For some reason, I am apathetic to the idea of living in real life. In fact, I much rather live in a fictional world because everything seems serene there. I wish I could go to sleep and simply wake up knowing that this reality was a very bad dream... :(
I know exactly how you feel, I have maladaptive daydreaming, living everyday in a lie, because I can't handle reality. I delude myself, lying to myself that I won't wake up here again anymore. Living everyday as if it's the last. If I don't, I'll go insane.
If I had the option to just upload my brain into the internet itself, live as a line of sentient code that exists only as an entity on a screen, I'd do it in a heartbeat. The virtual space is where all my friends, hobbies, and interests are. I have no interest in being here in reality anymore.
@@tsunshunprincess John 11:25-26 ESV [25] Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, [26] and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?”
@@bluesolace9459I think that'd be an interesting option, too. I think I'd have a much easier and better time making friends there... maybe if there was a customization option to change my appearance and personality and everything else, then it'd be perfect! :O
The Holy Quran 29:64 :" This worldly life is no more than play and amusement. But the Hereafter is indeed the real life, if only they knew." 67:2 :" ˹He is the One˺ Who created death and life in order to test which of you is best in deeds. And He is the Almighty, All-Forgiving." This life is indeed not real. It's a test. A temporary phase full of highs and lows preparing us for the next life❤
Nahhhh man. Game worlds are so messed up. Silent Hill especially. Even something cute like Pokemon has the threat of terrorism and a huge number of Poke's that are incredibly lethal.
I'm in such a gray area in life right now. It's not great, but nowhere near as bad as a few years ago. But I'm stuck. Even though I have no idea what I'm doing, or know what to do I resonate with this title so much. I'm just so overwhelmed and tired, This gray area feels like I'm stuck on repeat, I've been trying to be positive about it all, reminding myself I wont be in this position forever, but damn as of late it sure does feel like forever. Anyways, just had to share and dump out some thoughts to everyone here. Thank you for the upload, and if you read this and you feel like you're in a similar place as I, you got this! It's okay to take a pause every now and then. Just get back up and keep pushing through.
Very true and also never keep anything bottled! Ever! That is the true recipe for self destruction. I still struggle with that but I do my best to get it out somehow. I need to talk about it somehow to something to get it out my mind and onto paper or in a voice text or whatever it could be. Also having time with the ones u love as friends and all definitely helps one mentally when ur feeling as low as u have described. Sitting in ur own pool of despair for days on end will have ur mind on the brink of losing yourself. It will drain u mentally, physically, all of that. The best is to be in a constant state of releasing what u feel ugly, good, bad all of it. Get it out somehow. And definitely never purposefully isolate urself all the time. Sometimes is ok cause we do need alone time at times. But all the time is what can also cause you to really destroy urself. Isolating urself will only allow ur mind to believe ur ugly thoughts and make them seem true and like there is no escape. U need to hear someone else’s words of encouragement and positivity. It’s hard to drag urself out of a deep pit you feel you on ur own have created. Attempt to talk to someone. U can do it. Ur alot stronger than u take urself for. That’s just me giving a piece of my mind. I hope every is well 🙏 ❤️ love to all!
Suppose, at some point we have all felt like this - well, those of us that are on the PC and not out and about. I have been like this, but get snapped out of it quick, how... Age. I'm at an age now if I'm lucky (due to take a huge amount of drugs when younger) if I wil have a healthy mind or body in 15 years time. Life goes so fast, its only when you get older you start thinking of mortality - you have watched most of your elders pass, a lot of friends, all your beloved pets. Part of you, when in the grey area for that short time, thinks about knocking on that grey door, wanting to see everyone you cared about and loved more and more, thoughts you shouldn't have flow through. You sometimes wish there was an afterlife to say hi, to stroke my darling cat Tia again and kiss her fury cute head, to give my best mate Paul a slap on the shoulder and say, "Easy bro, how have you been since you died." We are all going to die, so if there is anything to give you comfort and help you find a path that seldom trodden, but warmly welcomed by your bright, beautiful nature thats obviously inside, know you cannot let yourself always be grey. There's only a short time to colour your world. Life goes so fast.
I walked in on my sister crying and this song was on, when I asked her "Why are you crying?" She replied "I've been sad lately and the title specifically, it all just spoke to me, this is how I feel all the time." We proceeded to have a long heart to heart, sometimes it feels good to cry. Keep up this beautiful work.
I haven't given up on everything in fact I've started to put a lot more effort into myself these last couple months. However some of the things that I have given up on still haunt me like a bad memory there are things I thought used to be real. Things like the love of a mother or a father, The possibility of having children in the future, or even finding someone who I can truly trust and not have to keep my guard up around. I feel a deep hollow growing inside of me and the only thing that keeps voices away is focusing on vetering myself faith and myself is all I have left.
it feels like everyone else has it all figured it out, literally the bare concept of getting it together feels impossible, i can't find satisfaction in just about anything nowadays
i get that. i also find myself solely surviving, purposeless, but there has to be an ulterior goal. keep your head up and i'm sure you'll figure it out eventually.i believe in you
I was a child of a narcissist parent, I came from a very difficult life with him, and was homeless with him for a very long time in the past and never had a good home life growing up. I managed to escape him, and had to go great lengths to get away from him. I was lucky to have known the people that had helped me and allowed me to stay with them. I went to go be with my extended family that had found me on the internet. They flew me in first class to go be with them, and I genuinely felt that I would belong with them because they’re my family. At first there was this honeymoon period, they thought of me as a gift from grandma that passed away. But what seemed like a gift from the universe, only turned into something that had psychologically wounded me. I was only with them for 3 months because of how difficult they seemed to have been to live with, and how strict and conditional their love and regard was towards me. I felt like I couldn’t really be loved or accepted for just the way I am, or that I had to constantly fit in to their idea of how I should live my life and be like to them. I felt like I was some kind of flawed and inadequate kid. I would hear them say things like “but he wasn’t raised that way!” “oh it’s just gonna take time”, “I just think he just wasn’t raised properly” …and it felt like I had to constantly jump through hoops in order to be loved, and if I don’t, then it’s basically ‘bye peace out can’t live with your family’. To this day I feel this deep, inner wound of rejection and unworthiness that I carry each and every day. My aunt would ask this weird question “what are the advantages that you think you have of being here?” but in my mind I’m like ‘I didn’t come here just so I can gain some kind of material advantages, I came to have a life here with my family just like any other kid would with their families, not a quid pro quo’. But I just told her “I don’t know” , and she replied “then why did you come live with us honey?” and she didn’t even have any idea why I went to go be with them, even though she invited me and said “why not come stay here?” I had unfortunately received some invalidating comments from others that I’ve tried to speak to about my trauma, they’ve said things like “why should they love you” and “who are you and why should you be loved and cared for” and another person said “you don’t seem to realize that you’re wanting a warped and distorted image of your family” “you are not your brother you’re not their kid” and I’ve basically been labeled as having some kind of “sense of entitlement”. So for a kid or young person to have an innate desire and need to have a family home or to simply live with his or hers own family they would have a “sense of entitlement”? What kind of cold world do we live in? Isn’t every kid or young person deserving of what I believe to be the most basic, simplest thing that any young person could have, which is a family home, or to simply live with one’s own blood relational family, in a home? With parents, caregivers, siblings, etc? Shouldn’t it be like the norm and standard for every kid or young person? But for some reason, I’m being considered by some people as like bad, evil or reprehensible for trying to have that with my own family? I tend to think if my friends can live with their families, why can’t I live with mine? I once had a former friend who I thought would always be validating of my trauma, but he one time went against me and invalidated me and said; “Well they raised your brother! They raised him and not you so he’s their kid!” and he laughed at me. So whose kid am I? Where does that leave me then? and so after some years later I came to figure out, that perhaps the reason why I was treated the way I was treated by my family, was all because they raised my sibling and they never raised me. I can’t believe that, I went through that whole process, of getting away from my father, and finally got to be with my extended family and my brother that I never got to grow up with since we were born, and after going through such a nightmarish life with a narcissist father, only for it to, pretty much, backfire on me? all because ‘they raised him and not me’. So in order for a kid or young person to live with his or hers own family they have to be born and raised into it? And it’s unfair to me how my brother got to have what they called a “privileged life” while my life and upbringing got robbed by a toxic father. I have had someone that recognized the validity of my feelings though, and that person said ‘how in the world can you not be allowed just the same if not more’. I remember I stayed with a friend of mine and his family because his mom couldn’t sleep at night knowing that I was sleeping in a car in a parking lot somewhere with my father. They treated me as equally as their two boys, I wanted that with my family and my brother. It’s incredibly sad and disheartening to me that, I go to my family expecting all the love and care in the world, only to seemingly be met with sort of the opposite, I just don’t understand that if they can love and care for one kid all of his life why can’t they do just the same for the other? I believe every kid and young person deserves a good home life with their families. But I guess I can’t have that with my own family all because they raised him and not me. I used to envy other kids that had normal family homes, I stayed with some of them, but couldn’t actually live with them or claim it as my home all because I just, ‘wasn’t their kid’. They bought a condo and now my brother is living in it for free… I was told that there was only one baby on the table… We never chose our parents. and I never chose this life…
I am sorry to here all this. I wish You lots and lots of strenght. You are strong. One day everything will be alright, trust me. After every night there will be sunny day. Lots of strenght brother.
I'm sorry you've suffered so much, it sounds like a heavy burden to bear. How you feel is real, despite what others may think. You deserved to feel loved, a lot that and more. Any kid should, really. 'Family' can be such a complicated thing.
Your Narc dad probably throws spells on you - to make you reap his karma Normally people would be to them like to you and his solution was to just give it away and dont clear things up I have literally the same fate as you Praying ( constantly ) could change your life
Sometimes its alright to give up, letting the pain, the sadness, the anger, the fear, the frustration, let it all just swallow you up entirely and just sink in the endless sea, its okay to just let it all go and finally rest from those eternal struggle as you can finally drift into an eternity slumber.
It's okay to rest.. it's never okay to give up completely on everything.. I feel that way sometimes, but please don't stop going. Someday, you'll be proud of yourself and happier.. I know every day feels like a chore, and it's hard to take care of yourself, but you matter. It's little by little steps.. I'm sorry to anyone feeling this way. You aren't alone. ❤
I feel mentally exhausted being the person doing all the work for years since childhood. Feeling like you have to be the glue for others is a lot. I’m trying to mend myself more, but I find the one thing I need is something I can only have spontaneously. I know one day, I won’t feel the loneliness this badly. But I wish there was a way I could fully relax in someone’s presence, knowing that I’m loved as I am.
After listening this music, it is so painful to return to real life, to meet dead silence that doesn`t speak to you in any way. Just you and your soul trembling with fear. I wish to disappear from this world so bad sometimes. Tired even of being sad and depressed. Of everything.
I always knew there was something wrong, deeply wrong with me. Or I was just different. Other people seemed so joyful, while I was permanently absorbed by the grim reality of things around me. We are who we are. And the thing is - we can't see everything differently. It's our consciousness that changes. It's moving in it's own way... No matter how hard you try, you won't run away from yourself. So, why am I saying this. Well, I don't really know. Maybe because I want to justify my constant depression about everything. Still, I want to lie down on a wet grass, and while raindrops are falling on my face I want to close my eyes and peacefully dissapear, dreaming of distant but good memories.
@vadim_voron most of the time we have too much awareness. Awareness that controls us. I believe that those who are joyful are those who have either turned a blind eye to the world and for what it is, for what they are - while others do not attain that level of reality in their consiousness. I am still looking for peace. I hope you find your peace someday, too - if that exists. Take care
Don't read this if you don't want to I feel so alone all the time, it feels like my chest is a black hole, I feel unloved by everybody around me, I can't seem to feel connection with any of the people around me, the only comfort I find is in books and games and anime, it feels like I will never move forward, I've been here before, I know that this isn't really me, I know its just chemicals unbalanced in my head, just pathways crossing that aren't supposed too, I've already promised myself I wouldn't give up at least until I reach a certain point in my life, but its just so hard, its so hopeless, I just want to be done, I want to wake up tomorrow and be happy, but I know that's not gonna be the case. Keep trying guys there isn't anything else to do
damn man, I feel exactly the same thing as you, I know that the chemicals in my brain aren't working well and that's probably why I'm feeling like this, an endless emptiness, a feeling of abandonment and loneliness, it seems like It will never end, right? I think the worst feeling we men can feel is abandonment, not being loved, not working out with anyone, and I'm not just talking about relationships, like girlfriends or crushes, I'm talking about real friends and people who really care about us. Will we ever be better than this?
Hello, I hope you're doing well. Life can be difficult, even more difficult when you're dealing with constant mental health issues, so first and foremost give yourself credit for playing life on hard mode. You're right, sometimes the only thing to do is to keep moving forward, hope for a better tomorrow, but I also encourage you to surround yourself with good people who can support you and research things you can do to help alleviate some of those feeling of depression. Place emphasis on things that you can do, and not so much emphasis on things that are outside of your control. My hopes for you are that one day things will get a little easier, thanks to your constant resolve to improve.
Ive been struggling as of late. I've been procrastinating a lot and not focusing on my studies as much as i want to. I know im a devoted student and that i try, but i cant help but feel im not doing enough. I want to get over with school so i can finally live. I thank god for not making me stress too much about my exams. Id hate to look at a chapter of my life with the same despair as i view death
At times it may feel like we never have a purpose but I feel as if our purpose is to grow and love ourselves, to do what we love and build a stable foundation for ourselves and our loved ones. It can take years to feel like we have a purpose but eventually it all starts to feel right. X💜
When Im Alone at night, thoughts come running on my head. Is She good? Is She happy? Does She have someone already? Does he give everything that i couldnt give to her? I thought i gave everything i could to her, turns out i didnt. Thanks Departure once again for a beautiful piece of art. Good December for everyone on this channel. Live good, live happy.
I broke up 1.5 half years ago with my gf. Now she is married to somebody else and she will soon give birth to that man's child. You know it hurts to learn that you are not loved in the end.
I just sent her a friend req on ig after 1.5 years of not talking to eachother. She told her friend that she has moved on but.... I didn't. Perhaps it's selfish of me to try to re enter in her life and give her another hope of us together. She told her friend that she didn't really love me. But I know she lied. I know that she really loved me... But I'm a failure. Despite having over 100k followers on social media. I think I'm a failure. Despite reading hundreds of books and articles. I think I'm a failure. Idk wht to do or say. I just want.... To disappear. Not just from this earth. But also from everyone's mind. Disappear.
i’ve been slacking at school. my essays over a week late and i just can’t seem to do it. i’ve let so many things down that now i can’t find joy in anything. i don’t want to get back up, i don’t want to fight. i just want to be done and leave it here.
Just wanted to say, you're not alone in this. I have also been letting myself and others down lately due to my inability to get up and do the things that I am so keenly aware of and yet I watch time pass by. As if I am chained up with some invisible weights and I don't wanna fight against gravity anymore. I hope there's absolution somewhere for people like us who aren't brave enough to fight the rot consuming them
Me too... :( Life these days feels purposeless compared to the 90's and the 2000's. There's something missing that's making me nostalgic. And nostalgia can be a depressing feeling as well as a joyous feeling. There's such a value in being solely authentic and true to yourself back in those days. Uniqueness, community, and so much more...
@@tsunshunprincess Is it really these days and these time…? Or have u just gotten older? We always see the past thru the lens of nostalgia , bittersweet longing for our innocence. But don’t confuse yourself , this is nothing new. Our grandparents felt this way, surely. Keep searching deeper into yourself and you will find something to renew you
and in fact, I can give you actual purpose instead of silly metaphors… Idk how old you are or where your life is at, but you should consider starting a family. Those bittersweet nostalgic feelings of childhood will be restored in you once you have your own children and you can create your own memories. Consider the innocence of your little angels, all the great times to come as you share their childhood with them as their parents. The feeling you will get when you buy your kids the perfect Christmas present, birthday present, the look on their faces will renew you.
Thank you for this departure, i've been feeling this way for years but one thing i won't give up on is my little brother, i'm trying to be a good roll model for him, but life's been kicking my butt, but we'll get through this hopefully, stay safe everyone, love you all, especially you departure thank you for these past 5 months of music i've listened to everyone and loved everyone.❤❤❤
This is simply...just perfect. Like nothing else on the internet. Please don't stop making these. They mean so much to me...allowing me to sleep in times when that rarely is gifted to me
all the world made me feel not heard, specially the past few weeks. And somehow this one title did. I am losing myself and I've given up on everything, I've given up on myself.
i've stopped listening to music because it makes my head hurt these days yet ive listened through all of these tracks a billion times, it doesn't hurt! this rocks sm keep it up man :D
I left my job in October last year, I had a mental break down I just couldn’t take it anymore. I didn’t like the job and that moment something switched on for me I realized I simply deserved better. Fast forward I’m unemployed, it’s been so lonely, not socializing and every day looks like the day before. I will try to better my situation and see what happens. ❤
Same I also quit my job I hate this kind of job but now I am unemployed , I am a broke student now, life is also not going better . But what I want to stay you can do what ever you want , I wish you good luck and all the best 🍀😊
To anyone who sees this, even if you feel that there is no one there, God is always with you. He loves and cares about you more than anyone else! Please, if you ever feel alone, remember that God is there for you. God bless!
getting the grainy, pixelated look of the original game (i dunno if you recorded this on emulator/ps2 or just the pc version without any graphics mods) adds so much, thank you.
Eventually, we are all gonna have to give up everything. It bitter sweet. Yes, you will lose every "thing," but in the same instant, you gain the whole Universe. Don't worry if you don't know what I'm talking about. If you do, then cheers to ya. Heaven sure is blissful 🍻 ❤
inside the dimly lit bathroom, she walks in she just stands there motionlessly staring blankly into the mirror that reflects her own image her gaze is melancholy shadows dance across her hollow cheeks as fluorescent lights flicker overhead each blink reveals a different version of herself memories seep through the cracks in her expression like water dripping from a leaky faucet slowly, her fingers trace the cold glass touching but never reaching the woman before her questions hang heavy in the stale air who is this stranger wearing her face? when did her eyes grow so distant? the tiles beneath her feet feel like ice but she barely notices the cold anymore her reflection fragments into pieces like a mosaic of forgotten promises behind her, the door creaks slightly reminding her that time hasn't stopped though it feels suspended in this moment she wants to cry but tears won't come empty eyes stare back at empty eyes in this quiet moment of truth when masks fall away and only silence remains she remembers who she used to be before life dimmed her smile before responsibilities weighed her down before she learned to hide her pain the mirror offers no answers only questions that echo in the dark her hand drops to her side defeated by what she sees or what she cannot see anymore the person she once was now just a fading memory in this fluorescent-lit confession she takes one last look at the stranger in the mirror turns away slowly and walks back into the world carrying her truth like a secret too heavy to share but too important to forget
I feel that way sometimes but please don't stop going. Someday you'll be proud of yourself and happier.. I know every day feels like a chore and its hard to take care of yourself but you matter. It's little by little steps.. I'm sorry to anyone feeling this way, you aren't alone. ❤
man watching this , just that PS2 ambience its just sooo good. Could sit here for hours watching this. sometihng about that era just hit different compared to nowadays , i want that feeling back
I feel so lost and I want to be left alone for a year or more. I just want time to sleep, read, and listen to music or write in my own space. I feel like I’m surrounded by too much. I want space and emptiness. I want peace and quiet. I want a mf break. Thanks for listening guys.
Ive never actually written my feelings in my life but something came up while i was listening and it was the frist time i ever written how i feel im not even good in school at writing but I tought id share it maybe it resonates it was written all at once so no punctuation lol (it was translated from my native language) why do I recall that empty feeling that descended on the body throwing it widening the voraxe of dry but round pain, a touch of comfort typical of every melancholy but a heart-weeling feeling. And now that the ground seems to heat up I cling to that feeling even if with fear but deep down I remember that comfort and that emptiness that made the atmosphere muffled and clouded, and I would like to try it again having the consciousness of now in a limited environment and foreign to reality, undefined by the fog behind and in front of me, dark, cold but touching the skin the body involved in the dissociation. In that environment, the senses turned off if not the amalgamised sight, I never touch that place but I feel my mind approaching or when there is silence that fogs up and my mind involuntarily I realise I'm thinking. Dangerous, the intoxication that comes from the suddenly conscious repressed flow.
everytime i come across one of your channels, the titles always hits me deep. it almost feels like i just woke up from a true reailty, sometimes memories flood with sadness. it cant be helped, all i have to do is accept memories as something that will stay deep within me, forever.
Me siento tan perdido, el alcohol acentúa esta sensación de que bajo mis pies no hay más que un vacío voraz de sueños bellos y deseos gentiles. A mis pies veo mucha sangre en mis sueños. De vez en cuando encuentro estos temas, señor lo que estos sonidos evocan en uno, tocan tan profundo, y duele, arde, solo quiero ser sincero, al menos una vez en mi vida. Gracias por tu trabajo.
i love this channel because when you start to the first video he post and going through all of it in order you can see a certain story that it is told, just amazing ! 😍❤🔥❤
I don't like this reality. I don't like this world. I don't like people treating each other badly. I don't like having to suffer just to achieve the life of my dreams. I don't like that my sweetest dreams are only dreams. I don't like that I can only dream when I sleep. I don't like that I can't sleep forever.
I just give up on my dreams and life purposes because I am to old for thing that I want , I only wasted my time and now I feel empty, afraid about the future and I am 25 and cry all day 😭😔
Formyself Im hoping this year is the year of change, growth, positivity. Ive been so down im ready to be up, i need to wake up from this bad dream and face reality. My heart is just heavy and my vision is clouded i ask that the light be shown to you, to me, to those who seek change for the better. God wrap your arms around those who need it❤
I wasn't always this depressed, at least not as a small child. But with a family whose love is based on conditions and never accepted you like you are, you learn pretty quickly that you will always be on your own in this world. I still mourn over love, warmth and joy which I never really possessed in the first place. For me it's like an endless loop of suffering. I never get lose of the feeling of being utterly alone, even with company around me. The world seems so bleak. You see no way out and just wish to finally rest. So, so unbearable, my heart feels heavy with every day passing on... You ask yourself why? Why am I here if to fail in this reality over and over again, never reaching my full potential, my full self, locked away behind high walls created by the dreadfull darkness around you and the pain inflicted by the people you thought you could trust. Just why is this fair in the eyes of our cosmos
dunno what to do atm. not as bad as i have been in the past, thank god, but i'm still not doing great. nothing fulfils me anymore. games don't scratch my brain like they used to, playing the guitar is fun but i only go through maybe 6 or so small riffs before i turn the amp off and go back to wasting space, i can no longer sit through the music i've always loved without skipping 5 seconds in. nothing makes me feel like i'm alive these days and it's getting so fucking old. and the only thing that really seems to draw me in nowadays is pointless drama that i'm being dragged into, which i have had a stupid abundance of as of recently. it's like arguments and fighting follows me wherever i go and i'm seriously getting sick of it.
Strangely enough, I'm writing a maths exam today. I can't do any maths and because I have 0 marks and I'm standing, that's unlikely to change. I won't pass my A-levels just because of maths, even though I'm no better in the other subjects. I'm probably also the worst in the class. I have serious problems with myself and just can't open up to anyone. It's ironic that a video is being released today with a title I can identify with. I honestly don't know what the future holds for me and I don't have a good outlook either.
This has been my hardest year ever and the November was the worst. I feel like I'm ready to end it, except my issues aren't in a place where my life insurance can fix everything for everyone. I need to keep going until my issues can finally be fixed with a dollar amount, dying now would be a waste since money can't fix things yet. I need to keep going just a little bit more, even if I'm spending the little free time I have every day mostly crying.
I cant believe 2024 is gon be over in a week. I feel like this has been the most year I’ve been fed up with people. Every thing was after the other, looking back its feels like it ended quickly, but the depth of the events felt like 5 years. Knowing 2025 is coming soon, i just want every thing and every one who was in 24 to stay there, i dont wanna be haunted by 24 memories
I don't feel anything anymore.. I'm just numb, the only time I feel anything is when I feel pain and lately that doesn't seem to do anything anymore.. I have so many goals and no will to do them..
John 8:12 ESV [12] Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
A place where I loath to be, but currently am not, yet I feel as if a lost soulmate has arrived at said destination. Will we ever cross paths again? or is that simply wishful thinking the mind uses to ease the bittersweet pain?
i dont know whats wrong with me. i mean i have many things am grateful for like the love of my life and a friend i can call a brother but i still feel like something is missing.i hope i can find this thing.
Hello there you are not alone .. im like you i Have a 10 year relationship, a lovely cat , a job , a normal family but i feel so empty and i feels like everything is meaning less.. i think life IS so sad Because we will see our loved ones get Old and dissapear.. and i dont know what's wrong with me for not enjoying life as i should..
For some reason, I am apathetic to the idea of living in real life. In fact, I much rather live in a fictional world because everything seems serene there. I wish I could go to sleep and simply wake up knowing that this reality was a very bad dream... :(
I know exactly how you feel, I have maladaptive daydreaming, living everyday in a lie, because I can't handle reality. I delude myself, lying to myself that I won't wake up here again anymore. Living everyday as if it's the last. If I don't, I'll go insane.
If I had the option to just upload my brain into the internet itself, live as a line of sentient code that exists only as an entity on a screen, I'd do it in a heartbeat.
The virtual space is where all my friends, hobbies, and interests are. I have no interest in being here in reality anymore.
@@tsunshunprincess John 11:25-26 ESV
[25] Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, [26] and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die. Do you believe this?”
@@bluesolace9459I think that'd be an interesting option, too. I think I'd have a much easier and better time making friends there... maybe if there was a customization option to change my appearance and personality and everything else, then it'd be perfect! :O
The Holy Quran 29:64 :" This worldly life is no more than play and amusement. But the Hereafter is indeed the real life, if only they knew."
67:2 :" ˹He is the One˺ Who created death and life in order to test which of you is best in deeds. And He is the Almighty, All-Forgiving."
This life is indeed not real. It's a test. A temporary phase full of highs and lows preparing us for the next life❤
I’ll always wish I could be inside a video game like this, the ambience is just incredible
You wouldn't want to. I once had a dream that I was in a "Resident Evil" game and I thought I was going to die of fear.
W pfp
@@GawiZombiethat’s crazy like you thought you were going to physically die? it was that bad? what was even in ur dream
@@okay1590. Yes, I was really afraid of death
Nahhhh man. Game worlds are so messed up. Silent Hill especially. Even something cute like Pokemon has the threat of terrorism and a huge number of Poke's that are incredibly lethal.
I'm in such a gray area in life right now. It's not great, but nowhere near as bad as a few years ago. But I'm stuck. Even though I have no idea what I'm doing, or know what to do I resonate with this title so much. I'm just so overwhelmed and tired, This gray area feels like I'm stuck on repeat, I've been trying to be positive about it all, reminding myself I wont be in this position forever, but damn as of late it sure does feel like forever.
Anyways, just had to share and dump out some thoughts to everyone here. Thank you for the upload, and if you read this and you feel like you're in a similar place as I, you got this! It's okay to take a pause every now and then. Just get back up and keep pushing through.
Very true and also never keep anything bottled! Ever! That is the true recipe for self destruction. I still struggle with that but I do my best to get it out somehow. I need to talk about it somehow to something to get it out my mind and onto paper or in a voice text or whatever it could be. Also having time with the ones u love as friends and all definitely helps one mentally when ur feeling as low as u have described. Sitting in ur own pool of despair for days on end will have ur mind on the brink of losing yourself. It will drain u mentally, physically, all of that. The best is to be in a constant state of releasing what u feel ugly, good, bad all of it. Get it out somehow. And definitely never purposefully isolate urself all the time. Sometimes is ok cause we do need alone time at times. But all the time is what can also cause you to really destroy urself. Isolating urself will only allow ur mind to believe ur ugly thoughts and make them seem true and like there is no escape. U need to hear someone else’s words of encouragement and positivity. It’s hard to drag urself out of a deep pit you feel you on ur own have created. Attempt to talk to someone. U can do it. Ur alot stronger than u take urself for. That’s just me giving a piece of my mind. I hope every is well 🙏 ❤️ love to all!
Suppose, at some point we have all felt like this - well, those of us that are on the PC and not out and about. I have been like this, but get snapped out of it quick, how... Age. I'm at an age now if I'm lucky (due to take a huge amount of drugs when younger) if I wil have a healthy mind or body in 15 years time.
Life goes so fast, its only when you get older you start thinking of mortality - you have watched most of your elders pass, a lot of friends, all your beloved pets. Part of you, when in the grey area for that short time, thinks about knocking on that grey door, wanting to see everyone you cared about and loved more and more, thoughts you shouldn't have flow through. You sometimes wish there was an afterlife to say hi, to stroke my darling cat Tia again and kiss her fury cute head, to give my best mate Paul a slap on the shoulder and say, "Easy bro, how have you been since you died." We are all going to die, so if there is anything to give you comfort and help you find a path that seldom trodden, but warmly welcomed by your bright, beautiful nature thats obviously inside, know you cannot let yourself always be grey. There's only a short time to colour your world.
Life goes so fast.
I feel this
Same 😭
Thanks for sharing
I walked in on my sister crying and this song was on, when I asked her "Why are you crying?" She replied "I've been sad lately and the title specifically, it all just spoke to me, this is how I feel all the time." We proceeded to have a long heart to heart, sometimes it feels good to cry. Keep up this beautiful work.
things that totally happened:
Top 10 things that really happened
This really happened. I was there in the walls.
Beautiful! I hope things have improved for you both 💚✌️🙏
And then everybody clapped
bro always know when to post
I haven't given up on everything in fact I've started to put a lot more effort into myself these last couple months. However some of the things that I have given up on still haunt me like a bad memory there are things I thought used to be real. Things like the love of a mother or a father, The possibility of having children in the future, or even finding someone who I can truly trust and not have to keep my guard up around. I feel a deep hollow growing inside of me and the only thing that keeps voices away is focusing on vetering myself faith and myself is all I have left.
it feels like everyone else has it all figured it out, literally the bare concept of getting it together feels impossible, i can't find satisfaction in just about anything nowadays
i get that. i also find myself solely surviving, purposeless, but there has to be an ulterior goal. keep your head up and i'm sure you'll figure it out eventually.i believe in you
I was a child of a narcissist parent, I came from a very difficult life with him, and was homeless with him for a very long time in the past and never had a good home life growing up. I managed to escape him, and had to go great lengths to get away from him. I was lucky to have known the people that had helped me and allowed me to stay with them. I went to go be with my extended family that had found me on the internet. They flew me in first class to go be with them, and I genuinely felt that I would belong with them because they’re my family. At first there was this honeymoon period, they thought of me as a gift from grandma that passed away. But what seemed like a gift from the universe, only turned into something that had psychologically wounded me. I was only with them for 3 months because of how difficult they seemed to have been to live with, and how strict and conditional their love and regard was towards me. I felt like I couldn’t really be loved or accepted for just the way I am, or that I had to constantly fit in to their idea of how I should live my life and be like to them. I felt like I was some kind of flawed and inadequate kid. I would hear them say things like “but he wasn’t raised that way!” “oh it’s just gonna take time”, “I just think he just wasn’t raised properly” …and it felt like I had to constantly jump through hoops in order to be loved, and if I don’t, then it’s basically ‘bye peace out can’t live with your family’. To this day I feel this deep, inner wound of rejection and unworthiness that I carry each and every day. My aunt would ask this weird question “what are the advantages that you think you have of being here?” but in my mind I’m like ‘I didn’t come here just so I can gain some kind of material advantages, I came to have a life here with my family just like any other kid would with their families, not a quid pro quo’.
But I just told her “I don’t know” , and she replied “then why did you come live with us honey?” and she didn’t even have any idea why I went to go be with them, even though she invited me and said “why not come stay here?”
I had unfortunately received some invalidating comments from others that I’ve tried to speak to about my trauma, they’ve said things like “why should they love you” and “who are you and why should you be loved and cared for” and another person said “you don’t seem to realize that you’re wanting a warped and distorted image of your family” “you are not your brother you’re not their kid” and I’ve basically been labeled as having some kind of “sense of entitlement”.
So for a kid or young person to have an innate desire and need to have a family home or to simply live with his or hers own family they would have a “sense of entitlement”? What kind of cold world do we live in?
Isn’t every kid or young person deserving of what I believe to be the most basic, simplest thing that any young person could have, which is a family home, or to simply live with one’s own blood relational family, in a home? With parents, caregivers, siblings, etc? Shouldn’t it be like the norm and standard for every kid or young person? But for some reason, I’m being considered by some people as like bad, evil or reprehensible for trying to have that with my own family? I tend to think if my friends can live with their families, why can’t I live with mine? I once had a former friend who I thought would always be validating of my trauma, but he one time went against me and invalidated me and said; “Well they raised your brother! They raised him and not you so he’s their kid!” and he laughed at me. So whose kid am I? Where does that leave me then?
and so after some years later I came to figure out, that perhaps the reason why I was treated the way I was treated by my family, was all because they raised my sibling and they never raised me. I can’t believe that, I went through that whole process, of getting away from my father, and finally got to be with my extended family and my brother that I never got to grow up with since we were born, and after going through such a nightmarish life with a narcissist father, only for it to, pretty much, backfire on me? all because ‘they raised him and not me’. So in order for a kid or young person to live with his or hers own family they have to be born and raised into it? And it’s unfair to me how my brother got to have what they called a “privileged life” while my life and upbringing got robbed by a toxic father.
I have had someone that recognized the validity of my feelings though, and that person said ‘how in the world can you not be allowed just the same if not more’.
I remember I stayed with a friend of mine and his family because his mom couldn’t sleep at night knowing that I was sleeping in a car in a parking lot somewhere with my father. They treated me as equally as their two boys, I wanted that with my family and my brother.
It’s incredibly sad and disheartening to me that, I go to my family expecting all the love and care in the world, only to seemingly be met with sort of the opposite, I just don’t understand that if they can love and care for one kid all of his life why can’t they do just the same for the other? I believe every kid and young person deserves a good home life with their families.
But I guess I can’t have that with my own family all because they raised him and not me.
I used to envy other kids that had normal family homes, I stayed with some of them, but couldn’t actually live with them or claim it as my home all because I just, ‘wasn’t their kid’.
They bought a condo and now my brother is living in it for free…
I was told that there was only one baby on the table…
We never chose our parents.
and I never chose this life…
I am sorry to here all this. I wish You lots and lots of strenght. You are strong. One day everything will be alright, trust me. After every night there will be sunny day. Lots of strenght brother.
I really hope you’re doing okay friend. It obviously doesn’t sound like it, but I truly do hope one day you find the peace you deserve.
I dont exactly how you feel, but sonewhere around i want to encourage you to keep going, ❤
I'm sorry you've suffered so much, it sounds like a heavy burden to bear. How you feel is real, despite what others may think. You deserved to feel loved, a lot that and more. Any kid should, really. 'Family' can be such a complicated thing.
Your Narc dad probably throws spells on you - to make you reap his karma
Normally people would be to them like to you and his solution was to just give it away and dont clear things up
I have literally the same fate as you
Praying ( constantly ) could change your life
I find myself listening to these for literal hours. I'm queuing this one for my work shift tomorrow. The silence without them is so loud.
Sometimes its alright to give up, letting the pain, the sadness, the anger, the fear, the frustration, let it all just swallow you up entirely and just sink in the endless sea, its okay to just let it all go and finally rest from those eternal struggle as you can finally drift into an eternity slumber.
It's okay to rest.. it's never okay to give up completely on everything.. I feel that way sometimes, but please don't stop going. Someday, you'll be proud of yourself and happier.. I know every day feels like a chore, and it's hard to take care of yourself, but you matter. It's little by little steps.. I'm sorry to anyone feeling this way. You aren't alone. ❤
I feel mentally exhausted being the person doing all the work for years since childhood. Feeling like you have to be the glue for others is a lot. I’m trying to mend myself more, but I find the one thing I need is something I can only have spontaneously. I know one day, I won’t feel the loneliness this badly. But I wish there was a way I could fully relax in someone’s presence, knowing that I’m loved as I am.
real.
After listening this music, it is so painful to return to real life, to meet dead silence that doesn`t speak to you in any way. Just you and your soul trembling with fear. I wish to disappear from this world so bad sometimes. Tired even of being sad and depressed. Of everything.
I’m can heavily relate to this, my reality seems to be evolving into a nightmare. I wish I could just feel happy again.
I will carve my scars into the heavens, Even impaled on a blade, I will press forward! I am the tip of the spear! Raised against surrender!
I always knew there was something wrong, deeply wrong with me. Or I was just different. Other people seemed so joyful, while I was permanently absorbed by the grim reality of things around me. We are who we are. And the thing is - we can't see everything differently. It's our consciousness that changes. It's moving in it's own way... No matter how hard you try, you won't run away from yourself. So, why am I saying this. Well, I don't really know. Maybe because I want to justify my constant depression about everything. Still, I want to lie down on a wet grass, and while raindrops are falling on my face I want to close my eyes and peacefully dissapear, dreaming of distant but good memories.
@@vadim_voron what is the issue
@vadim_voron most of the time we have too much awareness. Awareness that controls us. I believe that those who are joyful are those who have either turned a blind eye to the world and for what it is, for what they are - while others do not attain that level of reality in their consiousness.
I am still looking for peace. I hope you find your peace someday, too - if that exists. Take care
Don't read this if you don't want to
I feel so alone all the time, it feels like my chest is a black hole, I feel unloved by everybody around me, I can't seem to feel connection with any of the people around me, the only comfort I find is in books and games and anime, it feels like I will never move forward, I've been here before, I know that this isn't really me, I know its just chemicals unbalanced in my head, just pathways crossing that aren't supposed too, I've already promised myself I wouldn't give up at least until I reach a certain point in my life, but its just so hard, its so hopeless, I just want to be done, I want to wake up tomorrow and be happy, but I know that's not gonna be the case.
Keep trying guys there isn't anything else to do
damn man, I feel exactly the same thing as you, I know that the chemicals in my brain aren't working well and that's probably why I'm feeling like this, an endless emptiness, a feeling of abandonment and loneliness, it seems like It will never end, right? I think the worst feeling we men can feel is abandonment, not being loved, not working out with anyone, and I'm not just talking about relationships, like girlfriends or crushes, I'm talking about real friends and people who really care about us.
Will we ever be better than this?
Hello, I hope you're doing well. Life can be difficult, even more difficult when you're dealing with constant mental health issues, so first and foremost give yourself credit for playing life on hard mode. You're right, sometimes the only thing to do is to keep moving forward, hope for a better tomorrow, but I also encourage you to surround yourself with good people who can support you and research things you can do to help alleviate some of those feeling of depression. Place emphasis on things that you can do, and not so much emphasis on things that are outside of your control. My hopes for you are that one day things will get a little easier, thanks to your constant resolve to improve.
😢 best fortune, luck, or favor in breaking the cycle you feel trapped in. 😊
You got family around you?
I will if you do too. Let's try to keep moving forward. Towards something better. As tough as it is.
Ive been struggling as of late. I've been procrastinating a lot and not focusing on my studies as much as i want to. I know im a devoted student and that i try, but i cant help but feel im not doing enough. I want to get over with school so i can finally live. I thank god for not making me stress too much about my exams. Id hate to look at a chapter of my life with the same despair as i view death
I feel the same about school. I just want this part of my life to be behind me. I need a break
as 18 year old i really hope i find a purpose in life
At times it may feel like we never have a purpose but I feel as if our purpose is to grow and love ourselves, to do what we love and build a stable foundation for ourselves and our loved ones. It can take years to feel like we have a purpose but eventually it all starts to feel right. X💜
You are sooo young!
The light has gone out of my life
It’s like Departure knows how I’m feeling and puts it as the title, I love it
When Im Alone at night, thoughts come running on my head. Is She good? Is She happy? Does She have someone already? Does he give everything that i couldnt give to her? I thought i gave everything i could to her, turns out i didnt.
Thanks Departure once again for a beautiful piece of art. Good December for everyone on this channel.
Live good, live happy.
So you had a heartbreaking breakup??
I broke up 1.5 half years ago with my gf. Now she is married to somebody else and she will soon give birth to that man's child. You know it hurts to learn that you are not loved in the end.
I just sent her a friend req on ig after 1.5 years of not talking to eachother. She told her friend that she has moved on but.... I didn't. Perhaps it's selfish of me to try to re enter in her life and give her another hope of us together. She told her friend that she didn't really love me. But I know she lied. I know that she really loved me... But I'm a failure. Despite having over 100k followers on social media. I think I'm a failure. Despite reading hundreds of books and articles. I think I'm a failure. Idk wht to do or say. I just want.... To disappear. Not just from this earth. But also from everyone's mind. Disappear.
Women ain't worth all that. Lmao
Never give up trying what you like or what you love
peace
never let yourself down
If I am late for my dreams, to archieve my goals? 😭
i’ve been slacking at school. my essays over a week late and i just can’t seem to do it. i’ve let so many things down that now i can’t find joy in anything. i don’t want to get back up, i don’t want to fight. i just want to be done and leave it here.
Just wanted to say, you're not alone in this. I have also been letting myself and others down lately due to my inability to get up and do the things that I am so keenly aware of and yet I watch time pass by. As if I am chained up with some invisible weights and I don't wanna fight against gravity anymore. I hope there's absolution somewhere for people like us who aren't brave enough to fight the rot consuming them
i just want to be and feel like a kid again ...
Me too... :(
Life these days feels purposeless compared to the 90's and the 2000's. There's something missing that's making me nostalgic. And nostalgia can be a depressing feeling as well as a joyous feeling. There's such a value in being solely authentic and true to yourself back in those days. Uniqueness, community, and so much more...
@@tsunshunprincess
Is it really these days and these time…? Or have u just gotten older? We always see the past thru the lens of nostalgia , bittersweet longing for our innocence. But don’t confuse yourself , this is nothing new. Our grandparents felt this way, surely. Keep searching deeper into yourself and you will find something to renew you
and in fact, I can give you actual purpose instead of silly metaphors…
Idk how old you are or where your life is at, but you should consider starting a family. Those bittersweet nostalgic feelings of childhood will be restored in you once you have your own children and you can create your own memories. Consider the innocence of your little angels, all the great times to come as you share their childhood with them as their parents. The feeling you will get when you buy your kids the perfect Christmas present, birthday present, the look on their faces will renew you.
It really doesn't. @@Fuentesico
Thank you for this departure, i've been feeling this way for years but one thing i won't give up on is my little brother, i'm trying to be a good roll model for him, but life's been kicking my butt, but we'll get through this hopefully, stay safe everyone, love you all, especially you departure thank you for these past 5 months of music i've listened to everyone and loved everyone.❤❤❤
bro never misses
This is simply...just perfect. Like nothing else on the internet. Please don't stop making these. They mean so much to me...allowing me to sleep in times when that rarely is gifted to me
what do you do when you can’t do nothing, but there’s nothing you can do?
do what you can.
i truly have given up and idk what to even do anymore
all the world made me feel not heard, specially the past few weeks. And somehow this one title did. I am losing myself and I've given up on everything, I've given up on myself.
i've stopped listening to music because it makes my head hurt these days
yet ive listened through all of these tracks a billion times, it doesn't hurt!
this rocks sm keep it up man :D
I left my job in October last year, I had a mental break down I just couldn’t take it anymore. I didn’t like the job and that moment something switched on for me I realized I simply deserved better. Fast forward I’m unemployed, it’s been so lonely, not socializing and every day looks like the day before. I will try to better my situation and see what happens. ❤
You are so brave by making the decision of leaving, now its gonna be hard but you will make it and even if you feel alone, you are not 😊
@ thank you 💚
Same I also quit my job I hate this kind of job but now I am unemployed , I am a broke student now, life is also not going better . But what I want to stay you can do what ever you want , I wish you good luck and all the best 🍀😊
@ Thanks! 🙏🏾 I appreciate you’re comment, love.
To anyone who sees this, even if you feel that there is no one there, God is always with you.
He loves and cares about you more than anyone else! Please, if you ever feel alone, remember that God is there for you.
God bless!
the title hits too hard ˙◠˙
getting the grainy, pixelated look of the original game (i dunno if you recorded this on emulator/ps2 or just the pc version without any graphics mods) adds so much, thank you.
is that a sprinkle of hope im sensing?
Omg I love this so much, great work. Last year I was planning on making ambience videos, even thought about silent hill 2. I didn't.
I was looking for this! My favorite tracks from ”Silent Hill” with background ambience from the remake. Thank you for this! I love it.
Eventually, we are all gonna have to give up everything. It bitter sweet. Yes, you will lose every "thing," but in the same instant, you gain the whole Universe.
Don't worry if you don't know what I'm talking about. If you do, then cheers to ya. Heaven sure is blissful 🍻 ❤
inside the dimly lit bathroom, she walks in
she just stands there motionlessly
staring blankly into the mirror that reflects her own image
her gaze is melancholy
shadows dance across her hollow cheeks
as fluorescent lights flicker overhead
each blink reveals a different version of herself
memories seep through the cracks in her expression
like water dripping from a leaky faucet
slowly, her fingers trace the cold glass
touching but never reaching the woman before her
questions hang heavy in the stale air
who is this stranger wearing her face?
when did her eyes grow so distant?
the tiles beneath her feet feel like ice
but she barely notices the cold anymore
her reflection fragments into pieces
like a mosaic of forgotten promises
behind her, the door creaks slightly
reminding her that time hasn't stopped
though it feels suspended in this moment
she wants to cry but tears won't come
empty eyes stare back at empty eyes
in this quiet moment of truth
when masks fall away
and only silence remains
she remembers who she used to be
before life dimmed her smile
before responsibilities weighed her down
before she learned to hide her pain
the mirror offers no answers
only questions that echo in the dark
her hand drops to her side
defeated by what she sees
or what she cannot see anymore
the person she once was
now just a fading memory
in this fluorescent-lit confession
she takes one last look
at the stranger in the mirror
turns away slowly
and walks back into the world
carrying her truth
like a secret too heavy to share
but too important to forget
BABYYYY WAKE UP, DEPARTURE DROPPED ANOTHER BANGER❤🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
I feel that way sometimes but please don't stop going. Someday you'll be proud of yourself and happier.. I know every day feels like a chore and its hard to take care of yourself but you matter. It's little by little steps.. I'm sorry to anyone feeling this way, you aren't alone. ❤
man watching this , just that PS2 ambience its just sooo good. Could sit here for hours watching this. sometihng about that era just hit different compared to nowadays , i want that feeling back
Loving these Silent Hill Ambience,hi all the way from West Yorkshire, England🤟
I feel so lost and I want to be left alone for a year or more. I just want time to sleep, read, and listen to music or write in my own space. I feel like I’m surrounded by too much. I want space and emptiness. I want peace and quiet. I want a mf break. Thanks for listening guys.
Finally something from Silent Hill 3
At the end of the day, thats all we're doing is just studying our faces at the end of the day, just wondering wtf is next for tomorrow.😔
Ive never actually written my feelings in my life but something came up while i was listening and it was the frist time i ever written how i feel im not even good in school at writing but I tought id share it maybe it resonates it was written all at once so no punctuation lol
(it was translated from my native language)
why do I recall that empty feeling that descended on the body throwing it widening the voraxe of dry but round pain, a touch of comfort typical of every melancholy but a heart-weeling feeling. And now that the ground seems to heat up I cling to that feeling even if with fear but deep down I remember that comfort and that emptiness that made the atmosphere muffled and clouded, and I would like to try it again having the consciousness of now in a limited environment and foreign to reality, undefined by the fog behind and in front of me, dark, cold but touching the skin the body involved in the dissociation. In that environment, the senses turned off if not the amalgamised sight,
I never touch that place but I feel my mind approaching or when there is silence that fogs up and my mind involuntarily I realise I'm thinking. Dangerous, the intoxication that comes from the suddenly conscious repressed flow.
I've felt all there is to feel. Now I just feel empty.
This is beautiful
everytime i come across one of your channels, the titles always hits me deep.
it almost feels like i just woke up from a true reailty, sometimes memories flood with sadness.
it cant be helped, all i have to do is accept memories as something that will stay deep within me, forever.
Me siento tan perdido, el alcohol acentúa esta sensación de que bajo mis pies no hay más que un vacío voraz de sueños bellos y deseos gentiles. A mis pies veo mucha sangre en mis sueños.
De vez en cuando encuentro estos temas, señor lo que estos sonidos evocan en uno, tocan tan profundo, y duele, arde, solo quiero ser sincero, al menos una vez en mi vida. Gracias por tu trabajo.
Always pray to have strength and wisdom to face whatever comes your way ❤
I missed so much great songs. Time to catch up on all of them while sick and coding!!!
Guys drop everything you are doing. Departure just uploaded 💙🏃♀
I love ambience. Especially Silent Hill. Great video. Put me to sleep one night. I love falling asleep to videos.
i love this channel because when you start to the first video he post and going through all of it in order you can see a certain story that it is told, just amazing ! 😍❤🔥❤
I don't like this reality. I don't like this world. I don't like people treating each other badly. I don't like having to suffer just to achieve the life of my dreams. I don't like that my sweetest dreams are only dreams. I don't like that I can only dream when I sleep.
I don't like that I can't sleep forever.
I just give up on my dreams and life purposes because I am to old for thing that I want , I only wasted my time and now I feel empty, afraid about the future and I am 25 and cry all day 😭😔
The atmosphere created by this track is unreal. So good!
hits deep
This is perfect for my upcoming exam ^^ ♡ especially with the remake visuals
I played very little, but it left its mark on me... 10/10.
And now I’m all alone again
dont give up fren
Formyself Im hoping this year is the year of change, growth, positivity. Ive been so down im ready to be up, i need to wake up from this bad dream and face reality. My heart is just heavy and my vision is clouded i ask that the light be shown to you, to me, to those who seek change for the better. God wrap your arms around those who need it❤
This is a masterpiece for anyone I cannot thank you enough for the pain to be heard. This is working to heal honestly. Godbless you ✝️💛🔥☦️
I use this for studying ngl its kinda helping somehow
I wasn't always this depressed, at least not as a small child. But with a family whose love is based on conditions and never accepted you like you are, you learn pretty quickly that you will always be on your own in this world. I still mourn over love, warmth and joy which I never really possessed in the first place.
For me it's like an endless loop of suffering. I never get lose of the feeling of being utterly alone, even with company around me. The world seems so bleak. You see no way out and just wish to finally rest. So, so unbearable, my heart feels heavy with every day passing on... You ask yourself why? Why am I here if to fail in this reality over and over again, never reaching my full potential, my full self, locked away behind high walls created by the dreadfull darkness around you and the pain inflicted by the people you thought you could trust. Just why is this fair in the eyes of our cosmos
Existence is cruel as well as the person who is responsible for the existence
💯💯 Sings to my ears!
this is going in my " " playlist
dunno what to do atm. not as bad as i have been in the past, thank god, but i'm still not doing great. nothing fulfils me anymore. games don't scratch my brain like they used to, playing the guitar is fun but i only go through maybe 6 or so small riffs before i turn the amp off and go back to wasting space, i can no longer sit through the music i've always loved without skipping 5 seconds in. nothing makes me feel like i'm alive these days and it's getting so fucking old. and the only thing that really seems to draw me in nowadays is pointless drama that i'm being dragged into, which i have had a stupid abundance of as of recently. it's like arguments and fighting follows me wherever i go and i'm seriously getting sick of it.
This the best channel to unwind and just...think
i just ask if i can rest forever
this is so nice...appreciate it more than you know
I always fall asleep while listening to this ❤
I luv those videos, letting me zone out
thank you for sharing your work
Strangely enough, I'm writing a maths exam today. I can't do any maths and because I have 0 marks and I'm standing, that's unlikely to change. I won't pass my A-levels just because of maths, even though I'm no better in the other subjects. I'm probably also the worst in the class. I have serious problems with myself and just can't open up to anyone.
It's ironic that a video is being released today with a title I can identify with. I honestly don't know what the future holds for me and I don't have a good outlook either.
I just want to go back to where I truly belong
I just want to be able to do what I truly want to do
I just want to be free from this world
This is really wonderful. Thank you.
is the rain in the room with us
This has been my hardest year ever and the November was the worst. I feel like I'm ready to end it, except my issues aren't in a place where my life insurance can fix everything for everyone. I need to keep going until my issues can finally be fixed with a dollar amount, dying now would be a waste since money can't fix things yet. I need to keep going just a little bit more, even if I'm spending the little free time I have every day mostly crying.
I cant believe 2024 is gon be over in a week. I feel like this has been the most year I’ve been fed up with people. Every thing was after the other, looking back its feels like it ended quickly, but the depth of the events felt like 5 years. Knowing 2025 is coming soon, i just want every thing and every one who was in 24 to stay there, i dont wanna be haunted by 24 memories
luv you mr departure
It doesn’t matter how much I get motivated to do anything I feel tired to much sleep or little sleep I am tired I just want to be happy and left alone
im drowning
So sad that i feel nothing even when i listen this
I don't feel anything anymore.. I'm just numb, the only time I feel anything is when I feel pain and lately that doesn't seem to do anything anymore.. I have so many goals and no will to do them..
It seems that you are not the only one, thinking only about pain, feeling blinded, that you cannot continue moving forward in yourself.
Maybe they wish they understood
🖤
John 8:12 ESV
[12] Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
Oh no never give up ...even thou it will get hard get up and keep trying
Its like mass effect mixed with silent hill.
As have I. Keep walking
A place where I loath to be, but currently am not, yet I feel as if a lost soulmate has arrived at said destination. Will we ever cross paths again? or is that simply wishful thinking the mind uses to ease the bittersweet pain?
I love you all
Life is complicated
Heaven says I'm not good enough.
You're good enough
real
Love You
i’m here to have my rest.
No pls no give up 😔 😢 😞 🙏 😪 💔
i dont know whats wrong with me. i mean i have many things am grateful for like the love of my life and a friend i can call a brother but i still feel like something is missing.i hope i can find this thing.
Hello there you are not alone .. im like you i Have a 10 year relationship, a lovely cat , a job , a normal family but i feel so empty and i feels like everything is meaning less.. i think life IS so sad Because we will see our loved ones get Old and dissapear.. and i dont know what's wrong with me for not enjoying life as i should..