Checkpoint: I finally got engaged to the girl I had a crush on since I was 8. We're 36 now. We moved into a beautiful house together and the future looks bright.
Checkpoint: after spending my 20s clueless as to what I wanted to do for a career I pursued my art passion and became a tattoo artist. Now at 31 I'm a full time, blossoming tattoo artist with an exciting career creating permanent body art on people. It's surreal to say the least. Keep following what ignites your passion. That's the way.
Checkpoint: March 5, 2024. My daughter has turned 19 weeks old today. Fatherhood is a wild ride, and I can only hope that I can show her a good enough way to traverse this wild and crazy world.
Checkpoint: I always wanted to make video games... 13 years later, I've achieved nothing. I hope one day, I'll finish a game, give to people a fun and memorable experience and prove to my family and myself that I'm not a worthless dreamer.
A dream has worth, your self has worth. Find a way to feel proud of what you’ve already accomplished though it may be tangential of your set-out goals. And then look ahead with confidence, what ever direction you want to go. Good-luck friend
Checkpoint: Despite everything that has happened to me, I still remain. And even though I sometimes don't want to, I will continue to do so -- if not for me, then for my friends and what remains of my family.
Checkpoint: finding this rare user fills you with DETERMINATION. Im not so rare, but its hard to find me. Hi. Im your local silly user, you might have seen me in some of the other checkpoints. This is the second one i could find during december. Wow, two in a row. What a gift. Even tho you dont know me, i hope youre doing okay. So goodbye, dear TRAVELER. May light follow you on your adventures .. And see you on a another checkpoint.
Checkpoint: despite everything I've been through, all the people who have left me, I still move forward with hope, I'm going further, finally knowing myself and the world around me, I'm happy
Checkpoint: Graduating bachelor's of engineering in a week. Pretty scared of what lies ahead in the future. I'm still struggling with depression, but i start medication again soon. I hope that I can find the passion to keep marching forward. I'll still be looking despite these low points.
Checkpoint: this is my 3rd life, y'all. I've built up a whole life n' had it taken away and burned in an instant. 2 years later I finally get to the point that I can start to build again. I make the decision to help out what I thought was a really good friend get on his feet because I was finally flush for once only to have everything taken from me yet again by this so-called friend about a year later. On my third life I found my wife - 3 years strong - and we started to build together. Now we have a home we are paying off and a whole life built. Even when you lose everything and hit rock bottom, it's never the end. You just keep carrying on and trying your best and it WILL get better. It always does. The bad times never last forever.
Checkpoint: Finally made it. Got my own place, my own car, an easy job at a calm site, a fiance (soon to be wife), and a clear vision of who i want to be beyond "everything that california isn't". Just a matter of putting praxis to it. Let's do this! 00:04 1/11/2024
@@jaikenmainy yeah should've seen that coming from a mile away. Fortunately the company doesn't have any chuck-e-cheese like places as sites, so no worries there.
Checkpoint: After being broke, homeless, and kicked out of my own family, I've finally been able to sleep without anxiety. I'm also graduating this week - which was only made possible by my endless toiling even if I was in Hell. I thought it would never get better and I'd live under a bridge. Well hommies - it does.
I don't know what's your personal background between you and your family, but I hope you get free home, whether it's a small or regular house with nice property, peaceful apartment, or some random stranger will let you stay at their house, but let's hope you're doing alright since yours was posted from 6 months ago.
Checkpoint: I’m working a job I love for a company that I don’t love. I run a houseplant shop in PDX. I have a leopard gecko and a ball python I adore. I’m living with my life partner but things are tough between us. We’re both very strong willed and we’ve both been hurt a tremendous amount in the past. I know things will work out as long as we keep trying to make a safe space for the other person and their feelings/fears. I’m tired but I’m not tired of life like I used to be. I used to be addicted to coke without having a job that could pay for it. Life can get better even if you only have a slight will to to make it that way. Be prepared for hard choices and a willingness to find opportunity in the darkest of circumstances. You ALWAYS have choices, try not to forget that.
Checkpoint: March 29, 2024. I dropped out of college lately and decided to focus on my mental health for a while. After having to move back in with my borderline abusive father I started to get a bit worse, and then a lot worse when my partner and I started having issues. But suddenly, it seemed like it reached a peak, and I realized that everything doesn't have to be going well for me to be at peace. I can be happy, even when I'm all I have. It is a choice that I make, and no outside person or circumstance can take that away from me. I have defeated anxiety, depression, self-doubt, self-hatred, fear, and regret. You can do it, too. The power to do so isn't something you have to find--it is inside you! You have the power to make peace, and to be happy! I believe in you, internet. Until next time.
Checkpoint: Depressed and unemployed. Been in a hopeless stupor for the past four months. Wanting to get better. Putting myself out there. Working on my art. Doing what little I can to prove that I am more than the "I can't"s I've been slinging at my reflection day after day. I know my artistic dreams are achievable. I know my friends and loved ones are here for me. And I know I'm not going to fail with all of them by my side. So while my personal outlook feels somewhat hopeless, I'll gladly save my place here. If only to know that even at my lowest, I have so many people I can depend on. And for that, I feel very fortunate. Here's to finally clearing that upcoming difficulty. I knew I could do it as a kid when it came to Donkey Kong Country 2, and I'll make it so, in life.
Checkpoint: Had a rough mutually-agreed upon breakup with my gf of 3 years. While I recover, I want to rediscover who I am, as an individual, and focus on friendships instead of dating for a year. I think things will be okay, even if the road to get there is bumpy. Spring always follows winter, and something new will always grow.
checkpoint: i feel comfortable, being on summer break feels like freedom, but I wont be able to see my friends for a while... but at least we can call. Well that's all, Cya.
Checkpoint: I am almost within reach of obtaining my bachelor's degree from my university. Never thought I would be able to accomplish this feat but I am very grateful and proud of myself
Checkpoint: The air quality improved today, so I could finally go on a walk outside. Saw a deer by a cornfield on the other side of the street as I walked through my neighborhood.
Checkpoint: 3 years married. Working on saving up for my own home. In a limbo state of living of where I'm on my own but also supported by family. Career is steady pace 8 years in IT working on certs now. Life is balanced and good but definitely feel halfway there.
Checkpoint: Fucked up a lot of relationships today. No longer friends with a lot of people. But I'm glad. If such a small dispute could turn the people I thought I could trust the most into some of the most vicious people I've ever hd the displeasure of speaking to, then good riddance. That was not a friendship then, it was a dependency. I'll keep trucking along and improving myself. For this is simply a checkpoint. Saving. Saving.. Saving... Save complete May the Journey lead us Starward.
Checkpoint: mentally checked out. Can't seem to feel anymore. And the pleasant things that had once bought me joy all of a sudden just feel like a chore and lacking in color. I hope to feel better soon
Checkpoint: at my gf's house on my uni holidays. She means the world to me. I hope all our dreams come true, where we live together, have some dogs and a small garden where we can grow some vegetables. The uni is taking a toll on me, mentally. Last week was kinda hard, had a frightening disease that killed an old friend of mine in the past but im fully recovered. My gf and my dog gives me strenght to carry on.
Checkpoint: Its been hard times. After losing my job and almost my sanity, i went to live with my grandma and my uncles, a peaceful house. Finally, i have people who love me around, and i can eat and sleep without worrying if i could lose my house. Things will get better, i can feel it.
My first ever checkpoint. Just last week, my dad died. He was an abuser, and yet I love him dearly. I'm still trying to process things, but I came face to face with mortality and I've started to let myself grieve. I don't know where I'll be in the future, but for now, this is a checkpoint. I'm writing this just before I go to bed. Funny how a song from a game starring a funny ape with a tie has brought all this out of me. I hope to see you all again at the next checkpoint. I'm going to keep pushing through until I find it.
checkpoint! i fully expected to be dead by now. But after years of therapy, the right meds (if ADHD meds dont work ask about bipolar meds, cause HOLY SHIT), plenty of weed, and finding people who help me heal and grow from the burnt out husk i was into something and someone new. I am not the monster my parents and priests told me i would be. I am alive and i will create beauty and do my best to share the compassion and joy shared with me. Things do get better. It took me years of effort and blood and tears and sweat but I did it. I did it by struggling to make it another day, and I did it by reaching out, by crying in the arms of a friend. I faced the abyss in my heart and I chose hope. Show yourself compassion. Show your friends gratitude. You can do this, youre less alone than you think.
That job wasn’t worth it, I hope you were able to take the experiences you’ve learned to become a better individual. Always value your worth, as others won’t.
Saw this in my recommended and knew I had to make a checkpoint. About to finish college, though it still almost feels like I just barely started. Life's confusing, but I know I'll get through it. And to anyone reading this, you'll get through it too. Just keep on going.
Checkpoint: I find myself reflecting a lot on my past lately. I've recently moved back to my childhood home town and remember things I've experienced that I had long since forgotten. The passage of time is difficult and I hope I can look forward to making new memories instead of being stuck in the past, though I imagine this happens to all of us eventually.
Something about reading all these comment, while this music plays being out a joy ive never felt before. It feels like pride, yet ive done nothing to be proud of here. It could be reflecting on myself, what I've been through. Or it could be being proud of the internet. Right now im 13, still yet to find a social media following. And i honestly couldnt care less right now. This makes me feels special, and I dont know why.
You're only thirteen. We have a trend going on right now that people are teaching you kiddos that your biggest impact to the world is when you're a teenager, and that's simply not true. Hell, even your twenties, accomplishing something there is still unique, rare. Of course you haven't done anything to be proud of yet. You're a kid, and that's okay! The fact that you have a direction you'd like to go is a big first step. When I was your age, I had like... ten different things I wanted to do. At this age, you're still forming who you are as a person. You're still gathering information and viewpoints and personalities from others, and calculating them in your brain to find the best, most efficient way to take what you like most of all those, and integrate them into who you are. And that's okay! That's how humans work. Did you know the human brain doesn't actually stop growing until around the age of 26-27? You still have over a decade of brain growth to do! So the next time you worry about where you are right now, go look up the ages of authors you enjoy to read the literature of, and content creators who inspire you, and see what ages they were when they started to get famous. Learn from the stories of their struggles and failures, and know that it's very hard to break into a popular state on social media--even harder when you're so young. Take these years while you have them to find you, and you'll be okay.
Want an advice from a 37 yo man? Leave social media out of your life. Stop being in front of your mobile phone all day long and trying to make followers. Listen to music, read books, watch movies, play video games, go out and play whatever sport you enjoy, paint, learn a musical instrument, learn a foreign language. Don't burn your mind with social media, instead be creative and study to become a better student. Trust me, all these will pay off in the future and you will feel a much more complete person.
Checkpoint: I've stumbled across internet checkpoints in the past, but I never stopped to make my mark. I've had my fair share of ups and downs in life at the age of 25 I am in a better position than I could have ever hoped to be in 5 years ago. I have good friends, a loving girlfriend, supportive family, and a future that I can work towards. I am overall happy. When I was a teenager I would write small passages or poems, and once I got out of high-school I found it hard to maintain that part of my life. I don't know if it was just my fear of creating something that I hated or my perfectionism preventing me from trying, but after all this time I am finally back to writing in my spare time. I hope I actually finish the book this time. I think that will be my goal for 2024. I hope everyone that passes by this checkpoint accomplishes whatever they set out to do. Good luck.
I hope you get succeded on your book project, this would ever feel like an accomplishment when you start doing self-analysis and emotional Intelligence.
Checkpoint: I really need to find a job that pays a living wage. I really need to gtfo out my mom's house and find an apartment whose rent isn't an arm, a leg, a first born, and a pint of virgin's blood.
Checkpoint: just bought a house with my brother, and I feel so worried about the future expenses. We did it to give my mom and little sister a home and a home for us as well. But things aren’t looking too positive right now. My mom is breaking away, and it feels like losing a loved one. I hope I can still help support her in anyway I can. Little sister isn’t thrilled about leaving current city we live in. This home purchase is starting to feel like a mistake, but hopefully all turns out well in the end. I just want to provide for my family because I love them. We’ll see how things turn out in the future. I want healthy lives for all my loved ones, and I have faith that everything will work out in the end!
Checkpoint: I got a job on the other side of the world and will be moving there at the end of this month. I'm excited and scared for the future. For the first time in over a decade, I believe things are going to be alright.
Checkpoint: Quit a job that was ruining my relationships and actively making me depressed and anxious. Gonna take a week to reset myself, then get back to the grind. Never underestimate burn out folks, and please, take good care of yourself out there. No matter what company you work for-- your time is yours, and yours alone.
Checkpoint: I now stand, recalling how the last several years unfolded. What is and was a simple life must at some point change in order to survive. I've tried many things, all of which wound up in failure for one reason or another. Many of the people that which I surrounded myself with have gone their separate ways. All I have left are the memories I have of those people, with only a handful of them left within reach. What lies in wait for me, I wonder. Only thing I can do is live day by day, and make moves that may reveal a stable path towards some sort of future.
Checkpoint: Can't sleep lately. Averaging 4 hours a night all month, this isn't sustainable at all. Grouchy and stressed, tired all the time but can't sleep. Maybe I'll see a doctor one of these days.
Checkpoint: I have undiagnosed ticking, lost a girl I loved, not sure who are my friends, not interested in much anymore, I have become the mediator in attempts to help my architect self, I feel lonely by my logical brain, and I hate feelings but I realize they are essential to human existence, think I talked to God and Satan, been banned from newsletter and have changed a school system, may have to provide for my family soon, fighting temptation to consider the easy way out, in all my days, I'm still okay! Bless everyone, there is joy and peace in pain.
Checkpoint: Yesterday I understanded at 100% the full meaning of my life. I adopted a philosophy on how living it and making any type of decisions. Also, this year i felt it as the best of all of them, being the past one the worst. But you know what's actually the good thing? It's that this year isnt going to be even on my top 5 best years. but, i may be wrong because only one thing... i think im underestamating the importance of this year on my life. My different goals in my life are right now: 1- Write a book (im probably writing more than 1) 2- Raise up a child at the best way possible 3- I want to be recognized by the most people possible, and be remembered by people in general as a person that did something that definitely stood up amongst other people. I want to reach this with making music, my passion. If you want to put it in other words, i want to be the next musician/composer of the well remembered ones (mozart, liszt, chopin, bach, debussy, etc.). 4- Living my life with someone who is willing to live and die with me aside from anyone on my family. Im 72% sure that i already found that person. But only time will tell. 5- Living my life at the best way possible. PD: Im 15 years old and i already promised myself that i won't be ever changing any of this. If im not capable of doing all of these 5 goals, i would say i failed on life. But thats not going to happen ever. Be sure of that. I hope you all have a great day! Thanks for reading!
You remind me of myself ^^ At 15 I had one of my worst lows in life, really wanted to change something. Watched a lot of those self-improvement videos to change myself and not continue to be miserable, because i blamed a lot of what went wrong on myself. I think i was in a really bad headspace, which im luckily not in anymore. Now at 17 not much time has passed but i can enjoy life more than before and I'm still working on becoming the one who i want to be. And I hope you will too, i feel that you are determined and can feel that you found motivation and that's good! But just always know on a way to a better life there can always be things that throw you back some steps, and than you think you failed or that your plan for a better life didn't work. Just remember that this is normal and you are in control, if something throws you back, acknowledge that it happened and don't blame yourself for it, you can still do it. I really wish you all the best and that things will work out from now! Just don't expect immediate change, something like this takes time. You know one of my goals is to be a well knows physicist and be remembered along the names of Einstein and Hawking, that would be great, but who knows. So we're kinda in the same boat xD. Anyways wish you also a great day too!
@@mivomaru hahahah. yeah, you are absolutely right. it isn't that you failed, it is that sometimes you aren't at a very good time. and having low points, also means you are gonna recover and have higher points on your life. btw, i also love physics! hahahajsh. i dont know that much, but i want to deeply study it because i find it super interesting, but that won't be until i already accomplished my other goals ahhahaha. good luck with your goals too! wish you the best! hahaha.
Checkpoint: I finally made it. I made my dream job a reality. But at a cost that just seems too much. No time for anything other than work. Not even for my friends or family. The pay isn’t enough to save money and worst of all is I don’t feel I’ve been making any progress in my job. I’m the loneliest I’ve ever felt at my correct job and feel like I must be the least talented person there. My glimmer of hope is to go back to IT and try to work on the hard skills needed to make a decent salary. I’ve experienced my “dream”, I feel I can let it go now. I don’t want my life to be only the job without any pay to show for it. At the very least I feel grateful I could see what it’s like to know that the most important thing is to keep myself afloat and have time for myself and loved ones. I’ll be fine. I always will be. That’s the motto that got me this far.
Checkpoint: I've finished my first semester of college, which was a waking hell until certain classes had to be dropped. Somehow pulled through, and now heading into a small summer course, then a full semester over the fall. I'm uncertain, as I've always been, about how things will turn out. But the fact I passed with all A's in the first semester gives me some hope that things'll at least be alright this year.
Perfect place for a checkpoint. Finished my biology course with a 97, including a 100% on the final. Also killing it in physics at a 98% at this point. Having nearly failed bio, and dropped physics the first time around due to horrible mental health issues, this is the vindication I was waiting for. Game Saved
Checkpoint: I'm slowly starting to improve but at the same time, I still can't make the perfect idea happen. I feel that not only that I fail at life, but I'm a failure at school.
Hey congrats on noticing yourself improve! We've all failed and fallen short of perfection many times as a part of life ;-) Keep pushing, as long as you're giving yourself leeway when you need it-- imho there's no failing life if you continue to search for things that bring you joy. Be well, friend.
Checkpoint: In the whirlwind of disorder, my existence finds clarity and a semblance of meaning. When serenity reigns, my motivation and resolve wane. Yet, I've observed that tranquility often stems from turmoil. However, this very turmoil challenges my resilience and strength. In the quietude where stoicism or detachment is required, I find myself bereft of that vital essence- my zest, my spirit. Outwardly, I may appear sorrowful, and I confess to wearines, but in truth, it feels as though my very soul has vacated its vessel.
Checkpoint: I'm about to enter year 3 of living with a neck injury that has drastically altered my life. I'm 10 pounds underweight and don't get out of the house much anymore, but im grateful for old friends and the new ones I've met playing Call of Duty. I'm most grateful for my family. Especially my Mom and Dad who have stuck by me during this terrible time. Things aren't great but I'm still alive.
Checkpoint: I am happy and whole, I found the love of my life and we have a family together after living most my life searching for happiness. The rest of my life will be beautiful.
Checkpoint: I've been tinkering about with music production for 2 decades. I always wanted to make video game music. I now make Drum & Bass tunes. Hoping to get an official release in the next year or two.
Checkpoint: 38, my life is a beautiful mess. I was diagnosed with autism 4 years ago. I've struggled with sickness for years only to find it was mice in my house... I could only be so lucky to have a solution at all.
What a year 2023 was. Lost 2 cars, and almost a third to a tree. Survived having toxic blood. Burnt bridges and gained new ones. Adopted 2 adorable cats. 2024 ain't gonna break my stride, ain't nothing gonna slow me down! Saving checkpoint... Done.
Checkpoint: I finally graduated university, after one paper held me back for about two years. It felt awful seeing so many of my friends move on without me, but I'm more ready than ever for the come what may.
Checkpoint: Tired. Can't eat right, can't sleep right, can't talk right, can't smile right, can't study right, can't be right. What a bother. The water still tastes the same.
Checkpoint: It's been a dreadful month and a half for me. Had to bid my cat farewell. I've had him since I was real young, but his health was declining for a while, and eventually his meds could only do so much. Even still… it was almost relieving knowing he wouldn't have to hurt like that anymore. I couldn't bear the thought of the night before happening again. And as if to make it even worse, not too long after, I found myself needing to say goodbye to my other cat. She was younger, too young, really. Barely 7 or 8. It ended up being the same thing that took the older one, since she was his kid, it ended up getting passed down to her. If it was even a little later, I'd have been ready for it. But losing her that soon after losing him nearly broke me. I'm better now. I managed to collect myself enough over the past two weeks to be able to type all of this out, thanks to the help of my friends, even though I didn't really tell anyone about losing my younger cat, given how raw the previous wound was, but having them there for that was good enough. Not a day goes by that I don't miss them. Not when I see the door to their old room closed. Here's hoping things look up from now on, yeah…?
Checkpoint: Artistic endeavors are finally paying off again, and as I've discovered my next fixation, that being DIY stickers, I at last feel as though I can create once more. I'm still not sure what the future is going to do to me, and it.. scares me. A lot. But even as fear consumes me, I vow to devour it in return. Overall, I'd say the road ahead is exciting and teeming with all my favorite colors.
Checkpoint: After spending most of my 20's clueless and not doing much, I finally found my motivation, "Spark," Started working out, been learning electric guitar, and recently began looking at potential job offers so I can gain proper work experience
Checkpoint: I will turn 40 this July. Life is regressing in some unfortunate ways. I am selling the house I bought a decade ago. I'll probably lose most of the equity thanks to some larger issues with the house that the inspector missed a decade ago. The issues mean I have to sell or burden myself with large repairs. I won't. So it's back to renting for me. At 40. Kinda bunk but my own fault for buying the house that I did. My job is sort of stagnant but I am not a good candidate for many jobs so I stay. I have never had a romantic relationship with any depth or longevity or reciprocation. Again, here comes 40. I'll let you know how it's going when I hit 50.
Checkpoint: Just found this gem again while looking for music to help me focus while coding my fourth game. I remember the other checkpoint video many years ago, likely while I was working on my first game. I love creating games mostly on my own, and I have been lucky enough that my 2nd game did really well and gave me financial stability. I am now making a sequel to that. Got some issues with general anxiety and worrying, and the likely related muscle tension/carpal tunnel like related to that. But besides the annoying numbness/pain associated with that, it is going pretty good. Hopefully I can improve my health while I keep working on my fourth game, and can keep being a solo indie developer for many decades.
pretty sure if you think about it more, the more it gets worse? os first timer had something or something similar and he thought about it and it got worse
Checkpoint: Two advanced degrees, working two jobs in my field, but I'm also still living at home. I have struggled with anxiety for many, many years. I'm not happy living here under my parents' scrutiny, but I also terrified of change. I am working on the strength to make the changes I need to make to live apart from them for good, but it is so hard. I've made it this far. I don't know what to do to make it the rest of the way.
Checkpoint: One full year later, I feel much more at peace with who I was, who I am, who I'm becoming. It feels like my life is beginning to encompass so much, and in truth I just wanna be calm and spend time with those I love. I'm lucky, real lucky, and I only hope things can continue to be better and better. Chains have been broken, the biggest, and boldest of those. and while it certainly isn't easy, it's getting , and that's all I can ask for.
checkpoint= My mental heath is getting better and i stopped cutting myself. Life is getting better, and i finally found a loving gf, NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE
Checkpoint: 5 years of work and uni have paid off... I got my first game developer job 2 weeks ago. I know it's not the safest workforce, but I'm finally out of those dead end jobs doing something I love. I just want to let other checkpointers know that the struggles are worth it! keep pushing & keep trying. If I can do it, I'm sure as hell you can! I believe in you! ...now for the road ahead.
Checkpoint: Fresh out of college. I got my first real job, things are going well and i believe i've made good pals at the office. I'm learning so much. College hell was worth it.
Checkpoint: After having to restart my life at least 3 or 4 times due to some of the people in my life that I have cut off, I honestly feel like I've come a long way. With the military, I am still an E-4 even since 2017. However, I am still going strong after all this time and about to finish my degree in Business Administration with a concentration in data analytics. Got an apartment, with a new vehicle because my older one died out on me so things are starting to look up once more.
Checkpoint: I love my wife. Even though skiing was scary and my feet hurt she stayed with me and supported me. I still feel blindsided by anxiety, and the fact that that anxiety stems from "silly small things that shouldn't matter" still gets to me. But, I'm getting better at moving on from that mindset and accepting that I don't have total control of my brain, letting it slide. I'm in love with everyone in my life and I'm so happy that I can bring them all joy.
Checkpoint: It's 2024, january, late at night. I had a rough last year, and this one's opened with some things that've hit me like a train already. Realizations about myself that go to my very core. In September of 2023, I turned 18. The world is a scary place, I don't know when or if I'll find my footing. I'd love to own a home, but even renting seems out of reach.
Checkpoint 1 - April 2024: It is almost my birthday soon. It has been one year since I landed in a foreign country where the culture and life felt different than in my homeland. Jet lag hits me like a truck that I ended up sleepwalking and nearly suffered from hypothermia the moment I first arrived. I managed to celebrate Christmas, New Year, Valentines, United Nations Day, and Halloween throughout time. Even so, my body and mind kept on bringing up my livelihood back home. I had to watch my back and blend in with the crowd back home to survive, even home itself is like a battlefield from the constant drama. I am not sure if I should miss that kind of 'toxic-ish' lifestyle or not, it has all I have ever grow accustomed to. In the foreign land, I feel more free. I can eat, work, study, walk, and explore without being stared at awkwardly. But I feel like I am falling the more I looked up at the big sky, I feel my body just moved on its own that I forgot I have hands and even remembering what my name was. Sure I also had that back home, but it felt stronger here the longer I stay. What is wrong with me?
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Hi Can you make a chackpoint video with the Volcano Stage from Donkey Kong 2 ?
@@regulariago6780 maybe
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Hello. Welcome to my city. Feel free to relax and converse. I'm here for you.
Checkpoint: I finally got engaged to the girl I had a crush on since I was 8. We're 36 now. We moved into a beautiful house together and the future looks bright.
Awesome! Hope you cherish her more than anything in the world ❤🔥❤🔥
nice!
Checkpoint: i finally make a real friend in school
niiiiice :)
That's awesome! The real friends are he hardest to come by :)
Checkpoint: after spending my 20s clueless as to what I wanted to do for a career I pursued my art passion and became a tattoo artist. Now at 31 I'm a full time, blossoming tattoo artist with an exciting career creating permanent body art on people.
It's surreal to say the least.
Keep following what ignites your passion. That's the way.
This is the way. I'm glad you're enjoying what you're doing, and that it works careerwise! Art is so-- so human.
Checkpoint: March 5, 2024. My daughter has turned 19 weeks old today. Fatherhood is a wild ride, and I can only hope that I can show her a good enough way to traverse this wild and crazy world.
happy 19 week birthday to her :)
idk u guys but i still wanna be kind
@@jaikenmainy thats sweet of you
Checkpoint: I always wanted to make video games... 13 years later, I've achieved nothing. I hope one day, I'll finish a game, give to people a fun and memorable experience and prove to my family and myself that I'm not a worthless dreamer.
I believe in you. ❤
You got this mate. Start small if you have to, work your way up to making the games you want to make.
A dream has worth, your self has worth. Find a way to feel proud of what you’ve already accomplished though it may be tangential of your set-out goals. And then look ahead with confidence, what ever direction you want to go. Good-luck friend
I have exactly the same ambition as you. I believe in you.
Start by the simple things, Maps, mods, skins.
You never know.
Checkpoint: Living good mostly. Dad I hope you’re proud of me
Dad would be proud. Hope you get to see him again
he might not have said it, but he is. and we are too
My dad died almost 4 years ago now and I miss him every day. Hoping that wherever they are, they are both proud of us. Keep it up man
Checkpoint: Despite everything that has happened to me, I still remain. And even though I sometimes don't want to, I will continue to do so -- if not for me, then for my friends and what remains of my family.
Reading all these checkpoints while this music plays as a backdrop is a whole experience in itself. Thanks for sharing your stories guys.
its neat to have a person with 7.7 million subscribers comment on my video lol
Checkpoint: trying to quit smoking, it's a process but I know I'll succeed!
Power to you, it's a rough one
Checkpoint: finding this rare user fills you with DETERMINATION. Im not so rare, but its hard to find me.
Hi. Im your local silly user, you might have seen me in some of the other checkpoints. This is the second one i could find during december. Wow, two in a row. What a gift.
Even tho you dont know me, i hope youre doing okay.
So goodbye, dear TRAVELER. May light follow you on your adventures .. And see you on a another checkpoint.
I see the beautiful darkness within you, and embrace the cold with warmth to create a balance between.
Checkpoint: My grandbaby is healthy and happy
Checkpoint: despite everything I've been through, all the people who have left me, I still move forward with hope, I'm going further, finally knowing myself and the world around me, I'm happy
Good to hear it. Hope is perpetuated
Checkpoint: Graduating bachelor's of engineering in a week. Pretty scared of what lies ahead in the future. I'm still struggling with depression, but i start medication again soon. I hope that I can find the passion to keep marching forward. I'll still be looking despite these low points.
Congratulations on the graduation!! I hope everything goes well for you in the future, you can do it!!
Checkpoint: this is my 3rd life, y'all. I've built up a whole life n' had it taken away and burned in an instant. 2 years later I finally get to the point that I can start to build again. I make the decision to help out what I thought was a really good friend get on his feet because I was finally flush for once only to have everything taken from me yet again by this so-called friend about a year later. On my third life I found my wife - 3 years strong - and we started to build together. Now we have a home we are paying off and a whole life built. Even when you lose everything and hit rock bottom, it's never the end. You just keep carrying on and trying your best and it WILL get better. It always does. The bad times never last forever.
Checkpoint: Finally made it. Got my own place, my own car, an easy job at a calm site, a fiance (soon to be wife), and a clear vision of who i want to be beyond "everything that california isn't". Just a matter of putting praxis to it. Let's do this!
00:04 1/11/2024
Proud of you.
Good! What is your job?
@@Skitlless security guard
@@Darkwolfsbanenice
*ahem*
the animatronics do get a bit quirky at night.
@@jaikenmainy yeah should've seen that coming from a mile away. Fortunately the company doesn't have any chuck-e-cheese like places as sites, so no worries there.
Checkpoint: I just ate a banana and enjoyed it thoroughly.
Hell yeah. I just ate a banana too.
B A N A N A
Hell yeah dude
Praise God!
hell yeah. potassium
Checkpoint: After being broke, homeless, and kicked out of my own family, I've finally been able to sleep without anxiety. I'm also graduating this week - which was only made possible by my endless toiling even if I was in Hell.
I thought it would never get better and I'd live under a bridge. Well hommies - it does.
Congratulations! I hope to get to your checkpoint some day.
congrats chief.
@@officersquareheadis that supposed to mean you’re homeless
Very proud of you, Nick!
I don't know what's your personal background between you and your family, but I hope you get free home, whether it's a small or regular house with nice property, peaceful apartment, or some random stranger will let you stay at their house, but let's hope you're doing alright since yours was posted from 6 months ago.
Checkpoint: I’m working a job I love for a company that I don’t love. I run a houseplant shop in PDX. I have a leopard gecko and a ball python I adore. I’m living with my life partner but things are tough between us. We’re both very strong willed and we’ve both been hurt a tremendous amount in the past. I know things will work out as long as we keep trying to make a safe space for the other person and their feelings/fears. I’m tired but I’m not tired of life like I used to be. I used to be addicted to coke without having a job that could pay for it. Life can get better even if you only have a slight will to to make it that way. Be prepared for hard choices and a willingness to find opportunity in the darkest of circumstances. You ALWAYS have choices, try not to forget that.
Checkpoint: March 29, 2024.
I dropped out of college lately and decided to focus on my mental health for a while. After having to move back in with my borderline abusive father I started to get a bit worse, and then a lot worse when my partner and I started having issues. But suddenly, it seemed like it reached a peak, and I realized that everything doesn't have to be going well for me to be at peace. I can be happy, even when I'm all I have. It is a choice that I make, and no outside person or circumstance can take that away from me.
I have defeated anxiety, depression, self-doubt, self-hatred, fear, and regret. You can do it, too. The power to do so isn't something you have to find--it is inside you! You have the power to make peace, and to be happy!
I believe in you, internet. Until next time.
"After having to move back in with my borderline abusive father" Call the cops...
My friend did that and now he's free.
I was getting ready to offer words of encouragement, but you turned the tables haha. I'm so happy for you, and thanks. I believe in you too o7
@@tequilasunset4651 o7
The horrors persist, but so do I
Checkpoint: sent an apology letter to my wife today. Hopefully forgiveness is found and we can get back together.
Lol
out of all the comments, yours hit the hardest
Checkpoint: Depressed and unemployed. Been in a hopeless stupor for the past four months. Wanting to get better. Putting myself out there. Working on my art. Doing what little I can to prove that I am more than the "I can't"s I've been slinging at my reflection day after day. I know my artistic dreams are achievable. I know my friends and loved ones are here for me. And I know I'm not going to fail with all of them by my side. So while my personal outlook feels somewhat hopeless, I'll gladly save my place here. If only to know that even at my lowest, I have so many people I can depend on. And for that, I feel very fortunate. Here's to finally clearing that upcoming difficulty. I knew I could do it as a kid when it came to Donkey Kong Country 2, and I'll make it so, in life.
Checkpoint: Had a rough mutually-agreed upon breakup with my gf of 3 years. While I recover, I want to rediscover who I am, as an individual, and focus on friendships instead of dating for a year. I think things will be okay, even if the road to get there is bumpy. Spring always follows winter, and something new will always grow.
checkpoint: i feel comfortable, being on summer break feels like freedom, but I wont be able to see my friends for a while... but at least we can call. Well that's all, Cya.
Checkpoint: I am almost within reach of obtaining my bachelor's degree from my university. Never thought I would be able to accomplish this feat but I am very grateful and proud of myself
Checkpoint: The air quality improved today, so I could finally go on a walk outside. Saw a deer by a cornfield on the other side of the street as I walked through my neighborhood.
Checkpoint: 3 years married. Working on saving up for my own home. In a limbo state of living of where I'm on my own but also supported by family. Career is steady pace 8 years in IT working on certs now. Life is balanced and good but definitely feel halfway there.
Checkpoint:
Fucked up a lot of relationships today. No longer friends with a lot of people.
But I'm glad. If such a small dispute could turn the people I thought I could trust the most into some of the most vicious people I've ever hd the displeasure of speaking to, then good riddance. That was not a friendship then, it was a dependency.
I'll keep trucking along and improving myself. For this is simply a checkpoint.
Saving.
Saving..
Saving...
Save complete
May the Journey lead us Starward.
Best of luck to you
left 2 friends yesterday. i left my door open; they made war
it gets better as you get older
i know the feel. it hurts because there's the fond memories. but in the long run its better.
Checkpoint: mentally checked out. Can't seem to feel anymore. And the pleasant things that had once bought me joy all of a sudden just feel like a chore and lacking in color. I hope to feel better soon
its all a phase, let flux and ossify, your stronger for it
Keep going, it gets better - and when it does, take those bits of better and hold on to them closer than ever.
Checkpoint: Sorry, I... I have nothing to say. If it depended on me, I would not be saving my game.
Checkpoint: Things are getting better. I'm cautiously optimistic.
Checkpoint: at my gf's house on my uni holidays. She means the world to me. I hope all our dreams come true, where we live together, have some dogs and a small garden where we can grow some vegetables. The uni is taking a toll on me, mentally. Last week was kinda hard, had a frightening disease that killed an old friend of mine in the past but im fully recovered. My gf and my dog gives me strenght to carry on.
Checkpoint: The road will be long and hard. An adventure awaits....
Checkpoint: Its been hard times. After losing my job and almost my sanity, i went to live with my grandma and my uncles, a peaceful house. Finally, i have people who love me around, and i can eat and sleep without worrying if i could lose my house. Things will get better, i can feel it.
10 Years later…
Checkpoint: Met the girl of my dreams, finally about to move back home. Putting in all the work so 2025 is finally my year. Be blessed, everyone.
Checkpoint : he left me, and I'm building my new life.
Checkpoint: Taking a poop. Been worse
🙏
My first ever checkpoint.
Just last week, my dad died. He was an abuser, and yet I love him dearly. I'm still trying to process things, but I came face to face with mortality and I've started to let myself grieve. I don't know where I'll be in the future, but for now, this is a checkpoint.
I'm writing this just before I go to bed. Funny how a song from a game starring a funny ape with a tie has brought all this out of me.
I hope to see you all again at the next checkpoint. I'm going to keep pushing through until I find it.
I have faith on you, good luck in everything.
If you don't mind me asking, how is everything now?
Hope you are doing better ❤
Buddy, remember you can get through anything, I hope your doing better :D
checkpoint! i fully expected to be dead by now. But after years of therapy, the right meds (if ADHD meds dont work ask about bipolar meds, cause HOLY SHIT), plenty of weed, and finding people who help me heal and grow from the burnt out husk i was into something and someone new. I am not the monster my parents and priests told me i would be. I am alive and i will create beauty and do my best to share the compassion and joy shared with me.
Things do get better. It took me years of effort and blood and tears and sweat but I did it. I did it by struggling to make it another day, and I did it by reaching out, by crying in the arms of a friend. I faced the abyss in my heart and I chose hope. Show yourself compassion. Show your friends gratitude. You can do this, youre less alone than you think.
Checkpoint: got to build a new bed frame
Look at you go! Bed frame POG
Checkpoint:
Got laid off from my job for asking to get paid above minimum wage.
damn. hope life gets better for you
That job wasn’t worth it, I hope you were able to take the experiences you’ve learned to become a better individual. Always value your worth, as others won’t.
Checkpoint: Love trumps all pain and evil.
Saw this in my recommended and knew I had to make a checkpoint. About to finish college, though it still almost feels like I just barely started. Life's confusing, but I know I'll get through it. And to anyone reading this, you'll get through it too. Just keep on going.
seeing this comment as im about to start it feels surreal
Checkpoint: I find myself reflecting a lot on my past lately. I've recently moved back to my childhood home town and remember things I've experienced that I had long since forgotten. The passage of time is difficult and I hope I can look forward to making new memories instead of being stuck in the past, though I imagine this happens to all of us eventually.
Checkpoint: My dream is to have a family with two beautiful boys. I have two boys
Something about reading all these comment, while this music plays being out a joy ive never felt before. It feels like pride, yet ive done nothing to be proud of here. It could be reflecting on myself, what I've been through. Or it could be being proud of the internet. Right now im 13, still yet to find a social media following. And i honestly couldnt care less right now. This makes me feels special, and I dont know why.
sub to @ToBeDetered
You're only thirteen. We have a trend going on right now that people are teaching you kiddos that your biggest impact to the world is when you're a teenager, and that's simply not true. Hell, even your twenties, accomplishing something there is still unique, rare.
Of course you haven't done anything to be proud of yet. You're a kid, and that's okay! The fact that you have a direction you'd like to go is a big first step. When I was your age, I had like... ten different things I wanted to do. At this age, you're still forming who you are as a person. You're still gathering information and viewpoints and personalities from others, and calculating them in your brain to find the best, most efficient way to take what you like most of all those, and integrate them into who you are.
And that's okay! That's how humans work.
Did you know the human brain doesn't actually stop growing until around the age of 26-27? You still have over a decade of brain growth to do!
So the next time you worry about where you are right now, go look up the ages of authors you enjoy to read the literature of, and content creators who inspire you, and see what ages they were when they started to get famous. Learn from the stories of their struggles and failures, and know that it's very hard to break into a popular state on social media--even harder when you're so young. Take these years while you have them to find you, and you'll be okay.
@@nachgeben i shouted them out and got them to 11 subs :) every bit of growth counts when you’re starting out
Want an advice from a 37 yo man? Leave social media out of your life. Stop being in front of your mobile phone all day long and trying to make followers. Listen to music, read books, watch movies, play video games, go out and play whatever sport you enjoy, paint, learn a musical instrument, learn a foreign language. Don't burn your mind with social media, instead be creative and study to become a better student. Trust me, all these will pay off in the future and you will feel a much more complete person.
@@ruicosta1037 no I mean on yt. Everything else is fine if it doesn't pop off.
Checkpoint: I've stumbled across internet checkpoints in the past, but I never stopped to make my mark.
I've had my fair share of ups and downs in life at the age of 25 I am in a better position than I could have ever hoped to be in 5 years ago. I have good friends, a loving girlfriend, supportive family, and a future that I can work towards. I am overall happy.
When I was a teenager I would write small passages or poems, and once I got out of high-school I found it hard to maintain that part of my life. I don't know if it was just my fear of creating something that I hated or my perfectionism preventing me from trying, but after all this time I am finally back to writing in my spare time. I hope I actually finish the book this time. I think that will be my goal for 2024.
I hope everyone that passes by this checkpoint accomplishes whatever they set out to do.
Good luck.
I hope you get succeded on your book project, this would ever feel like an accomplishment when you start doing self-analysis and emotional Intelligence.
Checkpoint: I really need to find a job that pays a living wage. I really need to gtfo out my mom's house and find an apartment whose rent isn't an arm, a leg, a first born, and a pint of virgin's blood.
Checkpoint update: I have a job! :D
@@officersquarehead make sure to thank your mom before you head out
Checkpoint: It's 2024 and yet things are still feeling depressing.
it doesn't get better :)
lol noob
*sigh* i see you've entered life
checkpoint: i've gotten a boyfriend
Checkpoint: april 18, 2024. This is it, the path to my true self is upon me, its my choice to take it or not, i must push forward no matter what
Checkpoint: just bought a house with my brother, and I feel so worried about the future expenses. We did it to give my mom and little sister a home and a home for us as well. But things aren’t looking too positive right now. My mom is breaking away, and it feels like losing a loved one. I hope I can still help support her in anyway I can. Little sister isn’t thrilled about leaving current city we live in. This home purchase is starting to feel like a mistake, but hopefully all turns out well in the end. I just want to provide for my family because I love them. We’ll see how things turn out in the future. I want healthy lives for all my loved ones, and I have faith that everything will work out in the end!
I thought I never would, but finally I'll be getting married to the love of my life in two months and a half
nice :)
Checkpoint: I got a job on the other side of the world and will be moving there at the end of this month. I'm excited and scared for the future. For the first time in over a decade, I believe things are going to be alright.
Checkpoint: Quit a job that was ruining my relationships and actively making me depressed and anxious. Gonna take a week to reset myself, then get back to the grind. Never underestimate burn out folks, and please, take good care of yourself out there. No matter what company you work for-- your time is yours, and yours alone.
Checkpoint: I want to be a true competitor -- renowned and taken seriously.
Checkpoint: I found a friend across the world who accepts me for who I am. It's been over two years and he's like a big brother to me.
Checkpoint: trying to forgive others, myself and to not be afraid anymore
Checkpoint: I now stand, recalling how the last several years unfolded. What is and was a simple life must at some point change in order to survive. I've tried many things, all of which wound up in failure for one reason or another. Many of the people that which I surrounded myself with have gone their separate ways. All I have left are the memories I have of those people, with only a handful of them left within reach. What lies in wait for me, I wonder. Only thing I can do is live day by day, and make moves that may reveal a stable path towards some sort of future.
Checkpoint: Survived another winter. Summer is here. Life may go on as usual.
Checkpoint:
Can't sleep lately. Averaging 4 hours a night all month, this isn't sustainable at all. Grouchy and stressed, tired all the time but can't sleep. Maybe I'll see a doctor one of these days.
Checkpoint: Life's been decent, just hoping that this year's as good as the last one.
Checkpoint: I have undiagnosed ticking, lost a girl I loved, not sure who are my friends, not interested in much anymore, I have become the mediator in attempts to help my architect self, I feel lonely by my logical brain, and I hate feelings but I realize they are essential to human existence, think I talked to God and Satan, been banned from newsletter and have changed a school system, may have to provide for my family soon, fighting temptation to consider the easy way out, in all my days, I'm still okay! Bless everyone, there is joy and peace in pain.
Checkpoint: Yesterday I understanded at 100% the full meaning of my life. I adopted a philosophy on how living it and making any type of decisions.
Also, this year i felt it as the best of all of them, being the past one the worst. But you know what's actually the good thing? It's that this year isnt going to be even on my top 5 best years. but, i may be wrong because only one thing... i think im underestamating the importance of this year on my life.
My different goals in my life are right now:
1- Write a book (im probably writing more than 1)
2- Raise up a child at the best way possible
3- I want to be recognized by the most people possible, and be remembered by people in general as a person that did something that definitely stood up amongst other people. I want to reach this with making music, my passion. If you want to put it in other words, i want to be the next musician/composer of the well remembered ones (mozart, liszt, chopin, bach, debussy, etc.).
4- Living my life with someone who is willing to live and die with me aside from anyone on my family. Im 72% sure that i already found that person. But only time will tell.
5- Living my life at the best way possible.
PD: Im 15 years old and i already promised myself that i won't be ever changing any of this. If im not capable of doing all of these 5 goals, i would say i failed on life. But thats not going to happen ever. Be sure of that.
I hope you all have a great day! Thanks for reading!
You remind me of myself ^^
At 15 I had one of my worst lows in life, really wanted to change something. Watched a lot of those self-improvement videos to change myself and not continue to be miserable, because i blamed a lot of what went wrong on myself. I think i was in a really bad headspace, which im luckily not in anymore. Now at 17 not much time has passed but i can enjoy life more than before and I'm still working on becoming the one who i want to be.
And I hope you will too, i feel that you are determined and can feel that you found motivation and that's good! But just always know on a way to a better life there can always be things that throw you back some steps, and than you think you failed or that your plan for a better life didn't work. Just remember that this is normal and you are in control, if something throws you back, acknowledge that it happened and don't blame yourself for it, you can still do it.
I really wish you all the best and that things will work out from now! Just don't expect immediate change, something like this takes time. You know one of my goals is to be a well knows physicist and be remembered along the names of Einstein and Hawking, that would be great, but who knows. So we're kinda in the same boat xD.
Anyways wish you also a great day too!
i hope you achieve all your goals mate
@@jaikenmainy same to you my guy! haha.
@@mivomaru hahahah. yeah, you are absolutely right. it isn't that you failed, it is that sometimes you aren't at a very good time. and having low points, also means you are gonna recover and have higher points on your life.
btw, i also love physics! hahahajsh. i dont know that much, but i want to deeply study it because i find it super interesting, but that won't be until i already accomplished my other goals ahhahaha.
good luck with your goals too! wish you the best! hahaha.
Hope you will accomplish this goal unlike me I want to be something that something is something that I don’t know so I must figure it out
Checkpoint: Got the two best boys Cosmo and Cheddar right by my side. Just the two best sons anyone could ask for.
Checkpoint: I finally made it. I made my dream job a reality. But at a cost that just seems too much.
No time for anything other than work. Not even for my friends or family. The pay isn’t enough to save money and worst of all is I don’t feel I’ve been making any progress in my job. I’m the loneliest I’ve ever felt at my correct job and feel like I must be the least talented person there.
My glimmer of hope is to go back to IT and try to work on the hard skills needed to make a decent salary. I’ve experienced my “dream”, I feel I can let it go now. I don’t want my life to be only the job without any pay to show for it. At the very least I feel grateful I could see what it’s like to know that the most important thing is to keep myself afloat and have time for myself and loved ones.
I’ll be fine. I always will be. That’s the motto that got me this far.
Checkpoint: Snes DK still awesome, I'm in peace with me.
Checkpoint: I've finished my first semester of college, which was a waking hell until certain classes had to be dropped. Somehow pulled through, and now heading into a small summer course, then a full semester over the fall. I'm uncertain, as I've always been, about how things will turn out. But the fact I passed with all A's in the first semester gives me some hope that things'll at least be alright this year.
Perfect place for a checkpoint. Finished my biology course with a 97, including a 100% on the final. Also killing it in physics at a 98% at this point. Having nearly failed bio, and dropped physics the first time around due to horrible mental health issues, this is the vindication I was waiting for.
Game Saved
Checkpoint:
I'm slowly starting to improve but at the same time, I still can't make the perfect idea happen. I feel that not only that I fail at life, but I'm a failure at school.
Hey congrats on noticing yourself improve! We've all failed and fallen short of perfection many times as a part of life ;-) Keep pushing, as long as you're giving yourself leeway when you need it-- imho there's no failing life if you continue to search for things that bring you joy. Be well, friend.
Checkpoint: In the whirlwind of disorder, my existence finds clarity and a semblance of meaning. When serenity reigns, my motivation and resolve wane. Yet, I've observed that tranquility often stems from turmoil. However, this very turmoil challenges my resilience and strength. In the quietude where stoicism or detachment is required, I find myself bereft of that vital essence- my zest, my spirit. Outwardly, I may appear sorrowful, and I confess to wearines, but in truth, it feels as though my very soul has vacated its vessel.
Checkpoint: I'm about to enter year 3 of living with a neck injury that has drastically altered my life. I'm 10 pounds underweight and don't get out of the house much anymore, but im grateful for old friends and the new ones I've met playing Call of Duty. I'm most grateful for my family. Especially my Mom and Dad who have stuck by me during this terrible time.
Things aren't great but I'm still alive.
Checkpoint: I am happy and whole, I found the love of my life and we have a family together after living most my life searching for happiness.
The rest of my life will be beautiful.
Checkpoint: I've been tinkering about with music production for 2 decades. I always wanted to make video game music.
I now make Drum & Bass tunes. Hoping to get an official release in the next year or two.
Checkpoint: 38, my life is a beautiful mess. I was diagnosed with autism 4 years ago. I've struggled with sickness for years only to find it was mice in my house... I could only be so lucky to have a solution at all.
Checkpoint: ascending
Checkpoint: Finally cut ties with a person that had parasited my life for years. I'm happy, and hopeful for the first time in almost 10 years.
What a year 2023 was. Lost 2 cars, and almost a third to a tree. Survived having toxic blood. Burnt bridges and gained new ones. Adopted 2 adorable cats.
2024 ain't gonna break my stride, ain't nothing gonna slow me down!
Saving checkpoint...
Done.
Checkpoint: I finally graduated university, after one paper held me back for about two years. It felt awful seeing so many of my friends move on without me, but I'm more ready than ever for the come what may.
Checkpoint: Tired. Can't eat right, can't sleep right, can't talk right, can't smile right, can't study right, can't be right. What a bother. The water still tastes the same.
what happened to u?? :(
I'm slipping a little each day and want to find an excuse to go outside. I'm not ready
Checkpoint: It's been a dreadful month and a half for me. Had to bid my cat farewell. I've had him since I was real young, but his health was declining for a while, and eventually his meds could only do so much. Even still… it was almost relieving knowing he wouldn't have to hurt like that anymore. I couldn't bear the thought of the night before happening again.
And as if to make it even worse, not too long after, I found myself needing to say goodbye to my other cat. She was younger, too young, really. Barely 7 or 8. It ended up being the same thing that took the older one, since she was his kid, it ended up getting passed down to her. If it was even a little later, I'd have been ready for it. But losing her that soon after losing him nearly broke me.
I'm better now. I managed to collect myself enough over the past two weeks to be able to type all of this out, thanks to the help of my friends, even though I didn't really tell anyone about losing my younger cat, given how raw the previous wound was, but having them there for that was good enough.
Not a day goes by that I don't miss them. Not when I see the door to their old room closed. Here's hoping things look up from now on, yeah…?
Checkpoint: Artistic endeavors are finally paying off again, and as I've discovered my next fixation, that being DIY stickers, I at last feel as though I can create once more. I'm still not sure what the future is going to do to me, and it.. scares me. A lot. But even as fear consumes me, I vow to devour it in return.
Overall, I'd say the road ahead is exciting and teeming with all my favorite colors.
Checkpoint: 20 years huh... Felt like yesterday but still looking very much forward to what future will bring.
Checkpoint: After spending most of my 20's clueless and not doing much, I finally found my motivation, "Spark,"
Started working out, been learning electric guitar, and recently began looking at potential job offers so I can gain proper work experience
Checkpoint: I will turn 40 this July. Life is regressing in some unfortunate ways. I am selling the house I bought a decade ago. I'll probably lose most of the equity thanks to some larger issues with the house that the inspector missed a decade ago. The issues mean I have to sell or burden myself with large repairs. I won't. So it's back to renting for me. At 40. Kinda bunk but my own fault for buying the house that I did. My job is sort of stagnant but I am not a good candidate for many jobs so I stay. I have never had a romantic relationship with any depth or longevity or reciprocation. Again, here comes 40.
I'll let you know how it's going when I hit 50.
Checkpoint: I think I found a method of being that suits me and is going to do wonders. We will see :fingers-crossed:
Checkpoint: Just found this gem again while looking for music to help me focus while coding my fourth game. I remember the other checkpoint video many years ago, likely while I was working on my first game. I love creating games mostly on my own, and I have been lucky enough that my 2nd game did really well and gave me financial stability. I am now making a sequel to that.
Got some issues with general anxiety and worrying, and the likely related muscle tension/carpal tunnel like related to that. But besides the annoying numbness/pain associated with that, it is going pretty good. Hopefully I can improve my health while I keep working on my fourth game, and can keep being a solo indie developer for many decades.
I hope you manage well with your health! What are your games called, if you don't mind me asking?
@@oswald5086 Thank you, the 2nd game I made is called Mage and Monsters.
pretty sure if you think about it more, the more it gets worse? os first timer had something or something similar and he thought about it and it got worse
Checkpoint: Two advanced degrees, working two jobs in my field, but I'm also still living at home. I have struggled with anxiety for many, many years. I'm not happy living here under my parents' scrutiny, but I also terrified of change. I am working on the strength to make the changes I need to make to live apart from them for good, but it is so hard. I've made it this far. I don't know what to do to make it the rest of the way.
Checkpoint: One full year later, I feel much more at peace with who I was, who I am, who I'm becoming. It feels like my life is beginning to encompass so much, and in truth I just wanna be calm and spend time with those I love. I'm lucky, real lucky, and I only hope things can continue to be better and better. Chains have been broken, the biggest, and boldest of those. and while it certainly isn't easy, it's getting , and that's all I can ask for.
Checkpoint: Startet working on the new highspeed train for Deutsche Bahn. My 10 year old self would cheer.
checkpoint= My mental heath is getting better and i stopped cutting myself. Life is getting better, and i finally found a loving gf, NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE
Checkpoint: 5 years of work and uni have paid off... I got my first game developer job 2 weeks ago. I know it's not the safest workforce, but I'm finally out of those dead end jobs doing something I love. I just want to let other checkpointers know that the struggles are worth it! keep pushing & keep trying. If I can do it, I'm sure as hell you can! I believe in you! ...now for the road ahead.
Checkpoint: Fresh out of college. I got my first real job, things are going well and i believe i've made good pals at the office. I'm learning so much. College hell was worth it.
Checkpoint: After having to restart my life at least 3 or 4 times due to some of the people in my life that I have cut off, I honestly feel like I've come a long way. With the military, I am still an E-4 even since 2017. However, I am still going strong after all this time and about to finish my degree in Business Administration with a concentration in data analytics. Got an apartment, with a new vehicle because my older one died out on me so things are starting to look up once more.
Checkpoint: I love my wife. Even though skiing was scary and my feet hurt she stayed with me and supported me. I still feel blindsided by anxiety, and the fact that that anxiety stems from "silly small things that shouldn't matter" still gets to me. But, I'm getting better at moving on from that mindset and accepting that I don't have total control of my brain, letting it slide.
I'm in love with everyone in my life and I'm so happy that I can bring them all joy.
Checkpoint: It's 2024, january, late at night. I had a rough last year, and this one's opened with some things that've hit me like a train already. Realizations about myself that go to my very core.
In September of 2023, I turned 18. The world is a scary place, I don't know when or if I'll find my footing. I'd love to own a home, but even renting seems out of reach.
Checkpoint 1 - April 2024:
It is almost my birthday soon. It has been one year since I landed in a foreign country where the culture and life felt different than in my homeland. Jet lag hits me like a truck that I ended up sleepwalking and nearly suffered from hypothermia the moment I first arrived.
I managed to celebrate Christmas, New Year, Valentines, United Nations Day, and Halloween throughout time. Even so, my body and mind kept on bringing up my livelihood back home. I had to watch my back and blend in with the crowd back home to survive, even home itself is like a battlefield from the constant drama. I am not sure if I should miss that kind of 'toxic-ish' lifestyle or not, it has all I have ever grow accustomed to.
In the foreign land, I feel more free. I can eat, work, study, walk, and explore without being stared at awkwardly. But I feel like I am falling the more I looked up at the big sky, I feel my body just moved on its own that I forgot I have hands and even remembering what my name was. Sure I also had that back home, but it felt stronger here the longer I stay.
What is wrong with me?