there WILL be a part 2 at some point because I need to spread the gospel (my favorite and vastly underrated performances) (FREE OPTIONS/INFORMATION AND SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS LISTED BELOW IF YOU CANNOT DONATE!) Thank you for choosing my video for a little bit of fun and Hozier! If I may ask you, if you are able, to listen to at least this first paragraph! Or, if you're unable to donate, check the list of social media accounts you can follow for updates on a variety of topics, and the links to some informational content such as Hozier's Cry Power podcast w Global Citizen! (Very good, I recommend fully) The family I am promoting with Operation Olive Branch is so close to making their goal. They're currently at €38,645!!! Yousef, Ahmed, Salah, Ibtihal, Samah, Alam, Omaya, and Yousef are so so close to leaving the genocide that is taking place around them and getting medical attention! The goal is to evacuate to Egypt where they can get the necessities they need, including a father needing medical attention for a neck disc problem and a stroke. Evacuating a family of 8, including 2 children under 4, is unfortunately not cheap--but if it means their safety in a genocide against their people, I hope we can collectively help put even a little bit of money towards getting them out and safe and reunited with family! An update on this family from June 19: "We must share the painful truth of our current reality with you. Just two weeks ago, our house-the home where we were born and where we lived our lives, surrounded by love and memories-was destroyed by the occupation. They didn't just tear down walls; They tore apart the very essence of our past, taking away every treasured memory. That was our haven, our beloved home. Now, the thought of returning is a distant, shattered dream. My family now endures life in a tent, vulnerable to the merciless blaze of the summer sun. The scorching heat is relentless, a constant torment. We are not just grappling with the oppressive temperatures, but also with the shortages of food and medicine and the crippling high prices that everyone here must bear. Our suffering is heartbreaking, and we are left to struggle in a world that has turned its back on our pain. Right now, part of your funds is crucially supporting my family as they endure their horrific situation to cover their daily high expenses. Thanks to your support, we have reached 50% of our fundraising goal! We still have hope that the border will be opened again soon. We are getting closer to saving my family with each extra donation." THINGS YOU CAN DO TO HELP PALESTINE (includes no-cost options) Donate to the family I have mentioned, Yousef, Omaya, Alam, Samah, Salah, Ibtihal, Yousef, and Ahmed: gofund.me/6c8d5e3f Help a FAMILY with Operation Olive Branch (Gaza) [URGENT; EVEN IF IT'S MAKING A SINGLE TIKTOK OR SHARE TO FACEBOOK, PLEASE AMPLIFY]: docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1vtMLLOzuc6GpkFySyVtKQOY2j-Vvg0UsChMCFst_WLA/htmlview Donate: arab.org/click-to-help/palestine/ Donate ESIMS to connect Palestinians with the world: gazaesims.com/ PETITION TO REINSTATE UNRWA FUNDING! sign.moveon.org/petitions/reinstate-unrwa-funding-so-they-can-resume-urgent-humanitarian-aid Help FEED Gaza! Just $10 gives a hot meal to a HUMAN on the brink of starvation www.justgiving.com/page/abdul-1710178069656?fbclid=PAAaZ4h89X_yP0l1IyPVY_GR_1FuzZs6Z2eKI-wJVDQzBcgJLHT4eVL3tHGSo UNRWA (help provide for Palestinian refugees): donate.unrwa.org/-landing-page/en_EN Emergency Medical Aid: www.map.org.uk/donate/donation-details/484 Buy a Palestinian Kufiyeh!!: kufiya.org/ FIND YOUR REPS: www.house.gov/representatives/find-your-representative THINGS YOU CAN DO TO HELP CONGO (includes no-cost options) - BOYCOTTE UAE EVERYTHING - Buy secondhand, refurbished technology! Boycotting big tech (Dell, Apple, HP, etc), as they are HUGE for causing and perpetuating the unethical mining practices, to show support for vulnerable humans! - Learn about Congo, the DRC, the silent genocide, the war economy, modern-day slavery, unethical mining practices even children are subjected to, and many more atrocities. Countries in the West have funded militia groups to keep the DRC vulnerable because of the TRILLIONS of dollars of natural resources. Please go to TikTok for bite-size information if you must, but PLEASE do not wait for it to present itself to you! And PLEASE, organize with your community, or even go to Facebook to see if there's any community action you can take to let your government and your representatives listen to OUR COLLECTIVE VOICES instead of the voice of money and greed! - Over in the DRC, sexual assault is used as a weapon, as a tactic. One of the reasons the world was able to engage in learning about to begin freeing the Palestinian people is the abundance of videos shown of Isr*el's brutality. Blood, gore, things nobody wants to see. But in the DRC, these images and videos of sexual assault against children as young as INFANCY obviously cannot be circulated. Not that it should take gore and terrible images to be circulated for people to pay attention; there is a level of dehumanization that plays a significant role. The fact that any of that is almost necessary for people to pay attention to the brutality faced by black and brown people, in comparison to the NONE that was needed for the world to support Ukraine, is appalling. - "The DRC has witnessed the highest number of grave violations against children in armed conflict in the world for a second year in a row in 2022, with at least 2,420 children suffering from 3,377 verified violations such as killing, maiming, abductions and sexual violence." (SavetheChildren.org) - As of 2019: 1 in 10 children will not make it to the age of 5. 13.1 million people are DESPERATE for humanitarian aid. 4.5 million are displaced due to conflict. - 1 in 15 children are acutely malnourished. - Visit FriendsoftheCongo.org friendsofthecongo.org/ - DONATE shoes through the Ntibonera Foundation! To protect children's feet and prevent infection from contaminated soil, please consider donating any outgrown shoes you may have! Shoes are much more vital than you'd imagine. www.ntibonerafoundation.org/ - Help provide humanitarian AID to Goma www.gofundme.com/f/help-get-internet-to-refugees-in-goma?.ee&fbclid=IwAR0JaNx9y1ZvPZKtULCV0qM_G6B9lipbqDIG57lhczeD5e0EbF84QzG_YS4 - Help provide medical assistance, orphan assistance, peace work, etc for those in Congo www.focuscongo.com/en/spende/ - Help the DRC! www.savethechildren.org/us/where-we-work/democratic-republic-of-congo?cid=Paid_Search:Google_Paid:Emer_DRC:Nonbrand:031224&s_kwcid=AL!9048!3!693605034397!b!!g!!congo charity organizations&gad_source=1&gclid=Cj0KCQjwztOwBhD7ARIsAPDKnkAIf200gWYyW_MQDFtA3cbmrToNV8cycM10WfwGS4EyBNT07_nPiUQaAnWFEALw_wcB&gclsrc=aw.ds FOR READING AND SHARING! (Many have donation and petition links as well!) - As I have stated earlier, many women and children fleeing the DRC have reported sexual attacks, including Female Genital Mutilation. It's more prevalent than you think abroad as well, in Africa, Europe, Asia--on all seven continents, in fact, with some more normalized than others. Check out what you can do to raise awareness for and put an end to FGM! www.endfgm.eu/ - FGM Data data.unicef.org/topic/child-protection/female-genital-mutilation/ - Friends of the Congo friendsofthecongo.org/ - BDS Boycott List (organized worldwide boycott, and it's WORKING; please don't cross the picket if you can help it) bdsmovement.net/Act-Now-Against-These-Companies-Profiting-From-Genocide - This is a Hozier video, you like Hozier presumably, so why not check out his Cry Power podcast? www.globalcitizen.org/en/projects/crypower/ - Instagram accounts to check out (PLEASE comment if you have more) MISC - so.informed - thehumanitatiannetwork - perfectunion - mattxiv - pearlmania500 - ykreborn PALESTINE - visualizing_palestine - palestinianyouthmovement - girlsagainstoppression - unrwa - bdsnationalcommittee - aljazeeraenglish - queers.for.palestine - queersinpalestine - jenanmatari CONGO - congofriends - focuscongo - ntibonerafoundation SUDAN - sudan.updates - unicefsudan - sudanrevprotests - forsudaneseliberation TIGRAY - omnatigray - tigrayupdate - tigrayyouthnetwork
“The memory hurts, but does me no harm. Your hands in my pocket to keep us both warm” is one of the most devastating and relatable lyrics at the same time.
THAT SWEET THING COVER HAS MY HEART AND SOULLLLLLLLLLL i listened to it for a week straight when i first discovered it "with grIEF" 😭😭he's so funny i swear
The sweet thing cover is my roman empire and I literally cannot listen to the original or anyone else's cover of it. I think I would actually give my soul to the devil for this version to be added to Spotify
THANK YOU. I had only vaguely heard of Hozier (watched the movie Dancer years ago). Earlier this year, I decided to stop my obsessive news watching here in America, and go find something to make me laugh. Much healthier. So my first selection was the Stephen Colbert show where Hozier sang Too Sweet. MY GOD. WHAT IS THIS BEING??? That led to finding more. So my second time ever seeing him was the BBC Francesca. And to think it all began innocently looking for comedy, and instead I find that power house. I didn't laugh, let me tell you. But I was moved to tears, and now I'm obsessed, obsessed, obsessed. Which is why I love your videos.
aw :') I relate, in that this is also a break from such pessimistic news of the world. Hozier can be such a mood cure (even if devastating lol) ty for enjoying!!
An exceptional selection. Thanks, boba. You surpassed yourself. It's always a joy to watch your video. Need some serious attention on your message, though. Thank God there are people who care about issues that really matter and not give up on fighting an uphill battle. ❤
His hands are so pretty. Also it’s a shame you don’t let your comments in the video more longer. Most of the time i don’t have the time to read 😢. And I love to read what you have to say lool. Thanks for the video ❤
@vee8607 you should have seen me try to explain to my mom that Hozier is lesbian music. She didn't believe me. She's coming to the concert with me so we'll see how that goes. 😳
@@mosspoet6143 I saw him in june, last minute ticket, last row, weird perspective, the celling was much closer to me than the stage lmao BUT it didnt matter at all cause his voice filled up the whole building the minute he started singing, I was completly bewitched, sitting there for 1,5 hours with jaw dropped. So yeah, it was etheral, I can't even imagine what it would've been like to be closer😂
me and my mom didn't even sit in our seats direct oppositeof the stage, we walked along the top all around to the side of the stage and we stayed there for the rest of the show. it was AMAZING. just as long as you're not sitting in someone else's seats or ruining someone's else's experience 👍🏻
JACKBOOT JUMP>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Edit: the concept of seeing Swan live i think might kill me. I don't think I'd make it out of there.
Also I can’t believe you didn’t add the boobs song 😔 (I actually physically cannot watch that video that and the one with the guy singing TMTC badly back to Hozier they activate cringe 1000 for me)
I’m sorry… I avoided this video ever since it came out because I knew I was gonna lose it. Turns out… I lost it. THEE FRANCESCA PERFORMANCE FIRST????? 😭😭🫠😭💀💀
![KSI - Dirty [Official Visualiser]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/VoDh1h1dPUE/mqdefault.jpg)
there WILL be a part 2 at some point because I need to spread the gospel (my favorite and vastly underrated performances)
(FREE OPTIONS/INFORMATION AND SOCIAL MEDIA ACCOUNTS LISTED BELOW IF YOU CANNOT DONATE!)
Thank you for choosing my video for a little bit of fun and Hozier! If I may ask you, if you are able, to listen to at least this first paragraph! Or, if you're unable to donate, check the list of social media accounts you can follow for updates on a variety of topics, and the links to some informational content such as Hozier's Cry Power podcast w Global Citizen! (Very good, I recommend fully)
The family I am promoting with Operation Olive Branch is so close to making their goal. They're currently at €38,645!!! Yousef, Ahmed, Salah, Ibtihal, Samah, Alam, Omaya, and Yousef are so so close to leaving the genocide that is taking place around them and getting medical attention! The goal is to evacuate to Egypt where they can get the necessities they need, including a father needing medical attention for a neck disc problem and a stroke. Evacuating a family of 8, including 2 children under 4, is unfortunately not cheap--but if it means their safety in a genocide against their people, I hope we can collectively help put even a little bit of money towards getting them out and safe and reunited with family!
An update on this family from June 19:
"We must share the painful truth of our current reality with you. Just two weeks ago, our house-the home where we were born and where we lived our lives, surrounded by love and memories-was destroyed by the occupation. They didn't just tear down walls; They tore apart the very essence of our past, taking away every treasured memory. That was our haven, our beloved home. Now, the thought of returning is a distant, shattered dream. My family now endures life in a tent, vulnerable to the merciless blaze of the summer sun. The scorching heat is relentless, a constant torment. We are not just grappling with the oppressive temperatures, but also with the shortages of food and medicine and the crippling high prices that everyone here must bear. Our suffering is heartbreaking, and we are left to struggle in a world that has turned its back on our pain.
Right now, part of your funds is crucially supporting my family as they endure their horrific situation to cover their daily high expenses. Thanks to your support, we have reached 50% of our fundraising goal! We still have hope that the border will be opened again soon. We are getting closer to saving my family with each extra donation."
THINGS YOU CAN DO TO HELP PALESTINE (includes no-cost options)
Donate to the family I have mentioned, Yousef, Omaya, Alam, Samah, Salah, Ibtihal, Yousef, and Ahmed: gofund.me/6c8d5e3f
Help a FAMILY with Operation Olive Branch (Gaza) [URGENT; EVEN IF IT'S MAKING A SINGLE TIKTOK OR SHARE TO FACEBOOK, PLEASE AMPLIFY]: docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1vtMLLOzuc6GpkFySyVtKQOY2j-Vvg0UsChMCFst_WLA/htmlview
Donate: arab.org/click-to-help/palestine/
Donate ESIMS to connect Palestinians with the world: gazaesims.com/
PETITION TO REINSTATE UNRWA FUNDING! sign.moveon.org/petitions/reinstate-unrwa-funding-so-they-can-resume-urgent-humanitarian-aid
Help FEED Gaza! Just $10 gives a hot meal to a HUMAN on the brink of starvation www.justgiving.com/page/abdul-1710178069656?fbclid=PAAaZ4h89X_yP0l1IyPVY_GR_1FuzZs6Z2eKI-wJVDQzBcgJLHT4eVL3tHGSo
UNRWA (help provide for Palestinian refugees): donate.unrwa.org/-landing-page/en_EN
Emergency Medical Aid: www.map.org.uk/donate/donation-details/484
Buy a Palestinian Kufiyeh!!: kufiya.org/
FIND YOUR REPS: www.house.gov/representatives/find-your-representative
THINGS YOU CAN DO TO HELP CONGO (includes no-cost options)
- BOYCOTTE UAE EVERYTHING
- Buy secondhand, refurbished technology! Boycotting big tech (Dell, Apple, HP, etc), as they are HUGE for causing and perpetuating the unethical mining practices, to show support for vulnerable humans!
- Learn about Congo, the DRC, the silent genocide, the war economy, modern-day slavery, unethical mining practices even children are subjected to, and many more atrocities. Countries in the West have funded militia groups to keep the DRC vulnerable because of the TRILLIONS of dollars of natural resources. Please go to TikTok for bite-size information if you must, but PLEASE do not wait for it to present itself to you! And PLEASE, organize with your community, or even go to Facebook to see if there's any community action you can take to let your government and your representatives listen to OUR COLLECTIVE VOICES instead of the voice of money and greed!
- Over in the DRC, sexual assault is used as a weapon, as a tactic. One of the reasons the world was able to engage in learning about to begin freeing the Palestinian people is the abundance of videos shown of Isr*el's brutality. Blood, gore, things nobody wants to see. But in the DRC, these images and videos of sexual assault against children as young as INFANCY obviously cannot be circulated. Not that it should take gore and terrible images to be circulated for people to pay attention; there is a level of dehumanization that plays a significant role. The fact that any of that is almost necessary for people to pay attention to the brutality faced by black and brown people, in comparison to the NONE that was needed for the world to support Ukraine, is appalling.
- "The DRC has witnessed the highest number of grave violations against children in armed conflict in the world for a second year in a row in 2022, with at least 2,420 children suffering from 3,377 verified violations such as killing, maiming, abductions and sexual violence." (SavetheChildren.org)
- As of 2019: 1 in 10 children will not make it to the age of 5. 13.1 million people are DESPERATE for humanitarian aid. 4.5 million are displaced due to conflict.
- 1 in 15 children are acutely malnourished.
- Visit FriendsoftheCongo.org friendsofthecongo.org/
- DONATE shoes through the Ntibonera Foundation! To protect children's feet and prevent infection from contaminated soil, please consider donating any outgrown shoes you may have! Shoes are much more vital than you'd imagine. www.ntibonerafoundation.org/
- Help provide humanitarian AID to Goma www.gofundme.com/f/help-get-internet-to-refugees-in-goma?.ee&fbclid=IwAR0JaNx9y1ZvPZKtULCV0qM_G6B9lipbqDIG57lhczeD5e0EbF84QzG_YS4
- Help provide medical assistance, orphan assistance, peace work, etc for those in Congo www.focuscongo.com/en/spende/
- Help the DRC! www.savethechildren.org/us/where-we-work/democratic-republic-of-congo?cid=Paid_Search:Google_Paid:Emer_DRC:Nonbrand:031224&s_kwcid=AL!9048!3!693605034397!b!!g!!congo charity organizations&gad_source=1&gclid=Cj0KCQjwztOwBhD7ARIsAPDKnkAIf200gWYyW_MQDFtA3cbmrToNV8cycM10WfwGS4EyBNT07_nPiUQaAnWFEALw_wcB&gclsrc=aw.ds
FOR READING AND SHARING! (Many have donation and petition links as well!)
- As I have stated earlier, many women and children fleeing the DRC have reported sexual attacks, including Female Genital Mutilation. It's more prevalent than you think abroad as well, in Africa, Europe, Asia--on all seven continents, in fact, with some more normalized than others. Check out what you can do to raise awareness for and put an end to FGM! www.endfgm.eu/
- FGM Data data.unicef.org/topic/child-protection/female-genital-mutilation/
- Friends of the Congo friendsofthecongo.org/
- BDS Boycott List (organized worldwide boycott, and it's WORKING; please don't cross the picket if you can help it) bdsmovement.net/Act-Now-Against-These-Companies-Profiting-From-Genocide
- This is a Hozier video, you like Hozier presumably, so why not check out his Cry Power podcast? www.globalcitizen.org/en/projects/crypower/
- Instagram accounts to check out (PLEASE comment if you have more)
MISC
- so.informed
- thehumanitatiannetwork
- perfectunion
- mattxiv
- pearlmania500
- ykreborn
PALESTINE
- visualizing_palestine
- palestinianyouthmovement
- girlsagainstoppression
- unrwa
- bdsnationalcommittee
- aljazeeraenglish
- queers.for.palestine
- queersinpalestine
- jenanmatari
CONGO
- congofriends
- focuscongo
- ntibonerafoundation
SUDAN
- sudan.updates
- unicefsudan
- sudanrevprotests
- forsudaneseliberation
TIGRAY
- omnatigray
- tigrayupdate
- tigrayyouthnetwork
My man was on the brink of tears with that Francesca performance and the backup singers were just 💃💃
god the jackboot jump performance and then swan upon leda... im a mess
one thing about swan upon leda is it’s gonna gut punch me every time anyway, but THAT performance?? 😭😭😭
“The memory hurts, but does me no harm. Your hands in my pocket to keep us both warm” is one of the most devastating and relatable lyrics at the same time.
I really almost started crying during Swan Upon Leda. That song is so beautifully devastating.
How did I not know that he performed Swan Upon Leda live??? Holy shit
only like twice and it's DEVASTATING both times 😭
Curled up, in the backseat of my car, sobbing, at 7am during the Francesca performance
THAT SWEET THING COVER HAS MY HEART AND SOULLLLLLLLLLL i listened to it for a week straight when i first discovered it
"with grIEF" 😭😭he's so funny i swear
The picture you used for underrated made me cackle, and I needed to laugh today, so thank you.
I’d like to add the global citizen one world together at home performance of movement !!
The sweet thing cover is my roman empire and I literally cannot listen to the original or anyone else's cover of it. I think I would actually give my soul to the devil for this version to be added to Spotify
same 😮💨 also someone added it as a podcast to Spotify :o (it's called Sweet Thing Cover by Lane Gray's Fave)
@@boba_brainrot omg thank youuuuu!!!! You made my day. Gonna go listen to it on a loop all week 🥹🥹🥹🥹
Thank you so much for bringing up that last one it truly is a heart breaking song cant believe they fill his heart and closet.
Pints With The Lads is my absolute favourite.... I keep singing it for long whiles when I'm in the mood like it’s a real serious song 🤣🤣
I would sacrifice my first born in order to go back in time an go to that 2016 Birmingham show 😂
OMG THE SCOUTING LEGION STICKER ON THAT GUITAR!! This is MY infinity war-level crossover!!!
i would be lying if i said that your videos don't make my days better, or worse, depending on which devastating preformances you use. :)
lol the swimsuits from penney's song gets me every time
THANK YOU. I had only vaguely heard of Hozier (watched the movie Dancer years ago). Earlier this year, I decided to stop my obsessive news watching here in America, and go find something to make me laugh. Much healthier. So my first selection was the Stephen Colbert show where Hozier sang Too Sweet. MY GOD. WHAT IS THIS BEING??? That led to finding more. So my second time ever seeing him was the BBC Francesca. And to think it all began innocently looking for comedy, and instead I find that power house. I didn't laugh, let me tell you. But I was moved to tears, and now I'm obsessed, obsessed, obsessed. Which is why I love your videos.
aw :') I relate, in that this is also a break from such pessimistic news of the world. Hozier can be such a mood cure (even if devastating lol) ty for enjoying!!
@@boba_brainrot So are you, my dear! A mood cure!
Swan upon Leda is so beautiful, I can't 😭
i may or may not have started crying during francesca and then just couldn't stop...
Am I normal?🙃I have watched all of these clips more than once. .....boba thanks for compiling *sobs,screams,gasps*❤
we have been blessed
thank you, boba
An exceptional selection. Thanks, boba. You surpassed yourself.
It's always a joy to watch your video.
Need some serious attention on your message, though.
Thank God there are people who care about issues that really matter and not give up on fighting an uphill battle. ❤
you are literally my favorite RUclipsr
@@eryndawson2604 :') aww shdsjsjjsjs ty 😭💖💖
@@boba_brainrot omg no problem 😊💖
His hands are so pretty. Also it’s a shame you don’t let your comments in the video more longer. Most of the time i don’t have the time to read 😢. And I love to read what you have to say lool. Thanks for the video ❤
Can't WAIT to see this man in okc. Unfortunately I have AWFUL SEATS but that's okay 😢
@@mosspoet6143 no seat is a bad seat at a hozier concert
@vee8607 you should have seen me try to explain to my mom that Hozier is lesbian music. She didn't believe me. She's coming to the concert with me so we'll see how that goes. 😳
@@mosspoet6143 I saw him in june, last minute ticket, last row, weird perspective, the celling was much closer to me than the stage lmao BUT it didnt matter at all cause his voice filled up the whole building the minute he started singing, I was completly bewitched, sitting there for 1,5 hours with jaw dropped. So yeah, it was etheral, I can't even imagine what it would've been like to be closer😂
me and my mom didn't even sit in our seats direct oppositeof the stage, we walked along the top all around to the side of the stage and we stayed there for the rest of the show. it was AMAZING. just as long as you're not sitting in someone else's seats or ruining someone's else's experience 👍🏻
@@mosspoet6143if you told my mom that she'd be in such denial LOL
JACKBOOT JUMP>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Edit: the concept of seeing Swan live i think might kill me. I don't think I'd make it out of there.
Currently losing my mind over how he enunciated his words in that TMTC performance
Pints with the lads is my absolute favourite.... I sing it all the time when I'm in the mood. 😂😂
AUGH THE FRANCESCA PERFORMANCE IT HURTS also I just saw Hozier in Ridgefield and it was AMAZING
"chat how we feeling" crying, thanks 😁
2:02 all those hands up as if this is a religious song and not a song about sex lmaoooo
you get it
Also I can’t believe you didn’t add the boobs song 😔 (I actually physically cannot watch that video that and the one with the guy singing TMTC badly back to Hozier they activate cringe 1000 for me)
Swan Upon Leda.. come on! ahhhh
You are doing me in and I the masochist watch every second. But, babe...that last one was weird.
I’m sorry… I avoided this video ever since it came out because I knew I was gonna lose it. Turns out… I lost it.
THEE FRANCESCA PERFORMANCE FIRST????? 😭😭🫠😭💀💀
@@bibouche8831 no fr same, the man could just open his mouth and i'd lose it 😭😭😭
@@boba_brainrot yeah, it's like I have a fever rising in my body every time, I hate it 🫠🫠🫠