Loved being in your kitchen and lounge with you. It's cool to be in other parts of your house! 💜"...And then months go by and you realize you've been sleeping," this hit me hard. You're going through so much, and doing such an incredible job of taking care of everyone. Being in the middle of a valley with seemingly no path out is crushing to the human spirit. A saying dropped in while listening to you, one that I have lived by in my own 'valley of the shadow of death' periods. That is "this too shall pass". The promise that one day, somehow, things will be different. Thank you for your vulnerability, honesty and realness. May this be a cathartic way for you to release and navigate these challenges. 🙏 xox
I can not thank you and Brittany for the support and love you have shown me. You both really are such an important part of my life and I value you both so much ❤❤
I am sorry you are struggling. I am SO sorry your sweet wife is not doing well. There are so many layers to us witches and I am so proud of you for peeling back a few of those layers and sharing how you are feeling. You are not invisible. I see you and I understand all of it. Sometimes life is hard. So fucking hard. You will get over this and things will get better. Please patient with yourself and offer yourself some grace. When taking care of everyone else's needs you sometimes forget to take care of your own. Please take care of you too. Sending you energies of strength and courage to keep moving forward. You are a good husband. You are a good person.
You are not invisible. We all see you. You are more than “just” a caregiver (which is a hugely important role, being the rock for your wife and your daughter.) You are a funny, charming, wickedly intelligent man with so much love to share with everyone. Thank you for being YOU and sharing your heart so openly…it’s not easy to be vulnerable on the ‘Tube. You’ll find your way through, one day at a time. Pinky promise. And umm, your kitchen looks like a normal kitchen to me, lived and loved in.
I understand. I’ve spent time in that place of ignoring the stress I’m feeling and powering through. My heart is with you and just admitting these things is the first step to healing, thank you for sharing your thoughts, I hope it helps, it may help others too. You’re not alone.
I’m so thankful for everyone’s love and support. I wasn’t expecting so much understanding, I felt so alone and now I’m realizing these feeling are totally normal and relatable. Thank you for being here ♥️
Thank you for sharing Justin. I'm a single parent of four kids and my kitchen looks far worse than that because my mental health has taken a major dive lately. I guess what I'm trying to say is.. I feel less alone? So yeah. You're so brave to be so open in sharing your struggles and again, thank you for sharing. 💚
Thank you for sharing with me❤ I’m glad sharing with I’m going through made you feel less alone. Having so many people respond as made me feel seen and like what I’m feeling is shared by many ❤
I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. It can be incredibly difficult and isolating to struggle through all of this in silence, so I’m glad you felt brave enough to share your feelings with us. Sending your whole family healing vibes. You can see from all of the comments here how much love and care we all have for you. You are not alone. 💜
I've been there. Fortunately for me, my husband recovered. But it was 2 years of hell, that I wasn't sure that I was going to be able to drag us out of. Being seen and feeling like other folks could at least understand pieces of it, or even just with with me and scratch their heads with heads with me, was the only thing that helped. I am sure our struggles aren't the same, but I do get a lot of it. You aren't alone.
Since I have found your channel, I feel finally understood on so many levels, I cannot express how refreshing it is to my soul to finally find a real person with real life things they talk about. Had me in tears because I can empathize a lot to what you shared, I needed this very human video. Thank you! So much for being you! It encourages me to be me.
Thank you for being here! It can be hard to find relatable content on RUclips sometimes especially in the witchcraft space. I think so many of us want the things and the glam but we have to talk about our feelings, doubts, and the overall human experience as well. ♥️
this Spring is more OverWhelming then usual for me, too. The sudden force of the last 2yrs was just released, I think everyone is really drained & confused. I’ve been tuning into Hindu Guru Sermons for a few minutes each day, they are Fountains of Pure Light & they are able to transmit thier Light Energy thru thier voice. I seek out the Priesthood when I need UpLifting. I hope you feel better soon, focus on Balance during this Full Moon the next few days.
Sending you and your family much love and virtual hugs. Thank you for sharing your personal dose of reality - no easy feat. Hopefully, the sharing of it has helped some. Health issues and caregiver fatigue - the stress, overwhelm, and depression that go along with both - are no joke. I absolutely hate by times the cyclical nature of life handing you an ultimate low that you have to dig and claw your way out of to finally feel normal and maybe even happy again, only to revert to some new low. Just remember that eventually, you'll come out of this season back on top. As others have said, you are seen Justin. May your burdens soon ease up, and Future turnings of the wheel be lighter. ♡
@@TheWitchOfEnchantment always, Of course... Mental health can definitely be a bitch sometimes, I struggle with my me mental health too.. I don't know if this helps or not but you're not alone in this.
You ARE "Doing a Life: we may not get to choose it, but we live it the BEST we can". It is one of the hardest jobs ( being a caregiver) in life. And you aren't paid and it is 24/7. It is frustrating when you feel you have to put yourself last. And (maybe) guilt for feeling, well anything. But you can. You are reaching out to others. You are trying to take care of yourself. You are showing the good, bad, and ugly feelings (at that it's ok) When people go through things they feel isolated and alone. But by sharing yourself, you will help others. I know your story helped me feel better Thank you and 💜
We see you... We hear you... you are not alone... You have been going through so much and it's ok to let it out and crack yourself open. So real, honest and vulnerable. Life can be so unpredictable. Take a deep breath and recharge. Love to you and your family.
I'm so sorry you feel this way. We see you, we hear you, you are not invisable. And thank you for beeing so honest. Life isn't only glitter and rainbows. My husband is only sick for 1 month and I already feel a little sorry for myself, let alone if you've been in this situation for 7 months. I hope Rachel will feel better soon, or that you get some help. It's allot to carry on you own. I'm sending you a lot of ❤ from the netherlands.
Justin, my heart goes out to you and your family. It sounds like you are all going through a VERY difficult time. I love what Teia wrote and %100 agree. Thank you for coming on and being so real. It must have been hard to do and it was brave. I am familiar with being the rock and the caretaker; it is hard. Thank you for reminding me I am not alone. You are not alone, we see you. Remember to breathe. You'll get through this.
Justin, I am sorry to be commenting so late on here. I want to send so much love and support to you. (I did watch the video when it first went live, but I was on the go, so made a note to comment when I had a chance to) Firstly thank you for being so raw and vulnerable and for being yourself, always. I have watched your videos for years and honestly I have so much respect for your transparency and courageousness. Secondly, I see and hear you, holding space for you and thank you for allowing me to be a witness for you. This is not to invalidate your feelings because they are valid; but to me and to those who watch and adore your channel, you are someone special. You are valuable and your presence is meaningful for many people; including those who have never met you in person. That is powerful. I am glad you have wonderful, supportive friends in our community as well. I just want to say thank you, and that you are special, and I'm so happy I found your channel a few years ago. Sending you love and blessings and always here to listen as a friend if you need. 💜Xx
I'm so sorry that you & Rachel are going through this & you are right that life isn't fair. If you are comfortable talking to a professional maybe that would be good but there is the expense... I hope that Rachel will get better & that you guys can get your lives back & heal in every way. Take care Justin, you have so much to offer, hang in there.
Being a caregiver is exhausting beyond words. It takes a toll on you physically, mentally, and emotionally to a point that you feel that there is no hope, but there is. There are caregiver support groups out there. I know fb has them. I got to a point in my life that I was basically numb to everything from years of worry and not reaching out for help. If you are the type of person that is used to fixing everything and then all of a sudden you can’t you feel helpless. I don’t know your situation but if you can reach out to a home health agency, they can assist you in determining if your wife qualifies for a home health aide who could come to your house and help with things like cleaning, cooking, etc. Thank you for sharing your situation, and don’t lose hope! Help is out there.
I'm so sorry. I see you and I hear you. Do what you need to do to survive and don't feel bad about it. We're all catastrophies in some way. Much love to you and yours. Please take care of you too. 💓
Oh Justin I’m so very sorry. I see you. I feel such empathy with you. I cried through this video, for you & for myself also. Care giver exhaustion is a very serious thing….for me it got to the point where it felt like I was constantly treading water, struggling to keep my head from going under & totally drowning in the hopelessness. I had to reach out to professionals for help because I reached the point where I didn’t want to carry on living. Like the only reason to still be on this earth was because others needed me. I couldn’t see any positive future for my own self, my own life. I totally hear you when you say your only purpose is to service others. I’ve felt this too. It’s not true though Justin….you do have a right to have space in your life for you, for your needs, dreams etc. Just having a professional carer come in one morning a week to take the care giving responsibilities off my shoulders for a few hours helped me so so much. A charity helped me pay for it. Another charity paid for me to have some counselling to help me find myself again, find a purpose for myself other than care giver to others. Some of those once a week precious mornings I just slept, others I had counselling, others I pampered myself with self care products, went for walks, etc. I just did whatever I needed on that day. It took time to enjoy these few hours without the self imposed guilt trip, nagging inner critic voice bastard. The counsellor helped shut that f**k up! I really hope you can get some help even if to start with it’s just another trusted parent helping you with the school runs a few times a week. I’m in the U.K. so the contact details of the charities that helped me would be of no use to you. I really hope there is somewhere in your local community that you can turn to for some respite time away from constant care giving. I’m very grateful for you Justin. For your sincerity, truthfulness, vulnerability. Your amazing sense of humour. Your beauty. ❤
You aren’t alone!! You are showing such strength in your words and sharing your challenges Today is 141 days since my daughter died , and I feel the exact same Trying to look like everything is okay is exhausting
Justin, you are not selfish. When life changes so drastically, it is normal to feel a sense of loss. You are grieving the life you had and that is normal. I know you are starting to work with saints. I'm a Catholic (Folk) witch and if I may, I would love to make a suggestion that might help you feel the strength and support you need. Look into Mother Mary. Her energy is nurturing and supporting. Chanting the rosary every day does wonders for my spirit. Sending you lots of hugs. You've go this!
Nobody would say that. It's not a disaster. It's normal. I feel you. I feel like I'm going invisible too, because of my social anxiety. I'm an image on screens to most people. Flat. It sounds like you could just use a break. Some time off. Maybe look into respite care for your wife. It's a respite for you. Or if she is well enough, could you take a weekend away? I clean for twenty minutes a day, and that helps me. I don't have to worry about the whole huge mess, just what's in front of me for that 20 minutes, like "I'm going to sort and bundle up the old magazines for recycling." And then I feel like I accomplished something. Try it, it really helps.
You are Amazing! I Would agree that maybe you need a day or two off by yourself. There is Nothing wrong with You! I'm a Virgo also, and I can relate. You are doing what you needed to do in doing this vlog. Thank You for Being!! ❤
I am watching because I had been there (i was caregiver for 7 years). Every word you said is like a call for help. You are not invisible and you should look for that help. I am in Canada so it might be different then in your country but here we do have social services that can provide few services like a cleaning lady or somebody to help your loved one to bath or even just "baby sitting" few hours so you could get a relief somewhere. Maybe a charity could help... reach for the help you need ! You deserve it ! ps I always like you videos and I like the way you end them ! Just to let you know that you are appreciated and loved... XX
This is a part of your life, you are a witch, therefore this video is witchy content point blank. It is real, and I think many of us agree we are here to see all facets of your content. This is your place, take up the space you need. 💙💜💙💜💙 P.s.how you managed to make me laugh within the last min of this... it is a gift! 😂
Caregiver fatigue is a real thing. Add financial pressure and parenting, and it’s no wonder you’re burned out. I don’t have a perfect idea or suggestion, except to say ask for support where you can. Maybe another parent can carpool so you can have alternating school days or something. Maybe relieve some of the load so you can spend some time recharging and reconnecting to your sense of identity. Some days all that I can tell myself is what is down usually comes back up again, as that is the cycle of life. Hang in there. 💜
Sorry to hear that you are going through so much. It sounds like you've got so much on your shoulders. Maybe you should see a therapist or find someone to confide in? It might help. I hope Rachel's health improves.
Hey there Glitter Witch! 👋🏽 I’ve been watching your videos and decided to subscribe. I hope you are doing very well. I can relate to what you mentioned in this video. It’s wonderful to virtually connect with you. Warm gifts always. - Violet Rose
I have no words of enlightenment or whatever the f***. If I did I would say them to myself as well. Just know that you are not alone. I too have felt completely invisible for a long time now. Like, wtf am I here for! I have grown kids and grandchildren, but would they really even miss me if I wasn't here. I have started contemplating doing something very scary, but, also exciting. Still in the back of my mind, but, point is, rather or not I go thru with it, for now, it's something that makes me happy just thinking about it. Anyway...sorry so long. Justin..I know we don't know each other..but I am here if you ever need to talk to a stranger 🙂 🖤🖤🖤🖤
Thank you for sharing what your going through as well. We are are going through it I guess but sharing it with others certainly makes it a little more bearable ♥️
Oh my, you do have a lot on your plate right now. I can understand how you must be feeling ☹Sounds like you need a spa day and a good friend to talk to. I am sorry you are going through all this and feel so lonely. I thank you for being Brave enough to say " Hey ! "This S---ks" ! You are not invisible because i see you and hear you and feel your pain. I hope Rachel gets the right diagnosis and starts feeling better soon. Are there any programs that might be able to help you ? I don't know where you are but some States have people who will come in to help take some of the load off your shoulders and do some of those dishes that you just can't bring yourself to deal with right now. They can help take care of Rachel so you don't have to do it all. Maybe check with community action and see if they know of any free programs in your area. Hope things start looking up. Much love and healing vibes for you and your loved ones. I will be thinking of you ❤❤🌹🌹
I offer these words to you, ones that have helped me in the past when I have felt invisible and if I was to accurately describe myself, it would have been numb. During those times of darkness. I found a different emotion, one that snapped me out of the numbness and that was getting angry. I was feeling a little bit of rage after all I am in Aries. And with this rage i screamed and I mean I screamed fuck so loud that I thought I was going to bring down mountain tops. And what I realized was that I was holding so much in, and what the screaming allowed me to do, was to feel again. So I say this to you my friend when there is no one in the house. Just scream and maybe you will feel a little bit better after because you have felt another emotion. Sending you much love, health and just knowing that somebody you've never met is thinking about you and hoping you are well.
Justin 💜 I'm so sorry there is a dark cloud over life right now, but always remember the sun will shine again and it will bring a new day 😊 As a SAHM of 17 years it's HARD living in the trenches and losing a child changes our lives forever. I have recently been diagnosed with MDD (major depressive disorder) Life can be so dark but I hold onto HOPE. Look for that little glimmer of light and walk towards it, because it will brighten your life (eventually) Moments of darkness aren't bad, it allows for reflection and growth. Give yourself time and grace to just be in this moment and know it won't last forever. You are doing an amazing job 💜 YOU ARE NOT INVISIBLE WE SEE YOU WE HEAR YOU
I have no business diagnosing your wife nor am I a dr, however it sounds like she might have MS. which is what I struggle with and have for over twenty years now. See if she qualifies for disability, that will help you both financially, and see if they can get her a part time care giver. I am sending you so much love and peace. Please dont ever feel alone, we are all here with you. XO
Take deep breaths and take one day at a time. Maybe you could reach for help from different sources, help with the caregiving for your wife, help for yourself and your anxiety.. someone you can talk to.. Just to give yourself some breathing space. I'm not sure about the area you live but I urge you to ask for help to deal with all your issues at the moment. Maybe you don't feel like letting anyone in but it may be just a temporary measure that you need some help from different sources to get you all through this emotional time.. Some outside support will give you some space. I hope you can find a solution to make things easier and work your way towards a better future... keep that in your mind.. Don't give up.. get some help to get you all through... Sending much love..🙏🙏🙏❤❤
Oh, sweetie. I'm a new subscriber. I Will be sending you good juju, as I'm sure your long-time subscribers are. It's hard to take care of yourself when so many others need care. This is your life right now. It won't be your life forever. I hope you and your wife find answers to her health problems. There ARE answers out there. Ask the doc to check for Epstein-Barre if you haven't already. Thank you for being real. Sometimes there aren't enough rocks. - Forrest Gump ♥️
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Loved being in your kitchen and lounge with you. It's cool to be in other parts of your house! 💜"...And then months go by and you realize you've been sleeping," this hit me hard. You're going through so much, and doing such an incredible job of taking care of everyone. Being in the middle of a valley with seemingly no path out is crushing to the human spirit. A saying dropped in while listening to you, one that I have lived by in my own 'valley of the shadow of death' periods. That is "this too shall pass". The promise that one day, somehow, things will be different.
Thank you for your vulnerability, honesty and realness. May this be a cathartic way for you to release and navigate these challenges. 🙏 xox
I can not thank you and Brittany for the support and love you have shown me. You both really are such an important part of my life and I value you both so much ❤❤
I am sorry you are struggling. I am SO sorry your sweet wife is not doing well. There are so many layers to us witches and I am so proud of you for peeling back a few of those layers and sharing how you are feeling. You are not invisible. I see you and I understand all of it. Sometimes life is hard. So fucking hard. You will get over this and things will get better. Please patient with yourself and offer yourself some grace. When taking care of everyone else's needs you sometimes forget to take care of your own. Please take care of you too. Sending you energies of strength and courage to keep moving forward. You are a good husband. You are a good person.
You are not invisible. We all see you. You are more than “just” a caregiver (which is a hugely important role, being the rock for your wife and your daughter.) You are a funny, charming, wickedly intelligent man with so much love to share with everyone. Thank you for being YOU and sharing your heart so openly…it’s not easy to be vulnerable on the ‘Tube. You’ll find your way through, one day at a time. Pinky promise.
And umm, your kitchen looks like a normal kitchen to me, lived and loved in.
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I understand. I’ve spent time in that place of ignoring the stress I’m feeling and powering through. My heart is with you and just admitting these things is the first step to healing, thank you for sharing your thoughts, I hope it helps, it may help others too. You’re not alone.
I’m so thankful for everyone’s love and support. I wasn’t expecting so much understanding, I felt so alone and now I’m realizing these feeling are totally normal and relatable. Thank you for being here ♥️
Thank you for sharing Justin.
I'm a single parent of four kids and my kitchen looks far worse than that because my mental health has taken a major dive lately.
I guess what I'm trying to say is.. I feel less alone? So yeah. You're so brave to be so open in sharing your struggles and again, thank you for sharing. 💚
Thank you for sharing with me❤
I’m glad sharing with I’m going through made you feel less alone. Having so many people respond as made me feel seen and like what I’m feeling is shared by many ❤
I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. It can be incredibly difficult and isolating to struggle through all of this in silence, so I’m glad you felt brave enough to share your feelings with us. Sending your whole family healing vibes. You can see from all of the comments here how much love and care we all have for you. You are not alone. 💜
I've been there. Fortunately for me, my husband recovered. But it was 2 years of hell, that I wasn't sure that I was going to be able to drag us out of. Being seen and feeling like other folks could at least understand pieces of it, or even just with with me and scratch their heads with heads with me, was the only thing that helped. I am sure our struggles aren't the same, but I do get a lot of it. You aren't alone.
Thank you for seeing me ❤ Thank you for sharing your experience as well ❤
Love and prayers to you and ur beautiful family!!!!! Stay strong please !!!
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Since I have found your channel, I feel finally understood on so many levels, I cannot express how refreshing it is to my soul to finally find a real person with real life things they talk about. Had me in tears because I can empathize a lot to what you shared, I needed this very human video. Thank you! So much for being you! It encourages me to be me.
Thank you for being here! It can be hard to find relatable content on RUclips sometimes especially in the witchcraft space. I think so many of us want the things and the glam but we have to talk about our feelings, doubts, and the overall human experience as well. ♥️
this Spring is more OverWhelming then usual for me, too. The sudden force of the last 2yrs was just released, I think everyone is really drained & confused. I’ve been tuning into Hindu Guru Sermons for a few minutes each day, they are Fountains of Pure Light & they are able to transmit thier Light Energy thru thier voice. I seek out the Priesthood when I need UpLifting. I hope you feel better soon, focus on Balance during this Full Moon the next few days.
Sending you and your family much love and virtual hugs. Thank you for sharing your personal dose of reality - no easy feat. Hopefully, the sharing of it has helped some. Health issues and caregiver fatigue - the stress, overwhelm, and depression that go along with both - are no joke. I absolutely hate by times the cyclical nature of life handing you an ultimate low that you have to dig and claw your way out of to finally feel normal and maybe even happy again, only to revert to some new low. Just remember that eventually, you'll come out of this season back on top. As others have said, you are seen Justin. May your burdens soon ease up, and Future turnings of the wheel be lighter. ♡
Thank you 😊
Oh honey, thanks for sharing
Thank you for listening ❤
@@TheWitchOfEnchantment always, Of course... Mental health can definitely be a bitch sometimes, I struggle with my me mental health too.. I don't know if this helps or not but you're not alone in this.
You ARE "Doing a Life: we may not get to choose it, but we live it the BEST we can". It is one of the hardest jobs ( being a caregiver) in life. And you aren't paid and it is 24/7.
It is frustrating when you feel you have to put yourself last. And (maybe) guilt for feeling, well anything.
But you can. You are reaching out to others. You are trying to take care of yourself. You are showing the good, bad, and ugly feelings (at that it's ok)
When people go through things they feel isolated and alone. But by sharing yourself, you will help others.
I know your story helped me feel better
Thank you and 💜
Thank you for words, I resonated with them deeply ❤
We see you... We hear you... you are not alone... You have been going through so much and it's ok to let it out and crack yourself open. So real, honest and vulnerable. Life can be so unpredictable. Take a deep breath and recharge. Love to you and your family.
I'm so sorry you feel this way. We see you, we hear you, you are not invisable. And thank you for beeing so honest. Life isn't only glitter and rainbows. My husband is only sick for 1 month and I already feel a little sorry for myself, let alone if you've been in this situation for 7 months. I hope Rachel will feel better soon, or that you get some help. It's allot to carry on you own. I'm sending you a lot of ❤ from the netherlands.
Love you. Your feelings are so valid. We're all here for you ❤️
Thank you Abi ♥️
Justin, my heart goes out to you and your family. It sounds like you are all going through a VERY difficult time. I love what Teia wrote and %100 agree. Thank you for coming on and being so real. It must have been hard to do and it was brave. I am familiar with being the rock and the caretaker; it is hard. Thank you for reminding me I am not alone. You are not alone, we see you. Remember to breathe. You'll get through this.
Thank you for your sweet words ♥️♥️
Justin, I am sorry to be commenting so late on here. I want to send so much love and support to you. (I did watch the video when it first went live, but I was on the go, so made a note to comment when I had a chance to) Firstly thank you for being so raw and vulnerable and for being yourself, always. I have watched your videos for years and honestly I have so much respect for your transparency and courageousness. Secondly, I see and hear you, holding space for you and thank you for allowing me to be a witness for you. This is not to invalidate your feelings because they are valid; but to me and to those who watch and adore your channel, you are someone special. You are valuable and your presence is meaningful for many people; including those who have never met you in person. That is powerful. I am glad you have wonderful, supportive friends in our community as well. I just want to say thank you, and that you are special, and I'm so happy I found your channel a few years ago. Sending you love and blessings and always here to listen as a friend if you need. 💜Xx
I'm so sorry that you & Rachel are going through this & you are right that life isn't fair. If you are comfortable talking to a professional maybe that would be good but there is the expense... I hope that Rachel will get better & that you guys can get your lives back & heal in every way. Take care Justin, you have so much to offer, hang in there.
Thank you ❤❤
Wishing you strength and support!
Thank you so much ♥️
Being a caregiver is exhausting beyond words. It takes a toll on you physically, mentally, and emotionally to a point that you feel that there is no hope, but there is. There are caregiver support groups out there. I know fb has them. I got to a point in my life that I was basically numb to everything from years of worry and not reaching out for help. If you are the type of person that is used to fixing everything and then all of a sudden you can’t you feel helpless. I don’t know your situation but if you can reach out to a home health agency, they can assist you in determining if your wife qualifies for a home health aide who could come to your house and help with things like cleaning, cooking, etc. Thank you for sharing your situation, and don’t lose hope! Help is out there.
I'm so sorry. I see you and I hear you. Do what you need to do to survive and don't feel bad about it. We're all catastrophies in some way. Much love to you and yours. Please take care of you too. 💓
Oh Justin I’m so very sorry. I see you. I feel such empathy with you. I cried through this video, for you & for myself also.
Care giver exhaustion is a very serious thing….for me it got to the point where it felt like I was constantly treading water, struggling to keep my head from going under & totally drowning in the hopelessness.
I had to reach out to professionals for help because I reached the point where I didn’t want to carry on living. Like the only reason to still be on this earth was because others needed me. I couldn’t see any positive future for my own self, my own life. I totally hear you when you say your only purpose is to service others. I’ve felt this too. It’s not true though Justin….you do have a right to have space in your life for you, for your needs, dreams etc.
Just having a professional carer come in one morning a week to take the care giving responsibilities off my shoulders for a few hours helped me so so much. A charity helped me pay for it. Another charity paid for me to have some counselling to help me find myself again, find a purpose for myself other than care giver to others.
Some of those once a week precious mornings I just slept, others I had counselling, others I pampered myself with self care products, went for walks, etc. I just did whatever I needed on that day. It took time to enjoy these few hours without the self imposed guilt trip, nagging inner critic voice bastard. The counsellor helped shut that f**k up!
I really hope you can get some help even if to start with it’s just another trusted parent helping you with the school runs a few times a week.
I’m in the U.K. so the contact details of the charities that helped me would be of no use to you.
I really hope there is somewhere in your local community that you can turn to for some respite time away from constant care giving.
I’m very grateful for you Justin. For your sincerity, truthfulness, vulnerability. Your amazing sense of humour. Your beauty. ❤
You aren’t alone!! You are showing such strength in your words and sharing your challenges
Today is 141 days since my daughter died , and I feel the exact same
Trying to look like everything is okay is exhausting
Sending you much love
Justin, you are not selfish. When life changes so drastically, it is normal to feel a sense of loss. You are grieving the life you had and that is normal. I know you are starting to work with saints. I'm a Catholic (Folk) witch and if I may, I would love to make a suggestion that might help you feel the strength and support you need. Look into Mother Mary. Her energy is nurturing and supporting. Chanting the rosary every day does wonders for my spirit. Sending you lots of hugs. You've go this!
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Hope you find support somewhere somehow soon...your feelings and needs are valid ..caregivers need support too❤
Thank you ☺️
Nobody would say that. It's not a disaster. It's normal. I feel you. I feel like I'm going invisible too, because of my social anxiety. I'm an image on screens to most people. Flat.
It sounds like you could just use a break. Some time off. Maybe look into respite care for your wife. It's a respite for you. Or if she is well enough, could you take a weekend away?
I clean for twenty minutes a day, and that helps me. I don't have to worry about the whole huge mess, just what's in front of me for that 20 minutes, like "I'm going to sort and bundle up the old magazines for recycling." And then I feel like I accomplished something. Try it, it really helps.
You are Amazing! I Would agree that maybe you need a day or two off by yourself. There is Nothing wrong with You! I'm a Virgo also, and I can relate. You are doing what you needed to do in doing this vlog. Thank You for Being!! ❤
I am watching because I had been there (i was caregiver for 7 years). Every word you said is like a call for help. You are not invisible and you should look for that help. I am in Canada so it might be different then in your country but here we do have social services that can provide few services like a cleaning lady or somebody to help your loved one to bath or even just "baby sitting" few hours so you could get a relief somewhere. Maybe a charity could help... reach for the help you need ! You deserve it ! ps I always like you videos and I like the way you end them ! Just to let you know that you are appreciated and loved... XX
This is a part of your life, you are a witch, therefore this video is witchy content point blank. It is real, and I think many of us agree we are here to see all facets of your content.
This is your place, take up the space you need. 💙💜💙💜💙
P.s.how you managed to make me laugh within the last min of this... it is a gift! 😂
Caregiver fatigue is a real thing. Add financial pressure and parenting, and it’s no wonder you’re burned out. I don’t have a perfect idea or suggestion, except to say ask for support where you can. Maybe another parent can carpool so you can have alternating school days or something. Maybe relieve some of the load so you can spend some time recharging and reconnecting to your sense of identity. Some days all that I can tell myself is what is down usually comes back up again, as that is the cycle of life. Hang in there. 💜
Thank you ! Yes I think caregiver fatigue is a great term to kind of sun up what I’m feeling ♥️
Sorry to hear that you are going through so much. It sounds like you've got so much on your shoulders. Maybe you should see a therapist or find someone to confide in? It might help. I hope Rachel's health improves.
Thank you for the suggestions and support ❤
Hey there Glitter Witch! 👋🏽 I’ve been watching your videos and decided to subscribe. I hope you are doing very well. I can relate to what you mentioned in this video. It’s wonderful to virtually connect with you. Warm gifts always. - Violet Rose
Thank you so much!!
I have no words of enlightenment or whatever the f***. If I did I would say them to myself as well. Just know that you are not alone. I too have felt completely invisible for a long time now. Like, wtf am I here for! I have grown kids and grandchildren, but would they really even miss me if I wasn't here. I have started contemplating doing something very scary, but, also exciting. Still in the back of my mind, but, point is, rather or not I go thru with it, for now, it's something that makes me happy just thinking about it. Anyway...sorry so long. Justin..I know we don't know each other..but I am here if you ever need to talk to a stranger 🙂 🖤🖤🖤🖤
Thank you for sharing what your going through as well. We are are going through it I guess but sharing it with others certainly makes it a little more bearable ♥️
Oh my, you do have a lot on your plate right now. I can understand how you must be feeling ☹Sounds like you need a spa day and a good friend to talk to. I am sorry you are going through all this and feel so lonely. I thank you for being Brave enough to say " Hey ! "This S---ks" ! You are not invisible because i see you and hear you and feel your pain. I hope Rachel gets the right diagnosis and starts feeling better soon. Are there any programs that might be able to help you ? I don't know where you are but some States have people who will come in to help take some of the load off your shoulders and do some of those dishes that you just can't bring yourself to deal with right now. They can help take care of Rachel so you don't have to do it all. Maybe check with community action and see if they know of any free programs in your area. Hope things start looking up. Much love and healing vibes for you and your loved ones. I will be thinking of you ❤❤🌹🌹
I offer these words to you, ones that have helped me in the past when I have felt invisible and if I was to accurately describe myself, it would have been numb. During those times of darkness. I found a different emotion, one that snapped me out of the numbness and that was getting angry. I was feeling a little bit of rage after all I am in Aries. And with this rage i screamed and I mean I screamed fuck so loud that I thought I was going to bring down mountain tops. And what I realized was that I was holding so much in, and what the screaming allowed me to do, was to feel again. So I say this to you my friend when there is no one in the house. Just scream and maybe you will feel a little bit better after because you have felt another emotion. Sending you much love, health and just knowing that somebody you've never met is thinking about you and hoping you are well.
Justin 💜 I'm so sorry there is a dark cloud over life right now, but always remember the sun will shine again and it will bring a new day 😊
As a SAHM of 17 years it's HARD living in the trenches and losing a child changes our lives forever. I have recently been diagnosed with MDD (major depressive disorder) Life can be so dark but I hold onto HOPE. Look for that little glimmer of light and walk towards it, because it will brighten your life (eventually)
Moments of darkness aren't bad, it allows for reflection and growth. Give yourself time and grace to just be in this moment and know it won't last forever.
You are doing an amazing job 💜
YOU ARE NOT INVISIBLE
WE SEE YOU
WE HEAR YOU
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I have no business diagnosing your wife nor am I a dr, however it sounds like she might have MS. which is what I struggle with and have for over twenty years now. See if she qualifies for disability, that will help you both financially, and see if they can get her a part time care giver. I am sending you so much love and peace. Please dont ever feel alone, we are all here with you. XO
Hi just reaching out to ask how you are, you are very much in my mind ❤
I'm hanging in, thank you for being so kind
@@TheWitchOfEnchantment so much love 💕 to you xxx
How can we help?
Take deep breaths and take one day at a time. Maybe you could reach for help from different sources, help with the caregiving for your wife, help for yourself and your anxiety.. someone you can talk to.. Just to give yourself some breathing space. I'm not sure about the area you live but I urge you to ask for help to deal with all your issues at the moment. Maybe you don't feel like letting anyone in but it may be just a temporary measure that you need some help from different sources to get you all through this emotional time.. Some outside support will give you some space. I hope you can find a solution to make things easier and work your way towards a better future... keep that in your mind.. Don't give up.. get some help to get you all through... Sending much love..🙏🙏🙏❤❤
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Oh, sweetie. I'm a new subscriber. I Will be sending you good juju, as I'm sure your long-time subscribers are. It's hard to take care of yourself when so many others need care. This is your life right now. It won't be your life forever. I hope you and your wife find answers to her health problems. There ARE answers out there. Ask the doc to check for Epstein-Barre if you haven't already. Thank you for being real.
Sometimes there aren't enough rocks. - Forrest Gump ♥️
Thank you for your kind words of encouragement and wisdom. I greatly appreciate 🥰