Derealization - Bambi Baker (official video)

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  • Опубликовано: 30 сен 2024
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    Wrote this song when I was 13 in foster care. Literally took foreverrrr to get something I’m satisfied with. It was such a simple idea in my mind but every time we tried to get one of my ideas it turned out impossible. I really wanted to try my best to get something that represented derealization & depersonalisation is some way instead of just what looks pretty, I wanted the outfit to represent feeling like a ghost, or like you’re completely blank and stripped of identity. The background seeming like it doesnt really match is supposed to represent feeling disconnected from your surroundings. It’s still only a lil homemade video by me and my mom, and a little help from my stepdad, but I hope you enjoyed it & thanks for watching 🤍
    Also for those who are not aware, I have currently been focusing on music videos due to the fact i have silent reflux (or im debating if I might’ve been misdiagnosed atp) and I’m temporarily not able to sing and havent been able to since snow on my windowsill. But i will release new music as soon as i can sing again🫀
    Lyrics:
    Stood trying to remember what I look like in the mirror
    What does real life really feel like?
    I don’t remember what I’m supposed to feel
    Am I dead?
    Or am I in a dream?
    Am I a ghost watching what my life would of been?
    I can’t feel
    Times not real
    Life’s not real
    I’m not real
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    (I don’t think I belong on this planet
    This galaxy, this universe
    I don’t think I belong at all)
    What am I here for?
    What is my purpose?
    Or am I even here?
    What can I trust?
    I don’t know who really exists
    I don’t remember who anybody is
    Do I know them?
    Can they see me?
    Can they hear me?
    Can they feel me?
    Do they know me?
    Do they know who I am?
    I can’t feel
    Times not real
    Life’s not real
    I’m not real
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    I can’t feel, time’s not real
    Life’s not real, no I’m not real
    I’m lost
    I don’t belong, no
    I can’t do it, I don’t know who’s real I don’t know what’s real
    Anymore, ha
    (No more, no more)

Комментарии • 1 тыс.

  • @bambibaker
    @bambibaker  11 месяцев назад +1056

    Love and appreciate so many of your comments, thank you all so much I hope you all are well🥹🥹🫶

    • @lasttiger221
      @lasttiger221 10 месяцев назад +6

      Still such a talent bambi👏👏 you have always done such amazing job💜

    • @AsAuvAge
      @AsAuvAge 10 месяцев назад +6

      merci jolie voix p'tit ange

    • @AsAuvAge
      @AsAuvAge 10 месяцев назад +1

      avec plaisir c'est quand même plus agréable de faire des compliments plutôt que de chercher des défauts, j'en ai bien assez pour savoir que tout le monde a ces défauts, mais bon qu'es qu'il est plus agréable de faire des compliments .
      que de vomir sur les autres, par rapport à nos déviances....

    • @TIKITECHA-2095
      @TIKITECHA-2095 10 месяцев назад +3

      this song blew up omg that's awesome you deserve it and i hope you get better soon

    • @HarazhRecords
      @HarazhRecords 9 месяцев назад

  • @Arrrrrrrrikived
    @Arrrrrrrrikived 4 месяца назад +102

    This song is SO TRUE. I love the detail of dressing all white like a ghost or angel. It truly does feel like I've been dead, and I have no clue for how long

  • @Emisnyan
    @Emisnyan 9 месяцев назад +453

    Me at 15 when I realised I have this would've been so happy knowing they're not alone in it. I'm 26 now and all I can say is for me, the numerous of traumatic event I've been through, the childhood and , well, not getting any help for it (which worsened it) are some causes. I know its hard... believe me. But please, know that you can get better... I've even heard of people who don't feel it anymore lol. But yeah love to you all, you are loved, worthy and most of all youre HERE. ❤❤❤❤❤❤

    • @chryslite589
      @chryslite589 9 месяцев назад +12

      I’m 15 now and I feel like I relate to what you said pretty accurately. When I looked up my symptoms I found that, and to my surprise I had every symptom of the disorder- I’m pretty sure I had it for much longer but it only recently started getting worse. Of course I told my parents but they, thinking I was making it up or that it would go away eventually, did nothing for it. I’m glad I found this when I did otherwise I would’ve believed I was alone in how I felt since no one else in my life has this

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 8 месяцев назад +1

      Thank you for sharing your experience and offering words of encouragement. It's important to remember that everyone's journey with mental health is different, and while some people may completely overcome their struggles, others may find ways to manage and live fulfilling lives. It's great to hear that you are feeling better, and I hope your message provides comfort and hope to others who may be going through similar challenges.

    • @Nibiru3600X
      @Nibiru3600X 6 месяцев назад

      @@chryslite589Your parents’ dismissal is a BIG part of this feeling. I’m so sorry 😢 I know this all too well. Narcissistic abuse comes in MANY forms & can be deadly-even neglect of emotions.
      I’m so glad you’re learning to KNOW YOURSELF 🙌 Break the cycle & do your best to not end up in any type of similar relationships that ignore you or dismiss your feelings & truths. Find someone that CONSISTENTLY hears & validates you-no back & forth BS ppl making you question if you even exist! Online support groups with people going through similar issues are very helpful, as well as Bambie🖤 ✨ and any other you can identify with. Some solitary time to think, reflect & scrape off others’ opinions they’ve forced on you is good too…
      You exist & you matter!! 💫 Hope this helps 🙏❤️‍🩹🙏

    • @chyennewhisman7166
      @chyennewhisman7166 5 месяцев назад

      I'm 25 and it's gotten worse 😅

    • @Merina-21
      @Merina-21 5 месяцев назад

      Thank you for saving me

  • @trivari
    @trivari 9 месяцев назад +211

    oh i absolutely adore this. the visuals perfectly capture the experience of derealisation - the contrast between your pure white image and the darkness of your surroundings create such a perfect visual representation of what it's like.

  • @jex_spectro
    @jex_spectro 8 месяцев назад +158

    This just hits hard as stone, I suffer from schizophrenia and many are the times I feel nothing at all, no emotions, no colors, nothing feels really like living. This song describes my situation perfectly, to not be able to feel and being desperate to find yourself being conscious of the life you are living and that you are breathing air just like the rest of the people.
    Your music is now one of my favorites, love the way you play synths and even more your skills at singing.
    Love from Mexico, never give up, I'm pretty sure you'll get far with all of your dreams. 🖤🥀⛓

  • @mudkips8399
    @mudkips8399 10 месяцев назад +2064

    As someone who struggles with depersonalization-derealization disorder, this video was cathartic. I haven't really related said disorder to any other music other than Radiohead's "How To Disappear Completely." Beautiful, but haunting song, this video matches perfectly.

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  10 месяцев назад +189

      Thank you so so much!! I adore how to disappear completely 🤍 appreciate it

    • @mudkips8399
      @mudkips8399 10 месяцев назад +42

      @@bambibaker I'm glad you dig How To Disappear Completely, I hope you're very successful with your art!

    • @sakn104
      @sakn104 10 месяцев назад +10

      You should check out the song "Is Happiness Just a Word", by Vinnie Paz.

    • @laloelsalamanca
      @laloelsalamanca 10 месяцев назад

      Stop making up disorders to justify your own failures and laziness.

    • @jasonsnyder5469
      @jasonsnyder5469 10 месяцев назад +2

      Dumb question I have did what's the difference

  • @KUKAKYOTOTOKYO
    @KUKAKYOTOTOKYO 7 месяцев назад +114

    I can tell the writer understands derealization/depersonalization intimately. Listening struck me with this intense feeling of not being alone with this, and there's someone else who really understands. I understand the theory on why and how it happens, but it still catches me off guard. Still comes and goes after 20 years ago when I first started having it.

  • @Lunniezz
    @Lunniezz 11 месяцев назад +236

    I want this video tattooed on my body for absolute eternity. This is pure perfection! It makes me hurt it makes me happy! Even quite nostalgic- I thank you Bambi Baker for making this masterpiece.

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  11 месяцев назад +29

      Oh my goshhhh that’s so sweetttt thank you so much😭😭🫶🫶

    • @hannacolo
      @hannacolo 11 месяцев назад +1

      And I!!!! ❤❤❤

    • @jasonsnyder5469
      @jasonsnyder5469 10 месяцев назад

      I hate this fucking song so much

  • @njux1871
    @njux1871 10 месяцев назад +118

    !!! This is fuxking phenomenal. I'm a goth who's deeply into music of any genre that's about darkness though and this just hits every note for me. Didn't know I needed a dissociation song in my life but retrospectively it's pretty obvious lol. amazing. Could be nine minutes long honestly, Dead Can Dance style. But do what you feel it's right obviously, I will root for you.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 8 месяцев назад +1

      Thank you so much for your enthusiastic feedback! I'm thrilled to hear that the song resonates with you and captures the essence of darkness that you appreciate. Your support means a lot to me, and I'm grateful for your encouragement. While the length and style of the song may be subject to personal preference, I'll definitely take your suggestions into consideration. I'll continue to create music based on my artistic vision, and I appreciate your belief in me. Thank you again!

  • @jb.burnheart11030
    @jb.burnheart11030 9 месяцев назад +931

    This is like a Tim Burton character coming to life. Ethereal, haunting, beautiful. 🖤🖤🖤

    • @qiwnie
      @qiwnie 9 месяцев назад +5

      Perfeição 💗

    • @yago7289
      @yago7289 8 месяцев назад +1

      @@qiwnie foda

    • @picareta666
      @picareta666 8 месяцев назад +1

      I think I know which tim burton's character she makes u remind of, the hearts queen sister in the alice movie

    • @MeuNome-gk1of
      @MeuNome-gk1of 7 месяцев назад +5

      She look more like and beserker characters

    • @hanielarindel1408
      @hanielarindel1408 7 месяцев назад +4

      @@MeuNome-gk1of Well... at first glance I thought it was a Griffith cosplay since many Griffith cosplays are done by women but then I opened the song and got to hear the song and see her more clearly...
      But yes. She does have a resemblance in appearance to the Queen sister from Alice in Wonderland. I think even better.
      We got the feelings of the song.

  • @Nikko2I
    @Nikko2I 6 месяцев назад +88

    This is such an ethereal, melancholic piece, especially for a budget production, that I'm shocked it has only 250k views after 4 months.
    This is art.

  • @dylidyl7169
    @dylidyl7169 6 месяцев назад +40

    I don’t have derealization, but there have been many times in my life when I have felt like this, like an outsider, dissociated from reality, from the world, from everyone, from myself. I felt apathetic yet in pain, frustrated and trapped yet careless and unbothered, observant yet blind… lovely video. The wicked, ethereal quality was depicted beautifully. 💜

  • @deflawed1602
    @deflawed1602 9 месяцев назад +121

    the visuals are so beautiful and dreamy i love it and the song is actually so good, i rarely like any new music i find so thank u for making this masterpiece 😭

    • @deflawed1602
      @deflawed1602 9 месяцев назад +9

      i forgot to add that i also find it very comforting bc it makes me feel a sense that im not alone bc i go through rlly bad derealization everyday 😭this song is exactly how it feels

  • @eileenscat
    @eileenscat 8 месяцев назад +236

    This reminds me a lot of what it felt like growing up with undiagnosed autism, even if that’s not the theme of the song
    I’m in love with the music and visuals alike, I only wish I’d come across your music sooner ♥️

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  8 месяцев назад +88

      Currently in an autism assessment after 17 years no diagnosis haha it makes sense, thank you so much🫶🫶

    • @LadyVenus125
      @LadyVenus125 8 месяцев назад +3

      Oh my god, yes! I thought I was the only one.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 8 месяцев назад +3

      Thank you for your kind words! I'm glad that my music and visuals resonate with you. It's always a powerful experience when we find something that speaks to us on a personal level, even if it's not intended to have a specific theme. I appreciate your support

    • @noctovania
      @noctovania 8 месяцев назад +2

      Can you tell me what it was like? I've been having some suspicions and, obviously, I won't self diagnose, but I've been talking to my therapist about it and he had some suspicions as well :0 I've had derealization many times as a kid and to this day I'm still trying to figure out more stuff about myself that I wasn't/can't be able to explain

    • @LuumiBluee
      @LuumiBluee 8 месяцев назад +1

      Omg right this would've been so helpful to listen to growing up realising I'm not the only one that feels this way

  • @sleeplessangelz
    @sleeplessangelz 10 месяцев назад +233

    1:09 really close to what it feels like in real life. She is so talented, the voice the visuals everything just perfect!

  • @DascorpFr
    @DascorpFr 7 месяцев назад +25

    oh my fucking god i thought id be the only one whod also have an artistic expression for my issues, i have DPDR (depersonalization derealization disorder) and the notion that the disorder makes you feel out of place and vivid in everything you look at and do feels so fucking stressful and sad, you dont feel real enough to feel safe or feel sure that you are where you are physically. you want to feel YOU WANT TO UNDERSTAND AND FEEL YOUR RELATIONSHIPS BUT YOU CANT. everything feels like a blur even if you dont want it to be. thank you for expressing it in your way. it means a lot.

    • @jonatasvieira4025
      @jonatasvieira4025 6 месяцев назад +2

      I had expressed dpdr also by pictures, poem, histories and draws

    • @sudaiiice145
      @sudaiiice145 4 месяца назад +4

      YESS I GET THIS! i suffer from DPDR and have for about a year now, i used to think i was seriously mentally ill amd schizophrenic but oncr i googled it i realised what i was going through, i then told my therapist. Im so happy to see people who r like me and the comfort of knowimg im not alone

  • @Kno3ledge
    @Kno3ledge 11 месяцев назад +55

    Macabre...Your music is terrifyingly beautiful. It scares most, for they fear being lured into a deep psychosis. Can a blind eye make the distinction between enlightenment and illness? How does one 'derealize' without experiencing one or the other? Thank you for sharing your talent with us.

  • @corvus9829
    @corvus9829 8 месяцев назад +10

    For a second I thought it was Griffith from Berserk. lol

  • @zim-p
    @zim-p 10 месяцев назад +67

    First of all, this is a masterpiece and I'm so grateful RUclips recommended this to me. As someone who suffers from frequent dissociation, this is spot on. And your voice, don't even let me get started on that. You sound like an angel. And your vocal technique fits this song so amazing. But out of all of the amazing this, the video really stood out of me. It's truely surreal and shot so well. I'm obcessed with your stuff. Wow. You should be popular really.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 8 месяцев назад

      Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm glad to hear that this song resonates with you and captures the experience of dissociation accurately. It means a lot to me that you appreciate my vocal technique and find my voice angelic. I put a lot of effort and emotion into my music, so it's heartwarming to know that it connects with listeners like you.
      Regarding the video, I'm thrilled that you found it surreal and well-shot. Visuals are important to me, and I strive to create an immersive experience that complements the music. It's amazing to hear that you're obsessed with my work, and your support means the world to me.
      As for popularity, that's something that can be subjective and unpredictable. However, I'm truly grateful for every fan and every person who connects with my music. It's the listeners like you who make it all worth it. Thank you for your kind words and for taking the time to share your thoughts.

  • @adoringcatfish
    @adoringcatfish 7 месяцев назад +20

    Finding something that represents dpdr so accurately is rare. I relate to both the visuals and the music here so much. Thank you for making it.
    I find that over time my struggles have gotten less. Both in terms of the actual symptoms, and my rationalizations of it. Over a decade in at 23, dpdr is still something I deal with daily but the full blackouts I used to get are completely gone, and the glass between me and the world appears less often and is less thick. It gets better. Part of what made it get better on the rationalization side is realizing that other people struggled with it it too, making art like this is so important for that.

  • @MisterSpleenlol
    @MisterSpleenlol 8 месяцев назад +29

    Nice to see a song ab something like this. I have multiple disorders that cause memory loss, amnesia, and dissociation consistently, and for as long as i can remember
    its just nice to see any form of representation. This sounds amazing and the MV is lovely

    • @schnitzelberry
      @schnitzelberry 3 месяца назад +2

      I’m going through the same thing and I’m genuinely sorry that it happens to you too

  • @blinkie_shine
    @blinkie_shine 9 месяцев назад +28

    You are so amazing singer!! You should be more famous 😍

  • @sesiele
    @sesiele 8 месяцев назад +16

    I don't know what derealization/depersonalization feels like but this oddly enough...kind of shows me an example of that.
    I can't explain it-
    this song + the visuals make me feel so light headed(?) like I'm dreaming....idk it just feels surreal-anyways gr8 job and keep doing what you love 👍🏻❤️

  • @VAVORiAL
    @VAVORiAL 10 месяцев назад +36

    Beat has a Silent Hill feeling to it, whole thing feels dreamy af, love it

  • @JVERASJ
    @JVERASJ 9 месяцев назад +28

    Thanks for this! I suffered a lot with desrealization for years, today I can say that I'm much better, since I got better from my depression and Maladaptive daydreaming. I hope everyone who suffers from desrealization can get better one day... Your voice is so beautiful, incredible, fantastic, amazing!! I love it, again, thanks for this.❤

  • @Ravenist
    @Ravenist 9 месяцев назад +186

    0:50-1:20 is exactly how dpdr feels like; one moment like a slideshow, then other times a disorienting mindless existence blurry like a dream, but then there are also moments of clarity that are eery and calming yet confounding in an odd surreal off-kilter crooked way of being lost like something (that you are unaware of) has gone terribly wrong and that you aren't supposed to be when/where you are or that you think you should be feeling a certain way but you aren't.

    • @PoisonelleMisty4311
      @PoisonelleMisty4311 8 месяцев назад +3

      Thank you for sharing your description of how depersonalization and derealization (dpdr) feels like between 0:50-1:20. It sounds like you experience a variety of sensations during this time. The fluctuations between a slideshow-like experience, a disorienting and dream-like state, and moments of clarity can be unsettling and confusing. The feeling of being lost and disconnected from your surroundings, as well as the sense that something is wrong or that you should be feeling a certain way, adds to the surreal and off-kilter nature of dpdr. It is important to seek support from a mental health professional if you are experiencing these symptoms.

    • @GPWT-video
      @GPWT-video 7 месяцев назад

      @@PoisonelleMisty4311 🥳

    • @jonasgeez2140
      @jonasgeez2140 6 месяцев назад

      Odd I usto feel exactly like that but it was psychosis from drug use

  • @RayDavillah
    @RayDavillah 8 месяцев назад +11

    I finished listening, and WOW this is beautiful... this is perfectly Borderline disorder... congratulations on being able to perfectly portray one of the most stunning or dangerous moments of this disorder, which is depersonalization... feeling empty, not recognizing yourself, begging for knowledge or what you are...This is a perfect work... I just discovered it but I'm already hoping for more songs. Bambi, you are a great artist. GROW WITH YOUR CAREER ❤

  • @rashidjurgens9992
    @rashidjurgens9992 11 месяцев назад +37

    i have no idea how the algorithm introduced me to your work but I'm an absolute fan. this music video represents the existential dread i constantly feel. finally something that i truly resonate with. amazing.

  • @Tiger_Lightning_Music
    @Tiger_Lightning_Music 9 месяцев назад +17

    Really nice sound, like a songbird of the underworld 🔥🔥🔥

  • @imperialchalice
    @imperialchalice 8 месяцев назад +9

    Oh man…this takes me back to my Japanese goth music phase. Hauntingly beautiful, and absolutely relatable.

  • @playlistismo
    @playlistismo 10 месяцев назад +33

    Thank you Bambi Baker for this video because this is exactly how a lot of people are feeling at this time... so you definitely got your message across to us! This music video was like a hug!

  • @LezardValeth-nn2gl
    @LezardValeth-nn2gl 6 месяцев назад +5

    This video fits the time some one threatened to kill me as a child. because i was talking to much? the feeling of dissonance within the piano chords really hits the "I'm disassociating: reality is fucked".

  • @xxxsugarcookies9909
    @xxxsugarcookies9909 8 месяцев назад +10

    the tone of your voice mixed with the lyrics and the video gives me exactly the feeling of what my depersonalizations were like when I was younger, they are memories that simply disappeared after I had them, it makes me feel at home

  • @TheDaydreamer777
    @TheDaydreamer777 8 месяцев назад +19

    As someone who has experiences frequent derealization and also has psychosis (One of my psychotic episodes I actually had the delusion of being in a dream and that all of humanity was trapped inside of a dream) the lyrics "I can't do it, I don't know who is real, I don't know what's real anymore" hit me in the feels WAY harder then I expected🥲 That's honestly what I feel like during my derealization episodes and what it felt like during my psychotic episode except mix in a feeling of betrayal because I thought that my family didn't believe me and thought I was crazy even though I truly believed in my delusion at the time.

    • @jonatasvieira4025
      @jonatasvieira4025 6 месяцев назад

      But that sympthoms are from dr not psychosys.. its a feeling not a delusion.. if u question and know that is strange to feel and not normal to feel, that means u are lucid

    • @jonatasvieira4025
      @jonatasvieira4025 6 месяцев назад

      But yes psychisis or schyzophrenia also can have dpdr to protect from stress of having hallucination and delusions abd traumatic events

  • @Milk_Carton11
    @Milk_Carton11 8 месяцев назад +11

    I’m so glad YT recommended this video to me. This song and MV are so sick!!!

  • @starryniightt
    @starryniightt 8 месяцев назад +16

    This really resonates with me, sometimes it feels like nobody sees me or like I’m a ghost, or in a dream this is really a beautiful video and song.

  • @Sımona-12.123
    @Sımona-12.123 10 месяцев назад +18

    Приветствуем восходящую звезду. Это шикарно!

  • @LameMule
    @LameMule 9 месяцев назад +16

    No idea why this was in my recommendations a few weeks back but your album has become one of my most played in 2023 in that short time. I was stringing up Christmas lights with the album on repeat. As much as I enjoyed the juxtaposition, I just straight up love your music.
    So here's a comment for the algo gods, praying they bring your music to another unsuspecting soul who falls in love with the album as much as I have.

  • @LiminalLegion
    @LiminalLegion 8 месяцев назад +10

    I've been really struggling with derealization for quite some time. This song showed up in my recommendations and I'm so glad I clicked on it. Listening to it is super comforting and the lyrics really hit what I've been feeling. Knowing that I'm not alone in questioning what reality is and what it is supposed to feel like makes me feel more real. Thank you so much

  • @ventdeclipse
    @ventdeclipse 11 месяцев назад +29

    bambi, I'm glad i found you, you're really talented, never stop doing this🥺💖

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  11 месяцев назад +2

      THANK YOU SMM I could neverrr🫀🫀

  • @ricinus8946
    @ricinus8946 8 месяцев назад +3

    Cool song, Griffith

  • @cholburap
    @cholburap 5 месяцев назад +2

    go feat bambi? kk

  • @ミク-g6e
    @ミク-g6e 6 месяцев назад +4

    言語は理解できませんが、雰囲気がとても好きです♡あなたに出会えて良かったです

  • @marib.364
    @marib.364 10 месяцев назад +11

    i’m struggling with derealization after some traumatic experiences this past semester. i wish it would leave so i could feel again. i’ve had to quit a class and retake it because my memory is just so shot. it’s so exhausting, but music like this is very relatable and gets me through it. you seem to understand. take care.

  • @eyelessghost_
    @eyelessghost_ 6 месяцев назад +6

    Not exactly type of music I usually listen to, but woah, your voice, your outfit, the vibe, everything is gorgeous

  • @crabmaster6932
    @crabmaster6932 8 месяцев назад +6

    Im not diagnosed with anything, but i heavily relate to this and do think i struggle with derealization and depersonalization. I struggle to feel real and then when I do feel real i feel gross and anxious. When I remember i am human and have to be human and am a person to others, that every single one of my choices and actions matter i feel gross and anxious. I feel like I should be anywhere else and anything else, just not here and just not as me.

  • @meow-qs1hs
    @meow-qs1hs 8 месяцев назад +4

    Какой восхитительный голос! Мне хочется летать, когда я слышу припев. Спасибо

  • @aboboramusica
    @aboboramusica 7 месяцев назад +5

    Griffith be like

  • @andymunnings9109
    @andymunnings9109 6 месяцев назад +2

    "Now? Everyone. This is not just a ghost story. This is a story of an individual who was locked up in a jail cell for a limited time and when the person came out of confindment everyone did not recognize her, even she could not recognize her face due to how much time has passed when she sit in the same chair in her own room at her owned residence at the present time viewed. She felt as if she was in another body but have the same form of thinking. She was a Jail bird, something happened in her life unexplained what she herself could not understand. She was drowned in tears when she was placed in a small place, not knowing what she had done. She had no memory of no one, because? Everyone treated her strange as if she was not there due to them knowing she did something. (It is something like a small town, if one person says another person is a murderer or a jail bird, every other person thinks they are a murderer or a career criminal even if the romana is false.) The Artist stayed around the tomb(Or House- Spaceshop) because? It was the only thing that stayed the same. The community structure changed, People changed. The Artist was as an Angel with innocence, did no wrong when she came out, yet? She was not even recognize. She was treated as an outcast. (As a Ghost as describe when exposed to society, she was alone.)

  • @Jasmine-p7f
    @Jasmine-p7f 11 месяцев назад +5

    You are so beautiful and i love your voice I'm 10 and I'm typing this i love your songs but i love this one the most. I hope you don't stop making songs. You make good songs that i can sleep too. I hope in my life i can meet you if i can i will be so happy i just love allmof the songs you make. 🙂🙂

  • @robertromero5769
    @robertromero5769 6 месяцев назад +4

    The beautiful girl turned up the music at full volume, I love you Bambi

  • @AlvinREDDELTA
    @AlvinREDDELTA 10 месяцев назад +3

    lolita angel

  • @raccoonpandas1851
    @raccoonpandas1851 7 месяцев назад +5

    I've always struggled with derealization and its destroyed so many relationships, I think its definitely always a good thing whenever I see media of it. It instantly makes me realize that I am real, I definitely have people who still care about and are willing to talk to me. I think I will definitely be adding this to my most played playlist and listening to the rest of your music, especially since this song alone is an extremely beautiful one.

  • @solan2915
    @solan2915 3 месяца назад +2

    As someone who struggles with derealization a lot this song really resonates me :)

  • @danowo1048
    @danowo1048 8 месяцев назад +7

    i love when the algorithm shows me the good stuff

  • @nietzscheente1271
    @nietzscheente1271 6 месяцев назад +3

    This is brilliant. What a beautiful voice, deep lyrics and haunting music video.

  • @silver_dusk
    @silver_dusk 7 месяцев назад +6

    I'm so thankful for discovering this video randomly, this is intricate and melancholic and angelic and ✨BEAUTIFUL✨the visuals are so immaculate and mysterious, this song is too underrated and I hope this video and your channel get more popular, this is brilliant👍👍👍

  • @lifeisadickjoke
    @lifeisadickjoke 11 месяцев назад +74

    Where was this song when I needed it? This is exactly how my teenie years felt like and this experience felt so isolating cause nobody would ever speak about it. I'm glad there's a song that describes this experience so well. I've also been seeing more people talking about derealization on the internet lately, which is of course a good thing so that maybe some people out there don't feel so alone with this experience.
    By the way, your voice has such a beautiful sound! I love it. :)

  • @Ghost_bunni68
    @Ghost_bunni68 2 месяца назад +2

    I just found your music today, and it's so unique ♡
    For years I couldn't find out how I was feeling. Most of my life forgotten, half the time I feel like I'm fake or something. A few months ago I found out about DPDR and it was exactly how I feel. Sometimes it gets so bad to the point where I'll touch my hands and I feel like I'm touching another person instead of myself.
    This song I feel captures it wonderfully (well wonderfully for what it is, since dpdr isn't wonderful.) Regardless, its safe to say I'm looking forward to more music in the future ♡♡♡

  • @tomochka_
    @tomochka_ 11 месяцев назад +9

    прямо сейчас наткнулась на эту песню и послушала все остальные песни Bambi и черт ВАУ!
    почему она не популярна? текста превосходны, звучание идеальное, эта музыка погружает тебя в атмосферу уютна и мрачности, это ощущается как что то родное. я благословлена тем что нашла это, спасибо!

  • @Ch3shire.c4tt
    @Ch3shire.c4tt 7 месяцев назад +2

    Lyrics:
    Stood trying to remember what I look like in the mirror
    What does real life really feel like?
    I don't remember what I'm supposed to feel
    Am I dead?
    Or am I in a dream?
    Am I a ghost watching what my life would of been?
    I can't feel
    Times not real
    Life's not real
    I'm not real
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    (I don't think I belong on this planet
    This galaxy, this universe
    I don't think I belong at all)
    What am I here for?
    What is my purpose?
    Or am I even here?
    What can I trust?
    I don't know who really exists
    I don't remember who anybody is
    Do I know them?
    Can they see me?
    Can they hear me?
    Can they feel me?
    Do they know me?
    Do they know who I am?
    I can't feel
    Times not real
    Life's not real
    I'm not real
    Nothing is real, ohh, ohh
    I can't feel, time's not real
    Life's not real, no I'm not real
    I'm lost
    I don't belong, no
    I can't do it
    I don't know who's real
    I don't know what's real
    Anymore, ha
    (No more, no more)

  • @dollforever1749
    @dollforever1749 8 месяцев назад +7

    The feeling was so perfectly emulated not just with the music but the visuals living like constantly looking through a TV screen

  • @marzipanmenthol
    @marzipanmenthol 3 месяца назад +2

    I need to be clothed in an overabundance of white gauzy dresses and stockings whilst laying completely submerged in still and silent water immediately

  • @kkruch_ka
    @kkruch_ka 11 месяцев назад +12

    this masterpiece deserves more than a million views, why are you still not popular?😭💗💗💗

  • @wobbles1149
    @wobbles1149 9 месяцев назад +8

    Such a distinct and hauntingly calming voice! I started listening a few months ago on Spotify. I saw this video today and I am so glad I did

  • @xbrandi12345x
    @xbrandi12345x 5 месяцев назад +3

    I have had this in my watch later for a few months and finally watched it today. I am not familiar with Bambi Baker before this but it made me an instant subscriber. This isn't just a song and video. It's a literal work of art. Bravo! Encore!

  • @Vampire_Princess666
    @Vampire_Princess666 8 месяцев назад +3

    I love your makeup, it looks very nice

  • @heichi-mthealien594
    @heichi-mthealien594 9 месяцев назад +5

    Oh my thank you so much for this masterpiece and as a depersonalisation-derealization struggler, you really packed up the feeling in you music and video, and it just feels... I don't know how to put words on it. I'm glad I discovered you, I just love this kind of music so much, you're very talented, keep up the good work, I guess that I'll be in your fandom by the end of the evening to be honest, definitely gonna dig your music !

  • @Lylantz
    @Lylantz 9 месяцев назад +5

    This song and video is ethereal. I'm glad I discovered your music. The ultimate vibe

  • @VesperGrim
    @VesperGrim 7 месяцев назад +4

    I love this song and your aesthetic. Truly ethereal. I really struggle with intense depression and depersonalization and this song captures it absolutely brilliantly...Please keep making music!!

  • @Sonia-ut2ie
    @Sonia-ut2ie 11 месяцев назад +8

    I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH AHHHH. The video is amazing, matches the song so so perfectly. Angelic
    🗝️🥀🪽🕯️

  • @Miserablelivingdoll2009
    @Miserablelivingdoll2009 11 месяцев назад +2

    Bambii i love you sm🕯️🦷

  • @Michael_RA_Duffy
    @Michael_RA_Duffy 10 месяцев назад +6

    Damn, this song's so perfectly aligned with the vibe, it's basically a bloody platonic ideal

  • @RonnieVendetti
    @RonnieVendetti 6 месяцев назад +1

    WOW...haunting melody...you are a fantastic artist...

  • @Evelyn-wd7so
    @Evelyn-wd7so 11 месяцев назад +9

    Your voice is so good, the song and everything is so good ❤️

  • @kannon2565
    @kannon2565 4 месяца назад +2

    Bambi, you are incredible, I have only been listening to you for 3 days and I have already listened to all your music like 8 times, you have a beautiful voice and your songs are masterpieces, I will not get tired of saying that you are incredible, I hope that many more people listen, you deserve everything the support you have and much more
    Greetings from Mexico

  • @Miniman15
    @Miniman15 4 месяца назад +3

    As someone else who was in foster care from 11-18 I completely feel every word of this in my soul. Thank you for giving us a voice and words to the feelings.

  • @CarlosFuentes-ov9zo
    @CarlosFuentes-ov9zo 8 месяцев назад +2

    GRIFFFIIIIIIIITHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • @annyhedoban
    @annyhedoban 4 месяца назад +3

    my favorite song!

  • @thatonepekokinnie
    @thatonepekokinnie 11 месяцев назад +7

    I discovered your music from Spotify and I'm obsessed! All your songs have some sense of nostalgia and your aesthetic is so enviable. I love this music video especially for the relatable lyrics and accurate visuals to how derealization feels like.

  • @yakuwon
    @yakuwon 11 месяцев назад +7

    LOVING THE VIBES SM UGHHH BOTH YOU AND YOUR VOICE IS EXTREMEEELLLYYY GORGEOUS

  • @concui
    @concui Месяц назад +1

    WOAHHH so glad I got recommend this!! I love the visuals, the sounds, just EVERYTHING! I'll def check all the songs out! I love the outfit too!!

  • @H1N4_N1NJ4
    @H1N4_N1NJ4 9 месяцев назад +5

    This is so good!!! The vibe, vocals, music everything is just perfect!!

  • @e.l.7116
    @e.l.7116 4 месяца назад +2

    So underrated. Vocals are not what I expected!! So cool and love your deep melancholic voice

  • @salvadorjester
    @salvadorjester 7 месяцев назад +4

    im struggling with dr/dp for 4 years and lyrics are awesome. probably the best description of this feeling. also im in love with music video, visions, looks. love u ♡

  • @SypticParasite
    @SypticParasite 10 месяцев назад +7

    Thank you so much for making this masterpiece!! One of the best songs I've listened in my life.
    I really love everything related to ghosts and this song really evoke a deep feeling of solitude, just like being a lost soul, trapped and condemned to wander in a world without a purpose but with so many questions, confused and completely alone, hoping someday to get help, to get an answer, or at least, to rest in peace.
    As a new fan I'll be listening to your previous works.
    Have a nice day, and I hope you are feeling better now!

  • @montymontgomerygatorisbest1426
    @montymontgomerygatorisbest1426 11 месяцев назад +6

    I deal with depersonalization and derealization everyday and this suits

  • @pyronerve
    @pyronerve 11 месяцев назад +2

    Here before it blows up! 🔥 (9.2K!)

  • @the_real_joe
    @the_real_joe 11 месяцев назад +8

    I feel like this is going to be great as always

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  11 месяцев назад +2

      Thank you so much😭💕

  • @fabianpertschi1500
    @fabianpertschi1500 5 месяцев назад +2

    Listen now to this beautiful voice in this beautiful piece of art the third time in repeat. So a powerful yet melancolical song. And I was there too, don`t feel right here and feeled to much pain here on earth so got depressed for many years. Be blessed beloving being

  • @themalonetribe
    @themalonetribe 7 месяцев назад +2

    Totally feel this...always been a shadow

  • @Orchidry
    @Orchidry 10 месяцев назад +5

    You're extremely underrated it's insane. Your voice is amazing

  • @IndicacannaJones
    @IndicacannaJones 9 месяцев назад +2

    If you took Fiona Apple, Beth Gibbons, Thom Yorke, some dolls from your collection and put them in a blender... well, first of all, that would be strange, and secondly,, it would be a mess of gore and plastic bits, but it would sound something like Ms. Bambi. I've been listening to Diary exclusively for the past few days and I get pieces of songs looping in my head on repeat constantly. I dislike most everything I come across musically, so to find something you not only don't dislike, but actually love, I'm that much more appreciative of this album. Bambi, if you ever happen to read this, I'd really like to make you a Spotify playlist if you would humor me.

    • @bambibaker
      @bambibaker  9 месяцев назад

      HAHA thank you so much, I would LOVE that🫶🫶

  • @cianb8741
    @cianb8741 9 месяцев назад +6

    this is actually insanely good wtf
    never seen music actually express the feeling this well

  • @garciahernandezalbertoyaot696
    @garciahernandezalbertoyaot696 8 месяцев назад +2

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  • @nevillemita
    @nevillemita 11 месяцев назад +5

    OMG!! SO PERFECT, I NEED THIS ON MY PLAYLIST RIGHT NOW.

  • @AshleyAndersonLane
    @AshleyAndersonLane Месяц назад +1

    Okay so i’ve already commented today but i feel like i need to come forward here, i dont know why, but i feel so safe with you and i have NO CLUE why. There’s just something so comforting yet eerie about you and you’re music especially. Again, still love you’re aesthetic and songs they’re absolutely amazing and ethereal. ❤😊

  • @Evelyn-wd7so
    @Evelyn-wd7so 11 месяцев назад +5

    I found your music not long ago, I feel like I'm so lucky now ♡

  • @tnbeats5154
    @tnbeats5154 7 месяцев назад +2

    I love this song, it's unreal!!

  • @Destinnies
    @Destinnies 10 месяцев назад +3

    Just discovered this, out of curiosity from my recommendations. Absolutely beautiful, haunting sound. And the content is definitely relatable. (Must say I was so confused if the name of this song was called Bambi Baker 'cause I'm used to the other order of; Artiste name - *song title* on Here😅)