The best description I've heard of depression: "Depression isn't when things go wrong and you feel terrible about it. It's when everything is going well, and you still feel terrible about it."
Vital Smiles I’m so sorry for your loss. They say time heals all wounds, but I don’t think that is totally true. Time can lessen the intensity of the pain-although in my experience, sometimes the pain is super raw and fresh again. Is he usually there for everyone else, but not you? Is he mainly there for you, except on this anniversary? I’m just trying to understand if this is a more isolated/specific incident, or if he does this all the time-dismissing (aka invalidating) your needs and your pain? If it’s just on the anniversary, it’s probably his way of coping. But he’s your husband! If he can’t acknowledge your son’s death anniversary, he really needs to communicate that with you! Maybe you have before, but from what you’re saying-you need to reiterate that you need love and support. You need to feel that you and your pain are being seen and heard. His feelings are not more important than yours. You can and should feel free to express your feelings. And to expect that your husband will support you to the best of his ability. Even if that’s just listening to you. 💜
Supa 4ys I think what he means is some people that are depressed feel guilty because they know that so many more people out there have it worse, much worse and some of those people don’t even feel depressed and are living a decent life, so it’s like “why should I feel sad and hate my life when they are people that are happy and don’t have a life as well as mine.”
Or nearly everything inside you is dying and the only thing you can feel is rage. A need to smash things up and get into fights. Just so you don't need to talk to anyone and you're not the only one who thinks you're an arse hole. Depression is a monster!
Exactly. My parents acts towards to me like this, like I have to be happy, try to happy. Whenever I tried, it never worked out, whenever I tried to tell them how I feel, they act negatively towards to me, so I stopped saying how I feel, I just keeping it to myself. Just like Chester said in the video. Almost everyday I feel like I hate everything, I am not happy with anything and I don't want anything.
Only thing I look forward to anymore is sleep so I can dream and escape this shitty reality. Really just wish life would change or end. I'm happy with either
Depression is when you don't want to go to sleep because you have those minutes before you fall asleep where you can't stay busy enough to keep your mind from thinking about all the negativity.
A friend of mine said to me that depression is like a cold: you have it for a while, and then it gets better. I said 'No... it's more like arthritis: you always have it, but some days are less painful than others.'
Definitely nailed it! I live through this daily anxiety/depression from the anxiety attacks there really isn’t very many good days. Just like Chester said when your alone with your own thoughts or inside your own mind it’s a bad place to be.
Honestly my major cyclical, episodic depression (MDD) vanished the day I had the magic mushroom tripping while listening to the birds singing in the early morning, up at the cottage country in Muskoka (Ontario, Canada) Literally changed my life.
The irony is, that is the right advise. At least two problems arise from it though. - It is so easy to say those things that you can't help but feel anyone who says that doesn't actually give a fuck about you. - Portraying the end goal first does not actually mean anything, unless you know the path there.
Anyone who does that should get punched. There's actually a saying in the bible (which is true, religious or not) that says if you wake someone up early with the bashing of pans and screaming of cheers, that it will be accounted as a curse - not a blessing, the same can be said when a narcissist tries to portray themselves as false positive energy.
@@SteveVon7 Depends on the attitude and context that it is said in. If the person that said it actually cared about the person they said it too, it wouldn’t be so bad, or at least not too offensive. If it was said to imply mental weakness in another person, it would make a person upset. I don’t think anyone is showing weakness by feeling intense pain over life and wanting to commit suicide, but ultimately I see suicide as a selfish act. It depends on factors such as quality of life, too. People that commit suicide cause intense pain and emotional issues in the people they leave behind. When we find love within and show it to others, it is strong. But not stronger than people focused on pain. Pain is just something we all have to deal with hopefully as positively as possible.
Yep. Most people don’t know what this shit’s like. It doesn’t help that the word “depression” gets thrown around too much and has lost a lot of meaning. Major depressive disorder is a much better term.
Same with suicide. My mom attempted suicide when I was 18. I thought she was being a selfish bitch for doing that. Twenty years later I tried to commit suicide. After I was released from the hospital I apologized to my mom for judging her.
Been there and I am still there. CB is right, much of it is caused by myself but I can't escape that f t world mindset and crawl into a corner to just sleep.
The worst thing about having depression is the fact that you have to try and be a "Different You" in front of loved ones so that they stay happy...while you just rot away slowly but steadily.
Not me. I don't give a shit about what anyone, whether their friends, colleagues or loved ones think. I'm not living my life for them, I'm living it for myself and anyone who tries to interfere or manipulate what I'm doing will be dealt with quickly and cut off entirely. You should live life on your OWN terms, not anybody else's terms. Otherwise, you'll never be happy. Life is a game and people only "care" if it's in their self-interest. To win the game of life you need to become the best possible player and learn to see through people's BS because no one is who they truly say they are. They all have a nice facade, but behind the facade, dangerous moves are being carefully planned out.
The worst part about depression for me is that even though people say you should get help and talk to people, when you do, they don't actually help anything. They feel sorry for you. They don't want to be around you, because you're depressed. They think you're going crazy. Talking to people actually makes it even worse. That creates even more loneliness, and it's just a part of the downward spiral.
If you have the right people around is not a bad thing. My friends are the best told them about my mental status and they said they will do their best to make my life better. They said they are always there for me. So therefore I am feeling a little better when they say that. You just have to choose the right people to talk about your problems and know that they will never judge you for anything.
When you have clinical depression and ppl say "you're not alone" it's almost like a slap in the face, because that's exactly what it is. Regardless of how many ppl I'm around, or where I'm at, I'm always alone. It separates you from everything, there is is no "cheer up" "stop feeling sorry for yourself" "you'll be fine". It's not something you can control, it controls you.
You are not alone means, at least when I say it, that other people go through those struggles too. I would never be that ignorant to say it the way you just described.
Hexenkind1 Well that's easy to say after someone describes it that way. When ppl say "you're not alone" they say it because A)That's what they think they're supposed to say or B)So they can feel good about themselves because they "helped" somebody. The only ppl who care or can somewhat help is ppl who suffer from this shit.
2017 was a dark year for rock. I didn't expect Chris Cornell to commit suicide due to depression. Chester certainly didn't keep his depression a secret but I was still shocked and heartbroken about his death. RIP CHRIS and CHESTER
It's hard not to look back and think of how you could've done things differently and subsequently blame yourself - and this thought process only makes matters worse.
I am living this right now. It is a vicious cycle. It has been a lifelong process to learn how to deal with it. I struggle everyday to explain this to those around me but it seems all for not. I want to be left alone often just so I don't negatively influence others like right now.... I have spent all day in my blacked out room watching youtube because it is easier than dealing with anyone around me.... I've tried many different medications with no real positive changes. At 40 I have been at this for about 20 years, my only light is that I have made it this far.
I’ve been feeling the same way for only around 2-3 years now, though it feels longer than that. This is my normal now, and I don’t really see a way out. I feel a little bad for feeling like this and for talking about it because I have a lot of people to talk to, it’s just that doing that never helps with anything.
@@dylanhitchcock6574 One thing I have learned is most people just don't get why you cannot "shake it off", or "just be happy." Not to sound like an asshole but if it was that easy do you think I may just do that?!? Some days are better than others but honestly stop trying to explain yourself. Unless you've been through it 99.9% of normal happy people don't and will not understand. Take it one day at a time and focus on the good days and have a short memory for the bad ones. Dwelling will only drag it out. You owe it to YOURSELF to be the best you and accept that bad days will happen. Much love, and feel free to hit me up when you need too. Helps to have someone who has been there and gets it sometimes. Take care.
I found out over the years that people always seem to be "shocked" and "sad" when someone commits suicide and they say things like "I wish she/he would have said something". The issue with that is that they HAVE said something, but non-depressed people don't want to listen because they feel like it's annoying or repetitive. And guess what, it is. Can you imagine living with it for decades? It is annoying and repetitive for the person who feels it, too! My advice, whenever someone opens up to you: don't tell them things like "it's going to be okay", "please seek help" "life is amazing", don't say that. Instead, JUST HUG THEM and listen, listen, listen! Again, and again and again and again and again.......
I respectfully disagree. I’ve never struggled with depression but several family members and one of my oldest and dearest friends do. Dark, crushing, bleak, and searingly painful, their depression is a hungry monster just waiting to take another chunk of their lives. I do listen, but sometimes it’s hard for me to understand why they are feeling a certain way, but I acknowledge they do. Yes, it is difficult for non-depressed people to hear the unspoken words abowsut another’s struggles, because we don’t always have a common language. It can be very hard to maintain a relationship when the other person constantly pushes you away. I keep trying because they are so worth keeping.
@Marko Djurdjevic dunno man, I've met a couple of dudes who pretend they're depressed just for attention or edginess. One of them was talking about how shitty his (privileged) life was at my brother's friend's funeral. At some point I stood up and told him to shut the fuck up and he stayed quiet for the rest of the thing. Some people man, this is exactly why I hate humans so much
@Julia Milford yeah there's tons of hiding because you know you don't want to bring everyone down. And then when you die they're all like "oh wow didn't know he was troubled, someone should've done something". Hindsight 20/20 baby
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
It's weird cos I genuinely just told some they can talk to me if they want and I honestly meant it but dunno if it sounds like how it does when someone says, "you're not alone, I love you" if u catch my drift.
ya it makes no sense. saying you're not alone while you're completely alone and I love you, when people only sneer or ignore you in real life. I'm not alone....sure.
@@HopelessDestiny91 I have been unemployed for 9 months now. I'm so scared no one will ever hire me. ..I was terminated from what I believe my medication and mental disorders I just couldn't deal with being there any more so I wasn't too upset at the time but now I really regret it. I was there for 15 years. I am a quivering mess at job interviews. I have not been looking for a while I had to take a break it was giving me mad anxiety. I is hard to hold a job in this state of mind, I have to start looking again next month. I have always been depressed and anxious but was able to work don't know what happened. No I do know. it's like I had a melt down.. all of a sudden every thing went to shit. Whew l I am a loner but sometimes I wish I had some one to talk to. Some one who truly cares and doesn't judge or think I am just feeling sorry for my self even though I do have pity parties a lot. Whew. At least I can sleep THANK GOD. it is important to get enough sleep and I have crazy colorful wild dreams probably from the seroquel I have to take for insomnia. It's my sweet escape then in the morning I go uuuuggghh. I have been having some thoughts of suicide lately but I just can't do that to my kids and sister and neice. We are all we have. Both parents died with in 3 years of each other and my sister's baby father died in a freak accident. Was a horrible 3 years. Then last year my youngest was diagnosed with bipolar disorder which is a absolutely devastating! !. .out of the blue one day she slashed her leg to ribbons and threatened to kill herself by swallowing her bottlres of UNUSED medication Zyprexa ..almost right after I got out of the hospital from a spinal fusion. The cops came and handcuffed her and took her to this awful place almost like a prison and wouldn't let her come home until she took lithium for 4 days. And i was in so much pain from surgrey it was really bad. Sorry that is fuck ed up she didn't stay on the lithium, gawd it's a funky med. I better stop now. I have no one to talk to so I could sit here all night and realized that I just hijacked the other posts by writing a novel. Thank you to anyone who actually read all of this it's A LOT
Strange how fate works. I'm depressed and have struggled to understand what the fuck is going on with me. By random luck, I stumbled upon this video. Chester Bennington's words on this topic are spot on. His explanation is on target to what I and many feel while trapped in a deep depression. I don't have the courage to do what Chris did to escape this madness, and I suppose that's the purgatory I must endure. Thanks for this video, and God bless you.
@Mafaman I thank you so much for that and I needed to hear that you care about my problems. I may have to take you up on your offer, I am waiting for the husband to come home and scream at me again, last night was enough. .long story short I don't know how to do anything for the umpteen time. Anyway you are a doll. And I will be here for you too if you want
Denise Pleines I feel your pain too. I have the most debilitating depression, anxiety and OCD. I know how hard it is struggling through each day. My girlfriend who I was living with for two years left me 3 months ago and now I have no one. She was my soul mate and I miss her terribly. I don’t go out anywhere apart from work and I’m pretty much a recluse. I had a life with her but now I have nothing. No purpose for living. I think about suicide everyday as I just want this mental anguish to stop. It feels like a thousand nails all piercing my head at once. I’m 38 years old and given up on ever being happy. I just want peace.
Not only was Chester screaming to sing their songs, he was screaming for us, he was letting out our emotions, emotions that we can't let out, he was doing it for us.
-Thinking alot -Can't sleep at night -Hard to wake up -Dont feel to eat -Loss weight -Don't care about everything -Loss interest in everything -Doesn't want to go out -Easily get angry/sad -Blaming myself for everything What happened to me?
@@kevinboon4330 -Thinking alot -Hard to wake up -Don't care about everything -Loss interest in everything -Doesn't want to go out -Easily get angry/sad -Blaming myself for everything + -Don't have will to do anything -tired all the time is here! you are not alone. Maybe I need more chemicals in my brain thats make people happy and active 😒 with hunger to earn more money or be respected in society.... but now, for 10 years, I don't have these feelings at all.
@Anime/Rock&Metalfan Knowing that you're going through it, is a big step. At least now you know that you should talk to someone. Some people don't realize that they are depressed until it's too late. For some, it's slow and gradual where you don't notice it.
@Anime/Rock&Metalfan the worst thing you can do is sit about go for a walk do some excercise keep you're mind active mate,I suffer from it unfortunately for me Its self inflicted through using cocaine
People should not tell ''friends ''about their depression,because deep inside they dont care.... It sounds mean-but is reality.. -nobody cares about personal problems of others ..I tried to talk to one ''friends'' when I was depressed they even left me on read..... Sometimes the people who would care the most are family💗...🥴
Like a big black cloud n all you feel is pain n life n living doesn’t make sense took me 18 years to get over a major depression I still have some bad days...I bought a little dog n he’s helped me feel love again
Linkin Park honestly has helped me so much with my depression. Just hearing Chester's vocals and their lyrics just brings so much light into my life. I am forever grateful for Chester and Linkin Park for getting me through every day. He said it best "The skull between my ears is a bad neighborhood."
One of the earliest times in my life that I got sad and moved out of my childhood house, I blasted Hybrid Theory in my empty bedroom and suddenly felt better
Listening to his voice still helps me to some extent to this day and I'm now 31. He/linkin park was my favorite growing up and without him here it's hard and can only listen to his old songs and take me to that happy place
@@AK-nd9io it really helped to me in due time. The fact that other people can feel the same I do. 'Cause it's so much pain thinking I'm only one who has this wrong way, like everyone happy but I can't be.
I feel the same way. I never want to express it that way because it sounds very self centered and superficial. I can't for a fact that my feelings good or bad are stronger than anyone else's, but It seems to me other people's negative energy infects me and takes me to the dark room in my mind where I hide away all my negative thoughts. I'm a songwriter as well and when I look back and read my lyrics I just think oh my god, how did I survive and suppress these feelings for so many years
I feel his & everyone's pain... to the point of neglecting myself worrying about things I can't change & people I can't help. But that's just my personal exp. The right medicine does help.
@@stacey7637 when i read "to the point of neglecting myself worrying about things i cant change & people i cant help" i totally understand what you feel, it happened with my mom when she was in a car accident, she was bedridden for a few months and i was her caretaker and i devoted myself completley to taking care of her to the point where the only thing i would do to make me feel "pampered" was when u would take a shower, i wanted her to get better at any cost and luckily she is & didnt care what i had to do or give up, same thing happened recently with my dad when he was diagnosed with oral cancer, i dedicated my time to him and he was my only priority. I never cared about doing anything to myself that i would usually do. Luckily i still have both of them and my dads recovering still cancer free & my mom up & walking healthier than ever. Blessings to you & anyone who goes through a time of self neglect, do what your heart feels.
"He's an artist. He felt too much." DAMN. Some of the happiest people I know have the least self-awareness/intelligence. Which is dangerous to understand because it almost validates our depression. Like it's inevitable.
A world without feelings is an uncontrollable state of boredom, it consumes you thats why sociopaths tend to end up as criminals, they are in a never ending search for stimulation.
“I envy sociopaths because they don’t have to feel anything.” Most people don’t realize how real that feeling is. Sometimes I wish I were a completely self-centered person so I wouldn’t constantly be worrying about other people’s needs at my own expense. I don’t mean to humble myself, but being an empathetic person can be so painful sometimes.
the pain of compassion, the constant expectation and worrying passion, sometimes I just don't want to care so I don't feel the guilt, the other side of it. Like being sensitive, you feel the good more but the bad too yet it's worth it. I think that to feel outweighs no feeling like life to death but sometimes that's the desired seemingly cure.
Well, I don't feel much and I'm still depressed and anxious as fuck. It really wouldn't help you at much as you think. You'd just have different problems, a different kind of depression, that's all.
labeling depression as 'not okay' is why you're depressed in the first place. If you can accept all your feelings (anxiety, hopelessness, loneliness etc.) then you're doing all you can. A depression doesn't want to fight you, it just wants to be seen, but people keep running away from it. Stop running away from it.
As someone who suffered from depression pretty much all my life I just want to say the past 2 years have been incredible for me. I've never felt this happy. Just know there is hope!
As a person who has suffered with depression since I was 8 years old I've always felt a bit better when I'm asleep because reality is a shitty place to be.
Reality is a shitty place and sometimes life just absolutely sucks I feel alone all the time even though I know I’m not alone and I never feel like doing anything except sit in my room alone with my thoughts and as Chester said that’s a bad neighborhood for me to be walking alone in
@Austin Casey I do my best brother I take it one day at a time and try to focus on the good but some days are harder than others I appreciate the kind words always keep your head up brother cause we never know what tomorrow may hold for us
The part where he says, "...when I get in here, in my head, that's a bad place to be, a bad neighbourhood" that hits me hard, I feel that, I've always felt that. What he left behind, his legacy, the sharing of his pain, his soul, through his music, helps when I'm in the darkest of places. I hope you found peace Chester
I'm just coming out of a cycle. I've noticed that it comes in phases. You can be perfectly normal for years and then one day while doing something completely thoughtless and routine, it sneaks up on you and sucker punches you. There's no escape. The only way out is through. You have to let it wash over you and try not to let it do too much damage before it passes. Getting sunshine. Stay moving even when it hurts and it's the last thing you want to do. Keep repeating to yourself that it will pass.
Chester was an enigma of a person. When I hugged him I felt EVERYTHING!!! He was the only celebrity death that actually made me break down and cry. Because when I met him, he appreciated me. I wasn’t just another fan. I mattered. And that’s special
Beatriz Amorim Yes, it would be interesting. I’m not a fan of him, actually. But listening to some of his interviews, I understood he was an incredibly interesting person.
@@federicozucchero6770 Yes.... And just finding out today that he was John Podesta's son, adds a whole new level of understanding to his pain and torment... Among other things to think about.
Well that’s kind of relevant... considering how many people in the world are depressed at some degree To me it’s surprising I didn’t get this in my recommendations earlier For you it seems it’s something fleeting so that’s why it was a strange thing to happen for me that’s everyday for the last 10 years...
You should definitely have a talk with whoever you know that really cares about you, do not wonder if it will go well, do not tell yourself that there is no point, just do it. Find a close family member or friend, just be honest and share with them your struggle, just to let them know what you are going through, you will be surprised how much they care. Understand that your experience inside your mind, is not stronger than the comfort you can have from someone else in the real world. Have faith, reach out to someone you know that really cares, even if you doubt, even if you've done it before, just choose to believe that you are working on a turnaround. The awful neighborhood that is inside of your head, is an illusion and you know it, when you choose to listen to a caring person over your negative mind, you will find peace. Once you have a real moment with someone who loves you as a person, life is not a burden anymore, it becomes a blessing.
@@zachsawyer4822 Not destroy the phone, just adjust the settings, turn off "report diagnostic data", "search recommendations", and "search history", that will give you less intrusive results and recommendations.
Know what is strange when I have a good day the next day is going to be an extra bad day. I'm not making this up. Or maybe it is my mind playing with me. I have to stop the negative thoughts like some one else said, ...it gets you no where fast
He lives in our hearts. He helped so many people. The sad, the lonely, the depressed and the lost...he touched each of us. Long live Chester Bennington's soul in his music. You say he lost his fight, but his demons are gone. I hope you find peace my brother.
I'm 53 yrs old. I'm not suicidal. But each night when I'm ready to fall asleep I hope it's my last. Then when I wake up I start my day disappointed with the knowledge that I have to get through another day. I do my very best to not bring anyone else down or even address my depression. I laugh and make jokes as a mask so hopefully no one will see what a mess I really am. I tried meds, different ones and different dosages. Tried therapy but I always got the feeling the therapist was talking to someone else. We are not the same as anyone else. Each person is unique, and each depression is unique. The four therapists I tried seemed to want to liken my issues with someone else's issues. Listen, I know I'm not alone. I'm not looking for a comparison. I'm looking for a way out. Show me. I won't kill myself. That's not an option, though I must say there's been many a time I've considered that route. But if natural causes could visit me in my sleep, my family would not have to ask why.
Wow. Same. So incredibly lonely yet not alone. This sickness is so hard to understand because logically you understand it, but cannot control it. At least not without medication, and even then. I felt him when he said his head was a bad neighborhood. I hate being alone with my thoughts.
Kelly Hare I would love to be able to count the times I've been told to get over it. Truthfully I wish I could put into words. Tell anyone, someone, what's in my head. I have tried to put it into words. I've tried talking, writing it. The words don't exist. But when I try, in either format, I break down. I cry. And it's a cry I can't stop. I feel like I'm not a man. Wasn't a good husband or father. I only cry alone. Pretend I'm happy. I'm good. In a roomful of loved ones I'm on an island. Hoping nobody notices I'm not happy. What's worse than being told to get over it is someone asking me, "Is something wrong?" Cuz the you say whatever you can that will let that person know that there's nothing wrong. That you're fine and happy. That question is asked but is hoping for no response. The person asking the question does it so they feel good just for asking it. Imagine answering it in that room full of loved ones. You'd never be invited back. Even the ones with depression of their own would keep their mask on and join the others and cast you out. So we eat our depression as if it were a home cooked meal. And we cry inside. We cry alone cuz that's where we are. All alone. I'm fine. That's my common response. I'm fine.
I'm crying on and off now the last couple of days , like you I'd like to fall asleep and never wake . Theres no fun anymore I just go to work pay Bill's and repeat......put on my mask every day and smile as if I'm ok , broke up with my fiance before xmas , feeling so lonely and low most days I guess poor life choices has me where I am today , I wish I was never born I didn't ask for any of this I don't know why I exist I I never had any purpose or felt any sense of direction , I feel lost in this cruel sad world
Dance Legs when I'm exceptionally low, I seem to be offended by people around me (family, friends or strangers) smiling or being happy in general. How dare they act this way when I feel like stepping in front of a bus. I want to ask them how it is they don't share my darkness. It's a selfish feeling but during these times I have a hard time using logic just as much as I do trying to act as if everything is fantastic. I haven't had a good day in decades. I've had moments that are fine but never an entire day.
For what it can be worth coming from an internet stranger, I'm proud of you for getting up today. I'm proud of you for battling your brain. Remember that depression lies.
@@car_tag I appreciate both your response, as well as your empathy. Unfortunately though, biology dictates that after going to sleep, once the sun rises, you have to get up and do it all again until it's time for bed once again.
@@gmcleod5639 i know everything about that. But in 2016 i decided my body didnt have the power over my mind. I cant even believe where i'm at right now. Never thought i had this power in me. I worked for 4 years and i could retire tomorrow and be well happy with the rest of my life. Im 24. Keep at it man. Physical exercise helps a LOT . i found help in cannabis oil also. Changed my life! Praying for you man, hope you do well!
That is EXACTLY how I feel, now I just gotta try explaining to my parents, they're always just like "Oh every teenager has depression." I always thought that, now I know it's something more.
Unless you have depression, you will never know how this feels. The best way I can describe it is... you want to run away, but not just from everyone around you, but from yourself too. I sympathize so much, I know how you felt. My prayers and thoughts are with his family and friends 💕
I want to heal, I want to feel, what I thought was never real, I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long. I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real. I wanna find something I've wanted all along, somewhere I belong. We hear you Chester. Some of us feel it too. Rest in peace my friend.
and nobody paid much attention to it, that’s the sad part. it’s like what he was saying, he was just saying and that’s it. it’s heartbreaking that nobody tried helping him.
Ghost Weylyn Lupine I’d say a *lot* of people did listen to him, but I had hoped that his art gave him enough of an outlet to release those emotions and would be able to keep going on. Anyone who’s really listened to his lyrics, even if he didn’t write that particular song, can just feel the real emotions he put into it. I knew it was coming from a real place and there was a constant internal struggle. I hoped that a combination of performing and standard therapy (which he admitted to attending) was going to be enough to keep him from taking his life. I often wonder if he would have ever taken that step had Chris Cornell not done it first.
Craig Kostelecky well, yes, you’ve got a point. i do see how he’s had enough of an outlet. although, sometimes, your only outlet just isn’t enough to keep you mentally going. so i deeply hurt for him, but at the same time i understand. he had the chance for his therapy, but unfortunately the worst gets the best of us.
@@yoe91 yeah killing yourself isn't good for your family but he made sure they wouldn't ever need anything else after he died. he wasn't being selfish he just couldn't take it anymore and felt horribly alone.
yoe91 that’s literally the point if he didn’t care about his family and stuff he wouldn’t of done it he shoulda cared about himself and he woulda realized that he needed his family and stuff
Lol are you sure your human ? I now I'm not ! We are so much more complicated than that ...we are spirits having a human experience not humans having a spiritual experience...that's the truth do with it what you need to ...just know it's true
Yes his Sun sign is in Pisces, he will definitely be sensitive and sense negative energies easily from his surroundings. It was the same with Kurt Cobain
"I dont want to kill myself I just want to go into the corner and lay down here until I die" pretty much sums up how ive been feeling for some time now :(
@@gothic12fan i love playing football and season is soon to kick off, im looking at some different activities to get into to keep myself busy and occupied, its just not always that easy :/
I am overcome by a wave of missing this guy. I never knew him. I have always liked LP but have never been a "fan". I was sad when he died. Hearing him speak this way makes me mourn and cry.
Idk you but I'm always here if you need someone to talk or vent to. I myself have had depression in my past so I know what your going through. Facebook me and ill add you if you want
Depression is like quicksand...the more you struggle and try to get away the quicker it consumes you. My love to all those who need it cause I know how it feels.
@Intelligent Redditor I'm pretty sure they meant that the more you try to overcome it, the further you get away, it comes back and drags your under deeper than you were before
Depression is pure hell. I have depression on top of anxiety. It's a constant battle everyday and I feel like it's not getting any better. I wish I couldn't feel anything anymore. 💔
Depression just shuts everything down. You no longer see the point in accomplishing daily tasks, you want isolation because peoples positivity and energy makes you uncomfortable, you want to sleep all the time so that the day goes by without incident, hoping you'll wake up to good news the next day. I've watched people be drove into depression by their own failures, by unachievable pressure put on them by their families, by past love interests, because they are not happy with their body or how they look. Its tough. Its the feeling of staring into the face of hopelessness. Twice i was on the verge of suicide. The best way i found to get out of it was to attack the source of the problem. The body and the mind. Exercise and eating better foods. Once your body starts functioning correctly, then your hormones normalize and you start to regain your energy and motivation. First couple weeks you have to fight through that brick wall of excuses. Your body doesnt want to leave that comfort zone. You just tell yourself "ill just walk on the treadmill or lift weights for 5 minutes" after that 5 minutes, you'll feel like doing more. Your mind will try and derail you until you take back control.
MrPantera123456 main thing is to just take steps everyday towards getting healthier. My bloodwork was terrible during my depression, and a huge factor was terrible diet, lack of exercise, and lack of vitamin D. My testosterone was extremely low. Started doing walks and lifting weights, and taking 4,000 ius of vitamin D per day. It doesn’t kick in immediately, it takes months to start taking effect, but I was deficient. Took me a couple weeks to get through that wall where I would have to force myself to exercise, my mind wanted to stay on the couch and play online games. Once I got that in order, I made two lists and put them on my fridge. One was things that bothered me that I wanted to change about myself or my life, the other was a list of accomplishments I wanted to achieve. Every single day I would work on those lists. Just hacking away on them little by little, over time crossing out one after another. Most of them were simple, very achievable goals. Getting my garage cleaned out, weight loss goals, I needed more money, so I got a second job at night, ect. I’m sure our circumstances aren’t the same, but these principles can be applied to anything. You can do it. You can get back to enjoying life. Just fight back against all the stuff you need to change, and don’t take any days off.
But if you are depressed cause of your body and his appearance and mystery illness when no practioner has been able to help cause they are all fucking expensive it is not easy. Exercising and eating better diet just is not enough.....I am one of those people. I can honestly say that this makes me wanna end it all. Body problems are the worst...
Well, working out actually helps me a lot. I'm working out for like 8 month now. But I'm still very depressed most of the time. Working out alone doesn't help you at long terms when you still have so many other problems that are pulling you down. You have to attack every single little thing in your life to constantly start feeling better but even that might not work. You just have to do it and hope for the best
Well its good that it helped you. But the best way to treat serious depression is to get help. Speaking to someone about it goes a long way. Ive voluntarily spent 2 months in a psychiatric facility and i remember that time as a really good one.
That's the problem because when I asked my mom what she would do if I sad I'm depressed she answered she don't know Mental problems are one of the most common things in our modern society but we learn (barely) nothing about it in school
That was so moving and he explained it JUST AS I EXPERIENCE IT.....almost 52 and been this way since I was 13. Life just sucks sometimes.....I have more to cope with than I can handle because of my health.
"Most of my problems are always problems that I caused myself." That is not an easy thing to admit, recognize or even remember when depressed. I miss Chester and Linkin Park.
I love that talk. I've watched it multiple times. Another couple of talks I've enjoyed are by Johann Hari. One about depression and another about addiction. Worth looking into!
Yeah for many people with depressions "happiness" is part of the illness. You dont always have "downphases", when you habe Depression Intervals, the time between "down phases" the "up phase" feels like everything is so much better then normal, lets you forget the problem you had a few month before and will come back in a few weeks or months. What makes the "Downphase" so much harder. Its like a rollercoster on crack.
The ending that reads, if you feel like this you are not alone”...completely misses the mark. I can be in a room full of people...and I am still, always alone. Depression is the loneliest place on Earth.
And then you take the steps towards getting help, because that's what you're supposed to do. And there's no help, no fix to this. That's why it's a mental health crisis. Nobody knows what to do. My last attempt at reaching out to the doctors I had a telephone appointment and was sent links to online self-help and a suicide hotline. That was it. I don't expect anyone to wave a magic wand and I know this is ultimately on me but the point of this rant is I'm sick of people acting like help is out there, you're not alone etc. It's all bullshit.
This is the classic mistake people make when trying to understand depression and suicide. These things are not about feeling alone, or feeling unloved.... Suicide and depression are about the value that one places on the world which surrounds them. People who make the decision to leave this world, are often surrounded by much love and many friends, but they decide to do it anyway. This often confuses people because they always focus on the things that don't matter in these cases.... "He was so loved...He was always surrounded by loved ones, so why would he do this?" Questions like this can never be answered, but more importantly, questions like this are not about the ones who leave, but always about the one who are left behind. It's true, depression can be the loneliest place on Earth and this is something that no person, outside of those who are depressed will ever understand.
@@RumbleFish69 You put that perfectly; “the value that one places on the world”. You can still function, have family and friends, have a successful career, but you’ll still feel like you’re in a place where you don’t belong. Your brain simultaneous has a desire to fit in *and* can’t stand being here. It’s tortuous.
@@user-bf7vu6od4k Exactly!!!!! And when you are at your worst you are not going to call someone or reach out and it doesn't matter who loves you or what you have, you want to escape what is going on in your head!! Three weeks after I tried to kill myself a psychiatrist is like now you have a support system, call someone. I was like it just happened before and you expect me to reach out now. No one understands except other people like us!!
I can be alone at home and feel 100% content also. Depression can sometimes come from trauma. I am 53 and working through my own personal trauma, I wish you well, and hope you find your space. Beginning of this year, I was self harming. So when I say, I get it, I am not being trite. xx
I always feel guilty that I’m depressed because I know that I have a good life, and that I should be happy, which I then turn into “you don’t deserve this good of a life“. Hearing people like Chester talk about it in this way helps me understand that isn’t true.
Sometimes it's hard to even recognize depression in yourself. It's like, "Oh I guess staying in bed all day in a dark room isnt the best thing... huh?" "But it feels so right!"
I like the line about wanting to be like a sociopath, because they don't feel any guilt/remorse, basically nothing. That's better than feeling utter crap all the time
@@comradeskipper5232 no you wouldnt They suffer more than people think. They feel no love, no fear, no real happiness, they are just dead inside. They never feel stimulated that's why they need to hurt people in order to feel alive. They may not feel guilt, but they feel eternal boredom because of the fact they cant feel emotional stimulation. You should read up on the suffering of sociopaths/psychopaths. Just listen to people like Jeffery dahmer, Ted Bundy, do you genuinely think they were happy people?
If you were as numb as you wish you were to be then you’d instantly regret your wishful thinking. Feeling nothing is a fucking hell yet it’s not a hell, people tend to interpret it as an ethereal space because you don’t feel anything but that’s just it, you don’t feel anything. You don’t even feel the need to say “bAhHhH pLeAsE make it stop!!!” You’re just like “meh”. Believe me I’d much rather be sad all the time then be here, it’s like not moving forever and not being yet being ok with it, as if it doesn’t matter
I envy people who effortlessly wake up each day with a smile and feel happy going about their life..I would give anything to have that, just for one day.
Maybe those ppl don't really exist. Maybe they're just ppl who wake up and decide they're tired of feeling miserable. They chose to feel something else.
As a person who is bipolar and experiences both sides of the extrem regularly, I can tell u, that it's fucking awesome to feel good and enthusiastic. But I also more so know how it feels to be down and sad and hopeless. It's even more extrem when you literally felt the opposite just a few moments ago...
Eh it's an idealistic viewpoint and these people don't actually exist. Motivation is something you have to habituate yourself to it doesn't come naturally on a regular basis. Life isn't going to inspire you until you realize you can reach for it. No one is happy all the time and this kind of unfounded perspective towards some ideal human being is part of the reason why depression clings onto some people. Those people you think wake up in the morning happy and ready to face the day are only that way because they have to be. More importantly because they want to be.
The most powerful description of depression I heard was from this gentleman from an interview in the 50s. It's essentially what hell is like. Not the pain, but the absolute hopelessness.
Something I’ve learned from severe depression: “Having a different mindset” does absolutely nothing. You can (maybe) trick yourself for a little bit into thinking you’re fine. What helps me the most is exercise and taking care of my responsibilities. Having pride and confidence is very, very helpful. That’s all I have to say on the matter:
Have a question.....What you just described there is in fact changing your mindset about life is it not?.....I am very fortunate to not have to live through these struggles... your story is very inspiring to even people like me....All the best and take care
Those parts when you "trick yourself for a little bit into thinking you're fine"... what if they're not tricks? What if they're moments where you are gradually learning how to feel better? What if you can learn about how to get to those moments more often and how to stay there longer? Wouldn't you call that recovery?
@@ShonaMcCarthy It doesn't really work like that. I'm speaking out of experience here. If you're seriously depressed, your mind will do ANYTHING to bring you down, make you feel worthless. When I was experiencing depression, and I thought: "Is this a happy moment?", I would immediately think: "No, just for this moment. After this I'll feel terrible again. Everything is temporary." And it just kept happening. It goes from bad to worse. From not being able to enjoy moments with friends to waking up in the middle of the night reaching out for a knife. Luckily I haven't succeeded and have recovered and found peace. I thank my family (especially my brother) and Jesus for that.
I couldn't agree more. The only way I used to get through the day was exercise. I now have two young kids and do not have time to exercise and I've hit the lowest of the lows. Modern society is toxic to humans. That is why so many people are depressed. Human beings are meant to be outside and doing physical work. Not siting at a desk.
It's hard when people that have never been depressed say, "Call me!" or "Just be happy." That's not how it works. When it gets dark, that's where it's about too late.
I think what most people who haven't been through it personally fail to grasp is that when you're in those (often painfully long) moments, it's really, REALLY hard to call someone, or reach out, or to feel like you're worth someone else's time. Not their fault, I do deeply appreciate the sentiment, but like, it can be really hard to seek help when you need it most. Today I would've laid in bed all day dreading my existence if I hadn't gotten a text from my friend finally at like 4pm. Sometimes you just really need someone else to go the extra mile to reach out to you....and that's the hardest part is that you never know when it's gonna happen, and when it does, it's hard to let someone know, and harder still for that to be the right person in that moment. It makes me think a lot about AA and NA groups, how people build networks in those groups for mutual support, and someone you know, like your sponsor for example, will sometimes go outta their way to check up on you. I've never been to AA or NA cuz I never felt I needed it really, but I feel like we need something similar for people struggling with depression. That would be so powerful to have a handful of people who you know you can hit up for support any time, because they're there for you and you're there for them. We need mutual support communities for people with depression.
@@RyTheUnDefined I'm glad you got that text message and were able to get up today. One day at a time! And I agree that groups/communities for depression would be helpful.
You should definitely have a talk with whoever you know that really cares about you, do not wonder if it will go well, do not tell yourself that there is no point, just do it. Find a close family member or friend, just be honest and share with them your struggle, just to let them know what you are going through, you will be surprised how much they care. Understand that your experience inside your mind, is not stronger than the comfort you can have from someone else in the real world. Have faith, reach out to someone you know that really cares, even if you doubt, even if you've done it before, just choose to believe that you are working on a turnaround. The awful neighborhood that is inside of your head, is an illusion and you know it, when you choose to listen to a caring person over your negative mind, you will find peace. Once you have a real moment with someone who loves you as a person, life is not a burden anymore, it becomes a blessing.
@Some Random Guy I agree that not everyone is given the same family situation or social environment, but that doesn't mean that it's out of your control. You are the one who keeps or discards someone from your life until they die or leave you, and you are the one who can go out into the world and find new people. You might not like the people you know online right now, but make no mistake the internet connects you to the entire world almost, and you can find more understanding people then can even be met in a lifetime. I mean just look at this comment section, all these people with similar experiences in depression are connecting and interacting to this day. You absolutely have innumerable friends you haven't met yet out there if you look for them. You can even find locals, in your community and meet in person. If all you have is fake friends, forget about them, find new ones, and stay close to your family, hug and pull them tight, show them all your appreciation, and treat them with your very best. I understand how much loss and emptiness you must feel without your wife, but the Love of friends and family is all you need to make life worth living I promise.
I get it that these people think they want to help, but they are unaware of what that would mean. I can't call the same person over and over again, every single day just to bitch about how shitty everything is. They wouldn't be able to handle it and it would bring them down and it would be awkward for them. And for me too. I'd feel stupid and would start hating myself for dumping all my misery on somebody who otherwise is alright, or at least is not fucked up like I am. Also, in that interview where he's sitting on that couch with Mike, you can see how Mike laughs after Chester says the heaviest things. I'm not saying this to throw shade on Mike, i'm just trying to point out, how those who are not struggling either have no idea how serious this is, or they do, they just feel awkward and don't know how to react when something so heavy is brought up and are uncomfortable in the situation and can't help reacting in an awkward way.
people: “his death was surprising, we couldn’t see any signs” the signs: edit: for anyone who doesn’t know this meme format, the blank space is referring to the video! i mean to say that the signs were very obvious, not that there were non :)
I always heard the lyrics he'd scream out as a catharsis, like maybe, by expressing himself in that way, to show his anger, his sadness, his frustration, was cathartic to him in some way. But album after album, after album, it was always the same story. Every single thing he said in that video was also expressed through those lyrics along the course of 7 albums (I'm just counting the main studio releases, not the remixes and live albums). It's like it never really got any better for him. I just hope that listening to Linkin Park can help other people with depression realize that they're not alone. Their lyrics strike a chord in so many people. They listen and think, yeah man, I've been there or I'm there now. I identify with so many of their songs. Thankfully, my depression is mild and I'm able to keep in check most of the time but I know that not everyone can. Thanks Chester and all of Linkin Park for your music, your lyrics, your emotion, and an expression of what so many people feel (or don't feel) on a daily basis.
I have been a carer for a family member whom all my life I just wanted to hear that I am loved by this person. It’s been years (6) since I have had a life of my own. I was diagnosed at age 12 with depression anxiety..etc. I love my family member and I try so hard to get that love reciprocated. I am in my 50s now and my depression is at an all time high. I am exhausted and lonely and tired of feeling like nothing. I just don’t want to do life anymore. 💔
@@geraldfilkins9425 For real, even talking about it takes effort and clinical depression (which I'm struggling with) is a horrible, unenviable beast that just sucks the life clean out of you. It's aggressive apathy in its rawest, most horrible form and it Will kill you, unless you beat it. Sometimes beating it's not even an option either because the damn thing can bounce back at any moment. The best most of us can do is keep it contained, stave it off with sticks and stones and everything that works. It's Really easy to turn to alcohol or drugs too, to get away from it and even easier when you genuinely don't care anymore. When it literally doesn't matter to you whether you live or die. My heart goes out to anyone else unfortunate enough to be dealing with this shit. But on a slightly more positive note, it's possible to win. You can work through it, contain it, manage it and see that sunshine through again.
Have been listening to a lot of LP recently after a few years off. The messages and references to suicide and depression can be found in almost every song. And people wonder what happened
What a legend the man saved so many people with his words his kindness his lyrics he saved me the day he died was the worst day of my life rest in peace soldier
I can relate,it was extremely shocking and heartbreaking to hear the news...I was in a very bad place after he died for a few months.He's the reason so many of us are still alive,and when he took his own life,I kinda felt like doing the same you know,why can't I give up too.But my amazing son and fiance got me through it,and today I'm doing better then ever But he'll ALWAYS be missed❤
When one of my family members passed I was going through a tough time. But Linkin Park was there it helped me through it. I cried a lot but Linkin park was always there and they helped me cope with it. I wasn't suicidal I wasn't even depressed but those times were difficult because all those thoughts in my head made me really think about things and how everyone needs to be loved. I then found one more light and that song made me cry a lot and made me a better person. Even though I was sad and angry that I lost a family member it still means that someone else who doesn't know me won't care and that really made me think
The worst thing about depression is that you can't express how you feel because everyone will only tell you are seeking for attention; your family will tell you have nothing to be depressed about. Sometimes I feel I'm too weak to be in this world, like I don't even know how I've made it until this day, honestly I am terrified about the future, because somehow I know my days are counted, there is almost no strength left inside me so, I'm just waiting for my day to come which is really sad because this is not how I imagined things would be many years ago.
Hey, Mariana GR. I understand you. Nobody imagines when we are young that life would be so hard. Everyone finds out that this is what we are condemned to be. Hope you are doing all right.
Keeping busy and helping others helps. Also find things you like. For me I enjoy games and music and work. If you can focus on the present and making good memories that's a start.
I have clinical depression and have suffered from this for 35 years. I go from feeling physically and emotionally numb to feeling everything. Sometimes I just want to fade away but I can't as I have a family and responsibilities. Sometimes the only way to heal from your mental scars is to confront the monsters that made them. Know that you are enough, you deserve to be loved.
People say you are not alone. They say that, but when things get dark, people don’t stick around. I am alone. I have tons of people around me, tons of family, but that is what depression does when it sets in. I feel nothing. It is a complete abyss. I am so alone.
Don't worry you are not alone... Because I feel the same too. Totally alone... Zero friends..No text... No phonecalls... No communication... Only office calls..
I relate to this too. That what it feels like to me - a void where feeling should be. It's like a persistent numbness that never quite goes away and you wish that you could enjoy things other people do. What helped was going out and doing the things I enjoyed, whether I was alone or not. Travel, music, etc.
Yeah you're right. They say "just tell someone you're depressed". Or "reach out" ... When you DO tell people they run away. People act like your vibe will rub off on them... like catching the flu.
Chester Bennington saved my life. When I thought no one could feel the way I did and I felt like I could just crawl in the corner and die, I had the music to keep me sane and to remember that I'm not alone. The day he died, I just didn't know what to think or how to feel. He saved us all but he lost his battle in the process. 😭 I love you Chester and you will ALWAYS be right here ❤️
Same feeling buddy, i am most fear to listen his voice after he gone, i don't have the power to face his voice for almost a year. Missing him for ever 😭😭
Listen to Chester, had success, family and probably sum good friends. And the darkness is still there, therapy and medications do make it tolerable. But that F n wall always pops up, and try’s to suck the life out of you. To all my brothers and sisters out there, I wish you the best, fight the darkness and may some joy light your way. I’m 65 and still have a hard time explaining it. Thank you.
“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill oneself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill oneself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.” - David Foster Wallace, 'Infinite Jest'
BUT, when u r trapped in a burning building, u are literally physicaly trapped and have no other thing to do than to choose the less agonising pain. With depression though, most of the time I BELIEVE that one CAN get out of it. U are not physically or emotionally trapped, u may feel like that but there is always a way of finding happiness again. Correct me if I'm wrong
SkidaddleSkidooddle if you’re someone who has fought depression for years and years, only to have it keep coming back (if it ever even leaves)-then you’ll start to feel like you can’t stop the pain. A person can know they’re depressed, truly understand it, get help, know what to do when they’re “circling the drain”....but if nothing really helps...then what? For 10, 20, 30 years you fight it, and it just doesn’t stop. Is that person not trapped??
@@venku_u7644 The brain doesn't make a difference between physical and psychological pain. The same areas are active. Depressed people are like pain patients ( sorry bad english ) and for some nothing works. You can't take an aspirin against it. It can become so overwhelming, that you are like paralyzed inside and no other emotion can be felt anymore, no joy, nothing. Just pain. And with that comes helplessness. Most people who kill themselves have tried for many years until it was just too much. There is something called deep brain stimulation. It's experimentally used on depression patients. Can't explain it well in english. It seems to show good results in extrem cases. Also not all depression is psychological, some are due to the chemicals in the brain being of. Another interesting thing is, that you can actually meassure depression in the eyes, because people are less able to see colors and that is meassurable. So the world actually looses color for them. I have ptsd, which can have symptoms of depression, especially if you're triggered a lot. So I understand the feeling a bit.
*"This skull between my ears - that is a bad neighborhood. And I should not go walking alone."* Fucking. Hell. I feel like this so much it hurts - it fucking hurts. I am crying. My head is literally filled with all the negative voices and words spoken to me throughout my entire life by my parents, "friends," childhood classmates, teachers, parents, etc. Sometimes they're so loud. People have such a passive attitude on bullying - even on emotional and psychological abuse - and I'm here to tell you that those words live on in me 2 decades later and they do matter and they *destroy* people.
i understand you so well... i feel absolutely the same... everyday, every time and trying to get over the negativity... but it’s so hard... so i got you, my friend.
@@volkward7657 I agree with you to a point and I don't know what it is like to be in that position however I still think it is unfair with regards to a particular comment you made about society to be blamed it cannot be did you listen to what Chester said which as nothing to do with society because he did have the help and family around him....no one could save him but himself.
That is not true, it might sound good and comforting but it simply is not true. Please know that there are people who really are alone and who actually have no one that cares about them.
Do you really cares? If a person from another side of the world died. The none famous one. It wouldnt effect you. Even if you got the news, it will just flew by. Life is harsh
Nobody will care and I still think that even though I had therapy for 3 to 4 years it helped but I’m just thinking of life again and the stuff I hate and all the hatred
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The best description I've heard of depression: "Depression isn't when things go wrong and you feel terrible about it. It's when everything is going well, and you still feel terrible about it."
Sounds about normal.
Vital Smiles I’m so sorry for your loss. They say time heals all wounds, but I don’t think that is totally true. Time can lessen the intensity of the pain-although in my experience, sometimes the pain is super raw and fresh again. Is he usually there for everyone else, but not you? Is he mainly there for you, except on this anniversary? I’m just trying to understand if this is a more isolated/specific incident, or if he does this all the time-dismissing (aka invalidating) your needs and your pain? If it’s just on the anniversary, it’s probably his way of coping. But he’s your husband! If he can’t acknowledge your son’s death anniversary, he really needs to communicate that with you! Maybe you have before, but from what you’re saying-you need to reiterate that you need love and support. You need to feel that you and your pain are being seen and heard. His feelings are not more important than yours. You can and should feel free to express your feelings. And to expect that your husband will support you to the best of his ability. Even if that’s just listening to you. 💜
Yes I know the feeling 😔😢
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To me, it was both!
The worst thing about depression is feeling guilty for being depressed because you know you shouldn't be.
Kind of a wrong example you used there.
Supa 4ys I think what he means is some people that are depressed feel guilty because they know that so many more people out there have it worse, much worse and some of those people don’t even feel depressed and are living a decent life, so it’s like “why should I feel sad and hate my life when they are people that are happy and don’t have a life as well as mine.”
Or feeling or being judged bc ur "just so negative all the time". FTW then, if they have that attitude!
@@tristan702 EXACTLY.
The worst thing about depression is watching it destroy your loved ones around you but not being able to do anything to change it.
Depression is when ur body is alive but your soul don't wanna be inside it .
Or nearly everything inside you is dying and the only thing you can feel is rage. A need to smash things up and get into fights. Just so you don't need to talk to anyone and you're not the only one who thinks you're an arse hole. Depression is a monster!
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You mean your body is alive while your soul is dead
no its the other way around, depression is when your soul wants to get revealed but your mind tries to hide it.
I hate my body, I hate my soul, I hate waking up every damn day to the same fucked up shit. SSDD since childhood.
that is so true. i always feel like that.
Telling a depressed person to be happy is like telling a paralyzed person to stand up
That shit doesn't help at all. People that don't deal with depression need to understand that
Exactly. My parents acts towards to me like this, like I have to be happy, try to happy. Whenever I tried, it never worked out, whenever I tried to tell them how I feel, they act negatively towards to me, so I stopped saying how I feel, I just keeping it to myself. Just like Chester said in the video. Almost everyday I feel like I hate everything, I am not happy with anything and I don't want anything.
The depressed need hope. And that hope is in Christ. As cliché as it may sound in our post-Christian society, the truth remains true.
Well said Tsuyu Asui from My Hero Academia
Definitely, or telling a homeless person to buy a house already
depression is like living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that wants to die
took d words outta ma mouth...
It hurts..
Exactly! Then add some anxiety with that.
Very well said.
Perfect quote!
Depression is when sleeping is the only thing you like, because you don't feel anything.
cuz even the nightmares are better than reality
I can really relate to that. I often say I was somewhat peacefully existing, until I woke up
Only thing I look forward to anymore is sleep so I can dream and escape this shitty reality. Really just wish life would change or end. I'm happy with either
Depression is when you don't want to go to sleep because you have those minutes before you fall asleep where you can't stay busy enough to keep your mind from thinking about all the negativity.
Yes, sleep feels like temporarily death to me. And it's wonderful. Sometimes I have dreams that make me feel more alive than life.
A friend of mine said to me that depression is like a cold: you have it for a while, and then it gets better. I said 'No... it's more like arthritis: you always have it, but some days are less painful than others.'
Definitely nailed it! I live through this daily anxiety/depression from the anxiety attacks there really isn’t very many good days. Just like Chester said when your alone with your own thoughts or inside your own mind it’s a bad place to be.
Shit that is totally accurate
For real, it's always there. Just ebbs and flows in intensity.
right on
nice example
I just feel like crying for no apparent reason and I have this overwhelming feeling of sadness
magic mushrooms has the ability to help heal the wounds of those suffering from reoccurring anxiety and depression and bring healing to them.
Honestly my major cyclical, episodic depression (MDD) vanished the day I had the magic mushroom tripping while listening to the birds singing in the early morning, up at the cottage country in Muskoka (Ontario, Canada)
Literally changed my life.
After my trip yesterday, I did understand why mushrooms are praised... you can have some beautiful experiences on them..
Hello! It appears I have interests, I want to get some.. where do you get from?
zaletherapy
Telling a depressed person to “be happy” is like telling an asthmatic person to “just breathe”
The irony is, that is the right advise. At least two problems arise from it though.
- It is so easy to say those things that you can't help but feel anyone who says that doesn't actually give a fuck about you.
- Portraying the end goal first does not actually mean anything, unless you know the path there.
Anyone who does that should get punched. There's actually a saying in the bible (which is true, religious or not) that says if you wake someone up early with the bashing of pans and screaming of cheers, that it will be accounted as a curse - not a blessing, the same can be said when a narcissist tries to portray themselves as false positive energy.
@@SteveVon7 Depends on the attitude and context that it is said in. If the person that said it actually cared about the person they said it too, it wouldn’t be so bad, or at least not too offensive. If it was said to imply mental weakness in another person, it would make a person upset. I don’t think anyone is showing weakness by feeling intense pain over life and wanting to commit suicide, but ultimately I see suicide as a selfish act. It depends on factors such as quality of life, too. People that commit suicide cause intense pain and emotional issues in the people they leave behind. When we find love within and show it to others, it is strong. But not stronger than people focused on pain. Pain is just something we all have to deal with hopefully as positively as possible.
@frosty 4 u You're clearly a dumbass who cant speak from experience. If you don't know what you're talking about, don't speak.
If you're homeless..... Just buy a house
Unless you have been there, you have no f--ing idea how awful this mindset is.
Yep. Most people don’t know what this shit’s like. It doesn’t help that the word “depression” gets thrown around too much and has lost a lot of meaning. Major depressive disorder is a much better term.
Thank you
Same with suicide. My mom attempted suicide when I was 18. I thought she was being a selfish bitch for doing that. Twenty years later I tried to commit suicide. After I was released from the hospital I apologized to my mom for judging her.
Been there and I am still there. CB is right, much of it is caused by myself but I can't escape that f t world mindset and crawl into a corner to just sleep.
@@glenmcl feel you. And it only gets worse with age in my opinion.
The worst thing about having depression is the fact that you have to try and be a "Different You" in front of loved ones so that they stay happy...while you just rot away slowly but steadily.
Not me. I don't give a shit about what anyone, whether their friends, colleagues or loved ones think. I'm not living my life for them, I'm living it for myself and anyone who tries to interfere or manipulate what I'm doing will be dealt with quickly and cut off entirely. You should live life on your OWN terms, not anybody else's terms. Otherwise, you'll never be happy.
Life is a game and people only "care" if it's in their self-interest. To win the game of life you need to become the best possible player and learn to see through people's BS because no one is who they truly say they are. They all have a nice facade, but behind the facade, dangerous moves are being carefully planned out.
@@True38 But what about the ones who really do care for you. You can't just look away from them.
Is it bad when you read the original comment and the first response, and feel like you bounce between both of them at different times, all the time?
@@True38 So he should rot away?
@@Sebullba If that's what you took from what I wrote, then I suggest you just go away.
The worst part about depression for me is that even though people say you should get help and talk to people, when you do, they don't actually help anything. They feel sorry for you. They don't want to be around you, because you're depressed. They think you're going crazy. Talking to people actually makes it even worse. That creates even more loneliness, and it's just a part of the downward spiral.
If you have the right people around is not a bad thing. My friends are the best told them about my mental status and they said they will do their best to make my life better. They said they are always there for me. So therefore I am feeling a little better when they say that. You just have to choose the right people to talk about your problems and know that they will never judge you for anything.
you must hear “ The Wave” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎧🔥. Whenever i get down it saves me !!!
fact
Yup
This is the truth.
It’s so hard being a deeply feeling person in an incredibly unfeeling world.
Yes it is.
This is exactly the words that I had in my mind. Thank you sister.
You're not a "deep feeling person" you're simply very self aware.
Totally agree Emma.
I read this like 10 times. Agree 100%
When you have clinical depression and ppl say "you're not alone" it's almost like a slap in the face, because that's exactly what it is. Regardless of how many ppl I'm around, or where I'm at, I'm always alone. It separates you from everything, there is is no "cheer up" "stop feeling sorry for yourself" "you'll be fine". It's not something you can control, it controls you.
Exactly
You are not alone means, at least when I say it, that other people go through those struggles too.
I would never be that ignorant to say it the way you just described.
Hexenkind1 Well that's easy to say after someone describes it that way. When ppl say "you're not alone" they say it because A)That's what they think they're supposed to say or B)So they can feel good about themselves because they "helped" somebody. The only ppl who care or can somewhat help is ppl who suffer from this shit.
@@bobfalfa76 I know all of this, but I said it anyway. Because I really mean it when I say it. Always.
Hexenkind1 So do you suffer from it?
He spoke about it publicly but nobody could help him... He was so alone.
Well the sad part is, he wasn't alone. That's the fucking sad part.
@@OriginalCouber Everyone is alone in this world.
@@iian_ shut up thats not true at all
@@Howdy762 anyone could die or turn on you without notice. If it hasn't happened to you, it will. Just as you will die and let your loved ones down.
@@iian_ to me it seems like you're just broadening your statement to keep validity even though it's just depressing and exasperated.
2017 was a dark year for rock. I didn't expect Chris Cornell to commit suicide due to depression. Chester certainly didn't keep his depression a secret but I was still shocked and heartbroken about his death. RIP CHRIS and CHESTER
Wow it's been so long already.
"Most of my problems are problems that I cause myself"
Felt that
It's hard not to look back and think of how you could've done things differently and subsequently blame yourself - and this thought process only makes matters worse.
I am living this right now. It is a vicious cycle. It has been a lifelong process to learn how to deal with it. I struggle everyday to explain this to those around me but it seems all for not. I want to be left alone often just so I don't negatively influence others like right now.... I have spent all day in my blacked out room watching youtube because it is easier than dealing with anyone around me.... I've tried many different medications with no real positive changes. At 40 I have been at this for about 20 years, my only light is that I have made it this far.
andrew sawler Jesus.
I’ve been feeling the same way for only around 2-3 years now, though it feels longer than that. This is my normal now, and I don’t really see a way out. I feel a little bad for feeling like this and for talking about it because I have a lot of people to talk to, it’s just that doing that never helps with anything.
@@dylanhitchcock6574 One thing I have learned is most people just don't get why you cannot "shake it off", or "just be happy." Not to sound like an asshole but if it was that easy do you think I may just do that?!? Some days are better than others but honestly stop trying to explain yourself. Unless you've been through it 99.9% of normal happy people don't and will not understand. Take it one day at a time and focus on the good days and have a short memory for the bad ones. Dwelling will only drag it out. You owe it to YOURSELF to be the best you and accept that bad days will happen. Much love, and feel free to hit me up when you need too. Helps to have someone who has been there and gets it sometimes. Take care.
I found out over the years that people always seem to be "shocked" and "sad" when someone commits suicide and they say things like "I wish she/he would have said something". The issue with that is that they HAVE said something, but non-depressed people don't want to listen because they feel like it's annoying or repetitive. And guess what, it is. Can you imagine living with it for decades? It is annoying and repetitive for the person who feels it, too! My advice, whenever someone opens up to you: don't tell them things like "it's going to be okay", "please seek help" "life is amazing", don't say that. Instead, JUST HUG THEM and listen, listen, listen! Again, and again and again and again and again.......
"don't tell them things like "it's going to be okay""
Exactly. If something doesn't change, it certainly will *not* be ok.
Yes!!!❤️❤️❤️
I respectfully disagree. I’ve never struggled with depression but several family members and one of my oldest and dearest friends do. Dark, crushing, bleak, and searingly painful, their depression is a hungry monster just waiting to take another chunk of their lives.
I do listen, but sometimes it’s hard for me to understand why they are feeling a certain way, but I acknowledge they do. Yes, it is difficult for non-depressed people to hear the unspoken words abowsut another’s struggles, because we don’t always have a common language. It can be very hard to maintain a relationship when the other person constantly pushes you away. I keep trying because they are so worth keeping.
@Marko Djurdjevic dunno man, I've met a couple of dudes who pretend they're depressed just for attention or edginess. One of them was talking about how shitty his (privileged) life was at my brother's friend's funeral. At some point I stood up and told him to shut the fuck up and he stayed quiet for the rest of the thing. Some people man, this is exactly why I hate humans so much
@Julia Milford yeah there's tons of hiding because you know you don't want to bring everyone down. And then when you die they're all like "oh wow didn't know he was troubled, someone should've done something". Hindsight 20/20 baby
I remember few years back after my wife died, I was left alone with 3 kids. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with bipolar. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment changed my life for better. I can proudly say i'm totally clean for 6 years and still counting. Always look to nature for solution to tough problems, Shrooms are phenomenal.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Hey mates! Can you help with the source? I suffer severe anxiety, panic and depression and I usually take prescription medicine, but they don't always help. Where can I find those psilocybin mushrooms? I'm really interested in treating my mental health without Rxs. I live in Australia don't know much about these. I'm so glad they helped you. I can't wait to get them too. Really need a reliable source 🙏
YES sure of mycologist Pedroshrooms. Mushrooms literally got me off my feet and turned my whole life around. I am currently a housing manager for a recovery program. I wouldn't have been able to do that shit without psilocybin.
I'm so very happy for you mate, Psilocybin is absolutely amazing, the way it shows you things, the way it teaches you things. I can not believe our world and our people shows less interest about it's helpfulness to humanity. It's love. The mushrooms heals people by showing the truth, it would be so beneficial for so many people, especially politicians and the rich who have lost their way and every other persons out there.
Where do I reach this dude? If possible can I find him on Google
Depression is being in a room full of people and still being totally alone
Dawn Meek exactly I’ve never felt like anyone actually understands who I am and the hurt I feel
That is loneliness which is one of the causes of depression apparently.
Nah that sounds like you have the wrong friends
Nf mansion would prefer
That's true !
I hate when somebody says “you’re not alone , I love you” and they have no clue who you are. That makes me angrier.
It's weird cos I genuinely just told some they can talk to me if they want and I honestly meant it but dunno if it sounds like how it does when someone says, "you're not alone, I love you" if u catch my drift.
What I really want, as depressed person, is true comfort and definitely not fake sympathy.
yeah same. I hate those comments
ya it makes no sense. saying you're not alone while you're completely alone and I love you, when people only sneer or ignore you in real life. I'm not alone....sure.
Facts, a bunch of cliched comments from strangers that you'll never meet.
If you’re reading this. I’m sending you guys so much love ❤️ I’m here to listen 👂🏼
Thank you
@@HopelessDestiny91 I have been unemployed for 9 months now. I'm so scared no one will ever hire me. ..I was terminated from what I believe my medication and mental disorders I just couldn't deal with being there any more so I wasn't too upset at the time but now I really regret it. I was there for 15 years. I am a quivering mess at job interviews. I have not been looking for a while I had to take a break it was giving me mad anxiety. I is hard to hold a job in this state of mind, I have to start looking again next month. I have always been depressed and anxious but was able to work don't know what happened. No I do know. it's like I had a melt down.. all of a sudden every thing went to shit. Whew l I am a loner but sometimes I wish I had some one to talk to. Some one who truly cares and doesn't judge or think I am just feeling sorry for my self even though I do have pity parties a lot. Whew. At least I can sleep THANK GOD. it is important to get enough sleep and I have crazy colorful wild dreams probably from the seroquel I have to take for insomnia. It's my sweet escape then in the morning I go uuuuggghh. I have been having some thoughts of suicide lately but I just can't do that to my kids and sister and neice. We are all we have. Both parents died with in 3 years of each other and my sister's baby father died in a freak accident. Was a horrible 3 years. Then last year my youngest was diagnosed with bipolar disorder which is a absolutely devastating! !. .out of the blue one day she slashed her leg to ribbons and threatened to kill herself by swallowing her bottlres of UNUSED medication Zyprexa ..almost right after I got out of the hospital from a spinal fusion. The cops came and handcuffed her and took her to this awful place almost like a prison and wouldn't let her come home until she took lithium for 4 days. And i was in so much pain from surgrey it was really bad. Sorry that is fuck ed up she didn't stay on the lithium, gawd it's a funky med. I better stop now. I have no one to talk to so I could sit here all night and realized that I just hijacked the other posts by writing a novel. Thank you to anyone who actually read all of this it's A LOT
Strange how fate works. I'm depressed and have struggled to understand what the fuck is going on with me. By random luck, I stumbled upon this video. Chester Bennington's words on this topic are spot on. His explanation is on target to what I and many feel while trapped in a deep depression. I don't have the courage to do what Chris did to escape this madness, and I suppose that's the purgatory I must endure. Thanks for this video, and God bless you.
@Mafaman I thank you so much for that and I needed to hear that you care about my problems. I may have to take you up on your offer, I am waiting for the husband to come home and scream at me again, last night was enough. .long story short I don't know how to do anything for the umpteen time. Anyway you are a doll. And I will be here for you too if you want
Denise Pleines I feel your pain too. I have the most debilitating depression, anxiety and OCD. I know how hard it is struggling through each day.
My girlfriend who I was living with for two years left me 3 months ago and now I have no one. She was my soul mate and I miss her terribly. I don’t go out anywhere apart from work and I’m pretty much a recluse. I had a life with her but now I have nothing. No purpose for living. I think about suicide everyday as I just want this mental anguish to stop. It feels like a thousand nails all piercing my head at once. I’m 38 years old and given up on ever being happy. I just want peace.
Not only was Chester screaming to sing their songs, he was screaming for us, he was letting out our emotions, emotions that we can't let out, he was doing it for us.
Yess😢
Depression is when you close your eyes and wish that you don't open them tomorrow.
I hv done tat many times
That's exactly how I feel man.....I just wanna lie in bed and sleep and never wake up.
I just want turn back the time 😭
Yeah right... every day i sleep, i wish i never wake up
I know the feeling, but you gotta get up get the fuck up don’t let it defeat you. We’re here! Let’s go!
-Thinking alot
-Can't sleep at night
-Hard to wake up
-Dont feel to eat
-Loss weight
-Don't care about everything
-Loss interest in everything
-Doesn't want to go out
-Easily get angry/sad
-Blaming myself for everything
What happened to me?
I know how you feel man but try to go out at least 5 minutes per day, it will help.
@@Milan-mh4nc I'll try thanks
@@kevinboon4330 -Thinking alot
-Hard to wake up
-Don't care about everything
-Loss interest in everything
-Doesn't want to go out
-Easily get angry/sad
-Blaming myself for everything
+
-Don't have will to do anything
-tired all the time
is here! you are not alone. Maybe I need more chemicals in my brain thats make people happy and active 😒 with hunger to earn more money or be respected in society.... but now, for 10 years, I don't have these feelings at all.
You are awesome man ! Dont give up
You're loved :) always. Remember that.
Saddest thing of depression is it's almost impossible to actually express it. Nothing will ever do it justice.
And because of that no one really understands you. Just the ones experiencing the same feelings once in ther life.
@Anime/Rock&Metalfan Knowing that you're going through it, is a big step. At least now you know that you should talk to someone. Some people don't realize that they are depressed until it's too late. For some, it's slow and gradual where you don't notice it.
@Anime/Rock&Metalfan the worst thing you can do is sit about go for a walk do some excercise keep you're mind active mate,I suffer from it unfortunately for me Its self inflicted through using cocaine
People should not tell ''friends ''about their depression,because deep inside they dont care....
It sounds mean-but is reality..
-nobody cares about personal problems of others ..I tried to talk to one ''friends'' when I was depressed they even left me on read.....
Sometimes the people who would care the most are family💗...🥴
Like a big black cloud n all you feel is pain n life n living doesn’t make sense took me 18 years to get over a major depression I still have some bad days...I bought a little dog n he’s helped me feel love again
In 8 years of depression, this is the most accurate description of what I’m going through.
Linkin Park honestly has helped me so much with my depression. Just hearing Chester's vocals and their lyrics just brings so much light into my life. I am forever grateful for Chester and Linkin Park for getting me through every day. He said it best "The skull between my ears is a bad neighborhood."
But the one who helped in healing nothing could have been done to save him.
One of the earliest times in my life that I got sad and moved out of my childhood house, I blasted Hybrid Theory in my empty bedroom and suddenly felt better
❤️
"Againt my will i stand beside my own reflection" 😔 that line hit me hard
Listening to his voice still helps me to some extent to this day and I'm now 31. He/linkin park was my favorite growing up and without him here it's hard and can only listen to his old songs and take me to that happy place
As crazy as this sounds, him just talking about the reality of deep depression really does help. It shows us we're not alone.
It didn't help him, though.
Boo.
Maybe it helped his family to know more. And to help others.
So? How do other people in the world also being depressed helps you?
@@AK-nd9io it really helped to me in due time. The fact that other people can feel the same I do. 'Cause it's so much pain thinking I'm only one who has this wrong way, like everyone happy but I can't be.
@the dark knight that's fair
Chester was an EMPATH n negative emtions tore at his thoughts. Rest in peace.
I feel the same way. I never want to express it that way because it sounds very self centered and superficial. I can't for a fact that my feelings good or bad are stronger than anyone else's, but It seems to me other people's negative energy infects me and takes me to the dark room in my mind where I hide away all my negative thoughts. I'm a songwriter as well and when I look back and read my lyrics I just think oh my god, how did I survive and suppress these feelings for so many years
same : (
I feel his & everyone's pain... to the point of neglecting myself worrying about things I can't change & people I can't help. But that's just my personal exp. The right medicine does help.
I can relate
@@stacey7637 when i read "to the point of neglecting myself worrying about things i cant change & people i cant help" i totally understand what you feel, it happened with my mom when she was in a car accident, she was bedridden for a few months and i was her caretaker and i devoted myself completley to taking care of her to the point where the only thing i would do to make me feel "pampered" was when u would take a shower, i wanted her to get better at any cost and luckily she is & didnt care what i had to do or give up, same thing happened recently with my dad when he was diagnosed with oral cancer, i dedicated my time to him and he was my only priority. I never cared about doing anything to myself that i would usually do. Luckily i still have both of them and my dads recovering still cancer free & my mom up & walking healthier than ever. Blessings to you & anyone who goes through a time of self neglect, do what your heart feels.
He's an artist. He felt too much. I will remember him as a happy guy as he was on Good Mythical Morning. Chester singing about food is life.
Food glorious food. Hot sausage and mustard. While we're in the mood, cold jelly and custard.
"He's an artist. He felt too much." DAMN. Some of the happiest people I know have the least self-awareness/intelligence. Which is dangerous to understand because it almost validates our depression. Like it's inevitable.
“...I kinda envied sociopaths cause they don’t feel anything...”
That shit really hit home.
Same
Stupid statement tbh
A world without feelings is an uncontrollable state of boredom, it consumes you thats why sociopaths tend to end up as criminals, they are in a never ending search for stimulation.
Actually you'd be surprised you're left wondering if you're playing pretend the right way
Actually, psychopaths are the ones who don't feel anything, sociopaths can't control their emotions.
“I envy sociopaths because they don’t have to feel anything.”
Most people don’t realize how real that feeling is. Sometimes I wish I were a completely self-centered person so I wouldn’t constantly be worrying about other people’s needs at my own expense. I don’t mean to humble myself, but being an empathetic person can be so painful sometimes.
So true
the pain of compassion, the constant expectation and worrying passion, sometimes I just don't want to care so I don't feel the guilt, the other side of it. Like being sensitive, you feel the good more but the bad too yet it's worth it. I think that to feel outweighs no feeling like life to death but sometimes that's the desired seemingly cure.
Well, I don't feel much and I'm still depressed and anxious as fuck. It really wouldn't help you at much as you think. You'd just have different problems, a different kind of depression, that's all.
Sociopaths do feel they can feel love they can feel angry sad but it’s different
Shut the fuck up
If you end up here, you're probably not okay too...
Before reading your comment, i thought about it too "why am i end up here? Why from all the videos ?"
K own that for years
Athena Lyttle its not about being ok, i think Most of the People Want to Understand it, thats all.
labeling depression as 'not okay' is why you're depressed in the first place. If you can accept all your feelings (anxiety, hopelessness, loneliness etc.) then you're doing all you can.
A depression doesn't want to fight you, it just wants to be seen, but people keep running away from it.
Stop running away from it.
Where's the sign-in sheet?
As someone who suffered from depression pretty much all my life I just want to say the past 2 years have been incredible for me. I've never felt this happy. Just know there is hope!
"I just don't wanna feel anything"
Damn I felt that
I Can help if you need me just Ask and i'll be there for you anytime
😔
On a hole other level i left that for reals
Meditate then
Me too...
As a person who has suffered with depression since I was 8 years old I've always felt a bit better when I'm asleep because reality is a shitty place to be.
I hear that. Totally hear that.
8 years old lol
Reality is a shitty place and sometimes life just absolutely sucks I feel alone all the time even though I know I’m not alone and I never feel like doing anything except sit in my room alone with my thoughts and as Chester said that’s a bad neighborhood for me to be walking alone in
@Austin Casey I do my best brother I take it one day at a time and try to focus on the good but some days are harder than others I appreciate the kind words always keep your head up brother cause we never know what tomorrow may hold for us
Sleep is my temporary cure, i miss chester been listening to alot of linkin park recently...
"Depression is not killing yourself, depression is 'im gonna sit here and not eat and not talk to anybody' ".
Depression is the first cause of suicide worldwide. So it can be killing yourself
one day I will get over the fear of killing myself then I will be gone
@@Zezeguizee one day I will get over the fear of killing myself then I will be gone
@@gug8231 stay strong buddy. I believe in you. Keep hanging In there
I get that way from time to time because I am alone. And I’m so so sick of it I really don’t know how much more I can do it 😒
The part where he says, "...when I get in here, in my head, that's a bad place to be, a bad neighbourhood" that hits me hard, I feel that, I've always felt that. What he left behind, his legacy, the sharing of his pain, his soul, through his music, helps when I'm in the darkest of places. I hope you found peace Chester
Rest In Peace Brother
"We all die. The goal isn’t to live forever, the goal is to create something that will."
- Chuck Palahniuk
👏👏👏
@Oskar, and Chester did create and leave something that will live forever...his music.
@@lindahandley5267 yeah but we wish he could be alive and create more
@@beyzaoruc4683 well of course we do
And he achieved that. Rest In Peace Chester 💜🖤💪
It took me 12 years to cure my depression and for almost 2 years I was happy then it came back again.... truly a silent killer
How did you "cure" it?
When you earn something, you lose something else, even if you don't decide
yep. I had 7 years in-between.
I'm just coming out of a cycle. I've noticed that it comes in phases. You can be perfectly normal for years and then one day while doing something completely thoughtless and routine, it sneaks up on you and sucker punches you. There's no escape. The only way out is through. You have to let it wash over you and try not to let it do too much damage before it passes. Getting sunshine. Stay moving even when it hurts and it's the last thing you want to do. Keep repeating to yourself that it will pass.
@@patrickrussell6558 I did extreme self reflection for about 4 months in isolation at sea
Chester was an enigma of a person. When I hugged him I felt EVERYTHING!!! He was the only celebrity death that actually made me break down and cry. Because when I met him, he appreciated me. I wasn’t just another fan. I mattered. And that’s special
Did he tell you something?
@@federicozucchero6770 I'd like to know it too
Beatriz Amorim Yes, it would be interesting. I’m not a fan of him, actually. But listening to some of his interviews, I understood he was an incredibly interesting person.
@@federicozucchero6770 Yes.... And just finding out today that he was John Podesta's son, adds a whole new level of understanding to his pain and torment... Among other things to think about.
@@johnjesusiskingofkings1770 he was not. This is fake news.
I suddenly burst into tears. RIP chester. You’ll always be missed.
Who else got recommended this while feeling depressed. The RUclips algorithm is better at recognizing how I’m feeling than myself.
Well that’s kind of relevant... considering how many people in the world are depressed at some degree
To me it’s surprising I didn’t get this in my recommendations earlier
For you it seems it’s something fleeting so that’s why it was a strange thing to happen for me that’s everyday for the last 10 years...
You should definitely have a talk with whoever you know that really cares about you, do not wonder if it will go well, do not tell yourself that there is no point, just do it. Find a close family member or friend, just be honest and share with them your struggle, just to let them know what you are going through, you will be surprised how much they care. Understand that your experience inside your mind, is not stronger than the comfort you can have from someone else in the real world. Have faith, reach out to someone you know that really cares, even if you doubt, even if you've done it before, just choose to believe that you are working on a turnaround. The awful neighborhood that is inside of your head, is an illusion and you know it, when you choose to listen to a caring person over your negative mind, you will find peace. Once you have a real moment with someone who loves you as a person, life is not a burden anymore, it becomes a blessing.
U shouldnt be okay with tht. Thats sketchy destroy ur fone now
@@zachsawyer4822 Not destroy the phone, just adjust the settings, turn off "report diagnostic data", "search recommendations", and "search history", that will give you less intrusive results and recommendations.
They see your searching patern each world your typing changing behaviour , and conclude that you need this kind of video.
Depression makes you feel guilty about being depressed!
Aaron David absolutely true!
He is guilty of killing him self and leaving his kids behinds. So Praobably not that wrong.
Know what is strange when I have a good day the next day is going to be an extra bad day. I'm not making this up. Or maybe it is my mind playing with me. I have to stop the negative thoughts like some one else said, ...it gets you no where fast
Don't know any better explanation than yours ❤️ just knowing that someone else feels like I do helps..
@@undeadarachnid9614 it is all we need some time s
This guy was screaming at us for years that he was suicidal...we just weren't listening
Fatima Bonita wtf were we suppose to do? If you listen to his music you could tell he was but wtf are we suppose to do
@@erics8524 - Yeah. As much as I hate it, there was nothing we could have done
Eric S well at least we can join him leaving this life
Bert Sonder that is deeply true
Caleb Huskey is he lying though ? Or are you one of those persons who’s afraid of death even to speak the subject
Chester is explained depression so well. Very clear, articulate, and real. Let this be his legacy.
He's alive in our headphones. In our skull between our ears. Whats sad is that he's gone in reality when we take headphones off 😣
He's not gone. Never say that
He lives in our hearts. He helped so many people. The sad, the lonely, the depressed and the lost...he touched each of us. Long live Chester Bennington's soul in his music. You say he lost his fight, but his demons are gone. I hope you find peace my brother.
Damn man it's 10am here and I don't need these hard feels bro
He will forever live deep in our hearts and souls!!!!
@@alienbob5690 true
I'm 53 yrs old. I'm not suicidal. But each night when I'm ready to fall asleep I hope it's my last. Then when I wake up I start my day disappointed with the knowledge that I have to get through another day. I do my very best to not bring anyone else down or even address my depression. I laugh and make jokes as a mask so hopefully no one will see what a mess I really am. I tried meds, different ones and different dosages. Tried therapy but I always got the feeling the therapist was talking to someone else. We are not the same as anyone else. Each person is unique, and each depression is unique. The four therapists I tried seemed to want to liken my issues with someone else's issues. Listen, I know I'm not alone. I'm not looking for a comparison. I'm looking for a way out. Show me. I won't kill myself. That's not an option, though I must say there's been many a time I've considered that route. But if natural causes could visit me in my sleep, my family would not have to ask why.
Wow. Same. So incredibly lonely yet not alone. This sickness is so hard to understand because logically you understand it, but cannot control it. At least not without medication, and even then. I felt him when he said his head was a bad neighborhood. I hate being alone with my thoughts.
Kelly Hare I would love to be able to count the times I've been told to get over it. Truthfully I wish I could put into words. Tell anyone, someone, what's in my head. I have tried to put it into words. I've tried talking, writing it. The words don't exist. But when I try, in either format, I break down. I cry. And it's a cry I can't stop. I feel like I'm not a man. Wasn't a good husband or father. I only cry alone. Pretend I'm happy. I'm good. In a roomful of loved ones I'm on an island. Hoping nobody notices I'm not happy. What's worse than being told to get over it is someone asking me, "Is something wrong?" Cuz the you say whatever you can that will let that person know that there's nothing wrong. That you're fine and happy. That question is asked but is hoping for no response. The person asking the question does it so they feel good just for asking it. Imagine answering it in that room full of loved ones. You'd never be invited back. Even the ones with depression of their own would keep their mask on and join the others and cast you out. So we eat our depression as if it were a home cooked meal. And we cry inside. We cry alone cuz that's where we are. All alone. I'm fine. That's my common response. I'm fine.
I'm crying on and off now the last couple of days , like you I'd like to fall asleep and never wake . Theres no fun anymore I just go to work pay Bill's and repeat......put on my mask every day and smile as if I'm ok , broke up with my fiance before xmas , feeling so lonely and low most days I guess poor life choices has me where I am today , I wish I was never born I didn't ask for any of this I don't know why I exist I I never had any purpose or felt any sense of direction , I feel lost in this cruel sad world
Maybe theres hope on the horizon!
Dance Legs when I'm exceptionally low, I seem to be offended by people around me (family, friends or strangers) smiling or being happy in general. How dare they act this way when I feel like stepping in front of a bus. I want to ask them how it is they don't share my darkness. It's a selfish feeling but during these times I have a hard time using logic just as much as I do trying to act as if everything is fantastic. I haven't had a good day in decades. I've had moments that are fine but never an entire day.
0:46 "Nothing makes me happy". I completely agree with that sentiment wholeheartedly, sadly.
Hey man, life's beautiful. You like ice cream?
For what it can be worth coming from an internet stranger, I'm proud of you for getting up today. I'm proud of you for battling your brain. Remember that depression lies.
what about their music?
@@car_tag I appreciate both your response, as well as your empathy. Unfortunately though, biology dictates that after going to sleep, once the sun rises, you have to get up and do it all again until it's time for bed once again.
@@gmcleod5639 i know everything about that. But in 2016 i decided my body didnt have the power over my mind. I cant even believe where i'm at right now. Never thought i had this power in me. I worked for 4 years and i could retire tomorrow and be well happy with the rest of my life. Im 24. Keep at it man. Physical exercise helps a LOT . i found help in cannabis oil also. Changed my life! Praying for you man, hope you do well!
That is EXACTLY how I feel, now I just gotta try explaining to my parents, they're always just like "Oh every teenager has depression." I always thought that, now I know it's something more.
Unless you have depression, you will never know how this feels. The best way I can describe it is... you want to run away, but not just from everyone around you, but from yourself too.
I sympathize so much, I know how you felt. My prayers and thoughts are with his family and friends 💕
one day I will get over the fear of killing myself then I will be gone
in my case you especially want to run away from yourself because that's where the true abyss is
I want to heal, I want to feel, what I thought was never real, I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long. I wanna heal, I wanna feel, like I'm close to something real. I wanna find something I've wanted all along, somewhere I belong.
We hear you Chester. Some of us feel it too. Rest in peace my friend.
That song was one of the most defining moments in my life for me, 🙏❤️
@@fairydustspiritchannel3513 true
Great words, they should be used in a song sometime
@@Scarfac390 those are lyrics from LP's song , Somewhere I Belong
Bains Productions - 😘
1:07 "... I just don't want to feel anything..."
Holy cow. That's it.
and nobody paid much attention to it, that’s the sad part. it’s like what he was saying, he was just saying and that’s it. it’s heartbreaking that nobody tried helping him.
Ghost Weylyn Lupine I’d say a *lot* of people did listen to him, but I had hoped that his art gave him enough of an outlet to release those emotions and would be able to keep going on.
Anyone who’s really listened to his lyrics, even if he didn’t write that particular song, can just feel the real emotions he put into it. I knew it was coming from a real place and there was a constant internal struggle. I hoped that a combination of performing and standard therapy (which he admitted to attending) was going to be enough to keep him from taking his life.
I often wonder if he would have ever taken that step had Chris Cornell not done it first.
Craig Kostelecky well, yes, you’ve got a point. i do see how he’s had enough of an outlet. although, sometimes, your only outlet just isn’t enough to keep you mentally going. so i deeply hurt for him, but at the same time i understand. he had the chance for his therapy, but unfortunately the worst gets the best of us.
Chester was such an incredible person. His music was my savior as a kid and I actually felt like it lost a friend when he died. A true loss
you must hear “ The Wave” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎧🔥. Whenever i get down it saves me !!!!!!!!!
@@beezybeez4207 I’ll give it a listen!
@@SVTJD 🤘🙏
He’s the type of person to make sure your alright before he is
That’s how a lot of depressed people feel I don’t care what happens to me but if I could make someone else feel better I would bend over backwards.
No, he isn't, not when he leaves a wife and multiple kids behind.
@@yoe91 yeah killing yourself isn't good for your family but he made sure they wouldn't ever need anything else after he died. he wasn't being selfish he just couldn't take it anymore and felt horribly alone.
yoe91 that’s literally the point if he didn’t care about his family and stuff he wouldn’t of done it he shoulda cared about himself and he woulda realized that he needed his family and stuff
@@yoe91 it's not like he didn't make sure they where set for life before he died .
"You mean you don't want to be a human being" - "Yep, that's what I want " Completely true...
he wanted to be a ghost
he wanted to be a ghost
he wanted to be a ghost
What what what
Lol are you sure your human ? I now I'm not ! We are so much more complicated than that ...we are spirits having a human experience not humans having a spiritual experience...that's the truth do with it what you need to ...just know it's true
He explained it perfectly. Living life is hard. Especially when your empathic and feel everything! You get overwhelmed!
He was definitely an empath.
Yes his Sun sign is in Pisces, he will definitely be sensitive and sense negative energies easily from his surroundings. It was the same with Kurt Cobain
"I dont want to kill myself I just want to go into the corner and lay down here until I die" pretty much sums up how ive been feeling for some time now :(
why?
@@gothic12fan low self esteem and low sense of worth, never feeling good enough
@@witt1982 Why don`t you try to change this ? What are your passions ?
@@gothic12fan i love playing football and season is soon to kick off, im looking at some different activities to get into to keep myself busy and occupied, its just not always that easy :/
@@witt1982 not to be nosy but have you been looked at by a doctor?
I am overcome by a wave of missing this guy. I never knew him. I have always liked LP but have never been a "fan". I was sad when he died. Hearing him speak this way makes me mourn and cry.
Even when im around people that SHOULD know what depression is like, i still get pretty much the silent treatment.
I'm so very sorry.
Idk you but I'm always here if you need someone to talk or vent to. I myself have had depression in my past so I know what your going through. Facebook me and ill add you if you want
They kinda ignore you because they dont want to face it in my view!
The only person that can help is you
Silent treatment is the worst thing. I know how you feel ❤ my heart goes to you
Depression is like quicksand...the more you struggle and try to get away the quicker it consumes you. My love to all those who need it cause I know how it feels.
@Intelligent Redditor I'm pretty sure they meant that the more you try to overcome it, the further you get away, it comes back and drags your under deeper than you were before
Depression is pure hell. I have depression on top of anxiety. It's a constant battle everyday and I feel like it's not getting any better. I wish I couldn't feel anything anymore. 💔
Try to get enough vitamins. maybe a vitamin and mineral comlex, vitamin b12, b6, biotin, magnesium,vitamin c, folic acid. helped me instant
Metal helps out tho
That's me also
It‘s so hard when you realize you can relate everything he said
One more day, every day. That’s all we can do.
Depression just shuts everything down. You no longer see the point in accomplishing daily tasks, you want isolation because peoples positivity and energy makes you uncomfortable, you want to sleep all the time so that the day goes by without incident, hoping you'll wake up to good news the next day.
I've watched people be drove into depression by their own failures, by unachievable pressure put on them by their families, by past love interests, because they are not happy with their body or how they look. Its tough. Its the feeling of staring into the face of hopelessness.
Twice i was on the verge of suicide. The best way i found to get out of it was to attack the source of the problem. The body and the mind. Exercise and eating better foods. Once your body starts functioning correctly, then your hormones normalize and you start to regain your energy and motivation. First couple weeks you have to fight through that brick wall of excuses. Your body doesnt want to leave that comfort zone. You just tell yourself "ill just walk on the treadmill or lift weights for 5 minutes" after that 5 minutes, you'll feel like doing more.
Your mind will try and derail you until you take back control.
Joe Pesci it's like I wrote this comment. This has been the last few years of my life.
MrPantera123456 main thing is to just take steps everyday towards getting healthier. My bloodwork was terrible during my depression, and a huge factor was terrible diet, lack of exercise, and lack of vitamin D. My testosterone was extremely low. Started doing walks and lifting weights, and taking 4,000 ius of vitamin D per day. It doesn’t kick in immediately, it takes months to start taking effect, but I was deficient.
Took me a couple weeks to get through that wall where I would have to force myself to exercise, my mind wanted to stay on the couch and play online games.
Once I got that in order, I made two lists and put them on my fridge. One was things that bothered me that I wanted to change about myself or my life, the other was a list of accomplishments I wanted to achieve.
Every single day I would work on those lists. Just hacking away on them little by little, over time crossing out one after another.
Most of them were simple, very achievable goals. Getting my garage cleaned out, weight loss goals, I needed more money, so I got a second job at night, ect.
I’m sure our circumstances aren’t the same, but these principles can be applied to anything.
You can do it. You can get back to enjoying life. Just fight back against all the stuff you need to change, and don’t take any days off.
But if you are depressed cause of your body and his appearance and mystery illness when no practioner has been able to help cause they are all fucking expensive it is not easy. Exercising and eating better diet just is not enough.....I am one of those people. I can honestly say that this makes me wanna end it all. Body problems are the worst...
Well, working out actually helps me a lot. I'm working out for like 8 month now. But I'm still very depressed most of the time. Working out alone doesn't help you at long terms when you still have so many other problems that are pulling you down. You have to attack every single little thing in your life to constantly start feeling better but even that might not work. You just have to do it and hope for the best
Well its good that it helped you. But the best way to treat serious depression is to get help. Speaking to someone about it goes a long way. Ive voluntarily spent 2 months in a psychiatric facility and i remember that time as a really good one.
Mike also seemed so helpless as Chester is speaking about depression 💔
That's the problem because when I asked my mom what she would do if I sad I'm depressed she answered she don't know
Mental problems are one of the most common things in our modern society but we learn (barely) nothing about it in school
but he helped him many times as Chester said too, but yeah in this interview he seemed helpless..
He's all fuckin smiley! I really don't like that
@@Chris_Vasileiou yeah,like breaking the habit song for example
@@benignassassin that smile disappeared fast as cb went onto his explanation.he then became really thoughtful.
"I envy sociopaths because they don't have to worry about feeling shit."
Sarafina Bailor yes!! 💘 and 'I don't want to be human!'
@JVC DISPATCH For themselves not others (lack empathy).
@@MeatCatCheesyBlaster Have you seen the Paul brothers? LOL
even ted bundy had some feelings. he had an apparent remorse in his eyes in his final interview just before his execution.
@@MeatCatCheesyBlaster It's a scientific fact that some people are born without emotions
That was so moving and he explained it JUST AS I EXPERIENCE IT.....almost 52 and been this way since I was 13. Life just sucks sometimes.....I have more to cope with than I can handle because of my health.
And no one would ever know I was "depressed"...I have had to fake it my whole life so I could earn a living and stay alive....
"Most of my problems are always problems that I caused myself." That is not an easy thing to admit, recognize or even remember when depressed. I miss Chester and Linkin Park.
I miss a lot, too🎶
"The opposite of Depression is not happiness, but Vitality." - Andrew Solomon Strongly recommend his TED talk on depression.
THIS! That was a great TED talk!
I love that talk. I've watched it multiple times. Another couple of talks I've enjoyed are by Johann Hari. One about depression and another about addiction. Worth looking into!
Yeah for many people with depressions "happiness" is part of the illness. You dont always have "downphases", when you habe Depression Intervals, the time between "down phases" the "up phase" feels like everything is so much better then normal, lets you forget the problem you had a few month before and will come back in a few weeks or months. What makes the "Downphase" so much harder. Its like a rollercoster on crack.
Ohhhh danks
The ending that reads, if you feel like this you are not alone”...completely misses the mark. I can be in a room full of people...and I am still, always alone. Depression is the loneliest place on Earth.
And then you take the steps towards getting help, because that's what you're supposed to do. And there's no help, no fix to this. That's why it's a mental health crisis. Nobody knows what to do. My last attempt at reaching out to the doctors I had a telephone appointment and was sent links to online self-help and a suicide hotline. That was it. I don't expect anyone to wave a magic wand and I know this is ultimately on me but the point of this rant is I'm sick of people acting like help is out there, you're not alone etc. It's all bullshit.
This is the classic mistake people make when trying to understand depression and suicide. These things are not about feeling alone, or feeling unloved.... Suicide and depression are about the value that one places on the world which surrounds them. People who make the decision to leave this world, are often surrounded by much love and many friends, but they decide to do it anyway. This often confuses people because they always focus on the things that don't matter in these cases.... "He was so loved...He was always surrounded by loved ones, so why would he do this?" Questions like this can never be answered, but more importantly, questions like this are not about the ones who leave, but always about the one who are left behind. It's true, depression can be the loneliest place on Earth and this is something that no person, outside of those who are depressed will ever understand.
@@RumbleFish69 You put that perfectly; “the value that one places on the world”.
You can still function, have family and friends, have a successful career, but you’ll still feel like you’re in a place where you don’t belong. Your brain simultaneous has a desire to fit in *and* can’t stand being here. It’s tortuous.
@@user-bf7vu6od4k Exactly!!!!! And when you are at your worst you are not going to call someone or reach out and it doesn't matter who loves you or what you have, you want to escape what is going on in your head!! Three weeks after I tried to kill myself a psychiatrist is like now you have a support system, call someone. I was like it just happened before and you expect me to reach out now. No one understands except other people like us!!
I can be alone at home and feel 100% content also. Depression can sometimes come from trauma. I am 53 and working through my own personal trauma, I wish you well, and hope you find your space. Beginning of this year, I was self harming. So when I say, I get it, I am not being trite. xx
I always feel guilty that I’m depressed because I know that I have a good life, and that I should be happy, which I then turn into “you don’t deserve this good of a life“. Hearing people like Chester talk about it in this way helps me understand that isn’t true.
Sometimes it's hard to even recognize depression in yourself. It's like, "Oh I guess staying in bed all day in a dark room isnt the best thing... huh?" "But it feels so right!"
Exactly....me too
Yes... Exactly
Too true !
His music screamed pain. . damn I'm aad
You didn't catch it but that was just a metaphor, he didn't literally mean you are physically in a dark room.
I like the line about wanting to be like a sociopath, because they don't feel any guilt/remorse, basically nothing. That's better than feeling utter crap all the time
Sometimes but not all the time
Honestly I would love being sociopathic
Emotional numbing is a symptom of depression and believe me it feels terrible, like you're not even human anymore.
@@comradeskipper5232 no you wouldnt They suffer more than people think. They feel no love, no fear, no real happiness, they are just dead inside. They never feel stimulated that's why they need to hurt people in order to feel alive. They may not feel guilt, but they feel eternal boredom because of the fact they cant feel emotional stimulation. You should read up on the suffering of sociopaths/psychopaths. Just listen to people like Jeffery dahmer, Ted Bundy, do you genuinely think they were happy people?
If you were as numb as you wish you were to be then you’d instantly regret your wishful thinking. Feeling nothing is a fucking hell yet it’s not a hell, people tend to interpret it as an ethereal space because you don’t feel anything but that’s just it, you don’t feel anything. You don’t even feel the need to say “bAhHhH pLeAsE make it stop!!!” You’re just like “meh”. Believe me I’d much rather be sad all the time then be here, it’s like not moving forever and not being yet being ok with it, as if it doesn’t matter
I envy people who effortlessly wake up each day with a smile and feel happy going about their life..I would give anything to have that, just for one day.
Tinker Turner I don’t think there’s anyone out there that will wake up everyday like that. Even those that appear happiest will have their down days.
Maybe those ppl don't really exist. Maybe they're just ppl who wake up and decide they're tired of feeling miserable. They chose to feel something else.
Hope you find that smile soon 👌🏻
As a person who is bipolar and experiences both sides of the extrem regularly, I can tell u, that it's fucking awesome to feel good and enthusiastic. But I also more so know how it feels to be down and sad and hopeless. It's even more extrem when you literally felt the opposite just a few moments ago...
Eh it's an idealistic viewpoint and these people don't actually exist. Motivation is something you have to habituate yourself to it doesn't come naturally on a regular basis. Life isn't going to inspire you until you realize you can reach for it. No one is happy all the time and this kind of unfounded perspective towards some ideal human being is part of the reason why depression clings onto some people. Those people you think wake up in the morning happy and ready to face the day are only that way because they have to be. More importantly because they want to be.
The most powerful description of depression I heard was from this gentleman from an interview in the 50s.
It's essentially what hell is like. Not the pain, but the absolute hopelessness.
Something I’ve learned from severe depression:
“Having a different mindset” does absolutely nothing. You can (maybe) trick yourself for a little bit into thinking you’re fine.
What helps me the most is exercise and taking care of my responsibilities. Having pride and confidence is very, very helpful.
That’s all I have to say on the matter:
Have a question.....What you just described there is in fact changing your mindset about life is it not?.....I am very fortunate to not have to live through these struggles... your story is very inspiring to even people like me....All the best and take care
Those parts when you "trick yourself for a little bit into thinking you're fine"... what if they're not tricks? What if they're moments where you are gradually learning how to feel better? What if you can learn about how to get to those moments more often and how to stay there longer? Wouldn't you call that recovery?
@@ShonaMcCarthy It doesn't really work like that. I'm speaking out of experience here. If you're seriously depressed, your mind will do ANYTHING to bring you down, make you feel worthless. When I was experiencing depression, and I thought: "Is this a happy moment?", I would immediately think: "No, just for this moment. After this I'll feel terrible again. Everything is temporary." And it just kept happening. It goes from bad to worse. From not being able to enjoy moments with friends to waking up in the middle of the night reaching out for a knife. Luckily I haven't succeeded and have recovered and found peace. I thank my family (especially my brother) and Jesus for that.
I couldn't agree more. The only way I used to get through the day was exercise. I now have two young kids and do not have time to exercise and I've hit the lowest of the lows. Modern society is toxic to humans. That is why so many people are depressed. Human beings are meant to be outside and doing physical work. Not siting at a desk.
It's hard when people that have never been depressed say, "Call me!" or "Just be happy." That's not how it works. When it gets dark, that's where it's about too late.
I think what most people who haven't been through it personally fail to grasp is that when you're in those (often painfully long) moments, it's really, REALLY hard to call someone, or reach out, or to feel like you're worth someone else's time. Not their fault, I do deeply appreciate the sentiment, but like, it can be really hard to seek help when you need it most. Today I would've laid in bed all day dreading my existence if I hadn't gotten a text from my friend finally at like 4pm. Sometimes you just really need someone else to go the extra mile to reach out to you....and that's the hardest part is that you never know when it's gonna happen, and when it does, it's hard to let someone know, and harder still for that to be the right person in that moment.
It makes me think a lot about AA and NA groups, how people build networks in those groups for mutual support, and someone you know, like your sponsor for example, will sometimes go outta their way to check up on you. I've never been to AA or NA cuz I never felt I needed it really, but I feel like we need something similar for people struggling with depression. That would be so powerful to have a handful of people who you know you can hit up for support any time, because they're there for you and you're there for them. We need mutual support communities for people with depression.
@@RyTheUnDefined I'm glad you got that text message and were able to get up today.
One day at a time! And I agree that groups/communities for depression would be helpful.
You should definitely have a talk with whoever you know that really cares about you, do not wonder if it will go well, do not tell yourself that there is no point, just do it. Find a close family member or friend, just be honest and share with them your struggle, just to let them know what you are going through, you will be surprised how much they care. Understand that your experience inside your mind, is not stronger than the comfort you can have from someone else in the real world. Have faith, reach out to someone you know that really cares, even if you doubt, even if you've done it before, just choose to believe that you are working on a turnaround. The awful neighborhood that is inside of your head, is an illusion and you know it, when you choose to listen to a caring person over your negative mind, you will find peace. Once you have a real moment with someone who loves you as a person, life is not a burden anymore, it becomes a blessing.
@Some Random Guy I agree that not everyone is given the same family situation or social environment, but that doesn't mean that it's out of your control. You are the one who keeps or discards someone from your life until they die or leave you, and you are the one who can go out into the world and find new people.
You might not like the people you know online right now, but make no mistake the internet connects you to the entire world almost, and you can find more understanding people then can even be met in a lifetime. I mean just look at this comment section, all these people with similar experiences in depression are connecting and interacting to this day. You absolutely have innumerable friends you haven't met yet out there if you look for them. You can even find locals, in your community and meet in person.
If all you have is fake friends, forget about them, find new ones, and stay close to your family, hug and pull them tight, show them all your appreciation, and treat them with your very best. I understand how much loss and emptiness you must feel without your wife, but the Love of friends and family is all you need to make life worth living I promise.
I get it that these people think they want to help, but they are unaware of what that would mean. I can't call the same person over and over again, every single day just to bitch about how shitty everything is. They wouldn't be able to handle it and it would bring them down and it would be awkward for them. And for me too. I'd feel stupid and would start hating myself for dumping all my misery on somebody who otherwise is alright, or at least is not fucked up like I am.
Also, in that interview where he's sitting on that couch with Mike, you can see how Mike laughs after Chester says the heaviest things. I'm not saying this to throw shade on Mike, i'm just trying to point out, how those who are not struggling either have no idea how serious this is, or they do, they just feel awkward and don't know how to react when something so heavy is brought up and are uncomfortable in the situation and can't help reacting in an awkward way.
people: “his death was surprising, we couldn’t see any signs”
the signs:
edit: for anyone who doesn’t know this meme format, the blank space is referring to the video! i mean to say that the signs were very obvious, not that there were non :)
I always heard the lyrics he'd scream out as a catharsis, like maybe, by expressing himself in that way, to show his anger, his sadness, his frustration, was cathartic to him in some way. But album after album, after album, it was always the same story. Every single thing he said in that video was also expressed through those lyrics along the course of 7 albums (I'm just counting the main studio releases, not the remixes and live albums). It's like it never really got any better for him. I just hope that listening to Linkin Park can help other people with depression realize that they're not alone. Their lyrics strike a chord in so many people. They listen and think, yeah man, I've been there or I'm there now. I identify with so many of their songs. Thankfully, my depression is mild and I'm able to keep in check most of the time but I know that not everyone can. Thanks Chester and all of Linkin Park for your music, your lyrics, your emotion, and an expression of what so many people feel (or don't feel) on a daily basis.
@@ArchangelJaceAscended yes agreed!!
Their entire last album was a goodbye. Not exactly a suicide not but he was saying goodbye, quite literally on one song
Damn near every song was a sign. He was screaming for YEARS for help...until he couldn't scream any more
Yeah i can't see either. Good job team
I have been a carer for a family member whom all my life I just wanted to hear that I am loved by this person. It’s been years (6) since I have had a life of my own. I was diagnosed at age 12 with depression anxiety..etc. I love my family member and I try so hard to get that love reciprocated. I am in my 50s now and my depression is at an all time high. I am exhausted and lonely and tired of feeling like nothing. I just don’t want to do life anymore. 💔
Damn, he was talking about his depression all this time during interviews and everyone wondered what happened. Damn...
When someone talks about their depression, it's a cry for help...
@@geraldfilkins9425 For real, even talking about it takes effort and clinical depression (which I'm struggling with) is a horrible, unenviable beast that just sucks the life clean out of you. It's aggressive apathy in its rawest, most horrible form and it Will kill you, unless you beat it. Sometimes beating it's not even an option either because the damn thing can bounce back at any moment. The best most of us can do is keep it contained, stave it off with sticks and stones and everything that works. It's Really easy to turn to alcohol or drugs too, to get away from it and even easier when you genuinely don't care anymore. When it literally doesn't matter to you whether you live or die. My heart goes out to anyone else unfortunate enough to be dealing with this shit.
But on a slightly more positive note, it's possible to win. You can work through it, contain it, manage it and see that sunshine through again.
@@janiraannette4417 are you okay
Have been listening to a lot of LP recently after a few years off. The messages and references to suicide and depression can be found in almost every song. And people wonder what happened
No one will believe you until you're dead and then everyone's crying and asking themselves what they could have done
Depression is like drowning, but everyone else around is breathing just fine.
You can know when a person has a good heart when not everything is content for views, but to help others as well. Keep it going man, we love you too
He puts ads
“This place right here, this place between my ears, that is a bad neighborhood” yeah, same. Very well put.
'its not like i want to kill myself'
Chazza,you lost your battle,I love you
"My names not Chazz... it's Chester."
@@JiZz2Xtreme lol
I have a solution, SADHGURU. Just search it on RUclips.
we all miss him..we really do
He probably said that so people wouldn't bother him
He explained it perfectly...that's how I feel every day of my life.
Unfortunately we could start a club!
It’s just like when a doctor says to you that you are going to die tomorrow and you respond by saying ok. Where there is no fear about death anymore.
Brother may god give you the strength to deal with the problems and may all your problems be solved and you be at a better place and a better person
Pretty much
Same
What a legend the man saved so many people with his words his kindness his lyrics he saved me the day he died was the worst day of my life rest in peace soldier
I can relate,it was extremely shocking and heartbreaking to hear the news...I was in a very bad place after he died for a few months.He's the reason so many of us are still alive,and when he took his own life,I kinda felt like doing the same you know,why can't I give up too.But my amazing son and fiance got me through it,and today I'm doing better then ever
But he'll ALWAYS be missed❤
@@necrodecay6665 fuck that made me cry a little bit
When one of my family members passed I was going through a tough time. But Linkin Park was there it helped me through it. I cried a lot but Linkin park was always there and they helped me cope with it. I wasn't suicidal I wasn't even depressed but those times were difficult because all those thoughts in my head made me really think about things and how everyone needs to be loved. I then found one more light and that song made me cry a lot and made me a better person. Even though I was sad and angry that I lost a family member it still means that someone else who doesn't know me won't care and that really made me think
He saved me. The value of people like this isn't financial or entertainment, he gave our broken spirits resilience.
@@BeeMusic2024 well said
The worst thing about depression is that you can't express how you feel because everyone will only tell you are seeking for attention; your family will tell you have nothing to be depressed about.
Sometimes I feel I'm too weak to be in this world, like I don't even know how I've made it until this day, honestly I am terrified about the future, because somehow I know my days are counted, there is almost no strength left inside me so, I'm just waiting for my day to come which is really sad because this is not how I imagined things would be many years ago.
Hey, Mariana GR. I understand you. Nobody imagines when we are young that life would be so hard. Everyone finds out that this is what we are condemned to be. Hope you are doing all right.
Keeping busy and helping others helps. Also find things you like. For me I enjoy games and music and work. If you can focus on the present and making good memories that's a start.
All your words are now real to me....I don't know what to say ...hope god will give strength to me ....
@@RahulKumar-tp4zr I truly hope you find something that helps you keep holding on my friend, we must stay strong as long as we can. Send you a hug.
Hey Mariana. Hope you are doing fine? Sending you positive vibes! 🙏🏻🫶🏻❤️
I have clinical depression and have suffered from this for 35 years. I go from feeling physically and emotionally numb to feeling everything. Sometimes I just want to fade away but I can't as I have a family and responsibilities. Sometimes the only way to heal from your mental scars is to confront the monsters that made them. Know that you are enough, you deserve to be loved.
People say you are not alone. They say that, but when things get dark, people don’t stick around. I am alone. I have tons of people around me, tons of family, but that is what depression does when it sets in. I feel nothing. It is a complete abyss. I am so alone.
Hope things get better for you in the future Lee Ann
Start playing games.' It's the best cure
Don't worry you are not alone... Because I feel the same too. Totally alone... Zero friends..No text... No phonecalls... No communication... Only office calls..
I relate to this too. That what it feels like to me - a void where feeling should be. It's like a persistent numbness that never quite goes away and you wish that you could enjoy things other people do. What helped was going out and doing the things I enjoyed, whether I was alone or not. Travel, music, etc.
Yeah you're right. They say "just tell someone you're depressed". Or "reach out" ... When you DO tell people they run away. People act like your vibe will rub off on them... like catching the flu.
Chester Bennington saved my life. When I thought no one could feel the way I did and I felt like I could just crawl in the corner and die, I had the music to keep me sane and to remember that I'm not alone. The day he died, I just didn't know what to think or how to feel. He saved us all but he lost his battle in the process. 😭 I love you Chester and you will ALWAYS be right here ❤️
Same. I always feel saved by his songs because I can't explain mine well to other people 🥺😥😢
Same feeling buddy, i am most fear to listen his voice after he gone, i don't have the power to face his voice for almost a year. Missing him for ever 😭😭
Listen to Chester, had success, family and probably sum good friends. And the darkness is still there, therapy and medications do make it tolerable. But that F n wall always pops up, and try’s to suck the life out of you. To all my brothers and sisters out there, I wish you the best, fight the darkness and may some joy light your way. I’m 65 and still have a hard time explaining it. Thank you.
“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill oneself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill oneself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.”
- David Foster Wallace, 'Infinite Jest'
BUT, when u r trapped in a burning building, u are literally physicaly trapped and have no other thing to do than to choose the less agonising pain. With depression though, most of the time I BELIEVE that one CAN get out of it. U are not physically or emotionally trapped, u may feel like that but there is always a way of finding happiness again. Correct me if I'm wrong
SkidaddleSkidooddle if you’re someone who has fought depression for years and years, only to have it keep coming back (if it ever even leaves)-then you’ll start to feel like you can’t stop the pain. A person can know they’re depressed, truly understand it, get help, know what to do when they’re “circling the drain”....but if nothing really helps...then what? For 10, 20, 30 years you fight it, and it just doesn’t stop. Is that person not trapped??
@@venku_u7644 The brain doesn't make a difference between physical and psychological pain. The same areas are active. Depressed people are like pain patients ( sorry bad english ) and for some nothing works. You can't take an aspirin against it. It can become so overwhelming, that you are like paralyzed inside and no other emotion can be felt anymore, no joy, nothing. Just pain. And with that comes helplessness. Most people who kill themselves have tried for many years until it was just too much.
There is something called deep brain stimulation. It's experimentally used on depression patients. Can't explain it well in english. It seems to show good results in extrem cases. Also not all depression is psychological, some are due to the chemicals in the brain being of. Another interesting thing is, that you can actually meassure depression in the eyes, because people are less able to see colors and that is meassurable. So the world actually looses color for them.
I have ptsd, which can have symptoms of depression, especially if you're triggered a lot. So I understand the feeling a bit.
@@venku_u7644 Spoken like someone who never has had genuine depression; not assuming that you haven't had it before.
Deep. Wow.
*"This skull between my ears - that is a bad neighborhood. And I should not go walking alone."* Fucking. Hell. I feel like this so much it hurts - it fucking hurts. I am crying. My head is literally filled with all the negative voices and words spoken to me throughout my entire life by my parents, "friends," childhood classmates, teachers, parents, etc. Sometimes they're so loud. People have such a passive attitude on bullying - even on emotional and psychological abuse - and I'm here to tell you that those words live on in me 2 decades later and they do matter and they *destroy* people.
Was looking for a comment like this because this is literally exactly how I feel.
@new science Thanks for your consideration. If I remember correctly, depression and anxiety can have a lot of traits in common with BPD..
@@johnreagan4162Thank you
@@Yes-df3xx HUGS
i understand you so well... i feel absolutely the same... everyday, every time and trying to get over the negativity... but it’s so hard... so i got you, my friend.
He was screaming for help for so many years and still we lost him. Thanks for this education. RIP CHESTER 🌹.
No one could save him, but himself.
@@karenbogle- True.
@@linzyaz920 indeed
@@volkward7657 how so?
@@volkward7657 I agree with you to a point and I don't know what it is like to be in that position however I still think it is unfair with regards to a particular comment you made about society to be blamed it cannot be did you listen to what Chester said which as nothing to do with society because he did have the help and family around him....no one could save him but himself.
To those who are feeling this, know that there is a better life ahead.
You will overcome it in your own way.
Depression for me is like waiting in a never ending line till death. Imagine the patience you need too cope.
this is fucking painful to read bro, and also kinda relatable. Good luck to you brother
Well said
Yes
Exactly! Someone who understands. It's hell.
"Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do."
There is always someone that cares about you. Get well :)
No one cares
That is not true, it might sound good and comforting but it simply is not true. Please know that there are people who really are alone and who actually have no one that cares about them.
Do you really cares? If a person from another side of the world died. The none famous one. It wouldnt effect you. Even if you got the news, it will just flew by. Life is harsh
Nobody will care and I still think that even though I had therapy for 3 to 4 years it helped but I’m just thinking of life again and the stuff I hate and all the hatred
Personally i think you should just live life the way you enjoy it. As simple as that, even if it violates others.
May God bless everyone who is struggling at the moment
Don't bring god here!!
thank you
God...😁😁😁😁😁😁
People here who attack or belittle? Don’t belong in a discussion of suicidal matters. Go ahead and bring God in.
Thx 🙂
I'm deeply depressed and it scares me. Seeing how much Chester is missed helps me to hold on day by day.