Lewis Capaldi ‘Before you go’ (slowed)

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  • Опубликовано: 27 окт 2024

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  • @outtamymindyt
    @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +847

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  • @unknownsleepyhead1999
    @unknownsleepyhead1999 4 года назад +3277

    "It's crazy how your mind can make you feel so worthless" really hits, I had a crush on my insecure friend, he is so beautiful inside and out, it's just sad that he can't see that.

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +127

      Aww, he deserves to know how amazing he is

    • @Bug.a.b00
      @Bug.a.b00 4 года назад +26

      honestly you are right and its harder when you feel like everything you are doing is going nowhere

    • @angellogan2863
      @angellogan2863 4 года назад +7

      so true:(

    • @anonymousperson1326
      @anonymousperson1326 4 года назад +8

      I'm having the same problem😭

    • @sdab4856
      @sdab4856 4 года назад +9

      I think my crush is the most beautiful person ever, but she continues to describe everything “wrong” with herself and it just breaks my heart

  • @lucythomas6066
    @lucythomas6066 4 года назад +2126

    the original - ran me over
    the slowed version - tore my heart out

    • @thatemogirlmari
      @thatemogirlmari 4 года назад +17

      Well whats worst is that your bsf tells you she was tested positive for the Covid-19 and then listening to this💔💔

    • @CC-cl3bb
      @CC-cl3bb 4 года назад +16

      @@thatemogirlmari how about your bff dieing in a car crash because of you?
      *bites lip to not cry*

    • @thatemogirlmari
      @thatemogirlmari 4 года назад +1

      @@CC-cl3bb that happened to me with my other bff so dont even say that urs is worst

    • @CC-cl3bb
      @CC-cl3bb 4 года назад +4

      @@thatemogirlmari I didnt.
      And you don't know what ive been through.

    • @thatemogirlmari
      @thatemogirlmari 4 года назад +1

      @@CC-cl3bb first of all I bet I have been through more shit than you my grandma is sick my dad has cancer my bsf died crashed my other bsf has covid my mom is divorced my brother broke him arm and I have asma who's life is shit now?

  • @milliebarnes2972
    @milliebarnes2972 4 года назад +3159

    The lyrics aren’t about love- listen carefully

  • @mckenzierae1887
    @mckenzierae1887 4 года назад +5056

    ahhh yes nothing more fun than getting depressed in class

  • @saraduque3312
    @saraduque3312 4 года назад +864

    I fell by the wayside like everyone else
    I hate you, I hate you, I hate you but I was just kidding myself
    Our every moment, I start to replace
    'Cause now that they're gone, all I hear are the words that I needed to say
    When you hurt under the surface
    Like troubled water running cold
    Well, time can heal but this won't
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make your heart beat better?
    If only I'd've known you had a storm to weather
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make it all stop hurting?
    It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless
    So, before you go
    Was never the right time, whenever you called
    Went little by little by little until there was nothing at all
    Our every moment, I start to replay it
    But all I can think about is seeing that look on your face
    When you hurt under the surface
    Like troubled water running cold
    Well, time can heal but this won't
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make your heart beat better?
    If only I'd've known you had a storm to weather
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make it all stop hurting?
    It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless
    So, before you go
    Would we be better off by now
    If I'd have let my walls come down?
    Maybe; I guess we'll never know
    You know, you know
    Before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make your heart beat better?
    If only I'd've known you had a storm to weather
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make it all stop hurting?
    It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless
    So, before you go

  • @nabznadeem
    @nabznadeem 4 года назад +549

    "No one is born ugly, we’re just born in a judgmental society" - BTS, RM

  • @idgafff8
    @idgafff8 4 года назад +2303

    *do you love him*
    *yes*
    *how much*
    *enough for him to be happy with another girl*

  • @katywhite6674
    @katywhite6674 4 года назад +387

    didn’t think this song could get more depressing. i was wrong ... 😍

  • @mckenziesarjantson2347
    @mckenziesarjantson2347 4 года назад +653

    I miss her.

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +101

      Mckenzie Sarjantson we all miss that one person, huh.

    • @amy_500
      @amy_500 4 года назад +17

      Mckenzie Sarjantson and there’s somebody missing you but it might not be the one you want to

    • @xw0003
      @xw0003 4 года назад +4

      hey darlin

    • @amaberties
      @amaberties 4 года назад +8

      Bence Sandor sometimes it’s not that easy

    • @albertnugal632
      @albertnugal632 4 года назад +1

      She’ll come back to u don’t give up my guy

  • @gabieg3627
    @gabieg3627 4 года назад +170

    The first SOO BEFORE YOU GO hit hard

  • @lynn.williams1930
    @lynn.williams1930 4 года назад +975

    "Was there something I could've said to make it all stop hurting"
    I'm
    Feel
    Like
    Theres
    Nothing
    Left
    To
    Live
    For
    Rn

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +66

      Live for the small things, live to be able to taste your favourite foods, live to e able to listen to your favourite song or your favourite show. You’ll lose the things you take for granted ❤️

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад +23

      Basic.brøok there is,there is a reason you wake up everyday and it’s to go on an adventure to find yourself and your happiness...pls DO NOT give up,I believe in you,you can do it,don’t end things💖☁️

    • @lynn.williams1930
      @lynn.williams1930 4 года назад +6

      @@raisondetre5809 awe thankyou 💕

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад +8

      Basic.brøok you’re always welcome bb

    • @Bug.a.b00
      @Bug.a.b00 4 года назад +8

      Hun i dont know you but you have me im always here even if you feel alone comment on one of my videos ill reply in a heartbeat if i can

  • @judal1325
    @judal1325 4 года назад +168

    i miss him, my best friend
    my soulmate
    my lover and my everything and
    really hurts when i see nim with another girl and he don't even look at me after all these memories
    she is everything we could be together

    • @el.lie.1
      @el.lie.1 4 года назад

      i understand..

  • @jovannarose8308
    @jovannarose8308 4 года назад +390

    me: in the middle of a mental breakdown putting this song on. ads: dO yOu wAnT tO lEaRn a nEw LaNgUaGe?”

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +25

      Jovanna Rodriguez totally ruins the mood lol

    • @allianajonson1592
      @allianajonson1592 4 года назад +7

      Joanna Rodriguez I always laugh my ass off when this happens its almost like a switch but its not the new language one its always like the hefty garbage bags lol

    • @mariacorrales2262
      @mariacorrales2262 4 года назад +2

      Lmao 🤣

    • @robertnicolasgeorge5388
      @robertnicolasgeorge5388 3 года назад +2

      Always ruins it

    • @bhagwattiechand5610
      @bhagwattiechand5610 3 года назад +5

      ADS RUIN THE VIBE😡

  • @holly3053
    @holly3053 4 года назад +1532

    It’s ok he does like you and is just too scared to tell you :)

    • @superdupperdoodlenoodle6973
      @superdupperdoodlenoodle6973 4 года назад +51

      This is one of my comments i wish :(

    • @holly3053
      @holly3053 4 года назад +28

      YourDogIsMine Hehe and even if they don’t, you’re amazing and you’re gonna get there.

    • @benbrown2096
      @benbrown2096 4 года назад +10

      This is one of my comments god I fucking wish he did... it would make my pain a little easier to handle...

    • @dagasilmen6503
      @dagasilmen6503 4 года назад +3

      This is one of my comments i needed that comment

    • @holly3053
      @holly3053 4 года назад +2

      ben brown you’re amazing and you’re gonna get through this I promise :)

  • @zxcvmika2989
    @zxcvmika2989 4 года назад +234

    i don't know why
    i don't know why i feel so alone even if i have many friends
    i have many but i don't feel them
    i feel so alone
    . . .

    • @Dakota572
      @Dakota572 4 года назад +10

      It's ok to feel alone but just know that there are ppl there that care for you even if you think there not it is ok to feel hurt and worthless BC in the end there is always people there for you xx

    • @deadaccount5514
      @deadaccount5514 4 года назад +1

      @Jichu Bear stfu bitch

    • @lagger_
      @lagger_ 4 года назад +4

      ⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻ stfu you don’t even know if she/he actually depressed

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +9

      They just embarrassing themselves dw 💀

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +8

      I could literally just delete your comments you’re just making yourself look like a fucking idiot

  • @GR1MSG0R33
    @GR1MSG0R33 4 года назад +944

    hey you,
    yeah you.
    stop being sad!
    u don’t need somebody to cure ur heart u have yourself and ur friends!
    now go and spend time with them >:(
    and whatever happens
    ur friends will always be with u
    and watch over u
    take care of u
    play around
    joke around
    fight for u
    hugs u
    acting immature together
    getting stuffed animals
    not being perfect friends is fine,
    fighting happens.
    apologizes,
    sometimes they won’t accept.
    it’s okay,
    find some other friend or try to ask that person for another chance but don’t beg. ❤️

    • @muhdrezhwan4676
      @muhdrezhwan4676 4 года назад +7

      Thanks for this 😁💗

    • @GR1MSG0R33
      @GR1MSG0R33 4 года назад +3

      @@muhdrezhwan4676 your welcome :)

    • @shino6316
      @shino6316 4 года назад +25

      i broke up my friendship with my friends its because i think im wortless to them and they always ignore me and use to hang out with other friends and left me by myself.. im right with my decision even its heart broken for me.. i blocked my friends and never told them why. i lost connection and trust for them.. just so you knpw im very stupid to do that its jusy because i feel like i shouldnt be here in every minute. im lucky im still here. im figthing myself from the mistake ive done

    • @gambino123stanzistanzi4
      @gambino123stanzistanzi4 4 года назад +37

      The thing is I don’t have friends💀

    • @kierr2534
      @kierr2534 4 года назад +6

      awe tank you for this :( but I just don’t know how to be happy like I always feel left out I always cry and like it’s nonstop. but it really dosnt matter just have a nice day everyone

  • @biancaquinones8483
    @biancaquinones8483 4 года назад +545

    I sometimes miss him even tho he was really toxic and also cheated on me. I think I’ll never “click” with anyone like I did with him ever again. I don’t think I’ll ever fall in love again.

    • @kayleeblack4229
      @kayleeblack4229 4 года назад +1

      same :(

    • @biancaquinones8483
      @biancaquinones8483 4 года назад

      Abigail Caci, thank u so much for saying that. I really appreciate it.

    • @Cris-hd1wb
      @Cris-hd1wb 4 года назад +5

      You will darling, dont let the toxic thoughts take over you, you're stronger than any obstacle❤

    • @laikinaddison5818
      @laikinaddison5818 4 года назад +1

      Bianca Sofia me right there and he just said he liked me again and i was just telling him that i love the friendship we have created after everything and then he thinks it’s okay to say that. uh it’s just so annoying like he doesn’t even care.

    • @oj7452
      @oj7452 4 года назад +1

      i feel the same way.

  • @auds5983
    @auds5983 4 года назад +11

    I swear. Lewis could sing about ANYTHING and it would still hit me so hard 💜🥺

  • @Luna-cg4yu
    @Luna-cg4yu 4 года назад +320

    I never want to love again
    He broke me
    He took my heart
    He took my trust
    He said he loved me
    He said that to all the other girls too
    I want him
    I need him
    He doesn't want me
    I'm not good enough
    Hope he finds someone beautiful
    Better than me,
    That won't be hard
    He was my everything
    My happiness
    And my pain
    It hurts
    ...
    But I hold on and I always will
    Never let go there's always hope
    For me
    And you
    I love you
    Stay strong

    • @ioanamunteanu9629
      @ioanamunteanu9629 4 года назад +3

      You will be fine..All of us will be fine..after some time..

    • @Luna-cg4yu
      @Luna-cg4yu 4 года назад +2

      Durere si Suferinta 😔

    • @aritooicy2706
      @aritooicy2706 4 года назад +2

      they tell you they love you .. they say theyll love you forever nd never leave you .. they tell you that their gonna be there for you .... that yall will be together forever and always ;... it crazy how fast they leave you ;(((((

    • @Luna-cg4yu
      @Luna-cg4yu 4 года назад +1

      aritooicy exactly it hurts and they don't realise...and they don't just leave you, they move on really fast too :(

    • @aritooicy2706
      @aritooicy2706 4 года назад +1

      luna ? bro it’s like when he broke up w me , 2 days later he found this other gurl nd i’m like , how do uu not understand all the pain uu put me through . like uu don’t even care abt us . it’s like most boys don’t even have feelings when they get out of a relationship .

  • @angelism6454
    @angelism6454 4 года назад +170

    why am i crying to much..
    AH SHIZ IM GETTING MEMORIES FROM GOOD TIMES

    • @deadaccount5514
      @deadaccount5514 4 года назад

      shut up fake depressed bitch ass

    • @aurapixelz
      @aurapixelz 4 года назад +3

      @⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻⸻
      Shut the hell up please. You dont know what these people are going trow. These song help poeple throw life. 😭😭😭

    • @luvv4kiaa
      @luvv4kiaa 4 года назад

      Hey, Idk u, but we can talk on insta on itz_kikatime if u wanna talk okay? I'm here to hear anything

    • @deadaccount5514
      @deadaccount5514 4 года назад +1

      @@aurapixelz shut up bitch fake depressed

    • @deadaccount5514
      @deadaccount5514 4 года назад +1

      @@luvv4kiaa idfc shut up

  • @djianananananannana
    @djianananananannana 4 года назад +49

    this makes me want to hug everyone a little bit longer and closer

    • @lestrielmargarette4690
      @lestrielmargarette4690 4 года назад

      Everytime I listen to musics like this whenever i feel depressed I feel like it’s my last day

  • @harumaev
    @harumaev 4 года назад +609

    "committing sucide doesn't stop the pain"
    "It passes it on to someone else"
    Not my words, spread them.

    • @Maudeline6
      @Maudeline6 4 года назад +19

      what if that "someone" was the reason u commited suicide? 😐

    • @saraoneill4062
      @saraoneill4062 4 года назад +4

      @@Maudeline6 true

    • @triniee9704
      @triniee9704 4 года назад +3

      @@Maudeline6 it could still cause others pain like the ppl that do truly care about you..

    • @Maudeline6
      @Maudeline6 4 года назад +6

      @@triniee9704 ik but, why didnt they care for me when i was still alive?

    • @urmomsassbeenate
      @urmomsassbeenate 4 года назад +2

      Hello fellow blink, and sure I'll spread it :-)

  • @idk-hn9yo
    @idk-hn9yo 4 года назад +462

    Does anyone here struggle fitting in in school like me? :/

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +19

      You’re not alone on that

    • @_Rere._.
      @_Rere._. 4 года назад +4

      outtamymind very true

    • @anthonyimano5524
      @anthonyimano5524 4 года назад +2

      me too :((

    • @emeraldzoll7279
      @emeraldzoll7279 4 года назад +5

      yup my clothes my hair, my hair is frizzy and I always put it in a ponytail how social I am how many friends I have But I don’t have any friends Lmao I am afraid to change that because people will be staring at me and I just know that I will run to the bathroom and cry because there has to be someone that says Wannabe or something

    • @anahsarrah7310
      @anahsarrah7310 4 года назад +3

      I am.. I think this is my last day😌☺️

  • @outtamymindyt
    @outtamymindyt  5 лет назад +281

    what the heck this is my first video to reach 1k

  • @anadekaj1150
    @anadekaj1150 4 года назад +25

    everynight i listen to this and it hits the same everytime

  • @arigebechara9216
    @arigebechara9216 4 года назад +22

    i physically can’t listen to this song without crying

  • @brittanydosey7363
    @brittanydosey7363 4 года назад +180

    It’s sadder when played on 0.75x speed 💔

    • @lindrestrydom6084
      @lindrestrydom6084 4 года назад +14

      Sounds pretty good as well and now my heart just feels heavy🙈

    • @tiniecub
      @tiniecub 4 года назад +3

      💔💔

  • @tanviyakkali67
    @tanviyakkali67 4 года назад +42

    oml i cried when i listened to this

  • @mckennadavis3241
    @mckennadavis3241 4 года назад +73

    this song has been on repeat this past week. my bf cheated on me and i’ve been blaming myself and he’s made it very obvious that he never cared about me. this song is my medicine.

    • @iloveyouandyoudeservethewo5643
      @iloveyouandyoudeservethewo5643 4 года назад +1

      McKenna Davis Same. I‘m so sorry for you. He doesn’t deserve you.

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад

      McKenna Davis listen darling,it’s his loose, he lost the most amazing, talented, beautiful person in this world,what he did was a mistake,you deserve someone who is willing to give up any and everything just to be with you,now don’t be hard on yourself and treat yourself well,it is NOT your fault it’s his,don’t give up,and someone’s out here in this world is waiting for you

    • @sami__2104
      @sami__2104 4 года назад +1

      Even though this is really late: he doesn’t deserve you if he’s making you think you’re to blame

  • @ladams5061
    @ladams5061 4 года назад +174

    wow we all suffering here down in these comments

    • @little_idi0t849
      @little_idi0t849 4 года назад

      Exactly

    • @kammang4150
      @kammang4150 3 года назад

      that's probably why we are listening to this song

    • @nethandoiron5402
      @nethandoiron5402 3 года назад

      She said she loved me and I’m a fool for believing her:(

  • @phoebe1906
    @phoebe1906 4 года назад +104

    15 January 2020 :
    this was the first day i listened to this song. i was thinking about committing - it’s hard for me to say but i’m sure you understand - it. i was picking up this kid from school as a job, and i was driving there, listening to this song on repeat. i was sitting at the school, waiting for him to get back from his away basketball game, and that’s when i really listened to the lyrics for the first time (since i had been focused on driving during rush hour). i just broke down in sobs when i realized what it was about. this song saved me. i’m glad i found it.

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +3

      I’m glad you’re still here :)

    • @emilystelmaschuk2009
      @emilystelmaschuk2009 4 года назад +3

      I’m glad you didn’t I can’t bare the thought someone would give up on life on my birthday or any day for that matter your worth so much

    • @justlil1018
      @justlil1018 4 года назад

      its not the same for me. it hasn’t saved its helped me pour and die on the inside more and more eveytime i repeat it. i don’t think i can continue

    • @phoebe1906
      @phoebe1906 4 года назад +2

      Justlil 101 hi love please stay w me here! i’m not gonna give the bullshit i know no one really likes to here. i’m sorry it sucks right. like really sucks. i’ve been there. hell, i am there. just know that there IS someone out there who loves you, or who’s waiting for you. you just might not have met them yet. you are deserving of love and life. i’m so sorry that it’s hard for you to see that right now. please respond 💕

    • @justlil1018
      @justlil1018 4 года назад

      Phoebe thank you! It means a lot to me that you care enough to respond. im sorry that your still going through it its tough. i hope your ok.

  • @glossypeony3553
    @glossypeony3553 4 года назад +13

    I love how people are talking about their feelings in this comment section and other people are supporting them it's so nice! There's always a reason to live don't give up you haven't found the reason so search for it and then you'll be happy! ♥️♥️♥️

    • @kyb740
      @kyb740 4 года назад +1

      Is it bad that I’m literally doing both? Like Inalways try to help others even tho I’m hurting so much. But one of the comments almost made me cry and I basically broke my keys just texting them how much they r lived and etc

  • @hisu9014
    @hisu9014 4 года назад +7

    this gets my crying everytime because it makes me think if the person who is my everything, my world, comfort, and the only reason i’m living.

  • @myonlyangel6158
    @myonlyangel6158 4 года назад +49

    I first met my cousin when I was seven, or at least that’s the first time I can remember meeting him. He was seventeen years older than me, so he was more like an uncle to me than a cousin. Weirdly enough, I later found out why. We weren’t too close, but you can’t expect a child to be best friends with their adult aged cousin. But I got so excited the night I met him, because I loved meeting new people. We didn’t see each other after that day, at least not until 2016. My dad had been living with my best friend’s family since we used to be neighbors, and they allowed my dad to stay with them. My grandmother (living in Florida) wanted to see my brother and I, and it just so happened that my best friend and her family were going to Florida to see their grandparents that same week. So we jammed all five of us in the back seat of a minivan and drove for seven hours, which truly sucked if I’m being honest. When we got to my grandmother’s house, neither her or my aunt were home. We walked around the whole outside for ten minutes until my aunt got home in a big black truck. There was a man with tattoos and sunglasses in the truck with her. We asked who he was and he said that he was my cousin, the same one I met three years before. We exchanged hugs and started talking about how much we had all changed. That week I learned that he was my cousin biologically, but legally, he was my uncle, since my grandparents adopted him when he was three since my other aunt couldn’t care for him, being only nineteen at the time. He was so angry at his mom and the world in general that he did drugs a lot, starting from the age of fourteen. Every time he’d go outside to smoke weed or something, my brother and I would try to convince him not to and he’d just yell at us. He was so depressed that he saw drugs as his only source of happiness, and he ended up resenting us for trying to take that away from him. He thought that we hated him for it when in reality we just wanted to see him get help and to actually be happy. It got worse when my aunt died. He was close with my mom and sort of close with my younger aunt (his mom), but he was closest with my older aunt. They were best friends, and even though he was half her age, he was like a big brother to her sometimes. We went to visit him and my grandmother the week of the funeral. He’d come outside to smoke whenever I would go swimming in the backyard, and he’d just cry about how much he missed her. That whole trip he asked why I hated him so much. I never hated him and never gave him any reason to think I did. I just wanted him to stop doing drugs because I cared about him and didn’t want to see him die, but he thought I hated him. His addiction got worse, a lot worse. He got a staph infection and had to get a new heart valve put in, but the doctors waited a whole month after he was admitted to the hospital to start treatment. He even had to get his foot amputated because there was no blood circulation left in it. He became more angry as time went on. When we’d go visit him he’d just scream at us. He didn’t want to talk to anyone. He’d lay in his bed all day watching cartoons, completely dead on the inside. His infection went away for a while. But in November of 2017, he ended up getting sick again, but he couldn’t fight it this time. He died after a few weeks, just as he started to become happy again. When I last saw him, he didn’t say goodbye. He didn’t say anything. I can’t even remember the last conversation we had, because it was so long ago. He died thinking that I wanted nothing to do with him, and even three years later I haven’t forgiven myself for not telling him how much I loved him.

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +3

      starrynightedittsss that’s rough man, I hope you’re doing a lot better now

    • @kyradresler810
      @kyradresler810 3 года назад +2

      That horrible, and I also hope you r better now

  • @lavitabb
    @lavitabb 4 года назад +62

    "Was there something I could've said to make it all stop hurting"
    yea those words that i just wanna hear is,
    ''i love you''

  • @javierarivera8037
    @javierarivera8037 4 года назад +48

    this hurts 3x more than the original

  • @eunoi1856
    @eunoi1856 3 года назад +3

    i'm crying and smiling at the actual same time.

  • @jaydonrobinson8401
    @jaydonrobinson8401 4 года назад +4

    it so crazy how this really toches some ones heart

  • @Giulia-ew3yv
    @Giulia-ew3yv 4 года назад +14

    “It kills to know your mind can make you feel so worthless” ☹︎ wow that hit deep 😫

  • @daniiedits
    @daniiedits 4 года назад +15

    I really love this song and I can relate to it so much. My best friend almost killed herself. She still thinks about it, but I helped her get through it. I’m still scared she will do it at anytime tho. So for those of you who are going through this, you are not alone.

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад +2

      Dan The Grand YOU ARE AN ANGEL,you are so amazing I mean look at your self you cared ab your best friend and helped her through one of the hardest times in her life and she is so lucky to have you in her life I’m proud of her to get out of this depressing feelings and ily

  • @KylieLynnApakianMusic
    @KylieLynnApakianMusic 4 года назад +12

    💗💗 this song 😭

  • @daphnelangford4020
    @daphnelangford4020 4 года назад +36

    such a pretty song!!

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +3

      daphne langford Lewis Capaldi is so talented!!

  • @shavelle7862
    @shavelle7862 4 года назад +31

    here’s something from me:
    feb/6th/2020:
    i wake up about 2:20-2:30am from a call from my grandma, i didnt call back because i thought she called me on accident,5:00am i wake up to my alarm, my dads freaking out because he got a voicemail saying my grandpa wasnt gonna make it, we rush to the hospital,when we get there i still think hes here ‘hes just holding on hes gonna make it’ i kept telling myself that in my head, my uncle is on a call with the VA, saying he passed away a few hours ago, thats when i lost it i broke down in tears.
    now:
    im kinda lost rn idk what to do with my life its hard coming back to house knowing hes gone and im never gonna see him again..

    • @alexismullins6313
      @alexismullins6313 4 года назад +1

      He lives on in your heart, he’s there for you, through everything, as long as you keep him in your heart your not alone

  • @slowedsongs8803
    @slowedsongs8803 4 года назад +7

    i lost my grandma in february and this song just makes me so sad and depressed:)i miss her,her hugs,her personality,her words,i love u grandma:)

  • @mikedee5323
    @mikedee5323 4 года назад +34

    Lost a Friend 🖤

    • @randomuser9634
      @randomuser9634 4 года назад +2

      i’m sorry, so did i :( but for real lost

    • @NexusDraft
      @NexusDraft 3 года назад

      my 2 dogs passed away recently....my only friends....

    • @user-ny6gq4fy2f
      @user-ny6gq4fy2f 3 года назад

      i lost 2 friend groups i can relate 😅 😓

  • @haileenorris5002
    @haileenorris5002 4 года назад +35

    I lost my friend a few days ago I miss him so much he was like my brother we did everything together and I know he's safe now but it hurts when I think of him

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад

      Hailee Norris I’m sorry to hear that

    • @haileenorris5002
      @haileenorris5002 4 года назад

      @@outtamymindyt it's ok

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад +1

      Hailee Norris I’m so sorry,I may not know what your going through but all I know is that you are not gonna give up,look at how amazing and precious you are,don’t give up and continue your journey in life,and today or tomorrow you’re gonna find someone better

    • @nicolegatto
      @nicolegatto 4 года назад

      so sorry

  • @ruey5813
    @ruey5813 4 года назад +1

    im crying. this is . so. heartbreaking. its abt suicidal or love however u put it

  • @astrocat2243
    @astrocat2243 4 года назад +11

    This song reminds me of my childhood bff, as in we have been friends for 5 years but he moved to other school. Once he told me to be safe everytime because he wanted me to stay safe while he was in other school, I was thinking of him everytime and I hope him to stay safe too, I haven't meet him until now I missed him so much, I wish he was happy for too long without me because I like him to be happy everytime 🙂😢

  • @jaylinc4754
    @jaylinc4754 4 года назад +29

    "it kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless..."

  • @francescafajardo8413
    @francescafajardo8413 4 года назад +33

    put the playback speed at 0.75x, turn off the lights, close ur eyes, and just listen

  • @sugarcrush9054
    @sugarcrush9054 3 года назад +2

    Those nights I cried for him 🙂

  • @agustd8066
    @agustd8066 4 года назад +3

    THE : “SO BEFORE U GO” PART HITS SO FUCKIN GOOD...I AM GOING TO CRY...💔🥺😭

  • @outtamymindyt
    @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +13

    I’ve released a slow version of this song but it’s the piano version in case you looking for it!! ruclips.net/video/hBqqYLjnzE8/видео.html
    Thank you so much for all the support on this video

  • @-ana-8984
    @-ana-8984 4 года назад +7

    im sooo thankful for your uploadddd

  • @BE태국7
    @BE태국7 3 года назад +2

    Sending my virtual hug........
    Send!

  • @janessadupree6356
    @janessadupree6356 4 года назад +33

    I feel like I’m a disgrace and I the world
    This song makes me wanna cry
    I feel so alone
    I have tones of family
    And I still feal alone
    I cut
    I starve
    I’m just not worth it
    I feel like my fav cousin hates me
    Bc he yells at me all the time
    Should I give up👉🏼👈🏼🥺😭😭😭😭😭

    • @studybymanh
      @studybymanh 4 года назад +2

      no pls don't! I felt the same when my cousin died. try and talk to your cousin about how you feel, and pls don't cut or starve yourself! You are worth it, trust me!

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +1

      You are not a disgrace!! You are totally worth it ❤️ I’d hope things look up for you soon

    • @jakobkarasavvas7533
      @jakobkarasavvas7533 4 года назад +1

      No, please don't do that

    • @atsumumiyalover
      @atsumumiyalover 4 года назад

      NO!Your are stunning DONT let anyone bring you down.You DONT need them!I repeat you DONT

  • @user-fg4ne7fy5q
    @user-fg4ne7fy5q 4 года назад +2

    I’m kinda addicted to all the slowed versions of my fav songs

  • @annamunoz9434
    @annamunoz9434 4 года назад +3

    I need this in spotify rn🥺

  • @blupblap2735
    @blupblap2735 4 года назад +1

    this song... it just really hits hard. Every time I listen to it I cry

  • @kendragilbert
    @kendragilbert 4 года назад +41

    did I just cry to this at 12:30 am? Yes. Am I 14? Yes

    • @alexismullins6313
      @alexismullins6313 4 года назад +2

      Been crying since 12:25 and it’s almost 1:20

    • @kendragilbert
      @kendragilbert 4 года назад +1

      Alexis Mullins ❤️🥺

    • @ificouldfly6399
      @ificouldfly6399 4 года назад +1

      I’ve been crying since 11 now it is 12:2”

    • @alexismullins6313
      @alexismullins6313 4 года назад

      Sadpeople . I feel that, I cry so much because of dumb reasons, but keep your head up, and incase no one has told you, I love you, and I’m proud of you🥺❤️

  • @maisiewootton4624
    @maisiewootton4624 4 года назад +2

    You don’t realise how much someone means to you until there gone.. 🥺✨

  • @jessbellish
    @jessbellish 4 года назад +28

    I’ve never felt this way about anyone like I feel about him. He pops into my head unexpectedly, constantly throughout the day. But his presence in my life was unexpected, and merely accidental. By chance, we met at the perfect time before things changed. He told me I was exactly what he needed. Little does he know, he is everything I’ve always wanted and needed. The kicker is, he asked me not to fall for him due to a previous relationship. But when I promised him I wouldn’t, it was already too late. I just had no idea how hard I would fall for him, and I’m still falling, a little everyday. I was going from seeing him everyday, but with everything that’s going on right now and our university being closed, I haven’t seen him in nearly a week. It broke my heart as he walked away from me and I walked away from him. I wanted him to turn back around, just one last time. I wanted him to come inside and stay the night. Even just a second more with him. But I don’t know how he feels. I don’t know if he sees me as this sweet, innocent girl he couldn’t possibly touch. He knows my mind is broken, but I am not fragile. I write letters with all the things I want to tell him, but I probably never will. It would break my heart to loose him as a friend and from my life completely, not to mention how integrated he’s become in just the past month alone. I don’t know what to do. It feels like I’m drowning in all the love I have for him, because giving it to him would mean revealing that it’s there, and I don’t know if I could take him not feeling the same.

    • @alexisrichards6892
      @alexisrichards6892 3 года назад

      This song isnt about love btw it was written for his aunt that committed suicide

    • @jessbellish
      @jessbellish 3 года назад

      @@alexisrichards6892 I know that. I was just writing my own experience and how I relate to the song in my own way. Thank you for trying to educate people though that this song has a deeper meaning!

  • @Deerok2005
    @Deerok2005 4 года назад

    I love this song so much!💜

  • @ryanbayer1012
    @ryanbayer1012 4 года назад +22

    No matter how often I told her I loved her. No matter how hard I hugged her. No matter how often I held her hand and wiped her tears through the tough times, she still left. She always had the scars on her arm, burns on her finger tips, and pain in her eyes. No matter how hard I tried to show her the world was going to take care of her one day, she never believed me. And now it is too late to tell her I love and miss her, and how much I want her to come home, but she is in a better place now and is safe. Her mind was always a scary place, and she just needed someone to be there for her. RIP Kaylee D, you will forever be my best friend, and will always be my older sister by heart not blood
    November 14, 2019💘💖💛💞💔

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +2

      I’m sorry for you loss, please don’t blame yourself, you did everything you could for her and may she rest in peace 💞

    • @ryanbayer1012
      @ryanbayer1012 4 года назад

      @@outtamymindyt thank you

  • @tamaraheckova3117
    @tamaraheckova3117 4 года назад +1

    Omg! It’s so beautiful🥺❤️

  • @rocelestor8913
    @rocelestor8913 4 года назад +3

    Did i just cry to this at 3:00 am? YESSSSSSS ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

  • @スカイ-v1v
    @スカイ-v1v 4 года назад +1

    Love this music so much And with the slowed down 🥺💔😭

  • @starzsaturn
    @starzsaturn 4 года назад +17

    my internet friend jayden committed a couple a years ago and this song reminds me of him
    there's also another song, a song that was playing through my speaker as I was calling him. we talked nearly every day on the phone but that day was different. instead, his mom picked up and she told me how he tried to h*ng himself and they found him and took him to a hospital. but they were too late. i don't listen to that song anymore, it hurts too much. to this day i blame myself because i should have been there for him more. maybe a "how are you feeling" here and there would have saved him. "was there something i could've said to make it all stop hurting?" that hits me every time i hear this song. i miss you JJ.

  • @angelicorustia7793
    @angelicorustia7793 4 года назад

    //chill with rainy day + coffee + before you go slowed version, so dope❤

  • @acacianole3936
    @acacianole3936 4 года назад +91

    i think hes losing feelings

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад +5

      Acacia Nole I’m so sorry,but maybe he’s not the one I don’t know you or him but all I know is that THE ONE never losses feelings I mean look at how amazing you are you deserve someone who will give up everything just to be with you,don’t give up,life is gonna make you find the ONE.

    • @Bug.a.b00
      @Bug.a.b00 4 года назад +3

      we all losing feelings honestly someone told me it gets worse before it gets better

    • @abbeyross2965
      @abbeyross2965 4 года назад +3

      then let that man go

    • @theodorapanayi8952
      @theodorapanayi8952 4 года назад

      Me too

  • @oizys6384
    @oizys6384 4 года назад +2

    It hits different when it's a love/broken heart song and its slow❤

  • @wallflower1440
    @wallflower1440 4 года назад +27

    one of my bestest friend could be gone. and if she is, i could've saved her.

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +4

      dxrkness I’m so sorry to hear :(

    • @wallflower1440
      @wallflower1440 4 года назад +2

      @@outtamymindyt it's okay :( i just miss her so much.

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад +2

      dxrkness it gets better I promise,she wants the best for you,so you think that she would be happy to see you sad or upset?yeah I don’t think so neither,so just remember all of the of the memories you had with her,and make her proud of you for NOT giving up

  • @sickness.1029
    @sickness.1029 4 года назад

    i actually can't stop listening to this

  • @ggsinner
    @ggsinner 4 года назад +26

    Hey you
    yeah you
    scrolling the comments while listening the slowed music
    Thats okay go ahead

  • @luciaveron5348
    @luciaveron5348 2 года назад +1

    I'm love before you go, music the perfec🤩

  • @olivianicole9392
    @olivianicole9392 4 года назад +8

    didn’t know this song could get sadder

  • @UrgentCabbage99
    @UrgentCabbage99 3 года назад

    Anyone else feel good when you sing the long "Go" Part? It just feels so good to sing that for some reason.

  • @aienxii6168
    @aienxii6168 4 года назад +7

    Do you ever just have that feeling that you love someone, but they don’t love you back? This feeling makes you tense up, cry in your head (or out loud), makes you wanna talk to people but nobody will listen. if nobody listens, it makes you feel worthless and ugly..But if you look on the bright side, you are beautiful,kind, smart, or handsome, kind, and smart. Don’t let your self down because of some person the doesn’t love you back. I promise you will find the person that loves you. ❤️

  • @stupidlysmarts
    @stupidlysmarts 3 года назад +1

    Omg I’m crying. That was sad 0-0 :,)

  • @hannahbananas2728
    @hannahbananas2728 4 года назад +3

    “When you hurt under the surface” Hits hard because It makes me think about how I feel about myself.

  • @urielinsaurralde2142
    @urielinsaurralde2142 3 года назад +2

    my opinion is that before you go is a great song...new music favorite

  • @kiratrimble464
    @kiratrimble464 4 года назад +42

    I miss you, Hannah. I wish there was something I could have said to save you. I really thought you were going to make it. I don't even know why I'm writing this because I know you won't see it. I wish you could have seen how brilliant you were

    • @outtamymindyt
      @outtamymindyt  4 года назад +3

      Natasha Trimble I just know she understands how much you do care for her 💔💕

    • @raisondetre5809
      @raisondetre5809 4 года назад +1

      Natasha Trimble im so truly sorry for your loose but..trust me,she wants you to continue your journey in life and never give up,I mean look how amazing,talented and most importantly caring you are,she is watching over you and proud

    • @ekhadaniel7027
      @ekhadaniel7027 4 года назад

      Wht happen?

    • @ava-ib9by
      @ava-ib9by 4 года назад

      hey, i hope you feel better 🥺

    • @fittqill917
      @fittqill917 4 года назад

      @@outtamymindyt l"

  • @iz6395
    @iz6395 3 года назад +2

    this song if heartbreak omg

  • @talleyfreckley1789
    @talleyfreckley1789 3 года назад +5

    Lyrics: I fell by the wayside, like everyone else
    I hate you, I hate you, I hate you
    But I was just kidding myself
    Our every moment, I start to replace
    'Cause now that they're gone
    All I hear are the words that I needed to say
    When you hurt under the surface
    Like troubled water running cold
    Well, time can heal but this won't
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make your heart beat better?
    If only I'd have known you had a storm to weather
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make it all stop hurting?
    It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless
    So, before you go
    Was never the right time, whenever you called
    Went little, by little, by little until there was nothing at all
    Our every moment, I start to replay
    But all I can think about is seeing that look on your face
    When you hurt under the surface
    Like troubled water running cold
    Well, time can heal but this won't
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make your heart beat better?
    If only I'd have known you had a storm to weather
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make it all stop hurting?
    It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless
    So, before you go
    Would we be better off by now
    If I'd let my walls come down?
    Maybe I guess we'll never know
    You know, you know
    Before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make your heart beat better?
    If only I'd have known you had a storm to weather
    So, before you go
    Was there something I could've said
    To make it all stop hurting?
    It kills me how your mind can make you feel so worthless
    So, before you go

  • @jordanrstudio-jordan1992
    @jordanrstudio-jordan1992 4 года назад +2

    nothing better than getting home after a long day, putting on headphones, and listen to this song while be depressed and while either working on a game or playing a game. (Its really good btw)

  • @blueberriesncoco
    @blueberriesncoco 4 года назад +4

    We need an hour of this ngl 😂

  • @kestrelflurry
    @kestrelflurry 3 года назад +1

    This aint a new song but the feels are fresh man;; I actually had to take off my earphones for a bit because my eyes were filling and I don't even cry at a lot of songs;;

  • @ilonaksulistya
    @ilonaksulistya 4 года назад +8

    To those reading this, thank you. Thank you so much for holding on for so long. Thank you so much for still being here Thank you so much for everything you've done on this earth. I love you. No matter who you are or what you look like, I love you and I always will. I love you, I really do..
    Please keep fighting. Don't hurt yourself anymore, don't change just to make other people happy. Just be yourself and things will get better ❤ I promise, things will get better, don't let anyone tell you any different. I love you, always. Forever and ever. I hope you have a good day/night 🧸💕
    Take some rest, you've been through alot. 🌻

    • @anastasiak3087
      @anastasiak3087 4 года назад

      thank you 😓❤️

    • @offical_lord_farquaad3770
      @offical_lord_farquaad3770 3 года назад

      You have no idea how much that hit me. You save my life and probably others. Now I would like to say some nice things back to you. Thank you for existing and thank you for being able to say such kind words. You are more than enough. This universe doesn’t deserve a wonderful person like you. Please continue to fight. For one little thing can change someone’s whole world. Thank you angel.

  • @Deerok2005
    @Deerok2005 4 года назад

    ✨YOU ARE AMAZING✨

  • @hahafannykatalaga6678
    @hahafannykatalaga6678 4 года назад +3

    when the chorus starts *me* thinking of my dog .i will see u in heaven😭

  • @GWAPG-E.P.F
    @GWAPG-E.P.F 4 года назад

    Perfect! You did to thang Love this song!

  • @Deerok2005
    @Deerok2005 4 года назад

    ✨YOU ARE STRONG I BELIEVE IN YOU ✨

  • @isabellapisani4938
    @isabellapisani4938 4 года назад +7

    this make me so sad I miss you 💔

  • @isabellahametz3505
    @isabellahametz3505 4 года назад

    This gives me chills

  • @khi4
    @khi4 4 года назад +4

    they played this at our leavers party and i cried so much and now i can’t listen to this song without thinking about all the friends i’ll never see again..
    *thx school.*

  • @beykalofficial8419
    @beykalofficial8419 4 года назад +1

    I love this music cuz its sad :(

  • @clairecox9911
    @clairecox9911 4 года назад +18

    I
    Miss
    Being
    Not
    Alone
    .
    That’s
    Also
    Why
    I
    Can’t
    And
    Don’t
    Want
    To
    Do
    This
    Whole
    Life
    Thing
    Anymore
    .
    I’ll
    Miss
    You
    .

    • @tarynmccartney1470
      @tarynmccartney1470 4 года назад

      Are you okay?

    • @tiniecub
      @tiniecub 4 года назад

      I'm so sorry but eventually, for all of us it will get better 💔 :(

  • @avalynn5362
    @avalynn5362 4 года назад

    I’ve never missed anyone like i miss you.

  • @tiraminess
    @tiraminess 4 года назад +15

    i feel like i'll never make my parents happy. im trying my best and they say its not enough