It was absolutely astonishing and impressive and beautiful to see you be able to talk about your Dad. I am so proud of you. I can remember when you weren't able to say My Dad without having anxiety and pain. It's so amazing all the work that you've put in, and so much growth! I am just blown away by how you've grown! Well done Bea!!!
At 35, is when I had my mid-life crisis. Lets face it, I am a realist. I was overweight, unhappy and had holes I didn't know how to fill. I thought I was so behind everyone else my age. Now I am 40, I have, in 5 years, got grounded in my faith, lost 95lbs, gained a Bachelors degree. I could still sit here and say, but I am not a homeowner, but I never had that second kid, I am not well-travelled. All those things to poke holes in myself but that leads to no progress. Its all about changing your mind and sticking to it. Making progress instead of making excuses. I am a long time watcher. I remember some of those struggles. We're here to support you too!
Making progress instead of excuses, doesnt matter how big or small. For someone whose been in therapy with better help/health for what how many years she hasnt really made any progress she needs to see a real therapist
@@amadamiaaa I think they are commenting on a lot of people's posts, I replied to them in a different post. They had a very close minded opinion, just like this one
@@Controversialopinions69 It's "who's", which is a contraction for "who has" been in therapy. For those who've not graduated grade... 2? You might also consider the use of punctuation sometimes.
@whitneywalker2085 You just described my life. 39, one kid, working on my bachelor's degree, not a homeowner. I think all the time that I am behind. I appreciate your comment. ❤ I'm proud of you!
I am so glad you mentioned the Dad stuff. There's so so many people who can have a relationship with a parent once you get to the realization that they are never going to be the parent you wish for or imagine, simply because it is not in their capacity, so you just accept them at the place where they are because that is what they can give. That allows you to give up the guilt and weight for the lack of a relationship.
It’s not can ’s actually willing. I wish people would stop seeking out people who aren’t willing to do the bare minimum, simply because society has taught people a parent is always suppose to be in the life no matter how off they treat their child.
As someone who has a biological father that does that same crap etc and has done worse, i have no guilt i dont feel sorry for him cause hes alone cause he made it this way no one else did so why should we feel guilt?
@@Controversialopinions69 Your experiences, like mine, have led you to not talk to your parent, but for Bea it is different. Her needs are clearly different to your needs, and thats okay. Every situation is different and every person is different. Even after the horrible things my dad did to myself and my family, I still feel guilty every so often for cutting him out. It's all about dialectics, you can maintain boundaries by not talking to your parent whilst also understanding how said boundary is hard on them. I think this is what happens when you've reached a certain level of healing.
@@Controversialopinions69 I feel zero guilt about going no contact with my dad and him having no one. Any sadness comes from wishing he could've been a normal, mentally healthy person. But he drove everyone away because of how he is. Even if he had the largest inheritance to give away, I would not go to that funeral (to be clear, I'm not the type to care about what I'll be left, but the irony is that he is and saw my siblings and myself as 'investments', which is why I mentioned it at all).
I’m sad for us all that we didn’t have the dad we would have wanted and the dad we had hurt our souls. There will always be something inside that’s missing. I think it causes some amount of questioning of our own self worth, trust of others, and ability to judge their genuine being. My dad died this year and I’m sorry he could never see me for who I am when a few others really could. It was such a loss for him. I love the men who did recognize the qualities I have that my dad didn’t value. They gave me worth. Thank you for a place to voice this. It’s not easy for others to understand.
Accepting that people aren't going to change even if they should, and being able to accept them as they are in your life is definitely a sign of maturity and mental strength. This was an amazing video
Congratulations on your accomplishments! It's taken me a year to lose 5 lbs but what people don't see is the muscle I've gained, the core strength I now have and balance that has improved my quality of life, the fact I can do a low squat and my ankles and feet feel amazing. This journey is so much more than just losing lbs. My sleep has improved, my relationship with alcohol and food has improved, and I'm on the path to getting my ADHDS/Autism diagnosis from my therapist and psychiatrist AND I got a degree. Saying "I've been on a fitness journey for a year and I've only lost 5lbs" would be SUCH a negative mindset. It took me a year just to dial in what me and my partner should be eating and how to resist weekend temptations, it's a process and that's ok! Small, incremental changes ftw. Idc if it's not entertaining for the algorithm.
My Dad was a gambler and he alienated so many people in his life because of it - including me and my brother but there came a point where we realised he was getting old and we helped him and were there for him during his last illness. You just have to make sure when you do give in and start contact again that you set boundaries to keep yourself safe and happy.
Oh my goodness, when you said you don't want anyone to be alone and got teary over old people being alone with no one to help them. My heart melted. You are such a wonderful person. Also, the dad stuff. I'm so impressed and proud of you. Amazing work you've been doing these last few years! I'm so glad you're sharing it with us.
Thanks so much for opening up. I literally cried when you talked about the pain of abandoning someone you love, eventhough they hurt you. And you can be so proud of accepting peoples faults. Real growth!!!
Congrats on seeing your dad. He reminds me of my mom. I think sometimes society puts so much pressure on people to talk things out and have this big confrontation to address the past and it keeps people from moving forward. Sometimes the best thing you can do is leave the past in the past and move on. I hope seeing each other is happy and healthy for you all
I feel you, Bea. When I was a teenager, I actively hated my dad. He was a pig of a person sometimes and was always bitter and angry. But one day, I had an epiphany. He would end up a lonely, broken, and disliked old man with no friends and a family who despises him, no relationship with his grandkids, etc. All of my anger and hate just drained away and was left with pity. I've always been a strong perso, so his bullshit never really affected me, but from then on, I couldn't really hate him anymore. Fast forward 20 years, and the self-fulfilling prophecy was realised. He became sick and broken, and he became completely dependent on other people. Who he treated like shit his whole adult life. These people still tried to treat him as decently as possible, and he died with his family around him. Life sucks and not everyone will treat you as you deserve - with respect and honour. But we only get one shot. Carrying negativity and hate will rarely affect the person who deserves it, and you need to realise other peoples' shitty behaviour is not a reflection of you. Your worth and your happiness. Get it where you can, but finding validation in yourself and people who deserve your love and time is a good start. It's better to find these things out late than never 😂❤
Bea…..listening to you…I recalled a video of you in a tub…and your emotions were overflowing…and I was so sad you were going through it. Now LOOK AT YOU! I am so proud of you and how you have finessed your way through your life. Geez…. Your Dad, liking Christmas, building your life with your family, the chickens and Stebie. ❤u!😊
It's so awesome right!?! It's like watching your favorite TV character get all the good things they deserve after being dragged around by the plot, only it's better because you know the real person is getting these good things 🥰🥳
You are AMAZING Bea! Some of us have been here since day 1. Watching your growth and love bloom.. lots of rollercoasters in your life! However, you continue to be you!! Much love and respect on all that you share! ❤
Bea, I have been watching your videos from the very beginning and I cannot describe how happy and proud it meade me to see you talk about where you are now. I know many people have been unkind on the internet but the number of inspiring and good hearted ones is by no means few! I mean I just came down to the comments' section and I read so many inspiring words and I wrote down some of them for myself as I sometimes do. Ignore the trolls, we love you 🥰
Good evening, Bea! This is my first time writing to you, and I must say, what an incredible journey you’ve had. It’s wonderful to see how much you’ve grown and changed for the better. You seem so happy, and I can’t help but feel a bit envious of all the animals you have-dogs, a cat, a guinea pig, and even chickens! Animals truly have a powerful impact on our well-being. I also loved your tub video; you are truly amazing!
I found you in lock-down and all tho im as old as yr Mom, you truly are inspirational. Thank you for being YOU! And keep on truckin gurrrrl, you're achieving all your goals. Take care Bea, love from Liverpool UK 💜💜💜
I’m so happy for you love. I feel like Steve has been super good for you. You don’t speak on that a lot but I feel like we are seeing a lot more confidence from you since he came around. LMK if I’m right?
Bea, you are such a beautiful soul. When you said you didn't want anyone to be lonely and it hurts your heart when you think of older people not having anyone to help them it made me cry. You have come such a long way and helped so many people with your honesty. I hardly ever comment on anything but felt the need to say how proud I am of you. You deserve all the happiness in the world. Big hugs and love XX
So happy to see you grow, be kind to yourself and coming to terms with yourself over everything or everyone else's expectations 🙏🏻 love the newly aquired positive outlook and retrospect for yourself 🥰
Bea- Im glad that looking behind has helped you move forward. My mom once said (about her mom with mental issues) “she did the best she could with what she had- forgiving her has freed me to love her for who she is instead of being mad about who she isn’t.” This advice has helped me over the years with family, partners, coworkers, my own children and even my self. It sounds like you’ve made a big jump forward. Well done!👍
Even as sweet and unproblematic you are, people on the internet still manage to make up gossip and trash talk 🙄. Thank you for opening up, I am sure it resonates with a lot of people ❤
It's okay to cry Bea, and we're very proud of how far you've come! Grief has a funny way of being non linear. All you can do is feel the feelings you need to and keeping moving forward ❤
I haven't caught up with your content in so long but for some reason I saw this and thought I needed to watch. The resolution in your heart over your dad and the weight loss are 100% connected. I had some serious therapy break through moments just before starting a new eating plan and 5 months later I'm down 50lbs without any urge to emotionally eat. It's so connected and so powerful. Happy for you!
Bea, there’s just so much growth going on and it’s so beautiful to hear you share the ups and downs, your empathetic view, and the peace you feel. My sis and I have always felt quite similar to you (maybe since we’re around the same age, who knows!) which is pretty awesome and pls know you have many people cheering you on! Many blessings to you 🫶🏼🌸
I'm happy for you Bea and the acceptance you've found regarding your dad. I remember early on when it was a real hard subject for you to touch on, and now you're in a different space to talk about him. Bear hugs from an internet stranger x
Oh, Bea, you are so loved by this YT community! This is a vlog FULL of things to celebrate! Always proud of you in your journey and ecstatic to hear that you are feeling better about where things stand with your dad. Take it as it comes and don’t ever be afraid to prioritize your mental health! Side note: I have a relative who suffers from mental illness and he sadly did that same exact thing to his daughter and she had to cut all communication with him to preserve her mental well being. (Not saying your dad is mentally ill…… just expanding on what you said) Continued love and support to you! ❤
This is such an amazing video! So much wisdom!!!! Congratulations on all the work you have done and how far you have come! I love that you shared how your view of challenges has shifted. I feel like this has been a HUGE pivot point for me on my own journey. So glad I stumbled across your channel all those years ago, thank you for being you and being willing to be so vulnerable sharing your journey with us! 💜
You are amazing! Journaling is great to show us that we have made progress when we think we have stalled. I too journal, and was going through similar feelings, but my journals showed me the progress I had made over the past 4 years. Thanks for being you, and for reminding me to reflect on my progress, rather than just seeing all failures. You empower so many of us with your reflections! Thank you!!
. OMG I had similar experience with family so can relate and cried with you. I see you! You are one special person. You are funny, talented, smart, beautiful and so real. Glad you found your person and finding peace in life. Thx for sharing. ❤❤❤
I am HERE for Tea with Bea. Also (and I know this is pathetic), a few months ago I made an "Eating like Beatrice Caruso for a Day video" where I made poached eggs, pineapple jalapeno chicken, and green chili and I'd love for you to see it someday! Either way, here for the tea and here for you.
I am realizing, as I am coming out of a several-year intensive struggle with mental health, that the mechanics of healing are less important than the emotional and spiritual shifts. I think there is so much focus in our culture on doing the "right" things - exercise more, eat less junk, do yoga, meditate, medicate, etc. And those thing can absolutely support mental and physical health! But they are not sufficient to heal deep emotional/mental/spiritual wounds. I love that you are feeling lighter and are able to look back at yourself and the path you have taken with compassion and perspective. Yay Bea!! And reframing illness as a partial attempt at healing has been big for me. Like you said, your binge eating served a purpose. Just like my anxiety and depression served a purpose. They caused way more problems that they solved, of course, but identifying the needs that the illnesses were trying to meet is an essential piece of moving forward. Because then I can figure out different, better ways to get those needs met.
You hit the nail on the head. I rarely regret things, even the very bad things that happened in my life because right now, I am in a very good place and I wouldn't have gotten here had those bad things not happened. It is so freeing to finally get 'it". Part of those bad things for me was trying to help someone in my life, who dragged me through the ringer until I realized that I can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. Letting go put me on the path to no regrets.
I'm old enough to be your mom and I've followed you (more or less) since the get-go. And, because of my age, I feel like I can say - so proud of you! Two years binge-free is an accomplishment and also - as you note - a reflection of overall mental and physical health. Way to go!
Wow we are living the same life. Lol not really but I can empathize with the binging, trying to lose weight, cutting dad out and reconnecting recently. Same internal thoughts you brought up! We got this Bea. Sending you love and hugs. I also fell in love and I think seeing someone love me with knowing every part of me made me open my eyes to love myself. I know the saying is like “love yourself before blah blah blah”. Anyway it seems like your partner is also very supportive. You seem happy and I truly hope you are. That’s all that matters. ❤
Halfway through I forgot you were on the screen and not in my kitchen. I think that is because you are open and honest and not fake so that you feel like "in real life" even though you are on the screen. That is a gift. Thanks Bea.
I have the utmost sympathy for you in dealing with your father. My sister is similar, so the relationship has been on and off throughout the years. And the problem with being a good person is hoping they will be and feeling bad for having to limit interactions with them. I just have to constantly remind myself it’s not me. She can make up whatever crazy stories she wants, blame me for whatever, it’s fine, I know in my heart what did and didn’t happen and have given up trying to fight for myself, it’s a waste of my time and effort and doesn’t do anything but hurt me. I accept it for what it is and keep her at arms length.
Bea!! I have watched you through the good, fun, happy video's, and the times life is feeling not so good, but gosh darn it, you persevere, and its inspiring! I sure hope, that you are proud of yourself, I feel like one of your long distance/internet friends, who is so amazed by your growth, and I'm always here for all of your progresses, tea's with Bea, and of course just the silly shenanigans you invite us along with. I am proud of you! :D
I saved your new video for this morning, as difficult as it was to wait, because I knew it would lift me up and start my whole day off right. Thank you for all that you do. You are authentic and beautiful. The world needs more people like you.
I've been excited to hear about an update like this for a while. I am so glad you are facing some of these challenges head on and finding more peace than turmoil these days. It's really cool seeing you grow and overcome so much over the years. We're so proud of you and just want to see you Bea happy! ;)
YES!!!!!! i loved this video so much bea. i have struggled and do struggle with similar things as you and i related to all of what you said. but progress over perfection! you're moving in the right direction and so am i :) much love
Wow. I was totally celebrating your victories as I watched this. You are an amazing and valuable person and I'm so excited to see the ways that destructive behaviors have lost their power over you. Please do be wise about sharing - that is, really count the cost and who is worth giving that much of yourself to, but it certainly is a blessing to some of us when you do.
We have so much in common Bea. It's really interesting to me. I also had cut off my dad from my life for most of my 20s and then I reconnected with him a few years ago so that I could see my family on his side and reconnect with my grandfather who passed away 2 months after his 99th birthday 2 years ago. And now, for the first time in, I don't know how many years, I'm going to celebrate my dad's birthday with him in person by going to the last ever home game for the Oakland A's so congrats, it'll take time, but if you can find 1 or 2 things to focus your relationship on (like baseball if that's a thing for you) then it will certainly help build back an acquaintanceship, at least, so good for you.
This was absolutely a bestie chat in your car. Thanks for sharing all of this, Bea! Two years binge-free is awesome and something to be celebrated, as is all of your progress, slow and not-so-slow. I've found that having a growth mindset helps me so much, and rigidity and perfectionism end up hurting me more than helping. I hope as your journey continues you keep finding ways to do what you want, find things that light you up and bring you joy, and find ways of having fewer fucks to give about outside/social pressure to be/do/have whatever. Also, it takes a lot of inner strength to have reached out and reconnected with your dad. I hope having some sort of relationship can be healing for you. I hope you're able to set boundaries to keep yourself safe as well. So happy for you! You're amazing!!
Thank you for sharing. I am in awe of how much what you said related to my life and how much it resonates with my current feelings in my own family. And my health currently
Thank you so much for this. I have a feeling that i will keep coming back to this video in the future. It was extremely inspiring and uplifting to me. I can't put into words why, but you are radiating wisdom and contentment and it is just wonderful. Thanks again for being brave and putting it out there. My cup is very full right now but in a good way.
Teared up as you teared up talking about your dad. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive what my dads gambling did to our family and I don’t plan on having a relationship with him again but I completely empathized with you on feeling so guilty watching them be alone. You are strong in so many ways 💕
I just finished going back and watching all of your videos, I’m new, haha! The timing of this couldn’t have been better for me, you are doing your best Bea 🐝 You have come so far and it was cool to marathon your journey. You should for sure be proud of yourself.
Lots of love, Bea! I love your comment section! Most of us have lots of support to give you. I know I watch you because of how relatable you are and how much I see myself in you. Thanks for existing! ❤
There is so much to love about you! Thank you for all you share! You’ve turned your pain into purpose and those of us who get the joy of watching your channel are the better for it. I commend you on all the work you’ve done… from my own experience, I know it can be a very tumultuous journey… that is forever evolving and ongoing… but so worth it! You are amazing!🌟💕
Im seeing my dad again upcoming sunday for the first time again in 6 years (im 26) spoke to him on the phone tonight, he makes up stuff as well. Its hard. You win and you lose some. Totally needed this video of you talking about this, shared experiences lighten the heart. Thanks Bea for being so open about your life. You would be surprised how many of us experience similar things in life. I think I would've loved to be friends if you didnt live on another continent 😂 love your channel and thanks for staying real!! Love from the Netherlands, you rock ❤
Yes yes yes. All of this! The emotional and spiritual journey, I'm right there with you. Understanding why others are the way they are, not excusing behavior, but Understanding it, makes my life easier. The self realization about things we hold onto, Huge. I have a bracelet that says "when you get to the end of your rope, let go." Girl, you're letting go and it is beautiful and hard and so worth it.
You have grown so much and healed so much. It has been a pleasure to watch. Your struggles are REAL and the way that you have journeyed thru self discovery has been so inspiring. I'm glad that you've had such a weight lifted off you. I'm glad for your Dad too, somewhere in the mistakes he's made, I know he loves you and has missed you. I am so so proud of you and I'm SO incredibly glad that I've been watching from your some of your first videos. Best recommendation from youtube yet. Btw....spearmint tea made my cycle regular and my chin hair softer and less! I hope you get good results with it too!
Bea, watching from the beginning and ALWAYS looking for new videos from you because of WHO YOU ARE. Keep being you, Bea, because you are a truly good person with so much to share.
Bea, I cannot tell you how much this has resounded with me. your perspective has already changed the way I view some of the things that affected me negatively, and I can’t thank you enough for sharing!
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I wish I could like this twice. You’ve made so much progress in so many areas! This internet stranger is proud of you!
this! exactly this! so proud of you Bea 💚 thank you for letting us in this much. Your journey is so inspiring!
Yes! Me, too 💕
Ditto.😊❤😊
I will like it for you
That’s amazing, 2 years binge free is something to celebrate!
I agree. Definitely celebratory.
It was absolutely astonishing and impressive and beautiful to see you be able to talk about your Dad. I am so proud of you. I can remember when you weren't able to say My Dad without having anxiety and pain. It's so amazing all the work that you've put in, and so much growth! I am just blown away by how you've grown! Well done Bea!!!
At 35, is when I had my mid-life crisis. Lets face it, I am a realist. I was overweight, unhappy and had holes I didn't know how to fill. I thought I was so behind everyone else my age. Now I am 40, I have, in 5 years, got grounded in my faith, lost 95lbs, gained a Bachelors degree. I could still sit here and say, but I am not a homeowner, but I never had that second kid, I am not well-travelled. All those things to poke holes in myself but that leads to no progress. Its all about changing your mind and sticking to it. Making progress instead of making excuses. I am a long time watcher. I remember some of those struggles. We're here to support you too!
Making progress instead of excuses, doesnt matter how big or small. For someone whose been in therapy with better help/health for what how many years she hasnt really made any progress she needs to see a real therapist
@@Controversialopinions69? In what world has she not made progress? Are you ok?
@@amadamiaaa I think they are commenting on a lot of people's posts, I replied to them in a different post. They had a very close minded opinion, just like this one
@@Controversialopinions69 It's "who's", which is a contraction for "who has" been in therapy. For those who've not graduated grade... 2? You might also consider the use of punctuation sometimes.
@whitneywalker2085 You just described my life. 39, one kid, working on my bachelor's degree, not a homeowner. I think all the time that I am behind. I appreciate your comment. ❤ I'm proud of you!
My jaw literally dropped when you said you hung out with your Dad. I am WOW'd by you Bea...hugs to you. 🌹
Same!
I know right? I set down my matcha 🍵 and leaned into the screen wide eyed like she was actually in the room spilling hot tea 😂
this!!! :D
I know me too! I was like oh yeah she wasnt kidding about spilling the tea!
Same. So happy for Bea 💖
I am so glad you mentioned the Dad stuff. There's so so many people who can have a relationship with a parent once you get to the realization that they are never going to be the parent you wish for or imagine, simply because it is not in their capacity, so you just accept them at the place where they are because that is what they can give. That allows you to give up the guilt and weight for the lack of a relationship.
It’s not can ’s actually willing. I wish people would stop seeking out people who aren’t willing to do the bare minimum, simply because society has taught people a parent is always suppose to be in the life no matter how off they treat their child.
As someone who has a biological father that does that same crap etc and has done worse, i have no guilt i dont feel sorry for him cause hes alone cause he made it this way no one else did so why should we feel guilt?
@@Controversialopinions69 Your experiences, like mine, have led you to not talk to your parent, but for Bea it is different. Her needs are clearly different to your needs, and thats okay. Every situation is different and every person is different. Even after the horrible things my dad did to myself and my family, I still feel guilty every so often for cutting him out. It's all about dialectics, you can maintain boundaries by not talking to your parent whilst also understanding how said boundary is hard on them. I think this is what happens when you've reached a certain level of healing.
@@Controversialopinions69 I feel zero guilt about going no contact with my dad and him having no one. Any sadness comes from wishing he could've been a normal, mentally healthy person. But he drove everyone away because of how he is. Even if he had the largest inheritance to give away, I would not go to that funeral (to be clear, I'm not the type to care about what I'll be left, but the irony is that he is and saw my siblings and myself as 'investments', which is why I mentioned it at all).
I’m sad for us all that we didn’t have the dad we would have wanted and the dad we had hurt our souls. There will always be something inside that’s missing. I think it causes some amount of questioning of our own self worth, trust of others, and ability to judge their genuine being. My dad died this year and I’m sorry he could never see me for who I am when a few others really could. It was such a loss for him. I love the men who did recognize the qualities I have that my dad didn’t value. They gave me worth. Thank you for a place to voice this. It’s not easy for others to understand.
Accepting that people aren't going to change even if they should, and being able to accept them as they are in your life is definitely a sign of maturity and mental strength. This was an amazing video
Congratulations on your accomplishments! It's taken me a year to lose 5 lbs but what people don't see is the muscle I've gained, the core strength I now have and balance that has improved my quality of life, the fact I can do a low squat and my ankles and feet feel amazing. This journey is so much more than just losing lbs. My sleep has improved, my relationship with alcohol and food has improved, and I'm on the path to getting my ADHDS/Autism diagnosis from my therapist and psychiatrist AND I got a degree. Saying "I've been on a fitness journey for a year and I've only lost 5lbs" would be SUCH a negative mindset. It took me a year just to dial in what me and my partner should be eating and how to resist weekend temptations, it's a process and that's ok! Small, incremental changes ftw. Idc if it's not entertaining for the algorithm.
Congratulations 🎉 I had to do a mental shift concerning weight loss too.
That's amazing!! Proud of you!
This made me realise I’m almost 1 year binge free!!!!!!!!
Good job to us and to anyone out there trying (whatever that might look like) ❤
Happy for you ❤.
That's so awesome! 🤗
My Dad was a gambler and he alienated so many people in his life because of it - including me and my brother but there came a point where we realised he was getting old and we helped him and were there for him during his last illness. You just have to make sure when you do give in and start contact again that you set boundaries to keep yourself safe and happy.
Oh my goodness, when you said you don't want anyone to be alone and got teary over old people being alone with no one to help them. My heart melted. You are such a wonderful person. Also, the dad stuff. I'm so impressed and proud of you. Amazing work you've been doing these last few years! I'm so glad you're sharing it with us.
Burnt mouth, sweaty, just cried is such a MOOD. Who doesnt go to the grocery store like this?! Love you B keep up the good work 💛
Thanks so much for opening up. I literally cried when you talked about the pain of abandoning someone you love, eventhough they hurt you. And you can be so proud of accepting peoples faults. Real growth!!!
Congrats on seeing your dad. He reminds me of my mom. I think sometimes society puts so much pressure on people to talk things out and have this big confrontation to address the past and it keeps people from moving forward. Sometimes the best thing you can do is leave the past in the past and move on. I hope seeing each other is happy and healthy for you all
You are so cool, self-discovery, and then sharing it publicly is very brave . You are helping a lot of people just by being honest about yourself.
I feel you, Bea.
When I was a teenager, I actively hated my dad. He was a pig of a person sometimes and was always bitter and angry. But one day, I had an epiphany. He would end up a lonely, broken, and disliked old man with no friends and a family who despises him, no relationship with his grandkids, etc. All of my anger and hate just drained away and was left with pity. I've always been a strong perso, so his bullshit never really affected me, but from then on, I couldn't really hate him anymore.
Fast forward 20 years, and the self-fulfilling prophecy was realised. He became sick and broken, and he became completely dependent on other people. Who he treated like shit his whole adult life. These people still tried to treat him as decently as possible, and he died with his family around him.
Life sucks and not everyone will treat you as you deserve - with respect and honour. But we only get one shot. Carrying negativity and hate will rarely affect the person who deserves it, and you need to realise other peoples' shitty behaviour is not a reflection of you. Your worth and your happiness. Get it where you can, but finding validation in yourself and people who deserve your love and time is a good start.
It's better to find these things out late than never 😂❤
Bea…..listening to you…I recalled a video of you in a tub…and your emotions were overflowing…and I was so sad you were going through it. Now LOOK AT YOU! I am so proud of you and how you have finessed your way through your life. Geez…. Your Dad, liking Christmas, building your life with your family, the chickens and Stebie. ❤u!😊
It's so awesome right!?! It's like watching your favorite TV character get all the good things they deserve after being dragged around by the plot, only it's better because you know the real person is getting these good things 🥰🥳
Any other video I’m watching immediately ends when I get the notification Bea has posted a new video.
I totally just did the same. Was watching another one and saw Ms. Bea and immediately clicked on hers.
SAME!
Absolutely
You are AMAZING Bea! Some of us have been here since day 1. Watching your growth and love bloom.. lots of rollercoasters in your life! However, you continue to be you!! Much love and respect on all that you share! ❤
Bea, I have been watching your videos from the very beginning and I cannot describe how happy and proud it meade me to see you talk about where you are now. I know many people have been unkind on the internet but the number of inspiring and good hearted ones is by no means few! I mean I just came down to the comments' section and I read so many inspiring words and I wrote down some of them for myself as I sometimes do. Ignore the trolls, we love you 🥰
Good evening, Bea! This is my first time writing to you, and I must say, what an incredible journey you’ve had. It’s wonderful to see how much you’ve grown and changed for the better. You seem so happy, and I can’t help but feel a bit envious of all the animals you have-dogs, a cat, a guinea pig, and even chickens! Animals truly have a powerful impact on our well-being. I also loved your tub video; you are truly amazing!
I found you in lock-down and all tho im as old as yr Mom, you truly are inspirational. Thank you for being YOU! And keep on truckin gurrrrl, you're achieving all your goals. Take care Bea, love from Liverpool UK 💜💜💜
I’m so happy for you love. I feel like Steve has been super good for you. You don’t speak on that a lot but I feel like we are seeing a lot more confidence from you since he came around. LMK if I’m right?
Bea, you are such a beautiful soul.
When you said you didn't want anyone to be lonely and it hurts your heart when you think of older people not having anyone to help them it made me cry.
You have come such a long way and helped so many people with your honesty.
I hardly ever comment on anything but felt the need to say how proud I am of you.
You deserve all the happiness in the world.
Big hugs and love XX
Oh Bea, I appreciate how you shared your process with us, and appreciate you as a person. Keep up the good work. I heart you!
One day, I’m gonna be 2 years binge free too. Congratulations Bea!! You are inspiring
You can do it!
"My inner dialogue is relentless" - I feel this!!
So happy to see you grow, be kind to yourself and coming to terms with yourself over everything or everyone else's expectations 🙏🏻 love the newly aquired positive outlook and retrospect for yourself 🥰
Yay! Congrats on 2 years! 🎉🙌🏾✨
Bea- Im glad that looking behind has helped you move forward. My mom once said (about her mom with mental issues) “she did the best she could with what she had- forgiving her has freed me to love her for who she is instead of being mad about who she isn’t.” This advice has helped me over the years with family, partners, coworkers, my own children and even my self. It sounds like you’ve made a big jump forward. Well done!👍
Even as sweet and unproblematic you are, people on the internet still manage to make up gossip and trash talk 🙄. Thank you for opening up, I am sure it resonates with a lot of people ❤
It's okay to cry Bea, and we're very proud of how far you've come! Grief has a funny way of being non linear. All you can do is feel the feelings you need to and keeping moving forward ❤
Thank you for sharing this❤️
I haven't caught up with your content in so long but for some reason I saw this and thought I needed to watch. The resolution in your heart over your dad and the weight loss are 100% connected. I had some serious therapy break through moments just before starting a new eating plan and 5 months later I'm down 50lbs without any urge to emotionally eat. It's so connected and so powerful. Happy for you!
Bea, there’s just so much growth going on and it’s so beautiful to hear you share the ups and downs, your empathetic view, and the peace you feel. My sis and I have always felt quite similar to you (maybe since we’re around the same age, who knows!) which is pretty awesome and pls know you have many people cheering you on! Many blessings to you 🫶🏼🌸
Thanks for being so open! You help a lot of people with your honesty and compassion.
I'm happy for you Bea and the acceptance you've found regarding your dad. I remember early on when it was a real hard subject for you to touch on, and now you're in a different space to talk about him. Bear hugs from an internet stranger x
Oh, Bea, you are so loved by this YT community! This is a vlog FULL of things to celebrate! Always proud of you in your journey and ecstatic to hear that you are feeling better about where things stand with your dad. Take it as it comes and don’t ever be afraid to prioritize your mental health! Side note: I have a relative who suffers from mental illness and he sadly did that same exact thing to his daughter and she had to cut all communication with him to preserve her mental well being. (Not saying your dad is mentally ill…… just expanding on what you said) Continued love and support to you! ❤
This is such an amazing video! So much wisdom!!!!
Congratulations on all the work you have done and how far you have come! I love that you shared how your view of challenges has shifted. I feel like this has been a HUGE pivot point for me on my own journey.
So glad I stumbled across your channel all those years ago, thank you for being you and being willing to be so vulnerable sharing your journey with us! 💜
You are amazing! Journaling is great to show us that we have made progress when we think we have stalled. I too journal, and was going through similar feelings, but my journals showed me the progress I had made over the past 4 years. Thanks for being you, and for reminding me to reflect on my progress, rather than just seeing all failures. You empower so many of us with your reflections! Thank you!!
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OMG I had similar experience with family so can relate and cried with you. I see you! You are one special person. You are funny, talented, smart, beautiful and so real. Glad you found your person and finding peace in life. Thx for sharing. ❤❤❤
I am HERE for Tea with Bea.
Also (and I know this is pathetic), a few months ago I made an "Eating like Beatrice Caruso for a Day video" where I made poached eggs, pineapple jalapeno chicken, and green chili and I'd love for you to see it someday!
Either way, here for the tea and here for you.
Ohhh saved your video to my watch later list ✨🤌🏽
Hi maddie, I follow you too. You and Bea are my favorite youtubers.
Bea haven't watched a video in well over a year. You look and sound sooo good. You sound grounded and grateful. Happy for you.🎉
I just feel so much love for you and am proud of you and rooting for you. You're the best, haters be damned.
Beautiful Bea, to hear you say "I'm unshakable..." made me cheer out loud for you and cry with you! I'm so happy for your peace! ♥️
This is so vulnerable and relatable. Congratulations on all your successes and finding the silver lining in the moments where you struggled.
I couldn’t love this episode and your channel any more, Bea. Damn, you’re so incredible. Thank you for sharing these insights, they’re so helpful ❤❤❤
I am realizing, as I am coming out of a several-year intensive struggle with mental health, that the mechanics of healing are less important than the emotional and spiritual shifts. I think there is so much focus in our culture on doing the "right" things - exercise more, eat less junk, do yoga, meditate, medicate, etc. And those thing can absolutely support mental and physical health! But they are not sufficient to heal deep emotional/mental/spiritual wounds. I love that you are feeling lighter and are able to look back at yourself and the path you have taken with compassion and perspective. Yay Bea!!
And reframing illness as a partial attempt at healing has been big for me. Like you said, your binge eating served a purpose. Just like my anxiety and depression served a purpose. They caused way more problems that they solved, of course, but identifying the needs that the illnesses were trying to meet is an essential piece of moving forward. Because then I can figure out different, better ways to get those needs met.
Congrats on your progress!!! It’s been an honor to watch you grow and change. I am so happy you have found peace and acceptance
You hit the nail on the head. I rarely regret things, even the very bad things that happened in my life because right now, I am in a very good place and I wouldn't have gotten here had those bad things not happened. It is so freeing to finally get 'it". Part of those bad things for me was trying to help someone in my life, who dragged me through the ringer until I realized that I can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. Letting go put me on the path to no regrets.
Love you Bea!!! You do help others out there with what you’ve shared today, including me. Thank you! 😢
It's so cool to hear this update. Thank you for sharing!
Sending you so many hugs Bea!! ❤ seeing your own growth is such an amazing thing!
2 years binge free❤❤❤I’m so glad you reconnected with your dad and feel good about it. It’s good to be able to move on and except it for what it is
You are my favorite. Thank you for being you and staying brave. We’re here for the journey, wherever it takes you! ❤❤
I'm old enough to be your mom and I've followed you (more or less) since the get-go. And, because of my age, I feel like I can say - so proud of you! Two years binge-free is an accomplishment and also - as you note - a reflection of overall mental and physical health. Way to go!
I love your honesty. Thank you for sharing♥️ and congrats on 2 years binge-free!
Congrats Bea on 2 years!!!!!
Wow we are living the same life. Lol not really but I can empathize with the binging, trying to lose weight, cutting dad out and reconnecting recently. Same internal thoughts you brought up! We got this Bea. Sending you love and hugs.
I also fell in love and I think seeing someone love me with knowing every part of me made me open my eyes to love myself. I know the saying is like “love yourself before blah blah blah”. Anyway it seems like your partner is also very supportive.
You seem happy and I truly hope you are. That’s all that matters. ❤
That great!! Congratulations on being 2yrs binge free. I’m so happy for you and proud of you. 🎉🎉
Bea, the honesty and realness in your videos is genuinely a breath of fresh air. I hear myself in you. Thank you always for being so genuine.
Halfway through I forgot you were on the screen and not in my kitchen. I think that is because you are open and honest and not fake so that you feel like "in real life" even though you are on the screen. That is a gift. Thanks Bea.
Long time follower here, I have loved your channel and look forward to your videos. Proud of you Bea
Absolutely! Doing the work and putting down things no longer serving us is so important.
I have the utmost sympathy for you in dealing with your father. My sister is similar, so the relationship has been on and off throughout the years. And the problem with being a good person is hoping they will be and feeling bad for having to limit interactions with them. I just have to constantly remind myself it’s not me. She can make up whatever crazy stories she wants, blame me for whatever, it’s fine, I know in my heart what did and didn’t happen and have given up trying to fight for myself, it’s a waste of my time and effort and doesn’t do anything but hurt me. I accept it for what it is and keep her at arms length.
I have issues with my father as well. I remember your video where you talked about it, I related so much. I'm happy you reconnected with him. ❤
Your amazing, healthy , compassion , beautiful, balance.. WE all need and are growing in these areas!
Bea!! I have watched you through the good, fun, happy video's, and the times life is feeling not so good, but gosh darn it, you persevere, and its inspiring! I sure hope, that you are proud of yourself, I feel like one of your long distance/internet friends, who is so amazed by your growth, and I'm always here for all of your progresses, tea's with Bea, and of course just the silly shenanigans you invite us along with. I am proud of you! :D
I saved your new video for this morning, as difficult as it was to wait, because I knew it would lift me up and start my whole day off right. Thank you for all that you do. You are authentic and beautiful. The world needs more people like you.
I've been excited to hear about an update like this for a while. I am so glad you are facing some of these challenges head on and finding more peace than turmoil these days. It's really cool seeing you grow and overcome so much over the years. We're so proud of you and just want to see you Bea happy! ;)
YES!!!!!! i loved this video so much bea. i have struggled and do struggle with similar things as you and i related to all of what you said. but progress over perfection! you're moving in the right direction and so am i :) much love
Wow. I was totally celebrating your victories as I watched this. You are an amazing and valuable person and I'm so excited to see the ways that destructive behaviors have lost their power over you.
Please do be wise about sharing - that is, really count the cost and who is worth giving that much of yourself to, but it certainly is a blessing to some of us when you do.
We have so much in common Bea. It's really interesting to me. I also had cut off my dad from my life for most of my 20s and then I reconnected with him a few years ago so that I could see my family on his side and reconnect with my grandfather who passed away 2 months after his 99th birthday 2 years ago. And now, for the first time in, I don't know how many years, I'm going to celebrate my dad's birthday with him in person by going to the last ever home game for the Oakland A's so congrats, it'll take time, but if you can find 1 or 2 things to focus your relationship on (like baseball if that's a thing for you) then it will certainly help build back an acquaintanceship, at least, so good for you.
Moving closer to your mom and having Steven as a friend has been really good for you. Love you 💜🙏
Bea - Great video! Thanks for sharing. Your complexsion looks great!
This was absolutely a bestie chat in your car. Thanks for sharing all of this, Bea! Two years binge-free is awesome and something to be celebrated, as is all of your progress, slow and not-so-slow. I've found that having a growth mindset helps me so much, and rigidity and perfectionism end up hurting me more than helping. I hope as your journey continues you keep finding ways to do what you want, find things that light you up and bring you joy, and find ways of having fewer fucks to give about outside/social pressure to be/do/have whatever. Also, it takes a lot of inner strength to have reached out and reconnected with your dad. I hope having some sort of relationship can be healing for you. I hope you're able to set boundaries to keep yourself safe as well. So happy for you! You're amazing!!
I totally understand you Bea!!! I'm going through the same thing. It's hard but better to just love him the way he is but keep your boundaries. Hugs!
Bea, you are such a joy! I look forward to all of your videos. Just keep being yourself. You are amazing!
Thank you for sharing ❤ Love from Finland 🇫🇮
Thank you for sharing your life with us. You brought tears to my eyes thinking about my dad.
Thank you for sharing. I am in awe of how much what you said related to my life and how much it resonates with my current feelings in my own family. And my health currently
You have the kindest heart. 💚
Thank you so much for this. I have a feeling that i will keep coming back to this video in the future. It was extremely inspiring and uplifting to me. I can't put into words why, but you are radiating wisdom and contentment and it is just wonderful.
Thanks again for being brave and putting it out there. My cup is very full right now but in a good way.
Teared up as you teared up talking about your dad. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive what my dads gambling did to our family and I don’t plan on having a relationship with him again but I completely empathized with you on feeling so guilty watching them be alone. You are strong in so many ways 💕
I just finished going back and watching all of your videos, I’m new, haha! The timing of this couldn’t have been better for me, you are doing your best Bea 🐝 You have come so far and it was cool to marathon your journey. You should for sure be proud of yourself.
Lots of love, Bea!
I love your comment section! Most of us have lots of support to give you. I know I watch you because of how relatable you are and how much I see myself in you.
Thanks for existing! ❤
There is so much to love about you! Thank you for all you share! You’ve turned your pain into purpose and those of us who get the joy of watching your channel are the better for it. I commend you on all the work you’ve done… from my own experience, I know it can be a very tumultuous journey… that is forever evolving and ongoing… but so worth it! You are amazing!🌟💕
Im seeing my dad again upcoming sunday for the first time again in 6 years (im 26) spoke to him on the phone tonight, he makes up stuff as well. Its hard. You win and you lose some. Totally needed this video of you talking about this, shared experiences lighten the heart. Thanks Bea for being so open about your life. You would be surprised how many of us experience similar things in life. I think I would've loved to be friends if you didnt live on another continent 😂 love your channel and thanks for staying real!! Love from the Netherlands, you rock ❤
Love your honesty. You are amazing. Keep going!!!’
Yes yes yes. All of this! The emotional and spiritual journey, I'm right there with you. Understanding why others are the way they are, not excusing behavior, but Understanding it, makes my life easier. The self realization about things we hold onto, Huge. I have a bracelet that says "when you get to the end of your rope, let go." Girl, you're letting go and it is beautiful and hard and so worth it.
You have grown so much and healed so much. It has been a pleasure to watch. Your struggles are REAL and the way that you have journeyed thru self discovery has been so inspiring. I'm glad that you've had such a weight lifted off you. I'm glad for your Dad too, somewhere in the mistakes he's made, I know he loves you and has missed you. I am so so proud of you and I'm SO incredibly glad that I've been watching from your some of your first videos. Best recommendation from youtube yet. Btw....spearmint tea made my cycle regular and my chin hair softer and less! I hope you get good results with it too!
Bea, watching from the beginning and ALWAYS looking for new videos from you because of WHO YOU ARE. Keep being you, Bea, because you are a truly good person with so much to share.
Bea, I cannot tell you how much this has resounded with me. your perspective has already changed the way I view some of the things that affected me negatively, and I can’t thank you enough for sharing!
I’ve been wondering about some of this! Thank you for sharing. So happy for your growth!
Wow, Bea, this is huge. So happy for you. So much growth and healing.❤
Bea! I’m so happy for you! I remember when you couldn’t even mention your dad without crying. Now look at you! So happy for you!
You are such a delightful person. I always gain some insight from your videos. I truly wish you the best.
Love seeing all the growth you've done and happy I get to be one of your OG supporters. Keep growing and keep going! Your doing amazing.
Got me cryin’ over here! You have such a beautiful heart, Bea. 💛
Love that you shared ❤ we need real in our lives. It really does help.