Girl you give me so much damn hope, that this isn’t the end of my life. That I can rebuild something even more beautiful and wonderful than the life I destroyed. Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and transparent.
@@natalielawrence8809 it’s so overwhelming sometimes, I will find myself sitting almost frozen convinced there’s no way to keep on going that nothing will ever be made right or be okay and then somehow I can still reach in and grab a little bit of hope to look forward to another day
Have you seen the movie 28 days? It's so good. Sandra Bullock plays an alcoholic who's addicted to pills and gets sent to rehab after wrecking a car into someone's house. It's oddly comforting and motivating. She gets her life back together and it shows her struggles. I'm always so motivated by people's strength to pull themselves out of a bad situation.
@@tjulia88 I feel like it would be an oddly comforting movie to watch going through the healing journey in rehab. I love relatable movies like that they make you feel not so alone.
I love that movie! Also 4 Good days. We watched that on like my 2nd day of rehab (when you're nothing but a ball of exposed nerves & emotions) and I cried the whole way through 😂😂
I live in Hohenwald, TN. My husband & I survived addiction & have been clean for 4 & 1/2 Years now. Now that I'm secure in my recovery, I'd love to start a channel to tell my story, but havent had the confidence to do so yet. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope your videos find people who need help 💜
Her videos also help the family members who have loved ones in active addiction. It’s helped me understand my family member who struggles. You should definitely try to share your experiences and triumphs.
My husband and I have almost 4 years clean together and I want to start doing videos like these too, but I'm too nervous and don't know where to start. Congrats on your recovery!
Tina, I was a daily weed smoker for three+ years straight. It’s not like other drugs but I was at its beck and call from 9 am to 12am every single day. I’m off of it now and I have so much clarity. You gave me so much valuable insight and hope leading up to this lifestyle change. You’re a huge contributing factor in me stopping and the subsequent improvement to my mental health and overall well being. Thank you so much
She’s not lucky, she worked hard to get where she’s at. I was like you at one stage, but now it can feel amazing. Work on yourself, heal yourself. You’ll get there… we don’t get lucky in life, we work hard and get rewarded. ❤️
You've just got to compartmentalize and realize that you can't let the past keep you from having a good future. I really hope that you can find a guy that will make you forget all about that stuff. Take care.
Girl your life sounds so similar to mine when I was in active addiction. I feel exactly like u. I'm way too scared by this stuff out in the streets now you couldn't pay me to go back. I got clean in 2009 was clean until 2017 then relapsed pretty severely went back to treatment in 2019 and have been clean since and hopefully this time for the long haul. I'm so lucky to be alive it's Crazy. Your right addiction has a hold on u like nothing else. It will make u a totally different person and make u do things u would never have imagined. I'm so happy for you and pray that you also continue down the road and just a clean aNd sober lifetime. Props.
I live about 10 mins from your city (don't want to doxx you) if you ever need a ride or want another sober friend! I've been clean for 2 years & it's been so hard for me to find solid, good sober people to hang out with. You just seem like such a great person. And you are soooo right about all the crap that's laced out here. When they showed me my first drug test results in detox, it lit up like a Christmas tree and I (stupidly) thought I was just doing opiates. Smdh. I am so grateful to be out of that cycle. It still amazes me when I wake up, not sick, and have the freedom to rule the day! 😂 Thank you for all your encouraging videos. 🥰
Thank you for sharing your story. I know it isn’t easy. But this is so encouraging. I have a few questions. 1. What was the best day you remember in jail? 2. What was the scariest? 3. Did you make real friends and did you keep in contact?
thank you for sharing your story. i love listening to you and what you're doing is so important. addiction can happen to anyone, and it shows that you're such a kind hearted person who has come so far!
I am so proud for you and how far you have come. You are truly inspirational and I hope that my Brother in law can finally get help. He is in jail for at least the next couple years because of some violent charges and other stuff. I pray for him every day. I hope he gets clean for real this time. Love you Girl keep up the good work you are meant for higher things!
Always gives me hope to see people recover. I have people close to me who have also recovered. Its such a blessing to be on the other side of it. Love the stories.❤
I’m just over here spending my morning cleaning listing to story time with Tina! I didn’t want to do the things today, and saw something you said I don’t remember now, and it just motivated me. Reminded me of where I am today, it’s 7:35 in the morning, I’m not hungover and sick, not hurting to get a drink “just one, it’ll make me feel better.” Anyway, I got up, I’m doing the things that keep me a sober functions adult, and I already feel so amazing in my tidied up and clean space! I can relax when I’m don’t and be in a happy and cozy environment! Thank you for always being here, and for sharing incredible stories than many wouldn’t get!
I absolutely love your videos ❤ I can relate with some of your experiences. I got clean in 2007 because of an overdose on pills. Did detox for 38 days, rehab for another 69 days, and a sober safe house for women for three months. I was ICd and really had no choice but to go. I hung on for fear life! I relapsed in 2013 with alcohol. I drank for three months and ended up in the hospital at deaths door. I was bleeding out due to a bleeding ulcer. I was dancing with the Devil himself. I was arrested and put in jail. I have been clean since December 26, 2013, again. I know that I have another relase in me, however, I don't know if I have another Recovery in me. I would love to talk with you and help give back what was freely given to me when I first started the Program. Be good to you ❤
I know its hard to talk about sometimes. Thank you for explaining. Your amazing. Your helping so many people understand loved ones that can't explain addiction. God bless you
Dude Knox county jail is the worst. I live in Seymour and so I always went to Sevier co. But Ive been to Knox county. Crazy how they just kick you out at 2 in the morning and drop you off downtown. Anyway I bet we know a lot of the same people. I'm clean 3 years now. Went to prison for some drug charges. I'm doing really good tho. Glad you are too 😊
Tina, your raw and down to earth honesty about all you have been through is helping so many people. It's helping families understand. It's helping those struggling with addiction. It's helping those who've never touched drugs. It's an insight for so many. You should think about writing a book. You're seriously touching lives. We love you!
I really appreciate you opening up about your life and your struggles. You are a shining light! Thank you for sharing the same hope with us that you have. We need this!
My mom took half a Xanax and I thought she wasn't going to make it. I knew she had a problem with opioids, but I never really understood the extent of it until she got clean. Now we talk about it openly. She didn't experience HALF the stuff that you did. Keep doing this. The world needs you and your story!
I tried to explain addiction like this. Your brain and your hands are not connected. No matter what you tell yourself, your body is going to do what needs to be done. I’d be screaming at myself in my head like, “No! Don’t! NO!”… but it wasn’t connected. My brain would shut off and my hands would ready up that next fix. It’s a sad life with no control and so much shame. But we do recover! I celebrated 13 years in July. ❤
These men you described were not sugar Daddies, boyfriends, or whatever- they were your abusers. Don't cut yourself short. ❤ Your past does not define you.
I think it's up to her to decide that. Nobody's experience is universal with the caveat of minors having older people "show interest" in them. That's universally abusive, because minors aren't capable of consenting. I don't think it's fair to tell a stranger they were abused.
How do you figure the first sugar Daddy was abusive? Do you personally know this man? It seems like he helped her out when she needed help. Don't lump them all into one. And don't pretend you know a stranger's intimate details and the dynamics of their relationships. In fact, when it comes to abuse, since you don't seem to know much, why don't you just zip it.
I’m glad I ran into your videos. I’ve def lived a very similar life but been clean for 8 years. Crazy thing is I’m from Knoxville. But originally from Illinois and having Chicago so close I had to get away from the easy high.
I mean, I guess it’s not so wild that addicts have such similar stories because you have just in this video told like three that are identical to things that have happened to me in my mind. I feel like I’m on an island and no one would understand certain situations in my life, but we do recover and we are not alone loving your videos, girl keep doing them!!!!!!
I don’t care how long you’ve been in and out of jail or rehab. I’m showing up for my family/baby. Usually your parents are the last people you will listen too when your an addict but I will at least show up and try to help ❤️
I just love you. I love your stories. I was almost in all the same situations, somehow I just missed it. Thank you so much for sharing all your stories. Also, your hair is goals. So very pretty. So proud of you.
I'm 10 years sober this month and our stories are so similar it's crazy!!! Thinking about how stupid and dangerous all the stuff i was doing as a TWENTY year old just terrifies me. We were just kids. My sd did the same exact stuff, tell me you love me for $20, come lay with me and I'll take you to the 🔌, predatory assholes. They know exactly what they're doing. your honesty and transparency means a lot to me and other women like us. You seem like a very warm and kind person and I am so proud of you! Coming up on my 10 year I've been thinking about it more and it has really been helping me feel better that there are other women in the world who understand and are so kind and supportive. You're really inspiring me to be more open about my journey, You never know who you can help. Thank you Tina ❤❤
I've been clean going on 7 years this coming up Sept 17th at 830 am. Its the hardest shit to go through every day. Well maybe not everyday for some people and its not severe for me now everyday. Hell at first it was second to second
This might seem ridiculous but i had a severe addiction to peppermint hard candy for 4 years 30+ peppermints a day obviously messed up my teeth. A month ago after a root canal treatment i continued eating peppermints and i ended up breaking my tooth and it had to be removed. I was told if i continued eating the amount i did i would lose all my teeth before the age of 30. Im only 16 so this is onviously not normal but i relate to knowing its wrong but having an uncontrollable urge to feed the addiction. Luckily since my tooth broke i woke up and i stopped eating them which i never thought would happen! Even if your addiction may be more severe i relate to the feeling of being desperate and ruining my body or specifically my teeth but letting the temptation take over me. Your story is truly inspiring and i hope i can stay "clean" and get a new tooth love u ❤❤
@@laurenc1226 if you seriously eat multiple candy canes a day it WILL happen to you please take me as an inspiration to to stop and to prevent you from cracking your tooth like I did 😭
One of my old dates who only sees young addict girls usually homeless actually is a doctor at a rehab. So many men seek out addicts for their vulnerability sadly. When you're sick and somebody says do this and I'll give you this, you feel like you don't really get a choice and you feel like you've been basically raped through that situation, because you aren't in a position to give enthusiastic real consent , doing it because you feel like you have to and not because you want to. I say this all as someone who did sex work from 13 to 22.
I’m getting ready to go through all of that shit now. Not jail, but getting clean. I just got all my medication and I’m fucking terrified but I’m going to do it. I need to do it. Because like you said everything out there is not what they say It is anymore. I won’t go into details so I’ll leave it at that but I just want you to know that you’re an inspiration for me and I know that if you can do it, I can do it and the next guy or a girl after me can do it and so on and so on Until we all recover. It’s just a long, hard road, but I know that we all got this. So thank you for your videos because they help a lot 💗♥️😘🥰
I spent 114 days in jail for trafficking pills. That was 13 years ago. I walked off a 5 year diversion and have been sober 12 years. I still don't drive. I was 53 when I went to jail for the first time. One and only time. Thank you but NO!
I appreciate you and one other RUclipsr so much because if it weren’t for you I wouldn’t have forgiven my biological mom for doing drugs and leaving me at my aunts house
Yes girl. It’s so hard! You are miserable the way you’re living but the drugs won’t let you do anything about it. I used for over 10 years and when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter I got clean and been clean for over 3 years now
The part about stuff being laced is so real. My brother in law died at 16 from trying a perc that was laced w fent. I wouldn’t wish that kind of grief or loss on anyone.
Ive done the change jar thing a few times, took it from my stepmoms once and that was bad. I learned my lesson quick on that one i was banned from my dad& stepmoms up until 2021 and i did that bk in 2012 . I never took From family after that incident. But i did take from stores w out hesitation.
And in regards to the stores, I even feel bad and embarrassed doing that everyone thinks it’s a victimless crime but it’s not because yes they have insurance but it makes prices go up etc and I feel bad even though I know a lot of “shoppers” don’t, I feel terrible and it’s no life for anyone! Tina is a PERFECT example of even your neighbour or a member of the family/community or even the popular girl from school is an addict! I’ve worked office and call centre jobs, and still kept it undercover it’s hard being a functioning addict too and ofc ik it’s hard for those on the street who everyone knows that they use and stuff but even harder living a lie pretending everything is fine because of the embarrassment and the stigma attached to being an addict 😢
@@khylanLowski-of5cri was a functioning addict and a homeless sex worker and I wouldn't say being functioning is harder at all, they both suck. But atleast functioning you're not being basically sexually assaulted while dope sick in a random alley cuz you have nowhere to go and not a cent to your name. It's kinda fucked up to say and situation is harder just because it's the one you experienced, all addiction sucks and is hard and saying one is worse than or harder than another is just invalidating people with the same struggle. Also you have to steal aloooot from stores for it to effect prices. Nothing is getting more expensive at Walmart because I swiped some pads , at the worst they put the most stolen things in cases. Mom and pop stores yeah that's fuckrd but corporations it literally doesn't make a difference at all, so let's not shame people for being desperate and essentially blame inflation on them.
@@khylanLowski-of5cralso every addict starts out hiding it and has to deal with the stigma no matter what stage of the addiction they're in. Idk your comment in general just comes across as I personally dealt with this and not that so it's worse and also you're bad people which is just unnecessary and weird to bring up unprompted and in space about all types of addicts, one situation may be worse in someone's eyes than anothers and suffering isn't a competition, we're all on this channel for the same reason and looking for the same support.
addiction really is tough to get by(former addict here) and honestly sm more depth goes in it and it there’s more to it then poor impulse control. the fear that follows thru it can be very overwhelming it drives u to cope just to not have to face whatever trying to be felt in the moment it’s like a constant need that becomes automatic. and as creatures of habit the more repetitive action the more u get used to that kind of function and lifestyle it’s like u wake up to a nightmare. you get stuck in time having years pass u by its not enjoyable because the person u feel like in the moment is how ur gonna feel like the first time u started abusing. however young u were ur mind only begins to continue to mature once u stopped living off a distraction the entire time. if u were 16 and 5 years went by cuz of whatever u got addict3d to at 21 youd end up acting like the same 16 year old u we’re back in the day in an older body. there are horrible days before where the first thing i always did is *use* everytime i woke up not even fully awake like i’m in a trance state don’t even have to think abt it to do it i just do and when i’d realize it the day hasn’t even started it’s already wasted but each time u fall back the more you know how to hold yourself through it all the better. only when u finally wake up from it and u become aware of the cycle is when ur able to make a plan to get yourself clean and out of the whole mess that’s been revealed. but it takes a series of disappointments and let downs and discomfort to make u finally move out of the self destructive comfort zone that we always felt the need to shield ourselves with. pain needs to be felt in order to be made peace with as terrifying as it is a life lived coping is no life at all.🙌🏻
Let me tell you, girl. I have wanted to start a channel for so long. And I have the stories and etcetera to make a good channel. My only thing is, I can't remember shit, LOL. And I don't associate with anybody that I used to. So there's no way of me talking to them about old stories and remembering things and jogging my memory. Ugh.... that's been what has held me back ......
@@tinasseethank you so much for sharing your story 😇 You are so sweet and beautiful Tina thank you for being a voice for people who are struggling and want out! I think it’s better I reword it maybe like a video on what made you draw the line between partying hard to when it becomes serious addiction and warning signs or something along those lines that can help younger people differentiate between having fun or going down a dark path
@@tinasseealso do you have any advice on for someone struggling with marijuana? It’s a drug that feels downplayed and not as serious but it feels so difficult to get over
I’m so sorry I keep asking questions but could you also possibly make a video on how to turn bad habits into good ones for example using -> self care and finding fulfilment in that
Totally relate to the last thing you said about fearing drugs on the street will be laced with something keeping you clean. My friend died of a fentanyl overdose and that’s literally why I’m too scared start using again.
Other than in the beginning of me using literally everything is fet starting in 2017 and this is in the heroin capital baltimore. Not the fet capital. Other than when I sold raw myself every drug test I've taken has come up with no heroin just fetanyl and nobody wants straight dope anymore just fet
well im glad you got clean my mom died when she was 28 because she was an addict and it was from docters!! docters where giving her things and i was only 8 so i didnt understand at the time
It's mainly the fear of being sick 🤢 it's not so much that you know you say you want to get clean and deep down you mean it! If you're saying that you definitely and if someone who is clean off of heroin I can tell you the fear of being sick is what will stop you!
That's sad you never knew you had your license revoked. I've not had addiction issues, I've been through abusive relationships & that's a whole recovery system of its own!!!!!
You need some better reasons than being afraid chit is laced You had better reasons, you just need go acknowledge them and keep building more and more reasons Love ya!
I remember going to jail coming off of H I remember all the girls feeding me chocolate because at that facility they didn’t give you anything to help you with withdrawals. It was horrible. I don’t remember most of it thank God but when I do remember this horrible.
Pulling back from my son in his active addiction is so hard for me. Am I really doing the best thing not helping him? I just don’t want to help him hurt himself so I keep him at arm’s length. Am I wrong?
I'm a recovering addict.God can deliver you from anything.Repent and ask God for forgiveness 🙏🏼💕 Corinthians 10:13 God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. This verse has long been cited in the field of addiction recovery and sobriety.
Please try to stop vaping. I think its worse than cigarettes. Please don't smoke, at all. Don't start. It's not good for your health. I never thought you have a sugar daddy. I'm glad your telling people not to do this. I'm glad you're sharing your true stories to help others. You're very likeable and understandable.
It cost my husband and I twenty thousand Canadian for our son’s rehab. He’s been clean fifteen years. We are not super wealthy either. For people with no money they send your kids to government rehab which is a joke.
My daughter is in jail and I appreciate your honesty. It helps me understand what my daughter has been through. 🙏
Sending you and your daughter healing love.
I feel for you as mum 😢
My little one is just 4
I can't imagine how you feel 💔❤️🩹
I’m so sorry ❤ all my love ❤
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❤❤❤❤ hope your daughter is doing good
Girl you give me so much damn hope, that this isn’t the end of my life. That I can rebuild something even more beautiful and wonderful than the life I destroyed. Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and transparent.
You can do it ❤
Damn.. I felt this comment so intensely. And yes, absolutely you can 💯
@@natalielawrence8809 it’s so overwhelming sometimes, I will find myself sitting almost frozen convinced there’s no way to keep on going that nothing will ever be made right or be okay and then somehow I can still reach in and grab a little bit of hope to look forward to another day
Keep pushing forward ❤
SAME.❤
I can see why you never want to go back to that town would going back give ptsd I definitely think it would if it was me
Have you seen the movie 28 days? It's so good. Sandra Bullock plays an alcoholic who's addicted to pills and gets sent to rehab after wrecking a car into someone's house. It's oddly comforting and motivating. She gets her life back together and it shows her struggles. I'm always so motivated by people's strength to pull themselves out of a bad situation.
Love that movie !
Oh thank you! I've got to watch that right now ❤ 😊
It is a good movie! I saw it my 2nd time in rehab! 😂
@@tjulia88 I feel like it would be an oddly comforting movie to watch going through the healing journey in rehab. I love relatable movies like that they make you feel not so alone.
I love that movie! Also 4 Good days. We watched that on like my 2nd day of rehab (when you're nothing but a ball of exposed nerves & emotions) and I cried the whole way through 😂😂
I just found your channel. I'm obsessed ❤ I'm a recovering heroin addict 4 1/2 years strong #wedorecover
Way to go girl!! Keep up the good work. Proud of you even though I don't know you!!
Congrats I am at 4 and a half years also 1/7/2019.. had my son in December of 2019
I live in Hohenwald, TN. My husband & I survived addiction & have been clean for 4 & 1/2 Years now.
Now that I'm secure in my recovery, I'd love to start a channel to tell my story, but havent had the confidence to do so yet.
Thank you for sharing your story. I hope your videos find people who need help 💜
Her videos also help the family members who have loved ones in active addiction. It’s helped me understand my family member who struggles. You should definitely try to share your experiences and triumphs.
Oh, and congratulations on your sobriety 🎉❤
My husband and I have almost 4 years clean together and I want to start doing videos like these too, but I'm too nervous and don't know where to start. Congrats on your recovery!
@@malyssagonzales-long6735 I've really been considering it, thank you
@@KitKat10281 that's how I feel as well. Thank you. & congratulations to you too! ❤
Tina, I was a daily weed smoker for three+ years straight. It’s not like other drugs but I was at its beck and call from 9 am to 12am every single day. I’m off of it now and I have so much clarity. You gave me so much valuable insight and hope leading up to this lifestyle change. You’re a huge contributing factor in me stopping and the subsequent improvement to my mental health and overall well being. Thank you so much
Girl, you’re lucky you can have a relationship after the things you (and I) have done. I can’t let a guy touch me, it grosses me out now.
She’s not lucky, she worked hard to get where she’s at. I was like you at one stage, but now it can feel amazing. Work on yourself, heal yourself. You’ll get there… we don’t get lucky in life, we work hard and get rewarded. ❤️
You've just got to compartmentalize and realize that you can't let the past keep you from having a good future. I really hope that you can find a guy that will make you forget all about that stuff. Take care.
ditto.
I can't either. I have a good make friend but I don't want Any man touching me it makes me sick
I totally get that
Girl your life sounds so similar to mine when I was in active addiction. I feel exactly like u. I'm way too scared by this stuff out in the streets now you couldn't pay me to go back. I got clean in 2009 was clean until 2017 then relapsed pretty severely went back to treatment in 2019 and have been clean since and hopefully this time for the long haul. I'm so lucky to be alive it's Crazy. Your right addiction has a hold on u like nothing else. It will make u a totally different person and make u do things u would never have imagined. I'm so happy for you and pray that you also continue down the road and just a clean aNd sober lifetime. Props.
You're my hero! Take care of yourself and stay strong!
I hope you know your transparency, honesty, and vulnerability attract people to your story. Please keep telling it.
I live about 10 mins from your city (don't want to doxx you) if you ever need a ride or want another sober friend! I've been clean for 2 years & it's been so hard for me to find solid, good sober people to hang out with. You just seem like such a great person.
And you are soooo right about all the crap that's laced out here. When they showed me my first drug test results in detox, it lit up like a Christmas tree and I (stupidly) thought I was just doing opiates. Smdh. I am so grateful to be out of that cycle. It still amazes me when I wake up, not sick, and have the freedom to rule the day! 😂
Thank you for all your encouraging videos. 🥰
And I promise I'm not a stalker! I'm just extremely awkward at trying to make new friends at 36 years old 😂😂🤦♀️
So so glad to see how far you've come. You inspire me to continue striving for sobriety
I read your comment and hope you are doing well. ❤
Keep trying everyday. ❤
Thank you for sharing your story. I know it isn’t easy. But this is so encouraging.
I have a few questions. 1. What was the best day you remember in jail? 2. What was the scariest? 3. Did you make real friends and did you keep in contact?
thank you for sharing your story. i love listening to you and what you're doing is so important. addiction can happen to anyone, and it shows that you're such a kind hearted person who has come so far!
Real and relatable!! Thank you for such candid content.
I am so proud for you and how far you have come. You are truly inspirational and I hope that my Brother in law can finally get help. He is in jail for at least the next couple years because of some violent charges and other stuff. I pray for him every day. I hope he gets clean for real this time. Love you Girl keep up the good work you are meant for higher things!
Always gives me hope to see people recover. I have people close to me who have also recovered. Its such a blessing to be on the other side of it. Love the stories.❤
I’m so happy you’re okay and healthy now! I’ll be thinking of you and sending you lots of good vibes! 🥰
I’m just over here spending my morning cleaning listing to story time with Tina! I didn’t want to do the things today, and saw something you said I don’t remember now, and it just motivated me. Reminded me of where I am today, it’s 7:35 in the morning, I’m not hungover and sick, not hurting to get a drink “just one, it’ll make me feel better.” Anyway, I got up, I’m doing the things that keep me a sober functions adult, and I already feel so amazing in my tidied up and clean space! I can relax when I’m don’t and be in a happy and cozy environment! Thank you for always being here, and for sharing incredible stories than many wouldn’t get!
I am so glad you are OK now and doing good. Keep up the good work! Love your videos!
I absolutely love your videos ❤ I can relate with some of your experiences. I got clean in 2007 because of an overdose on pills. Did detox for 38 days, rehab for another 69 days, and a sober safe house for women for three months. I was ICd and really had no choice but to go. I hung on for fear life! I relapsed in 2013 with alcohol. I drank for three months and ended up in the hospital at deaths door. I was bleeding out due to a bleeding ulcer. I was dancing with the Devil himself. I was arrested and put in jail. I have been clean since December 26, 2013, again. I know that I have another relase in me, however, I don't know if I have another Recovery in me. I would love to talk with you and help give back what was freely given to me when I first started the Program.
Be good to you ❤
I know its hard to talk about sometimes. Thank you for explaining. Your amazing. Your helping so many people understand loved ones that can't explain addiction. God bless you
Dude Knox county jail is the worst. I live in Seymour and so I always went to Sevier co. But Ive been to Knox county. Crazy how they just kick you out at 2 in the morning and drop you off downtown. Anyway I bet we know a lot of the same people. I'm clean 3 years now. Went to prison for some drug charges. I'm doing really good tho. Glad you are too 😊
Tina, your raw and down to earth honesty about all you have been through is helping so many people. It's helping families understand. It's helping those struggling with addiction. It's helping those who've never touched drugs. It's an insight for so many. You should think about writing a book. You're seriously touching lives. We love you!
Thank you for explaining what addiction is. I try not to judge and to understand. This helps.
I really appreciate you opening up about your life and your struggles. You are a shining light! Thank you for sharing the same hope with us that you have. We need this!
My mom took half a Xanax and I thought she wasn't going to make it. I knew she had a problem with opioids, but I never really understood the extent of it until she got clean. Now we talk about it openly. She didn't experience HALF the stuff that you did. Keep doing this. The world needs you and your story!
LOL cute! Half a Xanax compared to opioids? GTFOH
I tried to explain addiction like this. Your brain and your hands are not connected. No matter what you tell yourself, your body is going to do what needs to be done. I’d be screaming at myself in my head like, “No! Don’t! NO!”… but it wasn’t connected. My brain would shut off and my hands would ready up that next fix. It’s a sad life with no control and so much shame.
But we do recover! I celebrated 13 years in July. ❤
This made me cry! So very thankful that you’re clean! God Bless!
These men you described were not sugar Daddies, boyfriends, or whatever- they were your abusers.
Don't cut yourself short. ❤
Your past does not define you.
I think it's up to her to decide that. Nobody's experience is universal with the caveat of minors having older people "show interest" in them. That's universally abusive, because minors aren't capable of consenting. I don't think it's fair to tell a stranger they were abused.
@apriljk6557 these are encouraging, kind words- but, ok.
No they were tricks . lets call it what it is , prostitution
How do you figure the first sugar Daddy was abusive? Do you personally know this man? It seems like he helped her out when she needed help. Don't lump them all into one. And don't pretend you know a stranger's intimate details and the dynamics of their relationships. In fact, when it comes to abuse, since you don't seem to know much, why don't you just zip it.
I’m glad I ran into your videos. I’ve def lived a very similar life but been clean for 8 years. Crazy thing is I’m from Knoxville. But originally from Illinois and having Chicago so close I had to get away from the easy high.
I mean, I guess it’s not so wild that addicts have such similar stories because you have just in this video told like three that are identical to things that have happened to me in my mind. I feel like I’m on an island and no one would understand certain situations in my life, but we do recover and we are not alone loving your videos, girl keep doing them!!!!!!
I love that you’re talking about this! ❤
I'm so happy that you recovered!
I don’t care how long you’ve been in and out of jail or rehab. I’m showing up for my family/baby. Usually your parents are the last people you will listen too when your an addict but I will at least show up and try to help ❤️
Omg, the police knowing your car I remember all too well. As soon as they saw my car or my moms, they were behind me flicking those lights.
I just love you. I love your stories. I was almost in
all the same situations, somehow I just missed it. Thank you so much for sharing all your stories. Also, your hair is goals. So very pretty. So proud of you.
Thank you for you honesty. I watch you everyday ❤
Also you've helped me through a lot of my battles too
I'll keep saying the same thing - I'm proud of you. You're doing hard work every minute of every day.
I'm 10 years sober this month and our stories are so similar it's crazy!!! Thinking about how stupid and dangerous all the stuff i was doing as a TWENTY year old just terrifies me. We were just kids. My sd did the same exact stuff, tell me you love me for $20, come lay with me and I'll take you to the 🔌, predatory assholes. They know exactly what they're doing. your honesty and transparency means a lot to me and other women like us. You seem like a very warm and kind person and I am so proud of you! Coming up on my 10 year I've been thinking about it more and it has really been helping me feel better that there are other women in the world who understand and are so kind and supportive. You're really inspiring me to be more open about my journey, You never know who you can help. Thank you Tina ❤❤
Thank you for sharing your story
Your videos touch my heart. I feel what youve been through
I've been clean going on 7 years this coming up Sept 17th at 830 am. Its the hardest shit to go through every day. Well maybe not everyday for some people and its not severe for me now everyday. Hell at first it was second to second
This might seem ridiculous but i had a severe addiction to peppermint hard candy for 4 years 30+ peppermints a day obviously messed up my teeth. A month ago after a root canal treatment i continued eating peppermints and i ended up breaking my tooth and it had to be removed. I was told if i continued eating the amount i did i would lose all my teeth before the age of 30. Im only 16 so this is onviously not normal but i relate to knowing its wrong but having an uncontrollable urge to feed the addiction. Luckily since my tooth broke i woke up and i stopped eating them which i never thought would happen! Even if your addiction may be more severe i relate to the feeling of being desperate and ruining my body or specifically my teeth but letting the temptation take over me. Your story is truly inspiring and i hope i can stay "clean" and get a new tooth love u ❤❤
Oh wow that is wild, did you ever think of trying the sugar free ones?
Tooth problems are the worst. I hope you can get better!
@@sjm9876 I'm now eating sugar free soft peppermints it helps my craving but doesn't damage my teeth as much
Wow is this gonna happen to me? I’m obsessed with candy canes
@@laurenc1226 if you seriously eat multiple candy canes a day it WILL happen to you please take me as an inspiration to to stop and to prevent you from cracking your tooth like I did 😭
Thank you! 💖😘💕
Thank you for posting this 👍👍❤️
I don’t feel bad for those men at all. They know exactly what they’re doing!
One of my old dates who only sees young addict girls usually homeless actually is a doctor at a rehab. So many men seek out addicts for their vulnerability sadly. When you're sick and somebody says do this and I'll give you this, you feel like you don't really get a choice and you feel like you've been basically raped through that situation, because you aren't in a position to give enthusiastic real consent , doing it because you feel like you have to and not because you want to. I say this all as someone who did sex work from 13 to 22.
I’m wondering how old that creep was
Yep. Nasty. Not the girls but the men
I’m getting ready to go through all of that shit now. Not jail, but getting clean. I just got all my medication and I’m fucking terrified but I’m going to do it. I need to do it. Because like you said everything out there is not what they say It is anymore. I won’t go into details so I’ll leave it at that but I just want you to know that you’re an inspiration for me and I know that if you can do it, I can do it and the next guy or a girl after me can do it and so on and so on Until we all recover. It’s just a long, hard road, but I know that we all got this. So thank you for your videos because they help a lot 💗♥️😘🥰
There’s nothing more demeaning than exchanging access to your body for drugs. I’m still in the process to heal from it
These stories I hope helps people out their who need guidance. Your so kind to share your experiences.
I did alot of awful stuff during my addiction. Im glad i been clean for 2 years
Thank you so much for putting urself out there for my people ❤
Good for you. Onstaying clean, I'm 10yrs clean, kkkeeeep it up.
I spent 114 days in jail for trafficking pills. That was 13 years ago. I walked off a 5 year diversion and have been sober 12 years. I still don't drive. I was 53 when I went to jail for the first time. One and only time. Thank you but NO!
I am so proud of you for quitting your old habits. Great job honey!!
God bless sugar daddies. Can’t do it sober though lol that’s true
Thank you for your transparency. -Not easy- but it helps us understand.
I appreciate you and one other RUclipsr so much because if it weren’t for you I wouldn’t have forgiven my biological mom for doing drugs and leaving me at my aunts house
Thank you for your honesty
Same here trying to quit Nic as well, it’s hard but getting there day by day as well, not giving up!!!
Give praise to Jesus that you are still alive.
Be proud you have the courage to spread your testimony the way you are.
Thank you for all that you do.
Amen
Yes girl. It’s so hard! You are miserable the way you’re living but the drugs won’t let you do anything about it. I used for over 10 years and when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter I got clean and been clean for over 3 years now
2:50 great moral of the story helping you get to rehab
here from facebook and i love your videos and just everything about you ❤️ keep going beautiful. doing a wonderful job
The part about stuff being laced is so real. My brother in law died at 16 from trying a perc that was laced w fent. I wouldn’t wish that kind of grief or loss on anyone.
Im from jefferson county but now live in knoxville and im also a recovering addict. Keep going girl!
If people just listened and helped they could save people sooner
I can't have a sugar daddy sober either! I get it!
I can have a sugar daddy and i am sober 9 uears
Ive done the change jar thing a few times, took it from my stepmoms once and that was bad. I learned my lesson quick on that one i was banned from my dad& stepmoms up until 2021 and i did that bk in 2012 . I never took From family after that incident. But i did take from stores w out hesitation.
And in regards to the stores, I even feel bad and embarrassed doing that everyone thinks it’s a victimless crime but it’s not because yes they have insurance but it makes prices go up etc and I feel bad even though I know a lot of “shoppers” don’t, I feel terrible and it’s no life for anyone! Tina is a PERFECT example of even your neighbour or a member of the family/community or even the popular girl from school is an addict! I’ve worked office and call centre jobs, and still kept it undercover it’s hard being a functioning addict too and ofc ik it’s hard for those on the street who everyone knows that they use and stuff but even harder living a lie pretending everything is fine because of the embarrassment and the stigma attached to being an addict 😢
@@khylanLowski-of5cri was a functioning addict and a homeless sex worker and I wouldn't say being functioning is harder at all, they both suck. But atleast functioning you're not being basically sexually assaulted while dope sick in a random alley cuz you have nowhere to go and not a cent to your name. It's kinda fucked up to say and situation is harder just because it's the one you experienced, all addiction sucks and is hard and saying one is worse than or harder than another is just invalidating people with the same struggle. Also you have to steal aloooot from stores for it to effect prices. Nothing is getting more expensive at Walmart because I swiped some pads , at the worst they put the most stolen things in cases. Mom and pop stores yeah that's fuckrd but corporations it literally doesn't make a difference at all, so let's not shame people for being desperate and essentially blame inflation on them.
@@khylanLowski-of5cralso every addict starts out hiding it and has to deal with the stigma no matter what stage of the addiction they're in. Idk your comment in general just comes across as I personally dealt with this and not that so it's worse and also you're bad people which is just unnecessary and weird to bring up unprompted and in space about all types of addicts, one situation may be worse in someone's eyes than anothers and suffering isn't a competition, we're all on this channel for the same reason and looking for the same support.
They could make a documentary about your life! Thanks for sharing, you're so interesting and I enjoy your crazy stories!
addiction really is tough to get by(former addict here) and honestly sm more depth goes in it and it there’s more to it then poor impulse control. the fear that follows thru it can be very overwhelming it drives u to cope just to not have to face whatever trying to be felt in the moment
it’s like a constant need that becomes automatic. and as creatures of habit the more repetitive action the more u get used to that kind of function and lifestyle it’s like u wake up to a nightmare. you get stuck in time having years pass u by its not enjoyable because the person u feel like in the moment is how ur gonna feel like the first time u started abusing.
however young u were ur mind only begins to continue to mature once u stopped living off a distraction the entire time. if u were 16 and 5 years went by cuz of whatever u got addict3d to at 21 youd end up acting like the same 16 year old u we’re back in the day in an older body.
there are horrible days before where the first thing i always did is *use* everytime i woke up not even fully awake like i’m in a trance state don’t even have to think abt it to do it i just do and when i’d realize it the day hasn’t even started it’s already wasted but each time u fall back the more you know how to hold yourself through it all the better.
only when u finally wake up from it and u become aware of the cycle is when ur able to make a plan to get yourself clean and out of the whole mess that’s been revealed. but it takes a series of disappointments and let downs and discomfort to make u finally move out of the self destructive comfort zone that we always felt the need to shield ourselves with.
pain needs to be felt in order to be made peace with as terrifying as it is a life lived coping is no life at all.🙌🏻
So proud of you babe!!!
Let me tell you, girl. I have wanted to start a channel for so long. And I have the stories and etcetera to make a good channel. My only thing is, I can't remember shit, LOL. And I don't associate with anybody that I used to. So there's no way of me talking to them about old stories and remembering things and jogging my memory. Ugh.... that's been what has held me back ......
Same there are so many stories that i have but my memory ie horrible
Same here same here!
Damn, y’all some addicts.
Tina can you make a video explaining how you ended up using or what made you get into that life in the first place?
I have 1 on here. It's titled recovering addict. I can do it again tho
@@tinasseethank you so much for sharing your story 😇 You are so sweet and beautiful Tina thank you for being a voice for people who are struggling and want out! I think it’s better I reword it maybe like a video on what made you draw the line between partying hard to when it becomes serious addiction and warning signs or something along those lines that can help younger people differentiate between having fun or going down a dark path
@@tinasseealso do you have any advice on for someone struggling with marijuana? It’s a drug that feels downplayed and not as serious but it feels so difficult to get over
Similar to vaping
I’m so sorry I keep asking questions but could you also possibly make a video on how to turn bad habits into good ones for example using -> self care and finding fulfilment in that
Totally relate to the last thing you said about fearing drugs on the street will be laced with something keeping you clean. My friend died of a fentanyl overdose and that’s literally why I’m too scared start using again.
Other than in the beginning of me using literally everything is fet starting in 2017 and this is in the heroin capital baltimore. Not the fet capital. Other than when I sold raw myself every drug test I've taken has come up with no heroin just fetanyl and nobody wants straight dope anymore just fet
I`m so happy that u are ok💖💖 Love your videos💖💖💖
well im glad you got clean my mom died when she was 28 because she was an addict and it was from docters!! docters where giving her things and i was only 8 so i didnt understand at the time
It's mainly the fear of being sick 🤢 it's not so much that you know you say you want to get clean and deep down you mean it! If you're saying that you definitely and if someone who is clean off of heroin I can tell you the fear of being sick is what will stop you!
Glad ur doing good 💚
That's sad you never knew you had your license revoked.
I've not had addiction issues, I've been through abusive relationships & that's a whole recovery system of its own!!!!!
Can appreciate your your challenges.
Australia watching great channel have joined ❤❤❤
Stealing even though I have the money is definitely something I've done😢
You need some better reasons than being afraid chit is laced
You had better reasons, you just need go acknowledge them and keep building more and more reasons
Love ya!
Didn't say it was the only reason. 1 reason. Very scary tho
What you’re saying about your thinking is not crazy at all. Addiction changes your brain chemistry.
Habitual offender that's me. I'm 50 and 20 yrs clean. I still don't drive.
I dont drive either
I remember going to jail coming off of H I remember all the girls feeding me chocolate because at that facility they didn’t give you anything to help you with withdrawals. It was horrible. I don’t remember most of it thank God but when I do remember this horrible.
knoxville tennesee? wow i didnt know you were a southern girl, good luck with your sobriety from a local tennesseian
I stole makeup when I had money and a ton of drugs on me! And of course i got caught and went to jail!
You are the white version of me our lives are so parallel!
Love you for your realness!!!
Pulling back from my son in his active addiction is so hard for me. Am I really doing the best thing not helping him? I just don’t want to help him hurt himself so I keep him at arm’s length. Am I wrong?
You need to keep telling him that you love him and hopefully he can recover as wrell 😊
You’re not wrong at all! You can’t help someone that doesn’t want to help themselves first
Look up avalon
Of course, they don't care.. How many lies do you think they hear a day.
I'm a recovering addict.God can deliver you from anything.Repent and ask God for forgiveness 🙏🏼💕
Corinthians 10:13
God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. This verse has long been cited in the field of addiction recovery and sobriety.
Please try to stop vaping. I think its worse than cigarettes.
Please don't smoke, at all. Don't start. It's not good for your health.
I never thought you have a sugar daddy. I'm glad your telling people not to do this.
I'm glad you're sharing your true stories to help others. You're very likeable and understandable.
They specifically tell you not to worry about quiting nicotine in early recovery because it's extra stress that can contribute to relapse
@@DumpsterFairy97 thanks. I think she stated she's 7 or 9 years sober.
It actually depends on what state you live in. If they will take you to jail over driving on a revoked or suspended license
I have problems coping with things
it’s insane that this happens. just charge after charge with no help nothing. what do they expect? 5:24
It cost my husband and I twenty thousand Canadian for our son’s rehab. He’s been clean fifteen years. We are not super wealthy either. For people with no money they send your kids to government rehab which is a joke.