Jesus is not the name of the Son. The seal of Alahiym (The seal of God) is the Father's name written in peoples foreheads. Revelation 7:1-3; 14:1. Anybody who has the Father's name sealed in them also has the Son's name sealed in them. The name of YAHUWAH is the greatest name of all! and the name of His Son YAHUWSHUWA who came in His Father's name. John 5:43, Proverbs 30:4 (King James Version).
There is still a world around you, a world where you hold eachother, at night in a beautiful profond sky with many little beating stars, and all this softness is still there around, surrounding and holding you, and still full of this love you will have together forever. It may seem all gone, it's true she was your first world. Maybe, for the moment it appears with violence, or with feeling completely empty, or feeling rage, all that can be a part of it. As you said your mum loved you, and that love never dies. For sure she didn't want to die, she would have loved to feel good and stay a all the time with you, and for sure she tried not to do this for you, and for the people she loved too, but her pain was stronger than her thinking in that moment, she felt aside from her. And it's sure that as the loving mum she was, she unconsciously thought you would always choose and cherish life as you cherished her and everything around.
I hope those words comfort you, i know how the seeming silence of the world can feel, so i didn't want to stay silent and tried to find some words. I hope those words reach you, (and hope my english is correct). Wanted you to know there is a lot of love and care, it has often only lost it's expression or hope for it, probably experiencing loneliness in those parts of life. Also i think you should be very very sweet to yourself, always stay on your side, even if you don't understand you. You need a lot of love from you, as if you had a small child, be very tender. It can be extremely helpful to write what you feel, trying to understand how normal it is, considering it's unknown, to feel as you do. As a child or an explorer. Even the worst ideas. It's a suggestion, but you should stay more with the people that can give you the same care, and listening. It is very important i think. ❤
Losing a friend this way never stops hurting. Every time it happens, you swear that you’ll never let it happen again. Then it happens again. I’m only 23 and and I’ve already lost 3 close friends this way. Those events have permanently shredded my heart. RIP Connor, Luke, and Zack.
I have bipolar 1 and suicidal ideations. Living life with this is hell on earth and suicide seems like ending this hell and an alternative to suffering in so much pain. Mental illness took away my career, friends, financial security... and i dont wish it upon anyone. But i wish everyone to understand how immensely tough it is even if we have support from loved ones. But staying alive bc i dont want to pass on the pain to others.
If things gets too difficult, please try to talk it out to someone that you trust & to always believe You Matter❤ If you find it challenging to talk to someone as you didn’t want to cause others’ pain, maybe you could try out journaling, write them out & to be aware of your own thoughts & feelings is a great start for healing as it works for me, so please find what works best for you alright? Oftentimes, the real problem is not the matter itself but to feel understood & accepted during hard times is what matters most❤ Seeking help is a big step forward of You Got Your Back, hope you get better soon, sending you ❤
Thank you for staying, I'm so proud of you.. 🥺❤️ you're right, love & compassion & support is the bare minimum to help someone tide through this 🫂🫶🏻 while we may not fully understand what you are going through, we are willing to do anything & everything we can to keep you here 🥺❤️ sending you all my love darling
I don’t want to die bc I don’t want to leave my loved ones in a world of pain behind. But I also don’t want to be here anymore. 1 month update: still going through it slowly but surely making progress. Continuing to push forward
@@BEACHDUDE71 Oh you planning to go to another planet or somewhere? Perhaps you should wait for some time because if you want to go to outer space, usually it costs billions of dollers at the moment. So I recommend waiting for some years until it is affordable for people like us to travel to outer space. I'll be with you then :)
It's a mystery to me how some people can seemingly have everything in their lives- love, friends, looks, intelligence and take their own lives, and others may have a very difficult life with deprivation, toxic families, poverty, war and famine and still continue living. It just goes to show that circumstances are not always an indication of how well a person is doing emotionally. I am so sorry for your loss, and I think it's great that you are raising awareness on this issue and making your friend proud. 🧡 PS - you seem like the kind of friend that everyone would want in their life. You were so concerned for your friend and even took her to Korea to try to make her happy. You are such a considerate human being.
I have already solved this conundrum about people from different homes, simply whoever enters the SSRI path will lose the desire to do anything, his reward system will collapse. People without SSRIs will come to their senses. I recognized this on myself after using SSRIs.
You have put it perfectly into words, everyone we meet is going through battles that we know nothing about, so it's so important to be kind, always. 🥺❤️ Thank you so much for your encouragements & reassurance that I'm doing the right thing 🫂 I hope that by sharing out story, it can help someone else going through the same & spread love & kindness to people around them 🥹❤️🫶🏻🫶🏻
Depression is quite literally all in your head. Sure it can be circumstantial, but it's also just part of having a brain. That brain can start functioning incorrectly and produce less serotonin. Some people simply do not have the will to live, usually the soft and kind people in your life are carrying big burdens. Their care for others hurts them deeply.
That sucks. It's a very heavy thing to deal with depression. It doesn't go away fully ever. You learn to live with it but sometimes it just becomes too heavy.
This really chocked me up. My best friend also has BPD (and ADHD) but not the hardcore version. Last year her life flipped upside down and on one of those tough days I asked her if she wanted me to stay the night to keep her company but she told me to go home because she didn't want to run away from her feelings. A few hours later she asked me to come back as she didn't feel safe with herself anymore - she checked how many sleeping pills she would have to take to die. Getting that message was so scary but I was so proud of her that she reached out to me. I can't imagine my life without her. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure she's in a safe space and that she's glad you're sharing this message to help others. I also hope that sharing this helped with your own struggles.
I used to have a cute little pet rabbit that I love, a lot. I loved telling her secrets bc she would never let them out! Sometimes, I would sneak out of my room in the middle of the night to look at her, admire her eating hay. 3 years ago, at 6 am in the morning, my mother was feeding her hay when she suddenly laid down in the ground, lifeless. That was the moment I would never forget. Due to old age, she left the world. Chiro, you will forever be in my heart ❤
Hello Yvette Tan. I am a person from Switzerland who is battling severe mental health problems. I really enjoy your videos about this country, but I honestly never excepted such a sad and traumatic experience from you. I have watched it to the end and I just wanna say how much it means to me. Please know you tried your best to help and you truly are a strong person. Rest in Peace Hui Lin, dealing with mental health struggles is truly painful. ❤🕊
Hello darling, I wish I could give you a big big hug right now 🫂❤️🫶🏻 thank you so much for your kind words, 🥺 Hui Lin have impacted my life is so many ways, I wouldn't be where I am today without her 🤍🕊 I will continue living life to the fullest for her sake & honor her in everything I do. Sending all my love & hugs to you darling, stay strong, you've survived 100% of your bad days to be here & I'm proud of you 🫂
I hope the guilt you feel goes away sometime. I know your friend wouldnt want you to feel that way. You're an amazing friend!!! One of the hardest things with depression is the isolation. For me its self inflicted. You dont want to be around anyone. Thank you for sharing your story.
@@BEACHDUDE71before you decide to leave, learn about Islam even if u don’t want to, I know how it feels to feel just absolutely empty and have no drive to live however I must admit I’ve never decided to commit tho. Nothing helped me like Islam and I feel the need to tell you about it, when you find your purpose in life it just makes everything more chill and calm and life isn’t confusing anymore. Hope it gets better ❤!
@@BEACHDUDE71 Please talk to someone about what you're going through, suicide is never necessary and I know there will be people who will be destroyed for life if you left like that. There are people who care, even strangers like me. There IS help out there. Dial 988. Reach out. The world is not all bad. Sending love.
Thank you for your kind words, the guilt never really goes away but with time, it helps 🥺🫂🫶🏻 I kinda understand the fear of opening up to someone for them to not react in a way that can make it better but I hope you slowly let your loved ones in from time to time 🥹🫂🫶🏻 sending all my love to you, stay strong fighter 🫶🏻
@@BEACHDUDE71you deserve only good and Jesus christ loves you and me, and you in your own right as a human are so deserving of good, and to be freed of things and to triumph from bad and I believe in you and hope so much you don't leave ❤... your soul can progress I promise and I wish for all the right aid and steps to be there for you friend
I didn't fully understand the importance of mental health and what anxiety and depression can do to someone until i watched this video. It is heart-breaking to hear what she went through and I am praying for you and her family.
I've been suffering from depression for about 10 years. Medication does help, although you might need to take it for the rest of your life. Depression is a very complicated condition and hard to explain. I remember that after a couple of days on medication, I could feel the fresh air, the beautiful sunlight, the sound of the rain, and the smell when the rain touched the ground-all the small details that bring joy to life. I think those are the things people with depression lose.
A lot of depression is caused by a combination of negative events. It's sad now that society makes so many people don't matter and don't have a future. As a friend there is only so much you can do but try your best.
I just wanted to say this really helped me. I actually had psychosis triggered by a suicide that happened close to me. It was just one week of losing touch with reality and my mind and body breaking down. But it was also the most traumatic thing I've ever been through. It's really hard when you're young to process it all and accept this as being your new reality. The hardest thing about it all is that you have to believe that it is possible to stop people from committing suicide by supporting them while also accepting that you could not save the person who committed suicide. When I was finally able to process this, and accept life and death and suicide the way that it is, could I actually start moving forward.
I watched this video in tears as you talked about her. Her pain is something i resonate with so much. I have attempted multiple times before but none have worked, and every time i felt i was getting better, something would happen to take that away and this has happened my whole life. The inconsistency of not knowing where ill go (i moved a lot) and having to leave my life behind and a piece of me every time is so painful and im so tired of this.
I found your channel since I too am a foreign living in Switzerland, I've been living here since I was teenager. I never expected to see a video like this, I am incredibly sorry for your loss. Never blame yourself, I say this as someone who has struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts all my life, I think about it almost everyday, I know that if I were to do it, it will never be the fault of my loved ones, they are in fact the people who have brought tremendous light in my life during the worst times. It is not your fault. I am sure you brought so much light into Hyerin's life and I am sure she loved you very much. Depression is a chronic illness of the brain and sometimes it makes you unable to have that light in your mind. I too like your friend struggled a lot at work and school, specially with the Swiss school system, I never got into gymnasium wich was my dream and I never finished an apprenticeship, something wich has led me to think that ending my life would be better. Thankfully I am getting treatment for it. But it is very hard and I feel like mental health isn't talked about a lot in Switzerland.. or anywhere tbh. I hope you are healing and I hope your friend is doing where well wherever she is ♥♥
oh darling, I’m so sorry that you had to go through this, the importance of mental health is really not talked about enough 🥺🫂❤️🫶🏻 Thank you so much for sharing with me your perspective, it has brought me some comfort & lessened some of my guilt, though it never really goes away. on the flip side, Hyerin has brought a lot of light into my life too, she loves people deeply, & is one of the sweetest considerate human being alive & I believe it is the exact same way your loved ones feel about you 🥺🫂❤️ I know how stressful school & work can be & it is natural that you feel despair after not being able to reach your dreams, but I'd like to say that alot of people don't even have the courage to go for what they want, but you👏🏻 actually👏🏻 did 👏🏻 so it sounds like a win to me because you went for your dreams, even if it didn't work out, you still won you know? You sound like a really sweet person, I hope that you’re able to find some peace and that you’re in a good place right now. Sending love your way. 🤍🕊
Thanks for posting this Yvette. I’m a sporean working towards FIRE and struggling with depression sometimes as well. How magical RUclips algorithm is to bring me randomly to your channel ❤
Don't feel Guilty you did everything you could to help Helen. You was a good Friend to her and you have her a nice time on Holiday. I volunteer for a mental health charity in the UK and I love every minute of it. You stay safe and I will watch out for your next video
Thank you for your kind words, I think it's really amazing what you're doing & you inspire me to do the same 🤧🥹❤️🫶🏻 sending my love to you kind soul ❤️🫶🏻
I'm going to the office this morning we have got a two hour training course for suicide Awareness. I'm pretty excited about it Judith sent it me as an online course but a couple of us couldn't open it so she as organised to have it in the office so that's what I will be doing this morning. It will be good to see the other volunteers again. And Next Wednesday the 20th we have got a bit of a party type thing they put it on for the volunteers as a thank you. I like to keep my mind active. We have just had the Remembrance day in the UK 11 November to mark the end of world war 1 and to remember the soldiers who didn't come back and to thank them who did. It's also for them people who are still going to war. I'm so glad I can save a life without having to taking another. You have a great day
Hi Yvette, Thank you for spreading awareness, and I'm sorry for your lost. I empathize with your story, a lot, however I am on the other side of your story, and how they act and feel is as you had tried to explain, the box and ball story. Hmm idrk what else to say, but thank you for being you, you're a very special person, very empathetic, and I hope one day you will be able to spread the awareness and break the stigma.
Thank you so much for watching, you have no idea how much your kind words mean to me 🤧❤️🫶🏻 thinking back from my loved ones perspective, they supported me by giving me the space to grief, to make sure I eat my meals even when I said I had no appetite, giving me a listening ear when I'm ready to speak. I appreciated my loved ones alot more, & just by being there, their presence alone, gave me strength. So I would say, give your friend space but still check up on them regularly, they appreciate you even if they don't say it 🥺🤧❤️
I'm going to make 9 years fighting depression it's miserable, I'm so so sorry for your loss she was so beautiful! and you were such an amazing friend, hope you can find peace
Hi Yvette everything you said really hit the nail on the head. Thank you, your video did help me in my healing journey. I lost my cousin less than a year ago from depression and suicide. I was the first person to find her body and I went through the exact same spiral as you, She was only 23. I was just laying in bed thinking about her last night, unable to sleep and your video appeared on my recommended today. Thankfully I had lots of support from my family and friends during the grief and healing period for the months after her death. I know exactly how you feel and the words of advice that you gave are exactly what I want people to know too. I wish that the future would be a more accepting place and lesser people will go through the pain and helplessness that Hyerin and my cousin went through ❤
What do you mean she was only 23, why does people dying at a young age matter I don't get it, I'm the same age and I'm tired of hearing I have a long life ahead of me like it doesn't matter you don't know what people have ahead of them, life is not some fairy tale and I don't believe that it's precious and you should live the best of it because it all goes away we all die.
hello darling, I'm so glad my video found you & provide a little comfort 🥺🤍 I'm so sorry for your loss & what you had to go through, I understand it all too well... wish I could give you a big big hug & I'm sending all my love to you 🫂 while grief has no expiry date, I believe in living life to the fullest (on their behalf), keeping their memories alive, honoring them in everything that we do, cherish all the happy memories we shared & holding everyone we love closer to us & just appreciate how fleeting life is. when our journey ends one day, I'll have so much adventures to tell her when I see her again 🥺🫂🤍🕊
because life is just starting at your 20s, you get to finally make your own choices & live your life the way you want to live. you still haven't met all of the people who are going love you, some of the best days of your life haven't happened yet so stay to see all of it. & you're right, all we can do is live life to the fullest before it ends 🫂❤️
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the ONLY way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. we have a lot of growing up to do. We should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. We need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
My brother died by suicide 8/5/24. Please stay strong I know it hurts to live some days but everyday provides new hope. You are loved please stay here.
This video is very important. It describes the aftermath of something so tragic perfectly, and I feel alot more people should watch this. Perfect mental health awareness video on so many levels, and I love the editing style. I am very sorry for your loss. I understand the level of insomnia and crying yourself to sleep all too well. Guilt is one of the worst feelings ever, but I wish you the best with finding some peace of mind in the future. You're not in this alone. ❤
Condolences to you and her other loved ones! I myself think of suicide every day, i would do anything to have a friend like you. Shes in a better place now, and at the end of the day, her death was her choice, she decided it cause she felt like living was more painful than death. You were a good friend and thats what she was thinking about in her last moments. Im so glad you shared your and hers story, you are an amazing human being, no one is perfect and youve done everything you could to make her happy, even if its small silly things! But depression is just this dark fog that she couldnt seem to escape
What a beautiful video, Yvette. Your words are heard and will continue to be heard. This video felt like a big hug and I feel so much love towards you - one complete stranger online to another, thank you.
"i might have been able to save her from the game but, i would not be able to save her in real life 6 years later." wow. that hit me as someone who can relate to this video
I’m so sorry. I truly can’t imagine the pain and you’re so strong for bearing it, and you’re brave for sharing. Even though it’s such a hard thing to talk about, you still have such a warm and welcoming presence. I wish nothing but healing and happiness for you. I’m suicidal and I needed to hear someone’s voice and you helped a lot. It’s not your fault that she’s gone, sometimes the pain is so great that nothing and nobody makes you want to stay. Be safe and take care of yourself ❤
I'm giving you a big big hug darling 🫂🫶🏻 Thank you for showering me with such kind words, I'm so glad this video found you, you are exactly the person I want to reach out to 🥹❤️🫶🏻 if no one has told you yet, I'm so proud of you for staying!! you've survived 100% of your bad days to be here, you're a fighter & you're going to kick depression in the butt 🥺 I wish for you to have strength to tide through the darkest days, & the ability to see that you are loved, you matter & the world is only a better place because you are in it. sending all my love to you, 🫶🏻🫂
Thank you so much for sharing this, Yvette. Grief related to suicide is absolutely soul crushing and it brings comfort hearing somebody express their pain and the importance of mental health resources and awareness
i've been suffering from depression for 5 years now, but it was really only ever the lack of motivation for anything and having zero energy, no suicidal thoughts. but, recently my boyfriend of nearly 5 years left me. you see, i have a very difficult time feeling love, connections, and empathy, making it difficult to feel close to anyone. however, i loved him so much. he was everything to me. he was my source of happiness, my comfort, my motivation. every second he's somewhere in my mind, and i cant stand it anymore. whenever i feel at peace, it only lasts for a moment until i remember that he's gone, and suddenly i feel my soul flow out of my body. i feel so lonely and lost without him. i have no one to help me and i feel like no one cares about me. my mother takes her anger out on me and ignores my emotional needs, i rarely see my father but now he's moving out of state and has no desire to visit, my brother is autistic which makes it difficult to him to show any love or care, my stepfather complains about me, and my stepsister used to bully me but now she ignores me. i feel like a burden to them. my depression burdens them, my ocd burdens them, and my epilepsy burdens them. i have no other family to go to either. as for friends, i only have 3 friends, but they're all online. 2 live in different states and the other lives in a different country. one is extremely dry as it is, but when i told him about my boyfriend leaving me, he just said "good thing he's gone." another doesnt even come close to understanding how i feel and thinks i can get over it if he says that he'd be sad if i was gone. thats not enough to make me wanna live, which may sound selfish but i'll explain why in a moment. the last one just sympathizes with me. she's honestly the most helpful, but she's gone the most. i feel so bad not being able to feel anything for them though. they treat me better than anyone else, yet i cant love them. it feels like they're just there, there's no connection or anything. it makes me feel lonely and guilty. the one thing keeping me alive is hope. maybe he'll come back. maybe he's just testing my love for him. maybe thats just my delusional self talking, but still, i have hope that maybe he will come back, and i dont wanna die before it happens. the moment we lose any ability of contacting each other, my hope is gone, and i might not live for much longer. im turning 18 in 10 days, which is something i've been looking forward to for years bc that meant i could finally start a life with him, but now there's no reason to look forward to it. in fact, i dont want it, i wanna go back to being 13 when our relationship started
hi! i'm 21, and absolutely not in the same boat that you are - i have a boyfriend, but we share the aspect of depression. his social circle is my social circle, and i don't really go out or talk to people regularly except for him. a lot of my life has him in it, and the relationship is hanging on by a thread; i can see him care less and less every day. i'm not telling you any of this for sympathy points or anything - once, he was also the source of my joy. when you feel like shit, it is easy for you to look back and wish for simpler times. i have had periods like this, too. i was 13 once too, without friends. as a 21 year old, i can promise you that the only real constant in life is change - but i can also promise you, as cheesy as it sounds, that happiness and being content comes from within, as well. as will pain. it is a fucking pain in the ass to try and find things that make you happy, but you will want to and you will have to. it may seem like a tremendous effort to try new things, but if the things are right for you, you will come out feeling better for it. if this reaches you and you're still not doing better - you are barely 18, now. congrats for that milestone c: it is my belief that many who have those thoughts like you are having, just want to escape their own minds and situations and are in a pit that looks endless - it is not. for as long as you live, you can have the opportunity to enjoy life again. maybe contact family or visit the ones you care about. put on a nice movie or a warm pair of socks - it is winter (unless you're in australia). get comfy with a hot chocolate. maybe put on some sounds of a fireplace or rain, or even journal a bit. you're going through a tough time, and this might bring comfort or help you go right through. even putting thoughts out in the open, or pinpointing, verbalizing, then FEELING them helps sometimes. don't mourn a future that hasn't happened yet! there are many better horizons ahead, and a lot of life and a lot of change for you still left, i promise.
@0000rina thank you :) since i made that comment, i've been experiencing derealization among other things, but im trying my best to be there for myself. i've been trying to do things to keep myself distracted, i've been thinking about life before him to recognize that i can live without him, i've been thinking about how much more i have to experience, etc. although i still experience moments of feeling empty, feeling like my heart dropped, or wanting to escape life, i feel like i can cope better. it makes me really sad and jealous knowing that he'll replace me, but it is what it is i guess. i hate how often i dream about him though, like when i did last night. also, last night i suddenly started crying for no reason as i was trying to sleep, and tried to comfort myself by repeating "everything is gonna be okay"
Thank you for the story and for your message.. I suffer from dwpression since almost 20 years now. and its important to tell stories and remind people to check after another
It's so hard yet necessary to find a real soul that will listen and acknowledge you as a human being when suffering to the level of suicide. It's pretty low and a lot of people just don't understand it or how to take it seriously, sometimes even entire families refuse to acknowledge it and then are completely lost when it happens. Keep searching for "real" that will listen and be social, there are people who do care, who would love to care. It's unfortunate and I think the more optimistic approach is remaining adventurous to have faith to find those who will be social in our lives. Social is compassion, cohesion, collaboration, communication - not a detached, deflecting, defamation, demeaning.
I can relate myself with this video and would say that just being kind and understanding can help a lot instead of blindly, charging people or hurting them with your words as you don’t know what the other person is going through as he might be hiding his emotional trauma behind a fake smile
Thank you for your video. Being someone that’s recovered from schizophrenia (yes recovered, because I’m symptom free now) and the ”depression” that comes with it, I can relate. With ”depression” I mean the mental switch of wanting execute a suicide. I’ve had severe depression but nothing was as bad as my schizophrenia episodes where I felt like me ending my life is just a matter of switch for me. Going through hearing and visual hallucinations was the most heavy thing I never wish upon anyone. I told God that if I had to live life like that for the rest of my life he shouldn’t blame me for ending it. Fortunately God had other plans for me and I am grateful for that. Going back to trying to explain why someone might possibly choose to end their life. From my perspective I couldn’t see myself cured, I couldn’t see myself living with my condition. There were commands and comments from the voices that it’s just easier to end it. And my mental switch to finally be able to execute it was there. It wasn’t about being selfish, because some people might see it that way. It’s all a mental switch. That mental switch wasn’t there before I had schizophrenia symptoms, I was always afraid to hurt my family. Your mind can’t think straight in that state. I guess that’s why many doctors tries to keep people locked up in hospital for this reason. So you shouldn’t blame yourself, you gave her beautiful memories of a good friend and that’s more than anyone could ever have done. The switch is a scary thing, and not a state I want to think of too much. Because I know if I ended my life there’s nothing anyone could’ve done for me to change my mind. All I could ever have asked for is the forgiveness for leaving behind broken hearts.
OMG!!! Sorry about loss of your beat friend 😢 You're always very kind to tell your story! You're so brave & tough you ever be 🔥🔥 Stay strong & keep praying for your friend so that she will sees you everything while in heaven 🤍🤍🤍 Dont worry! You're not alone! We're always here for you 👍🥰❤️
I cried after yr video, i somehw understand hw she feel.. mean manager etc. sometimes ppl dun think whether the other parties can accept yr words etc. Be strong, if she still slive, she will want u to be happy too.
you did what you could possibly to. dont blame yourself. im sure your friend is now in a happier place. be happy that she is free from the mental and physical pain. Grief is the price we pay for love.
God bless you and forever stay strong always, you are brave to share your personal experience of grief and loss so openly and tenderly. I hope it does more than simply raising awareness to the importance of mental health and seeking professional help and support.
Thank you so much for your kind words 🥺🤍 I believe this is what I should do & even if it's just 1 person who have watched, my voice is heard. I would like to believe that our generation will make a difference so thank you 🥺🤍🕊
1 year ago a girl in my neighborhood committed suicide bc she felt too guilty to live on after her roommate died from overdose. they are just so kind that make people feel sad.
28 year old Ashleigh from KL/SG here, spent half of early childhood in KL, the other half in SG up until now. Have gave away most of my clothes to the underprivileged and sincerely don't wish to be here anymore. Thank you for making videos like this.
Ashleigh, I'm so sorry you're going through this. Please reach out to someone, you're not alone 🤧❤️🫶🏻 it's a beautiful thing you did, giving your clothes to others who need it but you could give them so much more by staying 🥺 the world will not be a better place without you darling, please give yourself a chance to experience the world & your loved ones who would do anything to keep you here ❤️🫶🏻🤧
@@YVETTEINSWITZERLAND Hey, thanks heaps for your reply!!! It means alot!! So many answers about human and animal suffering in this world that we will never find....
oh my goodness this brought me to repeating tears and tears watching this video... you have given her some of the best memories in her life just like she have to yours, so I hope that will lessen your guilt because no one is guilty, its the illnesses doings and you know that. Of course I can't even imagine how you are and were truly feeling because I am in the other side where my best friend is still battling through what your best friend also had, both of what you have mentioned. When you said what she had been battling through, I truly broke down because I have a lot of the times cry by the thought of my best friend leaving this world from what she has to go through. When I heard your best friends battle ended with the same illnesses my best friend has, it truly made me cry because its a reality for you, I really cant fathom it, and you're so strong and amazing for sticking by her, you both are for sticking by each other for so long ♥ Thankyou so much for making this video and sharing awareness on how serious it really is so there will be better people in this world for people that are still battling through the things they are going through 💗
Thanks Yvette. I didn’t lose a loved one from suicide but I lost someone whom I love not too long ago. Your description on how grief hits from 22:00 is exactly how I feel now. Thanks for sharing and raising awareness of mental health issues.
Losing a loved one due to any circumstance is devastating, I'm so sorry for your loss & lots of love to you. 🤍 You'll never lose the heartbreak you endure for those you love, but in time, the numbing pain gives way to all the happy memories you've had together. In time, the tears will allow a soft smile in their memory. 🩷 I speak from experience. Stay strong darling 🫂
Thank you for your vulnerability. I’ve been that friend almost and still affected but remembering to take it day by day. I think this could help a lot of people ❤
I have lost many people my age to suicide before we even graduated high school. So many deaths in general unfortunately. This year I lost my uncle and my father 4 months apart. They didn’t end it themselves but their depression was a massive factor. Their mind gave up and their bodies caught up to them. My dad always said “if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be here” he wanted peace and death was his way of thinking of peace. In the end he said to me “I don’t want to die” and by then it was to late. It hurts and is scary how similar my depression is to theirs and I worry one day that’ll be my fate. Loving someone with depression and suicidal ideation can be so hard because you feel helpless. And unfortunately no matter how many people you have and love mental illness does not care.
Sending you so so much love and hugs and support I am so so sorry for everything that you have been through and are going through sending so so much love
God bless everyone who is going through suicidal thoughts, I hope they can find hope and faith in life and live it to the fullest before their time will naturally come. ❤
Merci Yvette pour ton message. Aussi longtemps qu'une seule personne aussi respectable que toi marchera sur cette planète l'honneur des humains sera sauf.
Im really really tired i did sh and I have severe depression but after watching this im not going to kms because i love my best friend, well she's more than a friend i love her and i don't want her to deal with depression it's the worst im going to a therapist to help me with it
I've been going through a tough time and I truly believe that the only reason I'm still alive is to help others. To anyone out there who is struggling, just know that your not alone, and you are loved.
Hi! I love your content and your videos promoting Switzerland! I live in Geneva as well. This video was really inspiring and I am so sorry to hear about best friend and your grief going through this. Thank you for sharing your video and how you are managing the situation. I think this is so important to share. Looking forward for your future videos!
Hello there, thank you for watching & leaving such a sweet comment! 🥺❤️🫶🏻 It is what I should do to raise awareness, & hope to provide some comfort for someone going through the same, 🤧 I hope to continue making videos & sharing them with you, thank you for your support it means the world to me 🫂❤️
Sososo sorry for you and for her families . I wish I could give you a warm hug . This kind of incidents change you permanently. I wish you the very best 😢
Thank you for your kind words 🥺🫂🤍🫶🏻 *hugs back tightly* oh yeah for sure it did change me so much but now, I smile thinking of all the times I spent with her & hope to help others going through the same 🥺🫂🫶🏻
Thank you for your in depth sharing of your experience. Reminded me of a situation my daughter encounter. One night my daughter suddenly came to me crying and asking for help. I was shocked and asked her what had happened and it took her a while to gather herself before she can speak. Apparently while she was checking on her whatsapp updates, she saw a video posted by 1 of her previous school class mate performing self harm on her arm. My daughter was at a lost of what to do cos she is very scared and worried for that friend. I told her to show me the video and I could see her friend taking a pen knife and slicing through her arm. It was a painful sight to see. I calmed down my daughter and told her I will contact her friend's school and alert them about it. This process was stressful as my daughter do not know which school this friend has went. My daughter had to went through her friend's social media profiles and she can only make a wild guess. I told her I will contact the school and check if her friend studies there. If she does not, we will contact her previous school form teacher for help. Luckily, the wild guess was correct. Her friend was indeed a student of that school and the school reverted that they will look into it. A few days later I asked for any update because that friend was uploading more self harm videos and based on the response I received, it did not feel like the school was doing much. I was kind of pissed and decided to look for my MP for help. I shared with him the details, including the videos and he said he will keep in touch with the school. Some time later, my daughter get to chat with her friend and was told that the school sent her for counseling but it did not help. She is attending another counseling and it seems a little better. From the conversation, my daughter gathered that the friend's parents were not taking her depression and self harm episodes seriously. It is kind of sad to hear so your advice in the video resonates. It has been a while and I wonder how is her friend doing now. Tonight I shall check with my daughter.
It pains me so much to see your daughter going through it at such a young age, but it is also so admirable for the both of you to do your best to help her friend when her parents were not. The sad thing is that this is very common in Singapore, the stigma surrounding depression is still so heavy that parents deny the chance for their kids to seek help while it is treatable...mental health needs to be regarded seriously & be on everyone's top priority 🥺🫂🤍 sending my love & strength to the both of you, I hope she is okay ..
Thank you so dearly for your story, you keep her life in ultimate honour, and to share to us what she meant to you and means, ~ of her beauty her strength and her struggles, Thank you so much for the valuable gems you've spoken with us in explaining sharing and the heartfelt truth from you really teach whats important to know and understand! The essence of life, what is helpful to our souls to be seen, especially when we are struggling, and you see these people~ you see your dear friend with care and the understanding of all situations and mental health is deeper in the world because of you ❤ thank you for helping so many to post this, being so brave and for fighting on too when things can get hard and heavy feelings can be like the waves, I am so proud of and wish you all the comfort and beauty to see and strength to surround and be with you! thank you for being here and sharing your story, you two are greatest of friends with so much love🌹❤️ and you deserve only good always 🌻🤍🥹!!!!! We are really grateful to see this 💘
Thks for sharing your story. My sister-in-law succumbed to depression 6 years ago.... if i may suggest, u shd learn to slowly let go n probably seek conselling to help u in this process.
Thank you for listening to my story 🥺 I'm so sorry to hear that, condolences to you & your family 🤍🕊 & yes I'm trying my best to heal through the grief, thank you for your advice ❤️🫂
You are a very strong person, and I wanted to thank you for sharing your story. You brought tears to my eyes, and I hope you have an amazing life out there.
@YVETTEINSWITZERLAND Partager ce que l'on a vécu avec nos disparus est, il me semble, un moyen de les faire vivre et d'honorer leur mémoire. Tourner cette vidéo n'a pas dû être facile, et j'admire le courage dont tu fais preuve!🤍
I don't know if you will read this but you are an amazing friend, anyone would be lucky having you as a friend. I hope your friend can rest in peace and deepest sympathies.
Thank you so much for your kind words, I'm lucky to have her in my life too she was an amazing friend, she loves people so deeply & she lets you know every chance she gets. 🥹❤️ she changed my life too 🫂🥺🫶🏻
As you said it very good, the pain will just jump on the loved ones when someone comit suicide. A big problem is, that a lot of people with depression wont even admit they have depression and wont search for help. But I hope you can find peace and happiness in Switzerland ❤❤❤
You're right, but is also society's problem for the heavy stigma that prevents people from seeking help, but I want to believe our generation in making the change 🤍🕊 thank you for your kind words! 🥹❤️🫶🏻
Tks for spreading awareness about mental health and how important it is. I'm still full of question where her parents all these years. Was she living by herself all this time? She was locked inside the flat?...
@ Yvette. Thank you sweetie. I so appreciate that. I do have support. I go into such dark spirals. I do have a therapist too. It’s not bad 24/7 but it’s very constant and persistent since childhood. 😔. I’m sorry about your pain and heartbreak. I’m hugging you from afar ( I’m in NY). Much love to you. I did not expect you to respond, but I so appreciate your loving and kind words.
I think about ending it often. But i cant and wont damage my mother and sisters that way. So i just suffer until my time comes. My first boyfriend, first kiss, took his life a few years ago after moving away. A year later, one of my best friends from highschool did the same. Words cant express. But I dont want to join them, wherever they are.
I can't imagine how difficult it must for you to go through not 1 but 2 funerals of your loved ones, it changes you permanently but you are so strong for staying, & thank you for that 🥺🫂🤍🫶🏻
You are beautifully strong and in the face of such times and the close beautiful souls that have come to be swept to fly, you're doing such great work to be here and I understand completely about the thought of suffering until the time comes. But I truly wish you blessings in your days and greatness even in your nights, and for peace to surround you, I am so glad that you are brave and clear in that, and hope that you remember just always how important you are ❤.. thank you so much for sharing and I wish you warmth and goodness to overflow for you, you are so strong
I was mildly depressed for many years and would have lived like that until late in life functioning quite well. Unfortunately, I was persuaded to take SSRIs, which were supposedly safe, and after six months of taking them I stopped taking them and for three months I was fine. Then all hell broke loose and I realized that all the talk of depression is propaganda. After withdrawal is such a state that you can't stand it and I'm not surprised that people quit. But if they hadn't gone on SSRIs they would have lived on.
I lost my close friend on December 7th, 2022. She was 16 and she suffered a lot and I remember the day she died I offered her to take pictures of my camera because she used to take a lot on my camera and i hold those photos so close to me now. I was in band practice and I didn’t see her message she posted on her story because I got out late. Little did I know she committed suicide that same day. I saw she was sad and I barely had time to talk to her but I told her I was going to see her tomorrow and I never did. I even texted her after everyone posted rest in peace messages on their stories.. I feel terrible. I wasn’t her bestest friend but I loved talking to her and seeing her around she was so kind to others and so nice . I remember when she was using my camera and she held my hand I still remember how it feels and how she spoke to me. Some of her “close” friends told people that we never knew how and that we should stop talking about we know her but they should’ve did something since they were so close to her. They even gave her drugs and as her mental illness deteriorated she relied on drugs to numb her pain. She even had a secret account with depression stuff, and it even acted as if a count down until she committed suicide and it’s so eerie to look at . I found it after she died and it was so depressing. I feel like they’re forgetting her and even though I wasn’t as close to her I still remember when we first met and the friend group we had before she became friends with some of these people. She loved bts and she was so nice I wish I got to say I loved her and kiss her cheek one last time. I’m currently suffering from depression. My mood swings are getting worse and I recently attempted suicide almost a year ago. It’s getting worse and I’m considering suicide. I feel guilty that I feel this way but I feel like I have no one. I even try to open up and I feel pushed away.
hearing your story makes my heartbreak for you, it must be devastating & traumatising to go through all these, I'm so sorry about what you went through 🥺🫂🫶🏻 I know exactly how crushing the guilt feels like so I'm here to tell you that it is not your fault, it is nobody's fault that this happened, it is a combination of many complicated factors that led to her decision so she wouldn't hold it solely against you..now 5 years later, I think the reason why she contacted me the night before was to bid farewell one last time 🫂🥺 It is kinda sad but you brought up a good point, sometimes there will be people around us that can't support/react in a way that can help someone with depression...& in a way they might even make you feel worse opening up to them, but please don't let that person prevent you from opening up to someone else, someone you can trust & will always love you would be your loved ones 🥺 while we may not fully understand what you're going through, we're happy just being a listening ear when you need it because we'll do everything we can to keep you here. & I would also say that, everyone deals with grief differently, it doesn't matter if you're her closest friend or not but remembering her, honoring her in all that you do, keeping her memories alive I think that's the most important 🥹❤️ she would be happy to know that she have someone who thinks of her so fondly like you do. Sending all my love to you, you're not alone in this 🥺❤️🫂🫶🏻
You are a beautiful friend and you saw value in her, the sweet things about her the important things. You both went about your time, as naturally we do and that never means you didn't care, you are a true one. I had been out of touch from my dear friend from moldova, for so so long, when I got into another relationship that denied me the safety to feel I can talk to my friends- and I knew she had severe depression, she was truly in my heart but I felt sad to ghost her as did I to many. 2 years go by, I find that after my 20th birthday she passed away by suicide and her fight against deep sadness and despair. I was two months away from turning 21, and I found out in such terror and hope she was still here. There is so many ways we struggle in this life, not all is given to us how we know to live, what we see as value, what can tie us on to keep the spirit alive in us or receptive to hope- sometimes it's by chance things wavelength into calmness, sometimes we have to trust ourself even in the worst things, sometimes we have to keep pushing even though our body tells us defeat. The soul is an indominable thing, and we never give up unless we choose, but this life shouldn't be about whether choosing to give up or not, it should be about reaching the things we can make the space for, it's about being pursued and blessed by so many great things we can forget so much sadness, it's being smart and writing poems, it's feeling dumb and crying and still feeling worthy- it's growth... and life is so young, so so young and the blessings of these souls we have met that have departed their living from us early and in this earth, it paints to example how blessed of a life it is by chance.. up to this time that we are here, but I promise you to be strong and hold on and show yourself something that you deserve (Good) will only make our friends proud- and I try to fight and continue to fight, to pursue and show my friends close and not close- that are gone that I am paying them my love respects and I am doing this for them, to live the life for them, to take them with me in my experiences, so they can see goodness bloom and find peace in the afterlife. There's point in us here my friend ❤ be safe thank you so so so much for sharing your deepest and I truly hope my many talking is okay ❤
Even if you could save her from death that night, you couldnt save her from suffering. She is free from pain now. Pls dont blame yourself for her death.
This is something I ponder a lot & blame myself for, while the guilt may never go away, with time I've come to see it as maybe she wanted to say goodbye to me one last time 🥹🤍🫶🏻
This was extremely sad to listen to. May Hyerin rest in peace. She was fighting the disease very hard. Her passing away is not someones fault. The brain is a very complex organ. There are no top notch meds around yet against serios mental disorders, but I am positive these are in pipeline. Serios mental disorders are often terminal, life shortening like any other serios disease.
I feel the same way you do i lost my best friend but the worst thing is she is still alive but she has a lot going on in her life because she told me i still worry everyday about her shes my world i love her to death😢😢😭😭🥰🥰❤️❤️
My mum committed suicide this September. She was my best friend and whole world. I am broken and lost without her
I wish you all the best in life, please stay strong ❤
Holding you in the light. You will get through this. ❤
Jesus is not the name of the Son. The seal of Alahiym (The seal of God) is the Father's name written in peoples foreheads. Revelation 7:1-3; 14:1. Anybody who has the Father's name sealed in them also has the Son's name sealed in them. The name of YAHUWAH is the greatest name of all! and the name of His Son YAHUWSHUWA who came in His Father's name. John 5:43, Proverbs 30:4 (King James Version).
There is still a world around you, a world where you hold eachother, at night in a beautiful profond sky with many little beating stars, and all this softness is still there around, surrounding and holding you, and still full of this love you will have together forever. It may seem all gone, it's true she was your first world. Maybe, for the moment it appears with violence, or with feeling completely empty, or feeling rage, all that can be a part of it. As you said your mum loved you, and that love never dies. For sure she didn't want to die, she would have loved to feel good and stay a all the time with you, and for sure she tried not to do this for you, and for the people she loved too, but her pain was stronger than her thinking in that moment, she felt aside from her. And it's sure that as the loving mum she was, she unconsciously thought you would always choose and cherish life as you cherished her and everything around.
I hope those words comfort you, i know how the seeming silence of the world can feel, so i didn't want to stay silent and tried to find some words. I hope those words reach you, (and hope my english is correct). Wanted you to know there is a lot of love and care, it has often only lost it's expression or hope for it, probably experiencing loneliness in those parts of life.
Also i think you should be very very sweet to yourself, always stay on your side, even if you don't understand you. You need a lot of love from you, as if you had a small child, be very tender. It can be extremely helpful to write what you feel, trying to understand how normal it is, considering it's unknown, to feel as you do. As a child or an explorer. Even the worst ideas. It's a suggestion, but you should stay more with the people that can give you the same care, and listening. It is very important i think. ❤
Losing a friend this way never stops hurting. Every time it happens, you swear that you’ll never let it happen again. Then it happens again. I’m only 23 and and I’ve already lost 3 close friends this way. Those events have permanently shredded my heart. RIP Connor, Luke, and Zack.
I have bipolar 1 and suicidal ideations. Living life with this is hell on earth and suicide seems like ending this hell and an alternative to suffering in so much pain. Mental illness took away my career, friends, financial security... and i dont wish it upon anyone. But i wish everyone to understand how immensely tough it is even if we have support from loved ones. But staying alive bc i dont want to pass on the pain to others.
thank you for being strong
If things gets too difficult, please try to talk it out to someone that you trust & to always believe You Matter❤
If you find it challenging to talk to someone as you didn’t want to cause others’ pain, maybe you could try out journaling, write them out & to be aware of your own thoughts & feelings is a great start for healing as it works for me, so please find what works best for you alright? Oftentimes, the real problem is not the matter itself but to feel understood & accepted during hard times is what matters most❤ Seeking help is a big step forward of You Got Your Back, hope you get better soon, sending you ❤
I recommed you professional help dear.Even if it means not telling your loved ones about it but I can totally relate to you
If you haven't, try dialectical behavioral therapy ❤️
Thank you for staying, I'm so proud of you.. 🥺❤️ you're right, love & compassion & support is the bare minimum to help someone tide through this 🫂🫶🏻 while we may not fully understand what you are going through, we are willing to do anything & everything we can to keep you here 🥺❤️ sending you all my love darling
I don’t want to die bc I don’t want to leave my loved ones in a world of pain behind. But I also don’t want to be here anymore.
1 month update: still going through it slowly but surely making progress. Continuing to push forward
what you do not want is the pain that giving to you. You want to live. Can share your pain to loved ones and may be can seek for professional help
@@sharonwong9192 already got scolded from some friends bc according to them I live a better life than them…
I might leave this earth next winter, I changed my mind
@@BEACHDUDE71
Oh you planning to go to another planet or somewhere?
Perhaps you should wait for some time because if you want to go to outer space, usually it costs billions of dollers at the moment.
So I recommend waiting for some years until it is affordable for people like us to travel to outer space. I'll be with you then :)
@@slackers449 or another dimension lol
It's a mystery to me how some people can seemingly have everything in their lives- love, friends, looks, intelligence and take their own lives, and others may have a very difficult life with deprivation, toxic families, poverty, war and famine and still continue living. It just goes to show that circumstances are not always an indication of how well a person is doing emotionally. I am so sorry for your loss, and I think it's great that you are raising awareness on this issue and making your friend proud. 🧡
PS - you seem like the kind of friend that everyone would want in their life. You were so concerned for your friend and even took her to Korea to try to make her happy. You are such a considerate human being.
I have already solved this conundrum about people from different homes, simply whoever enters the SSRI path will lose the desire to do anything, his reward system will collapse.
People without SSRIs will come to their senses.
I recognized this on myself after using SSRIs.
@@krzysztof4543 interesting point.
You have put it perfectly into words, everyone we meet is going through battles that we know nothing about, so it's so important to be kind, always. 🥺❤️ Thank you so much for your encouragements & reassurance that I'm doing the right thing 🫂 I hope that by sharing out story, it can help someone else going through the same & spread love & kindness to people around them 🥹❤️🫶🏻🫶🏻
Depression is quite literally all in your head. Sure it can be circumstantial, but it's also just part of having a brain. That brain can start functioning incorrectly and produce less serotonin. Some people simply do not have the will to live, usually the soft and kind people in your life are carrying big burdens. Their care for others hurts them deeply.
That sucks. It's a very heavy thing to deal with depression. It doesn't go away fully ever. You learn to live with it but sometimes it just becomes too heavy.
It is heavy for any one suffering from depression and for their loved one.
Exactly, it's always there...
DIALECTICAL BEHAVIOURAL THERAPY works well for bipolar 😢
This really chocked me up. My best friend also has BPD (and ADHD) but not the hardcore version. Last year her life flipped upside down and on one of those tough days I asked her if she wanted me to stay the night to keep her company but she told me to go home because she didn't want to run away from her feelings. A few hours later she asked me to come back as she didn't feel safe with herself anymore - she checked how many sleeping pills she would have to take to die. Getting that message was so scary but I was so proud of her that she reached out to me. I can't imagine my life without her. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure she's in a safe space and that she's glad you're sharing this message to help others. I also hope that sharing this helped with your own struggles.
I used to have a cute little pet rabbit that I love, a lot. I loved telling her secrets bc she would never let them out! Sometimes, I would sneak out of my room in the middle of the night to look at her, admire her eating hay.
3 years ago, at 6 am in the morning, my mother was feeding her hay when she suddenly laid down in the ground, lifeless. That was the moment I would never forget. Due to old age, she left the world.
Chiro, you will forever be in my heart ❤
Hello Yvette Tan. I am a person from Switzerland who is battling severe mental health problems. I really enjoy your videos about this country, but I honestly never excepted such a sad and traumatic experience from you. I have watched it to the end and I just wanna say how much it means to me. Please know you tried your best to help and you truly are a strong person. Rest in Peace Hui Lin, dealing with mental health struggles is truly painful. ❤🕊
Likewise, I want to say to you that regardless of how u think u're doing, u're enough, u're always enough.
Hello darling, I wish I could give you a big big hug right now 🫂❤️🫶🏻 thank you so much for your kind words, 🥺 Hui Lin have impacted my life is so many ways, I wouldn't be where I am today without her 🤍🕊 I will continue living life to the fullest for her sake & honor her in everything I do. Sending all my love & hugs to you darling, stay strong, you've survived 100% of your bad days to be here & I'm proud of you 🫂
I hope the guilt you feel goes away sometime. I know your friend wouldnt want you to feel that way. You're an amazing friend!!! One of the hardest things with depression is the isolation. For me its self inflicted. You dont want to be around anyone. Thank you for sharing your story.
I might leave this earth next winter
@@BEACHDUDE71before you decide to leave, learn about Islam even if u don’t want to, I know how it feels to feel just absolutely empty and have no drive to live however I must admit I’ve never decided to commit tho. Nothing helped me like Islam and I feel the need to tell you about it, when you find your purpose in life it just makes everything more chill and calm and life isn’t confusing anymore. Hope it gets better ❤!
@@BEACHDUDE71 Please talk to someone about what you're going through, suicide is never necessary and I know there will be people who will be destroyed for life if you left like that. There are people who care, even strangers like me. There IS help out there. Dial 988. Reach out. The world is not all bad. Sending love.
Thank you for your kind words, the guilt never really goes away but with time, it helps 🥺🫂🫶🏻 I kinda understand the fear of opening up to someone for them to not react in a way that can make it better but I hope you slowly let your loved ones in from time to time 🥹🫂🫶🏻 sending all my love to you, stay strong fighter 🫶🏻
@@BEACHDUDE71you deserve only good and Jesus christ loves you and me, and you in your own right as a human are so deserving of good, and to be freed of things and to triumph from bad and I believe in you and hope so much you don't leave ❤... your soul can progress I promise and I wish for all the right aid and steps to be there for you friend
I didn't fully understand the importance of mental health and what anxiety and depression can do to someone until i watched this video. It is heart-breaking to hear what she went through and I am praying for you and her family.
I'm so glad my video found you, I was hoping that if I could help just one person understand the importance of mental health, my purpose is served 🥹❤️
You’re the friend I need right now! 😭😭 I’m sorry for your loss ❤
I've been suffering from depression for about 10 years. Medication does help, although you might need to take it for the rest of your life. Depression is a very complicated condition and hard to explain. I remember that after a couple of days on medication, I could feel the fresh air, the beautiful sunlight, the sound of the rain, and the smell when the rain touched the ground-all the small details that bring joy to life. I think those are the things people with depression lose.
I suffer from mental illness. You're such a good friend
sending love to you🤧🥺🫶🏻 you also have many people who love you 🤧
People with depression are always seen soo happy. I hope we all heal from it. If we ever went through it
A lot of depression is caused by a combination of negative events. It's sad now that society makes so many people don't matter and don't have a future. As a friend there is only so much you can do but try your best.
It is true that society have to change, it's no easy feat but I'd like to think our generation is making a difference bit by bit. It starts with us 🥹
I just wanted to say this really helped me. I actually had psychosis triggered by a suicide that happened close to me. It was just one week of losing touch with reality and my mind and body breaking down. But it was also the most traumatic thing I've ever been through. It's really hard when you're young to process it all and accept this as being your new reality.
The hardest thing about it all is that you have to believe that it is possible to stop people from committing suicide by supporting them while also accepting that you could not save the person who committed suicide. When I was finally able to process this, and accept life and death and suicide the way that it is, could I actually start moving forward.
I watched this video in tears as you talked about her. Her pain is something i resonate with so much. I have attempted multiple times before but none have worked, and every time i felt i was getting better, something would happen to take that away and this has happened my whole life. The inconsistency of not knowing where ill go (i moved a lot) and having to leave my life behind and a piece of me every time is so painful and im so tired of this.
I found your channel since I too am a foreign living in Switzerland, I've been living here since I was teenager. I never expected to see a video like this, I am incredibly sorry for your loss. Never blame yourself, I say this as someone who has struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts all my life, I think about it almost everyday, I know that if I were to do it, it will never be the fault of my loved ones, they are in fact the people who have brought tremendous light in my life during the worst times. It is not your fault. I am sure you brought so much light into Hyerin's life and I am sure she loved you very much. Depression is a chronic illness of the brain and sometimes it makes you unable to have that light in your mind.
I too like your friend struggled a lot at work and school, specially with the Swiss school system, I never got into gymnasium wich was my dream and I never finished an apprenticeship, something wich has led me to think that ending my life would be better. Thankfully I am getting treatment for it. But it is very hard and I feel like mental health isn't talked about a lot in Switzerland.. or anywhere tbh. I hope you are healing and I hope your friend is doing where well wherever she is
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oh darling, I’m so sorry that you had to go through this, the importance of mental health is really not talked about enough 🥺🫂❤️🫶🏻 Thank you so much for sharing with me your perspective, it has brought me some comfort & lessened some of my guilt, though it never really goes away. on the flip side, Hyerin has brought a lot of light into my life too, she loves people deeply, & is one of the sweetest considerate human being alive & I believe it is the exact same way your loved ones feel about you 🥺🫂❤️ I know how stressful school & work can be & it is natural that you feel despair after not being able to reach your dreams, but I'd like to say that alot of people don't even have the courage to go for what they want, but you👏🏻 actually👏🏻 did 👏🏻 so it sounds like a win to me because you went for your dreams, even if it didn't work out, you still won you know? You sound like a really sweet person, I hope that you’re able to find some peace and that you’re in a good place right now. Sending love your way. 🤍🕊
@@YVETTEINSWITZERLAND Thank you so much 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼❤️❤️
Thanks for posting this Yvette. I’m a sporean working towards FIRE and struggling with depression sometimes as well. How magical RUclips algorithm is to bring me randomly to your channel ❤
Don't feel Guilty you did everything you could to help Helen. You was a good Friend to her and you have her a nice time on Holiday. I volunteer for a mental health charity in the UK and I love every minute of it. You stay safe and I will watch out for your next video
Thank you for your kind words, I think it's really amazing what you're doing & you inspire me to do the same 🤧🥹❤️🫶🏻 sending my love to you kind soul ❤️🫶🏻
I'm going to the office this morning we have got a two hour training course for suicide Awareness. I'm pretty excited about it Judith sent it me as an online course but a couple of us couldn't open it so she as organised to have it in the office so that's what I will be doing this morning. It will be good to see the other volunteers again. And Next Wednesday the 20th we have got a bit of a party type thing they put it on for the volunteers as a thank you. I like to keep my mind active. We have just had the Remembrance day in the UK 11 November to mark the end of world war 1 and to remember the soldiers who didn't come back and to thank them who did. It's also for them people who are still going to war. I'm so glad I can save a life without having to taking another. You have a great day
Hi Yvette,
Thank you for spreading awareness, and I'm sorry for your lost.
I empathize with your story, a lot, however I am on the other side of your story, and how they act and feel is as you had tried to explain, the box and ball story.
Hmm idrk what else to say, but thank you for being you, you're a very special person, very empathetic, and I hope one day you will be able to spread the awareness and break the stigma.
Thank you so much for watching, you have no idea how much your kind words mean to me 🤧❤️🫶🏻 thinking back from my loved ones perspective, they supported me by giving me the space to grief, to make sure I eat my meals even when I said I had no appetite, giving me a listening ear when I'm ready to speak. I appreciated my loved ones alot more, & just by being there, their presence alone, gave me strength. So I would say, give your friend space but still check up on them regularly, they appreciate you even if they don't say it 🥺🤧❤️
Wow, this made me cry :( I’m so sorry this happened, that you all had to go through this. Sending my strength and love ❤️
Thank you for watching & listening to what I have to say, I will hold on to your kind words when it gets hard 🤧🤍🕊
I'm going to make 9 years fighting depression it's miserable, I'm so so sorry for your loss she was so beautiful! and you were such an amazing friend, hope you can find peace
Hi Yvette everything you said really hit the nail on the head. Thank you, your video did help me in my healing journey.
I lost my cousin less than a year ago from depression and suicide. I was the first person to find her body and I went through the exact same spiral as you, She was only 23. I was just laying in bed thinking about her last night, unable to sleep and your video appeared on my recommended today. Thankfully I had lots of support from my family and friends during the grief and healing period for the months after her death. I know exactly how you feel and the words of advice that you gave are exactly what I want people to know too. I wish that the future would be a more accepting place and lesser people will go through the pain and helplessness that Hyerin and my cousin went through ❤
What do you mean she was only 23, why does people dying at a young age matter I don't get it, I'm the same age and I'm tired of hearing I have a long life ahead of me like it doesn't matter you don't know what people have ahead of them, life is not some fairy tale and I don't believe that it's precious and you should live the best of it because it all goes away we all die.
hello darling, I'm so glad my video found you & provide a little comfort 🥺🤍 I'm so sorry for your loss & what you had to go through, I understand it all too well... wish I could give you a big big hug & I'm sending all my love to you 🫂 while grief has no expiry date, I believe in living life to the fullest (on their behalf), keeping their memories alive, honoring them in everything that we do, cherish all the happy memories we shared & holding everyone we love closer to us & just appreciate how fleeting life is. when our journey ends one day, I'll have so much adventures to tell her when I see her again 🥺🫂🤍🕊
because life is just starting at your 20s, you get to finally make your own choices & live your life the way you want to live. you still haven't met all of the people who are going love you, some of the best days of your life haven't happened yet so stay to see all of it. & you're right, all we can do is live life to the fullest before it ends 🫂❤️
You are very kind to tell us your story you are brave, loved and we love you!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you for watching & sending love, it means alot 🤧❤️🫶🏻
i'm having a really rough time thank you for sharing her story and your grief. it matters.
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the ONLY way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. we have a lot of growing up to do. We should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. We need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength.
John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
It means a lot to me, we're all in this together ❤️ you're not alone darling
My brother died by suicide 8/5/24. Please stay strong I know it hurts to live some days but everyday provides new hope. You are loved please stay here.
This video is very important. It describes the aftermath of something so tragic perfectly, and I feel alot more people should watch this. Perfect mental health awareness video on so many levels, and I love the editing style. I am very sorry for your loss. I understand the level of insomnia and crying yourself to sleep all too well. Guilt is one of the worst feelings ever, but I wish you the best with finding some peace of mind in the future. You're not in this alone. ❤
Condolences to you and her other loved ones! I myself think of suicide every day, i would do anything to have a friend like you. Shes in a better place now, and at the end of the day, her death was her choice, she decided it cause she felt like living was more painful than death. You were a good friend and thats what she was thinking about in her last moments. Im so glad you shared your and hers story, you are an amazing human being, no one is perfect and youve done everything you could to make her happy, even if its small silly things! But depression is just this dark fog that she couldnt seem to escape
What a beautiful video, Yvette. Your words are heard and will continue to be heard. This video felt like a big hug and I feel so much love towards you - one complete stranger online to another, thank you.
Again, I’m so sorry for your loss… may she rest in peace 🕊️ You made me tear up, this is so sad it must be so painful for you and her family
Thank you kind soul, 🤧 we are all learning to heal, but also to appreciate what she has brought to our lives, she impacted many people ❤️🫶🏻
"i might have been able to save her from the game but, i would not be able to save her in real life 6 years later." wow. that hit me as someone who can relate to this video
thank you for watching 🥹🫂🫶🏻
Thank you for being able to understand from our pov. ❤️
I’m so sorry. I truly can’t imagine the pain and you’re so strong for bearing it, and you’re brave for sharing. Even though it’s such a hard thing to talk about, you still have such a warm and welcoming presence. I wish nothing but healing and happiness for you. I’m suicidal and I needed to hear someone’s voice and you helped a lot. It’s not your fault that she’s gone, sometimes the pain is so great that nothing and nobody makes you want to stay. Be safe and take care of yourself ❤
I'm giving you a big big hug darling 🫂🫶🏻 Thank you for showering me with such kind words, I'm so glad this video found you, you are exactly the person I want to reach out to 🥹❤️🫶🏻 if no one has told you yet, I'm so proud of you for staying!! you've survived 100% of your bad days to be here, you're a fighter & you're going to kick depression in the butt 🥺 I wish for you to have strength to tide through the darkest days, & the ability to see that you are loved, you matter & the world is only a better place because you are in it. sending all my love to you, 🫶🏻🫂
Thank you so much for sharing this, Yvette. Grief related to suicide is absolutely soul crushing and it brings comfort hearing somebody express their pain and the importance of mental health resources and awareness
& thank YOU for watching 🫂✨️ let's be the one to spread the importance of mental health & not let it take away someone we love 🤧❤️🫶🏻
I totally felt your pain 😭😭😭😭😭
This is a beautiful tribute to your friend.so informative and i wish you the best on your life journey.
i've been suffering from depression for 5 years now, but it was really only ever the lack of motivation for anything and having zero energy, no suicidal thoughts. but, recently my boyfriend of nearly 5 years left me.
you see, i have a very difficult time feeling love, connections, and empathy, making it difficult to feel close to anyone. however, i loved him so much. he was everything to me. he was my source of happiness, my comfort, my motivation. every second he's somewhere in my mind, and i cant stand it anymore. whenever i feel at peace, it only lasts for a moment until i remember that he's gone, and suddenly i feel my soul flow out of my body. i feel so lonely and lost without him.
i have no one to help me and i feel like no one cares about me. my mother takes her anger out on me and ignores my emotional needs, i rarely see my father but now he's moving out of state and has no desire to visit, my brother is autistic which makes it difficult to him to show any love or care, my stepfather complains about me, and my stepsister used to bully me but now she ignores me. i feel like a burden to them. my depression burdens them, my ocd burdens them, and my epilepsy burdens them. i have no other family to go to either. as for friends, i only have 3 friends, but they're all online. 2 live in different states and the other lives in a different country. one is extremely dry as it is, but when i told him about my boyfriend leaving me, he just said "good thing he's gone." another doesnt even come close to understanding how i feel and thinks i can get over it if he says that he'd be sad if i was gone. thats not enough to make me wanna live, which may sound selfish but i'll explain why in a moment. the last one just sympathizes with me. she's honestly the most helpful, but she's gone the most. i feel so bad not being able to feel anything for them though. they treat me better than anyone else, yet i cant love them. it feels like they're just there, there's no connection or anything. it makes me feel lonely and guilty.
the one thing keeping me alive is hope. maybe he'll come back. maybe he's just testing my love for him. maybe thats just my delusional self talking, but still, i have hope that maybe he will come back, and i dont wanna die before it happens. the moment we lose any ability of contacting each other, my hope is gone, and i might not live for much longer. im turning 18 in 10 days, which is something i've been looking forward to for years bc that meant i could finally start a life with him, but now there's no reason to look forward to it. in fact, i dont want it, i wanna go back to being 13 when our relationship started
hi! i'm 21, and absolutely not in the same boat that you are - i have a boyfriend, but we share the aspect of depression. his social circle is my social circle, and i don't really go out or talk to people regularly except for him. a lot of my life has him in it, and the relationship is hanging on by a thread; i can see him care less and less every day. i'm not telling you any of this for sympathy points or anything - once, he was also the source of my joy. when you feel like shit, it is easy for you to look back and wish for simpler times. i have had periods like this, too. i was 13 once too, without friends. as a 21 year old, i can promise you that the only real constant in life is change - but i can also promise you, as cheesy as it sounds, that happiness and being content comes from within, as well. as will pain.
it is a fucking pain in the ass to try and find things that make you happy, but you will want to and you will have to. it may seem like a tremendous effort to try new things, but if the things are right for you, you will come out feeling better for it. if this reaches you and you're still not doing better - you are barely 18, now. congrats for that milestone c: it is my belief that many who have those thoughts like you are having, just want to escape their own minds and situations and are in a pit that looks endless - it is not. for as long as you live, you can have the opportunity to enjoy life again.
maybe contact family or visit the ones you care about. put on a nice movie or a warm pair of socks - it is winter (unless you're in australia). get comfy with a hot chocolate. maybe put on some sounds of a fireplace or rain, or even journal a bit. you're going through a tough time, and this might bring comfort or help you go right through. even putting thoughts out in the open, or pinpointing, verbalizing, then FEELING them helps sometimes. don't mourn a future that hasn't happened yet! there are many better horizons ahead, and a lot of life and a lot of change for you still left, i promise.
@0000rina thank you :) since i made that comment, i've been experiencing derealization among other things, but im trying my best to be there for myself. i've been trying to do things to keep myself distracted, i've been thinking about life before him to recognize that i can live without him, i've been thinking about how much more i have to experience, etc.
although i still experience moments of feeling empty, feeling like my heart dropped, or wanting to escape life, i feel like i can cope better. it makes me really sad and jealous knowing that he'll replace me, but it is what it is i guess.
i hate how often i dream about him though, like when i did last night. also, last night i suddenly started crying for no reason as i was trying to sleep, and tried to comfort myself by repeating "everything is gonna be okay"
Thank you for the story and for your message.. I suffer from dwpression since almost 20 years now. and its important to tell stories and remind people to check after another
Thank YOU for being here, you are a warrior & you survived 100% of your bad days to be here. I'm so proud of you 🤧🤍🕊
It's so hard yet necessary to find a real soul that will listen and acknowledge you as a human being when suffering to the level of suicide. It's pretty low and a lot of people just don't understand it or how to take it seriously, sometimes even entire families refuse to acknowledge it and then are completely lost when it happens. Keep searching for "real" that will listen and be social, there are people who do care, who would love to care. It's unfortunate and I think the more optimistic approach is remaining adventurous to have faith to find those who will be social in our lives. Social is compassion, cohesion, collaboration, communication - not a detached, deflecting, defamation, demeaning.
I can relate myself with this video and would say that just being kind and understanding can help a lot instead of blindly, charging people or hurting them with your words as you don’t know what the other person is going through as he might be hiding his emotional trauma behind a fake smile
I'm so glad you could relate, it really doesn't take much to be kind to everyone 🥹❤️🫶🏻 there's so much we don't know what others are going through 🤧❤️
Thank you for your video. Being someone that’s recovered from schizophrenia (yes recovered, because I’m symptom free now) and the ”depression” that comes with it, I can relate. With ”depression” I mean the mental switch of wanting execute a suicide. I’ve had severe depression but nothing was as bad as my schizophrenia episodes where I felt like me ending my life is just a matter of switch for me. Going through hearing and visual hallucinations was the most heavy thing I never wish upon anyone. I told God that if I had to live life like that for the rest of my life he shouldn’t blame me for ending it. Fortunately God had other plans for me and I am grateful for that.
Going back to trying to explain why someone might possibly choose to end their life. From my perspective I couldn’t see myself cured, I couldn’t see myself living with my condition. There were commands and comments from the voices that it’s just easier to end it. And my mental switch to finally be able to execute it was there. It wasn’t about being selfish, because some people might see it that way. It’s all a mental switch. That mental switch wasn’t there before I had schizophrenia symptoms, I was always afraid to hurt my family. Your mind can’t think straight in that state. I guess that’s why many doctors tries to keep people locked up in hospital for this reason. So you shouldn’t blame yourself, you gave her beautiful memories of a good friend and that’s more than anyone could ever have done. The switch is a scary thing, and not a state I want to think of too much. Because I know if I ended my life there’s nothing anyone could’ve done for me to change my mind. All I could ever have asked for is the forgiveness for leaving behind broken hearts.
Thank you for your sharing, stay strong! Sending love❤
Thank you for watching 🥺🫂🫶🏻
OMG!!! Sorry about loss of your beat friend 😢
You're always very kind to tell your story! You're so brave & tough you ever be 🔥🔥 Stay strong & keep praying for your friend so that she will sees you everything while in heaven 🤍🤍🤍
Dont worry! You're not alone! We're always here for you 👍🥰❤️
Thank you for your kind words Khairul! 🥹 Yesss I will continue to honor her in everything I do in my life so she'll be proud of me 🥹❤️🫶🏻
I'm so sorry that you had to go through this. Thank you for sharing your story
Thank you for watching 🥺🤍
I cried after yr video, i somehw understand hw she feel.. mean manager etc. sometimes ppl dun think whether the other parties can accept yr words etc. Be strong, if she still slive, she will want u to be happy too.
everyone we meet is fighting a battle we know nothing about, it's so important to be kind always 🥺🤍🕊
@YVETTEINSWITZERLAND Yes agree.
you did what you could possibly to. dont blame yourself. im sure your friend is now in a happier place. be happy that she is free from the mental and physical pain. Grief is the price we pay for love.
You're right. With time, I'm seeing it now, letting go of the guilt & holding on to the fond memories we shared 🥹❤️🫂
God bless you and forever stay strong always, you are brave to share your personal experience of grief and loss so openly and tenderly. I hope it does more than simply raising awareness to the importance of mental health and seeking professional help and support.
Thank you so much for your kind words 🥺🤍 I believe this is what I should do & even if it's just 1 person who have watched, my voice is heard. I would like to believe that our generation will make a difference so thank you 🥺🤍🕊
1 year ago a girl in my neighborhood committed suicide bc she felt too guilty to live on after her roommate died from overdose. they are just so kind that make people feel sad.
28 year old Ashleigh from KL/SG here, spent half of early childhood in KL, the other half in SG up until now. Have gave away most of my clothes to the underprivileged and sincerely don't wish to be here anymore. Thank you for making videos like this.
Ashleigh, I'm so sorry you're going through this. Please reach out to someone, you're not alone 🤧❤️🫶🏻 it's a beautiful thing you did, giving your clothes to others who need it but you could give them so much more by staying 🥺 the world will not be a better place without you darling, please give yourself a chance to experience the world & your loved ones who would do anything to keep you here ❤️🫶🏻🤧
@@YVETTEINSWITZERLAND Hey, thanks heaps for your reply!!! It means alot!! So many answers about human and animal suffering in this world that we will never find....
oh my goodness this brought me to repeating tears and tears watching this video... you have given her some of the best memories in her life just like she have to yours, so I hope that will lessen your guilt because no one is guilty, its the illnesses doings and you know that. Of course I can't even imagine how you are and were truly feeling because I am in the other side where my best friend is still battling through what your best friend also had, both of what you have mentioned. When you said what she had been battling through, I truly broke down because I have a lot of the times cry by the thought of my best friend leaving this world from what she has to go through. When I heard your best friends battle ended with the same illnesses my best friend has, it truly made me cry because its a reality for you, I really cant fathom it, and you're so strong and amazing for sticking by her, you both are for sticking by each other for so long ♥ Thankyou so much for making this video and sharing awareness on how serious it really is so there will be better people in this world for people that are still battling through the things they are going through 💗
Thanks Yvette. I didn’t lose a loved one from suicide but I lost someone whom I love not too long ago. Your description on how grief hits from 22:00 is exactly how I feel now.
Thanks for sharing and raising awareness of mental health issues.
Losing a loved one due to any circumstance is devastating, I'm so sorry for your loss & lots of love to you. 🤍 You'll never lose the heartbreak you endure for those you love, but in time, the numbing pain gives way to all the happy memories you've had together. In time, the tears will allow a soft smile in their memory. 🩷 I speak from experience. Stay strong darling 🫂
I'm so very sorry. My wife died by suicide two years ago, she was only 27. The wound doesn't heal.
Thank you for your vulnerability. I’ve been that friend almost and still affected but remembering to take it day by day. I think this could help a lot of people ❤
I have lost many people my age to suicide before we even graduated high school. So many deaths in general unfortunately. This year I lost my uncle and my father 4 months apart. They didn’t end it themselves but their depression was a massive factor. Their mind gave up and their bodies caught up to them. My dad always said “if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t be here” he wanted peace and death was his way of thinking of peace. In the end he said to me “I don’t want to die” and by then it was to late. It hurts and is scary how similar my depression is to theirs and I worry one day that’ll be my fate. Loving someone with depression and suicidal ideation can be so hard because you feel helpless. And unfortunately no matter how many people you have and love mental illness does not care.
So sorry, my body is also quitting on me because of depression. Life goes fast, live it with love
Sending you so so much love and hugs and support I am so so sorry for everything that you have been through and are going through sending so so much love
God bless everyone who is going through suicidal thoughts, I hope they can find hope and faith in life and live it to the fullest before their time will naturally come. ❤
Danke!
Merci Yvette pour ton message. Aussi longtemps qu'une seule personne aussi respectable que toi marchera sur cette planète l'honneur des humains sera sauf.
merci d’avoir dit de si belles paroles 🤧❤️🫶🏻 Je suis tellement honoré que tu partages ça 🤧
wow i relate so badly
esp the loss of friends part
thankfully she still had a friend in you
I hope with all my heart that you will eventually find a way to stop feeling guilty and feeling the grief you described at the end of the video.
Im really really tired i did sh and I have severe depression but after watching this im not going to kms because i love my best friend, well she's more than a friend i love her and i don't want her to deal with depression it's the worst im going to a therapist to help me with it
Powerful video. Thank you for sharing you and Hyerin's story with us.
May her soul Rest In Peace.
I've been going through a tough time and I truly believe that the only reason I'm still alive is to help others. To anyone out there who is struggling, just know that your not alone, and you are loved.
You are a wonderful friend and you made her as happy as she could be ❤😢
Thank you very much for your sharing. Especially the portion about the ball inside the box with a pain button.
sending love to you 🤧❤️🫂
A mountain of ❤to everyone here!
Hi!
I love your content and your videos promoting Switzerland! I live in Geneva as well.
This video was really inspiring and I am so sorry to hear about best friend and your grief going through this. Thank you for sharing your video and how you are managing the situation. I think this is so important to share.
Looking forward for your future videos!
Hello there, thank you for watching & leaving such a sweet comment! 🥺❤️🫶🏻 It is what I should do to raise awareness, & hope to provide some comfort for someone going through the same, 🤧 I hope to continue making videos & sharing them with you, thank you for your support it means the world to me 🫂❤️
Sososo sorry for you and for her families . I wish I could give you a warm hug . This kind of incidents change you permanently. I wish you the very best 😢
Thank you for your kind words 🥺🫂🤍🫶🏻 *hugs back tightly* oh yeah for sure it did change me so much but now, I smile thinking of all the times I spent with her & hope to help others going through the same 🥺🫂🫶🏻
Thank you for your in depth sharing of your experience. Reminded me of a situation my daughter encounter.
One night my daughter suddenly came to me crying and asking for help. I was shocked and asked her what had happened and it took her a while to gather herself before she can speak. Apparently while she was checking on her whatsapp updates, she saw a video posted by 1 of her previous school class mate performing self harm on her arm. My daughter was at a lost of what to do cos she is very scared and worried for that friend.
I told her to show me the video and I could see her friend taking a pen knife and slicing through her arm. It was a painful sight to see. I calmed down my daughter and told her I will contact her friend's school and alert them about it. This process was stressful as my daughter do not know which school this friend has went. My daughter had to went through her friend's social media profiles and she can only make a wild guess. I told her I will contact the school and check if her friend studies there. If she does not, we will contact her previous school form teacher for help.
Luckily, the wild guess was correct. Her friend was indeed a student of that school and the school reverted that they will look into it. A few days later I asked for any update because that friend was uploading more self harm videos and based on the response I received, it did not feel like the school was doing much. I was kind of pissed and decided to look for my MP for help. I shared with him the details, including the videos and he said he will keep in touch with the school.
Some time later, my daughter get to chat with her friend and was told that the school sent her for counseling but it did not help. She is attending another counseling and it seems a little better. From the conversation, my daughter gathered that the friend's parents were not taking her depression and self harm episodes seriously. It is kind of sad to hear so your advice in the video resonates.
It has been a while and I wonder how is her friend doing now. Tonight I shall check with my daughter.
It pains me so much to see your daughter going through it at such a young age, but it is also so admirable for the both of you to do your best to help her friend when her parents were not. The sad thing is that this is very common in Singapore, the stigma surrounding depression is still so heavy that parents deny the chance for their kids to seek help while it is treatable...mental health needs to be regarded seriously & be on everyone's top priority 🥺🫂🤍 sending my love & strength to the both of you, I hope she is okay ..
Thank you so dearly for your story, you keep her life in ultimate honour, and to share to us what she meant to you and means, ~ of her beauty her strength and her struggles, Thank you so much for the valuable gems you've spoken with us in explaining sharing and the heartfelt truth from you really teach whats important to know and understand! The essence of life, what is helpful to our souls to be seen, especially when we are struggling, and you see these people~ you see your dear friend with care and the understanding of all situations and mental health is deeper in the world because of you ❤ thank you for helping so many to post this, being so brave and for fighting on too when things can get hard and heavy feelings can be like the waves, I am so proud of and wish you all the comfort and beauty to see and strength to surround and be with you! thank you for being here and sharing your story, you two are greatest of friends with so much love🌹❤️ and you deserve only good always 🌻🤍🥹!!!!! We are really grateful to see this 💘
Thks for sharing your story. My sister-in-law succumbed to depression 6 years ago.... if i may suggest, u shd learn to slowly let go n probably seek conselling to help u in this process.
Thank you for listening to my story 🥺 I'm so sorry to hear that, condolences to you & your family 🤍🕊 & yes I'm trying my best to heal through the grief, thank you for your advice ❤️🫂
@YVETTEINSWITZERLAND all the best to yr recovery process. May God help u stay strong. Rdgs
You are a very strong person, and I wanted to thank you for sharing your story. You brought tears to my eyes, and I hope you have an amazing life out there.
Thank you for watching & listening to what I have to say 🥹❤️🫶🏻 I wish the same for you, 🫂
I'm sorry for your loss 🙏💜
I feel the same way she felt. 😭😭😭 nobody would even notice if I left. I hope the pain goes away one day (you probably won’t answer, but it’s Alr)
Jesus loves you so much. Please read the Bible. You are important and significant ❤️ ♥️ ✨️
Sorry you lost your friend but remember however bad you feel they felt worse, maybe for years, and now that pain has stopped.
Merci Yvette d'avoir partagé ton expérience!
c’est ce que je devrais faire 🥹🤍🕊
@YVETTEINSWITZERLAND Partager ce que l'on a vécu avec nos disparus est, il me semble, un moyen de les faire vivre et d'honorer leur mémoire.
Tourner cette vidéo n'a pas dû être facile, et j'admire le courage dont tu fais preuve!🤍
your narration is very engaging and moving and manifestly honest
Thank you for watching & listening to what I have to say 🥺🫂🫶🏻
I don't know if you will read this but you are an amazing friend, anyone would be lucky having you as a friend. I hope your friend can rest in peace and deepest sympathies.
Thank you so much for your kind words, I'm lucky to have her in my life too she was an amazing friend, she loves people so deeply & she lets you know every chance she gets. 🥹❤️ she changed my life too 🫂🥺🫶🏻
i wish i had a friend like you. i don’t have anyone
As you said it very good, the pain will just jump on the loved ones when someone comit suicide. A big problem is, that a lot of people with depression wont even admit they have depression and wont search for help. But I hope you can find peace and happiness in Switzerland ❤❤❤
You're right, but is also society's problem for the heavy stigma that prevents people from seeking help, but I want to believe our generation in making the change 🤍🕊 thank you for your kind words! 🥹❤️🫶🏻
We live in a sick society, not everyone is able to fight but just never give up and believe in yourself
Yes to that, may everyone have the strength to fight through the darkest nights 🥹🤍🕊
Tks for spreading awareness about mental health and how important it is.
I'm still full of question where her parents all these years. Was she living by herself all this time? She was locked inside the flat?...
What keeps me here is not wanting my loved ones hating my guts but I hate this life & im so alone
Sending some warm hugs your way, 🥺🫂 please reach out to someone you trust, your loved ones will always be with you, you're not alone my love 🥺🫂
@ Yvette. Thank you sweetie. I so appreciate that. I do have support. I go into such dark spirals. I do have a therapist too. It’s not bad 24/7 but it’s very constant and persistent since childhood. 😔. I’m sorry about your pain and heartbreak. I’m hugging you from afar ( I’m in NY). Much love to you. I did not expect you to respond, but I so appreciate your loving and kind words.
You’re such a good friend. Depression is not easy.
❤💜I am so sorry for your loss. 💟
I think about ending it often. But i cant and wont damage my mother and sisters that way. So i just suffer until my time comes. My first boyfriend, first kiss, took his life a few years ago after moving away. A year later, one of my best friends from highschool did the same. Words cant express. But I dont want to join them, wherever they are.
I can't imagine how difficult it must for you to go through not 1 but 2 funerals of your loved ones, it changes you permanently but you are so strong for staying, & thank you for that 🥺🫂🤍🫶🏻
You are beautifully strong and in the face of such times and the close beautiful souls that have come to be swept to fly, you're doing such great work to be here and I understand completely about the thought of suffering until the time comes. But I truly wish you blessings in your days and greatness even in your nights, and for peace to surround you, I am so glad that you are brave and clear in that, and hope that you remember just always how important you are ❤.. thank you so much for sharing and I wish you warmth and goodness to overflow for you, you are so strong
I was mildly depressed for many years and would have lived like that until late in life functioning quite well.
Unfortunately, I was persuaded to take SSRIs, which were supposedly safe, and after six months of taking them I stopped taking them and for three months I was fine.
Then all hell broke loose and I realized that all the talk of depression is propaganda.
After withdrawal is such a state that you can't stand it and I'm not surprised that people quit.
But if they hadn't gone on SSRIs they would have lived on.
I lost my close friend on December 7th, 2022. She was 16 and she suffered a lot and I remember the day she died I offered her to take pictures of my camera because she used to take a lot on my camera and i hold those photos so close to me now. I was in band practice and I didn’t see her message she posted on her story because I got out late. Little did I know she committed suicide that same day. I saw she was sad and I barely had time to talk to her but I told her I was going to see her tomorrow and I never did. I even texted her after everyone posted rest in peace messages on their stories.. I feel terrible. I wasn’t her bestest friend but I loved talking to her and seeing her around she was so kind to others and so nice . I remember when she was using my camera and she held my hand I still remember how it feels and how she spoke to me. Some of her “close” friends told people that we never knew how and that we should stop talking about we know her but they should’ve did something since they were so close to her. They even gave her drugs and as her mental illness deteriorated she relied on drugs to numb her pain. She even had a secret account with depression stuff, and it even acted as if a count down until she committed suicide and it’s so eerie to look at . I found it after she died and it was so depressing. I feel like they’re forgetting her and even though I wasn’t as close to her I still remember when we first met and the friend group we had before she became friends with some of these people. She loved bts and she was so nice I wish I got to say I loved her and kiss her cheek one last time. I’m currently suffering from depression. My mood swings are getting worse and I recently attempted suicide almost a year ago. It’s getting worse and I’m considering suicide. I feel guilty that I feel this way but I feel like I have no one. I even try to open up and I feel pushed away.
hearing your story makes my heartbreak for you, it must be devastating & traumatising to go through all these, I'm so sorry about what you went through 🥺🫂🫶🏻 I know exactly how crushing the guilt feels like so I'm here to tell you that it is not your fault, it is nobody's fault that this happened, it is a combination of many complicated factors that led to her decision so she wouldn't hold it solely against you..now 5 years later, I think the reason why she contacted me the night before was to bid farewell one last time 🫂🥺 It is kinda sad but you brought up a good point, sometimes there will be people around us that can't support/react in a way that can help someone with depression...& in a way they might even make you feel worse opening up to them, but please don't let that person prevent you from opening up to someone else, someone you can trust & will always love you would be your loved ones 🥺 while we may not fully understand what you're going through, we're happy just being a listening ear when you need it because we'll do everything we can to keep you here. & I would also say that, everyone deals with grief differently, it doesn't matter if you're her closest friend or not but remembering her, honoring her in all that you do, keeping her memories alive I think that's the most important 🥹❤️ she would be happy to know that she have someone who thinks of her so fondly like you do. Sending all my love to you, you're not alone in this 🥺❤️🫂🫶🏻
You are a beautiful friend and you saw value in her, the sweet things about her the important things. You both went about your time, as naturally we do and that never means you didn't care, you are a true one. I had been out of touch from my dear friend from moldova, for so so long, when I got into another relationship that denied me the safety to feel I can talk to my friends- and I knew she had severe depression, she was truly in my heart but I felt sad to ghost her as did I to many. 2 years go by, I find that after my 20th birthday she passed away by suicide and her fight against deep sadness and despair. I was two months away from turning 21, and I found out in such terror and hope she was still here. There is so many ways we struggle in this life, not all is given to us how we know to live, what we see as value, what can tie us on to keep the spirit alive in us or receptive to hope- sometimes it's by chance things wavelength into calmness, sometimes we have to trust ourself even in the worst things, sometimes we have to keep pushing even though our body tells us defeat. The soul is an indominable thing, and we never give up unless we choose, but this life shouldn't be about whether choosing to give up or not, it should be about reaching the things we can make the space for, it's about being pursued and blessed by so many great things we can forget so much sadness, it's being smart and writing poems, it's feeling dumb and crying and still feeling worthy- it's growth... and life is so young, so so young and the blessings of these souls we have met that have departed their living from us early and in this earth, it paints to example how blessed of a life it is by chance.. up to this time that we are here, but I promise you to be strong and hold on and show yourself something that you deserve (Good) will only make our friends proud- and I try to fight and continue to fight, to pursue and show my friends close and not close- that are gone that I am paying them my love respects and I am doing this for them, to live the life for them, to take them with me in my experiences, so they can see goodness bloom and find peace in the afterlife. There's point in us here my friend ❤ be safe thank you so so so much for sharing your deepest and I truly hope my many talking is okay ❤
Thank you so much
Even if you could save her from death that night, you couldnt save her from suffering. She is free from pain now. Pls dont blame yourself for her death.
This is something I ponder a lot & blame myself for, while the guilt may never go away, with time I've come to see it as maybe she wanted to say goodbye to me one last time 🥹🤍🫶🏻
Thank you ❤😊
Thank you for making this video.
Thank you for watching ❤️🫶🏻🤧
Thank you for this video
Thanks for sharing. I think it help me to notice these sign better.
Thank you for watching 🥹❤️🫶🏻
This was extremely sad to listen to. May Hyerin rest in peace. She was fighting the disease very hard. Her passing away is not someones fault. The brain is a very complex organ. There are no top notch meds around yet against serios mental disorders, but I am positive these are in pipeline. Serios mental disorders are often terminal, life shortening like any other serios disease.
Thanks sis
I feel the same way you do i lost my best friend but the worst thing is she is still alive but she has a lot going on in her life because she told me i still worry everyday about her shes my world i love her to death😢😢😭😭🥰🥰❤️❤️
She is lucky to have a friend like you, please continue to stay by her side & provide support to her, cherish every day you have with her🥹🫂