When I think I overeat, it makes me feel like I already crossed the line and now I'm in the forbidden zone. So I eat more until I feel uncomfortable. Do you feel that too, when you couldn't resist a food and overeat it?
the "all or nothing" mindset is really common with people who have B.E.D. you just gotta know that once you have some kind of "forbidden" food, eating more of it won't help and would make things worse and control that urge to eat more. it's hard; but once you realize that the urge is just an urge, a simple thought and it depends on you if you'll act on it or not, you'll have control over it. just practice and practice, learn and learn because thats literally what life is all about; executing and learning.
You should film everything you eat or everytime. Doing that will give u portion control/self awareness and distraction. I mean I never tried before but that's just what I believe
I have a pattern of 1st month: anorexia- calories counting- dawn 2nd month: balanced, neither depressed or neat freak 3nd month: depressed binge eating- dusk ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ rn I'm in dusk and I'm trying to build my mentality to be prepared for dawn but I wish I could just settle in between it and feel balanced
ughh I'm crying over the same problem everyday so I'm starving myself for a week for 3 weeks until I drop my weight again • Its a problem my parents don't know about when I told them I wasn't going to eat yesterday they just said I ahd to eat because I'm young and growing and I can diet after 18 but they don't care about my appearance I'm just crying right now because I hate myself and I miss myself (the real me because I'm not myself when I have egohunger and that's the truth- I'm not myself when I eat i just eat mindlessly out of control thinking stupid things) the real me had self control and never ate after 12am and only had small breakfasts and excersized all day. I've just been feeling so hopeless and depressed idk but I cry everyday and I don't want to leave my bedroom because I'm embarrassed of my current body image and I don't want to talk to others either I'm just going to isolate myself for this entire 2021 until I'm more confident Yes I'm aware how childish i am So I put a timer for 100 hours and in that 100 hours I want to unlock the true me the one with self awareness and confidence I miss her and I'm not going to a place with food / friends in that 100 hours after 100 hours finishes I'll add another 68 hours to make 7 days and in those hours I hope my weight drops I'm sick of my temptations I hate myself and I've been feeling really lonely. I'm going to set timer of 100+68 hours every week from now on so in those time periods I can't go to kitchen or eat lots of food it's like intermittent fasting. I'll do it for 12 months I'm doing this so 1. I feel better and find my true self 2. I'm not judged by others for being ugly and greedy--- 3. I don't have sadness and crying in my life anymore I'm not doing this for anyone but myself because I want to love myself more
youre just going to binge again if you starve yourself. you do realize you can lose weight by just sticking to 1900 cals and exercising plus having fun, right? youre just gonna binge/starve and repeat. ive been there, the only weight ive dropped was muscle mass no fat whatsoever. try going on keto and do intermittent fasting for 12+ hours and have 6 hours of eating afterwards, do some hiit or exercises that you enjoy. dont just fast for 3 weeks, thats stupid.
i know, just eating is fucking hard but youre making it harder for yourself to not eat and then lose control. if you really want to love yourself then you would accept and respect who you are right now. if your confidence is determined by your weight then maybe take a step back on your life instead of trying to get more control on your eating habits in an unhealthy way? realize that you are more than what you eat. its cheesy, but you gotta realize your self worth instead of just looking at your exercise routine, weight and eating habits for a confidence boost. if you really want to love yourself, respect your decisions as a human being and find your worth. since you know that you have a problem eating mindlessly, i suggest to count all your bites whenever eating food. chew for about 30-40 times and really think about what you are putting in your mouth and enjoy it.
it seems like youre just having a tough time as a teen, not to invalidate your experiences and feelings right now but i also experience the same things as you because i am also a minor. this is important because you need to fully understand that you are growing and that you'll need to eat and nourish your body in order to be healthy. your weight doesnt matter or your appearance doesnt matter if you eat like shit or dont eat at all. yknow, when i was anorexic and restricting my food intake i became more uglier. literally, my mother told me that i looked like a 30 year old and i saw it. my skin turned ugly and pale-ish dark, my eyes were darker than ever and my hair kept going out my roots (it still is bc im still trying to recover) not only that but i stunted my growth for a bit because of lack of food and nutrients. i was malnourished and in the scale, i had lost, but i only lost muscle mass which at the time made me feel so weak. i was basically skinny-fat. i was constipated 24/7 too. one time in public, i couldnt control my bowels and asshole anymore because like i said, i was weak from starvation. and i had to shit in a public bathroom and let me tell you it was terrible. my stomach hurt so goddamn much and it was so embarassing even though no one was there. i felt like my stomach was beyond fucked up and it hurt like i was having dysmenorrhea. i also lost my period for about a month, but before that i kept binging and binging after i tried eating normally. i gained more weight and i was ashamed. do you really want to go through with what i went through? if not, have some more control over your head. whatever its telling you is bullshit filled by your insecure hormones that your reptillia created because of the desire to be better than anybody else. its not your lack of self love thats doing this, the reason why youre doing this to yourself is because you lack self love. if you really loved yourself, like i said before and i will say it again, you would respect yourself and try to be healthier everyday. its not because you are "fat". your parents are right, start focusing on your looks when you're of age already. you dont need to look desirable, even for yourself, when you are young. even if you are doing this for yourself, it'll never be enough. your expectations for yourself is too high, believe me. you'll die before you even make it to your expectations. remember, you are only a teen, a child. you shouldnt be expecting so much for yourself especially if what youre gonna do is starving and depriving yourself in order to get to your goal. its not worth it, it really isnt.
@@61subsandnovideos well yeah, I was eating like a potato and 1/4 a carrot amount of food everyday for a month and after that month I binged on junk food for days straight and couldn't control my self hatred which was causing my kitchen purges and I gained back all the weight I had lost (5 kg) and I just feel sad
@@61subsandnovideos ithink I'm just becoming depressed again. I started isolating myself from all my friends and I started avoiding all mirrors and I've been wasting time just walking from the fridge to the other fridge and pantry to pantry
happy new year, i hope you recover soon
When I think I overeat, it makes me feel like I already crossed the line and now I'm in the forbidden zone. So I eat more until I feel uncomfortable. Do you feel that too, when you couldn't resist a food and overeat it?
the "all or nothing" mindset is really common with people who have B.E.D. you just gotta know that once you have some kind of "forbidden" food, eating more of it won't help and would make things worse and control that urge to eat more. it's hard; but once you realize that the urge is just an urge, a simple thought and it depends on you if you'll act on it or not, you'll have control over it. just practice and practice, learn and learn because thats literally what life is all about; executing and learning.
Yeah
I stuff myself and I hate it sometimes I don't even like the taste of it but I force myself out of self hatred
You should film everything you eat or everytime. Doing that will give u portion control/self awareness and distraction. I mean I never tried before but that's just what I believe
I have a pattern of
1st month: anorexia- calories counting- dawn
2nd month: balanced, neither depressed or neat freak
3nd month: depressed binge eating- dusk
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
rn I'm in dusk and I'm trying to build my mentality to be prepared for dawn but I wish I could just settle in between it and feel balanced
Happy new year! I hope your looking after yourself 💓
💪🏻
ughh I'm crying over the same problem everyday so I'm starving myself for a week for 3 weeks until I drop my weight again
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Its a problem my parents don't know about when I told them I wasn't going to eat yesterday they just said I ahd to eat because I'm young and growing and I can diet after 18 but they don't care about my appearance
I'm just crying right now because I hate myself and I miss myself (the real me because I'm not myself when I have egohunger and that's the truth- I'm not myself when I eat i just eat mindlessly out of control thinking stupid things) the real me had self control and never ate after 12am and only had small breakfasts and excersized all day. I've just been feeling so hopeless and depressed idk but I cry everyday and I don't want to leave my bedroom because I'm embarrassed of my current body image and I don't want to talk to others either I'm just going to isolate myself for this entire 2021 until I'm more confident
Yes I'm aware how childish i am
So I put a timer for 100 hours and in that 100 hours I want to unlock the true me the one with self awareness and confidence I miss her and I'm not going to a place with food / friends in that 100 hours after 100 hours finishes I'll add another 68 hours to make 7 days and in those hours I hope my weight drops I'm sick of my temptations I hate myself and I've been feeling really lonely.
I'm going to set timer of 100+68 hours every week from now on so in those time periods I can't go to kitchen or eat lots of food it's like intermittent fasting. I'll do it for 12 months
I'm doing this so
1. I feel better and find my true self
2. I'm not judged by others for being ugly and greedy---
3. I don't have sadness and crying in my life anymore
I'm not doing this for anyone but myself because I want to love myself more
youre just going to binge again if you starve yourself. you do realize you can lose weight by just sticking to 1900 cals and exercising plus having fun, right? youre just gonna binge/starve and repeat. ive been there, the only weight ive dropped was muscle mass no fat whatsoever. try going on keto and do intermittent fasting for 12+ hours and have 6 hours of eating afterwards, do some hiit or exercises that you enjoy. dont just fast for 3 weeks, thats stupid.
i know, just eating is fucking hard but youre making it harder for yourself to not eat and then lose control. if you really want to love yourself then you would accept and respect who you are right now. if your confidence is determined by your weight then maybe take a step back on your life instead of trying to get more control on your eating habits in an unhealthy way? realize that you are more than what you eat. its cheesy, but you gotta realize your self worth instead of just looking at your exercise routine, weight and eating habits for a confidence boost. if you really want to love yourself, respect your decisions as a human being and find your worth. since you know that you have a problem eating mindlessly, i suggest to count all your bites whenever eating food. chew for about 30-40 times and really think about what you are putting in your mouth and enjoy it.
it seems like youre just having a tough time as a teen, not to invalidate your experiences and feelings right now but i also experience the same things as you because i am also a minor. this is important because you need to fully understand that you are growing and that you'll need to eat and nourish your body in order to be healthy. your weight doesnt matter or your appearance doesnt matter if you eat like shit or dont eat at all. yknow, when i was anorexic and restricting my food intake i became more uglier. literally, my mother told me that i looked like a 30 year old and i saw it. my skin turned ugly and pale-ish dark, my eyes were darker than ever and my hair kept going out my roots (it still is bc im still trying to recover) not only that but i stunted my growth for a bit because of lack of food and nutrients. i was malnourished and in the scale, i had lost, but i only lost muscle mass which at the time made me feel so weak. i was basically skinny-fat. i was constipated 24/7 too. one time in public, i couldnt control my bowels and asshole anymore because like i said, i was weak from starvation. and i had to shit in a public bathroom and let me tell you it was terrible. my stomach hurt so goddamn much and it was so embarassing even though no one was there. i felt like my stomach was beyond fucked up and it hurt like i was having dysmenorrhea. i also lost my period for about a month, but before that i kept binging and binging after i tried eating normally. i gained more weight and i was ashamed. do you really want to go through with what i went through? if not, have some more control over your head. whatever its telling you is bullshit filled by your insecure hormones that your reptillia created because of the desire to be better than anybody else. its not your lack of self love thats doing this, the reason why youre doing this to yourself is because you lack self love. if you really loved yourself, like i said before and i will say it again, you would respect yourself and try to be healthier everyday. its not because you are "fat". your parents are right, start focusing on your looks when you're of age already. you dont need to look desirable, even for yourself, when you are young. even if you are doing this for yourself, it'll never be enough. your expectations for yourself is too high, believe me. you'll die before you even make it to your expectations. remember, you are only a teen, a child. you shouldnt be expecting so much for yourself especially if what youre gonna do is starving and depriving yourself in order to get to your goal. its not worth it, it really isnt.
@@61subsandnovideos well yeah, I was eating like a potato and 1/4 a carrot amount of food everyday for a month and after that month I binged on junk food for days straight and couldn't control my self hatred which was causing my kitchen purges and I gained back all the weight I had lost (5 kg) and I just feel sad
@@61subsandnovideos ithink I'm just becoming depressed again. I started isolating myself from all my friends and I started avoiding all mirrors and I've been wasting time just walking from the fridge to the other fridge and pantry to pantry
Happy new year hope you geet better i strugle whit bed too 💙