4/7/2024 Two years clean. Three years since I last contemplated ending my life. One year since getting flown out to an award show for a game I worked on. Working on the next one now. Reconnected with my Mom and nearly all my friends in the last several years. Money's tight, and I'm more disabled than ever. But I'm happy, working on things that matter, have good people, the best dog, and enough to eat. Things only get better if you stick around. Good luck.
happy for you. Jesus is also glad you chose not to. He loves you a lot and wants to help you go forward better and stronger. Hope you choose to allow Him in to become a more amazing you. ✝🙂
14/03/2024 Been nearly two weeks since the passing of the legendary Toriyama Akira. A man who imprinted the fondest of memories in the minds of children across the globe and across generations. His influence is immeasurable and his passing is a great loss, but his legacy remains. Rest in peace Akira, we sorely miss you.
12/16/23 My fiancee and love of six years broke it off with me. She had been in love with someone else for most of the time and withheld the truth from me. She cheated on me, and wouldn't admit it until I demanded the truth. She tried convincing me that it was all my fault just because we were to stubborn to always admit the other person could be right. We did so many things together, I couldn't write them down in a single day. For me, it's been a long day since, and it was over a week ago. The hardest part is not the cheating, but her quickly moving on like the past several years didn't matter. I'm going back to school. I've got a good job going on, and I'm staying in that field. I don't know where the future will take me, but I know it'll be with her far away in both time and space. I'll remember the good times as a reminder that I knew what happiness could feel like, and I will take the bad times as something to learn from. I'll take every day to make sure I'm a better and better person, into someone that refused to be broken by this. Love and Laughter, Always.
I will always support you, friend. This is also a test for us to face situations like this as humans. And as humans, we have the "try again" trait within us and move on. Maybe it won't be easy to do something new, but if we struggle without looking at the time, we won't realize that we have actually exceeded our expectations. Be brave my brother. And someday you Will get the better woman who always loyal with you in action and in her heart.
Honestly it sounds like it’s a good thing your probably glad she broke it off, instead of you having to withholding information is just cruel if your married sigh.
I'll always remember when this song first hit; it was otherworldly. Melchior talking about the Masamune was just the tip of the iceberg shortly before walking off the teleporter and seeing the floating map for the first time. Yep. This theme is still one of the all-time greats.
then i said enjoy your gameplay my friend, back in those times i was playing donkey kong country and super mario all starts so much that i will definitley play it again for that nostalgia gaming of the gaming golden age. i wish to have played super metroid and this one but did not notice them in the 94 and i jump right away to the N64 at the 96 with super mario 64.
27th of April 2024 I have engineering school exams in a week. It has been two years that I am preparing those. I put aside a lot of aspects in my life, be it sports, be it parties, be it sleep...But I managed to find my way in these exhasuting studies (the hardest you can do in France where I live) I've convinced myself that next year would be freedom for me so that I can continue working. This message is a prayer. A prayer for myself. I pray that wherever I will be in the future, I remember to be grateful of life, to be kind, to do meaningful things. This message encapsulates my hopes towards the future : I hope that nature will survive, that humanity will find her true humanity, that this vertiginous human history won't end because of our greed nor because of any wars. I feel lost sometimes, in this overwhelming infinity of simulations the society gives us. I feel more and more chocked in those concrete cities. I hope to find hapiness with a person I love, in a place I love, doing things I love. This message is for my future me, for you to see who I was at the most crucial time of our life. Peace
3/8/2024 My Mom died today. About an hour after midnight. Half a world away, we, my country and it's allies, are over 150 days into the most recent phase of an over century's long campaign of the worst of crimes. A Twentieth Century War in the Twenty-First Century. And though I've shed my share of tears for the tens of thousands that have passed in the last few months.. This morning, my tears are for my sisters, our children, for we'll never see my Mom again, not even as fragile as she was in the last few months.. Terribly troubled as our relationship was; for the myriad reasons, I forgive and still love her. Also, she outlived Kissinger and Rothschild. May her Mind and Soul, at last, find peace in the hereafter.. Ameen
May 19, 2024 My first weekend at my new job is coming to an end. Feel kinda wanting more and super depressed about everything. Lotta jealousy to someone else and feelings of impending abandonment from friends. Will survive though. I miss my family.
december 14 2023 i am 89 days sober i am back to making video games i feel the weight of regret and self hate but i am getting help and i will learn to love myself again thanks
That's awesome! I hope you are still sober and in a good state of mind. It's really hard to put down the bottle and enjoy life in a different way. Look out with bars and other social gatherings. Don't go the them to fast without knowing how to enjoy yourself in situations where people are intoxicated but you need to stay sober.
Not sure why there's so many motivation stories with this but it's encouraging. In the last year Jesus has really helped me get through some dark stuff and throw out or shed off stuff I didn't need in my life and a sin that needed fully removed after some months of self rehab and finding the right shepherds to get deliverance from it. God is good and hasn't left my side as a life coach and Dad through it all. With Him and some brutal self inspection and surrender it's been worth it.
I do not know this song. It simply showed up in my recommended videos today. The description baffles me, but apparently, this is part of the Chrono Trigger soundtrack? Some of the comments seem to suggest that. A lot of the other comments read like journal entries, and I feel like I've stumbled upon a scrapbook made by gluing together pages from different people's diaries. Reading them changes the entire listening experience. ... I really like this video.
dec 16 2023 in 48 minutes i'll be leaving work my first vacation in years. this year i was able to rent my first apartment, improve my career as an esl coordinator and i'll fly for the first time in my life (i'm 34) i hope all of you have a wonderful holiday season
Monday May 20th 2024 12:28(pm): Just had a smooth shave a a nice haircut, my wife's business is taking off and I'm excited and happy, despite losing everything that used to be important. It's all getting different, and I pray, as always, for strength and wisdom.
May 16, 2024 Keeping at it through covid and college paid off, I'm in a much better place now than I was in 2020, and I feel like I've came so far from before. I am 6 months post-op from getting a plate and 6 screws removed from my ankle. I feel so much better mentally and physically getting all the hardware out of my leg. Recovery went well and I'm back to doing everything I love. Soccer, Inline skating, paddleboarding, swimming, waterskiing etc. This Saturday I'm playing D&D with friends, we have a very difficult boss fight next session that's central to my character. The next day I'm leaving on a trip to be by the Atlantic ocean for a week. My job has also been going great, I'm 2 months off from 2 years at the company, my first real job out of college. Later this year I plan to move out of my parents house and live on my own.
4/10/2024 I turned 30 a few months ago. I've lost 22 pounds since January and am in the best shape of my life. I just moved into a nice apartment by myself after living insanely frugally for the past 5 years. I have a good job finally. I have constructive hobbies. I am... happy...
4/15/23 I found purpose in a project I'm working on. It will let me drop out of college if I want and not have to worry about money for a long time. I'm excited, and although its super hard to make hardware and I have to learn as I go its very fulfilling to work towards a goal that you believe it. I would recommend it for anyone struggling to be happy or enjoy life. Even if for you that goal isn't profitable, I think humans need a higher purpose, and that higher purpose isn't inherently present in this day and age anymore. Go out and try your hardest to do things :) its fun!
December 14th, 2023. I will start college in just a few months. Moving it to the city really excites me. The idea of leaving my town behind and getting to more possibilities and to meet new people really excitess me. Life has never been better, really! Came out of the closet, changed my gender, got into the hobby i always wanted and got accepted at my uni! I do wonder where life will bring me, but only time will tell. I'm really excited for everything. EDIT: When was the last time i did one of these checkpoints? Like two years ago? I'm happy where the algorithm got me.
December 20th 2023 I still look back on the years I spent planning my great escape from a miserable corrupt job in new york. I used to fantasize, wish and pray that things would get better for me. Now, 3 years after I fled mystery babylon -I am at peace in a new country, new car, comfortable job, and I have a new loving girlfriend. I got everything I wished for, but it cost me everyone I knew back home. I got my new life, it's everything I wanted yet I carry with me a unshakable sadness for the people I left behind. You can't have everything, there is always a cost, and you never know what you have until it's gone... Gone.
5/29/2024 I'm having to evict my mom in two days. I'm struggling with work, and I feel like I'm losing my mind a little. Two weeks since my brother's second battle with mental illness nearly cost him his life. I'm surrounded by a mountain of medical debt and I feel like crying most days. But under the struggle, I feel... almost happy. I've lost 110 pounds since a year and a half ago, I'm working on myself in new ways, trying to find ways to not just better myself but also improve how I live, and maybe I might be able to lease my house to renters. Who knows, man. Maybe in a couple years I'll be totally free from my shackles. I can only hope. I can only pray that I have the ability to pursue that dream I hold in zeal. Dreams can become reality. I gotta hold onto that.
05.08.24 It still feels surreal that I'm approaching 40 with a mortgage in my name and a decent, secure job. I have come so far. Only one year into my transition, but I already feel like the girl in me can finally breathe and be herself. I am still struggling with finding a solution to my ADHD and chronic pain is a constant companion. It's getting difficult to remind myself that hardships are temporary. My family doesn't understand my struggles, but at least my mom is still supportive. With the bad comes good, however. I'm happier with myself than I've been in years, I can finally look at myself in the mirror without hating everything I see. I have a super supportive partner and a gigantic derp of a cat, and I love them both dearly. Gods. If only 12 year old Tobi could see herself as she is now... Love and Light, y'all. ~GAME SAVED~
3/29/24 I feel like my heart's been crushed. The woman who matters more to me than anything else in the world, who I've been hopelessly in love with for two and a half years, who's been my one bright spot in the darkness, has someone else.
Con 14 años lo jugué por primera vez en mi snes (aún conservo el cartucho), y a día de hoy sigue siendo mi jrpg favorito empatado con Genso Suikoden 2. Toda la ost de CT es buenísima pero este tema en concreto es una auténtica delicia, una buena inmersión en el ambiente no se consigue así como así, pero este track lo borda hasta la perfección.
4/4/24 My 18th birthday is coming up soon, and I recently had a talk with my mother that I had been putting off for some time now. I had found it so difficult to truly express my emotions without worrying her but ultimately that was all I was doing. After finally saying what needed to be said, I feel much better, and along with that, there have been some other new involvements in my life. I recently introduced myself to a type of person I'd never expect to meet, and while they seem to have made mistakes in their past, I'm willing to put those aside and take them for who they are now. It's a difficult journey that I can see further complications of, but I believe I'll be able to handle it. thanks for reading
This...seems like a good place to post this with being pretty much anonymous. May 24, 2024. 2am Many things have occupied my mind as of late. About the future, about the present, and about my own past. Choices i wish i could change. Grappling with a job that doesnt appreciate its workers at all and runs it short-handed in our department most times...or has my own shift pulled every which shift to cover. Worrying about my future, whether I will get to be the girl I know myself to be inside or forever trapped behind the 'mask' im forced to wear in public. The future uncertain, the present an ever-encompassing problem, and a past that I wish I hadnt been so scared to be open about myself to folks that mattered to me... And now I just...reflect. Reflect on what to do, while trying to calm my mind from the whirlwind of life and my own thoughts. I am ever thankful for those that I care about that have let me be a part of their lives. Just as I try to help them, so too do they help me. I wish I could do more for them for all they have done for me...but I can only do so much with what I have. I struggle with getting back into doing creative stuff...writing, art, potentially even voicing comics...its all so daunting now. As if the small ember inside is afraid to blossom into a roaring fire due to the past... Afraid it will be snuffed out by the possible winds of the future. I will continue to keep trying...after all, even if its daunting at times, I have people that support me and want to see me be happy. May I continue to try and be a light in a world that has enough darkness from stuff outside our control...and to never give up on myself again. •Game Saved•
March 18th 2024 Here from Spain, tomorrow i gotta go to uni, but here i am at 4:15a.m. reading about others people's life instead of trying to do something with mine. I should start looking for myself instead of whatever the fuck I'm doing, but you know, it's difficult. I sometimes feel like I'm getting lost or staying behind in life, like everything always comes late for me or doesn't even come. This is a hella weird place to talk about this shit, but yeah I'm glad I'm managing to at least write it.
I can't say much about your position, but good luck. Eventually something will come. at the right time. Today may not be easy, but tomorrow might be a little bit easier. And if it doesn't, then, uhh... you can slap me for it
@@manuelhernandez9063 gracias amigo, están siendo momentos duros para mí pero me alegra que existan lugares como este video para poder abrirme y que personas como tú o yo tratemos de ayudarnos, un abrazo 🫂
4/8/24 My life has been caught in an interstace for almost a month now. I'm 25 this year, and I had my baby boy just a couple months ago now. Everything has changed since then. The delivery process was hellish on my fiance, but I'll never forget those moments we spent together. He had to go to an NICU an hour and a half away from our hometown and hospital, and we stayed their the whole time until he was released and ready. Even though the circumstances really sucked being there, me and her still made the best of our time there. After we arrived a hellish snow storm hit us and we got snowed in. It seemed as though nature wanted us to stay there, or something like that. Having a child can be rough, and it definitely was rough at first, but we both managed and improved over time. We brought out the best of us when times were at their lowest, and they definitely reached their lowest when she decided she wanted to take a break with me a month ago today. It shook my whole world up, completely turned everything upside down. I was so confused, and she lead me to believe that it wasn't a permanent thing that we just needed space. I'm not going to air out all of the dirty laundry but she slept with an ex of hers that very night. First time I've ever been cheated on. Technically it's not since we were on a break but I was lead to believe that things would be okay. Things have been crazy since then, so much has happened it's hard to process and comprehend everything. Even though I feel like I was wronged very deeply, I'm still trying to make things work between us. I'm not just thinking about what I want but what I also want for my kid, and this is the first time she's hurt me in our relationship like this, so I decided to forgive her. Some of my friends call me stupid for trying, they say it's useless, that I deserve better. They don't know about all the times we shared, all the positive effects and outcomes we gave each other. I know what we shared to me is worth fighting for, even if it's in vain. I'd rather try my hardest than just give up on the one person I've fallen so deeply in love with. I couldn't let it go, I didn't want to. I just hope I'm making the right decision. I've always been afraid of being alone and sometimes I feel like I'm better off learning how to be alone instead of relying on the comfort of others to keep my mental stability steady. I've only dug myself deeper into this cavity, maybe I'll eventually strike gold
That's utterly horrible of her. To cheat on somebody after bearing their child. That's just cold. Let your spirit be strong and I pray that all of our souls will find peace in life and in death.
7/4/2024 My life seems to be at a crossroads, I don't exactly know where I'm heading but I don't feel much weight on me either. I'm not sure if that's a sign of something bad I won't see coming or I will end up fine. I hope I know when I come back to this. And if I don't, I hope I can drive.
4/13/24 Freaking out about the busiest month of uni right now.. The list of crap seems to go on, so much so that my brain can't bother to process it. The only I can do is prepare for the worst. The pressure is mounting while I feel like I could crumble at any given moment. But I have to remember that I can do it and that my only enemy is myself right now. The music, the friends, and my family keep me happy though. I couldn't ask God for more because He blessed me with a lot. I hope that whoever reads this that you recognized that you're blessed too.. and if not, I hope and pray you are blessed with freedom someday
4/29/24 I've isolated myself from friends, even my best friend. The heartbreak I've been experiencing from the breakup has crushed my will to live that I'm just surviving out on this world to see how this goes. I'm just alone, feeling like i dont deserve this kind of relationship, and feeling like my friends would be better off without me... Even tho i dont want to be alone, its what i deserve. I deserve to be in the void, I deserve my future to be dark and shapeless... Just saying, but when i looked at myself in the mirror, all I wanted to do is to beat the crap out of me until I'm satisfied... But i know that it's only me... But what i thought I'll look like is just a shadow, a shapeless entity, just nothing more than a formless enigma. My world is now dark, dark thoughts keeps getting worse, and so on.... I dont deserve anything positive, i dont deserve anything. Just basically playing Fortnite until... Well, something happened... Im sorry for letting my friends and family down... I just deserved it... Only God can tell when its my time to go... God, I'll be waiting.
Select: NEW GAME. Continue. < December 14th 2023: The year is almost over, this by far... Has been my longest yet hardest one. If I were to put it in other words, I guess my game passed from Normal to hard difficulty, but that has never stop me before, I have been able to try new things, new games, I still have to work on my procastination, but I know I can do it, me and my wife have had it rough due to loans, nothing that a bit more of elbow grease cannot fix, I am looking forward to get our loan to be finished, so that way I can help my wife with her Trans medical needs to start transitioning, Also I will get to see my mother after 2 years, I just hope things between her and me are better now when I see her. I will keep fighting, grinding and standing. Save game? Yes. < No. Keep playing? Yes. < No.
I've been looking for this video for so long, all the others just werent the same. I'm so happy it was reupload and I hope everyone continues to use it as a safe space. To come when you need to just spill everything out and let it all go for a while.
16 February 2024 This is 2 months since I left my job and became unemployed. I now live at my parents' house. I help with housework and my father's small business. The reason I left my job was that at my previous workplace I felt humiliated by my own subordinate until he dared to kill me. At work, I am a person who obeys orders and follows the rules. I have the principle of not wanting to disappoint everyone and I have to be a good role model for everyone. Because of this attitude of my subordinates and it has spread to my other subordinates. I decided to resign from my workplace.I feel unfit to hold my job position again if things continue like this. Now I want to start a new path. My principles still remain and I also continue to upgrade my abilities so that something like that doesn't happen again.
5/27/2024 Just a few days before the end of my second year in uni. Still have a ton of academical debt bc i was depressed for a whole semester and couldn`t bring myself to go there. Still feel this depressing feeling in my chest, but I try to do at least something to not succumb to it. You shouldn`t succumb to it too. Fight it and you will come on top. Good luck, my friend.
4/20/2024 I didn’t end my life today, though a few days ago I came very close. I ended up getting drunk instead and tried to apply to a few jobs in my area. Job searching is tough when it feels like it’s just not worth it anymore with the way the world is currently. I’ll try to remain positive despite this feeling of hopelessness deep inside.
04/19/2024 im slowly beginning to workout again. its been extremely rough these last few years. now however i feel as though i am back on track. i plan to join my countries military next year as i get myself back in shape, and get my money up. for now though, ill be taking the compTIA A+ exam in the next week. after that its on to security+, then the real job hunt begins.
December 13th, 2023. I went to visit a technical college for electrician work. It was... really nice :) The staff there were kind to a degree unimaginable. I'm not normally one to care too much for the "normal person" brand of socialization, but something about that environment made me excited even for that. I won't be there long, and I almost lament that. They had a really nice and cozy, small campus. The work seemed really fun to do as well!! I think the field could possibly be a good fit for me... I hope so, but regardless... as time marches on, so must I.
5/29/2024 Seems I've found another checkpoint, interesting that I've been thinking about relocating the Bramblebush Symphony one. This one's another banger of a track too. I've just completed a big step in life for me, I've begun renting an apartment solo, not typically an easy feat in the current economy but I got lucky and found a decent place for cheap. Now I feel like I'm on the verge of another step, but I can't tell where it'll take me. I need to grow and learn more skills so I can move up in life, but my current job might not let me do that. If my job does let me grow, I can stay where I am. If not, I need to go elsewhere. I just hope whatever happens I can remain in good relations with my boss.
05/06/2024 Got denied a job interview today. Despite working under the predecessor for ten months and doing his work since he retired in march. The committee thought I didn't have enough full time experience to interview for the role. They then expected me to sit in the office and greet the candidates who got interviews the next day. Decided to call in sick for the rest of the week, because I can't believe they thought so little of me. I know I shouldn't let it get me down but it's been really tough to deal with today. This song and this posts let me know there are others that struggle through all different kinds of problems. I know we each will get through it we just gotta take the time and heal.
29/05/2024 Waddling along in life. Never certain of what the future may hold but i'll keep walking to whatever may come Also finished Chrono trigger a few days ago for the first time! It was a fun experience :) Take care everyone
December 9th 2023, fought with a friend recently and im battling with negative thoughts and self doubts. I've never been the patient type but this friend of mine says that they need time... knowing them while I have this small moment of clarity not bogged down by my doubt I know that they probably miss me a bit too... even if they don't realize it. I always tried to tell them to let me know if I ever do anything wrong but they didn't and apparently for the past month I've been stressing him out. Also recently broke up with my ex and still fighting with my family after years of doing it because of their mistreatment. Some days it's easy. Others it's hard. As I type this I'm awaiting my preacher so we can set up the local church he holds at the community center where we both live
thank you alice for sharing here your feelings and hey it happens in the so called daily life of everybody once in a while, as a lonely wolf ho has lost everything and has reborn and survive many times let me say to you that we are here at this corridors of time traveling, some are traveling for answers, some other for their dreams, some others for recovering something....and some others to let it go what they need, for this and wich ever will be your reason you are always welcome here and you will be better alice, i have faith on it and i thrust in you, i cheer you up to continue and dont let anybody, anyhow, anywhatever steal your willing to live your life at maximum, look for you and to be better and so in that order you will be able to share happyness and joy to anyone you see in your travel
@@MirageIslander you'll make it through just give them time. As someone who's diagnosed with autism and has a bit of abandonment issues that come with it, I can tell you that your friend doesn't hate you, everything will turn out OK in the end.
December 14th, 2023. I have never, in my life, worked so hard as I did this year. There were many professional accomplishments that I am grateful for. However, my health, mental and physical, demands atention. I'm not working out, but I feel muscular soreness. The burnout is getting to the point I'm having trouble focusing on work. I have uninstalled my games so I can focus, but on the other hand, I'm overeating. In two weeks I will be enjoying some well earned vacations, but this last stretch is taking a tool on me. Working is fine. Overworking is not. Take care of yourselves.
12/17/23 - 9pm It's been a rough week, I can't even lie. Work's been hell - retail and the holidays go together as well as peanut butter and mint - but all things considered, I'm doing as well as I can. Caffeine withdrawls are killing me, and at this point, I might need to just power through this week and get my ass back in shape next week, since I can't work when I feel like shit. Personal relationship stuff is always rough, too, especially dealing with people that I can't tell if they see me as a *person* or as a *thing,* which isn't anything I'd want anyone to feel. Made brownies today, and got a bit of work done on some projects I'm a bit behind my personal deadlines on. Hopefully these next few days will be better. 🧡
I don't know why but this kind of puts a vision in my head, which is staring into the sun rise/sun set. It also gives that feeling of renewal and liveliness, thank you for uploading this. :)
then welcome back my friend and indeed this is the place that we are always looking for, thanks for sharing your words and lets continue living at this place called time home i guess
December 13th 2023, currently working on a very demanding task. Ever since I've pressed the reset button in my career it feels like something is off - as it was before. Probably wasn't my job or career that was bugging me so; I'm currently with my second with and things are mostly nice for the past four years - also, it's not this that's so off. I can't exactly figure it out. I'm in my early thirties and I still think I'm way back from where I should be. But I still can't figure out why.
5/22/2024 Although I’m determined to not give up, I feel at the same time weary from hopelessness. I just wish I could start my life already. I’m doing the best I can to grab life by the reigns and take control. I at least in the meantime have strengthened a support network of good friends for myself and am enhancing my skills. I feel like I have a destiny far greater than I can understand but… I also feel pressure in how to get there. I can only hope it’ll all make sense before it’s too late. I also hope someday that the love I feel for the world returns. I can’t deny that I’m a human being who wants to be loved too.
18 dezembro 2023 16.55am Apenas Nostalgia, o passado ressoa com essas melodias atemporais, penso sobre meu futuro e sobre o tempo, nada é eterno, mais a eternidade sim Seremos eternos depois dessa vida? Busca uma base pra isso tem que ser um propósito distinto pra todos nois.
5th of May 2024 After being frozen in my depressive episode for almost a month. Now i have to continue in progressing my MA project event though it’s quite challenging for me. But i’ll try my very own best 🙂
5/28/2024 Moved to a new city almost two years ago, a few months after I first found this video. Started a relationship six months later that would become the longest, most serious, most exciting, and perhaps messiest of my life. Two months ago I ended the relationship. I've been trying to keep it together, but it's been hard. I love her and she wants to talk and be on good terms, but I wasn't ready for a while. Now I'm ready as I'll ever be so we're going to talk in a few days. I don't know what she has to say, but I will face it with pride that I made the right decisions for myself. In three months I'll have been at my first proper job for two years. After that I will set my sights on a new adventure...
My 20 year fight against people who torture children is finally bearing fruit. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Everyone's come out. The first documentary dropped. So many more on the way. People know what WWASPS was. People know who the Lichfields were. We're speaking up. And we're not going to stop. #Iseeyousurvivor
2012 год я в армии служу в войсках и заболеваю жестокой пневмонией, солдат в военном госпитале это крайне обделенная правами личность. Делать там реально было нечего, пневмония страшное заболевание но потихоньку начало отпускать. На свой маленький sony tipo размером с два спичечных коробка я скачал эмулятор snes и эту игру, потому что в детстве играл в chrono cross, хотел посмотреть эту. И это волшебная игра с волшебной музыкой. Окраина мира, маленький город в котором snes была максимум у человек 10 и я играющий в нее спустя столько лет. Моя первая рпг была star ocean 2 , потом tales of destiny, и потом еще штук 100, но trigger это реально рпг всех времен, я ее прошел до выписки из больницы. А когда я дембельнулся и езжал из армии домой я вышел из ворот под fanfare и frog theme. Эта игра лечит, она заставляет задуматся. А когда я умру я попаду под тот фонарь в the end of time. Обязательно ее пройду с magnus ом в отряде.
Dec 23rd 2023, Christmas plans were cancelled for my family as we all caught a virus in the Corona Family. While it really is sad that I won't be able to see my family. I do sort of welcome 9 days of having nothing to do. It's been a very draining year.
December 20, 2023, today I finished the epic of Gilgamesh, this music is perfect. Lots of stress of doubts and questions for my part in my life. The books and this music are My refuges. I don't know that I am only a grain of sand in the time of humanity. It's unbearable but I accept it. I read to bring other people's stories to life and I write my own. Humanity always makes the entire universe more alive through thoughts and words.
4/15/2024 Thanks for showing up today. I'm kinda at a point where I can't even see where I'm going anymore. I just know I'm going somewhere. I remember where I had a whole set up for my own life. Seems as though that setup fell to the ground, deflated, gasping for air. I had to abandon it with tears and desire of returning to stoke the flames again. (Sounds dramatic, but I like it this way.) My Mom's husband recently passed and now there's so much weight on my shoulders that I'm not sure if I can handle it all. I mean, I still have my whole life waiting for me at home, and now I feel responsible for looking after another. She's a fully fledged adult so I know she can take care of herself, and I honestly want to show her the best side life can offer. "It's all coming together", I keep telling myself. I know that my day will come, so much so that it's unavoidable. What's the use in trying to dodge it? It's meant to happen this way. I don't expect anyone to read this, but at least I'm jotting down a piece of my life's journey besides the journal. Make sure to drink your water and all that. Do your best to take care of yourselves in the best way you can. Remember that if nobody else loves you, You love you. If not yourself, who else do you have?
Seems people are here to let out some thoughts, guess I’ll do the same. Tuesday April 9th, 2024 12:50 AM Sometimes I just wonder if I’m going insane, i want to laugh but the desire to cry occurs at the same time. I wonder everyday when the calm of the storm will end, and I’m thrust once more into chaos. I can’t trust the people around me to express these things, and I’ve let them down too much to feel justified in my own thoughts. Often I feel that death wouldn’t even be enough, I just wish I didn’t exist. That my mistakes never took the form and that I could just not be around to fear every mistake, that every minute I’m alive to feel it. I feel the world would be better off without me, and that I’m completely worthless to not only those around me, but especially to myself. I want to fall apart, but I can’t. I want to disappear, but I fear the consequences. I’m in this cycle of despair and torment that I never seem able to escape. I wonder if it’s just me, that it’s just pathetic I struggle with this. That I struggle to wake up and make right now my oasis. But I can’t forget the faults within the past, they’re too ingrained within my mind. I don’t know what to do anymore. I fear each dawn will bring more pain, and every interaction another they remember with disdain. I hate this. I wish I had the strength to forget
13/01/2023 Desde ontem meu ouvido entupiu do nada e eu até fiquei com medo de ficar surdo de um lado, usei alguns remédios e agora tá um pouquinho melhor, mas ainda sinto o ouvido entupido como se tivesse saído da piscina com água no ouvido, espero que isso passe logo. Tirando isso tenho afazeres e responsabilidades que tão me tirando o sono, preciso dar um jeito nisso e espero que tudo dê certo.
04/24/24 I confessed to someone i really liked my true feelings, he said he was trying to start something with someone else but didn’t know if it was gonna go anywhere. I’m holding out for hope since he said that it has made him think about things
26/01/24 Aujourd'hui j'écris en français, une amie m'a demandé de parler à ma psy de ce qu'elle considérait comme une dépression. Cela fait déjà un an que je n'ai pas réussi à oublier mon ex. Je laisse le temps coulé et j'observe c'est tout ce que je peux faire. J'ai hate de retomber sur cette vidéo une nouvelle fois
17/12/23 estoy empezando a hacer un canal de prensa ñoña, me motivé y realmente me gustaria que funcione, asi que le voy a poner todo el empeño posible. este año estuvo cargado de sorpresas, pero creo que fue un excelente año, espero que el proximo sea igual o mejor que este
I have never played this game, though I've listened to a lot of chrono cross and chrono trigger music. I can tell how you all feel because I had my own mid graphics games I used to play in my early teens that left the same nostalgia. For some reason they have a perfect blend of story, music and graphics that just tops most games today.
December 14 2023: Well this university period is finally over and it's vacation time, but im still worried about the future but I'm working to get better.
5.29.24 Funny that this video popped up on a difficult day I suppose I should leave a record: it was a great day, for the first time II felt like I was taking a step forward only to have the day totally flip itself - thats always what happens, again and again I'm currently at a crossroads with my career, family situation; so trapped in it all.... Something will change soon - because I'll take what I want, I will make the path myself
4/25/2024 as of two hours ago I just got laid off. I felt like shit. But I had a friend who took me to popeyes and tried to cheer me up . Sure life will be fucked for the forseable future . But my life goal is to help my local community . I will be better . For me , for my family and for my holy princesses
5/22/24 For those who've read my last entry, I do apologize for posting in a really dark comment. Im doing fine now, since I've rejoined with my friends and vented out what happened and stuff. Still didnt get a professional to help, still surviving off the sea of life, just here. Although im happy that im talking with friends and all, the void in my heart remains there. I do miss my ex and wondered how she's doing, womdering if she missed me... But she hasn't talked to me for 2 months, so i dont think she is... But I do. I really missed us chatting and all, but still wish we could've worked things out. I still am my own worst enemy where i believe i will no longer look for relationships as i deserve it, where no one will get hurt by my stupidity and naiveness. I still believe im worthless and stupid, still believe that i dont deserve much freedom and happiness also. Just stuck here and just waiting until I die. So for now, just surviving life and clearly have no future to look into. I may have thoughts here and there on what to do later, but further than that, no. Nor I feel like i deserve it. No more relationships for me, no future, nothing. Just.... Here..... .... I miss you, ____.
28/03/2024 its been one year since i begun my college studies in musical education, but maybe i will need to drop studies because im not making enough money there in college. and should I get a job, there will be no time for college. that makes me frustrated, sad and anxious. I hope I find a way to make things better without dropping college, but each day is harder than the last, so i dont know.....let destiny guide my actions from here on.....
This is the magical Kingdom of Zeal, where dreams can become reality.
... but at what price ?
True
Never believe what you see, and feel is real.
4/7/2024
Two years clean.
Three years since I last contemplated ending my life.
One year since getting flown out to an award show for a game I worked on.
Working on the next one now.
Reconnected with my Mom and nearly all my friends in the last several years.
Money's tight, and I'm more disabled than ever.
But I'm happy, working on things that matter, have good people, the best dog, and enough to eat.
Things only get better if you stick around.
Good luck.
Congratulations brother, may this checkpoint serve you well!
@@BlackoutMADD I appreciate that! Good luck to ya pal~
Hell yeah bro, glad to hear it! Keep it going :)
happy for you. Jesus is also glad you chose not to. He loves you a lot and wants to help you go forward better and stronger.
Hope you choose to allow Him in to become a more amazing you. ✝🙂
That's right. Keep on going.
14/03/2024
Been nearly two weeks since the passing of the legendary Toriyama Akira. A man who imprinted the fondest of memories in the minds of children across the globe and across generations. His influence is immeasurable and his passing is a great loss, but his legacy remains.
Rest in peace Akira, we sorely miss you.
12/16/23
My fiancee and love of six years broke it off with me. She had been in love with someone else for most of the time and withheld the truth from me. She cheated on me, and wouldn't admit it until I demanded the truth. She tried convincing me that it was all my fault just because we were to stubborn to always admit the other person could be right. We did so many things together, I couldn't write them down in a single day. For me, it's been a long day since, and it was over a week ago. The hardest part is not the cheating, but her quickly moving on like the past several years didn't matter.
I'm going back to school. I've got a good job going on, and I'm staying in that field. I don't know where the future will take me, but I know it'll be with her far away in both time and space. I'll remember the good times as a reminder that I knew what happiness could feel like, and I will take the bad times as something to learn from.
I'll take every day to make sure I'm a better and better person, into someone that refused to be broken by this.
Love and Laughter, Always.
I will always support you, friend. This is also a test for us to face situations like this as humans. And as humans, we have the "try again" trait within us and move on. Maybe it won't be easy to do something new, but if we struggle without looking at the time, we won't realize that we have actually exceeded our expectations. Be brave my brother. And someday you Will get the better woman who always loyal with you in action and in her heart.
she belongs to the streets bro, keep your head up and chase your dreams 👑 I hope you're doing much better
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Honestly it sounds like it’s a good thing your probably glad she broke it off, instead of you having to withholding information is just cruel if your married sigh.
She'll get what's coming to her.
I'll always remember when this song first hit; it was otherworldly. Melchior talking about the Masamune was just the tip of the iceberg shortly before walking off the teleporter and seeing the floating map for the first time. Yep. This theme is still one of the all-time greats.
taking this as my sign to play Chrono Trigger
then i said enjoy your gameplay my friend, back in those times i was playing donkey kong country and super mario all starts so much that i will definitley play it again for that nostalgia gaming of the gaming golden age. i wish to have played super metroid and this one but did not notice them in the 94 and i jump right away to the N64 at the 96 with super mario 64.
27th of April 2024
I have engineering school exams in a week. It has been two years that I am preparing those. I put aside a lot of aspects in my life, be it sports, be it parties, be it sleep...But I managed to find my way in these exhasuting studies (the hardest you can do in France where I live)
I've convinced myself that next year would be freedom for me so that I can continue working.
This message is a prayer.
A prayer for myself.
I pray that wherever I will be in the future, I remember to be grateful of life, to be kind, to do meaningful things.
This message encapsulates my hopes towards the future : I hope that nature will survive, that humanity will find her true humanity, that this vertiginous human history won't end because of our greed nor because of any wars.
I feel lost sometimes, in this overwhelming infinity of simulations the society gives us. I feel more and more chocked in those concrete cities. I hope to find hapiness with a person I love, in a place I love, doing things I love.
This message is for my future me, for you to see who I was at the most crucial time of our life.
Peace
On my birthday, nice! :D I'll pray for you too!
@@melofox._ happy late birthday!
And your message was very beautiful, keep it up. I hope you get everything you want, I'm rooting for you
@@melofox._ hahaha thats my bday too, i hope u had a great day :))
im wishing the best for u bro
3/8/2024
My Mom died today. About an hour after midnight.
Half a world away, we, my country and it's allies, are over 150 days into the most recent phase of an over century's long campaign of the worst of crimes.
A Twentieth Century War in the Twenty-First Century.
And though I've shed my share of tears for the tens of thousands that have passed in the last few months..
This morning, my tears are for my sisters, our children, for we'll never see my Mom again, not even as fragile as she was in the last few months..
Terribly troubled as our relationship was; for the myriad reasons, I forgive and still love her. Also, she outlived Kissinger and Rothschild. May her Mind and Soul, at last, find peace in the hereafter..
Ameen
hope she will be a good angel with Akira Toriyama
im sorry about your lost friend
r.i.p. may she indeed find peace.
My cousin died past 29/03/2024 i will always love him a true brother
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May 19, 2024
My first weekend at my new job is coming to an end.
Feel kinda wanting more and super depressed about everything. Lotta jealousy to someone else and feelings of impending abandonment from friends.
Will survive though.
I miss my family.
december 14 2023
i am 89 days sober
i am back to making video games
i feel the weight of regret and self hate but i am getting help and i will learn to love myself again
thanks
Stay sober. Games today suck so you are needed. If Chrono Trigger is video game you like your taste has to be pretty good.
That's awesome! I hope you are still sober and in a good state of mind.
It's really hard to put down the bottle and enjoy life in a different way. Look out with bars and other social gatherings. Don't go the them to fast without knowing how to enjoy yourself in situations where people are intoxicated but you need to stay sober.
I wish you the best, and I hope you're still going strong! I've recently decided to go sober as well. I'm 19 days in right now!
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Don't give up. Stay determined.
Not sure why there's so many motivation stories with this but it's encouraging.
In the last year Jesus has really helped me get through some dark stuff and throw out or shed off stuff I didn't need in my life and a sin that needed fully removed after some months of self rehab and finding the right shepherds to get deliverance from it. God is good and hasn't left my side as a life coach and Dad through it all. With Him and some brutal self inspection and surrender it's been worth it.
I do not know this song. It simply showed up in my recommended videos today. The description baffles me, but apparently, this is part of the Chrono Trigger soundtrack? Some of the comments seem to suggest that.
A lot of the other comments read like journal entries, and I feel like I've stumbled upon a scrapbook made by gluing together pages from different people's diaries. Reading them changes the entire listening experience.
... I really like this video.
Yes, and welcome to one of the very few and famous: Internet Checkpoints
Feel free to save your progress. You're safe here.
@@GuichoSax TYVM :)
5/29/2024
I still think about Don Knotts and Steve Irwin, the first celebrity deaths I was saddened by back in 2006.
dec 16 2023
in 48 minutes i'll be leaving work my first vacation in years. this year i was able to rent my first apartment, improve my career as an esl coordinator and i'll fly for the first time in my life (i'm 34)
i hope all of you have a wonderful holiday season
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Don't give up. Stay determined.
Monday May 20th 2024 12:28(pm):
Just had a smooth shave a a nice haircut, my wife's business is taking off and I'm excited and happy, despite losing everything that used to be important. It's all getting different, and I pray, as always, for strength and wisdom.
May 16, 2024
Keeping at it through covid and college paid off, I'm in a much better place now than I was in 2020, and I feel like I've came so far from before. I am 6 months post-op from getting a plate and 6 screws removed from my ankle. I feel so much better mentally and physically getting all the hardware out of my leg. Recovery went well and I'm back to doing everything I love. Soccer, Inline skating, paddleboarding, swimming, waterskiing etc. This Saturday I'm playing D&D with friends, we have a very difficult boss fight next session that's central to my character. The next day I'm leaving on a trip to be by the Atlantic ocean for a week. My job has also been going great, I'm 2 months off from 2 years at the company, my first real job out of college. Later this year I plan to move out of my parents house and live on my own.
4/10/2024 I turned 30 a few months ago. I've lost 22 pounds since January and am in the best shape of my life. I just moved into a nice apartment by myself after living insanely frugally for the past 5 years. I have a good job finally. I have constructive hobbies. I am... happy...
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4/15/23
I found purpose in a project I'm working on. It will let me drop out of college if I want and not have to worry about money for a long time. I'm excited, and although its super hard to make hardware and I have to learn as I go its very fulfilling to work towards a goal that you believe it. I would recommend it for anyone struggling to be happy or enjoy life. Even if for you that goal isn't profitable, I think humans need a higher purpose, and that higher purpose isn't inherently present in this day and age anymore. Go out and try your hardest to do things :) its fun!
December 14th, 2023.
I will start college in just a few months. Moving it to the city really excites me. The idea of leaving my town behind and getting to more possibilities and to meet new people really excitess me. Life has never been better, really! Came out of the closet, changed my gender, got into the hobby i always wanted and got accepted at my uni! I do wonder where life will bring me, but only time will tell.
I'm really excited for everything.
EDIT: When was the last time i did one of these checkpoints? Like two years ago? I'm happy where the algorithm got me.
bruh moment
Would like to check in on this comment in a few years. Best of luck at Uni.
Good luck, my friend.
"changed my gender"
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December 20th 2023
I still look back on the years I spent planning my great escape from a miserable corrupt job in new york. I used to fantasize, wish and pray that things would get better for me. Now, 3 years after I fled mystery babylon -I am at peace in a new country, new car, comfortable job, and I have a new loving girlfriend. I got everything I wished for, but it cost me everyone I knew back home. I got my new life, it's everything I wanted yet I carry with me a unshakable sadness for the people I left behind. You can't have everything, there is always a cost, and you never know what you have until it's gone...
Gone.
Ok
5/29/2024
I'm having to evict my mom in two days. I'm struggling with work, and I feel like I'm losing my mind a little. Two weeks since my brother's second battle with mental illness nearly cost him his life. I'm surrounded by a mountain of medical debt and I feel like crying most days. But under the struggle, I feel... almost happy. I've lost 110 pounds since a year and a half ago, I'm working on myself in new ways, trying to find ways to not just better myself but also improve how I live, and maybe I might be able to lease my house to renters. Who knows, man. Maybe in a couple years I'll be totally free from my shackles. I can only hope. I can only pray that I have the ability to pursue that dream I hold in zeal.
Dreams can become reality. I gotta hold onto that.
05.08.24
It still feels surreal that I'm approaching 40 with a mortgage in my name and a decent, secure job. I have come so far. Only one year into my transition, but I already feel like the girl in me can finally breathe and be herself.
I am still struggling with finding a solution to my ADHD and chronic pain is a constant companion. It's getting difficult to remind myself that hardships are temporary. My family doesn't understand my struggles, but at least my mom is still supportive.
With the bad comes good, however. I'm happier with myself than I've been in years, I can finally look at myself in the mirror without hating everything I see. I have a super supportive partner and a gigantic derp of a cat, and I love them both dearly.
Gods. If only 12 year old Tobi could see herself as she is now...
Love and Light, y'all.
~GAME SAVED~
I hope that I can take the plunge like you have.
3/29/24
I feel like my heart's been crushed. The woman who matters more to me than anything else in the world, who I've been hopelessly in love with for two and a half years, who's been my one bright spot in the darkness, has someone else.
Con 14 años lo jugué por primera vez en mi snes (aún conservo el cartucho), y a día de hoy sigue siendo mi jrpg favorito empatado con Genso Suikoden 2. Toda la ost de CT es buenísima pero este tema en concreto es una auténtica delicia, una buena inmersión en el ambiente no se consigue así como así, pero este track lo borda hasta la perfección.
4/4/24
My 18th birthday is coming up soon, and I recently had a talk with my mother that I had been putting off for some time now. I had found it so difficult to truly express my emotions without worrying her but ultimately that was all I was doing. After finally saying what needed to be said, I feel much better, and along with that, there have been some other new involvements in my life. I recently introduced myself to a type of person I'd never expect to meet, and while they seem to have made mistakes in their past, I'm willing to put those aside and take them for who they are now. It's a difficult journey that I can see further complications of, but I believe I'll be able to handle it. thanks for reading
This...seems like a good place to post this with being pretty much anonymous.
May 24, 2024. 2am
Many things have occupied my mind as of late. About the future, about the present, and about my own past.
Choices i wish i could change.
Grappling with a job that doesnt appreciate its workers at all and runs it short-handed in our department most times...or has my own shift pulled every which shift to cover.
Worrying about my future, whether I will get to be the girl I know myself to be inside or forever trapped behind the 'mask' im forced to wear in public.
The future uncertain, the present an ever-encompassing problem, and a past that I wish I hadnt been so scared to be open about myself to folks that mattered to me...
And now I just...reflect. Reflect on what to do, while trying to calm my mind from the whirlwind of life and my own thoughts.
I am ever thankful for those that I care about that have let me be a part of their lives. Just as I try to help them, so too do they help me.
I wish I could do more for them for all they have done for me...but I can only do so much with what I have.
I struggle with getting back into doing creative stuff...writing, art, potentially even voicing comics...its all so daunting now. As if the small ember inside is afraid to blossom into a roaring fire due to the past...
Afraid it will be snuffed out by the possible winds of the future.
I will continue to keep trying...after all, even if its daunting at times, I have people that support me and want to see me be happy.
May I continue to try and be a light in a world that has enough darkness from stuff outside our control...and to never give up on myself again.
•Game Saved•
March 18th 2024
Here from Spain, tomorrow i gotta go to uni, but here i am at 4:15a.m. reading about others people's life instead of trying to do something with mine. I should start looking for myself instead of whatever the fuck I'm doing, but you know, it's difficult. I sometimes feel like I'm getting lost or staying behind in life, like everything always comes late for me or doesn't even come.
This is a hella weird place to talk about this shit, but yeah I'm glad I'm managing to at least write it.
I can't say much about your position, but good luck. Eventually something will come. at the right time. Today may not be easy, but tomorrow might be a little bit easier.
And if it doesn't, then, uhh... you can slap me for it
No tengas miedo de mirar en tu interior y hacer algo al respecto de lo que te aflige, sólo prestándole verdadera atención dejarás de sufrir
@@manuelhernandez9063 gracias amigo, están siendo momentos duros para mí pero me alegra que existan lugares como este video para poder abrirme y que personas como tú o yo tratemos de ayudarnos, un abrazo 🫂
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It’s not strange it’s a checkpoint for are lives no judgment.
4/8/24
My life has been caught in an interstace for almost a month now. I'm 25 this year, and I had my baby boy just a couple months ago now. Everything has changed since then. The delivery process was hellish on my fiance, but I'll never forget those moments we spent together. He had to go to an NICU an hour and a half away from our hometown and hospital, and we stayed their the whole time until he was released and ready. Even though the circumstances really sucked being there, me and her still made the best of our time there. After we arrived a hellish snow storm hit us and we got snowed in. It seemed as though nature wanted us to stay there, or something like that. Having a child can be rough, and it definitely was rough at first, but we both managed and improved over time. We brought out the best of us when times were at their lowest, and they definitely reached their lowest when she decided she wanted to take a break with me a month ago today. It shook my whole world up, completely turned everything upside down. I was so confused, and she lead me to believe that it wasn't a permanent thing that we just needed space. I'm not going to air out all of the dirty laundry but she slept with an ex of hers that very night. First time I've ever been cheated on. Technically it's not since we were on a break but I was lead to believe that things would be okay. Things have been crazy since then, so much has happened it's hard to process and comprehend everything. Even though I feel like I was wronged very deeply, I'm still trying to make things work between us. I'm not just thinking about what I want but what I also want for my kid, and this is the first time she's hurt me in our relationship like this, so I decided to forgive her. Some of my friends call me stupid for trying, they say it's useless, that I deserve better. They don't know about all the times we shared, all the positive effects and outcomes we gave each other. I know what we shared to me is worth fighting for, even if it's in vain. I'd rather try my hardest than just give up on the one person I've fallen so deeply in love with. I couldn't let it go, I didn't want to. I just hope I'm making the right decision. I've always been afraid of being alone and sometimes I feel like I'm better off learning how to be alone instead of relying on the comfort of others to keep my mental stability steady. I've only dug myself deeper into this cavity, maybe I'll eventually strike gold
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That's utterly horrible of her. To cheat on somebody after bearing their child. That's just cold. Let your spirit be strong and I pray that all of our souls will find peace in life and in death.
7/4/2024
My life seems to be at a crossroads, I don't exactly know where I'm heading but I don't feel much weight on me either. I'm not sure if that's a sign of something bad I won't see coming or I will end up fine.
I hope I know when I come back to this.
And if I don't, I hope I can drive.
4/13/24
Freaking out about the busiest month of uni right now.. The list of crap seems to go on, so much so that my brain can't bother to process it.
The only I can do is prepare for the worst.
The pressure is mounting while I feel like I could crumble at any given moment. But I have to remember that I can do it and that my only enemy is myself right now.
The music, the friends, and my family keep me happy though.
I couldn't ask God for more because He blessed me with a lot.
I hope that whoever reads this that you recognized that you're blessed too.. and if not, I hope and pray you are blessed with freedom someday
4/29/24
I've isolated myself from friends, even my best friend. The heartbreak I've been experiencing from the breakup has crushed my will to live that I'm just surviving out on this world to see how this goes. I'm just alone, feeling like i dont deserve this kind of relationship, and feeling like my friends would be better off without me... Even tho i dont want to be alone, its what i deserve. I deserve to be in the void, I deserve my future to be dark and shapeless... Just saying, but when i looked at myself in the mirror, all I wanted to do is to beat the crap out of me until I'm satisfied... But i know that it's only me... But what i thought I'll look like is just a shadow, a shapeless entity, just nothing more than a formless enigma. My world is now dark, dark thoughts keeps getting worse, and so on.... I dont deserve anything positive, i dont deserve anything. Just basically playing Fortnite until... Well, something happened... Im sorry for letting my friends and family down... I just deserved it... Only God can tell when its my time to go... God, I'll be waiting.
Don't give up. You have to stay determined.
day seven salvaging 38 satellites.
found another supercomputer. this one would have been from '98
Select:
NEW GAME.
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December 14th 2023:
The year is almost over, this by far... Has been my longest yet hardest one. If I were to put it in other words, I guess my game passed from Normal to hard difficulty, but that has never stop me before, I have been able to try new things, new games, I still have to work on my procastination, but I know I can do it, me and my wife have had it rough due to loans, nothing that a bit more of elbow grease cannot fix, I am looking forward to get our loan to be finished, so that way I can help my wife with her Trans medical needs to start transitioning, Also I will get to see my mother after 2 years, I just hope things between her and me are better now when I see her.
I will keep fighting, grinding and standing.
Save game?
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No.
Keep playing?
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No.
I've been looking for this video for so long, all the others just werent the same. I'm so happy it was reupload and I hope everyone continues to use it as a safe space. To come when you need to just spill everything out and let it all go for a while.
always listen to the RIGHT version
16 February 2024
This is 2 months since I left my job and became unemployed. I now live at my parents' house. I help with housework and my father's small business. The reason I left my job was that at my previous workplace I felt humiliated by my own subordinate until he dared to kill me. At work, I am a person who obeys orders and follows the rules. I have the principle of not wanting to disappoint everyone and I have to be a good role model for everyone. Because of this attitude of my subordinates and it has spread to my other subordinates. I decided to resign from my workplace.I feel unfit to hold my job position again if things continue like this.
Now I want to start a new path. My principles still remain and I also continue to upgrade my abilities so that something like that doesn't happen again.
Right there with you brother, unemployed to work on myself and return greater.
Good Luck
best of luck
Wait... is this for real? Somebody threatened to kill you??
You could get that person locked up!!
Hey man, good luck to you. I hope you make it!
5/27/2024
Just a few days before the end of my second year in uni. Still have a ton of academical debt bc i was depressed for a whole semester and couldn`t bring myself to go there.
Still feel this depressing feeling in my chest, but I try to do at least something to not succumb to it.
You shouldn`t succumb to it too.
Fight it and you will come on top.
Good luck, my friend.
4/20/2024
I didn’t end my life today, though a few days ago I came very close. I ended up getting drunk instead and tried to apply to a few jobs in my area. Job searching is tough when it feels like it’s just not worth it anymore with the way the world is currently.
I’ll try to remain positive despite this feeling of hopelessness deep inside.
Hope you find a job and could see a brightier future
04/19/2024
im slowly beginning to workout again. its been extremely rough these last few years. now however i feel as though i am back on track. i plan to join my countries military next year as i get myself back in shape, and get my money up. for now though, ill be taking the compTIA A+ exam in the next week. after that its on to security+, then the real job hunt begins.
December 13th, 2023.
I went to visit a technical college for electrician work. It was... really nice :) The staff there were kind to a degree unimaginable. I'm not normally one to care too much for the "normal person" brand of socialization, but something about that environment made me excited even for that. I won't be there long, and I almost lament that. They had a really nice and cozy, small campus. The work seemed really fun to do as well!! I think the field could possibly be a good fit for me... I hope so, but regardless... as time marches on, so must I.
Wankantanka guide your spirit
Ok
5/29/2024
Seems I've found another checkpoint, interesting that I've been thinking about relocating the Bramblebush Symphony one. This one's another banger of a track too.
I've just completed a big step in life for me, I've begun renting an apartment solo, not typically an easy feat in the current economy but I got lucky and found a decent place for cheap. Now I feel like I'm on the verge of another step, but I can't tell where it'll take me. I need to grow and learn more skills so I can move up in life, but my current job might not let me do that. If my job does let me grow, I can stay where I am. If not, I need to go elsewhere.
I just hope whatever happens I can remain in good relations with my boss.
05/06/2024
Got denied a job interview today. Despite working under the predecessor for ten months and doing his work since he retired in march. The committee thought I didn't have enough full time experience to interview for the role. They then expected me to sit in the office and greet the candidates who got interviews the next day. Decided to call in sick for the rest of the week, because I can't believe they thought so little of me. I know I shouldn't let it get me down but it's been really tough to deal with today. This song and this posts let me know there are others that struggle through all different kinds of problems. I know we each will get through it we just gotta take the time and heal.
29/05/2024
Waddling along in life. Never certain of what the future may hold but i'll keep walking to whatever may come
Also finished Chrono trigger a few days ago for the first time! It was a fun experience :)
Take care everyone
December 9th 2023, fought with a friend recently and im battling with negative thoughts and self doubts. I've never been the patient type but this friend of mine says that they need time... knowing them while I have this small moment of clarity not bogged down by my doubt I know that they probably miss me a bit too... even if they don't realize it. I always tried to tell them to let me know if I ever do anything wrong but they didn't and apparently for the past month I've been stressing him out. Also recently broke up with my ex and still fighting with my family after years of doing it because of their mistreatment. Some days it's easy. Others it's hard. As I type this I'm awaiting my preacher so we can set up the local church he holds at the community center where we both live
thank you alice for sharing here your feelings and hey it happens in the so called daily life of everybody once in a while, as a lonely wolf ho has lost everything and has reborn and survive many times let me say to you that we are here at this corridors of time traveling, some are traveling for answers, some other for their dreams, some others for recovering something....and some others to let it go what they need, for this and wich ever will be your reason you are always welcome here and you will be better alice, i have faith on it and i thrust in you, i cheer you up to continue and dont let anybody, anyhow, anywhatever steal your willing to live your life at maximum, look for you and to be better and so in that order you will be able to share happyness and joy to anyone you see in your travel
I am in the exact same situation with one of my friends... shit sucks but I know how it feels
@@MirageIslander you'll make it through just give them time. As someone who's diagnosed with autism and has a bit of abandonment issues that come with it, I can tell you that your friend doesn't hate you, everything will turn out OK in the end.
@@daltonharmon1018 Honestly I think it's for the best really it was kind of an unhealthy relationship but I appreciate your words nonetheless
December 14th, 2023.
I have never, in my life, worked so hard as I did this year.
There were many professional accomplishments that I am grateful for. However, my health, mental and physical, demands atention. I'm not working out, but I feel muscular soreness.
The burnout is getting to the point I'm having trouble focusing on work. I have uninstalled my games so I can focus, but on the other hand, I'm overeating.
In two weeks I will be enjoying some well earned vacations, but this last stretch is taking a tool on me.
Working is fine. Overworking is not. Take care of yourselves.
Ok
12/17/23 - 9pm
It's been a rough week, I can't even lie. Work's been hell - retail and the holidays go together as well as peanut butter and mint - but all things considered, I'm doing as well as I can. Caffeine withdrawls are killing me, and at this point, I might need to just power through this week and get my ass back in shape next week, since I can't work when I feel like shit.
Personal relationship stuff is always rough, too, especially dealing with people that I can't tell if they see me as a *person* or as a *thing,* which isn't anything I'd want anyone to feel.
Made brownies today, and got a bit of work done on some projects I'm a bit behind my personal deadlines on. Hopefully these next few days will be better. 🧡
no one cares
I care, thanks for sharing. Brownies make life a little better, stay strong :)
Ok
One of my fav songs songs from this game. So much emotion, especially knowing what happens to this place.
I don't know why but this kind of puts a vision in my head, which is staring into the sun rise/sun set. It also gives that feeling of renewal and liveliness, thank you for uploading this. :)
FINALLY with the background we all love to stare at!
then welcome back my friend and indeed this is the place that we are always looking for, thanks for sharing your words and lets continue living at this place called time home i guess
December 13th 2023, currently working on a very demanding task. Ever since I've pressed the reset button in my career it feels like something is off - as it was before. Probably wasn't my job or career that was bugging me so; I'm currently with my second with and things are mostly nice for the past four years - also, it's not this that's so off. I can't exactly figure it out. I'm in my early thirties and I still think I'm way back from where I should be. But I still can't figure out why.
Ok
Checkpoint reached!
Good luck!
#42
5/22/2024
Although I’m determined to not give up, I feel at the same time weary from hopelessness. I just wish I could start my life already. I’m doing the best I can to grab life by the reigns and take control. I at least in the meantime have strengthened a support network of good friends for myself and am enhancing my skills.
I feel like I have a destiny far greater than I can understand but… I also feel pressure in how to get there. I can only hope it’ll all make sense before it’s too late.
I also hope someday that the love I feel for the world returns. I can’t deny that I’m a human being who wants to be loved too.
Here's where RUclips ends. Or maybe a new beginning is about to unfold.
Tales from a different land...
Here's what RUclips was meant for
Lol well said
18 dezembro 2023 16.55am
Apenas Nostalgia, o passado ressoa com essas melodias atemporais, penso sobre meu futuro e sobre o tempo, nada é eterno, mais a eternidade sim
Seremos eternos depois dessa vida? Busca uma base pra isso tem que ser um propósito distinto pra todos nois.
5th of May 2024
After being frozen in my depressive episode for almost a month. Now i have to continue in progressing my MA project event though it’s quite challenging for me. But i’ll try my very own best 🙂
As musicas de Chrono Trigger são impecáveis
5/28/2024
Moved to a new city almost two years ago, a few months after I first found this video.
Started a relationship six months later that would become the longest, most serious, most exciting, and perhaps messiest of my life.
Two months ago I ended the relationship. I've been trying to keep it together, but it's been hard. I love her and she wants to talk and be on good terms, but I wasn't ready for a while. Now I'm ready as I'll ever be so we're going to talk in a few days. I don't know what she has to say, but I will face it with pride that I made the right decisions for myself.
In three months I'll have been at my first proper job for two years. After that I will set my sights on a new adventure...
My 20 year fight against people who torture children is finally bearing fruit. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Everyone's come out. The first documentary dropped. So many more on the way. People know what WWASPS was. People know who the Lichfields were. We're speaking up. And we're not going to stop.
#Iseeyousurvivor
2012 год я в армии служу в войсках и заболеваю жестокой пневмонией, солдат в военном госпитале это крайне обделенная правами личность. Делать там реально было нечего, пневмония страшное заболевание но потихоньку начало отпускать. На свой маленький sony tipo размером с два спичечных коробка я скачал эмулятор snes и эту игру, потому что в детстве играл в chrono cross, хотел посмотреть эту. И это волшебная игра с волшебной музыкой. Окраина мира, маленький город в котором snes была максимум у человек 10 и я играющий в нее спустя столько лет. Моя первая рпг была star ocean 2 , потом tales of destiny, и потом еще штук 100, но trigger это реально рпг всех времен, я ее прошел до выписки из больницы. А когда я дембельнулся и езжал из армии домой я вышел из ворот под fanfare и frog theme. Эта игра лечит, она заставляет задуматся. А когда я умру я попаду под тот фонарь в the end of time. Обязательно ее пройду с magnus ом в отряде.
Dec 23rd 2023,
Christmas plans were cancelled for my family as we all caught a virus in the Corona Family. While it really is sad that I won't be able to see my family. I do sort of welcome 9 days of having nothing to do. It's been a very draining year.
December 20, 2023, today I finished the epic of Gilgamesh, this music is perfect. Lots of stress of doubts and questions for my part in my life. The books and this music are My refuges. I don't know that I am only a grain of sand in the time of humanity. It's unbearable but I accept it. I read to bring other people's stories to life and I write my own. Humanity always makes the entire universe more alive through thoughts and words.
Peace be with all beings.
4/15/2024
Thanks for showing up today.
I'm kinda at a point where I can't even see where I'm going anymore. I just know I'm going somewhere. I remember where I had a whole set up for my own life. Seems as though that setup fell to the ground, deflated, gasping for air. I had to abandon it with tears and desire of returning to stoke the flames again. (Sounds dramatic, but I like it this way.)
My Mom's husband recently passed and now there's so much weight on my shoulders that I'm not sure if I can handle it all. I mean, I still have my whole life waiting for me at home, and now I feel responsible for looking after another. She's a fully fledged adult so I know she can take care of herself, and I honestly want to show her the best side life can offer. "It's all coming together", I keep telling myself. I know that my day will come, so much so that it's unavoidable. What's the use in trying to dodge it? It's meant to happen this way.
I don't expect anyone to read this, but at least I'm jotting down a piece of my life's journey besides the journal. Make sure to drink your water and all that. Do your best to take care of yourselves in the best way you can. Remember that if nobody else loves you, You love you. If not yourself, who else do you have?
ngl my sole desire in this life is living in zeal looks like the most peaceful place on earth
Seems people are here to let out some thoughts, guess I’ll do the same.
Tuesday April 9th, 2024 12:50 AM
Sometimes I just wonder if I’m going insane, i want to laugh but the desire to cry occurs at the same time. I wonder everyday when the calm of the storm will end, and I’m thrust once more into chaos. I can’t trust the people around me to express these things, and I’ve let them down too much to feel justified in my own thoughts. Often I feel that death wouldn’t even be enough, I just wish I didn’t exist. That my mistakes never took the form and that I could just not be around to fear every mistake, that every minute I’m alive to feel it. I feel the world would be better off without me, and that I’m completely worthless to not only those around me, but especially to myself.
I want to fall apart, but I can’t. I want to disappear, but I fear the consequences. I’m in this cycle of despair and torment that I never seem able to escape. I wonder if it’s just me, that it’s just pathetic I struggle with this. That I struggle to wake up and make right now my oasis. But I can’t forget the faults within the past, they’re too ingrained within my mind. I don’t know what to do anymore. I fear each dawn will bring more pain, and every interaction another they remember with disdain. I hate this.
I wish I had the strength to forget
これ元動画消えてた？みたいだからありがたい…一番好きなバージョン
Am I a bowling ball dreaming I am a plate of sashimi?
Suffering is part of the process, not the purpose.
13/01/2023
Desde ontem meu ouvido entupiu do nada e eu até fiquei com medo de ficar surdo de um lado, usei alguns remédios e agora tá um pouquinho melhor, mas ainda sinto o ouvido entupido como se tivesse saído da piscina com água no ouvido, espero que isso passe logo. Tirando isso tenho afazeres e responsabilidades que tão me tirando o sono, preciso dar um jeito nisso e espero que tudo dê certo.
December 19, 2023 12:30pm.
In Springfield Ohio on my way to Dayton to do some work in Carriage Trails for Ryan Homes.
Chrono Trigger music hits me right in the feels like a sledgehammer.
04/24/24
I confessed to someone i really liked my true feelings, he said he was trying to start something with someone else but didn’t know if it was gonna go anywhere.
I’m holding out for hope since he said that it has made him think about things
26/01/24
Aujourd'hui j'écris en français, une amie m'a demandé de parler à ma psy de ce qu'elle considérait comme une dépression. Cela fait déjà un an que je n'ai pas réussi à oublier mon ex. Je laisse le temps coulé et j'observe c'est tout ce que je peux faire. J'ai hate de retomber sur cette vidéo une nouvelle fois
My whole body is covered in Goosebunps when the Intro of Corridors of Time plays.
this always evokes a pensive mood
17/12/23
estoy empezando a hacer un canal de prensa ñoña, me motivé y realmente me gustaria que funcione, asi que le voy a poner todo el empeño posible.
este año estuvo cargado de sorpresas, pero creo que fue un excelente año, espero que el proximo sea igual o mejor que este
Checkpoint 11/04/2024: getting better. Today is not even remotely comparable to where my life was a couple years ago. Forward, to greatness!
Ok
5/24/2024
Been a hard few years. Hoping the loss and hardship is over
I have never played this game, though I've listened to a lot of chrono cross and chrono trigger music. I can tell how you all feel because I had my own mid graphics games I used to play in my early teens that left the same nostalgia. For some reason they have a perfect blend of story, music and graphics that just tops most games today.
Reading this comment section, it brings me close to tears. Everyone has decided to use this space as a shared diary. I'm so happy to see it.
ohh! You reuploaded it! Thanks!
I bought Chrono Trigger a few months ago on steam and I still haven't played it... same with a lot of games really but this is making me want to start
What are you waiting for?
@@HuxleysShaggyDog im just lazy lol
Oh its back, Time to sit back and relax for an hour.
December 14 2023: Well this university period is finally over and it's vacation time, but im still worried about the future but I'm working to get better.
Love it ❤
5.29.24
Funny that this video popped up on a difficult day
I suppose I should leave a record:
it was a great day, for the first time II felt like I was taking a step forward only to have the day totally flip itself - thats always what happens, again and again
I'm currently at a crossroads with my career, family situation; so trapped in it all....
Something will change soon - because I'll take what I want, I will make the path myself
rip
akira san
thank you to let me can play this god game
4/25/2024
as of two hours ago I just got laid off. I felt like shit. But I had a friend who took me to popeyes and tried to cheer me up . Sure life will be fucked for the forseable future . But my life goal is to help my local community . I will be better . For me , for my family and for my holy princesses
Oh to be a medieval serf hearing this right now
December 14th, 2023
Nothing of note
How is everyone else doing? :)
5/22/24
For those who've read my last entry, I do apologize for posting in a really dark comment. Im doing fine now, since I've rejoined with my friends and vented out what happened and stuff. Still didnt get a professional to help, still surviving off the sea of life, just here. Although im happy that im talking with friends and all, the void in my heart remains there. I do miss my ex and wondered how she's doing, womdering if she missed me... But she hasn't talked to me for 2 months, so i dont think she is... But I do. I really missed us chatting and all, but still wish we could've worked things out. I still am my own worst enemy where i believe i will no longer look for relationships as i deserve it, where no one will get hurt by my stupidity and naiveness. I still believe im worthless and stupid, still believe that i dont deserve much freedom and happiness also. Just stuck here and just waiting until I die. So for now, just surviving life and clearly have no future to look into. I may have thoughts here and there on what to do later, but further than that, no. Nor I feel like i deserve it. No more relationships for me, no future, nothing. Just.... Here..... .... I miss you, ____.
28/03/2024
its been one year since i begun my college studies in musical education, but maybe i will need to drop studies because im not making enough money there in college. and should I get a job, there will be no time for college. that makes me frustrated, sad and anxious. I hope I find a way to make things better without dropping college, but each day is harder than the last, so i dont know.....let destiny guide my actions from here on.....
Bienvenidos al eterno mundo de Zeal, dónde todo es posible. Pero, ¿A qué precio?
THANKS I ALMOST FORGOT
5/12/24
i’m chunk’d up rn ong frfr
the vast majority of analogue films recovered were MTV from the '90s
Wtf.
@@joshshrum2764 I did I got a Nobel for it
@@joshshrum2764 I actually solved king George's murder in 1973 from the kgb file I recovered.
may 4th 2024. Don't think of you as often as i did. Don't hope you think of me either.
This was my home...
Tracklist?
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