Romantic Love. I confess to having spent a lot of time to reflect on that. Thoroughly. Until I could not find anything more to investigate inside. Very grateful that I did. It all began with the moment I was ripe to let sink fully in, the entirety about our true source of happiness and contentment: It makes beautiful sense that whatever it is we need to feel complete, it must exist within each of us. If we had to look for any such sources of such contentment o u t s i de of our temporary and oh-so confusing bodies.., - well that would mean our happiness would hinge on whatever may appear on the outside of us. Such a notion can only benefit the growth of an impenetrable mass of poison vines - it would relentlessly aim for complete obliteration of all life but its own compulsive looping and tightening. In other words, our wants and aversions would push and pull us around like crazy. Our suffering would worsen like never before. Anyway. Long ago, - perhaps in another life or maybe it is just a story, - but I suffered greatly. I was in the grip of all sorts of pain every waking moment and it lasted not only one year but more than 10. Towards the end of this seeming unending nightmare, I made a vow to myself. There was no conscious thought, or any applied wisdom, I assure you. But this came out of my mouth, in any case: “From now on I will not allow anyone but myself to be the cause of any kind of misery that I may go through.” A bit gloomy, possibly. But - I had been in that perpetual darkness for years on end, constantly searching for answers, yet everything stayed the same. No ordinary human is able to keep alive any real hope for very long, of how life also is wonderful, not truly. I forgot how it was, I stopped any plans for a brighter day that might come, or not. I forgot how to daydream. But despite my backward vow, it offered enough space for me to find a ledge to stand on. Whenever I remembered my vow, that ledge allowed me to let go of a lot of my mental cramps. Enough to regroup a little. And then my ledge became a brand new beginning. Just that. Enough to notice movement, and I followed. Which in turn generated a ray of hope, then my heart started stirring.. Still keep that vow, only now I can see how it encompasses just about everything in life and how I hold the answers to any question I might have. I do not need a so-called One True Love to live my best life. Already living it! Still.. I do admit to missing good company during sex now and then. That’s ok, it can still occur. But I must confess I’m aiming way higher these days - I wanna fuck the Universe, or, the Universe can fuck me, oh yeah baby 🤪🥳😆 Love. Oh, Love is endlessly more beautiful once we quit trying to hang it around the neck of this week’s crush. Also - it is always a good thing to have a good teacher whenever possible. Only been formally committed to the Dharma the last 3 years or so. I know very little. Still, it is very clear that I have been hooked on sweet Dharma taste a good while longer. I can only bow in humble gratitude and share as much as possible of the joy such inexplicable miracles bring. Pure luck, here you go, it’s yours too🤗 May my talkative nature be of some kind of benefit out there, A small smile is fantastic. May all beings be happy regardless their path. Bless you tenfold if you read all this. Om Tare Tuttare Ture Soha🙌🏼💗🪷🙌🏼
So happy you enjoyed the video! Enlightenment is a personal journey. I am always exploring different aspects of it. Let me know if there is any topic that you are specially interested in. Stay tuned for more content!
Romantic Love. I confess to having spent a lot of time to reflect on that. Thoroughly. Until I could not find anything more to investigate inside. Very grateful that I did.
It all began with the moment I was ripe to let sink fully in, the entirety about our true source of happiness and contentment: It makes beautiful sense that whatever it is we need to feel complete, it must exist within each of us. If we had to look for any such sources of such contentment o u t s i de of our temporary and oh-so confusing bodies.., - well that would mean our happiness would hinge on whatever may appear on the outside of us.
Such a notion can only benefit the growth of an impenetrable mass of poison vines - it would relentlessly aim for complete obliteration of all life but its own compulsive looping and tightening. In other words, our wants and aversions would push and pull us around like crazy. Our suffering would worsen like never before.
Anyway. Long ago, - perhaps in another life or maybe it is just a story, - but I suffered greatly. I was in the grip of all sorts of pain every waking moment and it lasted not only one year but more than 10.
Towards the end of this seeming unending nightmare, I made a vow to myself. There was no conscious thought, or any applied wisdom, I assure you. But this came out of my mouth, in any case:
“From now on I will not allow anyone but myself to be the cause of any kind of misery that I may go through.”
A bit gloomy, possibly. But - I had been in that perpetual darkness for years on end, constantly searching for answers, yet everything stayed the same. No ordinary human is able to keep alive any real hope for very long, of how life also is wonderful, not truly. I forgot how it was, I stopped any plans for a brighter day that might come, or not. I forgot how to daydream.
But despite my backward vow, it offered enough space for me to find a ledge to stand on. Whenever I remembered my vow, that ledge allowed me to let go of a lot of my mental cramps. Enough to regroup a little.
And then my ledge became a brand new beginning. Just that. Enough to notice movement, and I followed. Which in turn generated a ray of hope, then my heart started stirring..
Still keep that vow, only now I can see how it encompasses just about everything in life and how I hold the answers to any question I might have. I do not need a so-called One True Love to live my best life. Already living it!
Still.. I do admit to missing good company during sex now and then. That’s ok, it can still occur. But I must confess I’m aiming way higher these days - I wanna fuck the Universe, or, the Universe can fuck me, oh yeah baby 🤪🥳😆
Love. Oh, Love is endlessly more beautiful once we quit trying to hang it around the neck of this week’s crush.
Also - it is always a good thing to have a good teacher whenever possible. Only been formally committed to the Dharma the last 3 years or so. I know very little. Still, it is very clear that I have been hooked on sweet Dharma taste a good while longer.
I can only bow in humble gratitude and share as much as possible of the joy such inexplicable miracles bring. Pure luck, here you go, it’s yours too🤗
May my talkative nature be of some kind of benefit out there, A small smile is fantastic. May all beings be happy regardless their path. Bless you tenfold if you read all this. Om Tare Tuttare Ture Soha🙌🏼💗🪷🙌🏼
I would love to hear the enlightenment story more from your channel❤
So happy you enjoyed the video! Enlightenment is a personal journey. I am always exploring different aspects of it. Let me know if there is any topic that you are specially interested in. Stay tuned for more content!
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