I’m not even a christian (actually muslim) but the way you present yourself, attitude in life and humbleness inspires me. Your vlogs bring a sense of warmth and I always look forward for them. Thank you, hope you and your family stay happy and wish you the best x💗💗💗💗
Praying for you Mayesha! May God open your eyes to the truth of the gospel. Jesus says; "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the father except through me." John 14:6 If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. Roman's 10:9-10
Faith related videos aren't only sit down chats about scripture. How you live can speak to many souls in itself. You're doing a great job with your platform! You're authentic, God-fearing and blooming in grace 🌼 Praying the joy and peace of the Lord over you!!
love you!! you steward this platform so well. if people are disappointed in you not posting enough faith content they can go read their bibles to get the faith content they really need 💁🏽♀️ 🤭
Hey Kian, This is just a gentle thought. Not meaning to judge you. I just want to offer just food for thought. You're right that He could heal you instantly with what you're struggling with. And you said you're sure He has a good reason for not doing so, but maybe you're not sure what that is yet. I'm thinking He might want you to stay in prayer and surrender the issue to Him. Maybe He wants to walk you through that healing process to strengthen your walk with Him. I'm not suggesting I know what your walk with Him with is. I don't know you personally, so I can't know that. I'm just offering ideas of what it could be, not trying to make assumptions. I offer those suggestions because I look over my own life when I was struggling with certain things. Certainly God could have instantly healed me from what I was going through at the time. But, I know He wanted me to walk through the healing process with Him because He knew that's what I needed at the time so that I would grow closer and stronger in Him. Through these processes I learned to discuss and surrender these issues to Him in prayer. Also, I think it's important to mention that used to think that surrender, if done right, should be a one time thing. Otherwise it wasn't genuine. But I was wrong. Throughout our lives as we face different struggles and trials, learning to surrender to Him everyday, whether there are trials or not, is a lifelong process. A sanctification process, if you will. So, maybe this struggle you're going through now is a part of that. Again, it's just a humble idea. I'm not making assumptions or judgements about you. Just thought I'd share an idea. I'll be praying for you.
Valerie were you going through a health problem if you don’t mind me asking, I’ve been going through chronic back pain lower back and flank n I really get discouraged🥺
@@ashleyalvarez4332 hey ashley :) I feel you ♥️ I have an anxiety disorder that challenges me everyday and try to stay strong, surrender it to God and find out what He wants me to learn/see through that. Praying for you and you're not alone
I feel the exact same way Kian. I think it’s all spiritual. You’re about to leave for a road trip where you will be a missionary correct? I am about to do a mission trip as well and I can feel the attack of the enemy trying to fill me with hopelessness and depression. I think God is going to do something huge next season. I have been hearing about a lot of attacks on spirit filled christians lately. I am praying for you Kian 🤍
Amen to this! This is exactly what I have been saying! I have been going through a lot for a couple weeks but God has been helping me! I didn’t understand what was wrong but it was spiritual✨✨ so after going to church each day and worship and prayer God has given me breakthrough and joy again but I am struggling to help people like I use to help people.
@@arilizzie hey girly! So there’s a lot of people feeling like that right now! Just know love is commitment and so sometimes God remove the feeling to test our faith because we don’t just follow him because we feel him but because we are committed to him and because in his word it says he will never leave you or for shake you many times he could even be closest to you in the times you don’t feel him. Just keep doing your part by praying, worshiping and being still in his presence. Ask him to revive the fire and he will. I will also pray that you feel him again💗💗💗 here’s my number 9736077919. My friend and I run a Bible study if you want to be apart of it! God bless you
God doesn’t WANT you to ever feel depressed or anxious… His Word says so… “Be anxious for nothing…” is an easy one that comes to mind quickly… It’s may be funk and understandable when you have so many eyes on you that don’t know the full story and understandable to pull back when you need. One of the fruits of the Spirit is self control which is applies to controlling your mind and your own thoughts. Be diligent to judge them and be discerning between what your flesh is saying vs God’s spirit! it can be easy to mis read it at times ♥️
Being in a relationship with God is not about feeling all good and happy. It's about joy and peace and choosing love and faithfulness over getting influenced by the situation. Love you
I’m a Christian and I sought counseling/medication and have no regrets. As your sister in Christ I encourage you to dive into your mental health and try whatever (legal methods) you need to heal.
This is true, I only have RUclips now and I have a handful of channels I watch now and it is amazing!!! To detox from all feels great to do when the mind and soul needs it.
I admire your authenticity and strive to be as bold as you in sharing the Truth💛 I’m not sure if this is the same but I’ve been feeling “emotional hangovers” recently where I’m super joyful and in the moment with friends, but when I start driving away, it’s so quiet and I feel a bit lonely… I think perhaps I’ve been so used to the buzz and activities of life/people that when I’m alone, I realize I’ve sort of relied on those moments and people for joy, when ultimately God is the source of my joy and fulfillment. I’m so thankful I have Jesus to talk to when I’m alone, because I can see how life can be so depressing and void of hope without Him. Praying Jesus brings you some spark of joy soon and that you’ll see God more and more in this moment!
When you were talking about how God has called you to keep your relationship with Him more private, AMEN, good for you for listening to Him and not the world!! 😊
This was honestly very helpful for me. Personally, I have been going through a spiritual “rut” and I have been dealing with an anxiety disorder. I just finished my first year and college and will be a leader next semester at my church. I have been beating myself up about having doubts in my faith and difficulties reading my Bible because I just feel so disconnected and unprepared for leadership, but I have been beginning to realize that maybe I’m in this season to help other people who may be going through the same thing later on. I feel so unequipped for leadership, but that’s okay because I am not the one who will be leading, it will be God leading through me🥰 I will be praying for you and your mental health, I know how scary and relentless anxiety and depression can be🤍 if it doesn’t get better soon, I would recommend seeing a counselor, mine has helped me so much and she is also a Christian!
One thing that really helped me when I was feeling depressed or just not thankful was to try to be on social media as little as possible, and it was crazy how soon my entire mood changed.. 🤗
Girl you don’t have to explain anything to anyone! But we appreciate you sharing your heart with us 🤍 God loves you just as you are and right where you are at! just trust him 🤍
Praying for you sister you are not alone our Lord sees you and is walking with you, you’ll look back on this time and and see how loyal He has been 🤍 we all go through times like these weather it’s early or later in life. Much love sister! You are victorious 🤍
One thing that drew me to your channel last year when I subscribed was your vulnerability and rawness. You really do display what a true Christian is - not perfect but relatable and one who finds purpose in every season they're in. And through that relatability, you are touching people more than you think. You don't have to pretend like you have it all together because that builds up pride and Jesus wants humility. Surrendering to God's plans and God's guidance during this season will bring you into new growth for you, for your relationships, for your RUclips and for your other business ventures. Your personal and private relationship with God is so necessary to be able to pour into the things that He's called you to do. Don't let any mere human steer you away from God's wisdom. Also, I want to add that although you may be in a season where you don't feel fulfilled, don't think that God wants you to remain in that place and also know that feelings don't equal reality. You may FEEL like you aren't fulfilled but we know as TRUTH that in His presence there is fullness of joy, and at His right hand are pleasures forevermore (Ps 16:11). The devil will persuade you to lean on your feelings and not on God's truth. God does care that you feel down, not in a way to shame you but in a way where He desires to be your source. He desires for you to receive all that He has for you, and not be discouraged by wavering feelings, people or situations. He cares about your ability to handle them and He cares to align them with His perfect will for your life. So yes, this may be a season you FEEL certain ways but it's also a season for you to dwell on the TRUTH of God's Word. So continue to do what you're already doing by growing in your relationship with God but also recognise that through that process you are allowing Him to bring you to a new understanding of His ability to transform your heart to a heart of faith, not of fear. Understand that your identity in Christ is one of joy, peace, passion and fulfilment. Praying for you sis and I'm so hopeful for where God is taking you
Thanks for sharing that, Kian! It's nice to know that I'm not in this alone, + I loved how you stated that God has us in every season for a purpose. So so good!!! Praying for you🤍
Hahah when you talk in the car about breakfast. I wouldn't be able to do anything on an empty stomach in the morning, and also I start feeling sick if I don't get to eat breakfast. But everyone works different :)
I hope you read this! I have been struggling a lot too lately, just remember you are never alone💕 I’m going through a season of feeling off but not knowing why and it is so difficult...
Hunny you are so loved by our Father. I encourage you to keep looking up to heaven, and interact with us WHEN you feel ready. I lift my eyes to the hills where does my help come from my help comes from the Lord.
I can't even tell you how much I relate to this. I also feel this underlying sadness. The way you talked about how God is okay with you being there and going through this really spoke to me. Sending you love 💛
I know I’m a little late to this video, but I think I is God’s perfect timing. I am going through a season right now where I just feel really frustrated a lot of the time. I haven’t really known why. But I’m literally in tears at the reminder that I haven’t done anything wrong, God knows where I’m at, and it’s ok that I am where I am.😭🙌🏻 Kian, thank you for being vulnerable with us ❤️
I’m in the same situation right now as you are, struggling with life and honestly I feel like many Christians go through this nowadays even stronger God is planning something big and we all have to trust his work😊❤️ update maybe once you feel better?❤️❤️❤️
I always love your honesty and vulnerability. Genuineness is key and I really appreciate it. Its definitely something I strive to do on channel too. Thanks girl.♡♡
Hello Kian. Thank you for your honest openness. I've learned that when I feel pulled down, it's mostly a result of believing certain lies that the devil is always diligent in telling me. It has helped me a lot to keep a book in which I write down these lies that I believe in. Then I study these subjects in the Bible or listen to good sermons and write down whatever the Biblical answer is to them. Every time I'm down, I read this book. Even better is it to memorise this bible verses to be able to have this right answer in your thoughts each time, when those lies come up again (Just like Jesus did when he was tempted). It is clear that when the Holy Spirit exposes a sin in my life to me, that I will clean it up. But if that's not the case, then there are lies I believe in. This is a spiritual battle. We are constantly being attacked. Dr. Neal T. Andreson explains the subject of spiritual warfare very well. Jesus is already the winner! We are not alone! We are on the winning side! 🥰
I’m in a similar season right now and can completely relate. It can feel pretty discouraging. Know you have a sister In Christ praying for you! Let’s keep fighting for our joy ❤️
Kian you may not know it but your growth and platform is so inspiring. You rawness is what sets you apart. I love your videos and know Jesus is working through you to help others like me.🙏🏽🤍
This might be long and I don't know if you'll ever see this... When you were talking about people jumping to conclusions Job came Tony mind how everyone had an opinion and told him he was doing something wrong. But in reality Job was just being attacked by the devil so he could stumble. I think it is good to read the book of Job and see how Job overcame this. There is something in the bible for every situation. I pray God restores your mental health and that you will be filled with joy and strength. 🤗🤗 God is with you and there is good in every situation.
Girl you are so blessed💜💜💜 thank you for your honesty and humility. Anyone that questions the content you make needs to understand that as a child of God, EVERY video you make is faith related content. Every video you make is God filled because you are filled by him 💜💜💜
Praying for you Kian 🙏!!! Praying for breakthrough and supernatural joy to overwhelm you in this season and for any heaviness to break off in Jesus name! The Lord's got you right in the palm of His hand. Remember, His thoughts about you are ALL that matter!! ❤
I had this kind of depression, deep thing on my heart too and didn't knew exactly what it was and why I've had this feeling. So I decided to spend more time with Jesus to pray more and more and the depression it's gone now thank God 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️. So this is what helped me : going deeper in the relationship with Jesus.
I feel you girl, my biggest problem is when I struggle, I REALLY struggle, and I will struggle in all areas of my life. Your videos always make me feel better about feeling like my best doesn’t always feel like enough, and remind me that I need to lean into him more and trust he’s helping me where I need it even if I don’t know it yet.
I’m confused with you saying God wants you in this sad place :( I truly mean this in the kindest, non-judgmental way because I have totally been here. I sort of understand why you think that He wants you in this low place when I try to put myself in a different mindset, as I’ve gone through rough times myself… and, yes, we grow through what we go through, but it sounds more like the enemy is attacking and doing everything to keep you in this place. We all go through dark times but God wants to pull us out, not keep us there. Praying 🤍 We know He will help you get out of this!
I find it interesting how people automatically affiliate hardship with the enemy. Do you think that God's will for us is happiness? Look at Jesus' life. We are still on Earth, not in Heaven.
This is interesting, I get both sides. For me, I believe God does allow us to step into hard times and face battles but he's not just doing nothing, His spirit is with us and gives us strength to endure these times and all to make us STRONGER. Stronger in our faith, more intimately closer to him, and really getting to know Him and all His glory. God causes all things the enemy meant for harm for good. The enemy is the one attacking and making you feel negative emotions and thoughts, but take heart because he has overcome the world! He is with us always! easier said than done but don't give up, God is Good always even when you don't hear or feel him there with you! The more we grow in faith the more we can actually rejoice in our weaknesses and difficulties because when we are weak then we are strong, thanks to Him.
@@cassiekray exactly! Look at the scripture in philippians 1:29 For it has been granted to you for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake. We are not supposed to be surprised at trials as if something strange were happening to us. We live in a broken fallen world and we are broken people. Yes life has blessings along the way but Jesus said in this life you will have trouble but take heart I have overcome the world!
Spiritual warfare sister. Talk with someone strong in the Word about what you’re experiencing. Research spiritual warfare. Praying for you. The enemy is already defeated. You have the authority in you through Christ to shut it down ❤️
I love watching how authentic and so open you are. I want to encourage you to continue on your journey, however, you are being led. As you talked I was thinking maybe you're going through a stage of grief. With all that's going on with you, have you dealt with the changes that are happening at present in your life and around you? I want to encourage you in your season to seek joy in any situation however little. To dance to worship even when you don't feel it. All the best as you maneuver through your season and rediscover yourself again.
Hi Kian, I’ve just started reading the book “out of the cave” by Chris Hodges and would highly recommend it. He talks about Elijah’s life and what we can learn from his struggles, as well as his own experience with depression
God bless you, u seams much happier in the end of the video , thank you for open up It gives everyone freedom , we all struggle no one in perfect faith because of that we need Jesus Grace everyday . I’m sorry if I think something not right And for God obedience what He Is looking for, I kept hearing this msg from different pastors this last months So you are Ok are in the right path because you are obeying the Lord 🌼 And He will use you after this season To help others, what happened in our life it’s not about us, it’s about people And our spiritual growth I’m exciting to see and hear what did you learn 💖 Thank you for sharing your days with us U r so nice and loving and honest Have a lovely weekend 🌷
Love you and your honesty. Don’t listen to the ungodly comments. Praying God helps you overcome any anxiety or depressed feelings, and helps you understand what He is trying to teach you in this season. ❤️❤️❤️
listen love as someone who just got out of a week of just a super confusing and foggy valley and low time i can say that it one hundred percent will come to pass and your relationship with God is purely your own and you don’t have to answer to anyone about that. i struggled so hard feeling like i had to prove it to OTHERS that i was in love with the Lord and i put on this image of what i THOUGHT was a “perfect christian” but christians struggle too! God meets us right where we are and isn’t surprised by it when we reach a low because sometimes He puts us there or allows us to walk through there because HE KNOWS what’s waiting at the other end of it. i really hope you get to read this and keep strong in that confidence that the Lord IS good and IS by your side in this and that shame is nothing but an attack love. love you so much sis and praying for sure 💜
Hi Kian! I used to battle a lot of anxiety and depression but what I realized is that I’m a feeler meaning I sense things in the spiritual atmosphere. So I had to learn to differentiate what was mine and what was something in the atmosphere. I’d encourage that every time you feel that heaviness to release the presence of God and his peace into the atmosphere. You have authority to change the atmosphere! Love your channel ❤️ blessings
For anyone who will read this and is or wants to attend church - it is most important to attend a church that is biblically sound and preaching Jesus Christ Crucified. If your church is only singing music and talking about how great and cool Jesus is, it is not preaching the gospel. We as sinners need to hear that we ARE sinners and that Jesus died a horrific death to save us.
Kian I have been going through the exact same thing recently! But the enemy comes after you when God is working in your life, I will keep you in my prayers for sure!💗
Amen. Do what God is calling you to do in this season! Sometimes I feel that I need to pull away, like in seasons of transition or stretching. You're fine as long as you're with God and being obedient. 👌🏽 Remember the GPS saying that God sometimes is seemingly quiet when we are just obedient, like the GPS doesn't have to say each turn all at once; neither does God. Keep trusting him! 😊 I'm praying for you and your family. Love to you all!❤🙏🏽
An advice toward depression and negative thoughts, lately I have listened to a song called "headspace" by Riley Clemmons. She is christian singer and I think her songs always fits the seasons I go through, so maybe you will notice the same.
I really felt the same way. It was about a month ago, I always was upset and I was stressed because of school and I didn’t notice until I asked my boyfriend why he seemed upset a lot and that it just it felt different with us. He told me that he felt I was always upset and stressed not about him, but about everything else and I took it out on him. I prayed and prayed for months because I felt sadness but I didn’t notice that other people saw it too. I didn’t have that self control that I needed, but I kept practicing, reading my Bible, and praying to get through whatever I was feeling. I feel so much better, closer to God, in the mood that would shine my light through others. Praying more and more to God and telling Him how I feel and wandering why I felt like that and knew that I shouldn’t. He really helped me get through that bump in the road that I though was leading my thought else where. He helped my back on His path. I’m praying for you!!
Anyone would feel overwhelmed having so many people speak into their lives. It just sounds like you need a time to quiet all other voices and listen to God.
You’re so open and real about things wow, I wanna have a friend just like you! You remind me of an old friend of mine in the best way!! May God bless you💗
I was just watching another one of your videos and boom another one!! You're absolutely amazing and I appreciate your vulnerability with us! Its amazing, you're amazing!
Thanks for sharing Kian. I can relate to the heaviness you feel. When I get into a depressive stump I find that what helps is prayer and fast. I take a break from social media and focus on the Word and my identity in God.
KIANNNN. do not ever let anyone who has no insight into your personal spiritual walk with God judge you for things that they honestly don't know about. While RUclips is your ministry, (and you do a very good job at it, might i add) He knows that your mental/spiritual state comes before those other things. Praying for you. ♥️ also, about the spirit of heaviness...that is something I can totally relate to. But just never forget that He made you and called you for a purpose, and i know that it's much easier said than done, but on your dark days, always remember why you're put here and keep your head above the waves!! Love you Guys God bless. ♥️
This is exactlyyyyy how I have been feeling lately and like you said, if God could change it in an instant, He could He would. I believe I am in a growing season and in growing there is growing pains. Praying for you, Kian. 🤍 Gods got us.
Hi Kian I watched this video and all I can say is that I see The lord Jesus all in this video in your attitude in your honesty in your transparency you might not see it but we all see it. Much love ❤️
Kian i want to share this verse with you “Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy.” Psalms 126:5 NLT Also i do believe all this is so you can come out the other end not only stronger and Hodly character built, but to be a blessing with your testimonies 🙌🏻
Thank you for sharing and being raw! I’ve been struggling mentally too. God put it on my heart to “overcome” this year. I have so much pain and trauma that I’ve been avoiding, but like you said he needs us to be in this season to speak into it! Praying for you and anyone else feeling the same. God bless you all 💛🤍
Thank you for being so vulnerable in this video. I recently went through something similar to this concerning the Baptist Student Ministry (BSM) I was in a leadership with. I had to step down because it was my Senior year and I graduated this past May with a BA in Theology and a BA in Business Leadership. I was under a lot of stress because shortly after my graduation I am heading off to a new city to get my MA in Biblical Counselling, and it's my first big move away from home. I'm working on getting my license and working to save up money to pay for school. Long story short, the leadership believed that since I mentioned I wanted to go into Pastoral Ministry I would be 100% all-in to talk about Jesus to anyone on the street all the time, anytime. We did a few local mission trips due to COVID restrictions and I learned the importance of missionaries, but also that I am not called to be a missionary. To anyone who is called to that office of ministry I applaud you and I pray more power to you. For me, I prefer going to Seminary to gain more knowledge to properly lead a church in a way that is Biblical and so I could "study to show myself approved by God." This wasn't taken very well by the BSM leadership and they said to my face, "Oh, so you believe God can't use you until you get a degree...you probably got that was the book 2nd Opinions." I genuinely felt and still feel called to Seminary and I have no problem talking to someone about Jesus, you just won't see me out on the streets like the typical evangelist. I would rather build a relationship with someone over the course of months or even years, and get to know them as a person before shoving Jesus down their throat within a 15-minute conversation having just met them on the street and I barely got their name and how long they've lived in their neighbourhood. All this is to say, I've been hurt and since December of 2020 or January of 2021 (around those times) up to present day I am still healing mentally and spiritually. This also is not to mention that my mental health was completely invalidated even though I've been through 4 counsellors in the past 3 years, and have found out two devastating diagnoses of which have no cure nor medication to help. So, I am trying to get better and I know spending time with God daily is important, as well as, prayer being an active part in your life, etc. I've just felt burnt out and while I am actively spending time with God now and praying, slowly but surely, like you I believe God is totally fine with me being where I'm at right now. If He wanted to change my heart in an instant He could do that at the wink of His eye or snap of His finger. However, unlike the BSM leadership, He has chosen to sit with me as I sit in this chaos and that is the most comforting thing I've ever experienced in the 6 years (at the time of writing this) I've been following the Lord faithfully. Thank you so much for helping me realise I am not alone in feeling this way, and God bless.
Sending love and blessings your way Kian. I appreciate your honesty so much and felt so much on my heart when I listened to you speak about being obedient despite how it looks to others and it gave me confirmation. So THANK YOU for being obedient and setting such a wonderful example. Praying for your anxiety 🙏 ♥️♥️♥️🤍
Hi, I could feel your heaviness as you spoke and I'm empathizing with you. I just read John 11 and I learnt something new today. Martha knew Jesus the healer but she did not know Jesus the resurrecter and Jesus wanted to introduce her and the people around to that side of him, that's why he let Lazarus die. I can see how much you love and trust God and I feel like he's allowing certain things you're going through so that you will come to know a deeper side of him. God bless you. Thank you for sharing🤍
Kian, I STRONGLY recommend you see a counselor, and so does Kyle. You are in a very stressful stage of life/situation and I think you need extra support. You can go to a counselor, be in prayer against attacks, and even be on meds. Theres such a fear in our christian culture to not use meds or go to a counselor, but it's not scripture-based!!!!! Your move, finances and young marriage sound stressful!!!
I love how you said that He wants you to go through it because He’s preparing you. I’ve never been able to put it that way even though I know something good comes out of the struggle! So you you explained it literally perfectly. But I am praying for you girl! 💗
I have seen God’s hand in times when I have experienced anxiety and depression. I was able to support family and friends who live with those types of struggles. I saw how God allowed me to experience something that could be a blessing to others. Continue in faith and God can do the same. ❤️
Hey Kian just want to say thank you for all you do. I love you and may God continue to bless you and fill you up with so much joy that anxiety will be kicked out the door and that things will only get better for you mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.💗💖💗
It's important to remember that at the end of the day, your personal relationship with G-d is the most important thing for your mental and spiritual growth. There's a time and season for everything and G-d will look out for your best interests. I know the feeling of having a heavy heart and sometimes there really isn't a reason for it, but this experience, while it will be rough, will grow you as a person and your trust in G-d that's he's got you will make your faith in him stronger. Prayers to HaShem that you will begin feeling r'fu-ah sh'lei-mah, a recovery from this mental depression.
i have struggled with my mental health for years, and the main thing i've learned from it is that i have to cling to God and trust in Him through all of it. like you said, there's purpose in this. you might not feel happy all the time, but no matter how you feel you can still make a conscious decision to believe that He is good and awesome and He is carrying you through all of this. keep praying, I'm praying for you too 🙏🏼 reading the book of Job was also a HUGE help for me when i was at my lowest. all of the storms i went through have turned out to be the greatest blessings.
Expect people to be entitled to make assumptions about your life because you are sharing some of your life publicly. However you dont have to accept it. Expecting people to be people helps with making the load a bit lighter because you know that someone is going to talk out the side of their face about stuff they don't know about. They dont know you. You don't owe anybody any explanations. Do whatever you need to do to get to a place of light and fulfillment again. God has blessed you with beautiful and supportive family. Just immerse yourself in the positive bits in this difficult season. ❤️
Indeed God will work it out! I think might also help you is prayers to deflect Satan. Because when you’re in a really good spot with God that’s when things start to get difficult with Satan!🙏🏻❤️
You’re following God’s plan for your life, He has made us all so different according to his purpose for each of our lives! This video is a testimony of just that Kian, you’re following God’s plan for your life in this season. As a fellow Christian, that’s SO encouraging! Keep looking to God above those comments and opinions; He is your source of energy and rest 🤍🤍
Hi Kian! I’ve been feeling so similar to the way you described and as you mentioned your current season I was reminded of a song by Hillsong Worship that has carried me through called, “Seasons”. I hope this song will help affirm that God does indeed bring us through various seasons but that HE never changes! You’re not alone; thank you for being so transparent! Praying for you ♥️ - Kayla
I’m not even a christian (actually muslim) but the way you present yourself, attitude in life and humbleness inspires me. Your vlogs bring a sense of warmth and I always look forward for them. Thank you, hope you and your family stay happy and wish you the best x💗💗💗💗
Yes She is.. And that's great to hear from you.. 🥰
Jesus loves you and has a plan for your life. God bless you and we love you
Jesus saves much love ❤️
Glad to know that you are being inspired.
I hope you turn the Lord Jesus Christ.
Praying for you Mayesha!
May God open your eyes to the truth of the gospel. Jesus says; "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the father except through me."
John 14:6
If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved.
Roman's 10:9-10
Faith related videos aren't only sit down chats about scripture. How you live can speak to many souls in itself. You're doing a great job with your platform! You're authentic, God-fearing and blooming in grace 🌼 Praying the joy and peace of the Lord over you!!
I’ve had the exact same thing lately. I’ve felt a heaviness. Jesus is coming. Let’s lift each other up in prayer ❤️❤️
YES & amen 🙏🏼🙏🏼
That is exactly how I feel the heaviness and it myself was so heavy I almost could not breathe
i've been feeling this way too!! along with some of my friends from church! Gosh. I got chills. Praying praying praying Kian and peeps.
love you!! you steward this platform so well. if people are disappointed in you not posting enough faith content they can go read their bibles to get the faith content they really need 💁🏽♀️ 🤭
Amen!
Amen
YES SIS
amen!
Amen!
Hey Kian,
This is just a gentle thought. Not meaning to judge you. I just want to offer just food for thought.
You're right that He could heal you instantly with what you're struggling with. And you said you're sure He has a good reason for not doing so, but maybe you're not sure what that is yet.
I'm thinking He might want you to stay in prayer and surrender the issue to Him. Maybe He wants to walk you through that healing process to strengthen your walk with Him. I'm not suggesting I know what your walk with Him with is. I don't know you personally, so I can't know that. I'm just offering ideas of what it could be, not trying to make assumptions.
I offer those suggestions because I look over my own life when I was struggling with certain things. Certainly God could have instantly healed me from what I was going through at the time. But, I know He wanted me to walk through the healing process with Him because He knew that's what I needed at the time so that I would grow closer and stronger in Him. Through these processes I learned to discuss and surrender these issues to Him in prayer.
Also, I think it's important to mention that used to think that surrender, if done right, should be a one time thing. Otherwise it wasn't genuine. But I was wrong. Throughout our lives as we face different struggles and trials, learning to surrender to Him everyday, whether there are trials or not, is a lifelong process. A sanctification process, if you will.
So, maybe this struggle you're going through now is a part of that. Again, it's just a humble idea. I'm not making assumptions or judgements about you. Just thought I'd share an idea. I'll be praying for you.
Valerie were you going through a health problem if you don’t mind me asking, I’ve been going through chronic back pain lower back and flank n I really get discouraged🥺
@@ashleyalvarez4332 hey ashley :) I feel you ♥️ I have an anxiety disorder that challenges me everyday and try to stay strong, surrender it to God and find out what He wants me to learn/see through that. Praying for you and you're not alone
I feel the exact same way Kian. I think it’s all spiritual. You’re about to leave for a road trip where you will be a missionary correct? I am about to do a mission trip as well and I can feel the attack of the enemy trying to fill me with hopelessness and depression. I think God is going to do something huge next season. I have been hearing about a lot of attacks on spirit filled christians lately. I am praying for you Kian 🤍
Amen to this! This is exactly what I have been saying! I have been going through a lot for a couple weeks but God has been helping me! I didn’t understand what was wrong but it was spiritual✨✨ so after going to church each day and worship and prayer God has given me breakthrough and joy again but I am struggling to help people like I use to help people.
I feel not close to God at all anymore… :/
@@arilizzie hey girly! So there’s a lot of people feeling like that right now! Just know love is commitment and so sometimes God remove the feeling to test our faith because we don’t just follow him because we feel him but because we are committed to him and because in his word it says he will never leave you or for shake you many times he could even be closest to you in the times you don’t feel him. Just keep doing your part by praying, worshiping and being still in his presence. Ask him to revive the fire and he will. I will also pray that you feel him again💗💗💗 here’s my number 9736077919. My friend and I run a Bible study if you want to be apart of it! God bless you
@@blossomallotey3162 aww, thank you so much! I definitely will continue to pray and do my devotions ❤️
I have been opening up my Bible whenever I start to feel my anxiety or depression come on & I feel a sense of peace and God's presence everytime.💞
God doesn’t WANT you to ever feel depressed or anxious… His Word says so… “Be anxious for nothing…” is an easy one that comes to mind quickly… It’s may be funk and understandable when you have so many eyes on you that don’t know the full story and understandable to pull back when you need. One of the fruits of the Spirit is self control which is applies to controlling your mind and your own thoughts. Be diligent to judge them and be discerning between what your flesh is saying vs God’s spirit! it can be easy to mis read it at times ♥️
Being in a relationship with God is not about feeling all good and happy. It's about joy and peace and choosing love and faithfulness over getting influenced by the situation. Love you
Also feeling a similar heaviness ... We gotta stay vigilant out here🙏🏾
I’m a Christian and I sought counseling/medication and have no regrets. As your sister in Christ I encourage you to dive into your mental health and try whatever (legal methods) you need to heal.
Jesus is the true physician. You can heal your body with medication but still be dead in spirit
Maybe you need a social media break, or just a break in general and focus on yourself, your family and God.🥺
This is true, I only have RUclips now and I have a handful of channels I watch now and it is amazing!!! To detox from all feels great to do when the mind and soul needs it.
Yea. I agree 👍
I admire your authenticity and strive to be as bold as you in sharing the Truth💛 I’m not sure if this is the same but I’ve been feeling “emotional hangovers” recently where I’m super joyful and in the moment with friends, but when I start driving away, it’s so quiet and I feel a bit lonely… I think perhaps I’ve been so used to the buzz and activities of life/people that when I’m alone, I realize I’ve sort of relied on those moments and people for joy, when ultimately God is the source of my joy and fulfillment.
I’m so thankful I have Jesus to talk to when I’m alone, because I can see how life can be so depressing and void of hope without Him. Praying Jesus brings you some spark of joy soon and that you’ll see God more and more in this moment!
I mean, there is hope without Jesus, but I get what you're saying
So true!
I really loved your honesty in this video girl! It was so relatable to hear how you're struggling but trusting God with it.
Thank you Bri! I appreciate your sweet comment. It goes a long way 💛 and makes checking comments not as scary
@@Kian_Wolfgang I'm also a new Christian and yes I have backslided but I'm slowly finding my faith yes we all hit that Christian brick wall god bless
When you were talking about how God has called you to keep your relationship with Him more private, AMEN, good for you for listening to Him and not the world!! 😊
This was honestly very helpful for me. Personally, I have been going through a spiritual “rut” and I have been dealing with an anxiety disorder. I just finished my first year and college and will be a leader next semester at my church. I have been beating myself up about having doubts in my faith and difficulties reading my Bible because I just feel so disconnected and unprepared for leadership, but I have been beginning to realize that maybe I’m in this season to help other people who may be going through the same thing later on. I feel so unequipped for leadership, but that’s okay because I am not the one who will be leading, it will be God leading through me🥰 I will be praying for you and your mental health, I know how scary and relentless anxiety and depression can be🤍 if it doesn’t get better soon, I would recommend seeing a counselor, mine has helped me so much and she is also a Christian!
Hey Sister! This is a time to trust God and seek his truth during this time. You are in my prayer! Blessings!
Transitions, even if positive, can sometimes leave us with a sense of sadness as we close one chapter and begin another.
Sounds like buddhism
One thing that really helped me when I was feeling depressed or just not thankful was to try to be on social media as little as possible, and it was crazy how soon my entire mood changed.. 🤗
Girl you don’t have to explain anything to anyone! But we appreciate you sharing your heart with us 🤍 God loves you just as you are and right where you are at! just trust him 🤍
Praying for you sister you are not alone our Lord sees you and is walking with you, you’ll look back on this time and and see how loyal He has been 🤍 we all go through times like these weather it’s early or later in life. Much love sister! You are victorious 🤍
One thing that drew me to your channel last year when I subscribed was your vulnerability and rawness. You really do display what a true Christian is - not perfect but relatable and one who finds purpose in every season they're in. And through that relatability, you are touching people more than you think. You don't have to pretend like you have it all together because that builds up pride and Jesus wants humility. Surrendering to God's plans and God's guidance during this season will bring you into new growth for you, for your relationships, for your RUclips and for your other business ventures. Your personal and private relationship with God is so necessary to be able to pour into the things that He's called you to do. Don't let any mere human steer you away from God's wisdom.
Also, I want to add that although you may be in a season where you don't feel fulfilled, don't think that God wants you to remain in that place and also know that feelings don't equal reality. You may FEEL like you aren't fulfilled but we know as TRUTH that in His presence there is fullness of joy, and at His right hand are pleasures forevermore (Ps 16:11). The devil will persuade you to lean on your feelings and not on God's truth. God does care that you feel down, not in a way to shame you but in a way where He desires to be your source. He desires for you to receive all that He has for you, and not be discouraged by wavering feelings, people or situations. He cares about your ability to handle them and He cares to align them with His perfect will for your life. So yes, this may be a season you FEEL certain ways but it's also a season for you to dwell on the TRUTH of God's Word.
So continue to do what you're already doing by growing in your relationship with God but also recognise that through that process you are allowing Him to bring you to a new understanding of His ability to transform your heart to a heart of faith, not of fear. Understand that your identity in Christ is one of joy, peace, passion and fulfilment. Praying for you sis and I'm so hopeful for where God is taking you
Thanks for sharing that, Kian! It's nice to know that I'm not in this alone, + I loved how you stated that God has us in every season for a purpose. So so good!!! Praying for you🤍
Hahah when you talk in the car about breakfast. I wouldn't be able to do anything on an empty stomach in the morning, and also I start feeling sick if I don't get to eat breakfast. But everyone works different :)
I hope you read this! I have been struggling a lot too lately, just remember you are never alone💕 I’m going through a season of feeling off but not knowing why and it is so difficult...
Hunny you are so loved by our Father. I encourage you to keep looking up to heaven, and interact with us WHEN you feel ready.
I lift my eyes to the hills where does my help come from my help comes from the Lord.
I can't even tell you how much I relate to this. I also feel this underlying sadness. The way you talked about how God is okay with you being there and going through this really spoke to me. Sending you love 💛
I know I’m a little late to this video, but I think I is God’s perfect timing. I am going through a season right now where I just feel really frustrated a lot of the time. I haven’t really known why. But I’m literally in tears at the reminder that I haven’t done anything wrong, God knows where I’m at, and it’s ok that I am where I am.😭🙌🏻
Kian, thank you for being vulnerable with us ❤️
I’m in the same situation right now as you are, struggling with life and honestly I feel like many Christians go through this nowadays even stronger
God is planning something big and we all have to trust his work😊❤️ update maybe once you feel better?❤️❤️❤️
I always love your honesty and vulnerability. Genuineness is key and I really appreciate it. Its definitely something I strive to do on channel too. Thanks girl.♡♡
Hello Kian. Thank you for your honest openness. I've learned that when I feel pulled down, it's mostly a result of believing certain lies that the devil is always diligent in telling me. It has helped me a lot to keep a book in which I write down these lies that I believe in. Then I study these subjects in the Bible or listen to good sermons and write down whatever the Biblical answer is to them. Every time I'm down, I read this book. Even better is it to memorise this bible verses to be able to have this right answer in your thoughts each time, when those lies come up again (Just like Jesus did when he was tempted). It is clear that when the Holy Spirit exposes a sin in my life to me, that I will clean it up. But if that's not the case, then there are lies I believe in. This is a spiritual battle. We are constantly being attacked. Dr. Neal T. Andreson explains the subject of spiritual warfare very well. Jesus is already the winner! We are not alone! We are on the winning side! 🥰
I’m in a similar season right now and can completely relate. It can feel pretty discouraging. Know you have a sister In Christ praying for you! Let’s keep fighting for our joy ❤️
Kian you may not know it but your growth and platform is so inspiring. You rawness is what sets you apart. I love your videos and know Jesus is working through you to help others like me.🙏🏽🤍
You took your dog to Church! That's so amazing! Now I want to do the same hehe.
This might be long and I don't know if you'll ever see this...
When you were talking about people jumping to conclusions Job came Tony mind how everyone had an opinion and told him he was doing something wrong. But in reality Job was just being attacked by the devil so he could stumble.
I think it is good to read the book of Job and see how Job overcame this. There is something in the bible for every situation. I pray God restores your mental health and that you will be filled with joy and strength. 🤗🤗 God is with you and there is good in every situation.
you’ll be okay just keep trusting trusting God He has more and more plans for you. ❤️ thank you for being an inspiration ✨
Girl you are so blessed💜💜💜 thank you for your honesty and humility. Anyone that questions the content you make needs to understand that as a child of God, EVERY video you make is faith related content. Every video you make is God filled because you are filled by him 💜💜💜
I listened to a sermon today that talked about how if you can talk about something, then God can change it. Love you 💗 praying for you!
Just prayed for you and will keep praying ❤️Jesus is gentle and lowly at heart :)
Praying for you Kian 🙏!!! Praying for breakthrough and supernatural joy to overwhelm you in this season and for any heaviness to break off in Jesus name! The Lord's got you right in the palm of His hand. Remember, His thoughts about you are ALL that matter!! ❤
I had this kind of depression, deep thing on my heart too and didn't knew exactly what it was and why I've had this feeling.
So I decided to spend more time with Jesus to pray more and more and the depression it's gone now thank God 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️.
So this is what helped me : going deeper in the relationship with Jesus.
I feel you girl, my biggest problem is when I struggle, I REALLY struggle, and I will struggle in all areas of my life. Your videos always make me feel better about feeling like my best doesn’t always feel like enough, and remind me that I need to lean into him more and trust he’s helping me where I need it even if I don’t know it yet.
I love you, your honesty, and transparency! Thank you for sharing
I’m confused with you saying God wants you in this sad place :( I truly mean this in the kindest, non-judgmental way because I have totally been here. I sort of understand why you think that He wants you in this low place when I try to put myself in a different mindset, as I’ve gone through rough times myself… and, yes, we grow through what we go through, but it sounds more like the enemy is attacking and doing everything to keep you in this place. We all go through dark times but God wants to pull us out, not keep us there. Praying 🤍 We know He will help you get out of this!
I find it interesting how people automatically affiliate hardship with the enemy. Do you think that God's will for us is happiness? Look at Jesus' life. We are still on Earth, not in Heaven.
This is interesting, I get both sides. For me, I believe God does allow us to step into hard times and face battles but he's not just doing nothing, His spirit is with us and gives us strength to endure these times and all to make us STRONGER. Stronger in our faith, more intimately closer to him, and really getting to know Him and all His glory. God causes all things the enemy meant for harm for good. The enemy is the one attacking and making you feel negative emotions and thoughts, but take heart because he has overcome the world! He is with us always! easier said than done but don't give up, God is Good always even when you don't hear or feel him there with you! The more we grow in faith the more we can actually rejoice in our weaknesses and difficulties because when we are weak then we are strong, thanks to Him.
@@cassiekray exactly! Look at the scripture in philippians 1:29
For it has been granted to you for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake.
We are not supposed to be surprised at trials as if something strange were happening to us. We live in a broken fallen world and we are broken people. Yes life has blessings along the way but Jesus said in this life you will have trouble but take heart I have overcome the world!
@@ItsJanelleD exactly
@@lynseyyurkewich1403 exactly
Spiritual warfare sister. Talk with someone strong in the Word about what you’re experiencing. Research spiritual warfare. Praying for you. The enemy is already defeated. You have the authority in you through Christ to shut it down ❤️
How are you doing 😊😊👋👋😊
I love watching how authentic and so open you are. I want to encourage you to continue on your journey, however, you are being led. As you talked I was thinking maybe you're going through a stage of grief. With all that's going on with you, have you dealt with the changes that are happening at present in your life and around you? I want to encourage you in your season to seek joy in any situation however little. To dance to worship even when you don't feel it. All the best as you maneuver through your season and rediscover yourself again.
Omg, thank you for sharing your mental health struggles. It was just what my heart needed to hear. Thank you for your perspective. 💛
Hi Kian, I’ve just started reading the book “out of the cave” by Chris Hodges and would highly recommend it. He talks about Elijah’s life and what we can learn from his struggles, as well as his own experience with depression
God bless you, u seams much happier in the end of the video , thank you for open up It gives everyone freedom , we all struggle no one in perfect faith because of that we need Jesus Grace everyday .
I’m sorry if I think something not right
And for God obedience what He Is looking for, I kept hearing this msg from different pastors this last months
So you are Ok are in the right path because you are obeying the Lord 🌼
And He will use you after this season
To help others, what happened in our life it’s not about us, it’s about people
And our spiritual growth
I’m exciting to see and hear what did you learn 💖
Thank you for sharing your days with us
U r so nice and loving and honest
Have a lovely weekend 🌷
Love you and your honesty. Don’t listen to the ungodly comments. Praying God helps you overcome any anxiety or depressed feelings, and helps you understand what He is trying to teach you in this season. ❤️❤️❤️
I am having the same problems.. I could really use some prayers. I’ll be praying for y’all!♥️🙏🏻
The enemy is attacking but remain in the armor of God. 💗
listen love as someone who just got out of a week of just a super confusing and foggy valley and low time i can say that it one hundred percent will come to pass and your relationship with God is purely your own and you don’t have to answer to anyone about that. i struggled so hard feeling like i had to prove it to OTHERS that i was in love with the Lord and i put on this image of what i THOUGHT was a “perfect christian” but christians struggle too! God meets us right where we are and isn’t surprised by it when we reach a low because sometimes He puts us there or allows us to walk through there because HE KNOWS what’s waiting at the other end of it. i really hope you get to read this and keep strong in that confidence that the Lord IS good and IS by your side in this and that shame is nothing but an attack love. love you so much sis and praying for sure 💜
I needed to hear this 🥺
Hi Kian! I used to battle a lot of anxiety and depression but what I realized is that I’m a feeler meaning I sense things in the spiritual atmosphere. So I had to learn to differentiate what was mine and what was something in the atmosphere. I’d encourage that every time you feel that heaviness to release the presence of God and his peace into the atmosphere. You have authority to change the atmosphere! Love your channel ❤️ blessings
Kian!!!! I need more info on the tent.. I have decided I need one! Praying for you sis! God loves you and so do I! You’re an inspiration to so many!
How are you doing 😊😊👋👋😊
For anyone who will read this and is or wants to attend church - it is most important to attend a church that is biblically sound and preaching Jesus Christ Crucified. If your church is only singing music and talking about how great and cool Jesus is, it is not preaching the gospel. We as sinners need to hear that we ARE sinners and that Jesus died a horrific death to save us.
This is really true!!
Kian I have been going through the exact same thing recently! But the enemy comes after you when God is working in your life, I will keep you in my prayers for sure!💗
The big heart of the screen to cover him up 😂😂😂 love now you two are so much fun together 💕
Love i Sista, You're growing!!!😘
Great video.
Amen. Do what God is calling you to do in this season!
Sometimes I feel that I need to pull away, like in seasons of transition or stretching. You're fine as long as you're with God and being obedient. 👌🏽
Remember the GPS saying that God sometimes is seemingly quiet when we are just obedient, like the GPS doesn't have to say each turn all at once; neither does God. Keep trusting him! 😊
I'm praying for you and your family. Love to you all!❤🙏🏽
An advice toward depression and negative thoughts, lately I have listened to a song called "headspace" by Riley Clemmons. She is christian singer and I think her songs always fits the seasons I go through, so maybe you will notice the same.
Thank you for your honesty and your obedience. This helped me in my own walk with Christ. Keep fighting your fight and loving Jesus ♥️
I really felt the same way. It was about a month ago, I always was upset and I was stressed because of school and I didn’t notice until I asked my boyfriend why he seemed upset a lot and that it just it felt different with us. He told me that he felt I was always upset and stressed not about him, but about everything else and I took it out on him. I prayed and prayed for months because I felt sadness but I didn’t notice that other people saw it too. I didn’t have that self control that I needed, but I kept practicing, reading my Bible, and praying to get through whatever I was feeling. I feel so much better, closer to God, in the mood that would shine my light through others. Praying more and more to God and telling Him how I feel and wandering why I felt like that and knew that I shouldn’t. He really helped me get through that bump in the road that I though was leading my thought else where. He helped my back on His path. I’m praying for you!!
Anyone would feel overwhelmed having so many people speak into their lives. It just sounds like you need a time to quiet all other voices and listen to God.
I so appreciate you being real and authentic and true to you, your marriage and God. Thank you and I’m praying you ❤️
You’re so open and real about things wow, I wanna have a friend just like you! You remind me of an old friend of mine in the best way!! May God bless you💗
I was just watching another one of your videos and boom another one!! You're absolutely amazing and I appreciate your vulnerability with us! Its amazing, you're amazing!
Thanks for sharing Kian. I can relate to the heaviness you feel. When I get into a depressive stump I find that what helps is prayer and fast. I take a break from social media and focus on the Word and my identity in God.
KIANNNN. do not ever let anyone who has no insight into your personal spiritual walk with God judge you for things that they honestly don't know about. While RUclips is your ministry, (and you do a very good job at it, might i add) He knows that your mental/spiritual state comes before those other things. Praying for you. ♥️ also, about the spirit of heaviness...that is something I can totally relate to. But just never forget that He made you and called you for a purpose, and i know that it's much easier said than done, but on your dark days, always remember why you're put here and keep your head above the waves!! Love you Guys God bless. ♥️
Thank you for sharing!! You are under promise so the processes won't be easy like you said. God's got you!!❣️❣️
This is exactlyyyyy how I have been feeling lately and like you said, if God could change it in an instant, He could He would. I believe I am in a growing season and in growing there is growing pains. Praying for you, Kian. 🤍 Gods got us.
Hi Kian I watched this video and all I can say is that I see The lord Jesus all in this video in your attitude in your honesty in your transparency you might not see it but we all see it. Much love ❤️
Kian i want to share this verse with you “Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy.”
Psalms 126:5 NLT
Also i do believe all this is so you can come out the other end not only stronger and Hodly character built, but to be a blessing with your testimonies 🙌🏻
Thank you for sharing and being raw! I’ve been struggling mentally too. God put it on my heart to “overcome” this year. I have so much pain and trauma that I’ve been avoiding, but like you said he needs us to be in this season to speak into it! Praying for you and anyone else feeling the same. God bless you all 💛🤍
Thank you for being so vulnerable in this video. I recently went through something similar to this concerning the Baptist Student Ministry (BSM) I was in a leadership with. I had to step down because it was my Senior year and I graduated this past May with a BA in Theology and a BA in Business Leadership. I was under a lot of stress because shortly after my graduation I am heading off to a new city to get my MA in Biblical Counselling, and it's my first big move away from home. I'm working on getting my license and working to save up money to pay for school. Long story short, the leadership believed that since I mentioned I wanted to go into Pastoral Ministry I would be 100% all-in to talk about Jesus to anyone on the street all the time, anytime. We did a few local mission trips due to COVID restrictions and I learned the importance of missionaries, but also that I am not called to be a missionary. To anyone who is called to that office of ministry I applaud you and I pray more power to you. For me, I prefer going to Seminary to gain more knowledge to properly lead a church in a way that is Biblical and so I could "study to show myself approved by God." This wasn't taken very well by the BSM leadership and they said to my face, "Oh, so you believe God can't use you until you get a degree...you probably got that was the book 2nd Opinions." I genuinely felt and still feel called to Seminary and I have no problem talking to someone about Jesus, you just won't see me out on the streets like the typical evangelist. I would rather build a relationship with someone over the course of months or even years, and get to know them as a person before shoving Jesus down their throat within a 15-minute conversation having just met them on the street and I barely got their name and how long they've lived in their neighbourhood.
All this is to say, I've been hurt and since December of 2020 or January of 2021 (around those times) up to present day I am still healing mentally and spiritually. This also is not to mention that my mental health was completely invalidated even though I've been through 4 counsellors in the past 3 years, and have found out two devastating diagnoses of which have no cure nor medication to help. So, I am trying to get better and I know spending time with God daily is important, as well as, prayer being an active part in your life, etc. I've just felt burnt out and while I am actively spending time with God now and praying, slowly but surely, like you I believe God is totally fine with me being where I'm at right now. If He wanted to change my heart in an instant He could do that at the wink of His eye or snap of His finger. However, unlike the BSM leadership, He has chosen to sit with me as I sit in this chaos and that is the most comforting thing I've ever experienced in the 6 years (at the time of writing this) I've been following the Lord faithfully.
Thank you so much for helping me realise I am not alone in feeling this way, and God bless.
I just discovered Kelly Stamps too....I LOVE HER...I'm binge watching her vids now lol. I'm officially a member of the Stampede
Sending love and blessings your way Kian. I appreciate your honesty so much and felt so much on my heart when I listened to you speak about being obedient despite how it looks to others and it gave me confirmation. So THANK YOU for being obedient and setting such a wonderful example. Praying for your anxiety 🙏 ♥️♥️♥️🤍
That's so real about focusing on one God-given ministry as He calls us to! Keep being led by Him, don't worry about the comments :)
Hey Kian, just letting you know that I am about to go on a worship walk and will be praying for you
Hi, I could feel your heaviness as you spoke and I'm empathizing with you. I just read John 11 and I learnt something new today. Martha knew Jesus the healer but she did not know Jesus the resurrecter and Jesus wanted to introduce her and the people around to that side of him, that's why he let Lazarus die. I can see how much you love and trust God and I feel like he's allowing certain things you're going through so that you will come to know a deeper side of him. God bless you. Thank you for sharing🤍
Gorgeous lady, thank you for your honesty x
Kian, I STRONGLY recommend you see a counselor, and so does Kyle. You are in a very stressful stage of life/situation and I think you need extra support. You can go to a counselor, be in prayer against attacks, and even be on meds. Theres such a fear in our christian culture to not use meds or go to a counselor, but it's not scripture-based!!!!!
Your move, finances and young marriage sound stressful!!!
Can I ask what you mean when you say that meds and counseling are not Scripture based? Thanks! God bless.
@@jennifert5120 I read it as the fear of meds and counseling are not scripture based
@@carolinewalker1893 to clarify I am saying you can use scripture, counseling and meds. does this make more sense?
I love how you said that He wants you to go through it because He’s preparing you. I’ve never been able to put it that way even though I know something good comes out of the struggle! So you you explained it literally perfectly. But I am praying for you girl! 💗
I have seen God’s hand in times when I have experienced anxiety and depression. I was able to support family and friends who live with those types of struggles. I saw how God allowed me to experience something that could be a blessing to others. Continue in faith and God can do the same. ❤️
How are you doing 😊👋👋😊
I’m doing well, thank you.
@@rachelhaskin5558 Where are you from if i may ask?
CA
@@rachelhaskin5558 I'm from key West Florida
God is making you stronger. Don't give up!
Hey Kian just want to say thank you for all you do. I love you and may God continue to bless you and fill you up with so much joy that anxiety will be kicked out the door and that things will only get better for you mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually.💗💖💗
You’re honestly so beautiful when you wake up 😍😍😍
It's important to remember that at the end of the day, your personal relationship with G-d is the most important thing for your mental and spiritual growth. There's a time and season for everything and G-d will look out for your best interests. I know the feeling of having a heavy heart and sometimes there really isn't a reason for it, but this experience, while it will be rough, will grow you as a person and your trust in G-d that's he's got you will make your faith in him stronger. Prayers to HaShem that you will begin feeling r'fu-ah sh'lei-mah, a recovery from this mental depression.
Those tent things are so awesome!
i have struggled with my mental health for years, and the main thing i've learned from it is that i have to cling to God and trust in Him through all of it. like you said, there's purpose in this. you might not feel happy all the time, but no matter how you feel you can still make a conscious decision to believe that He is good and awesome and He is carrying you through all of this. keep praying, I'm praying for you too 🙏🏼 reading the book of Job was also a HUGE help for me when i was at my lowest. all of the storms i went through have turned out to be the greatest blessings.
This was so good to hear, been experiencing the same thing and it’s good to hear this coming from a woman of God
Expect people to be entitled to make assumptions about your life because you are sharing some of your life publicly. However you dont have to accept it. Expecting people to be people helps with making the load a bit lighter because you know that someone is going to talk out the side of their face about stuff they don't know about. They dont know you. You don't owe anybody any explanations. Do whatever you need to do to get to a place of light and fulfillment again. God has blessed you with beautiful and supportive family. Just immerse yourself in the positive bits in this difficult season. ❤️
Kian you are loved! Thank you so much for these videos. I'm praying for you. Thank you for sharing this💓💓💓
Those that love you will tell you the truth. I will pray for you I love you so much! Blessings
awww. i miss church. we only do online here in our place bec of covid.
Indeed God will work it out! I think might also help you is prayers to deflect Satan. Because when you’re in a really good spot with God that’s when things start to get difficult with Satan!🙏🏻❤️
You’re following God’s plan for your life, He has made us all so different according to his purpose for each of our lives! This video is a testimony of just that Kian, you’re following God’s plan for your life in this season. As a fellow Christian, that’s SO encouraging!
Keep looking to God above those comments and opinions; He is your source of energy and rest 🤍🤍
Kian i bless you in the name of Jesus you and your husband your family. The lord will deliver you and your enemies will have no power over you.
In Jesus name I pray Amen 🙏 🙌
I am sad and burdened too, I have bipolar. I often leave church because of anxiety. :(
Hi Kian! I’ve been feeling so similar to the way you described and as you mentioned your current season I was reminded of a song by Hillsong Worship that has carried me through called, “Seasons”. I hope this song will help affirm that God does indeed bring us through various seasons but that HE never changes! You’re not alone; thank you for being so transparent! Praying for you ♥️
- Kayla