I’m so sorry to hear about Roger. It’s hard losing a pet. Please take all the time you need and be gentle with yourself. I hope that things will get better and that you heal. Sending you lots of hearts and lots of warm internet hugs ❤❤❤
thank you so much! i'm already much better than in January, I think the small break down yesterday and today are just a good reminder to rest more and not always work so hard. 💙
Thank you for helping so many of us feel "normal". I struggle daily with burn out, depression and grief, and knowing that others out here are in the same boat helps normalize not being "okay" Chin up, friend. It will get better.
It's normal to experience burnout after all this work over the years (RUclips channel + creations of original works + exhibitions + coloring book)! The pressure that comes from this should never be underestimated!! Added to this the loss of a feline companion 😔 Stéphanie, prenez bien soin de vous 🌈
So sorry to hear about Roger. When we lost our little dog Pocket, then only two weeks later our calico cat Charlotte, we grieved for months. It's like losing family. We have another little dog now (about 1 1/2 years later) and two cats, but we still grieve Pocket and Charlotte. And please don't get down on yourself for not doing a painting or sculpture of Roger - you're still raw. To this day, I still can't bring myself to do a portrait (I'm an artist, too) of our former pets. I also suffer from depression, and it's super hard to be creative when we're depressed. Good thoughts and ❤❤🩹❤ to you.
Stephanie- remember to be kind to yourself ❤ When you are dealing in grief it is so important to be good to your mind and body. I know much time has passed since you made this video but i guess i just wanted to reach out because you are such an amazing artist and kind gentle soul. I feel for you. You are loved ❤
❤ burn out is hard, losing a pet is harder. We lost one of our dogs last week and the world is just not right anymore. It helps me to try to remember all the happy and good stories - but it definitely doesn't bring them back. thanks for including us and I hope things start feeling a little less heavy ❤
It really is difficult. I didn't delve too much into it, but Roger died very unexpectedly and not even a year after my very old cat died. So it was a lot of deaths in a short amount of time and we went from a big family of 3 cats to just 1. I'm sorry for your loss, it's very fresh for you still and it will eventually be easier and you'll just have the happy memories of your pet left. Thank you 💙
Sending you love and blessings. What a beautiful vulnerable video. You pour so much of your essence to produce your art. With an empty tank, you opened up. I hope you receive pure love and kindness to refill your tank again, ready to create beauty again. ❤❤❤❤
I'm so sorry you go trough this! I've been there too, and it's really hard. But like you said, it will get better. Take your time to heal! Lots of love and hugs 💖💖💖🤗🤗🤗
I'm so sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need. You're stronger than you think. Thank you for sharing what you're going through, social media only shows us the good parts & happy feelings. Big hugs to you. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Sorry to hear about your Roger 🐈, heart felt condolences. I was thinking yesterday that I have not seen a new video from you of late. Take care! and get well soon and hope you find your joy in work soon. ❤ Best wishes! Miss you, but take your time to get fully well! Get good rest.
So sorry for your loss. There was obviously a deep bond between you and it is harder than we think. Take time to heal, nothing is too indulgent when you are depressed, self care is needed after all you've been through.
Hello Stephanie. I think it is very brave of you to reach out. At the very least to know you’re not alone and to know how much support you have in life and online. Look how many people love and care about you. I have lost alot of people and pets in the past couple years and I also identify with the kind of depression you are going through. I get it alot myself. One piece of advice that sticks with me about loss is to create spaciousness. This was from a well respected grief therapist. In grief we tend to always pull ourselves in the opposite direction of how we’re feeling, often before we fully let how bad we feel or how good we feel happen. We fight ourselves when it hurts to feel bad and when it hurts to feel good and we don’t let ourselves live how we actually feel. I think one of the best things you can do is to allow yourself the space to feel. When you are ready as bad as you want to feel. When you can, as good as you want to feel. If that’s going to be hard on you, set up some things that make the day to day needs like meals and washing dishes etc easier. Connect with the people who love you as much as you can. I also think that sometimes it is hard for others to understand our connection to our loved ones and what we lost. I want you to know how real and powerful your loss is, but also that you can honor that in any way you like at any time, you will know what is right. When I lost my cat, one thing I did was plant a tree. My thought was that it would give a home to all kinds of new life and that the loss of her life would only serve life. Another thing I did for myself was to go to the cat shelter every so often, even though I wasn’t ready to adopt, it helped me feel some connection. I also decided to protect and feed more strays in the area (my cat was once a stray)… how you honor life is going to be different, but when you are ready to I promise it will be a beautiful thing. I’m sorry your heart is hurting. Give yourself space. Healing takes time.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I want to let you know that there's another person who understands. Very similar cycles happen for me as well - and I've not always found those who understand - but my family has been so supportive. I am glad you have those who understand and that you will take the time to take care of yourself. And so sorry to hear about Roger - that's something else that I've experienced and that grief is real. Thank you for sharing with us, it is very vulnerable. And it has helped me feel less alone. Sending good wishes your way!
💙💙💙💙Thank you for your honesty in making this video. I am going through burnout myself right now. I feel like I'm on the edge. I completely understand the 'I just want to rest' comment. This is exactly how I feel. I want to get away from everybody and everything. I also am one comment away from breaking out into tears.
I understand. So sorry about the loss of your dear pet. Grieving takes time and acceptance. We cannot push ourselves over the edge but must know when to slow down and take care of our mental health. Take care and thank you for creating awareness in so many ways. It is very much appreciated. 💖🙂
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I also have this depressive tendency. I'm just coming out of it now. Still very low energy and playing a lot of Minecraft but I'm slowly getting better. Sending lots of love to you and I am so sorry for the loss of your little one 🐈⬛
💜 I have been where you are. Definitely remember to be good to yourself and don't overdo it. Your work is amazing, but it's just not worth hurting yourself over. You got this!
Oh Stephanie, this video hit me so hard... because I lost my beloved cat only two days ago and I so much feel you grief and pain. I am so sorry for your loss ❤burn out is not a fun thing to experience. be kind to yourself. take your time to come back to strength. there is nothing more important than our own health. sending a lot of strength ❤❤
You sound exhausted, I hope you can get some rest. I have missed your videos but assumed you were very busy with your shows etc. I'm sorry for your loss of Roger. I hope to see you back when you are feeling better, and yes I agree social media will be the death of us! ❤❤
Thank you for this very raw, very real video! I discovered you a few months ago, I binged all your videos and took your Skill Share classes! I had done painting and mixed media before, but fell into a hole too, and watching your videos helped motivate my artistic mind again. I recently set up my art room, I'd been crafting in the kitchen for 6 months 😂 I think as artists we feel so deeply, sometimes quietly to ourselves until it explodes out of us. Then it's like a new plant coming out in the spring after a long sad winter, we're full of ideas and new energy. I recently lost my 19 y.o. tortie Ginger, she passed away last week in my arms at home, it was sad, especially watching my other 3 cats looking for her. BUT, I've come so far getting back into my art, I'm pushing through this. She had the best life! Please know how many people you have awakened with your amazing incredible art style! We'll all be here waiting patiently for your return!❤
I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability when it comes to your mental health. I hope that you're in a better headspace now. I send you my love and am thinking of you and thankful for your art and presence ❤❤❤
Oh Stephanie! I'm so glad to see you, but had no idea you were feeling so down. I hope your art gives you some pleasure in your heart. I wish I knew what to say but I am sure Roger would want you to be happy again, and so we all would too. Please don't worry about RUclips when you are feeling this way. I hope things feel better very soon. Love from Australia xoxox
That’s rough Stephanie. Hear is a 💜 for overwork, one 💜 for Roger & one 💜 for your ongoing grief. And one 💜 for staying down as you need to. I said goodbye to my cat Millie September 12th and I’m still abruptly crying, shattered. I know, somehow it will be less raw…but we can’t get around the grief as it takes as long as it takes. So hugs to you for your success in surviving the depth of love & grief of your dearest Roger. I hope for briefer days for you soon.
Aww. I’m so grateful you shared. I just discovered you through your sea urchin video. I am so empathetic with your feelings. You are spot on in your thoughts that many creative people (myself included) go through these periods. You are absolutely right that these periods pass. I am sending you hugs and lightness. I’m really glad you are taking care of yourself.
Please, please take all the time you need to take. We care so much for you, and understand how hard loss is, and we would rather that you take as long as you need before you can feel comfortable in your art and creativity than be hurt by trying to push through something that is too much. I have recently suffered a similar breakdown - worse than all of my others - and rest and care really are the answer, so we look forward to the day that you are happy in your creativity, and send love to you, and we will be patient until then. 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
I'm so sorry for your difficult times. I hope you've been able to get the space you need to rest and heal. Best wishes, and please be kind to yourself. 💜🧡💛💚💙
Losing a pet = losing a family member. We *think* we should bounce back because it’s “just a cat,” but we do not. It can put you into a tailspin if you’re inclined to depression. You may feel like it’ll never end-and we should get help if it doesn’t seem to get better-but prolonged rest is really good, if possible, like you did in January ❤. The change to spring can also help (longer days). Get out for some ‘forest bathing,’ or a walk on a beach if you live near water. You will come back…but take your time. I realized I hadn’t seen anything from you in a while and I realized I had not been subscribed! 🤦🏼♀️ So I’m now subscribed. ❤ and I agree with you that artists’ brains are wired differently. Many of us suffer with depression & burnout & exhaustion. Consider, if it doesn’t lift, an anti-depressant for 8-12 months; it can put you on more even footing and allow you to work through things. You are loved!!! ❤❤❤
Merci de partager tout ça avec nous, c'est très courageux de ta part. Il y a tellement de choses qui résonnent en moi, la perte si difficile d'un animal, l'état dépressif... merci tellement pour tes conseils, ça permet vraiment de se sentir moins seule. J'espère que ça va aller mieux ❤
Thank you for being so honest and open and sharing your vulnerabilities with us. I can relate to a lot of what you said and I'm so sorry you've been having a hard time - and dealing with that loss. I hope you can rest as much as you need. Sending you hugs and looking forward to seeing more of your videos and work whenever they happen (we'll still be here!) ❤
I'm so very sorry for your loss of Roger. And thank you for your courage to post this video. Your feelings resonate with me, as I also struggle with depression. Please be kind to yourself and take time to heal and recharge. Sending you tons of virtual hugs ❤
❤❤❤❤ Thank you for sharing your true, raw emotions. I too have battled those inner voices, and they can be quite nasty and relentless. Stay strong! You are truly an inspiration!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Bless your heart. I'm sorry to hear about Roger. It's hard to watch you struggle but it's also a blessing to watch you figure it out and know what to do and how to get through it. Hope you're feeling better and back to yourself soon. Sending you big hugs and love. ❤❤❤
I'm so sorry for the loss of your kitty🫂💖 I have a severe case of OCD myself, and it goes hand in hand with depression, so I know what it feels like 😥It comes in waves like that for me as well. I hope things get better for you.
Thank you so much for your vulnerability. I am familiar with emotion-storms ; mennnn they are so heavy🥺😭. You are not alone in the pit, many (artist) are with you. I wish you lots of love ❤❤❤❤❤ All the lovely memories of your cat are in your heart andI hope and pray they help you to find a way to hope, live, peace and love. 🙏🕯️🐈
❤ I really feel for you. Thank you for your honesty. I can totally relate. I’ve recently discovered I am AuDHD. Everything now makes sense. I doesn’t make what you are going through any easier but it does help to explain. Be easy on yourself, don’t push through and take all the time you need. xxxxxx
I’m sorry for your loss, and I wish you all the best. It will take time. For me it did help to be a little bit gentler with myself. I know I can be very creative and productive when I push through, my perseverance got me places, but the cost was too high. I haven’t lowered my standards, but I am going at an easier pace nowadays (I’m 44). It was a hard lesson. I wish for you to find your way through, and you will, because you are strong. ❤
I'm sorry about your cat friend. I'm going through this right now as well. I lost my dog of 17 yrs a couple months ago and I've been just feeling numb, guilt, sadness most days. Also feeling the overwhelm of finishing things and showing them to the world, post on social media. I had a big project looming over my head that I had to present to a panel for approval that was really stressing me out as well that made the time going by almost feel like pergatory and was also a big distraction. I have up and down days, though at least now. I have had weeks that were as you describe as "holes". One thing that has helped me a bit is creating an index of all the little things that give me joy that I can refer back to. So I have about 50 things from specific foods, to visiting certain locations, certain movies, certain authors, certain scents etc etc that give me a tiny boost and when I feel like shit, I visit the index and I force myself to do some of them. Then I just have faith that like planting a seed, it may not be an immediate cure, but it will come in a day or two after I make the effort and go through the motions of getting better and it usually does. Meditating can help too and I tend to gravitate towards the ones that involve visualizations versus just blanking the mind. It's still new to me though, but seems promising. It's been a month. I hope you feel a lot better. If you noticed anything that helped you get around the bend this time, please share.
❤💛🧡 I am so sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time. I am happy you are taking the time you need for yourself. That is so important. You wondered if anyone noticed your absence, I can say personally your absence has been felt. I was looking around your socials last month and wondering how you were. Of course take the time you need and focus on your health. A lot of what you said really resonated with me and I was in tears by the end of your video. It is okay not to be okay. And it is okay to allow ourselves to feel our emotions and take the rest we need to recover. Thank you for posting such a raw video 💙💜💚
This is the first video I have seen of yours and you touched my heart with your emotions. Thank you for sharing and please know that your message reached someone who needed to hear it.
Thank you for sharing your feelings. I think your art is very beautiful, inspiring and ecologicaly important for today's world. I love your works because I can feel your soul and emotions there. It's wonderful and so rare now. I am sure a lot of people will appreciate your book so your hard work isn't in vain. I send you rays of love and hope you'll be feeling better soon ❤
Big hugs Steph, been there and it took me years to get out of it. I hope you will be gentle with yourself n get out of the tunnel.. I miss you but I wish you well more. Keep trying to get yourself out of the dark place ❤ I got one of your colouring book!! So happy to have ur work! ❤
I know this is several months old and I’m not sure if you’ll see this but I wanted to take the time to let you know how you’ve positively affected my artistic journey. I bought your miniatures book when I first got interested in miniatures and I still have it. It inspired me to be creative and to keep going even when it was frustrating.I hope you never stop creating and never stop taking the time to enjoy your life away from the art studio as well. I’m so sorry for the loss of your Rodger. Take care, lots of love-Megan
❤❤❤❤ So sorry to hear about Roger. It's clear he was very special to you, and for what it's worth, I'm sure you gave him the best possible life. Looking forward to your future work, when you are ready.❤❤❤❤
When I turned 40, I went through the most depressive episode in my life. I even had to leave my job of 10 years. I couldn't cope with anything. I started medication and that kept me above water. It turned out I was starting perimenopause. I feel better now, still on meds, but not depressed. I believe it's a phase in the aging process and that it will pass. Thank you for your honesty! BTW, found your channel because your coloring book was mentioned by a very popular adult colorist on RUclips.
When the mind and body say no. Rest. I express my depression as when I want to get off the world, where I couldn't bother anyone, and nobody could bother me. Congratulations on your book. I'm sorry about your fur baby crossing the rainbow Bridge. ❤❤❤🫂🫂🫂❤❤❤Hugs from 🇨🇦
Everyone deserves to take the time they need to heal. Don’t feel bad for taking your time. Also, sorry for your loss. It is never easy to find healing. Thank you for sharing your story with us and we did notice your absence. However, you also deserve your space and respect.
This is such an important message, Stephanie. I feel like this too with my art... most of the time. Thank you for posting. What a brilliant video. I really needed to hear this. Love Bernoid x
Thank you, Gaia, and the Universe('s) 🙏 Watching your tutorial on polymer clay daisy's (👌 btw), guided me to this video. I needed it. Perhaps as much as you needed to post. Regardless, thank you, I'm certainly not the only one you being, well, you, has benefited. Endless joy to you 💚💙💜
💖💕💞💗Sending you the biggest, biggest HUGS Stephanie. You are sooooooooooo brave to share with us and the world how genuinely raw you feel right now and, please know we are all so grateful for what you bring to the art world and the joy you bring us all with your work. And so.......yes you have been missed so much!!! I can absolutely feel your hurt from losing your precious fur bear Roger as I lost 2 of mine in the last 6 months and I was only seconds from crying again today because I miss them SO much and it hurts real bad. Hopefully you still talk to Roger? People think I'm mad but I stand by their graves and tell them everything! And maybe keeping a morning or evening journal and writing down everything about how crappie you feel might help? Especially as things improve and you can look back and see what helped that day. It's good that you recognise your symptoms but you maybe need to ask for some help with different things, like admin and marketing etc? There are also a lot of different energies from things like solar flares coming to earth now and science is proving that we are all affected unknowingly by it and that we may feel strange, tired and as if we have just had enough some days and we must do what our instincts tell us, even like just to sleep. Take good care of yourself. xx
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost two of my cats in the matter of a year, Doudou, my very old one in 2022 and Roger last year. I still have Plume, which has been a fluffy furry ball of joy though. The loss of pets is difficult because they take up a lot of space in your house, life and heart, but I know it eventually gets better. I'm not really rich enough to have an assistant, so it's not really an option ^^' however I think I could be more intelligent in the way I do things. We will see, I will be able to adjust and manage somehow. thank you 💙
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your artist journey. HUGS! I would also recommend doing clay therapy. Grab a half-pound of Sculpey or Plasticine and just let your hands and mind have fun with it. You’re right, this is a very raw video but I’m sure many of us can relate to what you’ve been going through. I lost my sister four years ago and I’m still dealing with grief and burnout and I’ve been struggling to do anything artistic. I know how hard it is to lose a pet, too. You will get better, Stephanie…it just takes time.
I do that but with watercolors, I use clay a lot in my work already, so clay doesn't work that way for me. I'm very sorry for the loss of your sister, I'm sure you will get better eventually, but grief takes time and we're all different in how we grief. Best of luck and thank you 💙
@@stephanie.kilgast I also think we get so focused in our work that we forget to break away to laugh and have fun, which can take the edge off depression and burn out. Finding a balance is hard, but, it’s necessary. Plus, I tend to be a seasonal kind of guy. I like all four seasons, but winters always challenge me more with my moods. I have no doubt you’ll find your way through it, Stephanie!
Yesterday I found your book in a Germany bookstore and it is so beautiful ❤ wish you a lot of energy and it's nice to see you after a long time... Take care of you
oh! I really wanted to find my book in a bookstore when I visited my parents in Berlin over Christmas but I didn't find it. It made me really sad :/ And thank you 💙
❤️💕♥️💙💜💗💛💖💞💚🧡🩷🩵❤️🩹 Sending many, many hearts to you, Stephanie. I wish you healing and peace and softer, lighter days ahead. Treat yourself with kindness and take all the time you need to rest.
My heart is with you, Stephanie. I had a nervous breakdown summer of 2021. I had to take a medical leave for 3 months from my job. I mostly just stared out the window and cried during my leave. My thinking processes were slow. It was horrible. With therapy and a supportive family, I got out of it. But it leaves a scar. When I think back to that time period, I still tear up. You will get through this. Journaling and praying helped me
Oh gosh, that sounds very tough! It's not quite that bad for me, I'm glad you got better though, even though it left a scar. I had a friend who suffered a very severe nervous breakdown and landed in the psychiatric hospital for a while, it made her change her view on life quite a bit. She's doing great now. Thank you 💙
Bonjour Stephanie, je suis désolée de te voir traverser ces moments difficiles tout en étant si souvent présents dans nos vies quand on est artistes et hypersensibles. Je suis moi-même passée par là à maintes reprises, et le questionnement sur notre travail, notre démarche, ce qui nous tient à coeur de transmettre, ainsi que tout ce qu'il faut faire en tant qu'artiste pour tenir bon et vendre son art, ce n'est qu'une goutte dans un océan de pensées qui nous submerge par moment. Pour ma part, je voulais te dire que beaucoup de tes vidéos m'ont aidé à oser avancer dans ma carrière artistique, tu me donnes beaucoup de courage, et de te voir vulnérable, me rappelle que même à ton niveau, nous ne sommes jamais à l'abri de nous oublier nous-même. Il faut tâcher de prendre soin de soi à tout moment. Perdre un animal est une épreuve et je ne peux que compatir. Prends soin de toi, continue de nous émerveiller et de nous inspirer (même dans les moments plus dark). j'espère qu'on finira par se croiser un jour lors d'une expo. je ne sais pas si il t'arrive encore d'exposer dans la région Morbihannaise. J'essaie d'être à l'affut, mais j'avoue que par moment, je me recroqueville aussi dans ma coquille ! .... Et vive les jeux videos, qui nous remontent le moral et nous font rêver ;)...
Here goes a huge hug from Patricia from Mexico. Everything will be fine, so many of us have been through something like what you are going through right now, each one of us have our own timing, don't despair, take your time and remember that you cannot give what you don't have, not just material things, but also joy, serenity, happyness and so on...in order to share with us all the beauty of your work, your talent, your smile, first you have to take care of yourself. Fill your "basket of goodies" first and when it's plenty enough to share we will be here waiting for your next wonderful work! God bless!
🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Dear Stephanie, I so understand you! I am going through extreme grief right now, and also having to move. It has been such a struggle to take care of everything let alone paint and draw. I am alternating between pushing myself and also trying to rest . It’s very difficult for sure! Much love, peace and comfort to you. You do brilliant work, you’ve been working very hard- you need rest! Please take loving care of yourself. This too shall pass.
Stephanie! ❤❤❤ I noticed that you had not made videos in some time. I am so sorry to hear about Roger. Losing a pet can be one of the hardest things to happen in your life. And I'm sorry you are feeling burnt out. Please take good care of yourself! Take the time you need to recover. Don't feel pressured to put videos out if you are not ready. Many of us have gone through what you are feeling. We understand. You are not alone. ❤
Es tut mir leid zu hören, dass du so am Kämpfen bist. Nimm dir die Zeit, die du brauchst, um wieder wirklich fit zu werden. Dein Lachen und deine Fröhlichkeit werden dann umso mehr wohltun. Heb dir Sorg liebe Stephanie!
❤ 🤗. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I’ve just come across your RUclips channel and I love your art and your videos. I hope I am able to order your colouring book from India 🤞❤
So sorry to hear about how bad things have been and for the loss of Roger. I really hope the rest of the year is a happier time in which you can recover. 🍍❤
thank you so much, despite me crying a lot in the video, I'm doing much better than in January already, it's more a small wake-up call of not going to intensely into work-mode again. So yeah, I should be fine. Thank you pineapple-person 💙
💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚 I'm going thru the same DARK period, Stephanie. Chin up, it will get better, and my condolences 😢 My animals pull me thru the worst moments. 🕊
Yes, it will get better! Honestly I'm in a much better place already than January, I'm just falling rapidly over nothing, so I have to be extra careful. I'm lucky I still have one cat left and she's been very helpful indeed. I hope you're going to be ok too! Life can be difficult sometimes, but it eventually gets better.
❤❤❤❤❤ It's so kind of you to let us know how you're doing Stephanie. I've definitely missed you and have been checking your RUclips And SkillShare channels regularly. I'm so sorry to hear about your lovely little cat, and also sorry to hear about your depression. I understand what you're going through and, like you say, it will pass eventually. I think the hardest thing is to be kind to yourself and allow yourself time to heal. Sending tons of love and just know there are a lot of people routing for you. ❤❤❤❤❤
@@stephanie.kilgast I just wanted to say that I'm hoping you are feeling a little less raw and that you're managing to spend some time for yourself. No reply needed. ❤
So sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself before anything else. And when you are ready get another loving pet for you that will help you heal. For your cold sore, I used to get them often too but after me drinking green juice(kale, green apples,cucumber, pineapple) has really reduce the recurrence of it. Thank you for sharing. Your art is amazing. I love it when you work on clay. Can't wait to see your coloring book!
I didn't mention it in the video, because well I was crying, but I still have one cat. We used to have three, a very old one who died in 2022, Roger who died in 2023 (very unexpectedly) and little furry Plume. Since Plume seems to be very happy on her own, we have decided against adopting another cat for now. A healthy lifestyle is important indeed, but I'm pretty good on that front. And thank you 💙
Stephanie, I am so sorry for your loss, I hope you soon find confort on the fact that Roger was loved and he loved you. I really admire your strenght and capability to know that this too shall pass. I wish you wouln't have to go through all of this, but I an sure you will grow. I hope you know that even when this is just a little box with letters, behind it, there is a 60 year old lady who admires you and your work, whishes the best for you, prays that you will get better and care for you, regardless of the distance. ❤❤❤❤❤
Hm. You know, I think it's part of life to go through this. It's because life is hard sometimes that it also is so beautiful and light at other times. So I think it's ok. As long as you can come out on the other side, it's just part of the whole experience. And thank you so much 💙
I’m so sorry for your loss. I have 2 senior-aged kitties, and I know every day with them is a gift. When I try to put myself in your shoes specifically about your cat…I cannot imagine what the loss feels like, only that it must be so hard. Especially if you also are dealing with depression to further compound your emotions. I hope that you are able to give yourself the grace and time to rest and heal, and that you have a good support system to uplift you. I also hope that making the video was therapeutic for you. You are in my thoughts, and I hope you get to the “light at the end of the tunnel” very soon! ☺️
I'm lucky because I have very good supportive friends and I can take days off when I need. So I will be ok. For your two kitties, I lost my very old cat in 2022 and Roger unexpectedly last year. Letting go of the old grannie cat was hard, yes, but it was easier, because I was prepared and she had a long life. For Roger it was difficult. So don't worry about your kitties, they will pass, but they will have had a long life with you and so when they'll go it'll be the right time. And one day you'll just have fond memories of them and smile when you think of them. That's how I think of my very old cat, I just laugh and smile when I think of her. I know I'll eventually reach that point with Roger, as it already started happening. And thank you 💙
Hi I am so sorry for your lost first of all I know how it feels to lose a lost love and still try to bounce back and be creative But what helps me is walking, taking long walks also I have been eating lots of fresh fruits and greens I also noticed cutting out sugar or I should be more honest cutting down. what you eat is really important to your overall health. I dont know if you believe in a Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ but I do and I love to ask them for help, everyday. love you and your work most importantly your honesty. Thank you for sharing.
Having a healthy lifestyle is very important, but it's something I've always had? I'm vegetarian so I mostly eat vegetables and fruit. That being said, when I'm low I tend to need comfort foods, so I'm eating a little less healthy, but it helps, because it's occasional for me. I'm an atheist, so praying isn't a thing for me. But glad it can help you. And thank you.
❤❤❤ I love your work. I have been watching you for years. I'm always excited to see your videos. I hope you take the rest you need and get to the place where you feel better. Praying for you. ❤
Let's be honest, this is a raw sad video, but since I am taking a bigger break from youtube, I wanted to let you know 💙
I'm so happy you're back Stephanie, I've missed you. 💜
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It is raw and much needed for you. Take care I really hope that this video helps.. Hugs
I’m so sorry to hear about Roger. It’s hard losing a pet. Please take all the time you need and be gentle with yourself. I hope that things will get better and that you heal. Sending you lots of hearts and lots of warm internet hugs ❤❤❤
thank you so much! i'm already much better than in January, I think the small break down yesterday and today are just a good reminder to rest more and not always work so hard.
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You are so brave to talk about your emotions, I understand what you are feeling. Take care 💖
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Thank you for helping so many of us feel "normal". I struggle daily with burn out, depression and grief, and knowing that others out here are in the same boat helps normalize not being "okay"
Chin up, friend. It will get better.
It's normal to experience burnout after all this work over the years (RUclips channel + creations of original works + exhibitions + coloring book)! The pressure that comes from this should never be underestimated!! Added to this the loss of a feline companion 😔 Stéphanie, prenez bien soin de vous 🌈
yes! I'm not sure I'll be able to ever work as much in the future, but maybe that's for the better.
Merci beaucoup 💙
So sorry to hear about Roger. When we lost our little dog Pocket, then only two weeks later our calico cat Charlotte, we grieved for months. It's like losing family. We have another little dog now (about 1 1/2 years later) and two cats, but we still grieve Pocket and Charlotte.
And please don't get down on yourself for not doing a painting or sculpture of Roger - you're still raw. To this day, I still can't bring myself to do a portrait (I'm an artist, too) of our former pets.
I also suffer from depression, and it's super hard to be creative when we're depressed. Good thoughts and ❤❤🩹❤ to you.
Stephanie- remember to be kind to yourself ❤ When you are dealing in grief it is so important to be good to your mind and body. I know much time has passed since you made this video but i guess i just wanted to reach out because you are such an amazing artist and kind gentle soul. I feel for you. You are loved ❤
❤ burn out is hard, losing a pet is harder. We lost one of our dogs last week and the world is just not right anymore. It helps me to try to remember all the happy and good stories - but it definitely doesn't bring them back. thanks for including us and I hope things start feeling a little less heavy ❤
It really is difficult. I didn't delve too much into it, but Roger died very unexpectedly and not even a year after my very old cat died. So it was a lot of deaths in a short amount of time and we went from a big family of 3 cats to just 1.
I'm sorry for your loss, it's very fresh for you still and it will eventually be easier and you'll just have the happy memories of your pet left.
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Sending you love and blessings. What a beautiful vulnerable video. You pour so much of your essence to produce your art. With an empty tank, you opened up. I hope you receive pure love and kindness to refill your tank again, ready to create beauty again. ❤❤❤❤
this comment section is clearly helping with the pure love and kindness, thank you 💙
I'm so sorry you go trough this! I've been there too, and it's really hard. But like you said, it will get better. Take your time to heal! Lots of love and hugs 💖💖💖🤗🤗🤗
Rest as much as you need, it is good to hear you are healing (no matter how slowly). 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💝💝💝💝💝💝💝
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Take all the time you need. You are under no obligation to come back to this space until you’re ready to. We will wait x
I'm so sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need. You're stronger than you think. Thank you for sharing what you're going through, social media only shows us the good parts & happy feelings. Big hugs to you. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Sorry to hear about your Roger 🐈, heart felt condolences.
I was thinking yesterday that I have not seen a new video from you of late. Take care! and get well soon and hope you find your joy in work soon. ❤ Best wishes!
Miss you, but take your time to get fully well! Get good rest.
I will take my time and thank you for your support 💙
So sorry for your loss. There was obviously a deep bond between you and it is harder than we think. Take time to heal, nothing is too indulgent when you are depressed, self care is needed after all you've been through.
💌 Gute Besserung! Danke, dass du so offen über deine Emotionen sprichst. Das ist wirklich sehr wertvoll.
It’s good to see you dear. You take whatever time you need, however you need it, to heal. For you.
Hello Stephanie. I think it is very brave of you to reach out. At the very least to know you’re not alone and to know how much support you have in life and online. Look how many people love and care about you. I have lost alot of people and pets in the past couple years and I also identify with the kind of depression you are going through. I get it alot myself. One piece of advice that sticks with me about loss is to create spaciousness. This was from a well respected grief therapist. In grief we tend to always pull ourselves in the opposite direction of how we’re feeling, often before we fully let how bad we feel or how good we feel happen. We fight ourselves when it hurts to feel bad and when it hurts to feel good and we don’t let ourselves live how we actually feel. I think one of the best things you can do is to allow yourself the space to feel. When you are ready as bad as you want to feel. When you can, as good as you want to feel. If that’s going to be hard on you, set up some things that make the day to day needs like meals and washing dishes etc easier. Connect with the people who love you as much as you can. I also think that sometimes it is hard for others to understand our connection to our loved ones and what we lost. I want you to know how real and powerful your loss is, but also that you can honor that in any way you like at any time, you will know what is right. When I lost my cat, one thing I did was plant a tree. My thought was that it would give a home to all kinds of new life and that the loss of her life would only serve life. Another thing I did for myself was to go to the cat shelter every so often, even though I wasn’t ready to adopt, it helped me feel some connection. I also decided to protect and feed more strays in the area (my cat was once a stray)… how you honor life is going to be different, but when you are ready to I promise it will be a beautiful thing. I’m sorry your heart is hurting. Give yourself space. Healing takes time.❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I want to let you know that there's another person who understands. Very similar cycles happen for me as well - and I've not always found those who understand - but my family has been so supportive. I am glad you have those who understand and that you will take the time to take care of yourself.
And so sorry to hear about Roger - that's something else that I've experienced and that grief is real.
Thank you for sharing with us, it is very vulnerable. And it has helped me feel less alone.
Sending good wishes your way!
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💙💙💙💙Thank you for your honesty in making this video. I am going through burnout myself right now. I feel like I'm on the edge. I completely understand the 'I just want to rest' comment. This is exactly how I feel. I want to get away from everybody and everything. I also am one comment away from breaking out into tears.
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Thank you for your honesty, openness and encouraging words to other artists who may face the same thing one day. ***hugs*** 💜
I understand. So sorry about the loss of your dear pet. Grieving takes time and acceptance. We cannot push ourselves over the edge but must know when to slow down and take care of our mental health. Take care and thank you for creating awareness in so many ways. It is very much appreciated. 💖🙂
Thank you so much for sharing with us ☺☺
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I also have this depressive tendency. I'm just coming out of it now. Still very low energy and playing a lot of Minecraft but I'm slowly getting better. Sending lots of love to you and I am so sorry for the loss of your little one 🐈⬛
thank you 💙 best of luck with your mental health. We're both going to manage!
I will always remember how you were the first artist and channel I ever watched that inspired me to get into sculpting polymer clay miniatures!!! ❤❤❤
💜 I have been where you are. Definitely remember to be good to yourself and don't overdo it. Your work is amazing, but it's just not worth hurting yourself over. You got this!
Oh Stephanie, this video hit me so hard... because I lost my beloved cat only two days ago and I so much feel you grief and pain. I am so sorry for your loss ❤burn out is not a fun thing to experience. be kind to yourself. take your time to come back to strength. there is nothing more important than our own health. sending a lot of strength ❤❤
Thank you for sharing!❤
You sound exhausted, I hope you can get some rest. I have missed your videos but assumed you were very busy with your shows etc. I'm sorry for your loss of Roger. I hope to see you back when you are feeling better, and yes I agree social media will be the death of us! ❤❤
I am taking rest now, over the next days and then I'll see on a day-to-day basis.
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Thank you for this very raw, very real video! I discovered you a few months ago, I binged all your videos and took your Skill Share classes! I had done painting and mixed media before, but fell into a hole too, and watching your videos helped motivate my artistic mind again. I recently set up my art room, I'd been crafting in the kitchen for 6 months 😂
I think as artists we feel so deeply, sometimes quietly to ourselves until it explodes out of us. Then it's like a new plant coming out in the spring after a long sad winter, we're full of ideas and new energy.
I recently lost my 19 y.o. tortie Ginger, she passed away last week in my arms at home, it was sad, especially watching my other 3 cats looking for her. BUT, I've come so far getting back into my art, I'm pushing through this. She had the best life!
Please know how many people you have awakened with your amazing incredible art style! We'll all be here waiting patiently for your return!❤
This to shall pass. Lots of hugs and love from Australia 💛💛💛
I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability when it comes to your mental health. I hope that you're in a better headspace now. I send you my love and am thinking of you and thankful for your art and presence ❤❤❤
Thank you sooo much for sharing this real part of life! Please take care… 🫶
Oh Stephanie! I'm so glad to see you, but had no idea you were feeling so down. I hope your art gives you some pleasure in your heart. I wish I knew what to say but I am sure Roger would want you to be happy again, and so we all would too. Please don't worry about RUclips when you are feeling this way. I hope things feel better very soon. Love from Australia xoxox
❤❤❤ we missed you! but everyone would rather you rest and feel better than continue burning out. Take all the you need Stephanie! ❤❤❤
That’s rough Stephanie. Hear is a 💜 for overwork, one 💜 for Roger & one 💜 for your ongoing grief. And one 💜 for staying down as you need to. I said goodbye to my cat Millie September 12th and I’m still abruptly crying, shattered. I know, somehow it will be less raw…but we can’t get around the grief as it takes as long as it takes. So hugs to you for your success in surviving the depth of love & grief of your dearest Roger. I hope for briefer days for you soon.
Aww. I’m so grateful you shared. I just discovered you through your sea urchin video. I am so empathetic with your feelings. You are spot on in your thoughts that many creative people (myself included) go through these periods. You are absolutely right that these periods pass. I am sending you hugs and lightness. I’m really glad you are taking care of yourself.
Please, please take all the time you need to take. We care so much for you, and understand how hard loss is, and we would rather that you take as long as you need before you can feel comfortable in your art and creativity than be hurt by trying to push through something that is too much. I have recently suffered a similar breakdown - worse than all of my others - and rest and care really are the answer, so we look forward to the day that you are happy in your creativity, and send love to you, and we will be patient until then. 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
thank you for your kindness 💙
I'm so sorry for your difficult times. I hope you've been able to get the space you need to rest and heal. Best wishes, and please be kind to yourself. 💜🧡💛💚💙
💕I hope you are doing ok and getting the rest you need. I also get depressed and you described it so well with just needing rest.
Losing a pet = losing a family member. We *think* we should bounce back because it’s “just a cat,” but we do not. It can put you into a tailspin if you’re inclined to depression. You may feel like it’ll never end-and we should get help if it doesn’t seem to get better-but prolonged rest is really good, if possible, like you did in January ❤. The change to spring can also help (longer days). Get out for some ‘forest bathing,’ or a walk on a beach if you live near water. You will come back…but take your time. I realized I hadn’t seen anything from you in a while and I realized I had not been subscribed! 🤦🏼♀️ So I’m now subscribed. ❤ and I agree with you that artists’ brains are wired differently. Many of us suffer with depression & burnout & exhaustion. Consider, if it doesn’t lift, an anti-depressant for 8-12 months; it can put you on more even footing and allow you to work through things. You are loved!!! ❤❤❤
Merci de partager tout ça avec nous, c'est très courageux de ta part.
Il y a tellement de choses qui résonnent en moi, la perte si difficile d'un animal, l'état dépressif... merci tellement pour tes conseils, ça permet vraiment de se sentir moins seule.
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Te comprendo perfectamente, Stephanie. No estás sola en esto. Un saludo
Thank you for being so honest and open and sharing your vulnerabilities with us. I can relate to a lot of what you said and I'm so sorry you've been having a hard time - and dealing with that loss. I hope you can rest as much as you need. Sending you hugs and looking forward to seeing more of your videos and work whenever they happen (we'll still be here!) ❤
I'm so very sorry for your loss of Roger. And thank you for your courage to post this video. Your feelings resonate with me, as I also struggle with depression. Please be kind to yourself and take time to heal and recharge. Sending you tons of virtual hugs ❤
❤❤❤❤ Thank you for sharing your true, raw emotions. I too have battled those inner voices, and they can be quite nasty and relentless. Stay strong! You are truly an inspiration!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Bless your heart. I'm sorry to hear about Roger. It's hard to watch you struggle but it's also a blessing to watch you figure it out and know what to do and how to get through it. Hope you're feeling better and back to yourself soon. Sending you big hugs and love. ❤❤❤
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You are not on your own. Everything you say makes sense. Thank you so much for sharing this with us.
Take a lot of care ❤️❤️❤️
I'm so sorry for the loss of your kitty🫂💖
I have a severe case of OCD myself, and it goes hand in hand with depression, so I know what it feels like 😥It comes in waves like that for me as well. I hope things get better for you.
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Thank you so much for your vulnerability. I am familiar with emotion-storms ; mennnn they are so heavy🥺😭. You are not alone in the pit, many (artist) are with you. I wish you lots of love ❤❤❤❤❤
All the lovely memories of your cat are in your heart andI hope and pray they help you to find a way to hope, live, peace and love. 🙏🕯️🐈
❤ I really feel for you. Thank you for your honesty. I can totally relate. I’ve recently discovered I am AuDHD. Everything now makes sense. I doesn’t make what you are going through any easier but it does help to explain. Be easy on yourself, don’t push through and take all the time you need. xxxxxx
I’m sorry for your loss, and I wish you all the best. It will take time. For me it did help to be a little bit gentler with myself. I know I can be very creative and productive when I push through, my perseverance got me places, but the cost was too high. I haven’t lowered my standards, but I am going at an easier pace nowadays (I’m 44). It was a hard lesson. I wish for you to find your way through, and you will, because you are strong. ❤
I'm sorry about your cat friend. I'm going through this right now as well. I lost my dog of 17 yrs a couple months ago and I've been just feeling numb, guilt, sadness most days. Also feeling the overwhelm of finishing things and showing them to the world, post on social media.
I had a big project looming over my head that I had to present to a panel for approval that was really stressing me out as well that made the time going by almost feel like pergatory and was also a big distraction.
I have up and down days, though at least now. I have had weeks that were as you describe as "holes". One thing that has helped me a bit is creating an index of all the little things that give me joy that I can refer back to. So I have about 50 things from specific foods, to visiting certain locations, certain movies, certain authors, certain scents etc etc that give me a tiny boost and when I feel like shit, I visit the index and I force myself to do some of them. Then I just have faith that like planting a seed, it may not be an immediate cure, but it will come in a day or two after I make the effort and go through the motions of getting better and it usually does.
Meditating can help too and I tend to gravitate towards the ones that involve visualizations versus just blanking the mind. It's still new to me though, but seems promising.
It's been a month. I hope you feel a lot better. If you noticed anything that helped you get around the bend this time, please share.
❤💛🧡 I am so sorry to hear that you are going through such a tough time. I am happy you are taking the time you need for yourself. That is so important.
You wondered if anyone noticed your absence, I can say personally your absence has been felt. I was looking around your socials last month and wondering how you were. Of course take the time you need and focus on your health.
A lot of what you said really resonated with me and I was in tears by the end of your video. It is okay not to be okay. And it is okay to allow ourselves to feel our emotions and take the rest we need to recover. Thank you for posting such a raw video 💙💜💚
Prenez bien soin de vous, prenez tout le temps qu'il faut pour récupérer et bon courage 💙🤗
This is the first video I have seen of yours and you touched my heart with your emotions. Thank you for sharing and please know that your message reached someone who needed to hear it.
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Hi, I just bought your book, is sooo inspiring! I really love it. I sending you a healing hug, thanks for sharing your adventures and stories with us.
Thank you for sharing your feelings. I think your art is very beautiful, inspiring and ecologicaly important for today's world. I love your works because I can feel your soul and emotions there. It's wonderful and so rare now. I am sure a lot of people will appreciate your book so your hard work isn't in vain. I send you rays of love and hope you'll be feeling better soon ❤
thank you so much for your kind words, it does help to read how much people appreciate my work, so thank you 💙
Big hugs Steph, been there and it took me years to get out of it. I hope you will be gentle with yourself n get out of the tunnel.. I miss you but I wish you well more. Keep trying to get yourself out of the dark place ❤
I got one of your colouring book!! So happy to have ur work! ❤
I know this is several months old and I’m not sure if you’ll see this but I wanted to take the time to let you know how you’ve positively affected my artistic journey. I bought your miniatures book when I first got interested in miniatures and I still have it. It inspired me to be creative and to keep going even when it was frustrating.I hope you never stop creating and never stop taking the time to enjoy your life away from the art studio as well. I’m so sorry for the loss of your Rodger. Take care, lots of love-Megan
❤❤❤❤ So sorry to hear about Roger. It's clear he was very special to you, and for what it's worth, I'm sure you gave him the best possible life. Looking forward to your future work, when you are ready.❤❤❤❤
When I turned 40, I went through the most depressive episode in my life. I even had to leave my job of 10 years. I couldn't cope with anything. I started medication and that kept me above water. It turned out I was starting perimenopause. I feel better now, still on meds, but not depressed. I believe it's a phase in the aging process and that it will pass. Thank you for your honesty! BTW, found your channel because your coloring book was mentioned by a very popular adult colorist on RUclips.
❤❤❤ sending you a hugs, Im so sorry about your kitty😢 I hope you feel better and better each day. ❤❤❤
I feel much better than In January, and sometimes I get a few lows and a bigger one right now, but it's alright, one day at a time!
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When the mind and body say no. Rest.
I express my depression as when I want to get off the world, where I couldn't bother anyone, and nobody could bother me.
Congratulations on your book. I'm sorry about your fur baby crossing the rainbow Bridge.
❤❤❤🫂🫂🫂❤❤❤Hugs from 🇨🇦
Everyone deserves to take the time they need to heal. Don’t feel bad for taking your time. Also, sorry for your loss. It is never easy to find healing.
Thank you for sharing your story with us and we did notice your absence. However, you also deserve your space and respect.
This is such an important message, Stephanie. I feel like this too with my art... most of the time. Thank you for posting. What a brilliant video. I really needed to hear this. Love Bernoid x
I'm glad it was helpful in some ways 💙
So sorry for your grief. I pray you recover quickly.
I'm so sorry for your loss, and I'm glad that you are taking the steps forward you need to forward with life.
Thank you, Gaia, and the Universe('s) 🙏
Watching your tutorial on polymer clay daisy's (👌 btw), guided me to this video. I needed it. Perhaps as much as you needed to post. Regardless, thank you, I'm certainly not the only one you being, well, you, has benefited.
Endless joy to you 💚💙💜
💖💕💞💗Sending you the biggest, biggest HUGS Stephanie. You are sooooooooooo brave to share with us and the world how genuinely raw you feel right now and, please know we are all so grateful for what you bring to the art world and the joy you bring us all with your work. And so.......yes you have been missed so much!!! I can absolutely feel your hurt from losing your precious fur bear Roger as I lost 2 of mine in the last 6 months and I was only seconds from crying again today because I miss them SO much and it hurts real bad. Hopefully you still talk to Roger? People think I'm mad but I stand by their graves and tell them everything! And maybe keeping a morning or evening journal and writing down everything about how crappie you feel might help? Especially as things improve and you can look back and see what helped that day. It's good that you recognise your symptoms but you maybe need to ask for some help with different things, like admin and marketing etc? There are also a lot of different energies from things like solar flares coming to earth now and science is proving that we are all affected unknowingly by it and that we may feel strange, tired and as if we have just had enough some days and we must do what our instincts tell us, even like just to sleep. Take good care of yourself. xx
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost two of my cats in the matter of a year, Doudou, my very old one in 2022 and Roger last year. I still have Plume, which has been a fluffy furry ball of joy though. The loss of pets is difficult because they take up a lot of space in your house, life and heart, but I know it eventually gets better.
I'm not really rich enough to have an assistant, so it's not really an option ^^' however I think I could be more intelligent in the way I do things. We will see, I will be able to adjust and manage somehow.
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❤I feel you. Hope you Recover soon
♥♥♥♥ It always gets better, it's just not always easy waiting for it! I had no idea how to do an EMOGEE until you asked.
Thanks!
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your artist journey. HUGS!
I would also recommend doing clay therapy. Grab a half-pound of Sculpey or Plasticine and just let your hands and mind have fun with it.
You’re right, this is a very raw video but I’m sure many of us can relate to what you’ve been going through. I lost my sister four years ago and I’m still dealing with grief and burnout and I’ve been struggling to do anything artistic. I know how hard it is to lose a pet, too.
You will get better, Stephanie…it just takes time.
I do that but with watercolors, I use clay a lot in my work already, so clay doesn't work that way for me.
I'm very sorry for the loss of your sister, I'm sure you will get better eventually, but grief takes time and we're all different in how we grief.
Best of luck and thank you 💙
@@stephanie.kilgast I also think we get so focused in our work that we forget to break away to laugh and have fun, which can take the edge off depression and burn out. Finding a balance is hard, but, it’s necessary. Plus, I tend to be a seasonal kind of guy. I like all four seasons, but winters always challenge me more with my moods.
I have no doubt you’ll find your way through it, Stephanie!
Yesterday I found your book in a Germany bookstore and it is so beautiful ❤ wish you a lot of energy and it's nice to see you after a long time... Take care of you
oh! I really wanted to find my book in a bookstore when I visited my parents in Berlin over Christmas but I didn't find it. It made me really sad :/
And thank you 💙
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Sending many, many hearts to you, Stephanie. I wish you healing and peace and softer, lighter days ahead. Treat yourself with kindness and take all the time you need to rest.
My heart is with you, Stephanie. I had a nervous breakdown summer of 2021. I had to take a medical leave for 3 months from my job. I mostly just stared out the window and cried during my leave. My thinking processes were slow. It was horrible. With therapy and a supportive family, I got out of it. But it leaves a scar. When I think back to that time period, I still tear up. You will get through this. Journaling and praying helped me
Oh gosh, that sounds very tough! It's not quite that bad for me, I'm glad you got better though, even though it left a scar.
I had a friend who suffered a very severe nervous breakdown and landed in the psychiatric hospital for a while, it made her change her view on life quite a bit. She's doing great now.
Thank you 💙
As someone riding a similar wave right now, I'm sending you a massive hug. 💙
massive hug back 💙 we will both manage!
also a little unrelated, but I really love your work 💙
take care, many hugs. and congrats on the book
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Bonjour Stephanie, je suis désolée de te voir traverser ces moments difficiles tout en étant si souvent présents dans nos vies quand on est artistes et hypersensibles. Je suis moi-même passée par là à maintes reprises, et le questionnement sur notre travail, notre démarche, ce qui nous tient à coeur de transmettre, ainsi que tout ce qu'il faut faire en tant qu'artiste pour tenir bon et vendre son art, ce n'est qu'une goutte dans un océan de pensées qui nous submerge par moment. Pour ma part, je voulais te dire que beaucoup de tes vidéos m'ont aidé à oser avancer dans ma carrière artistique, tu me donnes beaucoup de courage, et de te voir vulnérable, me rappelle que même à ton niveau, nous ne sommes jamais à l'abri de nous oublier nous-même. Il faut tâcher de prendre soin de soi à tout moment. Perdre un animal est une épreuve et je ne peux que compatir. Prends soin de toi, continue de nous émerveiller et de nous inspirer (même dans les moments plus dark). j'espère qu'on finira par se croiser un jour lors d'une expo. je ne sais pas si il t'arrive encore d'exposer dans la région Morbihannaise. J'essaie d'être à l'affut, mais j'avoue que par moment, je me recroqueville aussi dans ma coquille ! .... Et vive les jeux videos, qui nous remontent le moral et nous font rêver ;)...
Here goes a huge hug from Patricia from Mexico. Everything will be fine, so many of us have been through something like what you are going through right now, each one of us have our own timing, don't despair, take your time and remember that you cannot give what you don't have, not just material things, but also joy, serenity, happyness and so on...in order to share with us all the beauty of your work, your talent, your smile, first you have to take care of yourself. Fill your "basket of goodies" first and when it's plenty enough to share we will be here waiting for your next wonderful work! God bless!
that is very true, thank you for poiting it out so beautifully 💙
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Dear Stephanie, I so understand you! I am going through extreme grief right now, and also having to move. It has been such a struggle to take care of everything let alone paint and draw. I am alternating between pushing myself and also trying to rest . It’s very difficult for sure!
Much love, peace and comfort to you. You do brilliant work, you’ve been working very hard- you need rest! Please take loving care of yourself. This too shall pass.
I'm sorry you have to go through this as well! You will manage too, and take care of yourself as well! thank you 💙
Stephanie! ❤❤❤ I noticed that you had not made videos in some time. I am so sorry to hear about Roger. Losing a pet can be one of the hardest things to happen in your life. And I'm sorry you are feeling burnt out. Please take good care of yourself! Take the time you need to recover. Don't feel pressured to put videos out if you are not ready. Many of us have gone through what you are feeling. We understand. You are not alone. ❤
Es tut mir leid zu hören, dass du so am Kämpfen bist. Nimm dir die Zeit, die du brauchst, um wieder wirklich fit zu werden. Dein Lachen und deine Fröhlichkeit werden dann umso mehr wohltun. Heb dir Sorg liebe Stephanie!
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Stéphanie sending you good vibes girl.. So sorry about the cat. Take care of you ❤❤❤
I go thru the same thing myself from time to time. Thank you for your inspiration and work. Take your time and feel better soon.🤟🤟🤟
So sorry for your loss, and for how you're feeling. Been dealing with a lot of stress and grief too.. My knitting taking a back seat for now. Hugs! ❤
it takes time to heal, one day at a time, it's important to show kindness to yourself as well 💙
❤ 🤗. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I’ve just come across your RUclips channel and I love your art and your videos. I hope I am able to order your colouring book from India 🤞❤
I am learning a lot from you, thank you 🙏
So sorry to hear about how bad things have been and for the loss of Roger. I really hope the rest of the year is a happier time in which you can recover. 🍍❤
thank you so much, despite me crying a lot in the video, I'm doing much better than in January already, it's more a small wake-up call of not going to intensely into work-mode again. So yeah, I should be fine. Thank you pineapple-person 💙
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I'm going thru the same
DARK period, Stephanie.
Chin up, it will get better,
and my condolences 😢
My animals pull me thru
the worst moments. 🕊
Yes, it will get better!
Honestly I'm in a much better place already than January, I'm just falling rapidly over nothing, so I have to be extra careful.
I'm lucky I still have one cat left and she's been very helpful indeed.
I hope you're going to be ok too! Life can be difficult sometimes, but it eventually gets better.
Thank you sooo much for sharing this real part of life... Take care
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❤❤❤❤❤ It's so kind of you to let us know how you're doing Stephanie. I've definitely missed you and have been checking your RUclips And SkillShare channels regularly. I'm so sorry to hear about your lovely little cat, and also sorry to hear about your depression. I understand what you're going through and, like you say, it will pass eventually. I think the hardest thing is to be kind to yourself and allow yourself time to heal. Sending tons of love and just know there are a lot of people routing for you. ❤❤❤❤❤
thank you so very much for your kind words of support 💙
@@stephanie.kilgast I just wanted to say that I'm hoping you are feeling a little less raw and that you're managing to spend some time for yourself. No reply needed. ❤
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So sorry for your loss. Please take care of yourself before anything else. And when you are ready get another loving pet for you that will help you heal. For your cold sore, I used to get them often too but after me drinking green juice(kale, green apples,cucumber, pineapple) has really reduce the recurrence of it. Thank you for sharing. Your art is amazing. I love it when you work on clay. Can't wait to see your coloring book!
I didn't mention it in the video, because well I was crying, but I still have one cat. We used to have three, a very old one who died in 2022, Roger who died in 2023 (very unexpectedly) and little furry Plume. Since Plume seems to be very happy on her own, we have decided against adopting another cat for now.
A healthy lifestyle is important indeed, but I'm pretty good on that front.
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Stephanie, I am so sorry for your loss, I hope you soon find confort on the fact that Roger was loved and he loved you. I really admire your strenght and capability to know that this too shall pass. I wish you wouln't have to go through all of this, but I an sure you will grow. I hope you know that even when this is just a little box with letters, behind it, there is a 60 year old lady who admires you and your work, whishes the best for you, prays that you will get better and care for you, regardless of the distance. ❤❤❤❤❤
Hm. You know, I think it's part of life to go through this. It's because life is hard sometimes that it also is so beautiful and light at other times. So I think it's ok. As long as you can come out on the other side, it's just part of the whole experience.
And thank you so much 💙
I’m so sorry for your loss. I have 2 senior-aged kitties, and I know every day with them is a gift. When I try to put myself in your shoes specifically about your cat…I cannot imagine what the loss feels like, only that it must be so hard. Especially if you also are dealing with depression to further compound your emotions. I hope that you are able to give yourself the grace and time to rest and heal, and that you have a good support system to uplift you. I also hope that making the video was therapeutic for you. You are in my thoughts, and I hope you get to the “light at the end of the tunnel” very soon! ☺️
I'm lucky because I have very good supportive friends and I can take days off when I need. So I will be ok.
For your two kitties, I lost my very old cat in 2022 and Roger unexpectedly last year. Letting go of the old grannie cat was hard, yes, but it was easier, because I was prepared and she had a long life. For Roger it was difficult.
So don't worry about your kitties, they will pass, but they will have had a long life with you and so when they'll go it'll be the right time. And one day you'll just have fond memories of them and smile when you think of them. That's how I think of my very old cat, I just laugh and smile when I think of her. I know I'll eventually reach that point with Roger, as it already started happening.
And thank you 💙
Hi I am so sorry for your lost first of all I know how it feels to lose a lost love and still try to bounce back and be creative But what helps me is walking, taking long walks also I have been eating lots of fresh fruits and greens I also noticed cutting out sugar or I should be more honest cutting down. what you eat is really important to your overall health. I dont know if you believe in a Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ but I do and I love to ask them for help, everyday. love you and your work most importantly your honesty. Thank you for sharing.
Having a healthy lifestyle is very important, but it's something I've always had? I'm vegetarian so I mostly eat vegetables and fruit. That being said, when I'm low I tend to need comfort foods, so I'm eating a little less healthy, but it helps, because it's occasional for me.
I'm an atheist, so praying isn't a thing for me. But glad it can help you.
And thank you.
Thank you Stephanie ♥♥.. Love From India.. Don't Worry.. Everything will be fine.. Waiting Your amazing Videos..
yes, everything will be fine, it always gets back to normal.
thank you 💙
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Take care of yourself Stephanie, and take as much time as you need. Here’s heart rainbow, in your style
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❤❤❤ I love your work. I have been watching you for years. I'm always excited to see your videos. I hope you take the rest you need and get to the place where you feel better. Praying for you. ❤
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