The way you describe it, i have felt like that most of my life, pretty much non-stop, not the kids part, but everything else, lifes not been kind to me, but listening to you makes me feel like im not alone with how i am, not just a freak or a weirdo.
I get so excited to find people who relate to me and see and feel the world as I do...I often get weird looks from people if I express myself. I'm glad that there is something, someone to help you feel less odd or alone. We are out there. We just need to be honest with ourselves and then be brave enough to be honest with others...so much easier said than done.
@@PoeticDreamerDesigns Ha, yes, I can be too honest and I feel like I word vomit. It's not bad that you are so honest. Not enough people are honest. I do relentlessly obsess over white lies or if I was misunderstood...drives me mad. I get it
im actually paranoid to talk to people because of my honesty and the way my brain works, may sound stupid but i sometimes when i am on my own practice conversations, think of replies, what ill say if it goes wrong, how i can recover, i get into depth sometimes, must sound totally weird.
She said the same thing about me because I have adhd and would zone out when she was talking and she would yell at me about not listening to her it's really hard to be with someone with BPD she has already left me 2 times before and cheated on me and now calls me a narcissist and said I'm getting what I deserve because I told her I had a trust issue she said my son was her son because his father abandoned him we were a happy family but we had problems and I wanted to get help but she refused and left
I am very sorry for all the things you are going through, it is hard no doubt. My first husband had ADHD so I am familiar what that is like and though we had our issues we could pinpoint our weaknesses and talk about them. My current husband is just flat out cold and selfish. His father was the same. As long as they provided for the family, love and emotional connection was not seen as a necessary chore.
Did you block your husband cause my wife helped me raise my 8 year old son and she left us and moved to a new apartment and she blocked me and my son she said we were toxic together I'm just wondering what she is feeling how could she just leave and never speak to us again after 8 years in our life
I only blocked or silenced my husband when he was harassing me in a rage and I would unsilence him after some time passed and he calmed down, a matter of a couple hours. I cannot understand anyone just picking up and cutting all ties. I still send pictures of the kids, tell him about what is going on with them and try to work with him in parenting.
No. I actually recorded a video just a few days ago but it felt poorly thought out and a jumbled mess so I never posted. I have felt like I'm treading deep water since the separation so it has been hard to come back to making videos even though I enjoyed the mental exercise.
I do agree with you, it is just so hard not to be terrified of the unintended consequences. We fought about everything. We are just two very different people. There was always a communication problem. He says I am too independent and must be in control and I feel he is cold and didn't have any respect for me. Just toxic all around.
@@mymentalhealthjourneybpd7531 Hmm I asked you that because my wife has undiagnosed BPD and we fight a lot and that too things that we shouldn't be fighting about. I just wanted to relate to it. Thanks for the feedback, I wish you all the best.
@@mymentalhealthjourneybpd7531 umm 1. If I'm talking on the phone with my family or friend she would want me to put it on speaker or would put her ear to the phone to listen what we are talking about. I think it's weird and one should have some personal space, she says she wants to listen and if I stop her she cries and gets angry. Where we live a majority of people wear tailored clothes, so of I'm visiting my parents for 5 days, out of those 5 days 3 days we went to her tailor which is a 45mins drive and she would want me to drive her there and I have no problem with it so 1st day we go she would say she forgot some clothes I'll take her again the 2nd day without any problem 2nd day she would say tomorrow I wanna pick up the clothes we go again for the 3rd time now the 4th day she says she has to go again to pick up some clothes, I say let's go tomorrow and she says okay no problem. Now when I take her the 4th time the shops closed and she calls the tailor the tailor says that there was a death in the family. It has been 6 months now but time after time my wife says you didn't take me to the tailor on that day and I couldn't get my clothes. 3. My wife is very disrespectful towards me, to the outer world we are love birds but there is no respect in the relationship. My wife even calls names and disrespects my family behind their back. She doesn't want me to meet my family and friends. So in short I think my wife has no communication skills, she gets really angry and doesn't understand my point of view, is very disrespectful and selfish. Whatever she does is self centered and never for anybody else.
The way you describe it, i have felt like that most of my life, pretty much non-stop, not the kids part, but everything else, lifes not been kind to me, but listening to you makes me feel like im not alone with how i am, not just a freak or a weirdo.
I get so excited to find people who relate to me and see and feel the world as I do...I often get weird looks from people if I express myself. I'm glad that there is something, someone to help you feel less odd or alone. We are out there. We just need to be honest with ourselves and then be brave enough to be honest with others...so much easier said than done.
ive always been too honest with people, but i feel it is the only way i can be, its just me, even a white lie and i get shivers up my spine
@@PoeticDreamerDesigns Ha, yes, I can be too honest and I feel like I word vomit. It's not bad that you are so honest. Not enough people are honest. I do relentlessly obsess over white lies or if I was misunderstood...drives me mad. I get it
im actually paranoid to talk to people because of my honesty and the way my brain works, may sound stupid but i sometimes when i am on my own practice conversations, think of replies, what ill say if it goes wrong, how i can recover, i get into depth sometimes, must sound totally weird.
He's a Very Lucky Man! He Got ''AWAY'' from You!!
In a way I really think he is. We are both lucky to be free of each other.
She said the same thing about me because I have adhd and would zone out when she was talking and she would yell at me about not listening to her it's really hard to be with someone with BPD she has already left me 2 times before and cheated on me and now calls me a narcissist and said I'm getting what I deserve because I told her I had a trust issue she said my son was her son because his father abandoned him we were a happy family but we had problems and I wanted to get help but she refused and left
I am very sorry for all the things you are going through, it is hard no doubt. My first husband had ADHD so I am familiar what that is like and though we had our issues we could pinpoint our weaknesses and talk about them. My current husband is just flat out cold and selfish. His father was the same. As long as they provided for the family, love and emotional connection was not seen as a necessary chore.
As always U have my full support.
Did you block your husband cause my wife helped me raise my 8 year old son and she left us and moved to a new apartment and she blocked me and my son she said we were toxic together I'm just wondering what she is feeling how could she just leave and never speak to us again after 8 years in our life
I only blocked or silenced my husband when he was harassing me in a rage and I would unsilence him after some time passed and he calmed down, a matter of a couple hours. I cannot understand anyone just picking up and cutting all ties. I still send pictures of the kids, tell him about what is going on with them and try to work with him in parenting.
What were the things you and your husband fought over?
is this the end of the story?
No. I actually recorded a video just a few days ago but it felt poorly thought out and a jumbled mess so I never posted. I have felt like I'm treading deep water since the separation so it has been hard to come back to making videos even though I enjoyed the mental exercise.
It's not selfish for you to leave your husband, your kids are gonna be fine if you feel healthy yourself.
I do agree with you, it is just so hard not to be terrified of the unintended consequences.
We fought about everything. We are just two very different people. There was always a communication problem. He says I am too independent and must be in control and I feel he is cold and didn't have any respect for me. Just toxic all around.
@@mymentalhealthjourneybpd7531 Hmm I asked you that because my wife has undiagnosed BPD and we fight a lot and that too things that we shouldn't be fighting about. I just wanted to relate to it.
Thanks for the feedback, I wish you all the best.
@@criminozs I had wondered. Can I ask what you find are the most common fought over things?
@@mymentalhealthjourneybpd7531 umm 1. If I'm talking on the phone with my family or friend she would want me to put it on speaker or would put her ear to the phone to listen what we are talking about. I think it's weird and one should have some personal space, she says she wants to listen and if I stop her she cries and gets angry.
Where we live a majority of people wear tailored clothes, so of I'm visiting my parents for 5 days, out of those 5 days 3 days we went to her tailor which is a 45mins drive and she would want me to drive her there and I have no problem with it so 1st day we go she would say she forgot some clothes I'll take her again the 2nd day without any problem 2nd day she would say tomorrow I wanna pick up the clothes we go again for the 3rd time now the 4th day she says she has to go again to pick up some clothes, I say let's go tomorrow and she says okay no problem. Now when I take her the 4th time the shops closed and she calls the tailor the tailor says that there was a death in the family. It has been 6 months now but time after time my wife says you didn't take me to the tailor on that day and I couldn't get my clothes.
3. My wife is very disrespectful towards me, to the outer world we are love birds but there is no respect in the relationship. My wife even calls names and disrespects my family behind their back. She doesn't want me to meet my family and friends.
So in short I think my wife has no communication skills, she gets really angry and doesn't understand my point of view, is very disrespectful and selfish. Whatever she does is self centered and never for anybody else.
@@criminozs that is so awful. You deserve so much better :( I'm wondering how come you don't leave her?