@Kaitlyn Darbinian -- the effects of the drug abuse are long term so maybe before you cry for do some research , I know someone in that situation and now we the public are supporting him , do yourself a favor and keep your family and loved ones away from these people
@Kaitlyn Darbinian -- maybe your to close to the problem, one person's addiction is another person's hobby I went through this bullshit with a family member, he fried his brain, he had drug psychosis from prolonged and severe drug use, he's now a very sick person that has no business on the street with normal people, so you save your bleeding heart for when one of them has a psychotic break and hurts you or a loved one. They are broken ticking time bomb's you folks acknowledge that rapist are never cured stop thinking you can rewire the brain in other regards, and if they are so normal let them work !!
I have to be careful what I watch. It's a fine line. I also pulled my eyelashes out till I was @ 21. I'm having a bad episode right now. You are inspiring me to hang in there. Hugs
Christina it’s totally normal during the teenage years to wonder about yourself. That doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with you. Take care , life it’s beautiful!
Christina Karathanasis I used to pull my hair out. It’s called trichitillomania. I got therapy for it and did habit reversal therapy and learnt techniques and stuff. I don’t do it as much now. Hang in there everyone xxx
my father (now deceased) had schizophrenia and i started watching videos like this to understand more what he was going through, and unexpectedly it made me understand why he was never there... and because of this, i couldnt ever blame him or put him down, i would feel horrible if i made him feel bad. but your video touched my heart the most, im an empath so im very heartbroken for you... i dont know your religious views but i will be praying for you.
wtf I’m so happy to help people understand mental illness and the people who suffer from them, it’s what my channel is all about. I’m sorry about your father. It’s good how understanding you are with him and I hope people appreciate your care. I definitely appreciate your prayers for me.
you remind me so much of my brother in law. I seriously wish you the best and thank you for showing this as hard as I'm sure it was. try to stay positive.
I pulled a huge lock out of my hair once when I had psychosis, and looking in the mirror was weird too, the fact that you know you’re even having an episode shows you have great awareness hope you get better man praying for you
Psychosis is the most terrifying thing there is. You’re extremely paranoid on top of thinking something horrible is going to happen or even seeing people come after you or chase you. I’ve been convinced so many times I was going to die. I’ve ran through the woods for hours with no shoes or shirt. I’ve also been hit by a car while running from someone who wasn’t there
I hope you're doing well right now. Watching this 5 years later, after a curiosity of how this illness is. After a stint with drug abuse, I'm scared I might've "broken" my mind. Time will tell. But I truly wish you well.
I used to have that fear when I tried weed a few times and had very bad trips every single time. Some peoples brains/personality cannot handle drugs, especially the anxious type. I have anxiety, so it just never went well when I consumed cannabis. I used to think each time it went badly (and it went very badly) that I somehow "broke" my mind. I thought this for a long time. I assure you, you didn't break your mind. But you may have caused your mind some trauma from the experience. I know I did. The good news is, trauma is something you can completely heal from! It just takes time and it's best done with a therapist. I can't say enough good things about therapy and I believe everyone on this planet needs it! (and deserves it). So if I can ease your mind at all, brains are such resilient things, even after the worst of trips a person could have. Not an excuse to put yourself through potential trauma though. So please avoid drugs whoever reads this
Dude you're doing amazing. I cant imagine what it would be like to be hallucinating all these things and knowing its all in your head. I was surprised by how calm you were as I've never seen a legitimate schizophrenic episode play out in real life. I think from everything you described, you're doing amazing to be coping so well
Trictilomania can be a side effect of some psychiatric drugs, it’s a form of OCD, which can be a side effect... even psychosis can also be a side effect in some cases... you may have a case of your brain not being able to shut off your dreaming state while you are awake. Much of what you describe is very much the way the brain works when we dream, very fractured and stuff with intense feelings or sometimes no feeling. You need to stay away from scary movies or weird imagery in real life cuz it just plants more weird stuff in your brain. Thank you so much for describing this... you’re basically having a nightmare while you are awake. Science is showing studies that are making a correlation to “schizophrenia” being a potential sleep disorder, again where your brain is unable to shut its dream state off while you’re awake. If all of us started to dream while we were awake, we’d all sound pretty strange cuz that’s what the dreamworld can be, but it can also be glorious and magical. Scary images are just the expression of your fear via symbols and imagery and emotion. Try to breathe into this when it happens and try to become aware that you’re just continuing to dream while awake and that these images are not real even tho I’m sure it also feels like one of those dreams that’s really real. Sometimes when I’m having a nightmare I try to turn around and talk to that scary thing that’s chasing me and ask it what it wants. It may be difficult to do this while you’re in this state, but mostly try to focus on the idea that what your brain is doing is just dreaming and sort of relax into it, sometimes the more you fight it the scarier it gets because you’re feeling scared so the imagery keeps being scary, the more scared you get the more you see scary imagery cuz it’s just your brain finding images to express that fear. try to look at positive imagery around you just try to keep your brain focused on the positive not the negative or the fear of the experience or it may just make it worse. Does that make sense? And perhaps start looking into what’s called “lucid dreaming”. Look up therararabbit maxwell hunter on you tube. He experiences things like you, except slightly different but has learned to use lucid dreaming to help sort of quell the voices that he hears while he’s awake. I have sleep paralysis so I kinda have a taste of what you’re going through. When I experience this, the key for me is to kinda go with the fear rather than fight it to get to the other side of it... I think the most important thing you can do is try to RELAX and do exactly what you’re doing by talking about it...Talk about it among people who are supportive, kinda like we all have to talk about our dreams when we have weird dreams which we all have. It helps you gain control and play observer rather than get lost in the “psychosis” or give it power. Make sense? Keeps you in the drivers seat. If you can’t talk to anyone just try to hang onto the positive in yourself, look at positive imagery and know that this WILL PASS. CRITICAL YOU MUST GET GOOD SLEEP, even tho I know sometimes this makes going back to sleep scary but sleep deprivation in and of itself can cause “hallucinations” which just means that our brain goes into a dream state even while we are awake because our dreaming is how it processes the world around us. And it will begin to do it even if our body remains awake. So that’s very similar to what’s happening with you when you have these episodes. I think you just have some form of what I have with sleep paralysis except it just lasts longer and your not paralyzed. But I think the reason you have scary imagery is because you’re rightfully scared. Your body is starting to do something that you can’t control and it’s very scary. And so the images just kinda keep adding up. The good news is your lucid enough to realize that it’s happening which is critical, now just try and keep your mind in a positive direction AND RELAX because by relaxing you release the fear. And in someways I almost think you have to kind of relax into it and realize it’s just a dream and let it sort of speak to you, sort of watch it like a movie, so that you are distanced from it, from the experience, keeps your waking mind or conscious mindSort of in control on some level. Does Any ofthis make Sense? When you say your “paranoid“, you’re just having a scary dream, so of course you’re feeling paranoid, usually scary dreams make us feel paranoid but mostly just scared. Sometimes I try to watch funny movies or just try to surround yourself with positive imagery and watch a lot of comedies or lighthearted movies just move your brain into a more positive space. I hope this helps my friend. You’re going to be OK. There are places that are truly helping people who suffer from this affliction. Look up a therapy that’s called open dialogue, apparently it has an 80% “cure” rate Even for people who have so-called schizophrenia. Feel free to message me on my channel take good care. Look up a documentary about open dialogue, look up the filmmaker Daniel Mackler and the movie, “take these broken wings.” Also if you Google is schizophrenia a sleep disorder, you will begin to find increasing studies showing that there is a correlation between “psychosis” and dreaming. That it may be a simple case of a sleep disorder where your brain is just continuing to dream while you were awake. The key is to move into a state where you can learn to work with that dream state so it is less scary and recognizable as just that - a dream state. And everyone can relate to how strange dreams can be, so you’re not weird your brain isn’t weird, just dreams are. It’s the nature of dreams, they’re strange and we all have weird and strange dreams, mostly that’s trying to recognize it , that’s all you’re experiencing and stay in a place where you can feel reassured that you’re not losing your mind. Also avoid stressful situations because that makes it worse and just stay away from people who aren’t supportive. They’re idiots. Wishing you the best sending you lots of love, you’re going to be OK. And thank you for being so courageous as to share your experiences.
@Boris Karajuan The increased risk of psychotic symptoms only applies to strains which have a high ratio of THC to Cannabidiol (i.e. Sativa strains). Cannabidiol dominant strains (i.e. Indica strains), on the other hand, are anti-psychotic. Sativas have high relatively unopposed THC (hallucinogen) levels. This tends to be activating, but in some people it can cause increased anxiety and even paranoia. Long term use can result in effects similar to those of long term high dose amphtamine use. Indicas have relatively higher canabadiol (CBD) levels which moderate the effects of the THC that is present. Indicas tend to be so sedating that most people can only use indicas at night. BMJ
@Boris Karajuan www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2005/04/050419105717.htm Taking pure THC is nothing like taking the huge plethora of cannabinoids present in different strains of cannabis. Pure THC can cause healthy subjects to experience psychotic symptoms.
@@kelskels1001 when you come off a drug that keeps you up and the psychosis is kinda mellowed out from drinking as a sleep med, as soon as I smoke weed I begin to hear the voices and see the shadows. This guy actually has control of hos fear where he is aware that he's talking out his experience. He's tough
Hi everybody. I have never done this before, but somebody attempted to comment with a link to a great short film following a woman with schizophrenia. (link at end of this comment) For some reason it does not seem to be visible in the comments section. I truly empathized with the main character's experiences and hope that this can help my viewers better understand the condition and for people with these issues to know they're not alone or hopeless. Our world needs more media like this. Thank you to Eric Lindstrom and his staff for this short film on Vimeo: vimeo.com/165716867
I hope you get better. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Sometimes I'm paranoid like this but my paranoia is rarely a problem unlike it was before. Get better and stay strong. You've got this, I believe in you
For many, experiencing a "bad trip" comes naturally and completely unwanted and unexpectedly through the terrifying symptoms of a psychotic episode, like with this unfortunate person in the video. It boggles my mind that some people actually choose to take drugs in order to experience similar feelings of not being in control of what you are seeing, hearing, or feeling. This is why I don't do drugs. I would never voluntarily choose to trip out, I experience it plenty when I have PMDD psychosis. It's not fun and it's not fair :( But it is my journey. Hope you're doing better, My Odd Experiences! You are not alone! Hang in there and keep fighting the good fight of spreading awareness like you're doing. People will accept it more when they see that it affects people who are just that - people. Good luck and take good care of yourself
I have schizoaffective disorder and I also see other faces in the mirror. I also make videos of my psychosis. You’re brave and I appreciate not being the only one trying to raise awareness about what it’s like to have schizophrenia.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I am currently a nursing student learning about psychosis and mental illness and this helped me understand what my patients may or may not be experiencing with their hallucinations. Stay strong!
You are been watched by someone who absolutely applauds your bravery. You have amazing insight and the ability to share your experience with others is both heartbreaking and courageous. Thank you for sharing. I am a mental health clinician and one of the things I try really hard to do is understand the experience of the person. What you have shared is admirable and will help both me and the people I work with. Thank you and I wish you the best of wellness and happiness for your future xo
Man, I hope that someone comes up with better ways to help people that have this problem. It sucks that someone has to go through this. I wish you well.
Awe, that's a very sweet thing to say, but don't feel guilty! While I have OCD instead of schizophrenia, I wouldn't wish it on others. In fact, a lot of the neuro-typical people around me keep me grounded and help with the symptoms! That's one of the best things you could do. Also have an open mind, learn, empathize and spread awareness 😊
as a fellow schizophrenic, watching these kinds of videos and finding other people to relate to makes me feel good. knowing i’m not the only one, i guess. thank you for documenting it for all of our nosey asses to see. keeping you in my thoughts, brother.
How long episode last plz tell because my sister having scizophrenia episode right now she is talking with hallucinations not eating not drinking water I m tensed
I have schizophrenia as well, I know exactly what you mean. You feel you're in a place of infinite space and no space at all. Like everything and nothing all at once existing in a strange dimension. I cried at the end, you're so true, definitely avoid scary things.
Fair play, you handle yourself very well. My girlfriends sister is suffering with this and you have helped me better understand. I hope you are doing well
This is amazing. I'm so glad you had the courage to share your experience with psychosis as it is happening. I'm sorry you are struggling. Just know you are helping to empower the entire MI community. Feel free to reach out at any time!
@Victor learn to spell your before calling something stupid also if God doesn't exist why call him/it stupid then? it's clear you're just ignorant as well a miserable person,your ignorance will be the end of you one day. find happiness instead of tearing people down.
@Victor wow....if that's the case then I guess you're just as stupid for believing we evolved from ape like creatures or that the universe formed from a random big expansion,at least the God one makes sense,evolution and the big bang is just moronic and nonsensical,you honestly think everything in life is just random and pointless ? it's pretty obvious you know there's a God of some sort,you just don't want to accept accountability for your actions,whatever that may be. if a God doesn't exist, why don't you ignore people who comment on it,instead of being immature,childish and a bully?
If there is a Christian god, a god who create us and give a particuliar attention to his creation on earth, dont you think that he would already know all of the situation, if he made every one of us and every litle thing down to the atoms, including Schizophrenia in youngs innocent kids. my point being, if there is a god, or he isnt all that powerfull OR he is kinda straight up evil.
I hope you’re okay. I have very close friends who suffer from schizophrenia and psychosis, and I know my fair share about psychology, I suffer from adhd, social anxiety and depression. I learn a lot about things with my therapist. I really hope you’re okay and you get better soon, I know how debilitating mental illnesses like this can be.
W e can tell you/re suffering. I wish I could help. You are very brave to endure this on camera in order to try and educate us. I pray you're feeling better now. Thank you.
I have someone dear to me with the same thing. This person talks to us when they are having a episode and we use distractions tools. We even write it down put to paper it helps to control the episode take charge. We also have animals to help with the anxiety. While I completely understand this stuff doesn’t solve a episode it really helps them get through it and keep in touch with the fact it’s not real outside of their thoughts. Thank you so much for being so raw and true. Beautiful person I wish u the best.
Thanks for sharing. I'm diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar. This video reminds me of experiences I've had in the past. Once I seen nooses that I actually touched.
Your not alone dude..I'm going through a psychotic episode right now What I'm hearing is a static hiss, However plain static sounds with a quiet and very disturbingly distinctive long hiss, it's just the sssssssssssssssssssssss part, White and black dots of Multiple shades and shapes turn into Demonic-Like symbols, but there not demonic but actual words being said but.....Imagine a Glass one way mirror and add another mirror behind it with static instead of glass, then if you were to think of the word the word is trapped in the static mirror but you can hear the word and its displayed on the mirror in front of it but messed up, Geometry like demonic real words And this figure I'm seeing is an 8'3 Black male, Distinctively black from his voice but toned down, Picture the voice you would hear in a Ghost hunter episode on an EVP but deep, and static He is completely Chared in 4th degree like burns, But fresh blood and black ooze drip from his freshly cuts and gashes, Revealing blood red Muscles, Bones and veins...Eyes nothing but a Neon Red but instead of the pupil and iris of the eyes, it fades into a pure white from the Neon Red, he smells like how Weed smells but added with a combination of a smell of a sugar like substance, kinda like syrup and very old moldy Orange His teeth are pure matte black and silver Serrated Razor blades, All jagged and has 3 rows of them from the roof to the gums, to the and the bottom 1 row is completely straight like real teeth, they are about the size of a pinkie finger in length My hands are shaking very violently, Like if you were to grab a titanium rod and smack it on a rock, the sensation of a dead numb hand and Electric like pain Leg will not stop feeling like its sweaty but when I go to wipe it away all that comes back on my hand is very very tiny broken peices of glass in Clumps Your not alone in this dude, I know it's not exactly what it's like for you, but what I see is Overwhelmingly violent
Thank you for sharing your experience. My heart completely goes out to you. Amidst all of what you are seeing and thinking, it seems like you're handling it very well. You're remaining calm and thinking through things despite all of the hallucinations telling you to think differently. This disease I believe is turning you into a courageous person, as most people do not have the kind of challenges that you have. Watching your video helps me to admire you and all the other people who suffer from schizophrenia. I will keep you in my prayers.
I have visual schizophrenia never have gotten auditory and seem to have similiar symptoms as well as not just seeing shadow people by incarnated people driven by demons. Would you say its a HSP feeling that comes over you high sensitivity and less to do with energy intensity in psychosis?
I have physcosis and I thought I was being haunted by something thousands of years old. Used to make me do some fucked up shit, you are not alone whether it's real or not i dont know. the mind is a powerful tool.
I know this is old but I hope you have a support system, I wish I could be there for everyone in your position. I hate that there hasn’t been a break in a cure or anything better than what’s out there now. I wish I could take your pain away, I wish I was smart enough to help people in like situations. I can’t imagine how Covid is to you or others suffering like you seem to be. I am so sorry I am not there to frigging hold you and tell you everything isn’t real while you’re going through these what must be horrible things. Why the brain decides to pick the shittiest things to show you instead of pretty, happy or loving things....just know that although I might as well be a rock lying in a driveway, I’m rooting for something or someone to change how your life is right now. My family and I are here wishing you keep yourself safe and to hopefully one day be helped more than in this video shows. Lots of hugs.
Please update us -- how brave ARE you? Amazing person. It must be that people with exceptional intellect experience these things - not to mention people with heightened emotions. Wait... I THINK I see you on a side note... maybe it's an update. I can't fathom the pain of what you are enduring. Go as slow as you can with your thoughts and tell those bastard visions to move on. Thank you for making this video. You have helped me understand this issue and broadened my empathy in general for the struggles we all have.
Thank you for your understanding. Lately I’ve been focusing my energy into getting ready to get back into school and get my degree. It’s become harder to communicate as time went on and the thought making new videos scares me. I still should make them and stop making excuses. I have a Q&A ready, I just have to record it
Thank you for sharing this and the internal hell that is schizophrenia. This episode looks terrifying and I can't even imagine what was happening in your head and how scary it was. Keep sharing your story, it's important.
This heartbreaking and hard to watch. I hope you've found your way and got the right kind of treatment. I believe in ghost, & all kinds of of other stuff (I've seen them also) and I'm not schizophrenic so it's not stupid to believe in those things, especially when they're so real to you. Thank you for sharing, what your doing is helping people to understand schizophrenia.
You are so brave for enduring that and taking the time to describe it. A lot of people are incredibly misinformed or unaware of these things and it is huge that you would take the time to provide insight to your experiences. I hope you are doing well
Me myself haven’t experienced a full blown psychotic episode but I was on the verge after a bad trip on marijuana. My mind got more and more stressed because I felt something was really off. After a while I started having anxiety attacks and then it went into panic attacks. My family took me to the hospital and they told me I had gotten anxiety and if I didn’t sleep nor eat or didn’t take more of psychedelics then it would turn for the worse and I would most likely end up in a psychosis. My anxiety still didn’t calm down though after hearing this, because I was still 100% sure I would develop a psychosis. I even started hallucinating, seeing dimmed lights flashing even though they didn’t and started hearing people saying my name when they clearly said something else. I even heard planes fly buy my ears or flies buzzing in my head when I was about to sleep. This would of course make me get even more panic so I started going on medications (which I still use) Zoloft or antidepressants to cure my panic and that helped a lot. Now (after half a year since the bad trip) I don’t have these weird hallucinations or the anxiety but I still feel distorted, like I’m not in my body and that everything feels like a movie that happens in front of my eyes plus a lot more minor things but this is durable. So I can really relate to this even though I have never experienced it and I hope that he gets back to normal. I can see that this guy has a lot of willpower and I think that will help him get trough this. He is also open to talk about his struggles which is the main key to recovery. Me myself is also good at this and my psychologist told me that that’s the reason I managed to avoid a psychosis, and I can see that he also has that. And almost everybody gets trough a psychosis, even schizophrenia, especially if you manage to talk with people who helps! So I wish you all the best, and I believe in you! You will recover!
I’m so sorry you have to go through this my older sister is a full on schizophrenic and I understand all to well. It’s heartbreaking hearing your story and to know my sister goes through the same things when she is off her meds.
I'm not Schizophrenic, but I do have psychotic episodes. I completely understand your hallucinations and paranoia. My hallucinations come in the form of hearing things. It's not always voices, but sometimes it's just phantom sounds. I have a "sort of" mantra that I repeat to myself when things get bad. I start saying out loud, who I am, where I live, who my family is, etc. It seems to help ground me by saying what is true and real.
Im.sorry man. I watch these cause I have a friend whonwont seek help. I want to help her. This is scary. It's like you're tripping all the time. Nonstop, triggers or not. Thank you for your videos. My other friend with schizophrenia says he came up with a system of checks. And don't fear the feelings. God bless you man.
First thank you for trusting us to share the experience with. It has to be so hard to “keep it together”. My best friend is schizophrenic, he says that Im one of the only ones he shares with because he has never felt that I was “one of them” like everyone else. That it’s s conspiracy to get him. He sees creatures with glowing eyes and aliens. I know it’s really tough for him finding the right mix of meds, I wish you the very best in that. He says he frequently experiences paresthesia. He now has a concoction that keeps it more than bearable almost all the time. I wish you wellness happiness peace and safety. Enjoy
I’m so sorry that you have to suffer from this. But I’m glad you are aware of the situation. Currently I have someone very close to me, who is having these episodes where he thinks people are following him and trying to kill him. He thinks that everything is hacked and all I can do is listen to him. If I tell him that it’s not happening he will become enraged. I don’t know how to help him and it scares me, because I know how scared he is.
I have depression and sometimes with psychosis... Right now I have burn out and anxiety... 😩 Thank you for posting this video! You are brave! ❤ I hope you feel better now! ❤
My heart breaks for you :( I said a prayer for you. And I want to thank you for sharing this as it gives me much better insight into how my cousin who has schizophrenia is really feeling. Best wishes to you
i know this is a old video but i hope you what you were going through mellowed out and still does to this day . kinda want to give you a hug because i feel so bad , stay strong ,i know that i don't know you personally but just know that i care.
It's interesting that you're having hear symptoms and yet are able to describe them with perfect clarity and insight and articulate them coherently. When my sister was psychotic she didn't hear voices or hallucinate but she couldn't speak coherently and her thoughts were all jumbled up and she'd just ramble about nonsense. There's no way she would have been able to have the clarity of thought to make a video and talk about her experience. I suppose different people....
Love you. sweet baby you are so amazing and perfect. you are perfect. do you hear me? You are so amazing intelligent ypu have so much potential and you are so STRONG. love love love your way
You poor soul. I really feel for you. I wish you had shared if you were on meds or not or what kind. I feel for You deeply. I have mental illnesses but not the same type but have had psychosis before. I still have anxiety. I do know the feeling of closing your eyes and seeing all the crazy shit. One of my meds did that to me. So my Doctor said sit back and enjoy the movie and watch it. I'm like ugh it's crazy scary stuff playing lol. I do hope your doing well. Thank you for sharing this with other RUclipsrs. It actually shows how good you are doing so give your self some credit. You also said your a skeptic. I believe some Phrenic's have a extra sense.
I am sending you so much love, you’re so strong hang in there 🙏🏼 please look into medical medium heavy metal detox smoothie it helps a lot and his info for this condition. I have it too but it has gotten much better 💛
I know you don't know me but my heart goes out to you and if you ever need a friend or just someone to talk to always here you are a brave individual to share your story
Thank you so much for recording this. You explain your experience so well. I train volunteers at a crisis hotline. I've talked to a lot of people who sound a lot like you in this video. Would it be OK with you if I used this video to help explain psychotic episodes to our volunteers?
Sara Knox Go for it :) Just keep in mind that this video represents a mild and more lucid episode. They may have it worse than I do in this video, but helping ground them and calming them down would definitely be helpful in the short term and long term because they'll learn more about how to ground and calm themselves which makes so much of a difference. I really appreciate what you do and that you want to improve your ability to help. I think I'll make a video on how to get help, not just for psychotic disorders. Do you have advice on what information I should look for?
Just found your channel on my recommended I've liked and subscribed bro I can relate to your hallucination of clown makeup, I have schizoaffective disorder and I have auditory hallucinations much more than visual, I have been hearing "clown voices" among others in my walls for a few years now and its just terrifying. I try and stick with medications but I feel like it's poison sometimes. Lately I've been microdosing mushrooms and it helps more that bud atm. Just curious if you've found any psychedelics that have been useful to your particular disorder?
Thank you for the like, sub, and comment! I personally prefer to stick with my antipsychotics and mood stabilizers when it comes to treating my schizophrenia. The side effects suck, but they’re the most helpful treatment I’ve had. I also think CBD oil helps me with anxiety and hallucinations. I recognize that THC and psilocybin can be used effectively as medicine for issues like anxiety, but in my opinion, they can do more harm than good when it comes to treating schizophrenia specifically. It varies between people, some people with schizophrenia will be fine, but some could be pushed further into psychosis from these drugs. In my opinion it’s not a risk worth taking for schizophrenia. Whatever you end up doing, I hope your treatment helps you and your disorder gets better. Best of luck to you!
Would you like to talk about the philosophy and meditation I developed to overcome schizophrenia. I “overcome” daily because after being diagnosed for 18 years my experience feeling like everything is psychic is extremely positive and interpreting by some people are narcissistic. “I love you” and “I know” are the most common channeled observations of myself
My son had all the same symptoms , but now he is on meds and doing much better. I thought I will loose him, but things so much better, but of course many side effects from meds. Hope you doing better.
I'm just curious, have you gotten better ? I'm going through something so similar, I'll hear, see, feel nd sometimes even taste things that aren't even their . It came on so quick nd unexpected, I don't know if it's withdrawals from my antidepressant bc I'd go to school nd once I walk into my first hr, everything don't feel real, anything I hear & see, I don't know if it's actually happening or not . Like I get sooooo paranoid, I just recently started getting on meds over the Summer so I don't know if my body isn't made for meds or if I'm actually paranoid, I'll go through an episode of shaking, my whole body will get hot, I'll start to feel like I my lungs are closing up on me, my mouth gets super dry, my jaw will starter to chatter as if I'm cold, I go through hot nd cold flashes nd closing my eyes makes it worse . I get so scared even to close my eyes bc I think I'm gonna die in my sleep so that has to do with my sleeping . Since I took half on my antidepressant my thoughts haven't changed as much but my anxiety nd worrying went down by a lot. I been looking up diagnosis nd symptoms all day long, if I see something like that it's permanent or can't be cured, I immediately freak out nd start to panic but then I tell myself it's okay it'll pass, it's just in my head, you weren't diagnosed so it's fine, like I have no idea what to think or feel .
My heart was breaking throughout watching this... and I’m not comparing this illness to what I’m about to explain- like what so ever- but I can only imagine how paranoid you are- I feel like if I were on shrooms and I had a negative overwhelming feeling in my heart and I was home alone at night - I feel like.. it would seem like this.. it’s so heart breaking seeing this I really hope you keep optimistic 😞
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I have bipolar 1 which is a mood disorder with psychosis. I go into full blow psychotic episodes as well and usually always hear voices. It’s upsettung to say the least. I will pray for you I believe this is an oppression and we can fight our way through it hang in there it’ll end.. eventually
This is such a terrifying thing to experience, but I hate the way schizophrenia is so demonised in places, in certain cultures it's seen (along with similar differences) as a gift, to allow people to see what others can't, think about that kind of power used for creativity, it's incredible, I can honestly say that I believe it to be a gift, I experience quite heavy dissociation from time to time, I've been pretty good with it recently, but I crave it, I love feeling like I'm not on earth, or feeling like nothing is real, it's an incredible feeling that I wouldn't never experience without dissociation, it's helps me creativly with art and acting too
I hope you were able to find a counselor, therapist, doctor who can help. Don’t give up, there is hope if you reach out. My positive thoughts are with you.
Me: watching this
You: “I feel like I’m being watched”
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Me using incognito:)
For a guy experiencing psychosis, you have your head on incredibly well my friend.
It’s hard to understand and even harder to describe... in one word unbelievable
He’s not in full psychosis
Some have it more high-functioning than others. Does not make it any less painful or difficult to deal with.
Your voice is heartbreaking. I hope you get better. God bless you.
mano ranjitha I'm not pretty dumb.
Copper toxicity
Probably caused by drugs, it's very common
@Kaitlyn Darbinian -- the effects of the drug abuse are long term so maybe before you cry for do some research , I know someone in that situation and now we the public are supporting him , do yourself a favor and keep your family and loved ones away from these people
@Kaitlyn Darbinian -- maybe your to close to the problem, one person's addiction is another person's hobby I went through this bullshit with a family member, he fried his brain, he had drug psychosis from prolonged and severe drug use, he's now a very sick person that has no business on the street with normal people, so you save your bleeding heart for when one of them has a psychotic break and hurts you or a loved one. They are broken ticking time bomb's you folks acknowledge that rapist are never cured stop thinking you can rewire the brain in other regards, and if they are so normal let them work !!
Even during an episode you are aware that you are having one. Many people are unable to distinguish the difference.
Thanks for posting this.
Nobody knows how bad it is unless you actually go through it, stay strong man !!!
I have to be careful what I watch. It's a fine line. I also pulled my eyelashes out till I was @ 21. I'm having a bad episode right now. You are inspiring me to hang in there. Hugs
Christina Karathanasis hang in there love
Christina Karathanasis don’t worry ur good and probably got nothing wrong with u
Christina it’s totally normal during the teenage years to wonder about yourself. That doesn’t mean there’s something wrong with you. Take care , life it’s beautiful!
Christina Karathanasis I used to pull my hair out. It’s called trichitillomania. I got therapy for it and did habit reversal therapy and learnt techniques and stuff. I don’t do it as much now. Hang in there everyone xxx
Me to!
this hurt my heart to watch, but thank you for sharing.
my father (now deceased) had schizophrenia and i started watching videos like this to understand more what he was going through, and unexpectedly it made me understand why he was never there... and because of this, i couldnt ever blame him or put him down, i would feel horrible if i made him feel bad. but your video touched my heart the most, im an empath so im very heartbroken for you... i dont know your religious views but i will be praying for you.
wtf I’m so happy to help people understand mental illness and the people who suffer from them, it’s what my channel is all about.
I’m sorry about your father. It’s good how understanding you are with him and I hope people appreciate your care. I definitely appreciate your prayers for me.
@@MyOddExperiences 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜😿
This was recorded 4 years ago. Thank you for your bravery. It's still helping people.
I appreciate you posting this so much. Thank you. I can imagine how difficult it is to be vulnerable.
You keep such a level head about this stuff. It's impressive. Good luck buddy.
you remind me so much of my brother in law. I seriously wish you the best and thank you for showing this as hard as I'm sure it was. try to stay positive.
Riley Butterfield at so
I pulled a huge lock out of my hair once when I had psychosis, and looking in the mirror was weird too, the fact that you know you’re even having an episode shows you have great awareness hope you get better man praying for you
Psychosis is the most terrifying thing there is. You’re extremely paranoid on top of thinking something horrible is going to happen or even seeing people come after you or chase you. I’ve been convinced so many times I was going to die. I’ve ran through the woods for hours with no shoes or shirt. I’ve also been hit by a car while running from someone who wasn’t there
I hope you're doing well right now. Watching this 5 years later, after a curiosity of how this illness is. After a stint with drug abuse, I'm scared I might've "broken" my mind. Time will tell. But I truly wish you well.
I used to have that fear when I tried weed a few times and had very bad trips every single time. Some peoples brains/personality cannot handle drugs, especially the anxious type. I have anxiety, so it just never went well when I consumed cannabis. I used to think each time it went badly (and it went very badly) that I somehow "broke" my mind. I thought this for a long time. I assure you, you didn't break your mind. But you may have caused your mind some trauma from the experience. I know I did. The good news is, trauma is something you can completely heal from! It just takes time and it's best done with a therapist. I can't say enough good things about therapy and I believe everyone on this planet needs it! (and deserves it). So if I can ease your mind at all, brains are such resilient things, even after the worst of trips a person could have. Not an excuse to put yourself through potential trauma though. So please avoid drugs whoever reads this
Dude you're doing amazing. I cant imagine what it would be like to be hallucinating all these things and knowing its all in your head. I was surprised by how calm you were as I've never seen a legitimate schizophrenic episode play out in real life. I think from everything you described, you're doing amazing to be coping so well
I use to have physcosis of me talking to my friend. Everytime I realized afterwards that he wasn't actually here i just kept going back into it
Trictilomania can be a side effect of some psychiatric drugs, it’s a form of OCD, which can be a side effect... even psychosis can also be a side effect in some cases... you may have a case of your brain not being able to shut off your dreaming state while you are awake. Much of what you describe is very much the way the brain works when we dream, very fractured and stuff with intense feelings or sometimes no feeling. You need to stay away from scary movies or weird imagery in real life cuz it just plants more weird stuff in your brain. Thank you so much for describing this... you’re basically having a nightmare while you are awake. Science is showing studies that are making a correlation to “schizophrenia” being a potential sleep disorder, again where your brain is unable to shut its dream state off while you’re awake. If all of us started to dream while we were awake, we’d all sound pretty strange cuz that’s what the dreamworld can be, but it can also be glorious and magical. Scary images are just the expression of your fear via symbols and imagery and emotion. Try to breathe into this when it happens and try to become aware that you’re just continuing to dream while awake and that these images are not real even tho I’m sure it also feels like one of those dreams that’s really real. Sometimes when I’m having a nightmare I try to turn around and talk to that scary thing that’s chasing me and ask it what it wants. It may be difficult to do this while you’re in this state, but mostly try to focus on the idea that what your brain is doing is just dreaming and sort of relax into it, sometimes the more you fight it the scarier it gets because you’re feeling scared so the imagery keeps being scary, the more scared you get the more you see scary imagery cuz it’s just your brain finding images to express that fear.
try to look at positive imagery around you just try to keep your brain focused on the positive not the negative or the fear of the experience or it may just make it worse. Does that make sense? And perhaps start looking into what’s called “lucid dreaming”. Look up therararabbit maxwell hunter on you tube. He experiences things like you, except slightly different but has learned to use lucid dreaming to help sort of quell the voices that he hears while he’s awake. I have sleep paralysis so I kinda have a taste of what you’re going through. When I experience this, the key for me is to kinda go with the fear rather than fight it to get to the other side of it... I think the most important thing you can do is try to RELAX and do exactly what you’re doing by talking about it...Talk about it among people who are supportive, kinda like we all have to talk about our dreams when we have weird dreams which we all have. It helps you gain control and play observer rather than get lost in the “psychosis” or give it power. Make sense? Keeps you in the drivers seat. If you can’t talk to anyone just try to hang onto the positive in yourself, look at positive imagery and know that this WILL PASS. CRITICAL YOU MUST GET GOOD SLEEP, even tho I know sometimes this makes going back to sleep scary but sleep deprivation in and of itself can cause “hallucinations” which just means that our brain goes into a dream state even while we are awake because our dreaming is how it processes the world around us. And it will begin to do it even if our body remains awake. So that’s very similar to what’s happening with you when you have these episodes. I think you just have some form of what I have with sleep paralysis except it just lasts longer and your not paralyzed. But I think the reason you have scary imagery is because you’re rightfully scared. Your body is starting to do something that you can’t control and it’s very scary. And so the images just kinda keep adding up. The good news is your lucid enough to realize that it’s happening which is critical, now just try and keep your mind in a positive direction AND RELAX because by relaxing you release the fear. And in someways I almost think you have to kind of relax into it and realize it’s just a dream and let it sort of speak to you, sort of watch it like a movie, so that you are distanced from it, from the experience, keeps your waking mind or conscious mindSort of in control on some level. Does Any ofthis make Sense? When you say your “paranoid“, you’re just having a scary dream, so of course you’re feeling paranoid, usually scary dreams make us feel paranoid but mostly just scared. Sometimes I try to watch funny movies or just try to surround yourself with positive imagery and watch a lot of comedies or lighthearted movies just move your brain into a more positive space. I hope this helps my friend. You’re going to be OK. There are places that are truly helping people who suffer from this affliction. Look up a therapy that’s called open dialogue, apparently it has an 80% “cure” rate Even for people who have so-called schizophrenia. Feel free to message me on my channel take good care. Look up a documentary about open dialogue, look up the filmmaker Daniel Mackler and the movie, “take these broken wings.” Also if you Google is schizophrenia a sleep disorder, you will begin to find increasing studies showing that there is a correlation between “psychosis” and dreaming. That it may be a simple case of a sleep disorder where your brain is just continuing to dream while you were awake. The key is to move into a state where you can learn to work with that dream state so it is less scary and recognizable as just that - a dream state. And everyone can relate to how strange dreams can be, so you’re not weird your brain isn’t weird, just dreams are. It’s the nature of dreams, they’re strange and we all have weird and strange dreams, mostly that’s trying to recognize it , that’s all you’re experiencing and stay in a place where you can feel reassured that you’re not losing your mind. Also avoid stressful situations because that makes it worse and just stay away from people who aren’t supportive. They’re idiots. Wishing you the best sending you lots of love, you’re going to be OK. And thank you for being so courageous as to share your experiences.
@Boris Karajuan Not necessarily.. Maybe it could help some people, but in my case it actually triggered the psychosis
@Boris Karajuan
The increased risk of psychotic symptoms only applies to strains which have a high ratio of THC to Cannabidiol (i.e. Sativa strains). Cannabidiol dominant strains (i.e. Indica strains), on the other hand, are anti-psychotic.
Sativas have high relatively unopposed THC (hallucinogen) levels. This tends to be activating, but in some people it can cause increased anxiety and even paranoia. Long term use can result in effects similar to those of long term high dose amphtamine use.
Indicas have relatively higher canabadiol (CBD) levels which moderate the effects of the THC that is present. Indicas tend to be so sedating that most people can only use indicas at night.
BMJ
@Boris Karajuan www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2005/04/050419105717.htm
Taking pure THC is nothing like taking the huge plethora of cannabinoids present in different strains of cannabis.
Pure THC can cause healthy subjects to experience psychotic symptoms.
That was fascinating and true
@@kelskels1001 when you come off a drug that keeps you up and the psychosis is kinda mellowed out from drinking as a sleep med, as soon as I smoke weed I begin to hear the voices and see the shadows. This guy actually has control of hos fear where he is aware that he's talking out his experience. He's tough
Hi everybody. I have never done this before, but somebody attempted to comment with a link to a great short film following a woman with schizophrenia. (link at end of this comment) For some reason it does not seem to be visible in the comments section. I truly empathized with the main character's experiences and hope that this can help my viewers better understand the condition and for people with these issues to know they're not alone or hopeless. Our world needs more media like this.
Thank you to Eric Lindstrom and his staff for this short film on Vimeo: vimeo.com/165716867
loved it
Have you ever done acid or shrooms?
I hope you get better. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Sometimes I'm paranoid like this but my paranoia is rarely a problem unlike it was before. Get better and stay strong. You've got this, I believe in you
Thank you for making your diary, a valuable contribution.
For many, experiencing a "bad trip" comes naturally and completely unwanted and unexpectedly through the terrifying symptoms of a psychotic episode, like with this unfortunate person in the video. It boggles my mind that some people actually choose to take drugs in order to experience similar feelings of not being in control of what you are seeing, hearing, or feeling. This is why I don't do drugs. I would never voluntarily choose to trip out, I experience it plenty when I have PMDD psychosis. It's not fun and it's not fair :( But it is my journey. Hope you're doing better, My Odd Experiences! You are not alone! Hang in there and keep fighting the good fight of spreading awareness like you're doing. People will accept it more when they see that it affects people who are just that - people. Good luck and take good care of yourself
I have schizoaffective disorder and I also see other faces in the mirror. I also make videos of my psychosis. You’re brave and I appreciate not being the only one trying to raise awareness about what it’s like to have schizophrenia.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. I am currently a nursing student learning about psychosis and mental illness and this helped me understand what my patients may or may not be experiencing with their hallucinations. Stay strong!
You are been watched by someone who absolutely applauds your bravery. You have amazing insight and the ability to share your experience with others is both heartbreaking and courageous. Thank you for sharing. I am a mental health clinician and one of the things I try really hard to do is understand the experience of the person. What you have shared is admirable and will help both me and the people I work with. Thank you and I wish you the best of wellness and happiness for your future xo
Are you aware of anything to do with meth induced psychosis?
Man, I hope that someone comes up with better ways to help people that have this problem. It sucks that someone has to go through this. I wish you well.
Videos like this make me feel guilty for not suffering, when you and so many others are. This is heartbreaking. I hope you are well.
Awe, that's a very sweet thing to say, but don't feel guilty! While I have OCD instead of schizophrenia, I wouldn't wish it on others. In fact, a lot of the neuro-typical people around me keep me grounded and help with the symptoms! That's one of the best things you could do. Also have an open mind, learn, empathize and spread awareness 😊
Thank you for sharing this. You are courageous. Keep learning about you.
You can get thru this.
This sounds like how I feel when I get really stoned. It's a bad feeling. I hope you are doing better now than you were at this instance!
Bless your soul
as a fellow schizophrenic, watching these kinds of videos and finding other people to relate to makes me feel good. knowing i’m not the only one, i guess. thank you for documenting it for all of our nosey asses to see. keeping you in my thoughts, brother.
How long episode last plz tell because my sister having scizophrenia episode right now she is talking with hallucinations not eating not drinking water I m tensed
From three days she is not drinking water
This is the first time I’ve ever heard anyone say this and I never knew why I felt this way... that inanimate objects are alive. I really feel that
Amazing how a person can be psychotic while being rational at the same time.
I have schizophrenia as well, I know exactly what you mean. You feel you're in a place of infinite space and no space at all. Like everything and nothing all at once existing in a strange dimension. I cried at the end, you're so true, definitely avoid scary things.
Fair play, you handle yourself very well. My girlfriends sister is suffering with this and you have helped me better understand. I hope you are doing well
This is amazing. I'm so glad you had the courage to share your experience with psychosis as it is happening. I'm sorry you are struggling. Just know you are helping to empower the entire MI community. Feel free to reach out at any time!
I will pray for you, you're so sweet.
@Victor God didn't give him schizophrenia
@Victor learn to spell your before calling something stupid
also if God doesn't exist why call him/it stupid then? it's clear you're just ignorant as well a miserable person,your ignorance will be the end of you one day. find happiness instead of tearing people down.
@Victor wow....if that's the case then I guess you're just as stupid for believing we evolved from ape like creatures or that the universe formed from a random big expansion,at least the God one makes sense,evolution and the big bang is just moronic and nonsensical,you honestly think everything in life is just random and pointless ? it's pretty obvious you know there's a God of some sort,you just don't want to accept accountability for your actions,whatever that may be.
if a God doesn't exist, why don't you ignore people who comment on it,instead of being immature,childish and a bully?
If there is a Christian god, a god who create us and give a particuliar attention to his creation on earth, dont you think that he would already know all of the situation, if he made every one of us and every litle thing down to the atoms, including Schizophrenia in youngs innocent kids. my point being, if there is a god, or he isnt all that powerfull OR he is kinda straight up evil.
@@nicolasroy996 you came here just to be negative and hateful?
Much love bro you are not alone remember that ❤
I hope you’re okay. I have very close friends who suffer from schizophrenia and psychosis, and I know my fair share about psychology, I suffer from adhd, social anxiety and depression. I learn a lot about things with my therapist. I really hope you’re okay and you get better soon, I know how debilitating mental illnesses like this can be.
Your voiced changed at like 2:15
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W e can tell you/re suffering. I wish I could help. You are very brave to endure this on camera in order to try and educate us. I pray you're feeling better now. Thank you.
I have someone dear to me with the same thing. This person talks to us when they are having a episode and we use distractions tools. We even write it down put to paper it helps to control the episode take charge. We also have animals to help with the anxiety. While I completely understand this stuff doesn’t solve a episode it really helps them get through it and keep in touch with the fact it’s not real outside of their thoughts. Thank you so much for being so raw and true. Beautiful person I wish u the best.
Thanks for sharing. I'm diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar. This video reminds me of experiences I've had in the past. Once I seen nooses that I actually touched.
I have psychosis as well so I can relate to this. I can’t watch any scary thing because it triggers it a lot
I hope you know that your helping so many people with your videos! Thankyou so much x big hugs from the UK
Your not alone dude..I'm going through a psychotic episode right now
What I'm hearing is a static hiss, However plain static sounds with a quiet and very disturbingly distinctive long hiss, it's just the sssssssssssssssssssssss part, White and black dots of Multiple shades and shapes turn into Demonic-Like symbols, but there not demonic but actual words being said but.....Imagine a Glass one way mirror and add another mirror behind it with static instead of glass, then if you were to think of the word the word is trapped in the static mirror but you can hear the word and its displayed on the mirror in front of it but messed up, Geometry like demonic real words
And this figure I'm seeing is an 8'3 Black male, Distinctively black from his voice but toned down, Picture the voice you would hear in a Ghost hunter episode on an EVP but deep, and static
He is completely Chared in 4th degree like burns, But fresh blood and black ooze drip from his freshly cuts and gashes, Revealing blood red Muscles, Bones and veins...Eyes nothing but a Neon Red but instead of the pupil and iris of the eyes, it fades into a pure white from the Neon Red, he smells like how Weed smells but added with a combination of a smell of a sugar like substance, kinda like syrup and very old moldy Orange
His teeth are pure matte black and silver Serrated Razor blades, All jagged and has 3 rows of them from the roof to the gums, to the and the bottom 1 row is completely straight like real teeth, they are about the size of a pinkie finger in length
My hands are shaking very violently, Like if you were to grab a titanium rod and smack it on a rock, the sensation of a dead numb hand and Electric like pain
Leg will not stop feeling like its sweaty but when I go to wipe it away all that comes back on my hand is very very tiny broken peices of glass in Clumps
Your not alone in this dude, I know it's not exactly what it's like for you, but what I see is Overwhelmingly violent
Sounds alot like some bad acid trips that I've had.
Thank you for sharing your experience. My heart completely goes out to you. Amidst all of what you are seeing and thinking, it seems like you're handling it very well. You're remaining calm and thinking through things despite all of the hallucinations telling you to think differently. This disease I believe is turning you into a courageous person, as most people do not have the kind of challenges that you have. Watching your video helps me to admire you and all the other people who suffer from schizophrenia. I will keep you in my prayers.
I have visual schizophrenia never have gotten auditory and seem to have similiar symptoms as well as not just seeing shadow people by incarnated people driven by demons. Would you say its a HSP feeling that comes over you high sensitivity and less to do with energy intensity in psychosis?
I have physcosis and I thought I was being haunted by something thousands of years old. Used to make me do some fucked up shit, you are not alone whether it's real or not i dont know. the mind is a powerful tool.
I know this is old but I hope you have a support system, I wish I could be there for everyone in your position. I hate that there hasn’t been a break in a cure or anything better than what’s out there now. I wish I could take your pain away, I wish I was smart enough to help people in like situations. I can’t imagine how Covid is to you or others suffering like you seem to be. I am so sorry I am not there to frigging hold you and tell you everything isn’t real while you’re going through these what must be horrible things. Why the brain decides to pick the shittiest things to show you instead of pretty, happy or loving things....just know that although I might as well be a rock lying in a driveway, I’m rooting for something or someone to change how your life is right now. My family and I are here wishing you keep yourself safe and to hopefully one day be helped more than in this video shows. Lots of hugs.
I am so sorry😔😔 I understand. If you never give up, I won't. You're awesome and strong, thank you for showing me I'm not the only one.
Thank you for describing this to me. I had no idea - but now I understand more. Thanks to your efforts to articulate to us. Smart.
Please update us -- how brave ARE you? Amazing person. It must be that people with exceptional intellect experience these things - not to mention people with heightened emotions. Wait... I THINK I see you on a side note... maybe it's an update. I can't fathom the pain of what you are enduring. Go as slow as you can with your thoughts and tell those bastard visions to move on. Thank you for making this video. You have helped me understand this issue and broadened my empathy in general for the struggles we all have.
Thank you for your understanding. Lately I’ve been focusing my energy into getting ready to get back into school and get my degree. It’s become harder to communicate as time went on and the thought making new videos scares me. I still should make them and stop making excuses. I have a Q&A ready, I just have to record it
Thank you for sharing this and the internal hell that is schizophrenia. This episode looks terrifying and I can't even imagine what was happening in your head and how scary it was. Keep sharing your story, it's important.
This heartbreaking and hard to watch. I hope you've found your way and got the right kind of treatment. I believe in ghost, & all kinds of of other stuff (I've seen them also) and I'm not schizophrenic so it's not stupid to believe in those things, especially when they're so real to you. Thank you for sharing, what your doing is helping people to understand schizophrenia.
This is very heartbreaking. I pray you have overcome this since this video.
You are so brave for enduring that and taking the time to describe it. A lot of people are incredibly misinformed or unaware of these things and it is huge that you would take the time to provide insight to your experiences. I hope you are doing well
Me myself haven’t experienced a full blown psychotic episode but I was on the verge after a bad trip on marijuana. My mind got more and more stressed because I felt something was really off. After a while I started having anxiety attacks and then it went into panic attacks. My family took me to the hospital and they told me I had gotten anxiety and if I didn’t sleep nor eat or didn’t take more of psychedelics then it would turn for the worse and I would most likely end up in a psychosis. My anxiety still didn’t calm down though after hearing this, because I was still 100% sure I would develop a psychosis. I even started hallucinating, seeing dimmed lights flashing even though they didn’t and started hearing people saying my name when they clearly said something else. I even heard planes fly buy my ears or flies buzzing in my head when I was about to sleep. This would of course make me get even more panic so I started going on medications (which I still use) Zoloft or antidepressants to cure my panic and that helped a lot. Now (after half a year since the bad trip) I don’t have these weird hallucinations or the anxiety but I still feel distorted, like I’m not in my body and that everything feels like a movie that happens in front of my eyes plus a lot more minor things but this is durable.
So I can really relate to this even though I have never experienced it and I hope that he gets back to normal. I can see that this guy has a lot of willpower and I think that will help him get trough this. He is also open to talk about his struggles which is the main key to recovery. Me myself is also good at this and my psychologist told me that that’s the reason I managed to avoid a psychosis, and I can see that he also has that.
And almost everybody gets trough a psychosis, even schizophrenia, especially if you manage to talk with people who helps!
So I wish you all the best, and I believe in you! You will recover!
I’m so sorry you have to go through this my older sister is a full on schizophrenic and I understand all to well. It’s heartbreaking hearing your story and to know my sister goes through the same things when she is off her meds.
I'm not Schizophrenic, but I do have psychotic episodes. I completely understand your hallucinations and paranoia. My hallucinations come in the form of hearing things. It's not always voices, but sometimes it's just phantom sounds. I have a "sort of" mantra that I repeat to myself when things get bad. I start saying out loud, who I am, where I live, who my family is, etc. It seems to help ground me by saying what is true and real.
I’m curious about the “static” you mentioned seeing , I see this often too. Can you elaborate or is it just as simple as that
I see it too
Im.sorry man.
I watch these cause I have a friend whonwont seek help. I want to help her.
This is scary. It's like you're tripping all the time. Nonstop, triggers or not.
Thank you for your videos.
My other friend with schizophrenia says he came up with a system of checks.
And don't fear the feelings.
God bless you man.
First thank you for trusting us to share the experience with. It has to be so hard to “keep it together”. My best friend is schizophrenic, he says that Im one of the only ones he shares with because he has never felt that I was “one of them” like everyone else. That it’s s conspiracy to get him. He sees creatures with glowing eyes and aliens. I know it’s really tough for him finding the right mix of meds, I wish you the very best in that. He says he frequently experiences paresthesia. He now has a concoction that keeps it more than bearable almost all the time. I wish you wellness happiness peace and safety. Enjoy
I’m so sorry that you have to suffer from this. But I’m glad you are aware of the situation. Currently I have someone very close to me, who is having these episodes where he thinks people are following him and trying to kill him. He thinks that everything is hacked and all I can do is listen to him. If I tell him that it’s not happening he will become enraged. I don’t know how to help him and it scares me, because I know how scared he is.
Thank you for sharing- For Educating US-Please Keep Strong!!!
Thanks for uploading me, i know is hard ,but this is so helpful for a lot of people.
I really hope you get better.
I have depression and sometimes with psychosis... Right now I have burn out and anxiety... 😩 Thank you for posting this video! You are brave! ❤ I hope you feel better now! ❤
{Arlas Flensost} ... Of course! That's it! Thank you for telling me! 🖕
{Arlas Flensost} 😂😂😘
My heart breaks for you :( I said a prayer for you. And I want to thank you for sharing this as it gives me much better insight into how my cousin who has schizophrenia is really feeling. Best wishes to you
you are brave and strong, please remember that. Thank you for sharing this.
Thanks for posting this video. It is such a worthwhile thing to do. I send you my respect and sympathy.
i know this is a old video but i hope you what you were going through mellowed out and still does to this day . kinda want to give you a hug because i feel so bad , stay strong ,i know that i don't know you personally but just know that i care.
It's interesting that you're having hear symptoms and yet are able to describe them with perfect clarity and insight and articulate them coherently. When my sister was psychotic she didn't hear voices or hallucinate but she couldn't speak coherently and her thoughts were all jumbled up and she'd just ramble about nonsense. There's no way she would have been able to have the clarity of thought to make a video and talk about her experience. I suppose different people....
You seem like a sweet soul
Hope you have leveled out and may I suggest B3 - Niacin non-flushing. Good luck and prayers your way.
you have to be such a strong person to handle this and then upload it. interesting video! thanks a lot for sharing
Love you. sweet baby you are so amazing and perfect. you are perfect. do you hear me? You are so amazing intelligent ypu have so much potential and you are so STRONG. love love love your way
I'm glad you're doing better. Stay strong friend ✌️️❤️
I hope and pray you’re better now. You are a good person. Stay safe and strong
You poor soul. I really feel for you. I wish you had shared if you were on meds or not or what kind. I feel for You deeply. I have mental illnesses but not the same type but have had psychosis before. I still have anxiety. I do know the feeling of closing your eyes and seeing all the crazy shit. One of my meds did that to me. So my Doctor said sit back and enjoy the movie and watch it. I'm like ugh it's crazy scary stuff playing lol. I do hope your doing well. Thank you for sharing this with other RUclipsrs. It actually shows how good you are doing so give your self some credit. You also said your a skeptic. I believe some Phrenic's have a extra sense.
I am sending you so much love, you’re so strong hang in there 🙏🏼 please look into medical medium heavy metal detox smoothie it helps a lot and his info for this condition. I have it too but it has gotten much better 💛
I know you don't know me but my heart goes out to you and if you ever need a friend or just someone to talk to always here you are a brave individual to share your story
Thank you so much for recording this. You explain your experience so well. I train volunteers at a crisis hotline. I've talked to a lot of people who sound a lot like you in this video. Would it be OK with you if I used this video to help explain psychotic episodes to our volunteers?
Sara Knox Go for it :)
Just keep in mind that this video represents a mild and more lucid episode.
They may have it worse than I do in this video, but helping ground them and calming them down would definitely be helpful in the short term and long term because they'll learn more about how to ground and calm themselves which makes so much of a difference.
I really appreciate what you do and that you want to improve your ability to help. I think I'll make a video on how to get help, not just for psychotic disorders. Do you have advice on what information I should look for?
Just found your channel on my recommended I've liked and subscribed bro I can relate to your hallucination of clown makeup, I have schizoaffective disorder and I have auditory hallucinations much more than visual, I have been hearing "clown voices" among others in my walls for a few years now and its just terrifying. I try and stick with medications but I feel like it's poison sometimes.
Lately I've been microdosing mushrooms and it helps more that bud atm. Just curious if you've found any psychedelics that have been useful to your particular disorder?
Thank you for the like, sub, and comment!
I personally prefer to stick with my antipsychotics and mood stabilizers when it comes to treating my schizophrenia. The side effects suck, but they’re the most helpful treatment I’ve had. I also think CBD oil helps me with anxiety and hallucinations.
I recognize that THC and psilocybin can be used effectively as medicine for issues like anxiety, but in my opinion, they can do more harm than good when it comes to treating schizophrenia specifically. It varies between people, some people with schizophrenia will be fine, but some could be pushed further into psychosis from these drugs. In my opinion it’s not a risk worth taking for schizophrenia.
Whatever you end up doing, I hope your treatment helps you and your disorder gets better. Best of luck to you!
Would you like to talk about the philosophy and meditation I developed to overcome schizophrenia. I “overcome” daily because after being diagnosed for 18 years my experience feeling like everything is psychic is extremely positive and interpreting by some people are narcissistic. “I love you” and “I know” are the most common channeled observations of myself
Thanks for sharing this, you're very brace to do so. I pray that life gets better for you each day. ❤🙏🏼
big hug, so brave of you to make this. I hope you are well at the moment
You're a brave man. All my respect to you. Stay strong budd
So scary, hang in there buddy. You are brave and I hope you feel better soon.
My son had all the same symptoms , but now he is on meds and doing much better. I thought I will loose him, but things so much better, but of course many side effects from meds. Hope you doing better.
I'm just curious, have you gotten better ? I'm going through something so similar, I'll hear, see, feel nd sometimes even taste things that aren't even their . It came on so quick nd unexpected, I don't know if it's withdrawals from my antidepressant bc I'd go to school nd once I walk into my first hr, everything don't feel real, anything I hear & see, I don't know if it's actually happening or not . Like I get sooooo paranoid, I just recently started getting on meds over the Summer so I don't know if my body isn't made for meds or if I'm actually paranoid, I'll go through an episode of shaking, my whole body will get hot, I'll start to feel like I my lungs are closing up on me, my mouth gets super dry, my jaw will starter to chatter as if I'm cold, I go through hot nd cold flashes nd closing my eyes makes it worse . I get so scared even to close my eyes bc I think I'm gonna die in my sleep so that has to do with my sleeping . Since I took half on my antidepressant my thoughts haven't changed as much but my anxiety nd worrying went down by a lot. I been looking up diagnosis nd symptoms all day long, if I see something like that it's permanent or can't be cured, I immediately freak out nd start to panic but then I tell myself it's okay it'll pass, it's just in my head, you weren't diagnosed so it's fine, like I have no idea what to think or feel .
I’m learning to become an artist! If you want to see drawings of my hallucinations, I made a video here: ruclips.net/video/YS2oX_1UtkE/видео.html
My heart was breaking throughout watching this...
and I’m not comparing this illness to what I’m about to explain- like what so ever- but I can only imagine how paranoid you are- I feel like if I were on shrooms and I had a negative overwhelming feeling in my heart and I was home alone at night - I feel like.. it would seem like this..
it’s so heart breaking seeing this I really hope you keep optimistic 😞
Sending hugs and much love to you. Hope you've been doing okay❤💫
Thanks for sharing this. It's the best way for others to understand you. Hugs 🤗
Thank you for sharing. Stay strong ♥️
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I have bipolar 1 which is a mood disorder with psychosis. I go into full blow psychotic episodes as well and usually always hear voices. It’s upsettung to say the least. I will pray for you I believe this is an oppression and we can fight our way through it hang in there it’ll end.. eventually
You're doing great bro true champions spirit!👊🏻
This is such a terrifying thing to experience, but I hate the way schizophrenia is so demonised in places, in certain cultures it's seen (along with similar differences) as a gift, to allow people to see what others can't, think about that kind of power used for creativity, it's incredible, I can honestly say that I believe it to be a gift, I experience quite heavy dissociation from time to time, I've been pretty good with it recently, but I crave it, I love feeling like I'm not on earth, or feeling like nothing is real, it's an incredible feeling that I wouldn't never experience without dissociation, it's helps me creativly with art and acting too
😪 I admire your strength to show us the mild symptoms.
I hope you were able to find a counselor, therapist, doctor who can help. Don’t give up, there is hope if you reach out. My positive thoughts are with you.
Confusion comes from evil and Satan he's the father of lies ..
I think you’re confused
Exactly , this is demonic, and it needs to be fought spiritually, as it is spiritual