I fell asleep to this album playing on my my phone. For whatever reason my mind heard every word, even through sleep. It sounds odd but a music video/dream occurred in my head of myself and all of my past ex's. And I realized that the problem in all of those relationships wasn't them, but me. After my brother passed, it's almost like I expected them to fill in the hole that he left which is incredibly selfish. I'm barely waking up from this dream and I'm sorry if this post is really just a jumble of words but I guess my point here is to accept your own flaws and to accept that sometimes you need to change, and not the world, no matter what it takes from you. Peace and love to you all.
Eddie Ochoa You found the perfects words brother. My sister passed away a few months ago and i just share your thoughts and emotions..stay strong...my condolences and much love to you and your family.
I get it that's how I've been since my friends passed away I been expecting all these guys to love me and fill this gap when that's so selfish & im trying to change them to love me 😭
Eddie Pineda .... when this album came out I was thinking it was "her's" problems... but mine.... all my own... and now I've come to terms and forgave myself knowing they have forgave me. Without me realizing it.... I've done what what needed for me... but they are the ones who've opened up my mind and eyes. Thank you for putting some precious words into the comments.
my boyfriend broke up with me last saturday, and i was angry but i then remembered this song and said "thank you for letting me be part of your life." and send him this video.
“I would do the same and I would leave me. Not because I’m useless, and not because broken, not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless but because I found value in your smile and not in your values and I’m sorry” is probably my favorite line because of the reflection. Honestly Hotel Books is underrated gold.
''you felt empowered enough to take your final bow and find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine. And that’s fine because I would do the same, and I would leave me. Not because I’m useless and not because I’m broken, not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless. But because I saw value in your smile but not in your values, and I’m sorry, and I love you.''
I needed this. he left 4 years ago and I haven't been able to let go and tonight I finally have courage to let him go. thank you for this, I needed this. I am ready to become myself.
i hate this song because its too true to me, every lyric, what i was for 6 years, my selfishness took away everything/her from me and i was too late when i finally changed and I'm sorry, but I'm happy i got to be a part of her life.
@@pirfe4050 So the others courted you and you mentally recorded and endorsed the force perform of compliments you received when you felt empowered enough to take your final bow and find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine.
@@saneplathreader637 And that's fine because I would leave me not because I'm stupid and not because I'm broken not because im sad and not because ik worthless but because I found value in your smile and not in your values and im sorry and I love you and that's why I can finally sleep at night because you are free and you can thrive I'm just glad I got to be a part of your life
I’m just happy I got to be apart of the journey that you call your life. I finally feel fine because I spent so long trying to change you, not realizing I was the one who needed to change. I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you love yourself even though I never felt the same.
This song hit so incredibly deep...just got out of a relationship with a girl I knew I'd marry. But the same lips I loved to kiss uttered the words goodbye.
Screaming this while breaking down driving past your house until my voice is raw and my throat torn, thank you for showing me love in it’s full capacity.
"And there’s so many things that my selfishness tried to take away but you were the one that was the hardest to watch walk away. But thank you for letting me be a part of everything that you were building and creating and finding truth and life and you were relating to so much beauty, and I love you, and I’m sorry" hit me like a fucking bus
Jesus fucking Christ, I'd skip school to listen to these guys so vividly contemplate and so compellingly idealize our emotions. This is so educating, I could listen to these songs in bed, before I fall asleep so they'll get embedded in my brain
this lyrics hurt to hear them but they are so true every single one pf them, i am in love with this song because its what i am going through and in a way is telling me he will be fine without me though it hurts a lot to leave him.
"and not because I'm sad and not because I'm worthless but I saw Valerie smile and nod in her values...and I'm sorry and I love you." me: not gonna cry "thats why i can sleep at night. because you are free and you can thrive" me: *sobs*
Love that a broken boy showed me this song and I WAS TRYING and so READY TOO love him and he chose all these other girls over me.chose more heartbreak over me. 👌🏻
I never knew them until I saw them at a Social Repose Concert and the made the whole croud laugh then cry. They gave a speech about Anxiety and depression and so far I've been trying to get out of my "Comfort zone" And deal with my Anxiety
My heart genuinely goes out to this man. Whom ever this girl is, he really was in love with her. My heart hurts because every piece you can genuinely hear the pain in his voice.
I probably shouldn't be listening to this when I'm in an okay/positive mood. Then again, remembering the feelings of hurt and love all at once reinvigorates me. Even if it does make me sad af whilst longing for those memories and that person
I think it's important to remember/feel these things, honestly. Maybe not all of the time, but every so often. Live and learn. Let it make you stronger.
“And I guess it’s hard to admit but I’ve come to terms with the fact that I just want to be needed, and I convinced myself I needed to be needed” this line hurts so much because I’ve spent my entire life trying to be someone that someone else needed
The fact that it's just so raw and unrelenting. It's an apology that actually tells the truth, admits selfishness, refuses to play the victim. It's so human and genuine.
LYRICS I chose to believe every word I was fed And I thought the coals on my back Were a product of the lack you left When you stepped back and racked your brain For a reason to stay But you could not seem to formulate Any such thought in your head So you left with nothing more than a reason you kept silent And my mind would riot, stuck in self-perpetuated mental violence And dreams kept private The ambition to fix this wishlist of selfish misfit realist Missions contained within a vision Of wishful thinking and sinking deep Into a new bit of misproportioned emotions Leaking through a seeping truth Constructed by my need to feel important When you would look back And think of all the little things you regret I just wanted you to think of me when you think back To all the things you regret I spent so much time convincing myself That the rest of this mess that I stressed within this relationship Was a product of the world’s oppressions Not my deep desire to be needed And it’s hard to admit, but I guess I’ve come to terms With the fact that I just want to be needed And I convinced myself that I needed to be needed And if that was true, I would still be smiling Like you still today but for different reasons I chose to dismiss the possible instance That the lips I love to kiss Could form the words goodbye And it was a simple lie but I told it to you Like the captain of a sinking ship Choosing to believe the bottom of the ocean Was a better source of oxygen It’s so nice, and I still chose to believe I misinterpreted your dialect and everything you said about it Your diction, your diatribe, posture Body language ,and connotations All pointed in the same direction The selection of contingent messages Postponed until further notice Because I was ashamed to admit the problem And pretend your happiness came from me And that your happiness was important But we aborted the sordid truths we once distorted When I saw the shape of your dress when you wore it And that was enough, until it wasn’t And that’s when you finally felt supported So the others courted you, and you mentally recorded And endorsed the force perform of compliments You received came in And you felt empowered enough to take your final bow And find love within the arms of another Instead of this heart of mine And that’s fine, because I would do the same And I would leave me Not because I’m useless, and not because I’m broken Not because I’m sad, and not because I’m worthless But because I saw value in your smile and not in your values And I’m sorry, and I love you And that’s why I can finally sleep at night Because you are free and you can thrive And I’m just happy I got to be a part of your life I’m just happy I got to be a part Of the journey that you call your life And I finally feel fine Because I spent so long trying to change you Not realizing I was the one who needed to change I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you love yourself Even though I never felt the same And there’s so many things that my selfishness tried to take away But you were the one that was the hardest to watch walk away But thank you for letting me be A part of everything you were building and creating And finding truth and life and you were relating so much beauty And I love you, and I’m sorry Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey Thank you for letting me be me And thank you for setting me free And showing me love And showing me love in its full capacity
I was blessed to have you. ... even if it was just for a moment, and even though it hurt to lose you, I don't blame you for leaving, you didn't deserve to go through the burden I was forced to endure. .. Thank you for sharing your time with me, Thank you for showing me how strong I really am in my weakest moments
I've been listening to this band for over five years now and I always wished I never had to relate to these songs on a personal level. Sadly, I now do. But it's giving me support. It's putting into words what I cannot with all these tears and heartbreak. Bless you Cam, for speaking what I feel, dispite having never met me. Thank you.
Listening to this when my ex told me he was over me and he was talking to someone new was a way different feel know that im with someone else and happy. its crazy. This spoke every word I wanted to say to him.
i so feel you, my girlfriend just dumped me and basically said that she doesn't wanna date me anymore and that she never really loved me, and not gonna lie, this song made me cry
"Not because I'm sad,and not because I'm worthless,but because I saw value in your smile and not in your values,and I'm sorry and I love you" This was the part that got to me especially when he says "I'm sorry,and I love you" kinda got me crying
I’ve convinced myself that when the stars finally fall, the earth quakes and brakes every heart that’s been given to another person, that the direction we want to walk never is what we take, there’s never a right and then there’s never anything left, feelings useless in the useless people we love, walking through a city I call home till it finally became a box my emotions were trapped in.
I love this album. You guys have helped me get over a divorce where I don't get to see my son as much as I would love to. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
There's so many songs about being hurt by someone, but so few songs like this one that are about hurting someone and knowing that you deserve your fate
This song was taken from my brain and my emotions have been put into words. I wish I could tell him that I'm trying to get better. I pushed you away after 8 years together and blamed you for the things that you couldn't control. I love you and I'm sorry. I hope you are happier than I am. And I hope one day I'll be there, too.
im shaking. "thank you for letting me be a part of your journey"" thank you for setting me free and showing me love, love at its full capacity" man I can feel this
I chose to believe every word I was fed And I thought the coals on my back were a product Of the lack you left when you stepped back And racked your brain for a reason to stay, But you could not seem to formulate any such thought in your head. So you left with nothing more than a reason you kept silent And my mind would riot stuck in self-perpetuated mental violence And dreams kept private. The ambition to fix this wish list of selfish misfit realist missions Contained within a vision of wishful thinking And sinking deep into a new bit of Misproportioned emotions leaking through a seeping truth Constructed by my need to feel important When you would look back and think Of all the little things that you regret. I just wanted you to think of me when you think back To all those little things that you regret. I spent so much time convincing myself that the rest of this mess That I stressed within this relationship was a product of the world’s oppressions, Not my deep desire to be needed. And it’s hard to admit but I guess I’ve come to terms with the fact That I just want to be needed, And I convinced myself that I needed to be needed. And if that was true, I would still be smiling Like you still today but for different reasons. I chose to dismiss the possible instance That the lips I love to kiss could form the words goodbye And it was a simple lie but I told it to you And like the captain of a sinking ship choosing to believe The bottom of the ocean was a better source of oxygen. It’s so nice and I still chose to believe I misinterpreted your dialect And everything you said about it. Your diction, your diatribe, posture, body language and connotations, All pointed in the same direction The selection of contingent messages postponed until further notice Because I was ashamed to admit the problem And pretend your happiness came from me And that your happiness was important. But we aborted the sorted truths we once distorted When I saw the shape of your dress when you wore it. And that was enough until it wasn’t And that’s when you finally felt supported. So the others courted you and you mentally recorded And endorsed the force perform of compliments you received came in And you felt empowered enough to take your final bow And find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine. And that’s fine because I would do the same, And I would leave me. Not because I’m useless And not because I’m broken. Not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless. But because I saw value in your smile but not in your values, And I’m sorry, and I love you. And that’s why I can finally sleep at night, Because you are free and you can thrive, And I’m just happy I got to be a part of your life. I’m just happy I got to be a part of the journey That you call your life. And I finally feel fine because I spent so long trying To change you, not realizing I was the one who needed to change. I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you love yourself Even though I never felt the same. And there’s so many things That my selfishness tried to take away but you were the one That was the hardest to watch walk away. But thank you for letting me be a part of everything You were building and creating and finding truth and life And you were relating so much beauty, and I love you, and I’m sorry. Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey. Thank you for letting me be me. And thank you for setting me free And showing me love in its full capacity. Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey. Thank you for letting me be me. Thank you for setting me free and showing me love in its full capacity.
Fortunately, I'm lucky enough to still have the person that brings me this kind of love. But before I met them, this was just one of those songs that I enjoyed for it's raw emotion and interesting prose. Now when I listen to it, it warns of what could be if I neglect to return the love I've been given. Even tho loosing them isn't something I've experienced; just the thought is devastating. I never thought someone like this could exist. I don't think I will be returning to this song (hopefully ever). I wish you all luck in this journey. Keep your heads up. Because you have to see the path to walk it.
This song is too relevant to my 2018. I can't wait to listen this to song every year and reflect. Crazy. What a powerful medium of emotion and feeling.
“Not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless but because I saw value in your smile and not in your values and I’m sorry and I love you and that’s why I can finally sleep at night because you are free and you can tribe...thank you for letting me be me and thank you for setting me free and showing me love,showing me love at it’s full capacity”
Hey... I understand that some of you might be going through a lot. Some of you relate to this song, I do as well. It will be okay. Don’t be afraid to let it all out.... I love you and you can keep strong. I believe in you
I believe this song and people who hear it interpret this song as him apologizing to an old partner. that’s not how I interpret the song at all. This song for me is angry in the saddest way. Not being able to express that I wasn’t in the wrong but they were. Many of the lines I sing them in a mean tone. “I was selfish to assume you love me more then you love yourself even though I never felt the same” I relate to this song so much. I was selfish to assume my partner loved me more then the attention he got from others and I loved him more then myself. “And find love with in the arms of another instead of this heart of mine” he found comfort in fake love and lies he got from other who’d give it to him even tho I loved him with my whole heart. There’s so much more I wish I could explain about this song from my perspective but that would take too long. I’m sorry to all the people who were hurt. And relate to this song.
Some powerful stuff right here. So real, you can feel every word he speaks. You can hear him crying towards the end and trying to fight back those tears. That is true emotion within music. I love how one can just let loose and bare their soul to the world.
"I was selfish to assume that you loved me more than you loved yourself." Jesus Christ, that hurts to say aloud.
Ikr
Damn. This is right In the feels
This whole damn song hurts to scream outloud. 🙏
I chose to dismiss the possible instance that the lips I loved to kiss could form the words goodbye.
Got me out here in my feels ... "I would leave me too"
The ending. Tears welled up. And now I'm bawling.
I hope this finds you
to whoever needs to hear this.
+DoseofDrama It's beautiful
it did, now is the perfect time for change.
It found me
God damn was I not ready...
I cried my fucking eyes out.
I haven't cried in so long, I needed that.
I feel ya there. It came on the radio station on apple when i was driving and was caught so off guard and just hit home and ran with it.
You can hear the hurt in his voice.
Pain brings out the beauty in some people
@zorkenVEVO dude you dont have to be so toxic, just shut up and enjoy the music
@zorkenVEVO no u
@zorken You litteraly had no defense
Thr painus in his anus
"I'm sorry and I love you" hit me hard
"I love you" is always a sentance that hits me hard.
I love you is a term I hear rarely so me too
@@pirfe4050 hey bro, if you don't hear it often then I'm here to yell you, I love you. we all need to hear it from time to time.
Dag Nasty Odi yeah we should all feel loved by someone
sameeee!
everyones like i cried and shit and im here like this dude probably aced english his vocabulary is well versed.
where is the lie
broooo lol you made my day he writes poetry and so do i but i failed english and i write good poetry
So true
FREAKING SAME I wish I could be as good with words as he is
Brenden Croese WAS THAT A FUCKING PUN
who broke his heart? oh my god. all of his work is just so raw and so sad.
the real question is who's heart did he break..?
He broke his own heart only for it to be mended stronger
🎯 @@perceeee1239
"because I saw value in your smile and not in your values." messes me up everytime.
Yea, that's the one that always stands out to me
I don't understand this verse unfortunately can someone explain it please
@@harrisonfrogshire5181reminds me of loving someone for an ideal or look rather then for accepting who they are as a whole person
2:08 when he says "and I'm sorry, and I love you"
fucked my soul up
right with you man..
Same. Might be different from yours though. For me its what i wish she would listen to. What i wish she would accept.
literally cried
same
Awkward Nobody I've never related to something so much
I fell asleep to this album playing on my my phone. For whatever reason my mind heard every word, even through sleep. It sounds odd but a music video/dream occurred in my head of myself and all of my past ex's. And I realized that the problem in all of those relationships wasn't them, but me. After my brother passed, it's almost like I expected them to fill in the hole that he left which is incredibly selfish. I'm barely waking up from this dream and I'm sorry if this post is really just a jumble of words but I guess my point here is to accept your own flaws and to accept that sometimes you need to change, and not the world, no matter what it takes from you. Peace and love to you all.
Eddie Ochoa You found the perfects words brother. My sister passed away a few months ago and i just share your thoughts and emotions..stay strong...my condolences and much love to you and your family.
I get it that's how I've been since my friends passed away I been expecting all these guys to love me and fill this gap when that's so selfish & im trying to change them to love me 😭
+Ally Turnbull I think it's not selfish..its ok trying to fill these deep Gaps... It's just self-protection.
Eddie Pineda .... when this album came out I was thinking it was "her's" problems... but mine.... all my own... and now I've come to terms and forgave myself knowing they have forgave me. Without me realizing it.... I've done what what needed for me... but they are the ones who've opened up my mind and eyes. Thank you for putting some precious words into the comments.
stay strong💕 cant even imagine your pain😢 much love to you
This is true art.
your mother is art
lmao
@@bapermodeon9414
Wow, I can't stop fucking crying.
You're smile is beautiful but your tears your tears are priceless
+Courtney Rising Same I just started listing to him.
+Courtney Rising stop fucking just cry my love :P
Court Rising thiz reminds me of my horse cuz sh can run free and shes n beauty
I miss her... :c
my boyfriend broke up with me last saturday, and i was angry but i then remembered this song and said "thank you for letting me be part of your life." and send him this video.
Ajax Patrick This comment made me cry
Ajax Patrick My boyfriend broke up with me two days ago. I sent him this too. This song keeps me from missing him and feeling dead inside.
@Ashley Turner I went though the same on February 17th :/ I am so sorry
I bet he fucking cried.
@Everything's Eventual I'm 21 and I still wanna send this to my ex. On top of chain smoking and drinking. Fireball though, no mr Jonny Walker for me.
“I would do the same and I would leave me. Not because I’m useless, and not because broken, not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless but because I found value in your smile and not in your values and I’m sorry” is probably my favorite line because of the reflection. Honestly Hotel Books is underrated gold.
''you felt empowered enough to take your final bow and find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine. And that’s fine because I would do the same, and I would leave me. Not because I’m useless and not because I’m broken, not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless. But because I saw value in your smile but not in your values, and I’m sorry, and I love you.''
Masterpiece
😔
I needed this. he left 4 years ago and I haven't been able to let go and tonight I finally have courage to let him go. thank you for this, I needed this. I am ready to become myself.
I hope you’re doing alright these days
I choke every time I hear this song
Sophia Trent me too, i cannot control it, i feel like a hormonal teenage girl cutting onions.
Tom Guerrero I saw you commented on the ‘real friends’ album aswell. Hi :)
This hit me right in the very core of my frozen heart and thawed it out
Same bruh
it's ok not to be ok
lol
Nailed it
i hate this song because its too true to me, every lyric, what i was for 6 years, my selfishness took away everything/her from me and i was too late when i finally changed and I'm sorry, but I'm happy i got to be a part of her life.
Motionless Miguel I can feel you! Keep going
Me too.
crying like a bitch everytime i hear this
And that was enough until it wasn't.
And that's when you finally felt supported
@@pirfe4050 So the others courted you and you mentally recorded and endorsed the force perform of compliments you received when you felt empowered enough to take your final bow and find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine.
@@saneplathreader637 And that's fine because I would leave me not because I'm stupid and not because I'm broken not because im sad and not because ik worthless but because I found value in your smile and not in your values and im sorry and I love you and that's why I can finally sleep at night because you are free and you can thrive I'm just glad I got to be a part of your life
I’m just happy I got to be apart of the journey that you call your life. I finally feel fine because I spent so long trying to change you, not realizing I was the one who needed to change. I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you love yourself even though I never felt the same.
"I convinced myself that I wanted to be needed "omg
I've never cried so hard in my life after hearing this. His lyrics speak to me closely this song especially the feels
This song hit so incredibly deep...just got out of a relationship with a girl I knew I'd marry. But the same lips I loved to kiss uttered the words goodbye.
and I thought Drake fans were emotional. I can picture a crowd of people just bawling with snot bubbles at one of their concerts.
tissues would need to be handed out before the concert
+The Sandman hell yeah, they could sponsor the event
The Sandman or razors
Haha, so me😂
I'm going to see them next week
Anyone else crying?
kay jay sadly yeah this story is so true for me... hits me hard
Yes omg ...
Haha I am 😔🖐
Screaming this while breaking down driving past your house until my voice is raw and my throat torn, thank you for showing me love in it’s full capacity.
I haven't heard something this good in all my life.
"And there’s so many things that my selfishness tried to take away but you were the one that was the hardest to watch walk away. But thank you for letting me be a part of everything that you were building and creating and finding truth and life and you were relating to so much beauty, and I love you, and I’m sorry"
hit me like a fucking bus
These song make me feel numb when I'm feeling awful
This came up the other day when I was driving home and it just broke me
Who hurt this poor soul, bless him I hope he’s okay :(
Jesus fucking Christ, I'd skip school to listen to these guys so vividly contemplate and so compellingly idealize our emotions. This is so educating, I could listen to these songs in bed, before I fall asleep so they'll get embedded in my brain
You don't know what Idealize means 👍🏻
The breakdown at 3:30 makes me break down lol. So much emotion in the riff.
I love you and I’m sorry.
Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey.
Wow when was the last time I cried to a song?
this lyrics hurt to hear them but they are so true every single one pf them, i am in love with this song because its what i am going through and in a way is telling me he will be fine without me though it hurts a lot to leave him.
I’m not crying. You’re crying.
God, this is so beautiful.
"and not because I'm sad and not because I'm worthless but I saw Valerie smile and nod in her values...and I'm sorry and I love you."
me: not gonna cry
"thats why i can sleep at night. because you are free and you can thrive"
me: *sobs*
It's I saw value in her smile and not in her values
Love that a broken boy showed me this song and I WAS TRYING and so READY TOO love him and he chose all these other girls over me.chose more heartbreak over me. 👌🏻
This helped me get over the mental, emotional, and sexually abusive relationship I was in. It was nice to pretend he felt this way.
Same. Hope you're doing well!
liljubsy I feel you
I hope this comment finds you doing well.
I've never cried so much to a song. a song has never made me feel the way this one does.
I never knew them until I saw them at a Social Repose Concert and the made the whole croud laugh then cry. They gave a speech about Anxiety and depression and so far I've been trying to get out of my "Comfort zone" And deal with my Anxiety
Thank you for showing me love and it’s full capacity
My heart genuinely goes out to this man. Whom ever this girl is, he really was in love with her. My heart hurts because every piece you can genuinely hear the pain in his voice.
I probably shouldn't be listening to this when I'm in an okay/positive mood. Then again, remembering the feelings of hurt and love all at once reinvigorates me. Even if it does make me sad af whilst longing for those memories and that person
I think it's important to remember/feel these things, honestly. Maybe not all of the time, but every so often. Live and learn. Let it make you stronger.
All of their songs bring tears to my eyes, so many memories come to mind.
Straight up just started crying man this is powerful ✊
"i just want you to think of me when you think back to all the things you regret."
Hotel Books always put my feelings into words.
“And I guess it’s hard to admit but I’ve come to terms with the fact that I just want to be needed, and I convinced myself I needed to be needed” this line hurts so much because I’ve spent my entire life trying to be someone that someone else needed
wow I have no words for this
Makes me wanna tear up but I'm those people who've been hurt so much the tear cant make its drop
i’m so happy i found this song. it makes me feel better every. single. time.
One of my all time favorite songs...so much damn emotion
The fact that it's just so raw and unrelenting. It's an apology that actually tells the truth, admits selfishness, refuses to play the victim. It's so human and genuine.
LYRICS
I chose to believe every word I was fed
And I thought the coals on my back
Were a product of the lack you left
When you stepped back and racked your brain
For a reason to stay
But you could not seem to formulate
Any such thought in your head
So you left with nothing more than a reason you kept silent
And my mind would riot, stuck in self-perpetuated mental violence
And dreams kept private
The ambition to fix this wishlist of selfish misfit realist
Missions contained within a vision
Of wishful thinking and sinking deep
Into a new bit of misproportioned emotions
Leaking through a seeping truth
Constructed by my need to feel important
When you would look back
And think of all the little things you regret
I just wanted you to think of me when you think back
To all the things you regret
I spent so much time convincing myself
That the rest of this mess that I stressed within this relationship
Was a product of the world’s oppressions
Not my deep desire to be needed
And it’s hard to admit, but I guess I’ve come to terms
With the fact that I just want to be needed
And I convinced myself that I needed to be needed
And if that was true, I would still be smiling
Like you still today but for different reasons
I chose to dismiss the possible instance
That the lips I love to kiss
Could form the words goodbye
And it was a simple lie but I told it to you
Like the captain of a sinking ship
Choosing to believe the bottom of the ocean
Was a better source of oxygen
It’s so nice, and I still chose to believe
I misinterpreted your dialect and everything you said about it
Your diction, your diatribe, posture
Body language ,and connotations
All pointed in the same direction
The selection of contingent messages
Postponed until further notice
Because I was ashamed to admit the problem
And pretend your happiness came from me
And that your happiness was important
But we aborted the sordid truths we once distorted
When I saw the shape of your dress when you wore it
And that was enough, until it wasn’t
And that’s when you finally felt supported
So the others courted you, and you mentally recorded
And endorsed the force perform of compliments
You received came in
And you felt empowered enough to take your final bow
And find love within the arms of another
Instead of this heart of mine
And that’s fine, because I would do the same
And I would leave me
Not because I’m useless, and not because I’m broken
Not because I’m sad, and not because I’m worthless
But because I saw value in your smile and not in your values
And I’m sorry, and I love you
And that’s why I can finally sleep at night
Because you are free and you can thrive
And I’m just happy I got to be a part of your life
I’m just happy I got to be a part
Of the journey that you call your life
And I finally feel fine
Because I spent so long trying to change you
Not realizing I was the one who needed to change
I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you love yourself
Even though I never felt the same
And there’s so many things that my selfishness tried to take away
But you were the one that was the hardest to watch walk away
But thank you for letting me be
A part of everything you were building and creating
And finding truth and life and you were relating so much beauty
And I love you, and I’m sorry
Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey
Thank you for letting me be me
And thank you for setting me free
And showing me love
And showing me love in its full capacity
Every song from them gives me chills
I was blessed to have you. ... even if it was just for a moment, and even though it hurt to lose you, I don't blame you for leaving, you didn't deserve to go through the burden I was forced to endure. .. Thank you for sharing your time with me, Thank you for showing me how strong I really am in my weakest moments
I'm bawling...I can feel his pain and I can connect so much
Oh my goodness. This is so heartbreaking. I'm glad I found this band.
I've been listening to this band for over five years now and I always wished I never had to relate to these songs on a personal level.
Sadly, I now do. But it's giving me support. It's putting into words what I cannot with all these tears and heartbreak.
Bless you Cam, for speaking what I feel, dispite having never met me. Thank you.
Listening to this when my ex told me he was over me and he was talking to someone new was a way different feel know that im with someone else and happy. its crazy. This spoke every word I wanted to say to him.
Mari Kitten I know that feeling, the hardest thing ever... :(
+Mari Kitten I know..
i so feel you, my girlfriend just dumped me and basically said that she doesn't wanna date me anymore and that she never really loved me, and not gonna lie, this song made me cry
Same 😭
"Not because I'm sad,and not because I'm worthless,but because I saw value in your smile and not in your values,and I'm sorry and I love you"
This was the part that got to me especially when he says "I'm sorry,and I love you" kinda got me crying
For some reason I have this urge to cry to this song but I can't, so I listen to this song every night because damn it hits hard.
Exactly how i feel rn man
This song hits me like a truck every time. Cam has a way with words that make your chest feel heavy with emotion.
So, I adore this.
Thank you for letting me be apart of your journey ❤ showing me love in it’s full capacity
words cant describe how this song makes me feel.
I’ve convinced myself that when the stars finally fall, the earth quakes and brakes every heart that’s been given to another person, that the direction we want to walk never is what we take, there’s never a right and then there’s never anything left, feelings useless in the useless people we love, walking through a city I call home till it finally became a box my emotions were trapped in.
Just stumbled upon these guys and digging it 100%. It definitely tugs on the heart strings.
I love this album. You guys have helped me get over a divorce where I don't get to see my son as much as I would love to. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
forever will love you, zachary and i am so happy you can find someone who will love you better than i ever could
jennanull aww :/
There's so many songs about being hurt by someone, but so few songs like this one that are about hurting someone and knowing that you deserve your fate
why do I love this so much😭❤
Just beautiful poetry
This song was taken from my brain and my emotions have been put into words. I wish I could tell him that I'm trying to get better. I pushed you away after 8 years together and blamed you for the things that you couldn't control. I love you and I'm sorry. I hope you are happier than I am. And I hope one day I'll be there, too.
im shaking.
"thank you for letting me be a part of your journey"" thank you for setting me free and showing me love, love at its full capacity"
man I can feel this
I chose to believe every word I was fed
And I thought the coals on my back were a product
Of the lack you left when you stepped back
And racked your brain for a reason to stay,
But you could not seem to formulate any such thought in your head.
So you left with nothing more than a reason you kept silent
And my mind would riot stuck in self-perpetuated mental violence
And dreams kept private.
The ambition to fix this wish list of selfish misfit realist missions
Contained within a vision of wishful thinking
And sinking deep into a new bit of
Misproportioned emotions leaking through a seeping truth
Constructed by my need to feel important
When you would look back and think
Of all the little things that you regret.
I just wanted you to think of me when you think back
To all those little things that you regret.
I spent so much time convincing myself that the rest of this mess
That I stressed within this relationship was a product of the world’s oppressions,
Not my deep desire to be needed.
And it’s hard to admit but I guess I’ve come to terms with the fact
That I just want to be needed,
And I convinced myself that I needed to be needed.
And if that was true, I would still be smiling
Like you still today but for different reasons.
I chose to dismiss the possible instance
That the lips I love to kiss could form the words goodbye
And it was a simple lie but I told it to you
And like the captain of a sinking ship choosing to believe
The bottom of the ocean was a better source of oxygen.
It’s so nice and I still chose to believe I misinterpreted your dialect
And everything you said about it.
Your diction, your diatribe, posture, body language and connotations,
All pointed in the same direction
The selection of contingent messages postponed until further notice
Because I was ashamed to admit the problem
And pretend your happiness came from me
And that your happiness was important.
But we aborted the sorted truths we once distorted
When I saw the shape of your dress when you wore it.
And that was enough until it wasn’t
And that’s when you finally felt supported.
So the others courted you and you mentally recorded
And endorsed the force perform of compliments you received came in
And you felt empowered enough to take your final bow
And find love within the arms of another instead of this heart of mine.
And that’s fine because I would do the same,
And I would leave me. Not because I’m useless
And not because I’m broken.
Not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless.
But because I saw value in your smile but not in your values,
And I’m sorry, and I love you.
And that’s why I can finally sleep at night,
Because you are free and you can thrive,
And I’m just happy I got to be a part of your life.
I’m just happy I got to be a part of the journey
That you call your life.
And I finally feel fine because I spent so long trying
To change you, not realizing I was the one who needed to change.
I was selfish to assume you loved me more than you love yourself
Even though I never felt the same. And there’s so many things
That my selfishness tried to take away but you were the one
That was the hardest to watch walk away.
But thank you for letting me be a part of everything
You were building and creating and finding truth and life
And you were relating so much beauty, and I love you, and I’m sorry.
Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey.
Thank you for letting me be me.
And thank you for setting me free
And showing me love in its full capacity.
Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey. Thank you for letting me be me. Thank you for setting me free and showing me love in its full capacity.
Thank you.
Fortunately, I'm lucky enough to still have the person that brings me this kind of love. But before I met them, this was just one of those songs that I enjoyed for it's raw emotion and interesting prose. Now when I listen to it, it warns of what could be if I neglect to return the love I've been given. Even tho loosing them isn't something I've experienced; just the thought is devastating. I never thought someone like this could exist. I don't think I will be returning to this song (hopefully ever). I wish you all luck in this journey. Keep your heads up. Because you have to see the path to walk it.
I finally understand exactly how he feels. I’m sorry sofia. I’d do anything to have you back.
This song is too relevant to my 2018. I can't wait to listen this to song every year and reflect. Crazy. What a powerful medium of emotion and feeling.
I just found out about these guys. I'm getting their discography.
same
“Not because I’m sad and not because I’m worthless but because I saw value in your smile and not in your values and I’m sorry and I love you and that’s why I can finally sleep at night because you are free and you can tribe...thank you for letting me be me and thank you for setting me free and showing me love,showing me love at it’s full capacity”
Best try not to cry challenge out there
yeah you ain't kidding when he said I'm sorry and I love you it really hits hard cause you then realize there's more to everything than just yourself
Hey... I understand that some of you might be going through a lot. Some of you relate to this song, I do as well. It will be okay. Don’t be afraid to let it all out.... I love you and you can keep strong. I believe in you
I’ve been listening to this guy throughout my entire time as a teenager so much has happend and his poetry has been there the entire way
cam! ohmygosh. your voice.
AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! keep doing what your doing God bless
This song sums up half of 2017 and 2018 of how I feel so far
This song hit me right in the feels.
He sounds so much like Witt Lowry and Hobo Johnson.. wow tho this is something:’(
6LVR6DMB6 X hobo sounds like him. He was doing this before Johnson was
I can hear the emotion.... I love it
Beautiful as always
This song brought me to tears.
I believe this song and people who hear it interpret this song as him apologizing to an old partner. that’s not how I interpret the song at all. This song for me is angry in the saddest way. Not being able to express that I wasn’t in the wrong but they were. Many of the lines I sing them in a mean tone. “I was selfish to assume you love me more then you love yourself even though I never felt the same” I relate to this song so much. I was selfish to assume my partner loved me more then the attention he got from others and I loved him more then myself. “And find love with in the arms of another instead of this heart of mine” he found comfort in fake love and lies he got from other who’d give it to him even tho I loved him with my whole heart. There’s so much more I wish I could explain about this song from my perspective but that would take too long. I’m sorry to all the people who were hurt. And relate to this song.
Some powerful stuff right here. So real, you can feel every word he speaks. You can hear him crying towards the end and trying to fight back those tears. That is true emotion within music. I love how one can just let loose and bare their soul to the world.
Holy shit this hit hard
The " not because I'm sad and not because I'm worthless, but because I saw value in your smile and not in your values," really got to me
This fucking song. Gets me every time.
I just recently found this band and I'm hooked. I never knew I could relate to many of their songs. Pure talent❤️