Learning to Talk Again...

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  • Опубликовано: 25 июн 2024
  • Hey Lovelies!!
    Talking is hard! A lot of people asked if I could do a video without editing so this video is raw! It's not 100% raw but I didn't want to make it too long! I know I mess up a lot but I am always able to correct myself, sometimes a bit longer than other times. Right after my surgery the only thing I knew was my name so I have come a long way! Enjoy!
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  • @krsandberg
    @krsandberg 7 лет назад +2028

    As a speech therapist, this video is amazing, inspiring, educational, and I am AMAZED at your resilience and patience with yourself with your word finding difficulties. You have me in awe right now!!!

    • @cerigyn
      @cerigyn 7 лет назад +28

      Kelconlain RTP I'm a soon-to-be Speech and Language graduate, I too find these videos amazing! So impressed to see how much progress you've been making in your therapy sessions and how hard you're working -- gives me hope that one day, I'll be able to help people in a similar situation!

    • @JessieUsry
      @JessieUsry 7 лет назад +7

      Kelconlain RTP I'm an SLP too ! I find her videos so insightful and inspirational !

    • @kaylar.7645
      @kaylar.7645 7 лет назад +1

      Also an SLP. Love watching her videos.

    • @brittdallas7149
      @brittdallas7149 7 лет назад +37

      GI GGIE She had a brain tumor removed and the tumor was in the portion of the brain that controls speech and language. Speech therapy is helping her grasp/relearn how to communicate what she is trying to get across. For instance, she seems to know what she is trying to say but the wrong word is coming out. She's doing an A+ job and has come so far since her surgery!

    • @amandadunagan274
      @amandadunagan274 7 лет назад +2

      Also an SLP grad student and watching her videos warms my heart. She is truly doing so amazing and I am so proud to see her strength and perseverance!

  • @LephizK
    @LephizK 7 лет назад +1530

    The disappointment on your face when you say something wrong breaks my heart. Just the fact that you're trying is the most stunning thing. Everyone is so proud of you. You'll get there, so don't worry. All my love. X

    • @sherriemorrison1478
      @sherriemorrison1478 7 лет назад +1

      awwww what a sweet lady u r candicegeorge !! and I feel the same too! hugs to u court!

    • @AyeJaeBaby88
      @AyeJaeBaby88 7 лет назад +10

      CandiceGeorge Thank GOD someone was able to say what I was about to comment. I'm with you! It's so weird because I've never felt SO proud of a complete stranger ( barely found her channel a month ago). She is so freaking amazing! Can not wait for the next video to see how much better she's doing. I hope she leaves in all the "mess ups"...seeing her stop and figure it out and keep going is so beautiful. I'm so proud!

    • @sherriemorrison1478
      @sherriemorrison1478 7 лет назад +2

      HERE HERE!! I 2nd that! amen!!

    • @LephizK
      @LephizK 7 лет назад

      Sherrie Morrison Thank you very much :)

    • @LephizK
      @LephizK 7 лет назад +4

      Aye Jae Exactly the same as me too! I only found her when she uploaded the "I have cancer" video. Been hooked on to her ever since. It is so weird to think that we are proud of a complete stranger but every time I watch her I get teary-eyed! I see her as part of my family when I watch her videos, haha. Thanks for your lovely comment :)

  • @carroteal9109
    @carroteal9109 6 лет назад +3505

    She honestly looks like if the ocean was a person. Those fabulous freckles, and mesmirizing eyes.

    • @SkyRied1
      @SkyRied1 6 лет назад +28

      Carroteal
      And an amazing personality!

    • @camila-ys7tg
      @camila-ys7tg 6 лет назад +7

      You should make that into a niche meme

    • @Kpmomof4
      @Kpmomof4 6 лет назад +17

      Carroteal agreed! That is such a perfect analogy! She is gorgeous!!!

    • @nikkimitchell00
      @nikkimitchell00 6 лет назад +11

      You win perfect comment. She seriously does

    • @understatedfloss8407
      @understatedfloss8407 6 лет назад +3

      Carroteal yes she doessss

  • @gailcomiskey3041
    @gailcomiskey3041 6 лет назад +3566

    It makes me so sad when she gives that disappointed look when she mispronounces a word.

    • @mihikaadewoo2439
      @mihikaadewoo2439 6 лет назад +39

      Why cant she talk properly. I am new here

    • @RadicallyDark
      @RadicallyDark 6 лет назад +25

      Gail Comiskey I can really relate to her because I have a stutter and I can get really low I struggle with words, especially when I film youtube videos and have convosations with people who don't know I stutter

    • @keiraadamsxx4723
      @keiraadamsxx4723 6 лет назад +16

      Radically Dark I know how you feel!! I have a stammer/stutter! I get low confidence and feel embarrassed and angry when I stutter

    • @momoftwo782
      @momoftwo782 6 лет назад +91

      Mihilaa Dew I think she had a brain tumor, had surgery and now has to relearn how to speak.

    • @jenniviiv
      @jenniviiv 6 лет назад +18

      Same. But when she finally gets it, I get so happy.

  • @rebeccarurka71
    @rebeccarurka71 7 лет назад +848

    I love how you kept all of the takes in for certain phrases you had trouble with. You're so honest with your viewers. Thank you for that.

    • @tracimclaughlin6943
      @tracimclaughlin6943 7 лет назад +22

      Rebecca Rurka I loved that too!!! So awesome!!!

    • @spink177
      @spink177 6 лет назад +1

      Rebecca Rurka wait why does she struggle with speech?

    • @urbeautiful6698
      @urbeautiful6698 6 лет назад

      Rebecca Rurka I feel like she was trying to get attention but I swear I'm not a bitch I feel bad 😔 that she got brain surgery I really do!

    • @keirramacleod1983
      @keirramacleod1983 6 лет назад +8

      robbie roscoe she was showing people what it's lik living with these effects of a brain tumor. What you said was ignorant and I hope you realize that. You need to think about what you're writing before you post your comments because you never know how the words you say could affect a person.

    • @nickybee800
      @nickybee800 6 лет назад

      Rebecca Rurka same!!!

  • @Nomzi
    @Nomzi 6 лет назад +699

    My heart hurts when she sounds frustrated over her speech lapses. :(

  • @TheSweetBritt
    @TheSweetBritt 6 лет назад +1738

    I really love that you didn’t edit out the “mistakes” and just corrected yourself as many times as it took! You’re incredible!

    • @dannisolis7625
      @dannisolis7625 5 лет назад +5

      Cat 24 yes I love that she kept them too. It just so informative in a positive way. Being a psych major it’s great to see her mishaps and her improvements to see how great she is doing.

    • @brittanypemberton1086
      @brittanypemberton1086 5 лет назад

      I’m new here why does she struggle with words and speech?

    • @dannisolis7625
      @dannisolis7625 5 лет назад +1

      Brittany Pemberton she had a brain tumor, and it was probably near the part of the brain that deals with speech such as her frontal lobe

    • @KLASSCULTURE
      @KLASSCULTURE 5 лет назад

      👍🏾💞💃🏻

  • @brookeasha2396
    @brookeasha2396 6 лет назад +492

    Broke my heart every time she scolded herself or she looked down in disappoint when she messed up her words and sentences, such a strong brave and beautiful woman!!! Keep going you’re doing great😊💕💕

  • @cyberspaceout
    @cyberspaceout 6 лет назад +1565

    I will remember never to complain about my life ever again. You're one lovely creature I am giving you a major huge hug. Lovin you lady. You are inspiringly graceful and strong.

    • @Tata-iu3fy
      @Tata-iu3fy 6 лет назад +1

      cyberspaceout right

    • @juliacochrane7760
      @juliacochrane7760 6 лет назад +8

      I get what you're saying but there are other things to complain about besides a brain tumor .

    • @kimlvspizza
      @kimlvspizza 6 лет назад +14

      You can complain about your life all you want to, no one has a monopoly over issues in life. But it's good to also be grateful

    • @kaylynjones3298
      @kaylynjones3298 6 лет назад +6

      Julia Cochrane .... I'm sorry but I really hope I read your comment wrong, I'm extremely sorry if I misunderstood it, but you saying that there are other things to complain about BESIDES a BRAIN TUMOR, I'm sorry but I cannot fucking believe what you said, do you not know how serious that is?? But who am I to say your wrong right? But really that is extremely ignorant of you to say something like that, she has come a long way, and I am extremely happy for her and that she is done with radiation, this is the first video that I've watched of hers , and I understand where she's coming from because my little sister went through something like this, but you know what, she never made it so for you to say something like this to this beautiful strong lady?? You should be ashamed! Many other things to worry about than a Brain Tumor.. wow...🙄 I can't even. But like I said before I'm TERRIBLY sorry if I misunderstood your comment and I will feel extremely bad and look like a huge fucking dummy, but if I didn't then wow....

    • @unwhoretunately6077
      @unwhoretunately6077 6 лет назад +25

      Kaylyn Jones She's saying you can complain even if your problems are less significant than this. She's not saying that her brain tumor isn't a problem lmao

  • @ArisaStudios
    @ArisaStudios 6 лет назад +1651

    She left all the misstalked talked sentences in, everyone else would have cut out and its quite adorable

    • @BriiBriiAdams08
      @BriiBriiAdams08 6 лет назад +21

      ArisaStudios I noticed that and I absolutely love it

    • @FlawlessLauren
      @FlawlessLauren 6 лет назад +16

      ArisaStudios she said its raw barely unedited:)

    • @MessyBuninthSun
      @MessyBuninthSun 6 лет назад +44

      ArisaStudios it sucks she gets upset about not being able to talk. She has every right to have problems or issues with sentences. She had a tumor in her brain, she's obviously going to have problems.

    • @ArisaStudios
      @ArisaStudios 6 лет назад +10

      Are you attacking me, because I think it's good, that she didn't cut all her mistakes out like other youtubers would, or is it because I called it adorable? When did I said she doesn't has the right to have issues which her speach? Did you even read my comment?

    • @MessyBuninthSun
      @MessyBuninthSun 6 лет назад +16

      ArisaStudios you took my comment completely wrong actually. I was agreeing with you. I was just making an agreeing comment to yours. No need to be so harsh.

  • @graydoesntcare420
    @graydoesntcare420 6 лет назад +257

    Your so strong! My mom has stage 4 brain cancer and she has trouble talking a lot and she’s had it for 4 years
    You are incredibly sweet and beautiful!!! Stay strong!!

    • @bluexberriesx
      @bluexberriesx 6 лет назад +4

      Grace doesn't care I hope your mom gets better 🙏🙏🙏

    • @graydoesntcare420
      @graydoesntcare420 6 лет назад +1

      Nazlıgül Coşkun thank you it means a lot :)

    • @TheConfusedhead
      @TheConfusedhead 6 лет назад

      Has she tried: dmso,msm and d3? Please search for that on youtube, it will help her so much 🌱💫much love

    • @supercalifragilisticexpial922
      @supercalifragilisticexpial922 6 лет назад

      🙏🙏

    • @jewelskramer1190
      @jewelskramer1190 6 лет назад

      stay strong I know that can be hard on you as well

  • @mjk237
    @mjk237 6 лет назад +637

    Hey I just turned 14 and a month ago I had a tumor in my brain called Medulloblastoma, I had a surgery on 8th Nov, I'm starting radiotherapy in a week and chemotherapy 2 months after radiotherapy. To be honest I'm upset but I don't want to show it to others. I'm kinda afraid for everything and tbh I need support emotionally to keep me smiling

    • @JennyOwnzable
      @JennyOwnzable 6 лет назад +28

      MJk Stay strong sweetheart. Eveything will be okay.

    • @laurenroy248
      @laurenroy248 6 лет назад +12

      Just keep smiling and keep being positive :)

    • @cleof1503
      @cleof1503 6 лет назад +18

      You hang in there. Don't hide how you are feeling from people, talk to you family and friends. It's okay to be afraid 😘😘.. If you need to go to a counselor ask your folks for one BUT don't keep all your fear and worries inside. Trust me. My heart and and thoughts are with you. ❤❤❤❤

    • @autumnblossom00
      @autumnblossom00 6 лет назад +5

      Smile ! Youll be okay stay strong

    • @TotalFuckingTwat
      @TotalFuckingTwat 6 лет назад +11

      if you’re on instagram shoot me a DM @dg80808 if you want a friend or somebody to talk to! fear isn’t a weakness 💛

  • @Renbow81
    @Renbow81 7 лет назад +3244

    Your perseverance is inspiring. Seeing you get frustrated but continuing to find the right word was making me so proud! You are doing so awesome & I love watching your vocabulary grow in every video! You are amazing Courtney!!

    • @matthewjmontalvo
      @matthewjmontalvo 6 лет назад +29

      Ren Bow She really is doing so well, in her bio she said after surgery all she knew was her name! So the fact that she is pushing herself is inspiring.

    • @chickenlover7558
      @chickenlover7558 6 лет назад +3

      Ren Bow completely agree.

    • @Fashioniml
      @Fashioniml 6 лет назад +15

      Linda Obrien can you not

    • @sixfifththree
      @sixfifththree 6 лет назад +17

      Linda Obrien you are insensitive and rude advertising on her channel

    • @kurtk6153
      @kurtk6153 6 лет назад +3

      Linda Obrien 🖕

  • @Kamc000
    @Kamc000 6 лет назад +1897

    While she was talking, I was getting lost in her eyes. She’s so beautiful.

    • @delanijoubert3939
      @delanijoubert3939 6 лет назад +10

      Kamyah Curry so are you!

    • @Kamc000
      @Kamc000 6 лет назад +4

      Delani Joubert thank you! ❤️

    • @JeromeBill7718
      @JeromeBill7718 6 лет назад +6

      Lite aqua. They look like the sea.

    • @kristinns19
      @kristinns19 6 лет назад +4

      Kamyah Curry I love this comment. Youre amazing for saying that. I got lost in her eyes too! Shes amazing!

    • @o.799
      @o.799 6 лет назад +3

      And me too!

  • @annastratz3698
    @annastratz3698 6 лет назад +30

    It’s so fucking cool how she doesn’t edit out her mistakes

  • @drillercrysti
    @drillercrysti 6 лет назад +11

    This is the most real video I've ever seen about cancer, and cancer treatment... I'm just in awe with your realness! Thank you so much for not editing out the moments when talking became more difficult!

  • @Imnotboring
    @Imnotboring 6 лет назад +1062

    girl.. this isn't really relevant but your eyebrows are ON POINT! Keep the good stuff up- you're a real inspiration :)

    • @supergirlysofia3054
      @supergirlysofia3054 6 лет назад +6

      What I was thinking exactly. Makes me wonder if artists forget everything they knew about how to draw or paint after surgery or if passions always push through no matter what.

    • @JaymiLei
      @JaymiLei 6 лет назад +2

      For real tho!!! Eyebrows look fantastic !

    • @brebre1366
      @brebre1366 6 лет назад +7

      Alice Nucifora why do people look at the eye brows?

    • @daughteroftheking2200
      @daughteroftheking2200 6 лет назад

      Alice Nucifora ,, I agree! ❣

    • @macaronicheese8721
      @macaronicheese8721 6 лет назад

      KOOKIE MONSTER it's hard to not notice eyebrows imo

  • @jiminism1617
    @jiminism1617 7 лет назад +258

    That's a really strong girl right there. I want to see her 100% healed, such an inspiration.

  • @hatesBarney4life
    @hatesBarney4life 6 лет назад +824

    Talk talk talk
    Nope.
    This this
    Nope.
    Thi-
    Nope.
    This. Yes this.
    Love that. True grit

  • @kristinajockel3767
    @kristinajockel3767 6 лет назад +247

    I just stumbled upon this video...You are beautiful and such an inspiration to many! God bless you! Many prayers for you! 🙏🏻

  • @jailenefe
    @jailenefe 7 лет назад +499

    You said radiation and certificate well! So glad to see you improving, don't be hard on yourself-- you got this!!! 💖

    • @stylezbylily2164
      @stylezbylily2164 6 лет назад +8

      Jailene Vanessa girl yes towards the end she was rocking it wasn't she. Certificate and Radiation double wammy!

    • @jailenetorres4076
      @jailenetorres4076 6 лет назад

      omg, you're the first i've seen with the my name and spelled the same way!

  • @infinity2864
    @infinity2864 6 лет назад +1008

    Your such an inspiration, seeing you getting frustrated because you can't think of the right words, stopping then trying again really warms up my heart. Your gorgeous, get well soon xx

    • @bendover8509
      @bendover8509 6 лет назад +2

      infinity 2 *you're

    • @cherrywhinee
      @cherrywhinee 6 лет назад +5

      Dawn Day Dude shut the fuck up with your grammar patrol ass.

    • @bendover8509
      @bendover8509 6 лет назад +2

      Exothixa PG and why should I do that?

    • @valerypichilla6842
      @valerypichilla6842 6 лет назад +8

      Exothixa PG yeah man he/she is trying to say something really really nice and you're here checking everybody's grammar when you should be checking yours

    • @infinity2864
      @infinity2864 6 лет назад +1

      Ben Dover You shouldn't start a sentence with "and", and you should put a full stop at the end of the sentence, and a capital letter at the beginning, just saying x

  • @carlsbarkley2731
    @carlsbarkley2731 6 лет назад +25

    It's truely admirable how patient you are with yourself, I don't think I'd be able to keep myself together ❤️❤️❤️so incredible

  • @kjones3340
    @kjones3340 6 лет назад +335

    I have serious eyebrow envy right now 😩❤️

    • @carpenterflorence5958
      @carpenterflorence5958 6 лет назад

      You are amazing and an inspiration. Love your eyes you are beautiful

  • @chrystalpowell7546
    @chrystalpowell7546 6 лет назад +1714

    I love how she keeps going even when she has trouble so inspiring

    • @madkatnz3820
      @madkatnz3820 6 лет назад +1

      I hate it :(

    • @sarahchatwin9401
      @sarahchatwin9401 6 лет назад +4

      Chrystal Powell of course. She is so inspiring for everyone. I love her so much. I know how frustrating it can be.

    • @user-ke4hi2el5k
      @user-ke4hi2el5k 6 лет назад

      What trouble? ??

    • @zoebentz406
      @zoebentz406 6 лет назад

      I'm new what happened

  • @umumaesaroh775
    @umumaesaroh775 7 лет назад +339

    Woman, you are strong.

    • @1jazzyphae
      @1jazzyphae 7 лет назад +22

      Umu maesaroh isn't she tho. Amazing

  • @WhatsForDinCourtneyBudzyn
    @WhatsForDinCourtneyBudzyn 6 лет назад

    You are so amazing. I got teared up when you struggled with your words. The fact that you continued without getting discouraged is incredibly strong. You are so beautiful!

  • @Helen-hq8vu
    @Helen-hq8vu 6 лет назад +19

    I love how you leave in a lot of the edits that you could take out in

  • @rachelmallory2990
    @rachelmallory2990 7 лет назад +223

    I LOVE that you kept it raw! Showed us what you're dealing with and how much you struggle to make these videos for us. You're real and genuine and I love that. You're doing awesome girl keep it up !

  • @kathy3726
    @kathy3726 7 лет назад +458

    It was so hard to watch you struggle to find your words, and I could see the pain in your eyes every time you messed up. Your strength is so inspirational.

  • @alypowers9089
    @alypowers9089 6 лет назад +9

    you are so strong!! keep doing you because you’re gorgeous!! ily♥️♥️

  • @bamitsbailey
    @bamitsbailey 6 лет назад

    Good luck on your recovery! It’s a long road (I had a benign one about 12 years ago) but you’ve got this girl! I’m glad this popped up on my feed because support in important. Just know you’ve made it through the worst and you’ll look back at this days, weeks, months or even years down the line and see how far you’ve come. Congratulations!

  • @kyaberry
    @kyaberry 6 лет назад +1487

    My dad had radiation he has had brain cancer for 14 years but is recovering everyday. I'm so happy that thing's are going we'll for you!

    • @miraclehanna2504
      @miraclehanna2504 6 лет назад +16

      your dad has been thru alot and other ppl have to thank god ppl r alive ￶😄

    • @Samuel115s
      @Samuel115s 6 лет назад +9

      Kya Berry 14 years 😨😨😨😨 I did not even know that was possible.

    • @anniebill7361
      @anniebill7361 6 лет назад

      I'm so sorry

    • @marleneaguilar6441
      @marleneaguilar6441 6 лет назад +5

      Kya Berry god bless your father he’s very strong

    • @ellanatti1989
      @ellanatti1989 6 лет назад

      Kya Berry o

  • @LindsayAdkinson
    @LindsayAdkinson 6 лет назад +4169

    You are seriously so beautiful and so so strong!

    • @tragediezz614
      @tragediezz614 6 лет назад +4

      Lindsay Marie LINDSAYYY OMG I LOVE YOU BBG

    • @nataleighperea9912
      @nataleighperea9912 6 лет назад +3

      Lindsay Marie im new here could she not even talk bcause of the tumor

    • @karleighrose0328
      @karleighrose0328 6 лет назад +63

      Nataleigh Perea She has difficulty talking because of her brain surgery. Her tumor was rather large and was (I'm assuming) near some area of her brain that deals with speech/communication. Even if that isn't the case, brain surgeries are always difficult to come back from, and most of the people who undergo them will require some sort of speech therapy. Watch some more of her videos to get some more info!

    • @peepeepoopoo6017
      @peepeepoopoo6017 6 лет назад +5

      Love from Sam Puckett herself

    • @zuzanaliscinskaa
      @zuzanaliscinskaa 5 лет назад

      exactly ❤ I admire her so much

  • @heatherbogle2003
    @heatherbogle2003 5 лет назад +2

    I love that you don't edit out the struggles. It's heartbreaking but real AF and I'm here for it. You're so strong and incredible

  • @cleotaylor1860
    @cleotaylor1860 6 лет назад +17

    you are doing amazing. my family will keep you in our prayers.

  • @CapysGardenShop
    @CapysGardenShop 6 лет назад +132

    Imagine for a moment that you're outside & it's a beautiful summer day & kids just got out of school. You know your place in time. You then walk inside a building, see a friend, & you remember she is a teacher. So your mind is then focused on kids & excitement, as....something....(now this is where things start to get hazy)...has changed. Your mind suddenly feels like it must be Fall. Because why not, kids are mostly excited to go back to school. So you ask your friend if the kids are excited to go school supply shopping. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Yep, I asked that. She was nice & said, you mean that the kids are excited to be out of school?... So she knew of my 3c cancer & 6 mos. of chemo. Nine yrs later I still get chemo brain, hardly recognize my life in old pics, time & seasons (cognitive) are sometimes hard to grasp. You think you know your place in time, but think again! 🤔

    • @PrimateProductions
      @PrimateProductions 6 лет назад +2

      HaveFaith33458 must be very hard at times but so lucky still

    • @supergirlysofia3054
      @supergirlysofia3054 6 лет назад

      Huh, I never really thought those kind of things can happen after surgery but that makes sense. You probably have memory loss as well. It's really interesting to see life through someone else's point of view.

    • @sofialopez9061
      @sofialopez9061 6 лет назад +7

      Wow this must be super hard. Kudos to you for being so strong and living through this. You're such an inspiration

    • @StillVoice_
      @StillVoice_ 6 лет назад +1

      HaveFaith33458 💖Blessings to you💖

  • @jameson9948
    @jameson9948 6 лет назад +232

    My mom has glioblastoma, which is a type of brain cancer and had a brain tumor the size of a lemon I think,,,and she had to go through the same thing as you every single day. I'm so proud of both of you💕you both made it and it's so inspiring to me :) stay strong princess

    • @xxonionbreathxx9312
      @xxonionbreathxx9312 6 лет назад +16

      Space Owl Wow! Give my best wishes to your mother, hope you and her both are doing well, seeing as you've both been through a lot!

  • @stephaniegross7171
    @stephaniegross7171 6 лет назад

    You are amazing. I’m honestly speechless and your strength and courage. You’re obviously a fighter and keep fighting like hell! Prayers and love for you. You’re beautiful on the inside and out

  • @mckynzedawes6879
    @mckynzedawes6879 6 лет назад +1

    I love how strong you are. You kept going even when you messed up. So inspirational ❤️

  • @makkenziebeer214
    @makkenziebeer214 6 лет назад +729

    i love how she told us over and over that you had to lay back for about 10 minutes, because it shows that she truly isn't scared that people will criticize her 😊❤️

    • @serafrancis642
      @serafrancis642 6 лет назад +45

      Makkenzie Beer its not the fact that she told us. its the fact that she left it in the video.

    • @ashlayyy4118
      @ashlayyy4118 6 лет назад +18

      Sera Francis ... That's what she said...

    • @mangosbruh8243
      @mangosbruh8243 6 лет назад +6

      ashley betts she means that it wasn't edited out. She left it in the video.

  • @NadjiaLemo
    @NadjiaLemo 7 лет назад +1949

    You started saying "radiation" correctly!!! Yaaayyy!!! You are beautiful inside and out. Keep fighting love!

    • @BloomingRose5
      @BloomingRose5 7 лет назад +4

      AutySav she had brain surgery for a tumor.

    • @janetatum8966
      @janetatum8966 7 лет назад +4

      Nadjia Lemo yes! That's an accomplishment! You know you're getting better when you start getting more perfectionistic about it. Yay Courtney!

    • @jordanrini7325
      @jordanrini7325 7 лет назад +18

      Nigga Walsh no, being encouraging to a person is never the wrong thing to do. Please have some respect and get a life.

    • @Jewels_8404
      @Jewels_8404 7 лет назад +3

      ᄋᄉᄋ하루 I think she said it correctly too. Not sure what's wrong with NIGGA 😒

    • @NYandAZ
      @NYandAZ 7 лет назад +6

      Jordan Rini He didn't say anything wrong! Stop starting drama. That is how she has said it in the past. He didn't say that she said it like that during this video. Leave him be! I thought his comment was both polite, but correct. Geez. People please stop fighting. We're all here to support her!

  • @kaykay6742
    @kaykay6742 6 лет назад

    You are so strong. I sit here and feel bad about my problems but this reminds me that my life might be crappy but I should be thankful.

  • @hollied9703
    @hollied9703 6 лет назад +4

    I love how positive you are! Your smiling for almost the whole video! ♥️ Xoxo! Stay strong, and positive!

  • @randomname9709
    @randomname9709 6 лет назад +1158

    I'm glad she didn't cut out her mistakes

  • @jodi9361
    @jodi9361 7 лет назад +354

    I was crying when you rang the bell! Thanks for being so raw and real about it, so proud of you!

  • @gabiwilk5725
    @gabiwilk5725 6 лет назад +4

    This was so sad to watch but your strength is amazing . I'm so glad you're okay and able to stay positive !

  • @veronicagammage5140
    @veronicagammage5140 6 лет назад

    This popped up on my home page feed. I watched it and I have to say I'm really proud of you. You look beautiful and strong! ❤ It wasn't to the same degree as you but when I was younger I had a hard time speaking and trying to say what I wanted to in a way that made sense and conveyed what I wanted to say. I hope things go well moving forward and even though I've only watched this one video of yours, I'm really proud and happy for you. So strong and brilliant and you correcting your mistakes was amazing. Keep up you perseverance and it will take you so far on life. I see a bright future for you! ❤❤❤

  • @mosicas6754
    @mosicas6754 7 лет назад +151

    So incredible to watch you automatically know when you've said something incorrectly. To watch you walk through the problem solving on how to find the right word and change the sentence structure if needed. Awesome girl! Completely amazing 😉!! You are doing great! I 💜 how open you've been and that you let us in to watch how you problem solve to work through your speech rather that editing it out. I watch you in awe!! You truly are fabulous, strong and beautiful inside and out 😍😍😍😍

  • @briannamackenzie6601
    @briannamackenzie6601 7 лет назад +223

    I have soooooo much love for this girl and I don't even know her. She's a living reminder of the saying " Never give up" 💕

  • @April_B.W
    @April_B.W 5 лет назад +1

    Rewatching this again (July 2019) and it’s amazing how far you’ve come. Super proud of you sweet girl.

  • @morgan1022
    @morgan1022 6 лет назад +4

    No one sooooo beautiful should EVER go through this! ❤️ Stay strong!

  • @dane2673
    @dane2673 6 лет назад +47

    I just fractured and dislocated my ankle, feeling so sorry for myself and seeing this video made me realize that I have something so minor and if you can be so happy and inspiring there's nothing stopping me.. thank you, you're a role model ❤

  • @daybykay
    @daybykay 6 лет назад +694

    my mom had brain cancer as a teenager and she had radiation therapy done as well, the base of her head is completely bald and it never grew back. my moms cancer affected her hearing instead of her speech, though. she's been cancer free for almost 30 years now, but she's been going deaf as well, which just shows the lasting effects of cancer on its victims.

    • @fatimata9401
      @fatimata9401 6 лет назад +15

      moonstarangel i'm so sorry to hear that. God bless

    • @Doyoulikewafels
      @Doyoulikewafels 6 лет назад +30

      Im sorry she's going deaf :( But I'm really happy she's cancer free !! Best of luck ^^

    • @fdustwings1
      @fdustwings1 6 лет назад +12

      My mom also had a brain tumor. I was 8yrs old when she was diagnosed. She fought for a few years but lost the battle when i was 14. Im now almost 40 n the pain is still there. But i want to be more like her everyday. She was an amazing mom, wife, Angel on earth.

    • @Dana-em6vx
      @Dana-em6vx 6 лет назад +5

      belinda connor I'm crying bc of your comment right now, I could never imagine going through what you had to, im so sorry💜

    • @AFMilano727
      @AFMilano727 6 лет назад

      moonstarangel God Bless her ♥️

  • @laneysmiff6267
    @laneysmiff6267 5 лет назад +3

    I’m so proud of you, your beautiful and your talking is just fine we all love and support you❤️

  • @elizabethryder6004
    @elizabethryder6004 6 лет назад +2

    You are so incredible! You beat such a hard disease and you push through no matter what. You are so inspiring. Thank you for sharing your life and just being you. I subscribed! This is the first video I found of yours and i cant wait to watch your other videos!

  • @veronicarenn4149
    @veronicarenn4149 6 лет назад +142

    It makes me cry to see you get frustrated at yourself for your speech. -Though completely understandable. You're an absolutely incredible, beautiful, kind, and STRONG individual. Things will come back with time and work. Regardless you are loved and have a strong support system behind you. I have always admired your intelligence and kind disposition. You're amazing girl!

  • @nataliep6046
    @nataliep6046 6 лет назад +521

    Why are people so mad in the comments when people ask questions? She has put this online for information purposes I'm sure it's only human nature for us to ask questions if she has made this public you have to expect questions.

    • @zazzycatlady
      @zazzycatlady 6 лет назад +9

      Natalie Gayle the only questions we are annoyed with are the ones asking "why does she keep messing up?" When it's been spoken about in the video and noted in the description. It's frustrating to see hoards of people ask questions about things clearly stated in the video they're supposed to be watching before they comment

    • @tragediezz614
      @tragediezz614 6 лет назад +10

      Madeline Emory Some people dont have time to watch the whole video so the next best thing is to ask questions I guess

    • @karleighrose0328
      @karleighrose0328 6 лет назад +8

      Tragediezz There is no excuse for complete and utter ignorance displayed in this comment section. The "is she gonna die" crap is so rude and not at all what she needs to hear during this difficult time. If you are curious, then take literally 10 minutes out of your way to watch some of her videos, rather than being so childish.

    • @clementine8186
      @clementine8186 6 лет назад +7

      You people replying are the angry people this comment refers to, how ironic.

  • @lunghaniconnyshivuri1925
    @lunghaniconnyshivuri1925 5 лет назад +6

    I've been watching your videos and I'm always praying for you💕 you are such a beautiful strong person. May God bless & heal you

  • @corarberry
    @corarberry 6 лет назад

    I just stumbled upon your channel in my recommended and you probably have a million comments that say this but you’re so fucking strong. This is so real and unedited and that puts you in a vulnerable place which is why i think it’s so amazing that you posted this. Thinking about you and sending you all the best of thoughts!!

  • @LB-wc2hi
    @LB-wc2hi 7 лет назад +29

    This video brought back so many memories from when my brother was on his brain cancer journey. He still has his radiation mask too! He also had to learn to talk again, and he's still doing really well. I don't know you, but I just wanted to say that you are so strong and amazing. You're so positive and I admire you for that. Stay strong, keep going and laugh at the funny little things in life X

  • @rons1542
    @rons1542 6 лет назад +342

    I just found you today, I don't ever comment on videos but I just had to say I have watched a few and you have already had a huge impact on my life. You are such a beautiful, strong, positive and inspiring woman ❤ thank you for sharing your experience. Big hugs, prayers and best wishes to you and your family ❤️❤️❤️

    • @lilhunnypup2821
      @lilhunnypup2821 6 лет назад +2

      Tiffany Miller Same!! Well I mean I just found her today too

    • @Mel-jy5sw
      @Mel-jy5sw 6 лет назад +3

      Tiffany Miller me too. she seems like a total badass and im def subscribing

  • @verapaiz411
    @verapaiz411 6 лет назад

    What a strong & amazing young woman. I love how she never gave up in trying to find the right words to say and including those clips in her video. You go girl!!!

  • @amandawilliams8433
    @amandawilliams8433 6 лет назад

    You're such an inspiration. So positive for what you're going through, I truly hope you get back to teaching and you're normal life as soon as possible! You're doing amazing

  • @KweenKimberly
    @KweenKimberly 7 лет назад +29

    I'M SO HAPPY YOU'RE DONE WITH RADIATION!!!! I'm smiling so big right now! You said radiation & certificate & SO MANY OTHER WORDS! You look beautiful & I'm so proud of you. I continue to pray EVERY SINGLE DAY! Love you TONS
    ♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️🙏🏼♥️

  • @AyannaActing
    @AyannaActing 6 лет назад +4270

    I love how she edits her videos and leaves in the parts where she messes up.

    • @Kimmy476
      @Kimmy476 6 лет назад +44

      the description literally says she didn't edit it at all lol

    • @paigeblack5000
      @paigeblack5000 6 лет назад +36

      Ayanna Cash She only edited it to be shorter 😊

    • @AyannaActing
      @AyannaActing 6 лет назад +39

      quack so that flash of light and it skipping forward @ 0:09 happened naturally :) yeah ok

    • @anahithakobyan4399
      @anahithakobyan4399 6 лет назад

      Ayanna Cash she didn't edit it read the description

    • @AyannaActing
      @AyannaActing 6 лет назад +44

      Anahit Hakobyan girl I read it. It is edited tho. "It's not 100% raw". Did u even read it??

  • @aaps8814
    @aaps8814 5 лет назад +6

    A warrior with a smile. Beautiful in and out. God bless you

  • @writingaccount6399
    @writingaccount6399 6 лет назад

    Congratulations! So glad you're doing so well. You're awesome. Hope nothing but good things for you in your recovery and future.

  • @jackieblue5681
    @jackieblue5681 6 лет назад +1149

    I will be starting radiation treatment in the near future 😢, just had surgery on July 26. Trying to stay strong but this is really hard. you are younger than I but you're still an inspiration 😍 God bless

    • @depression8100
      @depression8100 6 лет назад +12

      Jackie Blue stay strong! I hope all goes well 😇😌

    • @eveycardona7986
      @eveycardona7986 6 лет назад +7

      Praying for you stay strong ❤️

    • @KayciazWorld
      @KayciazWorld 6 лет назад +5

      Jackie Blue Keeping you in my prayers❤

    • @courtneygoines5306
      @courtneygoines5306 6 лет назад +5

      Prayers your way mam. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

    • @ItGirlAri
      @ItGirlAri 6 лет назад +3

      Prayers your way beautiful 💓

  • @maddiesalazar4891
    @maddiesalazar4891 7 лет назад +55

    I am so overwhelmed with feelings when I watch your videos. I pray that you are improving and you beat Cancer! You are so strong and I am honestly so proud of you. ❤️❤️❤️

    • @ICHope2007
      @ICHope2007 7 лет назад +1

      MaddieKay I know I well up with tears and just wish I could give her a hug. But hopefully she knows just how LOVED she is by her RUclips family ❤️

  • @ashleyeklund.586
    @ashleyeklund.586 6 лет назад +2

    Stay strong sweetheart.
    I can see the pain in your eyes and it’s breaking my heart. You’re trying so hard to be positive.
    You’re beautiful and everything will get better!💕

  • @karinajaydee9257
    @karinajaydee9257 5 лет назад

    Yes ! You're doing amazing , you're being stern with yourself and you keep trying so you can keep memory . I love that

  • @jalishiaellis
    @jalishiaellis 6 лет назад +1265

    i saw the title before i clicked and said "me at school" not knowing what the video was about but then i watched it and i love her personality and confidence. she's great

    • @espynsem8441
      @espynsem8441 6 лет назад +20

      I'm sorry I'm laughing so hard.😂 I looked at the thumbnail and started dieing.😂

    • @naiii8133
      @naiii8133 6 лет назад +8

      Espyn Sem how is that even funny?

    • @espynsem8441
      @espynsem8441 6 лет назад +14

      Holy shit guys I'm not laughing at her.😑 I looked at the thumbnail and laughed because they said "me at school". Obviously I hate school and school sucks ass. I wasn't laughing at her or making fun of her in any way damn. I think she's a sweet and strong person and she doesn't deserve to be going through this. Please don't respond to me if you're just going to get pissy because I laughed at a joke. NOT her.

    • @djchaosmaria
      @djchaosmaria 6 лет назад

      melspilots I-/ do you like TØP

    • @jalishiaellis
      @jalishiaellis 6 лет назад +9

      Espyn Sem ignore people. if they're that sensitive that they think you would laugh at that let them. you did nothing wrong

  • @venom27771
    @venom27771 7 лет назад +1552

    Girl your eyebrows. 👸💁❤️😍

  • @dakotahughes2232
    @dakotahughes2232 6 лет назад

    Im so sorry no one needs to go through this but your a trooper and you can do this just stay strong

  • @dumbbitch8410
    @dumbbitch8410 6 лет назад

    I love how strong you are about this situation you’re in right now! Praying for you🙏🏽

  • @Kaitlynbantz
    @Kaitlynbantz 6 лет назад +363

    I’m so glad you didn’t cut out all your talking mistakes. Everyone would cut them out, but you didn’t and that inspires me. You’re so strong ❤️

  • @teeeeeee1708
    @teeeeeee1708 6 лет назад +37

    Youre so inspiring. I've watched you since you first found out you had a tumour and seeing your journey is heartbreaking but you are nothing but positive. Absolutely amazing

  • @V334YY
    @V334YY 6 лет назад +1

    You’re GORGEOUS!!! I’m so inspired by your strength, patience, and perseverance. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
    Such a beautiful soul inside and out.

  • @leolennyandfrankie
    @leolennyandfrankie 5 лет назад +1

    You are an inspiration! Beautiful, kind and I wish you a full recovery and all the best! Live your best life girlie! LOve your vids!

  • @GirlAboutLibrary
    @GirlAboutLibrary 7 лет назад +125

    I can not imagine how hard it is for you to struggle with your speech- BUT you are doing an excellent job catching yourself! To me that looks like a huge improvement in your speech from your earlier videos!

  • @hannahfosh
    @hannahfosh 7 лет назад +32

    Every single video you improve so much!! i can't imagine how frustrating it is for you to make these but it is INSPIRING to watch, you are smashing it girl xxxx

  • @6ixConfessions
    @6ixConfessions 6 лет назад +4

    Hang in there gorgeous girl you're doing just fine. Thank you for being so courageous and sharing your story and your progress. You're an inspiration xxx

  • @breezysummer2
    @breezysummer2 6 лет назад

    You’ve got a new subscriber! I admire you’re perseverance and strength. I love that you didn’t edit out the mistakes. You go girl!

  • @alisonsaarenoja9979
    @alisonsaarenoja9979 6 лет назад +52

    Stay strong! You're still so pretty with or without hair!!

  • @janellesmith3644
    @janellesmith3644 7 лет назад +189

    I know it's hard to lose your hair,as a woman that's our security. But at the end of the day.......its just hair! It will grow back,and what's important is that you're alive and talking and getting better day by day. God has a purpose for all that you're going through and I pray for you everyday.You are an inspiration to so many and will keep you in my prayers. So happy you're done with radiation, one step at a time,you will come out of this stronger and more compassionate for others bc of the journey you have gone through.💞💛💜💙💚

  • @melissaeaston3971
    @melissaeaston3971 6 лет назад +3

    I love her personality so much. She is gorgeous inside and out😍

  • @taracurtis4228
    @taracurtis4228 6 лет назад

    You are such an amazing woman and I hope you keep your head up and keeps going because you really make me open my eyes and see how much I take the littlest things for granted and how grateful I should be!

  • @tsumtsumskits1584
    @tsumtsumskits1584 6 лет назад +41

    She is so strong ❤️

  • @brooklynambet8891
    @brooklynambet8891 6 лет назад +765

    I really love when she messes up but doesn't cut it out like other ppl who wanna be perfect like we all have flaws

    • @killerRED09
      @killerRED09 6 лет назад +60

      Brooklyn Ambet mainly to show how the brain tumor affected her.
      And how she I still trying to learn on how to speak again.

    • @brooklynambet8891
      @brooklynambet8891 6 лет назад +1

      Oh

    • @brooklynambet8891
      @brooklynambet8891 6 лет назад

      killerRED09 oh thx

    • @AndyQuezadilla
      @AndyQuezadilla 6 лет назад +44

      Brooklyn Ambet its not that they wanna be perfect lol it's that they're trying to give us content without repetition or interruptions

    • @Bambi.Knepper
      @Bambi.Knepper 6 лет назад

      Its her raw video . Read the description

  • @Getlosttt
    @Getlosttt 6 лет назад

    Power to you for making this video and posting it with no edits! Wishing you much success with your treatments!

  • @veronicahawthorne3452
    @veronicahawthorne3452 5 лет назад

    You are a strong and amazingly brave woman. I don’t know that I’d be so brave in your situation. I am praying for your speedy recovery. Made me feel so bad when you couldn’t figure out your words. Poor thing. I know it’s hard, but you will get through it. Sending you love, light and prayers. ❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️

  • @jai5311
    @jai5311 6 лет назад +83

    *Please like this so everyone knows*
    She keeps messing up, not only from her surgery, it's because (She said this in the description box) people wanted to see a "raw" video without her cutting of the mistakes

  • @NiaMSnow
    @NiaMSnow 7 лет назад +40

    First time watching you and I am just moved by your story. I have a friend who has cancer and he thinks he's on his death bed so he was married to his gf this past week and it was sad, but about you I will pray for you, that you may be healed by the Lord and to have many Angels to watch over you. The Lord is close to the broken hearted and is with you. love you and I will be subbing, you're an inspiration & strong.
    💛

  • @polarismarie
    @polarismarie 6 лет назад

    So proud! Praying for you!

  • @dany734
    @dany734 6 лет назад

    congratulations on recovery!! you are so strong and very inspiring! stay strong!

  • @Ca_1021
    @Ca_1021 7 лет назад +305

    Thats so interesting how the hair is only gone from that certain part. Thats nice you can cover it with the top layer. I'm so proud of you for how far your speech has come!!! Congrats on completing your radiation. We love you! xo

    • @summerh.6286
      @summerh.6286 7 лет назад +16

      The hair is only gone from the parts that were penetrated by radiation. :)

    • @gia9551
      @gia9551 7 лет назад +4

      Summer H. I thought she had that part shaved from her surgery? could be wrong lol

    • @Jade-5713
      @Jade-5713 6 лет назад

      I just found her channel, what happened to her ? I hope she's ok

  • @ilfioredeldeserto-gk3mg
    @ilfioredeldeserto-gk3mg 7 лет назад +1692

    why would people dislike this

    • @RachelDex
      @RachelDex 7 лет назад +45

      miss atomic bomb Don't be so quick to assume the dislikes are for negative reasons. Maybe people disliked it because they dislike the difficult time she is having to endure? After all Courtney is going through, i doubt she gives a crap about the dislikes.. you shouldn't either :)

    • @ilfioredeldeserto-gk3mg
      @ilfioredeldeserto-gk3mg 7 лет назад +17

      Rachel •Farmiga Fan• ik I'm just wondering cause this woman is amazing

    • @RachelDex
      @RachelDex 7 лет назад +11

      miss atomic bomb I don't see any comments that say she isn't amazing?! When i watch videos like this, even though things aren't great for me right now, I'm thankful I'm not in this position. And it makes think twice about complaining about trivial things. I'm pretty sure Courtney would trade having Cancer for a billion dislikes...

    • @ilfioredeldeserto-gk3mg
      @ilfioredeldeserto-gk3mg 7 лет назад +12

      Rachel •Farmiga Fan• ok ok

    • @fakeswan2752
      @fakeswan2752 6 лет назад +26

      Rachel •Farmiga Fan• If they don't like the difficult time she's having they still wouldn't dislike the video. They would thumbs up to give her some support. to Dislike the video isn't for feeling bad for someone it's for not liking the actual content. If you felt bad you will thumbs up and encourage them in the comment section. The majority of people who disliked either have no souls or it just wasn't their cup of tea they're used to so they weren't feeling the video. I know this is 4wks ago you wrote this but I just came across this video. Just wanted to give my opinion. >>miss atomic bomb I get what you meant don't worry :)

  • @heatherbrady2754
    @heatherbrady2754 6 лет назад

    Good job ! You’re so strong ! Seeing you smile after going through all of this is amazing ! Stay strong

  • @janinebeauchemin8059
    @janinebeauchemin8059 6 лет назад

    I've commented before, but again I'd like to tell you how grateful I am for you documenting your experience. I feel like I have a better idea of what to expect when I start my treatment in two days. Thank you!