That opening monologue... I know it's exactly how not to live, but it's so tempting to sink into it. "I'll find a way thru my depression instead of going around it. If I dive deep enough, I'll find the drain plug at the bottom... right?" So clever. The urge to stop fighting against it, because you're so tired of fighting, but still too scared to die; so you look for the middle path (Buddha would be so proud), and you try to reason with it, hold it's hand and see if, unlike anything else you've tried, if depression has an answer in it, buried, hidden away waiting for you to just start digging... Only to find that depression lies, like you always knew it would, like they always told you; that the hole at the bottom is unplugged, it's wide open and filling up, not draining out.
Being someone who grew up in the Midwest that is now stuck in some fuckass countryside town I’ve really got to say this stuff brings me comfort when I need it. I’ve been in a transition phase with my life lately so I just find myself listening to music to pass time. Lots of good music! Excited for more!
mn native here too, have you listened to anything by fend or oister boy? a friend of mine is in oister boy and I saw fend at one of their shows. Both have some pretty good music.
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That opening monologue... I know it's exactly how not to live, but it's so tempting to sink into it. "I'll find a way thru my depression instead of going around it. If I dive deep enough, I'll find the drain plug at the bottom... right?" So clever. The urge to stop fighting against it, because you're so tired of fighting, but still too scared to die; so you look for the middle path (Buddha would be so proud), and you try to reason with it, hold it's hand and see if, unlike anything else you've tried, if depression has an answer in it, buried, hidden away waiting for you to just start digging...
Only to find that depression lies, like you always knew it would, like they always told you; that the hole at the bottom is unplugged, it's wide open and filling up, not draining out.
Sorry professor my presentation is NOT getting done, maddy! uploaded
Being 28, working at the cafeteria, listening to emo. Living life.
i'm glad it's you, sorority noise and origami angel in one mixtape omg this is amazing
Being someone who grew up in the Midwest that is now stuck in some fuckass countryside town I’ve really got to say this stuff brings me comfort when I need it. I’ve been in a transition phase with my life lately so I just find myself listening to music to pass time. Lots of good music! Excited for more!
this is my gateway to midwest emo, loved every single track.
You weren't kidding yesterday when you said you had new mixes in the pipeline :)
was quite literally doing final touches on this one when i replied to your comment hehe
This got me into pinkshift and that's a big'ol thank you from me. The vocalist sounding like Gerard Way's early work turns me up hard af
No Momentum!!! So happy to see them on here, I know them personally and they’re so talented and such sweet people
This is a wonderful mix, not sure how I'd never heard Crash Test Rating before now. Thanks for sharing
Basketball Divorce Court
the first song is a great opening for this mixtape!
Maddy uploaded! Always a good day!
thanks for the support btw!
@@maddybutyoutubeyou’re the best Maddy. Whenever I miss being in the missouri winter I listen to your stuff.
Dandelion Hands hurts so badly to listen to but I love his music so much
aight boys and gals, time to cry again❤
I really wish Hospital Bracelet returns some day
maddy's back 🎵🎵Tell a friend!
The algorithm brought me here
This mixtape is bussin' and there is a great flow to it. :)
THANK YOU!!!!!! means alot to see it from the person who made the mixtapes that inspired me to keep doing this stuff back in 2020 haha
@@maddybutyoutube Awe really? That's so nice of you to say. That just made my day. I am glad I could help you like that.
new maddy mix dropped aw yis
Hospital bracelet 🥲
This upload made my night 🌙 and it’s my b day 🥂
happy birthday!
@@maddybutyoutube Tysm 🌌🖤
yay!
mn native here too, have you listened to anything by fend or oister boy? a friend of mine is in oister boy and I saw fend at one of their shows. Both have some pretty good music.
i have not yet but ill give them a listen!
so you were *really* from the midwest this whole time
it makes the music hit harder when you live here
@@maddybutyoutubeoh absolutely (I like to think southwestern Ontario is part of the midwest)
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wher loudbuoy tho
how did you have a minnesota section without tiny moving parts :(
wanted to do more unknown artists (remo drive was just for the transition into the section)
@@maddybutyoutube understood boss 🫡
let’s go
i see that letters to an old friend playlist on ur account :)
a fellow Minnesotan (and fellow trans person buts thats not really relevant to this specific mix), i see. So cool! Minnesota W!!
@@SkidTheMighty minnesota let's gooooooo