Her mother asked her if she wanted to go this dark with the album. She said singing about it keeps her from doing it. In an interview she answered honestly and said that at one point she was in a really bad place mentally and considered jumping from the roof or a window. She has said she’s much better now.
Great reaction. In her documentary, you can actually see the very moment she wrote that rooftop line in this song. That scared me, just as it did her mother. But you're right, she's writing about all the jumbled emotions swirling around in her head. This is her way of expressing and release.
I’ll echo what someone else said about this. In the Billie documentary “the worlds a little blurry”, it shows her mom come to the room and ask about the lyrics to the song..and if she was implying that she’d really jump off the roof. There’s no way out..but down (off the rooftop). Billie tells her mom that writing the song is her way of dealing with the feelings. It’s better to write about it than actually doing it..better than actually going through with it.
She wrote it, and ever younger than 17 cause that’s how old she was when the song was released but it was written before that. Edit: Everything I Wanted also mentions her suicidal thoughts, everything she wanted was to die, you should check that one out, it has a MV.
this song has aged very well. i feel the same feels when i hear it now that i did when i first heard it. in her documentary, this song is featured throughout. it's one of her catalog that stands out as being mostly written by her and there's a bit of family drama around it. i would say it was probably written when she was 16 (edit: 15). she had released the album about 3 months after her birthday and the album was mostly in the can by december. i recommend the doc, too.
Completely agree with you saying that this song focuses on the concept of sorry. They often do that, like in Bellyache when they play with “mind”. Yeah, she was actually 15/16 ish when she wrote the song. And it was her who wrote it. And of course Finneas is also part of it but this wasn’t one of “his” songs, so to speak. In fact, like someone pointed out, there seems to a kind of affinity thematically between this song and Everything I Wanted, also because they talked in interviews about how they got into a discussion because Finneas didn’t feel comfortable continuously supporting her in making such negative songs any more, so they agreed to focus on their relationship in that song instead, which gives it that more hopeful upswing thematically at least, and I think is a great stepping stone between the albums, and her state of mind and mental health progressing as well. Having said that, I’m in my 30s and my first suicide attempt was when I was 14. Being a teenager was the worst. Nothing made sense, you were treated both like an adult and a child depending on what best suited other people’s needs. You were trapped and underdeveloped, understanding and experiencing shifts in life but simultaneously powerless. Not saying my twenties were good or thirties are great but they were definitely better than my teen years. So it doesn’t surprise me at all
Great to run into you again Tommy it has been too long. Leave it to Billie Eilish to bring us back together for a reaction. I agree with all your commentary and hope you enjoyed it. This id one of her darkest and most painful renderings, yet beautiful as always. Any way good to see you well and back on the Billie train. Take care my friebs.
Great reaction. You might enjoy reacting to Male Fantasy and Happier Than Ever. She also does a great live performance of Sally's Song from Nightmare Before Christmas, and Fever, from Peggy lee tribute.
It’s been a long time. I don’t remember what all you’ve reacted to from her. If you haven’t already, I would recommend these: Happier Than Ever The 30th My Future Male Fantasy Your Power Thanks for moving back to some Billie and Finneas material!
Hey Tommy! You and Billie ... two blasts from the past! I hope you're doing well (and Billie of course!). I hope you are sitting down because I have to tell you she was much younger than 17 when she wrote this song. Here's her performing it all on her own in a tiny venue as a 15 year old child! ruclips.net/video/ilfK0t_l_GY/видео.html
Hi Tommy, I'm new to your channel and I came from your "mahumodo" video, interesting opinions, and excellent reaction content. I would like to recommend you a song by LOATHE, called "two way mirror" you will surely be quite surprised. instrumentally it sounds heavy but the vocals are beautiful. fun fact: loathe' vocalist isa good friend with sleep token's vocalist. (sorry for my bad english)
Her mother asked her if she wanted to go this dark with the album. She said singing about it keeps her from doing it. In an interview she answered honestly and said that at one point she was in a really bad place mentally and considered jumping from the roof or a window. She has said she’s much better now.
Fuck I love this song and hearing that makes it so much more heartbreaking
Great reaction. In her documentary, you can actually see the very moment she wrote that rooftop line in this song. That scared me, just as it did her mother.
But you're right, she's writing about all the jumbled emotions swirling around in her head. This is her way of expressing and release.
I’ll echo what someone else said about this. In the Billie documentary “the worlds a little blurry”, it shows her mom come to the room and ask about the lyrics to the song..and if she was implying that she’d really jump off the roof. There’s no way out..but down (off the rooftop). Billie tells her mom that writing the song is her way of dealing with the feelings. It’s better to write about it than actually doing it..better than actually going through with it.
She wrote it, and ever younger than 17 cause that’s how old she was when the song was released but it was written before that. Edit: Everything I Wanted also mentions her suicidal thoughts, everything she wanted was to die, you should check that one out, it has a MV.
I think that was the song I discovered her with tbh. I’ve done quite a few of her songs on the channel :)
@@ThomasJ_Music oh I didn’t know that. I’m gonna check that out 😉
Please I recommend watching her live performance of this. She is on piano as she sings it is hauntingly beautiful
this song has aged very well. i feel the same feels when i hear it now that i did when i first heard it. in her documentary, this song is featured throughout. it's one of her catalog that stands out as being mostly written by her and there's a bit of family drama around it. i would say it was probably written when she was 16 (edit: 15). she had released the album about 3 months after her birthday and the album was mostly in the can by december. i recommend the doc, too.
I feel like Listen Before I Go is the perfect predecessor to Everything I Wanted. Beautiful music and I loved your reaction. :)
My favourite forever ❤️ i love this so much
I think this is one of her best songs
it truly is
YOU explained this song so well I agreed and experienced the same exact things while listening to it
Just discovered ur Billie reactions and in listening to it backlog. More Billie please! New sub!!!
Completely agree with you saying that this song focuses on the concept of sorry. They often do that, like in Bellyache when they play with “mind”.
Yeah, she was actually 15/16 ish when she wrote the song. And it was her who wrote it. And of course Finneas is also part of it but this wasn’t one of “his” songs, so to speak. In fact, like someone pointed out, there seems to a kind of affinity thematically between this song and Everything I Wanted, also because they talked in interviews about how they got into a discussion because Finneas didn’t feel comfortable continuously supporting her in making such negative songs any more, so they agreed to focus on their relationship in that song instead, which gives it that more hopeful upswing thematically at least, and I think is a great stepping stone between the albums, and her state of mind and mental health progressing as well.
Having said that, I’m in my 30s and my first suicide attempt was when I was 14. Being a teenager was the worst. Nothing made sense, you were treated both like an adult and a child depending on what best suited other people’s needs. You were trapped and underdeveloped, understanding and experiencing shifts in life but simultaneously powerless. Not saying my twenties were good or thirties are great but they were definitely better than my teen years. So it doesn’t surprise me at all
Great to run into you again Tommy it has been too long. Leave it to Billie Eilish to bring us back together for a reaction. I agree with all your commentary and hope you enjoyed it. This id one of her darkest and most painful renderings, yet beautiful as always. Any way good to see you well and back on the Billie train. Take care my friebs.
This, I Love You and Everything I Wanted were the songs I posted on Facebook when trying to explain the issues I was having.
Great reaction. You might enjoy reacting to Male Fantasy and Happier Than Ever. She also does a great live performance of Sally's Song from Nightmare Before Christmas, and Fever, from Peggy lee tribute.
This song was actually originally written when she was around 14. She wrote that because that was how she felt 😢
It’s been a long time. I don’t remember what all you’ve reacted to from her. If you haven’t already, I would recommend these:
Happier Than Ever
The 30th
My Future
Male Fantasy
Your Power
Thanks for moving back to some Billie and Finneas material!
She was 15 yo when she wrote this song
& she was 17yo when she released it
You vaping really suit the songs depressing mood
Hey Tommy! You and Billie ... two blasts from the past! I hope you're doing well (and Billie of course!). I hope you are sitting down because I have to tell you she was much younger than 17 when she wrote this song. Here's her performing it all on her own in a tiny venue as a 15 year old child! ruclips.net/video/ilfK0t_l_GY/видео.html
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Hi Tommy, I'm new to your channel and I came from your "mahumodo" video, interesting opinions, and excellent reaction content. I would like to recommend you a song by LOATHE, called "two way mirror" you will surely be quite surprised. instrumentally it sounds heavy but the vocals are beautiful. fun fact: loathe' vocalist isa good friend with sleep token's vocalist. (sorry for my bad english)
Could you react to her new album that has just come out today?🙏🏼
Im begging you to check out Laura Nyro and her 1975 album "Smile", an absolute gem of jazz/pop singing like none other
Love her song Desiree and her cover of It's Gonna Take a Miracle.
I wish my parents could understand how he thinks and views