What It Was Like When I Hit Rock Bottom | Russell Brand

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  • Опубликовано: 25 дек 2024

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  • @yescavol1637
    @yescavol1637 2 года назад +630

    I’m sitting in a freezing parking lot in Nashville right now watching you while my wife is in a meeting with her home group. She’s still drinking but she’ll go to meetings so that’s something positive in my mind. I can only pray because the tears don’t come anymore. You give me hope.

    • @numbernine3436
      @numbernine3436 2 года назад +53

      Praying for you & your wife.

    • @eileenmc4746
      @eileenmc4746 2 года назад +28

      Stay strong buddy, keep the faith, I get it

    • @LisaMaryification
      @LisaMaryification 2 года назад +11

      Someday it will sink in.

    • @christinemarie1621
      @christinemarie1621 2 года назад +15

      Praying for you both!

    • @sahdi2910
      @sahdi2910 2 года назад +27

      I hope you find your own support group...her addiction doesnt take away your worth!

  • @sebastianduzy3621
    @sebastianduzy3621 4 года назад +704

    I've been clean from crack and heroin for 3 years now. Respect to everyone who could get over it, and stay strong - to anyone who's in their journey atm. Amen

    • @TheGloomyTuesday
      @TheGloomyTuesday 3 года назад +3

      Im to scared to even try to stop...

    • @sebastianduzy3621
      @sebastianduzy3621 3 года назад +2

      @@TheGloomyTuesday if you get on Subutex script then detox is very, very easy. No withdrawal symptoms at all.

    • @sebastianduzy3621
      @sebastianduzy3621 3 года назад

      @@Demeraaa thank you ❤️

    • @jennifers8843
      @jennifers8843 3 года назад

      @@TheGloomyTuesday 🙏🏾

    • @sebastianduzy3621
      @sebastianduzy3621 3 года назад +4

      @@Citibank639 @@Citibank639 I just started seeing my friends again after over 2 years of being stuck at home. My only "going out" was going out to see a drug dealer. I broke up with my ex who introduced me to heroin and crack and moved away far from where he lived and from the place where I had an easy access to it. Also my family helped me. I started to be honest with people about what I was going through. But mostly it was a choice. One day I decided I am too young to waste any more days of my life. Started a new job and just kept taking Subutex which completely stopped withdrawal symptoms. Keep strong both of you! I believe that everyone can do it. The hardest part is realising it and just keep that on mind. Write a goal list what he wants to achieve but make sure it's realistic goals. Wish you both all the best!

  • @kristoffernor897
    @kristoffernor897 3 года назад +268

    Mad respect for everyone recovering from drug addictions. You got this champ

    • @solanum6039
      @solanum6039 2 года назад +8

      Mad respect also for everyone living with and in drug addiction.

  • @KidFresh71
    @KidFresh71 2 года назад +232

    The “socially sanctioned addictions” line hit very close to home for me: being online too much, too many video games, and spending money on stupid stuff I don’t need. Thanks for your brave sharing, and your continued illumination and light of Knowledge.

    • @LisaMaryification
      @LisaMaryification 2 года назад +9

      Funny how all the liquor and cannabis stores were labeled 'essential services' yet nobody could go to church. They want to get us drunk and high so we lose our spirituality and are blind to what's going on.

    • @puyopop3085
      @puyopop3085 2 года назад

      @@LisaMaryification religion is a crutch just like drugs.

    • @thinkforyourself828
      @thinkforyourself828 2 года назад +9

      I'm afraid that we live in a society of socially sanctioned addictions. I don't know anybody that doesn't have one. God help us all.

    • @thinkforyourself828
      @thinkforyourself828 2 года назад +2

      @@lookatmepleasesir to be honest, I don't know many people who aren't like that. Everyone's on a spectrum somewhere.

  • @bowerygirl
    @bowerygirl 3 года назад +355

    6 months clean from heroin today and it is tough. Thank you for giving me something to strive harder for. Everyone tells you it gets better but I just saw how. .. and that's everything.

    • @emrose1717
      @emrose1717 3 года назад +2

      ❤‍🩹

    • @patty5023
      @patty5023 2 года назад +7

      Hang in there. One day at a time, sometimes its one minute at a time, but you can do this :)

    • @Kjskateboarding1
      @Kjskateboarding1 2 года назад +5

      Keep at it mate 👊

    • @bowerygirl
      @bowerygirl 2 года назад +11

      @@patty5023 I am continuing to do just that , 9 mths in and it IS better thanks for the boost

    • @ollienet8655
      @ollienet8655 2 года назад +3

      @@bowerygirl Thats REALLY good to hear :) You keep going, the forward will ALWAYS turn out better then reverse.

  • @benjamin-papa
    @benjamin-papa 4 года назад +3059

    I feel like I'm in limbo between being an intelligent human who knows what's right and someone who just wants to be numb 24/7

    • @negyiiinsaa9269
      @negyiiinsaa9269 4 года назад +75

      Therapy, Hindu, Eastern MEDITAION IN THE BODY AND MIND. Works FOR THIS PROBLEM! GET INTO IT. before its too dark.

    • @zinatalmasov4818
      @zinatalmasov4818 4 года назад +11

      🥺

    • @laurenceevans3913
      @laurenceevans3913 4 года назад +209

      an intelligent human would want to be numb all the time in todays mad world. how do you respond to this though, with love for yourself and the people around you, or simply oblivion.. I live for love

    • @koalaed
      @koalaed 4 года назад +81

      Face pain, then you’ll be free. The crazy thing is, what if the pain is less painful than you subconsciously fear. Might as well find out. What’s on the other side of that is insanely great 💕

    • @ItApproaches
      @ItApproaches 4 года назад +27

      Right/wrong doesn't exist. Thats opinion based, or ego based. Intelligent human is a mere fantasy. Ego chasing superficial fluff like intelligence all for self validation.

  • @Madhukirtan
    @Madhukirtan 3 года назад +512

    "Addiction beggins with pain and addiction ends with pain, that's the cycle of it" So well said!!

    • @cwreese345
      @cwreese345 3 года назад +2

      Totally agree, that hits the nail on the head!

    • @davelambardo6464
      @davelambardo6464 3 года назад +2

      This is exactly how I feel!
      A life altering event sent me down the dark road I find myself on now!

    • @claired1336
      @claired1336 3 года назад +3

      Eckhart Tolle is wonderfully insightful

    • @camilfarhat
      @camilfarhat 3 года назад

      u an addict I suppose

    • @Gauthierbrad27
      @Gauthierbrad27 3 года назад +2

      At least a half a dozen pearls of wisdom in that video

  • @MAOjax
    @MAOjax 3 года назад +224

    It's so beautiful to see how humbled Russell is and how much he wants to spread the message that sobriety is the way. I absolutely love what you're doing with your life now. God bless.

    • @lisbethfaldetta8006
      @lisbethfaldetta8006 2 года назад +6

      I couldn't agree more: sobriety is the way! It is THE message for today.

  • @OMGpandemic
    @OMGpandemic 4 года назад +2349

    One month clean from IV meth use. It is very hard, but am trying. Thank you for sharing your story/experiences with us.

  • @joshual.hibbard1744
    @joshual.hibbard1744 3 года назад +364

    Isn't it amazing how us addicts who actually get sober are actually smart and critical thinkers!? I think one reason I dove into addiction myself was to quiet my mind & soul... Your content is the best out here! Thank you sir!

    • @jaketrat3725
      @jaketrat3725 3 года назад +16

      Us addicts are amongst the most real people

    • @Wetfeline
      @Wetfeline 3 года назад

      @@jaketrat3725 🤣

    • @flyingfogdog
      @flyingfogdog 3 года назад +8

      @@jaketrat3725 glorifying addiction now?😂😂

    • @skittles2055
      @skittles2055 3 года назад +3

      @@jaketrat3725 I understand 💕😊

    • @actionjacksondan
      @actionjacksondan 3 года назад +5

      “Quiet my mind and soul”. This was me, thank you for your comment

  • @travisbruce1775
    @travisbruce1775 3 года назад +414

    The morning I sat on my couch all coked up with a 9mm to my head was my rock bottom. Thank God for a mom who led a life of example for me that when that whispering spirit spoke to me and reminded me of her exemplary life and maybe I should try it was the most profound moment of my young life. It was a long hard battle but by the grace of God I'm still battling and living a very happy life.

    • @jamiesehdev2663
      @jamiesehdev2663 3 года назад +5

      Hope your doing OK

    • @tsoialina
      @tsoialina 3 года назад +11

      Stay strong brother

    • @MrEricErwin
      @MrEricErwin 3 года назад +4

      Keep at it. I'm recovering as well. It's something that we will always deal with. I think knowing that you will always have cravings for your drug of choice is immensely helpful. Its getting to the point where you can understand that is the way forward.

    • @michaelangelo8001
      @michaelangelo8001 3 года назад +2

      Gotta grow up sometime...

    • @ensulalachance8353
      @ensulalachance8353 3 года назад +2

      You are a very good looking dude, just saying 😛

  • @jeffreybrown9191
    @jeffreybrown9191 2 года назад +55

    Thank you Russell. In February of 2022 I hit 3 years sober and like you I try to share my horrific story to others. Bless you my friend!

  • @Mimi-cq4bg
    @Mimi-cq4bg 4 года назад +1003

    Bless you Russell and bless everyone watching this who is fighting their demons....

    • @LoLeanderx
      @LoLeanderx 4 года назад +14

      I made peace with my demons. Now I don't have to waste energy fighting them.

    • @recovery116
      @recovery116 4 года назад +6

      Dear Mimi 78, if you are still struggling, I am just a branch reaching out. I love all struggling creatures. They are the ones who will change the world. I am a struggling creature.

    • @recovery116
      @recovery116 4 года назад +3

      @@LoLeanderx You are wise. Listen.

    • @ZombieFoodReviews
      @ZombieFoodReviews 4 года назад

      My like was number 300 :)

    • @andrewhillhousekelly3583
      @andrewhillhousekelly3583 4 года назад +1

      U can’t fight them, its a part of you. acknowledge overcome, subdue take control and let go

  • @ScalesOfaRam
    @ScalesOfaRam 3 года назад +761

    When my father died, I relapsed after 3 years sober. I was worse than ever, spending about $900 a week on cocaine, more if I won at the casino. Sleeping on the floor of a friends bug infested basement, somehow I kept it a secret from everyone for over a year. After 31 visits to the hospital in one month, the thought of my mother explaining to my neice what had happened to me, and my Fiance finding out I lied our whole relationship was my rock bottom. Though I still feel broken, my children and my spirituality are my strength and motivation. 16 years sober last August.

    • @octoberyes4176
      @octoberyes4176 3 года назад +28

      What an absolute legend. Congratulations on being sober.

    • @amezfires9247
      @amezfires9247 3 года назад +9

      Congratulations on your sobriety!! I'm proud of you for continuing to make the choice to remain sober, & you should feel enormous pride in yourself as well!! I wish you all the best!! ❤❤

    • @ScalesOfaRam
      @ScalesOfaRam 3 года назад +13

      I appreciate everyones words. I do feel pride, though, it's often overshadowed by my failures and waisted time over that period of my life. I try to tell myself that was a test I needed to overcome in order to ascend. It helps but, as my kids get older those failures are hard to move past. I could have given them the world but because of my choice we are struggling to survive. It's hard when all you see is failure.

    • @eclxpseduh6702
      @eclxpseduh6702 3 года назад +1

      W person W sober ness W friend for helping you L girlfriend

    • @jaketrat3725
      @jaketrat3725 3 года назад +1

      💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚

  • @mandiejonsen
    @mandiejonsen 4 года назад +2599

    7 days today. Just taking it 1 day at a time.

    • @imahappy946
      @imahappy946 4 года назад +66

      Now it's 8 I hope.
      I remember when I had the realization that I was always going to be in pain. Drugs, no drugs, relationship or no relationship... I wake up hurting and my brain wont stfu all day. But an Angel passed me by in a McDonalds dining room at breakfast and said, "Just remember, there's no answers in the bottle..."
      It's true. Yeah, I'm in pain... BUT I know through experience that if I start the drugs again it's gonna be worse really quick...
      Anyway, I'm not here to solve ur shit, but feel free to hit me back if u want.

    • @charlottevosper9239
      @charlottevosper9239 4 года назад +21

      you’re doing amazingly. keep going. i have faith in you

    • @angelbbyvancity
      @angelbbyvancity 3 года назад +12

      Congrats! That’s amazing! ♥️

    • @Hispanicwoman
      @Hispanicwoman 3 года назад +11

      Just keep in mind that you don't want to be back at day one. You are doing great. 👍🏼

    • @alhana8293
      @alhana8293 3 года назад +10

      Hope you're still strong. Wishing you all the best.

  • @craigbrothers8281
    @craigbrothers8281 3 года назад +141

    Man I totally understand this all! I used to put Ice, coke and heroine in the same spoon! It really took a tole on me! But I got away from it all after 20+ years of using! I feel amazing only after 3 1/2 years clean! Keep talking about it Russel it really helps! Thanks

    • @Aleksamson
      @Aleksamson 2 года назад

      Hey, are you saying it took 3 1/2 years to feel completely well? You were having trouble sleeping 3 1/2 years after getting clean? After using for 20years?

    • @natedog1619
      @natedog1619 2 года назад +3

      @@Aleksamson you’ll feel like dogshit for a minimum of one month if you’ve been using for a while. The mental damage is worse than the physical, however. You got this man!

    • @jewel8425
      @jewel8425 2 года назад +6

      @@Aleksamson depends on the opiate/opioid, they all have different half lives. I quit suboxone cold turkey, i couldn't sleep for months and the few first days were so awful, had I not been in prison, I likely would've done something stupid to myself. Methadone is the worst, you can die from withdrawal, and its years until you feel normal again.

    • @WLHS
      @WLHS 2 года назад +5

      @George Thomas I’m back on methadone afer coming home, thought we’d moved into a old crack making house until police took protection orders on my behalf. I had been kidnapped in Brisbane mid 90s, woke up needle in my arm..Stockholm syndrome saved me. Big back story…… oh well.

    • @EwetoobSucks
      @EwetoobSucks 2 года назад

      Why would you mix ice, cola, and heroin in a spoon ?
      I think that you have to put the spoon over a flame for the heroin, but, wouldn't that just melt the ice ?
      And wouldn't the melted ice just dilute the coke ?
      Wouldn't you get more caffine by substituting the ice with just a little bit more coke ?
      And isn't caffine a stimulant, while heroin is a depressant ?
      Damn !
      Drug usage really does fuck up the mind !
      If I'm going to put ice in my coke, I'm going to drink it while it is cold and not watered down.

  • @tneal909
    @tneal909 3 года назад +404

    My addiction ended on my way to federal prison. It wasn't the intervention I wanted but it was the intervention I needed. In prison, the happiest man I ever met who had already done 35 years behind the fence told me you can get better or you can get bitter, you can't do both. Been clean over 13yrs now. Its simply a choice to live versus a choice to die slowly. I did it. You can too if you haven't already. Farewell my friends. Don't let life get in the way of living
    Edit: Thank you RB for sharing

    • @SL-nv6zv
      @SL-nv6zv 3 года назад +14

      Get better or get bitter....you cant do both. I like that. Thanks for sharing.

    • @everettmenard4834
      @everettmenard4834 3 года назад +2

      Wow! Kudos to you my friend.

    • @jamisenmyers9301
      @jamisenmyers9301 3 года назад +6

      Jails, institutions and death are the 3 ways it ends for us!! That's when we can find the freedom to live clean...just keep doing the next right thing!!

    • @LizzieStuff
      @LizzieStuff 3 года назад +3

      I pray you are still doing well!! You can keep going and change your life! 🤲🏻 May Allah (God) bless you.

    • @tneal909
      @tneal909 3 года назад +4

      @@LizzieStuff I Am. Shalom

  • @edscottdotblog
    @edscottdotblog 3 года назад +253

    "It's a kind of crystallisation... a lot of you dies and fades and withers, and you're exposed to the pain that you've been trying to avoid." This was immensely helpful, thank you Russell.

  • @larrycrib5447
    @larrycrib5447 3 года назад +315

    So glad you found your path Russell. My youngest daughter never did and left this world in 2016. Thank you for being so brave and giving us so much to admire and appreciate…

    • @Sandrahsings
      @Sandrahsings 3 года назад +21

      Truly sorry for you loss Larry🙏

    • @reginapontes5672
      @reginapontes5672 3 года назад +15

      May you both be at peace.

    • @jeanniebeneanie3752
      @jeanniebeneanie3752 3 года назад +6

      Sorry for your loss mate 🙏

    • @NoName-py5xs
      @NoName-py5xs 3 года назад +13

      my brother also couldnt find the path and left us 2017, i know the pain as sibling but cant imagine the pain as a parent that you and my parents went thru, stay strong brother

    • @Chris-hw4mq
      @Chris-hw4mq 3 года назад +1

      At least they died doing what they liked

  • @bobbokil3147
    @bobbokil3147 2 года назад +36

    Never had addiction issue myself, but have had close friends & family. I love that you can talk about this so freely. I am sure it will save lives and souls. ❤️

    • @eaglelove00
      @eaglelove00 2 года назад +2

      Amen 🙏🏼 Also, love your profile picture 😃

  • @enlightenedchipmunk2001
    @enlightenedchipmunk2001 3 года назад +135

    As an ex addict I remember being kind of jealous of other addicts who had people forcing them into treatment and rehab. I think if you have people who care about you enough to do that, you are very blessed.

    • @BlekJamal
      @BlekJamal 3 года назад +6

      And when ya have people trying to force you ya wish that you could be left alone like other addicts.. the grass is always greener on the other side sort of thing ya know lol.

    • @enlightenedchipmunk2001
      @enlightenedchipmunk2001 3 года назад +8

      @@BlekJamal True. No one wants to stop getting loaded while they are in the thick of it. But from an outside perspective, it’s pretty undeniable that having people care enough about you to try and help is much better than no one giving a shit.

    • @DannySullivanMusic
      @DannySullivanMusic 3 года назад

      couldn't agree more. totally correct

    • @marksotelo6472
      @marksotelo6472 3 года назад +2

      I remember when my girl friend atm got mad because her family kept have interventions for he about thing like weed. I was like damn at least they care

    • @BlekJamal
      @BlekJamal 3 года назад +3

      @@enlightenedchipmunk2001 Just wanted to point out, in hindsight I totally agree! Wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for the people that love me.

  • @Henricus.
    @Henricus. 3 года назад +140

    I have to say man, when you first came on the scene I wasn’t the biggest fan ( my ignorance I apologise)but you’re metamorphosis into one of the beacons of honest, fair and true media, which we need now more than ever!
    Thank you and god bless ✌🏼

  • @alexjones7043
    @alexjones7043 3 года назад +529

    This version of Russell brand is so much easier to like. He’s a natural leader and he’s finally contributing positively. Good on you mate.

    • @luxlotus4835
      @luxlotus4835 3 года назад +18

      Both versions are valid ♥️

    • @rosetyler5368
      @rosetyler5368 3 года назад +13

      I love every version of him. Because it's always been real, raw and true.

    • @denisethompson1035
      @denisethompson1035 3 года назад +5

      He is a father now. That will change a good man, into a great man.

    • @Idontwantafuckinghandle588
      @Idontwantafuckinghandle588 3 года назад +2

      Yes using his charismatic superpowers for good!! He's so uplifting and honest

    • @skylark1848
      @skylark1848 3 года назад +1

      He would not have been who he is today without transmuting his own pain.

  • @nicholasbendele5911
    @nicholasbendele5911 2 года назад +97

    Almost 9 years off Heroin & Coke. I feel for the addicts of now that have extreme convenience working for them and against them simultaneously. I felt your words Sir. I had too many rock bottoms unfortunately. Several moments of realization that what I had become and what I was doing wasn't in my or my community's best interests. Unfortunately I didn't start living life on life's terms till my 30's. But it's better late than never. Im 40 soon with a mortgage, wife, kids. Everything I've achieved has been because my last 9 years. Cheers Russell! Cheers to everyone 1 day out of hell, and Cheers to everyone realizing today you can leave your hell for something better.

    • @alanrickman2400
      @alanrickman2400 2 года назад +8

      im 53 living in the toilet of the west Los Angeles originally from Belgium addicted to meth and recently clean it was hell and still is looking to get out of here after living here for 25 years

    • @lady_h9659
      @lady_h9659 2 года назад

      Your post helped me. Thank you

    • @YouSmokeChed
      @YouSmokeChed 2 года назад

      helpfull comment

    • @Swandivein
      @Swandivein Год назад

      Bloody nice work mate!

  • @dapperdave4207
    @dapperdave4207 3 года назад +252

    I just quit all substances myself and when Russel said “my youth and my whole life had been defined by addiction” I’ve been smoking weed or trying to get high since I was 13-14 years old, I’m 24 now and I’ve forgotten what it’s like to live life without substances and watching these videos really makes me feel better about my decision

    • @michaelmcgee2026
      @michaelmcgee2026 3 года назад +16

      It will be rough for a while but it does get better and better. Life will become more alive for you.

    • @stephaniemcmanus9082
      @stephaniemcmanus9082 3 года назад +9

      🙏❤️❤️

    • @mitch6962
      @mitch6962 3 года назад +6

      lol ur still a kid u still got time to do lots of drugs

    • @asapoluu9885
      @asapoluu9885 3 года назад +2

      Facts bruh it never ends

    • @Allergictosandwhiches
      @Allergictosandwhiches 3 года назад +3

      30 min and going strong

  • @susanhealey2431
    @susanhealey2431 4 года назад +1510

    many rock bottoms many detox's hospitals attempts at rehab hated reality.... clean now for 16 years... miracle

    • @griffinjohnson3858
      @griffinjohnson3858 4 года назад +28

      Me too with the many rock bottoms been going since 18 im 24 now just did a shot too. I need help. To get it you gotta want it. Congrats on the sobriety time I cant imagine

    • @RerunTheWizard
      @RerunTheWizard 4 года назад +3

    • @DinnerOnTheFloor
      @DinnerOnTheFloor 4 года назад +14

      Congratulations, 16 years is no small feat. Stay strong 💪

    • @KathleenMcCormickLCSWMPH
      @KathleenMcCormickLCSWMPH 4 года назад +12

      @@griffinjohnson3858 you can do it, friend! Keep trying.

    • @susanhealey2431
      @susanhealey2431 4 года назад +18

      @@griffinjohnson3858 we only have to stay clean for today or next 5 minutes, hour....

  • @koryclardy5644
    @koryclardy5644 3 года назад +2345

    He explains exactly how I feel about my addiction. I checked into rehab for the first today. 🤞

  • @amybrewer3877
    @amybrewer3877 2 года назад +14

    Watched this the first time on June 24th 2021 and became my clean date from heroin and meth. Today is March 28th 2022. Nine months clean and it started right here watching this. Love you RB, you inspire people. Please never forget that.

  • @kateybarker7314
    @kateybarker7314 3 года назад +50

    Even in the wild and wrecked days, this erudite, clever, funny man struck me as a diamond in the rough. So often, people tried to squash this soul. I’m glad he was all the while expanding to bring us the genuine and open goodness of his brilliant and beautiful work

  • @oliverdurkin-cinematograph2693
    @oliverdurkin-cinematograph2693 3 года назад +498

    In an age of insane jump cut editing on you tube, almost purposefully, as if to re-awake the ten second attention span... To see a guy roll continuously with such fluidity is such a pleasure and a show of talent.

    • @deeriggs3319
      @deeriggs3319 3 года назад +17

      Yes.. not to mention it’s more genuine and natural.. honest

    • @frogbutts3628
      @frogbutts3628 3 года назад +7

      I hate jump edits as well. It's lazy to be honest. However, I have to imagine Russell's acting experience helps. Not saying he has a script but I'm thinking he at least had talking points. If you watch videos made by people who are public speakers, they tend not to have jump edits either.

    • @samvalentine9243
      @samvalentine9243 3 года назад +4

      @@frogbutts3628 I mean yeah Russell is quite literally a pro at being on camera. Your average RUclipsr is just a regular person. Also editing wouldn't serve this piece, like Dee mentioned it would not feel as heartfelt. He uses jump cuts in his normal videos tho.

    • @billbaxter3800
      @billbaxter3800 3 года назад +6

      His verbal IQ is very close to the top.

    • @noahquigley4773
      @noahquigley4773 3 года назад +1

      Highly agreed good observation

  • @edwardmitchell7487
    @edwardmitchell7487 3 года назад +52

    I've been sober more than 20 years. Much respect to you Russell for your courage in talking about difficult experiences. I wish you well. And, thank you for continuing to speak plain truths to power.

  • @PaulGillings
    @PaulGillings 2 года назад +36

    Thank you Russell, for all your guidance. My 18 year old son is in the throws of Ketamine addiction at the moment and I find your channel helpful in trying to find ways on how to communicate with him. My heart is breaking for him but you bring hope and I'm trying to turn him on to your content. Thank you.

    • @sincitygiggles13
      @sincitygiggles13 2 года назад +7

      @Paul Gillings• I feel your pain my friend. It can be a lonely road to travel, the many I should have's, I could have's, I shouldn't have, if only's...I hope you know that you don't have to travel it alone. There are many of us like you. Be good to yourself.

  • @undergroundish3135
    @undergroundish3135 3 года назад +37

    18 YEARS! Thats so inspiring Russel thank you! 8+years personally and not judging MYSELF so harshly was the hardest thing for me to recognize as a problem. thank you for sharing Russel.

  • @stephenwood2145
    @stephenwood2145 3 года назад +1183

    Don't take offense because I mean this as a compliment. I cannot believe how beautiful and thoughtful your channel is. I always imagined you as a sort of an Amy Winehouse (poor girl) type of party guy. I never would've thought that I'd hang on every one of your words but I do. We now live in a world where Russell Brand is a voice of logic and reason in a world of turmoil and distrust. Thank you, I'm proud of you, and I love you. God bless.

    • @andyroid5028
      @andyroid5028 3 года назад +49

      *Wow. VERY well said, brother. And I really mean that (no sarcasm whatsoever). ✓*
      *Yep, I agree. And I hope he has led many other lost people to the truth! And evidently, he has. : )*

    • @rayscard2477
      @rayscard2477 3 года назад

      @@emmaconnolly8751 Wise up

    • @offwiththefairiesforever2373
      @offwiththefairiesforever2373 3 года назад +4

      Amen xx

    • @gerritpeacock3571
      @gerritpeacock3571 3 года назад +44

      I wasn't that big of a fan of RB but he has, against my previous impressions, become a pretty reasonable chap who is sensible in times that are dangerously illogical. One of the things that has consistently hurt for the past decade has been finding out so many people I admired before are really scumbags, and people who I had no inclination to pay attention to are relatable and make good sense.

    • @ericwhitmore2296
      @ericwhitmore2296 3 года назад +4

      You're either an inspiration after recovery or you've done reached an all time high where even recovery can't fully bring you back. I don't mean that as disrespectful to recovering addicts or addicts in general just how it seems. I mean look Mike Lyndell, as much as he's hated now he to go from a crackhead to building a business like that is great, even if it was pillows, blankets. Most people shame anyone that's even experienced hard drugs which my experience with people it seems if they take the needle that's when the bad name of drug addicts come from

  • @heightyone
    @heightyone 3 года назад +359

    6.5 years without alcohol and now at a point where I'm able to say I'm 'sober' with pride. Not just "I don't drink". I'm proud of all of us, whatever day we're on. ♥️

    • @jkulls1
      @jkulls1 3 года назад +3

      6.5 years is where I’m at also….it’s incredible! God is good!

    • @googlem7
      @googlem7 3 года назад +4

      you only be truly free when you can actually have alittle drink without getting addicted.. its the personality trait of the individual, by abstaining from the addiction by it not being present. its letting it be in your presence in your face amd you just smile and say sorry to disapoint you i dont want any. or even have a small drink but not letting it creep into your consciousness and take over

    • @rynolascavio3381
      @rynolascavio3381 3 года назад +2

      god bless!

    • @poopthing1
      @poopthing1 3 года назад +1

      You'll always be an addict. That never goes away. Even if your 30 years clean, you're still An attict

    • @thetruthk5138
      @thetruthk5138 3 года назад +2

      Me too 6 years 6 months today Life is good and I enjoy life and all the things I didn't know I even liked painting and pottering around in the garden.
      Sobriety gave me peace of mind that I was looking for in Alcohol I didn't realise I was looking in all the wrong places.
      And a brilliant home group with no egotistical members always very enjoyable.
      God bless and if anyone is suffering seek help it's available and free

  • @Sorni8
    @Sorni8 2 года назад +18

    Needed to hear this tonight, Russell. God willing I'll have 40 years in a few months, but the last 2-3 years have been tough (pandemic just an excuse). Solitude -> isolation -> desolation -> despair...all self-induced. Still, I have countless reasons to be grateful to be sober and alive; just needed a timely reminder! Thank you.

    • @awnaur0no919
      @awnaur0no919 2 года назад

      I feel u in regards to tha last 3 years sucking mad ass, but nothin static & erything changes gradually: good times is gonna come dude 😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️

    • @rolexistimeless
      @rolexistimeless Год назад

      40 years is an impressive feat… hopefully it’s 41 years for you now since this was from a year ago. What’s your secret? If you don’t mind me asking

    • @Sorni8
      @Sorni8 Год назад +2

      @@rolexistimeless Thank you. The flippant answer is "don't drink, don't die"; but the truthful reply is "by the grace of God". I try to carry the memory of hitting bottom with me always, as anything (!) is up from that. And yes, three months shy of 41 now.

    • @rolexistimeless
      @rolexistimeless Год назад +1

      Really appreciate your answer here Bill. My addiction is marijuana. While it’s not as devastating as alcohol, I’ve hit the bottom several times. Most times I quit because of tolerance and lack of motivation. This time in particular, I felt lots of pain, discomfort and congestion in my throat and chest which made me stop permanently 2 weeks ago. These symptoms made it harder to breathe as well at times. Anyone who says marijuana is the miracle plant for everyone and that it has no adverse health effects is not being truthful, as I have experienced this first hand for anyone reading this. Tried to fill the void with alcohol and that went south pretty quickly. Cheers to sobriety.

    • @Sorni8
      @Sorni8 Год назад +1

      @@rolexistimeless Good luck, mate. I hear the marijuana nowadays (daze!) is way stronger than 1970s pot; must make it that much harder to put down. (Might be a blessing that it jacked you up, though: "Takes what it takes" to make us quit!)

  • @Russells2323
    @Russells2323 3 года назад +528

    Once I had the realization that being drunk and high didn't actually feel good everything changed. Being messed up it a terrible feeling. Then you feel even worse when you come down. So much time wasted just being drunk or high and doing nothing. Be sober, create, love, explore, observe. The world is a beautiful place even if modern society is trying to destroy it. Step out of your house. Go outside. Be grateful that you are here.

    • @hereshoping6992
      @hereshoping6992 3 года назад +4

      Boom , good message 5 days sober myself drank 5 days ago again 🤬

    • @charliebrown9131
      @charliebrown9131 3 года назад +1

      😭🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏💮⚕️💮

    • @kelhimacmillan5675
      @kelhimacmillan5675 3 года назад +3

      I totally agree! The last time I took Valium, I absolutely hated the feeling of being at the mercy of the drug & not really knowing wtf I was doing. I couldn't wait for it to pass & I haven't looked back..👍👌💜

    • @watkinsrory
      @watkinsrory 3 года назад +4

      Never really had an issue with drink but I thought I enjoyed it then I was a designated driver for the first time and I watched my mates who got drunk and the others around me I was a shocked and thought never will I get drunk again. I still have a few but for the taste not the high and on the odd occasion I have more than a few but its been like this for 17 years and I would say that the most I have had to drink is about 20 drinks in a year some I dont even have any it has transformed my life for the good and I just dont think people realize just how much of a negative influence it is in your life.

    • @harryjones84
      @harryjones84 3 года назад +5

      ive had that feeling- but problem is a. stopping urself from being sick DOES feel good far too good, and b., the things ur talking about in life that do feel good and are far more valuable- problem is at best of times, but especially in throws of a gard drug addiction, they take sort of effort/investment to get and to enjoy (obvs thats part what makes them goof) where as when ur using then the thing that is ur 'feel good substitute' ie a bag of h or c...is simple and easy. Obv Im not arguing with u just explaining another difficulty of getting off- even ur head knows but ur body and the addict part of ur head takes precedent when ur craving and obv when ur sick...
      and then more problem is those habits isolate u...so those things healthy positive thingd that ACTUALLYfeel good and are far more valuable are even FURTHER away and it becomes a vicious cycle

  • @ColdGrapeDrink
    @ColdGrapeDrink 4 года назад +452

    "It went something like - it was fun, then fun with problems, then just problems"

    • @martincroker490
      @martincroker490 4 года назад +15

      I read Russell's book to.. those few words some it up so well.

    • @FastSloW-qt8xf
      @FastSloW-qt8xf 3 года назад +7

      Some of us didnt get any of the fun. It was just what we knew, what we watched people do in our house as a kid and not knowing enough to even know it was fucked up

    • @tonybudhasbuslife...4616
      @tonybudhasbuslife...4616 3 года назад

      MARAJUANA anonymous.✌️❤️🌈

    • @rivumrejex2864
      @rivumrejex2864 3 года назад

      Lol... spot on!

    • @yungmentalproblems
      @yungmentalproblems 7 месяцев назад

      ​@@FastSloW-qt8xfbros been a toddler for decades 💀

  • @picklespip9213
    @picklespip9213 3 года назад +122

    I hit rock bottom 3 years ago, not from drugs but from a mental illness coming out from my traumatic childhood. PTSD, I was suicidal I couldn't work I had no family to turn too because they were the abusive party and I didn't want to go back to that enviroment. Then I went to the Mind charity and got help, and my friends who are my extended family kept me going. I am back at work now and still receiving treatment. Your video gives me hope of leaving my childhood behind and finding happiness and health. Thank you for the upload Russell. You have done so well in your recovery from your addiction. Xxx

  • @squiddad1528
    @squiddad1528 2 года назад +7

    Ive passed by this video so many times. Watched it for the first time and wow. I am an addict, been clean 6 years now and am still in recovery group Once a week. Thank you Russell for being so candid and open. You really are helping people, don't ever forget that sir.

  • @RickDelmonico
    @RickDelmonico 4 года назад +1895

    30 years today

    • @cheekyb71
      @cheekyb71 4 года назад +18

      Congratulations! That is a lot of hard work and achievement, well done sir

    • @AliciaM5555
      @AliciaM5555 4 года назад +11

      Amazing 👊

    • @noahsherwinmusic9478
      @noahsherwinmusic9478 4 года назад +9

      Wow, congrats man. Amazing 🙏🙏🙏

    • @ayusuf92
      @ayusuf92 4 года назад +9

      Well done mate

    • @leeengland5659
      @leeengland5659 4 года назад +7

      Well done mate

  • @whitewineflavouredtoffee9157
    @whitewineflavouredtoffee9157 4 года назад +404

    empathy is the most powerfull weapon. and you're wielding it heroically

  • @curdepirate1535
    @curdepirate1535 3 года назад +153

    Your holistic mix of intellect, self-reflection, storytelling skill & eloquence is on a level I didn’t even know existed. Thank you, Russel. Thank you for sharing these insights & opinions that never fail to be both brutally honest & exceptionally kind with us! ♡

    • @tanganman
      @tanganman 3 года назад +8

      @Darren How would you have him be/act to be more genuine in your eyes? What sorts of subjects should he be "free" to discuss without you passing judgement that it's shit which you see through?

    • @Fiiii4567
      @Fiiii4567 3 года назад +1

      @Darren judgey much 🤣🤣

    • @pirminborer625
      @pirminborer625 3 года назад

      Cœur de Pirate? Tu serais pas la chanteuse du groupe? Si oui, merci pour le concert incroyable au Paleo Festival.

    • @Mr.Creosote15
      @Mr.Creosote15 3 года назад +1

      @Darren There seems like a fine line between being spiritually awakened and being brainwashed

  • @ardhanarisvara333
    @ardhanarisvara333 3 года назад +21

    I lost my best friend of 14 years to a heroin overdose in 2015. It was the hardest thing I've ever been through. She left this world and 2 weeks later I went into a psych hospital center so I wouldn't follow her. I very badly wanted to. I watched her try so hard to get clean only to crash and burn. And those that loved her so much are the ones left behind in the pain because she's no longer with us. Pain from childhood abuse led to her using drugs. Now I've been hurting for 6 years because those drugs took her from me.

  • @LostNbound
    @LostNbound 3 года назад +184

    His fist words are what's terrifying about addiction. He's 18 years clean, but knows that it's still there. That all it takes is one bad day or whatever, and it swallows you whole all over again.

    • @triphop1681
      @triphop1681 3 года назад +31

      That's 100% accurate.
      Just like the literature says, "one is too many, and a thousand never enough." No truer words have been spoken about addiction.

    • @nitefox4411
      @nitefox4411 3 года назад +7

      Dedicated dude Russel. He meditates unplugs and leaves "the matrix" daily.

    • @laakerisolki7276
      @laakerisolki7276 3 года назад +3

      Yeah, this is the hard lesson for me. I always romanticize the "good" times with DOC. Enough to consider going for "one more" stroll with it.
      It's odd, coz I never have anywhere near as good of a time as I used to, it can also make me feel worse for it. Yet it always calls. Perhaps more time away from it will make my recent memories with it stay, rather than what I wish it could be.

    • @ozguraydn8407
      @ozguraydn8407 2 года назад +1

      Because people still don't know about Allen Carr's method. That's why you guys will never be free

    • @daniellechevalier9430
      @daniellechevalier9430 2 года назад

      @@ozguraydn8407 You do know this method? Can you summerize what's good about it? I'd like to hear what you mean.

  • @FizzyliciousASMR
    @FizzyliciousASMR 3 года назад +96

    This is beautiful. I’ve got 5 1/2 months, Russell. I’m on the journey, and I find this so inspiring. 🥰

    • @JasonSmith-jr7jh
      @JasonSmith-jr7jh 2 года назад +1

      ❤️!

    • @gilerd77
      @gilerd77 2 года назад +2

      9.5 months now hopefully

    • @FizzyliciousASMR
      @FizzyliciousASMR 2 года назад +2

      @@gilerd77 yes, 9.5 months, 👍🏼🥰❤️

    • @gilerd77
      @gilerd77 2 года назад +1

      @@FizzyliciousASMR amazing keep going 🌞

    • @FizzyliciousASMR
      @FizzyliciousASMR 2 года назад +1

      @@gilerd77 hey thanks so much!

  • @kolmosenspora7058
    @kolmosenspora7058 4 года назад +434

    5 years 6 months and 8 days clean today. Greetings from finland

    • @skinney9542
      @skinney9542 4 года назад +3

      Happy 5 years 6 months and 13 days TODAY!! Well done!! 🙌🤸

    • @babayega1717
      @babayega1717 4 года назад +1

      god bless ya buddy

    • @25lighters68
      @25lighters68 3 года назад +2

      Hienoa 👌 Harva pystyy tuohon, saat olla ylpee itestäs! Sä teit sen, toivon sulle kaikkee hyvää. Ei oo helpoin tie kulkea mutta ei mahdoton. 🥰 Ps. Greetings from Finland 😂

    • @Craig.Fawley
      @Craig.Fawley 3 года назад +1

      Happy days, just come back from working in Finland Google data centre, hamina, finish love getting wrecked lol that's coming from a Brit 😅

    • @25lighters68
      @25lighters68 3 года назад +1

      @@Craig.Fawley What really??? This cant be true, its a small small world!!!! Yesterday I was in Hamina all day!!🤯🤯 Now in Kotka.. Oh yeah we love to get wasted...😏 Dont ya love it too? 🤣 Not so much?😆

  • @FREEEDDOOMM
    @FREEEDDOOMM 2 года назад +15

    I was an addict for a good 10 years and never got low enough to stop. Tried several rehabs and nothing. I was lucky enough to have a moment of clarity while I was watching my sons birth. It took me a year but I have been clean since 03-03-03. If I can do it you can.

  • @dawni5365
    @dawni5365 3 года назад +83

    I see this guy who has educated himself on why he abused...much like as an abuse survivor I've become educated on my abuser. The best teacher is a survivor.

  • @NicolaMaxwell
    @NicolaMaxwell 4 года назад +671

    Shout out to all the people battling through every day. 🙏

    • @F417H
      @F417H 4 года назад +15

      Day 16. Merci beaucoup 🌹

    • @starshine311
      @starshine311 4 года назад +7

      @@F417H you got this😘😘

    • @realrebelli0n
      @realrebelli0n 4 года назад +4

      Thank you Nicola. Let's be strong!

    • @NicolaMaxwell
      @NicolaMaxwell 4 года назад +3

      @@F417H Congratulations!!🙏💞 keep on keeping on!

    • @1x1HealthyEnergybyAndrew
      @1x1HealthyEnergybyAndrew 4 года назад +4

      Hi 👋 You're probably subscribed to all the same channels or everyone has this name. Hang in there.
      Day 1 🥊

  • @TileCoach
    @TileCoach 3 года назад +408

    I went to treatment the same winter of ‘01-‘02. Sober since! I love you man.

  • @1970jaimee
    @1970jaimee 2 года назад +4

    I am 51 and I wouldn’t know you tube if it weren’t for my son. I have never said this to anyone “famous “ or who has a channel. But you not only are helping to get help but making me feel it’s ok to have different opinions and still respect people. Thank you!

  • @sibusisokofi3497
    @sibusisokofi3497 4 года назад +221

    I used to hate seeing the old Russel on screen HATE THAT GUY. AMAZED by this man. INSPIRED

    • @sarahtaylor4264
      @sarahtaylor4264 3 года назад +31

      I didn't like that man for a lot of reasons. However, I do believe in redemption and forgiveness of others. This Russel is a much kinder, wiser, open-minded, loving person who I enjoy listening to whether we agree or disagree on a topic. I truly wish him the best.

    • @sunnyside7921
      @sunnyside7921 3 года назад +11

      Same. He was so annoying.

    • @anyatranter3984
      @anyatranter3984 3 года назад +5

      That's exactly how I feel he really has grown matured and deepend

    • @lynnegulbrand2298
      @lynnegulbrand2298 3 года назад +3

      @@sarahtaylor4264 I feel the same way about him. It's like he grew a few brain cells. He used to be really annoying, and that's what drugs do. They make you into a person that you're not. I didn't know he was that hooked on drugs, he hid it well. God bless you Russell.

    • @rooster555555
      @rooster555555 3 года назад +2

      Going off the deep end made him deepened

  • @Gabrielle333eeeee
    @Gabrielle333eeeee 3 года назад +36

    A man that is self aware,has dove deep into his soul and speaks with the clarity that you do, is lovely to see!✨

  • @wendycohen9038
    @wendycohen9038 4 года назад +296

    24 years sobriety so far. I also have bipolar syndrome.

    • @sophiemayjane
      @sophiemayjane 3 года назад +5

      Congrats 💫

    • @emilythornton8403
      @emilythornton8403 3 года назад +12

      me too. Heroin addict primarily now. God Bipolar is bad for addiction.

    • @fairygal8223
      @fairygal8223 3 года назад +3

      God bless!!!

    • @katcat5088
      @katcat5088 3 года назад +5

      @@emilythornton8403 Please get some help Emily. I lost my brother to heroin.

    • @patmureithi
      @patmureithi 3 года назад

      👊🏽

  • @erikaarthur1132
    @erikaarthur1132 2 года назад +7

    My son just turned 23 (thank god he’s made it thus far) and he suffers with addiction. He started innocent enough with weed at around age 13 and it has just spiraled out of control…opioids, benzos, and a brief time with meth. He has all the love and support one could get. He has mental pain driving his addiction. It’s inspiring to hear stories of others who have made it to the other side of it.

  • @moonboyfloyd40
    @moonboyfloyd40 3 года назад +38

    1 year 4 months and 2 days. Russell brand played a big part. Thank you man! Never been happier or more free

  • @esorliversage6634
    @esorliversage6634 3 года назад +158

    His use of language is addictive. Well done. Stay blessed and sober.

    • @jokibud-sm1kr
      @jokibud-sm1kr 3 года назад +1

      Yeah i thought that he had just read memorized the dictionary

    • @rebeccareid89
      @rebeccareid89 3 года назад

      You should watch his first episode of Hot Ones. He is a lyrical magician.

    • @DannySullivanMusic
      @DannySullivanMusic 3 года назад

      yup. 1000% perfect

    • @jmcc2275
      @jmcc2275 3 года назад

      He serves up word salads …quickly………. to make you think he’s some kind of intellectual. Read a transcript of what he says……..and weep at how easily you were fooled.

    • @rebeccareid89
      @rebeccareid89 3 года назад +5

      @@jmcc2275 and look at you- trying to be the wordsmith and failing. Ease up on the ellipsis usage. It’s foolish.

  • @ghostofguy
    @ghostofguy 4 года назад +67

    My uncle has been addicted to Heroin for 35 years. My Grandmother told him she is too old to be dealing with his issues anymore. Such a difficult world for everyone. Good luck and best wishes to everyone affected by the pain of drug addiction.

    • @jmp01a24
      @jmp01a24 4 года назад +1

      Its horrible for those who cares, but can't understand the whys and hows.

    • @stewartsquires8882
      @stewartsquires8882 4 года назад +3

      Hun-if it feels right tell her about nar anon-(it’s for the family and friends of the addict)-it’s a beautiful programme-there are online meetings,if meetings are not available around her,or she’s not able to physically get to a meeting,and al anon on yt may help xxxGod bless her it,she deserves peace and support too xxx

  • @amandakoenig5204
    @amandakoenig5204 3 года назад +21

    Thank you for opening up to everyone and giving your story. You can tell by reading the comments under your videos how much your helping others so thank you for bearing your soul to us. Thank you for showing us how human you are and showing us how low it got. Because seeing how far you have come aswell I'm sure is helping so many. We need more people like you!

  • @fallionwater117
    @fallionwater117 3 года назад +32

    As a non-drug user, I can only say thank you for this honest summation. Most people in our crazy world walk around lonely, feeling unloved, misunderstood and as if the only way to get away from that feeling is to get wasted on intoxicants... but just think... toxic is right there in that word. Love what you say Russell. Thank you.

  • @patriciastewart2537
    @patriciastewart2537 3 года назад +321

    I quit WEED this month at age 74.
    On my birthday, I got a message that my lungs could not take any more.

  • @user-xp6yl5tl4t
    @user-xp6yl5tl4t 3 года назад +30

    I always felt that people who often struggled with something have the greatest gifts to give. Russell you are an example of a well rounded being able to give so much because you know the struggle and the fight. And rose through your challenges. God bless you. Thanks for what you give to us...light literally shines through you and helps us all.

  • @Helen-us1ly
    @Helen-us1ly 2 года назад +2

    The extremes we go to to soothe that inner void. That hunger to appease the poor trembling self. All anybody wants is to be loved accepted cherished and to be without aforementioned is when the bad habits set in. Your intensity ,passion, plight for truth and transparency is so refreshing.

  • @taliehughes4341
    @taliehughes4341 4 года назад +64

    Two weeks sober here and loved to hear this, thank you

    • @soupey
      @soupey 3 года назад

      🥳

    • @birdobserver7543
      @birdobserver7543 3 года назад

      So proud of you!

    • @rachelle466
      @rachelle466 3 года назад

      Wow, well done! Be kind to yourself you are doing an amazing thing that is very tough!

    • @Toxiex300
      @Toxiex300 3 года назад

      Great job! Keep it up.

    • @karencourt5684
      @karencourt5684 3 года назад

      Hi tali.keep up the goid work.u get a big👍👍👍👍👍👍👍 from me.u can do it

  • @nikkil9463
    @nikkil9463 4 года назад +90

    Acceptance, willingness, self control, gratitude...
    pray for these everyday.

    • @RainbowObsidian777
      @RainbowObsidian777 4 года назад +2

      that is a good start to pray. i just wanted to share with you that all of those things you mention, as a matter of choice. they are right there. choose to accept. learn what it means to accept too.that may help. and if you have a willingness to accept.. then you have killed to birds with one stone ;) and then snow ball with it

  • @albertrivera5443
    @albertrivera5443 3 года назад +88

    "Starts with pain, ends with pain" 💯 true

  • @FreedomGinger
    @FreedomGinger 2 года назад +2

    Beautiful. As an addict in recovery for 6 years it helps to remember we are in this together. Truly love you for sharing your pain and triumph.

  • @leosearlehawkins2819
    @leosearlehawkins2819 3 года назад +62

    Beautifully and accurately spoken. I've been clean since '78. Hardest part was leaving the druggy social life behind. I walked away from everyone, got on a jet airliner to Israel and devoted my life to my family, spirituality and service. Love is all.

    • @NotMain879
      @NotMain879 2 года назад

      Was it worth it

    • @hokaheyamita9827
      @hokaheyamita9827 2 года назад

      I was on Heroin on off for about 14 years, from 14- 28.
      I left the States to leave it all behind and went to Italy where i also found it until I was ready to give up (dying).
      The Methadone center let me talk to a Psychologist and he ask me if I was ready to really change my life... the day after a priest gave me the opportunity to get into a drug community center where you have to live and do your HARDCORE Programm for 3 years. It changed my life and also brainwashed me.
      I couldn't bear to see an addict, stand up for it nor see a slightly bended spoon or smell lemons for years.
      After a few years i began to reflect about how lucky I was to have survived, having had kids and not having caught Aids...
      I began with Buddhist practice and ended up with 40 to study psychology and became a drug counselor with gratitude towards life and thankful to being able to help others to find their path... my path brought me to be a spiritual person with a lot of experience and love in my heart.
      Now i am "saving myself" in becoming more and more intuned with nature, animals and the Universe.
      But I do smoke grass in the evening, i re-began after 30 years not even taking any pills.
      Now it helps me to expand consciousness, i know my limits and i wouldn't even do any other stuff because it's history ... that shaped me and without it i would haven't become the person I have become today - Awakened in deep gratitude.
      A special thanks to this channel and the people who follow it, we are all connected 💫, Namaste 🙏

  • @gorhamcj1
    @gorhamcj1 3 года назад +13

    Thank you. My son has many addictions. He has been to rehab many times. I pray he finds what his spirit craves and stays sober. Your video helped me to understand him better. I love him dearly and all of you who suffer with addiction and pain. Almost lost him twice to overdose.

  • @LIGHTintheHALLS
    @LIGHTintheHALLS 3 года назад +42

    “Ego not being the dominant driving force” is huge for recovery.

  • @jenmarie03
    @jenmarie03 2 года назад +4

    About 11 years clean now. Couldn't be happier or more grateful. I actually owe it to my late dog, Cam Shaft. It's a struggle but I'm so happy we made it! And yes Russell, YES, God help the kids of today; these are dark & dangerous times indeed. ❤️💪🤗

  • @mikegeeguitarman8991
    @mikegeeguitarman8991 3 года назад +97

    Without doubt one of THE most interesting voices on the internet today. Your honesty and openess is going to be so valuable to many people. What a very fine lad you have grown up into Russell..who could not love this guy?

    • @stevengilmore7731
      @stevengilmore7731 3 года назад +1

      Who are you fella, his bloody father 😳, ha.

    • @AJ.943
      @AJ.943 3 года назад +2

      @@stevengilmore7731
      OR…..someone that recognizes another valuable human soul; and appreciates it. Did you not get that?

    • @stevengilmore7731
      @stevengilmore7731 3 года назад

      Yeah, got that, it's just I'm sick of people who pretend to know the feelings of another without the experience, jumping on anything trendy at the time, just pisses me off. Russ has a good few points to make, god he's been through it all , I respect him enormously, but when people comment without the first clue how certain things feel then I've no time for them. Peace and smoochy woochies. 😘

    • @AJ.943
      @AJ.943 3 года назад +3

      @@stevengilmore7731
      I appreciate that you feel that way; but perhaps you misread Mike’s comment? I’m not sure his comment fits that bill? All I read was a very positive; kind comment. And I think he stated it very nicely; Russel is certainly one of the most interesting individuals on the internet right now. Very enlightening and fascinating to listen to.

  • @billyleeds8512
    @billyleeds8512 4 года назад +260

    Would love to just sit and talk to this man for hours

    • @shay708
      @shay708 4 года назад

      Me too

    • @Kosmo999
      @Kosmo999 4 года назад

      What would you ask if you could ask anything?

    • @Magicalfluidprocess
      @Magicalfluidprocess 4 года назад +3

      kosmo spacejams I would as him his opinion on the notion of an observer based reality as proved consistently by the double slit experiment

    • @Magicalfluidprocess
      @Magicalfluidprocess 4 года назад

      kosmo spacejams what would you ask ?

    • @Kosmo999
      @Kosmo999 4 года назад +4

      @@Magicalfluidprocess if he wanted a cup of tea

  • @oliviagourlay4944
    @oliviagourlay4944 3 года назад +59

    You are a brave man. Although more people realize that people use drugs or alcohol for stress; there is still a stigma to addiction. People should know the traumatic backround of addicts before they judge. You're helping other people by telling your story.

  • @kconol
    @kconol 3 года назад +14

    My level of respect for who you are, what you do, and the way you’re able to convey your story has grown ten fold. Your story resonates with me on multiple levels, especially when you touched upon your spiritual breakthrough. Praying for you as you continue your walk. Greater things have yet to come.

  • @cheriparker7415
    @cheriparker7415 3 года назад +103

    15 days ago - that monday morning, i took an uber to the emergency room to detox from alcohol. i had binged the night before and i was already have withdraws at 7am
    within an hour of getting to the ER i had a seizure
    i’m so thankful and grateful that i chose sobriety and my kids couldn’t be more proud of me ❤️
    keep spreading love, russell xx

    • @amyblack1052
      @amyblack1052 3 года назад +1

      Thank you and best wishes

    • @wendyladybug355laurie4
      @wendyladybug355laurie4 3 года назад +1

      Many PRAYERSNLUV 👼👼✝️✝️🥰🥰

    • @awake2truth511
      @awake2truth511 3 года назад +1

      One day at a time...God Bless you.

    • @newguy3588
      @newguy3588 3 года назад +1

      Hope you're still well. But how long were you drinking before your detox? I get shakes 8-12 hours after my last drink, night sweats the next few nights, and am usually okay after 3 days or so. A Seizure seems extreme to me (everyone is different too) and I really don't want to experience that. That's why I'm asking is all.
      I am proud of you as well :)

  • @shellsspells2633
    @shellsspells2633 3 года назад +18

    Proud of you! I've been sober 4 years and counting! Never going back to that mess! Keep on killin' it, Russell!

  • @victoriapenn2732
    @victoriapenn2732 4 года назад +48

    one week from oxycontin, never thought id ever make it this far. This video was a spiritual and relatable realization for me as well. Know your enemies... because some of them may be inside you. Thanks for this vid!!

    • @pearlbubbles6885
      @pearlbubbles6885 3 года назад

      Read today on Scitechdaily that some people low in Vitamin D crave the oxycontin, worth getting tested most people are on the low end of vitamin D. Congratulations 🎉

  • @rickramos1292
    @rickramos1292 2 года назад +18

    I appreciate your looking back and going through the crazy, embarrassing things you did and maintaining your composure because it shows you have completely accepted, understood, and forgiven yourself for having done those things. I still feel extreme shame and it physically hurts to think about some of the crazy things I pulled. Thankfully, to date, apart from using itself I've never engaged in criminal activity nor have I ever hurt anyone. I've been betrayed and hurt by many though. I need to make peace with that part of my life.
    The nightmare isn't over though. This is year 13 of my 2nd bout with meth. The first lasted 5 years then I had nearly 3 years of sobriety. This 2nd era of meth addiction started in May 2009 and, I kid you not, it has been daily usage nonstop since.
    I'm as much addicted to the seedy fast life and all its quirky characters and all the lustful and erratic feelings and sensations that fluctuate within me constantly as I am to the drug itself but I know there is more to this life. I dream about it often.

    • @loralevis625
      @loralevis625 Год назад

      How do you feel now? Are things better now? Are you in treatment? Regards 🙏🏼

    • @cassandraann8632
      @cassandraann8632 Год назад

      That last statement hit hard
      "I know there is more to this life. I dream of it often."
      I hope you and I can both find ourselves living that dream.

  • @eklypised
    @eklypised 3 года назад +103

    I’ll be going through opiate wd for the last time starting tomorrow. Getting my life back after all these years of waste

    • @hendrimike08
      @hendrimike08 3 года назад +4

      praying for you.

    • @scottharris8467
      @scottharris8467 3 года назад +4

      I’m going through the same thing right this second. I was slowly using subutex to taper off but ran out and now in a relapse. I feel your pain brother.

    • @harryjones84
      @harryjones84 3 года назад

      @@scottharris8467 i cant do the bit after...like life's to far away now

    • @donniev8181
      @donniev8181 3 года назад +3

      @@harryjones84 it's never to far away. I waa on painkillers for over a decade then found Suboxone and it works. You do not need to be high but it takes awhile to get to the point where you can see it. God bless

    • @luna_belle5029
      @luna_belle5029 3 года назад

      Thinking of you- sending peaceful, loving energy your way. 🖤🙏🏻🤍

  • @riosmasosda1633
    @riosmasosda1633 3 года назад +26

    Thank you...one of the few and I mean REALLY FEW public figures that actually understand and talk honestly and openly about the pains of life,the endless war that is depression,the dark paths that the human mind can lead....so thank you,sir....from one human to another you and the spiritual level that you have reached are an absolute inspiration.

  • @jeffmartin9212
    @jeffmartin9212 4 года назад +261

    Every so often I am compelled to comment on Russel’s authenticity. It’s a fucking balm to the spirit in the midst of all the puffed up fakery and cornball energy out here. RUclips is my only social media so I can only imagine what it’s like with the full immersion, but imagining is as close as I will go. But here’s Russ, posting regularly for all us sufferers out here, with his cornucopia of sparkling language and intense spirit of connection even thru the small screen. Truly remarkable, unique and necessary, and consistently relevant to my life. I feel like if I’m relating to what this man is talking about I might just be on the right path. May a surprising peace come drifting down on all of you.

    • @nyambura1966
      @nyambura1966 4 года назад +8

      Thank you for your comment. Warming to read

    • @jeffmartin9212
      @jeffmartin9212 4 года назад +13

      @@nyambura1966 you’re welcome. Russ always makes me want to get fancy with the lingo, while trying to avoid the sarcastic RUclips hater-speak. Just wanted to put something decent and true out there.

    • @mandyritchie7115
      @mandyritchie7115 4 года назад +3

      @@jeffmartin9212 Jeff, you succeed. Very heartening observation and humbling comment. Thank you for sharing.

    • @jeffmartin9212
      @jeffmartin9212 4 года назад +1

      @@mandyritchie7115 my pleasure.

    • @karanfield4229
      @karanfield4229 4 года назад +2

      Yr writing is so descriptive and beautiful. U r very clever. Xx

  • @sherrikinney6633
    @sherrikinney6633 2 года назад +4

    Thank you for sharing! This heart felt video brought tears to my eyes. My addiction wasn’t drugs, it was to dissociation. I had no idea until I hit 58 and my ex left and I hit rock bottom. All the anger, fear and rage from the past hit me in the face. It’s hard work, so bless you for being here completely.

  • @brandijohnson9094
    @brandijohnson9094 3 года назад +27

    4 1/2 years and I still remember the darkness and can feel it as well. Such a dark lonely place and Im grateful I'm recovered for today!

  • @CarlVandenberg
    @CarlVandenberg 4 года назад +78

    I've been sober for nearly 8 years now. I was a "2 time loser", meaning I had gotten clean and sober for over 5 years on two separate occasions only to relapse and fall back into the hellish pit of addiction. The 2nd relapse lasted over 8 years and nearly killed me. Out of desperation I finally became willing to work the steps and they have set me free.

    • @geometricheaddress9457
      @geometricheaddress9457 4 года назад +4

      Relapse is a part of it. We've all done it.

    • @beckymm1989
      @beckymm1989 4 года назад +6

      Please, DO NOT call yourself a loser. You are an inspirational winner in my eyes and to many people.

    • @thinlineofsanity1035
      @thinlineofsanity1035 3 года назад +6

      Studies have shown it often takes 3 rehab stays before a person will finally achieve long-term sobriety.
      Us addicts have stunted our minds so much that when we get clean we are kinda useless. We have to learn how to be responsible, how to work and pay bills, how to treat ppl - we have to relearn these things with a clear mind. So yeah, relapse often happens.
      Ppl shouldn't be condemned for it. Instead, we should try to pick them up and get them back on track as quick as possible.
      My biggest issue with the getting clean process - Is that even though doctors acknowledge addiction is such a big issue that its its own pandemic, yet many insurances still wont cover treatment, and even if they do cover a facility they usually only cover up to 28 days.
      Maybe alcoholics can get sober and stay sober after only 28 days, but when your addicted to opiates, and your iv using - you NEED a long-term facility. Like, 6 months!
      Coming off the needle you dont start feeling decent til day 28! Its into your second month when the brain fog eases. And you cant learn coping skills until your mind is right.
      Addicts NEED long-term stays for success. Research has proven this.
      6 months in a treatment facility, followed by 1 year in a sober living house is a persons best chance for success.
      I just wish insurance companies would pay for it, or govt programs would cover it.
      Smh. But no, they wanna throw you in for 28 days, throw you back into the world not prepared for it, and its a recipe for failure sadly.

    • @sarahtaylor4264
      @sarahtaylor4264 3 года назад +2

      Sir, you are not a loser. You are inspirational human being who came out of one of the hardest struggles one can face alive and in a much better place. Keep fighting the good fight brother. This world needs you.

    • @alhana8293
      @alhana8293 3 года назад +2

      3rd time is a charm. Good luck

  • @OrginialDiamondGirl
    @OrginialDiamondGirl 3 года назад +17

    Dude, I am going to share this with my AA group .. I think anyone struggling away from drugs and alcohol or are in their first months of sobriety would benefit greatly. Your insights to "self" are the biggest help to me, just understanding ego is hard but you're making it a little easier in a practical way. Thank you, Peace Be With You

  • @michaelb7363
    @michaelb7363 2 года назад +1

    One year sober from alcohol. 3 months sober from weed. Now I’m dealing with my caffeine and sugar addiction. It’s hard to really face this life sober. But I won’t stop till I make it. Thanks Russel.

    • @michaelb7363
      @michaelb7363 2 года назад

      Russell**

    • @1sthawkfeathers547
      @1sthawkfeathers547 2 года назад

      Great strides ! It isn't easy. 8 years now with a few times I drank a few and hurt my head ! I have a caffeine/sugar addiction too, but I am not concerned. It could be worse. I am doing good and so are you, 5 minutes at a time, I say. Blessings to you ❤

  • @lauren5455
    @lauren5455 4 года назад +201

    I am not an addict but I do my best to "study" it. My brother was an addict for over 20 years. He lost his battle with his demons on June 7th 2020 at 2:45am. I tried my best to help him, we all did. I turned him on to Russell a few years ago. He loved you, he tried his hardest. He went into 14 rehabs over 4 years. But Fentanyl won him over in the end. I miss him every second of the day. He was a good man. He tried his hardest to be a good dad. His guilt and his ego were both enormous though. I hope any addict reading this gets the help they need. Not just for their families but for themselves. You are worth a good life, you deserve happiness. You deserve an easier life. There is ALWAYS someone to talk to, to listen to you, to help you. Take the help. Please.

    • @tomassopotentis428
      @tomassopotentis428 4 года назад +15

      Sorry to hear that. Your brother will be proud to call you his sister.

    • @coopadupa
      @coopadupa 4 года назад +6

      R.I.P. Goodluck on with your recovery lauren. Its not easy watching someone die from drugs. Especially when its your family.

    • @geometricheaddress9457
      @geometricheaddress9457 4 года назад +5

      I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost many friends and family to addiction. I had a boyfriend who passed at only 21 from an overdose. It really is a family disease. I think your trying to understand addiction is an honor to your brother's memory. To know a loved one cares and understands is so important. I'm sure he is resting peacefully on that fact.

    • @lauren5455
      @lauren5455 4 года назад +2

      @@geometricheaddress9457 I am sorry for your loss. You are correct, it is a family disease. My husband's best friend past away 1 year almost to the day before my brother of an overdose, and we have had many friends either die or be greatly affected by addiction. Having never been there myself it hurts my heart so much to see others suffer that way. To know they think this is the path they deserve for whatever reason or be so consumed by it they cannot escape. Therapy and support groups help but it is something that everyone affected by drug-related deaths with have to deal with the rest of their lives.
      *side note, drug dealers should have harsher punishments and drug addicts need more support from the governments and medical communities.

    • @tigq1430
      @tigq1430 4 года назад +3

      @Lauren my brother was murdered 9/2019 by his nurse. He was psychophnic/bipolar with addiction. I was in many unrecognized ways an enabler, my rabbit hole runs deep. Keep your eyes wide open, your heart healthy & your soul free. Good energy sent your way.

  • @stefaniac2095
    @stefaniac2095 3 года назад +7

    Russell, do you have any idea how inspiring you are? I don’t know you, I am not an addict, but i listen to you: a Hollywood celebrity, heartthrob, talented artist, using a common platform to help others, and in the journey , help yourself. I love how articulate you are, and I genuinely believe you are meant for greatness. Good work, and be proud of yourself.

  • @Stratus41298
    @Stratus41298 4 года назад +91

    One thing Russell's book taught me: Addiction is distraction. If you find the need to distract yourself constantly, you may have a problem. The problem may be small or it may be big. Sometimes we need a distraction just to get through something unpleasant like a funeral or a deadline; other times we need a constant distraction from our lives. Some distractions are good and necessary, others just create other problems. The best thing you can do is recognize the distractions and recognize why they are there. Easier said than done. Took me years and it's still a work in progress :)
    Another quote (paraphrasing): "If I'm not working THIS program, I'm working my own, and my own doesn't work".
    Thank you Russell for helping me years ago in one of my darkest times. I just kept reading and listening to your recovery book until it sunk in.

    • @suzieglancy9754
      @suzieglancy9754 3 года назад

      Hi there. Would you please tell me what book you referred to? I really need it!!

  • @daniellegreen1593
    @daniellegreen1593 2 года назад +8

    Thank you for sharing this part of you. I’m a recovering meth addict. Starting using drugs at 14 then found meth at 18-19 and that was my main drug until I finally got clean in my 40’s. I didn’t think I had a problem for the longest time because I could put it down and walk away from it over the years. I thought I hit rock bottom in 2002 when my home state kicked me out LOL it’s funny now not so much at the time. However 9 1/2 yrs later I relapsed hard. I hooked up with the most meanest brutal man ive ever known and I lost my kids to the state at teenagers. I was only out for a year and a half but man in that time I completely destroyed mine and my kids lives🥺 july 20 2012 is my clean date! I went into treatment and I’m a proud member of 12 step community. It’s saved my life. I’m coming up on 10yrs clean and sober and I’m beyond proud of myself. For me I had to get past that 9 1/2 yr marker for me to be proud of myself. But here I am and I’m so thankful for the life I have today. My kids are in my life and I’m a whole new woman. Along with drug addiction I’m also bipolar and I suffer from chronic wide spread daily pain. But even so I keep going because life now compared to my using days is absolutely priceless. Before recovery and working on all the ick inside from my childhood and my life of insanity I hated waking up every morning being pissed off at god for not killing me already. Not today!! Today I’m happy for the first time in my life I’m genuinely happy and grateful. I’ve always admired you because of you being in recovery and being so open about it. Thank you for leading the way. Love you friend💖💖

  • @JohnTaylor-fh4et
    @JohnTaylor-fh4et 4 года назад +23

    I'm proud of you Russell, john in Miami FL recovering heroin addict. Keep up the good fight brotha, we've got to unite.

  • @Clint_Yeetwood
    @Clint_Yeetwood 3 года назад +70

    I love how this guy is so transparent with no ego. He is very genuine and that is something hard to find.

    • @olsim1730
      @olsim1730 3 года назад +7

      You didn't watch the vid did you? He clearly explained about his ego ;)

  • @lisachapman8116
    @lisachapman8116 3 года назад +8

    Individuals and their families that deal with drug addiction breaks my heart. I just wish I could rescue every single person that is addicted. It messes up
    the lives and minds of the addict and causes sleepless nights and non-stop worry for those that love them. I'm so glad you are free from that life. Thank you for sharing this.

  • @CraigersL57
    @CraigersL57 2 года назад +1

    How is it a try later, over 1.3 mill views and only 57k likes? You're touching more than just those 57k people's lives Russell. Thank you for your strength and vulnerability. May peace be with you always and God bless you for what you've created here for us to share in and be apart of! Sending love from Idaho boyo!

  • @solovelynaturals
    @solovelynaturals 3 года назад +272

    There is no such thing as rock bottom. Hell is a bottomless pit. It only gets worse everyday until you quit.

    • @boganshazz821
      @boganshazz821 3 года назад +3

      YES, nice catchphrase.
      Rock bottom is the first fix.

    • @hereshoping6992
      @hereshoping6992 3 года назад +7

      I look up and see rock bottom 🤣🤣

    • @boganshazz821
      @boganshazz821 3 года назад

      @@hereshoping6992 🤣🤣🤣🤣you winning winning 😜

    • @reeceraur8735
      @reeceraur8735 3 года назад +2

      @@hereshoping6992 Rock bottom has a basement ☹️

    • @nunu4evaaa
      @nunu4evaaa 3 года назад

      What if you when u quit things just get even worse ?

  • @neilrawlins8108
    @neilrawlins8108 3 года назад +6

    When your using just to feel normal was when I got close to rock bottom then my 97 yr old grandmother said she prays for me every night. She was the only family member that could tell I was killing myself, I was excellent at hiding my addiction, and she asked me "Why are you paying someone to poison yourself???" I had no answer. I got so pissed off at myself, so I got help and on her deathbed I told her her prayers worked and she need not worry, she smiled and said she already knew. Been 4 yrs as of 2days ago and life has gotten better and better!

  • @randolfo1265
    @randolfo1265 3 года назад +29

    Thank you Russell for caring about the addicts and young ones who are so vulnerable.

  • @ericwarrington6650
    @ericwarrington6650 2 года назад +4

    14 years clean and sober...still working everyday to stay that way...only someone who has been through the nightmare of drug addiction can understand And clearly you've been there brother..it's this honesty in discussing the pain and fear of addiction that is so liberating as an addict...no more excuses...no more denial...no more blame...you gotta want it..you gotta fight for it..and y gotta OWN IT... otherwise you're doomed..you'll never make it out