Hi! I am the maker and publisher of this video, and I would just like to say that I am truly OVERWHELMED by the feedback I’ve gotten. I made this video not thinking much about it, I was just experimenting and doing what I loved - editing. Regarding all the comments: I do hope you don’t use this as a reason to kill yourselves. It might not feel like it right now, but you truly are loved - if there is one positive thing I have gotten out of reading the comments, then it is the fact that the world hasn’t gone to shit just yet. Not everyone are evil and rude, so many have offered to help and be someone others can talk and vent to. I really believe it’s good for anyone who is suffering something - anything really - to talk to someone. It doesn’t matter who, as long as you feel comfortable telling the person. If you would rather talk to a stranger than someone you know - go ahead! Take someone up on that offer! If you don’t want to talk to a stranger, please, do talk to someone in your family, or a friend, a teacher, a colleague, someone that you trust, and just maybe you will feel a little better. Killing yourself is NOT the solution, it never was. You have SO much to live for, and if you don’t believe me then I guess you will just have to wait, LIVE, and see for yourself. Everything gets better. Don’t strive to have the perfect life. Just live YOUR life, it’s worth it. If you are feeling down one day, that’s totally ok. It’s completely normal. You aren’t supposed to feel your best every day, that’s just going to kill your spirit. Everyone has ups and downs, and that’s ok. Everything might not be ok right now, but if you just hold on and live you will see that things can and will be. Please, live your life. You deserve that.
@@AvatarArrowYT those with the biggest smiles, are often the very same that have shed the most tears. So, if it was really that bad, than it was to make you wonderful. "Be the change..." ☝️🖤
yeah, i’m trying my hardest to give out support to people throughout the comments in these certain types of videos to assure them and give suggestions where they can go to vent, deal with shit, etc. but while doing that, it hurts to know that i have no one to do the same for me.
@@davidparkinson6372 If you wake up and you have a heart beat in your chest and air in your lungs that means god is not done with you yet he sees you he loves you and he has a plan for your life, talk to someone, anyone. You know every person who has tried to commit suicide off the golden gate bridge and survived to tell the tale said the second they let go of that railing they instantly regretted their decision. You've survived 100% of your bad days dont let this day be your last, Godbless and hope you get better. also this might help you a lot of his videos helped me (ruclips.net/video/L33djEEMEE8/видео.html)
The real pain is when you want to cry but cannot so you lay there and then think “I’m being dramatic, I’m so ridiculous why would anyone want to have you”
That’s the thing..., we tried to show our true feelings but society, people, parents, friends and etc, they just shut us out..., and telling us things like grow up/man up, something like that..., it’s just hurts u know...
AprilFoolsPony i do the same every single night cause at the night time i always cry and let my feelings out hating on myself and why i am good enough and even tho we don’t know i hope you will have the best day/night of your life and i love you
That....pain. that is pain, my friend. Pain of the other people, who are lost like we are. Lost in a cold, deep, dark void without emotions and sounds. That is pain
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help..
@Sev i can relate, things can get worsen rapidly. I am also going through same, i think i have things under control. A phone call saved me last time🥺, don't know how I'll hold up if things worsen again. I'll recommend you to talk to someone, not necessarily your family or friends. Internet is beautiful place and many are here to help. Write about all those things matter, don't be shy sharing with someone, read books. chin up and don't give up.
@@vikrammeena6614 if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
I love stiles, we have a lot of things in common. The sarcastic personality, Always trying to help their friends and the constant feeling of worry, being scared and trying to cover everything up by being sarcastic.
I laugh so much in school hiding the fact that i'm broken inside 3 years update: I have all I thought I couldn't have, or thought I was undeserving of. If I hadn't held on, I wouldn't have known what it's like to live out my dream life. I cannot even begin. I am just so, so happy. I am filled with so much love, I have become attractive and my family has been financially doing so well. I hope this will be used as inspiration, I was so scared of my future when I wrote this comment, not knowing that happiness was just around the corner. Sending lots of love to everyone.
Is it just me or is it easier to talk to people on the internet you don’t even know and they can make you feel so much better then the people in front of you because they don’t get it or say it’s just a phase? Edit* if anyone wants to talk to me my discord is “Kami17#8790”
Worst part, no one I've ever said that too has noticed. So I personally don't think anyone will no offense hun, but unless it's another person like us in pain, they'll never notice our fake smiles and lies
I wish, when i say "im fine" someone would just hug me tight n say "i know ur not". But that'll never happen. My depression wants me to die. But my anxiety is scared to die. Yknow what, this is the reality of having mental healt issues. This is how ya feel sometimes.
But when you do, it’s a huge accomplishment and everyone’s proud of you for doing it. Other people trapped look up to you for it. You yourself will be so happy and proud of yourself. It’s worth the fight, I promise
I'm not scared of dying, I'm only scared of hurting the people who really do care about me. I have always said "if I were gonna die, I don't think I'd stop it. But I'd want to apologise for leaving first."
I told them, no one belived me, that I survived two suicide attepms. They started think it might be true after I read them my suicide note. I should have kept it to myself.
Bruh.. The only one that o trust in school just told something that was supposed to be a secret to the whole class... Wow... The other one listened to me then the next day she said that if i'm gonna seek for her attention again she's gonna block me... On the gc where the whole class was.... Wow... Now i don't have anyone to trust.. And now my only friends are my dog, my bird, and my cat.. 🙂And 4 fake friends
@@kaib_0798 it's because people that aren't in depression don't realize that smiling and laughing doesn't mean you're happy it means you're hiding that you're not happy
The way that this audio actually helped me not kms in high school. The idea of just holding on for one more second has been the best I could do so many times, for years straight
And look where you are bro, your still here and there’s a reason for that. I’ve been through some nasty mental health situations the past few years. But now my mindset is focused on myself. Fuck every single other person out there, become your own best friend learn to love yourself and love spending time with yourself. I am me, despite my problems and I’m learning to love it. You can to bro. Love yourself, suicide doesn’t stop the pain. It only moves it. Good luck
Amelia, I know your comment is 6 mths old now but I just had to reply...in case you don't already know. What you are describing is called Empathy. It sounds like you've got the gift of being an Empath (aka: a healer)! If you don't know much about it, might I suggest you look it up. It is, no doubt, a spiritual gift! Although, many empaths say it's a gift that comes with lots of personal challenges as well. Learning more about it, can help you better understand how to use it & how you can protect & care for yourself as well. 🤞💜 & 💫 to you!
we say we’re fine cause we don’t want other people to think we want everything to be about us. or at least that’s how i am. i hate when other people worry about me.
I feel you, my biggest relationships are online people from all across the world, and I feel deeply that I can trust them more than anyone I know in real life, because all they know are the things I tell them (e.g. I’m having problems at home) I never tell them personal things like names, specific roads/ buildings (unless public e.g. Big Ben, Windsor, London, Buckingham palace (I don’t talk about these they’re just big places in my country)), ages or anything like that we just chat and talk about random things like “oh once this girl came up to me and asked me this stupid question” (obv just referring to them as girl/ boy/ them/ it) and it makes the relationship stronger for me to not know them in person, maybe know what they look like or hear their voice but nothing past that. Because everyone I’ve ever known in person feels like they are going to leave me whenever they want and judge me however they want even right in front/ behind me. E.g. I had these 2 girls in my class and everyday I was sat in front of them I didn’t know what they were talking about me for (I could only hear giggling and my name) and it made me so mad that I couldn’t hear those girls cause I seriously wanted to out them so much. I do have a few friends I feel okay with (I don’t talk about personal issues with them) and they all don’t really have good feelings with the girls I was just talking about, anyways. Never trust anyone you know in real life always trust the ones who don’t know you, cause they can’t do anything to you if they don’t know you. (Not saying it for people you’ve built a good relationship with online but trust them more than face to face relationships. EDIT: that’s the end of my writing marathon and have a nice day
@@Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet i totally understand… it’s kind of like when you can have occasional interactions over the internet it’s easier to tell them what going on because they won’t tell anyone you know because it’s anonymous. the interaction can be like bestfriends over the internet but faceless. i can put my trust in you even tho you may not put yours in me. i can do that because i know that you don’t know me personally. the everyday people don’t. have that trust has they kno to much about me already. i feel like you have your own problems that you can’t tell your friends or family but when you are completely down, to say the least going on to youtube and opening some sad songs to cry to while searching for comments that relate, it’s honestly everyone’s sanctuary. i really appreciate you reaching out to me and expressing your thoughts. i’m only 13 but i can tell that this is something everyone is struggling with. trust. that’s also the end of my writing marathon too. i did this during my google meet. lockdown in new zealand haha wishing you all the best
@@andreamae9116 same to you, wishing you the best. Idk bout these days but it’s never the angry teens anymore it’s all the depressed ones. I don’t mind about reaching out literally anyone can reach out to me because I’m kinda considered the therapist friend LOL.
The fact that someone else in the world is watching this the same time I am makes me sad that someone else is feeling the same or maybe worse than me...whoever you are, I’m sorry. 💜
Do you ever feel like your giving out soooo many hints to friends and family that your not okay and hurting inside but they just brush it off like it’s nothing. Well if so.. same.
Ava H same you give off so manny hints your not ok there’s something wrong but friends and family ignore it they don’t want to see that your so obviously not fine. I feel the same way
Same but with me people never know cause i keep this stupid ass smile on my face every fucking day😭😭😭 im sick of this smile but then again who would care anyway 😒
i feel like the nogitsune, he symbolized more than just an angry fox spirit. it symbolized the darkness. the anxiety, the depression, the sadness, the grief stiles never allowed himself to show. it symbolizes what so many of us go through. we all have a nogitsune. all of us. its only a matter of how strong it is, how much it shows. *and this is what happens when its 2 in the morning and i find myself in stiles stilinski audios. thank you.*
I remember him saying this… I listened to much and knew what he was saying and it honestly made me wanna cry. I love stiles so much and people don’t realize how he is the friend that helps everyone but needs help
"One Day You're Gonna Look Around And You're Going To Realise That Everybody Loves You...But Nobody Likes You. And That's The Loneliest Feeling In The World." -Bojack Horseman
This kinda reminds me of the quote that bojack horseman said "usually when someone asks how I'm doing the real answer is I'm doing shitty, but I cant say I'm doing shitty! Cause then they ask why what's wrong and I just say, idk
It’s even worse when you’re crying so hard you can’t breathe, and your whole body is shaking all while you’re wondering why you can’t ever be enough for anyone in your life. You wonder why the love of your life will never choose you. You wonder why it is so GOD DAMN hard for you to be loved. But then again you’re used to it by now
You all will make it, your life is more than what it seems. You will all be sad for now but it's not forever. Trust me, I tried to commit suicide a few years ago. Now today I'm in an amazing relationship and my family is more supportive than ever. Life gets better but it can not if you are not in it. I'm addressing this to everyone who posted a comment, you will be okay. my Instagram is instagram.com/officialkiwisimmer/ use this if you need a friend or a complete stranger to talk to, I will not and will never be judgemental and I will listen wholeheartedly. I'm also coping a pasting this into all the comments that are sad because you all need to see this. Talk to me or someone else who will listen because there are people who care, even if its a complete stranger.
I love stiles he’s just so cute but he’s lost he’s funny but he’s also scared.This scene broke me that he feels like this I know it’s a series but still it literally broke me
You know... I’m that funny guy at school, the one that with his friends and in public always laugh, but the nobody knows... when school finishes, that guy returns home, that guy goes into his room and starts crying...
Friends are there because they care about you. They appreciate you for being yourself and they can't help you if you don't let them know. Your friends are you friends because they like who you are. You are loved and cherished. Don't forget that ❤️
For all of you feeling hopeless, depressed or suicidal... You don’t _really_ want to die. You just want the pain to go away. What if that pain _could_ go away? Your life would be so much better, right? So what if it could go away? It can. It totally can. You are not an exception to all the people who get better out there. You are not a mistake. You are not an accident. You are put here for a reason, and if you struggle with finding that reason, you can’t give up. Ever. Sure, there’s terrible things going on in your life right now, in your head right now, through your eyes right now... but there is always something to hold on to. Whatever brings you joy, or even used to bring you joy, find that. Whether it’s the sunshine on an autumn day. Whether it’s late night reading by the fire in winter. Whether it’s hanging out with friends, laughing with family. Whether it’s writing in your diary, or rocking out to your favorite song. You wouldn’t want to give that up. I know I wouldn’t. Ending your life is _not_ an option to stop your pain. Speaking up and getting help *is*. This is your life. You need to live it to the fullest, because you only have one. It’s gonna be hard, but who _ever_ said it would be easy? Rough patches make you stronger. Wow I typed a lot and clearly you can see I’m passionate about this kind of thing haha... what I’m trying to say is just hang in there. If you feel hopeless, talk it out. Get the help you deserve. Because _everyone_ deserves a bright future, and a beautiful life. 💫
I totally agree Tori Loehn but people do speak up and ask for but what do we get pills thrown at us or pointless counciling thats of no use if and when you fall into your darkest times the mental health service and civilians need to help more
Tori ! To say these words you must have lived em And you know what pain is But like you I’m here to save these souls I won’t let this fucked up life get to em I know that pain.. of being :p nvm lol But you are an amazing person *huggles* You are really special ya know ! Take care love be safe always
The moment u feel happy for once but then ur depression kicks in and you feel alone and sad and feel like no one wants you around or anything and u lock urself in a room and cry till u fall asleep
I had that. I was driving and I actually felt happy for a moment. Then I saw a group of high schoolers in the back of a truck having a good time with their friends and it felt like a stab to the heart.
If my family knew I watch video's like these they would probably think I'm trying to find reasons to be depressed and feel sorry for myself, but I'm not trying to do that. I just want to know that other people feel these things that I feel it gives me a sense of relief that I'm not alone. And I love how strangers know exactly how we feel better than people whom claim to love us
It takes practice. Being vague is okay too. It allows the other person to ask more questions or leave it as is. I tend to say Meh, not really, sort of, or I'm alive. It took me awhile to get comfortable with these. Sometimes people don't know how to approach the subject with those of us who are struggling. The phrases I mentioned can open the door to deeper conversations, or simply let them know that you're struggling. They can then offer support and encouragement. Learning to accept those are ... Not always easy but definitely worth it. It's important to learn how to self advocate, it's So much healthier than the standard brush off of "I'm fine " Nothing worth anything is ever easy. Easy has no worth and only short shallow comfort. Easy does not last.
This quarantine needs to end. I feel like I’m going back to the dark place that was so hard to leave. I made it through once but I’m scared about what will happen if I return to that state of mind.
Alexander Barker thank you so much! This mean a lot to me. Not many people offer to talk so just reading this comment made me feel better. Also if u need someone to talk to I will always be here.
Every single day I live, I wonder about the future. Everyday I can feel this overwhelming sense of grief and just anger that I’m stuck in this world that doesn’t care about me. Everyday I look for someone to care, I look for someone to ask what’s wrong, but every time it becomes more apparent I’ll never be with people who care. I’m depressed, I’m tired, I’m so very tired... but I’m the fun friend, I’m the one who always has a smile on my face making sure everyone else is okay. I’m the friend that is always there, but I have no friends who are always there. I’m just tired
Same, I searched too, found my dog who was right next to my side the whole time..(I hated him and blamed him for my moms cancer/death as childish as it may sound). It’s still oh so hard but.. the nights are warmer with my buddy...
Someone: hey are you ok your looking a bit down.. Me: oh, yeah I’m fine! I’m Fine with crying all night I’m Fine with getting bad grades I’m Fine with arguing with my parents every day I’m Fine with having no friends I’m Fine with having no one love me I’m Fine with having everyone avoid me I’m Fine with people ignoring me Fine with putting in a mask everyday to cover up my ugly face I’m fine with being called names I’m fine with crying myself to sleep I’m fine with failing school I’m fine with not paying attention in class I’m fine with my brother hurting me I’m fine with being called ugly I’m fine with being depressed I’m fine with not having fun Someone: oh ok! Me: bye!
I still listen to this audio till this day. I've been constantly thinking about the agonizing pressure we suffer as children, teens, and even adults. We all think it's a phase, but it's not. It's that false accusation we tell ourselves to move pass. Yet, we still continue to grow and that agonizing pain or pressure is still a build up of our lives. As people ask us, "how are you," the response is always "i'm fine or i'm good." This is because, no one is interested in what we feel, because they can do nothing about it. They don't care. We realise until the immense build up we endured throughout our lives is at it's peek that it wants to burst. Society these days are messed up and we all know that if we end things right there and then, we've shut down generations. It's selfish to die from such thing but its as if we were born to live with it.
This was originally typed for someone else, but I feel like everyone needs to hear it. Turn off all the lights in a room your most comfortable being in. Sit int he middle of the room, and focus on breathing. Any negative thought you have, walk away from it, any positive thought you have hold on tightly to it, and do not let go. The second you let go, is the second the water floods in, the second you start drowning, but if youre drowning, you still see the light from the surface. If you can see the surface your instinct is to swim to it. In this case the water, is tears. Humans cry because of pain, sometimes physically, some times emotionally, and sometimes mentally. Sometimes we just need to cry, we need to fill the ocean, that is our negative thoughts, but what we cant do, what we cant do is have the urge to walk in alone. You cannot traverse alone, for what will happen if things go wrong? No one will be there, but if you have someone with you, weather its family, friends, a pet, an imaginary friends, maybe even an ancestor, someone to hold your hand and guide you, youll be okay. Its a bad day, its a bad couple of nights, its a bad couple of weeks, months, years even. But its not a bad life, its not a wasted life, not unless you make it. Its all about how its perceived, if you want it to be bad, it will be. If you want it to be good, it will be. No thing, and no one will hit you harder then life, it will knock you down to your knees and keep you there if you let it, but what matters is you dont. What matters is that you have the strength, you have the courage to stand up and hit back. It doesnt matter if your tall or short, strong or weak, obese or thin. You are you, and as long as thats who you are, then theres no one else you need to be. Theres no one else you need to impress, if someone isnt proud of your best, then forget them. As long as you gave it your all, gave it everything you have, then thats what matters, and if your not proud of yourself, im proud of you. You reached out, you asked for help from complete strangers, the world isnt all sunshine and rainbows, but rainbows wont light up the sky unless you let it rain, and candles just wont glow until they burn, but you cant give up your laugher cause your scared of a little pain, thats a lesson that the hole world needs to learn, and if you ever need someone to talk to, you ever need a shoulder to cry on, you ever need someones hand to hold. Ill be that someone, ill be that shoulder, ill be the hand that you need to hold.
Wow this is wow.. I really appreciate this and I’m sure more people Will find it at the time that they need to. So I’m saying thank you now bc now is when I need it.
FOR EVERYONE WITH DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY OR JUST FEELING LOW, WATCHING THIS VIDEO: I think it's very important that you realize that their conversation did not end here, on that desperate note of him wondering wether if it'll only get worse. In the actual TV show, teen wolf, she concludes saying a quote from Winston Churchill "if you are going through hell, keep going". I feel that the difference is huge, who listens to this and ends up in doubt will feel worse, but if you have a chance of reading the concluding quote, I think it might give you strength.
It's a heavy weight in your chest that makes you not wanna get up. That it's so difficult to breathe, every night is the reoccurring pressure and it always hurts. That this pain will NEVER go away..as if im in an endless hallway and no matter how much i try to reach the end it just goes further and further away, then the tears fall for hours on end the insomnia continues and the thoughts of "I can't" or "I won't" echo through my head. I cry out for help but my parents call it an excuse, they dont understand. Dad never really cared...Mom only turned my issues into a financial crisis, like it's my fault I have anxiety and depression. 12 years of special education thought my parents were doing what was best, but after those 12 years I developed PTSD from my teachers and classmates, the thoughts got worse. Started stealing and lying and getting into all sorts of trouble cause it was the only way to get noticed. Started taking medications for anxiety and depression. It helps but it only masks how I truly feel. The scars of memory cause nightmares, just reliving each day in and out, time after time, and it makes the pressure in my chest get worse and worse until I feel my body will finally give out from the stress. That I may finally achieve peace. But I can never be that fortunate..
I’ve faked being okay for so long I’ve started to believe that feeling this way is okay. It’s like I don’t think about it anymore. When I need to cry, I can’t. I just want to scream it out but I can’t. I think that’s the worst feeling in the world. And I don’t even know why I’m this way. It just feels so dull.
life fucking sucks. why can’t i go to the old days where i was happy and content with my life. now i stay up and sob my eyes out because of all this stress i get. i hate my life.
*When you say you're fine when you really aren't.* *But then you kind of wish you have told someone you weren't fine, you weren't okay so you wouldn't have to carry this weight on your shoulders but now it's too late for that and you know you didn't tell anyone in the first place because you knew you'd be a burden to them in some way.*
Yet your resolution to not burden others outweighs that wish, so that every time someone asks, you say “I’m ok” “Everything’s fine” purely out of reflex
Kira Killer someone told me to watch it and just judging by the title i thought it would be a children drama show and now it is the best show i have ever watched on netflix.
2:36 to 2:50 Most people don’t understand that a person who’s contemplating suicide doesn’t want to kill themselves, they just want the pain to stop. That’s why we choose to “inhale the water” just for that little moment that truly sets you free from your head feeling like it’s about to explode
Thank you, most people don't understand that and its hard for me to find someone that does and knows how to help me through my days. So thank you, for being able to understand.
i feel alone. and i'm surrounded by my friends and family but feeling so alone that you can feel it deep into your soul when you're surrounded by so many people, that, that's the worst feeling in the world. but that's the feeling i live with everyday and the words 'I'm fine' just don't hold any meaning anymore. i don't tell anybody because i don't want to be a burden or an annoyance and i just have no idea what to do.
i know what you mean in my experienxe its a big burden and you just keep on going but in the end it comes to a happy day or anything that makes you happy. I was in a dark place like 2 years ago i was an addict and just thought that life was pointless and just keept fucking around with tha substance but after a year of that i just came to a realisation that everyone feels like shit sometimes but the thing is that sometimes it last for a day and sometimes it can last for years but in the end its worth it and dont do it for friends or family do it for you, you have your own power but that dosent keep you happy all the time and friends and family cant help you with that either but to feel sad is to know what happy means. dont give upp sometimes its good to walk alone. I hope you the best and go all in and dont forget who you are!
Same. However, I know what I'm about to say will make me sound mentally ill or something but I've found talking to myself and imagining an audience helps me gain my confidence and makes me feel less alone. I feel alone in my head so I simply place people there.
It's not just a little agony though, there is so much agony that some of us aren't strong enough to handle, some of us are trying to go through this alone because you don't want to bother the people around you, you don't want people to pity you. So you push through all by yourself until someone finds you and they make you feel something you've never felt, you finally feel happy. You fell okay. We can't go through these things alone, we need to find someone who can put the agony to death. Survival is much more difficult than any of us can imagine
The thing about it is as kids we are told “you are going to forget this ever happened by next week”. But the things that hurt as a child hurt for life.
s o r r y i don’t know how this doesn’t have more likes. I’m fine is the most common lie we tell as humans but it’s a lie to probably one of the most Important questions we ask. The people who ask this question care about us and just telling I’m fine is a response that means we are scared and scared of what they’ll say
"Go outside" , a phrase we hear so much, but never do........... The most common lie we tell people we are going to do.......... But how can I be sad outside? I have to stay inside to keep being sad....... They'll never understand........
@@micahmonk2496 dying i believe i just stop existing as a consciousness and alive i experience what exist and it's my only chance i have. The god envy us because we're mortal. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. Experience new things. Work to get opportunity and keep what you love close. Loving hurt cause your heart is layed on your hand. People can shared there heart or hurt yours when it's layed before you. Identify yourself and move in this mess the way you can enjoying most of it. Pain gets no results so why would you act like a victim. Overcome obstacles and don't take to much time to it slowing you down.
a continued poem by three people roses are red violets are blue, sugar is sweet so are you. but the roses have wilted the violets dead, the sugar bowl empty and my wrists stained red. but roses grow back and violets too, sugar bowl is filled it’s all up to you. but when the world is dead flowers are too, the bowl is broken so are you.
I don't know when the idea of dying because of drowning first took over me.. Since then, I just fear water, for real. Turns out, I'm drowning everyday, you don't need water to drown.
I wrote this poem, I think someone needs to hear this Like, a blue house Your eyes stand out so tattered Torn apart like the siding, Your windows- Boarded up, Because they too were broken too many times, The bright freshly painted door however, Much like your smile so welcoming Was opened to find the living room where the couches are so worn it seemed as if no one ever got up I find comfort. A broken piano with ivory keys One beautiful, playing melodies Now sits still with a newfound beauty And much like the candle in the corner that can't quite seem to be blown out You keep fighting Because in this home I find comfort Because in this home I find warmth In this home I find you.
I'm an adult who deals with depression, and I can promise you that the more you learn about it and the harder you try, it gets easier to handle. Now I only feel it once in awhile. I promise it is worth fighting for your life
For those who are having a hard time Go to your room Lay on your bed Listen to music Breathe Put your hand on your heart Feel how it's beating Let your day sink into your bed listen to music with or without tears in your eyes Breath. Breathe. Breathe. Only think where your mind should be: Don't cut. Don't Drugs. Don't anything. What happened, just happened. Just breathe, let it all go. Your hand don't put it down, that heart beating, It's called purpose. You're living for some reason. Don't think of ending it. Breathe. You will be alright. You will be okay. You will get through this. I believe in you. All Broken/Hurt people believe in you. So breathe and keep going.
Oh my god.... 😭 that’s.... absolutely..... INCREDIBLE!!! Thank you so much honestly from the bottom of my heart I needed this so fucking much add me on snap if u want @bhillgoth 😁😁😁😊😊😊😊
@@brandonhillgoth699 I would totally add you, but sadly I'm uncool and don't have snap chat. 😓😅 (Cause my parents won't let me) But you're welcome, I found it on Pinterest and I've been doing this whenever I'm down.
ML G for me it’s more like... i don’t want to die, i just want to feel okay. or maybe just to not have a physical form, so i don’t have to take care of it, or be perceived by other people. being real is exhausting. living is exhausting. i don’t want to die. i don’t really want to live, either, but at the same time i’d rather be alive than dead, because death scares me. i think it would be really boring. and the concept of not existing at all scares me. i do want to live, but i don’t really want to be... real. idk.
@@thefandomfish3071 like being alive but, not *There*. Like on Earth but not, existing... Maybe just like a projection you are there but even when things get real, you aren't really there to feel it.
I haven't had an actual good night's sleep in days. Sleeping at 6am, going to school at 7am, getting home exhausted, staying in bed until 9, stressing out about stuff until midnight, doing homework at 2 am, then I stress out more. This is what happens everyday.
“I’m fine.” Everyone used this phrase at least once or twice in their life. Why? Because they don’t want you to feel bad for them. Sometimes they lie, just so they could hide So they could go to another world, and just imagine How would it be great living without feeling anything. Yes, they all know it hurts Yes, they all know it won’t stop if they won’t do something about it. They all know the truth. But they can’t stop it. It’s part of OUR life. But it’s just like a math test. You get something wrong - You have bad grades. If you won’t even try changing it and all you do is be a sad sack, you won’t have good grades. I know, people can’t change it I know, people may not want to share their feelings sometimes. And I know, my words won’t change anything, but: *YOU ARE NOT ALONE. WE ALL ARE HERE, IN THIS LITTLE CAGE, TRYING TO ESCAPE IT. BUT WE JUST DON’T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE SUFFERING. THEY HIDE THEIR FEELINGS, JUST LIKE YOU...* Have you ever had this feeling, like it doesn’t feel like “home”? LIFE is our home. Everyone felt it in their life. Everyone was suffering because of that. Λ__Λ ( • - • ) Here, have a cookie. You deserve it, even if you don’t think so. ( >🍪> You have really great acting skills, tbh - - You should think about going to the theatre or the drama club Cuz that’s where you can be whoever you want and you can just escape reality without hurting yourself. Edit: Wow, so many likes :0 Thank you, guys
You knew I was hurting, You knew I was crying, You knew I smiled to hide the pain, You knew I was dying, You knew I was tired, You knew I was breaking, You knew I just wanted an escape, You knew I just wanted happiness, You knew I just wanted peace, You knew I just wanted to be pretty, You knew I just wanted to be skinny, You knew I just wanted a normal family, You knew you could pick me up, and you did. Then, Time suddenly shifted when I realized that you’d left.
Mother: "Darling are you okay?" My head: I'm confused? I'm tired I'm tired of feeling crazy I'm tired of feeling worthless I'm tired of crying I'm tired of missing people I'm tired of being left out I'm tired of feeling empty inside I'm tired of being tired I'm depressed? Me: "I'm fine."
Everyone sees me as a funny and outgoing person, but once I get home I crumble, but I continue to make people laugh and keep this mask on, it’s just so much easier
Hey...I feel that, everyone thinks I'm so happy and proud of who I am when I'm alone really I'm a scared and sad broken hearted person...Also if you need to talk my Instagram is @spicynoodleart💛
I can say I have out grown the mask, and find solitude to be a more fitting alternative...the scars from the mask, set a clear boundary...lowers performance anxiety and filters pretenders...let the troll's go backwards and the popular wrestle with their shadows
Its like freezing even though it's warm outside or the heat in your home is on. Drowning is a good way to put it. Feeling under attack all the time. Feeling a constant panick or anxiety attack at all times; unable to breathe even standing still.
![[FREE AUDIO] You're losing me](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/jHrcZfq3UaY/mqdefault.jpg)
Hi! I am the maker and publisher of this video, and I would just like to say that I am truly OVERWHELMED by the feedback I’ve gotten. I made this video not thinking much about it, I was just experimenting and doing what I loved - editing.
Regarding all the comments: I do hope you don’t use this as a reason to kill yourselves. It might not feel like it right now, but you truly are loved - if there is one positive thing I have gotten out of reading the comments, then it is the fact that the world hasn’t gone to shit just yet. Not everyone are evil and rude, so many have offered to help and be someone others can talk and vent to. I really believe it’s good for anyone who is suffering something - anything really - to talk to someone. It doesn’t matter who, as long as you feel comfortable telling the person. If you would rather talk to a stranger than someone you know - go ahead! Take someone up on that offer! If you don’t want to talk to a stranger, please, do talk to someone in your family, or a friend, a teacher, a colleague, someone that you trust, and just maybe you will feel a little better. Killing yourself is NOT the solution, it never was. You have SO much to live for, and if you don’t believe me then I guess you will just have to wait, LIVE, and see for yourself. Everything gets better. Don’t strive to have the perfect life. Just live YOUR life, it’s worth it. If you are feeling down one day, that’s totally ok. It’s completely normal. You aren’t supposed to feel your best every day, that’s just going to kill your spirit. Everyone has ups and downs, and that’s ok. Everything might not be ok right now, but if you just hold on and live you will see that things can and will be.
Please, live your life. You deserve that.
Thanku ♥️ bestrong
Loveyou
...if so, they might've listened to it, but they didn't hear it. Well done. Keep up the good work.
i dont deserve life, not after what I did
@@AvatarArrowYT those with the biggest smiles, are often the very same that have shed the most tears. So, if it was really that bad, than it was to make you wonderful. "Be the change..." ☝️🖤
That is some inspirational words :) thank u. Great edit and keep up the good work 👏
the saddest part? we’re all just kids being told “you don’t know what sadness is,” so we pretend to be okay.
Yeah
that's right
yeah 👍
Yeah and your never really happy if you can be sad
True
we are all just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids suicide is not the answer
If your life's shit tho what's the point
yeah, i’m trying my hardest to give out support to people throughout the comments in these certain types of videos to assure them and give suggestions where they can go to vent, deal with shit, etc. but while doing that, it hurts to know that i have no one to do the same for me.
I feel shit now nobody to turn to
@@fia2709 ikr
@@davidparkinson6372 If you wake up and you have a heart beat in your chest and air in your lungs that means god is not done with you yet he sees you he loves you and he has a plan for your life, talk to someone, anyone. You know every person who has tried to commit suicide off the golden gate bridge and survived to tell the tale said the second they let go of that railing they instantly regretted their decision. You've survived 100% of your bad days dont let this day be your last, Godbless and hope you get better. also this might help you a lot of his videos helped me (ruclips.net/video/L33djEEMEE8/видео.html)
The real pain is when you want to cry but cannot so you lay there and then think “I’m being dramatic, I’m so ridiculous why would anyone want to have you”
That’s the thing..., we tried to show our true feelings but society, people, parents, friends and etc, they just shut us out..., and telling us things like grow up/man up, something like that..., it’s just hurts u know...
yea. just know in that moment your thoughts are not always true. you ARE stronger than the thoughts :)
AprilFoolsPony i do the same every single night cause at the night time i always cry and let my feelings out hating on myself and why i am good enough and even tho we don’t know i hope you will have the best day/night of your life and i love you
I agree it happens every night to me
This hit too hard
Why does it hurt so much to hear this but feels so natural?
Im with you......your not alone my friend....shit sucks
because its our turn to go and leave it all behind
I feel the same way
@@theforsakenhorde it dose suck
Bc your so used to the pain and tears that it's just normal to you
The worst thing about depression is that you don’t want to die but you don’t want to go through the pain either
This is so true.
'I'm empty inside,
I just don't feel alive and
I don't wanna live but
I'm too scared to die.' - Empty. The most relatable song ever..
Omg yes. So true
This is makeing my tear up. I swear...
That has to be the most accurate comment i have heard in years
Every time I come here the comments are so fresh...
That....pain. that is pain, my friend. Pain of the other people, who are lost like we are. Lost in a cold, deep, dark void without emotions and sounds. That is pain
@@darknox3621 hmm and the no. of these people are gonna just increase
Hanako-
I don’t want to die
I don’t want to kill myself
I just wish to simply exist no longer
Same
mood
I want the pain
mood
Mood
"I'm not suicidal to the point where I want to kill myself... but rather to the point where I don't care if I die."
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help..
It’s like trying to die without killing yourself
@Sev i can relate, things can get worsen rapidly.
I am also going through same, i think i have things under control. A phone call saved me last time🥺, don't know how I'll hold up if things worsen again. I'll recommend you to talk to someone, not necessarily your family or friends. Internet is beautiful place and many are here to help. Write about all those things matter, don't be shy sharing with someone, read books. chin up and don't give up.
@@vikrammeena6614 if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
@@jeffreydarmisco7088 what if you don't have anyone who really cares and people shun you before even giving you a chance?
Who’s here in the middle of night.. trying to keep yourself together
Me too sis
Sadly... yea but we can get through this together all 5 of us :3
Yep...
I'm back here from 2017 and i'm surprised people are still commenting... but same 💔
I M
I dont wanna die I just wanna feel ok without faking it
this
it will get better 🥺
I don’t want to die because I don’t want to hurt someone else by dying.
@@adelinesportel4 pls don't die, hold on and do it for yourself not for others you're so worth it i promise
@@adelinesportel4 this...
It's scary how easy it is to fake a smile
it really really... is...
Easy I do it every day
It rlly is tho
It's scary how hard it is for people to know we're faking it
So true
I love stiles, we have a lot of things in common.
The sarcastic personality, Always trying to help their friends and the constant feeling of worry, being scared and trying to cover everything up by being sarcastic.
I laugh so much in school hiding the fact that i'm broken inside
3 years update: I have all I thought I couldn't have, or thought I was undeserving of. If I hadn't held on, I wouldn't have known what it's like to live out my dream life.
I cannot even begin. I am just so, so happy. I am filled with so much love, I have become attractive and my family has been financially doing so well.
I hope this will be used as inspiration, I was so scared of my future when I wrote this comment, not knowing that happiness was just around the corner. Sending lots of love to everyone.
I can relate so much
And sad that no one notices but at the Same time you're glad they didn't cause you dont want to drag them down it your puddle of self regret
@@dorenmnelosp8656 EXACTLY!!!
I do too...
I feel that man
How can stiles be so sarcastic and depressing at the same time, in the same sentence
Is it just me or is it easier to talk to people on the internet you don’t even know and they can make you feel so much better then the people in front of you because they don’t get it or say it’s just a phase?
Edit* if anyone wants to talk to me my discord is “Kami17#8790”
Yep Its so much easier 💔💔💔💔💔💔
It really is
I agree with you it's like talking to someone who not there
Yeah
I'm 23 and still don't want to be alive. Can't tell me its a teenage faze
Sometimes when I say “I’m ok” I want someone to look me in the eyes hug me tight and say “I know your not and that’s ok”
Worst part, no one I've ever said that too has noticed. So I personally don't think anyone will no offense hun, but unless it's another person like us in pain, they'll never notice our fake smiles and lies
You are right. It never happens...
I wish, when i say "im fine" someone would just hug me tight n say "i know ur not". But that'll never happen. My depression wants me to die. But my anxiety is scared to die. Yknow what, this is the reality of having mental healt issues. This is how ya feel sometimes.
But when you do fight no madder what there are people like you and. .... I am like you so we get through it together
The one friend that knows im lying just laughs and says same. Never a hug. Just a that sucks me too.
@@meow8111 same
teen wolf is one show i miss so fucking much. its characters have marked my heart and i will never, ever forget that show and what’s it’s done for me
phloral same this show has saved my life
agreed
*Depression is like a black hole, once your in it, it’s almost impossible to get back out*
Kennedi Aldrich Yup- ❤️
But when you do, it’s a huge accomplishment and everyone’s proud of you for doing it. Other people trapped look up to you for it. You yourself will be so happy and proud of yourself. It’s worth the fight, I promise
Almost
You're just waiting for the person to pull you out but they never come
I'm not scared of dying, I'm only scared of hurting the people who really do care about me. I have always said "if I were gonna die, I don't think I'd stop it. But I'd want to apologise for leaving first."
"Why didn't you tell anybody?"
"Nobody asked"
Not my words, but it's scarily relatable
and if you tell them, they don’t understand.
I told them, no one belived me, that I survived two suicide attepms. They started think it might be true after I read them my suicide note. I should have kept it to myself.
Bruh.. The only one that o trust in school just told something that was supposed to be a secret to the whole class... Wow... The other one listened to me then the next day she said that if i'm gonna seek for her attention again she's gonna block me... On the gc where the whole class was.... Wow... Now i don't have anyone to trust..
And now my only friends are my dog, my bird, and my cat.. 🙂And 4 fake friends
Literally happened to me and now I lost people who I thought actually cared. They never asked what was wrong or bothered to want to be there
Personally I don’t tell anyone cause I don’t want to feel like a burden
Does anyone else feel so broken that you feel your heart literally breaking and falling to pieces?
Yeah...Me too.
Every day
Yeah.... every.single.day. Yet I still say “I’m fine”
I’m pretty good at lying. I think a lot of people are.
@@kaib_0798 it's because people that aren't in depression don't realize that smiling and laughing doesn't mean you're happy it means you're hiding that you're not happy
Me every day every single second
Every second of every day
The fact that this has 7 million views
And people still ask what is wrong with the world
we are what's wrong with the world ,
@@megandeinema1969 heh
True. But its 8 mil now
8M actually.
Oop! I’m the 666th like.
The way that this audio actually helped me not kms in high school. The idea of just holding on for one more second has been the best I could do so many times, for years straight
And look where you are bro, your still here and there’s a reason for that. I’ve been through some nasty mental health situations the past few years. But now my mindset is focused on myself. Fuck every single other person out there, become your own best friend learn to love yourself and love spending time with yourself. I am me, despite my problems and I’m learning to love it. You can to bro. Love yourself, suicide doesn’t stop the pain. It only moves it. Good luck
Is it just me or when you help someone else through a hard time it's like they give their
Emotions to you
Amelia, I know your comment is 6 mths old now but I just had to reply...in case you don't already know. What you are describing is called Empathy. It sounds like you've got the gift of being an Empath (aka: a healer)! If you don't know much about it, might I suggest you look it up. It is, no doubt, a spiritual gift! Although, many empaths say it's a gift that comes with lots of personal challenges as well. Learning more about it, can help you better understand how to use it & how you can protect & care for yourself as well.
🤞💜 & 💫 to you!
The scariest thing is how recent these comments are
Yep :/
Its scarier to relate to all of them👌...
@@trinipoo_panda317 I hope you're doing okay, then. :)
:'(
💖😔
we say we’re fine cause we don’t want other people to think we want everything to be about us. or at least that’s how i am. i hate when other people worry about me.
Our parents say “Don’t talk to people online” but....
Maybe strangers are the ones who understand us most.
I feel you, my biggest relationships are online people from all across the world, and I feel deeply that I can trust them more than anyone I know in real life, because all they know are the things I tell them (e.g. I’m having problems at home) I never tell them personal things like names, specific roads/ buildings (unless public e.g. Big Ben, Windsor, London, Buckingham palace (I don’t talk about these they’re just big places in my country)), ages or anything like that we just chat and talk about random things like “oh once this girl came up to me and asked me this stupid question” (obv just referring to them as girl/ boy/ them/ it) and it makes the relationship stronger for me to not know them in person, maybe know what they look like or hear their voice but nothing past that. Because everyone I’ve ever known in person feels like they are going to leave me whenever they want and judge me however they want even right in front/ behind me. E.g. I had these 2 girls in my class and everyday I was sat in front of them I didn’t know what they were talking about me for (I could only hear giggling and my name) and it made me so mad that I couldn’t hear those girls cause I seriously wanted to out them so much. I do have a few friends I feel okay with (I don’t talk about personal issues with them) and they all don’t really have good feelings with the girls I was just talking about, anyways. Never trust anyone you know in real life always trust the ones who don’t know you, cause they can’t do anything to you if they don’t know you. (Not saying it for people you’ve built a good relationship with online but trust them more than face to face relationships.
EDIT: that’s the end of my writing marathon and have a nice day
@@Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet i totally understand… it’s kind of like when you can have occasional interactions over the internet it’s easier to tell them what going on because they won’t tell anyone you know because it’s anonymous. the interaction can be like bestfriends over the internet but faceless. i can put my trust in you even tho you may not put yours in me. i can do that because i know that you don’t know me personally. the everyday people don’t. have that trust has they kno to much about me already. i feel like you have your own problems that you can’t tell your friends or family but when you are completely down, to say the least going on to youtube and opening some sad songs to cry to while searching for comments that relate, it’s honestly everyone’s sanctuary. i really appreciate you reaching out to me and expressing your thoughts. i’m only 13 but i can tell that this is something everyone is struggling with. trust.
that’s also the end of my writing marathon too. i did this during my google meet. lockdown in new zealand haha
wishing you all the best
@@andreamae9116 same to you, wishing you the best. Idk bout these days but it’s never the angry teens anymore it’s all the depressed ones. I don’t mind about reaching out literally anyone can reach out to me because I’m kinda considered the therapist friend LOL.
@@Audentes_Fortuna_Iuvet bahahah same. taking on everyone’s problems and helping them with it.
@@andreamae9116 I dont think you should people as much as you think especially online
The fact that someone else in the world is watching this the same time I am makes me sad that someone else is feeling the same or maybe worse than me...whoever you are, I’m sorry. 💜
Emma Presley
Do you ever feel like your giving out soooo many hints to friends and family that your not okay and hurting inside but they just brush it off like it’s nothing. Well if so.. same.
Ava H same you give off so manny hints your not ok there’s something wrong but friends and family ignore it they don’t want to see that your so obviously not fine. I feel the same way
Haley Baker ik it’s like I say stuff that is sooo obvious and it’s like the topic changes really quick. Ugh good to see I’m not alone tho haha :/
Ava H I know it’s cool I’m not the the only one
Same but with me people never know cause i keep this stupid ass smile on my face every fucking day😭😭😭 im sick of this smile but then again who would care anyway 😒
Yes! Exactly
i feel like the nogitsune, he symbolized more than just an angry fox spirit.
it symbolized the darkness. the anxiety, the depression, the sadness, the grief stiles never allowed himself to show.
it symbolizes what so many of us go through. we all have a nogitsune. all of us. its only a matter of how strong it is, how much it shows.
*and this is what happens when its 2 in the morning and i find myself in stiles stilinski audios. thank you.*
I remember him saying this… I listened to much and knew what he was saying and it honestly made me wanna cry. I love stiles so much and people don’t realize how he is the friend that helps everyone but needs help
"If you're going through hell. . . Then keep going."
Just for all the people who was waiting for this part.
It is weird how this was in 2017, but we need this now in 2020.
2020 hits Different..
"One Day You're Gonna Look Around And You're Going To Realise That Everybody Loves You...But Nobody Likes You. And That's The Loneliest Feeling In The World."
-Bojack Horseman
Pushing on has to be better than seeing the view from halfway down
This kinda reminds me of the quote that bojack horseman said "usually when someone asks how I'm doing the real answer is I'm doing shitty, but I cant say I'm doing shitty! Cause then they ask why what's wrong and I just say, idk
So i see the depressed people in 2021 have appeared
Started the year of crying alone at midnight this year is gonna be great................ I wish 😔
@@abxsnce started the year off drunk and on call to one of my friends then cried
@Lotte same lmao
@@abxsnce me too 😔
So yuor riht i'm depressed😞😞😞😞😞😫😩
This was posted in 2017 yet there are comments from just hours ago. This is a powerful video
I was here 2019 and here I'm again
It’s even worse when you’re crying so hard you can’t breathe, and your whole body is shaking all while you’re wondering why you can’t ever be enough for anyone in your life. You wonder why the love of your life will never choose you. You wonder why it is so GOD DAMN hard for you to be loved. But then again you’re used to it by now
that hit.
You all will make it, your life is more than what it seems. You will all be sad for now but it's not forever. Trust me, I tried to commit suicide a few years ago. Now today I'm in an amazing relationship and my family is more supportive than ever. Life gets better but it can not if you are not in it. I'm addressing this to everyone who posted a comment, you will be okay. my Instagram is instagram.com/officialkiwisimmer/ use this if you need a friend or a complete stranger to talk to, I will not and will never be judgemental and I will listen wholeheartedly. I'm also coping a pasting this into all the comments that are sad because you all need to see this. Talk to me or someone else who will listen because there are people who care, even if its a complete stranger.
I love stiles he’s just so cute but he’s lost he’s funny but he’s also scared.This scene broke me that he feels like this I know it’s a series but still it literally broke me
You know... I’m that funny guy at school, the one that with his friends and in public always laugh, but the nobody knows... when school finishes, that guy returns home, that guy goes into his room and starts crying...
Friends are there because they care about you. They appreciate you for being yourself and they can't help you if you don't let them know. Your friends are you friends because they like who you are. You are loved and cherished. Don't forget that ❤️
Talking to people about it helps.
For all of you feeling hopeless, depressed or suicidal...
You don’t _really_ want to die. You just want the pain to go away. What if that pain _could_ go away? Your life would be so much better, right? So what if it could go away? It can. It totally can. You are not an exception to all the people who get better out there. You are not a mistake. You are not an accident. You are put here for a reason, and if you struggle with finding that reason, you can’t give up. Ever. Sure, there’s terrible things going on in your life right now, in your head right now, through your eyes right now... but there is always something to hold on to. Whatever brings you joy, or even used to bring you joy, find that. Whether it’s the sunshine on an autumn day. Whether it’s late night reading by the fire in winter. Whether it’s hanging out with friends, laughing with family. Whether it’s writing in your diary, or rocking out to your favorite song. You wouldn’t want to give that up. I know I wouldn’t. Ending your life is _not_ an option to stop your pain. Speaking up and getting help *is*. This is your life. You need to live it to the fullest, because you only have one. It’s gonna be hard, but who _ever_ said it would be easy? Rough patches make you stronger. Wow I typed a lot and clearly you can see I’m passionate about this kind of thing haha... what I’m trying to say is just hang in there. If you feel hopeless, talk it out. Get the help you deserve. Because _everyone_ deserves a bright future, and a beautiful life. 💫
Thank you, I really needed to hear that
I totally agree Tori Loehn but people do speak up and ask for but what do we get pills thrown at us or pointless counciling thats of no use if and when you fall into your darkest times the mental health service and civilians need to help more
I kind of think you're being mean and don't understand people I don't deserve a bright future stop thinking everything is ok because it's not
Tori !
To say these words you must have lived em
And you know what pain is
But like you I’m here to save these souls
I won’t let this fucked up life get to em
I know that pain.. of being :p nvm lol
But you are an amazing person
*huggles*
You are really special ya know !
Take care love be safe always
Your lying stop lying
The moment u feel happy for once but then ur depression kicks in and you feel alone and sad and feel like no one wants you around or anything and u lock urself in a room and cry till u fall asleep
I had that. I was driving and I actually felt happy for a moment. Then I saw a group of high schoolers in the back of a truck having a good time with their friends and it felt like a stab to the heart.
If my family knew I watch video's like these they would probably think I'm trying to find reasons to be depressed and feel sorry for myself, but I'm not trying to do that. I just want to know that other people feel these things that I feel it gives me a sense of relief that I'm not alone. And I love how strangers know exactly how we feel better than people whom claim to love us
The pain is his voice, the way he explains it.. damn that hit me..
*it’s so much easier to just say “i’m fine” instead of having to explain yourself.*
True
It takes practice. Being vague is okay too. It allows the other person to ask more questions or leave it as is. I tend to say Meh, not really, sort of, or I'm alive. It took me awhile to get comfortable with these. Sometimes people don't know how to approach the subject with those of us who are struggling. The phrases I mentioned can open the door to deeper conversations, or simply let them know that you're struggling. They can then offer support and encouragement. Learning to accept those are ... Not always easy but definitely worth it. It's important to learn how to self advocate, it's So much healthier than the standard brush off of "I'm fine "
Nothing worth anything is ever easy. Easy has no worth and only short shallow comfort. Easy does not last.
This quarantine needs to end. I feel like I’m going back to the dark place that was so hard to leave. I made it through once but I’m scared about what will happen if I return to that state of mind.
You know it's bad when you start coming back to these
Cuddlez really bad...
Fr now that I’m always home I feel so alone with me and my thoughts
And I just feel so sad and empty
Alexander Barker thank you so much! This mean a lot to me. Not many people offer to talk so just reading this comment made me feel better. Also if u need someone to talk to I will always be here.
Every single day I live, I wonder about the future. Everyday I can feel this overwhelming sense of grief and just anger that I’m stuck in this world that doesn’t care about me. Everyday I look for someone to care, I look for someone to ask what’s wrong, but every time it becomes more apparent I’ll never be with people who care. I’m depressed, I’m tired, I’m so very tired... but I’m the fun friend, I’m the one who always has a smile on my face making sure everyone else is okay. I’m the friend that is always there, but I have no friends who are always there. I’m just tired
I feel you. And im you my friend 🤗
Same, I searched too, found my dog who was right next to my side the whole time..(I hated him and blamed him for my moms cancer/death as childish as it may sound). It’s still oh so hard but.. the nights are warmer with my buddy...
i always listen to sad audios when im upset.
honestly this one just hits me
ruu I feel this soo much. I hurt so bad.
the fact that this has 7,4 million views says a lot about our generation...
Someone: hey are you ok your looking a bit down..
Me: oh, yeah I’m fine!
I’m Fine with crying all night
I’m Fine with getting bad grades
I’m Fine with arguing with my parents every day
I’m Fine with having no friends
I’m Fine with having no one love me
I’m Fine with having everyone avoid me
I’m Fine with people ignoring me
Fine with putting in a mask everyday to cover up my ugly face
I’m fine with being called names
I’m fine with crying myself to sleep
I’m fine with failing school
I’m fine with not paying attention in class
I’m fine with my brother hurting me
I’m fine with being called ugly
I’m fine with being depressed
I’m fine with not having fun
Someone: oh ok!
Me: bye!
I can relate don't worry your not the only one that feels that way
I can relate
You hit it spot on
That is me
Relatable
When you can't live but dying would hurt others so you have to suffer for them and it crushes you every day to pretend it doesn't
Ur so strongg!
I think its nice how all of these suicidal people have come together, and were all telling each other to not give up.
Ejiro???? Why are you here-
@@viiiviii1 shhhh I came from the shadows child :>
@@eijiroukirishima4687 YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
@@eijiroukirishima4687 Don't stop bein manly bro
@@viiiviii1 of course dude, same to you! You seem very manly!
You know shits hitting the fan when you’re back to listening to this kind of stuff
Yeah....
you know it’s bad when you start watching these videos again
At least I know I’m not the only one that feels the need to comes back to these videos
Facts man:/
Exactly..
I still listen to this audio till this day. I've been constantly thinking about the agonizing pressure we suffer as children, teens, and even adults. We all think it's a phase, but it's not. It's that false accusation we tell ourselves to move pass. Yet, we still continue to grow and that agonizing pain or pressure is still a build up of our lives. As people ask us, "how are you," the response is always "i'm fine or i'm good." This is because, no one is interested in what we feel, because they can do nothing about it. They don't care. We realise until the immense build up we endured throughout our lives is at it's peek that it wants to burst. Society these days are messed up and we all know that if we end things right there and then, we've shut down generations. It's selfish to die from such thing but its as if we were born to live with it.
This was originally typed for someone else, but I feel like everyone needs to hear it.
Turn off all the lights in a room your most comfortable being in. Sit int he middle of the room, and focus on breathing. Any negative thought you have, walk away from it, any positive thought you have hold on tightly to it, and do not let go. The second you let go, is the second the water floods in, the second you start drowning, but if youre drowning, you still see the light from the surface. If you can see the surface your instinct is to swim to it. In this case the water, is tears. Humans cry because of pain, sometimes physically, some times emotionally, and sometimes mentally. Sometimes we just need to cry, we need to fill the ocean, that is our negative thoughts, but what we cant do, what we cant do is have the urge to walk in alone. You cannot traverse alone, for what will happen if things go wrong? No one will be there, but if you have someone with you, weather its family, friends, a pet, an imaginary friends, maybe even an ancestor, someone to hold your hand and guide you, youll be okay. Its a bad day, its a bad couple of nights, its a bad couple of weeks, months, years even. But its not a bad life, its not a wasted life, not unless you make it. Its all about how its perceived, if you want it to be bad, it will be. If you want it to be good, it will be. No thing, and no one will hit you harder then life, it will knock you down to your knees and keep you there if you let it, but what matters is you dont. What matters is that you have the strength, you have the courage to stand up and hit back. It doesnt matter if your tall or short, strong or weak, obese or thin. You are you, and as long as thats who you are, then theres no one else you need to be. Theres no one else you need to impress, if someone isnt proud of your best, then forget them. As long as you gave it your all, gave it everything you have, then thats what matters, and if your not proud of yourself, im proud of you. You reached out, you asked for help from complete strangers, the world isnt all sunshine and rainbows, but rainbows wont light up the sky unless you let it rain, and candles just wont glow until they burn, but you cant give up your laugher cause your scared of a little pain, thats a lesson that the hole world needs to learn, and if you ever need someone to talk to, you ever need a shoulder to cry on, you ever need someones hand to hold. Ill be that someone, ill be that shoulder, ill be the hand that you need to hold.
Thank you
Wow this is wow.. I really appreciate this and I’m sure more people
Will find it at the time that they need to. So I’m saying thank you now bc now is when I need it.
FOR EVERYONE WITH DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY OR JUST FEELING LOW, WATCHING THIS VIDEO:
I think it's very important that you realize that their conversation did not end here, on that desperate note of him wondering wether if it'll only get worse.
In the actual TV show, teen wolf, she concludes saying a quote from Winston Churchill "if you are going through hell, keep going". I feel that the difference is huge, who listens to this and ends up in doubt will feel worse, but if you have a chance of reading the concluding quote, I think it might give you strength.
Bianca Goncalves Teen Wolf is so real man!!!
THE ISSUES IT TACKLES NOT THE SHOW
@@julezcakez yes, especially when styles went through this, I related to it on a whole new level
It's a heavy weight in your chest that makes you not wanna get up. That it's so difficult to breathe, every night is the reoccurring pressure and it always hurts. That this pain will NEVER go away..as if im in an endless hallway and no matter how much i try to reach the end it just goes further and further away, then the tears fall for hours on end the insomnia continues and the thoughts of "I can't" or "I won't" echo through my head. I cry out for help but my parents call it an excuse, they dont understand. Dad never really cared...Mom only turned my issues into a financial crisis, like it's my fault I have anxiety and depression. 12 years of special education thought my parents were doing what was best, but after those 12 years I developed PTSD from my teachers and classmates, the thoughts got worse. Started stealing and lying and getting into all sorts of trouble cause it was the only way to get noticed. Started taking medications for anxiety and depression. It helps but it only masks how I truly feel. The scars of memory cause nightmares, just reliving each day in and out, time after time, and it makes the pressure in my chest get worse and worse until I feel my body will finally give out from the stress. That I may finally achieve peace. But I can never be that fortunate..
Silverizer true x
I’ve faked being okay for so long I’ve started to believe that feeling this way is okay. It’s like I don’t think about it anymore. When I need to cry, I can’t. I just want to scream it out but I can’t. I think that’s the worst feeling in the world. And I don’t even know why I’m this way. It just feels so dull.
i have these moments where i'm fine then all of sudden i'm just not. i just wanna be happy.
anon - uploads yea I feel u 😔
literally my exact thoughts
you know it’s getting worse when you come back to watch these..
it’s going to be okay. stay alive for me❤️
How did u know
You read my mind, huh.
Here we are....once again...at square 1
life fucking sucks.
why can’t i go to the old days where i was happy and content with my life.
now i stay up and sob my eyes out because of all this stress i get.
i hate my life.
shyshyshy sana hey i’m sorry you feel like this :( just stay strong and remember *things will get better*
shyshyshy sana I don’t hate my life I actually think I have a good life but I feel guilty I feel like it isn’t for me and I’m just not good enough...
But I promise you will get through it
"it's not just a feeling though it's like a panic attack" That hits hard
I told someone everything i felt and they said you were always smiling i never knew someone like you could be so broken inside
*When you say you're fine when you really aren't.*
*But then you kind of wish you have told someone you weren't fine, you weren't okay so you wouldn't have to carry this weight on your shoulders but now it's too late for that and you know you didn't tell anyone in the first place because you knew you'd be a burden to them in some way.*
Yet your resolution to not burden others outweighs that wish, so that every time someone asks, you say “I’m ok” “Everything’s fine” purely out of reflex
I've listened to this over 20 times now but have never seen teen wolf this just is relatable and makes me want to watch teen wolf
its so good i highly recommend it
Ok thanks
Kira Killer someone told me to watch it and just judging by the title i thought it would be a children drama show and now it is the best show i have ever watched on netflix.
Drowning actually hurts. That one breath burns for the brief moment of time you take it.
You realize how 6.4 million propel clicked on a video titled “i’m fine” let that sink in
The average person lies about 4 times a day.
The most common lie is “I’m fine”
^
5.8 million people clicked on a video called "I'm fine" let that sink in ☹
Autumn Leleika and half of them are dead now.
@@koenthepadawan2244 damn :(
@@autumnleleika2470 damn that hit me I've never thought of that before now
Some lines just never grow old. They're ageless.
2:36 to 2:50 Most people don’t understand that a person who’s contemplating suicide doesn’t want to kill themselves, they just want the pain to stop. That’s why we choose to “inhale the water” just for that little moment that truly sets you free from your head feeling like it’s about to explode
Thank you, most people don't understand that and its hard for me to find someone that does and knows how to help me through my days. So thank you, for being able to understand.
i feel alone. and i'm surrounded by my friends and family but feeling so alone that you can feel it deep into your soul when you're surrounded by so many people, that, that's the worst feeling in the world.
but that's the feeling i live with everyday and the words 'I'm fine' just don't hold any meaning anymore. i don't tell anybody because i don't want to be a burden or an annoyance and i just have no idea what to do.
i know what you mean in my experienxe its a big burden and you just keep on going but in the end it comes to a happy day or anything that makes you happy. I was in a dark place like 2 years ago i was an addict and just thought that life was pointless and just keept fucking around with tha substance but after a year of that i just came to a realisation that everyone feels like shit sometimes but the thing is that sometimes it last for a day and sometimes it can last for years but in the end its worth it and dont do it for friends or family do it for you, you have your own power but that dosent keep you happy all the time and friends and family cant help you with that either but to feel sad is to know what happy means. dont give upp sometimes its good to walk alone. I hope you the best and go all in and dont forget who you are!
Same. However, I know what I'm about to say will make me sound mentally ill or something but I've found talking to myself and imagining an audience helps me gain my confidence and makes me feel less alone. I feel alone in my head so I simply place people there.
Timmy G thanks that rlly means a lot to me❤️
Add my insta elle_priivvv I’m here if you need to talk , I understand you ❤️
Elle EQ thank you elle i will bear that in mind ❤️❤️
“If it’s about survival...isn’t a little agony worth it..?”
It's not just a little agony though, there is so much agony that some of us aren't strong enough to handle, some of us are trying to go through this alone because you don't want to bother the people around you, you don't want people to pity you. So you push through all by yourself until someone finds you and they make you feel something you've never felt, you finally feel happy. You fell okay. We can't go through these things alone, we need to find someone who can put the agony to death. Survival is much more difficult than any of us can imagine
The thing about it is as kids we are told “you are going to forget this ever happened by next week”. But the things that hurt as a child hurt for life.
“i’m fine” a phrase we use so much but never mean...
s o r r y i don’t know how this doesn’t have more likes. I’m fine is the most common lie we tell as humans but it’s a lie to probably one of the most Important questions we ask. The people who ask this question care about us and just telling I’m fine is a response that means we are scared and scared of what they’ll say
"Go outside" , a phrase we hear so much, but never do...........
The most common lie we tell people we are going to do..........
But how can I be sad outside? I have to stay inside to keep being sad....... They'll never understand........
I'm scared of living but I'm scared of dying.
Well better being scared of something you know you can make a difference than one you know nothing about.
@@roukilouis9133 how can you make a difference
@@micahmonk2496 dying i believe i just stop existing as a consciousness and alive i experience what exist and it's my only chance i have.
The god envy us because we're mortal. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed.
Experience new things. Work to get opportunity and keep what you love close. Loving hurt cause your heart is layed on your hand. People can shared there heart or hurt yours when it's layed before you. Identify yourself and move in this mess the way you can enjoying most of it. Pain gets no results so why would you act like a victim. Overcome obstacles and don't take to much time to it slowing you down.
@@roukilouis9133 well its hard to enjoy life if theres nothing to enjoy bud
Theres plenty but your ungrateful
a continued poem by three people
roses are red
violets are blue,
sugar is sweet
so are you.
but the roses have wilted
the violets dead,
the sugar bowl empty
and my wrists stained red.
but roses grow back
and violets too,
sugar bowl is filled
it’s all up to you.
but when the world is dead
flowers are too,
the bowl is broken
so are you.
.....i cant even think of a single thing to say
Artinez museum it’s fine. it’s just what shit people go through.
The bowl isn't broken,
It was made into something more.
Your life is important,
Don't make it sound like a war.
@@CardinalSkull
I feel so much more stupid compared to something this good
@@judycharlie608 Oof, you're not stupid. This took me way longer than it should have, to be honest.
I don't know when the idea of dying because of drowning first took over me.. Since then, I just fear water, for real.
Turns out, I'm drowning everyday, you don't need water to drown.
You know it's getting worse
When you start watching these
Again
And again
I wrote this poem, I think someone needs to hear this
Like, a blue house
Your eyes stand out so tattered
Torn apart like the siding,
Your windows- Boarded up,
Because they too were broken too many times,
The bright freshly painted door however,
Much like your smile so welcoming
Was opened to find the living room where the couches are so worn it seemed as if no one ever got up
I find comfort.
A broken piano with ivory keys
One beautiful, playing melodies
Now sits still with a newfound beauty
And much like the candle in the corner that can't quite seem to be blown out
You keep fighting
Because in this home
I find comfort
Because in this home
I find warmth
In this home
I find you.
i love and appreciate you.
we r all just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that its ok even when its not
that is so true
True... it's something that I'm really good at...saying that I'm fine when I'm not...saying that nothing's wrong when all I want to do is give up
I'm an adult who deals with depression, and I can promise you that the more you learn about it and the harder you try, it gets easier to handle. Now I only feel it once in awhile. I promise it is worth fighting for your life
For those who are having a hard time
Go to your room
Lay on your bed
Listen to music
Breathe
Put your hand on your heart
Feel how it's beating
Let your day sink into your bed
listen to music with or without tears in your eyes
Breath. Breathe. Breathe.
Only think where your mind should be:
Don't cut. Don't Drugs. Don't anything.
What happened, just happened. Just breathe, let it all go.
Your hand don't put it down, that heart beating, It's called purpose.
You're living for some reason. Don't think of ending it.
Breathe. You will be alright. You will be okay. You will get through this. I believe in you. All Broken/Hurt people believe in you.
So breathe and keep going.
Oh my god.... 😭 that’s.... absolutely..... INCREDIBLE!!! Thank you so much honestly from the bottom of my heart I needed this so fucking much add me on snap if u want @bhillgoth 😁😁😁😊😊😊😊
@@brandonhillgoth699 I would totally add you, but sadly I'm uncool and don't have snap chat. 😓😅 (Cause my parents won't let me)
But you're welcome, I found it on Pinterest and I've been doing this whenever I'm down.
@@brandonhillgoth699 But I do have a Insta
all the music i listen to just makes me cry...
“Depressed people tend to have the best advice, but they still can't follow it themselves.”
Yaaasssss😳😔
oh
When you’re standing alone on a rooftop at 2am looking down at the cars passing by.
It’s not that you want to jump, just for everything to be okay.
like you want to fall asleep and wake up and everything will be okay
@@thefandomfish3071 but even sometimes you dont want to wake up... Or at least wake up in a different place, different body, different world...
ML G for me it’s more like... i don’t want to die, i just want to feel okay. or maybe just to not have a physical form, so i don’t have to take care of it, or be perceived by other people. being real is exhausting. living is exhausting. i don’t want to die. i don’t really want to live, either, but at the same time i’d rather be alive than dead, because death scares me. i think it would be really boring. and the concept of not existing at all scares me. i do want to live, but i don’t really want to be... real. idk.
@@thefandomfish3071 like being alive but, not *There*. Like on Earth but not, existing... Maybe just like a projection you are there but even when things get real, you aren't really there to feel it.
Everyone thinks we need great advices, NO. They are wrong, what we need is comfort saying "I know you are hurt, I am here, cry on my shoulder."
:)
We’re honestly just depressed suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn’t the answer... what’s the fucking point anymore?!
6 years later, this is still a comfort video of mine
I haven't had an actual good night's sleep in days. Sleeping at 6am, going to school at 7am, getting home exhausted, staying in bed until 9, stressing out about stuff until midnight, doing homework at 2 am, then I stress out more. This is what happens everyday.
I know this is cliche but. In due time. It’ll all get better. Trust me. After the storm comes a rainbow
石巻愛実 need someone to talk?
“I’m fine.”
Everyone used this phrase at least once or twice in their life.
Why?
Because they don’t want you to feel bad for them.
Sometimes they lie, just so they could hide
So they could go to another world, and just imagine
How would it be great living without feeling anything.
Yes, they all know it hurts
Yes, they all know it won’t stop if they won’t do something about it.
They all know the truth.
But they can’t stop it.
It’s part of OUR life.
But it’s just like a math test.
You get something wrong - You have bad grades.
If you won’t even try changing it and all you do is be a sad sack, you won’t have good grades.
I know, people can’t change it
I know, people may not want to share their feelings sometimes.
And I know, my words won’t change anything, but:
*YOU ARE NOT ALONE. WE ALL ARE HERE, IN THIS LITTLE CAGE, TRYING TO ESCAPE IT. BUT WE JUST DON’T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE SUFFERING. THEY HIDE THEIR FEELINGS, JUST LIKE YOU...*
Have you ever had this feeling, like it doesn’t feel like “home”?
LIFE is our home.
Everyone felt it in their life.
Everyone was suffering because of that.
Λ__Λ
( • - • ) Here, have a cookie. You deserve it, even if you don’t think so.
( >🍪> You have really great acting skills, tbh
- - You should think about going to the theatre or the drama club
Cuz that’s where you can be whoever you want and you can just escape reality without hurting yourself.
Edit: Wow, so many likes :0 Thank you, guys
Me everyday thanks for the cookie it's that quality homemade one I love it
Tropixs :) You’re welcome!
God. Why is it midnight while I'm watching these sad audios?
it's been years but i still come back to this every now and then
same... don't worry, im here for you, we'll be sad together bro..
You knew I was hurting,
You knew I was crying,
You knew I smiled to hide the pain,
You knew I was dying,
You knew I was tired,
You knew I was breaking,
You knew I just wanted an escape,
You knew I just wanted happiness,
You knew I just wanted peace,
You knew I just wanted to be pretty,
You knew I just wanted to be skinny,
You knew I just wanted a normal family,
You knew you could pick me up, and you did.
Then,
Time suddenly shifted when I realized that you’d left.
Never have I related to a thing more in my entire life
you know your broken when ur listening to these trying not to cry incase somone hears
Oh I’m not crying just listening trying to cry or feel something
I have the most uncomfortable feeling in my heart right now
I think my heart is trying to cheer me up by trying to tickle me I don’t know if this makes sense
I think I’ve lost my feelings I’ve tried telling my friends this but they just shrugged it off
I laugh
But I am uncertain if it is real
My heart aches as if it knows it’s fake
But part of me says it’s real
Maybe im just longing for it to be real
You be surprised what a smile can hide.And the words I'm fine.
My mom thought I wasn’t going to make it past 15, but I’m still here. And so are you. Keep going. I love you.
Mother: "Darling are you okay?"
My head:
I'm confused?
I'm tired
I'm tired of feeling crazy
I'm tired of feeling worthless
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of missing people
I'm tired of being left out
I'm tired of feeling empty inside
I'm tired of being tired
I'm depressed?
Me: "I'm fine."
Lexi Ace Why is this me everyday
same
Everyone sees me as a funny and outgoing person, but once I get home I crumble, but I continue to make people laugh and keep this mask on, it’s just so much easier
Hey...I feel that, everyone thinks I'm so happy and proud of who I am when I'm alone really I'm a scared and sad broken hearted person...Also if you need to talk my Instagram is @spicynoodleart💛
at least people notice you in a good way
I can say I have out grown the mask, and find solitude to be a more fitting alternative...the scars from the mask, set a clear boundary...lowers performance anxiety and filters pretenders...let the troll's go backwards and the popular wrestle with their shadows
Its like freezing even though it's warm outside or the heat in your home is on. Drowning is a good way to put it. Feeling under attack all the time. Feeling a constant panick or anxiety attack at all times; unable to breathe even standing still.