"Eight" (Lyric Video) | Sleeping At Last
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This is the twenty-fourth track from Sleeping At Last's Atlas: Year Two and the eighth track of the Atlas: Enneagram EP. It was officially released in 2019.
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There's only one problem with Eight being released: there's only one more song in Atlas: Year Two...
Ryan really blew me away with this song! I’ll be so sad when it’s over! This song is definitely one of my favourites!
@@maritzaaguilar7021 Same here! I'll be very sad when it's over, but hopefully he'll announce Atlas: Year Three not long after! It's one of mine too! :) -TIM
But i wait nine for a year ago. I cant be patient sometime, but i dont want this is over yet either.
I've been conflicted- on one hand, I'm a nine, so I am so so so excited for Nine to be released, but on the other hand, that means that we'll have reached the end of Atlas Year 2 :(
Omg I love it so so much I’m honestly so thankful for you your music inspires me so so so so much I’m just grateful for having you make music thank you so much
I like how this song starts strong and asserts its self, like a true 8. But then shows the inner struggle that fight, and side they are reluctant to show
Exactly!!!
So true
cody zimmerman so true
If ur an 8 which im guessing u r its what ur life feels like am i right?
He mentioned that in his podcast thing. He said he started it and ended it abruptly cause eights are sudden and intense. Pretty cool detail.
The lyrics "I can't afford no, I REFUSE to be rejected" I think is a way to say I'm not going to give anyone the opportunity to leave me behind and that hits so hard. The feeling of being abandoned is a pain that never goes away, even tho I'm not an eight I understand that it is much easier to just avoid the possibility even if that means giving up the chance of having a deeper relationship.
as an 8 myself, i can tell that a lot of us have had childhood trauma and had to grow up quick. we feel like if we end up looking vulnerable, we’ll get hurt all over again. we try to appear strong as a cover for what we’re really going through. if you know someone who is an 8, be sure to check up on them and make sure they’re doing okay :)
this describes me but I don't know what an 8 is
Goddamn... this exposed me a lot. My parents has bullied me when i being vulnerable in my childhood. So, i never feel comfortable for being vulnerable...
As an eight u described me perfectly
Eights can be a source of comfort, or a source of fear, it's why at their best they're heroes, and at their worst they're villains.
🤍
I just realized when the lyrics said “you were wrong when you said my healing needed more than time” it’s referring to the lyrics in One where it says “I believe that we could fix this over time”
I never considered the connection between both songs.
@@VampireArisa i think a lot of the songs are connected, melody and lyric wise which is what makes this album so beautiful
lol i used to be a one
@@kmnog11 what happened?
Also the armor is a reference to type 5’s song - which is where 8s go in stress
I feel exposed......
Jenna Rose the correct 8 response
So do i
😂 so true
Here I am, cut me open
Me too
"I am strong enough to let you in" - may that be my battle cry!
His perfect falsetto when he says “Achilles heel” is so incredibly beautiful
Bruh my jaw dropped
Yes! That part hit me, I literally had a tumor inside my right heel removed at age 32, that hit me because I always felt that nugget was the pain I stepped on, walked on through out my life.
"You were wrong. My healing, needed more than time." Damn that hit hard and I'm not even an 8
How do I find my number?
@@mariaanmullah6601 you take the ennegram test
Start by taking a few tests, then deep research of the types you scored highest on and then a lot of self observation. Hope this helped!
I'm not even type 8 and I CRIED IN EVERY SECOND OF THIS SONG.
Lol i bet ur a 4
@@NestyPeach damn how'd u know
enneagram 2 had me tearin' :'). not a 2 pretty sure tho. the whole albums written really well at that.
@@NestyPeach I'm a 1w2 :D.
Heck, I'm an 8 who hardly ever cries, and this made me cry the first time I watched it.
I'm an 8. I was introduced to SAL by my 2 girlfriend, we learned about enneagrams shortly after "two" was released, she learned she was a two and realized why she related to the song so well. I took the test to find out I was an 8. I had a rough child hood and could never explain my feelings well, it drove me and her to fights that I hated and so did she. We grew together slowly the release of this song helped her understand me better, and helped me as well. The lyrics felt like some of my inner thoughts, being born sickly loosing my twin to a stranger to never see him again, forcing my self to be strong and shut others out. This song helped her understand me, helped me find the words she deserves, this song is amazing. Sorry this is a lengthy comment if you read this all the way through thank you.
What test did you take on?
It's beautiful how well the enneagram helps us understand one another. Don't lose that girlfriend. My sister is a two and she is one of the most important people in my life.
where did you find your test?
@@archiecrowd9113 Just search for 'enneagram test'
I’m a 2! I’m telling you keep her and make sure you don’t lose her. The problem with this personality is that at some point in life someone came and told me “ you give too much, more than you can, more than you should to the wrong people” and this somehow woke me up. I used to struggle be cause i was too caring , i used to give a lot but what i got in return was so little i never realized that and I didn’t really care but that same person pointed it out again. Then i started realising my personality flaws , when the song 2 came in it was like exactly how i would feel towards people, how i wanted to fix them before fixing myself , how much i wanted to see everyone around me happy, but you can’t fix people if you didn’t fix yourself first. I want you to love her , to show her that her love wasn’t for granted , her efforts not waste.
”no, I refuse to be rejected” hit hard
"i cant afford no i refuse to be rejected" as an 8 that line hits hard no matter how many times i listen to it.
I'M HERE AND I'M SHOOK.
This is definitely a unique song. It reminds me a bit of Anger, but more blunt and vulnerable in a different way. It's more triumphant... like a conqueror fighting for survival but then laying down his sword and fighting for humanity and goodness and love, etc.
I like the way he uses bursts of hard, blunt sounds and then cuts them off into silent spaces to create this sudden void in your ears.
I'm in love with the delivery of "break these bones" and how he sings "fragile things, helpless things, broken things" and "I can't let you see..."
And then it just stops like it's made it's point and it's done.
He did it... he made a song that makes me relate to a type 8. Type 8 is the one type I just have a hard time understanding and warming up to. Congrats Ryan, not only in succeeding at your mission of writing such a song... but in making it sound amazing.
ohifonlyx33 I have a friend and I think she’s definitely an eight. I can just picture her in an epic battle with this song and it just makes me think she’s so powerful and strong and brave (which she is) it’s such an amazing song
Its about those who people perceive as strong but deep down they need love and kindness the most
We learned early not to be vulnerable, and at some point we began to fight for all others who were once... us. There was a deep and lasting betrayal of our trust in the world when we realized no one would protect us, no one, so we needed to protect ourselves.
Showing under our armor was not accepted, we battened down and never let our truths out unless alone. But we search, we watched, we waited, for the one person who would stand patiently until we were ready to take our own armor off.
I can tell you now, what all 8s know somehow, that should this love betray us we shall never swim as deeply with another. We crave just one great love to lay our soul beside and know our heart is shielded from the outside.
Not all of us will make it, but should you desire the key, just stand waiting patiently, one day we will open the doors of our heart and let you claim it.
I actually came to the messages to figure out why the abruptness. I'm guessing it's something type 8s do now. 😂
K. Gerchenzon beautifully written
My daughter is an 8 ...this song had me sobbing ....I had no idea ALL OF THIS was behind her armor 😭😭😭😭
I’m so happy that you have an easier time understanding her! As an eight daughter, I listened to this wjth my mom in the car and she immediately turned and just looked at me. Just make sure you don’t go too hard on her and try to make her spill it all at once! (I don’t mean to give parenting advice or anything)
I wish I could bring myself to show this to my mom. I listened to it in front of my sister and felt totally exposed.
@@justayeet5905 I totally agree with you!! I'm an 8 daughter myself and I think that this song sometimes (and no hate) will stereotype 8s and even thought there are definitely 8s like this we don't all have this same approach to life and so forcing it out at all is hard and tends to be the scarring part !! But really good song!
Please, what is an 8?
@@chizobaanyanwu7491 an enneagramm personality type, there are types 1 to 9, and this band made a song for each :)
This hits hard. I had to grow up quickly and I spent my whole life trying to appear powerful and gain control. I am scared to show my feelings. I know that crying or loving isn't weak but its really hard. But I know one day i will be all good. I just wish that i could get all this off my heart but probably not now.
What you just said is EXACTLY how i feel and how i am
whole
I totally understand. I'm a 2 with a subsection of 6 but I relate to 8 in so many ways. I. 13 and I am already in the leadership role over my older sisters and I take all responsibility in my family. I am forced as if the mother in my family while my father is just another child. I seal myself off from everyone but my best friend. It's incredibly hard to let people in since I've already been hurt so much and I try so so so hard to let people in and to trust them but I cant get past 3 words before I have to walk away from the conversation because of anxiety and not letting someone else see me cry and its hard. Sometimes I just wish I had the average childhood. Parents being parents and children being children. Not the other way around. I used to try to prove to others I was the strongest because the second they saw a crack in my outer shell they went at it and it wasn't easy trying to fix the breaking parts while still trying to hold up a strong face. So, I understand 8. I get it. Although I'm a 2, I get it.
Im an 8 and u just described me rn
I can agree with that. I am that way too yet I didnt have a bad childhood, it was an amazing one tbh, and I am not sure if that makes it better or worse.
This song makes me feel exposed and fragile, but also empowered...and that’s how I think Eights NEED to feel: able to open our hearts to someone and still be brave and strong.
I've never felt so strangled by a song before. The emotion poured into the way he sings had me in tears. I'm definitely no eight, a nine and four actually, but I loved every second of this song.
Koezuu this entire comment feels like it was written by me, lol. I'm also a 9 (or 4?) but this song absolutely grabbed me. The only other enneagram song I cried at when listening for the first time was 2, actually. And this. I cannot wait to see what he has in store for the 9 song. ❤️
@@Vi_grace I'm so excited for 9! I have no doubt that it'll be an amazing song. This entire series of songs has been amazing, and I cant wait for what he makes next!!
I really recommend that guys research more on the enneagram to find your basic type. Like listening to the podcasts [you have wait to for nine :( ] but seriously, having your type really helps you, don't give up!
absolutely!!!! TTvTT
totally! tbh I am *quite* sure I'm a 9, just not *completely* sure...... also, I'm just a teenager, and some books I've read suggest that it might be better to wait, since when you're younger, you're not quite fully-formed yet, you know? And also some books have suggested that 4s often share common characteristics with most teenagers lol,,, so we'll see what happens. Thanks for your support tho haha!
This hurt at the beginning. I lost my innocence at a young age watching my mother choose drugs over me and my sisters. I’ve seen so violence, I’ve seen abuse first hand, and I’ve grown up fast to take care of my sisters and my family. My strength and my bravado is what got me to the point I am at now. I am a home owner at 22, I run a small farm, and I’m still trying to raise a younger sibling that’s a high-schooler. The love of my life is the only one who has broken down all barriers. She’s the only one who knows what goes on in my head. I’d do anything and everything for her.
I relate so much. My mother left me for herself. She choose to live her life without me, and as a result I was forced to practically raise myself my entire childhood. I was forced to be strong and tend to my own needs before anyone else's because no one else would bother to put me first. The only person I'm close enough to to share my feeling with is my older sister who helped in raising me. I would also do anything to protect her. Even if she wasn't the best influence and was definitely too young to be raising a little kid, she tried her best and having at least one person there for me helped me to cope a lot better with my mother's constant ins and outs to our lives.
I love the enneagram series so much, its sad to see that its almost over, it's like saying farewell to a dear friend.
This song reminds me so much of my life when I was much younger and going through a lot and trying to understand that forgiveness isn't as easy as it is to say that you are sorry.
"I refuse to be rejected" damn this hits hard. It's hard being so damn stubborn cause you want someone to trust but you had to grow up and it's been engrained that you must remain strong and unwaving.
As 8's we have to be strong because we've had to pick up the pieces and put ourselves back together. Where are the 8's at?
Nice to meet you “8” , I’m “8” 😞
This song expresses how eight's refuse to stop fighting. They will always fight for something no matter what it is. The image in the background really shows how fierce and strong eights are, but we're also one of the most vulnerable types. "I am strong, I am strong enough to let you in" really shows that internal struggle we each have. The last verse just really hits home.
I’m an eight, I grew up lied too. My parents never actually loved me, and they always fought. But I never noticed until I was around 11-12 and around that time I was told that I was a mistake and was told I was ugly and worthless by my brother. I have a lot of mental issues because of it. I’m older now turning 16 next November. I lost a lot of friends to my issues, and I have only one friend now that I trust and my boyfriend who is a physical abuse survivor and I’m slowly getting better.
Happy 16th! I hope you're better
You are not alone. Keep fighting for a better day, they are coming I promise
wow you are strong
I hope you're better now💕
Never let the bastards grind you down. We’re here with you and we are an army. But then again, you don’t need no army... you got this...
This is everything. I'm an 8 and I can point to two or three emotionally traumatic events in my childhood where I decided I'm not going to let anyone see me cry. This is deep.
I'm a 1, and this is probably now one of my favorite songs of the series. that line, "when I see fragile things, helpless things, broken things... I see the familiar" really hit me in the heart, and then the rest of the song from there was just blow after blow. it brought tears to my eyes tbh. I always thought 8s were the type I related the least to, but I must've been viewing them superficially. I hadn't fully registered that there's a fragility in them, too (like with all types). there's something we can relate to in all the types, and I think that's really beautiful.
It takes a long time to open, and we don't invite so much as hope the moment is caught by the person we disarmed for. It is fleeting, and that makes it all the more intimate for us.
Well of course you saw us 8's superficially; that's all we want most others to ever see.
ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ
This. I see my father in every piece of this. That power, that fight, that struggle. But also the sweetness underneath, the way he uses that fierceness to protect. Eights may be difficult to get along with at times, they might just be too much to handle in some situations, but my God, I'm so thankful to have one in my life. And really, it seems quite fitting that he'd be the father of a disabled child. "Fragile things, helpless things, broken things" indeed. As a five-nine mix of sorts, it can be too much at times, conflict is difficult, and he's this inferno of challenging. Sometimes he wants so badly to protect when I just need to pull back and figure out how to protect myself. But gosh, I appreciate it so much even in those situations. He's agressive, yes, but he's so loving as well. Eights really are such amazing people, so tender and loving and honestly just plain fun in an innocent, silly way, expressed in such a fierce protectiveness. I don't claim to know everything about every eight, but I will say that I appreciate you. You are fantastic, strong people, and I'm so thankful that I get to call one of you family.
Needed to hear that... ❤️
Thank you.
This made my day, your dad seems like a wonderful man
A lot of people hate on us. But we are just big teddy bears inside. We are just scared of losing those we love and being seen as weak and getting used. I needed to hear what you said. Thank you.
I both hate and appreciate you, Ryan. I appreciate how you were able, to sum up, my childhood wound and views of the world in a way that not only spoke to me but also so the people in my life could too. You had all my type four friends in their feels when we listened to it last night... Now I am frustrated at you, cause I felt like you showed everyone my inner self and now I am defenseless. Which is such an 8 thing, so thank you. Good days
Yes 😂😂
This is one of the most intense songs from Atlas: Year Two! It's pretty fitting to go from a cheerful seven song, about wanting to give and give, to a triumphant eight song about needing to tear down the numerous barriers within.
I love how different this song's style is so different but the content and meaning is so similar. This song is pure art.
Its Bebe I agree .. it’s simple unbelievable
I feel ready to punch a hole into the sky holy crap
Lynx Hart YES! It’s an anthem.
this is basically an ultimate 8 mood
YES
“Show me how to lay my sword down, just long enough to let you through” I hate to say the tears running down my face made me feel so weak.
I took the test and thought my result was wrong until I heard this song and realized it struck me harder than the others in the album
Me too
I can’t even listen to the other songs fully without losing interest but this F-big song cuts me down and I can’t stop listening to it (in private of course). Even though I am loud, proud, and have a rough exterior I can’t believe how well he nailed me with a vulnerable intimate song. It’s confusing.
I’m not an eight but I’m a five and I relate so much to the ‘I wanna break these bones til they’re better’ and the central softer section in the middle, as it’s very similar to how I get when I have a massive goal. I’ve heard that type 5s have elements of 8 so maybe that’s why I feel this one.
I feel ya here.
Through growth you become a 8 and through stress 8 becomes 5.
Also a five and this song hit me so hard dude
Jared Almon that makes so much sense! This makes me want to research and study and work which is part of my healthy levels. The enneagram is so fricking interesting
As an 8 who has been a 5 I know that 5s become 8s
"I'll shake the ground with all my might, and I will pull my whole heart up to the surface; for the innocent, for the vulnerable, and I'll show up on the front lines with a purpose" Yes! It's what keeps me going.
The ending says it all...the boy becomes invincible by allowing vulnerability to lead him to real strength...which is stillness (brilliant!!)
"when i see fragile things, helpless things, broken things... i see the familiar."
gets me every freaking time. i can never get through this line without tears to be honest, it hits so deep, so close to home...
Yeah it's common for enneagram 8's to have a soft spot for children or pets for that reason
lyrics for the copy/paste crowd:
i remember the minute
was like a switch was flipped
was just a kid who grew up
strong enough to pick this armor up
and suddenly it fit
God, that was so long ago, long ago, long ago
i was little, i was weak, and perfectly naive and I grew up too quick
now you won't see all that i have to lose, all i've lost in my fight to protect it.
i won't let you in, i swore never again. i can't afford, no i refuse to be rejected
i want to break these bones 'til they're better.
i wanna break them right and feel alive.
you were wrong, you were wrong, you were wrong
my healing needed more than time
when i see fragile things, helpless things, broken things
i see the familiar
i was little, i was weak, i was perfect too, now I'm a broken mirror.
now i can't let you see all that i have to lose, all I've lost in my fight to protect it.
i can't let you in, i swore never again. i can't afford to let myself be blindsided.
i'm standing ground, i'm falling apart, and all i want is to trust you.
show me how to lay my sword down for long enough to let you through.
here i am pry me open, what do you want to know?
i'm just a kid who grew up scared enough
to hold the door shut and bury my innocence.
but here's a map, here's a shovel, here's my Achille's heel.
i'm all in palms out, i'm at your mercy now and i'm ready to begin
i am strong, i am strong, i am strong enough to let you in
i'll shake the ground with all my might,
and i will pull my whole heart up to the surface
for the innocent, for the vulnerable
and i'll show up on the front lines with a purpose
and i'll give all i have
i'll give my blood, give my sweat
an ocean of tears will spill for what is broken
i'm shattered porcelain glued back together again
invincible like i've never been.
why, thank you!
Thank youuu
Thank you ❤
thank you :)
This song is like an inspiration to what I want to be, what I could be if I got out of my own head and out of my shell and out into the world. It makes me wanna tell someone I love them, scream at the world that it can’t hurt me anymore because I am brave enough now to fight my own battles and guard the door I used to hide behind.
i am so happy greys anatomy supports sleeping at last ...i just keep getting introduced to amazinggg musicc
Honestly
Same
When in Grey’s Anatomy do they play Sleeping At Last??
@@juliamarshall9164 i guess every season ? because i heard a lot of SAL songs became Grey's Anatomy Soundtrack.
HERE IT IS: "EIGHT"!!! What do you guys think of it? I would love to hear from you!
Love, TIM
TheInspirationalMind love it!! 😍
Sounds like the heavens opened up and the angels are playing out the stories that are inside of me ♥
such an interesting rhythm!!
Perfect
TheInspirationalMind this is me ! Finally someone who understand type 8. I never identify to the stereotype description. This is me and also this week I deeply understand that in me so the timing is perfect
How can a simple song, a simple voice change your mood and make you see life a little clearer and brighter? Absolutely love this artist... my go to to feel better, to feel sad, mad, inspired.
I saw his IG post and I immediately went here and God, I cried. This is me, my life, story and anthem. Thank you so much for this. I really waited for this. In the past few weeks, listening to Enneagram, I was torn between if I am 'four' or 'seven' but I waited for 'eight' to be released because I have a gut feeling that it's me and yeah, 'eight' is me.
I was also hesitant on whether i was a seven or something else so i took an enneagram test and i found out that I was an eight. And then this song came out and it just helped me understand my own emotions so much clearer
This is the most perfect song I've heard, and I'm not even an eight
Dear 8's,
You always try to be strong, to protect and to stand for the right things in life. You're so amazing and driven. But please, let yourself be protected too. You deserve to be fought for, just like you fight for the ones you love. Please let yourself heal too, okay? You're really deserve the world.
Man...where are all my eager 9s at?
We're all shaking because we've seen what Ryan's done for the other types... although TBH I'm not 100% sure I'm even a 9 ...which is also the main reason I think I might be a 9.
9 was part of a tie for my second highest scoring, so I'm dying to hear it!
How do you know what number you are? I'm so confused hahah
9!
@@lexiecalis1763 there's a personality test you can take online called the ennegram... I find the whole thing to be a bit inconclusive, I prefer the mbti.
I remember the very moment I flipped the switch...never again...and all that I lost trying to protect that vulnerable child...this helped me a great deal. Thank you for being an integrated nine who used love to write this song of wisdom. Grateful!
My bestfriend is an 8 and she recently discovered this song. I've always loved this song from the first time I heard it, and it warms my heart to know she relates to it.
She always had this strong, intimidating interior and is very private. I feel like this song perfectly described her. She has gone through a lot, and she usually doesn't appear vulnerable- even when she has so many inner struggles she faces. I know it's hard for her to actually open up and spill it all out, but I'm proud of her when she tries to share even just a tiny bit of her burden, although I know she doesn't want us to carry her baggages for her. I may not be able to tell her all the right words at the right time, and I won't tell her "I would just be here" because I know she hates that phrase- but I want her to know I love every inch of her, even her flaws, and that I'm super proud of her for doing what she does and for her self-care and journey to self-love.
I also love how she looks out for us, and I love how she is lowkey teaching me about setting my boundaries and helping me sort out my feelings. Talking to her actually calms when I have these irrational worries.
I used to actually see her as a little intimidating back then, but really, she's one of the sweetest person I've ever known and words can't contain and describe perfectly just beautiful a person she is and how much I love her.
whats an "8"
@@kennytwotimes5805 an eanneagram personality?
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
@@anliegonz5682 🥺💗💗💗💗💗
Your a good friend and I hope your friend turns out ok
I am a 7w8 and never in my life have I ever related to a song as much as I did to this one. Holy shit... holy holy shit...
7w8 here too and Its the same I have been crying for over an hour now..
I found out that I'm an 8w7 last year, and wow, did this song really hit me where I didn't expect it to.
When I was little, I was more open and had more emotion on display. After years of friendships falling through, abuse at the hands of those who were supposed to help, death and all the other things had turned me extremely bitter. I had not only put on armor, I had built a concrete wall around myself as well (as someone had put it).
It took one person, just one person, to remind me that I can't do everything alone, and sometimes that wall has to come down and I have to be more open.
I'd been dependent on myself for so damn long emotion-wise and had become so deeply bitter and mistrusting towards others, it didn't solve anything. I was only poisoning myself and chances to start over.
I'm still working on things, and it's still hard to be even a little bit vulnerable or even display emotions, but I suppose I am getting there.
I've always oddly defended individuals that reminded me of myself before the break, and would try and 'toughen' them up before moving on.
Yeah, this world will eat you if you let it, but it'll still ruin you in other ways if you lose your own sense of humanity. Sometimes, you have to learn to be vulnerable, and that's hard. However with the right people, it's worth it.
i’m not even an eight but HOLY SHIT!!! i was so pumped for this and it did NOT disappoint. the soft bits made me all weepy and i just?? i hope you eights out there found some truth in this song. 💖
I'm an eight, and I found so much in this song. I love it!!!
At first I thought I was a two, then a four and then a six, but everytime I heard those songs, I could only connect with some of the lyrics. When eight came out I instantly knew that I was an eight. This song was me. I went to the website to do the engram test and it said that eights are leaders, but I'm no leader. To me this song clealry expresses how a person was forced into maturing, a kid who had to become an adult in the inside due to his problems. That person then developed trust issues since he was hurt by someone he loved. That's why he doesn't let anyone in. Since he doesn't want help, he tries to better himself alone, but he knows that he needs others to grow. He is still scared to be blindsided (betrayed) again, but he really wants to trust once more. In this song we see how he tries so hard to let someone in and he does. When it says:
"Im standing guard
Im falling apart
and all I want is to trust you.
Show me how to let my sword down
for long enough to let you through."
Right when he opens up to that person, he shows his weaknesses, showing that he can trust again.
He then expresses what he would do for those he loves. That he would do so much for them.
At the end he talks about how this process of learning how to trust again made him stronger as a person.
And this is how I relate to this song, I've always had trust issues, because I have seen how the only people that can really hurt you are the ones that we love. I was in a moment in my life, that I told myself that if I push everyone away from me, then no one would hurt me. I soon recognized that living that way is very sad, not being able to rely on others, doing everything by yourself. I then learned that without pain, there is no growth. People around you will hurt you, but some will help. And some of those people that hurt you, some of them could have done it unintentionally. So don't be scared to let people in, but also keep you guard up.
I know very little people will read this, but if it helped in any shape or form, then I'm glad it helped, if it didn't...Well I didn't lose anything doing this 😅
i have never been so called out in my entire life holy shit
I’m an 8, ISTP, and I am in love with this song. This is my anthem.
This is the best song of the album.
I’m in tears.
Album art is beautiful, moving, and telling. This song demands a physical response. Tears, chills, or quick release of deep short breath.
This deepens my love and compassion for my eight friends. Softens my heart, brings my heart, inspires me to be gentle with the giants.
the last line of that “be gentle w the giants” really struck a chord w me, thank you for saying that
Same with me too. As an eight, it’s great that you see that in us. A lot of my friends have a hard time understanding that about us (cause I will never tell them) but it helps when there are people like yall
As a number 8, I relate so much to this song. Ryan has done an amazing work again.
as a number 6 i really felt the track
I so agree I can't believe he could express who I am in so many ways, more then I could myself and in just a few lines.. he is amazing
I feel this on a spiritual level.
I'm gonna check back tommorow to see if there are any dream SMP animatics
My brother is an 8 and we had a lot of parental issues go down when we were children. It’s so interesting to see how we both handles the trauma differently. I’m a 2. This allows me to understand him better and be more equipped to help him which I’m so grateful for. Thank you.
Wilbur, this does match your character.
The lyrics that hit the hardest was "when I see fragile things,helpess things,broken things, I see the familiar"
Sure that line "I refuse to be rejected" or " my healing needed more than time" are so vulnerable but for that line,it is just special for me.It's like u see the catalyst of how u grew to build a wall up and start to wear a armor
This is so unique among SAL songs. I can't help but imagine this playing over a montage in a movie. I'll definitely be spending the next few days listening to and analyzing this song, as usual.
Thanks for the timely upload, TIM...
EDIT: The sudden opening scared me and the sudden ending stunned me. Although, this makes it easy to put the song on loop...
I liked 0:00 through 4:08 the best
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Same
I just recently found out I’m an 8. I’ve never cried from a song before. But this one ... I felt like it punched me in the gut. It was like seeing a mirror. I didn’t know how a song could so vividly articulate how I felt when I could barely even admit it to myself. I listened to it on repeat and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. This song was something I never knew I truly needed. Thank you deeply for this.
The song is so upbeat but it still made me cry it literally describes my life. I grew up being a only child with poor parents so I had to be strong and everytime someone would try and hurt my family I would hurt them and eventually I trusted no-one. Then I met my girlfriend and I was so happy except for the fact that my mother was homophobic so I had to keep my feelings to myself. Short after that my father had a heart attack and my older sister died. I was devastated and eventually I protected all of my family and friends from everyone and I got diagnosed with anger issues and aggressiveness. I finally confessed to my mother and she hated me and didn’t believe me so I kept to myself from then on. I didn’t trust anyone. And I still don’t
I'm so sorry that you've had to go through so much turmoil. But I hope that you can continue to go forward and learn to trust others because I promise you, people are not out to get you. People are not here to hurt you, and I know that there are people who want to be friends with you and be a part of your life, and I know that you one day allow yourself to trust them. You can do this. I believe in you.
My 8 and 2 is tied and I feel like he looked into my life and just wrote these songs on me. I relate so much it's insane. I'm crying right now because of this. So in love ❤
same here
brooklyn Rene me too
Same here!
I feel so vulnerable whenever I hear this oh my god I feel like this captures perfectly who I am.
I have never felt more honored or respected than in this song. I felt . . . safe. It's been over a year and I still cry quietly inside whenever I come across this song. I feel the pain and hurt being honored and acknowledged to a point where I feel myself letting my shield down in softness. Thank you for working so hard on this song. You are my defender in this.
I’m a 3/6 but I can relate to this song TOO MUCH
through how the instrumental and lyrics convey how 8s constantly keep our guards up but deep down want to feel love and want to trust people we just find it so difficult to. I’m tearing up at the lyrics “I’m standing guard, im falling apart. And all I want is to trust you. Show me how to lay my sword down for long enough to let you through.” Not only because of how the lyrics speak the exact things I feel, put in a pretty fashion; but how the orchestration starts soft (symbolizing vulnerability) and as the lyrics become more open and vulnerable, the orchestration becomes louder and harsher; like the person who’s finally voicing how they truly feel is being silenced by themselves. The standing guard/falling apart but completely summarized how I go about my life. I’m so guarded and afraid of being incapable of love or anyone loving me and I’m falling apart because of it but I would never let anyone see that.
And everything preceding those lyrics (scroll up) is us wanting so badly for someone to ask us about ourselves because we know we won’t tell them otherwise.
This brought me to tears within the first few seconds and throughout. I am an unquestionable 8 and feel like you pegged the story of my battle for integration within myself. Thank you for your beautiful music and expressing my truth in a way that I can't help but see my need for being vulnerable.
As the song ends, I am just blank. speechless. thoughtless. Trying to reflect on what I just heard but can’t. This is not just some music. This is beyond that. Also, one of the best singings here by Ryan ♥️
when he said “im standing guard, im falling apart” I BROKE
I’ve listened to this on repeat for the last few days. I thought I would like Eight the least but it hit me like a ton of bricks as I’ve been reading about C-PTSD caused by childhood abuse. My heart goes out to all the kids who “grew up scared enough to hold the door shut and bury their innocence.” I hope you find good people to make you feel safe enough to love and be loved ♥️
@Reese Reynolds did you read Pete Walker’s books?? SO GOOD.
3:09-3:13 brought me to tears, wow.
hehe. i was in tears after 30 seconds :)
as an 8 myself, i can tell that a lot of us have had childhood probllems and had to grow up quick. we feel like if we end up looking vulnerable, we’ll get hurt all over again. we try to appear strong as a cover for what we’re really going through.
Eights are self-confident, strong, and assertive. Protective, resourceful, straight-talking, and decisive, but can also be ego-centric and domineering. Eights feel they must control their environment, especially people, sometimes becoming confrontational and intimidating. Eights typically have problems with their tempers and with allowing themselves to be vulnerable. At their Best: self- mastering, they use their strength to improve others' lives, becoming heroic, magnanimous, and inspiring.
Basic Fear: Of being harmed or controlled by others
Basic Desire: To protect themselves
Just came here from Wilbur soots stream and I’m loving this song already
So I'm an 8w7 though when I took the test my scores for 8 and 7 were 27 and 26 followed by 5 with 18, so very high in both 8 and 7. The point is between this song and the 7 song I'd say it pretty well sums it up. I still remember when my parent's divorced when I was 3 around Christmas, I remember when she accidentally lied to me and despite it being an accident I still don't trust people enough to listen to them without verifying it for myself first, I remember all the times I was told I was lazy or useless, I remember all the friends I left behind as we moved 8 times in 4 years, to 4 different states and multiple cities and locations throughout them. What I don't remember was the last time I cried from saddness and grief. Kinda odd when I think about it, the fact the last time I do remember crying from sadness I was 6, anytime since then has been fear or anger that caused my tears. You will never see me completely still, I'm always tapping a foot a finger, something and in my sleep apparently, I've been told I'm prone to punching and kicking everyone and everything in the vicinity. I don't like staying in the same spot for long anymore makes me restless.
But despite all of that, on the whole, I'd say life is good.
Not gonna lie, barely wrote this, barely posted this, and as I'm writing this bit here I'm still questioning whether I am honestly going to or not. Because I don't need or want pity. Not sure why I wrote this if I'm honest. Guess I figured I should open up a bit and the best place to do that would be here. Where I'm anonymous and no one here can do anything to me... now to post or not to post that is the question lol.... f it why not.
As I am now just learning about enneagrams, being an 8, this speaks to me on a personal level.
There's something really intense about listening to this album after already getting really connected on a personal level to some of his other songs. Hearing him sing "i will pull my whole heart up to the surface. For the innocent, for the vulnerable, I show up to the front lines with a purpose."
I really hope he knows how him sharing his hurt has helped a lot of people. Self included.
This song is amazing, it makes me feel like if I’m ready to fight for what’s right and I love this song very much.
Dear Sleeping At Last,
Thank you for being my light in the darkness. I had a lot of problems I was experiencing and your music, especially Eight, has allowed me to pass through what I went through. I heard this song first when in the psych ward because my sister came to visit one day. we took an engram test and mine was eight. after having listened to this heart wrenching song i broke into tears and just couldn't stop. the beauty and pain behind this song made me get through it all. I was 15 then and being placed in the foster system, now 19 and living on my own, I just re listened to the song and i appreciate the work you have done. I thought i lost all feeling but thank you for letting the tears flow finally. your music makes life worth living. Thank you for giving me my second chance.
Let me just say, as a 4 I often find 8s hard to relate to. But Rayan beautifuly shown us that Enneagram messages are universal. I felt every lyric of the song, every one of us has something he or she wants to protect and may be tired of being a warrior against everyone. Sometimes it may be hard to trust another, but we have to try. When we embrace another, we open to justice and mercy.
The composition is spectacular, I expected the song to be dynamic but this is on a whole new level for SAL. Also, beginning and ending are very sudden, which seeems like an apropriate choice for the most strenght-motivated type.
You can also distinguish two parts, a very fast and energetic and slow and contemplative, very unique.
Thank you for uploading it, I loved it❤
4s are just 8s turned inside out
I'm a 4 married to an 8, and it's a trip let me tell you what lol but he's my warrior and I adore the shit out of that man ❤️
Carolyn Loar that’s so adorableee I wish you guys that best!
I'm a 8 and a 4 lol
I find 4s hard to relate.
this song resonated with me but in a strange way. it gave me the feeling of an older brother talking to his younger sibling. it feels strange
I'm not an 8, but I feel this speaks for everyone who has been hurt so many times that they need to be strong enough to let people in. For that I can totally relate and I keep having chills from this song
"I was little, I was weak, I was perfect too" Pretty much sums it up for me
so grateful that greys anatomy introduced me to the enneagram series and sleeping at last. bless u shonda.
I didn’t have an extremely bad family life or abuse. But my friends growing up lived in extreme situations and always would confide to me with very deep stuff all the time (like almost everyday). At these ages I was in 4th to 7th grade. I had to mature faster to help them out and figure out ways to take care of them. I had to be ok because they weren’t. I grew up fast for them and now it hurts. I didn’t talk about my problems or extreme anxiety from the stress they caused. I’m 16 and it still hurts today and I never tell anyone but my mom and therapist of my problems. I feel old. Like I grew up a lot faster then other teens so we are on different wave lengths where I can’t connect. And none of my friends took my problems seriously because I had two parents, because I wasn’t beaten at home, because I had dinner on the table, because I didn’t have trauma. Well I’m going to be honest to all my past friends I don’t hate you but my trauma was you. You caused a lot of stress and treated me way older than I was when in reality I was a kid like you.
Damn, didn't think I was an eight until the test and this song , God
SO PURE💛. Thank you Grey's Anatomy
Dear God! I'm speechless!
It's so beautiful!
Each one of his songs is a poem, so deep and well crafted, so thoughtful. It's so unique. 😮🤗
All this song says is reality, the real reality of what "number eight" are like. This thing is awesome, you described everything in detail, chills 😭❤️
THANK YOU! I have been waiting for this release forever. I am an eight and all my friends had their songs so I was the last one hahah. I had to stop listening in the beginning, it hit a little too hard. Sleeping at Last is so talented.
My mom and I fight all the time and I’m an eight. She’s a two. She wants me to open up to her. I don’t because last time I did that I was rejected and bullied by the people who I thought were friends. In 3rd grade my best friend, a 2 came and showed me how to be friendly and open up a little. I’m still bullied a lot but not for the same reasons. And now I stand up and fight back. I’ve always hated being controlled and she respects that. And I respect that she needs me to be open. My mom and I understand each other much more because of these songs and I thank them for keeping me with my family.
Brilliant song. I enjoy the second half more. The abruptness is neatly explained in the podcast.
I am a 4 and this one hit so hard... more so because my husband is an 8. Trying to feel him emotionally outside of the emotion of anger is a challenge for me. This is what I feel from him and can’t find the words, “I show up on the front lines with a purpose.” That’s so him... always fighting for the innocent and what is broken. Lord, these songs are incredible works of art!!
I’m a two but holy hell I love this song it’s so powerful and makes me feel so alive!
All the people in the comments saying this is their vibe, but the whole set of them is my vibe. Especially this one.
i'm all in, palms out, i'm at your mercy now and i'm ready to begin. OUCH
As I four, I love this song, it is absolutely beautiful. Eights, take care of yourselves, and I hope you can live an amazing life. I hope both of us can.