Nowadays I try to find comfort in the small things... I quit thinking about the future and where I'm going. Enjoying simple games, silly memes, moments with friends, and watching niche content creators :). I wouldn't say I'm in a good place, but I'm better than I was a few years ago. Thank you for making these
I think one of the more surprising and powerful anti-suicide messages I've heard was essentially, what's the rush? we're all going to die that some point and it could happen any day. I GUESS you could cut to the chase, or you could wait to see what happens next, and die another time.
*hugs* I get this, more than you realize, and much more than I wish. Thank you for this video, and for existing. Let's keep pushing through this difficult game we call life together.
This video is going to mean so much to so many people and I'm so glad it exists. I wish i could make stuff half this good, you really have something special going on here with this channel and i hope you keep it up. It's niche but the people who watch it are gonna stick around. Thanks for making this.
Thank you for sharing this deeply personal and private side of your life, this felt very validating :) I'm looking forward to more videos! Here in Germany it is pretty much the same, the therapist is cheaper, which is great, but you won't get one. They are too overloaded. Especially because most psychologists don't specialise in analysis, but in teaching you "skills" to get you to change your behavior, which CAN help some people, but not anyone I know. Most institutions are full as well, you basically only get a place if you tried to commit suicide or if you convince a doctor, that it's inevitable you try. And of course with Germany being a very work-oriented society, you get all kind of comments when you are not able to do so because of something they can't see or understand.
I really don't vibe to much with the way depression or some other emotions like aggression are treated as negative things in the public consciousness, every single emotion is part of us and has a reason and a purpose. We need to be honest with ourselves, acknowledge them, listen to them and care for them. Not demonize anything that let's us connect to a deeper part of ourselves.. we need to handle those things with care, they are very precious.. Anyways.. great video, made me cry just the right amount!
I'll be real I've been in like the worst depressive funk of my entire life recently and I've always felt like overly saccharine messages about suicide fall painfully flat. But your talk at the end was great. Thank you. You're easily in the top 3 of my favorite RUclips channels out there and I hope you'll make it big on the platform someday. (if that's something you want) you're incredibly smart, eloquent, and entertaining. I hope you have a good one and I hope your lil cat has a good one too!!
Every few minutes you are already giving me something to respond with, but yea... See, I have this uneasy truce with the idea of me and oblivion. That one day I will find myself taking that final meandering walk into the dark or into the proverbial open manhole cover. But doing so with intent... It doesn't solve anything. It doesn't resolve the problem. It just leaves it for others to solve, as well as the problem of incidental leftovers. I have a wife. I have a daughter. My life means something to them and my struggles should never fall upon their shoulders. They deserve better than that. But I'm currently walking the tightrope between success and failure. A place where I have so much untapped potential and yet no avenues through which to embrace or pursue that potential. Nothing that can leave a lasting impact for the better. Nothing that can currently shunt my path away from failure and eventual oblivion. And when I allowed over half my life responding under the shadow of someone else's consequences and allowing that person's poor judgement to be viewed as some reasonable view despite his continued failures. When left in my own vessel, I make my peace, find my center, but the storm of shit, endless consequences of others behaviors that I have propelled myself to clean someone else's mess if only to have a clear path forward. I am walking this tightrope because I can see the potential in me and want to watch it blossom, expand, and grow, but I can recognize the size of the pot it has been planted in.
OMG THANKS FOR DOING THE GAME! Also there’s also a game I like, well it’s a furry game but it has some royalty, it’s called BLUE BLOOD, there’s a bunny mania, and a lot of baddies in it
I agree sadness can be quite comfortable and can become familiar. I noticed when I was sad I almost never felt alone but now I'm doing a bit better after 14years thanks to meds(homeopathy) I do feel the need for human connection more so. In my experience there is so much to living but depression just puts you into survival mode and you cant feel all the things life's worth living for . As in my case during my months long depressive episodes I had numbness which doesn't make you feel anything good or bad and with out feelings you can barely feel human .And during numbness I can certainly see how it can drive someone to suicide as during it you do feel like it will never go away but it does eventually and once your take out its root cause it might even go away for good. Depression and most mental illness are curable its just the cures can indeed vary form people to people .What I think people with mental illness need is a solid base it can be anything that keeps you grounded .And when you give yourself a chance and take care of yourself as much as you can then there is a big chance that things will get better I have seen it in my case and the people I met with those online depression forms despite the trolls they were quite helpful plus you can also be of help in those chatrooms as most people just need someone to talk to and its awesome to hear that you were able to help someone. Sadly those online groups are mostly gone now at least the places I used to go to .In any case thank you for such a nice video sonder I love horror games as it can have deeply human stories have you tried silent hill 1-4 and this ones not a horror game but LISA the painfull has alot of hard themes also a really fun game. Glad I found your channel 😄
Thank you! :) I love when people share their stories. I adore the Silent Hill games and may or may not be making a video on 2 next ;) also Lisa the painful is a super interesting game I may have to tackle that one someday
@@sonder1028 Oh awesome looking forward to that video! I got a CRT for my old ps2 and it brings a certain atmosphere to those ps2 horror games also I just love silent hill as it does what horror games are uniquely capable to do that is peer into the human psyche and cut no corners doing it.
Life for me has become a game, to find something...anything (no matter how small)...that brings me joy. It doesn't fix anything, but it gives me just enough strength to keep going. Like leap-frogging from one tiny lifeboat to another. To be stable just long enough that when it comes time to abandon ship again, I know I can do it. Sometimes, I even catch myself lingering and having fun.
Hurray, the real life Mavis Dracula is back with another great video! Just a fun fact: i think about suicide everyday without any intention to actually do it, and i thought i have something wrong with me. So i asked around reddit to see if anyone else shares my hobby, and before my post was deleted, the majority of comments for the question "How often do you guys think about ending your lives?" were "daily" or "often". Well, i guess I'm normal.
To be honest I'm here so often. I'm just trying to move forward I'm 23 I got plenty of life left. I can't ever make my mind exactly change but I can make some ciruemstanc better. Like I feel a calling for acting. And I'm sure I'll be depressed even while trying to achieve that goal. But at least there's something to strive for. Instead of feeling stagnant and stuck. Lots of others things happened last year and this year that had me just so so down and I still often am but I have a goal and a will to carry it out. I think that definitely helps a bit.
I will forever love your videos. It has this specific vibe i feel so comfortable with. Always a pleasure to see a notification of a new video of yours. You make me feel better in a way with your wonderful job done behind these 🫶🏻 I am glad i got to discover these games thanks to you. I would have probably not seen them that way, this deeply if not for you ! Wishing you the best 🫶🏻
Welcome back, Jordan Underneath
OKAY SO IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO PICKED UP ON THE SIMILAR VIDEO STYLE
Nowadays I try to find comfort in the small things... I quit thinking about the future and where I'm going. Enjoying simple games, silly memes, moments with friends, and watching niche content creators :). I wouldn't say I'm in a good place, but I'm better than I was a few years ago. Thank you for making these
I'm glad you find something in my videos :)
I think one of the more surprising and powerful anti-suicide messages I've heard was essentially, what's the rush? we're all going to die that some point and it could happen any day. I GUESS you could cut to the chase, or you could wait to see what happens next, and die another time.
*hugs* I get this, more than you realize, and much more than I wish.
Thank you for this video, and for existing. Let's keep pushing through this difficult game we call life together.
Thank you :)
Thank you for making this. The Cat Lady is my favourite game by Remigiusz Michalski.
Yo, love the Warmer at the end.
This video is going to mean so much to so many people and I'm so glad it exists. I wish i could make stuff half this good, you really have something special going on here with this channel and i hope you keep it up. It's niche but the people who watch it are gonna stick around. Thanks for making this.
Thank you so much :)
Susan, Mitzi and the cats need a warm hug 🖤🐈⬛🫂
Thank you for sharing this deeply personal and private side of your life, this felt very validating :) I'm looking forward to more videos!
Here in Germany it is pretty much the same, the therapist is cheaper, which is great, but you won't get one. They are too overloaded. Especially because most psychologists don't specialise in analysis, but in teaching you "skills" to get you to change your behavior, which CAN help some people, but not anyone I know. Most institutions are full as well, you basically only get a place if you tried to commit suicide or if you convince a doctor, that it's inevitable you try.
And of course with Germany being a very work-oriented society, you get all kind of comments when you are not able to do so because of something they can't see or understand.
I really don't vibe to much with the way depression or some other emotions like aggression are treated as negative things in the public consciousness, every single emotion is part of us and has a reason and a purpose. We need to be honest with ourselves, acknowledge them, listen to them and care for them. Not demonize anything that let's us connect to a deeper part of ourselves.. we need to handle those things with care, they are very precious.. Anyways.. great video, made me cry just the right amount!
I agree. Thank you so much 🥰
I'll be real I've been in like the worst depressive funk of my entire life recently and I've always felt like overly saccharine messages about suicide fall painfully flat. But your talk at the end was great. Thank you. You're easily in the top 3 of my favorite RUclips channels out there and I hope you'll make it big on the platform someday. (if that's something you want) you're incredibly smart, eloquent, and entertaining. I hope you have a good one and I hope your lil cat has a good one too!!
Amen
That's so kind of you to say :3 I'm blushing haha, I'm really glad it resonated with you!
You may have our retinas any time you please.
It's a treasure
As always, excellent video, and I absolutely love the song at the end!!
Heehee thank you 🥰
I think you are my favourite Cat Lady... enjoyer ;) This was great. And the song was the cherry on top!
Thank you! :) Playing and talking about your games has been very special for me
Sonder... How dare you call out my specific thought in the first few minutes.... Cause this series is what got me into you channel in the first place.
@@blackchibisan8116 teehee :3
Every few minutes you are already giving me something to respond with, but yea...
See, I have this uneasy truce with the idea of me and oblivion. That one day I will find myself taking that final meandering walk into the dark or into the proverbial open manhole cover. But doing so with intent...
It doesn't solve anything. It doesn't resolve the problem. It just leaves it for others to solve, as well as the problem of incidental leftovers. I have a wife. I have a daughter. My life means something to them and my struggles should never fall upon their shoulders. They deserve better than that. But I'm currently walking the tightrope between success and failure. A place where I have so much untapped potential and yet no avenues through which to embrace or pursue that potential. Nothing that can leave a lasting impact for the better. Nothing that can currently shunt my path away from failure and eventual oblivion. And when I allowed over half my life responding under the shadow of someone else's consequences and allowing that person's poor judgement to be viewed as some reasonable view despite his continued failures. When left in my own vessel, I make my peace, find my center, but the storm of shit, endless consequences of others behaviors that I have propelled myself to clean someone else's mess if only to have a clear path forward.
I am walking this tightrope because I can see the potential in me and want to watch it blossom, expand, and grow, but I can recognize the size of the pot it has been planted in.
THIS VIDEO IS SO GOOD!!
Awww thank you ^_^
Really goo video and glad to see that there is still a voice for this game in 2024
*deep breath* AND THE PROBLEM IS CAPITALISM.
cough, sorry, I needed to caplock that.
11:50 Susan being a an absolute Boomer just randomly and you having the same reaction as me whenever it pops up is hilarious to me 😂
Me when cat lady mentioned 0:16
BRO I LOVE YOUR VIDEOS you honestly also kinda inspire me very much ngl xD
Hearing that makes me so happy :D
Always happy to see a new video from you, especially on something I've not experienced before
RUclips never told me about this. Boo. Good to see more from you, hope the EP ends up being good!
Thank you so much! ^^
OMG THANKS FOR DOING THE GAME! Also there’s also a game I like, well it’s a furry game but it has some royalty, it’s called BLUE BLOOD, there’s a bunny mania, and a lot of baddies in it
Omg your back I've been so busy today. I'm so so so glad to see you. Well a vid by you
I am alive haha!
I agree sadness can be quite comfortable and can become familiar. I noticed when I was sad I almost never felt alone but now I'm doing a bit better after 14years thanks to meds(homeopathy) I do feel the need for human connection more so. In my experience there is so much to living but depression just puts you into survival mode and you cant feel all the things life's worth living for . As in my case during my months long depressive episodes I had numbness which doesn't make you feel anything good or bad and with out feelings you can barely feel human .And during numbness I can certainly see how it can drive someone to suicide as during it you do feel like it will never go away but it does eventually and once your take out its root cause it might even go away for good. Depression and most mental illness are curable its just the cures can indeed vary form people to people .What I think people with mental illness need is a solid base it can be anything that keeps you grounded .And when you give yourself a chance and take care of yourself as much as you can then there is a big chance that things will get better I have seen it in my case and the people I met with those online depression forms despite the trolls they were quite helpful plus you can also be of help in those chatrooms as most people just need someone to talk to and its awesome to hear that you were able to help someone. Sadly those online groups are mostly gone now at least the places I used to go to .In any case thank you for such a nice video sonder I love horror games as it can have deeply human stories have you tried silent hill 1-4 and this ones not a horror game but LISA the painfull has alot of hard themes also a really fun game. Glad I found your channel 😄
Thank you! :) I love when people share their stories. I adore the Silent Hill games and may or may not be making a video on 2 next ;) also Lisa the painful is a super interesting game I may have to tackle that one someday
@@sonder1028 Oh awesome looking forward to that video! I got a CRT for my old ps2 and it brings a certain atmosphere to those ps2 horror games also I just love silent hill as it does what horror games are uniquely capable to do that is peer into the human psyche and cut no corners doing it.
Well worth the wait.
Life for me has become a game, to find something...anything (no matter how small)...that brings me joy. It doesn't fix anything, but it gives me just enough strength to keep going. Like leap-frogging from one tiny lifeboat to another. To be stable just long enough that when it comes time to abandon ship again, I know I can do it. Sometimes, I even catch myself lingering and having fun.
Hurray, the real life Mavis Dracula is back with another great video!
Just a fun fact: i think about suicide everyday without any intention to actually do it, and i thought i have something wrong with me. So i asked around reddit to see if anyone else shares my hobby, and before my post was deleted, the majority of comments for the question "How often do you guys think about ending your lives?" were "daily" or "often".
Well, i guess I'm normal.
To be honest I'm here so often. I'm just trying to move forward I'm 23 I got plenty of life left. I can't ever make my mind exactly change but I can make some ciruemstanc better. Like I feel a calling for acting. And I'm sure I'll be depressed even while trying to achieve that goal. But at least there's something to strive for. Instead of feeling stagnant and stuck. Lots of others things happened last year and this year that had me just so so down and I still often am but I have a goal and a will to carry it out. I think that definitely helps a bit.
I mean, there's a reason I've always said I'm unmarketable.
Sewer slide 😞
I will forever love your videos. It has this specific vibe i feel so comfortable with. Always a pleasure to see a notification of a new video of yours. You make me feel better in a way with your wonderful job done behind these 🫶🏻 I am glad i got to discover these games thanks to you. I would have probably not seen them that way, this deeply if not for you ! Wishing you the best 🫶🏻
I'm so glad you find them comfy ^_^ thanks for sticking around!