I think it’s partly because every job will make us uncomfortable in some way, and only we can’t quit every job since we got bills to pay. But it’s also fine to quit after you’ve given it a chance and gave effort and it’s still not the right fit.
I’m still in my first nursing job in the NICU. I’m going on 4 years and it’s so tough. Nursing sometimes feels like an abusive relationship and it’s so hard to leave. I applaud you and your decision!
Yes nursing is very tough! It takes a strong person to be a NICU nurse! I’m proud of you! My sister and I were in the NICU and my parents still to this day talk about how incredible the NICU nurses were ❤️
@Itme Honestly yes and its so sad because we go into this field wanting to help people and do good and instead we just get shoved around and treated like shit. It sucks so much getting home daily to basically breakdown because of how were treated by patients and their familys and even sometimes our own managers. I dont know why i put up with it anymore.
@Mellie hi, I can relate to families being unkind. I'm in nicu & I swear idk if having a prem baby makes you crazy or the craziness was already there. One mother got mad at me b/c I wasn't in the room when they arrived to visit. I had taken another baby for a test & was gone 1.5 hrs & when I returned I was getting the baby settled & these other people got mad b/c I didn't attend to them fast enough. That's why I'm so grateful to the appreciative families & for going out of their way to tell us. Sometimes it makes up for the mean ones.
@@Junebug6789 I was starting an iv on a baby when another family came at 11 pm for their baby who I had just fed and did cares on already. I guess their baby spit up a lil but was ok other wise. The family was so concerned even though the baby was fine. The vitals were normal and I was right there starting an iv on another kid. I told them he’s ok. They can clean it up or I will once I am done with the Iv. I guess they told the charge nurse this that I neglected their baby? Like how? I am one person. I am not ur babies dedicated nurse. I have three other babies. It’s so hard. I left nicu bedside and went to grad school. I did nicu for over five years and med surg for over a year. Nursing is so beautiful but horrible at the same time. I been nightshift forever and I swear day shift thinks we do nothing.
I’ve been a nurse for 30 years and have been a preceptor for many new nurses. When someone on my team decides to move on I always say “as long as you make decisions that are best for you and your family you can’t go wrong.” Take care of yourself and don’t beat yourself up!! Best of luck!
Madi, I quit inpatient nursing after 6 months because I was so depressed, anxious, and miserable. I have now been at an outpatient OBGYN office for a year and I have never been happier. Don’t ever stay somewhere that makes you unhappy. Wishing you all the luck in the world!
Same here!! I am a new nurse and I left two hospital jobs. The hospital is just not the right place for me. Hospitals are understaffed all over and the nurses are overworked. I work in same-day surgery now and it is soooooo much better!! Even home care isn't so bad but the pay is crappy. It's a good side gig to have though.
@@TheArmedNurseI’m so happy you mentioned the truth about hospitals. So many people want to work in hospitals not realizing they’re in for a rude awakening. Yes, you can gain lots of experience but the workload make it not worth it… and yes, home care pay is extremely crappy, especially for the amount of driving & work you will be doing. Having it as a side gig is the way to go!
I found it extremely challenging to find an 8 hour day clinic or day surgery job , these types of shifts are very competitive in Canada 🇨🇦 and also seniority plays a factor in who gets those jobs.
People tell me in the nursing field you shouldn’t let people change u ( because I’m so bubbly and fun and they aren’t) but I tell them that this field will make me change because everyday I hear don’t let people play with me and someone is ALWAYS being mean daily. How can I possibly not change ? And it ls for the worse. So when they ask me if I wanted a job I said yes but I plan to only be there for 2 years to get my experience. Putting your mental health first so you don’t change who you are is completely ok. That’s is stronger then staying in a job thinking it won’t change who you are
A role model doesn't have to be perfect. The fact that you can share your highs and low moments with us proves how much of a role model you are. We all have seen you worked your way up to where you are now, and that could not have been more motivating. Girl you got this and we support you all the way!
Don’t Don’t feel bad I have worked in The Operatingroom for 28 years I am now the OR team in LND it is but far the hardest Nursing Job. You will go out there and find what you love but please don’t be down on yourself if I was your mom I would be so proud of you and I totally agree working with such a good team is everything you should try the Operatingroom it’s by far the best Job ever and if you can get into out Patient surgery center no weekends no holidays no call I think you will love it good luck you got this ❤
I’ve been a nurse for 15 years.. working in the nursing home and hospital. How many jobs I had? Floor nurse, charge nurse, supervisor, nurse educator, fill in nurse manager, and wound and ostomy. Working all hours every shift. That’s the beauty of it all, you can do whatever and where ever you want to go and if it’s not working, it’s time for a change. Not everyone can be a nurse. I know that anxiety going to a job all too well. That means it’s not the right one. So wherever your heart takes you, you can give your 100 % and feel good about what you do. I wanted to do mom and baby at the beginning. I worked as a secretary at one … nope 👎🏽. Too stressful. I love the nursing home and I’m a certified wound and ostomy nurse at the hospital. I also found out I thrive with PRN and not full time. You’re doing great!
@@jakebrake7417depends… I was a unit supervisor so I had 2 LPN and they had 60 residents total so I filled in wherever. I would take a cart if needed or work as an aid if they weren’t able to find coverage. I was also house supervisor too. I had a great team of folks under me. Rarely worked the floor.
New grad ICU nurse here. I needed this video. I am in the same position of trying to figure out if I need another job for my health. I have lost 15 lbs in 8 weeks. My body doesn’t know when to sleep. When to eat. I’m usually positive and bubble but I feel like my light is being dimmed. The things I’ve seen in the last 6 months have taken something from me that I can’t get back. I feel like I’m disappointing everyone around me because I’m not operating at my full capacity. My doctor won’t give me a note to move to days or medication to help me eat on nights. I feel so blessed to be in an amazing ICU but I also don’t know how much longer I can sustain this. I thought I was just weak. Your video made me feel seen. Made me feel validated. And made me feel like I was not alone. And I thought I was. Thank you for this ❤ sending love to you in this trying time. Edit: I’m literally crying through this whole video. Edit/update. 8 months later from this initial post. I am day shift now, ICU still, and I feel great! Go to day shift if you can and feel this way!!!!
Hey you. So I’m currently an ICU GN and I’ve been an ICU tech for many years. One of my coworkers was a beautiful young icu grad and took her own life a few weeks ago after only a year of the new job. She struggled with mental health before the job but night shift and the pressure just took the ultimate toll on her. Please be gentle and kind with yourself. Handle your soul with grace and know that with time it will work out. You will get there, please just keep touching base with yourself and keeping tabs. Even if you leave this job that does NOT define who you are as a nurse. Please take care and I wish you all the best in your journey ♥️
Chelsea❤️ I give you so much credit! I could never work in the ICU and I can’t even begin to imagine what you have been through. It sounds like we are in similar positions and I encourage you to focus on YOU. I was not operating at my full capacity either and it was affecting me in every single aspect of my life. Maybe consider take a medical leave or looking for another job❤️ no job is worth losing our true selves over☹️ I am sending you so much love, and so many prayers. You are not alone. I see you, I hear you, and I feel for you❤️ please take care of yourself 🫶🏼
I’m in the same position. Night ICU nurse (new grad) and my body just doesn’t know what’s going on. I feel like I sleep all the time and so my days off are so not productive. I feel like I have no life outside of work now.
I haven’t finished this yet but please, please, please know, that you doing this, is you being an awesome “role model”. People need to know it’s ok to to leave things/places/jobs that are draining you. I can guarantee you that someone will be watching this after a hard few months, crying, debating whether or not to leave and they will find comfort in knowing that someone else is going through the exact same thing. Please never feel like you are letting anybody down let alone your viewers. I am praying for you to find a great new position that better suits your needs and what you are able to give right now.
Your mental health matters. We started around the same time and honestly I left L&D as well. My anxiety got so bad I had chest pains. It's not okay to feel that way. We matter. Good for you for leaving! We love our field, we worked hard for this. We deserve to be in a position that actually makes us happy. I went to assisted living and absolutely love it. There's a place for all of us gorgeous. You will find yours ❤
@@madisnursingjourney No wants to work anymore. 39 years I'm still working in the hospital. It's not job, it's not for you. All nurses have tattoos, smoke, drink , single moms, cheat and messed up from their upbringing . Ban cel phones and stop bring your frustration to work. So, now you will stay home and bum around. Go get therapy. Nursing isn't for you, period.
I applaud your bravery in making this video. I am a Psych nurse who worked nights for 16 years. At the end of my last night shift job, almost 4 years ago, I used to sit in my car and cry after every shift knowing I had to go back again. You made the right and brave choice. Life is short. Don’t waste precious time being miserable. It takes a toll. I’m so proud of you!!!!!
As a retired RN I have to say it takes a while to really become proficient as a RN. I quit my first job as they were making us work two different shift's at that time. I had a small son and needed to work 7-3 shift. Once I started the second job, found it much better. It took me at least seven year's to feel proficient. Also the RN who talked about saving and investing. That is something I did and now since I'm retired glad I did. Take your time follow your intuition and do what is best for you. Never let anyone who is external to you dictate your future. You can also take a less stressful job and then go back. Please do not burn yourself out and learn to say "NO". Once I did that and was in control of my own power loved nursing.
girl I quit my first nursing job after 6 months bc of how badly it ruined my mental health. I needed therapy afterwards. it was so bad. don’t feel bad for doing what you need to do for yourself. nursing or any job for any matter should not push your boundaries like that. it should not make you that stressed out. sure there are horrible days in every job but you need to do what’s best for your mental health. praying for you. I know what this feels like. im now two years in as a nurse and am so happy I chose myself :D
As an aspiring nurse, these videos are SO IMPORTANT! It is completely okay to be transparent with us about these things, they are real situations! You’ve always been so positive and it’s been such an inspiration, and showing us this side doesn’t diminish that! We love you and are so proud that you are advocating for your mental health. ❤
I worked nights on the ambulance for three years, it’s very tough and not for everyone and that’s okay! Do what works for you and your schedule! We’re all rooting for you!
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Hi there! I'm not a nurse, but a clinical social worker for 25 years. Thank you for being open and honest. Compassion fatigue is real. I suffered from it when I left active duty service in the military. Take care of yourself first. Another opportunity will come. We have a very broken medical system where the profits come first and people, especially medical personnel come second. Take this time to regroup and rebuild.
Well said 👏 but to add to what you said…If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
Managers in Cambridgeshire UK don't get compassion fatigue as they don't care in the first place.... I blew the whistle to protect my Ptsd but the lawyers lie and the self-satisfied Aleet. 🫂🙏🕊️⭐☮️✝️
I’m a resident but everything you’ve said resonates so much. I felt everything you’re feeling and ended up having a mental breakdown. Unfortunately I can’t quit but I was able to take some time off which was so helpful. If finances aren’t an issue please take as much time as you need to truly heal and find yourself again. Working in healthcare, especially after graduating, is so overwhelming. I’m proud of you for prioritizing your health!
You can quit, you are not trapped, where there is a will there is a way Changing jobs, bankruptcy there are options even though not pleasant you are never trapped don’t ever think that, because these thoughts could end your life, don’t ever believe that ❤
Nursing is really hard right now. I worked in PCU for 2 years and recently got a job as a public health research nurse and my quality of life has improved immensely. Be kind to yourself for making it this far.
Been in med surg almost 3 years and I am going through this right now (again) and it is so scary and painful to dread going to work when I used to love going to work and I’ve gone from bubbly to disgruntled (on the inside) because I am expected to handle progressive level acuity alone (6-7 to 1) with shitty equipment and combative patients I feel so abused and unappreciated even after working 14 hours to make sure I leave nothing behind for the next shift which is my fault but that’s how I am….there’s all new people I don’t even recognize and I miss my old friends that left to travel and I don’t blame them. No job is worth burning out over my fellow nurses so speak up!!!! Thank you for being brave enough to share such a raw moment. Keep it up girl. I just applied for my transfer today so I hope I get it so I can be back to my old self too girl!!❤❤❤❤
I just passed my one year anni of being an RN. I was salutatorian of my class and started in the ICU. Everything you’ve been saying is exactly how I felt when I was there. I am on an oncology med surg floor now and it’s been an absolute blessing. But my ego was so hurt when I left because I felt all these expectations on me because I did well in school I thought I should be the best I should be getting the hang of things but I just wasn’t when I was in ICU I came home everyday crying and upset and it really messed with me. Take all the space and time you need and don’t let anyone make you feel differently about choosing yourself. Nursing is an amazing job but the job won’t take care of you, only you can take care of you. God bless baby girl you’re doing the right thing
My parents have been in & out of hospitals in the last 10yrs. I always admire nurses & assistants. They not only deal with the sick but are the one's who take the brunt of everyone's ego. Doctors can be rough & patients can be so demanding. Their job is hard enough without the extra dose of drama. I remind my parents to thank them & smile. Being overworked physically & mentally is overwhelming. God bless you young lady🙏🙏💜 keep your head up.
Madi, this is SO normal. You are not alone. I worked nights in the ER and felt the exact same way. It takes a massive toll on your mental and physical health and caused me so much anxiety while working and stuck with me when I was off… I now work M-F from home and loveeee my job! I promise it gets better ❤️
As a former Paramedic, your burnout is so real! Taking a step back, and finding a new job is a good step! Medicine is so stressful. You will find your happy place as long as set your standards. Remember, your safety and health come first, and you can’t help anyone else if you aren’t okay.
@@cheybunni Well said 👏 but to add to what you said…If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
Burnout I’ve had for over 2 years keep trying different jobs but always same situation feeling massive anxiety and overwhelm depression etc finally getting out of this as hard as it is to give up everything I worked so hard for It’s heartbreaking really but for my sanity no choice
My daughter endured the NICU being born. Every single nurse was a hero to me. The doctors - oh, five minutes a day at most. But the nurses. They were there for us all day and all night. I think nurses are the most underappreciated and amazing people on the planet. They are always professional, always focused and even when it is clear they are completely worn out, they keep on trucking. Any nurse is a hero to me. Know that Madi and just found your channel so happy to join!
Madison! You are amazing! I am a 36 year old mom who started nursing school in 2019 and have watched your whole journey. Do not feel guilty. Nursing will always be there for you when you are ready to go back into it. Take care of yourself so that you can take care of your patients, which I know you want to do. Pray about it so you can find the peace in your decision. The Lord will help guide your path 🩶
3 minutes in and i must say though i’m not even a nurse, i’m a social worker in healthcare that works with nurses every day, but i just feel so seen and heard and understood by this video. im so sorry you’re feeling this way but i’m so glad to let you know you’re not alone. i hope you remember you’re amazing ❤️
I hated nursing my first couple years. I felt the same way: spread thin, empathy gone. Everything has changed now. I realize the value of nursing. I have a lot more satisfaction in the career. It is okay to make lateral moves in the field. Part of growing in the field is trying new things. Part of your journey.
You can always be a case manager. Work at an insurance company doing Prior authorization, work at a clinic with a set 8 hrs shift Monday through Friday or healthcare community nurse. There are so many options in nursing.
Hey don't worry about disappointing your viewers! At least for me, I'm here to watch the ride no matter where it goes for you. I just graduated from nursing school in May and I'm going to start working soon. I appreciate your transparency about how it is impacting you!
I left my first nursing job in a magnet Hospital, within 6 weeks of having started. The year was 2010 and finding a nursing job in an acute care setting without prior experience, was next to impossible. I had the same feelings you are having today, in fact, I felt like a failure. But you know what? I made the best decision I could have done. No, I did not quit from nursing, I simply took time to think what I truly wanted to do with my career. I am a very happy nurse today, continuing to learn from this amazing profession. My advice for you: Go pray deeply and dearly, put your mental and physical health at the top of your priority list, surround yourself by your loved ones, and take time to heal and think about what you want to do, and go for it…
MADDIE 🥺🥺🥺 I am not disappointed AT ALL girl! I am a so so proud of you for doing what is best for YOU and your wellbeing! As healthcare workers, we advocate for everyone’s health but our own. I am so glad you are taking care Maddie first and I am always ALWAYS rooting for you 🥳🥳👩🏻⚕️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I've been an RN for 7 years and my advice Is not to take call until a few years in. You would do amazing at straight nights or days 3 12s a week. I know you r liking the school nurse job so do that and then try going back to hospital setting u are more than capable and you are so beautiful smart God fearing woman u got this friend
I left my first nursing job as an CVICU nurse after 9 months. I struggled with the decision but being in the healthcare field as a CNA for 9 years I knew right away that my mental health was not ok and I put myself first ! I didn’t want to hate beginning a nurse especially when I worked so hard to get here. Proud of you for putting yourself first but please do not think you are disappointing your family or anyone else. Believe that they want what is best for you ❤
GIRL I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! I also work LDRP and I am a year and a half in. I still feel anxious and scared every time I go in for a shift. I am so glad you are taking care of yourself and prioritizing your health! The amazing thing about nursing is that there are so many different opportunities! It will all work out 💓
I'm the same with working nights as a nurse I'm a bit of night owl but came 4 am I'm struggling to stay awake and eventually it messed with our mood so you're not alone, I did night's 4 year's hated it lost weight also there's people that love it and never want to do dayshift but me I was always tired even on off days I was tired constantly tired drinking energy drinks daily tons of caffeine to function nursing is a good job yes it's so much negativity on social media about nursing it's rewarding just have to find our happy place nursing has so many areas to work not just in hospitals or clinics variety of options great career.
When you were talking about feeling like you’re letting people down or making them feel disappointed I almost cried. I made it two semesters into my nursing program and decided to step back because I realized it wasn’t the right fit for me and that’s exactly how I felt/am still feeling. I loved nursing school but I just couldn’t handle the pressure. It’s okay to take a step back and change directions. Find a day shift job and keep on being amazing. You’re not letting anyone down and if you are then heck to them you have to HAVE TO take care of yourself and your well-being in order to be the nurse you want to be. I wish you nothing but the best of luck moving forward and will be praying for you ❤️
Thank you so so much ali❤️ I am sending you so much love and prayers! It’s a hard position to be in when you feel like you are disappointing others! I am so happy you made the right decision for yourself ❤️🫶🏼 wishing you nothing but the absolute best!
thanks so much for sharing this, I feel like a lot of nurses do but we don't talk about it. I quit my first job out of nursing school (bedside) after only 3 months because of the toll it was taking on me. it's been almost 2 years now and I'm still trying to find where I belong in the nursing field. I hope you find where you belong but most importantly are able to take care of yourself.
You doing the right thing. Step away when you feel you getting burn out. Take a year out to heal yourself then you will come back 120% ready to continue your journey. I did it last year & it work well , now I went back to bedside nursing at Step down unit. God bless you & good luck 🙏🏼❤️
Madi, Fellow nurse here in the Cleveland area! I’ve been following your journey for years now. Just wanted to get on and say first and foremost, thank you for your transparency! Though nursing is a rewarding job, it’s not an easy one. Secondly, please know that you are not alone in these feelings and we could never be disappointed or let down by you❤ You have definitely encouraged me to take a leap of faith to not only do what’s best for me, but to take better care of myself. Thank you! Love, A fellow nurse
45 years ago, my wife was a geriatric ward nurse. Most nights she would come home and cry for an hour while I held her. It takes an emotional toll. I was in our local hospital on the date of this video. I went back 4 months later to give flowers to the nurses that took care of me. None of them were still there. The hospitals make people burn out and leave. Take care of yourself. Good Luck, Rick
I know my situation doesn’t quite compare, but I just finished up an accelerated BSN program after being in school for 3 and a half years for my first undergrad. I’ve felt so much pressure to rush through this post grad process despite how burnt out I am, and this video reminded me to take care of myself. I am proud of you for doing what’s best for you- we can only do right by our patients if we do right by ourselves. Hang in there! Even if you never work another day in nursing, you’ve still accomplished so much by establishing this community and inspiring new nurses like me to keep going. ❤
Please take it from a 30 year seasoned nurse!! I am SO proud of you for listening to yourself and thinking of your mental status🥰🙏🏽🙌🏽You are an incredible nurse and you will always be that way sweetheart! Listen to yourself and decompressing is great ! Pray and move where God tells you to move sweetheart 💐💐🙌🏽🙏🏽Nursing is SO hard!! People don’t understand the things we see daily and it can be very hard for us physically and mentally 💁🏽♀️Kudos to you👏🏽👏🏽🙌🏽🙏🏽
Oh my goodness, seeing and hearing this makes me think about what I’m doing because I’m in college for nursing, I don’t know how it will be for me because when I’m stressed out I do burst into tears 😭
GIRL! LET ME JUST SAY!! I have not even finished this video yet but you got me tearing up. YOU DONT GOTTA WORRY ONE BIT ABOUT LETTING US DOWN!! The reason why you have this following is because of who YOU are. Not the fact that u specifically do L&D nursing. Maybe some people related to that but many us, including myself, connected to you for who you are. You’re truly kind and compassionate, you’re patient with others, you enjoy sharing, teaching, learning with us. You’re beautiful and intelligent! I subscribed to you when I found the “what’s in my college bag” vid. I was in my LPN program at that time, debating to stay or go. I’m glad to say I stayed and bridging for RN now. U had a part in that!! Your videos have been motivating at my most difficult times in school. I graduated last august and girl I’ve left 2 jobs! I started in the ED 3 weeks after my NCLEX. It was too much for me to start with.. I went to a nursing home. And finally landed In Medsurg in January. Love it so far but I know it won’t be my last stop. The beauty of nursing is finding your niche, your special place. ❤just want to tell you that deep down, u know what’s best for U in this moment! No regrets, and don’t worry about us, we got you!! 🫶🏼
I took months off and decided to go to counseling. After many many years of suffering from these up and down emotions I got on medication and it helped my anxiety SO much. I eat healthy, I exercise daily, I loved my job. It’s just sometimes we have to take a step back and give ourselves time.
I’m so proud of you! I have watched you from the beginning. I’m not a nurse, but I’m a CNA. I started off in bedside and I was mentally drained everyday! Pre shift and post shift anxiety was awful for me! I didn’t think I was cut out for the medical field. I decided to not to give up and look into a different area. Now I’m a cna at a children’s speciality clinic. ❤Working mon-Fri 7-3:30. I absolutely love what I do now! I always thought I would go to school to be a nurse but now I’m in my last semester of health information management/tech! Keep your head up, your nursing degree can lead you into so many different paths!
I started off as a float NA. Loved that I was able to work on pretty much all floors (gave me a chance to see how each unit differs from one another) Pros & Cons. However, I sat alot with 1:1 pts. It got tiring! Did not know my assignment until 30 mins B4 my shift. I dealt with combative pts which became mentally draining. Now I work on L&D and Postpartum. I love it so far!! Will I become an l&d or postpartum nurse 🤔 idk yet. Taking it day by day. I do love my job 😊
I realized pretty quickly that nursing was not what I thought it was. I cared more for my mental health so I quit too and it was the best decision ever! I was ashamed and felt like I failed, but when I stopped worrying about what others were thinking, I felt better about my decision. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. Many of us can relate to it.
you're mental well being is important. I'm in nursing school and your videos have helped me through first year. Role models don't have to be perfect, being real and speaking up about the importance of mental health shows that you a role model. You got this girl and all of us and you're family are in your corner!!
Knowing when to walk away is not giving up it is the wisdom to listen to your heart, and mind. That doesn’t make you weak it makes your stronger. When you come back you’ll be better than before and you’ll take this with you and pass it on. ❤
You’re a brave soul for sticking to it for a whole year! I’m a NICU RN as well and have been doing my job for two years. Night Shift is not for the weak and you miss out on a lot! This isn’t you giving up. This is you CHOOSING YOU. That is a tough schedule! My bestfriend also works for a facility where they pick up on call hours and It looks absolutely exhausting. You’ve got this girl💜 something new and better will come around!
I am so thankful that you made this video...I am struggling with whether I should try something less stressful to help with my mental health but I have worried myself sick over disappointing my family. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing the realistic side of bedside nursing no matter how much you love it.
Just came across your video. I’m a nurse in Australia and I’ve just changed the area of nursing I work in. I was in aged care, palliative and end of life. I then lost my mum last July and I just couldn’t do it anymore. The job just drained me, it killed my soul. I’m now working in a cardiologist clinic, no shift work just Monday to Thursday 0800 - 1600 hours. The difference I feel is amazing. I left my friends but I needed to do it for myself. Nurses give so much and don’t often think of our own physical and mental health. You need to do what is best for yourself
I saw your video and this resonates with me! I started on med surg unit and at the beginning I was optimistic and putting my 100% with this 1st job as a new nurse especially during the pandemic. By 6 months I felt so drained and my anxiety levels elevated to max. I cried coming in for work and going back home. I didn’t have the support and teamwork I needed. I felt like drowning. When my quality of life, mentality, and happiness went down. That was my call to put in my 2 week notice. No one is expected be a role model. We are human. I wish I had the support group at work that many say they have….but sadly there was no team work in my unit. I did have a period of giving up nursing but decided to take a different route and now I’m doing nursing but outside of the hospital. I’m happier and less stressed.
Good for you for getting out of med/surg! I hate how new nurses are pressured into starting on med/surg. Med/surg is understaffed and the ratios are so unsafe. Management also sucks in most hospitals. I myself just got out after being there for 6 months and went to outpatient surgery. Soooo much better quality of life!
@@TheArmedNurse I agree management in hospitals is terrible….I wish it could be better. I know experience is such a great factor to being a nurse. However, with understaffing and poor management many new nurses end up with more than 8 patients and the workload it too much. I hope things change and please experienced nurses don’t drive new nurses away. I had this happen to me and I’m sure many other as well. Please let’s all come together for the greater good of nursing.
You are brand new! It’s ok to feel overwhelmed! I honestly would be afraid if you were not! This video shows how caring you are! Do what’s best for you! Your employer will always do what’s best for them! As much as we advocate for others we need to have that same passion for ourselves!
Nursing is never easy. Also the great thing about being a nurse is u can do any and everything under the sun. I'm currently an ER nurse, you would b a great ER nurse. Also, you have what Lots of nurses don't and that can't b taught. U care!! Keep ur head up
Oh honey…you are not alone. No one travels through this profession without feeling this way at one time or another. I too left my dream L&D job a year ago for an outpatient PACU job and I have never been happier. I miss my incredible former coworkers, I miss my labor patients, I miss the relationships. But what I don’t miss- the stress, the lack of sleep, and the chaos make it worth it. Sweetheart believe me when I tell you switching jobs has brought me back to life literally. Don’t buy into the lies of you’re giving up or disappointing others. Do what’s right for you and no one else. Best of luck on where your journey takes you next, you are not finished yet❤
Thank you so much Michelle ❤️ you are so sweet 🫶🏼 I’m so happy to hear that you are doing so much better now in a different nursing position❤️ sending love your way!
I always see so much beauty in you. Thank you for the insights. I feel beaten up by what my mom went through in a local hospital. I don't know if I'll ever recover. I'm seeing a fraction of what she went through might hit some of the staff. I'm so happy that the staff can get out when they want to.
Hey Madi! Been following your journey for the past few years - I graduated at the same time as you in Cle. I worked nights in a critical care environment during my practicum & soon realized that the stress of this schedule/unit ruined my mental health, although I LOVED this patient population. Because of this, I started as a new grad in outpatient while all my peers started in the hospital. I was fearful at first about doing something different and “not being resilient enough” - however, I could not fathom staying in such a dark mental space for any longer. Now, one year later, I’m making double what I would have made inpatient with less than half the stress. My free time is finally my own time, and not just recovery time. It can be daunting to make such a huge change, but your mental and physical health will thank you! Your ultimate obligation is to take care of YOURSELF - you are not letting anyone down by leaving the hospital, but rather promoting your own health and well-being, which is an admirable quality of a good nurse. ❤ sending love for where your journey takes you!
The best part of nursing is the ability to move around so many nurses forget about that that you have the ability to make that change to try and new unit to try out patient and it may take a few try’s before you find a better fit but it’s okay the struggle it’s okay to take a break or leave or make a change in position as a nurse ❤
as a new grad LDRP nurse myself, I just wanted to say you are not alone in your feelings & thoughts. hearing you talk about your experience I can relate to a lot of your struggles ❤ your feelings are real, valid and totally normal!! working night shift is tough, especially trying to figure out how to balance a somewhat normal schedule on those off days. hang in there girl, you should be proud of everything you have accomplished thus far in your nursing journey 🤗
As a new grad ED nurse, I related to this video so much. I’ve worked in this ED for almost two years, one year as a tech and one year as a nurse. I’ve worked nights for 4 years since I started years ago inpatient. It worked great for my schedule then, but now as an RN with days off and no school, it is so hard. So so hard working nights, and being able to show up for yourself after shifts, for your family and friends. I asked my management team to switch from a mid shift to a day mid shift (3p-3A to 11a-11p) so I can be on a more normal sleep schedule. Thank you for sharing how you feel. It makes me feel less a lone knowing that I’m not the only one feeling the same feelings. It doesn’t make you weak, it makes you so so strong for being able to recognize that this schedule is not for you. I feel like my light has been dimmed and I’m fighting so hard to get a piece of me back that’s been taken away from my job.
Former new grad NICU nurse here! I graduated in May of 22 and i just left my first nursing position (nicu) in April. I totally know where you’re coming from and i feel like i had the exact same feelings as you. My mental health got extremely bad and i was also on nights. I lost a ton of weight and was not taking care of myself. I switched to an outpatient position in April and i couldn’t be happier! The work life balance has been amazing and i am finally starting to feel like myself again! Leaving the job was the best thing i could have done for myself. Praying for better days 🤍
You're tired and that's OKAY. I've graduated 3 colleges in the last 5yrs and while working 2-3 jobs at a time while homeschooling my children and I overwhelmed myself. I had to learn to say you can't do everything and listen to your body. They're currently checking to see if I have a condition called IIH because my eye sight gpt so bad in such a short period of time and honestly I feel like it was due to all the stress! I quit my last job and because I have money saved I've decided to just rest and get my health together for the rest of the yr. We're human and its okay to be tired you can be superwoman another time, promise 😊.
You are wise to know when it’s time to go… I wish I had known it quicker. But I did find my niche…in a Dr.s office.. I’m an LVN. I’m retired now. Don’t be too hard on yourself. We have all been a hot mess at one time or another. Hugs to you
Love, you've taken the step that MANY want to take and are afraid to. Please do what is best for you. You don't have to explain a thing to anyone. You've prayed about it and only God knows exactly how you feel. YOUR MENTAL HEALTH MATTERS. ❤
You are the reason I felt ok with my decision going to community college for nursing instead of a big university because I just knew my anxiety couldn’t handle that at first. We all appreciate you being so open and honest because I know a lot of us will be in your shoes at some point. You are not disappointing us at all you are showing the rawness and truth to nursing. There are ups, downs, highs and lows and you show how it really is and just know you are not letting any of us down. Sending much love through the screen 🤍🤍🤍
I’m not even a nurse nor am I interested in being a nurse but I LOVE watching your videos and supporting you. It’s your bubbly personality and positivity that I enjoy seeing. I DEFINITELY think you’re making the right decision by focusing on yourself and getting your mental and physical health straight and back on track. One of my associates is a nurse and she took a while off after being a hospice oncology nurse she’s now a nurse at a dermatologist office and seems so much more happier and healthier. When a job makes you feel the way you are it’s not worth it ! YOU GOT THIS ! WE ARE ALL HERE TO SUPPORT YOU. IM SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU ON YOUR NEW JOURNEY . I CAN SENSE A GLOW UP AND A NEW BEGINNING APPROACHING 💕
I'm proud of you. I don't work with that species of nursing but I work with animals and it can be so sad. I quit my job multiple times when the mental and emotional and physical well-being was just not healthy at all. Then I took at least a year off and went back. I am looking at your videos because I'm thinking of making the switch and that would mean I may not be able to do the veterinary nursing and human nursing at the same time. Im crying with you 😢 because all the what if I can't handle when my patients speak back to me.
You are not alone!!!!! Currently going through the exact same struggles as you. New grad on nights, on LDR, 1.5 years experience. Night Shift is killing me. I’ve said the exact same things you’ve said to my family, coworkers, fiance. I’ve dropped down 1 day from my FTE to 0.75 and so far it’s helped a little, but my next step will be dropping more days or quitting if I have to. Here for you girl! You’re never alone!!!
I've been Nursing 26 years... this is normal but never stay somewhere that causes 😢 feelings of sadness. Your well-being is priority. I now suffer from MDD and PTSD. All the deaths, short staffing and Upper management demands took a toll on me.
Only you know what’s best for you girl. Listen to your body! You need this! God has been guiding you this entire time and will keep guiding you into the right direction. You’re where ur supposed to be. You may feel lost right now but that won’t last forever. Just breathe and relax, pamper yourself. Ur mental health is so important! So proud of you!
You are in NO WAY disappointing any of us Madison. Do what makes YOU happy, for your health and your mind most importantly. You have people on here that will love you regardless of your choices as a Nurse. Focus on what makes you happy 💕🫶🏽 you are doing great, just breathe.
Dang...my ptsd kicked in 😅 I literally was there at one point. I was burnt out as an LPN. The covid era was horrible for me. I worked at a nursing home...30 residents to one nurse. It got to the point where I would cry before heading into work and being on call had me anxious. I was depressed and would sit in my car by the lake or sit in my car for awhile before heading inside. There was a moment too where I had hoped that I would of gotten into a car accident or fall down the stairs so I wouldn't have to go in. When I got covid and was out for 11 days I was happy cause it felt like a vacation 😅 I did not want to go back. I went from this positive, fun, down to earth person to this negative person that I didn't even recognize. I left nursing, got my CDL, and became a truck driver. I been doing it for 2 yrs now with my husband. We been to all 48 states. Just need Hawaii and Alaska. It has been a great experience. I have no regrets. I needed a break from nursing. I'm back to my old self. The end of this year I'll be going back to nursing. This time around, I'll be taking care of myself physically and mentally. I'm putting myself first. I also don't plan to work at nursing homes or the hospital. I do want to go back to school for my RN but I am also looking into the ultrasound tech program. It's hard cause I do love nursing. I love seeing my patients get better. But I'm scared to go back to that dark place I was once in. Thank you for this video. Know that you are not alone. ❤
Thank you for sharing your nursing journey with us. I’ve been watching you before I got into nursing school I’ve since graduated and started working night shift in the hospital. At the end of the day you have to HAVE TO do what’s best with you. I understand how you’re feeling completely. Night shift , nursing in general is so hard and so draining and it can totally consume your life. You will get through this and find your way in the world of nursing. We all will!
Girl I needed to see this! I just started in a medsurg unit as a new grad, I have eight months in. In three different occasions at change of shift I was given a pt that was declining and were full code. It ended in two rapids and an actual code, right in the beginning of my shifts. Due to these experiences, I just pray to God before the beginning of my shift that I don’t receive an expired pt at change of shift. I also became very anxious driving on my way to work and noticed this was a red flag for me. My coworkers who are seasoned nurses even say oh “I’m sorry you went through this etc etc..” I think God has a purpose for everything. Even though those experiences were horrible for me as a new grad, it made me stronger as a nurse. That is the only positive spin I give it😞😔
Well said 👏 but to add to what you said… If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
I feel like so many people in the medical field can relate to your experience. I worked as a Central Sterile Supply Technician recently and only lasted a few months because it became incredibly overwhelming. I didn’t feel supported enough at all and I felt that some of my coworkers disliked me. I think a lot needs to change in the medical field when it comes to employee appreciation. When employees feel like their effort is recognized and they’re humanized, they’re more likely to perform better. You’re not alone! I plan to apply to nursing school soon and I worry about things like this all the time. I know it’ll be worth it though
What a way to get more followers! Unbelievable!!! Are just another Gen Z’er Crybaby!! You young people think that the world owes you a living and jobs are so easy!!! Hod has a plan for you, his plan is work hard and take care of yourself and stop being such an “Entitled” woman!! You want through all this to become a Nurse and do the job you trained for!! Life is hard as I’ve been a Combat Medic in the Army for over 25 years and got to goto school and become a PA. If your in a job that doesn’t make you happy, leave it! But, now days all these young women and men think the world owes you a loving and that RUclips is going to make you rich, well, guess what? You need to stop worrying about your RUclips Subs and get your head out of your butt and do the job you where hired to do! Instead your on RUclips crying like a little girl so you can get more viewers and you want to have work as much because you think RUclips is your way out of having to work like the rest of us and make a living doing what you love. You say you love Nursing? Really?? Looks like to me your just looking to make videos to get more viewers!!! God wants you to be happy and stop being a little crybaby Gen Z’er!! Get it together and work like the rest of us and quite thinking the world owes you a living!! Life is hard and you can’t just quite when the going gets rough and tough!! More of you Gen Z’ers need to be in the military and then you’d see what it is to work and not be so freaking self-centered!!!! Stop for crying and do your job like all of us do everyday!! Your a member of the crying, whining and feel bad for me Generation that is self-centered you can’t see the forest for the trees!!! Get a life and get off RUclips and work for once in your sorry ass life!!! Crying and Whining is Not Right!! Get a grip on yourself please!!!!!!
I've been thinking about leaving my first nursing job recently, and I'm just a few weeks past my first year. Saw this video pop up, and I'm so glad I watched! I feel like I was meant to watch this video! Feeling this too, girl. Thanks for expressing what a lot of us nurses are feeling and taking care of yourself first! Wishing you the best!
You are not alone! I'm an L&D nurse as well and felt the same way after working nights for a year and half. I lost so much weight and felt so depressed and anxious constantly. Switching to days really helped me reconnect with nursing and realize why I love my job so much! Some days are harder than other of course but nights can really take a toll on your body! DO NOT beat yourself up what you are feeling is so normal! I hope you can take some time off and try to develop a more normal schedule! I know you will feel so much better!
This! There's absolutely nothing wrong with switching shifts or units or entire hospitals or fields of nursing. That's totally the norm in nursing & I wish there was more out there for new grads to realize that so they don't feel so terrible about their first job being so rough or horrible. First jobs in any professiona are hard but ESPECIALLY nursing.
watching this video very shortly after putting in my resignation at my first ambulance company as an EMT and feeling exactly the same way you have explained throughout this whole video. when you know that you can’t keep going the way you’ve been going, you’ve definitely made the right decision. on the better and more positive opportunities!
You’re not disappointing us. We want you to do what’s best for you because only then, that you’ll be able to be best for your patients. Self care before patient care. I used to work nights and it does affect your mental health in many ways. Some people are ok working nights, but for me, moving to day position had such a huge impact that I would not go back for extended time. We’re supporting you, Madi!
A hospital is a battleground with invisible bullets killing people. The pressure is on, orders given left and right. Not for everyone but there is nursing jobs in private clinics away from all that. You have a big caring heart and need to be a nurse somewhere but don't rush it.
I’ve been a long time follower, for years! I never comment on anything, but you’re amazing. You are being so real and raw and I super respect you!! I found you the day i started my pre requs and now i graduate in 65 days. You’ve been with me and I’ve been with you through it all. And we don’t even know each other! Don’t feel like a failure, you’re so strong and so capable. You got this!! And I can’t wait to see where life takes you next ❤️
Thank you so much karli for sticking around and reaching out to comment❤️ you’re so kind and I truly appreciate it! I am so excited for you that you graduate so soon! You got this🥰❤️
You are AMAZING Maddie. you are NOT letting anyone down. When you feel those lies attacking you and this pressure that you are disappointing people, Cast all your cares and burdens on the LORD. I am praying for you! I've watched you the last 3 years, became an RN a few months after you did! You are so precious to the LORD!
Babe, you are so strong for posting this and being honest with yourself. Just by hearing you talk about your job I can totally tell that you absolutely love your job. I can almost 98% tell that you are struggling with anxiety and depression in regards to perfectionism. I am telling you this because I struggle with anxiety and depression. I currently work as a Medical Assistant in pediatrics and I can totally resonate with your emotions. I absolutely love my job but there are days when I have trouble handling the stress. Not because it’s hard, but because I have anxiety. I have trouble sometimes looking at people in the eyes, sometimes I get easily overstimulated/anxious by babies crying, sometimes my hands shake even though all I am doing it applying a bandaid on a patient. I get anxious when I look at the Doctors in the eyes. Sometimes I feel as if I am the one who makes the most most smallest mistakes. I am always asking questions and sometimes I forget so I have to ask again. I feel like I am bothering my coworkers because I am always asking questions. Sometimes I feel like I am not doing enough or I am not charismatic enough. I would advise you to go easy on yourself because you are doing amazing. I am currently attending counseling for my anxiety. I would strongly advise you to do the same. It is a tremendous help. - ❤ Julissa
You will not let any of your subscribers down. This is a real experience in this profession and the best part about this profession is that it is flexible and you will find where you thrive.
Maddie! You said yourself (in a previous vlog) do not be afraid to change nursing jobs. I’m an RN and this is the same advise I give to my daughter (she’s also an RN) and any other nurses! Nursing is a career not a job! Also, night shift is very stressful and hard on nurses. On call sucks. You do not have to live your life this way. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Move on to something less stressful! Heck, I left bedside completely and am now traveling as an RN, Case Mgr! I over doubled my salary and have the flexibility I could only dream of. You are doing a great job. Stop overthinking this, move forward and be happy! Don’t be so hard on yourself.
@@madisnursingjourney I’m so happy my advice helped you. The experience you’ve gained is priceless. You are a God fearing nurse who puts her patients first. These are the qualities that afforded me great opportunities in my nursing career. That being said, we have to take control of our careers and try new opportunities! Feel free to reach out anytime. Hugs from Columbus Ohio🤗💕
@Regina Hall can you tell me how you did this? I want to get out of bedside and I need a job like yours for my own health (I have to go out of state for doctors and need flexibility).
@@madisnursingjourney 😭😭😭😭ILY, you didn’t disappoint us. This was very inspirational & I didn’t expect to cry like a baby. Felt like you were speaking to me. God def has a plan. He always does ❤❤❤
Always take care of yourself first. I actually had to call in sick today from my first in over 11 years and it would have been my 6th day of work. I hated to call in sick, but I realize it was the best choice for both me, the children, and the other workers. Don't be too hard on yourself.
I’ve been watching you since I was a CNA in nursing school! Now I’m a new grad LDRP nurse. Love your content and character! Hope everything works out for you because you deserve it! 💕
Madi, my heart broke when you said you feel like you were disappointing us or letting us down. I pray you have overcome that feeling because it is far from the truth. I felt privileged watching this, honored that you allow me and us to be apart of your journey, your life. This has been one of the most inspirational vlogs you’ve posted yet. You are so pure and out of all the amazing things that you are, I love and appreciate that the most. I’m sure we all can agree. I’m sending you the BIGGEST virtual hug that the internet has to offer. I’m so very proud of you for putting yourself first. You deserve to be the best version of you, mentally, physically, spiritually, etc. I believe you made the first step in that by making this decision. I love you and can’t wait to see where God leads you next! ❤️🙏
You have no idea how bad I needed to see this video. I am in the same exact boat - just hit my 1 year mark in the PICU and I’ve been on nights. I love my job and my patients so much and my coworkers have become family - but my mental health and physical health has been put to the side for my job and I am trying to make the best decision for myself and get on a normal schedule at a new job. My heart is broken because this was my dream - but You are so right - you have to take care of yourself FIRST!! I’ve been following you from the beginning and seeing your growth is so inspiring. I genuinely wish you all of the best, you deserve it!! Thank you for being so vulnerable and know, you are not alone. 💗
Why can’t we normalize quitting where you don’t feel comfortable. there are so many jobs out there for nursing it’s actually a blessing.
I think it’s partly because every job will make us uncomfortable in some way, and only we can’t quit every job since we got bills to pay. But it’s also fine to quit after you’ve given it a chance and gave effort and it’s still not the right fit.
It’s pretty normal in my circles. Idk why it isn’t in hers.
I’m still in my first nursing job in the NICU. I’m going on 4 years and it’s so tough. Nursing sometimes feels like an abusive relationship and it’s so hard to leave. I applaud you and your decision!
Yes nursing is very tough! It takes a strong person to be a NICU nurse! I’m proud of you! My sister and I were in the NICU and my parents still to this day talk about how incredible the NICU nurses were ❤️
@Itme Honestly yes and its so sad because we go into this field wanting to help people and do good and instead we just get shoved around and treated like shit. It sucks so much getting home daily to basically breakdown because of how were treated by patients and their familys and even sometimes our own managers. I dont know why i put up with it anymore.
@Mellie hi, I can relate to families being unkind. I'm in nicu & I swear idk if having a prem baby makes you crazy or the craziness was already there. One mother got mad at me b/c I wasn't in the room when they arrived to visit. I had taken another baby for a test & was gone 1.5 hrs & when I returned I was getting the baby settled & these other people got mad b/c I didn't attend to them fast enough.
That's why I'm so grateful to the appreciative families & for going out of their way to tell us. Sometimes it makes up for the mean ones.
@@Junebug6789 I was starting an iv on a baby when another family came at 11 pm for their baby who I had just fed and did cares on already. I guess their baby spit up a lil but was ok other wise. The family was so concerned even though the baby was fine. The vitals were normal and I was right there starting an iv on another kid. I told them he’s ok. They can clean it up or I will once I am done with the Iv. I guess they told the charge nurse this that I neglected their baby? Like how? I am one person. I am not ur babies dedicated nurse. I have three other babies. It’s so hard. I left nicu bedside and went to grad school. I did nicu for over five years and med surg for over a year. Nursing is so beautiful but horrible at the same time. I been nightshift forever and I swear day shift thinks we do nothing.
It definitely is a abusive relationship.
I’ve been a nurse for 30 years and have been a preceptor for many new nurses. When someone on my team decides to move on I always say “as long as you make decisions that are best for you and your family you can’t go wrong.” Take care of yourself and don’t beat yourself up!! Best of luck!
Madi, I quit inpatient nursing after 6 months because I was so depressed, anxious, and miserable. I have now been at an outpatient OBGYN office for a year and I have never been happier. Don’t ever stay somewhere that makes you unhappy. Wishing you all the luck in the world!
Same here!! I am a new nurse and I left two hospital jobs. The hospital is just not the right place for me. Hospitals are understaffed all over and the nurses are overworked. I work in same-day surgery now and it is soooooo much better!! Even home care isn't so bad but the pay is crappy. It's a good side gig to have though.
@@TheArmedNurseI’m so happy you mentioned the truth about hospitals. So many people want to work in hospitals not realizing they’re in for a rude awakening. Yes, you can gain lots of experience but the workload make it not worth it… and yes, home care pay is extremely crappy, especially for the amount of driving & work you will be doing. Having it as a side gig is the way to go!
I found it extremely challenging to find an 8 hour day clinic or day surgery job , these types of shifts are very competitive in Canada 🇨🇦 and also seniority plays a factor in who gets those jobs.
@@TheArmedNurselong term care is really hard to if you have to give all those pills
was it easy to find a job as a New Grad with less than a year experience?
People tell me in the nursing field you shouldn’t let people change u ( because I’m so bubbly and fun and they aren’t) but I tell them that this field will make me change because everyday I hear don’t let people play with me and someone is ALWAYS being mean daily. How can I possibly not change ? And it ls for the worse. So when they ask me if I wanted a job I said yes but I plan to only be there for 2 years to get my experience. Putting your mental health first so you don’t change who you are is completely ok. That’s is stronger then staying in a job thinking it won’t change who you are
A role model doesn't have to be perfect. The fact that you can share your highs and low moments with us proves how much of a role model you are. We all have seen you worked your way up to where you are now, and that could not have been more motivating. Girl you got this and we support you all the way!
Thank you so so much normalee❤️ you are so kind and I appreciate your support more than you will ever know🥹🫶🏼
Don’t Don’t feel bad I have worked in The Operatingroom for 28 years I am now the OR team in LND it is but far the hardest Nursing Job. You will go out there and find what you love but please don’t be down on yourself if I was your mom I would be so proud of you and I totally agree working with such a good team is everything you should try the Operatingroom it’s by far the best Job ever and if you can get into out Patient surgery center no weekends no holidays no call I think you will love it good luck you got this ❤
I’ve been a nurse for 15 years.. working in the nursing home and hospital. How many jobs I had? Floor nurse, charge nurse, supervisor, nurse educator, fill in nurse manager, and wound and ostomy. Working all hours every shift. That’s the beauty of it all, you can do whatever and where ever you want to go and if it’s not working, it’s time for a change. Not everyone can be a nurse. I know that anxiety going to a job all too well. That means it’s not the right one. So wherever your heart takes you, you can give your 100 % and feel good about what you do. I wanted to do mom and baby at the beginning. I worked as a secretary at one … nope 👎🏽. Too stressful. I love the nursing home and I’m a certified wound and ostomy nurse at the hospital. I also found out I thrive with PRN and not full time. You’re doing great!
I agree. Nurse of 30+ years. The ability to change is the BEAUTY of nursing. You’ll find your niche’!
Well said 👏
U worked at a nursing home? Was it a RN position? How many patients did u get?
@@jakebrake7417 you can get up to 44 patients in nursing home
@@jakebrake7417depends… I was a unit supervisor so I had 2 LPN and they had 60 residents total so I filled in wherever. I would take a cart if needed or work as an aid if they weren’t able to find coverage. I was also house supervisor too. I had a great team of folks under me. Rarely worked the floor.
New grad ICU nurse here. I needed this video. I am in the same position of trying to figure out if I need another job for my health. I have lost 15 lbs in 8 weeks. My body doesn’t know when to sleep. When to eat. I’m usually positive and bubble but I feel like my light is being dimmed. The things I’ve seen in the last 6 months have taken something from me that I can’t get back. I feel like I’m disappointing everyone around me because I’m not operating at my full capacity. My doctor won’t give me a note to move to days or medication to help me eat on nights. I feel so blessed to be in an amazing ICU but I also don’t know how much longer I can sustain this. I thought I was just weak. Your video made me feel seen. Made me feel validated. And made me feel like I was not alone. And I thought I was. Thank you for this ❤ sending love to you in this trying time.
Edit: I’m literally crying through this whole video.
Edit/update. 8 months later from this initial post. I am day shift now, ICU still, and I feel great! Go to day shift if you can and feel this way!!!!
Hey you. So I’m currently an ICU GN and I’ve been an ICU tech for many years. One of my coworkers was a beautiful young icu grad and took her own life a few weeks ago after only a year of the new job. She struggled with mental health before the job but night shift and the pressure just took the ultimate toll on her. Please be gentle and kind with yourself. Handle your soul with grace and know that with time it will work out. You will get there, please just keep touching base with yourself and keeping tabs. Even if you leave this job that does NOT define who you are as a nurse. Please take care and I wish you all the best in your journey ♥️
Chelsea❤️ I give you so much credit! I could never work in the ICU and I can’t even begin to imagine what you have been through. It sounds like we are in similar positions and I encourage you to focus on YOU. I was not operating at my full capacity either and it was affecting me in every single aspect of my life. Maybe consider take a medical leave or looking for another job❤️ no job is worth losing our true selves over☹️ I am sending you so much love, and so many prayers. You are not alone. I see you, I hear you, and I feel for you❤️ please take care of yourself 🫶🏼
I’m in the same position. Night ICU nurse (new grad) and my body just doesn’t know what’s going on. I feel like I sleep all the time and so my days off are so not productive. I feel like I have no life outside of work now.
Working nights does this to you, you need to find a day shift position.
I haven’t finished this yet but please, please, please know, that you doing this, is you being an awesome “role model”. People need to know it’s ok to to leave things/places/jobs that are draining you. I can guarantee you that someone will be watching this after a hard few months, crying, debating whether or not to leave and they will find comfort in knowing that someone else is going through the exact same thing. Please never feel like you are letting anybody down let alone your viewers. I am praying for you to find a great new position that better suits your needs and what you are able to give right now.
Thank you so much Emily for such a sweet comment🥹❤️ I truly appreciate your kindness so so much
You are doing what is best for you. At the end of the day it’s your life you
Only get one so you need to enjoy it.
Great advice Emily! I completely agree! Madi, stepping away from something that is not healthy is very important. Cheering you on girl. 🩵
Your mental health matters. We started around the same time and honestly I left L&D as well. My anxiety got so bad I had chest pains. It's not okay to feel that way. We matter. Good for you for leaving! We love our field, we worked hard for this. We deserve to be in a position that actually makes us happy. I went to assisted living and absolutely love it. There's a place for all of us gorgeous. You will find yours ❤
Thank you so much ❤️ I’m so sorry you went through the same thing but am so happy you found a job that you like so much better 🥹🫶🏼
@@madisnursingjourney No wants to work anymore. 39 years I'm still working in the hospital. It's not job, it's not for you. All nurses have tattoos, smoke, drink , single moms, cheat and messed up from their upbringing . Ban cel phones and stop bring your frustration to work. So, now you will stay home and bum around. Go get therapy. Nursing isn't for you, period.
I applaud your bravery in making this video. I am a Psych nurse who worked nights for 16 years. At the end of my last night shift job, almost 4 years ago, I used to sit in my car and cry after every shift knowing I had to go back again. You made the right and brave choice. Life is short. Don’t waste precious time being miserable. It takes a toll. I’m so proud of you!!!!!
@@derekdempsey8506why are you being so mean, what’s wrong with you
As a retired RN I have to say it takes a while to really become proficient as a RN. I quit my first job as they were making us work two different shift's at that time. I had a small son and needed to work 7-3 shift. Once I started the second job, found it much better. It took me at least seven year's to feel proficient. Also the RN who talked about saving and investing. That is something I did and now since I'm retired glad I did. Take your time follow your intuition and do what is best for you. Never let anyone who is external to you dictate your future. You can also take a less stressful job and then go back. Please do not burn yourself out and learn to say "NO". Once I did that and was in control of my own power loved nursing.
girl I quit my first nursing job after 6 months bc of how badly it ruined my mental health. I needed therapy afterwards. it was so bad. don’t feel bad for doing what you need to do for yourself. nursing or any job for any matter should not push your boundaries like that. it should not make you that stressed out. sure there are horrible days in every job but you need to do what’s best for your mental health. praying for you. I know what this feels like. im now two years in as a nurse and am so happy I chose myself :D
I am so so happy you chose yourself too❤️ and I started going to therapy again and it has been helping a lot ❤️
As an aspiring nurse, these videos are SO IMPORTANT! It is completely okay to be transparent with us about these things, they are real situations! You’ve always been so positive and it’s been such an inspiration, and showing us this side doesn’t diminish that! We love you and are so proud that you are advocating for your mental health. ❤
I worked nights on the ambulance for three years, it’s very tough and not for everyone and that’s okay! Do what works for you and your schedule! We’re all rooting for you!
Thank you so much lauren🥹❤️
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Hi there! I'm not a nurse, but a clinical social worker for 25 years. Thank you for being open and honest. Compassion fatigue is real. I suffered from it when I left active duty service in the military. Take care of yourself first. Another opportunity will come. We have a very broken medical system where the profits come first and people, especially medical personnel come second. Take this time to regroup and rebuild.
Well said 👏 but to add to what you said…If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
Which career is best to go into nursing or social work?
Managers in Cambridgeshire UK don't get compassion fatigue as they don't care in the first place....
I blew the whistle to protect my Ptsd but the lawyers lie and the self-satisfied Aleet.
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I’m a resident but everything you’ve said resonates so much. I felt everything you’re feeling and ended up having a mental breakdown. Unfortunately I can’t quit but I was able to take some time off which was so helpful. If finances aren’t an issue please take as much time as you need to truly heal and find yourself again. Working in healthcare, especially after graduating, is so overwhelming. I’m proud of you for prioritizing your health!
You can quit, you are not trapped, where there is a will there is a way
Changing jobs, bankruptcy there are options even though not pleasant you are never trapped don’t ever think that, because these thoughts could end your life, don’t ever believe that ❤
Nursing is really hard right now. I worked in PCU for 2 years and recently got a job as a public health research nurse and my quality of life has improved immensely. Be kind to yourself for making it this far.
Omg I’m in PCU right now and I’ve been looking at public health jobs too!
Been in med surg almost 3 years and I am going through this right now (again) and it is so scary and painful to dread going to work when I used to love going to work and I’ve gone from bubbly to disgruntled (on the inside) because I am expected to handle progressive level acuity alone (6-7 to 1) with shitty equipment and combative patients I feel so abused and unappreciated even after working 14 hours to make sure I leave nothing behind for the next shift which is my fault but that’s how I am….there’s all new people I don’t even recognize and I miss my old friends that left to travel and I don’t blame them. No job is worth burning out over my fellow nurses so speak up!!!! Thank you for being brave enough to share such a raw moment. Keep it up girl. I just applied for my transfer today so I hope I get it so I can be back to my old self too girl!!❤❤❤❤
I just passed my one year anni of being an RN. I was salutatorian of my class and started in the ICU. Everything you’ve been saying is exactly how I felt when I was there. I am on an oncology med surg floor now and it’s been an absolute blessing. But my ego was so hurt when I left because I felt all these expectations on me because I did well in school I thought I should be the best I should be getting the hang of things but I just wasn’t when I was in ICU I came home everyday crying and upset and it really messed with me. Take all the space and time you need and don’t let anyone make you feel differently about choosing yourself. Nursing is an amazing job but the job won’t take care of you, only you can take care of you. God bless baby girl you’re doing the right thing
My parents have been in & out of hospitals in the last 10yrs. I always admire nurses & assistants. They not only deal with the sick but are the one's who take the brunt of everyone's ego. Doctors can be rough & patients can be so demanding. Their job is hard enough without the extra dose of drama. I remind my parents to thank them & smile. Being overworked physically & mentally is overwhelming. God bless you young lady🙏🙏💜 keep your head up.
Madi, this is SO normal. You are not alone. I worked nights in the ER and felt the exact same way. It takes a massive toll on your mental and physical health and caused me so much anxiety while working and stuck with me when I was off… I now work M-F from home and loveeee my job! I promise it gets better ❤️
How can I find a RN position that works from home? 😭
This
Pls let us know🙏🏼 how can we find remote jobs?
As a former Paramedic, your burnout is so real! Taking a step back, and finding a new job is a good step! Medicine is so stressful. You will find your happy place as long as set your standards. Remember, your safety and health come first, and you can’t help anyone else if you aren’t okay.
@@cheybunni Well said 👏 but to add to what you said…If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
@@cheybunni Thanks dear! Hope you’re having a great night? And where are you texting from?
I realized you can not be everything to everyone and deplete ourselves
Burnout I’ve had for over 2 years keep trying different jobs but always same situation feeling massive anxiety and overwhelm depression etc finally getting out of this as hard as it is to give up everything I worked so hard for
It’s heartbreaking really but for my sanity no choice
My daughter endured the NICU being born. Every single nurse was a hero to me. The doctors - oh, five minutes a day at most. But the nurses. They were there for us all day and all night. I think nurses are the most underappreciated and amazing people on the planet. They are always professional, always focused and even when it is clear they are completely worn out, they keep on trucking.
Any nurse is a hero to me. Know that Madi and just found your channel so happy to join!
I have an extreme dislike of doctors. I refuse to have a family doctor. I have a NP. My NP isn't too good to look stuff up or say "I don't know."
Madison! You are amazing! I am a 36 year old mom who started nursing school in 2019 and have watched your whole journey. Do not feel guilty. Nursing will always be there for you when you are ready to go back into it. Take care of yourself so that you can take care of your patients, which I know you want to do. Pray about it so you can find the peace in your decision. The Lord will help guide your path 🩶
3 minutes in and i must say though i’m not even a nurse, i’m a social worker in healthcare that works with nurses every day, but i just feel so seen and heard and understood by this video. im so sorry you’re feeling this way but i’m so glad to let you know you’re not alone. i hope you remember you’re amazing ❤️
What do you think is best to go into; Nursing or Social Work since you are around the two?
@@Pllm30neither obviously
I blew the whistle on Cambridgeshire c council /CcS and they punished me.
God is watching though 🙏🙏🙏
@@Pllm30NEITHER
Do law and then defend hcps from regulatory/disciplinary lawyers who lie about hcps. Imo
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I hated nursing my first couple years. I felt the same way: spread thin, empathy gone. Everything has changed now. I realize the value of nursing. I have a lot more satisfaction in the career. It is okay to make lateral moves in the field. Part of growing in the field is trying new things. Part of your journey.
You can always be a case manager. Work at an insurance company doing Prior authorization, work at a clinic with a set 8 hrs shift Monday through Friday or healthcare community nurse. There are so many options in nursing.
Hey don't worry about disappointing your viewers! At least for me, I'm here to watch the ride no matter where it goes for you. I just graduated from nursing school in May and I'm going to start working soon. I appreciate your transparency about how it is impacting you!
Thank you so much Alison! Congrats on graduating nursing school! I am so happy and so very excited for you🫶🏼❤️
I left my first nursing job in a magnet Hospital, within 6 weeks of having started. The year was 2010 and finding a nursing job in an acute care setting without prior experience, was next to impossible. I had the same feelings you are having today, in fact, I felt like a failure. But you know what? I made the best decision I could have done. No, I did not quit from nursing, I simply took time to think what I truly wanted to do with my career. I am a very happy nurse today, continuing to learn from this amazing profession. My advice for you: Go pray deeply and dearly, put your mental and physical health at the top of your priority list, surround yourself by your loved ones, and take time to heal and think about what you want to do, and go for it…
MADDIE 🥺🥺🥺 I am not disappointed AT ALL girl! I am a so so proud of you for doing what is best for YOU and your wellbeing! As healthcare workers, we advocate for everyone’s health but our own. I am so glad you are taking care Maddie first and I am always ALWAYS rooting for you 🥳🥳👩🏻⚕️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so so so much chyna❤️ your comments mean so much to me I love you!
I've been an RN for 7 years and my advice Is not to take call until a few years in. You would do amazing at straight nights or days 3 12s a week. I know you r liking the school nurse job so do that and then try going back to hospital setting u are more than capable and you are so beautiful smart God fearing woman u got this friend
I left my first nursing job as an CVICU nurse after 9 months. I struggled with the decision but being in the healthcare field as a CNA for 9 years I knew right away that my mental health was not ok and I put myself first ! I didn’t want to hate beginning a nurse especially when I worked so hard to get here. Proud of you for putting yourself first but please do not think you are disappointing your family or anyone else. Believe that they want what is best for you ❤
You do what you need to do for you. Don't worry what other people think, they aren't living your life. Take care of you and be where you want to be.
Our sweet Madi
GIRL I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! I also work LDRP and I am a year and a half in. I still feel anxious and scared every time I go in for a shift. I am so glad you are taking care of yourself and prioritizing your health! The amazing thing about nursing is that there are so many different opportunities! It will all work out 💓
Thank you so so much! Your kind words mean so much to me❤️ being an LDRP nurse is way more than just “holding babies” that’s for sure!!!
I admire your strength to post this! Nursing is NOT what it use to be 22 years ago when I started. I too quit this month! I’m done
Poor sweet girl. You're so young and have so many years ahead. Please take care of yourself! You are 100% right to take care of your own health first.
Sending positive vibes your way Maddie. Your mental health is most important, stay positive and it will get better in time, you're a great nurse!
Thank you so much Sanchez❤️ I appreciate you!
I'm the same with working nights as a nurse I'm a bit of night owl but came 4 am I'm struggling to stay awake and eventually it messed with our mood so you're not alone, I did night's 4 year's hated it lost weight also there's people that love it and never want to do dayshift but me I was always tired even on off days I was tired constantly tired drinking energy drinks daily tons of caffeine to function nursing is a good job yes it's so much negativity on social media about nursing it's rewarding just have to find our happy place nursing has so many areas to work not just in hospitals or clinics variety of options great career.
When you were talking about feeling like you’re letting people down or making them feel disappointed I almost cried. I made it two semesters into my nursing program and decided to step back because I realized it wasn’t the right fit for me and that’s exactly how I felt/am still feeling. I loved nursing school but I just couldn’t handle the pressure. It’s okay to take a step back and change directions. Find a day shift job and keep on being amazing. You’re not letting anyone down and if you are then heck to them you have to HAVE TO take care of yourself and your well-being in order to be the nurse you want to be. I wish you nothing but the best of luck moving forward and will be praying for you ❤️
Thank you so so much ali❤️ I am sending you so much love and prayers! It’s a hard position to be in when you feel like you are disappointing others! I am so happy you made the right decision for yourself ❤️🫶🏼 wishing you nothing but the absolute best!
Can I ask you what you decided to do after taking a step back from nursing school?
thanks so much for sharing this, I feel like a lot of nurses do but we don't talk about it. I quit my first job out of nursing school (bedside) after only 3 months because of the toll it was taking on me. it's been almost 2 years now and I'm still trying to find where I belong in the nursing field. I hope you find where you belong but most importantly are able to take care of yourself.
You doing the right thing. Step away when you feel you getting burn out. Take a year out to heal yourself then you will come back 120% ready to continue your journey. I did it last year & it work well , now I went back to bedside nursing at Step down unit. God bless you & good luck 🙏🏼❤️
Madi,
Fellow nurse here in the Cleveland area! I’ve been following your journey for years now. Just wanted to get on and say first and foremost, thank you for your transparency! Though nursing is a rewarding job, it’s not an easy one. Secondly, please know that you are not alone in these feelings and we could never be disappointed or let down by you❤ You have definitely encouraged me to take a leap of faith to not only do what’s best for me, but to take better care of myself. Thank you!
Love,
A fellow nurse
45 years ago, my wife was a geriatric ward nurse. Most nights she would come home and cry for an hour while I held her. It takes an emotional toll.
I was in our local hospital on the date of this video. I went back 4 months later to give flowers to the nurses that took care of me. None of them were still there. The hospitals make people burn out and leave. Take care of yourself. Good Luck, Rick
I know my situation doesn’t quite compare, but I just finished up an accelerated BSN program after being in school for 3 and a half years for my first undergrad. I’ve felt so much pressure to rush through this post grad process despite how burnt out I am, and this video reminded me to take care of myself. I am proud of you for doing what’s best for you- we can only do right by our patients if we do right by ourselves. Hang in there! Even if you never work another day in nursing, you’ve still accomplished so much by establishing this community and inspiring new nurses like me to keep going. ❤
Please take it from a 30 year seasoned nurse!! I am SO proud of you for listening to yourself and thinking of your mental status🥰🙏🏽🙌🏽You are an incredible nurse and you will always be that way sweetheart! Listen to yourself and decompressing is great ! Pray and move where God tells you to move sweetheart 💐💐🙌🏽🙏🏽Nursing is SO hard!! People don’t understand the things we see daily and it can be very hard for us physically and mentally 💁🏽♀️Kudos to you👏🏽👏🏽🙌🏽🙏🏽
Oh my goodness, seeing and hearing this makes me think about what I’m doing because I’m in college for nursing, I don’t know how it will be for me because when I’m stressed out I do burst into tears 😭
GIRL! LET ME JUST SAY!! I have not even finished this video yet but you got me tearing up. YOU DONT GOTTA WORRY ONE BIT ABOUT LETTING US DOWN!! The reason why you have this following is because of who YOU are. Not the fact that u specifically do L&D nursing. Maybe some people related to that but many us, including myself, connected to you for who you are. You’re truly kind and compassionate, you’re patient with others, you enjoy sharing, teaching, learning with us. You’re beautiful and intelligent! I subscribed to you when I found the “what’s in my college bag” vid. I was in my LPN program at that time, debating to stay or go. I’m glad to say I stayed and bridging for RN now. U had a part in that!! Your videos have been motivating at my most difficult times in school. I graduated last august and girl I’ve left 2 jobs! I started in the ED 3 weeks after my NCLEX. It was too much for me to start with.. I went to a nursing home. And finally landed In Medsurg in January. Love it so far but I know it won’t be my last stop. The beauty of nursing is finding your niche, your special place. ❤just want to tell you that deep down, u know what’s best for U in this moment! No regrets, and don’t worry about us, we got you!! 🫶🏼
I took months off and decided to go to counseling. After many many years of suffering from these up and down emotions I got on medication and it helped my anxiety SO much. I eat healthy, I exercise daily, I loved my job. It’s just sometimes we have to take a step back and give ourselves time.
I’m so proud of you! I have watched you from the beginning. I’m not a nurse, but I’m a CNA. I started off in bedside and I was mentally drained everyday! Pre shift and post shift anxiety was awful for me! I didn’t think I was cut out for the medical field. I decided to not to give up and look into a different area. Now I’m a cna at a children’s speciality clinic. ❤Working mon-Fri 7-3:30. I absolutely love what I do now! I always thought I would go to school to be a nurse but now I’m in my last semester of health information management/tech! Keep your head up, your nursing degree can lead you into so many different paths!
I started off as a float NA. Loved that I was able to work on pretty much all floors (gave me a chance to see how each unit differs from one another) Pros & Cons. However, I sat alot with 1:1 pts. It got tiring! Did not know my assignment until 30 mins B4 my shift. I dealt with combative pts which became mentally draining. Now I work on L&D and Postpartum. I love it so far!! Will I become an l&d or postpartum nurse 🤔 idk yet. Taking it day by day. I do love my job 😊
I realized pretty quickly that nursing was not what I thought it was. I cared more for my mental health so I quit too and it was the best decision ever! I was ashamed and felt like I failed, but when I stopped worrying about what others were thinking, I felt better about my decision. Thanks for sharing your journey with us. Many of us can relate to it.
you're mental well being is important. I'm in nursing school and your videos have helped me through first year. Role models don't have to be perfect, being real and speaking up about the importance of mental health shows that you a role model. You got this girl and all of us and you're family are in your corner!!
Knowing when to walk away is not giving up it is the wisdom to listen to your heart, and mind. That doesn’t make you weak it makes your stronger. When you come back you’ll be better than before and you’ll take this with you and pass it on. ❤
You’re a brave soul for sticking to it for a whole year! I’m a NICU RN as well and have been doing my job for two years. Night Shift is not for the weak and you miss out on a lot! This isn’t you giving up. This is you CHOOSING YOU. That is a tough schedule! My bestfriend also works for a facility where they pick up on call hours and It looks absolutely exhausting. You’ve got this girl💜 something new and better will come around!
I am so thankful that you made this video...I am struggling with whether I should try something less stressful to help with my mental health but I have worried myself sick over disappointing my family. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing the realistic side of bedside nursing no matter how much you love it.
Just came across your video. I’m a nurse in Australia and I’ve just changed the area of nursing I work in. I was in aged care, palliative and end of life. I then lost my mum last July and I just couldn’t do it anymore. The job just drained me, it killed my soul. I’m now working in a cardiologist clinic, no shift work just Monday to Thursday 0800 - 1600 hours. The difference I feel is amazing. I left my friends but I needed to do it for myself. Nurses give so much and don’t often think of our own physical and mental health. You need to do what is best for yourself
proud of you to realize you lost your sparkle. take care of yourself. nothing is worth losing yourself.
I saw your video and this resonates with me! I started on med surg unit and at the beginning I was optimistic and putting my 100% with this 1st job as a new nurse especially during the pandemic. By 6 months I felt so drained and my anxiety levels elevated to max. I cried coming in for work and going back home. I didn’t have the support and teamwork I needed. I felt like drowning. When my quality of life, mentality, and happiness went down. That was my call to put in my 2 week notice. No one is expected be a role model. We are human. I wish I had the support group at work that many say they have….but sadly there was no team work in my unit. I did have a period of giving up nursing but decided to take a different route and now I’m doing nursing but outside of the hospital. I’m happier and less stressed.
Good for you for getting out of med/surg! I hate how new nurses are pressured into starting on med/surg. Med/surg is understaffed and the ratios are so unsafe. Management also sucks in most hospitals. I myself just got out after being there for 6 months and went to outpatient surgery. Soooo much better quality of life!
@@TheArmedNurse I agree management in hospitals is terrible….I wish it could be better. I know experience is such a great factor to being a nurse. However, with understaffing and poor management many new nurses end up with more than 8 patients and the workload it too much. I hope things change and please experienced nurses don’t drive new nurses away. I had this happen to me and I’m sure many other as well. Please let’s all come together for the greater good of nursing.
You are brand new! It’s ok to feel overwhelmed! I honestly would be afraid if you were not! This video shows how caring you are! Do what’s best for you! Your employer will always do what’s best for them! As much as we advocate for others we need to have that same passion for ourselves!
Run & don’t look back, it was the best thing I ever did. Days will b even harder!!
Nursing is never easy. Also the great thing about being a nurse is u can do any and everything under the sun. I'm currently an ER nurse, you would b a great ER nurse. Also, you have what Lots of nurses don't and that can't b taught. U care!! Keep ur head up
Oh honey…you are not alone. No one travels through this profession without feeling this way at one time or another. I too left my dream L&D job a year ago for an outpatient PACU job and I have never been happier. I miss my incredible former coworkers, I miss my labor patients, I miss the relationships. But what I don’t miss- the stress, the lack of sleep, and the chaos make it worth it. Sweetheart believe me when I tell you switching jobs has brought me back to life literally. Don’t buy into the lies of you’re giving up or disappointing others. Do what’s right for you and no one else. Best of luck on where your journey takes you next, you are not finished yet❤
Thank you so much Michelle ❤️ you are so sweet 🫶🏼 I’m so happy to hear that you are doing so much better now in a different nursing position❤️ sending love your way!
I always see so much beauty in you. Thank you for the insights. I feel beaten up by what my mom went through in a local hospital. I don't know if I'll ever recover. I'm seeing a fraction of what she went through might hit some of the staff. I'm so happy that the staff can get out when they want to.
Hey Madi! Been following your journey for the past few years - I graduated at the same time as you in Cle. I worked nights in a critical care environment during my practicum & soon realized that the stress of this schedule/unit ruined my mental health, although I LOVED this patient population. Because of this, I started as a new grad in outpatient while all my peers started in the hospital. I was fearful at first about doing something different and “not being resilient enough” - however, I could not fathom staying in such a dark mental space for any longer. Now, one year later, I’m making double what I would have made inpatient with less than half the stress. My free time is finally my own time, and not just recovery time. It can be daunting to make such a huge change, but your mental and physical health will thank you! Your ultimate obligation is to take care of YOURSELF - you are not letting anyone down by leaving the hospital, but rather promoting your own health and well-being, which is an admirable quality of a good nurse. ❤ sending love for where your journey takes you!
You are Right! God has the best plan for your life. Keep believing and you will be blessed.
girl! we are so proud of you!! never think you would disappoint us. your mental health matters more than anything. ❤ praying for you.
Thank you so much Jessica that means so much to me🫶🏼🥰
The best part of nursing is the ability to move around so many nurses forget about that that you have the ability to make that change to try and new unit to try out patient and it may take a few try’s before you find a better fit but it’s okay the struggle it’s okay to take a break or leave or make a change in position as a nurse ❤
as a new grad LDRP nurse myself, I just wanted to say you are not alone in your feelings & thoughts. hearing you talk about your experience I can relate to a lot of your struggles ❤ your feelings are real, valid and totally normal!! working night shift is tough, especially trying to figure out how to balance a somewhat normal schedule on those off days. hang in there girl, you should be proud of everything you have accomplished thus far in your nursing journey 🤗
As a new grad ED nurse, I related to this video so much. I’ve worked in this ED for almost two years, one year as a tech and one year as a nurse. I’ve worked nights for 4 years since I started years ago inpatient. It worked great for my schedule then, but now as an RN with days off and no school, it is so hard. So so hard working nights, and being able to show up for yourself after shifts, for your family and friends. I asked my management team to switch from a mid shift to a day mid shift (3p-3A to 11a-11p) so I can be on a more normal sleep schedule. Thank you for sharing how you feel. It makes me feel less a lone knowing that I’m not the only one feeling the same feelings. It doesn’t make you weak, it makes you so so strong for being able to recognize that this schedule is not for you. I feel like my light has been dimmed and I’m fighting so hard to get a piece of me back that’s been taken away from my job.
Honestly, I love that you’re sharing letting go of the things that aren’t for you. Even if it hurts to do it. Really resonates with me rn.
Thank you so much Hayley 🥹🥰 sending love your way
Former new grad NICU nurse here! I graduated in May of 22 and i just left my first nursing position (nicu) in April. I totally know where you’re coming from and i feel like i had the exact same feelings as you. My mental health got extremely bad and i was also on nights. I lost a ton of weight and was not taking care of myself. I switched to an outpatient position in April and i couldn’t be happier! The work life balance has been amazing and i am finally starting to feel like myself again! Leaving the job was the best thing i could have done for myself. Praying for better days 🤍
You're tired and that's OKAY. I've graduated 3 colleges in the last 5yrs and while working 2-3 jobs at a time while homeschooling my children and I overwhelmed myself. I had to learn to say you can't do everything and listen to your body. They're currently checking to see if I have a condition called IIH because my eye sight gpt so bad in such a short period of time and honestly I feel like it was due to all the stress! I quit my last job and because I have money saved I've decided to just rest and get my health together for the rest of the yr. We're human and its okay to be tired you can be superwoman another time, promise 😊.
You are wise to know when it’s time to go… I wish I had known it quicker. But I did find my niche…in a Dr.s office.. I’m an LVN. I’m retired now. Don’t be too hard on yourself. We have all been a hot mess at one time or another. Hugs to you
Love, you've taken the step that MANY want to take and are afraid to. Please do what is best for you. You don't have to explain a thing to anyone. You've prayed about it and only God knows exactly how you feel. YOUR MENTAL HEALTH MATTERS. ❤
You are the reason I felt ok with my decision going to community college for nursing instead of a big university because I just knew my anxiety couldn’t handle that at first. We all appreciate you being so open and honest because I know a lot of us will be in your shoes at some point. You are not disappointing us at all you are showing the rawness and truth to nursing. There are ups, downs, highs and lows and you show how it really is and just know you are not letting any of us down. Sending much love through the screen 🤍🤍🤍
I’m not even a nurse nor am I interested in being a nurse but I LOVE watching your videos and supporting you. It’s your bubbly personality and positivity that I enjoy seeing. I DEFINITELY think you’re making the right decision by focusing on yourself and getting your mental and physical health straight and back on track. One of my associates is a nurse and she took a while off after being a hospice oncology nurse she’s now a nurse at a dermatologist office and seems so much more happier and healthier. When a job makes you feel the way you are it’s not worth it ! YOU GOT THIS ! WE ARE ALL HERE TO SUPPORT YOU. IM SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU ON YOUR NEW JOURNEY . I CAN SENSE A GLOW UP AND A NEW BEGINNING APPROACHING 💕
I'm proud of you. I don't work with that species of nursing but I work with animals and it can be so sad. I quit my job multiple times when the mental and emotional and physical well-being was just not healthy at all. Then I took at least a year off and went back. I am looking at your videos because I'm thinking of making the switch and that would mean I may not be able to do the veterinary nursing and human nursing at the same time. Im crying with you 😢 because all the what if I can't handle when my patients speak back to me.
You are not alone!!!!! Currently going through the exact same struggles as you. New grad on nights, on LDR, 1.5 years experience. Night Shift is killing me. I’ve said the exact same things you’ve said to my family, coworkers, fiance. I’ve dropped down 1 day from my FTE to 0.75 and so far it’s helped a little, but my next step will be dropping more days or quitting if I have to. Here for you girl! You’re never alone!!!
I've been Nursing 26 years... this is normal but never stay somewhere that causes 😢 feelings of sadness.
Your well-being is priority. I now suffer from MDD and PTSD.
All the deaths, short staffing and Upper management demands took a toll on me.
Only you know what’s best for you girl. Listen to your body! You need this! God has been guiding you this entire time and will keep guiding you into the right direction. You’re where ur supposed to be. You may feel lost right now but that won’t last forever. Just breathe and relax, pamper yourself. Ur mental health is so important! So proud of you!
Thank you so so much Macey❤️ I love you!
You are in NO WAY disappointing any of us Madison. Do what makes YOU happy, for your health and your mind most importantly. You have people on here that will love you regardless of your choices as a Nurse. Focus on what makes you happy 💕🫶🏽 you are doing great, just breathe.
Dang...my ptsd kicked in 😅 I literally was there at one point. I was burnt out as an LPN. The covid era was horrible for me. I worked at a nursing home...30 residents to one nurse. It got to the point where I would cry before heading into work and being on call had me anxious. I was depressed and would sit in my car by the lake or sit in my car for awhile before heading inside. There was a moment too where I had hoped that I would of gotten into a car accident or fall down the stairs so I wouldn't have to go in. When I got covid and was out for 11 days I was happy cause it felt like a vacation 😅 I did not want to go back. I went from this positive, fun, down to earth person to this negative person that I didn't even recognize. I left nursing, got my CDL, and became a truck driver. I been doing it for 2 yrs now with my husband. We been to all 48 states. Just need Hawaii and Alaska. It has been a great experience. I have no regrets. I needed a break from nursing. I'm back to my old self. The end of this year I'll be going back to nursing. This time around, I'll be taking care of myself physically and mentally. I'm putting myself first. I also don't plan to work at nursing homes or the hospital. I do want to go back to school for my RN but I am also looking into the ultrasound tech program. It's hard cause I do love nursing. I love seeing my patients get better. But I'm scared to go back to that dark place I was once in. Thank you for this video. Know that you are not alone. ❤
Thank you for sharing your nursing journey with us. I’ve been watching you before I got into nursing school I’ve since graduated and started working night shift in the hospital. At the end of the day you have to HAVE TO do what’s best with you. I understand how you’re feeling completely. Night shift , nursing in general is so hard and so draining and it can totally consume your life. You will get through this and find your way in the world of nursing. We all will!
Girl I needed to see this! I just started in a medsurg unit as a new grad, I have eight months in. In three different occasions at change of shift I was given a pt that was declining and were full code. It ended in two rapids and an actual code, right in the beginning of my shifts. Due to these experiences, I just pray to God before the beginning of my shift that I don’t receive an expired pt at change of shift. I also became very anxious driving on my way to work and noticed this was a red flag for me. My coworkers who are seasoned nurses even say oh “I’m sorry you went through this etc etc..” I think God has a purpose for everything. Even though those experiences were horrible for me as a new grad, it made me stronger as a nurse. That is the only positive spin I give it😞😔
Well said 👏 but to add to what you said… If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
I feel like so many people in the medical field can relate to your experience. I worked as a Central Sterile Supply Technician recently and only lasted a few months because it became incredibly overwhelming. I didn’t feel supported enough at all and I felt that some of my coworkers disliked me. I think a lot needs to change in the medical field when it comes to employee appreciation. When employees feel like their effort is recognized and they’re humanized, they’re more likely to perform better. You’re not alone! I plan to apply to nursing school soon and I worry about things like this all the time. I know it’ll be worth it though
What a way to get more followers! Unbelievable!!! Are just another Gen Z’er Crybaby!! You young people think that the world owes you a living and jobs are so easy!!! Hod has a plan for you, his plan is work hard and take care of yourself and stop being such an “Entitled” woman!! You want through all this to become a Nurse and do the job you trained for!! Life is hard as I’ve been a Combat Medic in the Army for over 25 years and got to goto school and become a PA. If your in a job that doesn’t make you happy, leave it! But, now days all these young women and men think the world owes you a loving and that RUclips is going to make you rich, well, guess what? You need to stop worrying about your RUclips Subs and get your head out of your butt and do the job you where hired to do! Instead your on RUclips crying like a little girl so you can get more viewers and you want to have work as much because you think RUclips is your way out of having to work like the rest of us and make a living doing what you love. You say you love Nursing? Really?? Looks like to me your just looking to make videos to get more viewers!!! God wants you to be happy and stop being a little crybaby Gen Z’er!! Get it together and work like the rest of us and quite thinking the world owes you a living!! Life is hard and you can’t just quite when the going gets rough and tough!!
More of you Gen Z’ers need to be in the military and then you’d see what it is to work and not be so freaking self-centered!!!!
Stop for crying and do your job like all of us do everyday!! Your a member of the crying, whining and feel bad for me Generation that is self-centered you can’t see the forest for the trees!!! Get a life and get off RUclips and work for once in your sorry ass life!!!
Crying and Whining is Not Right!! Get a grip on yourself please!!!!!!
I've been thinking about leaving my first nursing job recently, and I'm just a few weeks past my first year. Saw this video pop up, and I'm so glad I watched! I feel like I was meant to watch this video! Feeling this too, girl. Thanks for expressing what a lot of us nurses are feeling and taking care of yourself first! Wishing you the best!
You are not alone! I'm an L&D nurse as well and felt the same way after working nights for a year and half. I lost so much weight and felt so depressed and anxious constantly. Switching to days really helped me reconnect with nursing and realize why I love my job so much! Some days are harder than other of course but nights can really take a toll on your body! DO NOT beat yourself up what you are feeling is so normal! I hope you can take some time off and try to develop a more normal schedule! I know you will feel so much better!
This! There's absolutely nothing wrong with switching shifts or units or entire hospitals or fields of nursing. That's totally the norm in nursing & I wish there was more out there for new grads to realize that so they don't feel so terrible about their first job being so rough or horrible. First jobs in any professiona are hard but ESPECIALLY nursing.
watching this video very shortly after putting in my resignation at my first ambulance company as an EMT and feeling exactly the same way you have explained throughout this whole video. when you know that you can’t keep going the way you’ve been going, you’ve definitely made the right decision. on the better and more positive opportunities!
You’re not disappointing us. We want you to do what’s best for you because only then, that you’ll be able to be best for your patients. Self care before patient care. I used to work nights and it does affect your mental health in many ways. Some people are ok working nights, but for me, moving to day position had such a huge impact that I would not go back for extended time.
We’re supporting you, Madi!
A hospital is a battleground with invisible bullets killing people. The pressure is on, orders given left and right. Not for everyone but there is nursing jobs in private clinics away from all that. You have a big caring heart and need to be a nurse somewhere but don't rush it.
I’ve been a long time follower, for years! I never comment on anything, but you’re amazing. You are being so real and raw and I super respect you!! I found you the day i started my pre requs and now i graduate in 65 days. You’ve been with me and I’ve been with you through it all. And we don’t even know each other! Don’t feel like a failure, you’re so strong and so capable. You got this!! And I can’t wait to see where life takes you next ❤️
Thank you so much karli for sticking around and reaching out to comment❤️ you’re so kind and I truly appreciate it! I am so excited for you that you graduate so soon! You got this🥰❤️
You are AMAZING Maddie. you are NOT letting anyone down. When you feel those lies attacking you and this pressure that you are disappointing people, Cast all your cares and burdens on the LORD. I am praying for you! I've watched you the last 3 years, became an RN a few months after you did! You are so precious to the LORD!
Thank you so so much Ella🫶🏼🥹❤️ thank you for sticking around for so long too! It means so much to me❤️ I hope you’re doing well💜💜💜
Babe, you are so strong for posting this and being honest with yourself. Just by hearing you talk about your job I can totally tell that you absolutely love your job. I can almost 98% tell that you are struggling with anxiety and depression in regards to perfectionism. I am telling you this because I struggle with anxiety and depression. I currently work as a Medical Assistant in pediatrics and I can totally resonate with your emotions. I absolutely love my job but there are days when I have trouble handling the stress. Not because it’s hard, but because I have anxiety. I have trouble sometimes looking at people in the eyes, sometimes I get easily overstimulated/anxious by babies crying, sometimes my hands shake even though all I am doing it applying a bandaid on a patient. I get anxious when I look at the Doctors in the eyes. Sometimes I feel as if I am the one who makes the most most smallest mistakes. I am always asking questions and sometimes I forget so I have to ask again. I feel like I am bothering my coworkers because I am always asking questions. Sometimes I feel like I am not doing enough or I am not charismatic enough. I would advise you to go easy on yourself because you are doing amazing. I am currently attending counseling for my anxiety. I would strongly advise you to do the same. It is a tremendous help. - ❤ Julissa
You will not let any of your subscribers down. This is a real experience in this profession and the best part about this profession is that it is flexible and you will find where you thrive.
Maddie! You said yourself (in a previous vlog) do not be afraid to change nursing jobs. I’m an RN and this is the same advise I give to my daughter (she’s also an RN) and any other nurses!
Nursing is a career not a job! Also, night shift is very stressful and hard on nurses. On call sucks. You do not have to live your life this way.
Don’t be so hard on yourself. Move on to something less stressful! Heck, I left bedside completely and am now traveling as an RN, Case Mgr! I over doubled my salary and have the flexibility I could only dream of.
You are doing a great job. Stop overthinking this, move forward and be happy!
Don’t be so hard on yourself.
Thank you so much Regina! I appreciate your advice so so much 🫶🏼❤️ I’m so happy to hear you love your job now 🫶🏼
@@madisnursingjourney I’m so happy my advice helped you. The experience you’ve gained is priceless. You are a God fearing nurse who puts her patients first. These are the qualities that afforded me great opportunities in my nursing career. That being said, we have to take control of our careers and try new opportunities!
Feel free to reach out anytime. Hugs from Columbus Ohio🤗💕
@Regina Hall can you tell me how you did this? I want to get out of bedside and I need a job like yours for my own health (I have to go out of state for doctors and need flexibility).
@@madisnursingjourney 😭😭😭😭ILY, you didn’t disappoint us. This was very inspirational & I didn’t expect to cry like a baby. Felt like you were speaking to me. God def has a plan. He always does ❤❤❤
Always take care of yourself first. I actually had to call in sick today from my first in over 11 years and it would have been my 6th day of work. I hated to call in sick, but I realize it was the best choice for both me, the children, and the other workers. Don't be too hard on yourself.
Thank you Courtney ❤️ I’m happy you did what was best for yourself today🫶🏼 sending love to you!
I’ve been watching you since I was a CNA in nursing school! Now I’m a new grad LDRP nurse. Love your content and character! Hope everything works out for you because you deserve it! 💕
Madi, my heart broke when you said you feel like you were disappointing us or letting us down. I pray you have overcome that feeling because it is far from the truth. I felt privileged watching this, honored that you allow me and us to be apart of your journey, your life. This has been one of the most inspirational vlogs you’ve posted yet. You are so pure and out of all the amazing things that you are, I love and appreciate that the most. I’m sure we all can agree. I’m sending you the BIGGEST virtual hug that the internet has to offer. I’m so very proud of you for putting yourself first. You deserve to be the best version of you, mentally, physically, spiritually, etc. I believe you made the first step in that by making this decision. I love you and can’t wait to see where God leads you next! ❤️🙏
You have no idea how bad I needed to see this video. I am in the same exact boat - just hit my 1 year mark in the PICU and I’ve been on nights. I love my job and my patients so much and my coworkers have become family - but my mental health and physical health has been put to the side for my job and I am trying to make the best decision for myself and get on a normal schedule at a new job. My heart is broken because this was my dream - but You are so right - you have to take care of yourself FIRST!!
I’ve been following you from the beginning and seeing your growth is so inspiring. I genuinely wish you all of the best, you deserve it!! Thank you for being so vulnerable and know, you are not alone. 💗