What I love about your channel is that it doesn't feel like I'm watching a van life commercial. It's genuine and it's you. This one really made my day. The white sands and the cavern were magnificent.
I think that that's one of those things that comes with being primarily a loner,... As one myself, i find that sometimes you just fall into one of those funks.....i enjoy things, i enjoy the few times that i do socialize with people, but then there are times that i just feel sad or depressed, then i either go somewhere or do something that revives me.... And it passes, it's like a cycle..... Just hang in there, i absolutely love your videos, especially since I'm preparing to convert my own van for Van Life as well. Cheers😊
@@Mikemonoa-hz2rzshe’s used goods and already sold her body for $3 a month. Only a simp would go for her and she believes she’s too good for a simp so she will be lonely with a dog eventually.
I feel at times that loneliness is killing me, but then there are times that I find peace and comfort in being alone. Like you said, I definitely believe there's some sort of cycles to it all.
As an introvert that deals with depression, I understand your mood and respect that you share the truth about it because it helps to know others get it. ❤
The montage at whitesands may be the most beautiful thing going around youtube right now! Waking up with intent and realizing we're divine is a wonderful way to be. God Bless you Alyssa
When I lived by the beach in SOCal if I had a bad day, bad week, whatever, I would go down and walk in the wet sand for hours. It fixed a lot of shit in my life I think.
I tried to go to Santa Monica a few times when I was sad living in LA and the traffic, parking, and people were so overwhelming I think it made it worse lol But the further north in CA I went, the more peaceful the beaches became, until on the Oregon boarder it became an almost transcendental experience to visit them
If you can live with minimal possessions you should try Costa Rica. It is inexpensive, beautiful, and the people are so much nicer than US. Racism is very low here, politics aren’t hardly ever discussed. Most people just live for the day. I have been here 7 years, surrounded by jungle, with 0 neighbors for 1 kilometer. I miss the weather of SoCal, but never the daily life. Peace to you on wherever you find yourself. Pura Vida@@AlyssaVanilla
Thank you young lady this is the blockbuster video i will share with my 49 year old daughter that is feeling like this and its making her so withdrawn ..i feel this will help her. Now i need to get her a small suv and get her out of that car so she can meditate in private and possibly get her to start taking small beauty trips alone so she can find herself again. Thanks again ❤
Out of all vanlifers I watch, you are the most relatable to me which has made you easily one of my favorites. Thank you for being brave in being vulnerable with us about your mental health and the way you view life while managing these thoughts and feelings. I definitely don't feel so alone when you do, and I thank you for that.
You are one of the very few channels in Vanlife that I enjoy watching. Iyou’re not repetitive in what you’re doing by making food and then sitting and groaning while you eat it. All of my pet peeves hearing people eat ha ha. I get this kind of slump as well and when people ask me what’s wrong I can’t explain it. I Love life love her I’m at. Thanks for showing us this beautiful location thanks for being you you’re a very special woman. And your channel is like I said one of the best. You don’t repeat yourself over and over you don’t show us the groceries that you just bought at Walmart you’re so simple and you’re more of a real life person.
Journalling helps me process the sad. Tried eating it. Tried ignoring it. Tried distracting myself. But just sitting with it, feeling my feels, and writing it out is what helps me move on.
You connected with nature which we are an extension of. You also walked through the sand with bare feet and there’s a ton of research about how the energy we absorb from the actual ground balances us out. I’m glad you feel better
Thank you for sharing this. I'm currently going through a slump, and seeing you living the dream makes me feel like if only I could do that I could pull myself out of it and heal my depression. But in reality, no matter where you are in life, your circumstances won't change you. It's within. :) Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
This video is now my favorite. It cut thru several layers of my human experience like no other. The angelic music, paired with Gaia's intrinsic offerings, paired with a speck of flesh with monumental emotions, was hauntingly beautiful. Witnessing an earthling sit on the cusp of so many realms at once… 🥹 lovely…
"Raw dogging reality" 😂!!! My gosh. What a classic statement. It always amazes me when someone strings words together in a way I've never heard them before. As I am also a migraine sufferer, I too must raw dog reality, and I feel you on that statement. On the happiness front (or periodic lacks thereof), that's been something I've suffered from my entire life as well. Recently I've come to a new understanding that it's not a good idea to always be chasing happiness. Happiness is just a feeling. Now I'm trying to accept that it's more about seeking purpose in all things I do and being okay with feeling whatever feelings I'm feeling at the time. Sometimes I feel sad, sometimes happy, angry, frustrated, content, overwhelmed, etc, etc.
I appreciate your essence Alyssa… You bing warmth, joy and authenticity in your light. Hope you’re enjoying some good self care, reflexology massage, one of your favorite foods and just BEING! Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Wishing you health and peace always!
I suffer from frequent migraines and it does make life so hard. I admire that U go out in nature 2 find a sense of peace! I think that would be healing 4 me!
I've been feeling sad for a long time now. Could be a symptom of ptsd but I am getting help. I was recently just diagnosed and right now I'm learning how to cope and keep my mind occupied. It's not easy but I'm taking one day at a time. Right now I'm just really exhausted. Hope things get better for you. You are amazing. As always stay safe
@@AlyssaVanilla I hope you find your joy Alyssa. When life gets hard, take it one day at a time. When a day is too much deal with life one hour at a time. You are a beautiful young woman and I worry for your safety. Maybe you need to return home for awhile and fill your heart with the love of your family. Thank you for sharing your struggles with us. Depression
Thank you for sharing Alyssa. Just know that you aren't alone. There are so many of us out here that feel you. All we can do is try. You are doing all the things that you can to bring yourself out of that darkness. Remember, depression lies. Keep on going and keep on sharing! You are an inspiration!
Simplicity is how I deal with sad...I try to think of the things that made me feel happy as a kid or teen...and even if I can't do those things because I'm sad, I feel like I'm helping my brain focus on something real instead of my fear of the future, which is typically why I get sad...fear of the unknown.
I definitely do NOT ever feel perfect (even when I'm not raw dogging life), so that's such a hard idea to comprehend, but I loved this video! Thanks for making it. 💕
Alyssa, I am glad that your spirits have been lifted. It’s ok to not feel ok sometimes😊. When I am in a low vibration I focus on the things in my environment that inspire me. I also keep a gratitude journal. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. You are so authentic and amazing! You are “the realest” girl😊❤❤! God bless
Ha! I was running lunch errands at that Walmart and saw your van. I thought at the time “I wonder if that is Alyssa?” Turns out I was right! White sands is beautiful, happy it cheered you up a little.
I so relate to randomly feeling sad. Mental health issues just creep up on you, and you don't always know why you feel that way. If you can make the choice to do something, it's surprising how the mood can turn around. I'm in full admiration as to how you listen to yourself and take care of yourself. Subscribed.
I've never been able to understand how someone can feel sad or depressed for no reason. For me personally, I don't think it's ever happened to me, without it being a result of something sad or tragic in my life. Love your videos by the way. Your such a beautiful person.
You bring so much joy to strangers Alyssa! You have a radiant soul! Praying for you to have clarity and enlightenment hopefully that will help you through this time. 🩵 Great idea surrounding yourself with beautiful scenery in the funk!!
I have noticed lately I have been more of a loner. I went through a lot these past three years and sometimes I just feel better around my dogs because I guess there’s no pressure. I’m glad you found happiness today. That was a good thing for sure. Not to mention it was beautiful where you were at.
Wow! You have spirit working through you - leading you to what makes you feel happy. I love what you had to say about this being the perfect time and you're doing the perfect thing... and then you give us amazing video of the sand dunes and the caverns. I too have a mindset for what to do on cloudy days - it helps a lot. I am 66 and just learned within the past year that if I am sad, I don't have to stay that way. I used to get sad over being sad, which just kept me there. I now have a list of things that makes me happy. Among my top ten is feeding and watching the dozens of birds that visit me. Another is meditation. Thanks so much for sharing the last few days with us. It is so great to see you happy... and it's great that when you're having a difficult day you are honest about that. We all have difficult days, so while we cannot understand exactly what you're going through, we wish you the very best in your spiritual and traveling journey.
I hope you see this comment, because I think that it relates to having control of our emotions and positions. It seems apropos of your comments about how you found relief from sadess. I have been working on shifting negative energy to positive energy (emotions, within relationship conflict, etc.) and found this quote that you might enjoy: John Gray says “Darkness cannot be directly removed, but it automatically disappears when you turn on the light”. Gray, How to Get What I Want and Want What I Have, pp. 22. I shared this because I sometimes forget this when I get sad or mad - and it's good to remember. There are a lot of youtube videos about releasing negative energy, but I think that starts by drilling down on your feelings, what they mean, and what you want instead - by shifting negative energy to positive energy - and then release the negative energy. I hope this helps.
White Sands is beautiful..was there a couple weeks ago. Carlsbad Caverns is not really cold down there. I worked up a sweat from all the damn walking down there for 2.5 hours.
I just found your channel and love it! I have kids your age and I'm amazed at how fearless your generation is. I loved the way you just sat with your emotions and basically meditated your way through the day. Sometimes we have emotions that aren't comfortable, but when we live in nature ... things turn around.
“Life is made up of many comings and goings and for everything that we take with us,we must leave something behind” ― Herman Raucher, Summer of '42 In the Winter of '24 *Alyssa* *Vanilla* shared her footprints in the sand with us. 👍
Yeah I think you are right I thought I find a female companion to travel with but then have to put up with a lot of bs . just the time to find a toilet shower hair dresser make up and especially the right food at the right time some even do some spiritual things . Simply impossible I will look for a dog. Thx
its so crazy cause the weather you hate is the weather i THRIVE in. i absolutely love rain, gloomy, grey sky days. they give me so much energy! hot and sunny days saps my energy so much 😩 here's to differences! ❤
I think you mean acknowledging your feelings rather than honoring them. As I get older, I get feeling of being lost, my time getting short here, but then I am so blessed with my grandchildren, etc. I found you through watching Winterisblu. Big hug to you. God bless and take care of yourself.
Not been feeling great either- big life transitions, aware of my family getting older in an uncomfortable way, nervous anticipation of moving to a new city, and just, feeling bad. I liked the Fleet Foxes song :)
I can definitely relate! I usually get slumpy feeling when the weather gets warm. It’s usually around the summertime but I noticed that this year since we’ve had a lot of unseasonably warm weather days that it’s already started! For whatever reason (totally unbeknownst to me) EVERYTHING starts to go wrong in my life! I used to think that it had to do with my job that I was working because it’s doing those times that everyone would treat me the crappiest! Btw, the beautiful white sand was amazing therapy. I never knew that New Mexico had white sand. It looked beautiful.
Wow the most beautiful breathtaking sightings to watch. So therapeutic.Thank you for sharing. I wish you good recovery from this phase of feeling that way darling. Take care Allysa❤😊
Thank you so much for being rawfully truthful. Makes such a change from the van lifers who are 'so happy every day and everything is perfect'. You aren't alone with those down moods as you can see from the comments. Praying to God definitely helps me in those dark, low times. 🙏 ❤️
Connecting with God and reading my bible definitely helped me with these same emotions, I wanna say that I've been depression free for about 3 months now. Praise Jesus 🙏🏽❤️ I pray the same for you 💐
Hi buy a Japanese Spitz dog the medium size. These dogs read your soul and bring so much love to there owners. You will no longer be sad. This dog loves to communicate. Consider buying this faithful, fun loving dog!! They are enthusiastic and bring so much unconditional love..
Alyssa you are so strong inside, So much hidden talent an gifts you will uncover in time. Respect, You are so beautiful keep up the awesome work you do.
Hey Alyssa been following your videos since you were in the car, you inspired me to finally start traveling in my own car :) been out now about a month. Was in white sands a couple weeks ago loved it ❤
Thank you for sharing this places are amazing I’m a 60 year old from Chicago can’t wait to start traveling in my rv . You are an amazing person God bless you stay strong
U know what would make it even cozier 😁 a pet ❤ if I didn’t have kids I would totally be doing what ur doing 🤗 I love it, so peaceful. That sand is mesmerizing.
Love the video. Now I'll have to take a trip to the White Sands. I listened to the song. I can relate to it. I was diagnosed years ago with SADS. So cloudy no sun days aren't good for me. The caverns were awesome. I'm glad you're okay. Maybe you'll get to the Redwoods soon. Stay safe and stay sweet. Love ya.🥰
Sending you love and light dear heart. I love that you honored your feelings and showed me how to move through them in a health-filled and nurturing way. One Love!!!
From someone who struggled with vices , her whole life and then addicted to just about everything , drugs took me to a place. Nobody wants to go I wish that I had not been able to do them in the first place. It’s such a false comfort. It’s not real comfort it comforts you while you’re destroying your life by numbing you from realizing what you are doing and how far you have fallen and then once you’re there the only way to not give up on life you know what I mean , is to keep doing them and keep letting it numb you as it takes you further and further down destroying the lives of everyone you love because they’re worried about you watching you fall thinking you are going to die and a lot do, doing things that you swore you would never do I mean is the best gift I’ve ever been given to have thought I couldn’t raw dog reality because I literally say that I can’t raw dog reality but I can. I’m learning how to and it’s such a beautiful gift. I know you didn’t mean it like literally, but that gives gives you like any comfort to know that God gave you a really good gift when he gave you migraines that wouldn’t allow you to do anything else especially since you probably would’ve it sounds like and not realizing what or where that could’ve taken you the 20s not 30s and I wish I could go back and just be grateful to not lose the rest of my life because they suck so much😢 maybe not all of them are as bad as drugs, but they all come with big consequences or the potential of very big consequences.
You are not alone Alyssa! I understand how you feel, but you should be proud that you are one of the ones who pushes through…because look at all the beauty in life we almost forfeit‼️😝 Joyful travels and big hugs‼️❤️
Happy Sunday Alyssa! I enjoyed this video! I hope you feel better soon. Yes going to a beautiful place to,visit would help to lift your spirits! This is beautiful sand!
beautiful watching you ground yourself with the earth!!! it's so important to keep yourself grounded and that serotonin as high as naturally possible!!! much light and love
ALL the feels. Woman I am RIGHT THERE WITH YOU❣️The highs and lows and rollercoasters are REAL 😅 With all of that being said - I absolutely love how bright you shine ✨ thank you for the honesty and transparency!! You are also doing a wonderful job creating a beautiful safe space for those likeminded 🤍*hugggggs*
When I was 5 yrs old I remember distinctly having this strange feeling that I wanted something... but I couldn't put my finger on WHAT it was. I looked thru all my favorite toys. Was it a toy I was wanting? No, not it. I thought "Am I hungry??" and remembered all my favorite foods. No, not it either. "Am I thirsty?". Again, no drink could satisfy this longing for... something. After a few minutes, it became so tiresome to my 5 year old mind to try and figure out the remedy for this strange feeling of desire to no avail. I brushed it off and thought "Eh I guess I'll figure it out later". Years passed. About fifteen of them. Now, here I was in my room, spending time with the Lord. And He brought back that memory. He whispered "The whole time, it was Me you were wanting." 😭 I fell down weeping. There is something inside us all that only God Himself can satisfy. He is the Lover of your soul, the reason for your existence, the very purpose you crave. Jesus Christ is the Light of every person. He gave Himself for you. And the things you admire in others are glimpses of Him. He is always reaching out to you- in the stillness, in the quiet, in the loneliness. Sometimes even loudly thru circumstances to try and get your attention. "You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart" Jeremiah 29:13
“This is serotonin, and I am covered in it”…best quote of 2024!
What I love about your channel is that it doesn't feel like I'm watching a van life commercial. It's genuine and it's you. This one really made my day. The white sands and the cavern were magnificent.
Her, Mateo, forestey forest, there are a few out there doing unpretentious and genuine content.
One of the secrets to happiness is wanting what you have. Sounds so simple, but effective. Hugs from a grandma in Indiana.
Hi Grandma! ;)
Thanks grandma!
Love U Grandma 👵 ❤
Love that!🫶🏽
I've always loved that idea!
One quote that I've been telling people for a long time is "you can be surrounded by many people and still feel alone in this world."
Truer words were never spoken ! I'm sure others have experienced that feeling !😔
You are perfect 😮😮😢😢😂❤❤❤❤❤❤
It's true
I think that that's one of those things that comes with being primarily a loner,... As one myself, i find that sometimes you just fall into one of those funks.....i enjoy things, i enjoy the few times that i do socialize with people, but then there are times that i just feel sad or depressed, then i either go somewhere or do something that revives me.... And it passes, it's like a cycle..... Just hang in there, i absolutely love your videos, especially since I'm preparing to convert my own van for Van Life as well. Cheers😊
I agree with you 100%
You get it!
She needs her other half 😁🥰
I get it 66 young though lol. In uk from california. Allysa always makes me feel a littltle better...
@@Mikemonoa-hz2rzshe’s used goods and already sold her body for $3 a month. Only a simp would go for her and she believes she’s too good for a simp so she will be lonely with a dog eventually.
I feel at times that loneliness is killing me, but then there are times that I find peace and comfort in being alone. Like you said, I definitely believe there's some sort of cycles to it all.
That's some serious grounding in a strong healing environment. Well done with this adventure.
As an introvert that deals with depression, I understand your mood and respect that you share the truth about it because it helps to know others get it. ❤
The white sands was absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing your journey!🤍
The montage at whitesands may be the most beautiful thing going around youtube right now! Waking up with intent and realizing we're divine is a wonderful way to be. God Bless you Alyssa
I love how artfully you've handled this tough subject of mood regulation. It helps me feel less alone. ❤
When I lived by the beach in SOCal if I had a bad day, bad week, whatever, I would go down and walk in the wet sand for hours. It fixed a lot of shit in my life I think.
I tried to go to Santa Monica a few times when I was sad living in LA and the traffic, parking, and people were so overwhelming I think it made it worse lol
But the further north in CA I went, the more peaceful the beaches became, until on the Oregon boarder it became an almost transcendental experience to visit them
@AlyssaVanilla you know you're really rocking your channel when you have @WorldAccordingToBriggs in the comment section. 😄🏆💌
@@PulpParadiseI agree
If you can live with minimal possessions you should try Costa Rica. It is inexpensive, beautiful, and the people are so much nicer than US. Racism is very low here, politics aren’t hardly ever discussed. Most people just live for the day. I have been here 7 years, surrounded by jungle, with 0 neighbors for 1 kilometer. I miss the weather of SoCal, but never the daily life. Peace to you on wherever you find yourself. Pura Vida@@AlyssaVanilla
@@PulpParadise Briggs loves her. Not in a weird way. He talks her up a lot.
Thank you young lady this is the blockbuster video i will share with my 49 year old daughter that is feeling like this and its making her so withdrawn ..i feel this will help her. Now i need to get her a small suv and get her out of that car so she can meditate in private and possibly get her to start taking small beauty trips alone so she can find herself again. Thanks again ❤
Out of all vanlifers I watch, you are the most relatable to me which has made you easily one of my favorites. Thank you for being brave in being vulnerable with us about your mental health and the way you view life while managing these thoughts and feelings. I definitely don't feel so alone when you do, and I thank you for that.
You are one of the very few channels in Vanlife that I enjoy watching. Iyou’re not repetitive in what you’re doing by making food and then sitting and groaning while you eat it. All of my pet peeves hearing people eat ha ha. I get this kind of slump as well and when people ask me what’s wrong I can’t explain it. I Love life love her I’m at. Thanks for showing us this beautiful location thanks for being you you’re a very special woman. And your channel is like I said one of the best. You don’t repeat yourself over and over you don’t show us the groceries that you just bought at Walmart you’re so simple and you’re more of a real life person.
Journalling helps me process the sad. Tried eating it. Tried ignoring it. Tried distracting myself. But just sitting with it, feeling my feels, and writing it out is what helps me move on.
You connected with nature which we are an extension of. You also walked through the sand with bare feet and there’s a ton of research about how the energy we absorb from the actual ground balances us out. I’m glad you feel better
Thank you for sharing this. I'm currently going through a slump, and seeing you living the dream makes me feel like if only I could do that I could pull myself out of it and heal my depression. But in reality, no matter where you are in life, your circumstances won't change you. It's within. :) Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
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man, she’s beautiful. and the way she lives her life so free, young, and adventurous is so contagious it makes you want to do it with her. ❤
This video is now my favorite. It cut thru several layers of my human experience like no other. The angelic music, paired with Gaia's intrinsic offerings, paired with a speck of flesh with monumental emotions, was hauntingly beautiful. Witnessing an earthling sit on the cusp of so many realms at once… 🥹 lovely…
Like Alyssa,. Keep being you!❤❤
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You are so special and a great blessing. May God always bless and protect you.
Thanks for being so real and not like everything is "perfect" all the time!! I get depressed in the winter because its just so gloomy all the time.
“Just raw-dogging reality…” I feel that, girl. Many of us are right there with you… you are not ever alone. ❤
We all walk through small storms, you are always so positive and strong. ❤️❤️ sending you prayers and great vibes.💕✝️
"Raw dogging reality" 😂!!! My gosh. What a classic statement. It always amazes me when someone strings words together in a way I've never heard them before. As I am also a migraine sufferer, I too must raw dog reality, and I feel you on that statement.
On the happiness front (or periodic lacks thereof), that's been something I've suffered from my entire life as well. Recently I've come to a new understanding that it's not a good idea to always be chasing happiness. Happiness is just a feeling. Now I'm trying to accept that it's more about seeking purpose in all things I do and being okay with feeling whatever feelings I'm feeling at the time. Sometimes I feel sad, sometimes happy, angry, frustrated, content, overwhelmed, etc, etc.
I appreciate your essence Alyssa… You bing warmth, joy and authenticity in your light. Hope you’re enjoying some good self care, reflexology massage, one of your favorite foods and just BEING! Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Wishing you health and peace always!
"Raw doggin reality "😂😂😂... it takes a lot of courage just to sit with yourself❤️🙏🏾 love your vids
Raw dogging it is not the answer, she’s a candidate for medication, no joking. This is like one big Dr Phil episode.
I suffer from frequent migraines and it does make life so hard. I admire that U go out in nature 2 find a sense of peace! I think that would be healing 4 me!
I've been feeling sad for a long time now. Could be a symptom of ptsd but I am getting help. I was recently just diagnosed and right now I'm learning how to cope and keep my mind occupied. It's not easy but I'm taking one day at a time. Right now I'm just really exhausted. Hope things get better for you. You are amazing. As always stay safe
I think we will both feel so much better eventually
Awareness is the 1st step!
Depression sucks.
@@AlyssaVanilla I hope you find your joy Alyssa. When life gets hard, take it one day at a time. When a day is too much deal with life one hour at a time. You are a beautiful young woman and I worry for your safety. Maybe you need to return home for awhile and fill your heart with the love of your family. Thank you for sharing your struggles with us. Depression
Depression lives behind a lot of smiles. Be safe.
Way to show up for yourself and support yourself with such generosity!
Thank you for sharing Alyssa. Just know that you aren't alone. There are so many of us out here that feel you. All we can do is try. You are doing all the things that you can to bring yourself out of that darkness. Remember, depression lies. Keep on going and keep on sharing! You are an inspiration!
"Happiness is a series of small little successfull moments"-truer words have never been spoken.
Simplicity is how I deal with sad...I try to think of the things that made me feel happy as a kid or teen...and even if I can't do those things because I'm sad, I feel like I'm helping my brain focus on something real instead of my fear of the future, which is typically why I get sad...fear of the unknown.
playing in sand like i did as a kid definitely helped hahaha
I climbed a tree like I did when I was a kid (surprisingly as a 30y old I didn't fall hahahahhaha) and it made me as happy as when I was a kid
I definitely do NOT ever feel perfect (even when I'm not raw dogging life), so that's such a hard idea to comprehend, but I loved this video! Thanks for making it. 💕
Song is indigo sparke - everything everything 🎶
thank you!! 🧡
Your videos have helped me get through periods of sadness. Thank you for sharing your journey.
Alyssa, I am glad that your spirits have been lifted. It’s ok to not feel ok sometimes😊. When I am in a low vibration I focus on the things in my environment that inspire me. I also keep a gratitude journal. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. You are so authentic and amazing! You are “the realest” girl😊❤❤! God bless
I like what you have accomplished to get free from your anxiety! Good luck to you Dr. Don!
Wow…Just wow. The moving cinematography is incredible. Love your content young lady ❤. You’ve got this!! Keep going
Thank you Miss Alyssa, I have never been to New Mexico and this late in life never expect to go. God's Blessings
Ha! I was running lunch errands at that Walmart and saw your van. I thought at the time “I wonder if that is Alyssa?” Turns out I was right! White sands is beautiful, happy it cheered you up a little.
I so relate to randomly feeling sad. Mental health issues just creep up on you, and you don't always know why you feel that way. If you can make the choice to do something, it's surprising how the mood can turn around. I'm in full admiration as to how you listen to yourself and take care of yourself.
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Hi Alyssa!
Thank you for a Sunday morning full of beauty. And for speaking your mind and just being yourself. Mr.D ☺️☀️
I've never been able to understand how someone can feel sad or depressed for no reason. For me personally, I don't think it's ever happened to me, without it being a result of something sad or tragic in my life. Love your videos by the way. Your such a beautiful person.
You've brought to light, adult sandbox therapy! ☺
You bring so much joy to strangers Alyssa! You have a radiant soul! Praying for you to have clarity and enlightenment hopefully that will help you through this time. 🩵
Great idea surrounding yourself with beautiful scenery in the funk!!
I have noticed lately I have been more of a loner. I went through a lot these past three years and sometimes I just feel better around my dogs because I guess there’s no pressure. I’m glad you found happiness today. That was a good thing for sure. Not to mention it was beautiful where you were at.
Me too, my dog brings me peace
Wow! You have spirit working through you - leading you to what makes you feel happy. I love what you had to say about this being the perfect time and you're doing the perfect thing... and then you give us amazing video of the sand dunes and the caverns. I too have a mindset for what to do on cloudy days - it helps a lot. I am 66 and just learned within the past year that if I am sad, I don't have to stay that way. I used to get sad over being sad, which just kept me there. I now have a list of things that makes me happy. Among my top ten is feeding and watching the dozens of birds that visit me. Another is meditation. Thanks so much for sharing the last few days with us. It is so great to see you happy... and it's great that when you're having a difficult day you are honest about that. We all have difficult days, so while we cannot understand exactly what you're going through, we wish you the very best in your spiritual and traveling journey.
I hope you see this comment, because I think that it relates to having control of our emotions and positions. It seems apropos of your comments about how you found relief from sadess. I have been working on shifting negative energy to positive energy (emotions, within relationship conflict, etc.) and found this quote that you might enjoy: John Gray says “Darkness cannot be directly removed, but it automatically disappears when you turn on the light”. Gray, How to Get What I Want and Want What I Have, pp. 22.
I shared this because I sometimes forget this when I get sad or mad - and it's good to remember. There are a lot of youtube videos about releasing negative energy, but I think that starts by drilling down on your feelings, what they mean, and what you want instead - by shifting negative energy to positive energy - and then release the negative energy. I hope this helps.
Getting active always helps mood
Life is full of ups and downs. You’re good at rolling with the punches. Keep riding and flying high 🙌🏾❗️
White Sands is beautiful..was there a couple weeks ago. Carlsbad Caverns is not really cold down there. I worked up a sweat from all the damn walking down there for 2.5 hours.
Hahaha good to know for next time!
I just found your channel and love it! I have kids your age and I'm amazed at how fearless your generation is. I loved the way you just sat with your emotions and basically meditated your way through the day. Sometimes we have emotions that aren't comfortable, but when we live in nature ... things turn around.
“I do have pringles, and that helps” killed me 😂❤ keep on keeping on girl!
Whatever you think you are missing, find it. Make the decision to be happy. Many blessings!
“Life is made up of many comings and goings and for everything that we take with us,we must leave something behind”
― Herman Raucher, Summer of '42
In the Winter of '24 *Alyssa* *Vanilla* shared her footprints in the sand with us. 👍
I loved the novel ✨
What s beautiful message ❤
You need a dog to travel with you. Nothing will help your mood like a dog that loves you.
True. Or a cat. Some people are cat people.
100% agree. A pet will take the sadness away.
How about a human being?
Yeah I think you are right I thought I find a female companion to travel with but then have to put up with a lot of bs . just the time to find a toilet shower hair dresser make up and especially the right food at the right time some even do some spiritual things . Simply impossible I will look for a dog. Thx
Ageed !!!😊
its so crazy cause the weather you hate is the weather i THRIVE in. i absolutely love rain, gloomy, grey sky days. they give me so much energy! hot and sunny days saps my energy so much 😩 here's to differences! ❤
I use to be like this up until recently (past 3 years) its so weird that it changed.
Goodness those Caverns were spectacular.
I think you mean acknowledging your feelings rather than honoring them. As I get older, I get feeling of being lost, my time getting short here, but then I am so blessed with my grandchildren, etc. I found you through watching Winterisblu. Big hug to you. God bless and take care of yourself.
Not been feeling great either- big life transitions, aware of my family getting older in an uncomfortable way, nervous anticipation of moving to a new city, and just, feeling bad. I liked the Fleet Foxes song :)
I can definitely relate! I usually get slumpy feeling when the weather gets warm. It’s usually around the summertime but I noticed that this year since we’ve had a lot of unseasonably warm weather days that it’s already started! For whatever reason (totally unbeknownst to me) EVERYTHING starts to go wrong in my life! I used to think that it had to do with my job that I was working because it’s doing those times that everyone would treat me the crappiest! Btw, the beautiful white sand was amazing therapy. I never knew that New Mexico had white sand. It looked beautiful.
Wow the most beautiful breathtaking sightings to watch. So therapeutic.Thank you for sharing. I wish you good recovery from this phase of feeling that way darling. Take care Allysa❤😊
Thank you so much for being rawfully truthful. Makes such a change from the van lifers who are 'so happy every day and everything is perfect'.
You aren't alone with those down moods as you can see from the comments.
Praying to God definitely helps me in those dark, low times. 🙏 ❤️
Alyssa I will surely keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Connecting with God and reading my bible definitely helped me with these same emotions, I wanna say that I've been depression free for about 3 months now. Praise Jesus 🙏🏽❤️ I pray the same for you 💐
‘Raw doggin life’ 💯❤️🙏🏼
Hi buy a Japanese Spitz dog the medium size. These dogs read your soul and bring so much love to there owners. You will no longer be sad. This dog loves to communicate. Consider buying this faithful, fun loving dog!! They are enthusiastic and bring so much unconditional love..
You blow me away. Keep being free.
Alyssa you are so strong inside, So much hidden talent an gifts you will uncover in time. Respect, You are so beautiful keep up the awesome work you do.
Hey Alyssa been following your videos since you were in the car, you inspired me to finally start traveling in my own car :) been out now about a month. Was in white sands a couple weeks ago loved it ❤
Ahhh so happy for you :)
Thank you for sharing this places are amazing I’m a 60 year old from Chicago can’t wait to start traveling in my rv . You are an amazing person God bless you stay strong
the good thing is youre talking about those feelings its healthy
U know what would make it even cozier 😁 a pet ❤ if I didn’t have kids I would totally be doing what ur doing 🤗 I love it, so peaceful. That sand is mesmerizing.
I’m always fighting the sadness and chasing sunshine ❤ I think winter intensifies these emotions
I agree, it's normal to be down sometimes, just have to keep doing what you have to do everyday.
Love the video. Now I'll have to take a trip to the White Sands. I listened to the song. I can relate to it. I was diagnosed years ago with SADS. So cloudy no sun days aren't good for me. The caverns were awesome. I'm glad you're okay. Maybe you'll get to the Redwoods soon. Stay safe and stay sweet. Love ya.🥰
I too need full bright sunshine all the time! Good thing we’re over west
Stay warm ❤️❤️❤️
God just smiled because your finding joy in His creation. Putting your hands in the sand laying in it. 😊 He loves you girl!
Sending you love and light dear heart. I love that you honored your feelings and showed me how to move through them in a health-filled and nurturing way. One Love!!!
I wanted to add…thank you for sharing the beautiful places that you stopped at!
You are so sweet and honest just be you that’s ok then happiness will follow it’s the little things hugs ❤
This legit the most relatable youtube video to , you got a new subscriber😊
I get that too. I put Psalms on and it reminds me that I am not forgotten ❤ Psalm 91
You've become an inspiration to many looking for peace and tranquility ! keep on!!
Absolutely Beautiful Location 🎉
Isn’t it?!
From someone who struggled with vices , her whole life and then addicted to just about everything , drugs took me to a place. Nobody wants to go I wish that I had not been able to do them in the first place. It’s such a false comfort. It’s not real comfort it comforts you while you’re destroying your life by numbing you from realizing what you are doing and how far you have fallen and then once you’re there the only way to not give up on life you know what I mean , is to keep doing them and keep letting it numb you as it takes you further and further down destroying the lives of everyone you love because they’re worried about you watching you fall thinking you are going to die and a lot do, doing things that you swore you would never do I mean is the best gift I’ve ever been given to have thought I couldn’t raw dog reality because I literally say that I can’t raw dog reality but I can. I’m learning how to and it’s such a beautiful gift. I know you didn’t mean it like literally, but that gives gives you like any comfort to know that God gave you a really good gift when he gave you migraines that wouldn’t allow you to do anything else especially since you probably would’ve it sounds like and not realizing what or where that could’ve taken you the 20s not 30s and I wish I could go back and just be grateful to not lose the rest of my life because they suck so much😢 maybe not all of them are as bad as drugs, but they all come with big consequences or the potential of very big consequences.
white sands was in top 5 of my list of natl parks to see. luckily i got a gig in northern NM and on a dark day headed down. such a cool place.
Lucky you!!
sometimes luck comes my way…. sometimes. did you ever watch that Quartzsite doc? curious your thoughts.
@@STEVEHEROLD omg was that you who recommended it on instagram? I really liked it! I love that kind of filmmaking, thank you for the suggestion
@@AlyssaVanilla yup that was me. i like that style too. fly on the wall. glad ya enjoyed it.
You are not alone Alyssa! I understand how you feel, but you should be proud that you are one of the ones who pushes through…because look at all the beauty in life we almost forfeit‼️😝 Joyful travels and big hugs‼️❤️
It is a mineral, gypsum
Thats what dry wall plasterboard is made from?
Happy Sunday Alyssa! I enjoyed this video! I hope you feel better soon. Yes going to a beautiful place to,visit would help to lift your spirits! This is beautiful sand!
Winterisblu got me here! Great content!
Same! I love Alyssa and Matteo's friendship.
Love your attitude....everyone gets down but you handle it well.
Soooo beautiful out there.
Your perspective on life is everything.🎉 You are truly an admirable person!😊
Hope you're doing well...
beautiful watching you ground yourself with the earth!!! it's so important to keep yourself grounded and that serotonin as high as naturally possible!!! much light and love
Beautiful
Alyssa - Your cavern is great reel is great! Made my day seeing that.
People weren't meant to live lonely lives. People were meant to be together with others.
ALL the feels. Woman I am RIGHT THERE WITH YOU❣️The highs and lows and rollercoasters are REAL 😅 With all of that being said - I absolutely love how bright you shine ✨ thank you for the honesty and transparency!! You are also doing a wonderful job creating a beautiful safe space for those likeminded 🤍*hugggggs*
When I was 5 yrs old I remember distinctly having this strange feeling that I wanted something... but I couldn't put my finger on WHAT it was. I looked thru all my favorite toys. Was it a toy I was wanting? No, not it. I thought "Am I hungry??" and remembered all my favorite foods. No, not it either. "Am I thirsty?". Again, no drink could satisfy this longing for... something. After a few minutes, it became so tiresome to my 5 year old mind to try and figure out the remedy for this strange feeling of desire to no avail. I brushed it off and thought "Eh I guess I'll figure it out later". Years passed. About fifteen of them. Now, here I was in my room, spending time with the Lord. And He brought back that memory. He whispered "The whole time, it was Me you were wanting." 😭 I fell down weeping. There is something inside us all that only God Himself can satisfy. He is the Lover of your soul, the reason for your existence, the very purpose you crave. Jesus Christ is the Light of every person. He gave Himself for you. And the things you admire in others are glimpses of Him. He is always reaching out to you- in the stillness, in the quiet, in the loneliness. Sometimes even loudly thru circumstances to try and get your attention. "You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart" Jeremiah 29:13
You have to go through the bad times to appreciate the good times 😊stay safe and keep ☺
Who gets exited when Alyssa post a new video?! ❤❤❤ love it!! Positive vibes to everybody here ❤