Love you Angelo. I am an 80 year old person. I have had quite a few mystical experiences and met quite a few teachers of Zen, Vipassana, Aikido and more. I sometimes seemed to "stumble across them". Now I have stumbled across first Mooji and now You. I have great mental thought suffering, and scenes from my life keep filtering through my mind. I do not feel these past episodes are me. I want to awaken before I die and I see now that I was always hiding as a misfit. wow this is a great stage of life to be in. A lot is happening.
Looove Mooji! He came into my life not quite a year ago. 🙏🙏🙏🥰 I honestly never know if there’s a difference other than timing (readiness) but maybe Angelo is more…. or less… idk… something. Easier, maybe.
I think I only had a glimpse of this once when i was a kid. Was driving with my dad, window down, then this sudden feeling of feeling good for no reason and the realization that I had no problems at all in that moment. I remember finding that weird and consciously trying to search for problems in my mind, but no, so I turned to my dad and exclaimed 'I have no problems in this moment!'. I've always dismissed this episode but little me might have had a peek into something :) Great video thank you
been watching this on repeat. I don't know how to be a human wacks me in the heart every time. Its weird I have always known I'm not the body and the longing for home haunts me. I have tried to find it by trying to be a good human. the anger and rage is coming in waves, I might be here for a while. Thanks for making this video.
Prior to waking up I studied consumer psychology. Understanding the limbic system was very useful for making sense of Awakening. We tend to protect our ego and have tribalistic drives. Check out Robert cardini's book Influence, the fifth edition. We have so many Antiquated internal drives that are designed to protect us. Negativity bias for example is 5 - 10 times stronger than seeking positive. This can easily Cloud your perception of the world
Thanks Angelo.. Heard your comment "I wouldn't be doing videos, unless they helped".. Really grateful....beginnong to 'see' trees & woods like I never saw them before, and that is after a lifetime...
I love to hear this! beautiful, i was marveling at a tree today, almost everyone walks past this beauty and doesn't even notice it. Almost enough to break your heart wide open :)
your talks are so helpful 🙏 this one took away the last doubt about this absolutely stunning magical reality. It’s so exciting I could cry of joy all the time.
“The habits that are obscuring it aren’t gone…you have to face them all…that can be very frustrating.” This. 😌 You’re right - been running from this without realizing, but simultaneously could sense a choice-less unfolding coming for “me.” I didn’t realize this is what was happening for the past 3 years. Now I finally know and hopefully will step out of the way and stop resisting. Thank you for easing the frustration 🙏🏼
Thank you very much. I had a sudden "panik attack" 6 years ago. After that my perception changed totally. I didnt recognize myself in the mirror and everything felt alien. All hidden or surpressed pain came up at once. I felt I was going crazy and had no explanation. The closest to me was to think I am ill and need theraphy. But Also I felt noone can help my with this - so I did not go to theraphy and started looking on youtube for "is Identity an illusion". I found Mooji and followed him for some years and a spiritual ego buildt up. I still felt I need to heal the person and his teaching will help me to become a normal, healed and enlightened person . Then new teachers came up. Tony Parsons, Ariana, Nargis, Theo and so on. It is so clear now. A guidance in an earlier state would have saved me some years maybe. But It doesent matter. Thank you ! I would love to talk with you.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake with 18 I read eckhart tolle, so also the idea came up that for real there is no person to heal. But it was so painful, that also the thought was strong that something is wrong.
Yep a strong sense. That's where reality has always been heading and something like that is what should be end game. Love this video ❤ Makes me very happy ❤
Some of the points here fit so well with my life that's it actually freaky, after decades of feeling like I was insane or the whole world was insane Just out of curiosity I read a book called "A guide to spirituality without religion" and a paragraph there made sth click in my mind. That was a year ago and it feels like I'm possessed knowing for the first time that there is something here and it's the most important thing, not sure what it is but this is the path.
I’m currently working on a series called ten oxherding pictures just released second yesterday. Also my book goes into far greater detail than I can here if you’re interested.
This is why have decided to watch your channel exclusively. I simply don’t want confusion…because it doesn’t take much to put me there. I am comfortable here. Once I understand more, maybe I might venture a bit…but I tend to like things kept in the simplest form for my curiosity. You do a great job expressing the inexpressible 😳. Perhaps our “intuition” knows where we are the most comfortable? I have always used the term in times of distress…”it is what it is”. Well now, it has a whole new meaning doesn’t it 😂🤣.
Thanks for making this Angelo, as many have already said this was helpful and delightful and gives me the sense to keep going! I appreciate your attempts to talk about this and the pointing. It feels just like when someone leaves a message in a dungeon in a multiplayer game that says “Don’t give up!” Thank you thank you thank you ❤
I've been watching more and more of these videos, and I'm having these moments where time just STOPS! It happens when I can pause my thoughts, while listening to you speak, and/or as you described you just wake up and time isn't there, there's no sound there's no though there just IS. Thank you for this content!! Please keep doing what you do!
I have found every one of your talks and pointings to be helpful. This particular vid though I think has been the most profoundly encouraging and affirming. Thank you!!!
Life answered! I've always wondered what the hell is going on and this is the answer... Thanks Angelo. This could be the best video I'll ever watch in my life :)
Wow! This is so helpful. I am in your retreat in 2023 and I've been confused about the stages and especially about the sense gates and dissolving forms. I think it's because I am still pre-first awakening. So these things are not in my experience yet. Great video! Thanks again!
I'm in what I call the frustrated as fuck stage of awakening 😅 I had a moment during meditation, after listening to one of your videos, where I realised I am not my thoughts gaaaah such sweet relief. There was this momentary peaceful black quiet abyss. I rarely find it again, yet I still feel it lurking. I had 6 months of feeling magic & ever since there's just a hunger. Awakening is all I care about, I devoured your book & go back to it often. 12 months post that first moment & I still catch myself identifying with thoughts & that's the frustrating as fuck part. I want self to drop away. I'm tired of the programming (conditioning whatever "it" is) that constantly kicks in, the wants & don't wants drive me insane. This is all I really care about anymore. Wake up already Tracey!
32:45 WHAT?! I experienced this two months ago for a literal split second and have been doubting it was an actual experience since. I'm not sure what to dismiss anymore. It's terrifying this might actually be happening to me and yet I don't want to stop or look away. There's no way I'm this lucky
I wish I had somone to show me the way, after my first awakening I went through a hurricane of forces that teared me appart like a spec then somehow throwed me out to literally resurrect out of the ashes, then grow vulnerable into discovering the sun light and little by little be the light
Thank you, wish I read your book before I stumbled on to this journey. I had it, but I couldn’t really focus and read it ! 😅but again, I trust everything had to be this way, no other way. Much appreciation for your channel, your lives and help ❤
I think I had an awakening early last year. I've never been the same person after that. It came after a huge low point in my life. I've been quietly searching for something to make it make sense to me till I found a video of zdogg then I found the new one he posted today with you in it.
Welcome! Believe it or not that can be clarified and deepened infinitely :). You’ll find good material here in these videos, many point to the movements that occur beyond that initial shift :)
I had this experience where I didn't follow my ego into a situation which I have been conditioned to react to..instead I watched from my buddha nature...it blew me away, I couldn't stop smiling and felt so 'light' afterwards...since however this clearness has faded, but it's still there.
I love your resources. I have followed Buddha At the Gas Pump for years and have read many books. Ive been going through a deeply, radically, ineffably life altering experience with Kundalini awakening which started about a decade ago. I would love to share this journeyless journey sometime. Do you talk to people personally? I have reached a point in this vastly deepening awakening where im being compelled to reach out to grow more, and to share. This has been cataclsymic, honestly, words cannot describe it...
It’s funny, I’ve been sitting in AA meetings for 15 years hearing everyone of us tell the same story. We feel separate and alone, different, weird, awkward and then discovered the unearned awakening in drugs and alcohol. Our 12th step promises an awakening. I am curious if you have ever read the book “Alcoholics Anonymous”? Bill Wilson wrote about his awakening and the steps that he and others followed to escape the deadly obsession with alcohol. There are many stories that follow and we all tell the same story. This is what we were always seeking ❤
I found the book Healing Trauma Through Self-Parenting by Patricia O'Gorman helpful with understanding how to apply the 12 steps in the awakening process. I was drawn to that book after having been raised by an alcoholic and now as an adult myself looking for healing. Hope that helps.
To me it’s almost always nostalgic is because I actually experienced different levels of non-dual awareness throughout my life even as a kid, but I had no explanation or any context to what it was
Phew... I had that sense that sth was not right exactly as you explained it. I even thought everyone acted like zombies. I did feel like an alien... I had to learn how to be a human by copying people.
Yes, this is reasonably common phenomenon I think. As we begin to form then solidify ego structures, some of us feel a distinct sense that "something isn't right here." The degree to which it feels unsettling, how well he can ignore it and distract ourselves etc play into how inclined we are to do something about it, but I think many people experience some degree of it. For me it was like a prison of thought and the more it solidified the smaller the cell got.
I always thought so too! If you are interested check out my serious on the ten oxherding pictures, it's great. Also I have a chapter in my book about stages of awakening in which I use a more metaphorical approach.
Thank you so much for sharing your teachings. I saw you on Guru Viking and found this channel from there. I'm also enjoying your book at the moment. You really have a way of cutting through and simplifying what are otherwise very nebulous concepts. For this video, I have a question about how (and if) you would relate your stages of awakening to the Theravada Four Path model. It seems like Initial Awakening corresponds with what would be considered 1st Path in that model, and that what you call Liberation corresponds with 4th path or Arahathood. The middle paths would be the stages of clarification after the initial awakening. Is this how would you might compare the two or are your describing something rather different here?
I'd say that's reasonably accurate although I'm not a Buddhist scholar and there can be a lot of disagreement over the exact meaning of the various fetters. For instance I know people who are clearly liberated but would say they have not fully broken all of the fetters, whereas I know people who are liberated who would say that's exactly what the fetters refer to. I'm less interested in giving someone a map (or more maps) and far more interested in showing them how to move beyond the map and (re) inherit the territory. At that point they can describe things how feels most accurate to them, or not describe at all bc realization is inherently indescribable :) Thanks for your question :)
Hi Anthony, seeking since I was 9; 73 now. I’ve read every teacher, watched countless yt videos. I’m in the group who intellectually understands it yet maybe fears it. It is now the most important thing for me. Thank you I feel you may be taking me there. I have downloaded a sample from your book and why haven’t I purchased it? I don’t want another disappointment, and also Awakening waits for me there. Going to happen? I hope so.
When it’s the most important thing to you, when you’re really ready to let go of all of your ideas and concepts that orient you to the safety of the known, then it’s just a matter of time. You’ve come a long way friend. As my friend Eshwar has said, once you come into contact with the unknown, you can turn back to what you know or keep going :) I wish you fruition ☺️
@@andreasheridan7394 Ha! There is no self anywhere so if there can be said to be an “it” to call Angelo , then it’s also called Andrea! Reality has a lot of different names, but only ones we agree upon apparently 😂
Did I misunderstand or did you say that there are stages beyond liberation (at 17:24 and 55:02)? Do you have any videos on this or know of any resources on it?
Isn't spirituality just a way for traumatised people to cope with life? What makes me doubt in concept of awekening is fear that my ego is actually supporting my spiritual journey! I feel better since i started it, what if my spiritual progress isnt "real" but my ego actually wants me to think it is because i feel better?
This is the way the mind does us eh? I know this frustration, it was so vivid and binding for me. All I can say is what I'm pointing to is truly a way out of that world of getting constantly pushed around by your own thoughts. Doubtmass, while quite painful, is also part of the formula of conditions that comes together to wake us up. Without realizing that trying to sort out "my life" through thinking and concepts is inherently painful, there is little impetus to awaken. So that doubt mass plus a little glimmer of trust that what we are pointing to is a very real possibility is a magic combination. Even if the voice of doubt is quite loud and that glimmer of trust in something (no-thing) that is more real than this perceived reality is a mere whisper, the conditions are there for the transition to happen :)
Thank you Angelo. You're giving so much in your videos, on so many levels. There is this thought from time to time: shall I contact Angelo for a personal inquiry? Perhaps from a longing to exchange what is impossible to exchange with anybody in my environment. But honestly, I would just sit (I know, that's a thought). I have nothing to say, really. The process I am experiencing is unfolding just as it is. I fully accept it's pace and dynamics. There's a deepest dive right in front of me. But again, a sincere thank you, also for being next to me, in a way. Much love, Louise
They say man cannot see the face of God and live. Awakening then is seeing the face of God. The one who approached does not survive. Liberation then is God persistently seeing the face of God. Creation and destruction simultaneously. In each moment. In my more rebellious moments I wonder if the Buddha talked about rebirth as a way of trolling the priests at the time. Kinda a way to ward against depending on gurus who live to tell you how to be good, how to live your life - he said the ultimate reincarnation is to be gone, and also in doing so also implies that every single moment is a brand new life. A one hour seated meditation session is then "thousands of lifetimes" Who knows.
@simplyalwaysawake have you created a more recent video where you do a better job of explaining the experience of awakening in these later stages where you say "its hard to explain"
This was a very cool video. Sure this is the most important thing in life. Thank you for being such a promoter ;). In this earlier videos you were less afraid to create expectations, very nice indeed. I'm still a piece of thinking meat ;) doing my best though... Do you have a video in which you focus on "What is mu?" ?
❤love you videos . I just had a mini awakening by remember, hearing in your videos, people saying its so obvious. And i was just laying there and realized my sense of self is not really there. Thats the most obvious thing i can find and it feels weird 😅 but i can still go from ego to no ego And im having trouble trying to figure out what i am after no ego. any help ?
Hi Angelo, I sent you a practice question through your website but this one is more specific to this video. You say that people can experience "oneness" but upon further investigation have not had a true awakening. But I also I understand it that oneness is a quality of awakening. I can certainly imagine experiences of deep connection like playing music with people or making love, which alter the sense of self but may not be awakening. Could you elaborate? In my experience with the Theravada monastics, they claim the phrase "we are all one" doesn't speak to the truth of awakening because if we were all one, I could exert control over everything, which isn't the case. We use these terminologies--Buddha nature, No-self, True self, I AM. Its easy reading these to conceptualize, and I end up just not trusting my experiences.
In the book the chapter “what is awakening” goes into great detail about this. The first shift which is an identity level shift and not mistakable I call awakening. I also explain a I Am, and discuss later stages of awakening. No-self /Anatta is a culmination of later refinements such as non-dual, and is relatively speaking a very deep stage of realization. By this I mean of those who have had authentic awakenings most have not realized and actualized Anatta. But I think more and more are with good pointing. As far as oneness etc, these are experiences and are good glimpses but are not true awakening. Some people experience them very frequently but are relatively uninterested in true awakening. On the other hand I know many people who are only concerned with authentic realization, and rarely have those experiences. However at some point it’s impossible to talk about experiences such as non-dual realization where by definition the experience and experiencer cease to exist :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Well, I'm clearly engaging in imagining and conceptualizing, which is sometimes interesting but not relieving. Regardless of what my experiences qualify as, recreating through memory can never be do them service. I kind of feel torn between worlds though, not fully inhabiting the Big Mind or the Little Mind, and fearing I could lose access to the Big Mind if I damage my body or mind somehow (what I wrote you about) I know this is just a fearful thought, but a powerful one. So I wonder if some realizations would utterly destroy this fear, or if there is room for doubts of this type even after thorough awakening. It would be nice to not fear senility, death, and helplessness...permanently! I'll leave it be for now, in fear of going too deep in the RUclips comments :)
@@westonbarter8309 yes the fear of death subsides in later stages of realization specifically when the perception of external world drops away. What little fear or remnant suffering is left (not much) will be obliterated with Anatta. Until then a lot of shadow work is often required. See chapter on emotions :)
@@SpiritualPsychotherapyServices dude if you want to comment from your experience or ask questions here that’s fine. But if you keep pasting huge excerpts from whatever this book is all over comments I’ll remove you. We try to have nice things around here 😂😂
55:02 You describe that there are even more clarifying movements beyond your description of liberation. Do you have any videos on that topic? Edit: Also thank you for your description of liberation, it sort of verifies where I'm at. It's difficult to put words to.
Clear formless non-dual ongoing no perception or perceptual distance no sense of agency spontaneous appearing leaving no trace disjoint zero-distance experience (nothing moving between moments no flow of time no space no denial of conventional no reifying importance of liberation delusive hinderance seen to be only existent in a mirror effect of mind not existing in sense world
in short: awakening is something shifting, like something big, basicaly something important. Something you often suddenly realise. It can be something good or something bad. It can happen to someone who wants it but also to someone who doesnt want it. It is something profound and deep, maybe, usually, but sometimes it is not, maybe. in very short: this dude is anything but awake, his followers are gullable sheep, the only thing im seeing here is marketing. Very wide marketing of something imaginable. I believe the awakening is a real thing, but its very rare, very painful and oposite of what people here actually seek. What these people seek is mystical experience and best way to get it is from your local drug dealer.
Maybe you could try to think of good analogies that would help people perform self-tests to determine where they are at. Sometimes I listen, and I think 'ok, maybe that has been done', or something else has been done, or maybe nothing has been done. Some people may be too boastful, and some too humble, so it sure would be nice if there was some way to clearly define stages in a fool-proof manner.
I have no way of knowing that. I can't even really know for sure the experience of people I work directly with for years, communication is funny that way.
For me, the antagonism was the exclusivity of materialism in life, from birth to death, and the nonsense of western religion. And the way people are satisfied being immersed in that offering; ie, just puff yourself up, be lustful+greedy, and say 'im saved, Jebus died for my sins' . That's the best. The grand delusion. I had way too many insights that demonstrated such a view was silly, corrupt, corrupting. Dangerous.
Great, but who gets liberated ? The Big "I"was never bound, who benefits ? Why bother, when This pont of awareness goes back into the Ocean by body death then its done 👍
“I don’t know how to talk about what other people talk about.” This. I heard this and wasn’t sure whether to laugh or cry… 🥹 The funny thing is, I do “know how” and often manage to do it well (if you ask 100 people they’d probably all agree I’m an extrovert) but when I’m speaking purely authentically… it… never seems to go well. It’s awful, actually. And the sense that there was something wrong with me was sooo pervasive. Authenticity is probably the most consistent … pull in my life. And I hated it. And made peace with it. Back and forth ad nauseam. “well I can’t be anyone else… may as well figure out a way to comfortably be myself” Of course the lifelong drive to somehow bring “me” and “everything else” together… lol that was my imagined path and it suuuuuucked! No joke I thought my mission in life was to figure out a unified theory of everything 🤣 that’s CRAZY! Ugh… like I couldn’t rest until I could 1) understand myself and to do that I also had to 2) understand others deeply 3) by coming to agreement with them, fundamentally and 4) integrating the part of ME “they” showed me, so I could 5) love and accept myself unconditionally in order to finally 6) love others unconditionally and 7) arrive at a state of blissful union with a world that seemed inhospitable to who I felt myself to be. I am thankful, grateful beyond words for life and movement/impermanence and timing and your clear transmitting and pointing. Granted, everything clearly transmits and points to this… but it didn’t feel fully ok until your channel got bumped into my RUclips feed 🙏🙏🙏 (there wasn’t anything to not like 😬🫣😜😂😂😇) Thanks so much Angelo 🙏👏👏👏🙏
17:44 pre-awakening
30:08 initial awakening
35:26 post-awakening stages
42:40 liberation
Love you Angelo. I am an 80 year old person. I have had quite a few mystical experiences and met quite a few teachers of Zen, Vipassana, Aikido and more. I sometimes seemed to "stumble across them". Now I have stumbled across first Mooji and now You. I have great mental thought suffering, and scenes from my life keep filtering through my mind. I do not feel these past episodes are me. I want to awaken before I die and I see now that I was always hiding as a misfit. wow this is a great stage of life to be in. A lot is happening.
yes! Awesome, so glad to hear this! ❤❤❤
😍🥳❤️❤️❤️👏🙏👏🙏
Looove Mooji! He came into my life not quite a year ago. 🙏🙏🙏🥰
I honestly never know if there’s a difference other than timing (readiness) but maybe Angelo is more…. or less… idk… something. Easier, maybe.
I think I only had a glimpse of this once when i was a kid. Was driving with my dad, window down, then this sudden feeling of feeling good for no reason and the realization that I had no problems at all in that moment. I remember finding that weird and consciously trying to search for problems in my mind, but no, so I turned to my dad and exclaimed 'I have no problems in this moment!'. I've always dismissed this episode but little me might have had a peek into something :) Great video thank you
been watching this on repeat. I don't know how to be a human wacks me in the heart every time. Its weird I have always known I'm not the body and the longing for home haunts me.
I have tried to find it by trying to be a good human. the anger and rage is coming in waves, I might be here for a while.
Thanks for making this video.
Prior to waking up I studied consumer psychology. Understanding the limbic system was very useful for making sense of Awakening. We tend to protect our ego and have tribalistic drives. Check out Robert cardini's book Influence, the fifth edition. We have so many Antiquated internal drives that are designed to protect us. Negativity bias for example is 5 - 10 times stronger than seeking positive. This can easily Cloud your perception of the world
Receiving the message feels comfortable and comforting. Perhaps it found me with perfect timing.
Thanks Angelo..
Heard your comment "I wouldn't be doing videos, unless they helped"..
Really grateful....beginnong to 'see' trees & woods like I never saw them before, and that is after a lifetime...
I love to hear this! beautiful, i was marveling at a tree today, almost everyone walks past this beauty and doesn't even notice it. Almost enough to break your heart wide open :)
your talks are so helpful 🙏
this one took away the last doubt about this absolutely stunning magical reality.
It’s so exciting I could cry of joy all the time.
Wonderful!
I really like some of your descriptions. And there's a huge amount of shared joy in the struggle to find words!
“The habits that are obscuring it aren’t gone…you have to face them all…that can be very frustrating.”
This. 😌 You’re right - been running from this without realizing, but simultaneously could sense a choice-less unfolding coming for “me.”
I didn’t realize this is what was happening for the past 3 years. Now I finally know and hopefully will step out of the way and stop resisting. Thank you for easing the frustration 🙏🏼
Yes this! Like ugh and yay 🫣🥰
Thank you very much. I had a sudden "panik attack" 6 years ago. After that my perception changed totally. I didnt recognize myself in the mirror and everything felt alien. All hidden or surpressed pain came up at once. I felt I was going crazy and had no explanation. The closest to me was to think I am ill and need theraphy. But Also I felt noone can help my with this - so I did not go to theraphy and started looking on youtube for "is Identity an illusion". I found Mooji and followed him for some years and a spiritual ego buildt up.
I still felt I need to heal the person and his teaching will help me to become a normal, healed and enlightened person .
Then new teachers came up. Tony Parsons, Ariana, Nargis, Theo and so on. It is so clear now. A guidance in an earlier state would have saved me some years maybe. But It doesent matter. Thank you !
I would love to talk with you.
Thx for sharing your story. This happens for so many people and many never realize it is the first movement of awakening.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake with 18 I read eckhart tolle, so also the idea came up that for real there is no person to heal. But it was so painful, that also the thought was strong that something is wrong.
Yep a strong sense. That's where reality has always been heading and something like that is what should be end game.
Love this video ❤ Makes me very happy ❤
Some of the points here fit so well with my life that's it actually freaky, after decades of feeling like I was insane or the whole world was insane Just out of curiosity I read a book called "A guide to spirituality without religion" and a paragraph there made sth click in my mind. That was a year ago and it feels like I'm possessed knowing for the first time that there is something here and it's the most important thing, not sure what it is but this is the path.
I’m currently working on a series called ten oxherding pictures just released second yesterday. Also my book goes into far greater detail than I can here if you’re interested.
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake will check them out. Thank you!
This is why have decided to watch your channel exclusively. I simply don’t want confusion…because it doesn’t take much to put me there. I am comfortable here. Once I understand more, maybe I might venture a bit…but I tend to like things kept in the simplest form for my curiosity. You do a great job expressing the inexpressible 😳. Perhaps our “intuition” knows where we are the most comfortable? I have always used the term in times of distress…”it is what it is”. Well now, it has a whole new meaning doesn’t it 😂🤣.
Wish I had found your videos a year ago, I was completely lost and terrified..
Welcome my friend.
Thanks for making this Angelo, as many have already said this was helpful and delightful and gives me the sense to keep going! I appreciate your attempts to talk about this and the pointing. It feels just like when someone leaves a message in a dungeon in a multiplayer game that says “Don’t give up!” Thank you thank you thank you ❤
You're very welcome!
I've been watching more and more of these videos, and I'm having these moments where time just STOPS! It happens when I can pause my thoughts, while listening to you speak, and/or as you described you just wake up and time isn't there, there's no sound there's no though there just IS.
Thank you for this content!! Please keep doing what you do!
Awesome man, thanks for your comment :)
I have found every one of your talks and pointings to be helpful. This particular vid though I think has been the most profoundly encouraging and affirming. Thank you!!!
I'm so glad!
Life answered! I've always wondered what the hell is going on and this is the answer... Thanks Angelo. This could be the best video I'll ever watch in my life :)
I'm only halfway through and the level of resonance I feel with your words is astounding
Wow! This is so helpful. I am in your retreat in 2023 and I've been confused about the stages and especially about the sense gates and dissolving forms. I think it's because I am still pre-first awakening. So these things are not in my experience yet. Great video! Thanks again!
I'm in what I call the frustrated as fuck stage of awakening 😅 I had a moment during meditation, after listening to one of your videos, where I realised I am not my thoughts gaaaah such sweet relief. There was this momentary peaceful black quiet abyss. I rarely find it again, yet I still feel it lurking. I had 6 months of feeling magic & ever since there's just a hunger. Awakening is all I care about, I devoured your book & go back to it often. 12 months post that first moment & I still catch myself identifying with thoughts & that's the frustrating as fuck part. I want self to drop away. I'm tired of the programming (conditioning whatever "it" is) that constantly kicks in, the wants & don't wants drive me insane. This is all I really care about anymore. Wake up already Tracey!
Oh lol just got to the part where you talk about the frustrated part. Maybe that's what I'm in ... This part can bite me.
32:45
WHAT?! I experienced this two months ago for a literal split second and have been doubting it was an actual experience since. I'm not sure what to dismiss anymore. It's terrifying this might actually be happening to me and yet I don't want to stop or look away. There's no way I'm this lucky
Thank you for sharing with us, so appreciated💜
I wish I had somone to show me the way, after my first awakening I went through a hurricane of forces that teared me appart like a spec then somehow throwed me out to literally resurrect out of the ashes, then grow vulnerable into discovering the sun light and little by little be the light
Lovely ❤❤ thank you
Very helpful, very clear. I loved this!
Risa Willeke I’m glad it was useful ! Cheers!
fantastic video! and deeply well spoken, your pointers are well received, brother. 💜✌️
Language, appreciating the skill in pointing.
Thank you, wish I read your book before I stumbled on to this journey. I had it, but I couldn’t really focus and read it !
😅but again, I trust everything had to be this way, no other way. Much appreciation for your channel, your lives and help ❤
Great talk thank you 🧡 🙏
You’re welcome ☺️
I think I had an awakening early last year. I've never been the same person after that. It came after a huge low point in my life. I've been quietly searching for something to make it make sense to me till I found a video of zdogg then I found the new one he posted today with you in it.
Welcome! Believe it or not that can be clarified and deepened infinitely :). You’ll find good material here in these videos, many point to the movements that occur beyond that initial shift :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake I going to start reading your book as well and im going to see where it takes me.
I had this experience where I didn't follow my ego into a situation which I have been conditioned to react to..instead I watched from my buddha nature...it blew me away, I couldn't stop smiling and felt so 'light' afterwards...since however this clearness has faded, but it's still there.
Wonderful! Amazing what deep trust in life itself results in
Thankyou for the videos you've put out...you are a true Bodhisattva 🙏
Your description of liberation sounds like Nirvikalpa Samadhi x
This is so helpful thank you very much x
Welcome!
Thank you! 😊
Love it.
I love your resources. I have followed Buddha At the Gas Pump for years and have read many books.
Ive been going through a deeply, radically, ineffably life altering experience with Kundalini awakening which started about a decade ago. I would love to share this journeyless journey sometime. Do you talk to people personally?
I have reached a point in this vastly deepening awakening where im being compelled to reach out to grow more, and to share.
This has been cataclsymic, honestly, words cannot describe it...
It’s funny, I’ve been sitting in AA meetings for 15 years hearing everyone of us tell the same story. We feel separate and alone, different, weird, awkward and then discovered the unearned awakening in drugs and alcohol. Our 12th step promises an awakening. I am curious if you have ever read the book “Alcoholics Anonymous”? Bill Wilson wrote about his awakening and the steps that he and others followed to escape the deadly obsession with alcohol. There are many stories that follow and we all tell the same story. This is what we were always seeking ❤
I agree. Have you checked out Paul Hedderman? He does non-duality talks and also has a background in recovery. Quotes the AA book frequently
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thank you! Yes, I have but I have a hard time following/resonating. You are far more clear to me.
I found the book Healing Trauma Through Self-Parenting by Patricia O'Gorman helpful with understanding how to apply the 12 steps in the awakening process. I was drawn to that book after having been raised by an alcoholic and now as an adult myself looking for healing. Hope that helps.
@@michellebillie8697 Thank you 🙏🏻
U should checkout Eshwar. He was an alcoholic that went through the awakening process. He points clearly like Angelo
The nostalgic feeling of Awakening could simply be accessing the unadulterated mind
To me it’s almost always nostalgic is because I actually experienced different levels of non-dual awareness throughout my life even as a kid, but I had no explanation or any context to what it was
Phew... I had that sense that sth was not right exactly as you explained it. I even thought everyone acted like zombies. I did feel like an alien... I had to learn how to be a human by copying people.
Yes, this is reasonably common phenomenon I think. As we begin to form then solidify ego structures, some of us feel a distinct sense that "something isn't right here." The degree to which it feels unsettling, how well he can ignore it and distract ourselves etc play into how inclined we are to do something about it, but I think many people experience some degree of it. For me it was like a prison of thought and the more it solidified the smaller the cell got.
very helpful. very exciting.
Glad to hear!
I always thought so too! If you are interested check out my serious on the ten oxherding pictures, it's great. Also I have a chapter in my book about stages of awakening in which I use a more metaphorical approach.
thank you your content is AMAZING
Thank you so much
You're most welcome
"deck is being shuffled moment to moment" 😘❤
Thank you so much for sharing your teachings. I saw you on Guru Viking and found this channel from there. I'm also enjoying your book at the moment. You really have a way of cutting through and simplifying what are otherwise very nebulous concepts. For this video, I have a question about how (and if) you would relate your stages of awakening to the Theravada Four Path model. It seems like Initial Awakening corresponds with what would be considered 1st Path in that model, and that what you call Liberation corresponds with 4th path or Arahathood. The middle paths would be the stages of clarification after the initial awakening. Is this how would you might compare the two or are your describing something rather different here?
I'd say that's reasonably accurate although I'm not a Buddhist scholar and there can be a lot of disagreement over the exact meaning of the various fetters. For instance I know people who are clearly liberated but would say they have not fully broken all of the fetters, whereas I know people who are liberated who would say that's exactly what the fetters refer to. I'm less interested in giving someone a map (or more maps) and far more interested in showing them how to move beyond the map and (re) inherit the territory. At that point they can describe things how feels most accurate to them, or not describe at all bc realization is inherently indescribable :) Thanks for your question :)
Hi Anthony, seeking since I was 9; 73 now. I’ve read every teacher, watched countless yt videos. I’m in the group who intellectually understands it yet maybe fears it. It is now the most important thing for me. Thank you I feel you may be taking me there. I have downloaded a sample from your book and why haven’t I purchased it? I don’t want another disappointment, and also Awakening waits for me there. Going to happen? I hope so.
When it’s the most important thing to you, when you’re really ready to let go of all of your ideas and concepts that orient you to the safety of the known, then it’s just a matter of time. You’ve come a long way friend. As my friend Eshwar has said, once you come into contact with the unknown, you can turn back to what you know or keep going :)
I wish you fruition ☺️
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Thank you. Will keep you posted, AND just ordered your book. Namaste
@@andreasheridan7394 !!!
Angelo! Sorry, I.know there is no self there, but a no-Self named Angelo!
@@andreasheridan7394 Ha! There is no self anywhere so if there can be said to be an “it” to call Angelo , then it’s also called Andrea! Reality has a lot of different names, but only ones we agree upon apparently 😂
Did I misunderstand or did you say that there are stages beyond liberation (at 17:24 and 55:02)? Do you have any videos on this or know of any resources on it?
Isn't spirituality just a way for traumatised people to cope with life? What makes me doubt in concept of awekening is fear that my ego is actually supporting my spiritual journey! I feel better since i started it, what if my spiritual progress isnt "real" but my ego actually wants me to think it is because i feel better?
This is the way the mind does us eh? I know this frustration, it was so vivid and binding for me. All I can say is what I'm pointing to is truly a way out of that world of getting constantly pushed around by your own thoughts. Doubtmass, while quite painful, is also part of the formula of conditions that comes together to wake us up. Without realizing that trying to sort out "my life" through thinking and concepts is inherently painful, there is little impetus to awaken. So that doubt mass plus a little glimmer of trust that what we are pointing to is a very real possibility is a magic combination. Even if the voice of doubt is quite loud and that glimmer of trust in something (no-thing) that is more real than this perceived reality is a mere whisper, the conditions are there for the transition to happen :)
Thank you Angelo. You're giving so much in your videos, on so many levels. There is this thought from time to time: shall I contact Angelo for a personal inquiry? Perhaps from a longing to exchange what is impossible to exchange with anybody in my environment. But honestly, I would just sit (I know, that's a thought). I have nothing to say, really. The process I am experiencing is unfolding just as it is. I fully accept it's pace and dynamics. There's a deepest dive right in front of me.
But again, a sincere thank you, also for being next to me, in a way. Much love, Louise
They say man cannot see the face of God and live. Awakening then is seeing the face of God. The one who approached does not survive.
Liberation then is God persistently seeing the face of God. Creation and destruction simultaneously. In each moment.
In my more rebellious moments I wonder if the Buddha talked about rebirth as a way of trolling the priests at the time. Kinda a way to ward against depending on gurus who live to tell you how to be good, how to live your life - he said the ultimate reincarnation is to be gone, and also in doing so also implies that every single moment is a brand new life. A one hour seated meditation session is then "thousands of lifetimes"
Who knows.
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I’m getting in my own way FO SHO!!! Decade deep on this circle ⭕️ sideshow
@simplyalwaysawake have you created a more recent video where you do a better job of explaining the experience of awakening in these later stages where you say "its hard to explain"
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The fish needs to say,
"Something ain't right about this
Camel ride -
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Feeling so damn
Thirsty."
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So funny 🤪👍
It was the last 10 minutes I had to play about 10 times. My brain is going to explode. I need duct take to wrap around my head LOL thank you
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Non working towards nothing 👏🏼👏🏼🙌🏼
This was a very cool video. Sure this is the most important thing in life. Thank you for being such a promoter ;). In this earlier videos you were less afraid to create expectations, very nice indeed. I'm still a piece of thinking meat ;) doing my best though... Do you have a video in which you focus on "What is mu?" ?
How does one work through the next steps after realization? That’s where I’ve been stuck for months.
Start with the equanimity and non-duality playlists
❤love you videos . I just had a mini awakening by remember, hearing in your videos, people saying its so obvious. And i was just laying there and realized my sense of self is not really there. Thats the most obvious thing i can find and it feels weird 😅 but i can still go from ego to no ego
And im having trouble trying to figure out what i am after no ego. any help ?
Angelo, who is this child? He seems to know his stuff, perhaps you should interview him......?!
Hi Angelo, I sent you a practice question through your website but this one is more specific to this video. You say that people can experience "oneness" but upon further investigation have not had a true awakening. But I also I understand it that oneness is a quality of awakening. I can certainly imagine experiences of deep connection like playing music with people or making love, which alter the sense of self but may not be awakening. Could you elaborate?
In my experience with the Theravada monastics, they claim the phrase "we are all one" doesn't speak to the truth of awakening because if we were all one, I could exert control over everything, which isn't the case.
We use these terminologies--Buddha nature, No-self, True self, I AM. Its easy reading these to conceptualize, and I end up just not trusting my experiences.
In the book the chapter “what is awakening” goes into great detail about this. The first shift which is an identity level shift and not mistakable I call awakening. I also explain a I Am, and discuss later stages of awakening. No-self /Anatta is a culmination of later refinements such as non-dual, and is relatively speaking a very deep stage of realization. By this I mean of those who have had authentic awakenings most have not realized and actualized Anatta. But I think more and more are with good pointing.
As far as oneness etc, these are experiences and are good glimpses but are not true awakening. Some people experience them very frequently but are relatively uninterested in true awakening. On the other hand I know many people who are only concerned with authentic realization, and rarely have those experiences. However at some point it’s impossible to talk about experiences such as non-dual realization where by definition the experience and experiencer cease to exist :)
@@SimplyAlwaysAwake Well, I'm clearly engaging in imagining and conceptualizing, which is sometimes interesting but not relieving. Regardless of what my experiences qualify as, recreating through memory can never be do them service.
I kind of feel torn between worlds though, not fully inhabiting the Big Mind or the Little Mind, and fearing I could lose access to the Big Mind if I damage my body or mind somehow (what I wrote you about) I know this is just a fearful thought, but a powerful one. So I wonder if some realizations would utterly destroy this fear, or if there is room for doubts of this type even after thorough awakening.
It would be nice to not fear senility, death, and helplessness...permanently! I'll leave it be for now, in fear of going too deep in the RUclips comments :)
@@westonbarter8309 yes the fear of death subsides in later stages of realization specifically when the perception of external world drops away. What little fear or remnant suffering is left (not much) will be obliterated with Anatta. Until then a lot of shadow work is often required. See chapter on emotions :)
@@SpiritualPsychotherapyServices dude if you want to comment from your experience or ask questions here that’s fine. But if you keep pasting huge excerpts from whatever this book is all over comments I’ll remove you. We try to have nice things around here 😂😂
55:02 You describe that there are even more clarifying movements beyond your description of liberation. Do you have any videos on that topic?
Edit: Also thank you for your description of liberation, it sort of verifies where I'm at. It's difficult to put words to.
Clear formless non-dual ongoing
no perception or perceptual distance
no sense of agency
spontaneous appearing leaving no trace
disjoint zero-distance experience (nothing moving between moments
no flow of time
no space
no denial of conventional
no reifying importance of liberation
delusive hinderance seen to be only existent in a mirror effect of mind not existing in sense world
Who knew it would be so complex to think about the meaning of a simple thought in the context that “I” may not actually be “me”……heavy stuff this…..
Whoa!!
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in short: awakening is something shifting, like something big, basicaly something important. Something you often suddenly realise. It can be something good or something bad. It can happen to someone who wants it but also to someone who doesnt want it. It is something profound and deep, maybe, usually, but sometimes it is not, maybe.
in very short: this dude is anything but awake, his followers are gullable sheep, the only thing im seeing here is marketing. Very wide marketing of something imaginable. I believe the awakening is a real thing, but its very rare, very painful and oposite of what people here actually seek. What these people seek is mystical experience and best way to get it is from your local drug dealer.
Maybe you could try to think of good analogies that would help people perform self-tests to determine where they are at. Sometimes I listen, and I think 'ok, maybe that has been done', or something else has been done, or maybe nothing has been done. Some people may be too boastful, and some too humble, so it sure would be nice if there was some way to clearly define stages in a fool-proof manner.
It’s amazing how much we can talk about absolute nothingness 😆
right??
Do you sense that you attained to the same enlightenment as the Buddha?
I have no way of knowing that. I can't even really know for sure the experience of people I work directly with for years, communication is funny that way.
1 dimensional identity shuffling?
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How can you say it's so obvious?! That is soo frustrating for this mind..
What’s he got in the top of his head?
beauty
For me, the antagonism was the exclusivity of materialism in life, from birth to death, and the nonsense of western religion. And the way people are satisfied being immersed in that offering; ie, just puff yourself up, be lustful+greedy, and say 'im saved, Jebus died for my sins' . That's the best. The grand delusion. I had way too many insights that demonstrated such a view was silly, corrupt, corrupting. Dangerous.
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Find the do”er… and dissolve.
Great, but who gets liberated ? The Big "I"was never bound, who benefits ? Why bother, when This pont of awareness goes back into the Ocean by body death then its done 👍
"Who gets liberated?" becomes a moot point after stream entry. And yet that really is only the beginning of the brocess.
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“I don’t know how to talk about what other people talk about.”
This. I heard this and wasn’t sure whether to laugh or cry… 🥹
The funny thing is, I do “know how” and often manage to do it well (if you ask 100 people they’d probably all agree I’m an extrovert) but when I’m speaking purely authentically… it… never seems to go well. It’s awful, actually. And the sense that there was something wrong with me was sooo pervasive. Authenticity is probably the most consistent … pull in my life. And I hated it. And made peace with it. Back and forth ad nauseam.
“well I can’t be anyone else… may as well figure out a way to comfortably be myself”
Of course the lifelong drive to somehow bring “me” and “everything else” together… lol that was my imagined path and it suuuuuucked!
No joke I thought my mission in life was to figure out a unified theory of everything 🤣 that’s CRAZY! Ugh… like I couldn’t rest until I could 1) understand myself and to do that I also had to 2) understand others deeply 3) by coming to agreement with them, fundamentally and 4) integrating the part of ME “they” showed me, so I could 5) love and accept myself unconditionally in order to finally 6) love others unconditionally and 7) arrive at a state of blissful union with a world that seemed inhospitable to who I felt myself to be.
I am thankful, grateful beyond words for life and movement/impermanence and timing and your clear transmitting and pointing. Granted, everything clearly transmits and points to this… but it didn’t feel fully ok until your channel got bumped into my RUclips feed 🙏🙏🙏 (there wasn’t anything to not like 😬🫣😜😂😂😇)
Thanks so much Angelo 🙏👏👏👏🙏
I can relate to all of that for sure :)
It's true, I don't know how to talk about what people talk about and I don't really know what it's like to be human...lol 🥲😅