Ren - Insomnia (Official)
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Ren - Insomnia (Official)
For nearly 2 months now I haven't been sleeping. I average about 3 hours a night and have been wrestling with how it's affecting my ability to interact with the world. I decided to try and channel all of this frustration into my art, so in the early hours that I was just lying in bed wishing for rest I wrote, and produced. I got up at 3 AM this morning to finish off some final tweaks in the mix. Hope you enjoy
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I have adhd and autism, I’ve never been able to explain how I feel and today I managed to explain in a way to my family how it feels thanks to your song ren…thank you so much
I feel the same, but my mother just died and I regret not having shared this song with her before she left. She struggled like me with sleep. She managed it with pills, unlike me who regularly not sleep for 3 days....and average 3-4h of sleep the rest of the time. I could not have explained it better than Ren's song.
Wishing you the best CeCe 👍
haha me too. only got diagnosis last year at 40 year old. This guys kurt cobain level of deep
Same...the boomeranging. Constant boomeranging.
Same
An artist is someone who manages to cut from themselves, a piece of their soul, and share it with the world, in a manner that ressonates. Thank you Ren.
❤ so true if the can make me cry the hit the spot! The are not many bud he is one of them.
well said
This dude is his own magic
YES!!
WORD👌🏼
"But I'm a survivor, a child of destiny".... Wauwwww!!!👌🏾👏🏾
The Ren Rabbit hole is deep but not dark, it’s full of light and optimism.
How are you doing Ren? Hope you're good man.
Tired, but good! :) in that creative flow
Ren thank you for your music man! you really are a brilliant musician! greetings from belgium!
@@RenMakesMusic Us insomniacs are up with you if that helps any. Your lyrical poetry is quite brilliant, I must say. Especially (Depression).
@@innerpeaceimaginations6942 depression is so fucking accurate it makes me feel solitude, which strangely feels better
@@mul555 the sad thing is, Ren has been diagnosed with depression , and as for ‘Do You Believe” he has Lyme Disease. It’s just insane how he still manages to be the incarnation of good music, with a lot of variation as well.
I can’t be crazy about this, right? He’s as extraordinarily, mind-bogglingly talented as I think he is, right? I’ve been a lifelong audiophile with an eclectic taste from showtunes to death metal… and it’s been years since since I’ve discovered an artist that makes me feel like I’ve been slammed against a wall of pure euphoria… and Ren has instantly carved a spot as my top artist of all time. I can’t even comprehend how mindblowingly talented he is.
Edit - speling and typonese ;)
Oh, he's got a special kind of talent alright. Not to mention he makes songs about topics people don't dare to. I've found relief and understanding in his work that others just don't dare to touch.
Especially Violet's tale.
"I'll spare you of the things he did." Spoke to me.
Something so horrific most people won't even get close.
And all his works around su1c1de and mental health...
It's incredible really.
Is this what it means to be conscious to constantly question our concsious? He is genius
Ive been sober and clean almost 4 years and have had horrible insomnia since. I think of nothing and everything all at once. I wonder is its my ADHD but the drs havent told me so. Im currently awake for 26 hrs and i wish i could just sleep. Ive tried drs, medication, meditation, exercise and just forcing myself to fn lay there in the dark. None of it works. I sleep when my body lets me sleep now. Alcohol and drugs made me pass out and without those i just stay awake now. Im grateful and wouldn't trade my sobriety for anything but damn.... i wish i could sleep. Thank you Ren for all your music 🎶
I can't even. A song that keeps me company at 4am as the world sleeps and my back hates me. Thank you. Thank you for the company, and the words and for this.
im also keeping you somewhat company in the sense that we're probably experiencing the same thing. Stay strong dude I'm with ya it's hard ik
I love how this transforms from a spoken word poem into a song seamlessly.
So true. Talking therapy doesnt always help. Cognitive Behavioural Therapy , which challenge negative thoughts, retrains your brain & gives you coping strategies worked way better for me. CBT for Dummies was the best book i've ever read.
Eminem and Plan B ain't got nothing on you, Ren.
You truly perfected everything I wanted to hear, You're saving lives xoxox
if there wasn't an Eminem, there probably would not have been a Ren. i'm grateful for both
@@ikingipapa doubtful
Agree
Eminem & Ren would be the perfect match, both goats at conceptual writing,
I really don't think Ren gaf about Em, or any of the other people he gets compared to. His gift isn't for to make money, or to promote bling and bitches and beef. He has made music for ALL, I can't really say that about Em.
This song hits hard. I suffered from insomnia for most of my life until my mom told me a prison trick she learned, its actually used by the military, too, I learned. But if anyone here has insomnia please try this trick, I promise it will work in time: slow your breathing and with each breath try to relax each part of your body. Starting with you head, I know it sounds weird but try to un tense your eyes, jaw, then your shoulders and go down for each breath you let out. The biggest thing is not to be discouraged when you mind begins to wonder. Just start over if you start to wonder to much. I also count backwards from 100 with each breath.
I used to do that as a kid . don't work as an adult...
I find what helps is tensing up the muscle as much as you can first for a few seconds and then picturing the tension slide away. For example I start with my face and scrunch it as hard as I can and then slowly relax it, then I will tense my neck and shoulders etc. some people have a hard time relaxing and won’t realize that they are still holding tension or clenching their teeth (I’m one of those people) it helps me when I experience full tension and can picture it slowly releasing and I know I’m fully relaxed when I start to feel a tingle in that muscle.
Sometimes I need this plus green noise ;)
I love your lyrics.
They don't provide answers either.
But at least I know I'm not alone.
rather search for the right questions so you give the answers yourself mate
Sleep is the thing I once took for granted.
That is more than a song. I’d love to say it’s one of my favorites but REN’s songs are all so good. Still this song is powerful.
This guy doesn’t have any bad songs
He has a god given ability to tell the truth. Not only that he connects so we can understand his truth and the truth in ourselves
Love love
Love you lots and loads more love for dis ❤
I know, right? From another freckled ginger 😊
I'm on the spectrum, people always told me I'm smart but I dont apply myself. I was too busy trying to understand god and quantum mechnics trying to apply my opinion to religion and science. I used to cry when I was 12 laying in bed from 8 pm till 430am, I knew I shouldn't move. I didn't want to bring my suffering on others in the group home so I cried as quiet as I could after hours of being trapped in my MInd. and I couldn't understand why I couldn't sleep. I even tried to cross breed animals like a dragon and a fish to try to sleep and picture it. This song really touches me thank u ren ur a Gift
Love it my brother. Keep your head up and things will get better for you Ren. I think that I speak for all of us when I say we love you and your music My brother keep them coming, looking forward to seeing more of you 🌹
Piano. Guitar. Lyrics. Superb !!! Resonating... alot. Thank you Ren...from every sensitive fiber in me 🩶
LYRICS
What is it all for?
Ive asked myself that question so many times now,
It's become more worn than my Reebok classics,
I'm a slave to frivolous habits,
Of introspection with out any destination,
Ruminating thoughts in constant rotation,
Is this what it means to be conscious,
To constantly question our conscience,
Despondantly fall on my back horizontally,
Under my bed there are monsters,
They visit me when I try to sleep,
They're those thoughts that play on repeat,
They say Ren,
You're always going to suffer Ren,
You're always going to suffer,
And I boomerang between optimism and pessimism,
So much that my sanctuary could be a prison,
What blinds me could give me vision,
And what finds me is this indecision,
Of what to do with these questions,
Is there purpose,
Is there God.
And if there is God,
Then God why...
Do I feel like this God...
Are we not sculpted in your image,
And if so do you feel that pain,
Unrelinquishing pain like my brain got put under a Bunsen burner and torched until the membranes became flame,
I hate not sleeping,
I like the weekend because other people don't sleep either,
Mindless tv shows irritate me,
But they're my messiah,
Because I can become brain dead,
Wasted,
Lost entrails of dry saliva,
But I'm a survivor,
A child of destiny,
But this night has been testing me,
Question the mess that's progressing,
Undressing me,
Stripping me naked and stuffing the stress in me,
I used to use drinking as a way to stop thinking,
And my problems with drinking made me feel like I was sinking,
So I dried up my drink,
And I couldn't sleep a wink,
And now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking about nothing,
Fucking nothing,
And everything,
And nothing,
I hate not sleeping,
So I lie here trying to count sheep,
And their bleats repeat,
And my bleeding heart is beating,
And beating me in my sleep is the plea,
And pleading for healing,
Is fleeting,
Longing for sleepness?
Audibly speaking?
I weep in the sheets,
Doubling doubley
Troubling subtling?
Bleak it's so bleak it's so bleak,
And I lost my mind,
On a line,
I hate not sleeping,
I hate not sleeping...
My best attempt at transcribing the lyrics as I can't find them anywhere online. There are probably mistakes especially from his particularly fast parts so if you have any corrections please lemme know below :)
Thanks man
Von I think when the monsters talk they say his name... so
"They say Ren"
"You're always gonna suffer, Ren"
Thank you so much! I'm from Catalonia and I needed them!
Man, u help a lot... I'm from Brazil and i don't have fluency in English, so thank u so much!
@@guaranazeromix7166 coe irmao
I used to have insomnia, now hearing this It brings back memories when I had countless sleepless nights and crying out loud to God asking him to help me go to sleep.
To everyone who's going to insomnia right now, I know it's not easy but you'll get through it. I believe in each one of you.❤
My god, man, I'm so grateful RUclips recommended your music yesterday. Every song hits so profoundly. You're a genius.
Oh my...breaking my heart🥺
it's a bugger isn't it - immune disorders and insomnia; and the disorder needs more rest , but won't let you. I worked 2 jobs and went to night school to keep from being bored. When i hit 43 years old I collapsed. So then i started writing poetry and music and recording and stuff. Then - first year re-building my very old new home had an accident and a 4 bleed head injury. lost the ability to speak and write etc for a while and taught myself to do it - but i lost the key for that poetry door. now i never sleep but can't write. This is gold Ren.
This song is about insomnia, but it applies to any chronic health issue. For all of you that suffer quietly and soldier on, I salute you. True strength fighting the struggles that people never see.
This is my favorite song of yours . I’ve never been so preoccupied with the well-being of a stranger. I want peace for you so badly.
Depression and this one hit me almost physically. It's so... exact. i hate not sleeping. i like the weekends cause other people aren't sleeping either. "you're always gonna suffer". that fing voice. i'm thinking about nothing. fing nothing. and everthing"
is sad to know other people go through what you do, but it makes it less lonely. thank you everyone for fighting, may you have a day worth remembering
Why do I keep listening to these tracks that make me so sad, make me cry every time. Guess I’m a masochist. You are one of a kind Ren. Thank you
I've never felt as much related to an artist I was feeling every single fucking word.
From the deep of my heart thanks for your music man ❤️
Every song hits every heart string, he manages to encapsulate just about every human emotion in such a relatable way.
Brain Squeeze has made me revisit this track and I realized I watched it during a Ren binge so slightly missed the power of it. Hence highlighting the need to always revisit Ren's work.
Ren you've done it!
Silly me thinking nothing could hit me like
"I remember when
I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place
Even your emotions have an echo in so much space"
Man, you truly help people daily bro. A Ren a day keeps the doctor away.
Suffering and Joy are equal
I'm not feeling alone anymore, like other 1000 and more people. Thank you for your words and your music, you're a genius.
Like the seed that strives for the sun, we only find the light if we are first dug into the earth ❤ Love you Ren!
This track feels like an icy blade sliding between my ribs. Its beautiful, haunting and so moving. I have felt those darkest of thoughts which Ren is subjected to but I *don't* suffer from insomnia. I cannot fathom how I would still be here if the problems we carry on our backs during our waking moments could not be addressed by truly precious sleep.
Probably found this video 5 years too late, but Gosh, you do describe insomnia just right. This song is a perfect representation of my thoughts when it is 5am and I already haven't slept for 2 days in a row. Need to show it to my therapist, because I couldn't describe it better
That part about if there’s a god why, that shit hit man....
This man is a musical genius
Somehow I just love the sentence "I hate not sleeping". Being so simple yet so so accurate. Sometimes I just lose it even tho trying to keep myself calm and end up being so mad on everything, completely everything. I hate not sleeping.
You probably won't see this on a 7 year old video, but my wife and I both feel like you were talking to both of us. This song describes us.
Ren, you are a generational talent. Please keep touching people as you have us.
The song is exactly how I feel, when I don’t sleep, which is regular. My minds so darn active, bodies screaming “sleep” but my minds going “nope”, it’s MY time to work- out, you’re going to listen to me……aggh, like a parasite living off my memories, darkest moments and fears. Bless you for sharing your great music.
Insomnia for me is existential sadness. It's the realisation that I exist in a reality surrounded by beings who cannot receive my heart felt message of love and truth which gives life meaning
We live in a shared reality fractured by individual perspectives
All we have to do is listen
Your lyrics ren, speak straight to the soul ❤️
More power to you
Me too. I constantly question my everything. I just sit/lay in bed and stair at this phone. It's my "job". I wear my heart paper clipped to my forehead. 7 months ago I gave up the drugs and the things that eat my brain scream even louder. And all the medicine.....well, I am sick. And my health is worse. "Insomnia" you said, I understand.
I know you're probably never gonna see this, Ren, but man, I feel you. I've dealt with depression my entire life and fuck is that shit hard to deal with. It's even worse when you have insomnia. I know it's just words on a screen but you got this, bro. Life's a bitch, we just gotta keep getting back up when it knocks us down.
2:04 The guitar part at the end is just great. This whole song is a vibe, I did not suffer from serious insomnia, just mild stuff for a limited period, but this is also like a story or someone explaining a scene from a movie, no need to experience it to love this one. I can easily picture a great movie that starts with this in my head (like this is the intro for example, and then we go back and explain the story coming to this point).
8am been trying to sleep all night thinking in rotation. Gonna get up and try again tonight. Hopefully ill get a few hours usually take about 36 hours awake for about 6hours sleep. 10 years diagnosis of brain tumours 2 surgeries to remove them and theres still some there. Big ups to ren youve had it much worse than me. Fuck insomnia!!
I feel this deep. My shrink just strolls by my visual and auditory hallucinations. I suggest therapies “Sorry, we don’t do that here.” Months between appointments. Shrugs if I call in on the emergency line.
Nothing we can do.
Damn this just wrecked me, I feel this so hard. I'm not going to go into all the reasons why. I've shared why on other comments. This song is a favorite, but for a different reason. I'm so very sorry that you went through this, I'm sorry to everyone that goes through any type of pain like this. It's a very lonely feeling
Just you is all I need say Thankyou lyrics poetry raw unspoken truth mind and thankyou for shareing your talent words that hit home
Wow, listening 5 years later - still feels like I haven’t changed for a little fucking piece.
Brother this world is made for joy. Pure joy. My joy - is sound
This one. Damn I feel it.
This is the realest song I've ever heard.
I haven't cried this much in months...😭💚
I've struggled with insomnia for years. This song encapsulates just how frustrating and miserable it is.
This song perfectly explains what I could not/can not.
Wow, that guitar! Real The XX vibes off it.
Music is the reason why I can't sleep at night mainly your music Ren so I'll do the only thing I can do and thank you
Hi Ren, I've just found you on RUclips, your less than half my age yet you've managed to say loads of stuff in your songs that has been rushing round my head for years. You are original and unique , and you say it as it is, thank you for putting it out there, I hope you know that your words are helping others, take care of yourself, and keep doing what your doing.
Me a week into an insomnia spell: I wish I didn’t relate to this so much. Another drink to try to summon the sheep, wishes that I’ll get a single peep of sleep 🙏🏻
I am so glad i found you and your music your music helps so many like myself who suffer daily mental and physical pain for that i thank you ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤.
I think the animosity is a given, Suffer, feel and I hope, you can find joy. Tomorrow comes or what may. Be at peace be bless and live while you can.
this song claims apart of my soul, still four years later
Jesus christ I relate.... Quit drinking and now I cant sleep. Just a swarm of shit in my head. Fears, anxieties, disappointments, regrets. This hit me right in the heart and I'm crying.
This song speaks to me so deeply. Have not so many of God's children begged the same questions? I also battle insomnia, I hate not sleeping. Thanks for this song, for sharing it with the world. I can't get it enough of it. Thank you Ren. The bleatings repeating, thank you Ren.
Man,Ren you must read minds I am here doing my c.c's crying and coloring and you friend have the uncanny frightening ability to read my mind, brilliant mate, just fantastic.😂
I wish I found him back when I hit rock bottom. right now I'm close to it again but fuckers like this keep me up. Keep it up brother, nothing worse than feeling alone on a planet of 7bill+ people. YOU. ARE. NOT. ALONE. Find the silver lining in any situation then relax and find the navigation to get up, get back on top and show the world you wont forever drop. your a beast in flip flops make em feel it.
Insomnia and exhaustion are my constant companions, so jealous of people who can sleep 8 hours!
Right now I would take 4 or 5 happily. Without drugs.
The guitar licks ❤
This is 100%, its unoquvically, exactly how I feel about my own life. The alcoholism, the suffering, never sleeping. Sweet dreams, Ren. ❤
The only problem with this track is that it's too short! Amazing stuff.
Insomniac here too...how profound
Fuck dude… everything is always shockingly good.
Oh Ren , you're wonderful ❤
Love this song my ptsd and sleep paralysis and nightmares I relate so much to
Hey been a fan of your new stuff. Now I am looking at all of your art. Because of Hi Ren I ended up checked into a mental health facility voluntarily. I for the first time since I was 6 am now able to sleep without nightmares and sleep each day. I was in that place for 5 days for them to make sure my insomnia and ptsd was covered along with bipolar. Never felt better. Self care and self help inspired by you. Thank you ❤
How are you faring lately? 2 months on.. Sending you care from across the world.
@@Ph4n_t0m fantastic! I got a good psychiatrist that listened to every word I said including experience with all of the wrong medications because of misdiagnoses. He gave me a fairly simple antipsychotic called SEROquel that helps calm my mind in the day as well as stabilize my reactions to situations. The best part for me is that it allows me to sleep. I don’t want to get into detail because I don’t need the pity from that. I’m just grateful I was able to find help when I needed it as well as recognize I could find the help I searched for. Much love to you and I hope the best of life’s experiences for you. Thank you for asking :)
@@NotSoBrown I'm really happy for you. Just be careful with Seroquel. Yes, it will knock you out and you'll sleep, but there are some unpleasant side effects that most people get and if you ever decide to go off it, don't do it cold turkey. You need to titrate down for a few months. I think I was on it for 11 years, but I can't really remember. Keep your dose as low as you possibly can, just enough to help you sleep and probably the rest of the mood dysregulation had heaps to do with not sleeping. And that could have been many things that I hope you're psychiatrist helps you get to the root of, and not just give you pills and that's the end of the fix. Sleeping naturally came to me briefly last year for about a month, almost, it was so nice. But then I found more stress and anxiety crept in and now for some reason I'm worse than ever and pills aren't even working. Plus just been put on dex not sure if it's keeping me awake.... but it helps me get focused and calmer, sorta. But not until late in the day then I want to work until all hours. I don't want to be negative, I just want you to be ok. Be careful. All the best
Your amazing, I don't know you or your road, but i've been on similar dark roads. So proud of you, sending you all the love and hugs. You got this.
@@zed4225 right back at ya
Awake at 4am (again), and I'm finding this resonate incredibly despite it being the first time hearing it. Stunning song, ta for sharing.
Its 5am I cant sleep usual shit ...
Just looking further into Ren tracks found this one ... wow relate to this one hard.. TY for sharing your music bro
Gets to a point where it's harder to close my eyes than keep them open
Ren this is BRILLIANT Bro!! 🔥🔥🔥
- I live Thru this as well.. 🙏🏻🙏🏻⁉️
Feeling every word of this down to my bones... so much love for you Ren ( and all of you here... 🕊)
Back atcha fellow RENegade, keep on keeping on💪🏻
@@zed4225 🤍
Ren is so talented..his music helps
I’m currently in my 6th month of a 12 month chemo plan. I haven’t slept very much and as I lay there so many thoughts run through my mind. I appreciate you putting words to how so many of us feel. Thank you!!!
Thank you so much for helping me trough the night. This song and you as a person absolutely don't get the appreciation that you deserve. Your songs are absolutely masterpieces ♥️
I don't know how many times I've listened to this the past few years
I didn't used to comment on things because I thought famous people wouldn't read it anyway but you are just a person, and if everyone was thinking like me no one would show appreciation.
I have an autistic friend ( I'm also autistic myself) and i let him listen to your music and it's the only time I have seen him cry. You really touch people
I really hope you are doing well and I am really looking forward to your new song.
Hope my English is understandable
🙏🏻
Damn this song I feel so hard with chronic pain and insomnia. I am so heartbroken it took me this long to find you but now that I have I am so grateful!
Lyrics:
What is it all for?
I've asked myself that question so many times now
It's become more worn than my Reebok classics
I'm a slave to frivolous habits
Of introspection with out any destination
Ruminating thoughts in constant rotation
Is this what it means to be conscious?
To constantly question our conscious
Despondently fall on my back horizontally
Under my bed there are monsters
They visit me when I try to sleep
They're those thoughts that play on repeat
They say Ren
You're always gonna suffer Ren
You're always gonna suffer
And I boomerang between optimism and pessimism
So much that my sanctuary could be a prison
What blinds me could give me vision
And what finds me is this indecision
Of what to do with these questions
Is there purpose?
Is there God?
And if there is God then God why?
Do I feel like this God
Are we not sculpted in your image?
And if so do you feel that pain?
Un-relinquishing pain like my brain got put under a Bunsen burner And torched until the membranes became flame
I hate not sleeping
I like the weekend because other people don't sleep either
Mindless TV shows irritate me
But they're my messiah
Because I can become brain dead
Wasted
Lost in trails of dry saliva
But I'm a survivor, a child of destiny
But this night has been testing me
Question the mess that's progressing undressing me
Stripping me naked and stuffing the stress in me
I used to use drinking as a way to stop thinking
And my problems with drinking made me feel like I was sinking
So I dried up my drink
And then I couldn't sleep a wink
And now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking
Now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking about nothing
Fucking nothing, and everything, and nothing
I hate not sleeping
So I lie here trying to count sheep
And their bleating's repeating
My bleeding heart it is beating
And beating eaten
My sleep is depleting
Pleading for healing is fleeting
Longing for sleepless or [?]
Peak in, I weep in the sheets
It's doubling doubley troubled
It's ugly bleak, it's so bleak, it's so bleak
And I lost my mind
On a line
I hate not sleeping
I hate not sleeping
Longing for sleep that's so deep it's peak
Good God man! How do you know the words that are in my head? Song after song you give a voice to all those thoughts. I know this song is a few years old but JFC this is exactly what we need.
I've been listening to your music for months now but somehow this one got missed. I started Addy's today and then I just found this song. I feel so many of these words right now, I feel like a shell of myself. Tired of suffering. Good song...
Just found your music after hi Ren broke the internet and was constantly on my feed and I’m so glad i clicked on it. I love your music and some of your songs are just hitting so hard, this one, depression, dear god to name a few
Ren, i just wanna say thank you. I've been depressed for 6 years now. I drink my problems away.. U help me through a lot, even going to rehab in a few months. Thank you.
Good luck I wish you all the best in your journey
I hope things are better for you now. 😁
Hope it went well for you bro
I hope it went well!
@@giammy0 rehab went great :) best thing i ever did. Thank you so much!
After a couple nights you start hearing things that aren't there. After four or five you start seeing em and you'll try just about anything to shut down but it probably won't work. Night six you just start to think, this is my life now. I guess the point is, instead of laying down and shifting for twelve hours like me knowing it won't work, maybe just get up and do something with the time.
I love this.. @Ren
"[I'm] a child of Destiny"
That you are, Ren. There's purpose to your pain, and purpose to your life. Your pain is your suit of armour now and you can stand proud and truimpant in it. Your Shine within gleams off your armour's reflection and casts light to those still in darkness. An Old Soul Torchbearer
These words stick in my head the way he puts the rhythm to the speech it's awesome
Insomnia is my constant reluctant companion. It sucks! I've been house bound for 6+yrsn, operation, after op ×5 and I'm currently waiting for last and it'll be my final form. Then I need to worry about the brain aneurysm op. Blessings from Scotland. 🙏🏴🌹
Sad this but relate too your lyrics there are words we listen too but words that can stick with us why because when we relate we get it understand pain the way depression can strike through our bones god bless ren Thanku for shareing your talent
Im just speechless.. how he hits every feeling and thought i have.. down to counting sheep i am just truly blessed i found you..
I've listened to a lot of your songs, but I think this is my favourite. It clicks with me on another level. The desperation, the suffering. It fits, and it makes me want to scream, but instead, I listen.
Me listening to this at 4am .-. I feel you.
Growing up I could never sleep at other kids houses. The few times I did (try)I ended up having my mom pick me up. “ Oh, she’s homesick.” No, I was just anxious because I was the only one awake in a strange place. I always said to my mom “ CBL” ( come back later) because if I knew that she was coming back in ( and she actually did) then I also knew that I wasn’t the only one still awake. I used to sit stare out the window, watch the cars driving around and the lights still on in surrounding buildings.