My Recital: Chapter 1 (live edition)
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- Опубликовано: 12 сен 2024
- BACK WITH ANOTHER LIVE SESSION VIDEO.
I wrote this song as a way to express a part of myself, some of the dark parts of my past.
Things that help you understand me better. Things that i've not spoken about to people before.
This is the first chapter, more to come.
This live session video was recorded by Joe Flack @Flackerzfotos
If you would like to help me out with any small donations to help fund some equipment it would be much appreciated, anything helps!
Donation link: www.paypal.com/donate/?hosted_button_id=FEL43E8QHEKT6
Donated mate. I believe in you buddy. Keep chasing your dreams. There are no limits on what you can achieve, only those you put on yourself. The best growth is always achieved outside of our comfort zone so it will always feel uncomfortable, and we will always feel ‘unqualified’ in that place, but it is where the magic happens (where you enlarge your tent, your vision, your self confidence, your resilience, and the best - in my opinion - your depth of character). Be blessed mate ❤❤
Donated. Love this track. ❤ You had a lot to deal with, but putting the pain into words will hopefully bring relief. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Maybe pin this at the top of comments? It will be found more easily 😁 Donated, your strength shone through the pain in your song/rap. Peace.
@@nancydenis8059 I will do! Thank you so much for the support. I appreciate it so much and this is what helps me keep going. Have a great day!!!
@@saltlight5689 I’ve just seen this, thank you so much for your support and kind message
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@RenMakesMusic the fact that you took the time to listen and hear this artist and show love is why so many people are inspired to be better humans daily. Thanks Ren - you're truly top tier my friend
My heart 😢
Gonna bless the Renegades with your talent ❤
Vik and Ren are friends irl@@Lynds77
@@portiadavenport9866 Brighton kids🔥🔥 ☀🌧🌈
Thank you all for your kind words and the support I’ve been given! This is the reason why I want to keep doing what I’m doing.
I only heard of u after ur interview with Dan went live and i can’t get so much of what you said out of my head 😢The stuff about ptad, not wanting to be soner coz then you feel all the pain , the way u described tht feeling by imagine everyone else is seeing rainbows n stuff is so similar to the way i described it to ppl ❤I used to say it was like the world didn’t have any colour anymore it was just the kinda grey n dark. I was so shocked at how in a heartbeat I was bk in that place when i haven’t had any of the flashbacks or anything for years , I had to pause and just sit there for a bit to get my brain working again cos it just went to fk noz where 😂😲Kinda felt like it’s because of the way ur able to tell the story so perfectly that we all feel like we were there with u n thts a rare precious gift ❤keep smiling and doing what you’re doing coz you’re gonna be reaping the rewards hopefully soon 😊
Wow! That's beautiful but so sad sorry you've had so many troubles. You're just about to find your gold xx
Here because of Ren and your Dan Wheeler interview. Subscribed immediately. I'm old now. Been clean and sober a little over 9 years. Isn't it wonderful to see color again? I know exactly what you mean. Thank you for being authentic and vulnerable, Vik. I truly wish you the best, brother. ✌️
@@rexrogers1859 that sentence “isn’t it wonderful to see colour again” just blew me away. Thank you
@@ItsviktusVik what else do you have in store for us brother? I’ve listened to this track like 7 times in the last 6 hours.
Lyrics:
I can’t lie man I wanna tell the truth
I suffered with myself so let me talk to you
Just listen in close everything I say is true
You might just hear something resonate with you
From a young age I don’t remember much,
I remember being hungry but barely eating lunch
I remember all the death like when I lost my mum, my baby sister too why the fuck have they all gone
I woke up in the morning to the sound of someone screaming
I ran out to the noise just to find lizzy not breathing
My fathers on his knees and I know he ain’t believe it
He tried to wake her up, no luck, but he’s pleading
See, lizzy left me when I was like 6
A long time ago but the memory it sticks
My mum and dad go low, fell down to the abyss
And then they grew apart, they couldn’t hide it from their kids
Not long after,
I lost my mother
Went down the stairs cuz I had the thought to hug her,
But that was something
I couldn’t do
My father told me get up to your room
So I sat in silence, and then I heard the sirens
I saw the flashing lights and I saw my brothers frightened
My father came up, looked at us and started crying
See I knew the reason,
My mother just stopped breathing
I weaken at the knees and now my dark thoughts they deepen,
Believing I’m a heathen all my demons I can see them
Yeah,
One day I’ma crash and burn
Reminiscing all the missions all the lessons that I learnt,
And I’m missing but I’m wishing well for all the friends I hurt,
I treated them like dirt,
say you love me?
That’s absurd
Idle movements, feel like I am cursed
Tie me to the pyre and let that shot get burnt
So I live and I think for another better day
Got a lot up on my mind, got a lotta shot to say
Ima take my pace, yeah I’m guna take it slowly
Chat about myself, so then you know me
First things first,
No mother
7 years old, young boy don’t recover
Didn’t have time to tell her that I love her
The world turned grey man I couldn’t see the colour
Lost myself so I had to rediscover but I couldn’t do that I got left in the gutter
See I went to school but I didn’t really fit in
Tried my best didn’t know what I was missing
Now I’m sitting reminiscing having visions of my timeline
Tryna move forward now I’m tryna live my life
Gave up turned to alcohol and drugs
Kicked out my home had to do it on my ones
I was so lost man I felt no love so
Yes I tried to do it, tried to pull the plug
Overdose didn’t work that was is not the one
Russian roulette with a fully loaded gun
Pull the trigger that is really what I want
Life been a game so I treat it like one
See the last couple year been the hardest of my life
Lost all I had now I’m reminiscing time
Fuck it
Numb the pain, rack the line
I lost all my friends in the space of time
Fuck it,
I know the fault is mine,
I wana make amends I wana make things fine
So fuck what you think
what you wana say about me
A lotta fake friends they don’t wana hang around me
I’m up out the gutter so I’m standing tall proudly
Up in the sky you will never bring me down B
So pleased that you’ve come out the other side and can tell your story. Much love 🖤
Such a powerful song, and sung from the heart...it was amazing ❤
Thanks for posting the lyrics!
Poetic agony - Be kind to your sweet soul ❤
Fuck. You're going to shine, my brother. I hear a bright future in your lyrics.
Hello Vik,
I didn’t know who you were until REN mentioned you, so I decided to check you out. My heart goes out to you, I’m so sorry for your losses. I’m glad you are standing proud,and metaphorically, I’m standing with you. Sending you lots of love and support. You have such talent, I can’t wait to hear more from you, especially your colab with Ren. Hope to meet you in person one day to give you a real hug. 🙂 Stay strong, we’re with you. Jen
Damn, Vik, this made me cry. My dad killed himself when I was 7. I know how losing a parent at that age blows your universe apart. It took me many years to come to terms with that event and the long-term effects of it, the anxiety and PTSD and thinking I was unlovable and worthless.
I'm much older than you are, and can share that my mid to late 20s was when I was able to begin healing. It doesn't just happen, it's an intentional process, and that's what I see you working on here. Bravo! and if I could, I'd just give you the biggest, loving-est hug and tell you that you can do this, survive this, you can and will thrive. The grief never is gone, in truth, but you learn to live with it and accept it and let it be. We're all like those Japanese broken bowls that instead of being thrown out are mended with love and care, thus become their own flawed but beautiful works of art. Much love to you, and I so look forward to hearing so much more of your music. You're an artist.
Sorry to hear this, but I agree with you, some things need to get broken for them to look or be different from others. our experiences in life are what make each of us different and unique
I teared up thinking about that little boy and thinking how little choice we have to what we are born into.. no one can really fault you for what you fell into. Somehow you found strength.. when I go to sleep tonight I will have your Mom and Sister in my thoughts as I know they must always be in yours.. peace ☮️ for your success through all your struggles.. really good track.. very hard hitting for sure but promising for a better future for you..❤🎶♥️x
Thank you❤️
Sorry Vik. Lost my father at 10. Never recovered. Spiraled down myself. Still here. Spiraling still, but still here. Stay strong. ❤
Keep pushing, slowly turn the pain into power, do whatever you’re doing with your chest out, with him in your mind. U got this❤️
Thanks man
From the heart... the best kind of beats are the hardest to put down. Showing vulnerability and self reflection is the true test of strength and resilience.
💔😢 that hurt my heart….never ever ever forget your worth. You are seen, you are heard, you have a voice, you have value….and you are worthy of love and happiness. Your mum would be so proud of you. I’m standing in that gap today because you remind me of my sons, and I want to speak some motherly love over you ❤❤❤❤❤
I don't even have words 💔😭🖤
Am excited because this is the beginning of another amazing artist and it's soooo cool to witness the journey. Like I'm sure he's been making music for ages already but it's the start for me. Gonna be sharing and bigging U up Vitkus. Boom 💥🖤🔥💯
Hugs to you, dear fellow human....hugs.
Omg Vik. This was very painful and very beautiful. I hope that bringing this all out helps with healing. ❤
Completely right 🎈🎈🎈
Sending you warm hugs. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I hope it's all uphill from here 💛
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The irony of the 'uphill' sentence made me want to share my thoughts.
'Up' is usually a good direction to be going, however 'uphill' brings to mind difficulty, struggle, a battle that is hopefully rewarded with the opposite direction, ironic sounding 'downhill'. This is from the runner ,ski bum and cyclist observation stance.
So, maybe your words don't mean what your true wishes are. Those wishes are the same as mine.
Viktus, we want you to know that we are thankful for you sharing your story with us.
We hope it's all upwards from here.
With the people you have in your close circle, your in the best place imaginable. These seem like lifelong friendships. The kind that you would take a bullet for.
Speaking of bullets, it thrills me to no end that you got to go shooting while in Vegas. I'm only 8 hours north of there so I was smiling from ear to ear thinking about how close the magic was to me. (On the grand scale of things)
Looking forward to the future. I'll be a lifelong fan of yours as well as your niche of lads (and Brigit).
You found them and they found you. Lifelong keepers.
Hardhitting lyrics.
It takes a lot of courage to put this out there for everyone to hear.
Hope this helps you heal your wounds. The scars will always be there, but the pain will become bearable with time.
Looking forward to your collab with Ren.
Keep up the good work.
Stand tall my friend. Hugs from Germany. Awesome talent. Thank you. 😊
Lots of hugs and love...🥲🥲
Wow. I can see why you and Ren get along. You both approach your music with a deep openness which has been really missing in the music industry for too long. Not afraid to talk about the hardest things in life. Much respect for the resilience and drive to do that. I look forward to hearing more of this creative journey.
That's a brutal story and I'm so sad that any kid had to go through that. Wishing you a soaring future.
Mindblowingly Heart Shattering, and just to be able to pen it shows a strength that is so far beyond inspirational, it inspires inspiration's inspiration....!!!!!!!!!
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The people who go through the darkest times , become the brightest diamonds ❤
Thank you for expressing your journey in such a beautiful way to share with us 🖤
Wow... beautiful. Heart wrenching, but beautiful. ❤
Bleed it out friend. *hugs* Thank you for sharing your story. I couldn't imagine going through what you did. Thank you for being with us.
Oftentimes the most beautiful of souls experience the most suffering, and you certainly are a beautiful soul, transmuting the darkness and pain into light and purpose. Your soul shines through it all. You are art. You are love. 🖤
Damn, this was good. This pure and raw feeling can really only be portrayed in a live performance. You can feel that the lyrics come from the heart. I went to check out your other stuff and was surprised that this was only your second video. I listened to a new life and loved it aswell. I'm excited to hear what you might bring in the future.
Fuuuuck that hits hard. Glad you survived and now taking your pain and creating with it and sharing it with others. I'm totally here for the men that are being brave enough to talk about their shit and hope it opens the doors for more to follow ❤
This is amazing 🔥we'll done
Damn, that one got me in tears. I really just want to hug you, be like fuck them. You are still here, they can’t stop you from being you.
Just a shout out. Discovered you because a group of folks that love Ren, saw some jerk in the comments on your music. They wanted you to get showered in kindness.
Damn dude, you are good at what you do. Love the tattoos as well.
This was powerful Vic. Thank you for sharing some of your story with us. Looking forward to hearing more of your music💕😊🔥
Wow Vik! That brought tears to my eyes. It was so powerful. Your voice a cadence just pulled me right inro your world.
Beautifully and brutally raw glimpse of some of the darkest moments of your life, full of the sort of pain and loneliness many will never understand.
The strength in surviving what you’ve experienced is one thing, and more than should ever be asked of a child, but the strength required to open a shattered heart and share that pain with the world is beyond measure.
May your tomorrows be kinder to you than your yesterdays. I look forward to the music you’ll create.
Amazing. Keep at it bro , you're gonna blow up just like Ren did. Here for it
Thank you for sharing your story, Vik ❤
I can see and feel you. - Giving your pain a voice is so courageous. So now you made the first step, many will follow. And we we all be here for you 🤗
Fuck man. I feel deeply sorry for you. What can one say to this story... Its just like at a funeral, these set phrases don't help so you better say nothing and show your empathy with a hug or something like that. Only the strongest survive something like what you've gone through! Keep going, keep it raw and shout out the pain. Maybe this helps. Very hearttouching lyrics. I wish you all the best. Stay strong!
Hello Vik , I saw the interview you did with Dan. I have great admiration for your strength, humour and positive message you are sharing . Thank you for your honesty, I wish you success with your music . You have my sub.
Thank u so much!!
Thanks so much for sharing this. I'm sorry for what you have been through. I hope things will get better and putting the pen to paper will take some weight off your shoulders one word at a time 🌟
You just never know what some people have to go through.. much love.. great tune 💖💖
Really beautiful, man. I admire your honesty and your strength. Music is the best form of healing, so keep at it.
Wow. I wanna hug that little boy. Hope this song was cathartic for you. Beautiful painful song ❤
Vik...this is so honest and heartbreaking . At the same time I hear the hope and love come through for your family and your bravery for telling your story. You are here this day and this time and this moment. We got you.
Pam
Oh Vik, you’re amazing! There’s so much to you, and no wonder. Diamonds re forged from the fires of hell, and the pressure of all eternities. You’re here, thank the universe for the part it played too. Too much loss, and sadness, but you are living breathing testament of hope and brighter tomorrows. That was wonderful, your story telling kept me on the edge of my chair. Very well done!
This is so beautiful but heartbreaking at the same time 😢❤❤Xxx
Beautiful, heartfelt performance. I just want to give you a big hug. Thanks for sharing some of your story and I look forward to hearing more. You are very talented! Much love ❤🩹
This song touched my soul. I lost my 21-month old niece, who lived with us most of the time, to a tragic accident 12 years ago.
I fell down an abyss. I lost my hair due to a stress condition I have called trichotillomania, I lost myself. It took years to recover.
I felt every word you sang. I grew up poor, I was the weird smart kid. The quiet one.
So touching.
Sending love ❤️ ❤
Wow, bud, powerful. This song is so courageous and heartbreaking. Keep up the good fight. You got this. ❤❤❤
Totally loved it, moody, melancholic, deep and from the heart.
That is exactly MY kind of jam.
Rumors says your into pig-games.
Great, I like it! Lots of love from Sweden.
SO powerful. Thank-you for sharing this part of you with all of us. Much respect and much love.
Thank you for the support!❤️
Wow, that was emotional Vik! My heart went out to you then. Amazing, sending love from Kent ..
Talent, truth, and trauma are the catalyst of amazing art like this. ❤❤ I'm so sorry for your pain, it's actually absurd how much I can relate to in my own life , and my trauma. You are an amazing artist, your song transcends ❤❤
This was something else!
Appreciate you for sharing your poetry and showing your strength.
Love and support, brother!
A friend of Ren’s is someone who is worth knowing so had to check out your music. This was deep. And clearly very authentic. Also I loved that piano. Keep going man. Sometimes it’s all we can do. Just keep trying. But hopefully we get to look back someday and know it was worth it.
Mannnn i just watched your interview with The Dan Wheeler show, i laughed with you, my eyes leaked a little but mostly i just smiled. Turning so many negatives ìnto positives I salute you dude. Your track with Ren sounds an absolute banger, cant wait 🎉
Thank u I appreciate the support!!
Painful, but beautiful. Looking forward to more from you, Vik! ❤
Wow what a horrible hand you've been dealt Vic, sorry for your pain. Seems to me though that the healing process is well underway so good luck brother.
Feel the pain in this. Hugs, mate
Your flow is 🔥. Your story touched my soul. Look how far you come and have grown 🖤.
Can't wait for Chapter 2
Damn brother this hit me hard. It’s a dope track though. You were riding that flow harrrd 🔥❤️
WOW, that was so deep and real! So damn good!
This was beautiful and heart wrenching. Thank you for sharing your story 💜
Nothing but respect for putting your journey to this point out there man. And to the boy you were, to the man you are, I'm sorry you had to deal with any of that. I'm sorry you felt so lost without a way out that you felt that the final way out was the only way.
But the strength you show in doing this, the passion with which you deliver... Man, aint that something.
More power to you! I wish you peace, i wish you good health and I wish you happiness. For whatever my words are worth!
Much love dude.
❤❤❤ THAT was hard and beautiful. Made me cry. Thanks for opening up and letting THIS spill out, Vik.
We now know your starting in life, wishing you the best to come and we will be there for the songs you'll share
Damn, this hit hard. 😢 Beautifully written, thank you for sharing 🙏🩷
Fire 🔥🖤😊
So raw and real, it was huge for you to be so vulnerable. Sending you a hug, and hoping that the healing you need finds you in the music. ❤
❤️ keep doing You you are more than enough! 🔥⭐️
I can’t even imagine going through what you have. If my son lost me I would want him to know that the most important thing in the world to me is that he is happy and lives a fulfilling life. I’m sure that is what your mom would want for you too. She would probably be very proud of you for pushing through all of the adversity and coming out strong. Wishing you peace, sending you love ❤
100% , she’s protecting me from above 🦋❤️
Sending virtual hugs 🫂 🤗 ❤️ Traumas a bitch but it makes us who we are, keep shinning your light, never give up 🥰
Vik, thank you for this, quite intimate, track. I will come back to it… 🖤
Hugs & of love for y’all! Be kind to ppl around you.. and be kind to yourself ❤️🩹
This is great, Vik. Keep it coming!
Beautiful and heart breaking
Just discovered you through the Dan interview Vik (glad I did!). I really dig your style and delivery man! Your music has a message and I'm here for it as well as the more fun tunes. This is a very moving song. You have a new fan. Can't wait to hear more from you. Keep kicking life's ass! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥💕
Momentum.... let it carry you forward young man. All best.
That was powerful and moving. Thanks for sharing, man. I really hope your well.
Keep putting out bangers, music from the soul is the best
Such a personal vulnerable track. Sending love and hugs from Texas.
Looking forward too this.
Listening. ❤
Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us, Vik. It was so powerful. Looking forward to hearing more from you. Hugs and love.❤
Oh ,that is so from your heart , love you loads , feel every word x
Fuck man😢 Lean on us man if you need to. We are not just music fans, we are a community.
Wow. Straight from the heart. 💜
Damn I use the word beautiful too much, but, beautiful. The raw sound of the beat with cleanly spit words reminds me of older rap. Much appreciated.
Heartfelt and honest. Nice cadences. Great voice. You have a future in this, Vik. ❤❤
This song legit making me cry 😭💔 Heartbreaking yet relating in some ways.
Just -- wow.
I've heard you're a pretty positive guy for the most part, and that's good -- but your darkness, your depth is where your beauty lies. If used correctly it can be such a strength but I think you already know that. I came here from your collab with Ren but I stayed because of you. Liked, subbed & all the rest. Can't wait to see more, nice to see the face behind the mask. It's a good face.
Keep rolling that burden, Sisyphus. I never believed there was no way to break the cycle.
Hey Viktor! Wow that was brilliant and emotional raw, ❤. The stage is yours brother and I’m here for it!
Vik this is amazing! It’s so real and heartfelt, also made me shed a tear.
Jesus.... this had me all emotional and in my feels
I lost my mom when I was 12. My whole world was blown up. I also thought I was bad, when really I was taking care of my baby brother. I wasn't bad, I was lost. It's been a long time, I'm 68 now, & I've learned the good side of me is much stronger. I hope you know the great person you are, as you stand proudly now, & love who you are. You have good friends in Joe & Ren, and you're so talented. My 45 yo daughter & I love to watch the videos you & Joe make. We love who you are!
Beautiful mate ❤❤❤❤❤❤
I came here via Ren. I’m subscribed and staying for this. Your writing- power in peace. 🖤🌻
Ren sent me...I like what I hear. God bless you...keep up the fight...Bob Clark
Im saying again ! Beautiful..Haunting ❤❤
Music can be a form of therapy. Keep it coming. I have a feeling there will be a Brighton Boys tour at some point. There is so much talent within your group. And the fact that you lift each other up makes it so much easier to love you. So Slàinte Mhath! Can’t wait to see what’s next.
Damn Viktus, this hits hard! Can't wait to see what else you've got going forward.
How many different UK artists am I supposed to fall in love with at one time?? 😂 I just went through all of your videos and there is nothing but 🔥 here!!! Never stop making music! 🎶 ❤