugs to this dude.

    • @Im_just_a_little_potato
      @Im_just_a_little_potato Год назад +14

      I'm also a child sexual abuse survivor. Sending hugs to this guy and you

    • @lisarodriguez6966
      @lisarodriguez6966 Год назад +13

      I am as well. It's heartening to hear others open up about their experiences but incredibly sad to see how common it is.

    • @jen-ms4xo
      @jen-ms4xo Год назад +7

      Me to I pray 🙏 this guy can come out of being a victim and into a survivor 🙏

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 Год назад +12

      @J C I went through the same thing like many people in this comment section. I hate when someone mentioned god in this context. What does 'God didn't allow what happened to you' even mean? Isn't god all-powerful? According to the Bible he is so why would he allow so many kids suffer abuse. I remember thinking as a kid that if there is a god, he is a horrible and cruel being. What happened to me made me not only stop believing in god, it made me hate the very idea of the concept. Kids tortured, filmed, abused and even killed is something that happens every single day but god does nothing about it. What possible excuse could there be for this?

    • @Sarah19902
      @Sarah19902 Год назад +3

      @@michaeldes1800 dude don’t ask stuff like that…

  • @helenaneumann1872
    @helenaneumann1872 Год назад +115

    This is such a terrible childhood that started a chain of unhappiness and violence off. I have deep sympathy for William and his sister. William is a great storyteller. The codependent mother is an accomplice...It always takes an environment of the silent and ignorant for abuse...

  • @zoe3723
    @zoe3723 Год назад +225

    I hate all mothers who think an innocent child could ever bring up and make up a story like this and lie. My mother was one of them-I beg you all to help victims of sexual abuse, open up your homes and pour into them. Sexual abuse is murder to one’s soul-it won’t go away without an act of God.

    • @mirriamvalentin8634
      @mirriamvalentin8634 Год назад +4

      Your comment is amazing. Thank you ❤️🙏

    • @HoneySuckle123
      @HoneySuckle123 Год назад +4

      That woman knew, all women can tell a shift in their man’s energy. It is an extension of satisfying “him” and protecting “him.”

    • @littlebear06142007
      @littlebear06142007 Год назад

      God Bless you.Turn yourself in and get help to be clean so you can live the life you deserve.xoxo

    • @princesstakaloo
      @princesstakaloo Год назад +3

      my mother too, I just think she is and was just too weak to deal with the fact she never protected her daughters, we both truly believe even before we told her she knew, but just chose to turn a blind eye. it is as painful to think about it now as 30 years ago.

    • @helenadams1807
      @helenadams1807 Год назад +1

      So sorry dude I hope you have people who listen and believe in your life. My husband is an SA survivor.

  • @xXxDigitalBathxXx
    @xXxDigitalBathxXx Год назад +66

    The woman he described as his first real sexual experience who told him what that guy did was wrong was also wrong... He was 12 and she was an adult

    • @annoravetz5908
      @annoravetz5908 9 месяцев назад +2

      The first man I dated had been sexually abused by his mother's woman friend at the age of 12. He had a lot of issues. He was really gay, but the first sexual abuse confused him, and so he tried to mask as heterosexual. I think he had a lot of hostility built up toward women, because he began physically and emotionally abusing me, so I left him. My sister later said, "We were so glad you broke up with him because were afraid he was going to kill you."

    • @tambourine36
      @tambourine36 4 месяца назад

      Exactly. Surrounded by predators.

  • @marshareed1438
    @marshareed1438 11 месяцев назад +14

    Men don’t share these things like women do… I’m so proud of him for speaking out against this horrible crime! My heart aches for this beautiful person! I pray that God shows him how to heal from this evil that has been done to him!

  • @heathernikki5734
    @heathernikki5734 Год назад +27

    If you are a MOTHER who lets this go on, you’re not worthy of being a mother! Sick!

  • @franbeller5897
    @franbeller5897 5 месяцев назад +5

    I hope William reads the comments to learn that others see what a good person he is and that we want him to find the better path which he deserves. We would love to see him back in a year, clean and content with a good life. You are not your past. Please see these posts to know people care who you become in the future

  • @asapmonkey2393
    @asapmonkey2393 Год назад +50

    Why nobody talking about the judge blessing him? One in a million judge.

  • @agnesfox8349
    @agnesfox8349 Год назад +57

    Mothers out there believe your kids when they tell you that they have been abused. These kids normally put everything on the line when they tell you something like this. They know that they probably could be beaten up, thrown to the curb,etc for doing so. They are not going to lie to you about something like this. All I have to say is UNBELIEVABLE when parents ignore something like this. All of this could have been avoided (2 murders) if his mother took the proper action that she should have taken

  • @maureent8653
    @maureent8653 Год назад +21

    Mark. I came back from florida last week on vacation. While boarding the plane in ft lauderale, the one flight attendant, as I walked by, said to another one, omg, I love that show. I listen to it all the time. I had my long sleeve soft white underbelly shirt on. When I was getting off the plane in cold pa, she said I love your shirt, I listen to those videos all the time! I said me too!! My morning ritual!!

  • @kendrajones9791
    @kendrajones9791 Год назад +204

    Not to say this with ill intent but I get anxiety watching some of these where people ramble on and on. Mark sits there for 20-40 minutes and simply ask questions…allowing people to say what they need to say and never passes judgement. Only sometimes does he redirect. This man was truly sincere at the end when he told him thank you….he took a deep breathe and said that felt good. Thank you Mark for providing all these people you interview a safe place to vomit their life stories without judgement.

    • @Simplegirltv
      @Simplegirltv Год назад +7

      Love mark he is amazing & handsome

    • @lisamariealaniz7538
      @lisamariealaniz7538 Год назад +5

      💯 agree thank u mark

    • @leahflower9924
      @leahflower9924 Год назад +5

      @Russiawithlove Love he seems like he has the stammering or whatever you call it that trauma survivors get sometimes when they try to explain abuse, the memories are all over the place so that's how they talk

    • @SkybabyandStar
      @SkybabyandStar Год назад +3

      I would imagine he's nervous. Nervous opening up, nervous talking to Mark, nervous knowing it's being recorded , nervous knowing than anybody and everybody may hear his story, etc. there's A lot of things to be stammering about. I don't have a story that even compares to his and I'd be stammering five times as much. Honestly, I did not Even pick up on it. I think I was nervous with him just talking. It takes a man to be able to get the courage to open up and talk about such a horrific past. Im so thankful for my life yet I sit up and gripe about the pettiest things. Mark thank you for everything that you do. I don't even know half of what you do - I know the videos I watch of yours but I cannot even imagine all the effort and time spent in preparing these. You have certainly touched so many lives and I thank you for adding so much to mine. You've truly made me a better person but I'm nowhere near to what I aim to be.

    • @princesstakaloo
      @princesstakaloo Год назад +1

      as well as how Mark seems to know exactly when and where to intervene or to ask questions, what mark has is something that cannot be taught or learned-just his presence is enough for people to literally open up their souls, open their memories of such unimaginable pain... just wondersome fantastic human being doing such work with this channel. so much love missing in the world x x

  • @annenoran8383
    @annenoran8383 Год назад +22

    There’s something about this guy that I love; he is honest, unpretentious and completely authentic in expressing emotions. I find your videos revelatory and transcendent. They raise my awareness and identification to a poetic level of joyous human experience. I am William and he is me. I want to kill perps and I am damaged by my past. You are doing a great service to humanity, Mark. I bless you every day.

  • @vvc_551
    @vvc_551 Год назад +71

    I get extremely angry and sad at the same time at the effect of sexual abusers do to their abuser’s life. They destroyed it! Look at his sister. 😞 I can tell how this has always been painful, the sadness of his voice breaks me. No one deserves this.

  • @TracyVanBrocklin
    @TracyVanBrocklin Год назад +27

    "that felt good", that felt good. good luck to this dude, this story was so vulnerable it was beautiful

  • @witchywoman4139
    @witchywoman4139 2 месяца назад +3

    One of the best interviews on this channel. Good on William for taking out his abusers. Hopefully he is now on a path of healing from all the trauma, and finding out who he really is. My heart goes out to him.

  • @chelsie1450
    @chelsie1450 Год назад +161

    What a truly horrifying story! I'm so disgusted by the mother's in these kind of stories. She leaves the first husband that didn't beat her, to be a with a man whose a PED! I have so much respect for this. Realizing that he does have power and agency, he rid this earth of the lowest form of human existence- PEDs! He is an exceptional man! If only every victim of this kind of trauma were as impressive as him! What a remarkable story, a true hero! The Gods only know how many children were saved due to his selfless actions! 🖤

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 Год назад +2

      The absolute worst story regarding this type of horrible stuff was that interview with the woman who is a sex offender, the one who had sex with her son. The amount of horrible shit that happened to her made it so hard to watch and the stuff with her son made me sick. This one is almost as bad.

    • @jacquelinefitzpatrick2405
      @jacquelinefitzpatrick2405 Год назад +2

      One thing to remember, every PED is also a victim. It's a sad cycle. People are not born this way.

    • @Parrotgirl-Tattoo
      @Parrotgirl-Tattoo Год назад

      @@brianmay7111 Tracy was her name I think. I can never unsee that old interview. 😢🤮🤢

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 Год назад +4

      @@jacquelinefitzpatrick2405 It seems so. I realized while watching these videos that we, as a society, are not even thinking about prevention of child abuse. If someone realizes they have urges towards children, they should be able to get treatment without having to be listed as a sex offender. But I only mean the ones who have done nothing to a child, they just know they are attracted to kids. I could respect someone like that, the ones who have abused kids however I have no sympathy for. We only act after the act happened and a childs life is ruined. Even if we killed people like that, it would mean nothing to the child.

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 Год назад +1

      @@Parrotgirl-Tattoo Yeah, I could not believe how many child molestors she encountered.

  • @Polz10
    @Polz10 Год назад +58

    I hope he can find closure and happiness in his later years. Children are so vulnerable 😢

  • @vuela_
    @vuela_ Год назад +32

    Heartbreaking story, childhood trauma can change the rest of your life. Protecting children should always be crucial. Blessings from Spain

  • @lisarodriguez6966
    @lisarodriguez6966 Год назад +30

    For someone who allegedly had no idea, his mother's actions and alcoholism sure pointed to absolutely knowing. But I get that he can't entertain the thought at this point.

  • @dixonsusa
    @dixonsusa Год назад +67

    Just heartbreaking. Wishing him healing and success.

  • @natalievu4399
    @natalievu4399 Год назад +18

    So, this Blanca was 25 & he was 12 & she has the nerve to say it wasn't right what happened to him.
    So many people failed him.

  • @Goodasteebaby
    @Goodasteebaby Год назад +20

    Omg she took him to the doctor and doctor never alerted the DCF OR POLICE 😮😮😮 their mother is EVILLLLLL

  • @msblondon1465
    @msblondon1465 Год назад +38

    I am so angry with the mother, she is thesame as the ones who were abusing her children because she did not nothing.... and her younger brother should watch this and realize that perhaps he has a better life now because his older brother killed the person (although it was his father) who might have harmed him the same way he did to this man when he was young.

    • @janellenevarezgomez3935
      @janellenevarezgomez3935 Год назад +1

      Wow spoiler alert over here. I read the comments before finishing the interview.

  • @jacksonfamily678
    @jacksonfamily678 Год назад +24

    I wish I could be this guy's neighbor and be some kindness and stability for him.

  • @Daniea3
    @Daniea3 5 месяцев назад +5

    Thank you William for so candidly telling your story. I know you're trying to grieve your dear sister.

  • @ukalypse
    @ukalypse Год назад +42

    Such a sweet man. I love the way he cared for his sister. I hope therapy can help him accept being treated well.

  • @michelleselman8004
    @michelleselman8004 Год назад +20

    My heart and prayers goes out to William my love and commitment to show up for persons who have been impacted by aces and trauma is solidified by these videos. This was every kind of heartbreaking .

  • @cinaferguson752
    @cinaferguson752 Год назад +15

    Mark two on this Sunday morning… thank you for all that you do sincerely! As a survivor I can’t explain my gratitude for your work!!

  • @jen-ms4xo
    @jen-ms4xo Год назад +44

    William I barely almost 7 min into your video and I wanted you to know you're not alone and that you're so brave for coming on here speaking with Mark I know you've touched countless people all over the world sharing your life's story I juss want to be able to teleport myself through my phone and give you a great big old hug that's if you'd let me I also suffered many years of abuse at my mother's R.I.P 2nd husband's , father of my youngest siblings and I am talking about every form of abuse you name it it started in the mid 70's and didn't end till the late 80's I believe I was the the literal red headed step child in my family I will never get the answers I want especially even more so now that my mother has been dead since 2019 plus whenever I do feel it's the right time ( like when is there ever a right time ) to ask certain very deep questions regarding my childhood life growing up in the same household as my eldest sister , my younger brother, and my youngest sister whenever I do bring up an event most of em don't wanna talk about it and that pisses me off royally I'm sure if I had the right amout of money to compensate them for their time they'd be willing to admit and share a lot more about our broken , toxic , dysfunctional, and abusive family well I believe I shared enough of about myself I hope you see my comment and have sometime to respond 😊 God bless you Dear fellow friend and brother in Jesus Christ you rock I wish nothing but the best for you in your lifetime God is good 👍 😊 ❤️ 💙 ☺️ 💖 1 last thing I wanted to let you know the beat thing that could ever happened for me from my mother's death is that I don't have to ever see or speak to her punk-ass no good husband for the rest of my life good riddance to him you reap what you sew 😊

  • @petebutler5139
    @petebutler5139 Год назад +18

    This guy has amazing physical character! His face is very unique! I could draw, sketch and paint this guy for days!

  • @prismbrandingrealestatebra6301
    @prismbrandingrealestatebra6301 Год назад +12

    Abusers look for single mothers. The mothers think these men are interested in them, not realizing these men were always after their kids.

  • @Schiffon
    @Schiffon Год назад +17

    William thank you for your story! This helps us all learn what this abuse does to our perfect, precious children. It is always life ruining, and absolutely never forgotten 😞.

  • @zo3_luv578
    @zo3_luv578 Год назад +18

    When will laws be set into place to protect children....it is ALL OF OUR RESPONSIBILITIES to protect ALL children. Parents get your shit together...children don't deserve ish like this. 🤬

    • @luvyatubers
      @luvyatubers 2 месяца назад

      Because harsh laws mean rich power criminals have to be punished. Popes priests politicians pediatricians principals hollyweirdos... The powerful don't punish each other. They have a buddy system

  • @oOxMichellexOo
    @oOxMichellexOo Год назад +13

    It breaks my heart that you've had to endure this trauma and I am so sorry that the people who were meant to protect you and your sister never did. You deserve the best life and I hope you can work through your experiences to have it. Sending you love.

  • @rocio_ins_servicea
    @rocio_ins_servicea Год назад +18

    Wow this is such a sad beautiful story. I understand why he killed his abusers and how it brought him peace. This happens in many families, and it's swept under the rug or its the family "secret." I know the pain myself, and it takes a while to heal. He is brave to share his story with the wolrd❤️

  • @Jadegurl95
    @Jadegurl95 Год назад +12

    These comments are so heartbreaking as well as this video. I pray we all heal from this and are able to move forward in a healthy way. I pray William gets the life that he deserves, sending nothing but love and good fortune.❤️❤️

  • @montanagabrielle
    @montanagabrielle Год назад +18

    Thank you SO much for your vulnerability. I know you putting yourself out there like this will help SO many people

  • @ceglenn1245
    @ceglenn1245 Год назад +12

    Blanca, she is worst of all. knowing this boy was abused, then abused him further… so sad!

  • @dawnserrano737
    @dawnserrano737 Год назад +45

    Telling your truth is so hard!..that judge was a good one...

  • @espyxelz2847
    @espyxelz2847 6 месяцев назад +3

    Poor William, I feel so bad he had to go thru this. This is truly hearbreaking😢...I wish him healing....and a happy life going forward.

  • @heathernikki5734
    @heathernikki5734 Год назад +12

    Sending love to William and all survivors. We are still here! ❤

  • @juliemackenzie1978
    @juliemackenzie1978 Год назад +18

    So very sad that alot of these adults were abused by adults, that were supposed to be there to protect them when they were children. 😳😕

  • @dionnedeniseeveryday
    @dionnedeniseeveryday Год назад +83

    Wrapping my arms around ALL survivors❤️
    Have hope for a better day, it will come. This is still a beautiful life if you make it one.

    • @Dpurple28
      @Dpurple28 Год назад +1

      Sadly 😥 that isn't the case, than everyone would make a beautiful life for themselves!!!

    • @silethaking279
      @silethaking279 Год назад +1

      It is…ALWAYS FORWARD!🙏🏾

  • @roxy1522
    @roxy1522 Год назад +10

    I smiled when he said what he did to Alejandro…

    • @k_xxo
      @k_xxo Год назад +2

      Same. Deserved it.

  • @Goodasteebaby
    @Goodasteebaby Год назад +12

    Thank God for great Teachers that pay attention to their students ❤🎉

  • @mybrutaltruth9359
    @mybrutaltruth9359 Год назад +100

    At about 5:45 onto video, I had to stop. I started crying and couldn't stop for around 15 minutes. Aside from myself not being on Skid Row, as my heroin addict mother was frequently, my story is quite similar to William. I was born a product of rape by one of the six men who raped my drug addled mother. My youth was basically living on the street, in churches and surviving by eating out of trash cans and such. Mother was gone months at a time. We had a "good period" when she got clean and I was about 9 years old, which didn't last. She and I ended up living in Stockton California. Living in absolute squalor, a family friend of my grandmother (was on cover of Vogue magazine back in the day and my mother is also god-daughter of Kathleen (Kit) Kennedy, which is another story). This person sent me to a summer camp to try and get me out of the nastiness of my mother and aunt doing drugs every day in front of me. Pythian Youth Camp in Kings Canyon near Fresno. Met counselor named Randy (Daniel) Ronk. Long story short, he was married with newborn, gave me/my mother money for power bill and phone, obviously wasn't used for that. Eventually after he became city councilman in Stockton (later became mayor) he purchased me from my mother. For about 8 years he drugged me and sexually abused me with promises of money and things that never came to fruition. When William started talking about the creamy substance, I lost it. I suffer badly from PTSD, live in small apt in MN that I haven't left for nearly 18 months or more, severe agoraphobia. Stemming from my abuser, who also forced me to drink hard liquor, putting porno mags on my bed and snipping holes into my curtains, so he could stand outside naked pleasing himself sts. So I appreciate your work beyond words.

    • @HoneySuckle123
      @HoneySuckle123 Год назад +6

      Wow, at first I was happy to hear you moved from the Bay Area to MN but sounds like you took your pain with you. I am so sorry for your sadness. Step by step my love, positive vibes can provide so much more light into your life. I want to hug you 🌷

    • @mybrutaltruth9359
      @mybrutaltruth9359 Год назад +3

      @@HoneySuckle123 thats so very kind. It seems to not be the norm any longer, to be kind and generous to others. Thank you, truly.

    • @sunlight8299
      @sunlight8299 Год назад +5

      I'm so sorry this happened to you. I hope you have love and safety in your life now

    • @mybrutaltruth9359
      @mybrutaltruth9359 Год назад +8

      @@sunlight8299 I do, although agoraphobia sucks and I haven't left my domicile in over 18 months, I have friends I've know for 8 years I play video games with online and the joys of my life are a dog and cat who are best pals, even tho dog is 12 yrs and cat is 1 they still ❤ each other.

    • @shamtriklo4320
      @shamtriklo4320 Год назад +7

      It absolutely breaks my heart that you were stripped of your innocence and childhood and all the injustice you suffered!! I truly believe one of the most EVIL creatures God put on this Earth is a lustful MAN! But please know that you owe it to yourself to regain happiness and peace as a TRUE SURVIVOR!! You are a HERO(INE) in my book!! 🏆🏆🏆

  • @ComeOn_ASMR
    @ComeOn_ASMR Год назад +8

    Omg I cannot believe this thing would happen to a kid💔……thank you for sharing your story with us. Wish you best of luck in life.

  • @mypart6087
    @mypart6087 Год назад +7

    Thanks SWB
    Most people have been waiting to exhale all their lives.
    This platform gives them a judgment free place to reminisce and share their story.
    Mother's aren't built for this kind of information. It usually involves a lover of theirs or a loved one. Alot of times they wont allow their perception of a person to change based on what some kid is telling them. A sense of self-guilt leaves them in denial.
    Kids,
    find a reliable adult to help you, doesn't have to be family.

  • @ows8426
    @ows8426 Год назад +29

    I believe everything he said, It’s just mind blowing.

  • @emilymedina9242
    @emilymedina9242 Год назад +3

    So sorry you went through this William. You’re a strong man for telling this story. Sending you hugs 🫂🤍

  • @adrianchadwick9524
    @adrianchadwick9524 Год назад +16

    It’s so sad that even his grown adults we still try to justify molestation and abuse is something we may have done or that it wasn’t a big deal it was a big deal and it was done! I wish you all the peace in the world
    And to every victim 😢

  • @dface6447
    @dface6447 Год назад +11

    i have no experience whatsoever with sex offenders but in my opinion they are the lowest of the low 🤬🤬🤬🤬 and should be executed period,the damage they cause is irreparable !!!! every time i see victims 99.9% of the time they end up severely messed up!!!,so not to condone murder or violence i think William did the world a favour!,i wish you the best William 👍 and i hope you can get clean 🙂.you deserve to have a chance! because the fentanyl will kill you soon 😐.

  • @nellytube4537
    @nellytube4537 Год назад +13

    What a courageous man, thank you for telling your story sir.

  • @petuladavis9561
    @petuladavis9561 Год назад +8

    Such a sad story thank U for sharing sending luv to U and your sister from Australia Xxx❤️

  • @susiequeen6530
    @susiequeen6530 Год назад +16

    You & your sister deserved so much more. You still deserve to live, you’re here for a reason. Sending you so much love & I am so proud of you for sharing your story.

  • @cathygray9092
    @cathygray9092 Год назад +6

    God bless William. Please thank him for telling his story. I hope he can get off the drugs and fiinallyhave happiness in his life. His story is absolutly very very sad. No child should have to live with one assault and this poor guy ........This man is a hero. He saved many many more innocent children from being harmed.

  • @tita1m
    @tita1m Год назад +6

    What a story!!! Hope William is doing well. Thanks for making these videos.

  • @janelong8869
    @janelong8869 Год назад +3

    William, I am so sorry you had to go through what you did.i wish there was a way to give you back your childhood.you are beyond brave and beautiful inside and out , take care and I wish you happiness forever more xxx

  • @TheHanouna11
    @TheHanouna11 Год назад +2

    Such a sweetheart you are William. I wanted to reach out from my screen and give you the biggest hug for being amazing even after all you have been thru. Sorry for the loss of your sister and I hope life gets better for you from every angle because you simply deserve it.
    Love you ❤

  • @player101snoop
    @player101snoop Год назад +3

    This one broke me. I feel so sorry for this dude... I pray William gets the help he needs.

  • @atolliver91
    @atolliver91 Год назад +17

    It was good he found righteous men to balance him out…

  • @Gia_Mc_Fia
    @Gia_Mc_Fia Год назад +1

    Thank you so much William. My heart goes out to you. I see a very beautiful soul and you are worth fighting for. Self love, like you said, is key. Just be humble and realize we all make mistakes but it is all about learning from them. And teaching others what you have learned. You telling your story has helped me to learn about different mindsets and why some people do what they do and to become more compassionate. The part about the wise judge brought a tear to my eye. And, it is so beautiful to see so much love that you have for your sister. Thank you for your bravery here today. How you told the straight up hard reality of life and how you felt and feel about everything. May God bless you and your loved ones. Big hugs from Oregon!

  • @cindyc4470
    @cindyc4470 Год назад +3

    God Bless the Judge who took your case and took 8 months of patience to extract your trauma from you, he really helped u. Bless u, cheers from Hong Kong.

  • @twinkievsdingdong
    @twinkievsdingdong Год назад +3

    At the end of this, I couldn't hold back my tears. Get yourself help man, my friend tried, died a week later before getting into a program. Good luck sir.

  • @mpat100
    @mpat100 Год назад +48

    Blessings and healing for William

  • @iamgoliath225
    @iamgoliath225 Год назад +1

    I lost count of how many of these ive watched in the last 3 days i like listening to them while im at work its very interesting and helps time pass

  • @truesavings1988
    @truesavings1988 Год назад +5

    My heart and hugs go out to this man. I agree with him 1000 percent ppl who harm children are the worst pieces of 💩 that ever walked this earth. May justice be served to all who harm any child.

  • @Dalester1979
    @Dalester1979 Год назад +6

    Wow!! What an amazing judge to have done all that he did for this 12-13 year old little broken boy.

  • @foreign7765
    @foreign7765 Год назад +8

    Unfortunately, most pedophiles have also been victims of child sexual abuse themselves. And the whole ''secret/shame/hiding'' thing creates deep-rooted perversion in their psyche, which makes them become abusers in turn. A never-ending cycle of abuse and trauma repeating itself, unless the early trauma is recognized and dealt with through long psychotherapy.

  • @terizaragosa3303
    @terizaragosa3303 Год назад +4

    William it's heart breaking to listen to all the terrible things you went through, but it is obvious you are very special, having some amazing men enter your life to help you when you needed it the most. This may sound bad, but Fidel was my favorite, he empowered you, and you did what I think any person in your position would want to do, just like the judge said. I only wish you could have kept going in a more positive direction. It's never to late, please find the strength to beat the drug addiction.

  • @Mr93sharpei
    @Mr93sharpei Год назад +1

    What a story ...he seems like a decent soul ... wishing him happiness and healing for the rest of his journey.
    Thank you
    Happy Thanksgiving...

  • @marisagoodman5817
    @marisagoodman5817 Год назад

    These stories that you share are so massively important.
    To give these people a voice
    Is everything. This is important work that your doing , on every level. You should win a award
    Honestly. ❤

  • @robloxmilkycow7756
    @robloxmilkycow7756 Год назад +19

    So sorry u went through this

  • @veggiekatt_
    @veggiekatt_ Год назад +12

    That judge is incredible omg Jesus protect our boys and girls

    • @seeyouinthegarden
      @seeyouinthegarden 2 месяца назад

      Amen

    • @seeyouinthegarden
      @seeyouinthegarden 2 месяца назад

      He's this nations only hope for right acting. How can a nation forsake God and expect to have right actions still. We are being judged.

    • @seeyouinthegarden
      @seeyouinthegarden 2 месяца назад

      But thankfully His grace is in our hearts to pray this. Praise the Lord.

  • @sandram9330
    @sandram9330 Год назад +8

    Thank you for the content on your channel. All of your platform, are definitely thought provoking. The stories are all so very sad. I want to cry; how can you not get emotional. All of these problems are caused by the human conditions. Don't stop or change these personal stories; you are exposing subject matters that needs to be discussed.

    • @4_REAL-r2y
      @4_REAL-r2y Год назад

      Same, this story really got to me😭

  • @lynl135
    @lynl135 Год назад +4

    I'm sorry for the loss of your sister, and for the trauma you endured as a child.

  • @gabriellemaes4078
    @gabriellemaes4078 Год назад +3

    Many of us suffered sexual abuse. You can heal. Lots and lots and lots of love to you. God bless.❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏

  • @heatherphillips2715
    @heatherphillips2715 Год назад +6

    I know you’re going to change your life again William! Your will is strong and you are a beautiful brave soul ❤❤❤❤❤💝

  • @TGBahr
    @TGBahr Год назад +1

    I'm very sorry that happened to you, William. You have nothing to be ashamed of. You were very brave for telling your story. All the best to you!

  • @roxilove984
    @roxilove984 Год назад +2

    Stories with these titles break my heart. Praying for you

  • @shirl3942
    @shirl3942 Год назад +4

    Please don't mess with kids. This man could have done great things in his life. He didn't stand a chance. I wish him well. He deserves a good life from now on.

  • @mirriamvalentin8634
    @mirriamvalentin8634 Год назад +12

    I feel for you bro. Keep going in life your wife loves you ❤️🙏 I pray you heal 🙏❤️

  • @chelsie1450
    @chelsie1450 Год назад +30

    It blows my mind that Mark called his actions murder. He's a hero not a murderer. The men only got what they deserved - the death penalty for his crimes against children! ☠️

    • @mildred714
      @mildred714 Год назад +1

      He’s not their to judge.

    • @b3791
      @b3791 Год назад +7

      @@mildred714 well the judicial system doesn’t d enough to deter peds

    • @b3791
      @b3791 Год назад

      Do

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 Год назад +3

      @@b3791
      Do you know that you can edit your comment instead of making another comment? See those 3 little dots to the upper right of your comment? That's where you can edit your comment. I dont know if you knew that or not. Sorry, I'm not trying to offend you or anything.

    • @setapartaay925
      @setapartaay925 Год назад +2

      @Wesley, if you don’t have the app on your phone, it doesn’t give you an option to edit, you have to delete the whole thing. I just recently deleted the app from my phone and discovered that I couldn’t edit a reply anymore. But that’s for sharing because he may have the app and May not have known that☺️

  • @rhonda6791
    @rhonda6791 Год назад +14

    I’m so sorry you had this happen to you xx

  • @user-ng6yx1ko2y
    @user-ng6yx1ko2y 3 месяца назад

    I send you my deepest Condolences at the loss of your sister. Thank you for your honesty.

  • @ThePsyn
    @ThePsyn Год назад +2

    Thank you so much for sharing your story William. I see you xo

  • @alexasantos376
    @alexasantos376 Год назад +1

    William, I pray you get the happy ending you deserve. Thank u for sharing, sending love from Seattle.

  • @MardilKing
    @MardilKing Год назад +12

    thank you william for talking