My younger brother got into advanced math yesterday I was told by my mother I remember when I would help him with math because he couldn’t do it and I was so proud because he was growing now he will be one year behind me in math and my mother said ‘it will be great you can help him with math!!’ But I don’t want to help him not because i hate him or anything but because im jealous that he is better than me I have 4brothers and all of them are amazing at something math, righting, social studies anything but what am I good at? Reading 📖 and helping ppl that’s it like they are always in the spotlight and I just want to be Sean as more than the mom friend or the older sister and I just want people anyone to see that I need a big hug and to be loved but idk if I’ll get that haha anyway I love y’all and if you read all that thank you for listening to me rant ❤❤
i'd give you a hug if i could 😭i hope you know that there are people out there who you'll meet who will appreciate all of your beautiful qualities and passions, those you and your siblings share and those that you don't :) your future is yours, not theirs
I know exactly how you feel..I was always the "fixer" in my family. Every time someone had a problem I felt like I had to be the one to make everything better...but no one could ever "fix" me..I'm here to give you that hug and maybe you can give me a hug back. We can help each other..lol..I'm proud of you..and it's perfectly fine to feel jealous we all have that feeling at some point..❤
@@DIRTYLILSECRET thank you my new be founded friend and of course I can give you a hug 🫂 I know I’m going to sound very very creepy but I swear I have the best intentions and only to make friends. Do you have discord and if so would you be willing to add me so we could talk together ❤️ (no pressure if I’m coming off as a creep I totally understand haha)
@@Nexxie961 "It is the feeling of inferiority, inadequacy and insecurity that determines the goal of an individual's existence." By Alfred Adler, from the book "Understanding Human Nature." Dw mate, I promise you keep doing what you like. Chase what you think is right, and even if it sucks and hurts to help others and not be helped, keep helping. Though nobody would see you're helping, one will. God. Goodluck mate!
I wish I could escape from my mind, the feeling of wanting to be alone but not lonely, the feeling of escaping from all of this thing call life but too afraid of ending it. Man the game call life sure tough
15 likes, but no answer? Let me change that: Life can be tough sometimes, yes, I think we all know what by now. But always take some time for yourself. Relax, do something fun, be a child again. Run through the rain, play in the snow, go to the forest and build a fort. It doesn't matter! Just live your life and always remember to take care of yourself. Of your mental and your body. Never change for others and always be nice. You don't have to escape life, just make the best out of it. And wanting to be alone sometimes is completely normal. If you want to, I can give you my socials and you can reach out to me whenever you want to talk about something. Strangers from the internet can't ruin as much as people in real life, we can't harm you, but always help and give tips. Remember to be yourself and never loose your self-confidence. And maybe you won't believe me, but you are loved. There are people who appreciate what you do and who want you to be safe. You're loved, you're appreciated, you're cared for. Never forget that.
*Sad, sentimental music has a profound ability to stir the depths of the soul, offering a cathartic release for pent-up emotions and a gentle embrace for weary hearts*
Damn, wish I could cry to this but I’m just to angry. I want to be sad but anger is the only thing I feel. My jaw hurts because I keep clenching it but I’m scared that if I unclench my jaw, I’ll scream. It’s 12:30 am, I can’t be screaming.
I feel for you. I guess were a bit different though, when I get too mad I cry, I actually hate it because it doesn’t let me show how angry I really am, and I always get a headache when I cry. So what’s got you so mad? If you don’t mind me asking
It's okay to cry , you're not weak for crying, you're not terrible for crying, you're human , you have emotions and you've been very strong but it's time to stand down And let it out. It's okay , it's okay to ask for help, asking for help isn't weak or giving up it's refusing to give up and it's the bravest thing you could say because it takes guts.
I feel this. I've been angry for a while and now im just tired all the time. It's so much work just to get myself to get simple tasks done at times, and other times my anger just comes roaring to the surface unannounced and I don't know what to do, especially since I'm a very impulsive person. But it's hard for me to talk to people because I normally regret what I say afterwards.
I loved. I loved and I loved too fucking hard. I loved my friends, I loved my family, and I loved the one I called my best friend and soulmate. I loved so fucking hard it hurt, I gave them everything I had and more. then, one by one, the ones I loved took my love and broke it. they threw the broken pieces back in my face, using it as weapons to slice through me despite the fact all I had ever done, was love them. Maybe it's because I loved too hard, because now I have no one left to kiss my scars caused by the pieces that I gave as love, but recieved as hate. and yet the more broken I become, the more whole I feel because I know that each scar despite the pain, came from someone who at one point or another benefitted from my love. So now I wait, always the bridesmaid and never the bride. I know to always stand to the side, to be the support and never the main character and thats ok. Because my role was always to love, unconditionally. and even those who gave me scars, I still love you. not because of the things you put me through, but because everyone is deserving of love. But now, I chose to love alone, and I am more selective of the pieces of love I have left. I love you, but you're not mine to keep. you set me free
i hope you're okay :( remember everything is temporary, and there are people out there you'll cross paths with that will appreciate all of your beautiful qualities the way they deserve to be appreciated i promise
This is just beautiful… it could be turned into a song that so many of us would feel in our bones… I’m sorry you have gone through this, but you are not alone… many of us empaths follow similar paths. It is the blessing and the curse of our gift of loving so deeply 💔
Sometimes being a nice and kind person gives you shit in turn and life takes everything and leaves you nothing. Till you have to be the one to grab the g*n and point it at them. You cannot feel sorrow for them. You have to give yourself what you deserve And sometimes you have to be the person to pull the trigger. If you don't they will pull the trigger on you. Sometimes we feel guilty by doing actions we know hurt. But would anybody feel guilty if they did it to us? The only person you can really trust is yourself. Because believe me you'll make sure you survive.... Being kind doesn't give you kindness back. It gives you a shit life with arrogant people. Villains were once heros that got trampled and taken advantage of. Sometimes you have to be the villain that rewrites the story..
The truth is, I still don't know who I am. Am I who I really am, or am I someone else affected by those around me? Am I actually defending my ideas or defending ideas they planted in my head? The truth is I don't know who I am. I walked on different paths, but the paths scattered me, and I melted like a drop of water. In the air, I don't know who I am. In the end, I hope to find myself quickly and know who I am, and know my true story, the true path that I must walk, and the true thoughts that come from my own thoughts.😔
TW: i trauma dump in this and shit, it’s not bad but it’s just about em loading hope, hope you hava a wonderful day though ❤. Last year was my first year in middle school. I don’t remember shit other then little snip bits and all I know is that it was the worse year I’ve had in my life. I was overly depressed had and probably still have BPD. I was the loner in almost all my classes I’d lie to my parents and say I was fine, I cut myself on a regular basis and begged my mom for a therapist. When I got it they said I was quote “too much to handle” and left. I didn’t even know until my brother told me about two weeks after she dipped. It didn’t get any better during the summer when I had to go to my dad and I would just lay in bed on call with pen specific person for 8 hours each day and then staying up late not doing shit. The sad thing about school is that it’s just so draining. I wake up at 6 every morning and put on makeup and preppy cloths so I’m not judged by kids my age, but then I’m judged by my parents and other peers by wearing makeup. I can’t have a hobby without being judged and I need at least 10 minutes to even be mentally prepared to get out of bed. I have insomnia and I’m so drained even though I don’t do shit. I don’t study, I don’t do homework, nothing. I’m a picky eater and I barely eat. I have severe anxiety when it comes to loud noises, people leaving me, and touch. I know this is my future and I should look at it as a good thing that I’ve done so many things and suppressed through so much in my life, but by the time I get out of collage I don’t think I’d want a future. The only person saving me now is my moma, brother, best friend that moved away to a different state, and rye. If I lose Rye I’d loose hope. Just hope I don’t.
Hey I just want to say you are doing an amazing job so far. So few people at your age would think this far in life. I can tell you have a good head on your shoulders and Im proud of how far you have made it. It shows an amazing amount of resilience and I know this because ive been there. Ill be honest, things dont necessarily become stress free now that your getting older and things will suck in different ways as time goes by but this feeling you have is one of the things that passes. I promise you that. Im sending you my best regards. Have a good rest of your day where ever you are. Just dont isolate yourself okay? The people around you are there for you and if you dont believe that you can know through this message that I am.
I feel at....peace....its like im in a rainforest and im in a different world and im at peace, im not in pain im not scared or mad or sad im okay, im at bay its comforting
You tell yourself "dont do it, dont. You know it'll ruin everything, you know it wont last" but...how can your heart ignore the reaching hand of the person you love? Even when you know it'll only hurt in the end...
Don't blame yourself. People come and go, it's a normal part of life. Letting go can be hard, but we all have to get used to it. You may lose friends, but please, never lose yourself. Always take care of yourself, mentally and physically. If you need help, don't hesitate to reach out!
Sometimes it hurts when you feel like your alone in this world we live, when were young we break rules that our parents did to keep us safe but now i just realize that i did everything just to make ourselves happy and live like were never been chained by sadness but now i realized i wish i could be more younger than i was in the past
Just live your life. Be young again if you want to. Go into the forest and build a fort, make yourself a good time with friends; get away from the seriousness of life. Take time to relax. No matter how old you may be at any time, you can always feel young again. Always remember to take time for yourself and not drown in school / work. Taking care of yourself is very important, so be a child, have a nice time! Always be yourself.
I love you. I will never say goodbye. I am far far, away but still with you. I really don't know really what your thinking in all those photos with a smile on your face.You should be happy . You are a great talent, fans love you. ❤️ no need to be sad These sons are depressing 😔 goodnight ❤
My life story it’s going to be long so grab something to eat: my first bad memory is when I was 3 years old when one of my mother’s boyfriend who was physically violent with her decided to punish me because according to him I had stood up to her (refused to obey ) he put me on my knees face to the walls and told me not to move this for 45 minutes (despite my mother who asked him to stop ) at the end when I got up I saw that my knees were marked by the floor it is the only memory that I have of this period ( later mother told me he used to punish me like this ) then when I was 5 my mother who went through a lot of difficult things through her life tried to commit su*cide by cutt*ng her wr*sts, I know it because when my grandfather arrived I went to her room and I saw the blood on her arms and her bed and it made an impression on me ( I remember it very well 16 years later ) When I was 11 years old my 3 years old sister was diagnosed with cancer 2 months after the announcement of her cancer my father and I had a disagreement and he decided to cut contact with me and prevent me from seeing my little sister (he only made contact while she was healing from her cancer )! It is important to know that while the situation with my sister and father was happening I was harassed everyday of the week at school (they harassed because in their eyes I was overweight but even if I was.... I was eating because that was the only that helped me cope with what was going on ! These events happened in a 1 year period during which I had my first suicidal thought ! When I was 13 years old a person in my family made a mistake and the police raided our apartment and ravaged everything on their way it traumatized my mother who developed ptsd which aggravated her depression ! between my the age of 13 and 17 years old on the school life I was still harassed everyday of the week and on a personal level I lost a dozen members of my family with whom I was close! Between my 17 years ( 2020 ) and my 21 years ( 2024 ) I did not go out much and I did not make much progress in my projects because of what happened (I never had a girlfriend and I have no friend ) Recently ( January 2024 ) I met a really nice smiling and respectful girl well our conversations were going well and one day I asked if we could be friends, and she replied that no because she did not see herself being friends with a boy ! which I understand and she told me that because I'm nice we can continue to talk in a professional way ( we often cross each other due to our professional career ) except that several days after this conversation I started to have suicidal thoughts and I got scared and because as I had no one to talk to expect her I chose to talk about it with the girl before I first warned by sending this message (7th march) : '' I am sending you this message to know if in the coming days you'd be available to have a conversation with me because I need to talk about a very serious problem that came back during the week and that had not happened to me for several months and from experience I know that when it happens I really must not be alone and absolutely talk about it with someone ! So normally I should only talk about this kind of problem with people in my family or friends but I currently have no friends and in my family well My mom already has health issues so I don’t want to make things worse by telling her about it ! Honestly it bothers me a lot to ask you this because we don’t know each other that much and I don’t want to make you uncomfortable but when this kind of thing happens to boys, It is usually difficult to ask for help before it is too late due to the embarrassment that we can feeling when talking about this and usually when out and when we ask for help we can only do it with a person who inspires us enough confidence to have a conversation with them and you inspire me trust! '' she answered me : ''I’m not really sure I can help you but tell me '' Then I told her about my suicidal thoughts! in the message after she asked me my number and after giving it I got messages from her boyfriend telling me '' stop yapping about your life ! she's not your friend '' after receiving the messages I sent an apology message to the girl but she never answered ! In the days that followed I realized that my mental health situation destroyed the only beneficial relationship that I had in the last decade and my suicidal thoughts became much more frequent a week ago my mother was admitted to the hospital for respiratory problems and we exchanged messages but 2 later ( Wednesday ) that same day I started writing suicide letters that I wanted to leave for my family but later in the afternoon my aunt who visited my mother in the hospital told me that my mother’s respiratory problems caused a weakening of her lungs and therefore to help her lungs the hospital staff decided to put her on artificial ventilator ( in a coma ) so since Wednesday I sleep at my grandmother's house with 2 uncles and honestly I am lost I mean when I see my life I have trouble finding anything positive so I am listening to this video at 5 am alone in one of my uncles bedroom !
May God give you enough strength to cope up with all the challenges you are going through In these dark times the only true friend and supporter you can have is YOURSELF, BUILD YOURSELF UP BROTHER, this shall too pass !!!! The most imp advice that I can give u right now is BUILD yourself strong bro, start working on your body, hit the gym and reach your full potential , I can guarantee you that in this dark tunnel of life you will start seeing the light !!!!! And during this phase you will face alot more challenges and highs and lows but always keep in mind that YOU ARE DOING BETTER THAN BEFORE AND GOD FOR SURE HAS A BEST PLAN FOR YOU, YOU JUST NEED TO KEEP GOING💪, I WILL pray for you!!! And yeah keep spreading smiles and happiness as much as you can in others life Keep GOING!!!!!
@ivra6345 helloo after experiencing so many people coming and going . I think people who go through the things similar to me can understand me better . I took the courage to take first step , will you accept me as your listener ? It's better to have someone to listen your thoughts rather than dealing with never ending thoughts. It must be not easy to talk after getting so many denials from others, right? Yeah ! I know . Still it's not going to hurt to try one more time. And I can assure you I'm not a judgemenal person. Going to delete this msg if there's no response under 24 hrs
I loved him. I couldn't imagine that he would say so, I didn't think I was going to cry, and for what I was afraid of. I knew that this day would come. I knew that you couldn't trust him, I didn't have to get so used to people, I didn't have to open up to him like this but.. Was I alive with him? I didn't feel like I miss you right now.. But I'm not going to be with you now I'm definitely in pain but I'm going to say no sorry you hurt me too much..
Love yourself! Getting over people can be really hard, but you can do it. Whatever he did to you, you didn't deserve it. Always reach out to others if you need help please.
A friend of mine in one of my classes said jokinly leave no one loves you no one likes leave and i know thats just a joke and she was going through somethings but it hit me hard cause its the same words that i tell myself daily when im alone and when she said i began crying and she asked me if it was because of that and i lies saying some random BS i didnt want to tell her the truth and i feel qorse and pathetic when im sround her and weak for showing my weak side of my emotions luckily she believed it so yea sorry for my rant thanks for reading
I have been under a lot of stress these last few days. I have 14 days left before the exams. I have been preparing for them for more than a year, but I have a feeling that my knowledge has not increased a bit, I am worried that I will not be able to pass them on a good score. This song finished me off. After all, I have just finished preparing for them and am insanely exhausted.I needed to vent these emotions, thank you
I hade a best friend. But, I think we're going apart, and we don't realize it. He found a girl. I'm proud of him, I really am, but that's when this started. He isn't able to some with me and the boys when we do something. He's slipping away, and I know at some point, I have to let go, and except that it's going to happen. But now? Why now! Maybe he's ready to let go, but im not! I can't! NOT when thing are so complicated! It's to soon. There isn't enough time. There was never enough time. I wanted to be with him and him for me for even a year longer... just not yet. It's to soon...
i wish i could escape my mind i wish i could just love myself for who i am i wish i could be happy again i wish i didn’t have depression i wish i didn’t have anxiety i wish i didn’t have body issues i wish i didn’t have teacher attachment i wish all these things time and time again but none of them ever come true..💔
I have made many mistakes, I ruined all my friendships. My arms are a scared battle ground. The attempts have done so much pain to my body. I need to cry but nothing comes out. I need to feel something other than pain. Sadness, joy, anger, fear. I am empty and alone in life with nothing to show
A guy friend had feelings for me and i rejected him he told me you will feel my pain one day i laughed at him now it has ben a week or two after i blocked him i found someone that made me believe in love but it didn't last long now I'm afraid to text him about the pain that won't leave I'm afraid he will laught at me like i did 😅
what comes around goes around they say but doesn't specify exactly what it is ......spread a smile and it will catch on as it did with pain....its better to smile in the inside as you do with the outside but a fake on doesn't cut it be genuine as possible and humble always....choices define us sometimes and it also what brings as up or down depending on what we chose......so chose good my friend
I just want to see who needs to hear this. "Who are you?" Take that and turn it into "Who you are." It's a tiny change, but it has a vast and almost entirely different meaning, depending on how you view/say it. *Free ✨hugs✨ for anyone who wants one, or feels comfortable with it*
As someone who has gone through bullying and pain at 12 years old (Im 14 now), this hits hard. I suffered a couple of months of sadness and pain. After l got through it l was scarred, l was angry and wanted to get revenge on those girls. I sometimes still do, but l have learned that if you keep that pain and sadness, it destroys you. It tears you to pieces. Well that's what happened to me. I held onto that pain and let it kill me from the inside. The point is that you should always let bad things that happened to you go. If you can let it go you will heal and become a better person because you never want it to happen to another person.
I’d cry but all my tears have been drained from me no matter what happens I don’t feel no more I’m only happy when I’m with family or friends. I’m sick of living this fake reality that I’ve created to hide what I truly feel. I just wish I could have someone to tell but if i do I won’t be the happy or funny one…….iv only felt regret I haven’t cried for a while. And it’s only because I didn’t tell her what I felt …. And all the other girls I liked ended up being plain rude and entitled. I wish I could’ve told the one girl who was the one but I was too shy to say anything. I only feel regret for what I didn’t do , for any guys that’s probably reading this don’t end up like me tell the girl you know is the one don’t be with a girl that’s gonna treat you like trash.❤
I wish I could do better. Why is everyone better than me? How am I different from them? Why is everything like this? I do everything exactly the same as they do. Why do I have a different result? That's not fair...
I've always got someone with me. They're this black haired blue-eyed boy with freckles on his cheeks. He's always here. I want others to know him, but only I can see him. Sad to know he's only a part of my imagination. And yet, still, he's the one that helps me most.
a few years ago, the only person i thought i oculd trust literally and figurativly backstabbed me, since that day ive been dead inside, havent felt a single emotion, i cant cry nothing, all i can do is mope around and pretend to feel emotion. my whole life is a fucking lie, my personality my emotions everything is some made up bullshit i grew on my backside along the way, im fucking hopeless i dont feel like living but i dont want to die, i live in a black and white landscape of shit, since i was 2 every day i have been beat, screamed at, attacked, blamed for others problems and mystakes, in school the teachers joined in and didnt back me up, i had no one... i learn to accept it and to stay silent, one person among all called me a friend, i trusted him, soon after as were walkin home, i stop, i glare at him in shock and fear as a knife sits eagerly 6cm inside of me... i fall over and just lay there, the little colour in my life fades as my will to live leaves my soul, i thought i had a friend, someone i could trust but no, he was like the rest of this god forsaken world, ive been alone for a long time now, still get beat attacked and yelled at, if you know me and your reading this, tell me why this happened to me? as i stand in my room with a knife to my throat every fucking night rethinking my whole life debating to end it or not, its habit by now... done it every day for the last 4 years, i dont know why i havent slived my throat yet, it feels like im being held back but why, i dont know. people say they live in hell but the fuck am i in then?? satans hell? i havent wanted to live in years, i havent felt any fucking emotions in years, im a broken mess full of broken mistakes and troubles i never made, did i get help from my parents? hell no they fuckin ran away when i was born, they were rich and bought a second house leaving the one im in under my name, ignoring the fact its practically unlivable and needs desperate attention its still a place i call home, the place i eat and sleep, the place ill die to my own hand one day...
I love them... I love them so damn hard and much... words can't describe it... But it's a love without hope, I know it. I fucked it up the moment I talked about my feelings towards them, I fucked it up by being honest... I fucked it up... because I have feelings... I ... Fucked ... It ... Up ... Just because ... They can't love me back ... The way I love them... And it hurts ... To know it... Cause that makes me regret... Telling them about how I feel... Even though they tell me it's okay ... I don't think it's okay... I want to break the contact... But at the same time... I can't do that... Cause they need me... and I need them... So I suffer everyday, knowing I regret the choice of being honest... Knowing I fucked up... So I turned of my emotions... Except for Anger and Sadness... Cause these two... Are stronger than me...
It's summer and I had one of the bestest friends of my life(I'm a guy and it's a girl) and so it was a couple of weeks into summer and I text her saying "hey sry I haven't checked in for a while" and she texts back who r u and js that broke me like big time and it still hurts that she forgot about me
In that same boat right now, and it sucks cuz he’s the first person I fell in love with. I would burn city’s to make sure he’s okay sad thing is deep down I know he wouldn’t do it for me. But I still love him and will do everything to see that gorgeous smile on his face.
@@Pandemonium792 you have to be strong enough to let him go from your mind my friend ! Its a dangerous game ! Love youself ! Be carefull buddy ! Im here i u wanna talk about it , we all need a listener sometimes !
i have 3 sisters and im alone no one its boy im so alone with no brothers my mom tell me its a girl and i was so sad when he tell me that i want to say i kill him but no one coult help me for that and i did now its a girl right i hate my life so much im really so f****** sad for that and want to stop all day i felling so alone no with brothers :( it like sommeone want to be boy and i did andestend i want brother please got help me i soul,t cry why girl and not boy what i did tell me one school one break up with my girlfriend two not brother *** its going on in this famylie i felling so so alone right now my heart its break up 💔💔 now its to late for me no brother i hate my sisters im shock die first time i hier this is a girl i was so angry and so sad for that i was in my room and i was cry for not boy is i love brothers i dont love girls its my first time to i have sisters and if you can reading this thanks i was so sad and im 13 year old i want boy no girls why girls and like for me guys thanks im break my heard but now my sisters its 3 years old and now its not so good💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
my girlfriend broke up with me thro a friend and a few minutes she liked someone else i know its probs me just being jealous also she said she would pay me back its thursday and she said that on monday 😔 😔
Who am I i don't know one day i was born in this world i don't hate it but it just hurts so much that some day I just wish for it to end only for me to remember the one's that care but I'm afraid that one day I'll forget about them and end it all. But for now i won't run from death but nether will i run twords it at least for now.... I don't know why I even bothered to write All of this i guess I just wanted to say something that I wouldn't say otherwise idk
My younger brother got into advanced math yesterday I was told by my mother I remember when I would help him with math because he couldn’t do it and I was so proud because he was growing now he will be one year behind me in math and my mother said ‘it will be great you can help him with math!!’ But I don’t want to help him not because i hate him or anything but because im jealous that he is better than me I have 4brothers and all of them are amazing at something math, righting, social studies anything but what am I good at? Reading 📖 and helping ppl that’s it like they are always in the spotlight and I just want to be Sean as more than the mom friend or the older sister and I just want people anyone to see that I need a big hug and to be loved but idk if I’ll get that haha anyway I love y’all and if you read all that thank you for listening to me rant ❤❤
i'd give you a hug if i could 😭i hope you know that there are people out there who you'll meet who will appreciate all of your beautiful qualities and passions, those you and your siblings share and those that you don't :) your future is yours, not theirs
I know exactly how you feel..I was always the "fixer" in my family. Every time someone had a problem I felt like I had to be the one to make everything better...but no one could ever "fix" me..I'm here to give you that hug and maybe you can give me a hug back. We can help each other..lol..I'm proud of you..and it's perfectly fine to feel jealous we all have that feeling at some point..❤
@@DIRTYLILSECRET thank you my new be founded friend and of course I can give you a hug 🫂 I know I’m going to sound very very creepy but I swear I have the best intentions and only to make friends. Do you have discord and if so would you be willing to add me so we could talk together ❤️ (no pressure if I’m coming off as a creep I totally understand haha)
I see you, I hear you, and I love you my friend, keep going you got this! God and Jesus loves you most importantly, we are proud of you ❤
@@Nexxie961 "It is the feeling of inferiority, inadequacy and insecurity that determines the goal of an individual's existence." By Alfred Adler, from the book "Understanding Human Nature."
Dw mate, I promise you keep doing what you like. Chase what you think is right, and even if it sucks and hurts to help others and not be helped, keep helping. Though nobody would see you're helping, one will. God. Goodluck mate!
i just needed a hug.
*Just imagine getting hugged, alright?
🫂🫂
😭same😭
sending one to you
Imagine that long silent hug and /they know how u feel(the person that's hugging u)
I wish I could escape from my mind, the feeling of wanting to be alone but not lonely, the feeling of escaping from all of this thing call life but too afraid of ending it. Man the game call life sure tough
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Life can be tough sometimes, yes, I think we all know what by now. But always take some time for yourself. Relax, do something fun, be a child again. Run through the rain, play in the snow, go to the forest and build a fort. It doesn't matter! Just live your life and always remember to take care of yourself. Of your mental and your body. Never change for others and always be nice. You don't have to escape life, just make the best out of it. And wanting to be alone sometimes is completely normal. If you want to, I can give you my socials and you can reach out to me whenever you want to talk about something. Strangers from the internet can't ruin as much as people in real life, we can't harm you, but always help and give tips. Remember to be yourself and never loose your self-confidence. And maybe you won't believe me, but you are loved. There are people who appreciate what you do and who want you to be safe. You're loved, you're appreciated, you're cared for. Never forget that.
sending u a hug
Just me too
*Sad, sentimental music has a profound ability to stir the depths of the soul, offering a cathartic release for pent-up emotions and a gentle embrace for weary hearts*
Damn, wish I could cry to this but I’m just to angry. I want to be sad but anger is the only thing I feel. My jaw hurts because I keep clenching it but I’m scared that if I unclench my jaw, I’ll scream. It’s 12:30 am, I can’t be screaming.
I feel for you. I guess were a bit different though, when I get too mad I cry, I actually hate it because it doesn’t let me show how angry I really am, and I always get a headache when I cry. So what’s got you so mad? If you don’t mind me asking
It's okay to cry , you're not weak for crying, you're not terrible for crying, you're human , you have emotions and you've been very strong but it's time to stand down And let it out. It's okay , it's okay to ask for help, asking for help isn't weak or giving up it's refusing to give up and it's the bravest thing you could say because it takes guts.
I feel this. I've been angry for a while and now im just tired all the time. It's so much work just to get myself to get simple tasks done at times, and other times my anger just comes roaring to the surface unannounced and I don't know what to do, especially since I'm a very impulsive person. But it's hard for me to talk to people because I normally regret what I say afterwards.
@@mackmorrison3528 I don’t know why I’m angry if I’m gunna be completely honest
@@sleeplessdemon3188 same
Do you remeber what it was like?
It was..... beautiful......
I loved. I loved and I loved too fucking hard. I loved my friends, I loved my family, and I loved the one I called my best friend and soulmate. I loved so fucking hard it hurt, I gave them everything I had and more. then, one by one, the ones I loved took my love and broke it. they threw the broken pieces back in my face, using it as weapons to slice through me despite the fact all I had ever done, was love them. Maybe it's because I loved too hard, because now I have no one left to kiss my scars caused by the pieces that I gave as love, but recieved as hate. and yet the more broken I become, the more whole I feel because I know that each scar despite the pain, came from someone who at one point or another benefitted from my love. So now I wait, always the bridesmaid and never the bride. I know to always stand to the side, to be the support and never the main character and thats ok. Because my role was always to love, unconditionally. and even those who gave me scars, I still love you. not because of the things you put me through, but because everyone is deserving of love. But now, I chose to love alone, and I am more selective of the pieces of love I have left.
I love you, but you're not mine to keep.
you set me free
i hope you're okay :( remember everything is temporary, and there are people out there you'll cross paths with that will appreciate all of your beautiful qualities the way they deserve to be appreciated i promise
everything will be fine
This is just beautiful… it could be turned into a song that so many of us would feel in our bones… I’m sorry you have gone through this, but you are not alone… many of us empaths follow similar paths. It is the blessing and the curse of our gift of loving so deeply 💔
Bro same…. Love self
Sometimes being a nice and kind person gives you shit in turn and life takes everything and leaves you nothing.
Till you have to be the one to grab the g*n and point it at them.
You cannot feel sorrow for them.
You have to give yourself what you deserve
And sometimes you have to be the person to pull the trigger.
If you don't they will pull the trigger on you.
Sometimes we feel guilty by doing actions we know hurt.
But would anybody feel guilty if they did it to us?
The only person you can really trust is yourself.
Because believe me you'll make sure you survive....
Being kind doesn't give you kindness back.
It gives you a shit life with arrogant people.
Villains were once heros that got trampled and taken advantage of.
Sometimes you have to be the villain that rewrites the story..
This is exactly how I think and feel , bring good everytime dies get you anything, be the villan
bro literally just read my mind and put it in a comment
The truth is, I still don't know who I am. Am I who I really am, or am I someone else affected by those around me? Am I actually defending my ideas or defending ideas they planted in my head? The truth is I don't know who I am. I walked on different paths, but the paths scattered me, and I melted like a drop of water. In the air, I don't know who I am. In the end, I hope to find myself quickly and know who I am, and know my true story, the true path that I must walk, and the true thoughts that come from my own thoughts.😔
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TW: i trauma dump in this and shit, it’s not bad but it’s just about em loading hope, hope you hava a wonderful day though ❤.
Last year was my first year in middle school. I don’t remember shit other then little snip bits and all I know is that it was the worse year I’ve had in my life. I was overly depressed had and probably still have BPD. I was the loner in almost all my classes I’d lie to my parents and say I was fine, I cut myself on a regular basis and begged my mom for a therapist. When I got it they said I was quote “too much to handle” and left. I didn’t even know until my brother told me about two weeks after she dipped. It didn’t get any better during the summer when I had to go to my dad and I would just lay in bed on call with pen specific person for 8 hours each day and then staying up late not doing shit.
The sad thing about school is that it’s just so draining. I wake up at 6 every morning and put on makeup and preppy cloths so I’m not judged by kids my age, but then I’m judged by my parents and other peers by wearing makeup. I can’t have a hobby without being judged and I need at least 10 minutes to even be mentally prepared to get out of bed. I have insomnia and I’m so drained even though I don’t do shit. I don’t study, I don’t do homework, nothing. I’m a picky eater and I barely eat. I have severe anxiety when it comes to loud noises, people leaving me, and touch.
I know this is my future and I should look at it as a good thing that I’ve done so many things and suppressed through so much in my life, but by the time I get out of collage I don’t think I’d want a future. The only person saving me now is my moma, brother, best friend that moved away to a different state, and rye. If I lose Rye I’d loose hope. Just hope I don’t.
Hey I just want to say you are doing an amazing job so far. So few people at your age would think this far in life. I can tell you have a good head on your shoulders and Im proud of how far you have made it. It shows an amazing amount of resilience and I know this because ive been there. Ill be honest, things dont necessarily become stress free now that your getting older and things will suck in different ways as time goes by but this feeling you have is one of the things that passes. I promise you that. Im sending you my best regards. Have a good rest of your day where ever you are. Just dont isolate yourself okay? The people around you are there for you and if you dont believe that you can know through this message that I am.
I feel at....peace....its like im in a rainforest and im in a different world and im at peace, im not in pain im not scared or mad or sad im okay, im at bay its comforting
You tell yourself "dont do it, dont. You know it'll ruin everything, you know it wont last" but...how can your heart ignore the reaching hand of the person you love? Even when you know it'll only hurt in the end...
Acı veriyor hayat...
It hurts hearing from a person you thought was your friend say there’s nothing left of the friendship worth holding onto. I blame myself
Don't blame yourself. People come and go, it's a normal part of life. Letting go can be hard, but we all have to get used to it. You may lose friends, but please, never lose yourself. Always take care of yourself, mentally and physically. If you need help, don't hesitate to reach out!
Just randomly up at 4am running through my thoughts understanding things as they are. This was a wake up call! Thank you for sharing this with us
this music turn my emotion to hundred direction
Ok, l never had you in the first place. ❤
Sometimes it hurts when you feel like your alone in this world we live, when were young we break rules that our parents did to keep us safe but now i just realize that i did everything just to make ourselves happy and live like were never been chained by sadness but now i realized i wish i could be more younger than i was in the past
Just live your life. Be young again if you want to. Go into the forest and build a fort, make yourself a good time with friends; get away from the seriousness of life. Take time to relax. No matter how old you may be at any time, you can always feel young again. Always remember to take time for yourself and not drown in school / work. Taking care of yourself is very important, so be a child, have a nice time! Always be yourself.
I love you. I will never say goodbye. I am far far, away but still with you. I really don't know really what your thinking in all those photos with a smile on your face.You should be happy . You are a great talent, fans love you. ❤️ no need to be sad These sons are depressing 😔 goodnight ❤
My life story it’s going to be long so grab something to eat:
my first bad memory is when I was 3 years old when one of my mother’s boyfriend who was physically violent with her decided to punish me because according to him I had stood up to her (refused to obey ) he put me on my knees face to the walls and told me not to move this for 45 minutes (despite my mother who asked him to stop ) at the end when I got up I saw that my knees were marked by the floor it is the only memory that I have of this period ( later mother told me he used to punish me like this )
then when I was 5 my mother who went through a lot of difficult things through her life tried to commit su*cide by cutt*ng her wr*sts, I know it because when my grandfather arrived I went to her room and I saw the blood on her arms and her bed and it made an impression on me ( I remember it very well 16 years later )
When I was 11 years old my 3 years old sister was diagnosed with cancer 2 months after the announcement of her cancer my father and I had a disagreement and he decided to cut contact with me and prevent me from seeing my little sister (he only made contact while she was healing from her cancer )! It is important to know that while the situation with my sister and father was happening I was harassed everyday of the week at school (they harassed because in their eyes I was overweight but even if I was.... I was eating because that was the only that helped me cope with what was going on ! These events happened in a 1 year period during which I had my first suicidal thought !
When I was 13 years old a person in my family made a mistake and the police raided our apartment and ravaged everything on their way it traumatized my mother who developed ptsd which aggravated her depression !
between my the age of 13 and 17 years old on the school life I was still harassed everyday of the week and on a personal level I lost a dozen members of my family with whom I was close!
Between my 17 years ( 2020 ) and my 21 years ( 2024 ) I did not go out much and I did not make much progress in my projects because of what happened (I never had a girlfriend and I have no friend )
Recently ( January 2024 ) I met a really nice smiling and respectful girl well our conversations were going well and one day I asked if we could be friends, and she replied that no because she did not see herself being friends with a boy ! which I understand and she told me that because I'm nice we can continue to talk in a professional way ( we often cross each other due to our professional career ) except that several days after this conversation I started to have suicidal thoughts and I got scared and because as I had no one to talk to expect her I chose to talk about it with the girl before I first warned by sending this message (7th march) :
'' I am sending you this message to know if in the coming days you'd be available to have a conversation with me because I need to talk about a very serious problem that came back during the week and that had not happened to me for several months and from experience I know that when it happens I really must not be alone and absolutely talk about it with someone ! So normally I should only talk about this kind of problem with people in my family or friends but I currently have no friends and in my family well My mom already has health issues so I don’t want to make things worse by telling her about it ! Honestly it bothers me a lot to ask you this because we don’t know each other that much and I don’t want to make you uncomfortable but when this kind of thing happens to boys, It is usually difficult to ask for help before it is too late due to the embarrassment that we can feeling when talking about this and usually when out and when we ask for help we can only do it with a person who inspires us enough confidence to have a conversation with them and you inspire me trust! ''
she answered me : ''I’m not really sure I can help you but tell me ''
Then I told her about my suicidal thoughts!
in the message after she asked me my number and after giving it I got messages from her boyfriend telling me '' stop yapping about your life ! she's not your friend '' after receiving the messages I sent an apology message to the girl but she never answered ! In the days that followed I realized that my mental health situation destroyed the only beneficial relationship that I had in the last decade and my suicidal thoughts became much more frequent
a week ago my mother was admitted to the hospital for respiratory problems and we exchanged messages but 2 later ( Wednesday ) that same day I started writing suicide letters that I wanted to leave for my family but later in the afternoon my aunt who visited my mother in the hospital told me that my mother’s respiratory problems caused a weakening of her lungs and therefore to help her lungs the hospital staff decided to put her on artificial ventilator ( in a coma ) so since Wednesday I sleep at my grandmother's house with 2 uncles and honestly I am lost I mean when I see my life I have trouble finding anything positive so I am listening to this video at 5 am alone in one of my uncles bedroom !
holy shit i hope you're okay
May God give you enough strength to cope up with all the challenges you are going through
In these dark times the only true friend and supporter you can have is YOURSELF, BUILD YOURSELF UP BROTHER, this shall too pass !!!!
The most imp advice that I can give u right now is BUILD yourself strong bro, start working on your body, hit the gym and reach your full potential , I can guarantee you that in this dark tunnel of life you will start seeing the light !!!!!
And during this phase you will face alot more challenges and highs and lows but always keep in mind that YOU ARE DOING BETTER THAN BEFORE AND GOD FOR SURE HAS A BEST PLAN FOR YOU, YOU JUST NEED TO KEEP GOING💪, I WILL pray for you!!!
And yeah keep spreading smiles and happiness as much as you can in others life
Keep GOING!!!!!
@ivra6345 helloo after experiencing so many people coming and going . I think people who go through the things similar to me can understand me better . I took the courage to take first step , will you accept me as your listener ? It's better to have someone to listen your thoughts rather than dealing with never ending thoughts. It must be not easy to talk after getting so many denials from others, right? Yeah ! I know . Still it's not going to hurt to try one more time.
And I can assure you I'm not a judgemenal person. Going to delete this msg if there's no response under 24 hrs
Good night is enough. I have to go to bed. What a sad, sad thought. I hope everything is alright.
sending u a hug
I loved him. I couldn't imagine that he would say so, I didn't think I was going to cry, and for what I was afraid of. I knew that this day would come. I knew that you couldn't trust him, I didn't have to get so used to people, I didn't have to open up to him like this but.. Was I alive with him? I didn't feel like I miss you right now.. But I'm not going to be with you now I'm definitely in pain but I'm going to say no sorry you hurt me too much..
Love yourself! Getting over people can be really hard, but you can do it. Whatever he did to you, you didn't deserve it. Always reach out to others if you need help please.
A friend of mine in one of my classes said jokinly leave no one loves you no one likes leave and i know thats just a joke and she was going through somethings but it hit me hard cause its the same words that i tell myself daily when im alone and when she said i began crying and she asked me if it was because of that and i lies saying some random BS i didnt want to tell her the truth and i feel qorse and pathetic when im sround her and weak for showing my weak side of my emotions luckily she believed it so yea sorry for my rant thanks for reading
✋️ stop! If you are miserable. Let go! I don't want to be just endured. I can be alone happier than your burden. ⛵️⛵️⛵️⛵️⛵️⛵️💧💧💧
Perfect.
Aren't you happy? Every picture of you shows you enjoying yourself playing much and women. I never left. We have never met..
Life,Love Hurts!
47:11 keeping it so i just have to press everytime i want to listen to it and start over : )
What song is this? Please 🥺🥺
I have been under a lot of stress these last few days. I have 14 days left before the exams. I have been preparing for them for more than a year, but I have a feeling that my knowledge has not increased a bit, I am worried that I will not be able to pass them on a good score. This song finished me off. After all, I have just finished preparing for them and am insanely exhausted.I needed to vent these emotions, thank you
I hade a best friend. But, I think we're going apart, and we don't realize it.
He found a girl. I'm proud of him, I really am, but that's when this started. He isn't able to some with me and the boys when we do something. He's slipping away, and I know at some point, I have to let go, and except that it's going to happen.
But now? Why now! Maybe he's ready to let go, but im not! I can't! NOT when thing are so complicated!
It's to soon. There isn't enough time. There was never enough time.
I wanted to be with him and him for me for even a year longer... just not yet. It's to soon...
i wish i could escape my mind i wish i could just love myself for who i am i wish i could be happy again i wish i didn’t have depression i wish i didn’t have anxiety i wish i didn’t have body issues i wish i didn’t have teacher attachment i wish all these things time and time again but none of them ever come true..💔
peaceful
I have made many mistakes, I ruined all my friendships. My arms are a scared battle ground. The attempts have done so much pain to my body. I need to cry but nothing comes out. I need to feel something other than pain. Sadness, joy, anger, fear. I am empty and alone in life with nothing to show
A guy friend had feelings for me and i rejected him he told me you will feel my pain one day i laughed at him now it has ben a week or two after i blocked him i found someone that made me believe in love but it didn't last long now I'm afraid to text him about the pain that won't leave I'm afraid he will laught at me like i did 😅
what comes around goes around they say but doesn't specify exactly what it is ......spread a smile and it will catch on as it did with pain....its better to smile in the inside as you do with the outside but a fake on doesn't cut it be genuine as possible and humble always....choices define us sometimes and it also what brings as up or down depending on what we chose......so chose good my friend
I was with my friends in real life we almost had to go to the hospital because we almost died from a car crash 😢😢😢😢
Call,l will answer to your heart ❤️ 💙 How beautiful this music is.❤❤⛵️⛵️🫂🦢🦢⚘️⚘️⚘️🌙🌙🌙🌙
I was fine if it weren't for the others😟
I just want to see who needs to hear this.
"Who are you?" Take that and turn it into "Who you are." It's a tiny change, but it has a vast and almost entirely different meaning, depending on how you view/say it.
*Free ✨hugs✨ for anyone who wants one, or feels comfortable with it*
As someone who has gone through bullying and pain at 12 years old (Im 14 now), this hits hard. I suffered a couple of months of sadness and pain. After l got through it l was scarred, l was angry and wanted to get revenge on those girls. I sometimes still do, but l have learned that if you keep that pain and sadness, it destroys you. It tears you to pieces. Well that's what happened to me. I held onto that pain and let it kill me from the inside. The point is that you should always let bad things that happened to you go. If you can let it go you will heal and become a better person because you never want it to happen to another person.
Sometimes I feel so sad and angry at my self why do I feel that, because I Expect to be strong my heart ❤️ 😢
I’d cry but all my tears have been drained from me no matter what happens I don’t feel no more I’m only happy when I’m with family or friends. I’m sick of living this fake reality that I’ve created to hide what I truly feel. I just wish I could have someone to tell but if i do I won’t be the happy or funny one…….iv only felt regret I haven’t cried for a while. And it’s only because I didn’t tell her what I felt …. And all the other girls I liked ended up being plain rude and entitled. I wish I could’ve told the one girl who was the one but I was too shy to say anything. I only feel regret for what I didn’t do , for any guys that’s probably reading this don’t end up like me tell the girl you know is the one don’t be with a girl that’s gonna treat you like trash.❤
I wish I could do better. Why is everyone better than me? How am I different from them? Why is everything like this? I do everything exactly the same as they do. Why do I have a different result? That's not fair...
Это прекрасно❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I've always got someone with me. They're this black haired blue-eyed boy with freckles on his cheeks. He's always here. I want others to know him, but only I can see him. Sad to know he's only a part of my imagination. And yet, still, he's the one that helps me most.
a few years ago, the only person i thought i oculd trust literally and figurativly backstabbed me, since that day ive been dead inside, havent felt a single emotion, i cant cry nothing, all i can do is mope around and pretend to feel emotion.
my whole life is a fucking lie, my personality my emotions everything is some made up bullshit i grew on my backside along the way, im fucking hopeless i dont feel like living but i dont want to die, i live in a black and white landscape of shit, since i was 2 every day i have been beat, screamed at, attacked, blamed for others problems and mystakes, in school the teachers joined in and didnt back me up, i had no one... i learn to accept it and to stay silent, one person among all called me a friend, i trusted him, soon after as were walkin home, i stop, i glare at him in shock and fear as a knife sits eagerly 6cm inside of me...
i fall over and just lay there, the little colour in my life fades as my will to live leaves my soul, i thought i had a friend, someone i could trust but no, he was like the rest of this god forsaken world, ive been alone for a long time now, still get beat attacked and yelled at, if you know me and your reading this, tell me why this happened to me? as i stand in my room with a knife to my throat every fucking night rethinking my whole life debating to end it or not, its habit by now... done it every day for the last 4 years, i dont know why i havent slived my throat yet, it feels like im being held back but why, i dont know.
people say they live in hell but the fuck am i in then?? satans hell? i havent wanted to live in years, i havent felt any fucking emotions in years, im a broken mess full of broken mistakes and troubles i never made, did i get help from my parents? hell no they fuckin ran away when i was born, they were rich and bought a second house leaving the one im in under my name, ignoring the fact its practically unlivable and needs desperate attention its still a place i call home, the place i eat and sleep, the place ill die to my own hand one day...
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guys, rather then just sitting here crying, why dont get up and work on your goal?
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I love them... I love them so damn hard and much... words can't describe it...
But it's a love without hope, I know it. I fucked it up the moment I talked about my feelings towards them, I fucked it up by being honest...
I fucked it up... because I have feelings... I ... Fucked ... It ... Up ...
Just because ... They can't love me back ... The way I love them... And it hurts ... To know it...
Cause that makes me regret... Telling them about how I feel...
Even though they tell me it's okay ... I don't think it's okay... I want to break the contact... But at the same time... I can't do that... Cause they need me... and I need them...
So I suffer everyday, knowing I regret the choice of being honest... Knowing I fucked up... So I turned of my emotions... Except for Anger and Sadness... Cause these two... Are stronger than me...
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It's summer and I had one of the bestest friends of my life(I'm a guy and it's a girl) and so it was a couple of weeks into summer and I text her saying "hey sry I haven't checked in for a while" and she texts back who r u and js that broke me like big time and it still hurts that she forgot about me
I am very sad
I need long sleep 😴 😢
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18:50
im lost:/
0:03 title plssss
it hurt me ,how she don,t care at all , was ready to love her unconditionnaly !
In that same boat right now, and it sucks cuz he’s the first person I fell in love with. I would burn city’s to make sure he’s okay sad thing is deep down I know he wouldn’t do it for me. But I still love him and will do everything to see that gorgeous smile on his face.
@@Pandemonium792 you have to be strong enough to let him go from your mind my friend ! Its a dangerous game ! Love youself ! Be carefull buddy ! Im here i u wanna talk about it , we all need a listener sometimes !
Who are you?😢😢😢
Кто я? Я человек запутавшийся в себе, в своих чуствах, с опущеннрй самооценкой, радует то, что скоро это все измениться.
Heh even if my life's shit at least she is happy
depression if it was a playlist:
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10:06 where can i find it?
the broken bones one
The song at that time is “space song” by beach house, idk what you’re referring to with broken bones tho. But hope this helps!
Ive been gong Th
i have 3 sisters and im alone no one its boy im so alone with no brothers my mom tell me its a girl and i was so sad when he tell me that i want to say i kill him but no one coult help me for that and i did now its a girl right i hate my life so much im really so f****** sad for that and want to stop all day i felling so alone no with brothers :( it like sommeone want to be boy and i did andestend i want brother please got help me i soul,t cry why girl and not boy what i did tell me one school one break up with my girlfriend two not brother *** its going on in this famylie i felling so so alone right now my heart its break up 💔💔 now its to late for me no brother i hate my sisters im shock die first time i hier this is a girl i was so angry and so sad for that i was in my room and i was cry for not boy is i love brothers i dont love girls its my first time to i have sisters and if you can reading this thanks i was so sad and im 13 year old i want boy no girls why girls and like for me guys thanks im break my heard but now my sisters its 3 years old and now its not so good💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
name song plis?
Check the description
my girlfriend broke up with me thro a friend and a few minutes she liked someone else i know its probs me just being jealous also she said she would pay me back its thursday and she said that on monday 😔 😔
Who am I i don't know one day i was born in this world i don't hate it but it just hurts so much that some day I just wish for it to end only for me to remember the one's that care but I'm afraid that one day I'll forget about them and end it all. But for now i won't run from death but nether will i run twords it at least for now....
I don't know why I even bothered to write All of this i guess I just wanted to say something that I wouldn't say otherwise idk
ok
10:30- 47:11 ❤
song please???