I am 25 years old. A husband and father to two daughters. One thing I learned from my father is that you don’t bring friends home. You keep your buddy’s out side of the home. The house is a sanctuary for my wife and my kids and I believe as a husband, you don’t bring other guys in to your home because you can’t trust a single soul.
What about child molesting an another child? Male childrens are born with different amount of testosterones, and they can get influenced by pornography real quick. Americans don't have any precautions against pornography (one set of easy question is not going to work).
Yeah! The US has little accountability for criminals like these. They get to live for free, eat free food, and get recreation at the cost of tax payers.
It's not the Law , it's deeper than that , you might not want to hear this by it seems pretty much common in American society and for a long while now . I know it happens in every country but your prison's are full of men and women who have hurt children in the states
Ruby Violet Agreed. It becomes so uncomfortable being anywhere. I started developing from a young age and watched how men began to look at me different as I changed. To this day I still feel uncomfortable being out near men.
Crissy Moran, I used to do security for her on sets and during club tours. She was a total sweetheart. I'm glad to hear she made it out and found a new calling in her life.
Ummm. . . no! Comments like this are an example of how tragedies such as those this woman is talking about is allowed to happen. There is nothing "proud" about being so naive that you are vulnerable to the point of being raped and roofied. Wtf is wrong with people? What she (and girls like her) need to be told is that they are acting like a dumb bitch and can do better than that.
Emaunual Carr seems u have some shit inside you that got triggered so strongly You can't judge her off these few things Like maybe your so angry cause your lacking inside Otherwise no reason to be so angry you write BYE LADY Wish u sat in front of a camera and people from other life styles judge you You don't understand her insecurities or can say for sure why she's talking like that It's the way she deals with her issues You yell on messaging to deal with yours about a person facing a camera while you sit and judge every little thing and diagnosed it such in such an enraged mannor
@@stacey7954 The same way you say I'm judging her is the same way you attempted to judge me for having a *different perspective* with intensity that I'm entitled to, as I am unapologetic (fuck your feelings) when I speak in general. VS your view point. I just call people out on their nonsense when I feel there are discrepancies their statements and hypocrisy in their actions. *You got triggered* because you took the bait of some random woman being interviewed for a blog who (appears to be) helpless and innocent, yet her (actions) contradict the very thing she was saying caused her supposed distress with men. It's like saying I don't like racism yet you attend a Klan rally. Even people who have other trauma are consistent to their trauma. But it's like (she plays on your intelligence) with her sob story, and you never once heard her say; I seeked help for it or attended any treatment programs for my issue. But I'm open to telling my story to help others who have a similar story yada yada. She's behind a camera telling the world how traumatized she is supposed to be when convenient to financially capitalize off it in (porn) and who knows what else. Then she tries to play ethical consciousness as she navigates through her story. "I got with these men thinking I may have to sleep with them because they are doing me a favor, but I know I didn't want to becauses it crosses my boundaries." I'm like BITCH SHUT up, your boundaries were crossed the minute you gave into temptation thinking *financial gane would fix your alleged sexual trauma.* Like who acts like this who really wants help? Don't play on the public's intelligence, I peep the bull shit. I'm sure the *"Me too movement"* would question her rational, knowing a Gloria Allred would never be able to defend such hypocrisy with such blatant inconsistencies. You so traumatized, never once saut help? But you're smart enough to gain monetarily for such trauma in the way of doing porn with multiple different men who you deemed to be your talent agents. GTFOH with that nonsense, epic fail! It's funny you have all this empathy for a random white woman looking for pity in her self induced failures, but don't seem to keep the same energy when it came to R. Kelly's (victims) who were Black women with factual data to their trauma, not an online interview. Yea, that part right there. You pick and choose what narrative you want to run with. But I see through all the smoke screens.
@@jjetsam8739 You're not qualified as a random blogger to make such a diagnoses. Learn the meaning of the word *incel* before attempting to devalue someone elses opinion, opposite of your rational. Thinking in some way it will boost your online persona or credentials. The word isn't even formally in the dictionary. Just made up nonsense by (your people). My people not burning churches down, mosques, and running over innocent people with cars like they did the woman in Virgina. As you want to do the word play game, diagnose your own people with their mental health issues when they commit *"HOMEGROWN TERRORISM,"* that the American government doesn't want to label such. But continue to give them a pass. In hopes of keeping underlying White supremacy alive knowing they are slowly but surely becoming the American minority. Yea that part right there. Smirk So you can have several seats and tam your ego. The internet has NO filter on my end. I say what I mean and mean what I say unapologetically (fuck your opinion and feelings) while you seek likes and clicks it will not alter my perspective. We can have different opinions and express ourselves in any way we choose, along RUclips guidelines of (respect) posted at the top of each blog.
she maybe an adult but she still has a very childlike aura. That's what childhood trauma does to you. It keeps you stuck in that child state and you never really grow out of it. The pain you can see from her eyes is piercing. This woman is so beautiful in and out and just hope she has found peace in her life.
I just feel like she was able to connect very fully with her child-self. You can tell from the end of the interview that she's a fully integrated adult.
That is true. I am a father of two daughters and it hurts me to listen to her story. But just imagine if she ends up being with someone very nice bloke and down the track after certain time spent together, she starts fighting and arguing and everything goes to he'll. It's just not worth it to be around people with so trauma. I hope she finds someone who can really love her and appreciate who she is.
"be the woman that is going to attract the guy that you want" such wise words...same advise for men. She is so beautiful and soft even after everything she went through; her beauty shines through. I wish her and her husband the best and may they live a very happy and long life together. Congratulations to both!
If you ever come across someone who smiles or laughs while recounting horrific events they've experienced, just know that it's a trauma response to try and perceive it as "not so bad". If our brains can't process the pain, sometimes we try to make light of it. Not everyone will burst into tears when they tell their story. Sometimes people have cried all their tears already.
Sad to see so many disrespectful comments. These videos are supposed to be about finding empathy for people that are different from us, not to judge them.
@RORO roro The interviews give a greater depth and understanding to those conclusions, based on a clearer emotional connection to their experiences that we didn't have before. So yes, by definition, empathy.
@@lavinder11 yup jealous and I'm sure she dealt wt a lot of hateful woman that don't understand what she goes through Just cause your beautiful doesn't mean somebody doesn't have inner struggling
That is very sad. The sad part of that the potential the best thing for these people to do is to be alone and gather the strength to stand on their own two feet - however daunting that might be perceived by them in the midst of what they're going through. There is something to be said of letting go of what one seeks in desperation to come to terms and address that desperation within to pave the way for happiness... The universe can be weird like that.
I know women in my life SO MANY that have this attitude. Strange that women are attracted to these type of men, Especially Naive women like this. Never have I seen an intellectual woman stand for this kind of shit.
Girl ❤❤🎉 i am a Christian and hearing this 🙌 i want to sing Hallelujah right now ❤ what a testimony. praying for every lady going through this similar path. May the power of God reach you.❤
After watching all these videos, I've learned TWO lessons.. 1. - "Never judge people, cause you never know what they've been through" 2. - "Always show respect"
@@Lab4ny34 I have to disagree, I believe there's a worse version of Hell for people like Hitler, Stalin, Mao, Cho Mo's etc. Compared to horrible people in general that didn't kill people by the Millions.
@@andyv16012 Maybe you're right. Who knows 🤷. All I know is that sin..is sin. No matter if you killed 1 person or 50,000. Honestly. If you think about it. Do you really think the devil would give Hitler (whom by the way never actually killed anyone) the red carpet treatment? ... No!! He doesn't care. 🤷 His whole objective is to bring any and everybody to hell for torment. The bible mentions non stop torture to the point were if you kill yourself, you're brought right back to life to resume torture. Isnt that by itself bad enough? So no..I dont think there's levels. I think helll itself is THEE worst place to be. But then again, you'd have to believe there is a hell in the first place. If you don't... Then the devil has already one.
In Divine Comedy the hell is divided into 9 divisions based on graduation of wickedness and descension of love, the 9th division is the place of betrayal where Satan is for his treachery against God. A child sexual abuse is the ultimate betrayal , violation of human connection to an innocent child . Child abusers are at the bottom of the hell paying for the worst sin . The inscription on the gate of Dante’s Hell says “Abandon all hope ye who enter here...” .... I am not a revengeful person but I think that’s what they deserve
Compared to other interviewers, absolutely. I feel that every now and then, the interviewer may feel the need to kind of pull the interviewee back on track by cutting in and asking a question. As long as it’s not overdone, I see no problem with that.
Crissy's candid, honest autobiography and Mark's caring approach, especially his validation of her personal growth at the end, invites support and compassion. So many young women just need ONE good trustworthy man - father, friend, or husband. It changes everything.
Couldn't agree more. That first protector should always be the Father. If a Father isn't there then this is the path young women go down and the STATS bear that out.
"So many young women just need ONE good trustworthy man" ...no. this is exactly the type of propaganda that gets them into this situation in the first place. how is someone supposed to know that man is trustworthy?
Her dad sounds so GROSS. Dads in general who act like their daughters body and virginity belong to them are GROSS. if you just taught your daughter that her body belongs to her, and not anyone else, she may have had a healthier view of sex.
I have 3 Daughters, I've really impressed to them, you "own" your body, if they don't want to hug a family member they are not pushed to do it. They're young Adults now. I've told them whether your married or not, you can say "No" and He should respect that, you are the "owner" of your body.
It is a balanced. A dad is supposed to protect their daughters’ bodies until their mature enough to do it for themselves. Yes, they should should not be forced to hug ect. When they don’t want to, but we give children way too much responsibility too young. A four year old does not have the capability to protect themselves. Therefore parents are the protectors of their bodies.
@@Mattsabih That's EXACTLY what I thought as soon as I heard the first 2 minutes! This poor girl was traumatized and never grew up! Sadly this is a common story. She's a gorgeous young woman, it's too bad everyone took advantage of her. Her scum-bag father is mostly to blame for exposing her to his drunken friends and not protecting her from the people around them! Her mom doesn't sound too loving either! I hope she finds a guy who truly loves and respects her. I can't believe she had to go online to FIND someone to love her and she ends up with all these slime-ball predators who exploit her! I'm only 20 min. in and I can't believe how child-like and innocent she is, my heart is bleeding for her! Looking for love in all the wrong places! All of these scum-bags that abused her need a couple behind the ear, AFTER torturing them, friggin' maggots!
Jesus christ. She seems like such a lovely person. Its hard to hear she's gone through so much trauma. I'm a horrible person by comparison and havent gone through nearly as much crap. I really wish her the best. I'm just over 10 minutes into the whole interview and its hard. What a fucked up world. She's got a strong mentality man.
Such a luminous person. A mixture of fragility and resilience, wisdom and innocence. A compellingly beautiful woman. Just love that advice: Be the woman that will attract the kind of man you want. That is so true. It takes years to learn it though.
@@napelvision She played piano so well she had considered becoming a concert pianist. Marilyn also was a very good cook, loved to sew, loved to read complex self help books. She was very smart, knew how to flip her "Marilyn Monroe" switch whilst being Norma Jeane in her private life.
Amen!!! I had good parents. I knew what the responsibilities of a parent were. I never felt like in my life I was ready to raise a child. So I been wearing a condom since I was 15. They work.
I had the best Mom and Step-Dad. I am 43 and they are still amazing to me. Me and my sister have been in jail, in trouble, through rehab. Put them through absolute shit! Sometimes, SOMETIMES, it is the kid not the parents.
My sister thinks both our parents were good parents, but my mom has anxiety disorder and paranoia and my dad was like a stoic, hardly showed any emotion, never said "I love you", hardly talked to us. Today my sister is an obese lesbian with anger issues and tattoos all over her body. So if both you and your sibling turned out bad, then your parents failed somewhere, you just have poor judgment to see it.
Wow, I just realized who she was.. she was a porn actress who my ex used to print pictures out of and say he wanted me to look like her, and to hear her say how less then she felt when her partners would watch porn made it come around full circle for me. Honestly it healed my heart just a tad. That man really broke me down. I m glad to see your doing better
Crazy that meanwhile she was on the other end thinking she's not enough by comparison. I'm so happy she found someone who she could trust and grow with. And I hope the same for you! 🙏
I am impressed by this lady. She has survived abusive family, abusive partners, drugs and the porn industry and she still comes out of all of it so sweet and beautiful!
i totally empathize with her- She is so beautiful people have projected on her Her whole life...starting with her father-. We must remember our innocence.
OMGosh....really! If she had a different look you wouldn’t have the same thoughts! She’s a very good actress. Go find her and fix her ha ha ha ha maybe she will marry you!
The level of molestion and child abuse that exists in everday human life is absolutely ridiculous (almost very story shared on this platform has included it in some shape or form); almost as ridiculous as our refusal to address it.
Yep. It's revealed in almost every interview because the interviewer knows it's likely at the root of each person's story ... and so he always asks that question and asks it early on.
So many sick people, everyone would know a ''normal ' guy who has molests vulnerable children. They should have their hands and dicks cut off. So So vile.unforgivable repulsive.
That really is the question at the end of Every.Single.One of these interviews. Who are these fucking people who abuse children and Seriously, how can it be stopped?
hearing someone else say, "well id been raped before, so who cares" hit my soul. I didnt realize me feeling that way was messed up until hearing someone else say it out loud.
@@tamanthalecu8912 Nothing that has happened in your life is your fault. I was taken sexual advantage of at the young age of 5. Neighbor across the street did it because I tattle taled about something and I can tell you as a man, it entirely changed the course of my life,it is the absolutely most devastating life altering event. Positive, I can tell you that healing is real and available to you, because to be honest what caused me so much pain for so many years has turned me Into an absolutely monster in my career, ethics, and morals. I am so glad you are getting this out. I came to terms with things last year as well
It's amazing to see a person go down a path that most won't tread and come out on the other side a better person for it. Crissy is a true inspiration and a beautiful woman inside and out.
@@MrDaniel9009 yes, I think if you look at the statistics and the fact that 80% of all porn has violence against women you will see that the large majority of men are a danger to women or fetish harming women. Therefore wiping out all men would logically be beneficial to women as men who are not a danger to women or fetish harming women are the minority. Now as a guy it sucks that the majority of men hate women but you need to accept the statistics.
I don't care what ppl say in the comments about her being a little girl still. Shes obviously been thru things but you can tell she has a kind and honest heart. I'm proud of how far she has come
Exactly she has a beautiful soul and spirit she's obviously hurt not "a little girl" I have been bullied most of my childhood and what I learned is that when people say negative things about you they're insecure with who they are tryna being you down, clearly her beautiful soul is triggering something within them, for anyone has called her a "little girl" seek therapy cause clearly y'all hate yourselves to be hating on her.
It wouldn’t surprise me if she is suppressing memories of her childhood. I have a strong feeling there something else to her dad’s story. Gorgeous lady and great Testimony.
She wanted someone to love her enough to not put their sexual urges ahead of her well being and need to feel safe and protected. Maybe 1 in a thousand men can do that, even less now due to the effects of pornography.Good men of honor are rare these days.
Yeah. I hated seeing interviews with female pornstars who said they knew from the age of 10, 12 or 14 that they wanted to be a pornstar. It's like, A) how the hell do you already have your mind made up that young and b) how the hell did they get so experienced at watching porn while underage. Nothing good about it.
I sadly knew about sex from the age of 7. Found my step-dads Playboys. That was in 1991. Then, in 96, I found my dad's tapes that he had. I got stuck on porn for most of my teenage years, and again in my lane 20's through my 30's, but I was using it as am escape from my mental problems. I came from an extremely broken, narcissist family. Abused by my dad and step-dad, and abandoned by my mom to my dad, so sex and porn were my release go to's. It really messed with my perception of girls growing up. This kind of stuff really pulls me away from wanting to look at porn. She is such a sweet person. I'm glad she is doing well now! Trauma is very difficult to overcome, and she seems to have done it!
She's been through so much and her eyes reflects all that pain while narrating those terrible things. However, I felt joy when she said she became another person and found her person. She's so sweet. You're a very strong woman Crissy.
Jeuss!! Are you all falling for so much bullsh!t?? She is LYINGGGG her ass off...!!! She obviously had many simple simp men, like you along the way to become a wife, and have all the things in life, but she chose to do all the rest she did like continue doing porn... this is a new phenomenon, so many pornstars lately in 2023, are "repackaging" their P to be saints, after their twenties of course, when they hit the wall!! They repent, and of course people like YOU, white knights, simps really, are buying it whole. What did she do with all that money?? exactly, she lived it up, come on guys!! How many opportunities did she have along the way?? She says it herself, she had manyyy of them... but only now that she is NOT young anymore does she come to Jesus and change... It is a repackaging or "rebranding" program and it is working wonders for Mia Kalifa and other girls like this one. Your natural MALE protective instincts are getting the best of you all. Wake the hell up!! Even now I bet you she should marry or be with a man LIKE YOU but... she cannot and will not.
She's a victim of abuse and vulnerable, you can tell by her body language and people who tend to be abusive can pick up on the vulnerability of her body language. They did studies where people with higher levels psychopathic personality traits could accurately pick a person who had been a victim of a violent crime out after viewing a video of them over 80% of the time.
@@whhe11 makes sense. You also have a heightened sense of perception which can turn you into the ultimate people pleaser in order to ward off bad things happening again. Some call it being an empath because you’re a sponge of other peoples’ emotions.
@@felicityduijkersloot6043 I’m 40 and I missed it for years. They see the empathy in me and they know how to play upon it. With some introspection, I know see it as gaslighting and manipulation - that I allowed. Everyone is different but you might take inventory of your life and see if that might be part of it. Best wishes 😀
I don't believe she's addicted to love . You would've had to used drugs before in order for you to be addicted to drugs. She had a strong yearning to be loved . She never had love before , not from her parents , not from the creeps she met along the way in her life . Through all the b.s. she STILL wanted only one desire , more than anything else but to be loved . If that is the meaning of a love addict well damn it 😔 I must be a stone cold junkie😪
I find it so strange that anyone would say she’s playing the victim or blaming the world for her problems. She literally is just telling her story. She says her life had beat her down and she had no self esteem. But no where does she say that’s anyone else’s fault? She says multiple times that she made bad choices and laughs at her own insecurities and poor choices. I think she’s just telling a story she’s told before of how she got to that low point and how she rose above it. Don’t mock her relationship with god because you disagree. Look how it changed how she feels about herself? Why is that so bad? She was so desperate for love and connection and if that’s what brought her that and stopped her making these terrible, self destructive choices WHY DO YOU CARE? It gave her hope. Good for you, Chrissy. I’m happy for you and all the positive changes you made in your life.
Some people have the strength to stand in her truth & as you said if she feels God got her through it to get to her blessings NOW, is silly to judge. She's clearly acknowledged her past & even the feelings or thoughts she "should have had then". I applaud her & side-eye those with skeletons in dark closets. #TalkTheTruth&ShameTheDevil😇
Mistysfedora That it is. Why does it bother people for others to have faith? I find that interesting and I’m not really someone who is particularly religious. If it helps people, and brings them strength and peace...so what? It’s not hurting anyone else.
@@Ecanbee I'm not religious but honestly like you said, how could I ever knock someone for believing in something that makes them feel better? I dont. It only bothers me if people dont have the same tolerance and respect for the fact that I choose not to believe the same things as them, and that's what makes me feel happy.
This story really touched me. I can relate SO much to her testimony. I too, broke down on my knees one night after being an exotic dancer for many years which I knew was not my true path. My prayer was very simple. I asked God to HELP me. I received the exact same message that this woman received. “Give up your current life and I will lead you out of the darkness. I will take care of you”....literally the next day I was offered a job (not making nearly as much money but it was honest work. Better than stripping). That was 7 years ago. Today, I stand now as a college graduate and owner of a company that brings in over 1MM dollars a year in revenue. And growing! I started from literally nothing. I could not have done it if I didn’t step out of the darkness and into the light. I am forever humbled and grateful for God’s Grace ❤️
I remember when she spoke at a church event when I was in middle school. She left a profound impact on me. Her story is powerful. She is just as sweet and humble in person
Her upbringing and what makes her great made her slip into this realm. Too much priority in wanting love. And quite honest, beautiful. But by month’s 1 end of living with her, I would be done, too. Here she is alot older and speaks like an optimistic and naive 15 year old. I can’t imagine her between 15 and early 20’s. It is a shame her adventures put her in front of the wrong people.
Sexual abuse at a young age can destroy a person forever sexually and in many other ways. I hope she’s found peace in her life doing something else. It’s astounding how common child abuse is and how profoundly damaging it is for those who have been on the suffering end of it.
I was 10 when it started happening to me. I still hate being touched and I'm married. That's one of our biggest problems. I always make up an excuse or play sick it's insane. That trauma is very real and very damaging!
It seems that so many porn performers have a history of childhood SA. Lisa Ann, one of the biggest names, has recently come out with her childhood story and links it with her decision to do porn.
It has taken an honest review of sexual abuse I experienced as a boy to finally understand how a beautiful woman like Crissy, whom I lusted after in my own confusion and pain, also come from trauma and not some fantasy realm. Lost kids afraid to tell parents when bad things happen try to make sense of it all without the maturity or internal sense of security to do so. And so we end up living desperate lives filled with pain, hurting ourselves and those around us. Finding a way out is never easy. I appreciate this channel for sharing videos of men and women facing the very real challenges of life... not always successfully. Life is not a Disney movie.
you must manage your lust by staying away from the causes and it is up to you you decide whether or not you must dominate your self because if you obey the abundance the more you satisfy your lust you will search for another you never find peace and quiet in your life till your death
I’m so sorry to hear that you were sexually abused as a child. Predators are very savvy and opportunistic and have caused so much pain and sorrow. We talk a lot about stranger danger in our society and yet most abuse is done by relatives, neighbors, or people in power known to the family (coaches, priests, etc.). PTSD is extremely common after sexual abuse and I hope someone, somewhere along the line told you that you did NOTHING wrong. You and Chrissy are survivors and I wish you all the best. BTW, there is nothing wrong with being attracted to Chrissy. She is a beautiful woman. It is very sad that she also was preyed upon by a pedophile and it greatly impacted her life choices.
Never judge a book by its cover, at first look I might think she has had a pampered easy life , but She has been through more than I could ever imagine. What a strong women. I hope all the best.
The trauma of experiencing rejection and neglect by your parents is so powerful and devastating. It stays with you forever and I think becomes more difficult to cope with as you get older. ❤
Hope is amazingly powerful. The man that confronted her on the movie set helped save her life. I thought it was going to be another story of abuse and dysfunctional relationships leading her deeper into depression and depravity. Thank God for the intervention and healing she received.
Wow... when she said you are “worthy of love” I bursted into tears! In a way I identify with her so much... attracting the wrong type of man for all of my life. Here I am 40yrs old never married, never engaged, no children and I’m just now realizing how to become what I want to attract!
You’re going to be fine. Society puts demands on us but everyone has their own story to live. You’re truly never alone if you have faith. There’s a plan for your life. Just ask for it to be revealed.
I felt so sad for her during most of the video.....she was obviously suffering from severe clinical depression for most of her life. I was really happy that she managed to get her life back on track, and ended up with a man who truly loves her! Congratulations!❤
@@PendeltonWhiskeyChrost warned about those people, as did St. Paul. I know as a Catholic, a person who believes in God, I am capable of great failings and if pushed, possibly great evil. But there are people I know who are so on fire with the love of Christ they would walk through fire for someone. My point is we one can praise Jesus with their lips but beat Him with the way they live their life.
I am so happy that she found her best self and happiness after all that trauma. she is truly a very strong woman to have gone through all that, not given up, and come out the other side of it healthy and with strong insights to help others.
The way her whole demeanor changed once she shifted to talking about her faith was remarkable and beautiful. So happy it has brought her joy and peace.
What an incredibly gentle soul. She's so incredibly vulnerable, and clearly harbouring a lot of trauma. Watching this just made me want to give her a hug.
She really just wanted to be loved and to feel safe. Shit parenting rife with trauma. Yet still retained the desire to have a good relationship and a child(probably to prove she could be a good parent). Sad
I can feel the tears in her voice from all these awful moments. She is such a brave person to be open about her journey in front of camera. She hit rock bottom. She has a level of honesty and integrity. I hope she continues to find her way forward into abundance and purity.
What a beautiful soul. I hope she finds inner peace in her life. I just want to give her a big hug and tell her that life will get better each and everyday. She just needs to surround herself with people who genuinely loves and cares about her.
A sweet, well meaning girl who was terribly abused & exposed to such a bad environment growing up. So happy to see she came out on the good end & is happy.
Yes, so sad. There are millions of good, hard working young men in America who'd love to find a pretty gal to marry and have babies with, but she kept picking doucebags who only wanted to use her then toss her aside. Likely due to her upbringing by shitty parents.
Did it feel wonderful? I just bet it did! For both of you. Life is really good even when it's breathtakingly ugly and shockingly unfair. I'm currently standing in my kitchen, being stared at by my two dogs that I love as much as any child I wanted but couldn't have, and listening to the eggs I'm boiling rattle against each other in the pan. I'm hungry so I'm making egg salad sandwiches. And I feel almost guilty but mostly I feel grateful that I have a kitchen to stand in and I'm not worried about whether I'll eat today. It's Sunday and I have nowhere to be until work in the morning. I have two doggos that depend on and adore me and I'm married to a really decent human being. I'm So. Fucking. _Lucky_ . (edited for Swypos)
@@QuinnieMae .....Good or Bad everyone’s life is different. My day consisted of shuffling 1 boy to Lacrosse and then another to Hockey and then back home to bring another to work. Told my daughter to empty the dishwasher. Did some cardboard recycling and laundry. Now I have to drive into international airport to pickup my elderly parents at the airport in a snow storm. Money is never enough but thank God were all healthy and we have a roof over our heads
Damn, poor lady. Being beautiful does have its drawbacks. She never mentions close female friends. Young ladies need to stay together when going out or even at school. Children in general are very vulnerable. As a young adult, my girlfriend, before we got together, ALWAYS had close friends and or family with her. I respected that and I never tried to separate her from her friends. It was weeks before we began going out as a couple. We got married after college. That was 31 years ago this week. - girls, be aware and stay away from people and places that can put you in a dangerous or bad situation. - if you feel uncomfortable, just leave. At a bar, tell the bartender and have a safe word.
I think I saw this lady on a documentary called "After Porn" , I have nothing against pornography but it has a habit of exploting (financially and emotionally) vulnerable people , its the vicious nature of it that offends me . This lady's soul is beautiful , no amount of porn can take that away .
RORO roro have you ever considered these girls may be in desperate need of money for food or medication or a place to stay and they have no other option
@@neon9016 Unfortunately it's far more likely they're in desperate need for drugs/alcohol - at least that's what statistics say. It's very sad, and we should still feel sympathy and empathy for them. But let's not pretend lack of food and medicine are the reasons they get into this.
I have a lot of empathy for what she's been through. If something feels "weird, awkward, and scary" listen to that intuition and don't do it. I hope the rest of her life is filled with faith, love, and happiness.
My daughter's were scared to go with someone who I didn't know. My ex has custody she dated someone and it was the girls brother. I was dropping them off and they didn't want to go I feel he did something to them but I have no proof. It hurts me everyday. I never wanted for them to go through trauma but I know they have.😥
@@chucky3333 Do everything you can to get them talking, and especially let them know that they can tell you anything and say anything to you, without reprisals, so long as it is true. If they will not talk about it to you, get them to a counselor, esp. one who specializes in sexual abuse. Kids seem to find the whole experience bewildering and overwhelming, they want to forget it; cannot always articulate themselves about it. Good energy with that.
This was difficult to watch. Almost like I couldn’t breathe as she was going through her emotions. You can tell that something happened to her more than what she is expressing. I feel so sad watching this. It’s bringing up a lot of triggers for me.
A lot has happened to me. But I continue to live and stay on track. Yes it’s a “trigger” . It’s hard to see the lives of others with similar experiences and see that they had to go through what they went through. I have overcome and continue to work through and live.
As a kid I thought beautiful women could have it all, but over my life I've found that starting at puberty, they have a life of distrust, abuse, insecurity, loneliness, and justified paranoia.
After all she has been through, she maintained her idealism. I’m happy for her that she found her husband and is happily married. She would be a good person to talk to other women that want to get a fresh start in life.
Maintaining your idealism is pure stupidity by definition. Don't enable failure. Even kids don't get sympathy when they make mistakes and porn stars shouldn't either. Not because I hate them, but because it's for their own good.
This woman is absolutely shameless LOL.....she's literally having sex with other men EVERYDAY doing porn.....and somehow has the audacity to get mad at her boyfriend for going to a strip club?? Are you serious?? Surely she can see the hypocrisy there?? She wants to "be loved" but thinks having sex with other men in porn shouldn't affect that?? LOL
What she found was God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ: John 3:27 John answered and said, “A person is not able to receive anything unless it should be given to them from the Heaven.” Praise be to God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ; blessed are they who receive both the eye to see and know the Light that has come into the world, and the ear to hear and perceive the Word of God. I thank thee Oh Lord and praise be to you for your longsuffering love, your tender mercy, the redemption of your gracious forgiveness, and your kind understanding of all things within the creation that you alone brought into being. What distinguishes this video above the rest is how many souls are truly lost and how few there are that come to find the straight gate and narrow path to Life eternal. As for that man who called this a fantasy, may the Lord rebuke him and he repent from such darkness. Else it would be better for him had he never been born than learn the eternal truth of the final destiny that awaits his soul. .
This was a powerful presentation. I am convinced that the dysfunction and abuse that young children suffer haunts them and destroys them as adults. I'm glad to see that Crissy came out of all that stronger and intact.
To all men who keep saying "not all men" please stop saying that. We know "not all men" hurt, harm and damage women but for those of us women who were victims it has been every single man that has been in our lives. When you say "not all men" you're only minimizing or ignoring our stories. You're more concerned with how you look as opposed to hearing the screams and cries of so many, too many women. We know not all but instead of saying that how about asking how you can do more to make sure women stop being victims of violent, predatory behavior.
Don't tell me what to do. How come some women come thru that stage w/o getting into porn or on the pole. Another woman's double standard. They even have an acronym (NAWALT) for "not all women are like that." I'll stop there before I really unload on you.
You make a very good point, and I'll do my best to take it to heart. I know that I've said "not all men" before because I feel defensive when I hear the generalization that "all men are_____". It's hard not to react to those statements in a defensive manner. But when you wrote "every single man that has been in our lives", that really changed my perspective. So, thank you for the insightful comment. It's unfortunate that, as of this writing, there are two posts to your comment that re-affirm the point you were trying to make. We all know that not all men are jerks, but so many men seem to want to prove that statement wrong.
@@scottdematteo3979 Thank you for understanding the point I was trying to make. Just asking for compassion...that's all it is at the core, not feminism or man bashing, just compassion. Thank you
I am SO HAPPY for you Christy! Your story was SO SAD; SO TRAGIC until the very end! Way to go for sticking to your dreams and not giving up, despite incredible trauma and setbacks! Your strength is TRULY AMAZING! May God bless you with everlasting happiness, love and friendship, and good fortune! Your husband sounds like a great man! It sounds like both of you are incredibly lucky to have found each other!
People are pathetic. This serious is NOT for us to judge. Who the F has the audacity to judge!? No one human is perfect, not one. Those that are judging, wouldn't be able to do this.
@National Trolliosis Foundation AND your a fucking idiot. I would never claim to be any one's example, but if I did, I would express an OPINION, which happens to be fact; that not one human is perfect. So yes, express an opinion, but to put others down, because somehow you think your better, is something I don't do. Your an idiot because you turned an opinion into a personal attack. So fuck off. I'm done.
Great job interviewing her the way you did it. She was able to tell her story. And she is a surprisingly fragile person, not at all what you expect. She's deserving of all the good that comes her way. Once more... great interview. Great story. Worth watching.
A remarkable story this woman has gone through so much but she was delt some horrible cards. Fortunately she met someone who truly lived her, it's a lovely end. This womN is beautiful in every way. Parenting is everything. Divorce breaks children's minds. God bless her and her life forward.
She carries a crazy amount of shame. She’s learned people pleasing from an early age and it became a big part of her identity. I hope that with age she will feel more and more confident about being just herself without anyone’s approval and she will be able to thrive.
At least a woman can speak about her pain. Men just get laughed at and ridiculed for their pain, cause they evil, cause penis. They deserve no love, no affection, no help, pick yourself up, cause you are a man. Dress like a man, no make-up, see how life is as a man.
@@mcmarkmarkson7115 Because weak men are a sign of the end times and societal failure. I would laugh at you too for whining and crying, its pathetic and a sign that you're a set of genes that need to exit the pool. Some one has to be the grownup, both genders can't be weak, coddling adult toddlers.
So you have a heart that breaks from seeing a video of a struggling person? Your heart must break dozens of times a day. Or, are you just virtue signaling. And unless you know this person and have some role in her agreeing to this interview, what are you “proud of”? You had nothing to do with it. You are simply virtue signaling to try and feel like a better person.
She's probably the most love-deprived person I've ever seen. Messages we receive as a kid really do follow us throughout our lives. She deserves to be loved, and even more so, she deserves to feel love for herself.
She seems like such a sweet soul. Obviously she has been through a lot of trauma which probably made her lose self esteem. She's an example of why daughters need good father's in their lives to speak life and love into them properly so they understand their self worth. She's a beautiful woman also so it just goes to show that even beautiful women can have self esteem issues.
Lots of beautiful women have self-esteem issues. One of my best friends growing up dated models and beautiful women and he said they all had self-esteem issues. They just hide it differently - probably due to the expectations society has of good looking people not having self-esteem issues.
@@doodahgurlie Bro I'm not sure how old you are or how many divorces you've had.But ALL women are insecure and usually it has little to do with how pretty they are. I've dated models and they're insecure. ALL WOMEN
@@jizim8947 Bro, I'm not disagreeing with you. I was just addressing Leonard's comment where he said "even beautiful women can have self esteem issues".
What about the girls mother, while she was getting molested where was she? The father was always protective of her. Also note when the mother took her away she said it was to protect her - even though the father never molested or hurt her. Yet when the father took her away from the mother she agreed she was "kidnapped". It's a big double standard. Generally it's the mother who notices changes in child's behavior when they are being molested and abused. I bet her mother was more concerned with herself.
What are you talking about? Just because she's not jaded and still has that child like openness does not mean she's still a little girl, she overcame her past, only a strong woman can do that.
It's interesting how you'd ask an adult about his childhood, suddenly she becomes a young girl again. With all the tension and discomfort just like a young girl.
Her demeanour and personality, even her voice changed completely when she started to speak about leaving the industry and finding God! Faith is a powerful thing!
Strict religious behavior doesn't really help you to find and define yourself. But it gives people that fail in doing so by themselves, guidelines and instructions to live a heathy live and stay away from those people that abuse other people's weakness and insecurities.
Michael Hart That's a defense mechanism hard wired into us to protect our emotional health. Mentally healthy people tend to laugh after sharing something they are ashamed of experiencing. It counteracts the otherwise impending sorrow over the ordeal. I've caught myself doing it multiple times after it was pointed out, and explained, to me by a psychology professional.
My sister and I do the same thing when we talk about our childhood trauma. We laugh it off now because it's over, there is no reason to let it hurt us anymore.
The problem is that even though she had a rough childhood, there would have been no option for porn if we didn’t allow it. We should never accept it, like in the past.
@@Lunalavender83 zero evidence he did not do something? You kidding right? With that approach you can pin anything to anyone! You could be right or wrong about this, so it is fiffty/fiffty for you, but not for the people you accuse of something they possibly did not do. Be careful in life with that. This is just comment section, so I guess it is ok.
@@Lunalavender83 I know you hate men. You've been brainwashed, as have most westernized women and now many men as well. The woman in this video says nothing directly about her dad molesting her. However, she did say her dad's friends were around drinking and dad saying odd things about her virginity. I would never allow that around my girls.
There’s such strength in this level of openness and vulnerability. It provokes dialogue and promotes understanding. Thank you for sharing your story. I related to it on so many diff levels. Thank you for being real.
It very much is. I have nothing to validate me besides my looks. I think I’m funny and kind but my appearance is the focus even From friends and family ....it’s a strange way to live your whole life.
I agree. Being thought of as a sexual object and nothing more is disheartening. Makes one develop a sense of being alone and guarded. This leads to men thinking you’re property. It’s tiring.
@Tony Tran so getting an abortion is crossing the line? You’re not allowed to determine what is right or wrong in someone else’s life and choices regarding themselves. Ones body is inviolable, subject to ones own will alone.
Who made her that way? It started with a bad childhood.....people taking advantage of her innocence as a child. Her own father was the main culprit. What a whacko.
i think the role of alcohol in the destruction of so many families can't be understated. i gave up alcohol 10 years ago when i had kids. don't regret it for a second.
My father used to drink, it was trauma for me personally for many years untill I became father myself, I don't drink and can't stand those who drink or even smoke, my children never seen me drunk or with cigarette.
Beautiful testimony. She’s beautiful, intelligent, speaks thoughtfully and even though she was in hell, she kept going. This is one of my favorites. I have so much appreciation for you in this work and interviews.
This made me cry because I can sadly relate to a lot of what she went through unfortunately. I'm extremely happy that she found God and a good husband who loves and respects her. She seems like a really good person and didn't deserve to go through all of that stuff in her life. I truly wish her the best
Uhm, seems like she just doesn't want to acknowledge that her dad was also sexually abusive. So odd to hear someone speak about their life as if they're telling a strangers story.
It's called disassociation, it's the mind's way of protecting us from trauma, by shifting us into the perspective of a third party observer, rather than keeping us a 1st person direct experience
Wow. I started watching this and couldn’t stop. God bless this woman. Her strength and determination are so inspiring. What a journey. I’m so happy she’s in a better place.
This sucks. I can remember being about 12 I was crazy about horses, rode all the time, etc. My dad had brought these two guys home from whatever bar he'd been at and one of them made a sexual comment about riding horses. My dad jumped up and he had every intention of killing that guy. He pulled a knife and I grabbed it and he froze because he didn't want to cut me. He kept telling me to let go and I wouldn't and that man ran out the door. My dad kept trying to coax him in and I yelled through the screen door not to come back. It was really scary but he was NOT going to tolerate so much as an untoward comment about me. He's a Vietnam veteran, has no fear. He'd kill someone that hurt me if it was necessary. It was scary but those guys left thank goodnesss.
Similar thing happened to me. A guy I rode horses with (in a big group, not alone) he was like 60 and I was 17, he shoved me against a wall in a barn ans kisses me. Luckily I was able to get away and that was the last time I was near him. I wish my dad had been there
Mark, the beauty of her story is how she was transformed from within. Thank you for giving a story like this. Most people would have laughed and even scorned this woman but you gave her story a chance.
It would have been easiest for this woman to just slip back into her old lifestyle. Her determination to follow the straight and narrow rather than continue on her road of destruction is commendable and something we can all respect.
Matt 7:13-20: Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it. Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
Living with trauma, depression, sexual and physical abuse, no boundaries, no self worth, abusing substances, guilt, low self esteem might leave one feeling destroyed, damaged and hopeless..but we can all elevate our moral standards if we learn what God expects from us..it may sound too antiquated to some.. but the self control and mutual respect Crissy and her husband had/have for each other while dating set the stage for a happy life together w many blessings.
Listening to her speaking in this voice tone and with this sadness in her eyes is so heartbreaking... It is as if the little girl she once was is here expressing all her pain in an adult body. I am so very sorry for all the abuse this woman has suffered. Someone here said something so true: "Sometimes people have cried all their tears already". I guess Crissy did. So much trauma living with in. Childhood traumas leave such a fingerprint of deep pain in someone's core. She carries still a lot of vulnerability but also a lot of strength. Thank you for sharing your story Crissy. We can see your pain. We can feel it. I hope you have found joy, love, and peace in your life.
All she wanted was a husband, I can relate so much to that. Ever since I was a little girl I just wanted a husband and my little family. That lead me to so many bad relationships. Finally I'm where I always wanted to be. So sad to hear what this lady went through but I'm glad she is finally happy and in a safe place in her life ❤
If I thought that was real for me, I’d still be trying for it. I’ve seen the ugly side of married man so much & I love my running partner. I’m not sure if most people should be hoping for monogamy, if that was ever a realistic concept, or what. It sure doesn’t work well for a lot of people.
You’re preaching to the choir! Especially when we feel unloved, we think that’s the fix all. After divorce and other bullshit, I’ve been prioritizing myself. I have no urge to be with anyone for awhile. I’m glad that she is doing well. Thank God!!!
I am 25 years old. A husband and father to two daughters. One thing I learned from my father is that you don’t bring friends home. You keep your buddy’s out side of the home. The house is a sanctuary for my wife and my kids and I believe as a husband, you don’t bring other guys in to your home because you can’t trust a single soul.
You literally don't invite your friends to your house? Because you are worried they will abuse your family? I don't understand . . .
that's fukt.
Luis, that's very smart. Keep men away from your wife and daughters. 99% of sexual predators are someone the family knows AND TRUSTS.
Not only are you respectable, but also smart. Your wife and children must really admire you.
Luis Sarduy great perspective
Molesting children should get automatic death sentence. Worst type of crime imaginable.
If they go to prison for SA on a minor, they're a dead man/ woman walking. So there is that.
What about child molesting an another child? Male childrens are born with different amount of testosterones, and they can get influenced by pornography real quick. Americans don't have any precautions against pornography (one set of easy question is not going to work).
Yeah! The US has little accountability for criminals like these. They get to live for free, eat free food, and get recreation at the cost of tax payers.
@@xyero4399most of the time cosca happens because the one doing the abusing was abused by an adult first
It's not the Law , it's deeper than that , you might not want to hear this by it seems pretty much common in American society and for a long while now . I know it happens in every country but your prison's are full of men and women who have hurt children in the states
It's so tough growing up as a girl when older men start noticing your body changing. It's something that haunts you forever.
What about younger boys
I'm a girl so idk
It really is
Ruby Violet Agreed. It becomes so uncomfortable being anywhere. I started developing from a young age and watched how men began to look at me different as I changed. To this day I still feel uncomfortable being out near men.
If it's that deep, get a license and exercise your second amendment right. Then you won't have to live in fear,
you will live in power.
Crissy Moran, I used to do security for her on sets and during club tours. She was a total sweetheart. I'm glad to hear she made it out and found a new calling in her life.
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@David-yh7up Glass blowing.
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@David-yh7up welding
If I am not mistaken she played the bone harp and skin flute.... live.
I feel like she is emotionally stunted. She even speaks like a small girl. So innocent. All she wanted was love and respect. I am proud of you.
Ummm. . . no! Comments like this are an example of how tragedies such as those this woman is talking about is allowed to happen. There is nothing "proud" about being so naive that you are vulnerable to the point of being raped and roofied. Wtf is wrong with people? What she (and girls like her) need to be told is that they are acting like a dumb bitch and can do better than that.
Emaunual Carr seems u have some shit inside you that got triggered so strongly
You can't judge her off these few things Like maybe your so angry cause your lacking inside
Otherwise no reason to be so angry you write BYE LADY
Wish u sat in front of a camera and people from other life styles judge you You don't understand her insecurities or can say for sure why she's talking like that It's the way she deals with her issues
You yell on messaging to deal with yours about a person facing a camera while you sit and judge every little thing and diagnosed it such in such an enraged mannor
@@emanualcarr7408 ok incel
@@stacey7954 The same way you say I'm judging her is the same way you attempted to judge me for having a *different perspective* with intensity that I'm entitled to, as I am unapologetic (fuck your feelings) when I speak in general. VS your view point. I just call people out on their nonsense when I feel there are discrepancies their statements and hypocrisy in their actions.
*You got triggered* because you took the bait of some random woman being interviewed for a blog who (appears to be) helpless and innocent, yet her (actions) contradict the very thing she was saying caused her supposed distress with men. It's like saying I don't like racism yet you attend a Klan rally. Even people who have other trauma are consistent to their trauma. But it's like (she plays on your intelligence) with her sob story, and you never once heard her say; I seeked help for it or attended any treatment programs for my issue. But I'm open to telling my story to help others who have a similar story yada yada. She's behind a camera telling the world how traumatized she is supposed to be when convenient to financially capitalize off it in (porn) and who knows what else.
Then she tries to play ethical consciousness as she navigates through her story. "I got with these men thinking I may have to sleep with them because they are doing me a favor, but I know I didn't want to becauses it crosses my boundaries." I'm like BITCH SHUT up, your boundaries were crossed the minute you gave into temptation thinking *financial gane would fix your alleged sexual trauma.* Like who acts like this who really wants help? Don't play on the public's intelligence, I peep the bull shit.
I'm sure the *"Me too movement"* would question her rational, knowing a Gloria Allred would never be able to defend such hypocrisy with such blatant inconsistencies. You so traumatized, never once saut help? But you're smart enough to gain monetarily for such trauma in the way of doing porn with multiple different men who you deemed to be your talent agents. GTFOH with that nonsense, epic fail!
It's funny you have all this empathy for a random white woman looking for pity in her self induced failures, but don't seem to keep the same energy when it came to R. Kelly's (victims) who were Black women with factual data to their trauma, not an online interview. Yea, that part right there. You pick and choose what narrative you want to run with. But I see through all the smoke screens.
@@jjetsam8739 You're not qualified as a random blogger to make such a diagnoses. Learn the meaning of the word *incel* before attempting to devalue someone elses opinion, opposite of your rational. Thinking in some way it will boost your online persona or credentials. The word isn't even formally in the dictionary. Just made up nonsense by (your people). My people not burning churches down, mosques, and running over innocent people with cars like they did the woman in Virgina.
As you want to do the word play game, diagnose your own people with their mental health issues when they commit *"HOMEGROWN TERRORISM,"* that the American government doesn't want to label such. But continue to give them a pass. In hopes of keeping underlying White supremacy alive knowing they are slowly but surely becoming the American minority. Yea that part right there. Smirk
So you can have several seats and tam your ego. The internet has NO filter on my end. I say what I mean and mean what I say unapologetically (fuck your opinion and feelings) while you seek likes and clicks it will not alter my perspective. We can have different opinions and express ourselves in any way we choose, along RUclips guidelines of (respect) posted at the top of each blog.
These interviews have taught me the importance of being a good parent
Michael Franzese interview was the closest thing to healthy ive heard so far and he was a Mobster
Funny I recently started watching and I said the same to my other half. I told her we have a huge responsibility
You look like you got trouble written all over you.
Hands down!!! You are 100%correct
If it took this you may have more problems.
she maybe an adult but she still has a very childlike aura. That's what childhood trauma does to you. It keeps you stuck in that child state and you never really grow out of it. The pain you can see from her eyes is piercing. This woman is so beautiful in and out and just hope she has found peace in her life.
Spot on 💯👏
Precisely this.
I just feel like she was able to connect very fully with her child-self. You can tell from the end of the interview that she's a fully integrated adult.
That is true.
I am a father of two daughters and it hurts me to listen to her story.
But just imagine if she ends up being with someone very nice bloke and down the track after certain time spent together, she starts fighting and arguing and everything goes to he'll. It's just not worth it to be around people with so trauma. I hope she finds someone who can really love her and appreciate who she is.
That's true, arrested development.
"be the woman that is going to attract the guy that you want" such wise words...same advise for men. She is so beautiful and soft even after everything she went through; her beauty shines through. I wish her and her husband the best and may they live a very happy and long life together. Congratulations to both!
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I agree, if you get fake b00bs, expect fake men.
If you ever come across someone who smiles or laughs while recounting horrific events they've experienced, just know that it's a trauma response to try and perceive it as "not so bad". If our brains can't process the pain, sometimes we try to make light of it. Not everyone will burst into tears when they tell their story. Sometimes people have cried all their tears already.
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THIS
Spot on!
weird, ive been through worse than this woman and i dont smile and giggle when recounting it
@@AbBc-w4q everyone has different ways of coping with things
Sad to see so many disrespectful comments. These videos are supposed to be about finding empathy for people that are different from us, not to judge them.
@RORO roro The interviews give a greater depth and understanding to those conclusions, based on a clearer emotional connection to their experiences that we didn't have before. So yes, by definition, empathy.
Incels. The comments are typically vicious for beautiful women.
Their not different their human like all of us .
Easy for people to judge others in the shadows when they haven't lived certain things being born with that persons brain and genetics
@@lavinder11 yup jealous and I'm sure she dealt wt a lot of hateful woman that don't understand what she goes through Just cause your beautiful doesn't mean somebody doesn't have inner struggling
“It was better to be abused, than to be alone” I know so many people who believe this and let it inform their lives. So heartbreaking 💔
Ive been abused and have lived alone for the past ten years they are both equally debilitating. Im weird now. Too much isolation.
That is very sad. The sad part of that the potential the best thing for these people to do is to be alone and gather the strength to stand on their own two feet - however daunting that might be perceived by them in the midst of what they're going through. There is something to be said of letting go of what one seeks in desperation to come to terms and address that desperation within to pave the way for happiness... The universe can be weird like that.
@@arikalamari19 Safe to say Ive got this isolation situation down! Who knew it would come in handy some day.
I know women in my life SO MANY that have this attitude. Strange that women are attracted to these type of men, Especially Naive women like this. Never have I seen an intellectual woman stand for this kind of shit.
*@Lea*
Keep on keeping on ; )
Girl ❤❤🎉 i am a Christian and hearing this 🙌 i want to sing Hallelujah right now ❤ what a testimony. praying for every lady going through this similar path. May the power of God reach you.❤
After watching all these videos, I've learned TWO lessons..
1. - "Never judge people, cause you never know what they've been through"
2. - "Always show respect"
But I bet you forget :)
Number one, 9 times out of 10, that is very true.
Abused people are damaged goods.
But then shouldn't we judge people based on their actions?
@@blindfire951 You're not there yet. You see them first.
There's a special place in Hell for people that abuse children in any way.
C'mon. What?!
There's no "special" place in Hell. You high?
Hell is eternal torture. That itself is enough for child molesters.
@@Lab4ny34 I have to disagree, I believe there's a worse version of Hell for people like Hitler, Stalin, Mao, Cho Mo's etc. Compared to horrible people in general that didn't kill people by the Millions.
@@andyv16012 Maybe you're right. Who knows 🤷. All I know is that sin..is sin. No matter if you killed 1 person or 50,000. Honestly. If you think about it. Do you really think the devil would give Hitler (whom by the way never actually killed anyone) the red carpet treatment? ...
No!! He doesn't care. 🤷 His whole objective is to bring any and everybody to hell for torment. The bible mentions non stop torture to the point were if you kill yourself, you're brought right back to life to resume torture. Isnt that by itself bad enough?
So no..I dont think there's levels. I think helll itself is THEE worst place to be. But then again, you'd have to believe there is a hell in the first place. If you don't...
Then the devil has already one.
In Divine Comedy the hell is divided into 9 divisions based on graduation of wickedness and descension of love, the 9th division is the place of betrayal where Satan is for his treachery against God. A child sexual abuse is the ultimate betrayal , violation of human connection to an innocent child . Child abusers are at the bottom of the hell paying for the worst sin . The inscription on the gate of Dante’s Hell says “Abandon all hope ye who enter here...” .... I am not a revengeful person but I think that’s what they deserve
There are a lot of interviewers who could learn a bunch from Mark’s style of non-judgmental, non-interrupting, questioning.
He slipped up once that I know of. I was surprised.
Ehh, he's made quite a few mistakes in his interviews that indirectly blamed the victims. Being quiet is good, though; agreed.
Compared to other interviewers, absolutely. I feel that every now and then, the interviewer may feel the need to kind of pull the interviewee back on track by cutting in and asking a question. As long as it’s not overdone, I see no problem with that.
Mark really is very good, and his style and tone are very calm and unintimidating.
Lol Oprah comes to mind
Crissy's candid, honest autobiography and Mark's caring approach, especially his validation of her personal growth at the end, invites support and compassion.
So many young women just need ONE good trustworthy man - father, friend, or husband. It changes everything.
Couldn't agree more. That first protector should always be the Father. If a Father isn't there then this is the path young women go down and the STATS bear that out.
"So many young women just need ONE good trustworthy man" ...no. this is exactly the type of propaganda that gets them into this situation in the first place. how is someone supposed to know that man is trustworthy?
Just stop consuming p orn already
I agree completely with this. I didn’t have that and it was and is a loss.
Her dad sounds so GROSS. Dads in general who act like their daughters body and virginity belong to them are GROSS. if you just taught your daughter that her body belongs to her, and not anyone else, she may have had a healthier view of sex.
I have 3 Daughters, I've really impressed to them, you "own" your body, if they don't want to hug a family member they are not pushed to do it. They're young Adults now. I've told them whether your married or not, you can say "No" and He should respect that, you are the "owner" of your body.
you dad must have been a big pussy
It is a balanced. A dad is supposed to protect their daughters’ bodies until their mature enough to do it for themselves. Yes, they should should not be forced to hug ect. When they don’t want to, but we give children way too much responsibility too young. A four year old does not have the capability to protect themselves. Therefore parents are the protectors of their bodies.
Her dad was a patriarch. A good man
i’m 18 and my parents act like they own me, i can’t decide anything for myself😔
Shes reliving it in her mind and she has so much anxiety in her voice. I hope shes okay.
@Amy Hundley I only watched it up to 31:39. But yeah I'd say shes dealing with mental health issues bc of what happened
@Amy Hundley I watched the rest and yeah I'm so happy for her 💞
She's been involved in ministering to women trying to escape the sex industry for years. She's a lovely, wonderful human being.
@@JBird000 💜💜
I noticed that too. You can also tell with her body language how anxious she is. It’s heartbreaking.
This is a little girl talking in a adult woman's body.
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@@Mattsabih That's EXACTLY what I thought as soon as I heard the first 2 minutes! This poor girl was traumatized and never grew up! Sadly this is a common story. She's a gorgeous young woman, it's too bad everyone took advantage of her. Her scum-bag father is mostly to blame for exposing her to his drunken friends and not protecting her from the people around them! Her mom doesn't sound too loving either! I hope she finds a guy who truly loves and respects her. I can't believe she had to go online to FIND someone to love her and she ends up with all these slime-ball predators who exploit her! I'm only 20 min. in and I can't believe how child-like and innocent she is, my heart is bleeding for her! Looking for love in all the wrong places! All of these scum-bags that abused her need a couple behind the ear, AFTER torturing them, friggin' maggots!
The Mad Badger I’m going to a lot of similar situations as she is, it’s common unfortunately
@@juliettezea9507 I'll keep you in my prayers
Yeah she is silly
Jesus christ. She seems like such a lovely person. Its hard to hear she's gone through so much trauma. I'm a horrible person by comparison and havent gone through nearly as much crap. I really wish her the best. I'm just over 10 minutes into the whole interview and its hard. What a fucked up world. She's got a strong mentality man.
Such a luminous person. A mixture of fragility and resilience, wisdom and innocence. A compellingly beautiful woman. Just love that advice: Be the woman that will attract the kind of man you want. That is so true. It takes years to learn it though.
Gwen Lewis I love how you just described her. 💛 beautiful words
Gwen Lewis your comment should be highlighted,just a beautiful description of the lady.
How many girls are actually taught that? Look how weve had to fight for women's and girls rights. We're still not there.
@@cynthiaallen9225 The price of that lesson is really high for most people, and in some cases, it costs everything they have.
@@gwenlewis4443 I agree.
She reminds me of Marylin Monroe. She has this sweet, child-like mentality but a childhood and history of abuse and not enough love.
Totally!
M.M. was very intelligent actually. Some of the quotes attributed to her are eloquent and clever.
@@napelvision She played piano so well she had considered becoming a concert pianist. Marilyn also was a very good cook, loved to sew, loved to read complex self help books. She was very smart, knew how to flip her "Marilyn Monroe" switch whilst being Norma Jeane in her private life.
@@iosifmd i think so judging by the comment
Totally does! Poor thing she seems so sweet. But has a lot of pain :(
The moral for most of these stories is: ‘STOP BEING A SHITTY PARENT’ or one day one of these interviews will be your kid😡
Exactly!!!!
Stop being a shitty human! Some people have great parents with shitty friends, or a shitty manager or shitty boss. So no excuses stop being shitty.
Amen!!!
I had good parents. I knew what the responsibilities of a parent were. I never felt like in my life I was ready to raise a child.
So I been wearing a condom since I was 15. They work.
I had the best Mom and Step-Dad. I am 43 and they are still amazing to me. Me and my sister have been in jail, in trouble, through rehab. Put them through absolute shit! Sometimes, SOMETIMES, it is the kid not the parents.
My sister thinks both our parents were good parents, but my mom has anxiety disorder and paranoia and my dad was like a stoic, hardly showed any emotion, never said "I love you", hardly talked to us. Today my sister is an obese lesbian with anger issues and tattoos all over her body. So if both you and your sibling turned out bad, then your parents failed somewhere, you just have poor judgment to see it.
Wow, I just realized who she was.. she was a porn actress who my ex used to print pictures out of and say he wanted me to look like her, and to hear her say how less then she felt when her partners would watch porn made it come around full circle for me. Honestly it healed my heart just a tad. That man really broke me down. I m glad to see your doing better
That must have been a shocking moment for you, very upsetting.
You sound ugly, I don't blame him
Crazy that meanwhile she was on the other end thinking she's not enough by comparison. I'm so happy she found someone who she could trust and grow with. And I hope the same for you! 🙏
I am a man and would like to apologise for this horrible nasty person and I hope you and Crissy have a fun happy life ❤
@@richardtaylor2449Simp 😅
I am impressed by this lady. She has survived abusive family, abusive partners, drugs and the porn industry and she still comes out of all of it so sweet and beautiful!
i totally empathize with her- She is so beautiful people have projected on her Her whole life...starting with her father-. We must remember our innocence.
@@telahquemere6100 She has such a innocent pretty voice
I’ve got some swamp land in Florida for sale.
OMGosh....really! If she had a different look you wouldn’t have the same thoughts! She’s a very good actress. Go find her and fix her ha ha ha ha maybe she will marry you!
Dawn Miller … speculate Much ??!!
The level of molestion and child abuse that exists in everday human life is absolutely ridiculous (almost very story shared on this platform has included it in some shape or form); almost as ridiculous as our refusal to address it.
Yep. It's revealed in almost every interview because the interviewer knows it's likely at the root of each person's story ... and so he always asks that question and asks it early on.
So many sick people, everyone would know a ''normal ' guy who has molests vulnerable children. They should have their hands and dicks cut off. So So vile.unforgivable repulsive.
That really is the question at the end of Every.Single.One of these interviews. Who are these fucking people who abuse children and Seriously, how can it be stopped?
Yes..its really the real pandemic in this country when you understand the fallout
@@mileysong1117 exactly. And when they get caught they only get light sentences. Its ridiculous!!!!
hearing someone else say, "well id been raped before, so who cares" hit my soul. I didnt realize me feeling that way was messed up until hearing someone else say it out loud.
Get a good therapist.........trust me, it matters
I care. You do matter. Please get the help you need. 🙏
Same, I barely told my family last yr and it was when I was 11. Two decades ago.
@@tamanthalecu8912 Nothing that has happened in your life is your fault. I was taken sexual advantage of at the young age of 5. Neighbor across the street did it because I tattle taled about something and I can tell you as a man, it entirely changed the course of my life,it is the absolutely most devastating life altering event. Positive, I can tell you that healing is real and available to you, because to be honest what caused me so much pain for so many years has turned me Into an absolutely monster in my career, ethics, and morals. I am so glad you are getting this out. I came to terms with things last year as well
If I had $1000 for every time I heard a women say "I was raped" after the fact, I'd be a millionaire!
It's amazing to see a person go down a path that most won't tread and come out on the other side a better person for it. Crissy is a true inspiration and a beautiful woman inside and out.
The still shot of her - her eyes say, “please don’t judge me.” Her story hurts my heart. She really has such a sweet, trusting heart.
As a man listening to this really makes me want to wipe men off the face of the earth
@@PeachesandCream225 so, you believe every man to be exactly like this? even yourself?
@@MrDaniel9009 yes, I think if you look at the statistics and the fact that 80% of all porn has violence against women you will see that the large majority of men are a danger to women or fetish harming women. Therefore wiping out all men would logically be beneficial to women as men who are not a danger to women or fetish harming women are the minority. Now as a guy it sucks that the majority of men hate women but you need to accept the statistics.
@@elgalloblanco did you even watch the video? and if you did and have this opinion then please leave our society
@@elgalloblanco lol you sound like a super villain! "I am reality" so you are reality man? Pure cringeee
I don't care what ppl say in the comments about her being a little girl still. Shes obviously been thru things but you can tell she has a kind and honest heart. I'm proud of how far she has come
I know...people can be such jerks.
Exactly she has a beautiful soul and spirit she's obviously hurt not "a little girl" I have been bullied most of my childhood and what I learned is that when people say negative things about you they're insecure with who they are tryna being you down, clearly her beautiful soul is triggering something within them, for anyone has called her a "little girl" seek therapy cause clearly y'all hate yourselves to be hating on her.
People don’t understand...that’s from trauma. It steals everything.
It wouldn’t surprise me if she is suppressing memories of her childhood. I have a strong feeling there something else to her dad’s story. Gorgeous lady and great Testimony.
Nel Njai totally agree with you
You can see it in her eyes and the pauses and she looks up in the sky a lot
@@infiniti37G you're disgusting and should be ashamed of yourself. This is not the fucking place
infiniti37G were they good?
Girl me too! I think he Dad molested her and was pimping her out to his friends! Yes, I went all the way there!
It's so beautiful to see she's doing so well now. She has the most adorable laugh. And wow, she looks amazing for 50!
50? No way!
She is truly gorgeous woman.
She's not 50 at this video. She's been married 6 years since 35/36. So that makes her 41/42!
50?are you sure?
Wow she looks 35
She just wanted someone who loved her enough to COMMIT to loving her, unlike her parents
Exactly
She wanted someone to love her enough to not put their sexual urges ahead of her well being and need to feel safe and protected. Maybe 1 in a thousand men can do that, even less now due to the effects of pornography.Good men of honor are rare these days.
@@1adadada
interesting theory yo'.
Try loving yourself first
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She broke at one point and asked "how does a kid know about sex at that age?" Her own story is one the many possible answers to that question.
Yeah. I hated seeing interviews with female pornstars who said they knew from the age of 10, 12 or 14 that they wanted to be a pornstar. It's like, A) how the hell do you already have your mind made up that young and b) how the hell did they get so experienced at watching porn while underage. Nothing good about it.
Deep!
Very good point
I sadly knew about sex from the age of 7. Found my step-dads Playboys. That was in 1991. Then, in 96, I found my dad's tapes that he had. I got stuck on porn for most of my teenage years, and again in my lane 20's through my 30's, but I was using it as am escape from my mental problems. I came from an extremely broken, narcissist family. Abused by my dad and step-dad, and abandoned by my mom to my dad, so sex and porn were my release go to's. It really messed with my perception of girls growing up. This kind of stuff really pulls me away from wanting to look at porn. She is such a sweet person. I'm glad she is doing well now! Trauma is very difficult to overcome, and she seems to have done it!
She's been through so much and her eyes reflects all that pain while narrating those terrible things. However, I felt joy when she said she became another person and found her person. She's so sweet. You're a very strong woman Crissy.
She found Jesus, honey.
@@ruthtirado2750 Im still watching her old videos and she is very dirty :\
Imagine . . Her father was a preacher ! Ughhhh
@@carolgayfagerhaugh1969 watching videos :\
Jeuss!!
Are you all falling for so much bullsh!t?? She is LYINGGGG her ass off...!!!
She obviously had many simple simp men, like you along the way to become a wife, and have all the things in life, but she chose to do all the rest she did like continue doing porn... this is a new phenomenon, so many pornstars lately in 2023, are "repackaging" their P to be saints, after their twenties of course, when they hit the wall!!
They repent, and of course people like YOU, white knights, simps really, are buying it whole. What did she do with all that money?? exactly, she lived it up, come on guys!!
How many opportunities did she have along the way?? She says it herself, she had manyyy of them... but only now that she is NOT young anymore does she come to Jesus and change...
It is a repackaging or "rebranding" program and it is working wonders for Mia Kalifa and other girls like this one. Your natural MALE protective instincts are getting the best of you all.
Wake the hell up!!
Even now I bet you she should marry or be with a man LIKE YOU but... she cannot and will not.
Have had girlfriend like her. Never emotionally progress beyond childhood and never take responsibility for anything. Sad.
She’s empathic. That’s why the predators were attracted to her. She gives off a sweet and vulnerable quality.
She's a victim of abuse and vulnerable, you can tell by her body language and people who tend to be abusive can pick up on the vulnerability of her body language. They did studies where people with higher levels psychopathic personality traits could accurately pick a person who had been a victim of a violent crime out after viewing a video of them over 80% of the time.
@@whhe11 makes sense. You also have a heightened sense of perception which can turn you into the ultimate people pleaser in order to ward off bad things happening again. Some call it being an empath because you’re a sponge of other peoples’ emotions.
Is that it? I attract creeps all the time and I don’t understand why
@@felicityduijkersloot6043 I’m 40 and I missed it for years. They see the empathy in me and they know how to play upon it. With some introspection, I know see it as gaslighting and manipulation - that I allowed. Everyone is different but you might take inventory of your life and see if that might be part of it. Best wishes 😀
Naive and not very intelligent too. Feel sorry for her, she is sweet, I'm sure guys take advantage.
I think she was addicted to love in the same way someone can be addicted to drugs
Emilie Roberge Absolutely. Love addiction is real.
Not not addicted, she's constantly looking for it in the wrong places.
I don't believe she's addicted to love .
You would've had to used drugs before in order for you to be addicted to drugs. She had a strong yearning to be loved . She never had love before , not from her parents , not from the creeps she met along the way in her life . Through all the b.s. she STILL wanted only one desire , more than anything else but to be loved .
If that is the meaning of a love addict well damn it 😔 I must be a stone cold junkie😪
yes
addicted to what she believes is love perhaps.
I find it so strange that anyone would say she’s playing the victim or blaming the world for her problems. She literally is just telling her story. She says her life had beat her down and she had no self esteem. But no where does she say that’s anyone else’s fault? She says multiple times that she made bad choices and laughs at her own insecurities and poor choices. I think she’s just telling a story she’s told before of how she got to that low point and how she rose above it. Don’t mock her relationship with god because you disagree. Look how it changed how she feels about herself? Why is that so bad? She was so desperate for love and connection and if that’s what brought her that and stopped her making these terrible, self destructive choices WHY DO YOU CARE? It gave her hope. Good for you, Chrissy. I’m happy for you and all the positive changes you made in your life.
Some people have the strength to stand in her truth & as you said if she feels God got her through it to get to her blessings NOW, is silly to judge. She's clearly acknowledged her past & even the feelings or thoughts she "should have had then". I applaud her & side-eye those with skeletons in dark closets. #TalkTheTruth&ShameTheDevil😇
I have noticed that people get turned off or repulsed by hearing people find strength in something they cant see. It is interesting.
Mistysfedora That it is. Why does it bother people for others to have faith? I find that interesting and I’m not really someone who is particularly religious. If it helps people, and brings them strength and peace...so what? It’s not hurting anyone else.
@@Ecanbee I'm not religious but honestly like you said, how could I ever knock someone for believing in something that makes them feel better? I dont. It only bothers me if people dont have the same tolerance and respect for the fact that I choose not to believe the same things as them, and that's what makes me feel happy.
People who love their porn addiction HATE being taught the truth about how horrifying it is because they don't want to stop. I see it all the time.
Thank you for your honesty and sharing your story. I’m sorry you endured abuse but glad that you have overcome it. God Bless.
This story really touched me. I can relate SO much to her testimony. I too, broke down on my knees one night after being an exotic dancer for many years which I knew was not my true path. My prayer was very simple. I asked God to HELP me. I received the exact same message that this woman received. “Give up your current life and I will lead you out of the darkness. I will take care of you”....literally the next day I was offered a job (not making nearly as much money but it was honest work. Better than stripping). That was 7 years ago. Today, I stand now as a college graduate and owner of a company that brings in over 1MM dollars a year in revenue. And growing! I started from literally nothing. I could not have done it if I didn’t step out of the darkness and into the light. I am forever humbled and grateful for God’s Grace ❤️
Brittani Williams can you please give me information on this company? God bless you
Yes queen!! Congrats
That really worked out for Andrea Yates and her children too!! 🤣😂😂😂😂😂
I’m so glad you made it out of your darkness and are successful . You are worthy !
What is your company name?
I'm not a religious person but the fact she was searching for someone to love her, and then she realised that God loved her all along was so lovely.
I remember when she spoke at a church event when I was in middle school. She left a profound impact on me. Her story is powerful. She is just as sweet and humble in person
Her upbringing and what makes her great made her slip into this realm. Too much priority in wanting love. And quite honest, beautiful. But by month’s 1 end of living with her, I would be done, too.
Here she is alot older and speaks like an optimistic and naive 15 year old. I can’t imagine her between 15 and early 20’s.
It is a shame her adventures put her in front of the wrong people.
She's a pornstar....
Sexual abuse at a young age can destroy a person forever sexually and in many other ways.
I hope she’s found peace in her life doing something else. It’s astounding how common child abuse is and how profoundly damaging it is for those who have been on the suffering end of it.
I was 10 when it started happening to me. I still hate being touched and I'm married. That's one of our biggest problems. I always make up an excuse or play sick it's insane. That trauma is very real and very damaging!
It seems that so many porn performers have a history of childhood SA. Lisa Ann, one of the biggest names, has recently come out with her childhood story and links it with her decision to do porn.
She seems very immature and superficial. Maybe from the abuse. Counseling would help.
This is ONE of the many reasons I hate porn. At the heart of all porn is pain, exploitation, and abuse.
THIS COMMENTS SHOULD HAVE THE MOST LIKES 👍🏼
Pain, exploitation and abuse are at the heart of any industry.
i love it
@ThirdeyeStrike why not. It is fruit of the poisoned tree. Liking it doesn't make it good.
@@samuelliotta9437 but exploitation and abuse IS the heart of porn. Other industries may use people to it's end. Porn's end is using people.
It has taken an honest review of sexual abuse I experienced as a boy to finally understand how a beautiful woman like Crissy, whom I lusted after in my own confusion and pain, also come from trauma and not some fantasy realm. Lost kids afraid to tell parents when bad things happen try to make sense of it all without the maturity or internal sense of security to do so. And so we end up living desperate lives filled with pain, hurting ourselves and those around us. Finding a way out is never easy. I appreciate this channel for sharing videos of men and women facing the very real challenges of life... not always successfully. Life is not a Disney movie.
U right, Disney was a thirty third degree freemason and top of the world pedophile. Check the Disney cruise ship line with Epstein island
you must manage your lust by staying away from the causes and it is up to you you decide whether or not you must dominate your self because if you obey the abundance the more you satisfy your lust you will search for another you never find peace and quiet in your life till your death
Stay strong. You're a child of trauma. Don't force anything. Thank you for sharing. You are a strong, beautiful human being.
Beautifully written
I’m so sorry to hear that you were sexually abused as a child. Predators are very savvy and opportunistic and have caused so much pain and sorrow. We talk a lot about stranger danger in our society and yet most abuse is done by relatives, neighbors, or people in power known to the family (coaches, priests, etc.). PTSD is extremely common after sexual abuse and I hope someone, somewhere along the line told you that you did NOTHING wrong. You and Chrissy are survivors and I wish you all the best. BTW, there is nothing wrong with being attracted to Chrissy. She is a beautiful woman. It is very sad that she also was preyed upon by a pedophile and it greatly impacted her life choices.
Never judge a book by its cover, at first look I might think she has had a pampered easy life , but She has been through more than I could ever imagine. What a strong women. I hope all the best.
aren't covers made to represent books?
@@mind-blowing_tumbleweed no, covers are intentionally lying to us to trick us into buying things
The trauma of experiencing rejection and neglect by your parents is so powerful and devastating. It stays with you forever and I think becomes more difficult to cope with as you get older. ❤
The smile that flashed across her face when she said "I had hope." was so beautiful and genuine.
Hope is amazingly powerful.
The man that confronted her on the movie set helped save her life. I thought it was going to be another story of abuse and dysfunctional relationships leading her deeper into depression and depravity.
Thank God for the intervention and healing she received.
Wow... when she said you are “worthy of love” I bursted into tears! In a way I identify with her so much... attracting the wrong type of man for all of my life. Here I am 40yrs old never married, never engaged, no children and I’m just now realizing how to become what I want to attract!
I wish you the best . All the love and peace
damn you lookin good for 40
You’re going to be fine. Society puts demands on us but everyone has their own story to live. You’re truly never alone if you have faith. There’s a plan for your life. Just ask for it to be revealed.
You say this with a hot alien girl as you profile picture.
Think your trying to attract young boys!
@@octayveon4938 that's kind of a back handed compliment. I know you're trying to be nice but think about what you said.
I felt so sad for her during most of the video.....she was obviously suffering from severe clinical depression for most of her life. I was really happy that she managed to get her life back on track, and ended up with a man who truly loves her! Congratulations!❤
Yeah yeah sad crey her a river
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she´s some imbeciel some´n
Seems like he really loves Jesus. Yes.
@@lloydg9383 funny cause I was thinking that men who loved Jesus had caused her more problems than anyone else
@@PendeltonWhiskeyChrost warned about those people, as did St. Paul. I know as a Catholic, a person who believes in God, I am capable of great failings and if pushed, possibly great evil. But there are people I know who are so on fire with the love of Christ they would walk through fire for someone. My point is we one can praise Jesus with their lips but beat Him with the way they live their life.
I am so happy that she found her best self and happiness after all that trauma. she is truly a very strong woman to have gone through all that, not given up, and come out the other side of it healthy and with strong insights to help others.
The way her whole demeanor changed once she shifted to talking about her faith was remarkable and beautiful. So happy it has brought her joy and peace.
What an incredibly gentle soul. She's so incredibly vulnerable, and clearly harbouring a lot of trauma. Watching this just made me want to give her a hug.
I totally agree. 😢❤ Sending so much love to her.
She really just wanted to be loved and to feel safe. Shit parenting rife with trauma. Yet still retained the desire to have a good relationship and a child(probably to prove she could be a good parent). Sad
@Jamie, fully agree with you, same feelings here.
absolutely , what a cute wish she had
You’d probably get a bone.
I can feel the tears in her voice from all these awful moments. She is such a brave person to be open about her journey in front of camera. She hit rock bottom. She has a level of honesty and integrity. I hope she continues to find her way forward into abundance and purity.
Thats the life she choose lol
She seem like she really is over those traumatic events in her life! I'm glad for her, god bless
What a beautiful soul. I hope she finds inner peace in her life. I just want to give her a big hug and tell her that life will get better each and everyday. She just needs to surround herself with people who genuinely loves and cares about her.
A sweet, well meaning girl who was terribly abused & exposed to such a bad environment growing up. So happy to see she came out on the good end & is happy.
Not so fast. Something went wrong cause she's back doing porn.
Yes, so sad. There are millions of good, hard working young men in America who'd love to find a pretty gal to marry and have babies with, but she kept picking doucebags who only wanted to use her then toss her aside. Likely due to her upbringing by shitty parents.
We need Milf content from her now !
I just walked in the next room to tell my wife how much I love her.
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aw :)
Did it feel wonderful? I just bet it did! For both of you. Life is really good even when it's breathtakingly ugly and shockingly unfair.
I'm currently standing in my kitchen, being stared at by my two dogs that I love as much as any child I wanted but couldn't have, and listening to the eggs I'm boiling rattle against each other in the pan. I'm hungry so I'm making egg salad sandwiches.
And I feel almost guilty but mostly I feel grateful that I have a kitchen to stand in and I'm not worried about whether I'll eat today. It's Sunday and I have nowhere to be until work in the morning. I have two doggos that depend on and adore me and I'm married to a really decent human being. I'm So. Fucking. _Lucky_ .
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@@QuinnieMae .....Good or Bad everyone’s life is different. My day consisted of shuffling 1 boy to Lacrosse and then another to Hockey and then back home to bring another to work. Told my daughter to empty the dishwasher. Did some cardboard recycling and laundry. Now I have to drive into international airport to pickup my elderly parents at the airport in a snow storm. Money is never enough but thank God were all healthy and we have a roof over our heads
I hope I end up with someone like you one day....
Fathers, be good to your daughters.
Amen
and especially MOTHERS too!
Be good to your CHILDREN!!! Little boys are impacted in a completely different way but still just as traumatic.
@@icantstandsbmm8880 yeah. Have you seen what those grown men have done, to their childhood preachers?
John Mayer ♥️♥️♥️♥️
Damn, poor lady. Being beautiful does have its drawbacks. She never mentions close female friends.
Young ladies need to stay together when going out or even at school. Children in general are very vulnerable.
As a young adult, my girlfriend, before we got together, ALWAYS had close friends and or family with her.
I respected that and I never tried to separate her from her friends. It was weeks before we began going out as a couple. We got married after college. That was 31 years ago this week.
- girls, be aware and stay away from people and places that can put you in a dangerous or bad situation.
- if you feel uncomfortable, just leave. At a bar, tell the bartender and have a safe word.
I think I saw this lady on a documentary called "After Porn" , I have nothing against pornography but it has a habit of exploting (financially and emotionally) vulnerable people , its the vicious nature of it that offends me . This lady's soul is beautiful , no amount of porn can take that away .
Yup she was in “After Porn”. A very good documentary BTW
RORO roro - Well there is no money in porn these days.
RORO roro Well there is no money in porn these days so there’s that.
RORO roro have you ever considered these girls may be in desperate need of money for food or medication or a place to stay and they have no other option
@@neon9016 Unfortunately it's far more likely they're in desperate need for drugs/alcohol - at least that's what statistics say. It's very sad, and we should still feel sympathy and empathy for them. But let's not pretend lack of food and medicine are the reasons they get into this.
I have a lot of empathy for what she's been through. If something feels "weird, awkward, and scary" listen to that intuition and don't do it. I hope the rest of her life is filled with faith, love, and happiness.
My daughter's were scared to go with someone who I didn't know. My ex has custody she dated someone and it was the girls brother. I was dropping them off and they didn't want to go I feel he did something to them but I have no proof. It hurts me everyday. I never wanted for them to go through trauma but I know they have.😥
Not everyone has that choice , but yeah preach about how a 4 year old should know better
@@chucky3333 Do everything you can to get them talking, and especially let them know that they can tell you anything and say anything to you, without reprisals, so long as it is true. If they will not talk about it to you, get them to a counselor, esp. one who specializes in sexual abuse. Kids seem to find the whole experience bewildering and overwhelming, they want to forget it; cannot always articulate themselves about it. Good energy with that.
This was difficult to watch. Almost like I couldn’t breathe as she was going through her emotions. You can tell that something happened to her more than what she is expressing. I feel so sad watching this. It’s bringing up a lot of triggers for me.
A lot has happened to me. But I continue to live and stay on track. Yes it’s a “trigger” . It’s hard to see the lives of others with similar experiences and see that they had to go through what they went through. I have overcome and continue to work through and live.
Is very triggering. Her self-esteem seems low. Gives her power away to men too fast. Hope she's had some therapy.
@TheDodicat stfu
@@ilovefredreika shut the fuck up. Yeah she gives her power away to men maybe because of her abuse and trauma. Go away.
Same
As a kid I thought beautiful women could have it all, but over my life I've found that starting at puberty, they have a life of distrust, abuse, insecurity, loneliness, and justified paranoia.
After all she has been through, she maintained her idealism. I’m happy for her that she found her husband and is happily married. She would be a good person to talk to other women that want to get a fresh start in life.
Maintaining your idealism is pure stupidity by definition. Don't enable failure. Even kids don't get sympathy when they make mistakes and porn stars shouldn't either. Not because I hate them, but because it's for their own good.
This woman is absolutely shameless LOL.....she's literally having sex with other men EVERYDAY doing porn.....and somehow has the audacity to get mad at her boyfriend for going to a strip club?? Are you serious?? Surely she can see the hypocrisy there?? She wants to "be loved" but thinks having sex with other men in porn shouldn't affect that?? LOL
What she found was God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ:
John 3:27
John answered and said, “A person is not able to receive anything unless it should be given to them from the Heaven.”
Praise be to God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ; blessed are they who receive both the eye to see and know the Light that has come into the world, and the ear to hear and perceive the Word of God.
I thank thee Oh Lord and praise be to you for your longsuffering love, your tender mercy, the redemption of your gracious forgiveness, and your kind understanding of all things within the creation that you alone brought into being.
What distinguishes this video above the rest is how many souls are truly lost and how few there are that come to find the straight gate and narrow path to Life eternal.
As for that man who called this a fantasy, may the Lord rebuke him and he repent from such darkness. Else it would be better for him had he never been born than learn the eternal truth of the final destiny that awaits his soul.
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This was a powerful presentation. I am convinced that the dysfunction and abuse that young children suffer haunts them and destroys them as adults. I'm glad to see that Crissy came out of all that stronger and intact.
Intact?
To all men who keep saying "not all men" please stop saying that. We know "not all men" hurt, harm and damage women but for those of us women who were victims it has been every single man that has been in our lives. When you say "not all men" you're only minimizing or ignoring our stories. You're more concerned with how you look as opposed to hearing the screams and cries of so many, too many women. We know not all but instead of saying that how about asking how you can do more to make sure women stop being victims of violent, predatory behavior.
Don't tell me what to do. How come some women come thru that stage w/o getting into porn or on the pole. Another woman's double standard. They even have an acronym (NAWALT) for "not all women are like that." I'll stop there before I really unload on you.
Cheri H. Fuck off feminist
You make a very good point, and I'll do my best to take it to heart. I know that I've said "not all men" before because I feel defensive when I hear the generalization that "all men are_____". It's hard not to react to those statements in a defensive manner. But when you wrote "every single man that has been in our lives", that really changed my perspective. So, thank you for the insightful comment. It's unfortunate that, as of this writing, there are two posts to your comment that re-affirm the point you were trying to make. We all know that not all men are jerks, but so many men seem to want to prove that statement wrong.
@@scottdematteo3979 Thank you for understanding the point I was trying to make. Just asking for compassion...that's all it is at the core, not feminism or man bashing, just compassion. Thank you
Take that same attitude when men r saying alot of women are tramps n whores. Yea we know, not all women right. Smh
I am SO HAPPY for you Christy! Your story was SO SAD; SO TRAGIC until the very end! Way to go for sticking to your dreams and not giving up, despite incredible trauma and setbacks! Your strength is TRULY AMAZING! May God bless you with everlasting happiness, love and friendship, and good fortune! Your husband sounds like a great man! It sounds like both of you are incredibly lucky to have found each other!
People are pathetic. This serious is NOT for us to judge. Who the F has the audacity to judge!? No one human is perfect, not one. Those that are judging, wouldn't be able to do this.
@National Trolliosis Foundation AND your a fucking idiot. I would never claim to be any one's example, but if I did, I would express an OPINION, which happens to be fact; that not one human is perfect. So yes, express an opinion, but to put others down, because somehow you think your better, is something I don't do. Your an idiot because you turned an opinion into a personal attack. So fuck off. I'm done.
if you judge you will be judged worse we are all sinners not one is good
@@ka3097 Truth!! We all have opinions, but they are different from judgements. Personally I have no room to judge.
She would be getting 6 figure pay checks I don't think she cares
People can have their opinions just like you hav yours
Great job interviewing her the way you did it. She was able to tell her story. And she is a surprisingly fragile person, not at all what you expect. She's deserving of all the good that comes her way.
Once more... great interview. Great story. Worth watching.
A remarkable story this woman has gone through so much but she was delt some horrible cards.
Fortunately she met someone who truly lived her, it's a lovely end. This womN is beautiful in every way. Parenting is everything. Divorce breaks children's minds. God bless her and her life forward.
She carries a crazy amount of shame. She’s learned people pleasing from an early age and it became a big part of her identity. I hope that with age she will feel more and more confident about being just herself without anyone’s approval and she will be able to thrive.
At least a woman can speak about her pain. Men just get laughed at and ridiculed for their pain, cause they evil, cause penis. They deserve no love, no affection, no help, pick yourself up, cause you are a man.
Dress like a man, no make-up, see how life is as a man.
@@mcmarkmarkson7115 Because weak men are a sign of the end times and societal failure. I would laugh at you too for whining and crying, its pathetic and a sign that you're a set of genes that need to exit the pool.
Some one has to be the grownup, both genders can't be weak, coddling adult toddlers.
It’s called a Fawn Response. 💔
You seem to be such a great person and it breaks my heart that you went through that..I am proud of you for coming out and sharing...Thank You!
So you have a heart that breaks from seeing a video of a struggling person? Your heart must break dozens of times a day. Or, are you just virtue signaling. And unless you know this person and have some role in her agreeing to this interview, what are you “proud of”? You had nothing to do with it. You are simply virtue signaling to try and feel like a better person.
She's probably the most love-deprived person I've ever seen. Messages we receive as a kid really do follow us throughout our lives. She deserves to be loved, and even more so, she deserves to feel love for herself.
Really? And you’ve been here for all of the other interviews?
I can personally beat that easily So can a lot of guys.
@GodGoldGuns That's a sweeping generalisation; however, I do see your point.
@GodGoldGuns okey dokey👍🏽
She seems like such a sweet soul. Obviously she has been through a lot of trauma which probably made her lose self esteem. She's an example of why daughters need good father's in their lives to speak life and love into them properly so they understand their self worth. She's a beautiful woman also so it just goes to show that even beautiful women can have self esteem issues.
Lots of beautiful women have self-esteem issues. One of my best friends growing up dated models and beautiful women and he said they all had self-esteem issues. They just hide it differently - probably due to the expectations society has of good looking people not having self-esteem issues.
@@doodahgurlie Bro I'm not sure how old you are or how many divorces you've had.But ALL women are insecure and usually it has little to do with how pretty they are. I've dated models and they're insecure. ALL WOMEN
@@jizim8947 Bro, I'm not disagreeing with you. I was just addressing Leonard's comment where he said "even beautiful women can have self esteem issues".
What about the girls mother, while she was getting molested where was she? The father was always protective of her. Also note when the mother took her away she said it was to protect her - even though the father never molested or hurt her. Yet when the father took her away from the mother she agreed she was "kidnapped". It's a big double standard. Generally it's the mother who notices changes in child's behavior when they are being molested and abused. I bet her mother was more concerned with herself.
Ah, you can do fine with God as your father!
I feel so sorry for her, she is like a little girl in a woman's body.
So well said
She’s happy now, her life has turned around and she’s married!
Get over it.. think outside your limited sphere
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What are you talking about? Just because she's not jaded and still has that child like openness does not mean she's still a little girl, she overcame her past, only a strong woman can do that.
It's interesting how you'd ask an adult about his childhood, suddenly she becomes a young girl again. With all the tension and discomfort just like a young girl.
Cheetah print= Monarch $ex kitten Mk Ultra subject
Her demeanour and personality, even her voice changed completely when she started to speak about leaving the industry and finding God! Faith is a powerful thing!
Aman
Amen Ashley I definitely agree 👍
Faith is belief without evidence. Nothing more.
@@simonlloyd7557 What she did after is evidence..
Strict religious behavior doesn't really help you to find and define yourself. But it gives people that fail in doing so by themselves, guidelines and instructions to live a heathy live and stay away from those people that abuse other people's weakness and insecurities.
It’s so sad that she smiles/laughs after trauma she retells
Michael Hart
That's a defense mechanism hard wired into us to protect our emotional health. Mentally healthy people tend to laugh after sharing something they are ashamed of experiencing. It counteracts the otherwise impending sorrow over the ordeal. I've caught myself doing it multiple times after it was pointed out, and explained, to me by a psychology professional.
My sister and I do the same thing when we talk about our childhood trauma. We laugh it off now because it's over, there is no reason to let it hurt us anymore.
It’s disassociation. Common defense mechanism when someone who has been through serious trauma.
@Yogi Breeze Its kind of a situation of if you don't laugh you want to cry
@@stormport9313 yogis are smarter than us. They are all about no judgment in theory and masks slip on the internet
The trauma of her childhood has limited her adult development.
It’s just her voice smh
@@oliviavankooten403 negative vibe from your comment. That's sad.
Mistysfedora what the fuck lmao bc I don’t think people should judge her voice?
Irving G. Definitely👌🏼
I think so too
The problem is that even though she had a rough childhood, there would have been no option for porn if we didn’t allow it. We should never accept it, like in the past.
You can see the anxiety in her as she talks about her dad. He definitely did something to her. You can hear her pain. I'm glad she is doing better.
@GodGoldGuns The Hypocrisy of this comment is hilarious. You have zero evidence he DIDN'T do something. You also have no evidence of my hatred of men.
@@Lunalavender83 yeah, you are a man hating pos.
@@Lunalavender83 zero evidence he did not do something? You kidding right? With that approach you can pin anything to anyone! You could be right or wrong about this, so it is fiffty/fiffty for you, but not for the people you accuse of something they possibly did not do. Be careful in life with that. This is just comment section, so I guess it is ok.
@@whitediver45 I hope you are doing well and sending positive vibes to you. 💙
Sincerely,
The men "hating" POS. 👍😘
@@Lunalavender83 I know you hate men. You've been brainwashed, as have most westernized women and now many men as well.
The woman in this video says nothing directly about her dad molesting her. However, she did say her dad's friends were around drinking and dad saying odd things about her virginity. I would never allow that around my girls.
There’s such strength in this level of openness and vulnerability. It provokes dialogue and promotes understanding. Thank you for sharing your story. I related to it on so many diff levels. Thank you for being real.
Somehow I think being a beautiful woman is as much of a curse as it is a blessing.
It very much is. I have nothing to validate me besides my looks. I think I’m funny and kind but my appearance is the focus even
From friends and family ....it’s a strange way to live your whole life.
@@marieclark9925 Very sad you think that. I am pretty sure you are validated on many levels. I wish you the best.
@Tracy Lehane 💗
It totally is. It’s like sympathy and compassion goes out the door and exceptions take premise.
I agree. Being thought of as a sexual object and nothing more is disheartening. Makes one develop a sense of being alone and guarded. This leads to men thinking you’re property. It’s tiring.
Her mind is broken..the memory gaps, the inability to finish a coherent thought process. Very sad.
Its called the " Nice girl syndrome" She feels like the need to please other men because she dosnt feel worthy herself.
@Tracy Lehane same. 😑
@Tracy Lehane ccffffp
Dependent personality DO
@Tony Tran so getting an abortion is crossing the line? You’re not allowed to determine what is right or wrong in someone else’s life and choices regarding themselves.
Ones body is inviolable, subject to ones own will alone.
Who made her that way? It started with a bad childhood.....people taking advantage of her innocence as a child. Her own father was the main culprit. What a whacko.
I’ve been following her new path for over ten years now, and she’s been doing great. She’s come a long way from her former life !
She was a very beautiful pornstar...but iam glad she is now in a better place in life.
@@davek7348 Crissy Moran
That’s awesome to hear. She deserves happiness!
Glad to hear that! I always wonder how their stories turn out. 😀
i think the role of alcohol in the destruction of so many families can't be understated. i gave up alcohol 10 years ago when i had kids. don't regret it for a second.
I wish my son's dad would quit but he has to want it and alcohol destroyed us.
@@adilewis802 it’s sad, too many young girls don’t understand how rejecting men who have no potential in life makes their lives so much easier.
I did the same. 23 years ago. Kids change some people. Sometimes it doesn't.
My father used to drink, it was trauma for me personally for many years untill I became father myself, I don't drink and can't stand those who drink or even smoke, my children never seen me drunk or with cigarette.
How much did you used to drink?
Beautiful testimony. She’s beautiful, intelligent, speaks thoughtfully and even though she was in hell, she kept going. This is one of my favorites. I have so much appreciation for you in this work and interviews.
This made me cry because I can sadly relate to a lot of what she went through unfortunately. I'm extremely happy that she found God and a good husband who loves and respects her. She seems like a really good person and didn't deserve to go through all of that stuff in her life. I truly wish her the best
You did not deserve it either! 💖
I'm praying for you to find Jesus and the healing you deserve..God bless you
Uhm, seems like she just doesn't want to acknowledge that her dad was also sexually abusive. So odd to hear someone speak about their life as if they're telling a strangers story.
It's called disassociation, it's the mind's way of protecting us from trauma, by shifting us into the perspective of a third party observer, rather than keeping us a 1st person direct experience
Wow. I started watching this and couldn’t stop. God bless this woman. Her strength and determination are so inspiring. What a journey. I’m so happy she’s in a better place.
It's worth watching until the end.
The advice she gives at the end are exactly what a lot of women should hear!
This sucks. I can remember being about 12 I was crazy about horses, rode all the time, etc. My dad had brought these two guys home from whatever bar he'd been at and one of them made a sexual comment about riding horses. My dad jumped up and he had every intention of killing that guy. He pulled a knife and I grabbed it and he froze because he didn't want to cut me. He kept telling me to let go and I wouldn't and that man ran out the door. My dad kept trying to coax him in and I yelled through the screen door not to come back. It was really scary but he was NOT going to tolerate so much as an untoward comment about me. He's a Vietnam veteran, has no fear. He'd kill someone that hurt me if it was necessary. It was scary but those guys left thank goodnesss.
wish he was my dad... u were blessed
God Bless your dad!
Similar thing happened to me. A guy I rode horses with (in a big group, not alone) he was like 60 and I was 17, he shoved me against a wall in a barn ans kisses me. Luckily I was able to get away and that was the last time I was near him. I wish my dad had been there
@@anbar3729
.... u shud have told him
@@wildwaymonee8o8 I didnt for the same reason the woman in the vid didnt. He would've killed him and ended up in jail
"they raped me, but I've been raped before so what" This made me cry. The monsters will be destroyed when they are gone, over and over again.
I know, that got me too.
i am surprised by the uneventful infatuation in her voice while saying that
Yeah but I honestly am confused as to how she kept running into sexual predators ..?
SIMP
@@sergmont unemotional inflection.
Mark, the beauty of her story is how she was transformed from within. Thank you for giving a story like this. Most people would have laughed and even scorned this woman but you gave her story a chance.
Sounds like she was looking for acceptance from male figures.
Rj SKUM absolutely
Rj SKUM Exactly
Hekate My Goddess no we don’t !!!
Carlos Baez - I’ll have to agree to disagree
It would have been easiest for this woman to just slip back into her old lifestyle. Her determination to follow the straight and narrow rather than continue on her road of destruction is commendable and something we can all respect.
I completely agree
lol.. yeah.. im clearly not taking life advice from whores.... :D
That sentence of the bible is the one thing all people should know.
Matt 7:13-20:
Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:
Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves.
Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?
Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit.
A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit.
Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire.
Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
25:40: she was gang-raped, and it seems that none of the perpetrators was bought to justice, unfair!
Living with trauma, depression, sexual and physical abuse, no boundaries, no self worth, abusing substances, guilt, low self esteem might leave one feeling destroyed, damaged and hopeless..but we can all elevate our moral standards if we learn what God expects from us..it may sound too antiquated to some.. but the self control and mutual respect Crissy and her husband had/have for each other while dating set the stage for a happy life together w many blessings.
Hi. Where did u get your chain in your pic. Its bulky and beautiful.
Listening to her speaking in this voice tone and with this sadness in her eyes is so heartbreaking... It is as if the little girl she once was is here expressing all her pain in an adult body. I am so very sorry for all the abuse this woman has suffered. Someone here said something so true: "Sometimes people have cried all their tears already". I guess Crissy did. So much trauma living with in. Childhood traumas leave such a fingerprint of deep pain in someone's core. She carries still a lot of vulnerability but also a lot of strength. Thank you for sharing your story Crissy. We can see your pain. We can feel it. I hope you have found joy, love, and peace in your life.
All she wanted was a husband, I can relate so much to that. Ever since I was a little girl I just wanted a husband and my little family. That lead me to so many bad relationships. Finally I'm where I always wanted to be. So sad to hear what this lady went through but I'm glad she is finally happy and in a safe place in her life ❤
If I thought that was real for me, I’d still be trying for it. I’ve seen the ugly side of married man so much & I love my running partner. I’m not sure if most people should be hoping for monogamy, if that was ever a realistic concept, or what. It sure doesn’t work well for a lot of people.
Don’t do porn if you want a good husband.
You’re preaching to the choir! Especially when we feel unloved, we think that’s the fix all. After divorce and other bullshit, I’ve been prioritizing myself. I have no urge to be with anyone for awhile. I’m glad that she is doing well. Thank God!!!
SAME
My heart weeps for her husband. I hope he finally finds the person of his dreams someday. 🙏