Everywhere at the End of Time is the only album that has ever truly kept me from sleeping before. I am a musician who looks into this stuff, and I am truly terrified.
My boyfriend is also a musician and he likes to discover new things, and this has stayed with him ever since he heard it. I’m too scared to listen to it myself!
The song sampled in "It's just a burning memory" is called Heartaches and it appears numerous times throughout the album. Apparently it's supposed to represent the person with dementia remembering their spouse which is why the song appears so much in the album. The list below shows the songs in the album that sampled Heartaches. - A1 It's just a burning memory - C3 What does it matter how my heart breaks - E2 And heart breaks - F4 Burning despair does ache - F5 Aching cavern without lucidity - F8 Mournful cameraderie This album was terrifying and beautiful at the same time. Listening to it was truly an experience and one I will never forget. This gets an IShitMyPants/10
@@The_Lost_And_Forgotten2009 I didn't include them simply because they are in the post awareness stages where the songs are half an hour long each and heartaches only appears for a few seconds
nothing scares me more than this album. i still havent heard the whole thing. the first time i heard about i had a week long depressive state. you would think that some horror movie or game would be the thing that keeps me up at night, but its that album.
I’ve only gotten about 2 and a half hours into it (months ago) because it caused me to have a depressive episode too. I already struggle a lot with depression, but it’s just so extremely unsettling to listen to that it put me in such a depressive state. I now have to make the effort to avoid the music from it (as the first song is popular as a meme) because it’s extremely triggering for me.
@@iamnotthatguy7166 seriously!! i can get sad pretty easily with sad sounding music (and have cried like a bitch in the right moods) but this was just boring idk maybe my adhd kicked in edit: not to disrespect the artist of course, but without the connection my brain didn't make it just becomes slow music that isn't in my taste at all, I get that others may experience it differently
I listened to the whole album, and it was worth it. It was my first experience, as a 16 year old, with true art. The ending to the music project actually made me cry, and then I had a much better grasp on what my grandmother had to go through.
For some context, i was 9 when my grandmother passed. Every time i talked to her at the hospice, she was slow but lightened up when she saw me. The last time I went, she didn’t recognise me, and asked stuff like “what’s your name? Where are you from?” I didn’t think much of it at the time, I just thought it was a funny game. But later I understood what happened, and after EATEOT “ Everywhere at the end of time “ I understood much better, what my grandmother went through for all those months.
My grandmother also went through dementia and now that I did many research about it I understand I terrifying it is my grandmother passed away in ends of 2021 and I was 14 then but it was the saddest day of my life and the worst but after learning about this I am actually tearing up
My biggest regret was using the album as something to sleep too, I only listened to the first chapter of the song and thought it was nice, it made me feel calm and collected. I played the album somewhere around 11 pm and started to drift off into sleep, everything was good so far. Here’s the bad part, it was a dream, well more of a nightmare actually, I was strapped down to my bed, I couldn’t move or scream, I could only hear and see. What happened next felt so damn real, I remember most of it although I try not to, my belly area started to vibrate or move like when your about to sneeze, my organs bursted out, the pain I felt was horrible, I can’t really remember the rest besides trying to move again, when I woke up my pillow was wet with sweat, and the loud distorted music I heard in the middle of the night terrified me to no end because I was still half asleep, but it gets worse, I closed my eyes again while laying down by accident trying to stretch, I couldn’t move my body, and it felt like something was pressing against my back. I could finally move after a few seconds and I immediately turned off the music, I decided to stay up and watch RUclips for the rest of the night, this was like a few weeks ago.
@@alphaomega6801 dude i didn’t even listen to it at all, and i read the comments and just KNOWING about it kept me up all night. i’m not even joking i was scared as shit all night
I’ve never thought about dementia like this before. I’ve heard stories from my family that before my great-grandmother died, she suffered with dementia but when little 2 year old me walked in, it’s like she came back because she would remember me everytime and she would never forget anything that happened with me. This video and the album helped me to realise what dementia truly feels like and how shocking it must of been for my family members to see my great-grandmother acting completely normal when I was around. To this day, I have no idea why she could remember me so well but I feel like it was a bittersweet thing that she could, like her last gift to her family members, her remembering her great-grandson.
I think the people who made it are genius. The way they made it with melodies degrading overtime symbolising the different stages are done so well. I haven't listened to it the full way through because I just don't feel too moved by it and don't really feel interested in investing 6 hours of my time listening to random sounds. However, I respect the details throughout the piece because it really shows the depth of how you can create imagery through music. The mere fact that people have been truly scared by this is really something to admire from a creative point of view. It shows that music really is art and can provoke feeling and real emotion from people. It reminds me of that opening scene from the movie 'Up'; they are very similar in creativity and portraying real life situations. We don't get many other really provocative art pieces that are widely recognised, and these will be cherished.
Everywhere at the end of time at the end made me cry. It was the collection of songs that for some reason made it so coherent despite it sounding so dissonant from each other. It genuinely terrifies me how it represents dementia.
My Grandad has been suffering with dementia for years, and when you’re up close, its easy to forget to emotionally tune in. Its all about getting the person dressed, fed, taken care of, we don’t have the luxury of wondering how scared grandad might be day to day. This music project made me angry when I first listened, because I always wanted to ignore how horrible this disease is. Its very, very effective, the composer got it right, I cry a lot more since I looked into it.
This shit actually scares me to the point I shed tears when I hear it sometimes. I don’t even know why, the music and the tone and the way it changes throughout the course of listening to it just freaks me out. It’s awful to think about and it panics me so much because of the changes.
Yeah music is powerful you do know why I think you don’t know what to call it or how to describe it even I was suprised when solipsism was the word for the weirdest feelings sometimes mentally not knowing of the dangers makes them more dangerous or maybe knowing can make it worse and it’s not even the music that creeps me out the most the fact you can forget so many things when you get older it’s very scary because I get it mixed up with dreams sometimes dreams I forget weither it was a dream I usually don’t stay away from it because of all the things I can learn but it’s not always scary once you do know
Everywhere at the End of Time is truly disturbing. I'm 2019, my great grandmother, who was diagnosed with dementia, died and when I heard this album I had to pause it. It was one thing, being a person who spent years with her, even in sickness, but yet still being forgotten over and over again, but this made me feel what she felt and it made me so emotional. It truly is disturbing and scary for me
Most of if not all of my grandparents, have had dementia. Odds are that when I’m older il probably end up with it too. The look your loved one gives you when they forget you is heart breaking. Sorry you had to go through it too mate.
I listened to the entire project over a year ago, all in one sitting. It was a haunting, insightful, and emotionally painful experience, definitely the most impactful musical piece I've experienced. From what I can remember, I dont think I ate, spoke or hardly even moved during those 6 hours so this is not something that I recommend to most people, but I personally don't regret it having reached the end. It has hugely impacted the way I view the concept of dementia, or even consciousness itself. Its interesting to see new people rediscovering the project now, though I do understand how it impacted you, Jojo, so I hope you get through the other side of the depressive crash soon x
@@donkeykongisbetterthanmari7495 Honestly I listened to the project out of curiosity and fascination of psychology..... but Donkey Kong music is cool too
I genuinely love Everywhere at the End of Time. Like, its overall just such a good album. But with the added context of dementia, it is such a terrifyingly good piece of art and I just love it so fucking much. My life would not be the same without the album and I am so thankful that it exists.
I was in a hotel room about to leave Colorado in the morning. I watched Wendigoon’s video about “Everywhere at the end of time” and I was tearing up as I watched it. Ever since then and having watched more videos about it I am fascinated by it. Dementia is now one of my biggest fears
The terrifying thing to me about dementia is that I could be in post-awareness hallucinating that I'm listening to one of your videos when I'm really slowly dying and I would never be able to remember long enough to remember. I think I'm really here but I can't be sure and that scares me
I listened to it while my grandfather was going through Dementia. This album was a beautifully dark transcendence into what one could only begin to imagine dementia is like. The intro track alone broke me because not long before listening to it, the sample it uses (‘We’ll meet again’) was played on my (other-side) grandmother’s funeral. It is agony. It is bliss. It is everything you can remember, and then nothing you can comprehend by the end. It is the sound of your brain saying farewell to your body and soul. It really has a ‘your time has come’ energy to it, and while I love that it exists... I won’t be listening to it again. I do not recommend this on any substances, sleep deprivation etc. You need to be in a good place, and it will leave you in a shit one. Just make sure you have friends and/or family to talk to afterwards. This album had got me when I was dealing with losses, upcoming losses, winter covid (2020), amongst other things. It can decimate you if you’re unprepared. Regardless, to anyone with families going through the chaos that is dementia, my heart goes out to you all. It’s a bugger of an illness that’s for sure. For GD -- Rest in Piece mate. Love every memory I was blessed to shared with you. I hope I can keep them safe, and you have some way of reliving them in your own way, wherever you are now.
@@cristianramirez7071 lol k. Learn to spell God first and foremost. Secondly, don’t know why you’re commenting, but must suck to be you. This is here for people who are in a similar boat. Not you it seems. So don’t make it your problem? Especially if it was commented 10 months ago? :|
@@cristianramirez7071I know you’re hurting from something brother. Nobody acts like this over a comment like this unless they themself are truly hurting. People are there for you. Seek help.
@@cristianramirez7071damn, why being mean for free? And with someone going through hard times? Im curious to what made you want to hurt someone that you dont even know
I remember this album, it’s one of the most sentimental albums I’ve heard. My grandmother unfortunately had this problem (luckily it wasn’t extremely severe but still was bad). She passed away this year and the album reminds of both a scary disease and the beauty of human life. Thanks jojo for covering this :)
This album is the most amazing and unique piece of art I've ever experienced. When I heard the 1st song "it's just a burning momeory", I knew it was something special. It just made me feel nostalgic over nothing. Now after hearing it so many times it gives me anxiety because it just puts me in reality and I think about everything. Listening to the full album was just a terrible roller coaster that plummets you further and further into the horror of dementia.
To be honest I have never heard of this album before literally until now, and since I’m also a musician myself I would’ve gone my own way to listen to this musical project. But by the looks of the comments and you telling us that you honestly don’t recommend anyone to listen to it, I honestly don’t know if want to listen to it anymore because there’s still that little curious musical part of me that wants to listen to it. But won’t only because I don’t want it to make me feel the same way. This was a good learning experience though honestly! My prayers for anyone with this horrible disease! ✝️🙏🏼
Wendigoon did I great video about it where he listens to it straight and gives his honest reactions to what is happening. It’s haunting even second hand
I feel like this gives me the same unsettling vibe as the song from Disney’s UP “Married Life” where the song, which appeared so upbeat and vibrant in the beginning, slowly fades and washes away into a loneliness and emptiness. To say music is powerful is an understatement. I believe that music has the literal ability to temporarily control our lives by putting us into a perspective other than our own individual mind.
The fact that people are still talking about Everywhere At The End Of Time, even three years after its final release, goes to show how much of a modern masterpiece it is.
I remember listening to the entirety of EATEOT last year rather than paying attention to my classes. I was in a voice call with my friends as well and they were genuinely concerned for my mental health and well being because as I got deeper in I began going quiet and dissociating a lot. And since I heard the whole thing in one sitting it was just. A lot. And after that day everytime i heard or saw anything having to do with it I would avoid it like the plague. This is my first time interacting with anything having to do with it since that time and i still feel unnerved. Call me sensitive but it truly is a harrowing listen. Since I saw the notification that you uploaded I was curious and had not expected you to talk about it. But it helped me feel more at ease to interact with this album again, despite still feeling a bit weary. Thank you for talking about it!.
The first time I listened to EATEOT was at 12:16 AM… I don’t know what happend to me. I just was scared of everything black and white (Treadmills especially don’t ask) and I was crying and lost control
I’m glad there are other people who had this experience, this is also my first time revisiting it since I first saw it and it sent me on a spiral. I’m hoping that confronting it again will help
i remember a little less than a year ago i discovered it for the first time. i only got through the first 30 minutes but to this day “It’s Just a Burning Memory” haunts me whenever i hear it. i’m still too scared to listen to the rest and i don’t think i ever really want to. my family also has a very long history of dementia and my dad is already showing signs of it and i’m terrified i’m gonna get it one day too. dementia i think is truly my biggest fear
Oh my god I literally can’t listen to that “it’s just a burning memory” song anymore. It makes me unable to sleep that day, and I start tearing up listening to it. All of these songs just sound despair filled and make me feel dreadful
I've worked in LTC as a student of medical Sciences and therapeutics and... that album unleashed a horrible revelation within just the first couple songs. I had to stop. It was a true primal fear. A fear of Dementia. Not in the "oh you have Dementia I fear you", no, it was the fear of being addled with Dementia, losing myself, my memory, all my personality, and becoming an empty husk that never knows what's truly wrong, but there's something... wrong. The death of the self, of who I am, of EGO. This album is dangerous, macabre, yet strangely beautiful and dreamy. Truly haunting. I've only finished it once. Never again.
i really had a bad experience with that album cause i tried to listen the entire album in one night, for some reason when I was falling asleep i got sleep paralysis and I had my headphones still in my hears so i was just there, in complete darkness, scared af with the stage 5 songs constantly playing. tbh i cant even express how bad was it, it felt like being actually in hell, in some sort of void, not knowing if u will ever get out
Dude I wanna be friends with you so bad, you're probably the RUclipsr that to me seems the most genuinely likeable, down to earth, and just have such an amazing personality. It is INSANE how great you come off as. You just feel so genuine and true.
Just wanted to say thank you Jojo. I’ve been a long time fan but normally never comment and I found this video, funny enough on a late night search for sleep. I’ve dealt with Alzheimer’s and scares with memory throughout my family tree on both sides and never dug into how or what they were truly feeling beyond the surface due to how much I value thinking and memory as a whole. It’s what defines us as separate entities from each other in my eyes and hearing about what it’s like to have that ripped slowly away is truly jaw dropping yet at the same time gave me some sort of peace with the loss of those loved ones. I really didn’t mean to be effected this much and I feel better for it, thanks again :)
Never expected to see everywhere at the end of all time on this channel but props for looking into it deffinetly something very daunting to do both musically and emotionally
Everywhere at the end of time is literally the most life changing album I’ve ever listened to. Calling it an album doesn’t do it justice either so I normally refer it as an experiment, what that album made me feel is expressed in the 2,153 letter doc I made on my phone. This album left me speechless, terrified, heart broken and In actual pain that I couldn’t breathe out my nose from how much I sobbed. I imagined losing everyone I’ve ever met or loved and it broke me to pieces when I imagined forgetting who I am, during that time I was dealing with a break up so ig that’s why I hurt sm, but it changed my perspective of how I wanted to forget she ever existed cuz of all the anger, and now I don’t ever wish to forget any moment we shared. This truly changed it all for me
I feel like almost everyone I know has listened to that album when they were already going through a rough patch (death of a family member, or someone close is very ill/definitely will die (think cancer), break up, depression spike, injured themself, having a rough time with their friends, etc). I know it seems a weird thing to pick at but it seems like a strange coincidence that people find this soul crushing piece of art when they’re already in a more vulnerable state.
this is my first time hearing about the album in its entirety but i have heard of the “main song.” and knowing what is about has really got my thinking and understand dementia more. my great grandmother had it for about 3-4 months before she past. and i will always remember the day when i walked in to visit her and she didnt know who i was, and my mom had to tell her. nearly cried. after that it kept getting a lot worse to the point she couldnt even remember what was wrong with her and why she was in the place that she was at the time. she would only live for 3 days after it start to show how bad it really was. listening to you kinda explain it helped me realize how bad and scary dementia is. an even tho this made me feel sad and other emotions i dont know how to explain, this made me also feel a bit better cause i learned some crucial information. it helped me understand what my great grandmother went through. thank you jojo
Ok, this is my first time hearing about this and stuff. When you played Stage one in the background, Sadness just overcame me instantly. People could probably tell me I am weird, not everyone is going to feel the same way or have the same reaction towards everything, but I felt pure sadness and was so close to crying. My mind went back in time to when I would seethe outbreak of diseases, Cholera...etc on tv and stuff, the music just reminds me of one of those documentaries that make the situation much more serious and sadder than it was. But I would not listen to it, how interesting it sounds, I'd love to, but I am sensitive to music, if that makes any sense, I have been suicidal in the past, past as a few months ago but getting better and it would most likely trigger me, but thank you so much for sharing! If I do feel like listening one day, I would try my best. Unfortunately, I cannot at this time, but I really thank you for sharing this. Also, yes the music does sound like that old time kind of waltz music. And when hearing music like this, it really really takes me back to those moments of all the sad, past events what were historical and devastating. Music is really like a language, we learn to read, write, explain it, perform it, Music can tell stories with actions or just by itself and for someone to make music like this for example is truly a masterpiece. It was composed in such a way, to make us feel how terrible it is to have a friend or family member that is going through this. I keep editing the comment to explain better.
My Pop was affected with dementia, it’s a horrible disease, one day he would wake up and not remember us, and he just became something else, this brought a tear to my eye watching and listening that they put this in a kids show such a SpongeBob
I am so happy that Everywhere at the End of Time is getting more recognition through memes. I remember my friends introducing me to the album back in mid 2019 (month or two after release) and listening to the whole thing with them at a potluck. It's very different to other music, but I would highly suggest listening to the whole thing if you feel up to it
Why is this terrifeing? Its beautiful clinging to those last memorys is scary i get that but those memorys are important to you thats what makes it beautiful
This album will forever chill me too my bones it makes my stomach twist and knot up and I practically break out in a cold sweat, I was genuinely so spooked when you started playing stage five, I didn’t wanna hear it again had to lower my volume so quickly. Just hearing the stage one song fills me with dred at this point . This album is magnificent in displaying dementia and truly terrifying in every other way imaginable (Edit sorry I meant stage 6 it was late and I was typing quick)
@@poppynoble167 yeah I know, in the end it’s just about mental maturity and fortitude. Some people are just better at living with the dread that this work gives.
I'm confused. I only recall the song off of the troll face meme. I'm not scared of the songs, rather just confused how people "experience dementia" through the song. Please reply explaining what im suppose to kno. Confused
i genuinely love ''Its just a burning memory'' as a song in its self. dont get me wrong it is a very disturbing and depressing song but something about it seems so calm, peaceful and, free? or at least i think it does. i live in a small and old town in england which, at night, is very lit up with warm lights. i used to walk around at night in winter on my own after smoking *substance* and just listen to this song and i would feel so at peace and careless, quite an inexplainable feeling. to this day i still love to come back to this album/project every now and then, no other musical piece gives me goosebumps, unlike this
I just finished my first year as a neuroscience major and dementia/Alzheimer’s/memory have been huge topics. one of my professors actually told us about this and how the project has stuck with her. I’m a big music lover as well (classical pianist check) but gosh am I terrified of this album
As someone who is finishing my major in neuroscience, I completely agree with dementia being a huge topic. Every paper I have taken has talked about dementia at some point briefely to it being like a weeks worth of lectures. I hope you keep going and enjoying the major!
i’ve known about this album for about 2 years now and it crosses my mind so often. i was writing a paper for school early this year and listened to this album a lot while writing, because i’m genuinely fascinated by it. everytime i got to stage 3 i kept replaying it from the beginning though. because yeah, you know why. an extremely disturbing, scary and devastating piece of art
This kept me up at night today and i can’t even explain what happed to me to the point I had to go to therapy to fix me and I’m still haunted by this and I can’t leave my head
Everywhere at The End of Time made me feel something that I have never felt before... relaxed, calm and at peace, yet at the same time anxious and afraid it's such a weird feeling... Strangely the first few songs i find made me feel sadder, how it all sounds so good yet one day would just be gone... than the rest which were pretty much noise felt oddly relaxing, where nothing really makes sense anymore yet being able to recognize familiar melodies lifts me up, but dragged down as soon that it's gone
I was introduced to this “project” in 2016. It was brought back to my attention to one of musician friends (I am also a musician) in late 2018 and I ended up sacrificing a whole day one summer to listen to the whole thing. I kinda have some experience listened to long pieces of music so this wasn’t a big deal to listen to. It’s very beautiful yet haunting. It has lot of empty space which makes it extremely difficult to get the full experience of “nothingness” due to external factors. If only I was able to rent out a small, soundproof booth to listen to this… If you ever end up reading this, I highly recommend the band Dream Theater. Relating to the topic of mental health, is the song “Six Degrees of Inner Turbulence” the 40 minute song, not the album. It goes through multiple mental illnesses like schizophrenia, PTSD, autism, and more. It’s a wonderful piece by a wonderful band! This band has opened my eyes and helped me mature and understand my life a lot a better.
@@neonlights_12 Yeah, exactly. My father is the same way. I played a couple songs and he seemed to only prefer the slower ballads over the more “proggy” and heavy ones.
I'm terrified of dementia. My great grandfather suffered from it, his daughter, my grandmother is suffering from it, and I'm scared that my dad will suffer from it and that my brothers and I will too. It was heartbreaking as a kid, I would always recieve birthday letters from my grandma, she always made me feel special and when they suddenly stopped I felt so sad. And after almost 10 years, I was finally able to see her because we live so far, she didn't really recognize me, or which one of her kids I belonged too. And then covid happened and she lives across the country, now being taken care of in a nursing home. Before she went there she was barely hydrating, barely eating, and not even remembering how to change her clothes. Now, I've heard that she's doing better in the nursing home but she does different things than she used to, she's picked up cursing and smoking. I just know she probably doesn't even know who I am right now and I wish I could see her but I've never been across the country and can't afford it :c
The fact that both of my grandparents had dementia, makes these albums feel more like reality. I am truly afraid for what comes in my forthcoming future.
Good news is its not 100% you will get it studies have shown that having someone in your family with dementia only increases the odds by. 30% which means it has like a 70% chance that you won't get it.
Listened to this album in full one night in 2020… by the end of the sleepless night I was in such a state of exhaustion thatI could hear stages five and six playing as though it were playing from speakers around my room. I could hear it all around me and it felt so real it was truly horrifying
Thanks for uploading on this channel way more recently, it's nice to see the non-asmr side of you. This is a tough topic, try to keep your moods up everyone, have a great day!
Beautiful project on one hand, I even made a whole video in the Backrooms on it, cause I think they fit it. It‘s more than terrifying on the other I must say, thanks for bringing this more near to me, really thank you for this video. I never knew the real background on it, so that‘s why you helped out alot. Thumbs up!
On my first listen of EATEOT, I cried like a baby at the 'bliss states' of Stage 4 and 6. Stage 6 in particular made me break down completely. Even listening to it months later draws out a deep sorrow within me that I truly can't explain.
@@Poogio-m7c i haven’t listened to the full thing, only some, but even that terrified me so bad. it might just be bc dementia is something that is common in my family and it’s always scared me, but it just made me shut down for weeks. i was obsessed with it in a very bad way to the point where i couldn’t think about anything else even if i tried. it took a while to get over that, but even now i still get anxious just listening to that song that was in the meme he showed. i know to a lot of people it sounds weird to be scared of it bc it’s “just music” but when you really think about it, it’s replicating the feeling of having dementia, which is something so horrifying that it truly cannot be described in words. i hope this helped sorry if it didn’t
What a coincidence. I recently learned it was an album and listened to some. I was deeply disturbed. I realized and became scared for my grandmother. She has dementia and I have no idea what she’s going through.
Upon hearing the music track in that 3 am video, I immediately recognized it from the "Mr. Incredible becoming uncanny" meme. Thank you for bringing this utterly dreadful project to light. It's truly a work of art.
Art so truthful & beautiful yet terrifying is a new form of creative work I've never experienced in my life. I could not finish the album, it made me genuinely feel sad and terrified. I never would have imagined I'd feel almost depressed for a few days after listening to half of it. This album definitely unlocks a primal fear almost as if I was in "fight or flight" mode trying to get away from this 'thing' that's inevitable. This album is most definitely not for the faint of heart.
I've seen the Spongebob meme before. It was made by my favorite meme RUclipsr too. I love The Caretaker's pleasant way of portraying classical music as some mental illness.
I know what it's like to be in that sterile rut where you just can't seem to focus or be productive, and you feel like you're robbing yourself of quality-used time, and you find your emotions being more drawn to art of the absurd or the dark. I just want you to know that every creative mind goes through this, and you almost forget when you're in it that it's happened before and it'll happen again, but it is normal, and sooner or later some random impetus will hit you and you'll be eager about all kinds of projects. Keep truckin' JoJo, the greatest artists in the world take weeks off, know what you want to achieve and your mind will always serve you well.
None of my family members has suffered from dementia. Although I've worked three summers as a care assistant in a nursing home for people with dementia, and I feel blessed and lucky that it's not something running in my family. You get used to meet those patients, you get used to them forgetting you, forgetting where they are or why they're there. Of course they're not just sitting around being miserable they can enjoy things too, and sometimes on good days they even remembered us working there, and could tell us stories from their youth. But when you really think about it it's a dark, dark thing to not remember your life, your purpose or your friends. What life is that?
i’ve had quite a great time recently, but this video has put me in such a horrified state that i don’t even know what to say. that song literally made me feel like i got dementia, like i was slowly decaying into history. uh, stay safe out there guys, and may god bless each and every one of you
My dad had cancer and I was his full time caregiver. He developed dementia from an overdose of radiation and the trauma of watching him haunts me every day. I went on to become a caregiver for others with dementia after his passing. I tried my best but didn’t last too long…. I’ve listened to this album. I have cried harder than I knew possible. It’s hard to breathe even thinking about it. It’s so rare people bring up dementia in a way that is serious showing how severe it is to those around them. From my experience most people with dementia don’t know enough to understand what is happening, but the family around them gets demolished for a lifetime. Thank you for covering this.
That's popped up a couple times in my recommendations. The extensive length turned me off of it (because who has 6+ hours for that?) but I'm kind of glad I haven't watched or listened to it before now. You've provided me with a "heads-up", as it were, for what I would've gotten myself into. Definitely good to know before diving headlong into possible mental and emotional terror.
As someone who lives with someone with dementia, it really is horrifying and sad. A lot of times I’ll see my grandma wander around the house wondering where she is, before forgetting what she was thinking about. The most painful thing I have experienced going through this with her, is when I brought food into her room, and she smiled and said a ‘thank you’ before she asked, ‘who are you?’. I cannot even begin to describe the heartache I felt when I processed the question. All I can say is, appreciate the loved ones you have now, so you won’t wish you did when they go, mentally or physically.
My boss's wife has dementia and Alzheimer's. I really feel my boss really empty and devastated. I really feel something everytime I listen to this song
I’ve studied everywhere at the end of time, the first time I heard the track I knew something was off especially the first track “It’s just a burning memory” just by the components, the slowness of the song, the way it’s been toned down, and the static (I always hated the static because I’ve had mental issues where when I’m not in a good state all I hear in my brain is static) the music isn’t the only thing the art also progressively gets more and more distorted, there’s a video on the entire project that was really helpful I wish I could link it but I’m not good with that stuff plus I barely remember it, and about how memory loss as a whole being one of the scariest thing to think about, I have a horrible time with losing people, and thinking about forgetting everyone everything I love and myself is just horrible, I wish the best to those suffering from it and anyone who knows someone close with it, everywhere at the end of time is a show case of how scary it truly is to have dementia, Stay safe out there everyone.
Ive never hear of everything at the end of time before. When you played the spongebob meme clip i found myself wanting to skip the video because the music was scary so to find out what it was actually about freaked me out even more. Im confused if i should be horrified or impressed. The fact that someone could make music so terribly accurate that it could give me discomfort without even knowing context is just amazing. I will definitly not be watching the 6 hour piece lol because i am terrified and want to delete this from my memory, but the creator is increadibly talented and i idk i have no words
At first I thought the 6 hour song / album changed my life for a few months, but after listening to it for what it seems like every school day. I have gotten really over it and I even made a playlist that extended it, since I saw that Kirby has more stuff that sounds just like EATEOT I felt like adding them just to give myself I guess a "challenge".
From a family with dementia as a common trait in our later years, this album is horrifying. Made me miserable thinking of what my grandparents went through before they passed.
I'm terrified of this too. I get sad listening to this, knowing it has taken family members before their time. I can only hope that technology and medicine are better before it's time for me to roll the dice.
Even just looking at the album art makes me feel so uneasy. There's another album he did called "We so tired of all the darkness in our lives", and after listening to the rest of his discography it's like seeing the sun for the first time after years stuck underground
For anyone interested, Nexpo explained about this song explaining the different stages. It was the first time I get to learn about it. I do believe at some point of time me or my dad might get struck by this.
My grandmother has dementia and its pretty fuckin horrible watching her mental state decay. The outburst, the lulls, the aggression, lethargy... last time we talked she asked me if i was afraid. If I felt trapped. If I... "needed to escape this place". She repeated her question exactly as she spoke it the first time. And then she looked off into the distance and said "Help me." It's heartwrenching.
i watched my grandfather suffer from alzheimers for 10 years, and finally losing to it in may this year. eateot is such an accurate depiction of dementia and alzheimers. cruel disease.
When I first heard and listened to the album, my blood felt like it was like, evaporating or something. I cant describe it, but it felt terrifying to hear it. I haven't got into any other stages but from the looks of the comments, (especially stage 5) I'm actually kind of scared to hear it again. The music made me so paranoid that I couldn't sleep at all. My parents had to help me sleep by sleeping with me. (I'm 14, by the way. I know, sounds childish but I swear, I couldn't get out of bed whenever I listened to it.) But, from what I hear the album is extremely beautiful and amazing. I pray that I won't get dementia in the future.
geniunely a horrifying song/album. dementia and alzheimer’s is horrifying and having a 6 hour sample of what it is like is just depressing, haunting, and gives me anxiety thinking of if me or my family will come upon it someday. really makes me feel so much in a small period of time. the last 2 stages are haunting, goes from absolute silence, the occasional sound here or there, then trumpets, almost peace in silence (death). horrific.
I've been listening to this song on loop for almost 3 days now. Not because of you, but just because I like it that much and recently found it. To clarify, I haven't JUST been listening to this song, I've been using it as background music as I go about my normal day-to-day life.
i listened to this album back in early 2020 and omg it is one of the best pieces of art of all time, i was left in an almost numb state for like a month after listening to it, it was both beautiful and terrifying, i cried so much at then end. i still sometimes come back and listen to it for a bit of a reality check that i won’t be here forever and it’s only a matter of time till i’m gone:/
Everywhere at the End of Time is the only album that has ever truly kept me from sleeping before. I am a musician who looks into this stuff, and I am truly terrified.
My boyfriend is also a musician and he likes to discover new things, and this has stayed with him ever since he heard it. I’m too scared to listen to it myself!
@Raytheslay respectfully didn’t ask to your unwanted opinion + don’t care.
Everywhere at the End of Time messed me up.
Idk if you took what that person said personally, but I greatly appreciate your opinion.
@@heyitsme9378 same
The song sampled in "It's just a burning memory" is called Heartaches and it appears numerous times throughout the album. Apparently it's supposed to represent the person with dementia remembering their spouse which is why the song appears so much in the album. The list below shows the songs in the album that sampled Heartaches.
- A1 It's just a burning memory
- C3 What does it matter how my heart breaks
- E2 And heart breaks
- F4 Burning despair does ache
- F5 Aching cavern without lucidity
- F8 Mournful cameraderie
This album was terrifying and beautiful at the same time. Listening to it was truly an experience and one I will never forget. This gets an IShitMyPants/10
G1? H1? K1? L1? M1? O1?
@@The_Lost_And_Forgotten2009 yeah G1 it’s played for like an entire 9 minutes both A1 and C3
@@The_Lost_And_Forgotten2009 I didn't include them simply because they are in the post awareness stages where the songs are half an hour long each and heartaches only appears for a few seconds
I literally listened to some of that album today and researched dementia because of it and now I’m seeing this
dude when i listened to the first one I always wanna weeeeeeee out the window
nothing scares me more than this album. i still havent heard the whole thing. the first time i heard about i had a week long depressive state. you would think that some horror movie or game would be the thing that keeps me up at night, but its that album.
@Raytheslay why are you commenting on every comment? are you ok? why are you being a keyboard warrior
All this album gave me was a sore back, people need to stop hyping this album up FR
I’ve only gotten about 2 and a half hours into it (months ago) because it caused me to have a depressive episode too. I already struggle a lot with depression, but it’s just so extremely unsettling to listen to that it put me in such a depressive state. I now have to make the effort to avoid the music from it (as the first song is popular as a meme) because it’s extremely triggering for me.
@Raytheslay how tf did a literal toddler get onto youtubd
@@iamnotthatguy7166 seriously!! i can get sad pretty easily with sad sounding music (and have cried like a bitch in the right moods) but this was just boring idk maybe my adhd kicked in
edit: not to disrespect the artist of course, but without the connection my brain didn't make it just becomes slow music that isn't in my taste at all, I get that others may experience it differently
I listened to the whole album, and it was worth it.
It was my first experience, as a 16 year old, with true art.
The ending to the music project actually made me cry, and then I had a much better grasp on what my grandmother had to go through.
For some context, i was 9 when my grandmother passed.
Every time i talked to her at the hospice, she was slow but lightened up when she saw me.
The last time I went, she didn’t recognise me, and asked stuff like “what’s your name? Where are you from?” I didn’t think much of it at the time, I just thought it was a funny game.
But later I understood what happened, and after EATEOT “ Everywhere at the end of time “
I understood much better, what my grandmother went through for all those months.
Im so sorry for what your grandmother had to go through. Dementia is an extremely scary disease. I hope you are feeling better now
My grandmother also went through dementia and now that I did many research about it I understand I terrifying it is my grandmother passed away in ends of 2021 and I was 14 then but it was the saddest day of my life and the worst but after learning about this I am actually tearing up
This song gets me scared for my life I just start crying because dementia is so scary to me. Crying right now. Thanks for shedding some light on this.
My biggest regret was using the album as something to sleep too, I only listened to the first chapter of the song and thought it was nice, it made me feel calm and collected. I played the album somewhere around 11 pm and started to drift off into sleep, everything was good so far. Here’s the bad part, it was a dream, well more of a nightmare actually, I was strapped down to my bed, I couldn’t move or scream, I could only hear and see. What happened next felt so damn real, I remember most of it although I try not to,
my belly area started to vibrate or move like when your about to sneeze, my organs bursted out, the pain I felt was horrible, I can’t really remember the rest besides trying to move again, when I woke up my pillow was wet with sweat, and the loud distorted music I heard in the middle of the night terrified me to no end because I was still half asleep, but it gets worse, I closed my eyes again while laying down by accident trying to stretch, I couldn’t move my body, and it felt like something was pressing against my back. I could finally move after a few seconds and I immediately turned off the music, I decided to stay up and watch RUclips for the rest of the night, this was like a few weeks ago.
Dang
That genuinely sounds terrifying
that is horrifying
oh hell no, welp guess I should be glad none of my dreams are realistic...
Jesus, that sounds horrible
I remember learning about this album and I've been wary of it since. It's just something you can't forget once you know what it is, pretty spooky.
Well I’m gonna figure out what it is, wish me luck!
@@alphaomega6801 dude i didn’t even listen to it at all, and i read the comments and just KNOWING about it kept me up all night. i’m not even joking i was scared as shit all night
W pfp
“Just something you can’t forget” hmmmmmmmm…
Mehh nothing spooky about it
I’ve never thought about dementia like this before. I’ve heard stories from my family that before my great-grandmother died, she suffered with dementia but when little 2 year old me walked in, it’s like she came back because she would remember me everytime and she would never forget anything that happened with me. This video and the album helped me to realise what dementia truly feels like and how shocking it must of been for my family members to see my great-grandmother acting completely normal when I was around.
To this day, I have no idea why she could remember me so well but I feel like it was a bittersweet thing that she could, like her last gift to her family members, her remembering her great-grandson.
who knew a silly spongebob meme could mean something so eerie, wow.
You’ll find a lot of that on r/distressingmemes
It gets genuinely existential.
@@atch300 they’re kinda hidden and normalised
You could blend it with anything
I think the people who made it are genius. The way they made it with melodies degrading overtime symbolising the different stages are done so well. I haven't listened to it the full way through because I just don't feel too moved by it and don't really feel interested in investing 6 hours of my time listening to random sounds. However, I respect the details throughout the piece because it really shows the depth of how you can create imagery through music.
The mere fact that people have been truly scared by this is really something to admire from a creative point of view. It shows that music really is art and can provoke feeling and real emotion from people. It reminds me of that opening scene from the movie 'Up'; they are very similar in creativity and portraying real life situations. We don't get many other really provocative art pieces that are widely recognised, and these will be cherished.
It was only one dude, and he made it digitally! Crazy, right?
yeahh the caretaker is a legendary musician; he’s a genius for being able to depict dementia in such a fascinating way
Great speech my young son 👏
@@beatbox_battle1253 it’s good but he didn’t make it 100% since it’s sampled but still impressive shit
Leyland Kirby made it.
Everywhere at the end of time at the end made me cry. It was the collection of songs that for some reason made it so coherent despite it sounding so dissonant from each other. It genuinely terrifies me how it represents dementia.
My Grandad has been suffering with dementia for years, and when you’re up close, its easy to forget to emotionally tune in. Its all about getting the person dressed, fed, taken care of, we don’t have the luxury of wondering how scared grandad might be day to day. This music project made me angry when I first listened, because I always wanted to ignore how horrible this disease is. Its very, very effective, the composer got it right, I cry a lot more since I looked into it.
This shit actually scares me to the point I shed tears when I hear it sometimes. I don’t even know why, the music and the tone and the way it changes throughout the course of listening to it just freaks me out. It’s awful to think about and it panics me so much because of the changes.
Yeah music is powerful you do know why I think you don’t know what to call it or how to describe it even I was suprised when solipsism was the word for the weirdest feelings sometimes mentally not knowing of the dangers makes them more dangerous or maybe knowing can make it worse and it’s not even the music that creeps me out the most the fact you can forget so many things when you get older it’s very scary because I get it mixed up with dreams sometimes dreams I forget weither it was a dream I usually don’t stay away from it because of all the things I can learn but it’s not always scary once you do know
Everywhere at the End of Time is truly disturbing. I'm 2019, my great grandmother, who was diagnosed with dementia, died and when I heard this album I had to pause it. It was one thing, being a person who spent years with her, even in sickness, but yet still being forgotten over and over again, but this made me feel what she felt and it made me so emotional. It truly is disturbing and scary for me
I'm sorry you had to go through that, my grandma has had dementia for years now, thanking God she's still with us. GOD bless you and your family 🙏🏾
@@ArnezDavid Just make sure to let her know she’s loved by a lot of people.
@@chewy99. oh yea most definitely ❤️
Most of if not all of my grandparents, have had dementia. Odds are that when I’m older il probably end up with it too. The look your loved one gives you when they forget you is heart breaking. Sorry you had to go through it too mate.
I listened to the entire project over a year ago, all in one sitting. It was a haunting, insightful, and emotionally painful experience, definitely the most impactful musical piece I've experienced.
From what I can remember, I dont think I ate, spoke or hardly even moved during those 6 hours so this is not something that I recommend to most people, but I personally don't regret it having reached the end. It has hugely impacted the way I view the concept of dementia, or even consciousness itself.
Its interesting to see new people rediscovering the project now, though I do understand how it impacted you, Jojo, so I hope you get through the other side of the depressive crash soon x
just listen to Donkey Kong music lol
@@donkeykongisbetterthanmari7495 lmao genZ really built different
no need to get trapped in “terror rabbit-holes” when you can just appreciate life
@@donkeykongisbetterthanmari7495
Honestly I listened to the project out of curiosity and fascination of psychology..... but Donkey Kong music is cool too
I listened to the whole album during one of the last days of high school, your description is right on par man.
I genuinely love Everywhere at the End of Time. Like, its overall just such a good album. But with the added context of dementia, it is such a terrifyingly good piece of art and I just love it so fucking much. My life would not be the same without the album and I am so thankful that it exists.
I was in a hotel room about to leave Colorado in the morning. I watched Wendigoon’s video about “Everywhere at the end of time” and I was tearing up as I watched it. Ever since then and having watched more videos about it I am fascinated by it. Dementia is now one of my biggest fears
bro I just looked up asmr 😭😭
Same
I just wanted to watch asmr to go sleep then this pops up
This showed up probably because this youtuber has a asmr channel
The terrifying thing to me about dementia is that I could be in post-awareness hallucinating that I'm listening to one of your videos when I'm really slowly dying and I would never be able to remember long enough to remember. I think I'm really here but I can't be sure and that scares me
Wow
Holy crap man, new fear unlocked +1
There's a typo in there and now that I've seen it it will haunt me forever
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thats all i have to say "."
In a solipsistic position, a person only believes their mind or self is sure to exist. Solipsism, technically, is an extreme form of skepticism.
I listened to it while my grandfather was going through Dementia. This album was a beautifully dark transcendence into what one could only begin to imagine dementia is like. The intro track alone broke me because not long before listening to it, the sample it uses (‘We’ll meet again’) was played on my (other-side) grandmother’s funeral.
It is agony. It is bliss. It is everything you can remember, and then nothing you can comprehend by the end. It is the sound of your brain saying farewell to your body and soul. It really has a ‘your time has come’ energy to it, and while I love that it exists... I won’t be listening to it again. I do not recommend this on any substances, sleep deprivation etc. You need to be in a good place, and it will leave you in a shit one. Just make sure you have friends and/or family to talk to afterwards. This album had got me when I was dealing with losses, upcoming losses, winter covid (2020), amongst other things. It can decimate you if you’re unprepared.
Regardless, to anyone with families going through the chaos that is dementia, my heart goes out to you all. It’s a bugger of an illness that’s for sure.
For GD -- Rest in Piece mate. Love every memory I was blessed to shared with you. I hope I can keep them safe, and you have some way of reliving them in your own way, wherever you are now.
Oh gos get over yourself
@@cristianramirez7071 lol k. Learn to spell God first and foremost. Secondly, don’t know why you’re commenting, but must suck to be you. This is here for people who are in a similar boat. Not you it seems. So don’t make it your problem? Especially if it was commented 10 months ago? :|
@@cristianramirez7071 Read the room, then leave. Weirdo.
@@cristianramirez7071I know you’re hurting from something brother. Nobody acts like this over a comment like this unless they themself are truly hurting. People are there for you. Seek help.
@@cristianramirez7071damn, why being mean for free? And with someone going through hard times? Im curious to what made you want to hurt someone that you dont even know
I remember this album, it’s one of the most sentimental albums I’ve heard. My grandmother unfortunately had this problem (luckily it wasn’t extremely severe but still was bad).
She passed away this year and the album reminds of both a scary disease and the beauty of human life. Thanks jojo for covering this :)
This album is the most amazing and unique piece of art I've ever experienced. When I heard the 1st song "it's just a burning momeory", I knew it was something special. It just made me feel nostalgic over nothing. Now after hearing it so many times it gives me anxiety because it just puts me in reality and I think about everything. Listening to the full album was just a terrible roller coaster that plummets you further and further into the horror of dementia.
my grandpa had dementia when i was younger, and this album absolutely ruined me. i just saw my grandpa within the song. heartbreaking
To be honest I have never heard of this album before literally until now, and since I’m also a musician myself I would’ve gone my own way to listen to this musical project. But by the looks of the comments and you telling us that you honestly don’t recommend anyone to listen to it, I honestly don’t know if want to listen to it anymore because there’s still that little curious musical part of me that wants to listen to it. But won’t only because I don’t want it to make me feel the same way. This was a good learning experience though honestly! My prayers for anyone with this horrible disease! ✝️🙏🏼
i recommend it if you're okay with eerie sounds.
I love the way it sounds, I've been consuming music my whole life and there is definitely nothing else like this out there
Wendigoon did I great video about it where he listens to it straight and gives his honest reactions to what is happening. It’s haunting even second hand
I feel like this gives me the same unsettling vibe as the song from Disney’s UP “Married Life” where the song, which appeared so upbeat and vibrant in the beginning, slowly fades and washes away into a loneliness and emptiness. To say music is powerful is an understatement. I believe that music has the literal ability to temporarily control our lives by putting us into a perspective other than our own individual mind.
The fact that people are still talking about Everywhere At The End Of Time, even three years after its final release, goes to show how much of a modern masterpiece it is.
I remember listening to the entirety of EATEOT last year rather than paying attention to my classes. I was in a voice call with my friends as well and they were genuinely concerned for my mental health and well being because as I got deeper in I began going quiet and dissociating a lot. And since I heard the whole thing in one sitting it was just. A lot. And after that day everytime i heard or saw anything having to do with it I would avoid it like the plague. This is my first time interacting with anything having to do with it since that time and i still feel unnerved. Call me sensitive but it truly is a harrowing listen. Since I saw the notification that you uploaded I was curious and had not expected you to talk about it. But it helped me feel more at ease to interact with this album again, despite still feeling a bit weary. Thank you for talking about it!.
damn bro this is my first time listening to it and i’m deeply disturbed. i hope god can heal both of us from this horrible “plague”
*a lot
The first time I listened to EATEOT was at 12:16 AM… I don’t know what happend to me. I just was scared of everything black and white (Treadmills especially don’t ask) and I was crying and lost control
I’m glad there are other people who had this experience, this is also my first time revisiting it since I first saw it and it sent me on a spiral. I’m hoping that confronting it again will help
i remember a little less than a year ago i discovered it for the first time. i only got through the first 30 minutes but to this day “It’s Just a Burning Memory” haunts me whenever i hear it. i’m still too scared to listen to the rest and i don’t think i ever really want to. my family also has a very long history of dementia and my dad is already showing signs of it and i’m terrified i’m gonna get it one day too. dementia i think is truly my biggest fear
Oh my god I literally can’t listen to that “it’s just a burning memory” song anymore. It makes me unable to sleep that day, and I start tearing up listening to it. All of these songs just sound despair filled and make me feel dreadful
Everywhere at the end of time is actually scary
@Raytheslay shut up
@Raytheslay your parents dont love you stop spam commenting
It sounds so sad and it feels like it would be in Captain Americas haunted dream that Scarlett Witch causes in Age if Ultron
but with that out of the way i totally agree that song is terrifying
@Raytheslay bro you are 7 what are you doing on RUclips, go play with buildings blocks or some shit.
I've worked in LTC as a student of medical Sciences and therapeutics and... that album unleashed a horrible revelation within just the first couple songs. I had to stop. It was a true primal fear.
A fear of Dementia. Not in the "oh you have Dementia I fear you", no, it was the fear of being addled with Dementia, losing myself, my memory, all my personality, and becoming an empty husk that never knows what's truly wrong, but there's something... wrong. The death of the self, of who I am, of EGO.
This album is dangerous, macabre, yet strangely beautiful and dreamy. Truly haunting.
I've only finished it once. Never again.
The end of time is actually a super weird and scary music yet creative and well made
i really had a bad experience with that album cause i tried to listen the entire album in one night, for some reason when I was falling asleep i got sleep paralysis and I had my headphones still in my hears so i was just there, in complete darkness, scared af with the stage 5 songs constantly playing. tbh i cant even express how bad was it, it felt like being actually in hell, in some sort of void, not knowing if u will ever get out
I had a state of loss of motivation, as my mind was just focused on this one horrifying song. I hated it
Dude I wanna be friends with you so bad, you're probably the RUclipsr that to me seems the most genuinely likeable, down to earth, and just have such an amazing personality. It is INSANE how great you come off as. You just feel so genuine and true.
Just wanted to say thank you Jojo. I’ve been a long time fan but normally never comment and I found this video, funny enough on a late night search for sleep. I’ve dealt with Alzheimer’s and scares with memory throughout my family tree on both sides and never dug into how or what they were truly feeling beyond the surface due to how much I value thinking and memory as a whole. It’s what defines us as separate entities from each other in my eyes and hearing about what it’s like to have that ripped slowly away is truly jaw dropping yet at the same time gave me some sort of peace with the loss of those loved ones. I really didn’t mean to be effected this much and I feel better for it, thanks again :)
you recovered ?
If you had Alzheimer’s then you wouldn’t have been able to write that without forgetting what your doing. Especially something of that length
@@Johnprize28 do _you_ have alzheimers? how do you know?
@@ttamari do the research, you can’t recover from it
@@Johnprize28 school exists I've already done research and i know you cant, what if this dude doesn't have it that bad
Never expected to see everywhere at the end of all time on this channel but props for looking into it deffinetly something very daunting to do both musically and emotionally
Everywhere at the end of time is literally the most life changing album I’ve ever listened to. Calling it an album doesn’t do it justice either so I normally refer it as an experiment, what that album made me feel is expressed in the 2,153 letter doc I made on my phone. This album left me speechless, terrified, heart broken and In actual pain that I couldn’t breathe out my nose from how much I sobbed. I imagined losing everyone I’ve ever met or loved and it broke me to pieces when I imagined forgetting who I am, during that time I was dealing with a break up so ig that’s why I hurt sm, but it changed my perspective of how I wanted to forget she ever existed cuz of all the anger, and now I don’t ever wish to forget any moment we shared. This truly changed it all for me
I feel like almost everyone I know has listened to that album when they were already going through a rough patch (death of a family member, or someone close is very ill/definitely will die (think cancer), break up, depression spike, injured themself, having a rough time with their friends, etc). I know it seems a weird thing to pick at but it seems like a strange coincidence that people find this soul crushing piece of art when they’re already in a more vulnerable state.
this is my first time hearing about the album in its entirety but i have heard of the “main song.” and knowing what is about has really got my thinking and understand dementia more. my great grandmother had it for about 3-4 months before she past. and i will always remember the day when i walked in to visit her and she didnt know who i was, and my mom had to tell her. nearly cried. after that it kept getting a lot worse to the point she couldnt even remember what was wrong with her and why she was in the place that she was at the time. she would only live for 3 days after it start to show how bad it really was. listening to you kinda explain it helped me realize how bad and scary dementia is. an even tho this made me feel sad and other emotions i dont know how to explain, this made me also feel a bit better cause i learned some crucial information. it helped me understand what my great grandmother went through. thank you jojo
Ok, this is my first time hearing about this and stuff. When you played Stage one in the background, Sadness just overcame me instantly. People could probably tell me I am weird, not everyone is going to feel the same way or have the same reaction towards everything, but I felt pure sadness and was so close to crying. My mind went back in time to when I would seethe outbreak of diseases, Cholera...etc on tv and stuff, the music just reminds me of one of those documentaries that make the situation much more serious and sadder than it was. But I would not listen to it, how interesting it sounds, I'd love to, but I am sensitive to music, if that makes any sense, I have been suicidal in the past, past as a few months ago but getting better and it would most likely trigger me, but thank you so much for sharing! If I do feel like listening one day, I would try my best. Unfortunately, I cannot at this time, but I really thank you for sharing this. Also, yes the music does sound like that old time kind of waltz music. And when hearing music like this, it really really takes me back to those moments of all the sad, past events what were historical and devastating. Music is really like a language, we learn to read, write, explain it, perform it, Music can tell stories with actions or just by itself and for someone to make music like this for example is truly a masterpiece. It was composed in such a way, to make us feel how terrible it is to have a friend or family member that is going through this. I keep editing the comment to explain better.
I love Everywhere at the End of Time.
My Pop was affected with dementia, it’s a horrible disease, one day he would wake up and not remember us, and he just became something else, this brought a tear to my eye watching and listening that they put this in a kids show such a SpongeBob
I am so happy that Everywhere at the End of Time is getting more recognition through memes. I remember my friends introducing me to the album back in mid 2019 (month or two after release) and listening to the whole thing with them at a potluck. It's very different to other music, but I would highly suggest listening to the whole thing if you feel up to it
Why is this terrifeing? Its beautiful clinging to those last memorys is scary i get that but those memorys are important to you thats what makes it beautiful
This album will forever chill me too my bones it makes my stomach twist and knot up and I practically break out in a cold sweat, I was genuinely so spooked when you started playing stage five, I didn’t wanna hear it again had to lower my volume so quickly. Just hearing the stage one song fills me with dred at this point . This album is magnificent in displaying dementia and truly terrifying in every other way imaginable
(Edit sorry I meant stage 6 it was late and I was typing quick)
Bro it wasn’t that bad
@@__yklim I’m saying bruh, I’ll admit it was an amazing piece of art and genuinely disturbing but mfs talk about disassociation and hallucinating
@@strawman7428 It's a subjective experience. Many people will feel more moved than others especially due to the fact that it is a song.
@@poppynoble167 yeah I know, in the end it’s just about mental maturity and fortitude. Some people are just better at living with the dread that this work gives.
I'm confused. I only recall the song off of the troll face meme. I'm not scared of the songs, rather just confused how people "experience dementia" through the song. Please reply explaining what im suppose to kno. Confused
i genuinely love ''Its just a burning memory'' as a song in its self. dont get me wrong it is a very disturbing and depressing song but something about it seems so calm, peaceful and, free? or at least i think it does. i live in a small and old town in england which, at night, is very lit up with warm lights. i used to walk around at night in winter on my own after smoking *substance* and just listen to this song and i would feel so at peace and careless, quite an inexplainable feeling. to this day i still love to come back to this album/project every now and then, no other musical piece gives me goosebumps, unlike this
I just finished my first year as a neuroscience major and dementia/Alzheimer’s/memory have been huge topics. one of my professors actually told us about this and how the project has stuck with her. I’m a big music lover as well (classical pianist check) but gosh am I terrified of this album
As someone who is finishing my major in neuroscience, I completely agree with dementia being a huge topic. Every paper I have taken has talked about dementia at some point briefely to it being like a weeks worth of lectures. I hope you keep going and enjoying the major!
I loved the E1 track Back There Benjamin, idk why i just loved it
1:15 That cut genuinely gave me goosebumps.
same dude, lmao
Yeah after that my brain felt weird and I got goosebumps
Same
i’ve known about this album for about 2 years now and it crosses my mind so often. i was writing a paper for school early this year and listened to this album a lot while writing, because i’m genuinely fascinated by it. everytime i got to stage 3 i kept replaying it from the beginning though. because yeah, you know why. an extremely disturbing, scary and devastating piece of art
Its so considerate of you to put a warning at the beginning of every video with a heavier topic. We love ya jojo
This kept me up at night today and i can’t even explain what happed to me to the point I had to go to therapy to fix me and I’m still haunted by this and I can’t leave my head
what would you tell your therapist about this?
Everywhere at The End of Time made me feel something that I have never felt before... relaxed, calm and at peace, yet at the same time anxious and afraid it's such a weird feeling...
Strangely the first few songs i find made me feel sadder, how it all sounds so good yet one day would just be gone... than the rest which were pretty much noise felt oddly relaxing, where nothing really makes sense anymore yet being able to recognize familiar melodies lifts me up, but dragged down as soon that it's gone
I was introduced to this “project” in 2016. It was brought back to my attention to one of musician friends (I am also a musician) in late 2018 and I ended up sacrificing a whole day one summer to listen to the whole thing. I kinda have some experience listened to long pieces of music so this wasn’t a big deal to listen to.
It’s very beautiful yet haunting. It has lot of empty space which makes it extremely difficult to get the full experience of “nothingness” due to external factors. If only I was able to rent out a small, soundproof booth to listen to this…
If you ever end up reading this, I highly recommend the band Dream Theater. Relating to the topic of mental health, is the song “Six Degrees of Inner Turbulence” the 40 minute song, not the album. It goes through multiple mental illnesses like schizophrenia, PTSD, autism, and more. It’s a wonderful piece by a wonderful band! This band has opened my eyes and helped me mature and understand my life a lot a better.
Dream Theater are master musicians. It's a shame they aren't more well regarded and studied because "eh it's that loud metal stuff".
@@neonlights_12 Yeah, exactly. My father is the same way. I played a couple songs and he seemed to only prefer the slower ballads over the more “proggy” and heavy ones.
I'm terrified of dementia. My great grandfather suffered from it, his daughter, my grandmother is suffering from it, and I'm scared that my dad will suffer from it and that my brothers and I will too. It was heartbreaking as a kid, I would always recieve birthday letters from my grandma, she always made me feel special and when they suddenly stopped I felt so sad. And after almost 10 years, I was finally able to see her because we live so far, she didn't really recognize me, or which one of her kids I belonged too. And then covid happened and she lives across the country, now being taken care of in a nursing home. Before she went there she was barely hydrating, barely eating, and not even remembering how to change her clothes. Now, I've heard that she's doing better in the nursing home but she does different things than she used to, she's picked up cursing and smoking. I just know she probably doesn't even know who I am right now and I wish I could see her but I've never been across the country and can't afford it :c
Just focus on living a life worth remembering :)
@@TheMightySilverback_ thank you, I'll do my best :)
damn, that is truly terrible. i am so sorry my friend and know that gods love is undying, and he loves you and everyone member of your family
@@solarspecter2646 thank you for your kind words :)
truly left me speechless. i’m really sorry for your situation and only wish the best for you and your family
It’s unsettling, but I’m not shivering in my boots and screaming.
Demintia seems worse than death.
that is scary indeed, we sure take good memory for granted
The fact that both of my grandparents had dementia, makes these albums feel more like reality. I am truly afraid for what comes in my forthcoming future.
Same man... my grandma has really bad dementia and its truly scary...
@@CarlosPerez-bj2ln yeah, I recommend to spend as much time as you can with her, all the best!
@@ShindoBlue for sure bro, i try but.its hard when shes in another country but i see her quite often. But thanks bro.
@@CarlosPerez-bj2ln no problem.
Good news is its not 100% you will get it studies have shown that having someone in your family with dementia only increases the odds by. 30% which means it has like a 70% chance that you won't get it.
Listened to this album in full one night in 2020… by the end of the sleepless night I was in such a state of exhaustion thatI could hear stages five and six playing as though it were playing from speakers around my room. I could hear it all around me and it felt so real it was truly horrifying
Thanks for uploading on this channel way more recently, it's nice to see the non-asmr side of you. This is a tough topic, try to keep your moods up everyone, have a great day!
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Beautiful project on one hand, I even made a whole video in the Backrooms on it, cause I think they fit it. It‘s more than terrifying on the other I must say, thanks for bringing this more near to me, really thank you for this video. I never knew the real background on it, so that‘s why you helped out alot. Thumbs up!
On my first listen of EATEOT, I cried like a baby at the 'bliss states' of Stage 4 and 6. Stage 6 in particular made me break down completely. Even listening to it months later draws out a deep sorrow within me that I truly can't explain.
I had the same reaction. I started crying and I had no idea why
Bro what explain
@@Poogio-m7c i haven’t listened to the full thing, only some, but even that terrified me so bad. it might just be bc dementia is something that is common in my family and it’s always scared me, but it just made me shut down for weeks. i was obsessed with it in a very bad way to the point where i couldn’t think about anything else even if i tried. it took a while to get over that, but even now i still get anxious just listening to that song that was in the meme he showed. i know to a lot of people it sounds weird to be scared of it bc it’s “just music” but when you really think about it, it’s replicating the feeling of having dementia, which is something so horrifying that it truly cannot be described in words. i hope this helped sorry if it didn’t
@@transgendy ah I see. I've never met anyone with dementia so I couldn't relate. And I also have photo memory with everything. Hope all is well for u
What a coincidence. I recently learned it was an album and listened to some. I was deeply disturbed. I realized and became scared for my grandmother. She has dementia and I have no idea what she’s going through.
Upon hearing the music track in that 3 am video, I immediately recognized it from the "Mr. Incredible becoming uncanny" meme. Thank you for bringing this utterly dreadful project to light. It's truly a work of art.
Art so truthful & beautiful yet terrifying is a new form of creative work I've never experienced in my life. I could not finish the album, it made me genuinely feel sad and terrified. I never would have imagined I'd feel almost depressed for a few days after listening to half of it.
This album definitely unlocks a primal fear almost as if I was in "fight or flight" mode trying to get away from this 'thing' that's inevitable.
This album is most definitely not for the faint of heart.
Imagine
Just heard the first seconds and i now know that this is a very big sad moment
I've seen the Spongebob meme before. It was made by my favorite meme RUclipsr too. I love The Caretaker's pleasant way of portraying classical music as some mental illness.
On no the title is terrifying me right now 😰
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I’m watching the video and I’m saddened 😢
@Raytheslay yet you care enough to respond?
Sounds disingenuous
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As a Person who Trolls, I speak on behalf of all of us.
We don't claim him.
@Sliky559 I’m not a troll
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The brain is so scary.
I know what it's like to be in that sterile rut where you just can't seem to focus or be productive, and you feel like you're robbing yourself of quality-used time, and you find your emotions being more drawn to art of the absurd or the dark. I just want you to know that every creative mind goes through this, and you almost forget when you're in it that it's happened before and it'll happen again, but it is normal, and sooner or later some random impetus will hit you and you'll be eager about all kinds of projects. Keep truckin' JoJo, the greatest artists in the world take weeks off, know what you want to achieve and your mind will always serve you well.
None of my family members has suffered from dementia. Although I've worked three summers as a care assistant in a nursing home for people with dementia, and I feel blessed and lucky that it's not something running in my family. You get used to meet those patients, you get used to them forgetting you, forgetting where they are or why they're there. Of course they're not just sitting around being miserable they can enjoy things too, and sometimes on good days they even remembered us working there, and could tell us stories from their youth. But when you really think about it it's a dark, dark thing to not remember your life, your purpose or your friends. What life is that?
What life, indeed.
i’ve had quite a great time recently, but this video has put me in such a horrified state that i don’t even know what to say. that song literally made me feel like i got dementia, like i was slowly decaying into history. uh, stay safe out there guys, and may god bless each and every one of you
i don’t know if i’ll ever be the same after knowing this album. god help us
This video came out 3hrs ago and the musical piece is around 7hrs
Yeah I bless you bro this makes me sad
Glimpses of the album keep popping into my head and killing my vibe. I kind of wish I hadn't have listened to it honestly.
Am I the only one that casually listens to everything at the end of life?
My dad had cancer and I was his full time caregiver. He developed dementia from an overdose of radiation and the trauma of watching him haunts me every day. I went on to become a caregiver for others with dementia after his passing. I tried my best but didn’t last too long….
I’ve listened to this album. I have cried harder than I knew possible. It’s hard to breathe even thinking about it.
It’s so rare people bring up dementia in a way that is serious showing how severe it is to those around them. From my experience most people with dementia don’t know enough to understand what is happening, but the family around them gets demolished for a lifetime.
Thank you for covering this.
That's popped up a couple times in my recommendations. The extensive length turned me off of it (because who has 6+ hours for that?) but I'm kind of glad I haven't watched or listened to it before now. You've provided me with a "heads-up", as it were, for what I would've gotten myself into. Definitely good to know before diving headlong into possible mental and emotional terror.
As someone who lives with someone with dementia, it really is horrifying and sad. A lot of times I’ll see my grandma wander around the house wondering where she is, before forgetting what she was thinking about. The most painful thing I have experienced going through this with her, is when I brought food into her room, and she smiled and said a ‘thank you’ before she asked, ‘who are you?’. I cannot even begin to describe the heartache I felt when I processed the question. All I can say is, appreciate the loved ones you have now, so you won’t wish you did when they go, mentally or physically.
My boss's wife has dementia and Alzheimer's. I really feel my boss really empty and devastated. I really feel something everytime I listen to this song
I’ve studied everywhere at the end of time, the first time I heard the track I knew something was off especially the first track “It’s just a burning memory” just by the components, the slowness of the song, the way it’s been toned down, and the static (I always hated the static because I’ve had mental issues where when I’m not in a good state all I hear in my brain is static) the music isn’t the only thing the art also progressively gets more and more distorted, there’s a video on the entire project that was really helpful I wish I could link it but I’m not good with that stuff plus I barely remember it, and about how memory loss as a whole being one of the scariest thing to think about, I have a horrible time with losing people, and thinking about forgetting everyone everything I love and myself is just horrible, I wish the best to those suffering from it and anyone who knows someone close with it, everywhere at the end of time is a show case of how scary it truly is to have dementia, Stay safe out there everyone.
Ive never hear of everything at the end of time before. When you played the spongebob meme clip i found myself wanting to skip the video because the music was scary so to find out what it was actually about freaked me out even more. Im confused if i should be horrified or impressed. The fact that someone could make music so terribly accurate that it could give me discomfort without even knowing context is just amazing. I will definitly not be watching the 6 hour piece lol because i am terrified and want to delete this from my memory, but the creator is increadibly talented and i idk i have no words
Same when he started playing the SpongeBob meme I was actually scared
I’m still scared
And I’m not easily scared
Why am I listening to this at 3am I'm shitting myself.
I put my feet under my blanket
At first I thought the 6 hour song / album changed my life for a few months, but after listening to it for what it seems like every school day. I have gotten really over it and I even made a playlist that extended it, since I saw that Kirby has more stuff that sounds just like EATEOT I felt like adding them just to give myself I guess a "challenge".
From a family with dementia as a common trait in our later years, this album is horrifying.
Made me miserable thinking of what my grandparents went through before they passed.
damn i’m sorry man. i bet they are in a better place tho! gods love sure is undying!
@@solarspecter2646 God = Copiun
@S M what’s that supposed to mean 🤨
@@SM-bk4ye I’m not very religious myself but this emoji fits you perfectly = 🤓
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for some reason the song brings me comfort. it makes me feel sort of tranquil, as if i can separate myself from everything
I'm terrified of this too. I get sad listening to this, knowing it has taken family members before their time. I can only hope that technology and medicine are better before it's time for me to roll the dice.
Even just looking at the album art makes me feel so uneasy. There's another album he did called "We so tired of all the darkness in our lives", and after listening to the rest of his discography it's like seeing the sun for the first time after years stuck underground
I am literally frozen with fear from that album. It felt like an actual experience of what its like to be on your way out.
This gave me the big chills doesn't help that I watched this at 1:00am
Are you busy today?
Yeah, I'm listening to a 6.5 hour long music project
the original music from All Bowly actually slaps
For anyone interested, Nexpo explained about this song explaining the different stages. It was the first time I get to learn about it. I do believe at some point of time me or my dad might get struck by this.
My grandmother has dementia and its pretty fuckin horrible watching her mental state decay. The outburst, the lulls, the aggression, lethargy... last time we talked she asked me if i was afraid. If I felt trapped. If I... "needed to escape this place". She repeated her question exactly as she spoke it the first time. And then she looked off into the distance and said "Help me." It's heartwrenching.
i watched my grandfather suffer from alzheimers for 10 years, and finally losing to it in may this year. eateot is such an accurate depiction of dementia and alzheimers. cruel disease.
Listened through the entire series and I genuinely thought I had memory loss
When I first heard and listened to the album, my blood felt like it was like, evaporating or something. I cant describe it, but it felt terrifying to hear it. I haven't got into any other stages but from the looks of the comments, (especially stage 5) I'm actually kind of scared to hear it again. The music made me so paranoid that I couldn't sleep at all. My parents had to help me sleep by sleeping with me. (I'm 14, by the way. I know, sounds childish but I swear, I couldn't get out of bed whenever I listened to it.) But, from what I hear the album is extremely beautiful and amazing. I pray that I won't get dementia in the future.
I dont think i will be able to listen to this at all
I started crying my eyes out at the SHORT CLIP of stage 6
geniunely a horrifying song/album. dementia and alzheimer’s is horrifying and having a 6 hour sample of what it is like is just depressing, haunting, and gives me anxiety thinking of if me or my family will come upon it someday. really makes me feel so much in a small period of time. the last 2 stages are haunting, goes from absolute silence, the occasional sound here or there, then trumpets, almost peace in silence (death). horrific.
I've been listening to this song on loop for almost 3 days now. Not because of you, but just because I like it that much and recently found it. To clarify, I haven't JUST been listening to this song, I've been using it as background music as I go about my normal day-to-day life.
I agree with everything you said. To me, having dement is basically a death sentence. If I can’t remember who I am then I might as well be dead
Jojo I can’t believe you made a video on the care taker! Truly a amazing album, and I’m surprised you have just learned about it.
i listened to this album back in early 2020 and omg it is one of the best pieces of art of all time, i was left in an almost numb state for like a month after listening to it, it was both beautiful and terrifying, i cried so much at then end. i still sometimes come back and listen to it for a bit of a reality check that i won’t be here forever and it’s only a matter of time till i’m gone:/
I was in my bed trying to fall asleep watching some asmr. This scared me so much i could not sleep for hours