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I’ve been on Methadone for 15 years for opiate addiction and I never plan on getting off it.. I started off on 130mg and now I’m on 40, but now I’m using it for back pain because I know I’ll never get proper pain relief because of my past.. Anyway Methadone saved my life and I wish you all the best!!
@@traccbacc7612 yeah what kind of symptoms are you having? I walked off 88mgs after being on it 6 years and I thought I was dying. My best advice is anything to help you sleep that’s not like a benzo or opiate obviously. I switched between melatonin and Dramamine. Lidocaine numbing roll on stuff on my entire body. Helped a lot with the restless leg as well as all the joint pain. And just be around a toilet as much as you can. Lots of puking and shitting. And crying lol. But it does get better. I promise.
I FINALLY BEAT METHADONE BEEN AT 150 FOR OVER 7 YEARS... IT WAS A SLOW AND CRAZY PROCESS BUT I GOT OVER IT...ITS BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE MY LAST DOSE...I STILL HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS BUT IM HANGING IN THERE...IF I CAN DO IT YOU CAN TOO....I WAS BAD OFF
If the drugs are plentiful you can build massive habits very quickly. But I think that it takes a toll on your lifespan and your health in your later years if you go for too long. Ryan wasn’t in good shape when he OD’ed in hospital.
I miss you your finally resting bro I been watching these Methadone videos all day today . I’m on 60mg since 2015. I’m tapering 3mg every 3 weeks. God rest your soul. ❤
Lol! Cute, but I don't think so...he definitely didn't write no Naked Lunch. He was just a good story teller like a lot of addicts that have to hustle.
I had a similar experience in the county jail coming off Xanax and fentanyl I was so fucked off they put me in solitary and I legit thought I was on a boat in the middle of the ocean and anytime the guard would come I’d say I’m sea sick captain. They ended up sending me to the hospital for a medical detox
Forrest county jail in Hattiesburg Mississippi this was about 2 years ago and about the only reason they brought me to the hospital was because they kept finding me in my cell just laying in vomit and shit totally lost and out of it best of luck to you brother if I were you I’d start tapering off now and bring you a small stash in with you to ease the come off
Yea bro I kicked 140 of methadone and klonopin habit in Essex county jail in mass. I was cooking pizzas on the bunk and it freaked my celly out so much cuz it was all a hallucination. They sent me out for medical detox as well. I don’t remember the first week. It’s was so fucked
I was never suicidal until, like you, I was forced to detox off of methadone and benzos at the same time. I was on 100mg done and 8mg pins/ day but I’m a girl and 5’3” & only 100lbs at the time. I prayed for death for 2 months straight. Was that the only time I went through that literal hell? No, of course not because I insist on learning things the hardest way possible, multiple times. The way you described screaming for help in MDCLA reminded of that scene from Requiem for a Dream with Jared Leto and Marlon Wayans when they’re in jail.
was 8mg alpraz, .50mg halcion, 30mg restoril DAILY.. wouldn't wish that wd hell on anyone. Literally didn't sleep for a month. Had an hallucination 'episode'. Benzo wd is like no other...💯💯
I'm going to clarify here, some junkies give the best advice. Straight up. Way better than a Dr in many circumstances, especially in regards to medication. I honestly wish I listened to junkies early on in my addiction. Everything they warned against eventually came true. For one they told me not to tell my Dr I was using. I was naive AF and was red flagged early on becauseI didn't listen. To this day that bites me in the ass. I have a clean record. So if it wasn't for my medical file ....no one would know I'm in recovery ( other than track marks) This Dr just kicked me out of the practice. The Dr didn't even tell me about NA/AA , treatment or resources. He literally said "oh you should stop " then I got a discharge letter in the mail. At that time I had no idea how to get off drugs. I was hardly an addict at that point. 😆 I went to get help and left accepting the fact , this is my new way of life ! I honestly thought the system was there to help 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️.... things spiraled from there.. Junkies also told me MAT was a liquid leash. If it came down to it , to this day I would listen to a junkie over a Dr when talking about meditation or drugs . Western medicine failed me completely!!! Not just for addiction but for health complications as well. They only push drugs for profit...Most Dr have no idea about pharmaceuticals, contraindications, street drugs, addiction etc ... you're better off listening to the streets or do your own research 😆 Don't knock that street knowledge. I've corrected many pain clinc Dr's , that had to apologize later on for being dead wrong. 😆 Especially back when Drs were telling everyone suboxone is a blocker and subutext is not. That's the biggest misconception. Buprenorphine is a blocker in the corrected dosage. Ive actually been prescribed oxy and buprenorphine at the same time.. which is a common pain clinc combo for break through pain ...however addiction Drs are taught to use scare tactics . I get so annoyed when I get a new Dr thats not knowledgeable in " alternative" usages of buprenorphine. You can take both, just take the stronger medication first usually the buprenorphine. As long as your receptors are not full you can add a weaker opiod without PWD and it will offer pain relief. Its a little more complex than that. . But now Im off topic with my ADHD lol ..
I just had a baby but I peed myself laughing so hard (while holding my sleeping baby). I haven’t laughed that hard in a long time... and I mean this in the most positive way. Also not laughing at you at all or the situation but your descriptions of poop and the nurses/“doctors”... I literally keep bursting out laughing just thinking about what I heard. Not only your story, but your story telling and language is incredible. Thanks for sharing! And I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Much love❤️ P.S. I just found you through SWU although I had already seen you on Jessica’s channel and didn’t even know it.
Put it this way. I was forced by my clinic to cold turkey 65 MGs and i can truely say it was the worst ive gone thru by far. Id kick heroin 3 times in a row before that
I’m on 75 and scared as hell to get off. Been on methadone 3 weeks and feel the “curse” aspect and the “godsend” aspect. I do feel normal not high tho.
@@traccbacc7612 I apologize for such a late response. But it was a good 45 days 30 days of continuously worsening wds as the weeks went by then the 3rd week I was feeling better. After that it was just the mental aspect and depression. Learning to live without it.
Been a follower from the beginning, love your content. Can you do a special on Kratom please ? What your thoughts are ect , I’m sure the people would like to hear
What do you want to know? I have taken everything. Opms shots are the only Kratom strong enough to feel in my opinion. I used to take 20 tabs at a time of Bali and maengda. But I’m 215 usually. Ask away if interested. Also on methadone and subs for a year at least. Different times of course
Man idk if anyone else can relate when kicking either be takin a dump n puke at same time......but what i feel is worse ill be puking and then sneeze and puke come out my nose n burns like a mug
We don't have fent really in UK heard of it a few times but 97% of the time it's heroin the highest methadone dose I know of is 100mg/ml I'm on 80mg/ml is the reason Americans are on such massive doses because fent is stronger
I went thru precipitative withdrawal from subs the other day. Bone twitching, peanutbutter left in a car and extreme hot flashes. All incredibly painful i cant even imagine going thru it for 6 months
Did it once last year not knowing any better I took a sub and went to sleep hours after dope because I did that with blues. Woke up from a crazy dream to a fucking insane onset of wds that night I came so close to calling an ambulance worst week of my life. It was so extreme I was thinking the weirdest shit while awake almost like a dream. On day like 5 I finally took zans to sleep then the subs wouldn't even work for like a full 7 days and wore off dumb fast. Now here I am again wishing I could kick the dope but it scares the shit outta me to try =(
I went through pre withdrawal 3 times, went to hospital for the 1st 2, had the 3rd one in rehab, puked my guts out for 24hours straight, on subs now, hope I can stay clean this time
I kicked 180mg in Ventura county. They kept me in suicide watch watch for 4 weeks. Or there is no doubt in my mind that I would have killed myself. I can back up everything you've been saying. I say it like being born or dying and being brought back. I'm down to talk about my experience. If you ever need another war storie for your channel. You're doing good man. Keep it up. I know how hard it is sometimes.
I jumped off from 110mg after 5 years on at Score jail in Washington State. The female guard at intake was laughing her ass off when I told her I was on methadone from My doctor… I wanted to kill myself so bad to end it… but I had this thought that my soul might be stuck feeling like that forever if I did… so I stayed up for 5 days and nights straight.. lost my mind.. came in my pants at the sight of this 10 that was my nurse in there. Humiliating. Lol
@@tomjeffery6708 A jail in Des Moines Washington. Wanting to kill yourself with a shaving razor. Ejaculating in your pants.....thats definitely a humilating story.
A few years ago in Massachusetts they found opiate detox to be cruel and unusual punishment... Now if you get knocked while on the clinic you get dosed right in jail. I actually see inmates get brought in by van to my clinic from the pre-release. The people in the actual jail get their dose brought to them there. Of course, I'd still be screwed bc of the years I've been on Clonazepam... They're still not giving you your Benzos other than a few days worth of libs. I'd rather have the Clonazepam instead of the methadone.... Believe that.
Kicking 180 my of methadone is pure madness no other human could understand unless you go through it. Add pulls and other narcotics compounds the withdrawal symptoms to a point that is brutal.
I can never figure out if you’re being serious, or joking!!! I guess that’s why I like you so much! I saw this title and and jumped at the chance to watch.
I know a pinch about what your talking about bro. I kicked Opiates in MCJ in downtown. I only did 27 days when I got my deal and it was the worst. They gave gave me the staple. Robaxin, clonidine, and Benedryl. It helped just to curb tha withdrawals enough so I could be normal. Love your channel Bro!!
You know clonidine and benadryl together has a side-effect feeling of impending doom first time and only i was giving that i was in the hospital kicking and I jerked the IV out because I would rather kick then have the feeling I was about to die and everyone was about to kill me.
Anyone who has kicked methadone in lockup that did not kill themself with the razor 🪒 is solid in my book.. been there done that got the TShirt. Never again… I choose death before that happens again.
This video is great… this makes me terrified to come off methadone.. I just started last month after almost 7 years of active addiction..my dose is at 85 mg. They cap you off at 100 mg. I don’t think I’ll request anymore increases however by night time I have the saucer pupils going and feel like I’m burning up.. I don’t understand it. I’ll probably be on it the rest of my life Bc I’m not trying to put myself through that. Congrats to you and your sobriety & recovery. It’s truly an inspiration for me. I already have your book in my cart on Amazon. Can’t wait til Friday to order it.
It's true though, if you don't drink water regularly it takes longer for your body to flush out your system. And drink a juice if you can't hold solids down. The body needs energy to metabolize.
I've watched these when they 1st came out, but I've been needing a laugh & I'm watching them again, not laughing @ the part about u kicking but other other stuff... classic. . 🤣
Hell yeah Leone your stories are the ones that I look forward to the most. Hearing them is a reminder to myself that my life just might not be that bad lmao😂😂😂. Palabra
Not a MD or medical personnel of any kind, but in a pinch, I have personally found that Imodium AD helps with withdrawal from most opiates, including methadone. Needs to be taken on an empty stomach, with 8 oz of white grapefruit juice. In my experience, it did not take nearly as much is rumored either. Probably depends on the size of your habit tho. Just some personal insight, NOT medical advice.
Bro.... I can’t imagine what you’ve been through .... I’m on the done and I can’t even imagine what you’ve been through brother... If I could meet one human on earth, it would be you bro. I’m on your Facebook. Everything you are saying is facts... Bro....
I tried to go withdrawal from 90ml about 6 weeks ago, didn't make 4 days. I couldn't cope with the muscle spasms more than anything so I just went back on it. I can't imagine doing it or even trying it again, horrible
Same here. I stated the clinic in 2003 went to prison in 2011 did suboxone all thru prison and got back on methadone in 2013. Methadone saved my life but it's also a curse I can't get rid of.
@@robdean704 not even with a taper? I'm on 80 now, been on current dose for about a year, and on methadone for almost 2 years total. I go to the clinic on Fridays, and get take homes for sat-thurs. I want to start tapering down by the end of this year, but I'm scared with all the stories I've heard.
@@dewilew2137 I didn't try to taper and I've been on it since 2000, I just got sick of my life quality relying on some green liquid so I thought fuck it I'll try and stop. Didn't go well
It took me 83 days to get a couple of hours of decent sleep. I was on 160mg, Xanax, a pretty gnarly habit and I drank a lot then. So on the morning of 84th day was the first time finally decided I might just not wanna kill myself. When you say violent you ain’t playing. Endless days and nights. Endless…
@@traccbacc7612I was on 160mg for over 10 years. I went into a program where they gave me subs for 8 days and then transferred me to the residential side. I spent every night in a hot shower and every day wanting to die. Crossing days off the calendar one by one. Longest days of my life. I remember I finally started getting an hour or two of sleep each night. Day 84 I actually WOKE up and could hear people walking through the hallway. And the reason why that was so significant is because it meant I slept about 5-6 hours because stuff workers would come in around 7am. It was a small win. Very soon I started actually feeling ok. Very soon after I got the worst cold/flu and had a cough for about 4 months. And once that was over I was finally DONE. 2/13/2012.
Haha one time I was out of town and all I had was ibuprofen. Was popping like 12 at a time. Annihilated my liver for sure but it did make me feel about 1.5% better. Not preferable that’s for sure
I dint think so, Klodapin is a benzo..Koladapine is the blood pressire med they gave when kickin methadone and or benzos in the past..I dont know now, its been over 10 yrs .
Whenever you make that face you look like Tom Cruise in Vanilla Sky.. LOL but on a serious note bro I really really really feel for you because I know what kicking is like and I know how it feels to be in there and feel like no one cares I hate that you had to go through that homeboy.... you know just to give you an idea of how different gel is from California and Texas, there have been more than one occasion where I was locked up and going through withdrawals extremely hard and there would be young kids in there that would come up to me and asked me if there was anything they could do for me and they would literally take my cup and go to the sink and get me water and they would give me there Kool-Aid packs from the trays and mix them up for me and bring them to my bunk, and nobody said anything to them or me about it it was just a respect thing
Bro @30mins in had me crying laughing. So true damn south siders plotting in codes an shit “this white boy smells like ass , I wanna stomp him out “ palabra 🤣 and yeah fuck methadone I’m down to 80mg been off tar since 2016
I'm about to go to federal prison & I've been prescribed Suboxone for the last 5 years. I've gotten down to 1 8mg strip a day .. after watching all of Ryan's horror Stories about kicking in prison I was actually glad to hear Suboxone withdrawal is only 10 days! I was expecting a lot longer.
They could be longer. Some can go up to 30 days..Depends on the the person really but it’s good that you’re down to 8mg a day if you can cut it down more before going to prison it will help. When I got locked up I was on 16 mg a day and after two weeks I was back to normal and honestly knowing I couldn’t get it helped mentally bc if I was on the streets and wasn’t able to take it I think it would have been worse. But knowing there was no way to get subs helped me not think about it good luck though hope all goes well for you.
@@CoachHubbs24 thanks.. it does help knowing there's nothing you can do about it. I'm pretty good about getting through it with no complaining, but I've only went through dope & fentanyl withdrawal a couple times in county. This will be my longest bid & first time going through it off Suboxone. As long as I have something to read & a radio, I'll be good. I just think about how better off I'll be off if subs & thinking clearly. Everything happens for a reason.
@@graffics7665 if you've been taking it for 5 years and are currently on 8mg per day, you are guaranteed to have difficulty sleeping for the first 3 weeks ... If you can lower yourself down to 1mg a day or less before going in, your future self will thank you ... That will be smuch less harsh than going 8mg to 0 ... Esp while having access to comfort meds while reducing on the outside ... Stay safe during your bid man, work out and read, have someone keep your books right and it'll go quicker than you think ...
@@MoAli-wm4of thank you. I do wish I could cut down like that, but I have so much going on I'd rather go through it when I have nothing to do. I've always been locked in (23 & 1) for like a week when they know you're about to go through withdrawal. I'm usually pretty good with it, it's just the anxiety leading up to it that I let get to me. I was actually supposed to be sentenced at 3:30 (eastern) today but it was adjourned until 9/1, so I have another 4 weeks to prepare. I've even heard that our jail (Monroe county, Rochester NY)they ween people off subs, but I'm not sure about federal inmates. I have no clue though. Hope for the best but expect the worst is what I go by.
Fuck bro I wish you the best. Maybe the worst part of the kick with be 10-14 days but I didn’t sleep a single second first 13 days coming off 12 mgs. Couple hours for the first few months. Don’t Wanna make it worse for your anxiety that’s just how it was for me. You can do it bro, maybe this is just what you need
I've never had to kick methadone but I've had to kick heroin subs and the worst by far is benzos jail never scared me it was always the thought of going thru withdrawals you describe this shit perfectly started watching your channel after seeing your story on 23and1 been binge watching since great story's bro
Has anyone in here ever slowly tapered off methadone? Cuz right now I’m down to 8 mgs and it’s been a really slow process and I’m just wondering what to expect once finished
@@cristinarichart1118 I’m actually pretty good. Yesterday I went to clinic for the last time to turn my bottles back in. Last dose was Saturday 7am. I’ve been ok, working every day. Only time I have a little leg restlessness is bedtime. And I take melatonin if I can’t sleep
@@joaniewalley9358 I think I was like 65 when I started going down. I never let my dose get too high. but I was using it for heroin not fentanyl so I’m sure it’s way different now. I was in clinic for 11 years
I can't believe your gone Ryan, I'm so sad, I overdosed on Fentanyl 3 times & Almost died, your passing away Although tragic , will help me stay sober, u will be missed buddy, & I will watch your videos over & over, because u make me laugh, & Karina I'm so sorry, he was a good man, yes he had his faults, but who dont. & IF anyone has bad things to say About you, fuck them, rest in paradise buddy..
As I wait for open plea on Sept 23rd. The case is a year old and of course I haven't tampered 115mg methadone and lots of Xanax 0 to 5 years. I score min man 18months for driving while suspended. Sadly your story is mine , I did this when u was 24 I'm 42 now.
They clearly dont feel like politicians and them are on the same team. You should see how they handle a mayor. It's even worse. They do take care of each other though. But it's interesting how there's no sense of like betrayal or anyting with politicians. When they walk up another police officer there's like this weird tension. But not with state lawmakers..
Yeah I personally hate HOT FLUSHES, I'm on 190mgs. My first attempts cold turkey 2011 jumped off 30mgs from 90mgs I did it but exactly as you said I went through in a hotel room then my dad's place. Though when am I gonna die a month of runs and sweats no sleep. Second and third time couldn't hack it went on subx. Now 10 years on 190mgs I would be dead in half a week vs cold turkey.
I came off of 185mg split dosage of methadone , back in the day ( I relapsed early on after getting off though) but now im stuck on buprenorphin. Im down to 1mg but stuck..... For some reason I can't get off , maybe its because I've been clean for so long .. Im older now , I just don't have it in me anymore.. I also have other health issues so maybe thats why. I was better off never getting on MAT. I've never had to kicked H for longer than a day I always had supply but this buprenorphine sucks. I've been trying to get off for 5 years !! Who can tapper off methadone but not buprenorphine lol .. . I guess dabbling helped more than I thought . Im mad I stayed on MAT this long. My parents told me methadone was a liquid leash ....wish I listened...that goes for buprenorphine too. I even detoxed off Xanax and other pills. Methadone and buprenorphine are by far the hardest for me.
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I tried the link to purchase your book on Amazon, and it doesn’t take me to anything related to you. Could you update it. I’d really love to buy an autographed copy. Do you have those?
When is Ryan's documentary coming out?
These last two shaky Jake stories are one of the best
@@jesusdelgado3959 he's on his A game right now. So good
I cannot believe he’s dead.... 🥺 Bro, you were supposed to make it.
💙💙💙
I know eh…I still can’t believe it. I thought he would beat it…
And its 170 mg of methadone that got him? Im on 120mg and some days i double dose so thats 240 mg.
I’m trying to get sober like him but my chances aren’t looking great either. Hard to stay sober when the world never stops producing drugs
I’m on 75 mg methadone check out my journey on my channel. I thought dope took him not methadone
So sad you are gone brother. Bless your heart
I know you won’t see this man, but I’m kicking methadone right now after being on it 6 years. Your descriptions are spot on. Thank you. RIP ❤️
I’ve been on Methadone for 15 years for opiate addiction and I never plan on getting off it.. I started off on 130mg and now I’m on 40, but now I’m using it for back pain because I know I’ll never get proper pain relief because of my past.. Anyway Methadone saved my life and I wish you all the best!!
If i can get off of it you can to...i was on 150 for 7 years...u got this
Emily and tony! Me too right now. Jumped at 60mg but I was only on for 12 days cause couldn’t take the side effects it gave me. Any advice?
@@traccbacc7612 wat kind of side effects are u having
@@traccbacc7612 yeah what kind of symptoms are you having? I walked off 88mgs after being on it 6 years and I thought I was dying. My best advice is anything to help you sleep that’s not like a benzo or opiate obviously. I switched between melatonin and Dramamine. Lidocaine numbing roll on stuff on my entire body. Helped a lot with the restless leg as well as all the joint pain. And just be around a toilet as much as you can. Lots of puking and shitting. And crying lol. But it does get better. I promise.
This has got to be one of my favorite videos of yours. So fricken funny, ….and accurate lmao 😂
I know right. He's freakin awesome Kelli.
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We gonna miss him .
@@SwayOsoarrogant925 may he Rest In Peace
His description of withdrawal is spot on. And he needs some jolly ranchers
I FINALLY BEAT METHADONE BEEN AT 150 FOR OVER 7 YEARS... IT WAS A SLOW AND CRAZY PROCESS BUT I GOT OVER IT...ITS BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE MY LAST DOSE...I STILL HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS BUT IM HANGING IN THERE...IF I CAN DO IT YOU CAN TOO....I WAS BAD OFF
Hope you are good. 💙
@@DLo336 if you wait to be ready for things in your life everything will pass you by
How are you now
@@vaneshiadixon..im good i had a couple slip ups but overall im doing great now
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Good job, Mr. Montana!
How are you doing these days?
Hope you didn't suffer from PAWS. But, if you did, that it wasn't too bad.
Great description of methadone kicking. Palabra that shit.
You gotta be the only person ever to be on 11grams of dope, 180mg of methadone and 7 bars a day….thats enough for like 4 junkies
More like 7
More like 2
U get used to it pretty fast plus some ppl just more than others
If the drugs are plentiful you can build massive habits very quickly. But I think that it takes a toll on your lifespan and your health in your later years if you go for too long. Ryan wasn’t in good shape when he OD’ed in hospital.
I miss you your finally resting bro I been watching these Methadone videos all day today . I’m on 60mg since 2015. I’m tapering 3mg every 3 weeks. God rest your soul. ❤
Ryan Leone was the William S. Burroughs of our time. What an addiction, memoirst! So descriptive.
The story starts at 09:11.
Lol! Cute, but I don't think so...he definitely didn't write no Naked Lunch. He was just a good story teller like a lot of addicts that have to hustle.
I wish this on no one
I had a similar experience in the county jail coming off Xanax and fentanyl I was so fucked off they put me in solitary and I legit thought I was on a boat in the middle of the ocean and anytime the guard would come I’d say I’m sea sick captain. They ended up sending me to the hospital for a medical detox
Forrest county jail in Hattiesburg Mississippi this was about 2 years ago and about the only reason they brought me to the hospital was because they kept finding me in my cell just laying in vomit and shit totally lost and out of it best of luck to you brother if I were you I’d start tapering off now and bring you a small stash in with you to ease the come off
What’d the medical detox at the hospital consist of?
You get to be sick as f in a hospital instead of jail. That pretty much sums it up
@@chriskeith5742 that’s what I figured 😒
Yea bro I kicked 140 of methadone and klonopin habit in Essex county jail in mass. I was cooking pizzas on the bunk and it freaked my celly out so much cuz it was all a hallucination. They sent me out for medical detox as well. I don’t remember the first week. It’s was so fucked
People who have never been through withdrawal never get it.
Describing it as being "like the flu but worse" doesn't do it justice whatsoever.
I was never suicidal until, like you, I was forced to detox off of methadone and benzos at the same time. I was on 100mg done and 8mg pins/ day but I’m a girl and 5’3” & only 100lbs at the time. I prayed for death for 2 months straight.
Was that the only time I went through that literal hell? No, of course not because I insist on learning things the hardest way possible, multiple times.
The way you described screaming for help in MDCLA reminded of that scene from Requiem for a Dream with Jared Leto and Marlon Wayans when they’re in jail.
was 8mg alpraz, .50mg halcion, 30mg restoril DAILY.. wouldn't wish that wd hell on anyone. Literally didn't sleep for a month. Had an hallucination 'episode'. Benzo wd is like no other...💯💯
@@MrMaxyield is benzo wd painful like opiates?? Or just mentally fuckdd up
I just kicked 160mgs of methadone and it's horrific. I couldn't imagine having a benzo habit on top of that. Your a fn trooper
@@frankodwyer9532 there's not many medicines or substances that when stopped abruptly will kill you but alcohol and benzos are two definites.
@@MrMaxyield that's a shit load of benzos i beat that was one mutha
Man I'm so happy I never have to go through kicking methadone again. You described it pretty fucking well. Great video
Ryan said the story starts at 9:11, if you don’t want to hear the beginning skip to then
Thanks.
I'm going to clarify here, some junkies give the best advice. Straight up. Way better than a Dr in many circumstances, especially in regards to medication.
I honestly wish I listened to junkies early on in my addiction. Everything they warned against eventually came true. For one they told me not to tell my Dr I was using. I was naive AF and was red flagged early on becauseI didn't listen. To this day that bites me in the ass. I have a clean record. So if it wasn't for my medical file ....no one would know I'm in recovery ( other than track marks) This Dr just kicked me out of the practice. The Dr didn't even tell me about NA/AA , treatment or resources. He literally said "oh you should stop " then I got a discharge letter in the mail. At that time I had no idea how to get off drugs. I was hardly an addict at that point. 😆 I went to get help and left accepting the fact , this is my new way of life ! I honestly thought the system was there to help 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️.... things spiraled from there..
Junkies also told me MAT was a liquid leash. If it came down to it , to this day I would listen to a junkie over a Dr when talking about meditation or drugs .
Western medicine failed me completely!!! Not just for addiction but for health complications as well. They only push drugs for profit...Most Dr have no idea about pharmaceuticals, contraindications, street drugs, addiction etc ... you're better off listening to the streets or do your own research 😆
Don't knock that street knowledge. I've corrected many pain clinc Dr's , that had to apologize later on for being dead wrong. 😆
Especially back when Drs were telling everyone suboxone is a blocker and subutext is not. That's the biggest misconception. Buprenorphine is a blocker in the corrected dosage. Ive actually been prescribed oxy and buprenorphine at the same time.. which is a common pain clinc combo for break through pain ...however addiction Drs are taught to use scare tactics . I get so annoyed when I get a new Dr thats not knowledgeable in " alternative" usages of buprenorphine. You can take both, just take the stronger medication first usually the buprenorphine. As long as your receptors are not full you can add a weaker opiod without PWD and it will offer pain relief. Its a little more complex than that. . But now Im off topic with my ADHD lol ..
You’re absolutely correct, great info
lmao the "are you drinking enough water" part is too accurate!
I kicked methadone in prison, twice. Hell on earth, I was broke up for months.
Its traumatizing
@@natureisallpowerfulso glad never been prison wd of methadone. Detox/mums house/GF house was worse enough.
I just had a baby but I peed myself laughing so hard (while holding my sleeping baby). I haven’t laughed that hard in a long time... and I mean this in the most positive way. Also not laughing at you at all or the situation but your descriptions of poop and the nurses/“doctors”... I literally keep bursting out laughing just thinking about what I heard. Not only your story, but your story telling and language is incredible. Thanks for sharing! And I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Much love❤️ P.S. I just found you through SWU although I had already seen you on Jessica’s channel and didn’t even know it.
Swu brought me here too now I'm addicted to his vids!
Also laughing, 5am, holding my sleeping newborn 😂
Put it this way. I was forced by my clinic to cold turkey 65 MGs and i can truely say it was the worst ive gone thru by far. Id kick heroin 3 times in a row before that
How long were u on 65? How long was the wd? Currently jumped at 60 after just 12 days in. I realized quick it wasn’t for me
I’m on 75 and scared as hell to get off. Been on methadone 3 weeks and feel the “curse” aspect and the “godsend” aspect. I do feel normal not high tho.
@@traccbacc7612 I apologize for such a late response. But it was a good 45 days 30 days of continuously worsening wds as the weeks went by then the 3rd week I was feeling better. After that it was just the mental aspect and depression. Learning to live without it.
What differentiates methadone detox from H?
Aside from the length/intensity of the acute withdrawal phase.
Been a follower from the beginning, love your content. Can you do a special on Kratom please ? What your thoughts are ect , I’m sure the people would like to hear
Definitely agree 👍
I agree as well. And other MAT not just the withdrawals but how it was on them
Yea I definitely agree!
Why would he know about Kratom? He’s got the real thing.
What do you want to know? I have taken everything. Opms shots are the only Kratom strong enough to feel in my opinion. I used to take 20 tabs at a time of Bali and maengda. But I’m 215 usually. Ask away if interested. Also on methadone and subs for a year at least. Different times of course
Man idk if anyone else can relate when kicking either be takin a dump n puke at same time......but what i feel is worse ill be puking and then sneeze and puke come out my nose n burns like a mug
We don't have fent really in UK heard of it a few times but 97% of the time it's heroin the highest methadone dose I know of is 100mg/ml I'm on 80mg/ml is the reason Americans are on such massive doses because fent is stronger
I went thru precipitative withdrawal from subs the other day. Bone twitching, peanutbutter left in a car and extreme hot flashes. All incredibly painful i cant even imagine going thru it for 6 months
Woww lol. Bet you won't do that again. Did it just subside or did you get opiates to get out of it??
@@jamesbuttery3862 uhhhh plead the 5th lol. Most horrifically painful thing I've ever experienced.
I’ve made that mistake a few times. “I think I’m sick enough, I should be good”………………..
Nope. Wasn’t that sick after all, but I am now!!!
Did it once last year not knowing any better I took a sub and went to sleep hours after dope because I did that with blues. Woke up from a crazy dream to a fucking insane onset of wds that night I came so close to calling an ambulance worst week of my life. It was so extreme I was thinking the weirdest shit while awake almost like a dream. On day like 5 I finally took zans to sleep then the subs wouldn't even work for like a full 7 days and wore off dumb fast. Now here I am again wishing I could kick the dope but it scares the shit outta me to try =(
I went through pre withdrawal 3 times, went to hospital for the 1st 2, had the 3rd one in rehab, puked my guts out for 24hours straight, on subs now, hope I can stay clean this time
I kicked 180mg in Ventura county. They kept me in suicide watch watch for 4 weeks. Or there is no doubt in my mind that I would have killed myself. I can back up everything you've been saying. I say it like being born or dying and being brought back. I'm down to talk about my experience. If you ever need another war storie for your channel. You're doing good man. Keep it up. I know how hard it is sometimes.
I jumped off from 110mg after 5 years on at Score jail in Washington State.
The female guard at intake was laughing her ass off when I told her I was on methadone from
My doctor… I wanted to kill myself so bad to end it… but I had this thought that my soul might be stuck feeling like that forever if I did… so
I stayed up for 5 days and nights straight.. lost my mind.. came in my pants at the sight of this 10 that was my nurse in there. Humiliating. Lol
@@tomjeffery6708 A jail in Des Moines Washington. Wanting to kill yourself with a shaving razor. Ejaculating in your pants.....thats definitely a humilating story.
A few years ago in Massachusetts they found opiate detox to be cruel and unusual punishment... Now if you get knocked while on the clinic you get dosed right in jail. I actually see inmates get brought in by van to my clinic from the pre-release. The people in the actual jail get their dose brought to them there.
Of course, I'd still be screwed bc of the years I've been on Clonazepam... They're still not giving you your Benzos other than a few days worth of libs. I'd rather have the Clonazepam instead of the methadone.... Believe that.
@@tomjeffery6708man thats harsh!!
Kicking 180 my of methadone is pure madness no other human could understand unless you go through it. Add pulls and other narcotics compounds the withdrawal symptoms to a point that is brutal.
Yeah compounds
It's fn brutal I just kicked 160mgs, I had to be at 100mgs to even go to treatment so I went from 160 to 30 in a week and a half then bam nothing
@@ryanwoods8725 did u make it? I jumped at 60 3 days in and hasn’t even started I feel
I can never figure out if you’re being serious, or joking!!! I guess that’s why I like you so much! I saw this title and and jumped at the chance to watch.
This is real its happened to me a few times
I know a pinch about what your talking about bro. I kicked Opiates in MCJ in downtown. I only did 27 days when I got my deal and it was the worst. They gave gave me the staple. Robaxin, clonidine, and Benedryl. It helped just to curb tha withdrawals enough so I could be normal. Love your channel Bro!!
You know clonidine and benadryl together has a side-effect feeling of impending doom first time and only i was giving that i was in the hospital kicking and I jerked the IV out because I would rather kick then have the feeling I was about to die and everyone was about to kill me.
@@Larry_187 wow I never heard that before.
I always wonder what it would be like to have to go thru withdrawal in jail. Sounds like it’s gawd awful?! Glad you made it thru!
@@cheri6360 it's an experience you will never forget
@@jamesbuttery3862 did you stay clean? Cuz if I ever have to come off of Done, I’d prob not live thru it!
Anyone who has kicked methadone in lockup that did not kill themself with the razor 🪒 is solid in my book.. been there done that got the TShirt. Never again… I choose death before that happens again.
“These guys are making fun of me” is the least prison thing I’ve ever heard. But I feel it lol
Heck yeah! Keep em coming! Loving all the uploads lately 🔥🔥🔥
Dude nothing can make me laugh as hard as one of your videos
Anyone who knows this Hell ,,will be crying laughing at just how brutal kicking gets , Daaamn , you can feel the pain , 😖
You didn’t deserve what you had to go through bro....
“ bro you have some fire ass cheekbones”
Where on my face?
“No…” 😂😂😂😂 this is the funniest dude on YouLUBE
This video is great… this makes me terrified to come off methadone.. I just started last month after almost 7 years of active addiction..my dose is at 85 mg. They cap you off at 100 mg. I don’t think I’ll request anymore increases however by night time I have the saucer pupils going and feel like I’m burning up.. I don’t understand it. I’ll probably be on it the rest of my life Bc I’m not trying to put myself through that.
Congrats to you and your sobriety & recovery. It’s truly an inspiration for me.
I already have your book in my cart on Amazon. Can’t wait til Friday to order it.
i think ive re watched the entire channel 3 times but this video still gets me lmao when he tries to speak spanish DEAD LMAO
I died when u said “ drink more water” lmao they did the same thing in LA County especially the Asian nurses be killing it foo, serio!
It's true though, if you don't drink water regularly it takes longer for your body to flush out your system. And drink a juice if you can't hold solids down. The body needs energy to metabolize.
I've watched these when they 1st came out, but I've been needing a laugh & I'm watching them again, not laughing @ the part about u kicking but other other stuff... classic. . 🤣
Hell yeah Leone your stories are the ones that I look forward to the most. Hearing them is a reminder to myself that my life just might not be that bad lmao😂😂😂. Palabra
😂😂i just noticed what the monopoly man is doing in the pic in background 😂
I've fallen and I can't get up....lmfao....we laughed in the 90s, rocking em in 2021...lol
You’re the strongest human that’s ever existed....
What’s strong about smoking crack?
Story starts at 9:11
I have to take more medicine when I listen to these
I literally almost pulled when u talked about the pisces piss. Like gagging at work lmao
Rewatching all these. Can almost pretend my dudes not gone!
"Invisible green stinch lines" hahah
Haha been through the methadone kick, they were overdosing me on clonidine at Betty Ford 😆
Same….. had me on the patch’s and pills….not Betty ford tho, another small rehab.
This is rough stuff Brother! I can relate to shutting water while puking green bile at the same time… it is just so violent…..
Not a MD or medical personnel of any kind, but in a pinch, I have personally found that Imodium AD helps with withdrawal from most opiates, including methadone. Needs to be taken on an empty stomach, with 8 oz of white grapefruit juice. In my experience, it did not take nearly as much is rumored either. Probably depends on the size of your habit tho. Just some personal insight, NOT medical advice.
Damn leone these are almost too hard to watch I feel like I'm kicking again.lol. keep up the great work
Re-run marathon.. RIP Ryan.
This dude was hilarious.
May he rest in peace and may his family find it.
The good ones always die young.
53:10 “I got a drip of paisa piss” 😂😂 That line murdered my life! Loved Wasted Talent, RIP.
Bro.... I can’t imagine what you’ve been through .... I’m on the done and I can’t even imagine what you’ve been through brother... If I could meet one human on earth, it would be you bro. I’m on your Facebook. Everything you are saying is facts... Bro....
I tried to go withdrawal from 90ml about 6 weeks ago, didn't make 4 days. I couldn't cope with the muscle spasms more than anything so I just went back on it. I can't imagine doing it or even trying it again, horrible
Same here. I stated the clinic in 2003 went to prison in 2011 did suboxone all thru prison and got back on methadone in 2013. Methadone saved my life but it's also a curse I can't get rid of.
@@Pablo_Escobear yep I can't either, I get anxious towards dose time at the moment
@@robdean704 not even with a taper? I'm on 80 now, been on current dose for about a year, and on methadone for almost 2 years total. I go to the clinic on Fridays, and get take homes for sat-thurs. I want to start tapering down by the end of this year, but I'm scared with all the stories I've heard.
@@dewilew2137 I didn't try to taper and I've been on it since 2000, I just got sick of my life quality relying on some green liquid so I thought fuck it I'll try and stop. Didn't go well
Methadone is evil
Yessss! 💕
It took me 83 days to get a couple of hours of decent sleep. I was on 160mg, Xanax, a pretty gnarly habit and I drank a lot then.
So on the morning of 84th day was the first time finally decided I might just not wanna kill myself.
When you say violent you ain’t playing. Endless days and nights. Endless…
How did u get thu it? How long were u on the 160? Are u better now? I’m 3 days in at jumping off at 60😢
@@traccbacc7612i just saw your comment. Did you get through it?
@@traccbacc7612I was on 160mg for over 10 years. I went into a program where they gave me subs for 8 days and then transferred me to the residential side. I spent every night in a hot shower and every day wanting to die.
Crossing days off the calendar one by one. Longest days of my life. I remember I finally started getting an hour or two of sleep each night. Day 84 I actually WOKE up and could hear people walking through the hallway. And the reason why that was so significant is because it meant I slept about 5-6 hours because stuff workers would come in around 7am. It was a small win. Very soon I started actually feeling ok.
Very soon after I got the worst cold/flu and had a cough for about 4 months. And once that was over I was finally DONE. 2/13/2012.
Love the way you did this but maybe reliving the past was not great for you. RIP
Rip brotha man. U will b missed
My buddy would always say shit like that, hey take a buncha Tylenol and it hits like a pain killer. Um yeah no big guy definitely not.
We all have that friend lol
Haha one time I was out of town and all I had was ibuprofen. Was popping like 12 at a time. Annihilated my liver for sure but it did make me feel about 1.5% better. Not preferable that’s for sure
Thank you Ryan. I can feel everything you say about méthadone......
Miss your energy & humor, Ryan. Your content made an impact.
R.I.P. BROTHA!! 😢😢😢❤️
those people probably confused clonidine with klonopin
I dint think so, Klodapin is a benzo..Koladapine is the blood pressire med they gave when kickin methadone and or benzos in the past..I dont know now, its been over 10 yrs .
Def not… it’s standard everywhere they’ll give you clonidine… not klonopin.
Killer job man! Much love.
I’m shocked they have no medical protocol, like phenobarbital, for benzo w/d, which can be fatal.
Whenever you make that face you look like Tom Cruise in Vanilla Sky.. LOL but on a serious note bro I really really really feel for you because I know what kicking is like and I know how it feels to be in there and feel like no one cares I hate that you had to go through that homeboy.... you know just to give you an idea of how different gel is from California and Texas, there have been more than one occasion where I was locked up and going through withdrawals extremely hard and there would be young kids in there that would come up to me and asked me if there was anything they could do for me and they would literally take my cup and go to the sink and get me water and they would give me there Kool-Aid packs from the trays and mix them up for me and bring them to my bunk, and nobody said anything to them or me about it it was just a respect thing
Bro @30mins in had me crying laughing. So true damn south siders plotting in codes an shit “this white boy smells like ass , I wanna stomp him out “ palabra 🤣 and yeah fuck methadone I’m down to 80mg been off tar since 2016
I'm about to go to federal prison & I've been prescribed Suboxone for the last 5 years. I've gotten down to 1 8mg strip a day .. after watching all of Ryan's horror Stories about kicking in prison I was actually glad to hear Suboxone withdrawal is only 10 days! I was expecting a lot longer.
They could be longer. Some can go up to 30 days..Depends on the the person really but it’s good that you’re down to 8mg a day if you can cut it down more before going to prison it will help. When I got locked up I was on 16 mg a day and after two weeks I was back to normal and honestly knowing I couldn’t get it helped mentally bc if I was on the streets and wasn’t able to take it I think it would have been worse. But knowing there was no way to get subs helped me not think about it good luck though hope all goes well for you.
@@CoachHubbs24 thanks.. it does help knowing there's nothing you can do about it. I'm pretty good about getting through it with no complaining, but I've only went through dope & fentanyl withdrawal a couple times in county. This will be my longest bid & first time going through it off Suboxone. As long as I have something to read & a radio, I'll be good. I just think about how better off I'll be off if subs & thinking clearly. Everything happens for a reason.
@@graffics7665 if you've been taking it for 5 years and are currently on 8mg per day, you are guaranteed to have difficulty sleeping for the first 3 weeks ...
If you can lower yourself down to 1mg a day or less before going in, your future self will thank you ... That will be smuch less harsh than going 8mg to 0 ... Esp while having access to comfort meds while reducing on the outside ...
Stay safe during your bid man, work out and read, have someone keep your books right and it'll go quicker than you think ...
@@MoAli-wm4of thank you. I do wish I could cut down like that, but I have so much going on I'd rather go through it when I have nothing to do. I've always been locked in (23 & 1) for like a week when they know you're about to go through withdrawal. I'm usually pretty good with it, it's just the anxiety leading up to it that I let get to me. I was actually supposed to be sentenced at 3:30 (eastern) today but it was adjourned until 9/1, so I have another 4 weeks to prepare. I've even heard that our jail (Monroe county, Rochester NY)they ween people off subs, but I'm not sure about federal inmates. I have no clue though. Hope for the best but expect the worst is what I go by.
Fuck bro I wish you the best. Maybe the worst part of the kick with be 10-14 days but I didn’t sleep a single second first 13 days coming off 12 mgs. Couple hours for the first few months. Don’t Wanna make it worse for your anxiety that’s just how it was for me. You can do it bro, maybe this is just what you need
I kicked methadone in county multiple times. I laughed so hard at this shit I could barely breathe.
Boofing pisa piss is fucking gnarly dude lmao cant even imagine that shit going up my nose while kicking
Miss him so much 😢
Nice bro
I've never had to kick methadone but I've had to kick heroin subs and the worst by far is benzos jail never scared me it was always the thought of going thru withdrawals you describe this shit perfectly started watching your channel after seeing your story on 23and1 been binge watching since great story's bro
Has anyone in here ever slowly tapered off methadone? Cuz right now I’m down to 8 mgs and it’s been a really slow process and I’m just wondering what to expect once finished
If you see this…. I’d love to hear how it went. I just started my taper at 100mgs…… so 100 weeks to go
@@cristinarichart1118 I’m actually pretty good. Yesterday I went to clinic for the last time to turn my bottles back in. Last dose was Saturday 7am. I’ve been ok, working every day. Only time I have a little leg restlessness is bedtime. And I take melatonin if I can’t sleep
@@joaniewalley9358 finished up in July but thank you
@@joaniewalley9358 same for me
@@joaniewalley9358 I think I was like 65 when I started going down. I never let my dose get too high. but I was using it for heroin not fentanyl so I’m sure it’s way different now. I was in clinic for 11 years
Miss seeing new releases from this guy right here
that withdrawal sounds horrendous. That would be enough for me to never get high again
Half asleep.. headphones in... Laughing my ass off.. under my covers.. wit my girl like WTF is wrong with u! Lol.. thanks bro
I can't believe your gone Ryan, I'm so sad, I overdosed on Fentanyl 3 times & Almost died, your passing away Although tragic , will help me stay sober, u will be missed buddy, & I will watch your videos over & over, because u make me laugh, & Karina I'm so sorry, he was a good man, yes he had his faults, but who dont. & IF anyone has bad things to say About you, fuck them, rest in paradise buddy..
He is so high here. Scratching his nose the entire time and dark eyes
One of my favorite videos! I always laugh so hard! Oh the irony
The fucked up hallucinations stroke victim guy was 🤣🤣👌
As I wait for open plea on Sept 23rd. The case is a year old and of course I haven't tampered 115mg methadone and lots of Xanax 0 to 5 years. I score min man 18months for driving while suspended. Sadly your story is mine , I did this when u was 24 I'm 42 now.
The facial expressions are hilarious
CLASSIC Ryan! Good job hyna
They clearly dont feel like politicians and them are on the same team. You should see how they handle a mayor. It's even worse. They do take care of each other though. But it's interesting how there's no sense of like betrayal or anyting with politicians. When they walk up another police officer there's like this weird tension. But not with state lawmakers..
Yeah I personally hate HOT FLUSHES, I'm on 190mgs. My first attempts cold turkey 2011 jumped off 30mgs from 90mgs I did it but exactly as you said I went through in a hotel room then my dad's place. Though when am I gonna die a month of runs and sweats no sleep. Second and third time couldn't hack it went on subx. Now 10 years on 190mgs I would be dead in half a week vs cold turkey.
I came off of 185mg split dosage of methadone , back in the day ( I relapsed early on after getting off though) but now im stuck on buprenorphin. Im down to 1mg but stuck..... For some reason I can't get off , maybe its because I've been clean for so long .. Im older now , I just don't have it in me anymore.. I also have other health issues so maybe thats why.
I was better off never getting on MAT. I've never had to kicked H for longer than a day I always had supply but this buprenorphine sucks. I've been trying to get off for 5 years !! Who can tapper off methadone but not buprenorphine lol .. . I guess dabbling helped more than I thought . Im mad I stayed on MAT this long. My parents told me methadone was a liquid leash ....wish I listened...that goes for buprenorphine too. I even detoxed off Xanax and other pills. Methadone and buprenorphine are by far the hardest for me.
It's mental bro.
The mind is very powerful and can help or hinder your situation.
Get yourself a little kratom and you won't feel a thing
1hr 6m I laughed wayyy too hard 🤣
@Marvin I legit could not stop laughing 😂
So this was on Patreon 4 months ago. Any plans on catching up so we can see what your goin Thru these days ? Just curious . Palabra
For real? Or are you just saying it fell apart?
@@CoachHubbs24 he is just talkin shit.
@@BenjamminJonesy no he’s not.
The guys struggling atm unfortunately.
this man legend
God damn thats discouraging. I'm o. Suboxone and now I'm terrified to come off lol. Polabra
*YOU FIGHTING THE BIRDMAN MARTINS?!?!?* ??????
My new bands name “ County fair puke”
Miss you bro
I’m binge watching. Didn’t he recant the same thing in Shakey Jake 9?? He left off at the end where the doctor gave him Methadone in the hospital??